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]]> *AeternitasveniA family time http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/28535094/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/28535094/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 18:13:28 PST i will be spending a week back home in the forests of pennsylvania.

a lot of movement,
hopefully i will have much time to write

God is teaching me to Trust again.

Trust and obey.

He is Faithful, incredibly faithful...


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]]> *AeternitasveniA when you see another, http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/28279991/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/28279991/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 20:35:41 PST
but;
when you see another,

treat them as God has treated you...

not as for who you are,
but as what you can become.


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]]> *AeternitasveniA tempus fugit http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/27920087/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/27920087/ Fri, 23 Oct 2009 09:27:19 PDT time flies

a lot can happen in a year,
a lot can happen in a minute,

but,its been a good year.
^{& a good minute.}

^{jer 29:11

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]]> *AeternitasveniA of gates and providence http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/27277556/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/27277556/ Fri, 18 Sep 2009 09:37:22 PDT time the current,

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God is faithful to me, and it is becoming more and more evident in the small things that He does.

Over the past two months, I have been in a lot of transitions. And God's provision and providence have been moving me all along the way. His hand of protection has been all around me.Even financially, which was probably the most evident to me. I was saved over $1,400 (despite myself). I have a new place to live which is far better than where I previously was, I have a new job which I love even more than my old one. I have new friends that unconditionally support me spiritually and emotionally.

All I can really do is think of how much I deserve just the opposite, but God's grace is overwhelming.
His love is impossible to grasp, yet possible to employ. Simply astounding

But like all gates that we pass through in our Christian lives, there are the struggles.
This verse has been coming to my mind quite a bit.
^{1 John 1:9"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."}
I ask God for forgiveness & mercy a lot, because I need a lot.

God changes your heart, so that you love and obey not because you "have" to,
but because you "want" to.

Love is never forced, because when it is... it ceases to be Love.


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]]> *AeternitasveniA in those moments http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/26750983/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/26750983/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 09:21:02 PDT

When we were young, we found solitude in the timelessness of our lives.
Every minute an hour. Every hour a day. Every year an eternity.
We found joy in the simplest things,
because we knew it was all that we needed.

i want you to know that i believe,

i believe, that there are still places in this world where we find that time does stand still. Even if just for a moment.

Whether in a book, beside a crackling fire, at the seaside or even in the lost in the arms of a hug.

It is in these moments that we experience life as it was meant to be.
It is in those bright moments that we step out from the shade that has crept over our lives, and let the warm rays of reverie, memory, and discovery rekindle that which we have lost.

And we find the only thing better than experiencing life, is sharing it.

Even if it is only for a moment.


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]]> *AeternitasveniA surreal & sangreal http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/26146763/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/26146763/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 08:48:58 PDT
I've had some of the most surreal things happen to me over the past couple days,

One of them was when I walked out to my car after work.

It was the only one left in our fenced in parking lot.
I opened my door, sat down, and placed my backpack in the passenger seat.
I then began to select some music for my commute home.
(faintly in the distance) began to hear what sounded like small bells clinking.

At first I thought nothing of the sound but the it progressively started to get louder so I looked up in the direction it was coming from.

I was rather surprised when I saw a young siberian husky, with the bluest eyes, trotting towards me...
It had red leash in tow, and was coming directly at me.

It walked up to me like I was its owner, & hopped in my car

It was weird because it was like it singled me out, and was fully trusting of me.
& its not normal for me to be approached by a blue eyed exotic dog in the middle of summer, lol.
I returned Sabu to his owner.

Also on wed. I was driving a back road on my way to small group. And out of the corner of my eye I caught a flash of red.
As I looked towards movement I saw a young boy with a red shirt disappearing into the outskirts of the deciduous forest landscape.

I couldn't help but smile, as it brought back a flood of memories...

I too, when I was that age,stole away from life and spent many hours playing in the forest. I would climb the oldest trees, and build the most elaborate worlds. I would even sneak out on summer nights when I thought everyone else was sound a sleep to enjoy the forests aura on summer nights.

Boyhood is a world in and of itself. (No doubt girlhood is as well)

lately i've been having the most lucid dreams.
and the strongest hopes.

My apologies for my lack of ability to convey


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]]> *AeternitasveniA Church Plant Stuff + http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/25692131/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/25692131/ Thu, 02 Jul 2009 10:11:05 PDT
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Awesome how God works,
We had 5 more baptisms this past sunday.
4 of them were new believers, and one of them just being obedient. : )

4 kids made a profession of faith at our VBS too!

God is really growing His church, its quite amazing.
considering, our pastor is the only one who has prior experience.
and he is only 26 lol.

Care Bear! for real

Awesome chance to let someone know that God loves them.
Hurry up the dead line is soon!


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]]> *AeternitasveniA it doesn't take much http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/25274511/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/25274511/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 14:05:44 PDT
yesterday, i was driving
and on my left, above the tilled fields
i saw a curtain of light,

it was as if God dropped fabric of woven light from the heavens.
and draped it across the clouds below.

the closest thing that it compared to was aurora borealis
but vertical, and pure white.

God is amazing.

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^{p.s.
it doesn't take much, to make me feel, loved.}


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]]> *AeternitasveniA to be known http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/24525774/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/24525774/ Fri, 01 May 2009 06:05:52 PDT ^{John 17:3 And this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.

A passion builds inside,
a passion to be known.
a passion to be felt.
a passion to confide, and abide with
another.

Funny that we normally think of eternal life as something that is to be attained.
A reality that is to be grasped at some future date or time.

but Christ comes, and smashes all our preconceived notions.

Life eternal, isn't a place or a threshold.

It's knowing.

feeling
confiding
&
abiding
with,
the eternal}
God.


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]]> *AeternitasveniA swan http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/24216249/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/24216249/ Mon, 13 Apr 2009 08:24:41 PDT
dive.
&
gently row.


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]]> *AeternitasveniA 3more+1 http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/23622239/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/23622239/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 07:17:43 PDT
What is even better, is that each of them did it of their own accord, and in a solitary settings, which makes it even more beautiful imo. God is alive, and working in hearts! : )

Art-wise, I am still on the sidelines. Although I have been searching for some of the most personally evocative pieces here at dA and putting them in collections. Most of my extra time has been spent in non artistic projects, but I am sure this is just storing my artistic ampere for later.

I am sure i'll have something, sometime.

^{^update:}
I just found out last night at Bible Study, that another woman was saved through a Bible study my pastor has been doing with a couple over the past couple months.

wow.

^{shadow,
feathers,
light,}


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]]> *AeternitasveniA respite http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/23099720/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/23099720/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 10:30:15 PST quite a bit more dynamic than the last version of dA.

i haven't much to offer from my time away, and i am not stopping by for long.
a lot of it has been dumping my free time into the Church plant.

Being part of such a young church is quite demanding, there is so much to do. Small groups, community outreach, web and brochure design, set up and tear down of equipment, its all work, but its work for God. I cannot explain the joy that comes with God using the talents that He gives. I have had to use all of them in this little minestry. And its all things that I love to do!! Plus He is making me grow in many ways and picking up new skills as well. Such as reading books to children, and interpersonal communication. I think serving the children at this church has been on of the best gifts of God. Children love you because you are you. the hugs and the time they share with you are never come with a price tag. They have given me a clearer picture of what it means to enter the kingdom as a child.

We have seen lots of fruit already, 6 people have made professions of faith since we started last oct. It has been amazing! God keeps bringing them in by twos lol. I also have the privilege to help lead a Bible study at a local campus. It is wonderful to see God move in such unexpected ways.

Who ever you are, and whatever path you may find your self on. I hope that you may find your joy in God.
and none other.

ill prolly be around till thurs.

p.s.

I still can't believe they haven't fixed the journal mood/emoticon issue. P:

_{...Loneliness has left me searching
For someone to love
Poverty has changed my view
Of what true riches are
Sorrow's opened up my eyes
To see what real joy is
Pain has been the catalyst
To my heart's happiness..}


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]]> *AeternitasveniA shift http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/21416605/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/21416605/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 07:00:23 PST I will be away for an extended amount of time.

I will be shifting my interests from the digital to the corporeal.
^{frankly, computers bore me P :}
I like the digital realm and all, but its really not my forte.

email, is probably the best way to get a hold of me.

peace


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]]> *AeternitasveniA Devious Journal Entry http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/21342748/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/21342748/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 15:14:42 PST if i could become,

^{the servant of all,}

^{no lower place to fall...}

haitus,


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]]> *AeternitasveniA i am moving http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/21228016/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/21228016/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 06:27:38 PDT
[link]


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]]> *AeternitasveniA . (update) http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/21032572/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/21032572/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 08:28:16 PDT in the dusty barren ground.

And hoped, my precious tears would bare,
a harvest, in this desert here.

Have you wept ? I heard God say.
Is that all your heart can pay ?
And in this desert,
bleak and dry.

gently,

God began to cry.

Soon rivers began to flood,
once where nothing was.

Faithful is my God to me.
And will be for Eternity.

(closure)

//

my last two weeks have been incredible, a lot has happened in the realms of my friendships.

(death,rejection,severance)

Testing my heart quite a bit.

funny, that thats one of the things I cherish most. And that has been the place I have been attacked the most.

the poem above I wrote on fri. to vent my emotions. And I mean every word.

