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deviantART: by:Ake92 http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Ake92&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Ake92 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 17:42:18 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Before I Crash for the Night... http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28755875/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28755875/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 21:49:12 PST
Lmao but I do know one present that I'm getting for sure cause I saw it. I'm getting the new iPod Nano, the one that does video. I'm so phyced. Lmao. Anyways. Night guys.

]]> =Ake92 Random Post http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28621006/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28621006/ Fri, 27 Nov 2009 23:26:52 PST
Well yeah so this journal has been completely random I think I'm going to finish my sparkiling raspberry juice and go to bed. Nigt yall leave me some comments so I can talk to you when I wake up.

]]> =Ake92 Re: For Twilight Lovers and Haters http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28507086/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28507086/ Sun, 22 Nov 2009 11:20:38 PST

Okay so I realize that my last journal entry caused some people to get very pissed off. If you don't like what I said too fucking bad. It is my OPINON deal with it. I am not going to sit by and quietly take bull shit from people calling me stupid because of my OPINON. The last time I checked this was America and under the Amedments, I have the freedome of speach. So if it pissed you off. Grow up and get over it. It's an opinion.

]]> =Ake92 For the Twilight Lovers and Haters http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28456513/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28456513/ Thu, 19 Nov 2009 18:04:58 PST

Alright, well first off I want to start by saying that if you get offended when people talk bad about Twilight this is not something that you want to read, because honestly, thatÂs all IÂm going to do. It might be good for a good laugh for some of you but most of you will probably get offended. ThatÂs not what IÂm trying to do, IÂm just stating my opinion about the movies and books because IÂm getting sick of how big it has become.

SoÂhere goes nothing.

First of all if youÂre going to go see the movie then have fun wasting all of that money on something that you probably wonÂt even like. If you saw Twilight then you know that New Moon isnÂt going to be any better than Twilight was. They always hype up the previews for movies, even the Harry Potter movies. You think itÂs going to be awesome and you end up wasting a couple hours of your life and at least ten bucks for something that just completely blows. I will admit to going to see Twilight in theaters the night it came out. Why did I go? Because it was my first date with my boyfriend, he bought each of us a ticket and I would have felt bad if I didnÂt go. So I went. But this yearÂI was sick, my friends bought me a ticket but IÂm glad IÂm not going because I fell asleep during Twilight. Both me and my boyfriend fell asleep even, it wasnÂt even good enough for us to make out too. Now thatÂs sad.

Yes I can understand if youÂre going to see it because you think Robert Paterson is ho-Âexcuse me. *goes and throws up then comes back* IÂm sorryÂI canÂt even think that sentence. Anyway, yes Taylor or whatever his name is might be hot too, I will agree with you on that. But honestlyÂyou know that itÂs not going to be anything like the movie even if they did change directors. YouÂre setting yourself up for disappointment. I was going to go tonight just because my friend was going to be there and we were going to get up during the movie and start a bitch fight. We had already talked about it when she was doing my hair.

NextÂfor all of you new fans of vampiresÂIÂm sorry but if Twilight made you fall in love with vampires then where the fuck were you when Queen of the Damned came out? Seriously? Lestat could kick EdwardÂs white sparkly pixy ass any day! I HATE Twilight with a burning passion. I used to be in love with the books but seriously. Vampires do NOT sparkle, and they especially donÂt have a little shimmer noise every fucking time they step out into the fucking sun. Either they burn up in the sun or they donÂt itÂs as simple as that. If they fall in love with a human, you can be damn sure that they donÂt wait two or three years to turn them, they know itÂs too fucking dangerous because weÂre weak, and if a vampire finds out about us, then were as good as dead.

I am so sick of all this Twilight shit. Ever since it came out "Preps" have been into vampires. ThatÂs fucking bull shit. What about all of the outcasts, punks, and goths, that were in love with vampires before Twilight? Huh? Where did our escape go? Do you know how hard it is going to be for a writer to get a vampire novel out there now? All because of fucking stupid Twilight? No you donÂt. IÂm working on a book, and since IÂve been in love with vampires since I was eight or nine years old, of course itÂs going to be about them. So what the hell am I going to do now that Twilight has lowered the standardÂs so much? WHO THE HELL KNOWS?

OkayÂI think IÂm done ranting for nowÂIÂll probably do another one of these when Eclipse comes outÂoh and IÂm making a YouTube video for this too. You can be damn sure about that. Secondly if youÂre like me and you hate Twilight but youÂre looking for a good vampire book, then check out these titles.

The Black Dagger Brotherhood by J.R. Ward
Demon in My View by Amelia Atwater-Rhodes
Hunting the Hunter by Shiloh Walker

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]]> =Ake92 If you like my writing... http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28395787/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28395787/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 14:07:24 PST

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Then you're going to love this. I'm writing a book that I'm going to get published one way or the other. It's part of my graduation requirements. We have to do this project that's based on our carreer pathways, and I want to be a writer among other things, so I'm writing a book for my project, over the summer I'm going to send it into a publisher company to get it published. So I'll let you know how that goes so you can be on the look out for my book. It'll most likely be about vampires, because c'mon I've been obsessed with them since I was...well since I knew what they were. So yeah, I was into them WAYYYYYYYYYYYY before Twilight, and honestly I think Twilight is a disgrace to vampires, because one vampire DO NOT sparkle, two...yeah vampires just...they aren't like that. I think she made them too preppy for me. So my book will be nothing like Twilight just to let you know. But yeah if you're interested keep a look out for my journals because I'll be letting you know about details as I write the book. Wish me luck because hopefully, if I stick to schedual, I'll have it done by December. *fingers crossed*

]]> =Ake92 Bitches I hope you know http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28133477/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28133477/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 20:35:04 PST

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This is just really quick. I'm still depressed as a mother, but Friday me and a couple of my freinds are going to Chicago. Why you ask? To see mother fucking Hollywood Undead, Atreyu, and Escape the Fate in fucking concert. Oh yeah! I'm so stoked.

]]> =Ake92 I'm Back. Sort of. http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28097375/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/28097375/ Sun, 01 Nov 2009 21:56:12 PST

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Okay so I've got my creativity back and I'm back at school after everything. I ended up getting the flu from my shot but it's chill. But this month...well if you remember last year, today, because I still have nine minuets left in the day, is the beginning of NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) and that's going to be taking up all of the free time that homework and play doesn't, and I can't promise that I get anything up. I also can't promise that if I get something up that it won't be depressing. I'm not really right in the head emotionally right now, I've got a lot of shit going on, so alot of my writing has been very dark and depressing. So just please bear with me, I do have some pictures that I've done for art class, I'll scan those in, there are like 20 or so. I'll get those up as soon as I can. So until I get someting up peace out homes.

