http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Akashimo&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Akashimo en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 25 Nov 2009 03:53:01 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/27871312/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/27871312/ Tue, 20 Oct 2009 12:46:34 PDT ~Shiyu-chan on sketching Lneti^^ Even though the only reference was my rp profile for her

:thumb140892876:
[link]


If anyone is curious as to whom Lneti is: [link] She is one of my more recent RP chars I developed first on a Gaia Rp that went no where fast, then this version for an OC in a Megman X Rp in my friend's DopplerCity group.

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/25920143/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/25920143/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 12:38:50 PDT BornCrazy7189

Rules
1) Post these rules
2) Post 8 true things about yourself
3) At the end you must tag 8 people and post their icons
4) Go to their page and send them a message saying you tagged them
5) NO TAG-BACKS

- I prefer the night over day to the point i go to sleep near dawn and wake up between noon and 3pm
- If you haven't noticed already, I'm a perv
- I've been playing FFXI since june 2004 @_@ wootz
- I got a list of drinks I want to get when I turn 21 this october 30th
- I'd want to be the homemaker stay at home dad if i ever get in a relationship and married and have kids =/
- First hentai I've ever read was Bondage Fairies and Secret Plot
- All my characters in WoW are female human, blood elf or night elf
- Been called crazy for leveling 2 characters in FFXI to 75


Tagging:


]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/24796282/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/24796282/ Sat, 16 May 2009 23:48:12 PDT
1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
2) What was your dream growing up?
3) What talent do you wish you had?
4) If I were to buy you a drink, what would it be?
5) Favourite vegetable?
6) What was the last book you read?
7) Which zodiac sign are you?
8) Any tattoos and/or piercings? Explain where.
9) What would you say is your worst habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favourite sport?
12) Do you have a mostly negative or optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in a lift with me?
14) What’s the worst thing that’s ever happened to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What would you do if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What colour are your eyes?
23) Have you ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can pop?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What’s your favourite place to hang at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) What’s your favourite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) What’s your biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/24402299/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/24402299/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 21:27:41 PDT Winnar of who sends a screenshot of 3k views gets a work by me done. So click, screen and name~!
If no 3k claims and you are one of the first 5 after, that'll count!

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/23057613/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/23057613/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 09:43:06 PST
Do you like anyone?
Suzu, Fanny

Do you love anyone?
Suzu

Are you a player?
Nope

Kiss on first date?
If there's a spark

Would you get back together with any of your exes?
Maybe o_O

Have you ever kissed anyone on your friends list?
Nope

Have you slept over at the opposite sex's house?
Nope

Do you prefer group dates or single ones?:
Single, but group might be fun

Small kisses or makeout sessions?:
both o_o

Do you like cuddling up and watching movies?:
maybe o_o

Any plans for valentines day?
None ; ;

What's the best valentines day present for a girl?
Something I made/worked for that she keeps after recieving

Are you single or taken?
single

If you could push one person off a mountain, who would it be?
There's a list ;x

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
wal-mart ftl D:

Do you get attached to people easily?
Too easily it seems ;x

Have you ever been to California?
When I was like 2-3 years old ;x

Do you go to school?
nope

Do you like roller coasters?
halp, run away!

Ever cut class?
No

What's your favorite TV show?
There's a big list lol.

How many times have you been in love?
who knows, I'm barely able to tell the difference from lust, cruches, love and just friends =x Probally just twice

Do you have any pets?
Used to, but they passed on ; ;

Do you curse a lot?
How does this answer, what the bloody fucking hell! lol
Fact: Only when really pissed, otherwise I'm in check.

What is the first thing you do when you wake up?
get a shower

What's your favorite season?
fall

Have you been on a date in the last 2 weeks?
no

Are chuck norris jokes funny?
not all of them

What's your favorite food?
curry and tacos! Oh pizza too!

What's the last movie you saw in the theater& with who ?
The Dark Knight, by myself

Can you live without the computer?
You mean there's a world w/o being on one?! Halp i'll drown!

Do you hide your emotions?
50/50

Do you like chick flicks?
Great way to pass time

when was the last time you got flowers?
n/a

Who was the last person you were in a moving vehicle with?
idk

Best kind of pizza?
pizza hut stuff crust meat lovers + anchovies
pizza hut pan pepperoni lovers
Tombstone brand stuff crust
DiGorno(sp?) garlic bread
Culinary Circle rising crust italin sausage.

