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                <title>wondering</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 21 Sep 2009 23:52:52 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ lately I have been doing a lot of thinking.  The Custody battle was dragged out again.  This time till January.  Doubt I'll get to see my babies on Christmas or Yule.<br /><br />My lawyer says I may have a chance to get them back IF i can get a job.  So far nothing.  I put in 2 applications a week, minimum.  Nothing yet. <br /><br />I've been depressed a lot recently too. lost interest in some of my fav thing (like SWG).  I still game, the role playing helps.  It gets me out of reality for a short time.<br /><br />but I still wonder<br /><br />what if I don't get my kids back?  The in-laws have filed for custody in case I don't win.  But I'm not sure if I am ready to live in MN again.  I don't really know anyone.  I won't have my family right down the road.  I won't have my freinds down the hall.  Having everyone here helps.<br /><br />But even with everyone here I still get really depressed at times.  I keep thinking what did I do wrong?  Why am I being denied my kids?  What if I don't get them back?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>Sorry</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 28 Jul 2009 20:35:21 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ sorry, but given what I am going through I have had to take a lot of my Deviations down.  Anything in which I am topless or nude has to be taken down.<br /><br />It may be art to many of us, however the Judge for my custody battle is an old, white, conservative man who probly won't she my work as art.   The Guardian Adlium has already stated that SHE doesn't concider nudity art, and she is the balance point as to wether or not i get my kids.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Life Update for those who keep up</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 16 Jul 2009 17:35:30 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ *******EDIT********<br /><br />well I think my mom just screwed herself in the custody case.<br /><br />I go visit the kids tomorrow, and I get to confront her on her latest traffic offense.  She is a habitual offender of driving on a suspended/revoked license.  She was given fines, 90 days DL suspension, and 90 days jail time.  The jail time was knocked down to 10 days though.  She has lied to the family saying that she was offered a job out of town on the weekends and that her van broke down again.  I get to try to get the truth out of her tomorow.  If she denies the time or gets confrentational with me then I can get an emergency hearing.<br /><br /><br />***end update***<br /><br /><br /><br />well the court hearing didn't go too well.  I lost quite a bit.  Due to some bs my mom told the Guardian Adlightum (GA) I only get supervised visits,  and there is no set schedule.  GA wanted Granny to supervise, but my mom said that Granny is too old (Granny got pissed at that) so she keeps trying to find ways supervise herself.   Plain and simple she don't get along with Donna (my aunt, her sister) and she don't want the kids near her.<br /><br />Long story short on that,  I drive 1-2 hours and pay $5 every Friday so that I can play with the kids at Goochland YMCA.  It takes 1/4 tank of gas and because i am not a member I pay $5 to get in.<br /><br /><br />I have went back to my OnLine college classes.  Math sux.<br /><br />I still babysit during the day.  So far the house is just about ready 4 the kids.  I don't go back to court again till Sept.  I still cry at night, most nights.  Money is getting a little tighter.  And I don't really have an RP group anymore.  I miss RPing.  It really helped.  I would try more SWG, but it's only so fun if you play alone.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>please tell me</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 28 Jun 2009 16:01:45 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Found this and wanted to know more about my fellow watchers and what they think of me... I TAG ALL OF THEE!!! <br /><br />1. Your Name:<br />2. Age:<br />3. Single or Taken:<br />4. Favourite Film:<br />5. Favourite Song or Album:<br />6. Favourite Band/Artist:<br />7. Dirty or Clean:<br />8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:<br />9. Do we know each other outside of dA?<br />10. What's your philosophy on life?<br />11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?<br />12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?<br />13. What is your favourite memory of us?<br />14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?<br />15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:<br />16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?<br />17. Can we get together and make a cake?<br />18. Which country is your spiritual home?<br />19. What is your big weakness?<br />20. Do you think I'm a good person?<br />21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?<br />22. Describe your accent:<br />23. If you could change anything about me, would you?<br />24. What do you wear to sleep?<br />25. Trousers or skirts?<br />26. Cigarettes or alcohol?<br />27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?<br />28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>100 pics Challenge</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 28 May 2009 19:21:09 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have decided to try this as a part of Art Therapy.<br /><br />The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist. After 100 pics who wouldn't be better?<br /><br />The rules:<br /><br />1.) Create 100 pictures with each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it for it to count.<br /><br />2.) No time limit so have fun<br /><br />3.) The main picture should be digital or traditional art. For all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photo shop to create the pic.<br />- Pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the DA etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.<br /><br />4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that:<br />- You are in the challenge<br />- What you have completed<br /><br />5.) Make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic<br /><br />6.) In the comments for your art work, note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.<br /><br />7.) Now the good part. CHALLENGE YOUR FRIENDS!