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Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.


The Five Factor Personality Test
[link] ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8714435/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8714435/ Mon, 08 May 2006 19:29:41 PDT ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8691716/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8691716/ Sat, 06 May 2006 13:42:37 PDT < Well, my male counterpart.....this sucks....those kids are so annoying>< ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8684045/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8684045/ Fri, 05 May 2006 17:12:14 PDT

First, recommend to me:
1) A movie
2) A book
3) A CD/Artist/ASong

Then ask me three questions about myself, and I will answer as truthfully as possible^^ ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8655638/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8655638/ Tue, 02 May 2006 19:04:21 PDT ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8633695/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8633695/ Sun, 30 Apr 2006 17:44:52 PDT
Saturday/Sunday: Friend Sara's [flying-carrots] birthday party. We had fun. Dont feel like going into detail here because most of the people that will get this were there....

I donno what to think about Spencer. I missed his call Samedi nuit(Saturday night for those who don't know french), and he's been calling me every noight for the last week. Nicole said that she thinks he wanted to dance with me, but since we're both sposed to be "over" each other, that would eb really awkward to ask....I donno what to think about him anymore... ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8613204/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8613204/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 15:47:03 PDT < I am kinda curious about what's gonna happen at the dance though. I'm gonna be going with Nicole, but Spencer has been calling me(and me him) everyday(and more then once a day) this week. He's been so sweet to me lately, and I'm somewhat wondering if he wanted to dance or something...I shouldn't get my hopes up though. It's just gonna be wierd. Oh well, I can always dance with Nicole!^^ ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8600639/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8600639/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 10:32:28 PDT
These last -counts- four days have been really confusing for me. On Monday, we had a soccer game, and Spencer ended up being there for the second half. I wasn't expecting him at all, so I was shocked and embarassed to see him. I did good, but not my best, and we won. After the game, my 'friend' Caitling was helping me watch my little brother, and Spencer was with his friends at one of the diamonds(baseball diomands in case Silma was wondering what I meant), and he was practicing his pitching. Well, he would keep looking at methen looking away quickly, and ailtin started filling ym heads with stuff about how hes such and ass and a loser, and it was really hurting e inside, but I kept agreeing for soem reason. Then when my brother ran into the tennis courts by the diamond, they left. Caitlin said thta he was avoiding me. I tried to ignore her, but I couldnt help but get this sinking feeling that it was true. Well, later in the game, she kept trying to get em to go abck out with my (2x) ex Travis, and I dont want to. And Travis was getting nhopeful again, and I just wnated to yell at him for it.

When I got home, Travis was tlaking to em on Yahoo, and he asked me how I really felt about Spencer, and I told him the truth, I'm still totally, absolutely head-over-heels for him. Then he got off. And I knew he was thinking about asking me out again. Well, right when I was starting to really feel like a bitch, Spencer got on and started talkign to me! We havent talked for about three weeks, andhe told me he went to the game, and i told him i saw him and that Iw ent to his last baseball game and he said he saw me and he asked if he could call me so I got affline and we talked for three hours. It was just like how we used to. I was so insanely happy. Then the next night, he called again, but Iw asnt home to get the call, and it was already after ten so i couldnt call him. Then we talked again for another hour and a half last night. Now I just ahve to see how tonight turns out.

Ive been thinking about everything that ahs happened between me and Spencer, and I realized that he might still like me. He sure as hell acts like it. And even though I dont want to get my heart broken by him again, I can say that Id definately go back with him. ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8574930/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8574930/ Mon, 24 Apr 2006 19:35:16 PDT ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8563830/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8563830/ Sun, 23 Apr 2006 18:03:36 PDT
Name: Alexi Kristine Mason
Age: 14
Birthday: June 17, 1991
Sign: Gemini
Gender: Female
Height: 5'1.5"(about 64 centimeters for silma)
Weight: not saying
Interests: For those fo you who can't read french; writing, reading, sleeping, eating,The Marauders, pretty men, werewolves, playing my bass and trumpet, singing in the shower...
Music: Anything with meaning
Other: I'm a total band geek. I'm athletic, I play soccer, and I'm gonna run xc next year. And I fucking love l'acrosse



ummm....thats not much, but ti helps ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8554109/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8554109/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 19:10:55 PDT ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8542746/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8542746/ Fri, 21 Apr 2006 15:57:06 PDT < and he said "If you're touched by the words in this song then baby u got it bad" and I was touched by the words in this song...so I must got it bad....>< ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8542710/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8542710/ Fri, 21 Apr 2006 15:53:11 PDT < ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8523650/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8523650/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 17:38:31 PDT
Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours...

1: I listen to Jessica Simpson when I go to bed
2: I love hip-hop because I can dance dirrty to it
3: I can deep-throat a popsicle to the stick
4: I've licked my dirty underwear during school
5: I get off to racing camels in french class
6: When I make out with guys, I like to bite their lips.

You've been tagged! ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8522843/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8522843/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 16:13:58 PDT <, and it describes your personality by the month you were born in, and mine describes me really well, and Spencer's is right on target(Everyone, except silma885 since he just added me^^, should know who Spencer is by now). Since ours were so accurate, I think you should see what your month says about you. (I'm June and Spencer's February if anyone wanted to know)

Ignore the "send in 5 minutes" stuff...liek i said, it was an E-Mail...


