http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:AbbeyLiz&section=today deviantART RSS for by:AbbeyLiz en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 16:28:47 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/27614564/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/27614564/ Tue, 06 Oct 2009 12:38:00 PDT i miss the silly stuff we laugh about the most. am i stupid for thinking you might love me as much as i love you? are there too many blockades and hurdles?
i'll break through them all. because you're worth it. a zillion times over. because you're the most amazing girl i've ever met, even if you don't believe me; maybe someday you'll believe me.. i never want to be the guy you're afraid of hurting. i dive into things fully aware of the possible out comes.
i'm sorry, i know you're either asleep or preoccupied. don't feel pressured to respond. it's just what i've been thinking about. sleep tight abbey." - josh jones <3

i wish i could tell you that you're perfect, josh; i think so.
but every time i try to say it the words just don't seem to fit.
i love you :] <3

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/26303650/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/26303650/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 18:01:21 PDT Remember when we hadn't met yet? neither do i.. ;]
Remember when we told scary stories in my barn attic in the pitch black?
Remember when we used the Ouija board and made wax fingerprints, thinking it would make it work better?
Remember 'you shuduna dun that! he's just a boy!'?
Remember sliding under the trampoline and getting water poured on your head?
Remember how in love we were?
Remember living in the pool every day of the summer?
Remember dreaming of having our licenses and how far away that seemed?
Remember running through the woods pretending to be animals?
Remember teaching our cats to 'fly'? ;D
Remember our mosh pit with our $20 strobe light and only four people?
Remember napping in the grass everyday after school?
Remember the first time i stayed over your house?
Remember playing 'four corners' in the playroom?
Remember popping bubble wrap and having our own 'houses' in your dad's barn?
Remember 'quarry, rock, rock, quarry, quarry, rock'?
Remember staying up all night when we were kids, just to see what it felt like?
Remember talking in chat rooms pretending like we were 16, and thinking that was old?
Remember when we slept in a tent in your back yard in the pouring rain?
Remember when we watched Avatar every day of our lives for three months? haha
Remember when we decided we were going to dress up to see the live action Avatar movie? haha
Remember when you didn't live with me?
Remember when we went camping in your yard, and neither of our mothers knew? i only told two people.
Remember when we used to take turns playing Halo 1 in the office until at least 5 am? in the times i wasn't playing, i would read the Warriors books.
Remember when we were horribly obsessed with the Warriors books? now its Redwall.
Remember when you me and my dad went to see Jurassic Park III?
Remember when me and Caitlin lit news paper on fire and put it in your yard while you were in the other room? hahah
Remember my first time drinking?
Remember the pizza we made with a whole clove of garlic? and Chad ate almost all of it. haha
Remember the fireworks at Winnipesaukee and how long they went on for?
Remember when you fell asleep on the tree and fell off, and i couldn't stop laughing?
Remember driving around during the ice storm and thinking it was the apocalypse?
Remember when we climbed out on my roof and drank mike's hard and had an endless conversation on life and the universe?
Remember when i had chickens?
Remember Willie?
Remember playing the color game in the pool at midnight?
Remember when we decided that we had so much in common that we needed to hang out again, and never did? i'll call you soon.
Remember Christmas at your house when you just got Jake and i thought he was a toy?
Remember Vannessa's bridal shower?
Remember Sox?
Remember in fourth grade when i missed two weeks of school because i had to drive to Pennsylvania and back a two times?
Remember our family reunion in Canada and how much fun that was?
Remember when we hunted our own grouse and then cleaned them and dissected them and laughed at how small the brains were?
Remember helping Grandma make the deer steak cabobs and how grossed out you were?
Remember when your car got hijacked and we almost killed them? ;]
Remember the first day we met and how much my life has changed since then?
Remember when we went to the park and went on the swings with only our bathing suits on?
Remember whe mom almost killed us when we brought the bearded dragon home? haha
Remember when we saw aliens in the back yard? hahahah
Remember how long it took for our xbox to red-ring? :[
Remember that night we stayed up for hours making up smiley faces? [|:]
Remember when i dropped my phone in the toilet at your beach house?
Remember when your family loved me?
Remember when choir boys were sexy? haha
Remember when Helen Keller was woebegone?
Remember playing 'Apples to Apples'?
Remember the snakes?
Remember spending every day of our summer in my computer room playing Guitar Hero? :] i miss those days
Remember sitting on the rock in the field, swatting mosquitoes, but tolerating them because the clouds were so beautiful?
Remember when you asked me to meet you at your house late at night? and i did
Remember when we were candy junkies? ;]
Remember our flower salads? with pink lemonade dressing? hahaha
Remember how we unknowingly put poisonus leaves in our flower salads? hahahaha
Remember playing Sims 2 for seven hours straight?
Remember when lizards were snakes..? or when were snakes lizards? haha
Remember how everytime we brought another animal home, mom swore it was the last one and threatened to kick us out if we brought o... ]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/26251418/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/26251418/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 09:51:05 PDT i need my vitamin d man! ;]

lately its been out, and i've been happy as a plumb :]
i'm aware that ' plum ' does not have a 'b', but i think it should

and now i'm going to do this survey that's been down a long line of stolen-ness. :]


10 Things I Wish I Could Say To People:
1. i'm sorry we don't hang out anymore man, i just feel like i don't like who you've become.
2. i'm sorry we don't hang out anymore, but its because i feel like i don't like who i've become.
3. we need to get together, pronto.
4. i'm so fucked up, don't let me hold you down. i wish i could tell you this.. but agh.. i suck.
5. i, for real, wish i could talk to you day and night (and that makes me think of the kid cudi song..)
6. i love you, i'm so happy i met you :] yer my biff.
7. lets take that road trip :] (you know who you are ;D )
8. i wish we could be what we used to be.
9. i want you out of my life.
10. don't let irresponsible friends drag you down too.

9 things about myself:
1. i'm wayy too nice for my own good. it gets me into a lot of not fun situations.
2. i eventually want to be wealthy, but i don't want to show it off. i want a small house
3. i so wish i was able to fly. it has always been my dream and it will happen..
4. i'm also wayy too crazy for my own good. i very often contemplate my own sanity. very often.
5. i do eventually want to write a book, i don't know what it will be about yet, but i want to.
6. a lot of the time, i hate who i've become. even though i love it, i hate what i had to give up to get here. and that makes me not like me.
7. i love listening to people's problems, and that make me consider being a therapist..but i think eventually it would all build up and lead to suicide. which is weird for me to think about. but i like people telling me their problems.
8. i'm getting sick of this 'confessions' thing. haha
9. if i don't like you, then you messed up major. it takes A LOT for me to not like someone.

