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GEN48- Toya Komura

Sat, 18 May 2013 18:29:58 PDT

I have a thing for feminine men <3
Thank you for the invite mango <3

~~I'LL ADD THE REST TMRW I JUST-- I GOT TOO TIRED OF WRITTING FOR NOW YEAH THATS IT <3~~
DONE~!!

N a m e: Komura, Toya (it's unusual for a guy but it still exists okay )
N a t i o n a l i t y: Japanese
N i c k n a m e:  Ko-Kun, Dream catcher, Dream Boy,
A g e: 18
G e n d e r: Feminine Male
H e i g h t: 5'4"
W e i g h t: 68kg

C a t c h p h r a s e:

     "Never give up on your dreams, reach out and catch them!"

G e n e r at i o n: One

T e a m : E

A p p e a l s:
Toya is someone who goes for what he wants, and gets it 99.9% of the time. Without being spoiled or bribing anyone, he just goes with hard work and determination, while still keeping on a big smile. It makes people want to do the same, motivate them to do better as honest people.

L i k e s / D i s l i k e s:

+ Parkour
+ Dancing to loud music to feel the vibrations of the sound go through his body
+ Innocent playful fun stuff--
+ Food <3 so much delicious foods!
+ Shoe shopping-- no really
+ Having orders to follow
+ Stories and adventures
+ Listning to people sing or play instruments for him <3
+ Souvenirs from Aika (little trinkets in general)

- Papercuts/ stepping on legos/ any tiny injuries he's never had any big injuries==
- People who look down on life
- Mushy foods/ruined dishes
- Reality at most times (likes to believe everything is nice and fluffy and no one ever gets hurt)

P e r s o n a l i t y:

- Toya's biggest obvious personality trait is that he's an achiever. When he sets his mind on something, he can't just quit it. He will do whatever it takes to get it, but he does it in a way that inspires people to work hard and reach for their own goals too. This is why he's known as the dream boy, or the dream catcher, because all he ever does is try and catch dreams.
- His imagination is always running wild with ideas and stories. This is why when he's not busy chasing dreams, he's daydreaming about them. He likes having music to listen to, or people singing for him to relax.
- He gets super passionate about the things he likes or wants, determined to do his best.
-With people though, he's easy going and friendly. It's easy to approach him, also easy to tease him for his gullible and naive nature. He's really innocent at heart, trying to avoid all the complications and drama life has in store for him. ~~Never grow up, dream boy! //sparkles~~
- He will avoid conflict with people, because he likes to see them happy... which is the only thing that can give him trouble when trying to face his goals head on.

~~Ever want to date your gay bestfriend but actually be in a straight relationship? Well here you go. You're welcome.~~

B I O G R A P H Y:

T h e . B e g i n n i n g:

_{Toya's story begins with two young individuals who gave birth to twins: A daughter, and a son. Because they were so young, and unable to care for one child, let alone two, Toya and his sister were put up for adoption. They stayed together for a while, because no family wanted to adopt two children. Soon enough, the adoption agency they were at decided to seperate them, so that two couples could have the children they wanted. This is where Toya met his new family.

His adoptive mother was kind and gentle, always speaking in a calm tone and wearing a sweet smile. She worked as a popular solo artist, always singing and playing on her piano. Toya's adoptive father, on the other hand, was a loud mouth, always laughing and having a good time. He worked as a dance choreographer for some of the most well known and popular japanese boy bands in japan. They lived in quite a luxurious home, and money was never a problem.

Because of his parents careers, Toya grew up appreciating the musical arts. He was always reaching for the stars, always trying to improve and reach the goals he set for himself. His mother taught him all the tricks on how to project his voice, hit notes perfectly, even play a little piano. His true passion though, was for dancing. His father made him his number one pupil, and sometimes he even got to attend the classes his father held. This got him more popularity in school, even got him a long lasting relationship with a pretty girl.}

A . S i s t e r . N e v e r . F o r g o t t e n: _{Toya was always told he had a twin sister, Aika, but he was too young to remember details from the past. One day, when he was older, he had gotten a package from her in the mail. His parents sat down with him to help him open it. Under the brown wrapping was a beautiful boat inside a glass bottle! It was amazing to look at! His mother helped him read the letter, an amazing story of ships and waves! Then, his father helped him write something back. Most of the time though, his sister didn't even get the letters from moving around so much. Still, she would continue to send him gifts from all the places she visited.

Since that day, Toya would always go home from school all excited to see if Aika had sent a package from her travels. He would open it up to find a souvenir, with a letter attached to it. He would read it over and over again. It always sounded like things right out of a story book! Mystery, danger, treasure, beautiful sceneries..

Toya never had much to write back, nothing seemed really impressive compared to her life. His letters usually repeated the same things: "Got an A+ on that chemistry exam I was studying for!" or "Going to see a movie this weekend with some friends... wish you could come D: " or "Me and my girlfriend went to the mall today, she bought so much clothes!" also "Stepped on a lego, only cried for 10 minutes... #YOLO" to which Aika usually didn't understand much.}

T h e . O r a c l e:
_{One day, Toya's father had a few boys from an upcoming band over at the house. He over heard them talking about auditions for a placed called "the oracle" who were looking for people to start their first generation of idols. He asked his father about it, got a few more details and decided... This was his new dream to catch!!

His parents helped him prepare for the audition, teaching him new things that would put him ahead of the others. He worked hard for it, he wanted to show the world how badly he wanted this.

The day of the audition, he was super nervous! There were around 6000 applicants who all wanted this as much as he did, and some of these people had exceptional potential to make it in the big leagues. He told himself he was one of those people, and he could do this.

When it was his turn to audition, he could tell right away that based off first appearances, the staff of judges weren't very impressed, nor were they giving him much thought. Maybe it was the shortness of his height, maybe it was because he didn't seem like much? Fair enough, they'd seen thousands of people before him and had plenty to go, he wouldn't waste their time. Instead, he was going to prove them all wrong, show them what he was made of.

As the music started, he showed the hours he'd spent training to perfect his dance for this moment, and gave it his all. The judges kept their poker faces at first, but he saw right through them. He had made an impression, and a very good one indeed. In the end of his performance, staff discussed amongst each other before turning back towards him with big smiles.

"Congratulations"}
N o w:
_{It's been 6 months since then, and Toya has been hard at work in the oracle agency. The director has also started recruiting a second generation of idols. With things getting even more competitive now, Toya has to put in twice as much work. He's secretly excited though, because his sister applied and got in for an audition. Now, just to wait and see if they'll accept her... so they can hang out together everyday, face to face.}

A d d i t i o n a l . I n f o.

> His sister Aika (will post link here when chouko is done quq )

> 1/4 of the souvenirs sent to him by Aika are "Cursed" items she buys from strange old merchants--... He just hides them in the back of his closet.

> The dream catcher he wears as his charm is also a gift by Aika. She said it was supposed to ward off evil spirits, and he thought after all the cursed gifts it could be useful... it's been his lucky charm ever since.

> His parents made him take tae kwon do-- Because they were always afraid guys would pick on him-- ~~Call him short, I dare you //kicked nohewon'tcare~~

> His girlfriend of almost 5 years broke up with him a few weeks after he was accepted into the Oracle. The always working, the hours overtime, and the fans put a strain on their relationship. It seemed his whole dream came with a price, and she didn't want to ask him to choose between his dream, and her... ~~oh and [link]~~

> Voice: [link] (the writting on the top at ( 0:05 ) or [link] (1:28-2:05) )

> rp methods: Notes are best for me ;v; and Skype you can ask me for but I'll rarely be on-- AND CHATS ILL TRY CAUSE I LOVE ALL YOUR FACES <333

- ~MangoStickyRice

-Roa-

Wed, 22 May 2013 12:04:17 PDT

second gift to
for being such a nice friend to me :3 ..
many words cant describe how thankful i am to him ^^ so i did this
hope u like it ! i put this as my scrapbook cuz i dont thnk i've done my best on this
enjoy

uh,,,,,

Mon, 20 May 2013 15:01:14 PDT

ignore this is just me being fetishes

Call of the Kitty

Wed, 22 May 2013 04:45:37 PDT

80% of the reason there has been no art from me lately. (The other 20% is because I've been submitting to my mature account.) I've had one good night's sleep in the last week and a half. Just moved my cat into my new place and she's allowed to be inside at night for the first time in her life. Of course that means she lives on my bed... hissing at the other cats in the middle of the night, asking to be fed at 3am, walking on me... It's worse when my significant other is over... do you have any idea how hard it is to sleep between a bipolar cat and a sleep talking/kicking/elbowing all of the above boyfriend...
I'm going to die.

On the bright side I have lost 3.5kg due to being healthy and shit.

BUT I NEED SLEEP.

Wil move to scraps.

SizemoLotus: Hugs!

Sat, 18 May 2013 21:57:35 PDT

A silly thing I did in light of some very non-canon things that have been happening on the Kaiju Combat forums. Me and a few others ( mainly, thanks man!) have taken to looking at a fan pairing of Sizemosaur x DragonLotus (which I've begun to call SizemoLotus). The worst thing is that I really like it.

I don't know the thoughts of most of the official guys, though. ;w;

This is just silliness. DragonLotus may have had a near death experience or just showed up to help. Anyway, Sizemosaur is being a big teddy bear and is very happy to see her.

Anywho, DragonLotus is not my character, let's make that clear, she is a collaboration between Simon Strange, Matt Frank ( ), and Mara ( [link] ).

DragonLotus' profile: [link]

And DragonLotus will be playable in the upcoming game, Kaiju Combat!

Check out the Wiki! [link]

SKETCHADAY 05.20.13

Mon, 20 May 2013 18:41:13 PDT

it's not anything remarkable -- i'm still in school and i don't have the time to do anything too serious!

but i guess, i wanted to shove these in the sketchaday group to show that i'm actually going to be doing this sOBS

these two pictures are important to me -- they sort of... reminded me why i draw?
lately life's been a bit rough -- nothing too bad !! just a whole compilation of things all bunched up really close -- but drawing these made me remember how much drawing helps me cope with whatever may be going on, and gives me a safe space. and now i feel a lot better, even pretty good ;D ! the wonders that art can do, hahaha. life is a pretty great thing u///u even the hard bits!
thank you all for being so patient with me

han up top, abel on the bottom

i'll be responding to msgs later on in the week hahaha i've a lot of work to do!!! love you all ;*

Aquatic Ape Propulsterous

Mon, 20 May 2013 18:22:28 PDT

I guess I've still got primates on the brain--what the Buddhists call "monkey mind"...Actually this one is about 12-13 years overdue, in the sense that it relates to biological siphonic propulsion systems I imagined for the aquatic Chimerapes circa 2000-2001. To wit:

A - Outboard propulsion modules, attached ventrally at the pectorals.

B - Outboard propulsion modules attached dorsally at the upper back.

C - Integral thoracic propulsion system with intake ports at the clavicles. I know it totally looks like I'm ripping off Sarah Taylor or Aaron Beck, but this is actually one of the ideas I was working on 12 or 13 years ago...I think the configuration of the clavicles and trapezius muscles just naturally lends itself to this line of speculative (re-)engineering, if you're trying to integrate jet propulsion on an anthropoid frame.

D - Bad attempt to show the exhaust ports for the integral thoracic propulsion system, which I pictured being a kind of mobile block derived from the latissimus muscle cluster.

E - Another less-than-successful attempt to depict the exit ports, from behind.

