http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ASinGL3R3DR0Se&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ASinGL3R3DR0Se en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 11 Dec 2009 03:58:09 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/25931239/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/25931239/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 22:09:32 PDT
i've been in Cali for about a year

it is summer

i have officially graduated high school

i am going to UCLA in the fall and have been accepted into the school of Arts and Architecture.. which i am pretty happy about

i honestly don't do enough art work. that is why, if you ever saw my work and wondered about it, my techniques are not amazing.
this year especially i did not much photography, because the displacement of moving across the country
in 4 years maybe i'll be better with that stuff

i don't go on dA, but i decided i really am going to try for the umptenth time to at least upload my work

loves to all my friends

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/21705416/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/21705416/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 19:30:41 PST last week i got my first real fashion shoot here in Cali thanks to nisha and can i say it was pretty damn good.
so sexy. is. back.

ps i've decided that the whole uploading things in chronological order is stupid cause i'll always be a year or two behind...

happy thank giving lovies!

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/20696905/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/20696905/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 23:55:06 PDT
i don't even want to touch photography right now, and i almost don't think about art school anymore. it's THAT bad.

i know i'm still trying to upload last year's work. i'm very sorry for that. the move disoriented me way more than i wished, and although I have more time than before, i am not finding time to scan in photos, edit them, and post them. i suck at life, sorry.

...anyways. i'll still be on dA a bit. looking at people's deviations when i remember to. maybe i'll find time to upload the old crap that i created but who knows. as i said, bad artist block.

i'll be fully back as soon as... i don't know when.

thanks for all the support everyone has given me
i really truly appreciate it more than anything

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/19744115/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/19744115/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 22:44:09 PDT
hmm. and i just moved. so i don't have a printer. so only a few photo shoots are up in my mom's lappy, but it's good enough to get us started, non?

i've also been working on some charcoal sketches. i really need an anatomy class... or a model.. maybe i'll just use myself and a damn mirror...
also have to do my parsons challege.... idk how to carry it out now that i am in a whole different place with noone i know or anything. ACK.
i also want to fix my sewing machine and learn how to use patterns...

annyyways. i LOVE YOU ALL. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

and i'm super home sick. and i want to be home. home.



poopoo.

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/18107285/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/18107285/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 18:46:23 PDT check it out i hope you like them. ^^

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/17288743/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/17288743/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 15:35:26 PDT aren't you proud. now i will slowly start posting my photoshoots from this year. color, and black and white... i don't know. it's a pain to have to scan all my black and white photos, but the color are digital and easy to post

should i post color first and b&w in the summer, or post it all sequentially?

i am hopefully finally getting back into deviantart... hopefully.

thanks everyone for all the support you've given me

if i do perchance fall back into the inactive-deviant-er, i apologize,
and if you need to contact me, note me or e-mail me

i love you all!!!

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/14522017/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/14522017/ Thu, 06 Sep 2007 19:16:27 PDT
anyways it took me a while to feel like changing but i've decided not to bombard my deviant watchers with large amounts of photos from one photoshoot.
i will only choose one or two at most three of my favoritests and put the rest in scraps.
just before i've had a hard time deciding which i liked, and i was afraid i would put something that other people would like in scraps..so i would put all of them on and then decide which to scrap at a later date

thank everyone who supports me and boosts up my self confidence

as i said before, if something you want to say is important, note me, or contact me somehow

and for now i'll continue slowly putting on photos from last year



]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/13731492/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/13731492/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 10:37:06 PDT honored

i'm finally back in dA
and within 2 days i have received over 100 views therefore bringing profile to 4000 views

thank you thank you all for uplifting my mood amazingly and giving me more confidence in my work



]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/13724190/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/13724190/ Fri, 13 Jul 2007 18:21:51 PDT
hoping i can play my music on free time and enjoy it
i've been soo iffy about it lately
apart from violin i've basically given up but hopefully i can get rid of that attitude

for art, i'm gonna start posting my early works and work my way forward so i hope you enjoy

and that's all i wanna say except that i hope everyone enjoys summer while it lasts!!!

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/13396211/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/13396211/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 16:00:50 PDT goals this summer:
-de-lazify myself and work on improving dA commitment
-upload every decent damn picture i've got
zy
(i'd love to take gracie up to the offer of using a beautiful scanner but ho, i never see her anymore. maybe next year when i do dance again)

an apology
sorry i haven't been on ...
i love you guys and even though i've stopped checking msgs, your work doesn't get worse and i still enjoy looking at them even if i'm la

contact
note me if there's something important - and something that i should reply to
note me if you want my private e-mail to contact me easier

and a thank you
thank everyone for support even if i don't check this
your comments are still inspiring and they keep me going
love you guys ^^

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/12298910/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/12298910/ Fri, 23 Mar 2007 15:38:36 PDT
i'm going to have to not look at all of the deviations and start over again, sorry!!!

i'll try to get back on dA again i LOVE this place but i'm just crazy bad at keeping with it since it takes up so much time

loves

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11851822/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11851822/ Sat, 17 Feb 2007 07:32:40 PST even more though.. happy vacation
more than that..happy snow!!
mostly today...happy chinese new years!!

i honestly think that valentines is one of the stupidest holidays ever, but i had so much fun that day thx to my boyfriend that maybe it isn't so stupid for the people who have someone to enjoy it with.

anyways he wrote me the sweetest song that i told him i want him to sing to me every day if possible since i love it so much.
and for v day i was planning on writing him a song but i suck at writing music. thank god after us watching the movie, music and lyrics (good movie, btw), i had inspiration to, and i am actually almost done with it. what an achievement...

here are the lyrics :[link]
(don't laugh at them )

appart from that, today is the first day of vacation
although it doesn't feel like it because i still have orchestra...

...later we're going to an expensive japanese all you can eat (that i only went to a week ago for states >< for chinese new years... my brother was supposed to come home but he didn't. i know i'm the annoying little sister but i miss him ><

oh and theres like.. almost a foot of snow.. (actually i dont know how much-but enough for us to have a snow day on v-day )

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11757323/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11757323/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 08:30:35 PST photography

past photoshoots
?/?/05-06 ann. m:ann.
?/?/05-06 barlow. m:john barlow
5/29/06 bathingsuit. m:alexandra
8/?/06 in the summer. m:alexandra
7-8/?-?/06 japanese/taiwanese spontaneous photographs
9-10/?/06 samantha. m:samantha
9-10/?/06 visual expression. m:sarah
12/02/06 pepperment. m:alexandra
12/02/06 the cherry dress. m:bridget
1/13/07 plaid, heels, and yamaha. m:rachel
1/13/07 sillouette of dancers. m:bridget.alexandra
1/27/07 japanese dolls. m:alexandra.bridget
2/3/07 winter. m:rachel
2/4/07 self portrait roll. m:me

coming photoshoots/ideas(??)
-fashion
-lucious lips
-beautiful music
-punk
-lingerie sillouettes
-other
-breaking the boundaries (i have a major idea for what i want to do. it is expressing the problems of society and prejudism by either emphasizing it, or breaking it. ) this idea will be able to be expressed much later in life where i either find a better studio, or build my own when i have dough...

i've realized that i have improved measurable from that bathingsuit photoshoot of alexandra to the sillouettes from my latest work. ..i am actually proud of myself...

drawing
currently nonexistant- except doodles

all commissions/requests i can think of from the past year that i haven't done
-drawings of the drummer+singer from slipknot
-drawing of rammstein
-portrait of my friend gracie
-portrait of my friend joyce
-t-shirt design for the band, defiant hearts

haha... i suck. at this. some requests date back from last year...

non related to art
dramas are occuring and my friends are coming to me with their problems and i love that but what happens when i try helping too many people and it turns out that the friends that worry me are the friends that are now comforting me? that makes me pathetic.
also my friends are dissing my other friends too. and meaning them. that hurts.
appart from that, and the idea of the future with course selections coming up and what not, my life is amazing and
i love my friends and my guy is one of the sweetest things in my life currently
ps. i'm still not over how amazing the battle+state radio was!!!

