http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:3sha&section=today deviantART RSS for by:3sha en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 11:42:13 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/19783500/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/19783500/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 04:10:19 PDT many can relate to some of my stories
inspite of this I still had hope
hope of finding what they called "the one"

I was at the point where I thought
maybe it's all made up
made up to make us girls giggle
get our hopes up
become foolish
I've never been more glad to be proven wrong

He wasn't what I expected
Although I really didn't have much of an idea
what "the one" would look like
but when I had the chance to get to know him
I was pretty sure he was it

I always thought
God would present us our soulmates
in an extravagant fashion
boy was I wrong
Mine came in a simple package
and it was beautiful

More than enough
the best way to describe what I have been given
the proof to what I thought was fantasy
I have never been more grateful

]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/18886083/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/18886083/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 05:00:32 PDT I'm seriously blocked. Like a clogged drain.
I've got nothing. SIGH
It will come back hopefully

It's mid-year break. Should be able to relax.
Should be able to get it back.
hmm.. Nothing else to do but sit around and wait.
What are you guys up to?

]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/16684506/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/16684506/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 03:16:12 PST my fingertips are holding onto the cracks in our foundations
i know that I should let go but I can't
- Kate Nash

<3

blah blah
nothing exciting so nothing to write

]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/14809852/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/14809852/ Thu, 27 Sep 2007 06:36:38 PDT



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i want a new acoustic guitar. i have a classical one but i want to buy a new one now. a dean acoustic guitar. i don't know if i should spend money on it or if i should settle for a cheaper brand and upgrade. i don't know. i need opinions but my guitar buddy hasn't been online for like forever so i can't get a second opinion. why is it that whenever my friends need me im always there for them but when i need them they never show up? i feel alone. i feel like i have no friends. this is what moving does to you... does to me. 2 countries in 2 years. no friends. so lonely. "you're such a party girl".. "you're always out" who are you kidding? im not a party girly. i go out but i dont drink and im always back early. well recently i've been out late but still. you sooo don't know me.

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i love Incubus. brandon boyd's voice calms me. i wish i had their latest album. i've been listening to music alot. i don't even know what's happening to project runway. i love that show but i've been in my room too much lately. isolating myself from my family. i barely talk to them and if i do it's about going out with my friends and coming home late. that's why i'd rather not talk to them... it's always about that anyway. i have nothing to talk to them about. only my brother likes my kind of music and i believe i get along with him the most. we're not close though. i wish we were. maybe that way i'd feel connected with my family. i always feel so different like i wasn't meant to be in this family. like i'm too freaky for them. my ideas and ways are way too different for them. i am unique and i don't think they appreciate that. maybe if i were gone nothing would change. they wouldn't notice it and their lives would go on. i have an urge to slash myself and do what my friends do but i refuse to. i won't be a hypocrite. i am smarter than that.

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bitching, ranting whatever you call it.. it's what i do so hate me

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]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/14611158/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/14611158/ Wed, 12 Sep 2007 23:40:10 PDT i haven't written a decent poem in ages
although some people are liking my new poems i still think they're crap and should be thrown into the scraps bin
hmmm
i need decent ones
i need to make decent ones
i want to write

but about what exactly?
i have nothing
ugh.
i hate this feeling
like nothing is good enough to inspire you
if only i had talent like everyone else in this place

i told my parents i want to major in expressive arts
and mum pretty much said that i have no talent
how can she know if she's never read any of my work
even my horror stories are pretty good if i say so myself

ugh.
this is the thing that drives me to write better
her crticism and lack of encouragement
it's like she's the only one who is worthy enough to have creativity in this family
oh. and i forgot my sister too
my sister is supposedly the female picasso
one problem with that mum.
she's got no originality.
give her a blank canvas and it would probably take her a month to think of something to pain
she's my sister, i know she CAN paint and she does a wonderful job at it
but for god's sake I have a talent too.
why don't you believe me?
what's soooooo unbelievable about me being able to write something or shoot a decent picture?