Would you take care of your friends while they're sick?
If I was their roomy ya or tight where we have each other's keys

What was the last CD you purchased?
avril lavigne under my skin

When was the last time you dyed your hair?
november 2007, yes november 2007 D:

Have you ever watched a movie drunk?
nope

Do you wish at 11:11?
nope

Do you have any piercings?
nope

Last person you hugged?
i can't remember, i think miss scott and miss elmore at graduation

Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
on the floor in my room

What are you wearing on your feet?
zip

How many times have you texted today?
zip

Who was your last comment from?
~Analena a.k.a. Saysay/Steph

What is your current conversation about?
wut?

Do you have a crush on someone?
Suzu ;x

Where were you 2 days ago?
in mah room as always

Who did you steal this from?
~BornCrazy7189

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/21747702/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/21747702/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 11:56:16 PST [x] You watch anime.
[x] You read manga.
[x] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes.
[x] You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise.
[x] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before.
[] You have cosplayed.
[] You have done so in public.
[] You have been to an anime/manga convention.
[x] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character.
[] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.
[] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.
[x] You enjoy drawing anime
[x] People you know you as the 'anime person'.
[] You know that it is pronouced 'mawnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled.
ANIME/MANGA POINTS: 8

ART NERD
[x] You like art.
[x] You actually consider yourself an artist.
[x] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you.
[x] You have a favourite brand.
[x] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before.
[x] You give people your drawings as gifts.
[] People actually ask for your drawings.
[x] You are known as 'the art person' at your school.
[x] Instead of just 'brown' or 'ink', you'd be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'. Or whatever.
[] You have taken an art class outside of school.
[x] You have considered a career as an artist.
[x] Your school papers are always covered in doodles.
[] You have a favorite artist.
[] Your drawings have been framed.
[x] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go.
ART NERD POINTS: 11

MUSICAL NERD
[] You play a musical instrument.
[] You play more than one instrument.
[] You actually really enjoy playing your instrument.
[] You've given your instrument a name.
[] You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument.
[] You are known by what you play.
[x] You listen to classical music.
[] You are wondering whether that refers to the classical music genre or the classical music time period.
[] You have a favourite composer.
[] All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class.
[] You write music.
[] You've had discussions with your friends about music; your favourite composers/instruments/musical time periods/key/etc...
[] You have considered a professional career with your instrument.
[] You are never nervous playing for other people.
MUSICAL NERD POINTS: 1

VIDEO GAME NERD
[x] You play video games.
[x] You own more than 4 different video game systems.
[x] You've had debates over which system is the greatest.
[x] You play video games every day.
[x] You have played a video game for over 10 hours.
[x] You have songs from your favourite video games on your MP3.
[x] You love to talk about video games.
[] You memorize the dates for when a new game is being released.
[] People know you as the 'gamer' person.
[x] You spend more time on video games than you do hanging out with friends.
[x] Your gaming system is in your room.
[x] You have preferences when it comes to what company your game came from.
[] You've had debates over which company is the best.
[x] You keep playing a game until you beat it.
[] It makes you angry when you found out somebody looked up cheat codes on the internet to beat their game.
VIDEO GAME NERD POINTS: 11

COMPUTER NERD
[x] You use the computer every day.
[x] You have an account/username on some sort of social website.
[x] You go into random internet chatrooms.
[x] You spend at least 2 hours a day on the computer.
[x] You use computer faces; : D XD XP D: ^_^ >.> and etc.
[x] It is hard to go a day without using the computer.
[x] You spend time in online forums.
[x] In the forum/chatroom you use, you are known there by everyone else.
[x] You have friends you have only met online.
[x] You have/have had a girlfriend/boyfriend you have only met online.
[x] You have actually met an online friend in person.
[x] U cn ezly rd 'txttlk.'
[x] You have said 'lol' or 'omg' in speech that is not online
[x]You can type really, really fast.