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11676404/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11676404/ Sat, 03 Feb 2007 20:34:00 PST nope
not funnily at all
omg. i'm happy.
right.yes.

battle of the bands was tonight and everyone was AMAZING
and i got to mosh.. like really mosh- like the first time i moshed, it was me trying to block the people who were bumping into me cuz i didn't know what moshing was.
this time i was in the middle pushing everyone around and i got scratched and got a mini headache from it and it was AWESOME
i voted for livid. i have 3 fav bands in the school. pax, uncleb, and livid. i voted for livid but i knew they wouldn't win since most people don't like screamo but yeahz. jared&froshes got 2nd, pax and uncleb tied for first and i'm soooo happy about that. and yeah. i had an AMAZING time.. like a good friend of mine that i like asked me out ^^

did i say i'm happy?
omg yes.



]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11545421/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11545421/ Tue, 23 Jan 2007 18:32:36 PST
wow i'm really happy i feel like i JUST got to 2000... and now i look at past journal entries.. it was early october... so that's pretty cool.

i'm getting stuff done and i'm slowly gaining confidence...

the other day we had a photo critique and everyone said that my work was impressive and amazing and i'm still glowing with pride from that...

monday graham and i played music for our english party... eheheh... that was fun
oh and the janfest was amazing x3333

today first day of exams i THINK the lowest i oculd have gotten on my chem midterm was... maybe 85.. so i'm psyched.... and after i just went into town with a bunch of my friends.. and it was quite fun

i'm getting over... things and people, i'm helping people feel better, people trust me with things, and that always makes me happy



so starts a new phase of my life.

and a new number on the dA views ^^

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11432668/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11432668/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 09:40:34 PST
that was one of the longest deviantart hiatus i think i've ever had... 50 days...
actually when i first got a dA i had a semi hiatus for half a year until i refound it but that's besides the pointe

unfortunately i dont have the time to look back at all the deviations so i think it's better if i just clear my message box and start looking at them again today.

past few days lots happened but i did alot of things, which makes me feel accomplished



drama:
there is always drama. why is there always drama.
appart from my own drama i feel good though, because i've comforted alot of people within the last week, and although friend troubles is what stresses me out the most, its the feeling that i helped someone, that makes me feel good about myself.

school
-i seriously thought i was failing english today because the big sophomore essay i got a 70 on the final.. but he totalled up my points and i actually have around an 85 for the quarter and i'm soo happy about that.
-math... i've been doing pretty bad in but friday i went to my math teacher for extra help and he pointed out that all my insecure spots are just small things and it boosted my self confidence there too
-i need to work on chem and us history..

in terms of art:
-my second quarter is bursting with some pride in terms of photography. i've done 2 rolls of film that are bringing me closer to my goals of fashion photography, and last night i shot 2 more rolls and i can't wait till tuesday so i can develop them and stuff.
-i've drawn a pic of avenged sevenfold for christian's late christmas present, i'll upload that sometime...
-i have a comission to draw the drummer of slipknot for his little brother so i might do that..
-and i have melissa's late christmas present to do...

fencing:
needs. work.

music:
-unplugged was pretty good, everyone said we did amazing. i guess. we did better than i expected really..i wish more people were there
-i have little confidence in my music at the moment but hopefully i can work to something better
-oh yeah... PIT ORCHESTRA FOR EVITA IS BLOODY THE AMAZINGEST THING ON EARTH!!


I'm supergirl
And I'm here
To save the world
And I wanna know
Who's gonna save me?
I'm supergirl
And I'm here to
Save the world
And I wanna know
Why I feel so alone
-Krystal Harris

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11379660/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11379660/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 19:38:21 PST
um yes. so i still love you guys but i barely go on dA anymore. which is kinda funny since my page is my homepage so every time i open a window its like... 241 deviations 56 messages

life is not fun, i'm acting completely bipolar-crying one moment, hyper the next, and i break down at least once a day

i'm rather sick of everything

so sick of everything.

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11086898/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/11086898/ Sat, 16 Dec 2006 18:30:07 PST





in terms of art...
i've done nothing ..EXCEPT... i'm putting in a t-shirt design for the BOB thing... sam told me that it was due yesterday and i was freakiiinng outtt but nooo it's due next friday so i have a whole nother week to perfect it ^^


ps. i haven't forgotten you guys!! i do look at ur deviations i'm too lazy to comment and stuff.. i haven't deleted any i haven't seen so i can one day spend hours on commenting on deviations from like a month ago XD
currently 103 deviations 21 msgs... oh i'm amazing

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10939086/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10939086/ Sun, 03 Dec 2006 16:42:16 PST i have 57 deviations i haven't bothered to check and 26 messages
i haven't dealt with either not to mention pimping stuff out for people
i turned in a drawing for a contest of alex's about afew hours late
and theres another contest of claires i want to do but dont know if i'm gonna be able to do in time either

what an artist block.

i'm working on my photography though. saturday i had a photoshoot with bridget and alexandra and it was hella fun. the only problem is that to get credit for the things i do i need to show my teacher my photography.. and much of the past 2 rolls.... um. *cough* are going to be hard to print out and show to prifti cuz *cough* theres.... um. alot of skin. harhar. we were having fun
its like a teenage version of "dress up" SO FUN. i just want credit. and not have to embarass 2 of us entirely

and i created another deviantart account.
sorry can't say it!!
thats the whole point- to be able to put on whatever pics and not have people i know know it. so every single picture i put up there has to have not the complete face just to go along with the theme
...anyways... 100 page views on the 2nd day!?!?! SO COOL


so sorry people. i haven't forgotten about you guys!!

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10853377/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10853377/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 06:49:30 PST
my artist block is screwing my over. =/
anyways. i plan to get in my photo hw due afew weeks ago, plan to do alex's lovely contest, plan to do claires too, overdue portraits and requests...
oh gosh.





stole it from sarah. bahaha.

Ok so here's the deal, first 10 people to comment on this journal get pimp'd by me --that is, I say good things about them and their artwork, and advertise [link to] a comple of exemplary pieces-- completely free of charge! Hooray.
One itty bitty thing, in exchange for your ego boost you have to put this in your journal as well, or else bad things will happen. Er... involving giraffes and grapefruit. Ok you know what, don't ask, just do. Anywhoo... comments away!