<br /><br /><br />THE LIST<br />---------<br />(started March 2008)<br />1. Introduction ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/001-intro-123334541">[link]</a> )<br />2. Love ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/002-Love-123335861">[link]</a> )<br />3. Light ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/003-Light-123336435">[link]</a> )<br />4. Dark ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/004-Dark-123336813">[link]</a> )<br />5. Seeking Solace (<a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/005-Seeking-Solace-123338135">[link]</a> )<br />6. Break Away ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/006-Breaking-Away-123965895">[link]</a> )<br />7. Heaven ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/007-Heaven-123966161">[link]</a> )<br />8. Innocence ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/008-Innocense-123966419">[link]</a> )<br />9. Drive (<a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/009-Drive-123966649">[link]</a> )<br />10. Breathe Again ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/010-Breathe-Again-123966878">[link]</a> )<br />11. Memory ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/011-Memory-124059434">[link]</a> )<br />12. Insanity ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/012-Insanity-124059681">[link]</a> )<br />13. Misfortune ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/013-Misfortune-124060110">[link]</a> )<br />14. Smile ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/014-Smile-124060460">[link]</a> )<br />15. Silence ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/015-Silence-124060853">[link]</a> )<br />16. Questioning ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/016-Questioning-124210890">[link]</a> )<br />17. Blood ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/017-Blood-124211213">[link]</a> )<br />18. Rainbow ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/018-rainbow-124211668">[link]</a> )<br />19. Gray ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/019-Grey-124212323">[link]</a> )<br />20. Fortitude ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/020-Fortitude-124212850">[link]</a> )<br />21. Vacation ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/021-Vacation-125947006">[link]</a> )<br />22. Mother Nature ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/022-Mother-Nature-125947435">[link]</a> )<br />23. Cat ( <a href="http://amarandeartemisiaart.deviantart.com/art/023-Cat-125948079">[link]</a> )<br />24. No Time<br />25. Trouble Lurking<br />26. Tears <br />27. Foreign <br />28. Sorrow<br />29. Happiness<br />30. Under the Rain <br />31. Flowers <br />32. Night <br />33. Expectations <br />34. Stars<br />35. Hold My Hand<br />36. Precious Treasure<br />37. Eyes <br />38. Abandoned<br />39. Dreams <br />40. Rated <br />41. Teamwork<br />42. Standing Still<br />43. Dying<br />44. Two Roads<br />45. Illusion<br />46. Family <br />47. Creation<br />48. Childhood<br />49. Stripes <br />50. Breaking the Rules <br />51. Sport<br />52. Deep in Thought<br />53. Keeping a Secret<br />54. Tower<br />55. Waiting<br />56. Danger Ahead<br />57. Sacrifice<br />58. Kick in the Head<br />59. No Way Out<br />60. Rejection<br />61. Fairy Tale <br />62. Magic <br />63. Do Not Disturb<br />64. Multitasking<br />65. Horror<br />66. Traps<br />67. Playing the Melody<br />68. Hero<br />69. Annoyance<br />70. 67%<br />71. Obsession<br />72. Mischief Managed<br />73. I Can't<br />74. Are You Challenging Me?<br />75. Mirror<br />76. Broken Pieces<br />77. Test<br />78. Drink<br />79. Starvation<br />80. Words<br />81. Pen and Paper<br />82. C... ]]></description>
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                <title>A lot has happened</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 13 May 2009 10:54:17 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, I finally have a court date set for the start of my Custody hearing, and I have a lawyer.<br /><br />I'm babysitting my 3 month old neice, who really seems attached to me.  It was sooo funny.  On mother's day  me, brother, my sister and her family, and I took my mom and Granny out to luch. Makayla (Kayla for short) fussed and fussed.  She was so tired but woiuldn't sleep.  Everybody passed her around, but she wouldn't sleep.  Then I asked to hold her, and sure enough, 5 min later she was passed out., with a smile.  My sister said my mom looked jealous and upset over it.  Both my kids sat next to me.  Everyone had a good time.<br /><br /><br />I found a Church that I am getting involved in.  I still beleive in the Goddess, and fairies, and all that good stuff, but this Church accepts that.  They say that God looks diffrent to everyone.  They are really trying to make a diffrence in the community, and the surmons always touch me.  The first one was about being the person The One Above sees you as, allowing Them to touch you and guid you so that you can be better.   Then there was one last week about being at peace with everyone and forgiving.  The preacher said that the most beautiful sunset you will ever see, is when you forgive and don't hold anything againtst anyone and when there is true peace in your heart.  That day my BF, her son, and I prayed and forgave people for the wrongs they had done.  I forgave my mom for her hurtfull words and actions, and we all forgave the man who shot my husband. (I feel i understand him now.  All this time he had been reaching out for help and no one gave it to him or even listened, until Sean.  The poor guy didn't know how to handle it, so he lashed out.)  And that every night we frogave everyone, we were greeted with a rainbow during th sunset.<br /><br /><br />I really just nervous now.  I want the best for my kids, and I hope that the best is me.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>general update for those who care</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 05 Apr 2009 19:41:07 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ the memorial was beautyfull  I'll post some pics later.  Everything has been happening so fast, ive hardly had time to breathe.<br /><br />As soon as I got back, I had to start packing and moving out of the house I was staying in.  At first the landlord said not to worry about march rent, but come march 4th, he was asking for my key and said i had 4 days to get my shit out before he tossed it all to the curb himself.  That pissed off my aunt and neighbor.  Aunt pulled in the cops to back me up over the eviction.  If he tried to touch my stuff he was gonna get locked up. then the neighbor called the city in on the houses.  Both my house and thier's got condemned on the 19th.