God has been so helpful. I planted my heart in the hands of God on Sunday. I have often wondered if one of my greatest flaws is loving people to much. The one thing I don't give half way is my heart. I want to learn how to bend this to better serve Him. He has given me strength to make some of the hardest decisions in my life this weekend. And made it clear that its really only Faith in Him that I need. And all of the "signs" and "confirmations" are mere garnish (and somewhat childish), in comparison to His word, and His promises. Its not easy learning how to pour out your life. "a glass can only spill what it contains..."

how many believe ? I am not sure... the real question is how many follow... When God saves He changes.

We had 2 more people come to accept Christ this Sunday as their Lord and Savior!

Praise God for the Gospel! And the Power of His Word, the Testimony of His greatness!

Thank you Lord for the strength you provide.


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]]> *AeternitasveniA this City, http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20853519/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20853519/ Mon, 06 Oct 2008 06:43:40 PDT
It was the first "Official" service of our infant Church. ( we have been meeting in my pastor's basement for the past month or so. ) But, this past sunday was the first time we met as a family in a local school cafeteria. We have been visiting, people in the neighborhood for the past 3 months, meeting new people, sharing the Gospel. I want to thank those who have prayed for this little work. God has blessed us so much, and moved in so many different ways. We only had about ten adults other than our core group attend out first meeting, but God did some incredible things. A couple, humbled themselves before God and accepted Christ as their Lord and Savior! It was our First Sunday! God was there! How amazing is that !?
God worked some of those "God" type situations in the evening service at our commissioning service in the evening. God coordinated things together in a sovereign way. It was amazing! I wish you could have been there. I haven't cried so much in months. And thats for several reasons... I also had a close friend of mine die last night as well. He was a mentor, to me when I first came to Christ. And I know He prayed for me, He was such an evidence of Gods grace, and Gods faithfulness. So yesterday and today has been mingled with joy and sweet sorrow. But, I do not mourn as those who have no Hope. I rejoice knowing that one day we will stand before God together, praising Him for the Work He has done in our hearts, and lives.

I always wanted to be a part of something great. And it was that drive that almost killed me when I was unsaved. I sought to exalt my own vision, and passion. And it almost killed me. But God in His mercy opened my eyes to my sin and saved my soul from Sin and its destruction. And now, 5 years later, I find myself being a part of something great. God has given me my hearts desire, and I praise Him for it. I am able to use all of the talents and gifts that He has given me, for the promotion of His Glory. And who would have thunk,

that it is full of Joy, Love, fun, and most importantly changing hearts & lives.

Thanks again for those who have been a part in this in prayer! I will share more, as God continues to work in this small Church!

Pray 4 me!

Â


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]]> *AeternitasveniA Happy Birthday Autumn. http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20618538/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20618538/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 12:08:55 PDT
^{^{How could I forget : )}}

^{( AutumnalPoem: I : 08 )}
Boughs, of heaven. Rain on me, Clouds of mercy. I long for your embrace, For your arms to wash away every trace of doubt or sorrow. And for those gentle words from your lips, to eclipse all I have ever known. Perhaps today, Perhaps tomorrow. I will see you there. I love you Jesus.


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]]> *AeternitasveniA = Joy http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20517393/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20517393/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 07:10:28 PDT
nuff, said.

People, may say that it doesn't work that way, but if anyone believes the Truth and has a true grasp on the Gospel, it cannot but produce Joy. I am amazed at how little I actually think about the Gospel, or even meditate on Gods word, and its implications. Its much easier to focus on "reality" and the corporeal things. I have been praying that God would continually help me to think on these things more. I want this. And I want this for other people.

Ooooh. my this past week has been bizarre. Life is rough, and evil... but greater is He who is in us, than he who is in the world. I Thank God for that! Because I would have given up on my a long time ago. I am struggling to move forward. I think struggling would be an understatement. Where there is a door, there is a demon. I have had to come crawling back to God, begging for mercy more in the past 2 weeks than I have in a long time... Needless to say, its been an eye opener as to how much I sin, and the severity of it. But I would rather be smacked in the face with the Truth, than lulled to sleep by the lullabys of sin.

I've noticed that my family, is going through some incredible trials as well. And I have been able to encourage and comfort them because of some prior heartaches in my life. A small confirmation of Gods hand through those times. Refining, aint fun. Its necessary. Its also promised.

i Believe.


On a different note.

I accidentally posted my latest polaroids, on this account. But I decided to leave them up, rather than take them down.



_{is it almost autumn... already?}

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Sper ca aceasta sÄ te binecuvÃ¢nteze la fel cum m-a binecuvÃ¢ntat Åi pe mine.}

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]]> *AeternitasveniA Jesus Others You http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20387146/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20387146/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 07:18:13 PDT

My life,isn't,slowing,down.

I had some emotional heartaches over the past week. My heart is my weakness. ( Isn't it everyone's ? ) The Word is always such a comfort. I am struggling to move forward, I don't want complacency. Sunday was awesome. I met God in a special way.

My Pastor shared from Gods word a message I needed to hear. About how we find our deepest relationships centered on the Gospel. And that our Joy, is complete in others finding God. And that is true success.

My pastor shared part of his life that gripped my heart. It was about how as a child his father always had him practice for basketball, and would send him to camps, and coach and critique him after his games and such. He told of how he would be so annoyed or wonder why his father would be so seemingly harsh or strict concerning the sport. He said, the reason for his father doing these things became crystal clear twice in his life.

One was at the Championship game in his senior year at High School. He said that they one the game, and he had played one of the best games of his life. He looked up in the stands at the end of the game and saw his father. He said his fathers face was streaming with tears, and full of joy. And how, that as Christians we find great joy in the success of others. ( As was pauls example in Philipians 1, finding Joy in the work that the Philipians were doing ).

This example had double meaning for me. The First was explained above. The other was, about God. As our Father He finds joy in our own success. And the things that He puts us through, may seem harsh or even strict at times. Exhausting ( Physically, Emotionally, Spiritually ) But, Ultimately God does these things so that we may succeed. Who doesn't want to see our Father at that Day, with Tears in His eyes saying "Well done..my Child"

This was of huge impact to me, being that at times I have been pushed to the limits of my sanity or on the brink of emotional suicide. Wondering, why I was put through such things. But I know that God is preparing me for true hardships, and wants me to succeed when the time comes to face them. And they are not lightning bolts from a oppressive god, but the Loving Guiding Hand of a Merciful Father.

... anyway. May God guide and comfort your hearts.

Maranatha!

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^{Last lesson next week.}

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Sper ca aceasta sÄ te binecuvÃ¢nteze la fel cum m-a binecuvÃ¢ntat Åi pe mine.}

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]]> *AeternitasveniA joy != circumstances http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20286587/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20286587/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 09:14:21 PDT Joy does not equal circumstances.

I wrote last week about how I haven't had so much Joy in years. And I truly meant it but I also haven't struggled this much in years as well. Despite circumstances, we can find joy. Joy isn't a state of mind, its a reality. Despite circumstances. And that is why Paul found joy, in everything. Its a gift of God, because its rest in God and looking to the promises He gives.

It was also my last week teaching Sunday School

as well as going to the Church that I have been attending for 4 years. I also went out calling last thursday with my pastor. Its always interesting going door to door striking up spiritual conversation. We had some really good talks with two guys. It was a joy P:

I have had made some muslim friends. In fact i am learning quite a bit about them it seems.
On Sat. I helped a friend of mine move. (Who is nominally Muslim) And he had his brother and one another friend help. Well the other friend happens to be a pretty devout muslim. To make a long story short, I called my buddy up yesterday, to hang out. And when we met up the other Friend was there with him. I knew that he was having a computer networking problem on his home network, so I asked if I could come over and trouble shoot it. And he let me.

His family was fasting ( they fast from sunrise to sunset ) but they graciously gave me a danish with some coffee as I fixed their issue. They were really surprised that I fixed their problem, and then invited me to stay for dinner. It was still sunlit, so I talked with him and his family for about an hour or so until sunset. It was interesting to observe their customs of prayer as well as breaking fast and eating with them for their evening meal. They seemed to like me quite a bit, and they invited me back. It will be interesting to see how our friendship develops. Esp. as we will eventually touch on spiritual issues. Pray that I would have the discernment of how and when to share the Gospel with them.

Yesterday was the first day of Ramadan.

& For those who are interested

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]]> *AeternitasveniA embers;and;ice http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20161906/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/20161906/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 06:35:40 PDT
We have had our struggles as well. I have heard it said "Where there is a Door, there is a Demon..." Implying that when God spurs us to move forward and we are growing and following Him, we can expect increased temptations as well as trials. I have been observing a lot of that for many of the people in our group. And I have even seen things happen to me. Satan trying to turn me to get distracted from God's work in Easter Lake. I haven't been totally successful in warding off those attacks, but it has humbled me quite a bit. Making me see how truly weak I am, but also making me resolve to follow Christ even further. Gracious to Forgive, and Abundant in Mercy. This is our God.

