deviantART: by:1337m3

meh

~1337m3 — Mon, 23 Jun 2008 21:27:57 PDT

site just kinda died.... -,-;;

SPRING BAREAK

~1337m3 — Sat, 16 Feb 2008 23:40:01 PST

YEY! 8d nobody remembered my b-days! XD *SHOT* @_@;; even the ones that are still here fergots. ah wells D8 i'm still not saying when

oh and Mizu. I'M SO SORREH D8 i'm finished with it i just.. haven't been able to find the time to scan it T_T it's only a sketch (sorry) only cause i haven't found a color scheme for Mei-Lin yet D|

ooooooooooohhhhhhhsssssss, and... dang it what else was i gonna write? D8 crepe

=_= too much sleep is actually a bad thing

Goals for the Break:
-profiles/ref pics (Morphine, Sedative, Ara, Himitsu)
-ID
-a few other pics
-ACTUALLY SCAN THE STUFF =__=

yay, my journals so lifeless |D;;

HIATUS

~1337m3 — Thu, 03 Jan 2008 14:40:37 PST

....

bye!

[link] D88888 omfgaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwdddddddddd her name looks familiar o.O;; i wish i was that good ;-;

Winter Theme Group Pic:.~

~1337m3 — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 00:05:27 PDT

Meh, so i wanna challenge myself by drawing other people's charries in there. so far i have like..13ish people in there (i'm gonna add more cause i'm a paranoid freak D| ) so far i have..: (planned)

EDIT: okay, now i have...
Tofu-sempai's Kuroko-chan
Captain-feces-sempai's Maru-kun and Kara
Shiho-sempai's Shii-kun and Hako-chan
Ryoko-sempai's Ryoko and Satoshi
'Lilnee-chan's Lilly and Kisen
Mizuhiki-chan's charrie
Kyra-chan's May-chan
dragon-chu-sempai's Dud
Yoshy-ryu's Yoshy Nytro-kun
and i have Ame, Erik
i'm missing someone.... T_T i forget who..

D: i'd like other people's permission first before actually drawing them, and to apalogize beforehand at the crapiness cause i ain't an expert X< that's all my sempai's, t3y are the experts... and that's all of them... even the one's i give nicknames too

i had a few other people in mind, but it's been awhile since i contacted them and now i'm not so sure they remember me... XD;;

cause of freaking work at school, i don't have a lot of time to go around on DA to post on each person's site TT_TT that and i'm scared too... *sobs* i know i posted on Tofu-sempai's account, meh.. XD;;; but if i don't hear from t3h people i listed (besides the RL ones, i have references for.. most of them 8D;; ) i'll either pester them or assume they don't want to be in it. i kinda wanted a variety of people to be in it, but only people i know (no offense, not some random n006 i don't know Oo;; ) so.. yes.... that's it

83

~1337m3 — Sat, 25 Aug 2007 19:52:39 PDT

yeah, i'm such a happy camper right now. the count kicks so much ass in vol. 5... Miranda comes back in vol. 7 ....yeshness |D

anyways thoughs. i wanted to take down my old journal. and. yeah.

D: i guess i'm open for art-trades... seeing as how im doing two nows

100% dones
(though, i think by now you forgot ;;D| )

45% ALMOST DONE I SWEAR D: *shot*

X< i wanna watch superbad... damn.. rated R.... gods when has that ever stopped anyone from watching a movie??

and for the hellafit, fan art. i swears i've been meaning to draw Rabi for the dang longest time. i dunno i'm bored D: this is what happens when you don't procrastinate. you get bored when you have no homework.

Root Beer \'n Strawberry Syrup

~1337m3 — Sun, 01 Jul 2007 17:40:42 PDT

TRY IT. Oh meh gods, it's AWESOME. especially since it was my first time going to IHop. that place is mainly centered on strawberry's and dessert's it seems like O_o; OR ADD PACKETS OF SUGAR. SUGAR IS GOOD. |D i added almost four packets, its fun to drink it through a straw then eat it. but then they took away the packets of sugar away from me TT TT aw... sadness.... BUT TRY IT. ROOT BEER AND STRAWBERRY SYRUP |D remember that

anywaaaaaaaays..

i haven't updated this section in about... wait... since March.. April... May...June...Ju-holy crap like 5 months O____O

just wanted to say...