]]> =Ake92 These Tears Don't Fall They Crash Around Me http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27762215/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27762215/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 12:46:21 PDT

Hey everyone, well since my last journal entry things have only seemed to get worse. I got strep throat last week from my little brother and since then it's only gotten worse. I think it's developed into the flu because I've got upset stomach, body aches, chills, the usual flu stuff. I'm really worried about this turning into pneumonia because I'm prone to get that in the winter. I have for the past two years, last year it put me in the hospital. This is the third week I've been out of school, and I know that my teachers are not happy about that but there's nothing I can do. The drugs the doctor gave me really aren't working, but hopefully -shrugs- I don't know. But the worse part of it all? I've lost my creative flow. I've tried to turn out a couple of things and I've ended up scraping all of it because everything seems forced and unnatural. It sucks. I'm really starting to get pissed off. So I don't know when I'll be able to get something put up, I'm also supposed to be writing a book for school but so far, I've got nothing.

]]> =Ake92 Addictions http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27675650/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27675650/ Fri, 09 Oct 2009 19:54:35 PDT

Whoot!

Okay so IÂve been working on some art and from time to time IÂve been working on my stories too, trying to get chapters updated. But sadlyÂI have an addiction that is taking time away from my DeviantArt activity. The culpritÂs name? Facebook. More importantly, Farm Town on Facebook. I know itÂs sad. All of my friends say that itÂs taking over my life and I know that it is. Tonight I spent three hours on there working up to get enough money so I could buy a limited edition Hunted Farm House because IÂm going to build a graveyard at my farm. *sigh* I donÂt know.

But if you want to be my friend on Facebook or MySpace hereÂs where you can find meÂ

Facebook: [link]

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MySpace: [link]

]]> =Ake92 >__> http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27536984/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27536984/ Fri, 02 Oct 2009 10:36:16 PDT

Any of my male followers, you're going to want to skip this first part, girls you'll be able to sympathize.

Well I've been off of my birth control since about mid June because Mario left for boot camp, so I figured why be on it if I'm not going to have sex? Well I forgot that birth control also helps regulate your menstrol cylces and causes you less pain. Well my mom called my doctor to ask her to call the pharmacy and get me a refil of my pills, but the doctor said that I had to come in for a check up before she would give me more, this was last month. I haven't started yet, but I think I'm going to in the next week or so. How do I know? Because this whole week I've had cramps bad enough to keep me out of school. My cramps are so intense that I'm doubled over on the floor in tears. It's massive pain and all I want to do basically is die. Once they were so bad that I threw up. But I think I know why mine are so intense. When I was 12 I was diagnosed with two cysts. I had one on an ovary and one on a kidney. I think becaue I had that one on my ovary, it makes my cramps hurt alot more. Medicine doesn't help, unless it's my birth control, and I cant take that again until I start my pirod. It just really sucks, cause I've been out of school all week, now I'm going to have to go in and explain to my male biology teacher why I've been out all week. That's not going to be fun. I might have one of my best freind's mom tell him, cause she's one of my teachers too. I don't know.

Anyway. I've been working on a new fanfiction, but half way through the fourth chapter I kind of liked it alot, so it might turn out to be a book. I haven't decided yet. I'm almost done with Battle of the Bands, and yeah I know I need to work on Konoha U, I just find it boring, I will finish it I just don't know when. Maybe I'll write a chapter tonight, I'll have to re-read a few chapters because I honesly don't remembe what I was going to do next. *sigh* I don't know this week hasn't been a good one. Hopefully I'll be feeling better enough tomorrow, a couple freinds want to go bowling so we'll have to see about that.

]]> =Ake92 Chalk4Peace and Other Updates. http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27320372/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27320372/ Sun, 20 Sep 2009 13:09:08 PDT

Tomorrow is National Peace day and our school is observing it through Chalk4Peace and Pinwheels For Peace. The whole school made Pinwheels and tomorrow we're going to put them out in out lawn, and a few classes are going out and we're going to draw in chalk, peace images, and some of the English classes are going to be writing peace quotes, and I get to leave Advance Biology class early to go talk to the local paper about it. Also, this week is our Homecoming. Every day of homecoming week is something different. Tomorrow is pj day, Tuesday is Sunglasses and Hat Day Wednesday is...I don't remember, Thursday is Class color day, the seniors got black. I'm planning to wear my Hollywood Undead hoodie and T, and then Friday is Green and White day, those are our school's colors, cause we're the Shamrocks. So I've been busy all weekend getting ready for this stuff, and I have two projects due for Child Development class. One of them is called the ÂRemind MeÂ weÂre supposed to take five things about ourselves that we need to improve on and make something we can hang in our room to remind us to work on them. That way we can be better parents. So I bought a mirror, broke it and glued it back together. IÂm going to print out the five things I need to work on and glue them onto it. Then I have to make a Bio Poem, itÂs a poem about me and make a project out of that. ItÂs due tomorrow and I still donÂt know what to do for that. Then for Friday IÂm making a T-shirt, and ugh I just have so much shit to do.

Other than that, IÂve been coming up with ideas for the fanfictions, and IÂve been working the picture that I said I had an idea for. Hopefully IÂll be able to get some stuff up this week between Monday and Friday. Other than that I have nothing really to say. So IÂll talk to yaÂll later.

]]> =Ake92 Okay... http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27262107/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27262107/ Thu, 17 Sep 2009 12:44:36 PDT

Okay so I'm going to be really busy the rest of this week up until Monday. See I got put in charge of my art class, getting ready for National Peace Day, I don't know why. But I've got a lot of work to do before everything goes down. Then I have two projects due for my Child Development class. Yeah I went ahead and broke a mirror. Well I guess I'm due for seven years bad luck. Oh well. Anyways, I broke the mirror and I have to glue it back together as part of my project. Then today the youth hunt starts for hunters, it's gun season for whitetail deer and I'm going out tonight, tomorrow night, Saturday and Sunday so hopefully I'll get something. It'll be my first time if I do. I shot at a turkey once and I missed.

But my uncle is taking me out and he should be here around four, taht gives me about 15 minutes. So I've got to start getting ready to go. *sigh* So busy. Wish me luck!

=Edit=
OMG OMG OMG
I did it!
I shot my first deer ever! On opening day! Before the boys!
Omfr I'm so happy I couldn't stop shaking! I closed my eyes until my uncle told me that it was dead. And for the record no, I'm not sorry I shot it, that doe is gonna taste goooooooddddddd! Lol but I'm going to write a stroy about this you can get all the deets there.

]]> =Ake92 A Few Things http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27177488/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27177488/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 19:36:37 PDT So Carly was having problems with boys and I tried to help her out, I gave her advice on the first two things, and then there was something about Josh. Well I didn't say anything about it because she's with a new guy right now. So she got on my case about that, then I told her something I've been keeping a secret because I don't want anyone to know about it. There are issues that I have with it, and there are issues with my future that could compromise it if word got out to the wrong people. So I told her tonight because she was brining up shit from a couple of months ago. Yeah I definatly shouldn't have told her that. And don't ask what it is because I'm not going to tell anyone.