ugh.
whatever
why am I even trying
you've never been there for me anyway
you've never encouraged me.
NOTHING
so you will get nothing back from me
you will never see my work
NEVER

keep on thinking what you think
i don't care anymore
they're you're pride and joy
and I'm nothing but your doll
you've raised me to be one anyway
showing me how to shop, giving me make-up, taking me to commercial auditions.
and when I failed at that.
when I didn't get a single commercial
I was pretty much nothing
To you I had no other talent than flipping my hair in front of a camera
do you even know I can write a grammatically correct sentence??
that I breeze through essay assignments while your #1 soccer player/computer genius son struggles to finish a paragraph

tough competition, i know
i mean a painting programmer of an older daughter and a soccer playing computer nerd for a son
and then you have me
your social butterfly. and that's it
you don't know me at all
zilch. nothing. nada. negative. ZERO
you have no idea who I am and what I'm like
all you know is that when you have a dinner party you can ALWAYS rely on me to keep your guests entertained.
and that is true
but that's not all I do mum
but then again you don't care, do you?

despising every boy i bring home
I've brought home the catholic boy, the bad boy, the asian boy...
probably every kind of boy you can imagine but you still found something wrong with each and every one of them
well screw that now, i don't care
i know you gave me that look when I brought home the Rocker artist boy
but who cares
I'm sticking with that boy
I dont care
I love rock, i guess you didn't know that
I love art, and that, i know you, had no idea

I'll go on with my expressive arts.
dad seems supportive
even though he too doesn't know me
you don't even know your child

ugh.
whatever
you'll always say I have no talent
So i will never show you my talent
you'll probably say something like "meh it's ok i guess"
and you'll just crush my dream like you did when I said I wanted to do photography
at least I didn't fuly give that up

I've learned never to listen to what you say
what you say is not important to me

ugh.
so push me one more time to join that pageant
i just might do that
to make you think that I actually like that stuff
but actually it' you who likes that stuff and not me


I can't believe I've been with you for 19 years and you still don't know me
cheers to that

]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/14491948/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/14491948/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 17:44:49 PDT and i just realized i was really in a depression kind of phase when i was younger
i am happier now and I thank NZ, Shopping, and my current boy for that.
but as I was browsing and reading my old poems and looking at my old photo manips i felt that same pain i was feeling back then.
Maybe deep inside that pain hasn't really left me
Maybe it's only covered up
I don't really know but im hoping it doesn't come back
although this deviation of mine called
<------------ "Starve" is something I can really really relate to
Now more than ever
I really do feel that way and alot of people think that it's just that "fat day" kind of thing that girls get once in a while but i really feel that way everyday.
I don't know why I feel that way but I'm thankful that I am smart enough not to succumb to the pressures of society
I wanna look like those women in the Magazines but I don't want to die.... yet
Maybe that's what's stopping me
I'm glad it is

...

]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/14324280/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/14324280/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 19:15:55 PDT just for starters and after that if i feel like it i'll buy a better one but right now im aiming for a rebel. "i think i can i think i can i think i can"

]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/14230904/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/14230904/ Sat, 18 Aug 2007 19:46:29 PDT i thought i would be able to keep the "sunshine and happiness" mask on forever.
well, i guess i was wrong huh

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]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/10695478/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/10695478/ Sat, 11 Nov 2006 23:12:31 PST everything's gone down hill

]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/10632182/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/10632182/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 03:10:49 PST
i need new photographs but i havent had the time to take new ones

maybe when i start my job

or when i see dave

soo dont know

i need some cuddles and hug

]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/9033107/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/9033107/ Sun, 11 Jun 2006 01:26:03 PDT

i want to make art... ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/8741940/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/8741940/ Thu, 11 May 2006 16:28:39 PDT
currently with no digicam. desperate to get one.

my mom took the cam with her to new zealand so here i am bored to death with nothing to take pictures with not even a damn camera phone.

ugh.. this sucks..