YES I'M STILL ALIVE XD XD XD

i haven't updated lately due to the fact i'm only drawing doodles now it seems. there are a few i want to post but.... they have to go through the light desk first |D; and i've been lazy as hell. SAT prep sucks. i hate homework TTATT yes, he gives us homework. OVER SUMMER VACATION. thank yous godz it ends in a few more days. THEN I AM FREEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! XD XD XD

Wells, canoe paddling is awesome.. 'xcept for the fact that my arms hurt like heck TT TT but besidethatomg,there'sthisboyinmycanoepaddlinghe'ssocuteomgomgomglolandi'mnothetypetobegoingafterguysXDXD*shot*awwwwwwwbuthe'ssocute,buthelikesthisothergirlTT TTbuti'mhappyhe'sjusthereandlookomg,nospaaaaaaaaaaaaaceeeeeeeebbbbaaaaaaaaaa arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrloooooooooooooool

*shot*

*coughs*anyways, i still haven't forgotten about my little project. it's just taking me some time. i wanna redo Shii-kun and Kuu-chan TT TT i really do think i can do a better job on them.

but basically almost everyone in my watchlist right now i want to give one toos, TT TT they've had to put up with my crap and drawing crap and my emo crap

ah, anyways. i'm focusing more on my original art too. i'm gonna lay a few of my cards on the table, but not all of them. i think mainly the beginning of my story, how it basically starts off. everyone knows what Ki-kun looks like, right..?.....no...? good |D cause i'll be posting him up soon. along with Kure and Koromo, Kai, Amethyst, maybe Satsugai if i can... yes... fear me... i have a heck of a lot more OC's then that....

FEAR ME!!

D: 1337m3, Hara, Sa-chan, that wierd girl, who the hell is that, why is she talking to herself, omg she's insane, LOOK IT'S A KILLER WHALE *bricked and dragged off*

or just Hara x3

Gifts

~1337m3 — Wed, 28 Mar 2007 00:51:51 PDT

Teh Gifts:

~Tofubeast done
~Shihochan done
*CherryBlossoms-chan ish next
~Yoshy-Ryu T T must relearn how to draw anthro
Must work on after-
~twilightfaerie79
~OniNekoChan
=xxkeikochanxx
~Neko-Reichan
~KKAP
~KeroGuardian
Please tell me if i forgot you, i can't think straight right now it's so dang late x.o

Gonna try and see if i can work on teh project.

Haven't been updating due to reason obsession with Hana Yori Dango drama

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-_- i'm gonna go fangirl in my corner *scoots*

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>>; yeah i had to rip this off, it looked like funs! XD; ripped off from 's journal who took it from 's journal ( sorry if i mispelled anything >.o)

A: Likes to flirt.
B:Likes to flirt.
C: Really likes to chill.
D: Has one of the best personalities ever.
E:Is a good kisser
F: People adore you.
G: Never let people tell you what to do.
H: Has a very good personality and looks.
I: Is always there for their friends.
J: Lives life for fun.
K: Really silly.
L: Loved by everyone
M: makes dating fun
N: Dead sexy
O: Best in realtionships
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite.
R: Freakin crazy
S: Easy to fall in love with
T: a sweet heart.
U: Really wild and crazy.
V: Not judgemental.
W: Very broad minded.
X: Never let people tell you what to do.
Y: One of the best bf/gf anyone could ask for.
Z: Always ready.

H: Has a very good personality and looks.
A: Likes to flirt.
R: Freakin crazy
A: Likes to flirt.

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D8< WHY WAS I BORN WITH TWO A'S???!?!?!? >>;

My japanese name is ç³ä¸¸ Ishimaru (round stone) ç¾æ´ Miharu (beautiful clear sky).
Take your real japanese name generator! today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

(for the record, i used my nickname, hara, and part of my last name, so this is not from my real name D8 [it's actuallly the same, either ways ])

OH MY...... GODS!!!!

~1337m3 — Thu, 01 Mar 2007 17:46:36 PST

[link] <-------- LOOK AT IT!!! FROM RI-CHANS!!!!!!!

[link] <-------- FROM SHIHOCHANS!!!!!!!

