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Project 365: [link]
365 Days: [link]

In other news, I move into my first apartment on Monday! I'm super excited but I'm also super tired of packing. I still have a LOT to do. Between the holidays and work, my packing time has been extremely limited. Luckily I don't work Sunday, so I'll spend the day putting in a hardcore effort and hopefully I can knock it out. Which reminds me, as of Sunday night I'm not going to have computer or internet for about a week, so expect a backlog of photos once I get back online. :]

Okay, off to take my pics du jour. Au revoir!

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Anyway enough of my photonerd ramblings. Bottom line (so you don't have to read all that crap): I get a new camera!

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I'm starting college tomorrow at UNT.
I quit my job.
I found an apartment but haven't moved in yet.
I just ate a donut.

Nothing very exciting, really.

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In other news, it's getting close to summer and I'm really looking forward to it. I think this summer's going to be a good one. I'll be starting school, going on at least one big vacation, working, probably moving out of my house... There's a lot going on but I like the idea of having a busy summer.

For now, though, I'm off to eat Lucky Charms and watch some trashy MTV shows before bed. Ciao.

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I've never felt so peaceful than I did right then, becoming part of the rain, living in the moment and only there.

My sister joined me and said "you look like a crazy person, standing still in the middle of the yard while it's raining, in your pajamas and holding your hands out." [Feeling the rain.]

"So?" And I really didn't care. What's wrong with standing in the rain simply to stand in the rain?

My dad seemed confused when I walked inside - "What were you doing?"

"Standing in the rain."

"...Why?"

"Because I wanted to."

It was reason enough for me.

Today my perspective has shifted. I spent ten minutes completely alone in the pouring rain and now I'm content - connected with myself.

Maybe I'm a little crazy. Maybe that's not such a bad thing.

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It's a rose on the inside of my left ankle... I got it in memory of my mom. <3

See? [link]

Pretty, huh?

Here's a picture of it with a penny (for size comparison): [link]

Yay me.

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I know my photo submission has slowed down considerably. I feel like all I do right now is work. I have hundreds of pictures sitting on my computer that, with minimal post-processing, could be good enough for me to submit here. The problem is that I never have time to DO post-processing. I hope that changes soon. I don't like not being able to make time for my art.

I found out recently that I have to start school this summer, as opposed to this fall. I don't mind - I'm anxious to have a social outlet other than my job - but the unexpected change in plans has made me a little anxious (as such things do).

Oh, and I got a new phone: Sony Ericsson W810i. It's fantastic.

]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/11535788/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/11535788/ Mon, 22 Jan 2007 21:36:57 PST wrong. Such a huge part of my life is missing now, and nothing I do will change that.

In the meantime, I'm trying to really work on my photography. I'm finally uploading all the pictures I've had floating around on my computer. I'm proud of the quality of work in my gallery right now, even though I know I have a lot of practicing to do before I reach the level of many of the photographers here on dA. Hopefully I'll be able to take a few classes for it next year...I don't know what else to say about this. It seems so meaningless.

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I sit on the floor and alternate between watching her tiny chest rise and fall, too slowly, and watching the hours go by on the clock, too quickly. I've spent so many hours like this lately. Slowly the days have turned into weeks, and are now gaining speed to sail right into months. Six weeks since the night the ambulance took her away, and in that short period of time, my entire life has changed. My entire reason for getting up in the morning is in that hospital room, and I cannot imagine not being there.

My days consist of getting up at 9, 9:30 in the morning, stopping by Sonic for a vanilla Dr. Pepper by 10, and arriving at the hospital by 10:15. Once there I sit, for hours upon hours. If she allows the lights on, I read. If not, I take a nap or simply watch her breathe. Depending on her visitors at the time, I do crossword puzzles, talk about old memories, or listen to idle chatter. Most of the time, however, the room is silent. She sleeps while the rest of us do our own thing, only whispering at each other across the room on occasion. I eat lunch and dinner in the cafeteria when they're serving edible food; when they aren't, I buy a sandwich from the gift shop. Occasionally Julie will bring us food, or Kirby will. Eventually she'll ask for her bedtime medicine - anti-nausea, anti-anxiety - and we'll say our goodbyes, never knowing if it will be the last time, and head home.

I feel as though I'll never be able to go back to a normal existence after this. To wake up in the morning and go to work, or run errands...It seems so impossible. Eventually, I know, I'll go back to "normal" life, but it will never again seem truly normal to me.

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Almost exactly 3 years ago, my mom was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. Today she was told she may only have a few weeks to live.

Obviously there's a lot more to this story than a sudden death sentence, but I'm mentally exhausted. If you'd like details, feel free to comment or message me and I'll answer you when I get the chance.