One Passage of Scripture that has come to my mind quite a bit has been the passage when the Israelites were finally about to cross the Jordan river and go into the promised land. How they set apart time to sanctify and cleanse themselves before moving forward. That has been a Challenge to me esp. It has forced me to look at my own life and set apart time to seek the Face of God and see what he would have me to purge. The icing on the cake was on sunday evening. When a man, repented in front of the entire Church of His sin. He gave his testimony of how in his pride and rebellion kept on seeking to stay in His sin. But, He gave testimony to how God wouldn't give him peace, and how God continued to seek to restore him. It was so wonderful, it reminded me of God's work in my own life and how God leaves the 99 and seeks the 1 lost ( And rejoices when He finds them ). How great is our GOD! So much more is happening, and I wish I had time to write it all, for those of you who follow me I pray for you. And I hope that God will work in your own hearts that you may find the true Joy that comes by serving Him. And also that you may Love in truth, Christ,Others and the Gospel. Never forget the day He saved you!

Also...
God has also sent a friend to help me translate some studies

Ill post these on my website when I they are done. He is so Good!

]]> *AeternitasveniA XXV http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/19967368/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/19967368/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 09:37:20 PDT
( My body is finally catching up to my heart.)

I will be uploading some art,

soon.

I have been working on and off, on a manip, over the past week or so. I won't post it until it feels just right. I haven't had a lot of time to devote towards my artistic side. Working with the baby church, and work in general is eating up most of my time.

Plus I found a 70,000 node network, and its been fun exploring lol.

CLI: For those with imagination.

_{pray for my}

Jhon.

]]> *AeternitasveniA life explosion, http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/19791044/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/19791044/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 13:21:59 PDT
Helping out with this church plant has been taking up a lot of my time, and its been so great!

Its been a cool experience for me to help be a part of starting a Church, I am learning so much. Been doing some studies on Evangelism as well. Learning leaps and bounds. Pretty much because we over do, the simplicity of Christianity. Its back to the basics.
Loving God& Loving Others.

Satan has already trying to hinder, but God is continually showing himself more Powerful. We had some opposition from a local school, because the Principal didn't want anyone to meet there on sunday's. But after a long wait, we were able to meet there.

Also, the whole emotional struggles and mental battles come along with the territory. God's work is worth every ounce of it. Its inexplicable.

I was also able to help name the Church! which is awesome, Living Waters Fellowship , is the name that we settled on.

I am no longer nominally, teh B sect. which is good. I am not a big fan of names.

So, I am just a "Christian" now.

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I have some new images in the worx, ( a friend graciously took some sky pix on my behalf, thx for thinking of me ) woot!

and possibly some txt's in the near future.

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]]> *AeternitasveniA coffee house crowd http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/19519297/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/19519297/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 13:39:48 PDT
funny how God does stuff like that.

On Sat. I helped rough in the basement of my new Pastor's house. (he is only 2 yrs older than I am lol ) anyway... On the way home, I decided to stop in downtown Des Moines @ Java Joe's to get some iced Chai. and sitting out front was a homeless lady, probably in her late 30's early 40's taking some notes on a piece of paper. When I had finished my Chai, I walked over to her and asked if she would like anything. And she accepted. So I was able to get her a caramel latte, and a blueberry muffin

& I got another Chai. We walked back out front and sat down at a table, and started to just talk. We talked about various and sundry things, I asked what she liked to do,and if she did art and such... and a lot of small talk. She told me a little about her situation. And how she didn't have a place to sleep, and had to try and sleep on the couch of the local YMCA. So I spent some time just listening. She asked me what I do for fun, and I told her digital art and writing and stuff like that. I had my laptop with me, so I brought it out and connected to deviantArt. I browsed through my gallery explaining pieces of art and how they came to pass. I showed her the picture of the woman at the well and asked her if she knew the story ? And she said "no", I then asked her if she had a bible, again "no"

It just so happened I had an extra Bible lol, and I gave it to her, I encouraged her to read the story of the Woman at the well in john 4, when I had left. I then asked her a very simple question. I asked if she knew the "Gospel" and she started to name off the 4 Gospels... Smiling I asked her if she knew the "Gospel" not the order of the gospels, and she said no again... So then I was able to launch into my own testimony of God's saving grace in my life, and also share with Her why Christ came to die.

I just thought it was cool, to be able to use deviantArt as a witnessing tool.

Its not our job to save people, its our job to share the Gospel, and let the Word of God and the Holy Spirit to convict the World of sin. So please pray that others would come along Adeanne's path and continue to guide her towards the Truth. And pray that she would read the Word! Thats the best thing.

Â

]]> *AeternitasveniA ( step ) :: bonus (dA:MOOD hack) http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/19309693/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/19309693/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 15:32:02 PDT
. :: . :: .

( of Faith )

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AV.dA:hacks:MOOD
^{Ok, I got fed up with not having an option to remove the mood Icon.. ( who hasn't ) So I decided if dA isn't going to help me I was going to have to help myself... so after 10 min of fun I figured it out.

This will create a new journal without a mood icon ( Notice mine doesn't have a mood icon.)
So, you can journal away mood free!

Click this link...

[link]}

]]> *AeternitasveniA MyThirdEaster http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/18867264/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/18867264/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 06:06:45 PDT
I am also going to be filming VBS for another one of my Friends Churches this entire week.Its gonna be sweeeeet. I might try to get some pictures up, and maybe post the video on the tube once everything is said and done.
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^{Last Sat. I went to a different state.
I helped pass out fliers for a friend of mine's church in thier town parade
and after that we had a booth in the local park, where we had sandart, as well as foam crafts that were colorized like the wordless book.

I was able to share the gospel with about 15 different kids. One girl didn't know what sin is, or who Jesus was. And she didn't have a Bible. I was so sad that I wasn't able to give her a Bible, but I explained the gospel as well as I could.. and told her I would pray for her.
Pray for Doreen, if you want. That she would come to know God.
Its a fact that people can live in our own midst and still not have a clue about who and what Christ is for us.

God sent me a special present on sat. It was heartbreaking, and profoundly beautiful to me at the same time.

There was a very young woman, who was probably 16 or 17 years old, who had come to our booth and she had a child with her that was 2..
It was quite obvious it was her son

The girl said she was a Christian,but she didn't know about the different colors that are represented in the crafts. And I was able to explain them, along with some scripture.I do believe she was a Christian though. The little guy, held the bottle for the Sand Art craft it was really cute.but thats besides the point lol.

Later on in the day, probably a good 2 hrs later.The little guy came up out of no where with arms out stretched to where I was sitting alone on a bench.
He wanted to be held.( I was totally surprised )
I didn't even hesitate though, I just picked up the little dude and sat him on my lap and nestled him under my left arm.
His mother was in trail of him and quickly apologized.
Beaming, I told her it was completely ok.

The poor guy, probably didn't have a dad around, based on the age of his mother. :/

And for 2 minutes, I had a son, and he had a father.}

Hristos, a murit pentru noi... Â

Prov. 16:7 When a manÂs ways please the LORD, he makes even his enemies to be at peace with him. <-- He isn't kidding.

]]> *AeternitasveniA blessings (pt2) http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/18524530/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/18524530/ Tue, 27 May 2008 09:39:26 PDT
I wanted to mainly share about how God used some Bibles. I think I mentioned in my earlier journal about, how all of the monitory funds that were received mainly went towards buying some Bibles. I am glad that my friend Laura had this idea. And
it was evident that God's hand of blessing was on it too.

First when we went to go buy the Bibles, ( The day after Easter ) we had a little trouble finding the place. But, as we were searching the street for the entrance a man opened a door that opened from a closed yard. One of my friends asked the man where to find the store to buy the Bibles. And lo and behold it was that very place we needed to find. We then found out that they normally weren't even open that day, and not only that but the man was leaving at the exact same time that we arrived. (double bonus

) It was cool to see God's providence in this, connecting the dots. We were able to pass out some of the Bibles that very day. And over the next couple days God used them several ways. We even had people who didn't even read the Bible giving out bibles to thier friends lol. It was pretty sweet. Also another one of my friends was able to give them to her classmates at college. And some of these friends previously wanted nothing to do with Bible.

I was also able to give out one of my own Bibles. God let me sit next to a wonderful young woman named molly on the way back over the Atlantic. She was returning from visiting turkey. She had visited places like Ephesus and some others that are in the Bible. It was another "coincidental" thing that happened. It was so very evident that God had placed her there for me to talk to. I was able to talk with her quite a bit about her beliefs and understanding of God. She was reading some New Age material and that led into some serious discussion about life in general. She didn't have a Bible and I was able to give her on of my favorites. ( it had a beautiful arabesque design imprinted on the cover ) She promised me she would read it, too. ( & I hope she does ) I was able to share the Gospel with her, and talk with Her about Christ and our need of a saviour. It was just nice to talk about God in general. I am glad its not up to me to "save" people, but just to proclaim the Truth about God. And I know ultimately its Gods word and His spirit that brings us to life.

God will do His work. With or without us. Although He doesn't need us, but He wants us to come along side Him in His work. Conditions will never be "perfect" for serving God. Faithfulness is key.We need to have that focus on the eternal. Our destination determines our direction, it is looking beyond ourselves and understanding the big picture. Its not our own little story. Its His story. And we need to be living sacrifices, set apart unto His work and for His Glory.