*huggles Ri-chan forevers* TTwTT my friend, Ri-chans, gave this for me for my b-days! i'm so grateful.... i'm so grateful i feel unworthy TTATT but yesh, this journal was so that i can proudly display her picture

shihochans has also given me a pic nows!! TT^TT she's so awesome in traditional styles, LOVE HER WORK!!!!!! 83 she's one of the few artist i know that still uses traditional style, it's totally aw-somes!!! *links and prouldy displays work as well*

*shot* >>; yes, hara will treasure any gift you give her.... maybe even obsesse a lil.... but yeah, she'll worship you for life and irritate you with "thank yous" every time XD

I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!! THANK YOU FOREVERS RI-CHANS AND SHIHOCHANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<< >> << >>.....hides :t

~1337m3 — Wed, 21 Feb 2007 23:10:42 PST

yeah, only a few people know why i'm hiding....

it's that time of years for hara TT^TT

can't believe i'm 15 now.. as of Feb. 22 if the date doesn't show.... few more years and i can drive >8D *shot*

PLEASE DON'T GIVE ME ANYTHINGS!! ;A; i really don't know how to accept any gifts or nice comments, or,or,or--*shot and dragged off* >.< ( not like anyone wills TT^TT so i'm kind of greatful for that... i feel so guilty when people give me things..)... i just need to survive through a whole day and school.... x.x

IGNORE ME!!! DX

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:the tiny edit:

this is just a small little thing, kinda like a reminder to myself :/ yeah i'm nuts but seriously, if i don't write it down i forget it XP

written in some l337 so no one can understand *'s Tofu*

50/\/\3 (-,1ff135 f012 /\/\j \/312j g00|) f1213n|)5 (4|_|53 7|-|3j 12 4\/\/350/\/\3!!!

more proper bios for my OCs

ummmmm.... maybe Bleach and other fanart....

TAGG-ED!! W007/\/355!! XD

~1337m3 — Thu, 11 Jan 2007 19:10:30 PST

I was tagg-ed by teh ! <3

You must say 6 Habits/ weird things about yourself. Then, tag 6 of your friends.

1. I this person! --> ~Yoshy-Ryu *shot* >>; would that qualify as weird? XD;;

2. -o- i have met some of the wierdest of people on DA and i KNOW THEM!! (well, a few)

3. I love to listen to emo/suicide music even if i'm not depressed XD;

4. I'm into watching Korean/Japaense/and Chinese drama movies

5. i dislike Tinkerbell to the fullest degree and loathe each time i see an effing item with the name/or picture (see 6. )

6. DAMN IT SHIHOCHAN WHY THE HEY DID YOU AND HAVE TO PIC HER, OF ALL THE DAMN DISNEY CHARACTERS!?!?!? D8< D8< WHY COULDN'T I BE SOME GENERIC GOTH FAIRY?!?!?!

*shotshot* ^^ okay so i tag : (i'm sorry! i know i tagged you in the last one too, Ri-chan!! ;^; )

art block....

~1337m3 — Thu, 30 Nov 2006 02:28:35 PST

can't think i love the new songs i got on meh mp3 but i can't think of anything good that i can actually DRAW at me inferior drawing capacity....

wow big words

auuuuuuuuuuuuugh... dammit.. thank you CB-chans for the ideas, i think i can get a more focused idea on it now ^^

in a.... slightly depressed mood.... stupid artblock.... i dunno.... auuuuuuuugh stupid finals.... i just hope i can get the pics i want done before X-mas

and oh lords, it's been awhile since i've let myself draw Sonic-style

oh wellsies, got rid of my other journal ( i dunno, all my journals piss me off :/ )

tis totally stressed out at the moment, though very happywith getting presentations over with... so now hopefully i can draw more now ^^
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this was kind of for me to edit my last entry X/; not much different, pay no minds to this

Time to update my journal!^^ shot

~1337m3 — Sat, 11 Nov 2006 16:11:21 PST

yeah... i avoid journals cause i know they're a pester sometimes to people... D:

yesh, steal/hurt/flame(you heard me tofu) and your ass is grass you *bleep*

ZOMG, I REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT!! XXD

but reallys, i'm done with the tournament thing and i haven't updated since ^.^;

so, yays! winter is upon us (soon)!! XD the time for Christmas and heartheart piccies to be put up! 8D not to mention no school! no more reports (tg =A= ) and more drawings! (hopefully, though a lot of teachers like to add stupid tests right before it D:< ) *shot*

ZOMBIES! XD *shot* dammit tofu, i'm not a zombie!*shotatagain* WHO THE HEY KEEPS SHOOTING AT ME?!?! D:< SNIPERS!!