8 ways to win my heart:
1. don't be aggressive. i tend to like what i can't have.
2. don't be a debbie downer.
3. be opinionated, but don't preach.
4. be yourself, all the time. if i don't like you for you, chances are i won't like who you're trying to be either.
5. accept me for who i am, because once i open up to you, you have my entire trust and breaking that breaks me.
6. be openminded and optimistic.
7. make me laugh!
8. be sweet :] because i'm a girl and that lame. haha

7 things that cross my mind a lot:
1. what i'm not doing with my life.
2. my future, and how scared i am of it.
3. me and my guy issues. i tend to have a lot.
4. my friends
5. my past and how great and blissful i used to be, how we all used to be.
6. what is this going to do for me in the long-run?
7. food.

6 things I do before I fall asleep:
1. eat
2. wash my face
3. brush my teeth
4. strip down, depending on the temperature.
5. check myspace and facebook
6. put my blankie around my neck

5 places I want to visit:
1. everywhere
2. everywhere
3. ireland
4. california
5. everywhere..

4 things I'm wearing right now:
1. "boxer boxer" pants
2. super comfy tank-top
3. my old-man reading glasses
4. jewelery, a lot of it.

3 bands/artists that I listen to often:
1. Incubus
2. Coldplay
3. Dispatch

2 things I want to do before I die:
1. travel
2. live!

1 confession:
don't get too close to me.. it could be dangerous to either of us.

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/26096248/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/26096248/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 20:52:38 PDT

why is it that we feel the need to make others jealous?
even i do it, as ashamed as i am to say it

i think its because we're so insecure about our own lives.. about what we have, who we have, when we have it and for how long.

if someone were to ask me if i was insecure, i'd say, 'well sure, a bit. but i'm happy'
"do you enjoy making people envious of you?"
'i suppose i do. but i don't like when i'm jealous.. so i'm not too sure why i'd do that: put other people through as much pain as i go through..'
"why do you try to make people jealous?"
'because i want them to miss me. i want to feel loved by someone. i want to be chased. pursued. i like playing with people's heads. i don't know why. i like hearing they miss me. i don't know why i do it. missing someone has to be the worst feeling anyone could ever have..'


agh..i don't know where i'm going with this. i'm fighting with my own mind. i try not to get jealous, i try so hard. but it bothers me so much when i used to be so close to someone that i could just sense when they were hurt, and now i couldn't even tell you the first thing about their current life.. and it kills me that i've spent so much time with one person, that we've both spent time with eachother, and it can be just tossed out or forgotten for fear of being jealous..

i just hate who i've become sometimes. i miss what i used to have. who i used to have. i've lost so much in the recent past and i miss it. i'm not saying i'd want to change the fact that i have lost.. because its made me strong and who i am. its made me me.

they say its better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. but i'm not so sure i agree with that right now..

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/25923246/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/25923246/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 15:07:13 PDT
i have these days where i just get really frustrated with people (the inspiration for 99% of my journals. haha) and i just kinda unload and tell them everything negative about them. and i make it blatantly obvious that i'm having a bad day and all. then once i'm feeling better i usually apologize and make it all better.
and yea, i'm done doing that. because 90% of the time, when i freak out, it's for a good reason and they're feelings i actually feel but i'm usually just too nice of a person to let them show. but i'm done letting people walk all over me and i'm done letting them hurt me. if you don't give two shits about my well being, then uhh.. i don't give two shits about your well being.

also, i'm so sick of being a nobody. i feel so useless in the world. i'm seventeen and i do nothing. lately i've just been hating the life i'm living. its lame. and i'm done.

peace.



..and..fuck. my cat died recently..and i've been a total mess..

what do i do? :[

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/25539392/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/25539392/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 12:44:16 PDT i don't really know how to explain it. but like.. how annoying they are.. i suppose?
its weird, i feel like before i used to just like everyone, regardless. and don't get me wrong, i still love just about everyone i meet, but now i'm seeing them for who they really are. idk, its weird.
but i just realized that it was happening..and its like this crazy enlightenment thing for me. haha yea, i'm a weirdo. but.. yea i just had to tell someone, and i don't feel like bothering my sister because she's reading her book and she wouldn't even listen anyway.. haha

and theres a cute little humming bird sitting on the bird-feeder tree :] its quite darling
i wouldn't mind a pet humming bird..i wonder if you could get them finger trained at a young enough age.. hmm something to look into i suppose.

and yea, well thats it, i've bored you long enough.
peace! <3

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/25329677/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/25329677/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 13:18:08 PDT especially people i've grown particularly close to this year. AGH! it just drives me nuts.. and i know some of those people are going to be reading this..but i don't care, to be quite honest.

this one kid says things like "oh, i hate her, its all good. she was a bitch to me. i like never talk to her anymore." come to find out, hes talking to her and just not telling me. like I DON'T CARE. i just want the truth. i swear, if everyone told the truth, they could walk up to me and be like "oh, i think you're an ugly bitch and i hate your guts" and i'd just be like, "oh, well that's random, but sweet, at least you were honest" no big deal. talk to who you want to talk to, just don't lie to me.

the same kid is also saying "oh i love you, i miss you" and all that jazz. then i hear "i fucking hate her, i'm done with her. shes out of my life" well, awesome. if i'm so out of your life then why do you still tell me things. just making it harder on both of us.

and this other kid was like (i swear, not even two days ago. haha) "me and whats going on between some girl isn't really working out and i think we'll be better as just friends." yeah? cool, no problem, i know the situation and all. then today, holding hands, all happy-go-lucky on their way to his house. like.. WTF? i don't care, just say you want to be with her and its all good! i just don't understand the need to lie..

yet another kid, "i don't even want to be with my girlfriend anymore, but she would be devastated if i broke up with her" (in other words, just in it to make her feel good, naht good..) "but if i wasn't dating her, i'd totally date you" well, cool, that'd probably be pretty fun.. just y'know, lay off until you've taken care of business. y'know? but if you do still want to be with her, I DON'T CARE! people aren't lying when they say there are other fish in the sea, there are plenty of other guys out there JUST LIKE YOU if not better, and i'd be just as happy with them..h

i just don't understand the male species.. or even the female for that matter. but yea, if you read all that.. thanks i guess? haha but yea.. thats my life, as of late..

peace

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/24946667/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/24946667/ Tue, 26 May 2009 02:43:43 PDT The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.

- Bertrand Russell


If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change.

- Buddha

Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow.

- Dorothy Thompson


Life is just one damned thing after another.

- Elbert Hubbard

Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out alive

- Elbert Hubbard


The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.

- Elie Wiesel


You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when. You can only decide how you're going to live. Now.

- Joan Baez


Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love, to work, to play, and to look up at the stars.

- Henry Van Dyke


Men for the sake of getting a living forget to live.

- Margaret Fuller


Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

- Mark Twain


To live in this world you must be able to do three things: to love what is mortal; to hold it against your bones knowing your own life depends on it; and, when the time comes to let it go.

- Mary Oliver


We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.

- Norman Macewan


Ours is a world of nuclear giants and ethical infants. We know more about war than we know about peace, more about killing than we know about living. We have grasped the mystery of the atom and rejected the Sermon on the Mount.