Look to the Cross, take up your own, and follow Him.

Isaiah 26:3,4

]]> *AeternitasveniA blessings (pt1) http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/18226173/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/18226173/ Sun, 11 May 2008 11:21:55 PDT
I guess, this all started the month after I returned from my first trip to Romania last year. I didn't really tell to many people that I was going and there were a lot of people interested about why I went. ( although that in itself is another long story ) if you want to know it, I will be glad to sit down over some coffee and share it.

Initially I planned on going to Romania again sometime this summer but God obviously had different plans . I think the most awesome part of this whole testimony is that it proves how God works and also how anything that is done, is only done through Him. I barely had anything to do with what went on. I pretty much was the delivery boy and observer. And its my duty to give testimony to Gods work. cause... I am the one who saw it all come together.

After going to Romania the first time, I gave a small presentation to my Church. And afterwards a man approached me and said that he was willing to donate some money to help buy things for Gods work over in Romania. I was pretty surprised. I didn't ask any one to help, but it was cool to see God move in someone's heart for another people in another country. I then let my friends know that if they needed anything to let me know.

And that was the beginning.

My friends then gave me a list of simple things that they could use in ministry for the Children over in Romania.

Ok, this is how I usually think. When someone gives me a list of things to do, I then systematically try to destroy the list by myself. Although my generous friend said he would help provide towards the things, I knew that it wouldn't take care of everything on the list ( I also have a bad habit of buying the very best quality I can find even if it cost significantly more) So I figured I could just buy the rest of the stuff myself and then the list would be complete. nuff said. I was looking at the task at hand as something that I needed to complete, and I also saw that it would be very easily completed. But for some reason, I didn't have very much peace about this. And then a little light bulb went on in my vacant head. I saw my selfishness in the whole grand scheme of this responsibility that God had given me. Its not about me getting a list done, its about God getting His done.

The most basic thing on the list was crayons.

And I knew that anyone could go to wally world or what ever store was close and buy a box for about a buck. So my mindset changed from, how much could I get for the Children, to how many people could I get involved to get things for these Children. That way, many people could be used by God, and blessed by Him as well ( can you say eternal rewards.. P: ). And needless to say it was cool to see God work. So I got in contact with all of my friends and family, and then asked them just to simply go to the store buy a box of crayons and write a letter to the kids over in Romania. Thats all. Some of my friends and family responded with asking about what other things were needed and then I just appropriated the rest of the list. So it was something the voluntarily did (I didn't say a peep about any other things). Which showed me the hearts of many of my friends. It was awesome. Then I started getting stuff from people I didn't even know. Friends told friends. Family told Friends and soon I had an outpouring of gifts. I even had people walk up to me in a coffee shop after they found out that I was going to Romania and give me a wad of cash. I had people just donate money ( which was going to be used to buy Bibles ). Many people promised to pray, and were praying. It was very evident that God wanted to do something special for those kids.

When all was said and done, I had to leave some of the things behind because I couldn't bring it all. I just had to much stuff and not enough room. lol. Which was a blessed problem to have.

I think one of the most beautiful facts of how God worked in this is that. Over 70 people, from 6 different denominations, 1, 3rd grade class, 2 small group bible studies, felt the call of God to love some people that they would never meet. I saw God heal hearts through this, encourage people, allow people to exercise their spiritual gifts. I saw many people spend time to pray and bring others in intercessory prayer before His throne. It was amazing.

Crayons, won't save a soul. But God can. I know that the things that were gathered are useless unless they are used to show Gods Love, and Gods Truth. It has and will be my prayer that God will use these things that He gathered for th... ]]> *AeternitasveniA FC : DELTA ( darknets vs lightnets ) http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/17744141/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/17744141/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 07:55:08 PDT I can't believe its been a whole year since my last FC

Î´

With the digital social revolution of Generation X, and Generation Y/why, tactics have changed on almost all spectrum's.And with the use of the internets, many things are at our "fingertips"

So hang on as I encourage you to make use of your Lightnet.
I guess I better classify what lightnet means.but I should probably define the Darknets first.

What be the, D@rkn3t5
.
With the advent of Peer to Peer the explosion of Piracy swept the digital seas with fury but just as quickly as the explosion came it began to wane. This quickly shifted things as the wars were waged. And soon the pirate kings were faced with opposition afresh and were forced to create digital strongholds impenetrable known as darknets.

Whilst most of us know of Napster, kAzaa/limewirE and the plethora of other filesharing networks. We know the use of there nefarious purposes.but these aren't the darknets. Technology forced the "kings" into creating their own worlds of networks shrouded by encryption and accessed by invitation only.

Friend to Friend networks + Self healing mesh nodes + strong encryption + high bandwidth and storage has caused the war on digital piracy to come to a virtual stalemate.

And these be the Darknets.

Insert definition Lightnets. Guess what, You probably already have one.

( Matt. 5:14 Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. )

Most of us have Face book,Multiple IM/Chats/IRC, mySpace, blogs, and other social orientated online accounts (yes even dA). We have a network.And as apposed to being, Underground and shrouding our activities we should be shining our little lights as bright as possible.

I am beginning to see a trend, in out reach. Even this last week getting messages about helping some local homeless people, giving needs, as well as prayer requests, letting others have an opportunity to share in others ministry. ( the possibilities are incredible)

This is not our time to be shy. I have even used my own network to call others to help me in my own duties for God. Our networks are not only means of ministry but also support. A chance to get to know your more of your Family.

We don't have excuses to be sitting back sipping iced tea under a palm trees. Or letting some w0w account eat our most precious resource (life)

Carpe Diem!

I think it interesting that although tactics change, the core of the tactics does not.
Prayer,Loving others, Fruits of the Spirit, the Word. All of the tools that God gives us, aught to be directed back towards Him. Art, Chat sessions, Emails, Blogs, Forums... etc etc. you name it. Weapons in our arsenal, yo!

And the day may very well come when Christians will have to form close knit, strongly encrypted, invitation only networks but until then...

The Digital is just another platform for Creativity in the service of our God and Saviour.

So make use of your Lightnet.

( as for this little light of mine, im gonna let it shine, let it shine let it shine...)

_{prior fc}
Î± - Î² - Î³

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For you windows ppl, [link] Esword ( free bible software )
For you mac ppl, NoteME

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Wanna help some... ]]> *AeternitasveniA a sickness http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/17581199/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/17581199/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 22:11:29 PDT
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havent been this sick in years. 10 days its been. I am glad its almost over.
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nothing new, i ve been reading a lot of the epistles. And have some things cooking on all the burners.

Ive had a lot of time to think over the past months, ive been forced down some paths i really didnt want to go, but hey... its life right. The problem with having a good memory is that, you remember things lol.

God has been showing me a lot as of late. Pretty much how much I sin. And its not pretty. I have had to mull over a situation that was incepted years ago, and I am just now seeing the fruit of my choices. I didnt realize that I was sinning at the time, but in retrospection I can see where I went wrong. Even if we sin in ignorance the effects are still the same. Muerte.

Im just curious to see how God will use it in the future, no matter how uncomfortable it may be.

=

Does anyone else think the Bible is scary ?

ill prolly have some new things by the end of the week.

]]> *AeternitasveniA tons of stuff, http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/17380380/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/17380380/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 14:07:03 PDT
a good friend of mine is dying,

but, they will be with the Lord and thats better then staying here. plus a plethora of other darts in my heart. Thank God for His word, the Church, His Holy Spirit, and the Promises.

-- Lord willing ( if I survive

) ill be back in Europe in April. ( ill actually see paris for the first time which will be fun )

I have been gathering some things for a Children's cancer hospital in Bucharest, and its been awesome to see God bring a so many things together for this. If I know you, and you haven't been contacted on face book, you can send some kids some crayons to my address ( as long as you write a note to them too ) If I don't know you and you want to pray for them, or write them a note digitally I can print it out and ill bring it with me when I am there.

I want them to know that there are people all over the world that care for them, and most importantly that God cares, even though they may be ravaged by cancer. He still died for them, and wants them to come to Him. So if you want to share the love, i encourage you to do so. Â

Its always a struggle going to Romania, it seems like I always get intense fire, Its easy physically, but spiritually its a whole different ball park.

One of the defining attributes of Christianity is suffering,
and its not the fact that we face it,

its the fact that we must embrace it. Hard stuff, but our God is greater than our circumstances.

astept.

promise.

_{i so,wanted closure, _{but it went into overtime}}

1 peter,

_{there are two inescapable realities,
the first one is that God, exists.
and second one,
so do you.}

oh, have you ever noticed that when you least want sympathy,
its what is poured out. ( no comment ) P:
and usually from the person you least want it from. ]]> *AeternitasveniA hope http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/17176626/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/17176626/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 11:24:22 PDT
i hope,

do you ?

^{Voices echo off the throne,of God.
And whispered there with tender care,

I think this so profound, is my name.

That even, I should be thought of by God, or even by another.
and yet my name is pleaded there, by my sisters and my brothers.

but,I find it even more profound
that my name on the lips of God is found.
my advocate and brother,

by Him, my sin at the cross was drowned
and my soul, in His eternal hands is bound.}

--
A friend of mine said that I have emotions like a girl,

I don't think I laughed so hard in a while...

