http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:AAgainstTTheGGrain&section=today deviantART RSS for by:AAgainstTTheGGrain en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 01:25:37 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/12835037/ http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/12835037/ Fri, 04 May 2007 01:41:44 PDT
The end of the semester is a few weeks away and because I started working full time and going to school full time and doing homework full time and sleeping part time, I screwed school up AGAIN.. and now I can't drop a class becuase I waited too late into the semester even tho I haven't gone to the class in months...so I'll get an F in it. I got a C in another class .. and I'll probably get a C in the only class I'm still in, if I'm lucky. I missed an exam in it because I was sick.

Speaking of that, I'm starting to get sick again... 2 summers ago I got really sick and was in and out of the hospital w/ problems regarding my stomach, and it's starting to come back. A lot of it has to do with anxiety and my anxiety is always really high at the end of the semester.

I also have to buy a new car within the month, and will have to budget a car payment, insurance, and rent - while going to school full time in the fall and working full time...serving tables at Chili's.

THEN I'm moving to be closer to work and school this summer. I'm moving in with one of my best friends, I'm stoked - but I'm extremely scared and nervous at the same time.

I'm single, and it's getting harder everyday. I feel like I'm missing something, but I'm too shy around girls to do or say anything that would insinuate to the least that I was interested in them.

The days keep going by, and not much is changing, and it's becoming really depressing. I think I'll go to bed now..

]]> ~AAgainstTTheGGrain http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/11955934/ http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/11955934/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 02:38:46 PST
I just started my new job today at Chili's. I got a job as a server there and it's a new restaurant so it hasn't opened yet; it will Mar 22. It's pretty cool so far, my managers seem nice and it sounds like I will be making bank.

I'm looking for an apartment right now w/ my friend Robert so I can get out of my house and he can get out of the dorms. I found a really nice one today, so hopefully we can check into that Monday.

I stepped down from my position at The Prayer House where I'm on staff. It was a pretty big deal I guess. I put in my notice and I have gotten sooo many phone calls - you'd think I was committing suicide or something. Everyone's understanding though, it's something I had to do for me because I don't have a life lately. I don't have time to even relax. That's probably why I haven't journaled since Christmas nor have I posted any deviations since then.

School is crappy. I hate it. I'm dropping my music class because I want to kill my teacher for being the most boring bitch I've ever attempted retaining information from. It's impossible I've decided to learn anything from her. She is a mongoloid.

A bad thing w/ the new job is...I start fulltime on March 15th and I was supposed to go to a Misty Edwards concert who's my favorite musician and songwriter in the world.. and now I can't. I am sooo bumbed because I've been dying to see her live. And now I can't. She only comes once a year to Sacramento, so maybe I'll just go to Kansas City where she lives and plays every week to see her.

My life is a little hectic lately, and despite all of the good things that are happening, it seems that shit keeps happening in equal amounts. I've been pretty depressed all day and I don't know why. I think it's just the anxiety of everything that's happening right now and being behind in school. I hate being behind in school.

I can't sleep either, I just took a bunch of sleeping pills so hopefully they kick in.

]]> ~AAgainstTTheGGrain http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/11189212/ http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/11189212/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 13:11:26 PST

So you guys have to tell me what you all got for Christmas if you celebrate it. I GOT A NEW CAMERA! WOOT! So now I might use my old stock account again and put some new photos in there..

Well I hope everyone has a great holiday and eats all kindsa junk food!!

TTYL!

]]> ~AAgainstTTheGGrain http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/11078563/ http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/11078563/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 22:44:15 PST
And I love my friends...

We had a little Christmas get together because schools out and people are going home....My best bud Robert got me THE SIMPLE LIFE on DVD for Christmas..freaking AMAZING. He is soooo #1 on the good list now lol..

Chrystal got me this sweatshirt from Pirates of the Carribean 2 and like candy out the ass ... my favorite too. AND PLAY DOUGH! YES !!

I'm so happy, but so sad because Robert leaves home for Colorado tomorrow and Chrystal is off to San Fransisco to visit her mom and check out schools...so I'm all alone w/o them over break. But perhaps I'll catch up with some old friends while they're gone becuase since I met them we've been hanging out all the time, especially Robert and I... it was nice to meet NICE people who actually CARE and are GOOD people for a change rather than the people I tend to often attract.