<br /><br /><br />It's been over a month since ths shooting and neither of my kids have seen a grief counciler.  My mother (who has custody) tells me that she has it set up, but then something always comes up.  But then she has told others that the kids don't need it.  I mean come on, thier father was shot and killed.<br /><br />I've heard from my sister that my son is starting to refuse to eat dinner some nights, he is always angry with my mom, and I can't do shit about it.  I've started to file for custody, but I'm a widowed mom with no job.<br /><br />And now I'm being told that that I may not have my kids for Easter.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Widowed at 28  *Update*</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 21 Feb 2009 21:20:44 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well out of all this, I am back with my father.  My Son seems to have taken solace by "bonding" with my father.  My daughter is a bundle of questions.  I am heading up to MN (hubby's home state) for A memorial there.<br /><br />I am holding up, and everyone is even more determand to get my kids back in my custody now.  I found out that my mother has been lying to everyone about me and why i lost my kids.  The lies are so bad that my family won't tell me what was said.<br /><br />I have seen my kids Tuesday (17th).  I got them at noon.  That was the day I had to break the news to them.  I kept them till 7pm the next day.  The viewing was Wensday (18th) at 6pm.  They went to school Thursday and Friday so I didn't get to see them till Friday night at the Memorial (20th at 7pm).  I kept them up till 6pm on Saturday.  We had a candle light vigil Saturday at 4pm.  I should be getting them Sunday after Church so we can fly to MN.   We'll be there till the 26th or 27th, then i don't think I'll get to see my kids again till March 6th.<br /><br /><br />                     *****end Update*****<br /><br /><br /><br />on Feb 15 my husband was shot in cold blood in front of our neighbor's house.   He was pronounced dead in the hospital at 5 pm.  there were no events that leaded up to the shooting.  The guy who shot my love, then turned around and shot himself.<br /><br />I'm not going to be on much, I am trying to be strong for our children.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>2009 update</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 09 Jan 2009 10:59:19 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ well, so far the new year is better the 08. <br /><br />a)christmas was decent.  The BEST gift i got was when I asked the kids what they wanted.  Granted I hadn't bought what they wanted and told them.  But they said "Anything from mommy and daddy will be the best present any way."  I didn't get them until the 26th (my mom, enough said)<br /><br /><br /><br />Question:  I am Pagan and my mother is now telling my kids stuff about my religion.  I don't know what she is telling them exactly (and she won't say.  She only replies that she is telling them the truth)  My daughter is asking questions about my beliefs.  She is only 5 (almost 6)  How should I answer without making my mom look bad?  any advise on this subject would be greatly appreciated.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />b) we have finished our parenting classes and now our parenting teacher (who is also a Social Worker) will be working with us on building our court case against my mom in order to get custody of our children back.  (want info on that, note me.)<br /><br />     not sure if good or bad but on Jan 22 my mom goes to court for a driving on suspended 2nd offense.<br /><br /><br />    Both kids are actively expressing how they want to "live with mommy and daddy forever" now.<br /><br />c)i still don't have a steady job, but i am doing "odd jobs" from Craigs List to pay the bills And I have a site for selling pic sets of me and <a href="http://honebar.deviantart.com/">[link]</a> (most are nudes)<br /><br /><a href="http://images4sale.com/store/2137">[link]</a><br /><br />d) I did get a new car, 93 Infinity for $450.  sweet little car.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />And if any one wishes, all photo's are avalible as stock.  I only ask that you let me know, link back to me, and send me a link of final project so i can fav.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>meh; cry, cry;</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 02 Dec 2008 15:24:46 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ rent due we have 400 out of 600<br />it'll be 375-425 to fix my van*<br /> i'm under suspension on work for a policy i wasn't informed of. don't know when or IF i get to go back.<br /><br /><br /><br />other half is borrowing the company van cause our car died.  we got it fixed only to find it had a blown rod.  dead gone no more.  We found a van for $400.  it needed a new freeze plug,  so said the mechanic who checked it out for us.  come to find out it has a rusted,broke water [pump and rotted valve.<br /><br />the company wants to take thier van back cause no one is supposed to borrow it for more then a week at a time,  Hubby has had it for a few months now.<br /><br /><br /><br />I don't know what to do.  Any ideas?  I've started appling for a new job, but haven't heard back yet.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>big OOOOPS that turned out nice</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 17 Oct 2008 19:13:32 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ OK so here I am trying top get into the Halloween spirit.  I have this black temp hair dye, so I think cool.  I can have black hair for a month or two then go on to a new color.<br /><br />My GF and I have a Bleach night, I just got the second Bleach movie (yeah I know I'm prob behind the times, but hey I don't have much free time to catch up with)<br /><br />We use the black dye on my hair (which was bleached about 3-4 months ago).  I let it sit while we watch the movie (hoping it will take real nice to my hair and come out dark as night).  But NO it doesn't take.  I have brownish top half and the bottome half of my hair is PURPLE!!!!!!!!<br /><br /><br />My boss said he don't like it.  I need to go back black.  I told him that was what I was trying to do and he just stared at me.<br /><br />Everyone else says it looks good on me.  I plan to get some new pics soon so I can show it off.  I kinda like how it turned out, but I know I ain't gonna be able to get it again.  They don't make the dye I used anymore.