COMPUTER NERD POINTS: 14


lulz fun times fun times

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/21730470/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/21730470/ Sat, 29 Nov 2008 12:10:29 PST [link]
Most excellent job on the commission^^
Beaten my own expectations on what this staring contest would be done =3

Again, Thanks FFX-Artico ^^
[link]

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/20006292/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/20006292/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 14:39:36 PDT My min goal is $17 which is 1 month fee for FFXI(13 for one char and $1 per additional~which are mules to hold all my gear)
Work & Rates are:
$1.50 for a forum sig
$2.50 for a Desktop background
$2.50 for a FFXI .DAT to be recolored/new textures
$2.50 for a quick sketch
$3.00 for an inked sktech
$4.00 for a piece of writing or scaned and colored sketch
I need to get the money into my paypal before or on the 28th of August.
Contact me by notes here, or on yahoo messanger id:AkashimoHakubi
Thanks for anyone who wants to get work from me @_@

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/19505895/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/19505895/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 19:13:04 PDT
Earlier the past week, looked at a gift art a close friend whom I've yet to actually meet sent me at least 6 years ago which some how got my pencil on a gravy train. Though I'm proud I've finally did something, I'm kinda sad that it isn't my usual quality I'd enjoy doing. Guess its been way too long since I've did any sort of serious drawing. I've sent her a photo of it, no reply ; ;

Anyways, I'm also kind of on edge. I got until end of August with FFXI from the money I have in my account. v.v So far I haven't found any sort of entry level jobs I could see myself doing. That and the fact I still need a driver's license. Stress is going through the roof with me. Probally why I've been on the high caffine consumption over the past month.

Next up, page count. Currently at 1719. If you get the following page counts, screenshot and send it to me along with a request. From signatures, to sketches, to mixed media. Winning numbers are 1776, 1888, 1984, 1988, 1994, 1999 and 2000. Also, I'll do a second request if you can name one of the reasons why I picked them and where I got them from. This only applies to your winning number though. Hint, 2 of them came from movies. :3

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17875695/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17875695/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 05:48:44 PDT Ok, in it I was getting dressed, time in there was 7:15am, sun was up and coming in brightly in my window. I gone passed the front door and put on my nikes instead of my converse. Went through the kitchen and into the garage sat shotgun in the Escape.

Thats when it got weird, as I left, I noticed this quarter sized spider on my right pants leg. My body froze there until it suddenly reappeared in the cup holder to the left of me. I some how stand up with my seat belt still on and it was crawling toward me. My voice was gone and I started to panic. Then another one appeared were the first came from and I went limb, but still standing.

Then I woke up to American Idiot playing from my desktop as an alarm.
I don't know why, but that had to be the most real dream I had, and unusual considering I only had 4 hours of sleep, since it was 5:15 when I X'ed out of winamp to stop that song. Still until I heard American Idiot play I honestly thought I was awake and inside the Escape with those spiders coming after me.

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17742554/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17742554/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 04:45:08 PDT [link] has dropped my Assassin's Armlets!
YES!!!!!!!
[link]
That is all.

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17507100/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17507100/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 10:16:16 PDT
Must work, must not get to that state again, must get 2.0+ GPA

Gotta work, must make it work!

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17398222/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17398222/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 16:20:21 PDT
I got until march 20th to make an appeal. March 31 I’m officially out.

/sigh

/cry

I don’t have anything to make an appeal with, even though I could. Its just, that the way they suddenly changed to 8 week, make the students and profs depend on their online shell, and how the profs I’ve had that I recieved the failing scores from, didn’t follow it, nor did they seem to be comepletely able to teach effectively, I just don’t see the point in continuing now or even bother to fight against it.

So once I’m out, I’m just gonna find some sort of job. Not gonna bother with college again, just doesn’t seem worth it, and I don’t know my own place any more.

Hell, I’m fighting off the urge to cry my eyes out and sob, oi, that just really takes it out of me.


End log entry.

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17352072/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17352072/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 18:35:42 PDT Even though she says its not her best, still awesome sauce.



Also, was indirect inspired by MissFanny to do that water color from the commission of:


Yay for highschool friends who love art

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17300153/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17300153/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 11:49:19 PDT


Pay her a visit and click click click ;3

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17270354/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/17270354/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 12:13:37 PDT Ty, ty, ty.