So Christmas is off to a great start...I got to give Robert a painting I made of his girlfriend and him, which I'll post as soon as he shoots me over a picture of it.

OH and I start my diet and excercise program tomorrow so I can lost hopefully like 30 pounds this month, my goal is a pound a day...and I've lost 40 in a month in the past healthily (is that a word) so it should be good!

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Today, I'm fucking bitchy as hell. I swear I have PMS...becuase today I want to kill everything. I don't even know why, other than the fact that everyone I've talked to today has somehow achieved the ability to get on my last fucking nerve by saying something ridiculously ignorant or stupid and they all need to go dig a hole and bury themselves in it. fuck.

grr.

yesterday was cool, one of my best friends showed up at my house out of the blue. i haven't seen him in a long time because he lives hours away and so we partied all night, played drinking games and got completely trashed. i sent out random drunk messages on myspace to people, which can't be retracted and that sucks. some were so bad i have thought of deleting my myspace. >.<

i got my class schedule for next semester. i'm taking 15 units which is over full time, i took 12 this semester and i thought it was kind of easy. at least until recently w/ finals and god forsaken oral presentations. so i'm taking foods & nutrition (yipee), english H4 which should be fun, it's an honors class so that's cool, umm what else... oh music appreciation, speech (rip out my tonsils with salad tongs i am dreading taking this class), and i'm taking the Sociology of mass media & society.

So yah, this is the last week of the semester, I have finals all week, which I also, am dreading. But fuck it, I don't care today. I should be studying and doing homework, but I'd rather just...sit here and squander time by writing pointless ongoing journals on DA.

]]> ~AAgainstTTheGGrain http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10986996/ http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10986996/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 17:53:57 PST
Sooo finally, school is almost over for the semester, and I've worked my butt off pretty much all semester and it feels really good lol. It's good to know that I worked so hard to get these grades that I'm getting. I have 2 A's for sure, a B, and I'm not sure what I have in my sleep and dreams class becuase my teacher is off her rocker.

So I did an oral presentation in Sleep & Dreams class yesterday and it was seriously the scariest thing I've done. I've played my music in front of thousands of people and didn't ever get nervous really, yet, I cannot SPEAK in public without freaking out. I seriously was having a heart attack having to read it. We had to read a fairytale we wrote.. We had to turn our lives into this extravagant fairytale that was sooo lame. Mine was pretty dark and sad, and I thought it sucked, but it had good feedback among the other students in the class. It was so funny this one guy I've never talked to before in class, after I got done reading it, people started to clap and he was all "YES!!!" like he just felt the holy ghost or something it was awesome lol.

So I have one more presentation tomorrow first thing in the morning, which I'm not entirely worried about because the class is full of a bunch of freaks anyway. Lol, it's my Magic, Witchcraft & Religions class, and I had to create a religion for my presentation tomorrow. My religion is called "Church of the Breakfast Monkey" thanks to my great friend Robert, who gave me the idea. All the other ones that have been presented are pretty serious, except like too....one was Will Ferrilism and one was Monopolism (Monopoly) they were funny.

I just realized I smell like Hilary Duff. I sprayed her perfume on my friend Chrystal while shopping today, and it like farted on me and now I smell like it.

Well I'm pretty much done with this, finals all next week so I wont be on much, I'll have my nose in my books. I'm especially worried about my Accounting final and my PoliSci final. The other two I dont care about , one we're having like food and watching a movie.

Ok later everybody!

]]> ~AAgainstTTheGGrain http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10919370/ http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10919370/ Fri, 01 Dec 2006 22:46:41 PST
I'm sure the lack there of smoking weed this semester helped...

HOWEVER, i'm sooo stressed out with papers due this next week and finals and presentations and freaking gay fairytales.

I have 2 papers due in my Anthropology class that I have to write this weekend, one paper in Poli Sci due that I have to write this weekend, a paper I missed in Sleep & Dreams because we ditched that day due that I have to write this weekend and Accounting homework out the butt that I have to do this weekend, not to mention finish an account for my mom and do my Christmas shopping. It will definitely be a freaking busy weekend. Then I have finals on Dec. 15th all day long. If I manage to get these papers done and do well on my finals, I should pass every class with an A or B. If I don't get all A's I'm probably going to be pissed.