FRIENDS: are the people who care if your on or not! xP (no order cause they all ROX!!!)

brain... frazzled... forgive me if i forget you and please remind me hara's forgetful

W007!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M GONNA BE GOOOOONE!!!!! (

~1337m3 — Thu, 19 Oct 2006 22:04:03 PDT

*writes while packing* Teh 13337m3 iz gonna be goooooooooooooneee.....gone..... *shot* wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! tournament far away and testing!! D: oh meh god I'M GONNA DIE ON THAT!!!!! << >> they want me to fail...... i can tell..... >< i wanna get it over with alreadys.....

yesh, this was to let anyone know who cared i'm gonna be gone (like i do much on DA nowadays with effing school...)

DX D: and have PITY!!! STUCK WITH TEH TOFU!!!! SHE'S GONNA BE MY ROOM MATE!!!!

*shot at by Pedro with rocket launchers*

wheeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! i've never even been there before!! XD; Hara only hopes she doesn't get hit to hard... ;;

so's goodbyes for now..... like i do anything on here anymore but pester people with journals.... yes.... must update soon....... planning too...... D:< i will make it a point to submit something soons! (hopefully)

biyaz!!!
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P.S.- i know i haven't commented on a lot of peoples arts and hara is sorrys ><; if anyone wants me to comments on a specific one, they can leave teh link. if not.... i gotta empty my deviations box ( i still have stuff from the beginning from last month i don't think i'll be able to go through) ;^; very sorrys.... hara has been very busy latelys...

THE FMA MOVIE ROXORZ!!!!!!!!!! 8D

~1337m3 — Fri, 29 Sep 2006 18:18:06 PDT

THE FMA MOVIE ROCKED!!!!!!!!!!! *shot* <3 feeling muchlys betters, thanks to ~OniNekoChan, ~Shihochan and ~Tofubeast. :dances: dear god that movie was the best! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 the animation was so damn good, DX but they showed a lot more Ed than anything (i love you Alphonse Elric!!! *shot*) and Wrath! you poor thing! D: noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! and Envy! and what the hell happened to Gluttony man?!

kicked off... will continue soon

ps gonna be gone for awhile be back soon

i'm a fucking dumbass ignore me

~1337m3 — Thu, 21 Sep 2006 00:00:44 PDT

this is to rant.... cause i still don't feel good, i'm still sick, and a lot of homework are demanding my attention. so yes, Kuki is now ignoring me cause of things i said that i told her i know i would regret and to hell, i can all die and you guys wouldn't give a fuck. i know i'll regret this later but i wanna spill my guts now so i can get this over with and start a new journal soon after finishing and getting tired of looking at this.

my father is still coming to see me, my temp is 101-104 for over three days now and i'm still forcing myself to come to school. and the kendo tournament is a month away so i have to get in every practice that i can. fuck, i'm sorry to everyone who had to hear me rant

but i'm getting to that point again were everything is starting to look so dumb now

... and now a lot of people seem to be yelling at me.... i don't know why.... is it my fault again...? cause everytime i try to stand up for something i think and feel is right, it backfires five times as bad and people end up ignoring me

i'm not being masochistic or suicidal, i'm just really really sick and the whole damn world seems to be against me no matter how hard i try now

end of my rant, comment, i really don't know what to do at this point except like i feel like i'm gonna throw up

i know a heck of a lot of people are sick of listening to me, but i guess some don't really care if i'm sick or not, your still you on DA so whatever you say must be true so hell, flame back at me *sarcasm*!!

but yes, sorry for making your lives hell and if i die because of this damn fever, more better for you guys

i'm so sorry Yoshy

I HAVE AN EFFING SCANNER THAT EFFING WORKS!!!!!!!!