1)[link] gracie is my beloved white whore-but that is besides the point. she draws cute anime. i think she's very good with colors, color pencils, shading. i also love some of the outfits she whips out like on her dollies. like.. DAMN IT ME WANT, GIMMI
favs: [link]
[link] [link]

2)[link] ok em is one hella girl. she draws amazing anime i remember all the way back in 8th grade where dima saw her sexy drawings and went OMG IS IT PORN- or osmething like that whatevs. her drawings are amazing, and i also rather like those t-shirts she altered ^~ *stares* its very hard to decide favs* oh well..
fav: [link] [link]

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10728152/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10728152/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 20:58:34 PST
i'm in love with the fact that everyone knows everything about everyone at our schooll.. XD
AND i've been made fun of repeately last few days for.. marks lol.......

i'm learning more and more about life
from friends. from experiences. from people. its very interesting.

i've been stressed about schoolwork overload... did like half my hw.. but like... the rest? the important stuff like the 8 page essay i havne't started due friday? oh fuck it.

my friend has just tried to mess with my love life and has made the past two days after i get home completely hellish. i know she did it with good intentions so i'm not exactly mad at her but ahh.. considering that hw and the bad mood = nothing done

i'm with a guy i really like. because we're more than friends.. not "boyfriend and girlfriend" in the sense of something where you treat a relationship like a hook up. its only been like.. a bit over a week but it feels like forever already lol
OOH! and today dentino embarassed us. we were not even pda-ing i was resting on his shoulder and he points to us and bellows "NO CUDDLY CUDDLY (i dont remember his exact phrase lol) ..oh wait. they're just sleeping" and then the whooolllleee jazz band turns and stares at us and so embarassing hahahahaha. like christian and i jump a foot away from each other, and we look at whit who's like laughing at us... etcc... lol



anyways..my friends have constantly cheered me up and i've constantly gotten depressed for various reasons.
thank you- my friends for helping me survive on a daily basis.
thx especially sarah, alex, christian, ally

i love you all

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10597636/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10597636/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 19:57:02 PST
halloween was amazing fun i got to hang out with ALOT of my friends, trick or treating, trying to crash the movie that was going on at grahams house, but it ended before we got there lol, at emerson spinning in circles. it was almost like being high..bad things at the corner of ur mind, ur hyper ur having fun u dont give a shit about much stuff

most of today was great but something hurt so bad that it made today such a bad day...
i've been on the edge and kept snapping.. dont think i realized it until like... after school maybe.. i'm so sick of breakdowns... and fighting with close friends..
(and thanks to those who have constantly cheered me up and giving me advice, like alex, sarahg, samantha, chryssi, amewia..)
argh but sigh. i just.. ugh i dont know how to feel right now

to think if i didn't act i might have never seen your face again..to think i might have lost you...

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10480374/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10480374/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 19:59:26 PDT
i thought of it when i bought my AMAZING thigh high pink stripes socks for my birthday haha

i've had the bottom half planned for a while.. but the shirt i had trouble with... but todayyyy i made it so i'm half way done with it lol

what i'm going for? cute tube top with pink and white stripes
1st try: puny shirt. too much skin exposure...not gonna work
2nd try: i tried doing this thing on the side of it where you cut it and tye it , which made the shirt fit me well, but hell the effect was too much.. its like i had frills going down the sides of me. which.. it looked hawt on the side, i might take a pic, but from the front i looked very fat...
3rd try: screw the frills. i did make a cut in the top which made the top part scrunched up. absolutely cute. time to wait for my mom not to be home so i can steal her acryllics ^^

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10348015/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10348015/ Tue, 10 Oct 2006 13:44:06 PDT
anyways. thanx everyone for 2000 views.. i feel so special ^^

i've got afew art projects i'm drawing in my mind

i have 2 projects for alex's lucky competition [link]
and heres some hints on what i want it to look like
project#1 portrait of lucky

project#2... oh YES u guessed it. YAOI. (if i said it right ^^') i practiced and drew 2 guys kissing and.. showed alex and she stole it right away. so my hopes for a good turn out was lifted

project#3 birthday present to dianna. she doesn't read my dA so she wont know. haha. i can't tell exactly what i wanna draw. i'm thinking about either drawing her, or some really sexy imaginary armenian guy..

project#4 indigena yaxley... an amazing character from my FAVORITE HARRY POTTER FANFICTION ON EARTH. [link] i love it so much more than the real version.. its so amazing. u have to actually read it though, and then u get addicted...the author is really witty and gives us so many clues and false clues on wahts gonna happen next and most of the readers are usually wrong!! (argh) OH. BEST PART? ITS A HARRY POTTER/ DRACO MALFOY

project#5 which leads to my 5th project, a scene with harry and draco naked on a bed (which.. only upper half of the body lol)

i've got some other projects like overdue pics and people i've always wanted to draw...but those can come later...


thank you hentaiko for drawing such an adorable picture for my birthday! [link]
i truly appreciate it. tis the first real time someone drew something for me.

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10318800/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10318800/ Sat, 07 Oct 2006 20:49:40 PDT and yesterday was amazing until the fb game. which fucked up some things. but oh well.

-dianna got me a shirt with hello kitty on it and a golden necklace ^^
-my mom got me a guitar stand cuz i've been bugging her around it.. i'm finally gonna get a guitar strap too
-nora gave me a pretty stone, and OMFG!! A FLATTENED PENNY NECKLACE. I LOOK SO COOL WITH IT!!
-sarah made me a shiny card and got me the book "99 ways to cut sew, trim & tie your t-shirt into something special" which i've been wanting ever since i SAW it!!
-i bought myself 2 pairs of REALLY COOL SOCKS and a bunch of new pins

and i feel special cuz so many people said happy birthday to me. earlier in the week, over face book, phone, im, in orchestra everyone clapped for me, and nora's parents woulda made me a cake if they knew earlier that it was my birthday.

went to fire and ice for dinner with nora and sarah. and also stalked some guy with pink hair and black/green pants with my camera that i shall post a pic of later..

and yeah. wow.

note to self and others: NEVER give julie a full can of monster.

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10256678/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10256678/ Tue, 03 Oct 2006 16:41:42 PDT wake me up when september ends

somehow that song never meant anything to me until i realized that sepember wasn't fun. and for alot of people too, not just me.