=School=
So last week was the first week of school, and right off the bat my art teacher tells me that we're going to be doing a school wide project for National Peace day. So on the third day of school we had a meeting after classes. She asked all of the advance art students to come if they could, well out of the four of us I was the only one who showed up. So the next day the teachers had a meeting in the morning and they decided that I would be the student coordinator. So in other words. I have a week to organize this whole thing. I have to contact the local news paper, decide what the desgine is going to be, decide who is going to do what. Oh and if the news crew shows up, I'm the one who's going to be interviewd, so I'm either going to end up in the paper or on TV.

I got my seinor pictures today. Well I got the proofs, so now I get to decide which one's I'm going to keep and get prints of. But when I went in I didn't get to have any outside ones so I got some wallets free today. And after we got them, we went to a park and then a graveyard and I got to take some there. They turned out really well.

=Random=
I've got a really cool idea for a picture that I'm going to start working on, and as for the fanfictions, I might drop Konoha U. I don't know yet. I'm just bored with it. I might be able to squeeze a few more chapters out but that's going to be it, and I'll probably wait until I finish the Battle of the Bands, because right now I'm having more fun with that one. So please just bear with me for now. Especially since I'm back in school. I really only have the weekends now to work on things.

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]]> =Ake92 Hate My Life http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27113362/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27113362/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 12:42:49 PDT
]]> =Ake92 I'M TAKING A BREAK! http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27046348/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/27046348/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 01:45:58 PDT
SO YOU KNOW THAT BOOK I WAS WORKING ON FOR MY SR. PROJECT AND WAS GOING TO GET PUBLISHED? IT FUCKING GOT DELETED AND I CANT FUCKING GET IT BACK. I'M SO PISSED I'M READY TO THROW THIS FUCKING COMPUTER OUT THE MOTHER FUCKING WINDOW. I WAS DOING SO GOOD. I LOVED WHERE THE STORY LINE WAS HEADED, I LOVED THE PEOPLE IN IT AND I WASN'T GETTING BORED WITH IT. NOW I HAVE TO FUCKING START ALL FUCKING OVER AGAIN.

YEAH SO LONG DEVIANTART I NEED A FUCKING BREAK FROM TECHNOLOGY.

PEACE OUT.

P.S. SORRY FOR ALL THE CUSSING BUT YOU CAN UNDERSTAND AND IF YOU CANT FUCK YOU TOO.

]]> =Ake92 M'kay http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26885098/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26885098/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 21:44:47 PDT
So yesterday I had two friends over, Quinn and Sarah. Well I had stayed the night at SarahÂs the night before and Quinn came over when I got home and then Sarah came over while she was waiting on her little brother to get done with football practice, we took him home, and came back to my house. They were both gone before I woke up, and Trevor woke me up by climbing into bed with me around one thirty and woke me up. To be honest I was a little disappointed because I had been dreaming about Mario and I thought, hoped, prayed, that I was him waking up but then I saw the white skin. DonÂt get me wrong I was happy that Trevor was there I really needed to talk to him about some shit that Sarah was doing.

Well I was on Facebook today and there were a couple posts from friends that they were all going to hang out at SarahÂs tonight. Guess who didnÂt get an invite? I feel like IÂm not good enough for her other friends even though we ALL met through the schoolÂs play. She never wants to hang out with me unless itÂs just me and her or me her and Trevor. I donÂt get it. Well she says that she has a crush on me, and I was the first girl that she ever had a crush on, but she doesnÂt think IÂm good enough to hang out with her College Freshman friends, even though we all know each other. The only time sheÂll invite me to hang out with them is when thereÂs drinking involved because she knows I get crazy when IÂm drunk, and she can get me to do stuff with her. (Yes I am bisexual)

Anyway, Trevor said something about coming over after the football game but itÂs 12:30 and I havenÂt heard from him so I guess either his mom said no, or heÂs out with other friends. DanÂs at the bar getting wasted again. Since he turned 21 thatÂs all he does. Paige is in Elkhart, and I really donÂt want to hang out with Tiffany because sheÂs justÂwell letÂs put it this way, Paige is 14 and TiffanyÂs cousin, Tiffany is 17 and Paige is more mature than Tiffany it.

So tonight itÂs just me, my computer, Microsoft Word, and Skillet.

I want to cut so badly but IÂm resistingÂsomehow.
I feel alone, I want Mario to come back, I want to know that someone cares.
And I probably wonÂt post for a while because I have a feeling anything I come up with will be depressing. WeÂll see.

Time: 12:43
Music: Don't Wake Me by Skillet from the new album Awake

]]> =Ake92 Skillet Fans Unite .:Contest:. http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26856338/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26856338/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 12:47:31 PDT

Skillet--Awake
1. Hero
2. Monster
3. Don't Wake Me
4. Awake and Alive
5. One Day Too Late
6. It's Not Me It's You
7. Should've When You Could've
8. Believe
9. Forgiven
10. Sometimes
11. Never Surrender
12. Lucy.

Also I got my class schedual for this new school year. I HATE IT.
I've got
Advance Biology
Child Development
Choir
Online Course
Art II
Psychology
Sociology
French II
Reading Workshop
Choir
English 12
Speech

I only got classes I DIDN'T want. The only class that was on my list from last year when I went in and we Scheduled my classes is Art. I hated french last year because we didnt learn anything so why would I take it again? I did want choir but what the hell is the online class and reading workshop? This school is really pissing me off.

But on another note completely I think I'm going to hold a Contest but you guys have to enter it. Let me know if you're interseted. Also I'm not taking requests.

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]]> =Ake92 X.X I Think NOW Would Be A Good Time http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26828175/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26828175/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 00:48:34 PDT
Okay so things are slowing down a little bit. I have a Dr. Appointment tomorrow, I need to talk to her about my birth control before she will give me more. T.T, then I have to touch up my hair because my roots are coming through, I need to get a hair appointment so I can get my hair thinned and then I have to get my Sr. pics done. And ontop of all of that I need to get my book done by the end of October at the latest for my Sr. Project. And school starts on September 8th!

Ugh, well you guys can see that I've been working on the fanfictions a little bit...but not much. See I sleep all day and when night comes around...well I dont know I'm not in the writing mood until around three or four in the morning. So yeah. By the time that comes around I try to get my book done. Ugh. Life is just...busy. But whatever.

Well peace out yall.

white kitten 2 by ~BreatheOnMe | Winter Fairy 7 by *Lisajen-stock | Foliage Swirls by *redheadstock | Rabies Star Brushset by ~Rabieshund

]]> =Ake92 Well... http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26784340/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26784340/ Sun, 23 Aug 2009 20:58:04 PDT

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So I had a contest set up but only one person entered it and I can't have a contest with only one contestant. That just doens't work. I ran a poll and you all said that you would want me to have a contest and that you would like me to take requests. But if no one is going to enter it then what's the point? I am taking requests and I'll hold another contest if you guys are serious about entering.

On another note completely. If you guys are really into photogroaphy then you need to check out ~TrevStrzy He's my best guy freind and he's like fucking Anikin with a camera. It's amazing some of the pictures he turns out.