- Omar Bradley


To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.

- Oscar Wilde


The truth is always exciting. Speak it, then. Life is dull without it.

- Pearl Buck


Life is a train of moods like a string of beads; and as we pass through them they prove to be many colored lenses, which paint the world their own hue, and each shows us only what lies in its own focus.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

aannnddd, i'll keep updating this as i find them.. chyea..

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/24704547/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/24704547/ Mon, 11 May 2009 14:22:56 PDT


door opens

-oh, so the mail did get here..?
(more of a statement than a question)

-uh, yea, i just went out and got it a few minutes ago.

-oh, so you just brought it in?

-well yea, it just got here..

sifts through mail

sigh

-Kevin Herrmann? who the..

heavy footsteps over to the trash can followed by an unmerciful thump as the papers fall into it

more sighs

footsteps over to the door; door opens and ever so slowly closes but not all the way. some awkward hesitation is sensed. door slowly creaks back open

-so, i was thinking about goi- .. so you and blake, you're not seeing eachother at all anymore? -well i guess you must in school, but you're not dating?

-no, not anymore..

-well uh, how are you? how have you been?

-i've been okay..y'know..

noises of uneasy head-scratching

-well uh, how's he been?

-i don't know, i guess he's good. he tells me hes good.

few moments of awkward silences. but this was an unusual awkward silence. digging for words to change the subject

-yeah, uh well grandma is coming up in a few weeks. should be here around the 25th? 26th? sometime around then.

murmurs and grunts..somehow agreeing happily, almost as if saying "oh yea, that's pretty exciting." without actually saying it

-yeah, you know your grandparents, for how old they are they don't like to sit around much.. they got back from the south camp last week after being up there for almost a month! and they were back for..ah shit, i don't know; 3, 4 days and they got back up there today. you know that big tent they used in front of the big house at the family reunion?

-mmhm, the big one that all the food was in?

-yeah, that huge canvas one. - some hand movements are used to show the enormous size of the tent - shit, they're bringing that up to the mica mine and setting it up as a kitchen tent. i said, 'shit mum, you're really gonna hurt yourself one of these times. and you're going to set it up all by yourself?' heh.. 'yeah yeah' she says, 'but i've got Pierre here to help me.' shit, i'll be damned if i get a call not too long from now, hearing about how they found her dead up there some where.. i says, 'mum, you know that tent weighs at least 500 pounds right?' but..she's..-

-shes grandma, dad, have you ever known her to not do something she's wanted to do? heh..

-yeah, that's for sure..shes almost eighty years old and she hardly ever sits down..

-yeah..well i mean, if they want to keep going like that..who's really going to stop them? eh? if its what they want to do..i mean..-

-ha..yea, i guess so.. well, i'll see you later babe

-alright daddy

door closes and the footsteps lead away

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/24565305/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/24565305/ Sun, 03 May 2009 12:07:26 PDT
-but i found the perfect guy..and i let him go

-can you not run after him?

-i could, but i don't know if he runs faster than me. and i have sandbags on my back. besides, i don't even know if he would let me catch him..

-why not try?

-my heart wants it..but my brain says 'no'. i hate conflict..


without conflict, where would love fall?

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/24499140/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/24499140/ Wed, 29 Apr 2009 15:09:03 PDT
agh! just send me away to another planet alone, please..

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/23972791/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/23972791/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 17:13:26 PDT i feel like i know what its like to travel the world, and i've never been out of north america.

i just feel like..i don't know, like i've lived before, but not a lot. like..maybe i'm 2 or 3 lives old. because i can't feel wisdom, just experience.
i feel like my last life wasn't long, maybe i died in an accident where i broke a few bones. but for real, call me crazy (hey, its better than being called "average", right?) but i just feel like this. its a pretty insane feeling, not gonna lie, but i love it all at the same time. it's like..intense de j'a vu. freeaakkyy.

but anyway, i just wanted to know if any of you felt this way too? c'est possible, je ne suis pas le seulment fou personne? je ne sait pas.

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/23595662/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/23595662/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 16:23:47 PDT and how you drive says a lot about you.

when someone slams on their brakes in front of you, do you:
slam on your brakes also?
just keep going and plow right through them?
or maybe try to avoid them by swerving around?

when you're approaching a light and it turns yellow, do you:
speed up to make it through before it's red?
stop dead to follow the law?
or quickly switch lanes to get into a green lane?

idk. i was thinking about this today. driving is so very much like life..
and yea. that's my rant for today.

:/

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/23529291/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/23529291/ Wed, 04 Mar 2009 18:04:16 PST monique and carrigan
monique and nate
rachel and hayward
steve and his many gfs
steph and mike

and i'm the one who gets left in the dust when we're hanging out and going on double dates. idk..i always feel like third wheel, even though i know that in reality that's not how it is.

idk..just me being lame i guess :] <3

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/23423887/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/23423887/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 20:42:33 PST hate who i am
hate
hate
hate
hate..

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22989021/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22989021/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 17:29:25 PST
i really wish things were the same. you're online now, but i know if i start a conversation i'll regret it because it will be painful and we'll be struggling for something to say. i wish i could talk to you, pour my heart out. but you've heard it all. you're my go-to-guy for my problems. thank you for that..
i love you more than you know. you're one of my most perfect friends, i just wish you could know that. i really hope you read this and understand that it is for you, although i don't want you to talk about it with me, i just want you to know. if you know its you just say something nonchalantly to hint that you know its about you. i love you, understand that..

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22692917/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22692917/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 12:18:41 PST
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.

3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.

4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.

5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.

6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.

7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered
about you.

8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.

9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.

10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.

if you leave a comment I'll do this and then you have to do it in your journal.





]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22417746/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22417746/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 15:46:44 PST
If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

PS. add them up as you go.

I fear...

[v] the dark
[v] staying single forever
[v] being a parent
[v] giving birth
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[v] closed spaces
[] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[] spiders
[] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 5

[] being touched
[v] fire (more like what fire can do, and heat)
[v] deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[v] the ocean
[v] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[v] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[v] my boyfriends/girlfriends siblings
[] rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow

Total so far: 11

[] rain
[v] wind
[v] crossing hanging bridges
[] death
[] heaven
[v] being robbed
[v] falling
[v] clowns
[] dolls
[v] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[v] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes

Total so far: 17

[] hurricanes
[] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[v] ghosts
[] poverty
[] Halloween
[] school
[v] trains (subways anyway)
[] odd numbers (i don't enjoy them ;])
[] even numbers
[v] being alone
[v] becoming blind
[v] becoming deaf
[v] growing up

Total so far: 23

[v] creepy noises in the night
[v] bee stings (i've been stung wayy too many times)
[v] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[] blood
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[v] high speed
[v] throwing up (not really scared i guess, just hate it)
[v] falling in love
[] super secret

Overall Total: 30



yea, can't say its a huge surprise. well then..