F - THIS MONKEY IS NOT FARTING, which is a clarifying statement I never imagined myself having to make about something I'd drawn. This is actually a more successful depiction of the integral clavicle/latissimus siphon system, showing both the intake and exhaust.

G - I was thinking this system could also be used for vocal signalling both in the water and on dry land, as shown here by the agitated Ursullape. *

H - Integral biological siphons situated in a heavily modified, airframe-like lower body. This is basically an excuse for me to turn primates into exotic, Raiden-style jet fighters. In contemporary Tapir Industries terms, I think these designs are "mechanical" enough to be considered potential feral myoborgs or bioborgs rather than chimerical primates.

* I have never seen The Little Mermaid, but the overwhelming quantity of fan art on dA makes knowledge of this character unavoidable.

Will Scrap SOON SOON SOON......

OC: Eulogy

Thu, 23 May 2013 12:11:03 PDT

First off I'd like to say Eulogy is the title of the story/comic, it's been decided! I drew this last night at about 2AM because a song triggered the idea. It also made me start writing it, so I've got a nice little intro and beginning of chapter one. That's exciting!

This picture is supposed to tell a story of the three brothers and their relationship with each other. At first, in the panel with all three, they're happy and close. Devon and Bolt in the top right corner, were like best friends but in the bottom right panel their relationship is completely shattered and they go their seperate ways. The one with just Dally, is him thinking, back to being all alone in this cruel world.

I did it kind of fast, like I said it was 2 AM so I'll more than likely change a lot of this when I colour, but I'm quite happy with it!

Devon, Liam "BOLT", and Dallas "Dally" Choven ©

Nazi! Werepyre! Germany X Reader: Death Woods II

Fri, 17 May 2013 20:23:59 PDT

The super sad beginning, the sexy middle, the sad ending, and the pretty funny resolution make a great lemon, don't you think?

This was originally requested by . But since the story is mine now, I went in a totally different direction! I added Prussia, mixed some werewolf DNA into Germany, mixed dragon and demon DNA into Prussia, and added anal sex, which is exactly what she asked me not to do in the first one!

Also, here are the songs listed:

Title: Momentum
Artist: Masai
Album: Almost Gone (LP)

[link]

Title: @#!*%
Artist: Rammstein
Album: Leibe Ist Für Alle Da (Love Is There For Everyone)

[link]

You can get Rammstein on iTunes, but Masai isn't famous enough to be in there. Download the song by clicking your location and then clicking the music note here:

[link]

Now paste the URL of the video you want to download into the white box on said site.

Save it as an MP3, and drag it into iTunes. Add album art (Save this image: [link] ) by right clicking the song in iTunes, going to album art, and putting that picture in.

Yes, that's how many people don't know how to use iTunes, they need a guide to tell them how to add songs. Seriously. Also, feel free to use OnlineVideoConvert to download as many songs as you want, sometimes people do this not because they want to steal music, but because they love a song but it's not famous enough or something to be on iTunes. Here's a great example of a PERFECT song that isn't available for purchase anywhere on iTunes last time I checked:

[link]

So, enough music rants! What did you guys think of the story?

Also, please thank these people as well as me:

, for originally requesting this.
, for convincing me to make a sequel to this: [link]

My mom called me an "underachiever" last evening. She said she was going to bring home dinner after my little sister Tara's volleyball practice. I come down an hour after she left to find Tara crying on the couch and no food. She said, "I'm so mad that I have two children who are okay with being average!" I said, "Well, good evening to you too, mom. Sorry for coming downstairs." I sat and watched for a bit, then showered and went to bed hungry.

And my friend Maddie has some other friend, and although she likes me too, I mostly feel neglected. She will almost never sit next to me on the bus ride to and from school.

So I included those elements.

AND I AM NOT GOING TO SPEND ANOTHER HOUR OF MY LIFE TRYING TO FIX THE FORMAT VERDAMMIT!!! Don't ask!

IF YOU ARE TOO YOUNG TO READ IT, DO NOT COMMENT SAYING STUFF LIKE, "can you send it 2 me in a note, Silvercross-chan?" IT ONLY FLOODS THE COMMENTS SECTION. NOTE ME SAYING, "Can I please see your lemon "Death Woods" in a note?" AND I WILL SEND IT TO YOU. JUST BE SURE TO COMMENT ON THE ORIGINAL PEICE WITH ANY COMMENTS, QUESTIONS, OR CONCERNS YOU HAVE. IF YOU COMMENT ON THIS PEICE WITH "note plz silver-san i am 2 young!!!111!!!" THEN YOU WILL NOT GET A NOTE AND YOUR COMMENT WILL BE FLAGGED AS SPAM. Thanks.

GyOrgs-Fanart

Tue, 21 May 2013 23:54:33 PDT

This is some fanart for of his characters called the GyOrgs. They are 3 super villains who were created from the blood of heroes in that world and thus have amplified strengths and powers to the originals.

The skull-head one is a skilled fighter and uses a long scythe in battle and seems to be the first of the cloning since he came out rather half-made, is covered in stitches and bandages and has a SKULL for a head (the original guy he was cloned from does not haha). It could also be because he was cloned from the blood of a hero with demon blood, so the cloning process went wrong and he came out rather messed up and undead. He still looks pretty cool though I think! haha

The blond one seems to be a better step up in the cloning process and in terms of strength he is the most brutal of the 3. His red skin and markings are probably traits from his original…who was a feisty character so it makes sense that his clone amplified is a red fiery natured evil villain haha. Besides that row of sharp teeth he also carries a long snake-like tongue (reason for this is unknown). But he will eat anything and if given the chance is prone to eating rotting carcasses and worms as a treat. He’s the self-proclaimed leader of the trio, probably due to his outspoken nature and his brutal fighting skills heh.

The white haired one was the last one and he is said to be the most dangerous because he is extremely intelligent and a very skilled fighter. Out of the three, he came out a perfect and better copy than his original and he believes himself to be a flawless being better than anything else. Very serious and unemotional he is constantly thinking and has the ability to create matter with the power of his mind by compounding atoms at his will. Truly a bad guy you don’t want to meet haha.

Anyways, I should note that these are old characters from a dead story he made back in 99' but I liked the depth of the characters enough to want to draw them so I did, simple as that haha

Art by me (Comick)
GyOrgs (c) G3no. see the originals here:

I Gave You My Heart

Sun, 19 May 2013 03:46:27 PDT

and you didn't accepted it.

_{so yeah i'm kinda drepressed because of a dumb thing. yeah i'm not happy as always, wanna know why? well the story it's so dumb and you're gonna tell me : ''OMG, YOU'RE A DRAMA QUEEN!!1!1'' and that, so yeah if you don't wanna know why i'm like this, then don't read this.

so there's a boy on my class he's so cute and cool person [A.K.A, my crush <3], but yeah i just discovered that he likes one of my bff's he talks alot with her, always laughing with her and that, so, i'm depressed 'cause i'm so f*cking ugly and he will never like me, he rarely talks to me, also he's now friends with a freaking bitch!, my ex bff [she changed me for another person] and they seriously talk alot!, [but yeah lol now he doesn't talk to her ] and i'm seriously jealous ;; somebody help me
so don't worry about this ;u;, i just wanna told to someone else what is happening with me right now, and so when i started writing this i felt better <3

byebyebye<33

ahh i fell weird telling my feelings here ;v;}

PS:also haha it's not that bad, i think that this is just a temporaly crush, but it kinda hurts to me xD

EDIT: lol haha i have to accept that this is to exaggerated, i'm
TOO
young to love someone!, so i just think that hahah this is obviously a temporal crush [but also he's going to leave the school in a month ]

AT: Free!AshKou

Mon, 20 May 2013 07:11:15 PDT

Arttrade with who requested homo swimming anime theme.
I still can't colour and I tried different stuff (weep thank you Anvi for trying to save me) to make it look super awesome cool but in the end it looked so plain that I just dumped random text and brushes to give a.. Free!-ish feeling........... o|--<
Sorry for my fail I TRIED
At first I only wanted to stash this but you know what I need to look at my shit to feel how bad I am so I can improve so there. pf

~~And sorry Amie for being such a bad friend, I'll be back to normal sometime I hope orz~~

Giant Ax Dump

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:38:23 PDT

What better way to celebrate the ax'ranthael revival than to make a dump of all my art of the outdated design? It's actually kind of a relief to not have this stuff lying around in my WIP folder anymore. Though I am kinda miffed that I never ended up posting that reference of Hesper. That thing was frickin' completed! And now I have to start all over. XD

Top left The Hesper reference, done up from the old ax reference Onyx posted. It's finished, but still pretty dang old so she may look nothing like this when I'm through with her this time around. Okay, well her color scheme and all that will be the same, but details and markings will be changed.
Top right A very old sketch I did at some point in class of Hesper and her papa Polaris meeting for the first time in several decades because of a plot I was gonna do with the Zodiac. Sketch might be kinda hard to see. Sorry.
Middle left A doodle I did just now of the new ax design because blank space bothers me. It got a little out of hand and now kinda takes up a tad too much space.
Middle right Hesper trippin' on some accip or just generally being a dork. The sketches for this and the ax on the bottom left were done by ~Onyxwings and I inked 'em and turned 'em in to my characters. With Onyx's blessing, of course.
Bottom left A character named Situla, Hesper's niece. Daughter of Hes's sister Bellatrix and this handsome fella. She's shy and quiet and her momma's kinda disappointed that she's doesn't seem to be one bit Zodiac clan - not her appearance, not her personality, nothing. This drawing's from before she officially joined a clan but now she's a bit older and is in the Romanov clan with her dad.
Bottom middle Another stupid filler doodle.
Bottom right Design for Polaris's human form. He's a grumpy fella, and somewhat prematurely aged by the stress of being the Lead Warrior of the Zodiac clan like his father before him.

Ax'ranthael, original Hesper and Situla sketches (c) ~Onyxwings
Characters, the rest of the artwork (c) me.

I Should've

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:12:58 PDT

I sometimes wish I did go through with what I was about to do 3 years ago.
I was 15, going on 16, year's old at the time.
Of course I was going through the typical teen moment when one just can't handle life anymore because of stupid reasons..most of the time that is.
Mine was a stupid reason though, not even going to say what it was; hardly even remember anymore.

I always feel this way though whenever I feel down and depressed and just hating life.
My life has been easy, sure, but never entirely fair socially.

I've had a total of 5 girlfriends before in my life and they all pretty much went down the toilet.
My first gf was freshman year, it was the beginning of the year and I felt like I needed to get myself out in life and try to find a partner for myself.
I'll just say...she was pretty awful; starting drama, lying, etc.. She was my first and only real gf that I had in person.

My second was an online one, we were on and off a lot for about a year to a year and a half..don't really remember the exact time length.
She and I had a pretty good relationship, but then I just didn't feel the same towards her so I broke it off. Having to feel guilty and somehow thought I regained my feelings I went back to her, and this happened about 6-7 times over the year and a half we dated/known each other.

My third and fourth were also online, but they only lasted a mere 6-7 days equally. It was because of another guy and stupid, lame excused reasons for both of them. Being the over-emotional faggot that I am, I was of course upset and made the matters worse and just caused huge tension between us. For both of them, we never talk that much anymore.

My fifth and most recent gf was also online and probably the only one I would consider to be the most real and best relationship I've had. We just kinda met through mutual friends and then I eventually approached her and asked her out. We went out for about 2 months I believe before she broke it up with me because of (in my opinion) stupid reasons and yet, another guy.

After that I thought I'd never find anyone again without being heart broken.