(and now its stuck in my head)

anyways welcome to a new month, of millions of birthdays including mine!!!bwahaha
since i feel like doing it now...
3rd- wills birthday today!! HAPPY BIRFDAE!!!
4th- happy birthday tammy!
7th- i can finally say i'm not STILL 14..
9th- Angela's birthday!
12th- happy birthday bridget!!
14th- happy birthday my beloved dianna!
22nd- happy birthday to amelia!!
24th- happy birthday GRACIE!!!!! 0

hahahaha. and to whoever else. but thats all i know..

went shopping with ally yesterday!!
shopping makes me so happy.. i've been deprived for like 2 months!!
i have 2 very hot new sweatshits (guys sweatshirts at pacsun) buy one get one free!! ahh yay
leg warmers, SOCKS, arm warmers, and cute panties! omg hahahah ally and i had fun at victoria secrets...

i can say i learned the guitar part to "under the bridge"up to the chorus... and "tears in heaven" up to the soloy thing ...yeah

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10217479/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10217479/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 16:44:26 PDT
if i tried fitting dance into my schedule i might as well kill myself though.

i'm in two combos for jazz band!! which means 5 credits instead of 2.5... yes. i just sad that i can't play guitar for one of them (playing piano for both)

combo#1: christian, bill hisey, matt gray, moi. i only know christian. oohh well i think i'll enjoy this combo the most out of anything
combo#2: evan taubes, joe guertin, chris sartori, et moi. 3 sophomores 1 freshman completely different group of friends.. cheers.

i WAS gonna in combo with all juniors, the guitarist being that guy from uncle babushka, whom i like the music of. too bad it contradicted with gym... ><

i'm so surprised. nothing intensely good and/or bad happened today. for the past two days, i've been both really happy and ready to kill (i'm sorry for those who had to experience me in the latter)

ooh. also friends again with someone i missed talking to




WARNING
if anyone who doens't like lauren treitman and makes fun of her, and isn't close enough of a friend to me, i WILL get murderously pissed.

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10135131/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10135131/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 17:31:48 PDT today... i started out with four that i had before (although i can't find 2 of them), then i smushed 1, then i smushed 7... or at least i did.. i gave one to sarah and realized one of the 7 was noras. and then on the road to cvs i found 2 others, and then (since i had alott apennies and so i put some on every track) the other train went by, so i ran back and grabbed 6 more... hahahahahahaha...
a guy named nat was like "holy crap how many did you put on!? i put on 3.." then i was like "are you nat?" and he was like "yes. do i know you?" me:"u were on my bus in middle school. and ur friends with lauren."

17 flattened pennies... starting a collection? i'm weird. i know. but its fun. try it some time if u never have before


i'm missing dance like crazy.
i'm listening to HIP HOP music more than rock now.. (err. the soundtrack from step up over and over and over and over again lol..)
bridget taught me part of her dance... which is.. danced to imma shine by youngbloodz... a song from.. step up. and its a good song you should check out
i keep dancing in the hallways/on the streets. and raving. raving is fun. i want glow sticks. and a dance. so i can show off XD
and!!! I STILL HAVE MY SPLITS!! BUYEAH GRANDMA. needa work on them more though i think and get even more flexible ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10114889/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10114889/ Mon, 18 Sep 2006 18:07:55 PDT i regret everything
and i give up.
i'm only in everyone's way ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10043642/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10043642/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 19:25:19 PDT
its like i have power in myself now. i'm going to give everything my best shot, and i'm going to prove myself to the 3 things i love in life. music. art. dance.

i have some confidence. its the weirdest feeling ever. and i'm bouncing like a child because i rarely have confidence and its such a nice feeling.

i've forgiven the guy i've been mad at for about a year. i've told every secret thats been bugging me lately and idk. a huge weight of stress and confusion and worry has been lifted off of me today and i feel like i could fly.

something changed and i hope it stays. ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10022270/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/10022270/ Sat, 09 Sep 2006 18:41:52 PDT
samantha (sarah's little sister) has become a new model of mine ^^

i tried going on my trampoline today and tried doing front flips (i dont know how to do anything) i ended up with a headache and i bit my tongue twice.. but w/e.. i'll get better..

...i'm so dizzy lately, and i get head rushes every time i get up, and i get headaches alot too.. also i gag alot. no clue why. but its getting annoying.

the evanescence concert i want to go to on my birthday is sold out i think

i found out i lost a whole day of pictures(last day of school). which i am not happy about. i can retrieve about only half of them.. (some are online, some are sarah's) thank goodness the best ones sarah took.

and i'm confused as hell about afew rather important things that i need to confront sooner or later


...much better day than yesterday though... ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9980673/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9980673/ Tue, 05 Sep 2006 18:18:20 PDT
school on thursday. i feel like my summer just started... seirously.. with traveling and then accompanying my cousin everywhere, i've only had a full week with my friends and not having to be a host at home.
a summer i spent for everyone else, following people to where they wanted to go, and practically ready to kiss their feet if to please them, and even my friends i saw cuz they missed me.or w/e. then my mom constantely yelling at me for not helping her enough wehre i spent countless hours painting the garage with her, and my dad ocmplaining i didn't study enough where #1 i studied friggin CHEM with no one asking me to and #2 ITS THE FUCKING SUMMER.
and then getting stressed out about the school year... which leads to college which leads to the rest of my life...
i've also given up dance... and taken up afew new things..

but i feel silly complaining
the summer had its highlights too. my cousin and i really bonded afew times. i grew closer with some friends. i saw people i haven't seen from a month to a whole year,

and i felt amazingly accomplished.

i spent like over 3000 dollars on myself in two months

i've drawn so much and improved alot on my artistic skills even though i've been having a mini artist block lately

i've stopped being friends with one. major. asshole. who's ruined enough lives that---i wont start on that

i've basically figured out a whole piano part to a song i wanna play with dianna and janice. (some mistakes.. but it works with the song, and i dont want to spend hours on nitpick details)
only hope - mandy moore its a beautiful song.
BTW I THINK I FOUND A BASSIST... or janice is going to try to learn how... not that its hard...

i painted my garage... or helped.. but hey it was fun

and theres alot more to the list

and altho i'm really not ready to welcome more stress into my life, i can't wait to see everyone on thursday




on the other hand... i forgot about a guitar lesson i reeeaaallly looked forward to... we remembered 2 hours later... i'm SO lucky my teacher is giving me a lesson tomrrow.. i swear i'm so lucky... he's an amazing teacher. ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9797049/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9797049/ Sun, 20 Aug 2006 19:51:33 PDT lime flavored
and absolutely delicous. wish i had a second glass. but no, i think that would be pushing it, i think i was lucky to get one glasss..

i'm such a goody goody. i've consumed alchohal plenty of occasions but i'm nearly always near one of my parents, and i have never gotten drunk before. only slight buzz. which only ends up giving me a tiny headache.


stilll deliciouus margarita.... yum yum yum.

i think tequila's my new fav alchohal. still in love with rum, but tequila tastes so much better..