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22374123/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22374123/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 12:58:58 PST [link]
maybe the flight i've been waiting for and striving for isn't physical at all, but mental flight. maybe i'm just waiting for that spark to get me soaring.

maybe its all in my head..

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22298123/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22298123/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 09:00:01 PST [link]
haha


i need to make a journal on like the 10 people i'd like to do things with. hahahaha oh man, that would be quite the list..

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22262100/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22262100/ Mon, 29 Dec 2008 14:03:53 PST





go hug someone :] hugs are the best things you can share

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22090113/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/22090113/ Sat, 20 Dec 2008 18:15:50 PST
i'm pretty sure everyone has their own sense that is especially heightened and sensitive. i'm pretty sure mine is hearing. i can eat just about fucking anything, i can deal with some pretty intense pains and non-pains(?), i can deal with seeing some weird shit and i've smelled nasty things. haha but little things i hear piss me off so bad sometimes. i can hear people whisper across a crowded room. my little sister is munching on coco puffs in the next room and its making me want to go insane. i hate the noise of electricity. the past week has shown me that (if you don't know whats been going on in the past week, ask!) the clock ticking (my last journal entry) my lord, i hate clocks! i love music. i hear shit thats not there sometimes (call me schizophrenic) like people talking, calling me, people from the past? future? other dimensions? call me crazy. you wouldn't be alone. at least there'd be the two of us. at least i wouldn't be alone.

someday, i'm going to write the most philosophical piece of shit you've ever read about cycles, and how everything is a cycle. you'll love it..






am i insane.?

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/21641183/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/21641183/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 02:21:36 PST tick , tick, TICK. AHH
i can't sleep, think, speak. why , why, WHY. sleep , think, SPEAK.
can't
smash it, kill it, tick, tick, tick.
tick, tick, tick, tick, tick x12 = 1 minute
60(60 x tick) = 1 hour
24[60(60 x tick)] = 1 day

AHH time is wasting. don't sit around and listen to your clock tick! do something! sleep (dream), think (actively), speak! make a difference!

do it!

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/21308406/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/21308406/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 20:46:34 PST

(1) Dogs
(2) Ducks
(3) Digging
(4) DeviantArt
(5) Drowning <--- monique said
(6) Denial is not a river in Africa
(7) Drinking (sorta. naht really)
(8) Dookie (the green day CD)
(9) Drum players ;D
(10) Dick :] (like vinnie's, i had to say it )

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but yea, i felt the need to share.

i hope everyone is swell, and yea bye!

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/19836648/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/19836648/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 22:58:27 PDT
today i went out to eat at Petey's. its a seafood restraunt in Hampton or Rye or something. And as we were waiting to be seated (about 2 hours >< ) i was standing and looking at a ceiling light outside. it was one of those generic lights that are in office buildings or schools and whatnot. and there were and immense ammount of bugs, teeny little bugs, swarming all over this light. and from inside i saw more gathering at the door wanting out to go see this light. then i looked up inside the light and noticed thousands of miniscule bug carcasses.

now for my strange thing.

why do bugs constantly move towards light? even at the sight of thousands of others dead just before their eyes. why would they do this? so then i got to thinking. maybe its a cult or a religion. like we have. Christians believe they go to heaven, even if a scientist or biologist shoves proof in their face that they can't. Alqueda believe that if they sacrifice their life they will be rewarded with 70 virgins in heaven, even if someone shoves proof in their face that it won't happen. some religious cults beleive that sacrificing themselves to greater beings will bring better things, even though no one has proof of these better things.

maybe the bugs are in a cult or religion that if they reach this huge bright light, something good will happen. what if? are bugs really intelligent enough to do that? or are they unintelligent enough to do that? who knows? what if once they do reach The Great Light something magnificent does come of it, and we don't even know it? i mean, there must be some reason for them to persist even after seeing the ineveitable outcome, right? good or bad outcome, you still die. maybe they all are being ruled under this one "greater power" and that is what they feel they must do.

or maybe, they're just attracted to the big bright ball, and are just too stupid to realize that it's nothing that great, and many others have died doing what they're doing.

then i slowly fade back into reality as i hear our number being called.

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/18836617/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/18836617/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 11:07:29 PDT Or even watched the flowers, and the bees as they dance from flower to flower, spreading pollen. Flowers come in every color every size. It's wonderful just to look at them. Next time the season changes, it wont be rapid, just look at how much the trees change, and the sky. In the summer, it seems, the sky is always such a nice color pink or orange, yet in the winter it's always a shade of blue or purple. Lovely how things change. Watch as the trees go from budding to leaves or flowers. And how children run and play with little worries. Their biggest worries are who gets to hide first in hide-and-go-seek. Compared to our problems now, theirs are so small, yet they make big deals out of them. Don't you wish you could just sit them down and tell them to cherish this time as a child, and they would understand. If only life were still that easy.

I just thought I would smack some sense into people, when they say their life sucks. But how could life be so bad in such a wonderful world such as this?

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/18836503/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/18836503/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 15:08:25 PST
i dream about flying all the time. i've trained myself to be able to fly in any of my dreams no matter how light of heavy the sleep is. no matter where i am in my dream i can fly. i hope that to be possible some day in reality. and i believe it will happen. i will fly.






EDIT:
i love how no one commented this. everyone probably thinks i'm a loon. :]

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/18308893/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/18308893/ Tue, 13 May 2008 16:56:14 PDT
so i want you all to know my pain, i'm not asking you to feel it yourself; i would never wish that on another living being, but i just want you to watch where you step when you walk through the grass, and when you see the little bugs scattering, know that you are pillaging and destroying their homes and communities. think about it and then think if those were people, would you feel differently? would you feel anymore guilty? now ask yourself this, why? why would you feel more guilty? a life is a life, right?

so, i guess my point is, is that equality is so hard, especially when you have a conscience like mine. lying or doing anything that would make me feel guilty has become such a burden lately. i hate watching people suffer and no matter how much i dislike a person or being i would never wish death or pain upon it. you may call me a hypocrite because i have set up poison in my own home to aid in my committing genocide, but it was not by my own will. i would never do something like this if it were up to me. i am committing genocide, i am guilty of killing millions. genocide, by definition is the systematic killing of a racial or cultural group. insects, mamals, reptiles, amphibians, birds, all these are races, species, lives, contrary to popular belief. please understand this next time you're walking through a field deliberately stepping on the ant mounds or grasshoppers you see, you are committing genocide.

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/16596563/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/16596563/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 12:14:25 PST
Hmm, new news..

- Charlie died =[ Terrible, I know. But it was bound to happen, and soon I'll have many more Charlie's to look after. I'm going to bury her once it stops snowing. -.-

- I'm starting driver's ed on Tuesday Super-duper excited for that, although I didn't get into the class I wanted. Blake will be with me though

- Midterms are over, thank the lord. But that also means that a new Semester is starting, and that means lectures in like 4 classes for about a week. joy joy.