Tell your boyfriend if he says he's got beef
That I'm a vegetarian and I'm not fucing scared of him.
Dont Trust me by 3OH!3 ]]> =Ake92 Defying Gravity. http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26477274/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26477274/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 04:35:06 PDT

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Okay so IÂm entering a short story in the fair and I really want to win because yeahÂsometimes they have colleges there and they read the winnerÂs work. It would be a good opportunity to get a scholarship. Well I decided to write a tear-jerker that has a happy ending so IÂm writing about Mario leaving for the Army. Well that wasnÂt such a good idea on my part because itÂs bringing all of those feelings back.

If youÂve read the Twilight series you know how Bella felt when Edward left her and how it was described when she was in the car. Like there was a hole in her chest and it kept getting bigger and bigger until it was threatening to tear her apart? Yeah well thatÂs how I feel right now. I texted Carli to see if she was up so I could talk to her but she wasnÂt and I donÂt blame her, it was three in the morning for her and yeah. Well I was able to maintain some composer because my little sister was watching Degrassi about six feet away from me and I didnÂt need her seeing me break down. After the fair IÂll post the story but itÂs going to be after IÂve brought it home and itÂs been judged just in case.

I donÂt know why IÂm telling you this, but oh well.
I really just donÂt want to write about it anymore right now so I guess thatÂs why.
Who knows?

Well uhmÂ

I donÂt know anymore.

Okay well I guess IÂll give you guys an update. I canÂt promise any new chapter or art work for at least two weeks. This is what my schedule looks like for the next two weeks.

Sunday: Clean my room and do laundry.

Monday: Finish cleaning my room cause I know IÂm not going to get it all done Sunday, Meeting with Brown Mackie College at 5:30pm, and Dinner with Grandma after that.

Tuesday: Write at three to six poems for the fair and draw my picture, and take my photography shots, then go to dinner and go to the movies or the beach with my friends.

Wednesday: Leave to go to Minnesota for a wedding that my step dad is going to be the preacher at.

Thursday: In Minnesota with only the lap top and my step dad will need to do work.

Friday: Minnesota.

Saturday: Minnesota; and leaving maybe?

Sunday: Leaving for sure and coming home.

Monday-Saturday: Fair and friends are going to want me to be there every day all day, even though IÂll probably only go at night so I can spend time with Carli too, and on Saturday IÂm going to have to stay until they close for sure so I can get all of my fair entries.

Sunday: REST!

On top of all that, I need to find someone to take my Senior pictures and set up an appointment for that because I have to have them into the school within like the second week and school starts on September 7th.

IÂm going to be a senior. OH MY WORD! Crap. ThatÂs all I have to say to that. I have to make sure I pass all of my classes and thatÂs not going to be easy because IÂm taking Psychology and Sociology, and Advance Biology, and CHILD DEVELOPMENT! IÂm going to get a baby that IÂm going to have to take care of for a week, a fake one that is. But it still cries and crap. UGH. THEN I have to make sure that I get my Sr. Project done and fill out college applications and get a job and finally pass my DriverÂs ED class and get a car, and UGH! ThereÂs just so much that IÂm going to have to do this year itÂs not even funny.

But I did think of something that would totally make Graduation day so much more fun. My grandma HATES tattoos. Well. The day before Grad, IÂm going to go out and get a tattoo of stars in that curve where my neck and shoulder meet, and while IÂm at it, I might get my eyebrow pierced.

But anyways thatÂs just an update. Once I get some down time IÂll hopefully get a lot of work done but I doubt it.

Tell your boyfriend if he says he's got beef
That I'm a vegetarian and I'm not fucing scared of him.
Dont Trust me by 3OH!3 ]]> =Ake92 Deep Rooted Depression. http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26409723/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26409723/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 19:19:47 PDT I tried to kill the pain but only brought more, so much pain. I lay dying and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal. I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming. Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost?
My God my tourniquet return to me salvation. My God my tourniquet return to me salvation.
Do you remember me? Lost for so long. Will you be on the other side or will you forget me? I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming. Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost?
My God my tourniquet return to me salvation.My God my tourniquet return to me salvation.

Today had to be the second worst day of my summer vacation. I was asking Tiffany and Paige if they had Mario's adress cause I lost the envalope he sent his letter to me in. I wanted to send him another one, well Tiffany says she doesn't have his adress but she has his phone number I didn't know what to say at that, but I understand why he hasn't called me. If he called me, I would fall apart and he doesn't need to worry about that. I honestly don't blame him for not calling me, but the letters...he sent Paige one and she let me read it. He told her he missed her, but he didn't tell me that in the letter he sent me. Well I was kind of bitchy towards Tiffany beacuse she got a call and I didn't, and she got really pissed. But honestly she doesn't know what I'm going through, and I don't think she cares. I hate it. My so called best friend said that I talk about Mario too much but honestly, other than me writing when I'm depressed I don't talk about him at all. I cant. It's too painful. Sometimes....sometimes I think that he's not going to come back for me like he promised....but he promised so he will...right? I tried calling Carli, she was busy, Sarah was busy, Trevor was at cheer camp, Paige was with Tiffany and Tiff was pissed at me, and Quinn only made things worse. I was so alone, and all I could do was cry. I eventually passed out in my drive way and when I woke up, I was just depressed and my body was sore from sleeping on the ground. Yeah so today was horrible and I feel so depressed, like I have no way out of it this time. I don't knwo what I'm going to do. Well needless to say I'm taking a break from Deviantart. Leave comments, keep sending in your contest submissions and I'll check them all when I come back, reply, and update everything. Though I can't promise and chapters or art work that's....happy.

Return to me salvation.
I WANT TO DIE!
My God my tourniquet return to me salvation.My God my tourniquet return to me salvation.
My wounds cry for the grave, my soul creis for deliverance. Will I be denied? Christ. Tourniquet. My suicide. ]]> =Ake92 Belladonna http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26394674/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26394674/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 03:58:51 PDT
Yeah okay so I slept pretty much all day yester day and then I'm up all night but whatever.
I just wanted to update and show off the contest entries I have so far.

by ~neko-catoonist

by: ~imr2aqt

Viva La Vi Bohem.

Flower :STOCK: by =sourcow | Arabesque Brushes by ~Luizalenora | Foliage Swirls by *redheadstock | Twirl Border Brushes by =kuschelirmel-stock

]]> =Ake92 Contest and Requests http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26354630/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26354630/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 08:47:40 PDT
Okay well you guys voted and you decided that I shold hold a contest and take requests so yeah. Here we go. First the contest.

Theme: Fair.
It can be a writing, a poem, a picture, whatever. It just has to be fair themed. There really arn't any rules, the deadline for all submissions is August 22, the day my County Fair ends. After everyone has submitted their entries I'll let you decide with a poll, and between the two most voted for I'll decide who wins.