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>2-3 day grind in SWG;  what a pain</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 11 Aug 2008 08:57:33 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ well I fianlly did it.  I now have my Jinzu Hilt.  Man what a pain it was.  <br /><br />I play Star Wars Galaxies, my main toon is almost a year old now.  She is a Jedi, Dark tree for those who want to know.  I don't PvP with her.  I tend to concentrate on the Heroic Encounters, Collection, and other PvE stuff.  However in order to get my 5th Gen saber collection I needed the Jinzu hilt.  In order to get the Jinzu, you have to kill the Emperor's Hand.  She is a level 100 Gold Elite.  (I'm max player level 90).  The prob is the fact that she only spawns in a PvP zone ever 5 hours. Kill her, and you have to wait 5 hours before she comes back.<br /><br /> Me, my in game wife (yes my Jedi is a Lesbian), and my real life Husband (in game Uncle) are Imperial.  We tried Rebel, but never got any help with the missions.  We made new freinds who were Imp, so we switch factions.<br /><br />Now I am not set up for PvP.  To put it simple, I suck at it.  We got a group together and went to her spawn point.  We managed to fight the few Rebels that where there back(they attacked us first).  Then they got back up.  We tried to explain our situation, and asked for a Truce.  The reply was: They attacked us then camped out at the spawn point till the Hand showed up, and killed her.  They did that from Friday night, until early Mon morning. <br /><br />They killed us as soon as we stepped in the zone, and any time the Hand did spawn, they killed her before we could get there.  There was 1-3 main guys and 2-3 others who assisted them.<br /><br />Finally at 8:30 pm Sat night (my 9th attempt, in a row) Some of the "allies" of these 3 main assholes decided the thier "buddies" were wrong.  They didn't realize what these assholes where doing till they asked us why we kept coming out there.  At 1:30 am Monday morning we gathered a group,  Half Imperial, Half Rebel.  Everyone agreed to a truce inorder to help me.  You can't hurt group members, even if they are active duty and opossing faction.  She spawned and we, as a group, Kicked her ass.  There was even a Rebel spy who wasn't in our group assisting, even though he was taking damage from oor group Imperials who did area affect damage.<br /><br /><br />Thanx to everyone's help, I know have the item I needed.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I have a serious Debate.  Advice wanted</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 27 May 2008 21:20:05 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ OK here is the basics:  <br /><br />My mother's divorce was finialized the same year I got married.  She had been married for 14 years.  He wanted more kids, she was "fixed" and couldn't have them.<br /><br />I had my son about a year later.  My husband was in Japan for most of the pregnancy and the birth.  I lived with my mom during that time.<br /><br />When he got back to the states we moved into his dececed grandparents house.  I was PG with my daughter.  We lived happily/comfortably.<br /><br />The house was full of the grandparents belongings as well as mine and my hubby's.  His mother refused to let us move anything out.  I'll admitt he place was a mess and the house needed to be fixed up bad.  But of course to do anything we had to show proof of ownership or permission (which we didn't have)<br /><br /><br />Well long and short of that,  Social Services came into the picture and due to a bunch of BS my mom ended up getting full custody (want more info on that, note me.)<br /><br />Hubby and I lived with my mom for a year inorder to be close to the kids, she kicked us out.  We found an apt to rent with a freind.  After a few months I lost my job and our friend bailed on us (moved out and stuck us with the bill)  I got a new job and we started to catch back up. <br /><br />Come time for my son to start kindergarden, my mom's schedule changed.  She couldn't get him on the bus, thus I was told as the mom, it was my duty.  I gave up my job so that I could go over to my mom's house, get my son on the school bus and watch my daughter so that my mom could get some sleep.<br /><br />Without my pay check, paying bills got real difficult.  My mom had the bright idea, "why don't we all rent a large house together?"  Well I fell for the trap, hubby and I got ourselves evicted from our apt and signed a lease with my mom.<br /><br /><br />After a shit load of scemes, (and hurtfull words) from my mom, my hubby and I moved out.  We only get to see the kids from Friday at 4 pm till Saturday between 7-9 pm.  (and usually every other weekend)<br /><br />My mom picks the kids up from my house Saturday nights JUST so she can take them to Church every Sunday.<br /><br />Here is my question  What is more important,  Taking the kids to Church every Sunday, or letting them have more time with thier parents?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I thank you all for your advise.  You all seem to be "on my side" for this.  I am trying to work things out with my mom now.  I hope that I may be able to get the kids more without interfering with thier going to Church now that summer is coming.  <br /><br />I myself am Wiccan/Neo-Pagan and don't go to church.  I get rather uncomfortable in them.<br /><br />I did get them for the whole Memorial Day weekend,  Friday through Monday afternoon.<br /><br />And again I thank you for your support.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>SCAMMED!!!!!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 05 Apr 2008 20:30:45 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My other half and I applied with one of those Loan Finders like Lending Tree, and they hooked us up with a scam.<br /><br /><br />NEVER trust  BSM Financial LTD. <br /><br />they are a scam, major.  BSM Financial is a morgage company went "out of business", as in they just don't accept any new customers.<br /><br />BSM Financial LTD is using the legit company's logo and former office address to run thier scam.  They deal with personal loan, student loan, auto loans, ext....<br /><br />They will tell you they can get you a loan from Canada and instead of having collateral, you pay a lender's insurance.  They take that money and give you the run around. <br /><br />My hubby and I were rather persistant in getting our loan, calling 2-4 times a day asking for a tracking number when they said the wire transfer wouldn't go through.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I'm Baaaccckkkk</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 30 Mar 2008 11:10:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ OK, life has been nothing but a rollar caoster.   I am now in a new house, hubby and I rent it by ourselves.  We get the kds on the weekends. <br /><br />My on-line time has been VERY limited.  I will not go into any details, unless someone askes, but I no longer have a mother.  She has more or less disowned me. She is a habitual liar and I am sick of it.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>A Loss</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 28 Jun 2007 07:33:06 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well I was gone for a week.  My In-Laws wanted to take the kids to Disney World, I got sent along to make sure no one ran off with the kids, concidering my mother-in-law wants custody of them.    We all had fun, and I have several pics to submit.<br />
