My friend and I went to LostAlone.
It was right before the gig that my camera broke.

So no pictures now
No pictures soon
No pictures at all

I can’t believe it.

I have a gig coming up in like… *counts on fingers* 4 days and I don’t feel any excitement for it. I just had an image in my mind about how my best friend and me’d be jumping up and down again, and rocking out and stuff, and NOTHING but a tiny smile crossed my lips.

Admittedly, it’s not a 30stm gig, so it’s not the usual buzz of OMFG I’M GOING TO SEE THEM AGAIN that I usually have (shut your fucking mouths, I don’t care if you think I’m obsessed with them, you don’t know what it’s like), but surely I should feel SOMEthing, right? It’s a gig, it’s rock (ish?) and after all this time of being deprived of travelling + hanging out with friends + a concert the top it off, I should be more excited.

But I am not.

It’s LostAlone, in case you were wondering. (Which I know you weren’t). Yes, they were the best support act for 30 Seconds To Mars that *I* have ever heard, and YES, that is why we are going to see them again in Berlin, now, before they start to work on their new album. Yes, shocker, I know, it’s other music than 30 Seconds To Mars.

Other bands I am planning to see live are: Street Drum Corps, My Chemical Romance, AFI. Possibly others that I cannot come up with right now, because my mind just went black from wondering if AFI stood for A Fire Inside.

*cough*

I know, I’m a little pissy today. But excuse me for not liking the whole judgemental thing most people have going on against us Echelon. Yes, the one true band is 30 Seconds To Mars, and no, it’s not likely to change, but if you must know, there are at least 30 other bands that I listen to (30-pun exceptionally UNintended) so get off your stupid high horse for thinking you’re better than me. I just happen to love 30 Seconds To Mars’ music, its men, and its fanbase. We are a dysfunctional family, and you always stand up for your family, no matter what, right?

Just got word from my amazing friend Sini that AFI does indeed stand for A Fire Inside. I didn’t know that. Why did I wonder that in the first place? Well, dundundun, because I recently bought the DVD “I Heard A Voice” of AFI and I watched it, all, all the way through, and the extras. It was there that I spied the phrase “A Fire Inside” and wondered if that was what AFI could be stood for.
Yes, I bought the DVD of another band than 30 Seconds To Mars, and you will be stunned? Before this, I went to a Mika concert, and before THAT, I bought the CD of My Chemical Romance.

Again, excuse me, but I just want to get this stereotype be KILLED horrendously. I love 30 Seconds To Mars. They saved my life.
But they are NOT my EVERYthing.

Thank you and goodnight.

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PS. This turned out so different than I had meant it to be. Anyway. Pictures of LostAlone are to be expected soon. *cughcough* >>;

YAY

I just passed the Tim Kelleher X mark! 10+ Pictures of the worlds most favourited bassist! (Or well, mine, anyway!)

And with that, I also passed the 100 pictures of Concerts and Musicians!




Photography
I want to expand on my photography skills badly. When I get a job, the first thing I'll buy is a new camera, which I'll pick out with the help of some famous professionals *squees in excitement*. I could've made some awesome disaster photos a few days ago, but I had people over, so I didn't. I might get the chance again, anyway. The storms here are bad enough. Until then, I haven't got anymore photos planned, but I might do another photoshoot with people.

Writing
If I can manage, I'll take a English and Creative Writing course. That is, if I could pay for it and if it's not full time. I'm low on inspiration, and one streak of Constructive Critisism (that I didn't ask for) destroyed whatever was left of my self esteem towards my writing. Now, I might have to just get over myself, but it kicked me in the metaphorical stomach. I want to fight against it, but I know it was GOOD CC, so I can't. It's just that it was on a piece that was more personal than trying to be a good, literate, piece of writing. So it hurt. My writing account is *Beautifull-Freak. For all you sweethearts who didn't know yet.

Music
Yeah... Not much happening there xD I might take singing lessons, to improve my voice and singing, because it's SHIT. And I hate my voice. Guitar is going well enough for me, I can play 75% of the songs on A Beautiful Lie, so I'm a happy bunny overall.



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Well, it's true. No-one really does

I've been in the mood for taking pictures lately, even though my camera is shitty. It's really just a matter of working with the thing, rather than getting an awesome camera with nifty cool functions. Although, the better functions could help some, of course. Still, I can work with my camera for the time being, until I get my new one. Not sure what I'm getting yet, but I'm thinking a Canon. Everyone that I know are advicing me to get a Nikon, so I might get that one, once I talk to someone that I met from LA who is highly skilled at taking photos. He might be able to help me pick out a great camera (Nikon, he's obsessed with those). I'm just very skittish because a friend's Nikon has a LOT of noise, and I don't like that. I prefer my camera, barely any noise. It's a Kodak. Then my sister's new, fairly simple, digital camera, has even less noise than mine. Which is a Canon. So, I don't know yet. But then again, the Kodak of my other friend and his brother, that barely has any noise either, so...
I'll figure it out when the time comes