(tequila was the thing in teh margarita) ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9775393/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9775393/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 19:19:57 PDT amazing fun.

my brothers appartment
my first night consisted of drunk boys and their girlfriends until 1 or 2 in the morning...good grief.

i like crashing at my brother's place. its always filled with music and breaking and joking around and some alchohal (i didn't have any!! my brother would have killed me maybe. actually idk. this once he was like "have u ever been inviting to drinking parties?" andi 'm like "no.. i've never gotten drunk before" and he's like "oh." idk if what he means by that)

first observation: "wow luke, i dont see a SINGLE non alchohalic drink here.."

shopping!!
i've spent nearly 200 dollars not including food. ummm. oops?

apparently i was only supposed to recieve 100 dollars...

but i got 240... so hey.... why not...spend.. it.... i'm a shoppaholic, i know.... .........

basically everywhere i've gone (shopping places included!)
-33 gold street (bro's appartment)
-south port(shopping)
-5th avenue(shopping)
-a japanese restaurant
-canal street(shopping)
-china town(shopping)
-soho (norho too maybe?)(shopping)
-brooklyn
-something island
-dimsum!!
-museum of modern art (omg. i saw starry night or w/e by vangohhhh and tis SMALLL. still beautious though)
-34th street/broadway(shopping)
-teh korean alley (korean bbq mmmm)
-on a ferry!!! we saw night view of ZE manhattan
-central park
-a mall next to central park (shopping)

....haha thats alotta shopping ^^'

art
i have about 3 requests pending.
-rammstein
-gracie
-joyce
omg. i found.(one found by my amazing sarah, andi found the others off of that site) afew amazing galleries of male artistic nude.. mainly for anatomy learning, cuz drawing girls are diff than drawing guys.. obviously

music
OMFGLIKE WTFBBQ!!!1! I GOT ACCEPTED INTO THE ORCHESTRA I WANTED TO BE TODAY (was on the waiting list) I DONT KNOW HOW. I FUCKED UP SO BAD AT THE AUDITION BUT I GOT IN I GOT IN I GOT IN I GOT INNN(ITS THE BEST ORCHESTRA IN LONGY)
and i was about to give up on violin too.. except maybe small requests by my friends which i'll suck at but w/e

and still dreaming about really playing music for real. watch for me in unplugged and battle of bands this year!! (or just in the auditions where i dont make the actual thing ><

oh. i'm sure u loved my ranting.

..bwahahahaha. ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9630224/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9630224/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 19:32:04 PDT day one
today is the first out of 5 art anatomy classes
i learned quite a bit. but i only got about like half the information >< >< and then there are all these muscle names that i dont know and will NOT be able to memorize!!
its still a nice class, for half of it, we get to draw a real nude model. its like an amazing feeling, just sitting there and drawing the model. i've always wanted to do an art anatomy class, and do it all traditionally and sutff with the model and etc.

someone liked my outfit out today. very eye catching. she was a nice lady with bright bright red hair. i told her i was interested in fashion design

i like the teacher. teacher doesn't like me. he teachers pretty well. but ok. this REALLY pissed me off. he went to EVERYONE. he either gave them comments, compliments, or critiques, etc right? EVEYRONE. but me. i WATCHED him go to everyone but me. i dont even know WHY. its not even like a was a tiny girl tagging along with my mother the art proffessor just to waste time. i PAID to take the course so he should have even acknowledged me..right?
or am i totally wrong.
that. just. pissed me off.

---

day two
yesterday we learned about the ribs, today we learned about the leg and foot
my mom talked to him during break and he paid much more attention to me during the drawing sessions. he told me mom he thought i was contended
i dont get that. but oh well. i still like him as much as i did before, which is quite alot, but it makes hell alotta difference to get critique. i shall post some of these in scraps, maybe even deviations if they please me enough.

---

day three
so our teacher, alex, is in the hospital with a blood clot >< i hope he's ok. i nearly fell asleep during the teaching session, but began eating, so felt slightly better.
our sub, ellen did things a bit different. usually we have 10 or 2o min sessions, but today we did some 5 min session warm ups. and i have to say, out of today, i am most proud of my 5 min sessions. i just... drew. its like. i didn't bother with porportions or details, but sketched, and the porportions turned out nearly perfect, and i finished theses sketches in 3 mins and even ahd time to do some shading. like whoa. fuunnN!!!
and then like i just felt. proud of myself for once. that i could draw.
i was looking at the negative space, and using that, and then the sub was like "make sure you look at the negative space if things look a bit funny" and i'm like PSHHAWWW YESS!! *pow pow* I DID THAT!!!
except. not out loud lol.
and then the sub critiqued alotta people but she gave me mostly positive comments and i just felt good about myself i guess.
and i finally let some people know my age. and i realize there are i think 3-4 highschool students. i thought there were only 2. but the guy i thot was like 20 something but he turned out a junior, and this girl idk if she's in high school or not, she looks 20 something too.....

art class makes me self confidence go up.
time to do some portraits i've always wanted to do
-rammstein
question is. i realize they look totally different on stage and like off stage. should i draw the singer who's like. if everyone sees that singer, they'll know its rammstein with that make up and outfit 0.o but i also found these pretty nice photographs of like the indevidual band players so should i draw those instead, or too? hellp me!

-this model i saw on my mom's victoria magazine

-some friends.
give me a pic and i can try drawing it. may not turn out good but I WANT PRACTICE!!

requests?

-----
day 4...

teacher's back and looks perfectly fine!!!
learned about the arm and hand today. tis like wha?
i didn't fall asleep in class today. or even near it. i just kept eating yummy bluberry morning cereal to keep me awake.
until i found a bug in it.

i did 3 sketches today, the first one is bloody HORRIBLE, but the second one i think is the best i've ever done. someone came up to me and commented on it "blah blah blah ur really good at drawing figures, and i love the soft tones etc etc" made me bounce. i think i acutally did bounce a bit
hte 3rd one wasn't great but wasn't bad either...

shoe broke today. both shoes. in taiwan, you can get a pair of shoes for 100 taiwanese dollars (around 3 american dollars)
goddamn $3 shoes that i LOVE. broken already. maybe i can save it by some super glue fun, but who knows

watched bring it on 3 with my cuz and lauren. was the worst of the movies but hell, i liked the dancing as always

did i say i painted 2 shirts yesterday? one turned out AMAZING. and i love it even more than my butterfly shirt!!!
gu... ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9504401/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9504401/ Wed, 26 Jul 2006 18:54:23 PDT < haven't started on the deviations yet.. i hsould delete the stock photos

so happy today i got to see nick!! and i saw joshie chan too! and i'm seeing ally 2morrow!

yessy yessy

ooh btw my hair changed. drastically. but i wont describe it for kicks
cousin: you did your hair!! in taiwan or japan??
dad: who the hell are you? (but more polite)
nick: i like your hair *hug*
josh: i dont remember if he said you have different hair, or i like your hair. but he looked so polite in front of nicks mom 0.0

fwee and thats all the reactions i've got from people soooo farrrr


i dont think that making an unbelivably long entry on how i absolutely adore adore adore japan and kyoto and gion and that i shall def live there someday because I LOVE THAT PLACE.
but i studied some people and fashion. is taht weird? peopel watching. def weird but fun. i ahve ALOTTA PICS. all the galls look like absolutely over decorated dolls, and the hottest guys wear girly clothes

can i say i saw an old man in high heels?

or an old lady with blue hair? and an old lady with purple hair?

and two guys and flowery tight shirts, ripped tight pants, pointy flowery shoes, and girly hairstyle? (damn it, i didnt' get a pic of them, they walked by too quickly)

have anime freaks ever asked u whether or not a character in a manga was a girl or guy just to see what u thought?(i have done that before) i always wondered why manga artists drew guys like girls. now i know why. alot of them LOOK like girls.