watch out for some new literary works.. i'll try my best to make some. ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/8113973/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/8113973/ Thu, 09 Mar 2006 15:52:32 PST


my friends are all about to graduate,they;re in the philippines in case anyone asks. so sad i can't graduate with them. oh well. i guess my graduation won't be so emotional.



my brain is fried like an egg on a hot slab of concrete under arizona sun. i can't think of anything. i'll blog tomorrow maybe. or later.



p.s. we're going to cosco. woohoo. too bad its thursday.. no free samples. damn


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currently with no digicam. desperate to get one.

my mom took the cam with her to new zealand so here i am bored to death with nothing to take pictures with not even a damn camera phone.

ugh.. this sucks..

watch out for some new literary works.. i'll try my best to make some. ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7841856/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7841856/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 21:22:33 PST

no artworks lately coz i don't have photoshop! this sucks big time!

i guess ill go back to writing..well i'll try..it's been a while...hmmm






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hey people!

haha.. take a look around and comment please!

hope you like my gallery! i've been working hard on improving my "skills" haha

anyway..

this is important:

when looking at the photos i've taken

i strongly recommend that you zoom in

it gives you a better look at the pictures and you get to see every detail.


thank you for taking time to look at my gallery! hope you enjoy!

have an orange! ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7677140/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7677140/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 15:10:06 PST

i have no idea how to resize the image and stuff... waaahhh

please?




---------READ----------------------


hey people!

haha.. take a look around and comment please!

hope you like my gallery! i've been working hard on improving my "skills" haha

anyway..

this is important:

when looking at the photos i've taken

i strongly recommend that you zoom in

it gives you a better look at the pictures and you get to see every detail.


thank you for taking time to look at my gallery! hope you enjoy!

have an orange! ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7649983/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7649983/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 15:57:12 PST .. i can't make anything without photoshop! argh.. oh well..i have a story that i'll be posting.. ill post it by chapter so it's exciting..hahaha. anyway. take care guys!


---------READ----------------------


hey people!

haha.. take a look around and comment please!

hope you like my gallery! i've been working hard on improving my "skills" haha

anyway..

this is important:

when looking at the photos i've taken

i strongly recommend that you zoom in

it gives you a better look at the pictures and you get to see every detail.


thank you for taking time to look at my gallery! hope you enjoy!

have an orange! ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7549995/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7549995/ Mon, 09 Jan 2006 00:15:51 PST

haha.. take a look around and comment please!

hope you like my gallery! i've been working hard on improving my "skills" haha

anyway..

this is important:

when looking at the photos i've taken

i strongly recommend that you zoom in

it gives you a better look at the pictures and you get to see every detail.


thank you for taking time to look at my gallery! hope you enjoy!

have an orange! ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7180024/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7180024/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 19:24:29 PST .. i now have borders in my photos! ..hahah.. ain't that nice? .. anyway.. yeahh..i have some new photos coming up although i haven't gotten into doin that new series..might take a while though..im not in the mood to take pics of myself right now.. hmm.. oh well.. anyway.. yeahh.. have an orange ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7162094/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7162094/ Sun, 27 Nov 2005 20:14:33 PST ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7137710/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7137710/ Fri, 25 Nov 2005 01:54:34 PST



"before anything else, i read your latest journal post, and whoever said that your stuff ain't art, is simply retarded. if you're trying to project a slutty image, then might as well have taken vulgar photos and posted it all over. don't worry dear, you ain't doin anything wrong. they're all dumbasses. they prolly just look at the pics and don't even read the notes following it." -moopare