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In other news, my job is uber stressful right now. I'm calling in sick tomorrow for a mental health day, because I'm at the point where if I have to deal with any more of the company's BS, I'll just walk right out. I'm so tired of busting my ass for them only to get repeatedly screwed over. On Friday I'm giving the store manager an ultimatium - they move me to the department I want (like I requested two months ago), or I start looking for a new position. I'm already keeping my eyes peeled...The Radisson here is hiring for a daytime receptionist, which I plan to apply for first thing tomorrow morning. Wish me luck...

Kristine

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In other news, I'm anxiously awaiting a phone call telling me that I was hired, but so far no such luck. They were supposed to call by today, so... ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/9677979/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/9677979/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 12:51:11 PDT I've tried twice now to upload a picture that I'm really proud of and REALLY would like to submit, but both times it's screwed it up so that the picture just disappears. Am I the only one having this problem?

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I can feel you there,
Watching me,
And I can sense eternity
In your thoughts

Tyler, Texas | June 24, 2006
edits: slight level adjustment.

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That's the descrition for it. I wrote it, I like it, I don't want to lose it, so I'm posting it here for now.

I'm very annoyed by this. ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/9227245/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/9227245/ Fri, 30 Jun 2006 00:53:43 PDT And so we're running just as fast as we can - holding on to one another's hand...

^{_______________}

My computer is back and about a zillion times better. Soooo many kisses to my lovely boyfriend. As a result, I'm spending an all-nighter to surf dA (should stand for damnADDICTION) and play Sims. So much for my great 8-hour sleep schedule...Ah well. Tomorrow begins the photo editing! Whee!

Anyway just wanted to let everyone (ha, gross exaggeration there) that if I manage to stay on schedule, I'll have some new stuff up within the week.

^{_______________}

I'm looking for help with a tattoo design. I can't pay much but maybe we could work something out? Talk to me.

^{_______________}

_{...trying to get away into the night.} ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/9198266/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/9198266/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 10:19:29 PDT Yet another reason to never buy another eMachines... Anyway, he thinks he can get around that so that it's at least somewhat faster. If that doesn't work, the plan is to buy a new copy of Windows and try installing that with the new system he originally planned to build for me. If THAT fails, he'll buy the copy from me and I'll just have to buy a new computer all together. Cross your fingers that it doesn't come to that; I have enough expenses as it is and I'm still unemployed.

Speaking of unemployment, there's an opening at the credit union for tellers. It's a good job: it pays well above minimum wage, the hours are good, and there's the opportunity for promotion. So why do I have a bad feeling about applying for it? I told myself I would do that today, but it just doesn't feel right. It's possible that it's just because I'm content to be lazy and unemployed, but I really don't think that's it. I really do want a job, I just don't think I want that job. So, the job search continues. I think I'll call Burlington Coat Factory today. Ironically, I think I'd rather work there for than for the credit union, even if it pays less.

Today hasn't been entirely unproductive, at least. I did get my ass in gear and go down to DPS to renew my driver's liscense. I hate that place; it's such a hassle just to do something simple.

Just so everyone knows (the zero people who read this, I mean), I'm not abandoning my art entirely while I don't have a computer. I'm busy creating an online portfolio for myself. I just need to come up with a good name for it. Any suggestions?

Welp I'm off to call BCF and see if they're still hiring. Ciao. ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/9113879/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/9113879/ Mon, 19 Jun 2006 09:19:59 PDT There are a few parts we still need so if I don't get them at Best Buy tonight, I'll be ordering them online. Not that it matters that much, since I'm leaving for camping on Wednesday. I'll be back Sunday and I'm hoping to have my computer back by next Monday. As soon as that happens, expect lots of pics from me.

Okay, I'm outta here. Later dudes. ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/9061911/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/9061911/ Wed, 14 Jun 2006 00:02:08 PDT I have 1300+ pics on my computer, and another 200 sitting on my memory card, waiting for their turn.
My problem is that I never share them.

I know, I know - I haven't submitted anything since December. Six months and not a breath from me. I'm a bad Deviant. Hopefully that will all change soon. I just bought a Canon S2 IS. Yippee! It should arrive on Thursday. I anticipate lots of pictures being taken, as I'm leaving next Wednesday for a four-day camping trip in the lovely Tyler State Park.

In preperation for my new camera (which I bought with my graduation money), I organized all the photos on my hard drive. All...1300...of them. It took two days, but I finally finished. I found some pics that I will be submitting soon. Expect about two deviations a day from me until I have them all done. I'll start putting them up tomorrow, since my internet is being buggy right now.

I also cleaned out all my old photos here on dA. I moved a bunch to scraps. My work is much different now than when I first signed up here and I want my page to reflect that.