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But while I was gone my familiar, Mischief, lost one of her kittens.  This is her first, and only, litter.  (we planned to get her fixed)  She had 3, Cloak (who was all black exept for his paws, a small spot on his belly, and a cute spot around his nose) Tabby, (who has the tabby stripes and no white at all) and Spitter (who is white with grey patches).  Cloak died while I was gone.  Fleas got to bacd for her to take.  (we have 3 dogs and 6 cats other then Mischief and her kitens who go in and out)  Then this morning Tabby had some how gotten outside.  The dogs found her and I guess they tried to play with her.  In stead they ended up breaking her neck.  Mischief was right there defending her young.  She attacked both dogs only to be flung away.  I think she broke her back at some point.<br />
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Right now she is in my room breathing hard.  She can't seem to use her rear legs and won't drink the milk I give her.    When I leave the room she uses her front legs to pull herself towards the door.  I think she is tring to get to me when I leave the room.  I don't know if she will make it, but I hope so.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>trouble again</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 11 Jun 2007 19:59:08 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ OK so I finally think the worst is over.  I'm in college, we have a dependable car, we are makeing all our bills (just barely) , I get to spend Saturdays with a good freind, I can see the light at the end of the tunnle.  And it's close enough to touch.  We reach out and suddenly it's miles away again.<br />
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We have everything set, a budget planned, everything in it's place (exept a few back bills, but I was talking with them and letting them know that we would be able to begin paying them soon, in Aug).  But no some upsart company want's their money now, and they want more then I had said we could/wopuld pay.  Next thing we know, Hubby gets his pay garnished.  Right now he makes $290-$310 a week.  $38.42 goes to bad child support, $50 goes to paying off his ticket loan(which his work was kind enough to give us so we could take care of it) and now $70.62 (all of this is per week now)  which leaves us with about $150 a week to live on.  Now our rent is $100 per week, gas for the car is $35-40 a week.  Phone is $65 a month and internet is $10 a month (both needed for me to attend my college, concidering my class is at 8 PM.  Most libraries are closed arounf here at that time.)<br />
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I really don't know what to do.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>butterflies in the stomach</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 05 May 2007 07:46:00 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am soooo nervouse.  I start on-line colege this month.  My Counciler/new freind is helping me get some extra financial aid so I can get high speed and upgrade my computer.   <br />
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but other then that things are the normal roller coster that is my life.  After 2 weeks of "hurry up and waiting" we finally got our new used car.  But DMV wouldn't exept check card or credit card over the phone, so mother in law said she would re-emberse use the cost of the registration.  But that money was for our groeceries this week, with a little extra so we could take the kids to the park.  But until the money gets here, we are SOL, and I'm stuck at home (still)  <br />
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I love this place, 900 acers of woods and fields, but when you have no transportation, it seems like a prison with no bars.  I mean I can't go any where, exept here.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Please Read (not bad news this time)</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 16 Mar 2007 10:34:52 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ THE FINAL<br />
INSPECTION <br />
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<br />
The Marine stood and faced God,<br />
<br />
Which must always come to pass.<br />
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He hoped his shoes were shining,<br />
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Just as brightly as his brass. <br />
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"Step forward now, Marine,<br />
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How shall I deal with you?<br />
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Have you always turned the other cheek?<br />
<br />
To My Church have you been true?" <br />
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<br />
The soldier squared his shoulders and said,<br />
<br />
"No, Lord, I guess I ain't.<br />
<br />
Because those of us who carry guns,<br />
<br />
Can't always be a saint. <br />
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<br />
I've had to work most Sundays,<br />
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And at times my talk was tough.<br />
<br />
And sometimes I've been violent,<br />
<br />
Because the world is awfully rough. <br />
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<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
But, I never took a penny,<br />
<br />
That wasn't mine to keep...<br />
<br />
Though I worked a lot of overtime,<br />
<br />
When the bills got just too steep. <br />
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<br />
And I never passed a cry for help,<br />
<br />
Though at times I shook with fear.<br />
<br />
And sometimes, God, forgive me,<br />
<br />
I've wept unmanly tears. <br />