going to japan was like living right out of a manga. its bloody AMAZING.

and taiwan was fun, but sad when i needed to say goodbye to my family, especially my grandmother, who i love and admire, (one of the most famous artists in taiwan) but she's getting older and idk how long she'll stay.. >< >< ><

so glad to be back. lol when i was with nick in town. i must have said about 50 times "wow there are so little people here.... i love it here"
hahahaha ^^' ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9493173/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9493173/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 18:25:30 PDT from japan.
and it was AMAZING.
but i can't be on long.... so i'll talk about it lover
just that i LOVE JAPAN.

i'll be checking msgs slowly... 150 msgs. blarglye

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9309916/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9309916/ Sat, 08 Jul 2006 08:32:57 PDT ~if a girl wore that outfit in taiwan, people think "holy crap that girls gonna get sexually harassed or raped"

thats an impression u get from the clothes they wear, and how one day when i accidentally went out in my pajamas (an all black outfit >< and before i even spoke my chinglish, everyone's like either glaring at me, or going.."you're not from taiwan are you...american?" (i wasn't even wearing a slutty outfit...khakkis sphagetti strap and fake converses)


~american labels like to be different. look different, have differenter unique clothings. this gets them money- bling yo.
~taiwan is always imitating big labels. 9/10 cafes i see look alot like starbucks. i've seen millions of girls dressed in burberry plaid, and millions of burberry plaid on the streets sold for like 10 taiwan dollars (30 cents?). this gets them money-bling2,yo.

~damn america has a crap load of variety
~taiwan is all asians. a sea of asians. i'd begun counting all non-asians i saw...so far 26 out of my whole trip. i've told my mom i was counting them, and instead of scolding me for being racist, she joined the count. "hey julie, there's an american over there!"



i have a cd by seether now. which is absolutely snap

ooooh and i've begun writing a new guitar song. which is supposed to be measuarbly harder than my first 2.5 songs. who knows..maybe i'll write lyrics- or does anyone wanna write lyrics for me?


i miss my friends so much ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9258500/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9258500/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 08:27:22 PDT random differences between taiwan and us

if ur a really small size clothes in america, your probably large or something in taiwan

we wait for everyone to get off the subway before getting on, they have this thing where people enter the train on the sides, and people get out at the middle... it gets a bit messy

the cars don't usually slow down for you to cross the street.. i already expected that but i nearly got a heartattack twice

THERE IS A SHOE BRAND NAMED KAWAII.. HOW KAWAIIII!!

this is so annoyingly ironic, it's funny...
here's a fashion....
fake converses.
friggin hell so for like a really long time i've been wanting converses but they're so expensive... and then i think ohh when i go to taiwan... must buy because they will be much cheaper. then i go to taiwan i see all these poser converses EVERYWHERE. one brand even copied the freaking star on the side. so i look for days for real converses..i begin to think that taiwan don't even know what converses ARE... and finally give in and i get these poser converses. the next place i go 2 seconds later.... badabababa!! CONVERSES!

more later. mom yelling at me to go to sleep. i dont think it would be a grand enough argument to say that it's 11:22 in MA.. ><


on the other hand. how much does it suck.. one day i had a cold, headache, jet lag, bad mood, 5 bug bites, and other annoying factors

miss my friends >< >< >< hope everyone's having fun.. ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9208817/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9208817/ Wed, 28 Jun 2006 10:14:14 PDT how cool is that
i haven't been to taiwan since like 5th grade or something
tai cou!

i tried counting all the seven11s but they're as infesting as dunkin donuts and mcD combined

i got my first bugbite alreay

soon as i came out of the airport a SERIOUS wave of heat came and i couldn't breathe for a bit (DAMN YOU PEOPLE FOR BEING SO SMELLY)

and yeah i have internet so everythings faaiiinnnee ^^

so freaking sweaty and needing to speak in chiense 24/7 ahhh

peace *fob sign* ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9170984/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9170984/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 16:50:10 PDT RIGHT NOW I AM THROWING OUT ALL MY BIOLOGY STUFF.
TAKE THAT YOU BLOODY SHEETS OF SPAM!! *stomps on it*

my friend burned all of his bio and shcool stuff in 2 hugeass bonfires lol XD

actually i'm keeping all my quizes. i can just imagine some day if i have a kid she'll be telling her children that i got a 12% on one of my biology quizes XD


wow this is so satisfying

and omg. so i got one of my fav shirts dirty when i dyed my hair back in febuary, and today i did some modifications... it looks vaiiirr cool now. from a regular white long sleeve with a crew neck top to.... u guys will see monday if u guys go ^^ ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9159936/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9159936/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 14:00:20 PDT
damnfreakinghell i got an 80 raw score(86.3 curved) on my bio final. i thot i got around a 90 raw... but fucking hell no.
sry. shouldn't be mad, i didn't even get a bad grade...but it still wasn't what i thot it was..

one more day left of school. and it wont be anything other than hanging out with friends and taking zillions of pics ^^. who's gonna be there e and f block cuz im' skipping them.. therefore my schedule will be

a:free b:french c:math g:bio d:free e:free f:free h:ss

also gonna go to the BOB if possible

going to TAIWAN on tuesday.. comming back july 25th
people better miss me ^^
i think i'll still have internet there though, so i'll be on ^^

WHOA IT'S RAINING LIKE HELL RITE NOW. SICK SICK I WISH I WAS OUTSIDE. BUT MY MOM WOULD KILL ME. earlier when it was raining i was outside, but the rain wasn't this hard, and my mom wasn't home.. WAH

..OO THUNDER! ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9077169/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9077169/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 12:59:06 PDT was so confused tuday on what to think and how to act. should i pretend to be strong, should i not be sad, should i be sad, do i have a good enough reason
i CAN say that i have been emotionally stronger that nearly everyone who felt close to him. i've only sobbed my eyes out for him twice, and one was when i first realized that the person my mom said died was the person i knew, and the second time was during his wake.
today... i'm not incredibly sad, i was this morning, but my day wasn't that bad, and my friends cheered me up even if most of them didn't know i was sad,
he's just... been on my mind.. and has been all day. and he wont get out of my mind either... ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9056623/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/9056623/ Tue, 13 Jun 2006 12:10:12 PDT
[link]
i did it in frenzy to understand why e block and h block didn't exist on my schedule, and whats else was wrong w/ it
...so no h block next year...

need schedule change.. .need to figure out y i dont have chem, and i'll die if i dont get out of that french class..with that teacher....
so appart from french and chem, what classes do we have together?
(any?!??) ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8990384/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8990384/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 15:39:08 PDT
that sounded really whiny. but sometimes i hate my work.
its like i need constant reassurance that i dont suck at creating art. which is totally weak.

please look at it at least? ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8960327/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8960327/ Sat, 03 Jun 2006 14:48:39 PDT i shall not see my my beta scanner, dearest sarah, till monday.. so the picture wont be up till then..maybe.

but for now.. a preview taken by my camera

[link]

critique!!
ooh. compare to [link]

i'm not sure if it looks like him.. it looked more like him when i started drawing him.. but i tried to use colored pencils... and now it kinda looks like any other goth... idk?


and its raining outside!!!!

lol OMG i took my SAT II class...i think im gonna cancel.. i really want to see my score, but i dont think i did well...and if i wait till my score, i cant cancel it, and colleges will see the score.... and if i do cancel it, colelges wont see the score, but i wont know t.... damn damn damn so hard to choose >< ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8952812/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8952812/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 18:34:39 PDT ...marilyn manson

he looks scary. thats y i want to... lol all my celeb drawings so far have been hot, glammy (some fake) people like... johnny depp, alicia keys, avril lavigne, jojo, orlando bloomish, britney spearsish, jessica simpsonish....
no rock goth emo metal goth deathy people he can be the first lol ^^

here are 2 pics i found while procrastinating...