If you want to join send me a note with a link to your submission. I'll add it to the journal and people will be able to look at it and then go vote. But the votes wont count until after August 22, and I'll post a poll asking you who should win, then after a week I'll choose the winner between the two people with the most votes.

As for requests...Send them in and I'll get them done as soon as I can.

Art Work In Progress.
1. Kakashi: Lazy Days (Naruto)
~~2. Itachi: The Eyes of Hate (Naruto)~~
~~3. Deidara: Hands of Destruction (Naruto)~~
4. Sasori: Face of a Boy (Naruto)
~~5. Naruto: "Sasuke" (Naruto)~~
6. Yondami: The Face of Hope (Naruto)
7. Nami: Distressing Damsel (One Piece)
8. Ichigo: Bankai (Bleach)
9. Ichigo: Fighter's Life (Bleach)
~~10. Gaara: Eyes of Sadness (Naruto)~~
11. Sasuke&Naruto: Because of Bonds (Not Yaoi) (Naruto)
12. Gaara: The Faces of Gaara (Naruto)
13. Sasuke: Chidori Warrior (Naruto)
14. Sasuke: Apprentence (Naruto)
15. Naruto: Peaceful (Naruto)
16. Naruto: The Deamon Within (Naruto)
17. Sasori: Puppet Master (Naruto)
18. Naruto: Time to Go (Naruto)
19. Tenten: Awaiting You (Naruto)
20. Anna: The Prize (Shaman King)
21. Konoha University. (STILL SO MUCH TO DO!!!!!)

Viva La Vi Bohem.

Flower :STOCK: by =sourcow | Arabesque Brushes by ~Luizalenora | Foliage Swirls by *redheadstock | Twirl Border Brushes by =kuschelirmel-stock

]]> =Ake92 New ID and update. http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26323329/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26323329/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 18:05:34 PDT
Okay well I know that I've still got alot to do on the Konoha University story but It's starting to get boring again so I'm going to be uploading Healing Hearts chapters too. I'm going to be up kinda late tonight, maybe all night. Right now I'm waiting for the bleach to strip the pink out of my hair so I can dye it. Deviants...I'm going blond. Not like a dirty blond or anything. I'm going straight up bleach blond, or as close to that as I can get. I don't know how it's going to look but I'll probably make a new DeviantID with it. I'm testing the color to see if I like it because I've got senior pictures coming up soon and I'm going to have two sessions. I'm gong to do the first session with blond hair, then the second with my hair turquoise or dark blue and my bangs black, because my faimly would freak if I gave them senior pictues with blue and black hair, so I'm doing the blond for them and the other style for my friends.

I haven't been working on my art lately. I just cant get in the mood there's been a lot of stuff going on lately, and I just cant get in the mood to draw anything so I'm either writing or role playing, whichever happenes to come first or last. But I'm going to try and get at least two cahpters of Konoha University and two or three chapters of Healing Hearts up tongiht while I'm waiting for my hair to bleach and dye. Well...I think I'm going to host a contest. I haven't decided yet, it's either going to be a contest or I'm going to start taking requests. It depends I'll post a poll and let you decide.

Oh and for all of you who boted for Kakashi over Jiraiya...yeahhhh. Lol. No offence but I would totally take Jiaraiya over Kakashi, for certian reasonos. But getting off that. Make sure you answer the poll so I know what I'm going to do, and if there's a tie I'll do both. But for now I'm going to go and start working on my chapters. Later peeps.

Art Work In Progress.
1. Kakashi: Lazy Days (Naruto)
~~2. Itachi: The Eyes of Hate (Naruto)~~
~~3. Deidara: Hands of Destruction (Naruto)~~
4. Sasori: Face of a Boy (Naruto)
~~5. Naruto: "Sasuke" (Naruto)~~
6. Yondami: The Face of Hope (Naruto)
7. Nami: Distressing Damsel (One Piece)
8. Ichigo: Bankai (Bleach)
9. Ichigo: Fighter's Life (Bleach)
~~10. Gaara: Eyes of Sadness (Naruto)~~
11. Sasuke&Naruto: Because of Bonds (Not Yaoi) (Naruto)
12. Gaara: The Faces of Gaara (Naruto)
13. Sasuke: Chidori Warrior (Naruto)
14. Sasuke: Apprentence (Naruto)
15. Naruto: Peaceful (Naruto)
16. Naruto: The Deamon Within (Naruto)
17. Sasori: Puppet Master (Naruto)
18. Naruto: Time to Go (Naruto)
19. Tenten: Awaiting You (Naruto)
20. Anna: The Prize (Shaman King)
21. Konoha University. (STILL SO MUCH TO DO!!!!!)

Viva La Vi Bohem.

Flower :STOCK: by =sourcow | Arabesque Brushes by ~Luizalenora | Foliage Swirls by *redheadstock | Twirl Border Brushes by =kuschelirmel-stock

]]> =Ake92 Devious Journal Entry http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26203680/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26203680/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 03:26:23 PDT

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Oxycotton Xanax Bars Percocet and Lortab
Valiums Morphine patches Exstacy and it's all up for grab
What you want what you need hit me up I got you mane

Sigh. I've been awake all night again and I've been working on art as you can see what's happened with the Gallery updates. I'm about to go take a shower then I'll go work somemore on Konoha University. Hopefully I can get it finished by the end of the week, then I can work on the next story in the long line of unfinished stories.

1. Kakashi: Lazy Days (Naruto)
~~2. Itachi: The Eyes of Hate (Naruto)~~
~~3. Deidara: Hands of Destruction (Naruto)~~
4. Sasori: Face of a Boy (Naruto)
~~5. Naruto: "Sasuke" (Naruto)~~
6. Yondami: The Face of Hope (Naruto)
7. Nami: Distressing Damsel (One Piece)
8. Ichigo: Bankai (Bleach)
9. Ichigo: Fighter's Life (Bleach)
~~10. Gaara: Eyes of Sadness (Naruto)~~
11. Sasuke&Naruto: Because of Bonds (Not Yaoi) (Naruto)
12. Gaara: The Faces of Gaara (Naruto)
13. Sasuke: Chidori Warrior (Naruto)
14. Sasuke: Apprentence (Naruto)
15. Naruto: Peaceful (Naruto)
16. Naruto: The Deamon Within (Naruto)
17. Sasori: Puppet Master (Naruto)
18. Naruto: Time to Go (Naruto)
19. Tenten: Awaiting You (Naruto)
20. Anna: The Prize (Shaman King)
21. Konoha University. (STILL SO MUCH TO DO!!!!!)