~1337m3 — Mon, 18 Sep 2006 12:50:52 PDT

OMG!! I GOT IT WORKING LAST NIGHT!!! *dances Hara Hamster dance* HELL YES!!! XXXDDDD

*shot* >> *coughs* i know, i only finished Pinkpanik-san's one... and Tofu's... i know there's someone else....*shot* but now that i have the scanner, it gives me more emphasis to work on the others! XX33 (so afraid to submit some of them still ;^; )

TTWTT and i won't be late for Darkness's-san contest!!

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1 P\/\/n3z j00 70f|_|!!!!!!!!! the score is not yet settled!!!
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9/18

me is being kicked off for a week >> i gotta get meh grades up in math.... *shot* XD but yes, that means... that.... TOFU CANNOT OWNZ MEH WITH DA FORK!!!!!!

and ums, i'll see everyone in a week so.... please don't kill me if i comment late (over 200 deviations 00; )

Tagged!! X/

~1337m3 — Sun, 10 Sep 2006 20:30:25 PDT

8D me was tagged bys!

Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. :3 i am full on japanese and i hate raw fish/sushi! X3

2. i'm stuck with tofu and that's wierd enough

3. =3 i take teh sport where you can wack people with bamboo on purpose!

4. pigs scare the hell out of me (alive oo; )

5. needs to have both caffeine and sugar to get hyper..... (my family says its scary 0o; i still don't know why)

6. 8D i love frozen chocolate!

Meh tagz! (i LAUGH at you tofu!! ha hahaha!!) who was that other one....?... oh yeah! >8D ha ha!

*shot* tired
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9/13 (cause i don't wanna irritate people by just uploading journals )

My japanese name is ç¿æ¸¡ Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) ä¸åä»£ Michiyo (three thousand generations).
Take your real japanese name generator! today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

taken from 0^o which i find funny since my names already mostly japanese...... XD REPRESENT YEAR OF THE MONKEY MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gifty art (again) >A<

~1337m3 — Sun, 20 Aug 2006 20:53:22 PDT

Friends (no particular order)

MINE! ;3

please tell me if i forgot someone or would like to be added :3 *likes having friends* WORSHIP TEHR ARTZ!!!!! XXXDD

9/5/06 %--(blue-finished, red half)
tofu-almost done with sketch
OniNekochan-just needs to ink and color and submit it
Ri-chan- is going to try again cause he came out wierd X<
Animeliz-sorry, i'm not sure what to make for you oo;
akai-hoshi-same here
keroguardian-need to find reference...
mizuhiki-dear god girl, you haven't told me anything yet!
kuki-still not sure..
taelle- sorry, i have no idea TT^TT

cause this is the only place i can vent

~1337m3 — Sat, 19 Aug 2006 00:44:36 PDT

turn back now if your sick of how i've been acting on IM and don't give a damn and this point what happens to me because of it
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plain and simple i'm depressed and i feel like i wanna die. not much help from peoples because, some tried to help me but gave up, others simply refuse to listen to me. so i manipulate words it's all i can do right and i know it's true. i know people are sick of me and want me to die, hell, one less person to comment, right? but right now, everyone who shows sympathy to me are putting on a fake mask right now and are trying to be nice to the sick minded poor suicidal person. so don't mind me, this will probably blow over. but if i didn't speak my mind here, i probably would stand in the middle of the road right now. oh, and all you people whom are curious, i'm not cutting. not yet anyway. besides, if i hit a vein, then i really will die. i prefer jumping off a building at school. three stories high. wheeeeeeeee long fall. people just don't get it is that i'm stubborn and i'm weak, and it'll take forever to get to me and it's not easy for me to trust because of people who fake kindness and sincerity. i guess that's why i keep losing everyone close to me. so yes, on with your lives, depends on how things turn out, this might just blow over as i've said. but yes, if i really do, my thanks to my watchers, friends, commenters, love. i'm mentally scarred and can't function right since the incident and my depression issues have been getting worse since. so yes, one less impaired person in the world. most of you are probably telling me to shut up too by now. *laughs a lil* there is absolutely no ammount of counseling that can help me now.
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It's easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
it's so much easier to go
than face all this pain here alone

something has been taken
from deep inside of me
a secret iv'e kept locked away
no one can ever see
wounds so deep they never show
they never go away
like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they've played

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i
would

sometimes i remember
the darkness of my past
bringing back these memories
i wish i didn't have
sometimes i think of letting go
and never looking back
and never moving forward so there would never be a past

just washing it aside
all of the helplessness inside
pretending i don't feel misplaced
is so much simpler than change

it's easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
it's so much easier to go
than face all this pain here alone - Linkin Park "Easier to Run"

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safer in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one
Who battles always choose
Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I have no options left again

I dont want to be the one
Who battles always choose
Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
Cause I'm the one that falls
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Im breaking the habit tonight-Linkin Park "Breaking the Habit"

I want to break my habit.. i want to break my habit of being like this... i won't die an early death... because i have something so much more to live for..