he's right! read the descriptions and notes or whatever.. i usually have an explanation. ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7127853/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7127853/ Wed, 23 Nov 2005 22:40:20 PST ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7099079/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7099079/ Sun, 20 Nov 2005 17:45:41 PST ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7087545/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7087545/ Sat, 19 Nov 2005 09:14:30 PST ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7057041/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7057041/ Tue, 15 Nov 2005 17:29:04 PST .. hmm..im better at drawing and writing than i am in taking photos.. hmm.. .. too bad.. i really love taking pics.. but i just can't get it right.. and well i i suck at it.. hahaha... il still post some pictures.. but not as much.. yeahh.. ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7035876/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/7035876/ Sun, 13 Nov 2005 12:54:55 PST ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/6897552/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/6897552/ Sat, 29 Oct 2005 08:01:01 PDT ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/6587671/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/6587671/ Sat, 24 Sep 2005 06:34:07 PDT ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/6371534/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/6371534/ Tue, 30 Aug 2005 17:33:46 PDT but i miss the Phils!... .. there's nuthin to do!!! .. good thing school starts next week.. but.. well its not really a good thing..haiii ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/4241815/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/4241815/ Tue, 04 Jan 2005 21:25:01 PST [link] ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3192559/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3192559/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 03:47:05 PDT [link] ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3192554/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3192554/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 03:46:03 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3192547/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3192547/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 03:43:28 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3192498/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3192498/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 03:28:41 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3192496/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3192496/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 03:26:49 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3088140/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3088140/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 03:48:38 PDT [link] ...feel free to read 'em ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3071260/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3071260/ Sun, 08 Aug 2004 02:30:48 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3071056/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3071056/ Sun, 08 Aug 2004 01:39:58 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3070611/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3070611/ Sat, 07 Aug 2004 23:52:34 PDT [link] ..... ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3039496/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3039496/ Wed, 04 Aug 2004 05:12:39 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3022754/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3022754/ Sun, 01 Aug 2004 23:24:48 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3001109/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/3001109/ Fri, 30 Jul 2004 03:20:16 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2977342/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2977342/ Tue, 27 Jul 2004 03:58:30 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2961599/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2961599/ Sun, 25 Jul 2004 02:08:42 PDT .... my friends have so many probz....can't take it....i am trying to experience what they're experiencing but it's too hard....it's making me problematic.... 1 more problem and i'll go koo-koo...hehe.. .... haaaay.... i have problems of my own to deal with but they're my friends and they need me.....oh well..... ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2947188/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2947188/ Fri, 23 Jul 2004 04:44:17 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2939074/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2939074/ Thu, 22 Jul 2004 04:17:12 PDT .. la lng... ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2931100/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2931100/ Wed, 21 Jul 2004 03:31:52 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2924396/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2924396/ Tue, 20 Jul 2004 06:28:53 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2924255/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2924255/ Tue, 20 Jul 2004 05:48:32 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2915079/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2915079/ Sun, 18 Jul 2004 22:45:00 PDT ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2908173/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2908173/ Sun, 18 Jul 2004 00:36:23 PDT ... i dunno why but i actually enjoy rewinding manually...hmmmm..... hehe... well.... i took pictures of inanimate aobjects last night....i'll ost them asap...have to develop the film first then scan...yah i know...sometimes it's kind of a hassle to use a traditional cam coz u have to develop and shit but i like em...and if i develop these pics at least i still have a copy with me...coz my pc has probz sumtyms.... so i'd rather do the long way than lose all the pics i took once my pc breaks..or sumthin...any way...hope people like my work... ... hehehe.... ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2908170/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2908170/ Sun, 18 Jul 2004 00:35:58 PDT ... i dunno why but i actually enjoy rewinding manually...hmmmm..... hehe... well.... i took pictures of inanimate aobjects last night....i'll ost them asap...have to develop the film first then scan...yah i know...sometimes it's kind of a hassle to use a traditional cam coz u have to develop and shit but i like em...and if i develop these pics at least i still have a copy with me...coz my pc has probz sumtyms.... so i'd rather do the long way than lose all the pics i took once my pc breaks..or sumthin...any way...hope people like my work... ... hehehe.... ]]> ~3sha http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2902261/ http://3sha.deviantart.com/journal/2902261/ Sat, 17 Jul 2004 06:44:30 PDT ..... excited!!..that's all...heheh.. ]]> ~3sha