[link]
except a bigger version cuz i cant find the one i saved onto my comp and without the fiancee person

[link]
like.. pretty jewels.... 0.o


i've had beautiful people stuck in my head since this morning when i listneed to it on my mp3 player ( i got zen nano plus yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^)

fwee and now i'm listening to it.. the beautiful people, the beautiful people oohhh hey you whaddoya see.... etc etc...

yea. totally procrastinating. i think i deserve a break... i studied ALL of english and inbetween english and gym... and when i got home i studied for like... 4 hours.... i even fell asleep on my flashcards afew times!! >< so stressed.. ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8932495/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8932495/ Wed, 31 May 2006 16:47:36 PDT
and like whoaa today was amazing


anyways...i created a purevolume
[link]

i only have one piece on there.. i wrote it on monday recorded it yesterday and posted it yesterday
i have afew songs going on.. but they're not ocmplete, and they're not recorded, so i cant post htem but i will sooner or later ><
listen! and comment! ^^

heh. yeah i feel like i should have been "butterflywings" cuz thats my main penname. but w/e/// butterflywings is officially for just writings. and unfinished ending can be a music name. w00t! ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8912436/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8912436/ Mon, 29 May 2006 14:36:40 PDT
saturday i just studied and suntanned..learned how to play
the general - dispatch
dust in the wind - kansas
on the guitar... 0=]

sunday i planted pumpkin seeds with sarah melissa avi kerry and angela...we also ran around in the mud, danced around, ate alot of pizza, suntanned, and talked...hence my poem called "freedom"
sunday night i got asked out by a friend that i liiikee ^^

today...like whoa i have a model willing to let me take millions of pictures of her...well it was mainly for her photoshoot, but we had some fun and took nearly 40 pictures, i think...
and we were totally one with nature by sudberry river..such a beautiful place..
so my next few deviants are probably gonna be of her... i love you ally!!


]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8895154/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8895154/ Sat, 27 May 2006 17:38:47 PDT when i got up, i did some stretches and went suntanning while reading gossip girl book 4 for an hour. i feel sllligghttly darker lol
experimented with layering my hair the way they do it in the hair salons, so now i have muchos more dramatic layering, but u cant really tell much of a difference. ><
i have bangs now though. and next time i got to CVS i'm getting some more fuschia hair dye to try to dye my hair again. hopefully it will turn out lighter than last time
i have avoided all hw, slightly studied for SATs, and havne't practiced violin yet

alltogether a pretty good day lol

i have a new story in my mind. (again julie????)
but guess what
this time i'm gonna make sure none of my major characters die. *everyone laughs and almost sarcastically congrats julie like "whoa thats pathetic that you even need to even restrain urself from killing someone"*
so what happens when a classy, bright poet falls in love with a really sexy spanish latino lad who's life revolves around violence, sex, and drugs?

hmmmmm. lets see how far will julie go with this before she ditches the story... ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8856231/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8856231/ Tue, 23 May 2006 16:51:13 PDT
not proud at. all.

art means poverty in our house and this world.

it has no meaning comparing to getting an award in math science or wc/c.

i'd much rather have gotten a high honors award.

i think i might be getting my first C this year.
in one of my favorite and best subjects.
y?
i got a 67 on a really large math project.

and i am going to get a C on the ss project. i can tell.

i think i got B- / C on the SS test today

i pretty sure i got low B/C on the French test today.

im not good enough to mean anything. i think if i were a color, i'd be a really ugly brown. a bunch of really pretty and bright paint colors over-mixed to form that ugly brown that you get in elementary school

eewwwww sorry i'm complaining.
my latest poem describes a bit more of it.
but i dont know if people can see it. deviant art isn't nice when it comes to submitting poetry/prose ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8829136/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8829136/ Sat, 20 May 2006 20:19:17 PDT today was AWESOME

cast B performance, no mess ups at all!
sarah, tali, em, kristen came to watch us
MA VIE EST DANSER
M LIFE IS TO DANCE
I LOVE WEST CONCORD DANCE ACADAMY
shop till you drop! '05-'06

heh. afterwardds i went to macbeth muchos friends there..carolyn polly mat avery were there nick mike and some of their friends
holy crap macbeth was intense and gooood. i can be called a nerd for this, but i love shakespeare!!

david jubinsky is siicckkk. ^^ best drunkard I know.


ditched it after a bit cuz i was WORRIED when SOME people didn't show up ><, so i couldn't pay attention to the show.

lol during intermission, mike and nick dissapeared and like ditched me, and so i was asking josh where nick was.
josh: nick rideout?
me: yahh.
josh: i dont know any nick yahhs. whos nick yahh.
me: ...
josh: is he nick yahh the one u went to the football game with?
me: um. ....???

c'est a happy little josh story for the day lol

but so i ditched it and ended up hanging out with 2 hott guys ^~
which reminds me of 2 random things

I LOVE TIES! em made my headband into a tie on friday and i was like WHOA I LOVE TIES

ON MONDAY I CAN OFFICIALLY CLIMB TREES/ROOF AGAIN!!! (dance is over on sunday so i dont mind breaking a leg or w/e)

]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8751768/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8751768/ Fri, 12 May 2006 16:56:43 PDT this is swhat 4 hours of guitar brings me
but
i fnished
my song.
guitar part and voice.
i know what everythings ognna sound like.. sorta
just need to do some fine tuning on some parts... see if avery can do some drumming...

i'm not relaly sure if i like the song
somehow i feel like i could do better
but. this is good enough i guess
next thursday when i bring my guitar i'll play it



ooh. yay. my mom just ruined my whole mood. by telling me to clean my room. and when i told her i wrote a song. she was just liek "oh. um. go clean your room" >< ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8733295/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8733295/ Wed, 10 May 2006 18:11:25 PDT *glares*
i spend like 2 hours coloring in this really cute picture.
but NOOO the monitor is SO Fucked up.
this laptop i'm using is like good... and every time i do a pifture on the comptuer and bring it over to my laptop, EVERYTHING looks fucked up big time. so i have to fix all the problems. on the computer, the tones are purplish blue, and its like 95% perfect to me.. as soon as i see it on this laptop, some lines are stronger than others, and its patchy, one eye is a different color, some strokes are very well defined.. and the tone isn't baby colored purplish blue but this weird blue...
i dont htink i have enough space on this laptop to install adobe photoshop since THAT screen is SO FUCKED UP

here is what i have rite now... gah! *stabs computer* 2 hours completely wasted. [link] ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8732185/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8732185/ Wed, 10 May 2006 16:16:10 PDT
photo goals..

some point, i wanna get at least one good picture of all my friends...the hardest part is ALWAYS convincing them to let me take a picture of them ><

ooh and i got a willing model! (ally) *bounces in delight*

hmm and if possible i REALLLLLLYYYYYY wanna photograph my brother...like whoa. i've got afew ideas for him..like if he's doing some break freezes...
which leads to a whollee nother idea

DANCE! ballet.. breakdancing... i could have access breakdancing if i beg my brother on my hands and knees..maybe..
ballet... there are some people in my dance class that i REALLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY wanna take photos of... too shy to ask them..maybe ally and bridget and lynette..