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<br />
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<br />
I know I don't deserve a place,<br />
<br />
Among the people here.<br />
<br />
They never wanted me around,<br />
<br />
Except to calm their fears. <br />
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If you've a place for me here, Lord,<br />
<br />
It needn't be so grand.<br />
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I never expected or had too much,<br />
<br />
But if you don't, I'll understand. <br />
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<br />
There was a silence all around the throne,<br />
<br />
Where the saints had often trod.<br />
<br />
As the Marine waited quietly,<br />
<br />
For the judgment of his God. <br />
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"Step forward now, you Marine,<br />
<br />
You've borne your burdens well.<br />
<br />
Walk peacefully on Heaven's streets,<br />
<br />
You've done your time in Hell." <br />
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~Author Unknown~<br />
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It's the Soldier, not the reporter <br />
Who has given us the freedom of the press.<br />
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It's the Soldier, not the poet, <br />
Who has given us the freedom of speech.<br />
<br />
It's the Soldier, not the politicians <br />
That ensures our right to Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness.<br />
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It's the Soldier who salutes the flag, <br />
Who serves beneath the flag, <br />
And whose coffin is draped by the flag.<br />
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If you care to offer the smallest token of recognition and appreciation for the Military, <br />
Please pass this on and pray for our men and women <br />
Who have served and are currently serving our country <br />
And pray for those who have given the ultimate sacrifice for freedom. <br />
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This is something my Granny sent me.  I just want to share this with those I concider freinds, even though we may not chat as much as most freinds do.  Times are rough and it's things like this that get me through.  I look at how bad things are, then I look at how much the Lord and Lady blessed me with.  Even though life is Hell most of the time, I have alot to be thankful for.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Weeeeeee</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 13 Mar 2007 10:09:07 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ due to the hussle and bussle on the past few months I wasn't able to keep up with my Southern Charms page.  It's now off line.  I have to wait 6 months before I can reapply.  I am seriously thinking about finding a new site, but I'm not really sure where to look.  <br />
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Looking back, I had over 2 gigs worth of pics on that site.  My page is down, so I can send them where ever now.  I also have 3 new sets that never made it.<br />
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Even though I don't have a site to send all these pics to (typicly 100 per set, and I don't want to send in that many here) I'm still gonna take one set every Sunday.  It's a nice way to spend time with my hubby away from the kids.  My mom takes them to church for most of the day.<br />
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If I find a new site, I will let everyone know as son as it goes up.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>illness hits, and it's a crit hit</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 05 Mar 2007 10:37:57 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ you'll have to forgive me if I'm a space case.  a month or 2 ago my Pa Pa (grandpa) was Dx with Hodgekins disease.  They found 7 masses in his body.  He is dying fast.  My 3 (2 weeks away from 4)yrld daughter is REAL close to him.  I am close to him.  The family is taking it hard.  Due to my own illness (mental type)  When something like this happens, I tend to retreat into my own world and block out reality, but my maturnal insticts aren't letting me right now.  <br />
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Well, I haven't been in the mood to do this till now.  He was buried Feb 16,  on my Daughter's birthday.  We laid him to rest on the most inportant day of the person most important to him.  It wasn't planned, but when my Granny was setting everything up, the day's importance slipped her mind.  She didn't realize what the day was.  We haven't told Kandi (my daughter) that her Pa Pa was buried on her birthday, we plan on telling her when she gets older.<br />
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I am surprised.  She is taking this all so well.  When asked she will smile and say "Pa Pa has his wings and is in Heaven now."  she speaks to him in her prayers.  My son isn't affected.  Though he has become a bit harder to handle due to the influance of school.   I have freinds helping me through all this, so I'll be fine.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Back!!!  Finally</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 22 Dec 2006 11:06:54 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ OK here's the word.  Begining of Sept I had to quit my job.  No transprotation to get there.  I did give a 2 week notice so by mid Sept, no job, no pay.  Fri of 1st week of Sept we lost electricity.  I moved in with my mom.  On the 15th, we went to court and got evicted.  Lived with mom in a insect house. (the thing was a poorly built, no insulation, old country house.  I think it used to be a barn or something.  And it was infested with bugs of all kinds)<br />
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End of Oct we found the perfect home.  (where I am now)  900 acers with 3 houses (standing, not sure how many fallen)  Rent is 600 a month (yes I still live with mom, BUT I live with my kids and husband as well)  <br />
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I got dial up (think in the begining of Nov.) but I had lost my password to DA and the email account I hve it under was killed.  The AOL account was my mom's and she dropped AOL a few months ago.<br />
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<br />