Who ever gets the 1k view, I'll do a commission of your choice, just screenshot the view and send me a note~


Also, started a new blog for FFXI
[link]
Enjoy~

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/16793336/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/16793336/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 23:39:38 PST
1) Monday, Dynamis - Xarcabard. Fear of loosing the first pair of Assassin's Armlets the shell would see drop. Fear to loose it to a new member. Why? All cause of my physics class monday.... Only piece of relic I've yet to obtain for Thief. Last piece I'll need for the set. If it drops, I'd, I'd just die. I don't think I could bare to enjoy Dynamis any more if it happens. Its like getting within arms reach of every important moment in life, but then suddenly dissappears before your eyes kind of feeling. /sigh, All would be lost for me. /emo.

2)The most terrible day of the year for me is this Thursday, Feb14th, V-day. Oh how I loathe hearing about people talk about their plans for it. How they are gonna enjoy it with a special someone. Bleh. Stop speaking about it! Espically to someone you would know to be a hopeless, eternally lifeless, doomed to be single man! Bad enough I live off the computer, but those days, on that day of days just isn't right to be awake on.

Done.

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15994889/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15994889/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 01:12:58 PST
One topic would be; If you're in a situtation where the end results would either be a) ignore morals and ethics of your personal value to apease another or b) end the situation badly where the opposing party is no longer greetable, what would you choice? Yet both are in away for my case I'm dancing around is that goes against personal morals. It has been difficult for me to see how to apease without breaking some of my own morals. I'm gonna leave that issue like this, for now.

Another is of course, for anyone who knows me well. Sex. If one thing that has been a curse to me, its the thought. True, I enjoy fanticsing about it. Not gonna hide the fact that I do have porn on my computer. But, aside from the pleasure, the emotional attachment with the other and the nature of being human, what else is there to it? Guess what I'm trying to get at, is, why is the curiousity of actually forfilling the disires so strong? Will it remain vigilant after obtianing a seemingly forbidden fruit? Being that said, there is also the question to the USA society on how its looked down upown, in the open, with victorion values? How is it something essistential to continuing the human race, a means of becoming one with a significant other, or forfilling pleasure as a means of escape looked down upon? Shouldn't it be more open to all and at the same time, doesn't give a taboo feeling when talking or wanting to talk about it?

Moving on. I'm 19. Half way through the second semester of college. No job. No liscense. No drive. I spend more time online than probally most of my friends on myspace and face book. My life is more that of my characters Akashimo and Nekoai on Final Fantasy XI: Online, and that of Lneti, Nekoai, Datilu and Akashimo on World of Warcraft. My only real enjoyment of those would be FFXI during Dynamis runs and talking with my linkshell teammates on Skype, or reaching a goal I've set for myself. But in real life, I have no goals. No ambitions. Any thoughts of making it in the video game industry after completeing, assuming my grades from this semester doesn't get me dissmissed from Devry, are shakey as California during earthquakes. Bottom line. I have nothing I want to reach for in life. I find it disturbing. Any goal I think of either goes through my head like this. Goal A. To long term and unable to obtain reasonably. Don't bother. Goal B. Easy simple. But completeing it would be to return to goalless. Result. Nothing.

Why my brain is wired the way it is, I do not know. Bleh. Done here on this post.

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15854863/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15854863/ Sat, 08 Dec 2007 21:47:19 PST
Totally can't get myself to play FFXI or WoW for more than 15 mins before I just daze off on a website or to watch TV.

Hell, my grades aren't as good as normal. Then again, this time of year has always been my lowest point, emotionally and academically. If I get dismissed from DeVry seeing how I'm on prohbation from failing Critical thinking last semester, gonna fail calculaus and gsp130, yeah, thats real sweet -.-;

I utterly don't know what it is I want in life. Nothing appeals to me, nor does it make any sense to aim for anything. I still haven't had a moment where I can just draw without getting the same affect as I would trying to play FFXI or WoW.

Oh speaking of FFXI, friday, 12/7/07, had to be one of the most weirdest in terms of freaked out and getting pissy dynamis runs I've had, and skype conversations. Listening to our gloreous rdm second incommand being smashed, and then being without a skype conversation for a good half of the run really just sucked the life out of me. Really tops it off when we didn't get clear either. Wth, bastok is supposed to be easy clear -.-; ARGH?!!?!!!!!!!

Bloody hell, it feels like I'm still gaining weight again. Damn it. If stress i'm feeling was tangable, it'll be a freight train loaded with lead hitting you over and over again.