^{earth has no sorrow that heaven cannot heal}

some of us crush,
some of us bleed,
bleeding hearts,
and wounded souls...
and some of us, don't know when to quit.
because,
the value we place on others, is beyond that which we place on all of reality.
abused,
used,

freely.

just so others, may see. Â

]]> *AeternitasveniA cleft, http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/17074590/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/17074590/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 14:09:22 PST
is there none left ?

stretch my heart past light,
see if it will last, and endure this night,

please God, a token.
just one, for the broken
and cleft...

silence rains, from heaven.

one day, I will see light again.
but until then,...

I must rest in God.

-
psa. 147

I covet your prayers,

]]> *AeternitasveniA i am loved. http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16877154/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16877154/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 07:57:36 PST

by God, by friends, & family...
each a unworthy gift, given from His hands.

I am blessed.

i've been kinda quiet at dA lately, RL has been pressing, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. A lot of writing, essays and such. ill post some here when I am done, and then perhaps I can focus on the more aesthetic arts. P:

& happy valentines day, btw.

have you ever felt like this ?

]]> *AeternitasveniA abort73.com - They can't run... http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16721252/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16721252/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 10:38:53 PST is that they can't run.

[link]

]]> *AeternitasveniA I believe,... http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16645362/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16645362/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 14:46:59 PST
... So do you think that there is such a thing as the promises of God ?

or are they just realities.

This thought struck me as odd, the other day. Because by virtue of the fact that what ever God says, is. And since Promises are things to be had and Because God has already said, it must already be. So in effect there are no such thing as promises,, just the realities of God.

do you see what I mean ? Human's can break promises, God cannot, because they are inescapable realities. All of this is neatly defined in one word.

Truth.

///
Hope,
I have Hope again.

After leaving another cold december,

I still don't remeber,
where, or since when,

I had hoped, that I'd hope

again.
///

Â
Hope in God ^{: )}

â°ââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ¯

ps 19,25,27,30,32,35,56,90,107,

_{Stiu Romaneste ?
Cautand pentru lucruri ?

Mea Sora scumpa pe Isus, eu face o site pentru tot sa vezi.

asculta aici [link]} ]]> *AeternitasveniA transition, http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16455771/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16455771/ Fri, 18 Jan 2008 07:19:49 PST
do we forget that there is a world out side out door ?
do we forget that there is an eternity inside our heart ?

do we forget that every soul has been crafted by the will of God...

Take into consideration those you touch, even if by a word, smile or exhortation.

Everyone sees the world through a unique perspective, its always worth the time to try and understand that lens.

"...How many times must a man look up before he can see the sky?"

i say...
How many times must a man look at his life before He can see the Grace of God ?

For that very last breath you took was undeserved.
-

God knows your heart, He just want's you to know it too and then show you His own.

â°ââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ¯

ps 19,25,27,30,32,35,90,107,

_{Stiu Romaneste ?

Cautand pentru lucruri ?

Mea Sora scumpa pe Isus, eu face o site pentru tot sa vezi.

asculta aici [link]} ]]> *AeternitasveniA movement http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16330446/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16330446/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 13:50:49 PST
I was a little scared at first that I would have to sacrifice some things to move forward, things like freedom and imagination, but I am finding out that its not so. With discipline comes, as stronger force by which to wield the imagination or direction.

I don't do anything but want to learn about God more, it seems. And its awesome. And whats so incredible about it is that to learn about God more is to have to rely on Him more, and allow Him to be more of your life. So you begin to see God move in everything around you, taking care of your piddly needs, just as faithfully as the "massive" ones. And then He begins to show you that He sees everything, and moves the pieces of the heart...
there is way more to this, and I am only beginning to see some of the smaller aspects, but its way encouraging.

All I really want is to see other people see God, and if they see me and not God than I have failed in my life. And its so easy for us to try and bend it to ourselves. Its like, having a friend because they love you. Not because they "need" you. Because, if we are truly honest with ourselves and God. He is the only one we need. And as humans its a tough thing to swallow, because we crave emotions, companionship, affection, and other tangible things. Only God can help us now, only God could help us in the first place.

If you say you've met God, and you walk away unchanged... then you never met God at all. think about it.

â°ââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ¯

ps 19,25,27,30,32,35,90,107,

_{Stiu Romaneste ?

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asculta aici [link]} ]]> *AeternitasveniA for Time & ... http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16096751/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/16096751/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 16:19:18 PST God likes to teach me new things, and I desire to learn them. And its never easy lol, but thats the price thats required.

I learned how to appreciate things differently, and to enjoy life as it is being lived, and that it is by God's grace I even can enjoy a simple glass of water or a donut.

I will be submitting some short stories, probably in the next couple days, or early next week. This is the meatiness, because its not as aesthetically desirable, but more crisp and direct. An essay collaboration will be forthcoming as well, and I think it will be the icing on the cake, as well as a good contemplative piece.

Its my goal to get you to think about God.

I am loved, and by His sacrifice I can say. My needs are met, for now and eternity.

I have much more to write about what God is teaching me but I have a compilation of essays that Lord willing I will be able to share soon, in the next upcoming weeks or months.

^{^{There is a fountain filled with blood drawn from EmmanuelÂs veins;

And sinners plunged beneath that flood lose all their guilty stains.

Lose all their guilty stains, lose all their guilty stains;

And sinners plunged beneath that flood lose all their guilty stains.

The dying thief rejoiced to see that fountain in his day;

And there have I, though vile as he, washed all my sins away.

Washed all my sins away, washed all my sins away;

And there have I, though vile as he, washed all my sins away.

Dear dying Lamb, Thy precious blood shall never lose its power

Till all the ransomed church of God be saved, to sin no more.

Be saved, to sin no more, be saved, to sin no more;

Till all the ransomed church of God be saved, to sin no more.}}

â°ââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ¯

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asculta aici [link]} ]]> *AeternitasveniA small thoughts / ganduri putin http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/15890445/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/15890445/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 13:51:03 PST
so who is worse ?
the man who refuses to carry his cross, or tries to carry his cross alone ?

I say they are both the same... because they will get no where either way.

what are your thoughts ?

-

God is good

I still cannot wrap my mind around the fact that God incarnate came to earth.
and that He was reallllllly here. I wonder what its like to talk to God face to face.

What would you ask Him if He was right before you ? I dare say we wouldn't be talking about the weather lol.

I know what I would ask Him

- I had this epiphimal thought last night...
and its pretty surreal.

What if the Throne of God is just another gate.
as if the Throne in all of its Glory is just a portal into deeper realms of Himself. I dunno the thought just struck me as bizarre yet exciting somehow.
anyway... I am compiling resources for a small collection of uploads in the near future. I hope to share them soon, I want them to be a blessing to your hearts as well.

pace,

^john

Â

_{2Cor. 12:10 That is why, for ChristÂs sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.}

â°ââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ¯

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asculta aici [link]} ]]> *AeternitasveniA Seasons of life, and contemplations. http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/15794979/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/15794979/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 14:57:57 PST not me.

(you can have your subjective experience , ill take the objective over it any day)

God's sharpest tools in my life other than the Word, Spirit, & Prayer
have been loneliness, and women.

And in the hands of God, such tools are more effective than words can utter.
than hands can shatter.

Many times my words build up in me, and I have none to listen, save God.
Often I have been in better company alone, than when surrounded by friends or loved ones. Yes, how quickly I forget God's mercy... And I find myself looking to God with perplexed and tearful eyes, wondering... are not my tears in your book ?
The crucial points in my life, have not been when I was put to test surrounded by companions. No, these testings came when I was alone, alone.

I never realized how alone Christ must have felt, but even then He had the Father. and then I think deeper, when He was on the cross and the Father turned his back, He was completely alone. And I look over my piddly struggles with emotions, and try to kill my selfishness with consolation. When Christ said " This is my Body " he meant more than a physical offering... it was emotional, and all other aspects of our human makeup. Christ never had a companion, a lover, a help meet. No tender hand to console his own as he faced the cross. No intimate embrace to sooth His sorrows. No eyes to lose time in, no hair to caress with adoration. Yes He was God, but let us never forget His humanity. He is as real as you and me. Forsaken is a powerful word. It should strike awe, and godly fear in our hearts. Forsaken...

30 yrs isn't that long... when 20 seconds is forever.
Its better to be lonely now, and later lonely never.
Is it better to have loved and lost,
than never chanced the endeavor ?

Yes my greatest need is met, but I still have my desire
then why God do I have within me now,
this yearning burning fire ?

For those who have never looked death in the face, and felt its pull. Knowing that its only by God's grace that you haven't been consumed, and eternally damned. I will tell you it puts a different perspective on loss, and gain. I never really expected God to bless me so much, when I turned to Him. All I wanted, was a second chance to live for Him... and He has given me an eternity. So when I hurt inside, when my heart breaks, when my mind trembles, I remember. I remember where God has led me, and where He is leading. Home. and all I can say is. "My needs are met" no matter what comes or what is denied.

And I Hope with all my heart, this is the blessed Hope, the Hope that will not be disappointed. Â
yes, I have other hopes, but friend...what is the finite compared to the infinite ?

