http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Aegyptica&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Aegyptica en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 13:59:20 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/29010253/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/29010253/ Fri, 18 Dec 2009 00:16:11 PST
I am distressed. Not only do I not have a job, but a week or so back, went to the mountains with my friend to shoot some photos of the high water and lesser waterfalls all the rains had created. Alas even before I could get one pic taken, there was a disaster. Yes.. a bad one. For no reason at all, the tripod suddenly bucked and my Canon EOS D60 went crash. Well, it crushed one side of the flash boot. The pop of flash no longer works, but the worse thing of all, it did something to the shutter. It won't open. So my beloved camera is defunct. I have to send it off to Canon to even get an estimate for the repair, provided it can even be repaired. It is a discontinued camera these days. I just want to cry. I am truly beginning the think that the powers that be have it out for me seeing that one problem after another keeps slapping me in the face. I am nearing a breaking point. Photography had become my biggest coping skill. Now I am without. Sure I still have my old film cameras. My EOS Rebel X and my other EOS Rebel, but its not the same. I want my D60 to function again. I am so ready to scream. The longer I go without a job, the more disheartened I get. The more bored with life I get. I feel like banging my head against a wall. Life is really getting on my nerves. I keep wanting to tell the Creator and the Universe where this all can be stuck, but that gets me nowhere. I think I need a Sugar daddy. Someone to rescue me from all my woes. ::sigh:: I am stuck in Wonderland. The Alice who can never escape the Queen... My head being lopped off and lopped off and lopped off in a nightmarish, repetitive loop. Help...I need to get out.

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/28109384/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/28109384/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 15:44:11 PST
Well, its been awhile. Again I am riding that rickety roller coaster of life. My back has recuperated for the most part. I was working in the Access Dept at the homecare place where I had once been a hospice nurse. My position there has been terminated and I was given two weeks of pay to find a job. Which is all fine and good, except now I will be jobless and thus moneyless come Nov 6th unless I find a new job soon. I have sent in all sorts of resumes and filled out applications. Finally got a call for an interview. It is set for Nov 20th. Oy..but at least it is an interview. It is rather sad that I am having so much difficulty finding a job. I am an RN. A nurse, but a lot of places have hiring freezes or do not hire RN's. Silly that. It's rather frustrating. You would think an RN would have no trouble at all finding a job. Have to wait and see. I am so tired of this rocky ride. Wish I could win the lottery, marry a millionaire or something...anything...

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/22418948/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/22418948/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 16:45:35 PST
Yes, it has been sometime since I have been about on Deviant Art and this is just a spotty and rare moment as that I am still in the process of recuperating from emergency surgery on my back.

Long story short...had a lumbar disc that decided to go from herniation to full blown rupture thusly resulting in the loss of right foot function and weakness of leg....they call it foot drop. Ended up having emergent surgery on Nov 24th and the rest is history from there.

Lately as I recovery another distressing situation has come up. My grandfathers heart and kidneys are failing. He is presently hospitalized but is due to go home soon with hospice care. He is a well loved grandpa and upon passing will be greatly missed.

Life is a roller coaster of up and downs and with the new year things do not seem to be any better than the past four.

I do know one thing. I am tired of this feeling called loneliness. Being single is no fun at all.

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/19345445/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/19345445/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 22:47:21 PDT
After my photoshoot with Christie, I have decided to do some model seeking to try to help establish a portrait business of sorts. I am looking for models, relatively local (meaning can travel to nearby states to TN). Models can be any age, body type, etc. Beauty comes in all shapes, sizes, etc. Anyhow, if interested please contact me here on deviant art.

Thanks so much in advance

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/18618211/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/18618211/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 21:43:13 PDT
Well as of 1226am EST, June 2, I officially turned 38. What do I have to show for it? A torn rotator cuff (yup that is what turned out to be wrong with my shoulder), one cortisone shot four days prior and more than likely a birthday celebrated alone and working my tail off.

I have worked 65 hours this week and now will be so exhausted I really will not feel like enjoying my birthday at all. Of course, I wasn't looking very forward to it in the first place. It sucks to be my age and single...What more can I say.

So all in all I sing to myself "Happy UnBirthday to me"

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/18329034/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/18329034/ Wed, 14 May 2008 22:44:43 PDT
Ahh..what a lovely way to spend the evening...I the ER. Yes ladies and gentlemen, the Queen of Tumbles and Falls has had yet another fall. Joy Joy...Anyhow, was getting ready to goto choir rehearsal and when up the two steps to the parking lot and somehow I fell. Not sure exactly how but I did...

Went on to choir rehearsal anyway, despite that pain in my shoulder and forearm on the left. Pain got worse through rehearsal and I really could not lift my arm or turn my forearm either. Long story short, went to ER..spent there hours there to find out I had a separated shoulder and had sprained and bruised the forearm area to the bone..Fun Fun..

Now, I am in a sling and out of work the next few days...Will ask my neighbors to take my trash to the curb for me, cause I cannot do it.

Well..would write more, but the Hydrocodone and Benadryl are kicking in..