- I'm sorry I haven't gotten around to looking at all the new deviations, I just really haven't had the time.

- My sister and her boyfriend are almost ready to move into their new apartment, so that should be sweet

- Sadly, I almost forgot, I'll be sixteen in three days. haha Legal driving shizz and one of my best friend's birthday is a day after mine and we're celebrating on friday Super-duper

- I still love you all even though I've been neglecting lately ;] haha

And yea, thats just about it for news. Have a good day =]

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/16462747/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/16462747/ Fri, 18 Jan 2008 16:36:12 PST I'm so excited!


I'll have pictures up soonly =]]

One downside..uhm, I'm thinking that Charlie isn't actually a Charlie..but a Charlina..? Not really sure at this point, but hes (she/it?) laying egg things everywhere, unless he just has to poop a lot. I'm gonna go check it out and reasearch it now. brb...

<>

Okay...found a few things out..

1. He is not in fact a luna moth, but a Polyphemus moth
2. These are eggs that she is laying. Which hatch into teeny caterpillars 10-14 days after laying. Which kinda sucks cause I don't have anything to feed them =[ Not all of the caterpillars survive, which is sad, but kinda good, seeing as how she has layed over 100 already ><
3. I have a hell of a lot of work ahead of me. -.-


Well, I shall have pictures up later, she should only live a few days though, sadly. =[ Her children will be in good hands, no matter what =] I can't wait till they get big and amazing

I'll keep you updated!

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/16209306/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/16209306/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 17:56:34 PST
=] Treat her nicely! Or I'll hunt you down..


Oh yes, and I hope everyone had a fantastic first day of the new year, 2008!


::EDIT::

She has pictures up now =] and they're really good. SO GO LOOK GOSH DARNIT!! ;]

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/16168816/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/16168816/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 15:24:26 PST My lovely boyfriend illegally downloaded it for me ;D hahaha. but I did find my original version. So anywho, be expecting some new pictures withing the next few days. I'm still learning my way around it

Love you all <33

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/16136548/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/16136548/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 10:14:29 PST
red metallicy blood flowing like a small stream from some hidden cavern buried beneath a mountain with trees and animals and new life sprouting behind every rock and over every hill; the clouds painting peculiar patterns across the sky with the sun dappling small playful light on the green grass that the the animals romp around on like small children but living in fear and hate of one another although they accept the circle of life and how it came to be and what must happen in order for them all to live in this peaceful world where new life is sprouting behind every rock and over every hill and the small stream, flowing from the cavern red metallicy blood, buried beneath a mountain with animals and trees.


uhm..don't ask..? haha. I'm not really sure myself, but it makes me really happy for some odd reason. I kinda feel like building a story around it..

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/15744972/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/15744972/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 06:16:56 PST
[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[x] You have jumped out/off of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed out loud, then people gave you weird looks.
[ ] You have ran into a tree.
[ ] It is possible to lick your elbow
[ ] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.
[ ] You just tried to sing them.
[ ] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.
[ ] You have seen the the Matrix and still don't get it.
[x] You didn't notice that in the last question "the" was spelled twice
[x] You just looked at it ::I HATE YOU ><::
[ ] Your hair is blonde/dirty blonde. ::naturally..?::
[x] People have called you slow.
[ ] You have accidentally caught something on fire
[ ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.
[x] You've fallen asleep in class.
[ ] If someone says "fart" you laugh.
[ ] sometimes you just stop thinking.
[ ] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[x] People shake their heads and walk away from you. *hahahaha today when me and abbey were in sears -- do you have any uhmmm nevermind -guy walks away laughing & shaking his head.* ::hahahaha yeaa, that was good moe XD::
[ ] You are often told to use your "inside voice"
[x] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[x] You have eaten a bug. *not on purpose! -- abbey: why cant she do it?? me: KALLKKKK KALLKKKK!! i cant attempt to spell the noise i made.* ::hahhahahahahah::
[ ] You are taking this test when you should be doing something important
[ ] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand, hair or pocket.
[ ] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't even when you know it won't happen to you.
[ ] You break a lot of things.
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you
[ ] You sometimes tilt your head when you're confused
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before
[XXXX OMFG!] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling
[ ] The word "umm" is used many times a day.

16!! I BEAT YOU MONIQUE!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/15681515/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/15681515/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 15:32:05 PST
Today in World Studies we were talking about moral opinions and if someone's was more right or more wrong than someone elses. I don't believe so, but I do think that there are certain cases where everyone should just accept one rule to make life less chaotic, like laws. Then we talked about if there was one moral opinion that is universally accepted. I don't really think there is, but I think there should be at least one. I think this "universal opinion" should be that everyone has their own opinions and we should accept that. Then my teacher, Mr. Richman, went on about politics and how politics wouldn't exist if this one universal opinion was effective. Personally, I think that politics is a load of bull and pretty much just old men fighting over right and wrong. haha Although I do like to keep informed about current politics for the sole reason that it effects my life directly.

Then Mr. Richman said another thing, "People are always trying to convince someone else to believe what they do." I agree with this strongly, but that doesn't mean that I believe it. Honestly, I think that the world and the beings who inhabit it should just accept their fellow beings as equals. I try not to judge people too quickly, or at all for that matter, I try not to force my opinions on people because I know that I hate that and for me to do it to someone else is extremely hypocritical. I'm not telling people how to think or treat people in my last journal, I'm simply stating my opinion. I realize now that I went about it in a very aggressive manner. I really hope I didn't offend anyone in doing so. I just try to respect people's opinions and I really don't like conflict. I seriously recommend to everyone to read the book Ishmael by Daniel Quinn. I'm currently reading it in World Studies and so far it has made me analyze our culture and society to great extents.

So, I just wanted to let everyone know that I apologize for being so straightforward and demanding. I really hope I didn't offend anyone and if I did I deepy apologize for that. In my "moral opinion", everyone should respect eachother and respect eachother's opinions, even if that's not what you agree with. That is just my opinion ;]

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/15496485/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/15496485/ Tue, 13 Nov 2007 16:51:25 PST my God says that it's perfectly okay to be gay, bi or lesbian? Then what? You're in a damn corner.

Now, back to the "everyone is separated from the 'majority'" theory I have going on; what is "normal"? What is the "majority"? They're just words that society has spewed upon us to discriminate and create the social chaos we call "social classes". Because without social classes, the economy and society itself would crumble and burn! Atleast thats the bullshit story we've been made to believe all our lives. Believe it or not, we can all be equal and treat eachother as equals and STILL be happy. OMIGOSH! There's a newsflash to a lot of people. So, when you think about it, we're all singled out. $10 says that everyone on this site and on this friggen planet is at least 99.9% different from the person sitting next to you. Yea, sure, you may have some of the same beliefs; or if they're blood related some of the same DNA. But no one is completely 100% the same as another person. So, to say that a certain group of people are no longer equal to yourself, then in reality, you're saying that no one is equal to yourself; which some of you narcissist concieted bastards out there may think and I pity you. You will never know the feeling of standing next to someone and have that feeling that they are no better than you are and you are no better than them, and to feel completely equal; it's a great feeling, I pity you. I think I'm done with my rant for now, I'm pretty sure you get the point. If anyone has a definition for the word "normal" besides "of the norm", note me or comment back.