This last year has been the most joyous one of my life just as the previous year was polar opposite. God has taught me so much, made me to love deeper, stronger, more godly. And love is a heavy thing, much to heavy for me to wield alone. Love knits the into the very fabric of the soul, intertwines and meshes into the heart. It becomes part of you.
This has been a year of choices, a year of study, a year of Hope. I have had many issues to deal with from my past, a lot of them bad habits. Slowly but surely God is helping me weed them out. I have vision, inspiration, desire, and anticipation. Looking for every chance to serve my God, letting Him touch every aspect, inspect every facet is my aspiration. And it hasn't been easy. One of the most uncomfortable things is being totally honest with God, because it reveals your heart. Its not like God doesn't already know... its more of the fact that He wants us to know. One of the things I look forward too, is not having to deal with the brokeness. I think I tend to get frustrated when God shows me how deep my sin is, how much it hurts Him. Its not easy to be spiritually minded, because it makes you ... take away your life. a very real, very tender life.
Giving God everything, isn't easy either because there is a cost. Laying it down on the altar not just once but every day.

Strengthen me Father. Fill me so that I may fill others, grant me the mercy I need, heal my wounds that bleed. May I hold you God supreme.

Sure... being a Christian is easy..

but the wonderful truth of it all,
is that we aren't alone.
He has overcome, and so likewise all those who Believe.

amen.

â°ââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ¯

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Cautan... ]]>} *AeternitasveniA pit stop http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/15678466/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/15678466/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 12:08:22 PST ... & we know how to destroy them.

albeit He, is the only one who knows how to put them back together.

. Just had some small things to submit .

I hope to have some more meaty things by the end of December.

Hail,

_{Stiu Romaneste ?

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Imi pare rau lol, Romaneste ma, e mai naspa.}

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ps 25 ]]> *AeternitasveniA i don't now how long. http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/15101616/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/15101616/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 13:02:39 PDT places in my mind.

Visions of Glory,

Praising, rejoicing, with purity. Something , beyond comprehension.

something that requires eternal praise,

...must merit eternal worth.

Something so profound that it never ...ends but compounds.

God you are changing me,
thank you.
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I don't know how long I'll be away, perhaps for a while.

the time for greater movement has come in my life, I have enjoyed sharing here. But God keeps on giving me more responsibilities with people, more responsibility in prayer, and I do not have the leisure time I once had when i was waiting. I will be back sometime I know.

and I will have something to share.

May God draw you, and may you run to Him.

AV

â°ââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ¯

ps 25 ]]> *AeternitasveniA hope in ☛ God http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14881333/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14881333/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 06:55:51 PDT
because, there is no hope in any other.

He breathes hope,

And why my soul, are you cast down ?

Hope in God.

I hope,
I believe,
The promises of God.

When tears blur reality, and I can't see very far... I always wonder.
Is it because I am clinging to Jesus with all my might, or is it because He is doing the same... perhaps it is both.

Where do you find your Hope ? Answer this and it will reveal your heart.

-
Funny.. the US of A is in a halo 3 craze.

Sure... my Master Chief is john 117..
John 1:17 For the law was given by Moses, but grace and truth came by Jesus Christ.
Jesus pwns every time.

I thought it was funny.
-

â°ââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ¯

ps 25 ]]> *AeternitasveniA like a kingdom... ♔ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14769208/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14769208/ Mon, 24 Sep 2007 08:23:12 PDT It is something that, when we are obedient, He allows us to walk into. Like a kingdom.

He is alive, & He is working.

_{...its autumn} âº

â°ââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ¯

ps 37:23,24 ]]> *AeternitasveniA moments http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14573959/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14573959/ Mon, 10 Sep 2007 11:10:18 PDT
like snowflakes on the river,
a moment white - then melts forever...

yet like an oasis in this desert,
the kindness shown,
and love thats given.

all these things were undeserved.
and are a nothing more than hope for the future _...

a future with You.

_

scared ?
that He won't come through,...
scared that its more empty on the other side ?
that the pit in your soul will only grow deeper... as the path grows steeper
that the troubles mount, and unknown evils travail the skies, and bark their tattered hymns...
that the unseen will forever remain nebulous, intangible, and the inner light will flicker and die.

scared ?
scared that your needs and aches will grow insurmountable, and the passage of the soul will weigh heavily down.

I have seen His goodness, I have seen His mercy, and it is great.
He has rest for your soul.

that God would turn our eyes, to the light of truth. and break our minds of our conceptions, and mold them to the reality of His Word.

thank you God, for the Gifts of Friends, Brothers, Sisters, and of your ultimate sacrifice. We will forever praise you for it.
.

I met some kids the other week, and had the honor of teaching them. Met some guys on the street too. One of them had never heard of Christ before, and it was cool to be one of the ones to introduce him to who Christ is.

It was a good feeling, kinda like that alive feeling.... like your doing what you are made for

I am just thank full that I had the chance to minister to others, its always a joy.

nu mi-e foame, lol.
ma suflet este plin ochi

Mincarea Mea este sa fac voia Celui ce M'a trimes, si sa implinesc lucrarea lui...

]]> *AeternitasveniA we have not many fathers http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14514684/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14514684/ Thu, 06 Sep 2007 10:08:00 PDT These are just a few of the realities that I have faced over the past few days.

and my mind reels because of my hearts intentions. And I know that my strength is in God.

Do we really understand ?
I don't think so,

its not the fact that I felt broken again,
its the fact that it is changing me.

In my pride,I know that I think that my familiarity with something gives me the greater advantage.
As if my subjective experience has given me the sharper edge. But sat., broke that.

The inner workings of the soul that God does, causes me to cry. And yes I do shed tears. Mingled of sorrow with Joy, because not only does it reveals my foolishness but also the way to follow.
I am sorrowful at my own actions, but joyful because God has saw fit to reveal another facet of truth towards Him.

I saw God break the barriers of denomination on last sat. as well. Not in the ecumenical way, but in the way that the few that could hear the call of God to minister joined together do His work. Shedding aside the subjectivity of the unknown and obscure.
it was beautiful. And it was likewise interesting to see others grow cold and turned aside. I hate sin, because it is blinding. repentance is sweet to the soul, who would not want turn again and take the hand of God ?

is TV really that important
is music really that important
is a relationship really that important
is sleep really that important
is your hair really that important

that you would exchange it for the Truth ?

Time will end, and reality will be. Time is short.

Turn take and follow. you won't regret it, Â

the last two weeks were amazing,
He worked out all the details amazingly.
I was looking for direction, and He quietly answered my questions.
what an amazing God.
amazing.

He made me face my greatest fear in these last weeks, and He gave me the strength. I thought it would be crippling, but instead it was empowering.

foarte

]]> *AeternitasveniA today I turn XXIV (& some somber thoughts) http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14176475/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14176475/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 07:45:42 PDT that is how old I be,

I probably learned more in the last year,
than I have in the past tehn,
I wouldn't mind if I could do it again.
(or at least most of it :/ )

-

Contemplation to take to heart,
Reality never manifests itself wrong,
It is one's perception of reality that is wrong.

example:

Joseph Smith,(Mr Morman Man) was in the woods doing who knows what, and
"God" appeared and gave him a special message. Now I do not doubt the validity of the experience(crazy things happen), but I doubt that "God the Father" appeared to Him(scripture points contrary to such apparitions). I would say, Perhaps it was someone else

now I use that example to show you. Mr. Smith saw ->God the Father, I would have seen smth posing as God the Father. Now we both would have seen the same crazy lights, heard the same voices etc etc. catch my drift...

In the digital realm, all people see is what people display. I cannot judge someones life based on a few words, and a few pictures. I do not see them pray to God, I do not see their hearts. At some level I have to judge what they are saying either to be True or False.

It hurts when people drive by and make assumptions based on subjective perceptions. I could be lying about everything, and you would never know.
I also might be being brutally honest, and you would never know, I might be flattering, deceiving, hating, loving, despising,caring, and you would never know. I could be forging all of my works, hiring people to create art for me etc etc. you would never know. At best, places like deviant art is a face we put on. And it is up to the individual to make that face as honest as possible.
and it is up to the view to accept what is displayed as true.

I take almost everything online in this context, because there is always a %50 chance that, what is offered is false. Trust is hard to build in the Digital Realm ( and sometimes even harder in RL ), I have never met anyone in RL that I have met online first. And it usually takes a year or two before I even attempt to contact them in any other way. and this has been very few.

- the digital is not reality, it is the perception of reality_ and none of us are omniscient. I am not in the business of pleasing other people, I try to do as I am led to do. but true Judgment is reserved for only One, so try not to judge things before their time, when He appears He will judge things in Truth. This is possibly one of the most scary things about the Lord's return.

-
All absolutes are and can be found in only one place.
& please never forget that we are fallen man, & sin taints all aspects of creation... in this life flaws will always exist, and any flaw comes short of the glory of God.
-
... anyway,

: ) the cross is Epic,

-Rofl,
_{When Chuck Norris was denied an Egg McMuffin at McDonald's because it was 10:35, he roundhouse kicked the store so hard it became a Wendy's.} ]]> *AeternitasveniA and come star shower.... http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14148716/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14148716/ Mon, 13 Aug 2007 12:13:14 PDT its probably the only time I don't like clouds is when they block the stars out lol.
oh well, I guess I will have to wait till next year.