SO I need to learn some time management overnight tonight so I can work all these papers this weekend.

Wish me luck!!

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]]> ~AAgainstTTheGGrain http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10761563/ http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10761563/ Fri, 17 Nov 2006 23:25:08 PST have to read them, just ignore my journals...

So today, I hate everything. Like early today... I was in SUCH a good mood now I'm as pissy as Anna Nicole without her Prozac.

I hate....
-Stupid girls who can't handle a lecture about the death penalty without crying her eyes out and making a complete fool of herself in front of the whole class... ridiculous... effing hippy. No offense hippy biatches, i love you guys...

-Parents.. Mine totally rock, but sometime they suck... today, they suck.

-it when it says it's going to rain and it doesn't. I get my goshdamn hopes up and then BAM nothing but a cloudy sky and a warm effing weekend to "look forward" to... i hate the warmth, I wish I could live in a cold damp cave. I should be careful what I wish for...

-the guy on tv who just said 'i've never drawn a beaver' because he's ugly and he looks like he smells bad. though his comment was pretty humorous, he's a mongoloid.

-tanasha, this black girl i go to school with - she is 16 and she thinks she's hot shit because she's in college, when in reality she's just cold black diarrhea who has a nasty growth on her cleavage. gah!

-the news anchor on tv who it literally injuring himself trying to do the news anchor voice, he's a freaking asian moron and needs to go work for taco bell..no offense richard... ^^

-the fact that i can't get more watchers...i am greedy and want more lol. who do i have to sleep with to get some watchers? because i'm down, just bend over...do it now.

-that show 'survivor' because they kicked off the girl i know... flicka. even though i KNOW she let those damn chickens go in the first episode on purpose because she's one hell of a hardcore vegan, she should have won because she's from here and she's the coolest bitch ever.

-VEGANS...all I ask it why? we didn't work our way to the top of the food chain to watch cows prance around and be merry.

-EVERYTHING, i hate everything.

sorry, for my annoying rant.

]]> ~AAgainstTTheGGrain http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10750313/ http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10750313/ Thu, 16 Nov 2006 21:14:19 PST
So I'm going w/ my parents to my aunt's house for Thanksgiving... we have somewhat of a disfunctional extended family, so it should definitely be interesting. Even more so, one of my friends, Robert, who's family is in Colorado and he's here for school is going w/ me to hang out for the day. Hopefully my grandma doesn't try to comb his face or anything...she combs her face and makes weird noises. She is crazy.

I try every year to recognize that which I am thankful for.. and it's hard this year I guess... not much has happened.

I'm thankful for my friends and family, my musicianship, and that I'm almost done recording my CD...that's really all of it. I should probably be thankful that I'm alive and that my face isn't like hanging off, that i dont have lepracy and that I haven't died of lung cancer...but there are a million things that i can be thankful for that don't pertain to me really.. so i'll shut up now.

I've gotten more watchers this week, which rocks, i'm so excited! I love it. I'm still addicted to myspace..add that to the thankful for list...I love myspace, and I've gotten re-addicted to DA...

Oh the things I'm addicted to...

Omg this chick on TV has the most annoying laugh I've ever heard, I think I'm going to pry out my ear drums with a plastic spork. GAH.

Today sucked, all I did was homework and ... yah thats all. I had to read almost 300 pages in studying for a test tomorrow. That sucked ass.

Anyway... i'm off.

]]> ~AAgainstTTheGGrain http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10669767/ http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10669767/ Thu, 09 Nov 2006 14:41:56 PST Onarada ...shes amazing, go check her out!