OwO 1,000 hits! XD (added Furuba stuff..)

~1337m3 — Wed, 16 Aug 2006 21:41:28 PDT

Friends (no particular order)

please tell me if i forgot someone or would like to be added :3 *likes having friends* WORSHIP TEHR ARTZ!!!!! XXXDD

Artists that R0x (no order, off the top of my head :/
everyone on my friends list (i ain't just sayin' that they do! 's 'em all. ALL MY FRIENDS R0X0RZ!!! XXD) are all awesome, nice people/artist =3)

anyone tries to steal him... bring it on....

I HAVE DSL!!!! FINALLY!! XXXX3 Y35!!!!

*coughs* so um, yeah....
tofu's----> *random number falls on....* 25%
Oni-chan's *throws dice* 35%
Yoshy----> 50% and 0%
Oo; sadly, i think that's all i'm working on (and a few RL friends) i'm not quite sure to make the rest of you's (twilightfaerie i have in mind, but i gotta find pics of him first for reference )

the continued part: WOULD ANYONE LIKE, I DUNNO, THE REST I HAVEN'T NAMED PLEASE TELL ME WHAT THEY WANT??? DX i sadly have no idea what you guys might want. mainly different, akai, mizu, animeliz, taelle, and zazalee please TT^TT sorry i don't know you guys well enough

friends 'n....stuff (and a lil update on IM)

~1337m3 — Fri, 21 Jul 2006 17:39:13 PDT

Friends (no particular order)

~ XXX3

i wanna make gifty's for my friends now~! and for some of my RL friends! TTATT but until i get a scanner, all i can do is comment, fav., e-mail, etc. if you have anything specific, let me know, 'kayz? X3 Oo; *is a bit scared cause everyone can draw better*

...i love fun at Mizuhiki X3. should i make one for her too...?

TTATT lil' side note. i don't have YIM now, only AIM. yes, sorry to animeliz ,kuki, taelle. X< i'll try to get asap. for now, X< anyone wanna talk to me on AIM? Infinitefangirl <---- screen name (i find it very fiting for me )

why i haven't been on....

~1337m3 — Mon, 03 Jul 2006 20:32:01 PDT

Suman Suman.
been away from the internet and is at an internet cafe. TTATT yes tofubeast i'm that desperate. okay, the reason why i don't use the one at my other house (or get on IM for that matter). *sighs* need to vent. Tofu probably knows.

one, my father's been drinking for the past few weeks now. chose to pick a fight with my mom last week monday. two, majorly drunk. three, punched mirror in hallway and then smashed t.v. with rum bottle along with the computer with IM. four, brought us into the fight. five, moved out next day. six, blood all over the fucking house and i stayed up several hours after that. dammit, his blood was on my bed and i was fucking majorly freaked. basically it. oh yeah, major hangover for a whole week after that, constant pain reliever crap and what not. inhaled that damn rum while unhooking other computer (good reason not to go to practice hah). called Kuki next day and she hung up on me. i deserved that. >> so i probably have to buy a scanner and i won't be updating for a while.

i don't want pity, i just wanted to get this over with. like i have anyone who cares. emotional yes. mentally scarred and probably has brain damage from rum. and oh yeah, it's better if you don't say anything during practice about it Tofu

i gotz tagged...

~1337m3 — Thu, 22 Jun 2006 16:27:12 PDT

um..

1. i !!

2. have split personailites (some call it "dark" but that's way overused)

3. i'm an apprentice in l337 and drawing

4. guys with sad pasts are damn hot! *cough* Gaara 'n Shadow *cough*

5. i love rice with oyster sauce (mixed and cooked together <3)

6. i'm acutally doing this...