Yet there was this friend I had known for a long time, longer than even my second gf to date. Last year, she and I began to "like" each other. However, I made the mistake of trying to move in on her while she had a boyfriend. Even then, we both liked each other. Being the immature, blind, mindless child that I am/was, I moved too quickly and caused more tension between us and her bf. Eventually, we just ended up not talking anymore for a few months because of an argument but then reconnected again and apologized; it was a pretty stupid argument to be honest.

Awhile after my recent gf's break-up, we started talking more and more again as if it was an everyday thing. Soon later I had realized my feelings that I had a year ago again and sought them out more. However, I was still having my options open so I wasn't being so entirely dedicated. I still had feelings for her, but even then she still had her bf with her so I kept my options open..regardless of how I truly felt.

Up until a few months ago, I admitted my love for her because I soon came to see that I was literally in love with this girl. She still was with her bf and even when I tried making a move when I thought I had a chance, it only caused more problems yet again. Without really getting into detail, a shit ton of drama has happened over the course of these past months. I have been getting depressed and upset a lot more because I didn't want to lose this girl.

She is the most important girl in my life now, and even now when she believes that I'd be happier and would have a better life without her in it, I still don't believe that I really will regardless of my feelings. I do see her point and side of things, but it just doesn't seem like it will work..I'm afraid of being more unhappy and depressed than ever before.

She always made me happy, she was the only one I really could talk to, she was the only one that wanted to talk with me and play games with me and just simply have a good time almost every day. I really relied on her friendship and love. We did love each other, but I knew my love was more than hers would be.

So yes, the reason behind this drawing is because of relationships. Silly, childish issues here and there; but also more serious ones around too..

Reason why I feel suicidal? Well, I'm just sick of losing the ones I love and care for over other guys, drama, and just myself. Most of the time it is my fault, I will admit to that, but I don't deserve to be alone and constantly losing the ones I love because I get too attached, emotional, angry, defensive, misunderstanding, etc.

I feel like I should just end my life already so many times because I'm just sick of feeling like shit because things just don't go my way. Yeah, I know it's a stupid and childish reason to feel like killing myself, but the way I am and the way I feel my own emotions, I just can't help but to feel this way.

I'm just always unhappy because I always lose the ones I love, regardless of the negativity that was already occurring during our time in the relationship or friendship. Even with all the negativity, I was still happy I had someone there for me to actually care and listen to me in the end. However, I get really unhappy knowing that I'll also not be having things set MY way for once.

No matter how immoral things may appear, no matter how selfish I seem, no matter what I do to even get to the points of where I am and was, no matter what I had/have to do to reach my goal to just achieve that one moment in my life where I did something for myself in my life that made me overall: happy.

I hate where I am in life.
I hate how much of a loser I see myself and how much of a loser everyone else who knows me well enough sees me.
I hate how I can never get what I want and who I want.
I hate how nothing ever goes right for me.
I hate how that I'm always losing friends because I'm just some faggot that doesn't know how to fucking shut their face once in awhile.
I hate that I'm getting nowhere in my life, and when I finally try to go for something or someone that will change my life for the better, that chance gets fucking taken away from me because I'm just either: not worth it, I'm not good enough, or just too unstable for them to even handle.

I fucking hate myself for so many reasons and every fucking time I think the worst of myself whenever something happens to me, I think back to this day 3 years ago. I think back to the first time I almost actually went through killing myself. I think back to then and wonder: would everyone else that I put shit though be happier without me? Would my life that happened over the past 3-4 years even had made some sort of impact to anyone at all? Would anyone really care that I took my life if I did so now or then?

I keep questioning myself if I even made the right choice or not because of all the bullshit that I've been through and had caused over the years since I attempted to take my life.
Reason why I never really went through with it was because I was scared of the outcome if it didn't work, my dad was on his way in anyway and I didn't want to get caught, and just the fact that I'm terrified of death.

I'm scared shitless when it comes to dying. I don't ever want to die regardless if my life just sucks for me. But I don't want to deal with all this bullshitfuckery because life just doesn't want to give me a break and just let me be fucking happy and STAY happy for once.

I'm just sick and tired of feeling this way and I just want it all to go away..

..But returning to my friend that I fell in love with..because this really has to do with her.
Reason I'm feeling this awful now is because of what happened to the two of us just today and the past few days.

We almost dated. I almost had my chance to prove to her that I can be there for her as a partner in life and be a great guy for her. I wanted to prove that and everything. I asked her out, even when she's already with someone (big no-no, I know already), but I loved her so much and she had lots of feelings for me too. She said "yes," however she was still with him..big mess.

I really don't know why I did what I did, but having her basically change her mind and staying with him was probably the better choice because I'm too much of a mess for her to handle, for anyone I should say. I shouldn't have asked.

But because of how much of an emotional wreck I am, I got upset and didn't see things how she felt. And long story short, we're no longer talking because she feels it's best if I wasn't in her life anymore. I understand how she feels, but it's more complicated than that. Even if I go ahead and find someone new in my life to date and have a nice relationship with, I'll never forget her. I'll never forget how I feel and I will never change how I feel. She was and is my whole world, and even as my best friend, she still meant a shit ton to me and I could never forget her.

Even if I end up killing myself sooner or later, the memories I had while falling in love with her and just having fun talking and hanging out with her will always be in my heart.

But seeing that I won't have my chance to be with her, I don't know what to do now.. Honestly, I'm just at a loss with my life.

I give up on it. I can't handle it. I can't stand it. I don't like how things are going for me.

No matter WHAT I do, nothing ever goes right.

I honestly just want to die so it can be over already, but it still goes against my fears so I can't bring myself to do it..

I don't know what to do anymore.

Help me.

Feel Like Shit

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:16:10 PDT

get upset
get even more upset for feeling upset in the first place
its an endless cycle really

I ruined something that was dear to me
and I haven't been sleeping well lately
and I don't really have any time for myself (which as an introvert, is the worst for me)
I'm being forced into social situations I can't really handle well
Sick of feeling like a third wheel and non-important
Yeah

GH - Physics Homework

Fri, 17 May 2013 16:40:56 PDT

Ira: Well, no one specified if I had to make a roller coaster in real life.

Again me being a smart ass on homework. Welp. Now it's done.

A true story/more kid logic

Tue, 21 May 2013 13:20:20 PDT

Gary was this kinda neat kid from my school around 3rd or 4th grade. One of the weird things about him was that he played Dungeons and Dragons -- nobody else in my school was even interested in it, and of course some of the adults thought it was Satanic, though I'd heard about the game and even seen fantasy miniatures at Sword of the Phoenix, when my family visited Atlanta.

Then one day he didn't show up at school. His appendix had ruptured and he was lucky to be alive. I felt terrible and wanted to do something to help. My parents suggested that Gary was going to be stuck in bed for a while, why not keep him company?

And thus Gary drafted me into my first roleplaying game along with some older kids whose understanding of the rules was a little less vague than mine.

I made a wizard! The only part of the adventure I remember now involved fighting some Amazons in a cave. Our heroes grabbed whatever loot they could, and swung across a bottomless chasm to safety, even as more Amazons showed up and started shooting arrows!

Years later I'm pretty ashamed of the sexism involved. Other players started carrying away captive Amazons with them, so I carried one off, too. I had no idea what you'd do with a captive Amazon warrior - maybe play both chess *and* checkers with her? - but I knew that Vikings carried off women, 'cause I'd seen pictures of that in a book.

Never mind the logic of some bookish strength 8 Magic User carrying a strong, tough, tall woman in full armor. Never mind the logic of some bookish strength 8 MU being able to easily swing across a bottomless chasm carrying anything, let alone an armored Amazon warrior.

Here's kinda how I imagine it looking. Small sketchpad page, so about 3.5 x 5".

Gary moved away a little after that and I wouldn't play Dungeons and Dragons again for another four years. But I was far from done with gaming...

Dream Catcher Elizabeth Close Up: Sketch

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:04:25 PDT

Everything © Me

....yeah I know she looks like my character, Kat Besse from Fill My Heart with Sunshine. That's because this character is being made for the person who was my model for Kat

Daddy and Me

Sun, 19 May 2013 12:25:26 PDT

Suddenly, fan character.
[By the way, she's supposed to be smaller. That's just the skin I made of her.]
Myeh. Short Description of them:

She does not have a name. The only reason she is alive, is because of her "father", being a Wither Skeleton. When he found her, he took the liberty of raising her, and taking care of her. The only way he is able to communicate with her, is the sounds he makes with his bones. As in communication, there are only specific sounds for few things. Such as a call for "Stay Here." or "Don't go too far." Together they live in the Nether, with her, only living off of occasional mushrooms.

Her dress was made out of Zombie Pigman flesh, but since she usually stays anywhere near glowstone, particles are on parts of her body, and all over her dress. She is also covered in coal dust. Mostly because she sometimes rides on her father for transportation.

If somehow in danger, she makes a small, patterned "click" sound with her mouth. Since she cannot use her bones, it's the best she can do. Her "click" sounds are also her way of communicating, just like her "father" with his bones.

Extra:

Although she does not know this, she was supposed to be a Nether mob. She had been accidentally spawned, meaning there might, or might not be any more of her kind. She was emediately removed as a mob because she wasn't very useful for the game. The only "ability" she had, was to light up netherrack wherever she stepped, and dropped glowstone dust. Since the nether already generates fire, she was never realeased officially.

*might add more later

Minecraft belongs to Mojang [Notch]

Charcoal Sketch 019

Sun, 19 May 2013 06:32:08 PDT

I apologize for delaying for so long. There were just too many things for me to do. Now that I am on a week's break to get my head out of work for a while, whenever possible I will try to complete the rest of my charcoal pieces in sequence to upload here.

My 2nd Saiunkoku Monogatari piece-Ryuuki is carrying Shuurei away from the St Andrews Cathedral. Shuurei fell asleep after doing her best to keep Ryuuki's persistent advances at bay for many many days and finally failed. She still thinks Ryuuki likes men more than her.

Took me 1 entire day of drawing just trying to get my magic back after being out of the loop for a few weeks.

Broken Scars and Healed Reminders

Sat, 18 May 2013 10:43:47 PDT

~~I should probably start worrying about file size or something. This is proof that I really don't though.~~

...
I dunno, I just felt the need to post something and pretend I'm being productive. Ignore the title, I didn't want to just call it a sketch dump. //falls over

Ummmm, let's see,
Top row; left to right:
Shiro curled up in the corner of his kitchen (during a current RP, though it's progressed a bit since then)
Example of what Shiro normally wears to bed. I decided to give it a back view to show his tattoo, but I was too lazy to make his tattoo accurate. (Then there's a little doodle of his stomach to show off his stomach scar).
Then we just have Shiro and Grayson hanging out and being bored because rubix cubes are no challenge to either of them.

Bottom row; left to right:
...I have no explanation for this.
Just Shiro squishin' Alterion's cheeks.
The one after that is Fem!Shiro
(blank space)
Shiro is one of Grayson's jackets. ~~The blue stuff is paint.~~
And then a doodle of Nadia, because, why not? ;u;

Grayson (c) *KoumoriChaos
Alterion (c) ~BlueFiresoul
Shiro, Nadia, and art (C) me; *JyleLover924

Zenobia's Heart Chart

Fri, 17 May 2013 12:53:50 PDT

~~Name~~ - Deceased
- Hate/Loathe
- Dislike/Discomfort
- Fear
- Neutral
- Friend
- Close friend/Best friend
- Crush
- Love
- Family

- Mate
- Soulbound

(???) - Kit name not found
(Name) - Kit name found

~~Ross: (???)~~: (Not pictured) /

"I-I can't believe he's gone...I haven't known him for too long but...he was the first cat I ever met...he was so nice...I always loved being around him...Oh spirits I hope he's alright up there...." /cries/

Coral (Curly): /

TBA

Sylvester (???) : /

"Sylvester is a nice cat, and very nice to be with, but..." (TBA)

Maika (???) : /

TBA

Rey (???): /

Not met yet

Palette (???): /

"Palette seems nice enough, so it's safe enough to say that's she an acquaintance."