I had a unique chance to be a witness this last sat. Iowa has this crazy state fair each year, its usually not my cup of tea to walk around in hot weather and look at animals. Anyway, at least where I was it was air conditioned. For the past couple years they have been getting a million plus ppl, so there is quite a crowd. I volunteered some time to man a display about Biblical Creationism. They have a model of noah's ark scaled to a toy train, so you can get an Idea of actually how big the beast was. needless to say its def, a conversation starter.

I had the chance to share the gospel with a ton of ppl, I also had the chance to exchange some interesting conversations. I think the most fun was with an orthodox Jewish man. I am pretty sure I did most of the asking of the questions though. I learned a lot about what they believe and how they interpret scripture.
I also talked with some people from the ACLU, o_o I think I ran the gambit with them.. everything from Homosexuality,abortion,to fundie's. We got some flack too, there are a lot of people who don't necessarily take the Bible literally... Some people thought it was cute, others said they felt sorry for us because of what we believed. I was glad to be able to serve though, and sharing the Gospel with others is always a joy.

/im gonna be an old man soon... (gasp)/

ah! oh yea...

i learned smth new about david and jonathan,

ok, being severely indoctrinated from birth, I always thought that Jonathan and David were about the same age.... You know,.. those cute little pictures that they make you color in church or display on the boards.
well, as it turns out. Jonathan was a wee bit older than David. Its an interesting study.
-

_and if you ever find yourself under attack...
_{There is a proper season for making attacks with fire, and special days for starting a conflagration.

The proper season is when the weather is very dry;the special days are those when the moon is in the constellations of the Sieve, the Wall, the Wing or the Cross-bar.

[These are, respectively, the 7th, 14th, 27th, and 28th of the Twenty-eight Stellar Mansions, corresponding roughly to Sagittarius, Pegasus, Crater and Corvus.]}

Just be sure to put the fire out when you are done,...
only you! can prevent forest fires. ]]> *AeternitasveniA Devious Journal Entry http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14076629/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/14076629/ Wed, 08 Aug 2007 14:35:56 PDT but especially the tension that destruction brings,
when mankind attempts to make them kings,
in the place of God.

You have no idea what you play with,
As you dance in the naked moonlight,
and collects its rays in silver bowls
and throw black incense on dying coals,
as dark night passes to twilight hours
shirk with bleary eyes, your heart cowers
as mourning skies trades with dawn,
and blankets the world
with light.

they,
loved the darkness
because of their deeds.

]]> *AeternitasveniA I never, ....update:(I got tagged by Miza, ) http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13899930/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13899930/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 05:44:58 PDT Its like you can't rest for a moment, or else everything comes crumbling down around your knees. but nothings gonna stop me now. you gotta keep your eyes on the prize. And run like ya stole smth...

speaking of stealing.

I do not like thieves,, but I guess I needed a little wakeup call. wee shall see.I think the best thing about mistakes is that you know what not to do next time
although it sure hurts really bad the first time.

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my life has been like a zoo, the past few weeks.
Traveled several thousand miles,
My work schedule got really weird, but things are settling down a bit.

Got shocked by 480 v AC @ 60 hz while trying to dismantle an electrical panel. Thank God! I didn't become a Christmas tree. Although the sensation of having electrical current run from one hand through my chest to the other was muy interesante, My finger got really hot though. And huzzA for rubber boots.

-
Spiritually, life has taken some new facets. I cannot say how grateful I am when the manifestation of change happens from the inside out. God has strengthened me in some areas that I used to be weak in. I had a test of inner turmoil the other day, and although I initially got upset it only took me 15 min, instead of 4 days to get right with God. It surprised me.

Does anyone else have seasons of temptation ? It seams like it comes in waves for me. It comes strong and quick, and then fades for a while then it will come back... *shrugs*

I am thankful for His word. I went to a Bible study the other night, and I heard this guy talk for about half an hour about his beliefs in God and all of these examples, but at the end of his time he never used any scripture to confirm the truth in his beliefs. What a sure foundation we Have in the Word. I am so grateful that Christianity is not based on our Emotional State, or our own understanding of reality.

If you really want to know God, He will let you find Him.
God tells us to look for Him,
our hearts response should be "your face will I seek Lord.."

"Obedience is the very best way, to show that you Believe...."

lieb,
jhon,

.

_{They tell me that the dreams don't sleep at night,

and that those stars are just the light of heaven,

shining through pinholes,

pinholes in the tapestry of night.

can you see the beacon...

the beacon in the darkness,

calling me,

home...

and I could walk on water,

if He was with me,

I could capture our laughter in a bottle.

and save it for the chapter to come,

for what is life without memories,

of summer breeze,

and autumn trees,

or the squeeze

of a hug.

man... I can't wait for eternity,

but I must.}

Footer.

(best read if a lame nineties rap beat is playing in the background) - I in all actuality don't like rap, I abhor it. I loathe disdain and despise it. I mean really... who would compromise it, and call it music..."finding the time to rhyme only to abuse it." I wouldn't choose it -above chopped liver. Like all talents you got to use it or lose it. So don't confuse it with something its not. yo.

init.
s0...You want to know six crazy things about me ?
Well I guess for starters,
I'm a guy, and I like poe eh tree.
Now 5 more to complete the list
I'll throw in some free verse for a dynamic twist.

Since childhood i've had a fascination with binding books
Illumination gilded my pages and I got some crazy looks
from those who thought that the art was truly dead,
but I kindly reminded that "art is subjective, and its all in the head."

Deja vu an I are well acquainted friends
I visit places from my dreams in real life,
and it tends...
to bring satisfaction and peace to my soul,
knowing that God is the one who is ultimately in control.

I have bardic blood, from a races of Thule.
My clan and heritage
span, the frozen north, -for all its worth. *shrugs*
(I pride my spiritual heritage even more so.)-- yo.

I like graffiti.(isn't that silly ?)
And would probably be a renown graffiti artist if I still lived near philly.
(iowa doesn't hab a lot of concrete jungle to tag, we got cornfields *another shrug* but who likes to brag...) http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13684235/ Tue, 10 Jul 2007 13:58:38 PDT And with this year of intense scrutiny behind me, I think I can safely say that.

Girls like butterflies. : )
but I think I still have much to learn, lol.

-
My little brother is out to visit again, although I probably shouldn't call him little, 17 aint little no more. We both found out that weddings are dangerous lol.

I also picked up doing some freelance Media work. I am blessed. I get payed to play on computers. Its rare that people love their Jobs, I know God has blessed me way above what I deserve. Some other things are coming up in the near future for me as well, but I'm not gonna open my big mouth. Lord willing some things will come to pass. But my life is an everliving adventure... My kid's are gonna have some funny stories to hear, as well as some sad ones. But such is this life.

I have had the joy of doing some writing over the past month and a half.
One essay has spawned into 4 and its been fun and time consuming.

God gives each of us Gifts, and I have found that writing out Ideas and Concepts really help me to meditate and focus. I know this might
not be the case for others, but for me it has been quite a help.

My heart, has been stretched quite a bit
but it is starting to reform.
The winds of change have blown the forest paths clear,
And silently the fertile earth bears its yield,
Preparing for the wake of another year.

]]> *AeternitasveniA forgivingness. http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13408598/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13408598/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 15:05:06 PDT to forgive... Divine.

A common theme that seems to be showing its face again and again is forgiveness. A lot of people struggle with it, they wonder how they can forgive someone something, when what they did to them was so wretched, cruel or evil.
etc etc etc.

Not to forgive...

I know of people who when they were 7 had their parents tell them to say good bye to their family because they were going to take them and put them in an orphanage because they were such bad children. And then proceed to give them a car ride_{after child said goodbye their siblings} . To a child this can be earth shattering.

I know of people who had their parents put held their hand over a gas stove and turned it on.

I know of people who have been beaten with wooden and metal rods.

I know of people who have been abused mentally,physically,emotionally,sexually, spiritually.
Some to horrific degrees. and still... these people have managed to forgive those who have wronged them. How can this be ?

What makes this worse, is that in most of these cases it a parent(s) or relatives, or a close confidant - possibly the very people that claim to believe God or are the very people that introduced us to God. And in my own case, this caused me to have a deep void in my heart towards the Biblical sense of God.

Should we forgive people if they do not ask for forgiveness ? Yes.
Lack of forgiveness will lead to personal bitterness. We have no right to harbor ill feelings towards any man. In fact we are supposed to Love the people that Hate, or use us.

Matt. 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

Look at David, He mourned when Saul died o_o. I mean this guy was trying to kill David at any cost.

In my case, I never had the individual(s) approach me for forgiveness (many times they never will). But I knew that I needed to forgive them. And after forgiveness was given, I sought to rebuild the bridge into the broken relationship(s). Granted I know that sometimes this is impossible, but in my mind I have tried my hardest to treat them as if it has never happened.

Our measure of forgiveness should be shown to the extent that Gods forgiveness is towards us. On the cross, Christ took upon Himself the sin of the world. And for us not to forgive is to say that we are a more just judge than God. God has thought all our sins worthy of forgiveness, and we need to do the same. And before one says "oh.. but you don't KNOW the evil they have done " let me say... You are right, I do not know the evil they have done, but God does. God knows full well, because at the root of that persons sin towards you, was a sin towards God. The abused just happened to be the object of that sin, but God was the object of intent.