But I am back, And I'll be submitting new stuff soon.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>and the rain comes down</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 01 Sep 2006 23:18:52 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Finally had the last straw with the free loaders living with me.  All I ask is for them to do some pimple chores, clean the bathroom, do the dishes and keep thier room clean,   We go a whole month of them doing nothing.  I have a rough day.  wekk for that I'll start at the beginning.<br />
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We are far enough behind on our bills that I decided it's time to go for help.  My mom is getting a new place come the end of Oct, but we have court on the 15 of this month.  I expect an evicyion out of it. so I'm planning for the worse.  All this week and last I've been packing.  Originally we had given the "couple" living with us till the end of Aug to find a new place to live.  They came up with 2 options, both fell through, so we extended there "to be out date? till the 15.  Figuring, we move, they move at the same time. <br />
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well actually, I didn't want to through them out if they didn't have a place to go.   Welll all and good, but the whole month of Aug, niehter of them do thier chores.  Instead they pile up till I do them.<br />
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My son started school on Ayg 28,  my mom doesn't get off till 7 AM on Thurs and Fri, so she needs me there to get him up and on the bus.  This was my first weej doing.  I came home Fri afternoon, and the apt hadn't been touched.  Everything was as I left it Wed aftrenoon.  There was moldy food in the sink, dirty water (that I had ran to let the dished soak in) still in the sink.  None of the clean dishes had been put away.  The dinners I had cooked were still in the fridge (untouched), the clothes I had in the dryer were on the floor on my room (instead of the empty clothes basket I had next to the dryer) and everybody was either watching TV or playing a game on the computer.  As soonas I startted to say something, they all went to the room they are sleeping in (technically it's my son's room when he is here) and shut the door.  I yell at everyone through the door.<br />
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They all ended up going the Gaming Store for the night  (my hubby has a game he goes to every other Fri night and they just went with)  Once the get back, everyone (including hubby) is pissed at me.<br />
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Not to mention the fact that since the tropical depression hit, I couldn't get to work, so work is pissed at me too.<br />
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I don't expect much from this, but I just had to write it out. ]]></description>
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                <title>a favor</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 14 Jul 2006 22:39:23 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I know this may be a bit much to ask.  first I'll start with stateing the reason.<br />
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I didn't get the full time position.  The lady came back and wanted to continue working at the same store.  My hours have been knocked down.  It went down to 30 for a week or 2, then 20 for a week, now I'm at 2 days a week, as in 12-16 hours a week.<br />
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whats worse, this past Sun, July 8th.  I was in a car accident.  My hubby and I had turned around to yell at the kids to fix thier seatbelts.  He turned around just in time to miss the light turnning red.  Needless to say we ran it and T boned a Chevy Truck, with our Dodge Dakota.<br />
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We had no insurance, no state inspection, bad breaks.  4 tickets came out of the whole mess.  Our truck is in the shop. It'll take between $2000 and $3000 to fix it.  <br />
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The really bad part is that last week I only had a 6 hour week and during the accident I pulled all 3 ligiments in my ankle.  I am one crutches and the doc said I can't go back to work till the 17.  That'll be 2 weeks with no pay.<br />
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All I'm asking is if some of you could help me advertise my site.  I update 1-3 times a week and If anyone has odd requests, as long as I'm able to, I fill them.  The site is <a href="http://www.southern-charms4.com/olathmirshann/main.htm.">[link]</a>  I've tried Banner Exchanges.<br />
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I know alot of you can't really help, due to valid reasons.  too young, in a similar boat, ect. but if you know of anyone who may be able too.....<br />
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Right now I'm looking for a new job, and I'm in a court battle to get custody of my kids.  I rely on my site for extra cash for bills.   I just can't seem to get members, and the members I get cancel after a few weeks.<br />
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Well, my work is taking up a collection for me, but I still won't be getting a paycheck for the next 2 weeks.  No hours, no pay.  No work without Doc's note saying I can go back.  This week's check is a whopping $40. (twirls finger beside head).  My rent has temporarily got knocked down to $150 a week though, and all late payments have stopped.  there is a little relief.  But still not sure how we gonna pay the tickets (4 of them).  We don't even know how much they are.<br />
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Oh well, when life hands you lemons, make a margarita,  (I got about 50 made now, any one want one?) ]]></description>