Wanda (???): //

"I honestly don't know what to do about this Fire Triber. I kind of don't understand why she fears me, but I'm afraid that it'll lead her to give me some problems."

Zarya (Bandit): //

"Zarya is such a sweet and nice cat! I guess I can call her a friend, nothing too close yet, but I'm a bit weary of her since she basically knows my fear. I really hope she doesn't tell any Triber. Although it doesn't seem as though she'll do it, but you never know. I'd like to met her again, though!"

Damek (???): /

"The Light-Triber seems very social, which I like. I'm glad he's not the hostile type. We're currently having a nice chat! I hope by the end he'll be my friend!"

Kakoora (???): //

"Poor tom got lost from his tribe, so of course I helped him back. When we first met, he thought I was a male! It hurt but I let it slide...he could have been stressed out...I don't know. He seems nice, but I'm leaning towards neutral about him. Hopefully I'll get to know him better."

Tylluan (???): /

"The Silver-Shadow...I was really surprised to find him so close to Air-Tribe territory. He looks menacing...I don't know why my body shook...I think I fear him for some reason, maybe because he's bigger than me? No, that can't be it...Maybe because I know he can overtake me?..."

Shenzi (???): /

"Wow...this she-cat is really something. Ever since I came here I've never really been that close to anyone before...but Shenzi and I got to be friends really quick. She's really pretty and nice...I think of her as a younger sister, almost. She's so happy and silly I love being around her! I'm hoping to teach her how to swim!"

Mikah (???): /

"I was trying to get a drink of water, and this tom helped me out, I appreciate it a bunch, and his powers are incredible as well! However, he rambled on about how his powers were basically nothing compared to a Primary cat's powers. Pah! He should be proud of his gifts!"

Lully (???): /

"This tom helped me find shelter for the night when my arm was maimed during my fall. I really owe him one for helping me out! It's safe to say he's a friend."

Blaise (???): //

"Aw no! Another cat that knows my secret! I don't think she'll tell but ehh. Anyways, she's nice though! I'd like to be her friend!"

Kennith (???): /

"This tom is helping me train...but ow! His head man. ;n;"

MiniNova New Costume Design Concept

Sun, 19 May 2013 17:35:36 PDT

MiniNova's second skin with a new spin. This is just the pencil line art, including my new signature logo. I personally love the new, more menacing design to his costume! Shading is next and inks will be applied, then the final touches! Please tell me what you think!

The story with this is it's MiniNova from the original comic, when he grows up and many changes took place in his life, leaving him cold and bitter toward the world. Introverted within himself, he cuts off all mercy and becomes a horrible and unstoppable killing machine. Capable of effortlessly collapsing the universe, MiniNova must choose to be its protector or its undoing.

An intense hatred for the weakness of mortality that he is without the second skin and toward being a victim, he becomes obsessed with the skin's unlimited power. Made of dark matter, anti-matter and several radioactive elements, the suit is its own, never ending power source. With it on, he is invulnerable and capable of flying so fast, the sheer force stops the rotation of the earth. Will he choose to succumb to the lure of ultimate power and cause the destruction of the universe or will he use the power for the greater good?

ALL MATERIALS, CONCEPTS & CHARACTERS COPYRIGHT 2013 MATT STEVANUS
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

Sketches: 9000

Tue, 21 May 2013 08:54:33 PDT

Some sketches of the shiny elgyem 9000 or Jonathan as his mother calls him.
Tell me if you can't see the image XP DA's being wonky.

just a color doodle

Wed, 22 May 2013 09:15:20 PDT

not much to say besides this is just me messing around being bored
if you would like to adopt her just say so

Eh

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:33:35 PDT

Life's no good today.
Not only will the book I need for my essay arrive too late to be used, it also cost me 47$ which I wasted on something I won't have any use of. On top of that my moodswings are worse than ever, along with the levels of stress and anxiety they bring along with schoolwork. My chest hurts 24/7 out of stress and worry and no matter how much or little or close to the norm I sleep i'm always exhausted and uninterested in pretty much everything that goes on around me. I also loathe and despise my art to such a degree that I'm seriously considering to just stop altogether. Funny thing is that drawing is the only thing I'm moderately good at, so without drawing I'm good at nothing at all, which makes me feel like a waste of space and completely useless. This is a bit over the top and dramatic and I'm aware of that, but that's how I feel.
At the same time this makes me feel really guilty too, because not only does this make it impossible to hold civil conversations with my friends without entering a terrible emo-mode and ruining the mood completely, it also feels like I don't have the right to be this depressed over 'nothing'.
I'm ranting but I'm just so sick and tired of absolutely everything. I have tried really hard this year to just go about things normally, but seriously... Fuck it. I might drop out of school. I don't feel like participating in 'everyday life' anymore.
When I get too stressed out my first reaction is to just shut down. It's bad, but I can't do much about it and I can't change it over night. I feel like a terrible and useless human being.

I'll probably get shit for writing this so I'll delete it later.

Ref: Chrysanthe 3925

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:00:16 PDT

Name: Chrysanthe 3925
Nickname: Chry
Registered?: Yes
Gender: Female/Mare
Breed: Pure Nordanner
Age: 5 Years
Height: 15.1 hh
Color: Sooty silver buckskin roan splash
Genotype: Ee/AA/nCr/nR/nZ/nSty/nSpl
Markings: See Above
Eye Color: Blue
Bloodline:
------------------------------------------ SSS: unknown
----------------- SS: Amfortas 416
------------------------------------------ SSD: unknown
Sire: Priscium 2391
------------------------------------------ SDS: unknown
----------------- SD: Natsu No Koi 251
------------------------------------------ SDD: unknown
------------------------------------------ DSS: unknown
----------------- DS: Vesper's Wren 292
------------------------------------------ DSD: unknown
Dam: Arctic Soot 1963
------------------------------------------ DDS: unknown
----------------- DD: Lynette 495 (Deceased)
------------------------------------------ DDD: unknown
___________
Base Personality: Flight Risk: Things can be all dandy, untill something scary catches me eye - and I'm off! Oh, and the scary part depends on my mood, so you never really know what your ride will be like.
Querks 1: Breaths heavily while being worked
Querks 2: Hates other pets, no dogs or cats in my stall
Worst Fear/Spook: Dogs - big barking ones
Herd Mentality: I will kick anyone who gets too close to my tail
Horse vs. Owner/Handler/Rider: Easy to bridle, let me lower my head so you can reach
Favorite Treat: Licorice
____________
Discipline: Halter, some dressage
_____________________________________

Breeding: CLOSED
Restrictions: Pure Nordanner Only
Breeding Price: Full body with background
Breedings:

1) closed
2) closed
3) closed
4) closed
5) closed
6) closed
7) closed
8) closed
9) closed
10) closed

Kaaring Journal:
Kaaring Chrysanthe 3925Name:
Lineage Points: 4pts?
Foal Points: 0pts
(Registration, +1)
- - - - - - - - - - Training (+0)- - - - - - - - - -
- - - - - - - - - - Partial (+0.5)- - - - - - - - - -

- - - - - - - - - - Fullbody + bg (+0)- - - - - - - - - -
- - - - - - - - - - Fullbody no bg (+0) - - - - - - - - - -
- - - - - - - - - - Show Entries (+0)- - - - - - - - - -
Total: 5.5pts?
15 points
30 points
45 points
60 points
:star-empty: :star-empty: :star-empty: :star-empty: :star-empty: 75 points
:trophy: 200 points
:trophy::trophy: 400 points

Original design:

Pokemon Grand Slam - Al

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:24:30 PDT

Hey all I decided to use that pic I just drew of myself in pokemon for a super neato looking group . (hence why this is in scraps, because I feel bad for spamming with litterally the same exact image but differet settings)

TRAINER
Note: while this characters name, age and appearance is based off myself the rest of the profile isn't.
Name: Al
Age: 19
Gender: Female
Personality:
Generally in a pleasant mood. Calm, seems tired a lot. It's like Fern took all of the energy out of her sometimes with how energetic he can be.
History:
For the most part had a normal life. Grew up in a single parent household since her father dissapeared 14 years ago. Was, for the most part a lazy and unemotional girl.
One day while she was walking home she saw a small cardboard box shaking. After investigating further she found a cute little Fennekin.
Al then took him home and soon after the two of them became best friends. It is also at this moment where Al began to smile more and stopped being lazy
Her reason to join the Grand Slam is because Fern wanted to go. He tore down a flyer and handed it to her, all excited and bouncy. It seemed like he really thought it'd be fun to meet other pokemon and trainers.
Ability: Can make any food combust!
Pretty much as it says. She can take any edible item and make it combust into flames by her touch. Controlled for the most part but sometimes it slips (I wouldn't let her take the first piece of birthday cake if I were you)

POKEMON
Name: Fern
Gender: Male
Types: Fire
Personality: Very cheerful and always happy to meet new people. Extremely moody when he's tired.
Item: None (might add something before the group opens but until then it's nothing)

Pokemon belongs to Nintendo
Art and character belong to me

Yu-Gi-Oh shipping meme my pairing opinions

Sat, 18 May 2013 10:27:00 PDT

: N O T E :
I have a right to an opinion. I don't want to receive hate mail or anything like that. As a fellow Yu-Gi-Oh! fan you may feel differently about a certain pairing(s) and I respect that. It's only fair that I ask you to respect mine. Now, I may not have gotten all of the possible pairings. I only went with the ones off of the top of my head.

: O P I N I O N S . E X P L A I N E D :

.Pairings That I Like .
Serenity x Tristian-I absolutely adore this pairing. Tristain has been so nice to Serenity, especially since she's been recovering in the hospital after her surgery. And in a way I can kind of see Tristain and Joey as brothers anyway, so if (hypothetically) Serenity and Tristain was to get hitched, that would prove to be a good family relationship right there. Tristain is all about protecting Serenity when Joey can't and I feel that Serenity would be lucky to have a guy like Tristan around.

Marik x Yami Bakura-OMG Yes! Thiefshipping! My first Yaoi and only yaoi pairing I like in the series. I'll admit, at first I had a distain for theifshipping, but thanks to the quips and innuendos by the brilliant LittleKuriboh I eventually grew to like the pairing and yes, even squee a few times whenever LittleKuriboh would make a few theifshipping remarks. I can just go on and on about it so I'll stop right here. In conclusion: Thiefshipping is win.

Mokuba x Rebecca- Not much to go on here...but I agree with this pairing. I mean, it's adorable when you think about it and in a way I can kind of see them meeting and eventually get into a friendship that grows into a childhood crush then it would progress even further as they get older. That's my take on it.