>----------JANUARY-------------------
>Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. A fighter.send this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.
>
>----------FEBRUARY--------------------
>Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. send this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.
>
>-----------------MARCH--------------------
>Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.If you send this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.
>
>------------------APRIL-------------------
>Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer evryone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. hott but has brains. If you send this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themself and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.
>
>-----------------MAY-----------------
>Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards oppisite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. If you send this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.
>
>------------JUNE-------------
>You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become oneof your closest friends, if you send this in 5 minutes.
>
>----------------JULY--------------
>Fun to be with. Secretiv... ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8502047/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8502047/ Mon, 17 Apr 2006 16:46:03 PDT < but that's beside the point. Anyway, this dream has really shaken me. It was about Spencer, and I can still feel the dream....

I woke up around 6:30, liek I do every morning. I don't really remember what i was wearing, but I know it wasn't anyhting special. I got on the bus, and I went to school, and everything seemed normal. I have second hour, Geometry, with Spencer(and also band, but that's not important). Well, they always do announcments in second hour, and I noticed that Spencer was late getting to class, and he gave me a really weird look. It was sad(like every look he gives me), but it had familiar hints of longing and of secret agendas. Well, as soon as he sat down, the anouncments started, and he got this really worried expression, like he'd done somehtign he regretted, but it was too late to take back. The announcments were as dull as ever, going over varsity sports, senior stuff, the wworks, and when they got to the names, there was a relativly small list, but at the end, they said that they wanted me at the office at the end of the hour. Of course I was confused, I never got called down to the office. Well, Geometry seemed to drag on forever, which was new for me because I'm a huge geek(I get all A's, you know the type) and I like math, so class normally goes by fast. Even though I was having fun with Evan( another all A geek. Our future Valedictorian), working on the homework, I could feel Spencer's presnce(if you wanna call it that) against my back. I can always feel him, but today his aura was especially noticable. Well, when the bell finally rang, I gathered my stuff, shoved it in my bag, and went down the Junior hall to the office and my locker. For a brief moment, I could have swore that Spencer was following me, but when I turned around, I didn't see him(and his hair makes him easy to spot), so I turned back to my way. The whole way to my locker, I could swear he was following me, and when I stopped by the office(I was alone suprisingly), I thought I had seen him again. I knew my pathetic mind was just playing tricks on me. I turned and opened the office door, and on the shelf, there was a rose with a small note by it. I dismissed this at first because I neevr got anything like flowers, and when I had asked what they ahd needed me for, the lady motioned towards the flower. I picked it up gently, greatly confused by it. Walking out the office door, I headed down the middle hallway, my hands shaking as I opened the note, I turned into the Sophmore hall(Spencer's hall) and I read the note:

Alexi,
I'm so sorry about everything. I'm sorry I lied to you, I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry about everything. I wish I could take it all back, but I know that I can't. I just want to be with you again, to hold you again. At first, I convinced myself that I was fine without you, that it wasn't a big deal and thta it didn't matter. But it was a big deal, and it will always matter. I know that this is a lot, but If you can find it in your heart, will you forgive me? I haven't told you this yet, but I think I love you, and I just wanted you to know that...
~Spencer

I was about 2/3 down the hall(Right by the point where he and his frineds hang out), and I started crying as I finished the letter. I had never felt more loved at that point. I knew I could forgive him, I could never not forgive him. And as everything was going through my head, I felt strong arms wrap around my waist from behind and hold me tightly. "I'm so sorry." was all he said, and I could feel his tears on my shoulder...


Wow, that was a really bad portration of ym dream, but its good enough...I wish it would be one of the few thta come true.... ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8491827/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8491827/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 17:25:44 PDT
"Drugs Or Me"

Stay with me
You're the one I need
You make the hardest things
Seem easy

Keep my heart
Somewhere drugs don't go
Where the sunshine slows
Always keep me close

If only you could see
The stranger next to me
You promise you promise that you're done
But i cant tell you from the drugs

Don't let go
Well dig a great big hole
Down an endless hole
We'll both go

You're so blind!
You can't save me this time
Hope comes from inside
And I feel so low tonight

If only you could see
The stranger next to me
You promise you promise that you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs

I wish you could see
This face in front of me
You're sorry you swear it you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs

(Ohhhh)
(Ohhhh)

(take me) I need your help
(so far away) To pull me up take the wheel
(take me) Out from me
(so far away) Out from me

(Take me) If only you could see (I need your help)
(So far away) The stranger next to me (To pull me up take the pain)
(Take me) You promise you promise that you're done (Out from me)
(So far away) But I can't tell you from the drugs (Out from me)

(Take me) I wish that you could see (I need your help)
(So far away) This face in front of me (To pull me up take the wheel)
(Take me) You're sorry you swear it you're done (Out from me)
(So far away) But I can't tell you from the drugs (Out from me)

Keep my heart
somewhere drugs don't go
Where the sunshine slows
always keep me close ]]> ~Alphaskar http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8467008/ http://Alphaskar.deviantart.com/journal/8467008/ Fri, 14 Apr 2006 08:14:33 PDT
I was talking to Carly the other night on the computer, and something she said made me think about Spencer. I was starting to think, and I realized that no matter what other's say, you can truely love more then one person. I'm not saying at the same time, but at different points in my life. And if Spencer isn't the right guy for me, I'm not going to mourn my lost love anymore, I'm going to pray for the day I find my new love. I'm not saying I'm gonna find some random guy and say I love him, in fact, it could take years, and for all I know, it could be Spencer(he jinxed us the first time), but I'm not going to say he is the only one for me. Sure, my wounds are still fresh, and I still hurt by what happened, but now I have a positive outlook on the whole thing... ]]> ~Alphaskar