I've got a one concert coming up, Mika in Amsterdam, so if we get a good enough spot in the crowd, I'll be taking pictures of him too. Can't wait to add some pictures of someone other than (ex-)30 Seconds To Mars bandmembers, hehe. Then again, I love them, so it's not like I mind THAT much. Don't worry though, the guys are currently building houses somewhere in the world, with the more than 10,000 dollars they've raised, and after that, they're seriously going to work on a new album. Finally. Finally? Yeah, for some. I've only just gotten into 30STM's magical world (for about a year and a half now) and I don't need new songs yet. I still adore the ones we have now, still can use these to feel better, so... I'm not really ready for anything new yet. But, alas, I'm not the only fan in the world and they HAVE existed for 10 years now, having only 2 albums to feed on. Of which they mostly use ABL nowadays. I want Edge Of The Earth FULL BAND dammit. And the entire song, kthnxbai. XD
I should really stop mocking them.

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My reviews I'll write later, and I'll upload those to myspace, instead of here on on *Beautifull-Freak. Not sure why, I just don't want it here for a change.

So I'm back from Germany, I didn't get as many pictures as I would've liked, because the crowd was shit in Berlin and the security guy that was blocking my view of Tim was.. Well, THERE. He's in my pictures of Tim, and I'm surprised I found ANY I didn't hate 100 %. Guess I wasn't picky enough. It is Tim, after all, and my one and only goal this tour was to get decent pictures of him. Well, THAT blew up in my face!
I am forever saddened.

Glad I got some good pictures of Tomo, though, because the man gave himself THE most HIDIOUS haircut in the history of mankind! Tomislav Milicevic, what HAVE you done?!


Anyway.

Uploading the pictures as we speak. 20 Good ones in total. Mostly of the J-man. (He's so present, it's hard NOT to take pictures of him.)

Sorry for the random bulk upload, I know I said I was going to do 3 per day, but as some of you know, something bad happened last Wednesday and I just didn't think about uploading my pictures anymore.

In a few days, I'll be going to the concerts of 30 Seconds To Mars in Germany (Berlin and Hamburg) and then I'm going to make so many pictures it'll make everyone's head spin I plan on filling up two SD cards of 2GB! One for each night.

So that's why the sudden bulk upload of my previous pictures. No time, no animo rather, for the 3-a-day upload sequence I was going for, and already about to leave! (This saturday)
Sorry for filling up your inboxes, but hey, you don't HAVE to check everything. (Though, I hope you do!)


Dilyana is doing alright, I've talked to her a couple of times, and apart from certain emotional damage (multiple reasons, not going into it now) she seems to be doing fine. I'm so glad she survived, and I really admire her strength. <3


Extra extra special mention of Joey, someone I met through Day of Silence, and seem to click with really well. It's strange to think that Day of Silence can bring people together, but it has. I admire his courage for going through with DoS.


Anyhow, I'm leaving on Saturday, another long 3+ hour drive to Belgium, where I meet my two lovely friends Nikki and Angel, and sleepover there, only to wake up fuck-early to drive to Wendy, and from her place all the way to Berlin. There we will check in to the hostel, and go sight-seeing, lead by my darling Jean! Then at night, Jean and I plan to go for a midnight walk under the stars (because it WILL be clear skies!) and the next morning we wake up, again, fuck-early to queue all day long and make SURE we'll be FRONT ROW!
During the queueing, I'll be asking several random (and not-so-random) Echelon to give their love + well-wishes to Dilyana, and hopefully at night, after the concert, I can ask the guys to do the very same! Especially you, Shannon Christopher Leto!! *points*


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PS. Merry Beltane everyone!

Last saturday I went to a music festival in Belgium, with my good friend Nikki Devos.
We went there to see a band called Angels and Airwaves, for the former bassist of 30 Seconds To Mars, Matthew Walter Wachter, who joined AvA not long after he left us.
The performance was grand, to say the least, and Matt seems happy to be where he is now. I'm happy for him!
I got some really good quality pictures of him, which was also why I was going there; to get new photography.
I will be uploading them, 3 per day, as I have more concerts coming up in 2 weeks, so I will need to be quick about it. Otherwise I'd be waiting a little longer between the 3 uploads a day.


Matthew Walter Wachter
Matt, we love you still! You'll be a part of us and you will NEVER fade away! We promise!


In May
In May, I will be going to Germany, to see 30 Seconds To Mars perform for the last time this year (she says again). After that, my main focus will be moving to Ireland.
It will be sad not to be able to go to concerts anymore, but I'm sure it will be worth it. I have a feeling it'll be ok, and perhaps the band will be so nice so as to refrain from more concerts and focus all their energy on making the new album, while Nikki and I get settled in Limerick, Ireland.
But I doubt it, they're just as in love with concerts as the rest of us, and not doing gigs is like not breathing for them. I know how they feel. At least they will still have to opportunity.

Expect mainly pictures of Timothy Kelleher and Tomislav Milicevic after the concerts in Germany, because that's where we will be standing, front row, at the barrier. Berlin will be Timothy, and Hamburg will be Tomislav.

I can't wait. It'll be GREAT and also SAD, first and last gigs in Germany for a long time to come. But hey, it's for a good cause, isn't it? We're going to MOVE to Ireland!


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