Scarecrow, scarecrow whats that you popping?
A powerful pill they call Oxy Contton
But it's so tiny, that it got you dragging
Haven't you heard big things come in small packages ]]> =Ake92 Deviation Submissions. http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26164689/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26164689/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 05:20:07 PDT

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Oxycotton Xanax Bars Percocet and Lortab
Valiums Morphine patches Exstacy and it's all up for grab
What you want what you need hit me up I got you mane

Well as you can see from my recent submissions I've been working on art alot lately. I've been staying up late for some reason. I think it's all the Coke I'm drinking. I'm offically off caffeene. Water is about to be my new best friend. I still have a few pieces that I'm working on. But I also wanted to let you know that if the chatpers I post are short it's only because I cant still for very long. You see I have 5 cats. Not only am I allergic to them, but they all have fleas. My sister thinks its fun to take the cats in the bedroom we share. I have to make sure that my pillow and comforter are covered otherwise the cats will sleep on them and get hair all over and I'll get read, itchy, watery eyes and start sneezing my brains out. Well out cats aren't strictly inside cats, they go outside too, and we have yet to buy K9 Advantics to get rid of fleas and ticks. Well since the cats spend more time in my room then anywhere else in the house, my bedroom has become infested with fleas! Not only that but my feet have close to 20 flea bites. I cant sit still because they itch like a serious mother.

On top of everything else I was using this astringent on my face to help get rid of some minor acne since I went off birth control and yeah it dried my face out so bad I look like I have a serious case of sun burn. It hurts, it itches, its starting to peel, and I have to put Aloe on it every four hours or so just so I can make facial expressions.

I think someone out there has it in for me.

Works in progress
1. Kakashi: Lazy Days (Naruto)
2. Itachi: The Eyes of Hate (Naruto)
3. Deidara: Hands of Destruction (Naruto)
4. Sasori: Face of a Boy (Naruto)
5. Naruto: "Sasuke" (Naruto)
6. Yondami: The Face of Hope (Naruto)
7. Nami: Distressing Damsel (One Piece)
8. Ichigo: Bankai (Bleach)
9. Ichigo: Fighter's Life (Bleach)
10. Gaara: Eyes of Sadness (Naruto)
11. Sasuke&Naruto: Because of Bonds (Not Yaoi) (Naruto)
12. Gaara: The Faces of Gaara (Naruto)
13. Sasuke: Chidori Warrior (Naruto)
14. Sasuke: Apprentence (Naruto)
15. Naruto: Peaceful (Naruto)
16. Naruto: The Deamon Within (Naruto)
17. Sasori: Puppet Master (Naruto)
18. Naruto: Time to Go (Naruto)
19. Tenten: Awaiting You (Naruto)
20. Anna: The Prize (Shaman King)
21. Konoha University.

Scarecrow, scarecrow whats that you popping?
A powerful pill they call Oxy Contton
But it's so tiny, that it got you dragging
Haven't you heard big things come in small packages ]]> =Ake92 Fanfictions.... http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26146983/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26146983/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 09:03:53 PDT

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Oxycotton Xanax Bars Percocet and Lortab
Valiums Morphine patches Exstacy and it's all up for grab
What you want what you need hit me up I got you mane

Okay so you all know that I've really been working on the Konoha Univeristy series, but I still have alot of unfinished fanfitcions in my gallery. I'm going to be finishing them up one at a time. Starting with Konoha U. Then I'll move to Healing Hearts, The Dream Keeper, A Dark Passion (possibly), Fountian of Youth, If I never Knew you, Treasure, then Battle of the Bands. The only reason I'm deciding to go in this order is because that's the way the files are set up in my gallery it was the easiest thing to pick.

Also I was tagged so...

Rules.
Post 8 things about yourself
Tagg 8 people
1. I'm a writer.
2. I'm an artist.
3. I'm bisexual.
4. I have the best friend in the world.
5. I was invited to a party tomorrow that I'm probably not going to.
6. I get off topic too easily.
7. I have a pet rat named Yuki.
8. I cant get enough of Role Playing.

Scarecrow, scarecrow whats that you popping?
A powerful pill they call Oxy Contton
But it's so tiny, that it got you dragging
Haven't you heard big things come in small packages ]]> =Ake92 Gallery Changes. *Important* http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26081850/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26081850/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 07:52:17 PDT

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Oxycotton Xanax Bars Percocet and Lortab
Valiums Morphine patches Exstacy and it's all up for grab
What you want what you need hit me up I got you mane

Mood: Accomplished.
Song: Lollipop by Framing Hanley.
Time: 10:50

Okay well since I wrote my last journal which I finished at like 7:30 I think. Somewhere close to it at least. I started cleaning up my Gallery and I finally finished at 10:45, that's like three hours it took. That's crazy! I didn't know I had that many deviations! I decided that the only fanfictions that I'm going to drop are HSWNTFU, Bleeding Love and Talk Dirty to Me. Only because they were role plays that Carli and I were doing and I don't have all of the records to keep going and it's a pain in the ass. Life Makes Drama Has been completly deleted from my Gallery only because I didn't like where it was going but I may start over once I finish up some of my other ones.

Now as for the changes that occured. I went through and deleted all of my folders then made new ones. All of the Naruto fanfictions are in the Naruto folder, except for Healing Hearts, Konoha U, and Treasure. They are still on going fanfictions and I may move them later. I don't know. Also any one shots that were Naruto are in the one shot folder. All poems, songs, and random things like The Meaning Behind a Kiss are in the Poems, Songs, Random Things folder.

Well I think that's all I've got for now, and now I shall go work on chapters. Yay! ....I've got a lot of work to do.

P.S. Nixon is FINE!

Scarecrow, scarecrow whats that you popping?
A powerful pill they call Oxy Contton
But it's so tiny, that it got you dragging
Haven't you heard big things come in small packages ]]> =Ake92 Sleep Deporvation and Vampire Nights. http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26080064/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26080064/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 05:01:15 PDT

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Oxycotton Xanax Bars Percocet and Lortab
Valiums Morphine patches Exstacy and it's all up for grab
What you want what you need hit me up I got you mane

Mood: Awake.
Music: Shortie Like Mine by Chris Brown.
Time: 7:56 A.M.

Okay so lets see I woke up at roughly 2:30 pm yesterday and I have yet to go to bed. That would make the total time awake...17 and a half hours. Wow. Yeah and the funny thing is I'm not the least bit tired. I was thinking about working on more stories and I probably will still since I'm the only thing moving around in the house other than the cats and my mom who is about to leave for work. I can blast the music, drift away and turn out something you will all love. Who knows, maybe as the sleep deporvation sinks in I'll be able to write some ramdom crack thing. I swear if anything like that turns out I'm not on anything other than the following:

1. Sleep Deprived.
2. Caffeene.
3. Cigarettes.
4. The will power to stay awake.

I swear that's it. Well. -sigh- I guess I'll go work on something. I'm going to be updating my art too. Soon. I'm going to work on it today sometime. Probably after I turn out at least two chapters. I told Carli that I would work on the Konoha U fanfiction. So I guess I'm going to go work on that now. Damn. I don't even remember what's going on in that story anymore. Not to mention I completely forgot the story line. *sighs* I guess that's what happens when fanfictions get boring.

Oh before I go. You all need to listen to Oxycotton by Lil Whyte. It's amazing!