In non, dA-related news, I am finally a high school graduate. It took a ridiculous amount of work, thanks to the state screwing me over credit-wise, but I made it. Now I just need to figure out what to do with the rest of my life...

One last quickie: my 18th birthday is on the 23rd. Yay freedom! I'm very excited about that. ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/7242459/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/7242459/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 21:09:14 PST
In life-related news, my mom's cancer is back and she's sick again. So there's that. And I'm getting a car, eventually. Umm...that's about it. I have a terrible sinus infection right now, and my head is all foggy. Sleep is my friend...I'm off to bed. Night. ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/6163364/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/6163364/ Sun, 07 Aug 2005 22:08:36 PDT ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5958777/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5958777/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 12:16:24 PDT ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5913037/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5913037/ Tue, 12 Jul 2005 10:51:22 PDT ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5758157/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5758157/ Sat, 25 Jun 2005 23:46:04 PDT
If it weren't for Kirby being there, I could have been the one who was raped. ... The lyrics "going away in late September, here's the thanks for summer I will always remember" have been repeating in my head since about 2am Saturday morning. I know they're not meant cynically, but...that's how they're playing in my head. ... Thanks a lot, you fucking bastard. You totally fucked up the lives of more people than you'll ever know. I hope you die a slow, agonizing death, and until you do, I hope this haunts you every waking minute and pounds your subconcious to a pulp every time you try to sleep. ... After this, I am never going to party. I will never drink again, nor will I EVER hook up with a random stranger. Fuck rebellion. I'd rather be safe than raped or worse. ... It's been approximately 24 hours since it happened. These have been the longest 24 hours of my life. These have been the 24 hours that changed everything.

I'm done now. I just needed to get that all out, and I didn't want to do it on xanga...this seemed appropriate, for some reason. ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5725569/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5725569/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 17:36:38 PDT When I am queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists that everything you once held dear is taken away from you.

My birthday is tomorrow. Please do not expect me to celebrate or even acknowledge it.

I found out today that there's a chance my mother's cancer is back. It's a long explanation, and I don't have the energy to type it all out...It's rough. I don't think I can handle going through what I did last winter/spring all over again.

My dad came in here right after I typed that ^ and basically accused me of being anorexic, just because I haven't been eating much lately. And earlier my mom accused me of trying to lose weight...If anyone knows me at all, they know that if anything, it bothers me that I can't GAIN weight. And now it seems like my parents are convinced I'm purposely starving myself, and I'm NOT.

Now I'm sitting here crying because apparently I can't go to Vernon's tonight because it seems as though I'm a major inconvenience to my father...There are so many thing I could write, but I won't.


...Maybe all of this shit will lead to some depression-inspired creativity. Maybe I'll take some pictures tonight, since it doesn't look like I'll be going anywhere. Maybe. Chances are I'll just go to bed early so I can cry myself to sleep.

"On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero." -Fight Club ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5710136/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5710136/ Tue, 21 Jun 2005 01:38:52 PDT When I am queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists that everything you once held dear is taken away from you.

My birthday is in two days.

...I don't even care. 17 is only a milestone because it means I can get into R-rated movies on my own. Which would be great, if I ever actually went to the movies. I'm not even doing anything on my actual birthday...my parents want to do something special for me, but we can't afford to do much right now. Not that it matters; I'm actually leaning towards not acknowledging it at all.

It just doesn't seem important this year.


In deviantART-related news...I still haven't taken any new pictures. Expect nothing new out of me for awhile; my muse has left me for somebody better yet again.



Sigh. Apathy's a bitch.

"On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero." -Fight Club ]]> ~1000SilentWords http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5676438/ http://1000SilentWords.deviantart.com/journal/5676438/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 12:11:28 PDT When I am queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists that everything you once held dear is taken away from you.

I have a free seven-day subscription to deviantART now and I must say, I'm loving it. It ends on my birthday - appropriately enough - and perhaps I'll use the money I get for said birthday to buy an actual subscription.

In other news - I hate Charter. My internet has been semi-working for the past day. LimeWire and Trillian work fine; Mozilla and IE do not. That is to say, I can be online but I can't access any websites. Most of the time, anyway; right now it's working. We called Charter and they blamed it on our router. Whatever; I'm just frustrated. I don't like not being able to get online.

Creatively, I've been totally dead lately. I haven't even taken any pictures - self-portraits or otherwise - save the ones I took when we were camping (which I haven't even loaded onto my computer yet) and the few I took of my new haircut (which are hardly deviation-worthy). Not to mention there's something wrong with photoshop and I have to reinstall it, which I've been too lazy to do, among other reasons.

Things just have not been working out for me lately when it comes to my computer.

"On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero." -Fight Club ]]> ~1000SilentWords