Night everyon

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/17878881/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/17878881/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 11:00:30 PDT
Well at just after 1pm today, Benjamin Allen Loy was born. He weighs 7lbs and 13 oz and was 19 inches long. He has a dark curly head of hair. Mom and baby are doing fine and my brother and other nephew are most excited. Today is a blessed day. ...

Love light and joy

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/17405197/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/17405197/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 04:22:58 PDT
Got me a new car. It is a Subaru Impreza Sports Wagon. Its a silvery gray color. Its sharp..its clean...It is my "wheeeee!!!" car. And it was in my budget..woot. So some change is good. It finally relinquished me from the big blue demon I used to own. Anyhow..thats it...Still need more change, but its a start.

Peace and blessings

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/17262684/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/17262684/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 20:18:25 PDT
Like a prarie wind I am stirring the tumbleweeds into motion. The restlessness has returned. There are so many thoughts running through my head right now about life, relationships and career.

Life has been one up and down roller coaster ride. In many aspects I am happy with how it has turned out, but there are some disappointments as well. Here it is, I am nearing 38years of age. I am single, with no real prospects out there at all. The aloneness is really starting to put a strain on an otherwise happy existence. I have a home, two cats, a dog. I have a beautiful two year old nephew and one on the way. I am financially secure again. Yet, I walk this path without anyone at my side. Human beings by their very right need companionship. They need love. They need to create.

For some reason, this area of life has been illusive to me and oddly enough many other persons in my own age group from 38 to around 42 have all seemed to be passant in that area. Of my friends in this age group, two are married without children and the rest are not married at all. Its because I am afraid, that we were the career oriented generation. We went to college, sought higher education but forgot about these other important aspects of our lives. So, now, we are up in our years, alone , non procreative wandering about thinking why we felt the need to be educated rather than having married and already raising children right now.

For men, this is easier however for they can procreate for years and years...sperm supply always in production. For women on the other hand, its not so. We are born with all the eggs we will ever have to create a child. These eggs age as we do. I was told by my gyn around the age of 33 that I needed to have a child by 35. Well, 35 has come and gone and now I am getting to up in my years to even think of having a child. My eggs are too old. Sure, I could use donor eggs, but its not the same. There is none of me within that child then. Same goes for adoption. Its not the same. Those children were someone else's. They already have the personalities of the ones who created them. They look like their parents and have no genetic tie at all.

Thusly, I am restless. And the closer I get to 40, the more restless I become. Oddly, when my palm was read not long ago, I was told I was going to live into my late 90's. Something I am not really looking forward to not if I am still alone and childless like some old maid. Indeed, in ancient times I would already be considered an old maid. A spinster. Sad eh?

I am not sure how much longer I can abide in my current state. The restlessness is shadowing over into other aspects of my life including continued thoughts of a career change. I love my job, don't get me wrong there, but there have been too many changes on a local and corporate level that make me uncomfortable. I have even pondered moving. Moving out of state for I have nothing holding me here. I need change. I need a relationship. I need to have a family life.
And when asked the Great Creator on this earlier this week, I got the song "Can't hurry love" on my radio as my answer. ::sighs::It was not the answer I was looking for.

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16984661/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16984661/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 20:43:33 PST
Well, the scarlatina rash is very rather persistent even with antibiotics...Problem now is it is at that annoying itchy stage and will probably start peeling soon. Fun fun..So me and benadryl and calamine are becoming best friends. And, speaking of Benadryl, its time for me to take some and crash for the night.

Goodnight all.

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16921746/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16921746/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 22:54:32 PST
Yup. That is what it all turned out to be. Strept gone bad. I broke out in the bad rash yesterday. They call the rash scalatina. It is a rash caused by the toxins of the streptococcal group A bacterium. So I went to the doctor and am now on Amoxicillin highest dose possible. Happy Joy. Am feeling a little better today post three and now four doses of it. The rash usually takes about a week or two to subside. Tonite, I got benadryl cream to keep it from itching. It will eventually peel like a sunburn. Joy to that one considering it is on my abdomen and chest area. Anyhow, time for me to crash.

Sigh sigh sigh.

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16889821/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16889821/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 20:15:16 PST
Got a nasty cold or something that started in on me Tuesday and whipped into a full blown tornado of blahness by this morning. Called in to work...Feeling pretty miserable right now. It was the prednisone for my back that dropped my immune system down. Won't be going to work tomorrow either...Just don't feel good..Anyhow..time to take cough/cold meds and crash..

Night everyone.

]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16702099/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16702099/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 07:00:45 PST
Well, about two weeks ago I went to bed with a slightly achy back. Took two Ibuprofens and went to sleep...Woke up and all the fun began. I could not move. My back was in a horrible spasm and I could not really move my left leg. It was numb from thigh to foot. The scheduler from work calls and I sort of wiggle slide out of bed and grab the phone and at this point I am nearly in tears and telling her I cannot move and that I may not be able to work today. So she calls my supervisor and I stagger to the shower thinking hot water will fix it all. Yeah, brilliant concept..not.