End log entry.

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15701500/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15701500/ Tue, 27 Nov 2007 23:48:45 PST
1) Never break a blood oath, promise or one's own word
2) Never touch another in out of orderinary ways without consent
3) Give solemn judgement when asked for
4) Mercy and forgiveness for those of honor
5) Keep and do nothing that harms a lover
6) Protect and pursue the ways of the Goddesses
7) Keep to one self of all situations when possible, never seek to intervene or give opinions.
8) Never turn to death as an escape, live for true honor
9) Give signcerity to those of love
10) If it can not be spoken to another by mouth, never print it to others


Honor - What it is and is not.
Honor is the actions one takes or choices not to take. Its the key role of all of one's existence. All conflicts must stay at their source, never seek to spread it unless asked about. If its never asked, then never hint to it. Observe always and question silently to oneself. Reflect always and seek redemption if dishonorable act occurs. Be patient and calm when tossed into the unknown. Act based on history and the present. What one is, another is not, no two ideals are equal or relative.



Interpt as you wish, but respect always the words, not the person who they speak for.

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15250545/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15250545/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 22:38:45 PDT
Well, I'm just gonna finish this with one simple question. What is there to the vast existence that is called life?

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15136148/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15136148/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 22:22:44 PDT Not a clue.

Guess I'll just state my mood in a poem....

Twilight holds the key
Heart locked by the world
A moonless night shines as day
Hours slipped by, yet yields no time
Gone the hope, yet will seeks
Ever more in the darkness
A light dindles like a flame
Seeking what it cannot have
Bare in the open
But sheltered by the heart
A passion burns
Hope becomes its ashes
Soon to be sour like the reality
Passion ever gone
As dust to the wind.



v.v; Oi, why must I be so emotional. Emotions cause me pain, but I can not throw them away. Never returned, yet always given. Pathetic I honestly feel. World be my antithesis.

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15136041/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15136041/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 22:10:51 PDT
So, who ever gets the 500th view, and doesn't shopped the screeny of proof, I'll do a commission of your choice for ya.

But, til I get photoshop on my computer, its limited to poetry or b/w sketches.


And i'll be the same thing for 1k hits ;3

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15065745/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/15065745/ Sun, 14 Oct 2007 21:34:15 PDT Check out myspace.com/twilightera and tell me what ya think ;3
And spread the word if you like it!
Thanks

]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/14680668/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/14680668/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 21:45:09 PDT
]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/14446938/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/14446938/ Sat, 01 Sep 2007 20:29:46 PDT Idle Thoughts

Meh, take two on this post... Just moments ago I had a typing storm with some idle thoughts about myself and stuff like that, then boom, its gone, forever cause of a fugging error when I hit preview & post -.-;;;;; So this isn't gonna be as good as what I typed in the first try, but I'll try to get it as good -.-

Purpose of mah random idle thoughts, just to be random and hope of sparking something to talk about. I'm a person that need conversation, but I rarely like to start it and when something good does go on I like to keep it going. Its a rarity for me to engage to a conversation thats more than five minutes.Those are the ones i seek, that diamonds in the rock.

Ways I talk and why I pick them. Purely defensive, mainly out of being burnt in the passed, by myself or by someone else. Trust is absolute to me. Without it, what reason should there to converse so personally? Hope? Meh, idk, idc, if there is anymore left around for that reasoning. Sigh, I'm really out of it from loosing the first post.... My word choice is based sololy on internal thoughts and theories on how to talk with others and picking any phrases and speach patterns from others. My tendicies to be harsh and aggressive is usually when I feel my point of views are being showed off ever so subtle or when I feel completely offended without going off like in a curse storm. I get aggressive in my patterns when I feel like the others are being ignorant and blatently forget the obvious and common sense. Something that shouldn't be gone off without in a person's mind. That and people who close their minds to trying new ideas, stragdies and ways different from the norm and current trends... Which is a major peeve right now in my linkshell cause of the trend of tard burns and 2-4 party setups >_>;;

What troubles me before thy slumber. Images of embrace the soul and is completely covered in eternal warmth. Seeking challenges to others and finishing them like trivial puzzles with the littlest of effort on the surface. Dreaming of becoming more than mere mortal flesh.