. Pairings That I Love .
Tea x Yugi/Tea x Yami Yugi -I like both of these pairings. It's true that they're canon anyway, but I just like the thought of it. Yugi is adorable and thanks to Yami, he was able to toughen up a little and have more confidence. Watching this change through Tea's eyes must surely make her see what kind of guy Yugi can be. And when it comes to Yami, Tea's feelings for him were obviously apparent when he had to reunite with the other spirits back in that tomb towards the very end of the series. However, I will say that I feel Tea should pay more attention to Yugi due to his character change from the start of Yu-Gi-Oh to how far he had come through and towards the end of the series. Yami already has the confidence and strength that Yugi didn't. The only thing that really flawed Yami was the lack of sense to not take anything for granted in which Yugi teaches him throughout the series. Not to say that wasn't a needed lesson that Yami needed to be taught, I just feel like Yugi's character change was more drastic and important than Yami's. But either way as long as Tea is with either of them, I'm happy.

. Pairings That I Don't Mind .
Kaiba x Kisara- I am neutral about this pairing, it is canon so of course i'm going to roll with it, but in a way it seems a little sketchy. I mean boy meets girl, girl ends up being the soul of the blue eyes white dragon which then turns into a tablet and eventually card. Doesn't really seem right in a way. But I do kind of like that Kisara is the cause of future kaiba to finally let down his pride and see that there are past lives, that what Yami has been saying is true. And if you do think about it Kaiba does kind of have an abnormal obsession over his blue eyes card. So I'm not against the pairing but it does seem odd to me, that's my way of thinking.

Mana x Yugi/ Mana x Yami Yugi- I know that Mana resembles the Dark Magician Girl, but for some reason I can also see it as a possible past life of Tea's. I don't know why but Mana has that sense of familiarity to me that just screams out "Tea." Upon looking at this pairing, they do make a cute couple (both with Yugi and Yami). But I still kind of like Tea and Yugi/Yami too much to say "I officially like this pairing." So again, I'm pretty neutral about this.

.Pairings That I Don't Like.
Yugi x Rebecca-I can honestly say, I don't really like this pairing. I'm all for Tea and Yugi but Rebecca and Yugi--though they do look cute together--I don't really see very much. I mean, they do have their moments but I see them as more friends or little sister big brother at the most. And besides, Yugi (I'm assuming) is older than Rebecca is despite her maturity. So I don't really like Rebecca and Yugi, but I can see the points some people might have when it comes to supporting this pairing.

Bakura x Yami Bakura- Yeaaah...honestly, I hate any pairings of the split personalities with their hosts. Sure they share a body and mind but...it just seems creepy to me. Like I said with Marik and Yami Bakura, Theifshipping is basically the only yaoi pairing I'm able to tolerate in the series.

Yugi x Yami Yugi- ^Same reason as Bakura x Yami Bakura

Mai x Joey- Okay, I don't care if it's canon, I absolutely can't stand this pairing. Mai was a total bitch towards Joey and Yugi at first. Though her act cleaned up a little bit after the Duelist Kingdom Arc, she totally turned her back on them during the Oricalcos Arc and though it's true she was under the influence of Dartz and the Oricalcos, that still makes me want to snatch her bald. I couldn't stand to watch Joey and the pain he was feeling when she betrayed him. So I say no to this pairing because they just don't really seem to be a good match to me.

Serenity x Duke Devlin-I don't really like this ship because I feel like Duke was just there for Serenity like a friend. I mean, Duke did help Serenity and Tristain when there was need to do so, but did he actually make an attempt to save Serenity the way Tristan has? Heck, even as a robot monkey Tristan was able to be there for Serenity more than Duke. Another reason why I don't really connect Duke with anybody really is because I feel like he was just there, he had become the fifth wheel and was pretty flat as a character.

Duke Devlin x Tristain- Absolutely. Not. That's all I'm saying.

. Pairings That I Hate .
Yami/Yugi x Joey- No. They're just best friends. I see absolutely no romantic chemistry going on there whatsoever.

Kaiba x Joey -God no! The whole puppyshipping thing makes me sick. They're enemies, not a case of sexual tension. That one dream with Joey as a furry and Kaiba was talking down on him was a psychological case of guilt because he had lost to Kaiba and therefore felt incompetent and humiliated. There's nothing going on between them other than pure, unsexualized, rivalry.

Kaiba x Ishizu: Another pairing I cannot stand. Kaiba doesn't like Ishizu because she tries to get him to realize that he had a past life and history was going to repeat himself, but he's stubborn and doesn't want to believe that. There is absolutely no sense of chemistry there that could be interpreted as romantic or sexual tension. I gag at the thought.

Marik/Yami Marik x Ishizu: Incest. Need I say anything more? Seriously, whoever likes that stuff is pretty twisted. And no, Hikaru and Kaoru from Ouran does not count, it was an act to get the ladies.

Yami Marik x Mai: This pairing is definitely sick. He tricked her and put her in the shadow realm. That's like pairing Yugi's Grandpa with Pegasus! .....*shudders* No...happy thoughts, think happy thoughts....

Kaiba x Tea: The thought of Kaiba and Tea together...sends a cold feeling inside my core. Again, the chemistry. Isn't. There.

Yami Yugi/Yugi x Kaiba: Again, like a broken record, they're rivals and nothing more. Besides, I don't see Kaiba going that way any time soon. He's to absorbed with his blue eyes card.

. With an OC/FC .
Joey x Heather- Yes, I self-insert in most of my favorite fandoms, most people do. And I've fell in love with Joey since the show first aired. One thing's for sure, my self insert would be better for him than Mai. My fan character lacks a bit of confidence, is there to cheer her friends on, is loyal and doesn't demean others. Looking up to Joey gives her strength and eventually gives her confidence in herself. That's what I plan to happen in my fanfic (if I ever get inspired to pick it back up again.) I'd like to call this Loyalty Shipping. Any other suggestions, let me know

Kaiba x Shariah- So, Shariah had a rough past. She was born a psychic and her parents died in a car crash, that was her first vision. Since then she had been put in a foster home and jumped from foster parent to foster parent. No one wanted her because they were scared of her abilities. Eventually she was adopted by an elderly woman who runs an at home flower shop. Due to her not being wanted, Shariah assumed that the woman's just going to put her back like the others and did everything she could to push her away. One day when it got so bad that Shariah had grown weak from the overuse of her psychic abilities, the elderly lady held her in her arms and told Shariah that she wasn't going anywhere and that she doesn't care if she had abilities like that. She was going to stay and nothing will change that. Since then, Shariah had helped around the flower shop and found a plant that would help restore her energy when her powers sapped her energy. However, she's still cold towards others and has trust issues. She meets Seto when she sensed the aura of the villain character in my story and asks him to warn Yugi about it. However, as Seto would often do, he denied her abilities and called her a fake. Shariah then used telekenisis to hold him by the collar, but not long after that she collapsed due to earlier use of her power. Later on they meet up and she begins to explain to Kaiba her past once she grows to trust him enough. Kaiba then asked what happens if she uses too much of her power. Her response: "Then I'll die." I'm still coming up with fanshipping names for this. One of them I'm thinking being Stormshipping or Iceshipping. Feel free to toss out suggestions~

Ishizu x Heather- Not in my fanfic, but a slight fantasy I have. Ishizu is attractive and I didn't really begin thinking of her that way until a couple years back. With Heather being the uke type, I can kind of see them in some sort of hot situation.... My fanshipping name for this: Desert Rose Shipping (Yes, after the song by Sting XP ).

. With a Non Listed Character .
Ishizu x Mahaado - A canon pairing from Ishizu's past life. I could totally see the chemistry between the two. Definetly a better pairing than Ishizu and Kaiba in my opinion.

. : D I S C L A I M E R S : .
Base (C) *Shadamy-LucarioX [link]
Yu-Gi-Oh! (C) Kazuki Takahashi and Yu-Gi-Oh!'s affiliates.

Mentioned Fan Characters (C) luckystarXgurl

: C O N C L U S I O N :
Well, that's all for this deviation. Thank you all for putting up with my rants and for throwing some "heck yeah's" at me...(even just a little bit). Please don't hurt me on the way out. Thank you for your time, you are all dismissed!

Kady's being Kady

Sat, 18 May 2013 15:15:10 PDT

KittyKady is gonna kill me

Traced on my cat while she(he) sleeping. I just don't get it, how she's(he) managed to do that on sleep.

Kady (c) ~Skaylina

Anatomy, gotta love it.

Bleh

Tue, 21 May 2013 15:54:54 PDT

i draw when i'm frustrated but then it just makes me more frustrated and before you know it i have to stop being frustrated so i can go eat dinner yay bye guys

This. Is annoying me.

Sun, 19 May 2013 10:03:21 PDT

Yes, that. I've noticed I'm not the only one having this problem, I hope it will be fixed soon.. xD

Look at my cake!

Sun, 19 May 2013 13:20:35 PDT

Omfg look what my parents had printed on my birthday cake!!! Feckin' Hetalia baby!
Hehe... I got to eat France~ ^w^
Luckily no one ate my li'l baby Iggy tho~ ;u;

I also got about twenty more promarkers, a hoodie of England and a Pewdiecry t-shirt, so... Yup! Im pretty happy!
I wish my dad would just stop being so horrible to me... Seriously, usually id be able to laugh too when everyone else laughs at the jokes my dad makes about me. But this time, it almost felt like i was being bullied... Oh well Theyre family, what can you expect?

Soul Silver Trainer Licence

Fri, 17 May 2013 21:54:55 PDT

Just ignore me, being a tease.
(And I reeeeaaaaaallly wanted to do another one of these Trainer ID things)

Also censored the Pokemon name because I don't know if that would be considered spoilery xD
(Even though I'm pretty sure I've told people what Pokemon it was |D)

Template is Petty's, I used this template: [link]

PC wip

Sun, 19 May 2013 11:04:34 PDT

_{Uploading this to make sure it is all right for the person it is being made for.
I am horrible at love scenes, or any scene with more than one character in it. D:

Sorry it has taken so long just to get this much done, i felt it was time to get it over with and quite putting it off. DX

So please, tell me what to add more, what to change, any specific pose you want, what you want taken out/changed, etc.

Sorry again. ;n;}

Dusk

Fri, 17 May 2013 13:18:50 PDT

This is Dusk, my other Neopets OC. She is half faerie and half mutant. Obviously, she's a Korbat. I have my reasons for her combination. She was originally faerie coloured, but was taken by Dr. Sloth and experimented on. She was being mutated when she managed to break free and escape. Now he sends Jericho and hoards of Grundos after her. She is friends with Conker, Lyra, Lucas, and Shade, all who belong to =The-Demihuman She was not easy to draw let me tell you. I kept screwing up on her body.

Should I make a Grundo OC? I really like Grundos.

How's that animation coming along...?