TAG! <3

TTATT wish i had more friends...

XD!!!!!!!!!!

~1337m3 — Fri, 09 Jun 2006 11:25:27 PDT

Okay first off:
I was gone for a whole week at our capital thingy and got a whole bunch of new stuff! XD
like paper! and hah Mizuhiki! Naruto eps. 51-76!! X3 Akira Ishida! omg his voice in japanese as a young kid was to die for! yeaaaaah, i'm not thinkin' straight....
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<--- RL and DA friend
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fellow fanfic writer and draws damn good!
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l337157 and Spriter. HE'S MINE! BACK OFF!! X3
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good DA friends! thank you!!
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- -; is in insane piece of tofu....
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you steal Al or Ed she'll kill you =3
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inspiring author and good friend
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<----i'm afraid to call this one an RL friend. she's nuts....but still both RL friends

clubs: SUPPORT THE CLUBS DAMMIT!!! X3

yup, mah DA friends. though it's nice to meet other people too.

randomness

~1337m3 — Mon, 29 May 2006 14:03:37 PDT

clubs:

ummmm...what to put what to put....

who agrees, scanners SUCK! XD they're only worth enough to sumbit drawings on DA!

i know i know QUIT ADDING JOURNALS DAMMIT! XD

~1337m3 — Sun, 30 Apr 2006 14:09:39 PDT

All my lovable friends that can draw WAY better than me! sorry if i forgot anyone or who think of me as a friend and i don't and then i'll get all confused and.......yeah, just tell me.

Deh clubs:

....Cosmo died in Sonic X! X<

friends n clubs n nobodys reading this...

~1337m3 — Sat, 29 Apr 2006 18:03:25 PDT

All my lovable friends that can draw WAY better than me! sorry if i forgot anyone or who think of me as a friend and i don't and then i'll get all confused and.......yeah, just tell me. sorry about that!!" i didn't think you'd consider me a friend>< and too.

Clubs: again, SUPPORT THEM!

crud third update XD i'm so forgetful. Today's 's birthday! and :cookies: on this momentous moment for her!
P.S. Her friend has the same b-day as her so go congradulate (did i spell that right?) them! XD Yay for living! sorry for the constant update, peoplez!

X3

~1337m3 — Mon, 24 Apr 2006 11:54:33 PDT

that went by fast. Hayao Miyazaki's Whisper of the Heart had a strange effect on me. now i'm normal. or...close to normal as i can. I wanna see if I can draw Sonic characters thanks to a few inspirations browsing. maybe something for mother's day..... ;D does anyone know what happened the last two episode anway? *fumes* I can't beleive I missed the episode with both SHADOW AND ESPIO!!!! *whines* and when in the hack are they gonna show Gaara in Naruto??

Support the clubs!!

Guess what?

~1337m3 — Fri, 21 Apr 2006 17:48:36 PDT

I need to complain here, i don't care if anyone comments. My world's been thrown into depression, i cut myself for the hell of it, i'm a bitch, the only reason why i'm alive is for false dreams and hopes, my love life sucks, all of my friends have boyfriends, and i can't draw for shit. my friend kuki-mewmew cuts her self and i can't do anything about it. counseling if pointless psychiatry on me, and my only beleif is that the whole fucking world is a lie so i can't beleive anything they say. i don't care if this throws anyone off my deviant watch or lose some of my friends because i'm already dying inside. though i'm sorry if keroguardian is reading this, and Rei already knows of my problems. and to others that have no fucking idea about what i'm talking about. i apalogized but it's just on of those days...,

"When and if i go to hell, tell him that i loved him. when at last i go to hell, i'll cry my last tears. when i finally arrive in hell, i finally feel my soul burn. when at last i'm out of hell, tell him i'll be back for him. when i'm finally free of this burden, i'll walk down an aisle full of blood and corpses. when all the world is dead, i'll be free to be born anew." -Hara

low whistle I suddenly feel dumb...

~1337m3 — Sat, 15 Apr 2006 00:40:27 PDT

My first journal entry and I've been a deviant for, what?, more than half a year? X3 Oh well. I'm hoping to make more deviant friends now that I have some understanding about how things work. Fan authors AND fanartists. *sighs* ah well.

I hope. I pray. I wish. And my thanks to any comments, flame or nice.