Scarecrow, scarecrow whats that you popping?
A powerful pill they call Oxy Contton
But it's so tiny, that it got you dragging
Haven't you heard big things come in small packages ]]> =Ake92 Early Morning Thoughts http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26056887/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/26056887/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 01:43:07 PDT

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Oxycotton Xanax Bars Percocet and Lortab
Valiums Morphine patches Exstacy and it's all up for grab
What you want what you need hit me up I got you mane

Time: 4:28 A.M.
Mood: Alone.
Song: Alone in This Bed by Framing Hanley.

Well pretty much I feel alone and heart broken. You all know that my boyfreind Mario is off at boot camp. Well I got a letter from him the other day and I wrote back to him but...I just haven't been able to wait for another letter to write back to him. I've been working on a letter pretty much all week and it's not helping me miss him less that's for sure. I wrote him this letter before he left that I wanted to give him to take with him, but I forgot to give it to him and I found it yesterday while I was cleaning my room. I read it and it made me cry because everything I wrote is true. I feel like I'm hollow and alone even though I'm not. I've got the closest besti in the world, but she's 3000 miles away from me. I wish we lived closer because I know that no matter what I can always call her and she'll let me complain and vent to her over the phone. She sits with me when I cry and always can make me smile when I'm feeling down. None of my freinds that live close to me can do that. And I love her for that. But it doesn't change the fact that I'm missing the one person who has almost all of my heart. I want him to come home now but I know he cant. It's going to be January before I see him again. What am I going to do? It's only been a little over a month and I'm already breaking down like this. Doctor Deviants I need your help. What do you guys do when you're depressed?

Well...Okay so I know I havent posted anything new other then pictures in a long time. Maybe I'll try to get somethin up because I haven't been to bed yet and I'm not tired. So we'll see if my sleep deprived brain can push out anything worth posting. Until next time. --Ashli.

Scarecrow, scarecrow whats that you popping?
A powerful pill they call Oxy Contton
But it's so tiny, that it got you dragging
Haven't you heard big things come in small packages ]]> =Ake92 Crushes Mike's and Freinds. http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25992485/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25992485/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 19:07:08 PDT

Okay so Carli's not here and I'm bored.
Anyone want to role play?
Just a few rules.
1. You have to be chill with sex scenes.
2. You don't mind cussing
3. It has to be an anime that I know or...it can be like a Naruto comes to our world where they dont have ninja powers or whatever. It can be a movie as long as I know what the movie is.

So yeah. Rp with me.

ashli_the_beast@yahoo.com

]]> =Ake92 Wedding http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25601156/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25601156/ Sun, 28 Jun 2009 07:27:02 PDT

Yeah this next week I wont be able to do anything cause my mom is getting married this friday and I'm the maid of honor and singing two songs. Amazed by Loanstar and Bless the Broken Road by Rascal Flatss, along with giving a toast. So I'm going to be hella busy, and I need to worry about the fiance's girls ages six and seven who are gonna be there this week. I'm in TN right now with my step dad at my aunt Shannon's house and we're getting ready to go to Ihop then we're gonna go get his girls and go back to MI and I'll be home tonight. so yeah. Well I'll try to get some new chapters up this week. I love you guys.

]]> =Ake92 If you love me http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25456261/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25456261/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 15:26:28 PDT

Yeahhh so pretty much I'm bored with my life and I pretty much hate it. Don't ask. But here's my yahoo ID you can IM me, my aim, and myspace

Yahoo: ashli_the_beast@yahoo.com
Aim: Ake92
Myspace: myspace.com/92ake92

]]> =Ake92 Deivation Clean Up http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25273769/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25273769/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 13:23:50 PDT

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I'm going to be cleaning up my deviations, getting rid of stories that I'm not finishing and don't intend to, I'm going to delete all of my pictures and re-upload them. So if something goes missing from your favorites gallory that's why

]]> =Ake92 Saying Good Bye Part 2 http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25205789/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25205789/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 20:23:55 PDT It was simply horrible.
I thought that by the time came I would be ready that I wouldn't have to cry anymore. But as soon as 2:00pm came around and Tiffany's little sister asked who was here in a black van, I couldn't keep the tears in. They had come to take him away from me. I watched him get up and answer the door for Sargent Frasier. He looked at me and then at Mario. "Take as much time as you need. I'll be outside." He walked out and all of the girls in the house, Tiffany, Crystal, Paige, Rachel, Corbin and I started crying. But none of them know what it's like for me. They're losing a freind or a brother (not by blood or marriage) I'm losing the love of my life. I'm jealous of them. They don't know what it's like to have you're heart ripped out and stoped on then ripped into a million little pieces. They don't have the slightest clue what I'm going through. I envy them. He hugged me first and I left I didn't think I was going to be able to see him walk out that door and climb into that van. I don't know who he hugged after me I was in the bathroom hallway.I wasn't there long before he came and found me. He hugged Tiffany who was in the bathroom crying then came to me. I didn't want to let him go. I didn't want him to leave. I hugged him tight and told him that I wasn't letting go. But I knew I had to. I looked into his eyes and I could see the pain there. I didn't think leaving me would be as hard on him as it is on me. But I was wrong. So wrong. I pulled him down and kissed him. I knew it would be the last time for a while. We all went out side and watched him climb into the van. The tears became a rainstorm. I watched him pull out and leave and I completely broke down.

i cant deal with this pain. I'm just a wreck. I don't know how I'll make it. I want to hear his voice one more time. I want to hear him tell me he loves me one more time.

white kitten 2 by ~BreatheOnMe | Winter Fairy 7 by ~Lisajen-stock | Foliage Swirls by *redheadstock | Rabies Star Brushset by ~Rabieshund

]]> =Ake92 Saying Good Bye Part 1 http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25185501/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25185501/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 18:52:18 PDT

white kitten 2 by ~BreatheOnMe | Winter Fairy 7 by ~Lisajen-stock | Foliage Swirls by *redheadstock | Rabies Star Brushset by ~Rabieshund

]]> =Ake92 My Life Offically Suck Major Ass!!! http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25093276/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/25093276/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 17:07:37 PDT
Ugh on the good side I'm working on the fanfictions and school's almost out.
I've got a book too.
Hopefully you like it.
It's about Fairies.

Flower :STOCK: by =sourcow | Arabesque Brushes by ~Luizalenora | Foliage Swirls by *redheadstock | Twirl Border Brushes by =kuschelirmel-stock

]]> =Ake92 The Darkest of Moonless Nighs are Spent Crying. http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/24828493/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/24828493/ Mon, 18 May 2009 18:49:13 PDT

I'm leaving Deviant Art for a while. I know I havent been updating anyways but...I need to figure out what I'm going to do when the time comes for me to be strong. I honestly dont know how I'm going to survive. I've got roughly about a month until it happens but...I still need time. I'll be back but I'm not going to be looking at my stuff. Leave me comments and I'll get back to them when I get back and hopefully I'll have some stuff for you guys...

-Ashley

with her submission of.... [link]

Thanks for entering and I'll be having another one soon. Also, the prize may be up sometime tomorrow or later tonight.