Sun, 19 May 2013 11:18:28 PDT

SMASHING
~~~

So this is a W.I.P of a simple animation test-
These are all the frames in one drawing. XD Over six frames to be exact at the moment. Although when animating you want to start with key frames such as the begging and last frame. And the middle frame. Then just go back in and add the ones in between. Simple as that. ;D

Right now this is just the muzzle, nose, and mouth. And of course the 'window' lines that tell me where the eyes will be placed and where the head is being aimed towards. I try not to add too much detail in the rouge sketch. Way too much to keep up with when you're only looking to get the basis done.

You Bitch!!

Sat, 18 May 2013 14:50:27 PDT

Flash: OH FOR FU--
Frost: Shut up Flash. Being a pony isn't that bad one you get used to it -.-"
Flash: Says you!! Little miss pegacorn! You have magic for pete's sake! All I get are a lousy pair or wings! D8<
Frost: Gotta problem? Go harrass Catherine. Or Jordan. It's those two that put all of us in this mess ¬_¬*
Flash: Can't you just turn me back to normal?
Frost: Maybe if I knew how. But I'm PRETTY sure that any magic I have is element related. Cath didn't just stop you from changing back to normal ya know -.-"
Flash: This sucks.
Frost: Yup. =_="
Flash: ..... It's all your fault >8I
Frost: What? How is it!? Wait... never mind. I'm not dealing with this -.-"
Flash: *Glares at Frost* ......... >8I

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Bases Used:
Frost - [link]
Flash - [link]

This is staying in my scraps unless a couple of people actually want this in my main gallary |'D
Sooooo.... Flash now has his own pony form. Next up - Spirit & Dark!!
Both: DONT. YOU. FUCKING. DARE!!!
Me:

So glad I got something silly done

Bases (c) ~Stratolicious
Flash & Frost (c) Me

My Best Friends

Mon, 20 May 2013 07:38:31 PDT

I decided to draw all my pets u v u (that are alive at least) + haded to add Nik in there cuz he's still really close to my heart
i'm actually a really terrible owner omg

Panda:
Fuck yes i own a horse bet you didn't know that ;_;
I'm not a big fan of them but Panda is just a lil' cutie wow
I never really rode her cuz i'm afraid of heights djiushfuia. i'm leaving that to my half sister.
My dad is planing on selling her and theres really not much i can say about that u_u i rarley see her since i dont live with my dad so he thinks it's best to find her a better home

Piki:
Just a burddd. He was actually given away to my mom's co-worker but i still get to see him pretty often
He was a birthday gift from an old friend

Koko:
Despite my allergies i still love him to death ; v ;
He's really sweet and likes to be on my shoulder all the time
I just wish he wouldnt make me sneeze so much ff

Chapatti:
My belgian tervuren puppy. He's a lil' shit that likes to steal my underwear and eat the dumbest things
i spend my time with him the most<3
Highly trained and a playful pup that likes napping on my bed

Nik:
My low content wolf/malamute hybrid that passed at the age of 13 from poisoning
He was really big and liked to get hugs
Was over protective of me and would do anything to cheer me up if i were upset
I consider him the best friend i've ever had and his passing was really hard to take
Came to me agressive at age 8. Ended up being the sweetest thing~

//scraped

Cornered

Fri, 17 May 2013 23:39:35 PDT

Alright; long description time!
Last night I had a nightmare that Slenderman was stalking (and eventually killed) me. It started when in the dream I began to make vlogs for YouTube. He showed up in every single recorded video. Then I became paranoid, I saw him out of the corner of my eye or felt like I was being watched no matter what I did. Time progressed and I showed more symptoms of Slender Sickness (nosebleeds, coughing fits, seizures, etc.) One night I was on a Skype call with Luke and at the beginning of the call, he ridiculed me for believing in Slenderman, but then I was cornered as I paced around in the bathroom and he appeared in the doorway. The call was breaking up; Luke heard heavy static coupled with my cut screaming. He shouted my name and cried until the call was disconnected and I was murdered in my bathroom by Slender.

Then in a sort of epilogue, I saw a local newspaper with one of the inside stories written "Thirteen year old Gwyneth Lovelace of Wesley Chapel was found dead in her bathroom drowned in her own blood last Friday. Detectives interviewing her family report that she claims to have seen a tall, faceless man weeks to a month before her suicide, accompanied by abnormal behaviors."

I'm putting this in my scraps because the anatomy isn't great, it was uploaded via iPhone, and it isn't as scary as I hoped for.

Nostromo PS CS6 layout +

Mon, 20 May 2013 05:20:59 PDT

Just learned that the Nostromo had a driver released to make it Mac compatible.
Saw this little baby months ago when i went to get CS6 but left it behind cuz the package was saying it had no Mac compatibility. Wish i had done some research, now i'm just late to the game. ^^

Now that i have the Cintiq, i find the gestures of the touch pads that i had previously raved about to be clunky and inefficient compared to the express keys and shortcuts. Gestures are still more intuitive and better for doing multiple moves at once but i've griped too much about how my programs don't all use them the same way or with the precision i'd like. And the express keys Wacom has provided since the Intuos 3 have been a great boon for customization. But I find myself having to stop what i'm doing to reach for them or hang my arms in a tiring or otherwise uncomfortable position.
I have found since the Intuos 3 i have been using shortcuts more and more frequently and i can now understand the people who have said they're shortcut dedicated. They seemed like they were stuck in their old habits and not taking advantage of the new tech. But I was wrong.

But nothing is perfect.
The nostromo is just a key pad. It let's me put all my shortcuts in one place in fingers reach so no more hunt and peck or sitting with a keyboard in my lap. it gets to stay in one convenient spot and my hand gets to rest on it comfortably and my fingers can reach all the keys i need easily and the ones i can't are assigned to shortcuts that i don't need often or should not be pressing accidentally. The best thing to do would be to get the scroll wheel to work as the brush size adjustment, however it still does not cooperate with photoshop or Sketchbook in that fashion. Haven't gotten to try it with SAI yet, but since SAI didn't like gestures at all, i'm hoping that it will like the nostromo. Also the thumb stick is pretty bleh for games or heavy use, and the precision with diagonals is horrid. BUT it makes for a d-pad which gets you 4 more buttons that are easy to remember.

I did look into the orb weaver, the successor to the nostromo and I decided that it was too much for too much money. This little guy i think is better suited for artists, though having real rest customization is a nice touch.
I've found several users out there who have posted their builds and such, so here is mine, for CS6. And this is ignoring my button selections for the Cintiq+stylus. I have doubled up my most used and typical functions so i don't need to access my menu bar, which is actually on another screen now. So working this with the Express Keys as efficiently as i can will theoretically speed me up even more.

I honestly can't think of anything else i can do to make my tools fly any faster. Gestures sure, but i have not liked how they have behaved thus far and i haven't liked Wacoms touch performance as yet. Plus i don't need my greasy fingers being on this screen anyway XD

+ Adjustments
replaced the eye dropper with default color (I already have the eyedropper on my stylus clicker so i don't need that one doubled up, but i do reset my colors frequently)
removed the fit to view function on the scroll wheel (stopped working properly, the scroll wheel just wants to do it's scroll wheely thing in PS)

Hot Wheels, MLP: Friendship is Magic OC

Fri, 17 May 2013 12:35:15 PDT

My third Friendship is Magic OC: Hot Wheels!

Note: This character is a pegasus without her left wing. Don't be fooled into thinking she's an earth pony by the picture - I just chose to show the wingless side to make the cutie mark fully visible.

Note number two: The existence of this character is based on that Equestria has the motorsports technology and culture equivalent to what we had in the early 20th century (with some modifications). If this goes against your headcanon, shoot me with your headcannon or something.

Summary:

Hot Wheels was born without a left wing. For this reason, her family - she, Sunshine Shower and Shock Treatment - moved on solid ground, to the house of her father's cousin, Wrench Whack, near Ponyville. There she learned mechanics and lived a lovely childhood. However, gradually she began to crave for speeds she could not reach with her hooves along. After failing at building a good artificial wing for the filly, Wrench built her a car instead, allowing her to go fast.

Soon Wheelie took part in an amateur race near Ghastly Gorge. The race went well and she had a great time, leading to her getting her cutie mark. After that she has driven in more amateur races, but she is finally old enough to be eligible for the next season of the Equestria Motorsports Cup. When not racing, she promotes the well-being of the disabled.

Wheelie is deep down a cheerful mare, but she can be quite blazing and short-tempered. In social situations, she is talkative, selfish, unashamed, and likes being witty and snarky. She is not interested in many subjects other than cars, racing and mechanics. The inability to fly is not a big deal for her, but she is jealous for the softness of clouds.

Wheelie is at her best behind the wheel (duh), and in particular can push her car to the limit. She can also use the stick shift with her wing. Mechanics are her other forte, whether or not they have anything to do with cars. She is also in a good physical condition and has quick reflexes. She is not half bad a sweet talker.

Background:

Hot Wheels is the daughter of Sunshine Shower, a mare known for her ability to clear the sky of clouds at a record speed (of course, all her records have since been broken by Rainbow Dash!), and Shock Treatment, a stallion with the ability of discharging electricity in the clouds with lightning-fast acceleration (don't ask me how that makes sense, it's a land of magical ponies). With such parents, it was completely unsurprising that "Wheelie" inherited an endless need for speed. There was one minor problem, though: She was born with only one wing.

Although Sunshine and Shock were initially at a loss, soon enough they got a hold of themselves and began to adjust their lives to suit a flightless filly. The most important change was moving from Cloudsdale down onto solid ground - more specifically near Ponyville, into the large house of Wrench Whack, Shock's cousin, an eccentric but lovable mechanic-inventor. This way, Wrench could take care of the filly while the two had overlapping shifts of weather control and there would never be a risk of her falling off a cloud.

It was a somewhat odd family structure, but it worked surprisingly well. Wrench took a liking to the curious filly and acted as a sort of a second father for her, not that either of her real parents were distant at all. Wheelie attended the Ponyville Schoolhouse during the day and spent time with her parents or "Uncle Wrenchie" during the evening. It was a pleasant childhood during which she did not miss flight one bit. She also grew quite interested in mechanics due to the influence of her so-called-uncle, seemingly developing towards the talent of a mechanic or somesuch.

However, as Wheelie grew older, the family trait of need for speed gradually emerged. At first, she was content with running, then she switched to sprinting, but little by little she began to crave for more than her legs could handle. Wrench had looked a little into the subject of artificial wings in the years before and had managed to prototype wings that held a pony afloat, but now he was faced with an unforeseen challenge: He had to build wings that could propel Wheelie at a satisfying speed.

Wrench stuggled with and stressed over the design of such a device for several weeks before coming to the conclusion something of the sort was beyond his abilities as a mechanic and a designer. However, once he abandoned the question "How can I create artificial wings?" and instead asked himself "How can I help Wheelie go fast?", the solution was obvious, not least because of her name. Wrench got to work to design and create his idea for her next birthday.

So, on Wheelie's birthday her family took her to a small, rarely used race track formerly used for chariot races and presented her with her present: An automobile built by her uncle. It was a crude, makeshift machine, but for Wheelie it was love at first sight - or rather, at the first scent of motor oil and fuel, at the first primal roar of the freshly started engine, and soon enough at the first feeling of wing blowing through your mane when you rocket down a track at half a hundred kilometres an hour.

Even though the race track was nothing but a small oval with a hardened dirt surface, Wheelie played with her new machine for several hours straight, all the way until nightfall, loving every single moment. And the next day, the moment she got back from school she began to study the vehicle, learning its anatomy, calculating its acceleration and fuel consumption, reading about the history of its kin... To put it in brief, she was absolutely obsessed.