Now, please don't think that this is a rant about how much I hate Christians and Catholics, that would make me somewhat hypocritical. I completely respect your beliefs and choices in life and I know that not all of you have these views on these subjects. Just please, if your views are of these I have mentioned, please don't voice your opinions in my direction unless you want some backfire, cause I got plenty.

And, goodness, if you read all that, I respect you, and thank you.

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/15153214/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/15153214/ Sun, 21 Oct 2007 06:16:19 PDT
Long story short:

My neighbor's kids stole him like I had assumed, and my little sister figured it out and let me know. So, I went over there, explained to their parents the situation and got him back. He's safe next to me.

(Don't have to read this if you don't want to ;] )
Long story:

Monique, Blake and I were playing Halo 3 when Aislinn came in yelling, "I FOUND CHARLIE!! I FOUND CHARILIE!!" So, of course I get up and run, Blake and Monique were a little confused. I followed Aislinn to my neighbors and she said that he was under the stove (a grill thing in their back yard), so we checked under there and, not to my surprise, he was gone. So, I went up to the door and knocked but no one answered. I went back to the house called them, explained to their dad what happened and he talked to Alec. It turns out that Alec had been running, "stepped on a rock, dropped Charile" (in his can) and ran back to the house cause his foot hurt. I know that is a load of bull. But anywho, I got him back and his can was filled up with water and gross stuff from being outside so long. I dumped it out and got him back, I was so scared that he had drowned or something. The moss had like..detached from him because it was soaked in water for so long. But yea, I picked him up and dried him off then held him in my hand to see if I could feel him move. Then he like "kicked" and I started flipping out =]

But yea, I don't think I'm babysitting for them anymore cause I kinda hate them. I figured I should let you guys know because you told me to keep you updated. =] I'm glad I got him back and I can't wait to take pictures of him when he hatches

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/15104835/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/15104835/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 16:48:42 PDT if you get more than 20 you're paranoid

1. [x] the dark (whats in the dark ;])
2. [x] staying single forever (kinda, but im starting to think most guys are a waste of time)
3. [ ] being a parent
4. [x] giving birth(holy shit yea)
5. [ ] being myself in front of others (noooo way)
6. [ ] open spaces
7. [x] closed spaces(only sometimes. when i can't move my arms mostly.)
8. [ ] heights
9. [ ] black cats
10. [ ] dogs
11. [ ] birds
12. [ ] fish
13. [ ] spiders
14. [ ] flowers or other plants
15. [x] being touched (only by people who really annoy me, or when i'm in a bad mood.)
16. [ ] fire (loooooove it)
17. [x] deep water (if its not a pool...never know what lurks down in the waters )
18. [ ] lakes
19. [ ] silk(lawl?)
20. [ ] the ocean (i had a dream the other day that i fell from an flying inflateable man into the ocean and almost drowned..but not really. )
21. [x] failure
22. [ ] success
23. [ ] thunder/lightning
24. [ ] frogs/toads
25. [ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
26. [ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
27. [ ] mice/rats
28. [ ] jumping from high places (WEWT!)
29. [ ] snow
30. [ ] rain
31. [x] wind (strong strong wind. lik hurricaine force)
32. [ ] crossing hanging bridges(never tried it, I might be a little nervous if I did though)
33. [ ] death (i'm not afraid of death at all, its dying that i'm not looking forward to.)
34. [ ] heaven
35. [ ] being robbed
36. [ ] falling
37. [x] clowns (the scary ones)
38. [x] large crowds of people (if i've lost someone, or am in a bad mood..again.)
39. [ ] men
40. [ ] women (yep, i fear myself. btw.)
41. [ ] having great responsibilities
42. [ ] doctors, including dentists
43. [x] tornadoes
44. [x] hurricanes
45. [ ] incurable diseases(all diseases are curable, you gotta use your mind)
46. [ ] snakes
47. [ ] sharks
48. [ ] Friday the 13th
49. [ ] ghosts (my house is haunted, i've kinda had to live with it for like 12 years. haha)
50. [ ] poverty
51. [ ] Halloween
52. [ ] school
53. [ ] trains
54. [ ] odd numbers (i just don't like them.)
55. [ ] even numbers
56. [x] being alone (depends what mood i'm in.)
57. [ ] becoming blind (i kinda wish i was born blind, so then i would have no prejudging against anyone. but then it would suck, cause i would never be able to see colors, which are like my favorite things ever)
58. [x] becoming deaf (need my music man.)
59. [x] growing up (not so much growing up, but not being a kid anymore.)
60. [ ] monsters under my bed
61. [x] creepy noises in the night
62. [ ] bee stings
63. [x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
64. [ ] needles
65. [ ] blood
66. [ ] dinosaurs if they were alive ( i adore dinosaurs )
67. [ ] the welcome mat (wtf? maybe if it says something creep. yea.)
68. [ ] high speeds
69. [ ] throwing up
70. [x]falling in love (i already hate it..)

18.. there are a few not on here that applies to me. like thinking that everyone is plotting against me, and my friends are just trying to find my weaknesses to eventually torture me. or people always hiding in the woods, watching me, trying to kill me but i spot them just in time. and, not really falling in love..but falling in love again. then again i don't have to worry about that, cause i never will.

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14988280/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14988280/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 16:38:26 PDT [x] You watch anime.
[x] You read manga.
[x] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes. [Avatar! ]
[x] You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise.
[x] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before. [sadly. lawl]
[ ] You have cosplayed.
[ ] You have done so in public.
[ ] You have been to an anime/manga convention.
[ ] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.
[x] You enjoy drawing anime.
[ ] People you know know you as the 'anime' person.
[ ] You know that it is pronouced 'mawnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled. (bull, its pronounced "mahn-gah" from what I know on how to pronounce vowels in japanese)

ANIME/MANGA POINTS: 6

ART NERD
[x] You like art.
[x] You actually consider yourself an artist. (everyone is an artist Vinnie, speech is a form of art even. =] )
[x] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you.
[x] You have a favorite brand. (more than one)
[x] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before.
[x] You give people your drawings as gifts.
[x] People actually ask for your drawings.
[x] You are known as 'the art person' at your school.
[x] Instead of just 'brown' or 'ink', you be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'. Or whatever.
[x] You have taken an art class outside of school.
[x] You have considered a career as an artist. (Veterinarian!)
[x] Your school papers are always covered in doodles. (LIKE YOU WOULDN'T BELIEVE)
[x] You have a favorite artist.
[x] Your drawings have been framed.
[x] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go.