[X]Given a hickey
[X]Danced around in your underwear
[X]Gotten a hickey
[X]Gone to summer camp
[x]Sang into your hairbrush
[x]Refused to listen to a teacher
[x]Cried in public
[ ]Made a perverted snowman
[x]Done splits
[x]Picked flowers from other people's lawns
[x]Walked around in your underwear
[x]Been grounded
[x]Tripped on your feet
[ ]Checked under your bed before going to sleep
[x]Played on a sports team
[x]Spent all day on the computer
[X]Worn black nail polish
[x]Forgotten a birthday of someone important
[x]Had a conversation with yourself
[x]Fallen asleep at school
[x]Lied to a doctor
[x]Been to a slumber party
[x]Had a pillow fight
[ ]Lied about your age
[ ]Made fun of someone to fit in
[x]Stood up for someone who was being bullied
[x]Heard people talking badly about you
[ ]Fainted
[x]Blacked out
[x]Went outside in underwear
[ ]Worn an article of clothing without realizing the tag was still on
[ ] Kicked someone 5 years younger than you
[x]Cursed at a teacher (I got suspended for it O.o)
[x]Cried in front of a teacher
[x]Cursed at a parent
[x]Done drugs
[x]Licked somebody
[x]Called the police
[x]Made a prank call
[x]Stolen something from a store
[x] Said a racist comment and meant it
[x]Made yourself throw up
[ ]Thought you were going crazy
[ ]Doubted your sexuality
[x]Lied to a teacher
[ ]Wished you were dead
[x]Given the finger to a complete stranger
[x] Been to a concert
[ ] Went to school in pajamas
[ ]is your mom an animal?
[ ]Hurt an animal on purpose
[ ]Broken something that was special to someone else because you were mad
[x]Cheated on a test
[x]Copied off of someone else's homework
[x]Sworn at a little kid
[x]Driven while you were drunk (Once I'd never do it again)
[x]Been in a car accident
[ ]Spit in someone's food
[x]Ran away from home
[x]Skinny-dipped
[x]Held a real gun
[ ]Wished someone would die
[x]Been beaten up
[x]Beat someone else up
[ ]Wished someone would be raped
[x]Wondered what the world has come to
[ ]Had a crush on a teacher
[x]Ate so much you got sick
[x]Hurt yourself on purpose
[x]Thrown a glass object so that it broke
[ ]Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend
[x]Kissed someone you hardly knew
[x]Smoked a cigarette
[x]Broken a bone
[x]Bitten someone
[ ]Worn a mini skirt
[x]Made out with someone of the same sex (LOL dont ask)
[ ]Eaten dog/cat food
[x]Stuck gum under a table
[x]Written on a desk at school
[ ]Chewed a pencil
[ ]Spit on someone
[x]Been spit on
[ ]Driven over your lawn
[x]Told your crush you liked them
[x]Skipped class
[ ]Written on a cubicle in a public bathroom
[x]Stayed up all night
[x]Eaten a bag of cookies in a day
[x] Been kicked out of a store
[ ]Put dog/cat food in someone's food
[ ]Refused to pay someone back after you promised you would
[ ]Read someone else's diary
[ ]Sworn at an animal
[x]Tripped in public
[x]Walked into a pole
[x]Walked into a parked car
[x]Found someone much older than you very attractive
[x]Stapled your finger
[ ]Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt
[ ]Found a bug in your cereal
[ ]Been so lazy you wouldn't get up to go to the bathroom
[ ]Fell off the bed
[ ]Peed your pants at school
[x] Watched porn
[ ]Almost drowned
[ ]Had a black eye
[X]Went roller blading and crashed into a bush (kinda...)
[ ]Made fun of someone because they were fat
[x]Snuck out of the house
[x]Dyed your hair
[x]Cut your own hair
[x]Been stung by a bee
[x]Climbed on a roof
[x] Worn gothic make-up
[x]Had a contact break in your eye
[x]Had food poisoning
[x]Had heat-stroke
[x]Bought an article of clothing and never wore it
[x]Cut yourself on a blade
[ ]Fallen on glass
[x]Worn an article of clothing that was lime green
[ ]Eaten a bug
[x]Eaten something that fell on the ground
[ ]Been to a shrink
[x]Had surgery
[ ]Needed braces
[x]Failed a test
[x]Failed a class
[x]Been teacher's pet
[x]Been teacher's least favorite student
[x]Slow danced
[ ]Been afraid of the dark
[x]Seriously thought of hurting someone else
[x]Had a cavity
[x]Been in love

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I'm happy about the House and Senate majority leaders being Democrats, although I've voted and am registered Republican... it's nice for a change because God knows that the Republicans have really been fucking everything up lately. Sadly, back in the day I voted for Bush...I would pry out my intestines with a grapefruit spoon before I'd ever vote for him again.