Auto racing was a new concept in Equestria at the time, but that didn't stop little Wheelie from looking for competitions she could participate in after just a few weeks of driving. Her parents loved the idea as well, though on two conditions: Firstly, she was not allowed to sacrifice her grades for racing, and secondly, she had to stay as safe as possible. Eventually she found a race in an acceptable place at a convenient time: a weekend race at the Ghastly Gorge Track (which fortunately did not run through the Gorge, but rather was planned to take place on a set of dirt roads that happened to be nearby).

Wheelie and her family were surprised to discover just how popular auto racing was: Although the amount of audience present was minimal, there were about fifty contestants present, in both factory-made and custom-built vehicles, some of them there for the competition and some just for the fun. Although Wheelie felt like she was one of the group - and confirmed this by having good chats with the fellow drivers she talked with before the race - she was unique in that she was the only foal present. The only other underage ponies were a few particularly crafty or rich teenagers.

This did not stop Wheelie from racing, though - on the contrary, she was eager to show the stallions and mares present just how fast she could go. It was going to be a race of forty kilometres on dirt roads, so Wrench came along as a mechanic in case of a malfunction or other incident. Meanwhile Sunshine and Shock helped by keeping the skies clear and kept an eye on their daughter from above.

The race turned out to be more eventful than Wheelie had expected: A few equally fast drivers gave her great competition and a chance to practice defending and overtaking. She even ended up in a minor crash in the last ten kilometres, though fortunately with little damage done to either side. In the end, she was the sixteenth to reach the finish line - not quite near the top but in the best third anyway, which was better than she or anypony else had expected. When emerged from the vehicle, her parents (and uncle) noticed that her flank was not blank anymore: On it had appeared a tire on fire, representing her need for speed. (rhymes aplenty for you guys!)

The cutie mark sealed the deal for good: Hot Wheels had a career ahead of her in the emerging sport of auto racing. The Equestria Motorsports Organization had been founded the previous year and on the year Wheelie got her cutie mark the Equestria Motorsports Cup was created. Although she was too young to participate in the cup, she had fun with amateur races and sometimes got to practice driving with the cup participants.

Now that Hot Wheels is old finally enough to take part in the Equestria Motorsports Cup, she has been accepted to be one of the thirty-two drivers in the next season. To become more independent she has bought a small house in Ponyville and moved out. Wrench still serves as her mechanic whenever he can, though. When not racing, Wheelie is a bit of an activist: She promotes the rights and well-being of the disabled.

Personality:

Unless given a reason for feeling otherwise, Hot Wheels is a cheerful mare with a positive view on life and whatever happens to be around her. However, she is also a blazing personality with somewhat haphazard emotions, and in particular her temper can be a bit too short at times. Fortunately, she is just as quick to apologize as she is to become enraged - if one can tolerate her brief bursts of uncontrolled emotion, they'll be just fine around her.

In social situations, Wheelie likes to be in control and stay active. When nopony else talks, she does, and when somepony else does talk, she talks over them. Although she can be very self-centered at times, she is smart enough to understand when her selfishness might cause serious grief. Furthermore, Wheelie does not recognize such concepts as embarrassment or shame - she says what she wants with little regard to how awkward others might find her words.

Wheelie's interest in knowledge is limited to the couple of subjects she is most familiar with: Automobiles, racing, mechanics, engineering, and other similar topics. In general, she prefers to do things in practice rather than merely learn about them. She can be quite witty when she wants to, though - or in other words, she is good at coming up with snarky and sarcastic quips and replies.

On the scale from masculinity to femininity, Wheelie leans towards the former. She suffers from a bit of a superiority complex and can therefore be quite reckless or overconfident, and what is more she can have a hard time admitting her faults or asking for help when she needs to. She considers sexuality just a topic among others, whether it's being discussed or acted.

Wheelie used to enjoy the times her parents carried her from place to place on their backs, but she does not particularly miss the ability to fly. Going fast in a roaring machine of metal satisfies her fully well. She is somewhat jealous to other pegasi for the clouds they sleep on, though - she can't get one herself, making their softness a rare experience.

Though motorsports and mechanics are the greatest love in her life, Wheelie does like some other things as well. Artificial beauty, such as that of buildings or statues, is strongly to her liking. She loves salty snacks of almost all sorts. As mentioned, she loves clouds and has a hard time passing up on opportunity to relax on one. As for things Wheelie dislikes, she finds non-comedic theater boring. Sweets are not really to her liking. She does not like cold. Although she does not admit to fearing anything, a few of her closest friends know she hates being tied up.

Skills:

Obviously, Hot Wheels' number one skill is her ability to drive. In particular, she has two special skills: She can push her race car right to the limit for that little extra something she needs when overtaking, and she can operate the shift stick with her remaining wing. Wheelie is also a proficient mechanic who can not only take care of her vehicle, but also fix a number of other things of mechanical nature.

Driving a race car is tougher than one would think, so Wheelie keeps herself in a good physical condition with a jog and a workout every morning. On top of that, racing has developed her reflexes, allowing her to react quite a bit faster and more acutely than the average pony.

Wheelie can be a bit of a sweet-tongued charmer when she wants to: She always comes up with things to say and delivers them fairly well.

Author's comments:

Old race cars are incredibly unsafe, but damn they are cool. Also, yay for another name ripped off of a popular product! Now people are going to think I've gone from playing the Orange Box 24/7 to playing with Hot Wheels.

Pony made in [link]

Demotivational Poster - The Future of Gaming?

Wed, 22 May 2013 10:50:25 PDT

Okay, so I've been hating on the 3DS for a stupid gimmick for a long time, but I'll be honest, at this point... I'd like to take all my hate from the 3DS back, and apply it full force to this, THING.

The XBox One... so yeah, the announcement of this thing went up, Microsoft fanboys praised their almighty lords for blessing them with this amazing all in one masterpiece. OMG, it can play Bluerays, it has Netflix, it can do HDMI, It had an internet browser, with 8GB of harddrive space, Skype support, 3 Operating Systems that can work together and countless other functions.

Notice something missing? Microsoft sure as heck did seem pretty focused on everything that is NOT game related. I'll praise Nintendo for keeping the 3DS and Wii U mostly game related, but seriously, Microsoft's first announcement for the XBox One had NO game footage at all, with a promise that the next reveal would show gaming.

THIS IS A VIDEO GAME CONSOLE, NOT A HOME MEDIA PLAYER! Besides, isn't it a little silly that some of the things that the XBox One is boasting about (Bluray, Netflix, HDMI, Internet Browser) were all feature of the PS3? It seems Microsoft is a year behind. Also, while Skype support seems a little interesting, why on earth can't you do that on your PC.

The other announcements, Multiple OS for example, sound like a terrible idea. Microsoft Windows is known for crashing, everybody knows it had it's share of problems. Now let's have 3 different ones working together. Gee, I wonder how many issues we'll be having with this setup here. Also, 8GB of Ram, and a 500GB harddrive, for a computer, that's fine, since we store hundreds upon thousands of data of space, but once again; this is a video game console. I don't store MP3s and Videos on my PS3 when I have a computer, so why does the XBox One need 500GB? I mean yeah, it's great and all, but seems like a bit much.

While on the topic of the XBox One, it's design, anybody else think this thing looks like a VCR? My god Microsoft, get with the times. People already complained to Nintendo about the price of the Wii U at launch, well, I've gotta question, what is the XBox One gonna cost: With the combined efforts of the machine itself, Blueray support (Which cranked up the price of the PS3 on it's own), Kinect included, 3 Different OS Windows based, and the required payments monthly to use the internet... If I had to wager, probably around 600-800$ at launch.

Sound familiar anybody?

While on the topic, no backwards compatibility for XBox 360 games, which a lot of people probably have large libraries for, considering that the XBox 360 was in third place during the console war (DS <- Wii <- 360 <- PS3), and yet despite this, the XBox One isn't going to be able to play the game people previously bought, likely because they will come out as downloadable on the console itself, so you have to buy it again in order to play them on it.

Oh, and as if that isn't enough; Microsoft announced even more features of this thing, such as the Kinect always being online and REQUIRED to be online, which could easily result in people taking pictures or videos of you without your permission. I think it's really saying something when you need to face your new console towards a wall to ensure your privacy isn't at risk.

But easily the single, dumbest thing Microsoft revealed, is that in order to play games, you will need to lock it to your XBox One alone. Know what that means? If you try to lend a game you locked to your console to a friend, they will get a message requiring them to pay the FULL PRICE of the game in order to play it. Do I even need to comment how this will hurt the used game market? I highly doubt they will even stock XBox One games, due to the fact that consumers will need to pay twice in order to play them, and that's bullshit. If someone lends their friend an Umbrella, do you charge them full price to use it? Well in this case, if you lend a friend a game you paid for, your friend has to pay full price before they can enjoy it on their console. Microsoft is basically standing in the middle taking more and more cash for this thing as possible. Maximizing their profits on it, in the worst way possible. Other companies like Capcom maybe getting a bad rep recently for Disc locked DLC, but at least they don't stand in the back and DEMAND payments to even remotely enjoy the game.

But I'm sure Microsoft fans will defend this thing, regardless of how ridiculous it sounds, and will complain about this criticism because "Microsoft showed their product unlike Sony" and because the XBox 360 had more sales than the PS3. I don't really see how that's relevant to the argument at all, you are claiming that because Microsoft showed the product, it's better than the other one? That's a great idea to determine how much better a console is, seriously, keep believing that lol (No, don't please, for the love of god).

Microsoft One's slogan for me, from this day forward is: We've got to have, Moneeeey~

XBox One (c) Microsoft

Here when you need me

Fri, 17 May 2013 16:17:14 PDT

Series: Legend of Korra
Name: Bo
Age: 20/21
Home Nation: Republic City/Air Temple Island
Bending: None
Occupation: Air Acolyte
Linage: N/A
Family: Mother and father(unnamed), younger sister(Xia;16/17), younger sister(Linquin;13), surrogate sister(Daiyu;17), surrgate sister(Yue;15/16), surrogate sister(Meilin;18)
Personality: Like most Air Acolyte's, Bo is a very calm and easygoing man. He enjoys reading and studying as well as taking his sisters around Republic City to let them explore/shop. He is unable to lie without giving himself away thus he always says things as is(basically blunt without being mean), and its used to his advantage in many situations. While Bo is very strong and has the ability to protect his family, he trusts his siblings to be able to defend themselves and only ever helps when they ask for it.
Notes:
- His surragate sisters are children who's parents were raised on the Island as well but have passed so Bo's parents took to raising them and he got three new sisters
- Because of all the females in his life, Bo tends to be a bit girly looking as Linquin and Yue wont let him cut his hair

Bo- *CourtJesterMieko
Collab/Ryuuo- *kuloi-no-chloe
Avatar universe- Michael Dante DiMartino and Bryan Konietzko
base- ~denying

Sonic's Super Forms (Remake)

Fri, 17 May 2013 16:40:43 PDT

This is just a remake picture

Super Sonic:You people forgotten me!
Hyper Sonic:I can glow rainbow colors and so sarkly!
Darkspine Sonic:I'm am not no voodoo hedgehog you people!
Dark Super Sonic:Hey ladies hope y'all like my dark powers of being sexy.

Chimera

Fri, 17 May 2013 17:46:23 PDT

Only looks like Ian if Ian were a rippilingly muscled Marvel hero and, like, much taller.
The outfit is close to what I always had in mind for his uniform when he graduated up to being an X-Man just without the webbing.

Made with: [link]

Chimera © Me

Hear My Heart

Mon, 20 May 2013 20:40:39 PDT

Mutt enjoys holding us against his furry chest, its warm and safe there in his paws. We can hear his heartbeat and his lungs, taking air in and keeping him alive <3 Plus being in the clutches of a Macro blue Sergal is cute.