]]> =Ake92 GaaSaku for the win? http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/23144531/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/23144531/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 18:19:10 PST

(P.S. Carly I know you don't like this couple but...yeah.)

Also, just a quick update you have until Saturday to submit your stories for the Valentine's Day Contest. I'll be reading them Saturday and then write a oneshot for the winner. Just send me a link in a comment or in a note and I'll read them over. Also, so it's not just one person's opinoin I'll be having my boyfriend--who's not entering the contest--read them too and we'll decide who's is the best. Good luck everyone.

]]> =Ake92 Spam on DA!!!! http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/23086751/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/23086751/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 16:20:29 PST

Someone is spamming on DA!
If you recieve a message saying click here or click this DONT do it!
I reapeat DONT do it.
If you do happen to click change your password asap!!
Please people stop doing this.
I'm really disappointed because one of my waters and I thought my freind sent it to me
I clicked thinking I could trust them.
Guess what you cant trust anyone on DA anymore
PLEASE WATCH OUT AND DONT CLICK

]]> =Ake92 Comments and Contest http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22979226/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22979226/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 08:06:39 PST
I'm having a contest. I want to see what you guys are capable of. Write me a one shot by Valentine's day and the winner will get a story with the couple of their choice. The dead line is Feb. 14 Just send me a link to your story in a note

]]> =Ake92 Celebrations http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22713983/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22713983/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 13:33:52 PST Well i'm not going anywhere and I actually passed chemistry this time!
Haha!
so to celebrate I have a new fanfic, a chapter for WWE Diva Blade, and a new chapter for Treasure

]]> =Ake92 Breaks http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22181011/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22181011/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 03:51:24 PST
]]> =Ake92 Ashley-chan is coming home! http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22083845/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22083845/ Sat, 20 Dec 2008 11:24:45 PST If it's too loud you're too old

I'm going home today most likely. They took me off the oxygen and my blood o2 level stayed at a solid 98% so that's a good thing. If I can keep it up for an hour or so they'll let me go home. I'm so ready to get out of here. I havent done any of my Christmas shoping or anything, and that's really bad cause i only have like four days left. Grr! I know what I'm getting my boyfreind, I'm going to get him a golden chain and I'm going to get him a Dragon Madalion to go with it. I was thinking maybe a Katt Williams movie or something. Idk I'm defianly going with the chain. I dont have any idea for carly, but I'm going to get Tiffany a tiger stuffed of course lol, Blake I think im going to get some punk pins and stuff from hot topis and john...probably some stuff from there too. Lol idk but IM GOING HOME

the world is not perfect, yet it demands perfection ]]> =Ake92 Hospital? http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22060824/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22060824/ Fri, 19 Dec 2008 05:27:28 PST If it's too loud you're too old

Sitting in the hospital bed, nothing seems...real. I'm sick, I have an IV in my arm, and an oxyen tube up my nose to keep me stable, but I have a laptop in front of me, food is on the way, there's a movie playing, and I got a free teddy bear...oh and the laptop has internet acces. what is this place where they would give you this much attention? really? This place is unbeliveable, and I have to stay here over night. I guess its not too bad, I just hope they figure out what's wrong with me so I can go home. This place would be perfect, but it's missing something very important that without this place isn't perfect. Mario. If he was here i would have no probablem staying here a little longer but I'm really missing him. I named the teddy bear Mario. But no one has been able to get ahold of him at all today, it's weird. Normally he tries to call me or something, but I dont know. He was at a funeral, he's probably just having a bad day and I understand that, he doesnt need all of my problems on top of that too. I just want to let him know what's going on. But Blake knows, so he can tell him...then again Blake said he might stop in and see me cause he was in the area. That's a little weird. I dont know, but Homer, Grandma, and Grandpa are all on their way up here, mom's with me now and aunt Sue is staying with the kids. But I want Mario...

the world is not perfect, yet it demands perfection ]]> =Ake92 Pneumonia http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22024289/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/22024289/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 22:18:37 PST If it's too loud you're too old

I have pneumonia and it fucking sucks.
I cant breathe, I cant sleep, I keep coughing up yellow shit, I have a pounding headache, my whole body hurts, I cant sing, I cant go to school, I cant see anyone. I CANT SEE MARIO!
It really pisses me off. I went to the dr yesterday and they did a Strep test, a flu test and x-rays and told me i had this shit. It pisses me off. So I told Mario and he couldn't come see me, but I was really missing him and I really wanted him. But today I had to go back into the dr because they wanted to see me again to make sure I wasnt getting worse. Well I had to stop at the school to drop off my camecorder for John to use for his Child Development class, and I notticed that they were in second hour, which I have with Mario, so I slipped down to Mrs. Hughes room to 'talk to her' and I got to see him. It was only for like thirty seconds, but at least I got to see him. He gave me a hug and said "You look like crap babe," I was all like thanks i love you too.

Then tonight things got really bad.

I was talking to Carly on Yahoo and we were role playing, it was like five and I felt like shit so I got off and went to lay in bed. I felt like I was on fire, my whole body hurt, and I couldnt stop coughing and crying. I texted Mario to see if there was any way he could get over to my house but he didnt have a ride home and my mom didnt want to go back out in the weather cause it was really bad out so he coulndt. But he promised me that he was coming over right after school tomorrow. I can hold out till then. I just feel horrible.

It's one sixteen in the morning and I cant sleep. It's one of the side effects this stupid thing does to me. I can only sleep for a few hours at a time, then I'm up again and I cant sleep for another hour or two. It sucks. But I'm crashing, and I can feel it, so I'm going back to bed. Night guys

the world is not perfect, yet it demands perfection ]]> =Ake92 Devious Journal Entry http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/21832460/ http://Ake92.deviantart.com/journal/21832460/ Fri, 05 Dec 2008 14:19:30 PST If it's too loud you're too old

Wad up yo?
Sorry I haven't been active latley I've been...preoccupied.
I'm warning you right now that if there's hella bad spelling mistakes its cause i'm sort of high right now.

So I've been hanging out with Mario <3 John and Blake my two brothers and Laura she's pretty tight. Well i've been smoking, and I was before I met them just not hard core or anything, whenever I could steal one from my mom without her knowing and shit. I didn't know about the whole inhailing thing so yeah...i wasn't really smoking, but Mario and Laura taught me how to do it right. guess what i found out? I'm a mother fucking light weight. I can get high off of 1 ONE! cigarette. its pathetic really.

Mario thinks its funny but I'm just like are you serious right now? they do weed when they can get it, and when I'm smoking and around them when they're doing it i'm fucking shit faced. well not really but damn!

Anyway I miss Carly. I wish she would call...nevermind shes on yahoo.

I miss mario. I cant see him tonight and I dont know when i'll get to talk to him, probably not till tomorrow. Oh well. I'm just really loanly right now. So...does anyone want to chat? I'll give you my cell or my yahoo, aim, or msn id

the world is not perfect, yet it demands perfection ]]> =Ake92