So I take a shower. Well, of course that does not help and I end up laying down in the floor and not being able to really get back up again. My supervisor calls and I still have the cell phone with me so I let her know what is going on and we talk about calling EMS to goto the ER...problem is..I am upstairs. Ordinarily this would not be a problem, but the doors are locked. EMS would have to break the door down. So, I call my best friend and he comes over. By this point I have crawled my way down stairs and unlocked the door, then go lay on my living room floor. He takes me to the ER. There I get a shot of steroid with a muscle relaxer and a heavy duty pain killer...Two shots..This helped some and I was sent home with direction to call my MD or come back if I lose bowel and bladder control...okay..

Anyhow, call doc the next morning and get an MRI on that Saturday. In the meantime I am taking pain killers and putting Tiger Balm patches and Blue Emu cream on my back.

Saturday is MRI day. Monday the results came in. I have two herniated discs in my lower back, one of which protrudes off to the left and sits on a nerve bundle which connects to the sciatic nerve, thus the pain and numbness of my left leg. So, I am now getting physical therapy and massage therapy along with taking a muscle relaxer to ease the spasms which the angry nerve has caused. If these modalities do not help, I get to talk to a neurosurgeon. Happy Joy. So, its been about a week into PT and I am still having spasms. We will see. I really do not want to have surgery.

Herniated discs are a pain in the arse...literally. ]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16452802/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16452802/ Thu, 17 Jan 2008 21:47:52 PST
While I was driving yesterday. Driving about for work as usual, I came upon three dear. White tails they were wondering across a golf course on the road I was heading down. Well, seeing the deer trailed to deeply disturbing thoughts. For, you see, nearby is a creek..a seeder creek that feeds many other water ways and ponds and a sign at the bridge that crosses this creek. The sign reads in blood red letters "Warning, do not eat, fish or drink from this water" with some slightly smaller indiscernable lettering beneath it too small to read while driving.

Anyhow, I look at the deer, then think of the sign. I then begin wondering what it is that taints that water so? Yet, I do know the answer to that question. And, ladies and gentlemen its not a pleasant one to stomach...not in the least.

For you see, said sign is in a place, called Oak Ridge, Tennessee. It is the home of many people and animals (both wild and domestic). It also is a place where stomach, pancreatic and colon cancers are rather rampant. Well indeed in the county and surrounding counties that join it. I know for I have seen them and watched people of those areas die from such rare cancers that way. And it all points to the water...

Yes, the water. It is one of those things that government officials would readily deny. They would not want to have the backlash off of it if they did tell all. But, people dying of cancer and have worked in governmental areas in Oak Ridge are not afraid to talk.

For you see, Oak Ridge is not only a place where people live..It was once a secret governmental city back in the 1940s. What did they do there you may ask?
Well, simply said Nuclear bombs.

Oak Ridge was involved in the productions of various nuclear bombs, biohaz weaponry, chemical weaponry etc. Over the years since the Cold War, they have changed over to things like nuclear power plants...uranium enrichment production, production of new chemicals...studies in biological effects of radiation etc.

Long story short...some time back in the 1940s to 1950, the scientists and engineers had a really brilliant idea. It was called dig a mile deep hole near the K25 Plant (it is an enrichment plant), mix radioactive waste with concrete (and yes I said concrete, not lead) and pour it down into this mile deep hole to get rid of the left over waste. Brilliant they thought this plan was.

Well about three years ago, Geiger studies of the soil there and a few surrounding areas of that hole, showed high levels of ..yes you guessed it, radiation. It was in the soil. They did dig it up and put it into giant lead containers but what will never and is rarely even mentioned is that East Tennessee for all its beauty, has hundreds upon hundreds of underground water sources. Theory...dig a hole a mile deep in the earth...tap into underground waterways. Pour the radioactive waste into the mix and what do you get?
Tainted water. Tainted water that travels.

So, I see these deer and shake my head. Deer cannot read signs...the water fowl I saw as well do not read signs. Worst part yet of it all is that people...human beings see the signs, but flatly ignore them...push them into the back of their minds, never really considering that the water they take in from their taps.. It is a horrible cycle, destined to continue until the half life of each element finally diminishes until nothing is there at all.

Don't drink the water...it will eventually kill you. ]]> *Aegyptica http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16365191/ http://Aegyptica.deviantart.com/journal/16365191/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 22:48:34 PST
This came to me today while I was driving. Just out of the blue it popped into my head. Being a good writer of course, I keep a small little book made in India on hand for writing down profound statements that slip into my psyche. Thus, here it is....

Life and death are so beautifully intertwined
wherein each journey taken leads always
to a new Beginning
and never to an
End.

Thus speaks the driving muse. I am a hospice nurse so I deal with death and dying on a daily basis. Death is a beautiful experience. And, I know that sounds strange, but when you see it from my perspective, you realize that the people who are transitioning and passing on become free. They are no longer tethered to their three dimensional and earthbound forma. Theirs is the right to soar. To fly again...to know the purest and truest form of love...to see the Universe in all its glory...Yes, those who are dying are the luckiest of all. For it is good to fly.

With understanding and constant learning, we gain knowledge every day and never tire in our need to search for more. ]]> *Aegyptica