Mutt & Art © Gridler
ilbv © Me

Meowth

Wed, 22 May 2013 19:14:20 PDT

I scribbled a Meowth wearing goggles the other day and it gave me the idea of a Meowth that's fascinated by human items, especially Pokeballs (them being round and all)! I figure it'd want to take them apart and see what they did/how they worked.
Its burnt eyebrow is probably from too much fiddling with electronic devices and so on.

the memo of a first-class douchebag

Thu, 23 May 2013 18:02:59 PDT

_{i'm a horrible, terrible person, and not a minute goes by that i don't think of my mistakes (or feel like crap even though i should).

i guess i say this a lot, and i guess it's been obvious how i've thought of myself for a long time, and perhaps everybody already knows (with all i say, how couldn't one?) so here's a memo thing, if you'd like to call it that. written also BECAUSE, just to give you a pint understanding of "why", and so that you don't think it's because i hate you or think you're dumb, but because i'm an asshole and that's probably not gonna fucking change because of me being such a piece of shit.

thus i highly reccomend that you stop talking to me.

this has repeated, and will repeat again i fear. WILL GO TO SCRAPS...EVENTUALLY. BECAUSE LOL FEELINGS EMMETT? HAHAHA go kill yourself. (to me)}

The Seer :CONCEPT: (Base By Aqua999)

Tue, 21 May 2013 23:37:24 PDT

I'm not going to explain her story, but she's a rather old character of mine actually. She has no name, if she ever had one she doesn't know what it is, and despite being called "The Seer" (which is probably a younger me's play on "The Seeyer"--you know, like someone who sees/over-sees things--or something like that) she doesn't actually foresee the future. In fact, she probably couldn't see the future if it smacked her in the face. She's a very loving, gentle, innocent character who lives not by time like we do, but moment by moment.

I will tell you that her story starts out relatively peaceful.

I love this character so much. HNNGgg.

Lineart (c)
Character, design (c) me.

gentle showers

Fri, 17 May 2013 13:13:16 PDT

Is it just me, or does Al look like he's staring at Aeolas with dark, murderous intent? I know he's not, but somehow, his face ended up looking more unnerving than Aeolas, even though he's the one covered in blood.

Aeolas, being a wolf, did what is perfectly natural and normal for him to do. Hunt, kill, eat, skin, de-bone, etc a deer. However, this is not acceptable behavior in a populated neighborhood. Aeolas, being more in tune with his animal side than his human side, is a bit...unaware, to say the least, of human tendencies and expectations. He does have a better idea than most ulver, though, since he did spend a few years of his life among humans. Still, this is in his blood, his heritage, who he is. It's hard to withhold.

And...because of that, Al is going to hose him off. But Aeolas doesn't know what a hose is. Commence chaos.

This is from a role play between myself and

(despite all appearances, Aeolas is not an evil, murderous beast and Al is not a mean, random bully)

Al (c) to rone-umbra
Aeolas (c) to ulver-av-nord

Chise Ref

Sat, 18 May 2013 08:04:51 PDT

_{Name: Chise (Chichan, Chi)
Age: Appears 19
Race: Cat Demon
Group: Works under Mikoshi.
Personality: Super loving, its almost sickening how loving she can be. She's not clingy at all, but she makes sure you know that she loves you very much. Because of her previous duties at her family, she has a level head and can help with any decision making. She is also super patient and ADORES CHILDREN. uwu she stops in the middle of errands to play with children because they are too darling.
Bio: Grew up in a pretty high up family (Can change). Instead of being the snobby princess like her older sister, Chise is very gentle and very caring of others around her. More TBD brain is dying.

Chise © Me
Fade © *CourtJesterMieko
Inuyasha © Rumiko
Base: ~xxiCrazyxx}

Where did my drawing skills go?

Thu, 23 May 2013 18:15:48 PDT

Sorry for spamming your messages with this. (I will probably lose some watchers for this)

I have had this feeling for the past month or so, when I haven't had my bursts of inspiration and just being able to draw.
I have about six sketches in my desktop, but I just haven't been able to finish any of them, save the Nordic Family picture, which was a massive fail due to many reasons; I was too lazy to draw creases, all the characters were either too tall/too short, coloring was off, hair looked flat, and clothing was weird

I just don't know, I have tried to improve, but nothing... works.
I have a TABLET, for god's sake, I should be able to draw amazing things.
Nope. Not gonna happen.

School ended yesterday, so I hope the sunny weather and free time would allow me to get my skills back but...

Ticket! The cutest little Bacteria!

Fri, 24 May 2013 11:06:46 PDT

Rockin' At the Disco

This is the first sketch of Ticket I did and I kind of like it. Yep it is referenced. Though I didn't trace it...Cause I suck at tracing. Haha, I mainly eye ball everything which is pretty bad considering why my anatomy is pretty off. So I apologize about that.

She is from the Osmosis Jones verse (I'm becoming fond of this verse hurr hurr.)

I love hyper active characters, and her personality reminds me of rainbows. Hahaha I am totally going to put a rainbow in there.

Another cool thing about her is that she is kinda of like an Alien of sorts. Being from a Tick that is. Which is really clever might I add.

I hope you are okay with this . I want to make sure with you before I start coloring.

Ticket belongs to

Osmosis Jones belongs to WB

My Lady Boiz

Mon, 20 May 2013 08:43:37 PDT

I know it's not real art, but I'm SO bored without being able to submit things! T_T I'm uploading this from my school during free time.
These are my lady boiz~ I love them so much! ^////^ And even though I LOVE Fortune, I'd have to say my fave design I did is Nami's. I love those colors!
Yes, they are in alphabetical order.
I know that Nami is originally much more, uh, "boy-ish", but I've been toying around with different ideas.
I didn't add on Xanthe, because he's only a part-time drag queen, AND he's like, 6'4.

Here's their actual forms (minus Pat, because I haven't done any art for him. . .)
[link] That's young Fortune. He's a siren
[link] He is also a siren, but he doesn't have an official name yet, so I nicknamed him "Jisuke", because I made him for ~Jisuke27.
[link] And here's Nami. He looks more like a guy in this one. I've since then decided that he likes pink and purple.

NAMI STOLE HIS BF'S SCARF! AJKDESLJALJEKFJFELKJ! GIVE IT BACK, NAUGHTY BOI!
Lol~

These characters belong to me. Don't steal!

The game I used --> [link]

Sketch - Demon Form Gene 1

Thu, 23 May 2013 20:37:37 PDT

Gene is a darkling; being of both a mortal parent and a demon parent. The thing is that I’ve never really done much with his demon side.

Gene’s demon side is usually dormant; his speed and ice control he has normally is boosted by that side. However, when he is under extreme emotional strain; like extreme anger or fear or such, or under very rare situations, that’s when he runs a risk of showing his demon side and actually shifting into his demon form.

Thing is that I’ve never really settled on what his demon form should look like. I have ideas, but I’ve never felt completely happy with them, so here is a starting concept for one idea.

It’s…alright, I do like parts of it, but I feel like there should be more to it. I dunno quite yet, but I may still play around with ideas.
If anyone has any ideas or thoughts, feel free to let me know.

Happy May 18th

Sat, 18 May 2013 08:39:48 PDT

_{When we grow apart, it's destiny - It's just how it was supposed to be.
But I know that I'm not strong enough to accept that so easily.
Each and every single answer that comes my way
are sold at too high a price for me to pay.

When we draw near each other, it's destiny too
The way it's supposed to unfold, through and through.
If I could convince myself it was meant to be,
maybe I wouldn't feel so alone.
Each and every single answer that comes my way
have way too many hypocrisies to say.

If the past and future both decide to disappear
Do you think that then I'd be finally free?

It started out as a very sweet day. The next year, it became bittersweet, with new feelings clashing with old stitches, reopening old wounds. The year after that, it became a sour, rotten, festering, terrible day of the year.
This is just a little doodle; I'm incapable of drawing anything or really doing anything right now.
This date brings a lot of thoughts and regrets and feelings to me. It then turned into the worst day of the year so far.
I wonder if my ex is still upset. I wonder if he gets sad every time he sees me. There's never a point in wallowing in the past, but the way I handled that was truly one of the things I regret the most. I feel like every attempt I do to be friends again is going to waste, but I try anyway, because he deserves so much more than anything I can ever give.
I'm just upset, all the time. Family issues, school issues.. Waking up to a terrible email at 2am on this year's May 18th didn't help me at all, and I can't think or breathe without thinking about it. I feel guilty and angry and upset and betrayed, and I can't communicate any of this without feeling more guilty, because it's not their fault and it's all my fault and I really am just immature and childish.
I remember when I was first confronted by someone who said almost that same thing, and I grew to build my self-confidence from that; so what if you think I'm immature and annoying? I said. You don't have to stay if you don't want to.
Now that I'm confronted by those words again from a closer friend, it's the opposite; my self-confidence, and everything I thought I had, just crumbled into ruins. I feel awful and terrible and angry, which I probably have no right to be.

But I do. I have feelings, too. You can tell me it's immature to feel left out, but that doesn't stop me from feeling it, even if I understand and agree completely. It hurts a lot to hear those words coming from you. My chest has been aching in pain constantly since I read that email, and I can't distract myself well enough to forget about it for five minutes. But I'm so angry because I have a right to my feelings, even if they're childish. I have always done everything for that friend group. I know all of this is my fault, it is, I concede that.
But I don't deserve this pain. I do not deserve feeling this level of low, feeling like a piece of shit, no matter what I did. I do not deserve to feel this bad about myself or about my feelings.
They say you should stop sticking around people who make you feel anything less than amazing. If I had to follow that, I would have stopped being friends a year and a half ago, I guess. But I don't follow that. I love you. I want to work this out. I want us to be close friends, again. And sometimes, I think you have some fault in this too. You can't expect me to be the one to engage a conversation and suddenly break my passive aggressiveness--heck, I'm being passive aggressive right now by posting it here, and in my scraps, instead of yelling at your face. Because I don't want to yell at your face. You don't deserve that.
My thoughts are hypocritical and bi-polar. I'm angry at you, I think you have just as much fault in this as I do-- and then I'm guilty, because it's all my fault. In the end, the one thing that remains constant is that I do not deserve to feel this shitty. I want to be close again, I do. But can we really work this out? I hope so. I hope I can put in my best effort to work this out.

Anyway...I'll be taking refuge on deviantArt for a while, and staying away from any other social networking until I can clear my head and bring myself to talk. _{I'll probably make a different tumblr too..//papming}

Sorry about the large rant; I really needed to let this out somewhere where I wouldn't be found. u v u I'll probably delete this eventually.}

OLD OC ADOPTABLES

Wed, 22 May 2013 19:04:48 PDT

Okay, this is going to get a bit complicated, so please pay attention.

These are some old characters I designed, some had been used for groups, others for school projects, and some I had created with the intention of doing more with them in a fandom or original story. I'm not quite as attached to the top row as I am the bottom, so the top row is most definitely for sale.

As far as the bottom row goes, I am looking for offers and there is a better chance that I will sell them if they go to a friend that I know will use them and I'll be able to see them being used. I don't want those three to fade into nothing or gather dust like they have been on my computer. Noctis and Syrena are a pair, so I would like them to be purchased together. Nyx can be with them or without them, there is no preference there since she was from a separate thing.

After you purchase these they are yours and you can do with them what you will.

Circus Group: (160 as a group)
*The Twins (35 single or 60 together) : UNSOLD
*Mr. Giggles (35 ) : UNSOLD
*Chomp (35 ) : UNSOLD
*Ringleader (45 ) : UNSOLD

Firebender girl: (80 ) : UNSOLD

Benji: (50 ) : UNSOLD

________BOTTOM ROW_________

Noctis and Syrena: (Make an offer of at least 200 *the higher the better* and give me some ideas on what you want to use them for. I would like them to remain siblings and for their personality types to remain the same. If you want to know my own thoughts towards their personalities, please ask. Remember, the better I know you the more likely I will be willing to sell)

*UNSOLD

Nyx: (Same with Noctis and Syrena. I would like to know your future plans. I would like at least 100 for her, but I could be convinced to sell her for less. The higher the offer and more appealing your ideas, the better.)

*UNSOLD