ART NERD POINTS: 15 (thats bad)


MUSICAL NERD
[x] You play a musical instrument.
[x] You play more than one musical instrument.
[x] You actually really enjoy playing your instrument.
[x] You've given your instrument a name. (My violin's name used to be Sarah...don't ask why, I really don't know. haha)
[x] You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument.
[ ] You are known by what you play.
[x] You listen to classical music.
[x] You are wondering whether that refers to the classical music genre or the classical music time period. (either way.)
[ ] You have a favorite composer.
[x] All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class. (not all, but some.)
[x] You write music. (I write songs)
[x] You've had discussions with your friends about music; your favorite composers/instruments/musical time periods/key/etc... (the intelligent ones ;] )
[x] You have considered a professional career with your instrument. (that dream died fast.)
[ ] You practice at least an hour a day.
[ ] You are never nervous playing for other people. (I'm stage-fright like you wouldn't believe.)

MUSICAL NERD POINTS: 11

VIDEO GAME NERD
[x] You play video games. (pretty much my life)
[x] You own more than 4 different video game systems. (I got them from the Super Nintendo to the X-box 360 )
[x] You've had debates over which system is the greatest. (obviously)
[x] You play video games every day. (heck yea)
[x] You have played a video game for over 10 hours. (hahahaha omg. yea.)
[x] You have songs from your favorite video games on your MP3. (haha. sadly, yea. I have like the whole Halo sound track)
[x] You love to talk about video games. (It's the best ice breaker for me =] )
[x] You memorize the dates for when a new game is being released. (Halo 3, I had it down to the like..minute. it was bad.)
[x] People know you as the 'gamer' person. (yep)
[x] You spend more time on video games than you do hanging out with friends. (sometimes. often, I play video games with friends. haha)
[x] Your gaming system is in your room. (Sadly no. Well, the Gamecube is, but I don't play that too much.
[ ] You have preferences when it comes to what company your game came from. (only controllers really. Wildcat sucks.)
[ ] You've had debates over which company is the best.
[x] You keep playing a game until you beat it. (omg yea. one of my OCDs. haha)
[ ] It makes you angry when you found out somebody looked up cheat codes on the internet to beat thei... ]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14631190/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14631190/ Fri, 14 Sep 2007 13:37:50 PDT

You can still leave stuff, don't know when I'm gonna get a new computer, hopefully soon though.

Have a good day

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14493353/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14493353/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 19:12:05 PDT 1. Put Your itunes, windows media plyer etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name

If someone says "is this okay?" you say,
Beautiful Day Without You - Royksopp
(hahaha. Typical me ;] )

How would you describe yourself?
You Owe Me and IOU - Hot Hot Heat

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Consequence of Sound - Regina Spektor
(hahaha yeaa..)

How do you feel today?
Breakfast After 10 - Blue October
(hahaha omg yea! listen to it, and you'll understand better ;] haha)

What is your life's purpose?
Super X-Ray Vision - Jupiter Sunrise
(About a super cop! Kinda. But it fits well. And the band is amazing, so its okay.)

What is your motto?
No Sex - Limp Bizkit.
(LAWL! haha. Entertaining.)


What do your friends think of you?
Gone, Gone, Gone - Jack Johnson
(I adore this song. and kinda reminds me of myself XD)


What do you think of your parents?
James - Blue October
(hahahahah OMFG! niiice)

What do you think about very often?
Mother Machine Gun - Mushroomhead
(Niice. Very true, especially in school, in a class I hate! haha)

what is 2 + 2?
Have You Ever? - Incubus
(haha. Niicee <3 )

What do you think of your best friend?
Better Than Me - Hinder
(Very true. She could, but thankfully sticks around =] <33 )

What do you think of the person you like?
I am a Pirate, You Are a Princess - PlayRadioPlay!
(I wouldn't call him a princess..but fits well =])

What is your life story?
Into My Life - Colin Hay

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Elevator - Hot Hot Heat
(Apparently I want to be an elevator..?)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Child Says - Daath
(LAWL! haha. Not really ;] )

What will u dance to at ur wedding?
Stellar - Incubus
(Wouldn't mind that one bit. =] )

What will they play at your funeral?
Triumphant - Royksopp
(Really, really weird, since thats what I want played..haha)

What is your hobby/interest?
Beautiful Disaster - 311
(Fits well. haha)

What is your biggest fear?
10,000 Cadillacs - Mushroomhead
(I'm afraid of a vast amount of a car..odd)

What is your biggest secret?
Blurry - Puddle Of Mudd
(Very true..I like it, not really a secret though)

What do you think of your friends?
Time To Go - Dropkick Murphys
(Except the opposite)

What will you post this as?
Basket Case - Greenday
(haha. okayy)

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14470229/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14470229/ Mon, 03 Sep 2007 11:01:22 PDT I feel so horrible, I should have taken better care of him. idk. So thats the update. enjoy.

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14392841/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14392841/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 09:17:33 PDT 2. I could eat chocolate forever, if I had the nessecary ammounts.
3. Animals are pretty much my favorite thing ever.
4. Most men should die.
5. I want to join the army, but I'm against the war.
6. I don't let people walk all over me most of the time.
7. I adore peanut butter but hate peanuts.
8. Coffee is my life.


And here are my choices:
Whoever wants to do it.


They've said these are the rules:
1. post these rules
2. post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about yourself
3. tags should write a blogpost of these facts
4. at the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. go to their blog and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14255426/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14255426/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 08:11:52 PDT We couldn't find him today, so I had to search the whole cage. And when I found him he was like burried in the moss and he had started a cocoon around him and eeee!! I can't wait! He's gonna be a luna moth too! So I'll have some pictures of him when he hatches =]]]

Thats all for now =]

Edit: I have a picture in my scraps of Charlie's cocoon, even though you can't really see it. Just for everyone who wanted to keep updated

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14232163/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14232163/ Sat, 18 Aug 2007 21:32:37 PDT
<3

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14017443/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/14017443/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 16:08:27 PDT

So yea, just letting you know why there will be a major lack of communication from me, but when I get back expect some more pictures from both Monique and I.

Everyone have a fantabulous 2 weeks!

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13983449/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13983449/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 08:50:15 PDT
I love my blankie, I've had it since I was born, for some reason I picked it as my favorite when I was a kid =]
Its white and it has cute pastel-colored lambs that have faded over the years. I love it

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13971082/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13971082/ Wed, 01 Aug 2007 12:28:59 PDT Abbs..usually. and other than that, Bee =]

2. What's your favorite color? The rainbow

3. What's your favorite food? chocolate!

4. Are you a squeamish person? not really

5. What's your favorite animal? A lot. But the Elephant is like.. my animal I guess.

6. Biggest pet peeve? omg. too many things. Mostly bad driving, especially on highways

7. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be? Ireland or Germany

8. Do you cry easily? when I think too much or when I dwell too much on the past

9. Do you generally have a good, loving family? kinda yea

10. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yea

11. Do you have many phobias? not really. Claustrophobia is my biggest one

12. Favourite genre of music? I adore music in general. But I think Alternative and Reggae are probably my favorites lately

13. What's your thoughts on homosexuals? (haha Vinnie XD nice one) I think love is about love, not gender, so I'm fine with it.