Embrace that can never end and held by eternal complete warmth with holds no bounds. Seeking a whole, an equal, a soul mate. Someone to share the everything with, being felt more than a friend. A lover, a passion, everything that would held true to a relationship and more. Taking all the times in with it just to be with another if it means sleeping with the other's side, feeling her warmth, embrace and skin. Listening to her heart and her heart beating, lungs breathing in air with out scent together. One can only dream... and the nightmare of never feeling this way when its too late to hope anylonger....

Nothing feels like a true challenge anymore. Excitement is the uncertanty which fuels the truests of all challenges. I need uncertainty when I take things on. A mystery, a lure, the unknown. I need something I can't be sure what it gonna end up, something that can't be analyzed perfectly and predict the outcomes. Its to easy and trivial, espically in matters where its common sense how i figured it out yet others don't see it clearly until its shown how...

Thy mortal flesh, dreaming of escape of that and becoming what I always wanted to be. Akashimo Hakubi, The Chaotic One. Master of Twilight, Keeper of the Chaotic Eye. Duty bound to the Goddesses whom gave him purpose and will to carry out what is needed. Balance to all. Letting light and darkness stay within their eternal conflict. One cannot exist without the other. Stoping one side from destroying the other and making sure the weaker one would become equal to the stronger so that order is maintaned. Nothing is absolute light or dark. Making the grey is the chaos which is to be held and perserved in all tieing bounds of emotion and life. Siding not with good nor evil, only the weak of the latter at everymoment. Keeping a balance, distorting it to the eyes of the world. A purpose which I would only imagine to gain. That is what I believe in.

Guess the only thing left I got in me is just nothing really. Nothing I can expressly give out, nor say even in my mind's speech. All I can and able to say has been said. Try fate's hand at prying more out of me if you are willing, and maybe I can let more out to thee. That is all.

September 1, 2007 - Saturday
Solitude Thoughts
Over the passed month, I guess I could say I've been some what moody. A bit stir crazy, alone, issolated and left to pounder. Words of what ifs, reading words both thoughts and views of others and the realm of my imagination. Then again, probally nothing more than the usual life for me.

Pass month, I've felt like I've loss sleep in my sleep. That's to say, my rest was not restful and occurences of the days and supressed, unexpressed feeling and words c... ]]> ~Akashimo http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/14001258/ http://Akashimo.deviantart.com/journal/14001258/ Fri, 03 Aug 2007 12:26:41 PDT
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<.< >.> Well back online sooner than expected. 7:40pm est on the 22nd, yay. First thing getting on was checking my mail and getting on FFXI... which i forgot almost it was time for dynamis. Yay, such a nice way to get back online. Anyways, main(really only for that night) puller for Dynamis - Bastok, completely easy and fun. Until I gotten backonline all I was doing was just organizing my new room (if you want to see, just ask me on msn or yahoo and i'll show ya on my cam), then play Final Fantasy XII. Omg Fran is soooo hawt @_@; Also, Disc two of Tenchi Muyo Ryo-Ohki OVA 3 was.... jaw dropping. Go Washu, Go Tenchi, Go Ryoko! Hehe
Now backtracking to Graduation. Boring, expect the few people who busted a move getting their diploma and the beach balls o.O; Grad gift, $100 which went really fast at the mall xD After grad dinner at Applebee's omg, best meal ever. Spendy spendy at the mall went like this, DVD, ffxii, belt, candy store and a new webcam. All night grad, meh it was OK, not the best, not the worst. DDR and the pool were my fav spots to be, along with the blackjack table. Last thing we had was a hypnotis and I can barely recall what happened there. Only real detail i can remember had to be standing up saying, "I'm superman!" >_>;;;; That was WEIRD! After getting picked up, off to Starbucks for a Cafe Americano and Venti Green Tea Frappachino. Took an hour nap before having to get ready to start finishing packing my stuff cause it was moving day. Wensday, mostly packing/unpacking stuff. Thursday, grinded out to FFXII and my Tenchi DVD. Uhg, and I never ate soo much fast food in a week before x.x I swear I've been to all my favorites at least once. BK, Taco Bell, Pizza Hut, chinese takeout, quiznos, subway, KFC. Oi! Oh yea, on friday I gotten my state photo id, yay! >_>;;;;; Well, ttyl, bai

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