Eph. 4:32 And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for ChristÂs sake hath forgiven you.

Forgiveness is a choice, not an emotion.

We need to remember that God doesn't forgive us based on our worthiness of forgiveness. We all deserve Hell. Our righteousness is as filthy rags. But He does forgive us based on Christ's worthiness.

"Why forgive?" you ask. I say, "Why not ?"

Loving God, Loving each other.

This short blerb, was aimed at everyone, and no one. Just thought I would share.

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Some things are on the horizon. Several projects always seem to be in the works lol.

I have been given quite a few tests of faith lately^yay!. And God has been giving me some people to minister to as well as others who have been a ministry towards me. Its been nice. God is still pounding home, the importance of an eternal mindset. God's word has never been so precious, as it has of late.

Sin is so bad,
even worse, its blinding.

]]> *AeternitasveniA lol http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13212707/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13212707/ Mon, 04 Jun 2007 08:54:01 PDT

Ive never been picked up by the police for cloud gazing before,hehe _{(or for anything else for that matter)}.
well, I was looking at some sweet clouds last night,
I was also on a dirt road that had ravines on both sides,

well.... I tried to do a u-turn to get back on the main road and then proceeded to have one half of my car get stuck, over the edge of one of the ravines... I had one lady drive by and not even stop, I also had an elderly lady drive by but she at least stopped to have sympathy on my situation.
I eventually started to walk my way back to town which was only a couple miles away, but as I started out I noticed a police car in the distance that was approaching me. Well, the sheriff pulled up and asked me for my DL, and then ran my plates. After he cleared me he offered to drive me into town . I got to ride in the back. lol.

As we drove towards my town he told me that he normally gets drunk people get stuck like I do. : / I didn't say to much at that. but out of curiosity He asked me how I got stuck on a rural dirt road away from town,...

I hesitated, and then told him " I was looking at the clouds "
rofl, He didn't ask to many more questions after that.

I learned a valuable lesson in how to do u-turns on dirt roads, ahaha.

I eventually just got a friend to help me pull it out,.

If you can't laugh at yourself, than you got problems.

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Interesting perspective from a blind deaf woman
_{Fate, silent, pitiless, bars the way. Fain would I question his imperious decree, for my heart is still undisciplined and passionate; but my tongue will not utter the bitter, futile words that rise to my lips, and they fall back into my heart like unshed tears. Silence sits immense upon my soul. Then comes hope with a smile and whispers, "There is joy in self-forgetfulness." So I try to make the light in others' eyes my sun, the music in others' ears my symphony, the smile on others' lips my happiness.}-_{Helen Keller}

]]> *AeternitasveniA wednesday, http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13173031/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13173031/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 06:21:27 PDT
Life...
Last Wednesday Morning:
My alarm clock went off at its usual time, and with half open eyes, I drowsily hit the snooze button to get it to be quiet. Well unbeknownst to me I hit it so carelessly I bumped it an hour a head of the actual time.

I then proceeded to wake about 45 minutes later. I peered over at my clock and noticed that according to that time I should have left my house 5 minutes previous. I got up, quickly threw on some clothes, grabbed my bag and headed out the door.

I was chugging happily along to work, when I noticed that my right front tire was making a funny noise. Well my tire then proceeded to give out, and I pulled off the road into a development of homes. Since I thought I was already late, I called the other office guy that I work with on my cell phone to let him know that I had a flat tire. Well, my office friend asked where I was at and if I had everything I needed to change my flat tire. I didn't have a car jack with me and I would need to go pick one up and return to my car. I found out that my office friend's daughter was bringing him to work, and that he was only 2 miles behind me and coming up on my position. My friend offered to pick me up and bring me into town. Well... from there I was able to hitch a ride into work. Once I was at the front gate to my work place I glanced down at my cell phone to see what time it was. And it was only then that I realized that I was an hour early for work. Â _ Â I laughed to myself, and told my friend what had happened, and he smiled and said that his daughter had offered to take him into work early because his wife had to use his car that day. (My friend doesn't normally come into work early either) I am amazed at how God works and how He orchestrates things in our lives to His glory. I can't say that I was able to overcome my situation other than the fact that I was by my stupidity. There is no way I could have planned out that sequence of events. If I had woken up at my regular time, and had gone on my way to work I probably would have been late. but instead God had already worked out a more perfect plan. due to my snooze button hitting, and not having a car jack. I still needed a new tire, but hey its encouraging to know that God is well aware of my situation, and very capable to provide for my needs, even before hand and without my help.

I think that we as the Children of God take for granted how He works in our lives. Those who do not believe do not have the privilege of having God as the Loving, Compassionate, Merciful, and even Chastising God that He is. It is a priceless gift imo. Some people run from it *shrugs*

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I find it interesting, how the paths of my studies are guided. And I am actually humbled by a lot of it. Confronting new ideas and concepts about theology. From Hyper Existentialism ([link]) to Open theism.

I love it when God answers prayer, those prayers about getting a new house or a new car. When He gives us everything we want.... ; ) J/K

no.. I love it when God answers the prayers like " Dear God, please protect my friends, keep them from evil, please draw them closer to you"
or "Please God, help me to hate this sin that eats me and to overcome it." God invariably answers these. I love it when He does things like coordinate a pick up for me, when my tire blows out in my car. _{It makes me wonder how many times He does things that I don't even realize _{like..everyday.}} I am even grateful for when He corrects me, because I know He cares. I Love God because He doesn't give me everything I want. My God is great God, because He is Holy. And that is what sets Him apart from everything else.

My soul is singing.

]]> *AeternitasveniA 70 times http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13162884/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13162884/ Thu, 31 May 2007 11:07:42 PDT 70 times more cautious than I used to be,
and 7 times more free.

I've had a nice haitus : )
and I'll have several submissions right directly,

Lots of writing been going on, as well as a flurry of contemplation.
Lord willing by the end of June, the critical piece will have come to a completion.

Got some poetry, photomanip, and misc projects that are going to be uploaded. God is good !

ill probably update later too.

Â a.v.

]]> *AeternitasveniA fortnight, http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13000264/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/13000264/ Fri, 18 May 2007 11:43:36 PDT
Until then,
God guide and protect you friends.

John.

every breath is mercy, every drop of rain mercy, for God is a Holy God.

]]> *AeternitasveniA weakend http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/12777418/ http://AeternitasveniA.deviantart.com/journal/12777418/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 11:04:38 PDT Tons going on, and more still coming. I've been doing a lot of writing, and compiling and such. Not to much time for any massive art projects, my inspiration is mainly acute.

Update on my buddy. The one some of you have been praying for.
God handed him a sweet job, (17 stone an hour o_o, thats some sweeet cash, its still hard work though.)
God has turned his world upside down in the matter of months, and its pretty cool seeing God work. Its like night to day. all I can really say is wow.

I was able to take my sunday school kids on a picnic this weekend, it was a lot of fun. Got to play outside, and such. It was good just hanging out with them outside of a "church" setting.

We went out on a ATV in the backwoods which was insane ahaha. I even let the kids drive for a little while...

I got to learn a lesson too. On of my kids has autism, and He climbed up into the top of the loft in a grain barn. And he was so scared to get down. He wailed for quite some time. I kept on trying to reassure him that it would be ok if he went back down and that he wouldn't fall. I even said he could hold on to me and I would climb down for him, and that I wouldn't let him fall. but he was very scared (visibly shaking). He said that he wanted to stay up there until he died rather than attempt to climb down and fall. (bless his little heart.) Finally He convinced himself that if we tied a rope around him everything would be ok, and that as long as He was tied to something he wouldn't come to any harm. And slowly step by step he, descended.
The whole ordeal took about an hour, but it all ended happily.

This situation caused me to think of how many times I get myself into some place, where I find myself in over my head. And I look at all of the things I need to do to get back to where I need to be. I cry, and a loathe the possible outcomes, I get depressed. God then shows His head and says. Hey john... you got yourself into quite a predicament, and I know you have some hard things you need to do. But, I am willing to carry you back to safety. Do you trust me ?
Just as I was willing to help my little friend out, Christ is willing to help those who trust in Him. He is much stronger and more capable to solve our little problems, than we are ourselves. It comes down to who we trust in.

anyway. I am grateful, for my friends.
I am thankful, and content yet I have hope of better things to come.
God is good 2 me.

Me and my little sister think way to much alike...
she wrote this, last week and then told me about it.
0_o, the last leaf of autumn has special meaning to me.
it was just one of those surreal moments that happen in life lol.

^{The Last Leaf

Alone, shivering out in the cold

The only one left,

Only one with a hold

To the dormant brown arm

Stretching out to the sun;

But the sun has gone home.

The season is harsh

The color all dies

Children arent climbing trees-

Theyre warming inside,

Then snowmen are built

You can hear the loud cries

Of the sled-riding bundles

Showing only their eyes.

A whistling wind come

Across the still land

And that lone last leaf

Lets go with its hand

And is carried away

In a moment

The last leaf has left.

E.G.M.}

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