" sometimes, the person who tries to keep everyone happy is the most
lonely person. So never leave them alone because they will never say
that they need you "

Depression is not an act. Eating disorders aren't phases.
Suicide isn't a coward's escape. Homosexuality isn't a disease.
Self-harming is not a cry for attention. Stop acting like you.
You know everything.The truth is, you don't know shit.

<sub>"You and me
A madman and his Angel to their final trip
Drifting in a sullen sea, identities
Divided by a tiny line we cannot see
But I can feel your presence right here

Tell me where I've gone
And where are my dreams and my desires?
They just run away
And I sit here with these empty words to tell "</sub>

_{Is this the end I always have been searching for?
The meaning of what we called l i f e ?}

<sub>"I can feel your Spirit falling down in me
I feel your holy wings
Calming down my fears and rage that slowly pass me by

　Now I see . . .
That in this dark surrounding me I will find some pe a c e
And all the truth I needed was right here with me
All the reasons why I lost my soul . . . "</sub>

this is a late happy birthday to a friend

i was talking to my friend cause ,
someone just jump off the 9th floor of her building .
although she was terrified about what she saw ,
we were talking about how much this , unfortunately ,
are not very unusual in here . We just don't see it happen
in our daily routine that often .
she was 17 btw .( the jumper )
seems like it was sort of , well ,
please let me tell this first .
and i hope you all could understand .

no one can judge the weight of someone's suffer .
how much it is too much . For you may be ,
it could be something that television says it's something bigger ,
for someone , it's something everyone look and says ,
" it was just it ??"
but only the person itself know how much does it truly hurt .

btw - i am not saying any of this is right .

the fact is : she was supposed to get into the same college as her girlfriends ,
they were all together , planning everything like it was supposed to .
but only her got off and fail to get into the college they all chose to be together .

what does it mean , our whole world you know ?
describing what is something that for you is everything ,
it's only for you . no one can actually literally understand it .
they should only , may be accept it .
not every one cause , there are a lot of shit heads that seems to know everything .
that feel like they can judge like they will live in her shoes .
like they have been in all situations and only them know what really suffer feels like .
dumbheads assholes .

seems like no one have nothing better to do these days than , judge .
literally judge people lives and choices like the are G.O.D.'s ,
start from the principle that he actually judge .
whatever you believe in . . .
hmmm .
i am saying all of this today cause there will be more out there ,
every fucking day .
and one day someone you know will do it too .
and there is nothing you can do about it .
not after , maybe not even before .
but we can only talk openly about those things and finally get ,
some real true feelings about it .
we can talk and make this something real ,
not something we try to hide from the truth .
make people see how much this affect families ,
friends , colleagues , your mailman . .. whatever .
everyone around you don't care too much to spend
the time you deserve but ,
we don't spend that much time with the ones we love and
they should deserve more too .

so we are careless . i know i am .

- Marie Digby (S p e l l)

Traditional Jews Are Not Zionists