14. Are you a trendsetter, a trend follower, or do you dress originally? I wake up, half asleep throw on clothes and go. or on weekends I usually stay in my pajamas.

15. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose? yea.. =x

16. Do you like school? very much

17. Are you known to spend your money quickly? depends if I go shopping, and where. haha and if there are any sales.

18. What time is it right now? 3:23pm

19. Are you on the computer a lot? hahahaha yeaa

20. ^_^?

21. Pet hermit crabs- a good thing or a bad thing? hehe I like them ^.^

22. Leftie or Righty? better with my right, but either. haha

23. Do you have any scars/stretch marks, etc? scars, yeaa. Bad one on my leg from barbed wire ><

24. Do you have dull elbows or pointy elbows? pointy. I hate them. haha

25. Timmies or Starbucks? dunno. Starbucks is a little strong, and I've never been to Timmies

26. Do you have any sleeping problems? I'm kinda an insomniac..ish. Like, I don't go to sleep till like 3am. I don't know what I'm gonna do when school starts. XD

27. Are you a shy person? sometimes, and usually only around new people

28. Are you a gift-giver? I love to give and I hate to recieve. I can't stand it when people spend money on me. -.-

29. Warm or cold? luke warm

30. Do you like meeting new people? yepp

31. Tag this quiz to 6 people...whoever you want:
whoever..go for it =]

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13819850/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13819850/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 11:02:25 PDT But oh well, I guess I'll get over it.

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13766864/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13766864/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 07:24:55 PDT running from a bee. Shes actually getting it off today. But I just felt the need to share that with a few people. I laughed pretty hard, although, I won't leave the house now. haha

Have a delightful day. =]

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Edit: Okay, so my mom exaggerates a ton. The nest was like 3 inches across, pretty big, but not huge. And there were like 10 bees on it. haha Oh well, it was still funny.

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13741992/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13741992/ Sun, 15 Jul 2007 08:18:40 PDT

Six Things I Dislike:

1. Fake people
2. People who judge me by some of the music I listen to.
3. People who prejudge (kinda the same thing as the 3rd one..but oh well)
4. Wind + hair.
5. Being sad &/or seeing other people sad.
6. Dark gloomy rain for days on end.

Here's how it works. You must write six of your most hated woes when someone has tagged you. After then, you must choose six of your own friends to be tagged. They should do what you have just did. Here are my choices:



and its funny, cause I don't expect half of them to do it XD

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13627670/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13627670/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 23:06:56 PDT I'm super excited about that.

On top of having a not-so-good-day is that I can't sleep. its 2:05 in the morning and I'm still awake. bleh. I really hope tomorrow will be better. I think it will be. Blake and I are going to see Ocean's 13, which looks like a super good movie But this journal was mainly out of pure boredom. I think I'll try to get some sleep now.

Goodnight
- Abbey <3

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13619133/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13619133/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 09:48:45 PDT
1_My sister thinks I'm a super hippie for thinking like this..but has anyone ever thought about what you're doing when you squish a bug? Like..really thought about it. I have been for the past few weeks, and it's sad..it really is. Like, my little sister saw a bug and was like "Alec, a bug! Squish it!!" It makes me really mad how naive children can be, about war, killing, and such things. I do understand that they're young, but I can't help it. Back to the topic though, I haven't been able to kill anything intentionally..cause it just feels so wrong. So, I've been just picking little bugs up and moving them out of the way. And when theres dead animals on the side of the road and stuff..why is it "such a shame" when only big animals are dead..no one really says "oh thats a shame" when its a chipmunk or squirrel. When an animal dies, its the same as a human dieing, their life is gone, they're not coming back. Their life has been robbed of their body. I don't know..maybe I am a super hippie..but it just bothers me.

2_Myself and are dating. =] Hes definately super emo, Or atleast he thinks he is. And hes never on deviantart..cause hes lazy. haha. He's the one I spent my 4th with. =] And, to my guy friends, don't think that you like..can't talk to me or something. Cause it bothers me when people think that, just cause I have a bf doesn't mean that we can't talk anymore. Silly gooses.

3_Happy late 4th of July everyone! ]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13561590/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13561590/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 08:54:37 PDT

*Are you a bad influence?

If you go over 45, you're a bad influence.
If you go under 15, chances are you live under a rock and have no life... even more harsh.

*Rules
Total the number of things in each list you've done.
No need to say which ones.
If people really want to know they will grow the balls to ask.

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. done drugs.
TOTAL: 6

1. taken painkillers
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. cut yourself.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
TOTAL: 8

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab.
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar.
TOTAL: 6

1. been to a wild party.
2. seen the Mardi Gras.
3. drank more than four beers in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything.
6. wore black nail polish.
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. own(ed) a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL: 6

1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed prep.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
10. had someone sneak into your room.
TOTAL: 6

1. snuck into someone else's room.
2. had a crush on your best friend.
3. been to a concert.
4. dry-humped someone
5. been called a slut.
6. called someone a slut.
7. installed speakers in your car.
8. broken a mirror.
9. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
10. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
TOTAL: 7

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
TOTAL: 7

1. owned/rented an apartment.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. cheated on someone.
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10. been verbally harassed.
TOTAL: 6

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 12 hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 12 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 9

Total of all: 61.

Yepp. Bad me ><

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13542375/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13542375/ Fri, 29 Jun 2007 17:33:34 PDT gorgeous pictures! Of course I can't see them or anything, but it focuses amazing, and I love the depth it provides. I can't wait to get the first roll developed. Just thought I'd let you all know about the progress of my new baby.

Love you all

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13420067/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13420067/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 13:27:04 PDT gorgeous camera. Super old, from 1975 and in amazing condition. It's a Minolta SRT SC-II. I've never heard of the brand before, but it seems like a pretty freaking nice camera. =] I'm so excited to get some film and try it out. I've been looking through the manuals and guide books for about 3 hours now, trying to learn everything I can about it. Hopefully, if it works good, I can get some pictures developed and scan them so I can post them on here. W00t! I can't wait

]]> ~AbbeyLiz http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13399370/ http://AbbeyLiz.deviantart.com/journal/13399370/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 20:48:11 PDT I found some more deer beds in the grass and decided to lay in one XD I'm not sure why, but it was weird to think that a deer had layed there just a little while before. So, I followed a trail left by them down to a small lake at the bottom of the hill. The sun reflected off of it so pretty, I wish my camera had been charged.

All in all, today was a "Good Mood Day" XP I Liked it. =]

]]> ~AbbeyLiz