^that was a happy rant ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8713241/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8713241/ Mon, 08 May 2006 17:34:58 PDT <

dana - color in on adobe.. or should i just used colored pencils.. 0.o

romeo and juliet - english project... hmm... coloring in with pencils, and then scanning in to edit on adobe, and then use some brushes by one of my fav artists..

rebel angel - hahaha did it in shcool during ss class...

dancer - same style as rebel angel.. i did it b4 rebel angel.. in.. french bio and english class ^^

...man... thats not even it.. but those are my main projects...

ooh and then there are the 2 guitar songs i'm trying to write, and the song that sarah commissioned me to tab where i have so far only gotten the intro and some of the verse..

><

so much hw and SAT studying and projects... no time to do what i wanna do... ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8701222/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8701222/ Sun, 07 May 2006 13:43:44 PDT
brother is too good. julie is fxing jealous by his insane skills.
and every time he comes home he comes back with a girlfriend so he cant really teach me any ><

pah i wanna break. i only know stuff like coffee grind, 6 step clicking, turtle freeze, side freeze, some raving, glow sticks!, random stuff...
n00b stuff... ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8697823/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8697823/ Sun, 07 May 2006 06:39:26 PDT
btw the song the Devian sings is this half song half poem i wrote about hell

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Behind the large brick building, a young adult stood alone, clandestine among the rest of the people playing in the game of life. Her long black frizzy hair covered most of her face, and warm gloves from the chilly night covered her skinny hands, and her fingers tightly grasped a half-smoked rock. She lifted it to her mouth and inhaled deeply until her chest felt as if it were on fire. Then she exhaled, and the smoke made elegant curves and twists out of her mouth and fading into nothing. It felt good. Way too good. She took another drag.

Life was so awesome like this… just staying high all the time. She never had to worry about the money or all that other shit adults dealt with.

It’s just her, her medicine, and her music.

She was addicted to crack, and she didn’t bother to fight it. She also loved ecstasy, it helped her drum playing, because she had so much more energy; more fuel in her body to play the heavy beats and all that awesome shit.
Yeah.

She felt bit giggly after the 6th drag, and started laughing uncontrollably. Fuck life, man, it’s worth nothing, its bull. She was laughing, cause she knew she was crazy to live when it was cruel to her.

“Sporgy, yo sweetheart. You in da clouds again. Look, we got a set in 10. Get the fuck up.” A young guy in his early 20s opened a rusty door from the building behind her. He had shoulder length hair, tattoos down his arm, and pierced ears. His breath had a small aroma of beer, but it wasn’t strong. He wasn’t about to screw up singing in front of a crowd of fans for beer.

“MmMmpfh… fuck off, you mother fucker!!” shouted Sporgy waving her hands wildly in the air.

“God, you’re glad I know you’re like dis all time, or else I woulda beat cho ass already.” The guy picked up the girl from the floor and set her on her feet. She brought the roll of paper to her mouth for another drag when the guy interrupted her.

“Get rid of it, you’re already high enough.” He said almost brotherly.

“Devien! Just fuck off already.” Sporgy glared daggers at the guy, and he shrugged.


In habit, she took the burning paper and stuck it on some bare skin at her wrist. She enjoyed the burning feeling… the pain felt good; it was all too welcomed. Then Devien knocked the butt onto the ground, and the pain immediately lessened.

“How many fuckin’ times do I hafta tell u not to do that? You’re trashed, man. But, god, do you expect me to pick up your pieces every single time? Come on, set’s in five.”
“Yeah… set’s in five damn minutess…GOT IT? WE’RE GONNA ROCK THIS PARTY, BITTCHES!”

They went in the back door as Sporgy took a sip of beer, and swallowed a pill.


“1, 2, 3, 4!” Sporgy shouted and the music blared on from the other players in the band. Bandi, the bass player stood calmly, nodding to his own beat, while Kass, the lead guitarist rocked his heart out. Devien took his own place in the middle, and Sporgy started hitting the drums so fast and skilled, it was as if she knew how to drum since she was born.

“You don’t want to believe it
But somehow, you know,
You know it’s not part of your imagination.
Are you sorry yet?
You’re still falling, and you can’t stop falling,
And you only fall faster,
And lives and years pass on fast forward,
But there’s nothing you can do...”

Devien’s sweet, saddened voice turned angry, and full of hate as the song progressed. They captured the audience’s attention, and half, just sat by their table, entranced by the music. A bunch of teenagers were drinking beer, and at the same time, dancing on the floor, and having a fun time creating a mosh pit.

Sporgy’s band played a few more songs after the first one, then got off stage. Screams and applause loud enough to hear far away finished their day in pleasure as they took their bow.

Later, they were all at the bar, sitting around a table. Sporgy was leaning on Devien again, smelling the sweet scent of smoke in his hair. They chatted about their hit singles, their fame in this small world, their new songs, and their up coming recording for a CD.

They all drank about six-seven bottles of beer, spending a few hours of their time just with each other. It was around one in the morning when the bartender finally shoed them away.

“Sho whosh gonna pick up the damn car? We all sho drunk..dangeroush.” Kass slurred, and had another sip of his near empty bottle... ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8685241/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8685241/ Fri, 05 May 2006 19:39:33 PDT ...DDR!!

hahaha went to the acton bowladrome with a bunch of freinds today.. nora got 40 quarters... i had like 8... so its DDR TIME!!
i was like dripping in sweat all over by the time we were done and no one wanted to hug me or nora

but we kicked ass(ish)... like.. we got C's, D's, and E's with 5-7 feet.
^_^

AyIAYIAYI i'm ur lito butterfly, green black and blue like the colors in the skyy..

or..as gracie and i always sing... FALLING IN LO-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-VE... DAM DARRIAM DARRIAM DARRIAM...

XD ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8664203/ http://ASinGL3R3DR0Se.deviantart.com/journal/8664203/ Wed, 03 May 2006 16:33:22 PDT <
probably going to... this time ima bring my electric..only gonna bring the guitar tho..
*looks aroud* anyone wanna bring an amp and chords? 0=] ]]> ~ASinGL3R3DR0Se