I'm glad that the abortion act didn't pass...I don't think that the government should have any say in our personal lives...they are too involved as it is. This is supposed to be a free country, but it's not. We're held back by so many laws and regulations that we find ourselves enslaved to the work of the government. I hate the freaking government. I'm excited to see the Democrats rock the house for once, hopefully America will make a change.

It's funny that Donald Rumsfeld resigned, he should flee the fucking country and avoid politics like a "flesh eating plague" (Richard says that lol)...I love that.

Well I'm done now. I need more watchers, I'm depressed, how emo of me. Not.

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Well we get to the graveyard and do that, nothing out of the ordinary like usual, so we decided to drive down Helltown Road and look at the horror movie scene of an area it is... we turned down a road and my fucking truck got stuck, like it wouldnt go the way i needed to go, no matter what i did it kept trying to get me to go more into a driveway...i turned aroudn and my truck just woudlnt do it. We thought we were going to have to like push it out, up a freaking hill..ok i'm fat, yall...it wasn't happening. Resort to the next plan. Lol.

So I had to like back my truck down this hill and punch it, it was so scary I totally pictured like imbreds chasing us down with guns knives and slingshots lol.

It was eventful, we're alive nonetheless.

It should be fun writing my homework assignment.

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I went to a little party at my friend Chrystal's house w/ Robert, Katie, Kelly & Nikko...it was pretty fun, i ate soooo much, like 5 full Butterfingers, some pizza, 3 huge m&m cookies, a bunch of candy, more pizza, sun chips, doritos, and probably a lot more lol...

We had fun tho, I was Jack from the Nightmare Before Christmas, my makeup was fun..

Anywayyyy i'm going to sleep now.

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I just got done with my homework and now i'm probably going to go to sleep. Yet another random journal entry.

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It's almost 3am, but its really 4am, cuz of freaking daylight savings time and all that jibberish.

SO boreddduhhhhhhhhhh.... and there isn't any good porn around. Lol j/k

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Hopefully my guitar meets Dog the Bounty Hunter....he's in Hawaii.

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Anyway, she offered me the chance to make it up completely and bring my grade back up to an A on the paper and in the class. I would have totally made out with her I was soooo happy. But again, she like chicks...she's a major feminist so I was surprised that she even allowed me to redo the paper for any points.

OOOOH
I might go to the CornMaze sunday with Robert & Crystal, I haven't asked Crystal yet, but I should get on that. It should be fun, hopefully we get to go. I LOVE Halloween!!!!

I dont have a costume tho, so that sucks. This year Halloween is going to be gay I think, because I'm not going to San Francisco like every other year and I dont have a costume. If i had some face plaster, a black wig and red face paint I'd be the guy that rides the tricycle from SAW. That'd be cool. They have a mask @ Hot Topic but...It's $40 and I'm a broke mo-fo. I spend all my money on tea and food.

So we'll see what happens....

]]> ~AAgainstTTheGGrain http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10510790/ http://AAgainstTTheGGrain.deviantart.com/journal/10510790/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 19:49:43 PDT
Today, I got a paper back that I worked my ass off on and I ended up getting an F! 57/100, I was sooo pissed. I had one of the highest grades in the class (Anthropology 13 - Magic Witchcraft & Religion) and now I have one of the lowest. It totally sucks, It took my grade from an A+ (I had 103%) and now I am in the high C range. There are only two people with lower grades than I, both with F's and becuase they don't show up for class.

I was sooo pissed. I feel bad though, because I hate it when other people have something wrong and they take it out on other people and I totally put a damper on the mood in my little clich of friends at school. Sorry guys. I know at least one of you will read this.

But yah that was my first F in college. I failed like 2 classes last semester but i withdrew from them before failing. Only because I was a major pot head and would just go somewhere and smoke weed instead of go to school. I didn't care, this is my first F where I was totally 100% committed and worked my butt off for it.

My teacher sucks right now. Stupid lesbian (No offense to you other lesbians, i love lesbians just not her right now.).....

Ok well now my venting is done, I'm over it, I have another appointment with her Friday to talk about rewriting my paper.

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Hopefully I'll get some watchers!

I miss you midnightrose

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