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                <title>The light at the end of the tunnel!!!!!!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 05 Apr 2006 17:38:36 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ .  The Dark is generous.  It's first gift is concealment: our true faces lie in the dark beneath our skins, our true hearts remain shadowed deeper still.   But the greatest concealment lies not in protecting our secret truths, but in hiding from us the truths of others.  The Dark protects us from what we dare not know.  Its' second gift is comforting illusion: the ease of gentle dreams in night's embrace, the beauty that imagination brings to what would repel in the day's harsh light.  But the greatest of it's comforts is the illusion that the dark is temporary: that every night brings a new day.  Because it is the day that is temporary.  Day is the illusion.  It's third gift is the light itself: as days are defined by the nights that divide them, as the stars are defined by the infinite black through which they wheel, the dark embraces the light, and brings it forth from the center of it's own self,  With each victory of the light, it is the dark that wins.<br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/sleepy.gif" alt="Tired" title="Tired" /> exhausted<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Crush (first mix)  by Incubuss Succubus<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: none, no time<br /><strong>Watching</strong>: She Ra eps off my comp<br /><br />well I have to start with the bad, because it leads to the good.  over the weekend the scan manager of the store i work at had a heart attack.  she went in for surgery today, but that puts her out of work for a while.  so guess who gets to take her place.   ME!!!!!!!!!  I have been training with her for the past month or so.  I have wanted this position soooooo badly.  I hate getting it under these cercumstances and i know it's temporary (for now).  Some people are saying that she may not come back to work.  I don'r know what to do about that.  I mean I want her to get better and all, but i want her job.<br />
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The word on the grapevine is that if she doesn't come back, the position is mine.  (OMG the Miller delivery guy is soooooo hot too.  I love it when he has to bend over to point out the cases he's bringing in. [swoons] :wink: )  <br />
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As it stands, I'm part time (officially, on the paper work) but I'm getting full time hours.  That will soooooo help with my bills.<br />
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PS.  I got a NEW camera.  JVC digital, 20GB hard disk drive vid cam.  It's rent to own.<br /><br />May the Goddess watch over her children. ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>New Year, New me.</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 02 Jan 2006 20:28:17 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I decided to start off the New Years with a new look.  I have bleached my hair as well as cut it.  I shall have pics up soon, I hope.  I am now a blonde.  They say blondes have more fun, well lets see. ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>YES</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 21 Dec 2005 20:35:10 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have finally made it.  I am now a Souther Charm.  I am In page 4,  Name is Olath Mirshann.  I hope some of you come and check it out.  I probably won't be submitting a lot of nude any more, unless it is for a request.<br />
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<a href="http://www.southern-charms4.com/olathmirshann/main.htm">[link]</a> ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>A New Hope</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 07 Nov 2005 18:48:48 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ *ducks the Blaster fire*<br />
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I have a part time job now.  I'll be working with my Aunt and Grandpa.  It's a low pay job, but it will see us through.  I thank all of you who have supported me through all my troubles.  I have a Southern Charms page coming up soon.  As soon as it's up. I'll let everyone know.  I'm iffy on this job for a few reasons. <br />
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1)  My aunt got it for me ( a few white lies where told in doing so,  by her, NOT me)<br />
2)  They don't like family working together in the same store,  (favorites could come to play if a family member is in your Chain of Command) and I have two family members working in the store.<br />
3)  My hubby worked there (dif store though) and they didn't really like him too much.<br />
4)  It's in the Southside,  not exactly a nice neighborhood.<br />
5)  I'll be relying on others for transportation for now.  (it's a good 30 min drive)<br />
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<br />
But who am I to look a gift horse in the mouth.  It's a paying job.  We should be able to catch up in a few months, possibly sooner if my Southern Charms page takes off well.<br />
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Our ex room mate (guy who moved out) decided to finally tell us he was moving the day he started moving his stuff.  Then told us the night before rent was due, that he didn't have his $200 for rent.  It'll take $345 to get our gas cut back on, (which means no heat, hot water, or stove till it's paid), our phone is about to be disconnected ($200 bill), and we own about $200 back bill for the electric.  All of hubby's pay goes to this months rent, gas for the truck, and late fees for this months rent.  we are still drowning, but we have<br />
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A     New     Hope. ]]></description>
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                <title>down for the count.</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 28 Oct 2005 01:08:56 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ For a while things were looking up, unfortunately they fell through and we are even deeper now then before.  I have 2 weeks to make $200 -$300.  I have talked with the art schools in the area, they don't need any modles at this moment.  I have a job lined up, but I won't be able to start till Nov 10, (the store doesn't open till then).    I'm up for any suggestions.  Once I start in Nov. we'll be fine, but it's getting there that will be problem.<br />
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<br />
Well I have a freind who is trying to raise funds for me now.  She's taking up collections at her work (my former employer) and school.  She offered to, and I'm not in any condition to turn her down.  Looking at a possible job as an escort, tried the local "Gentlemens Clubs" and other similar places, with no luck.  Fingures are crossed, and I pray every night to the one above.  If it were just me, I'd have no problems living out of a vehicle, but I have others to think about.  I need to find a way to provide a stable life to get me kids back.  They miss me and want to come live with me again.  They are the whole reason I want to get a job.  Then there is my husband,  I suffer silently so he don't have too.  At times I'll go hungry so he can eat.  I don't mind the hard times, if it was just me.  But it's not.  I know this is my punishment for something,  I only wish I didn't have to share it with the ones I love. ]]></description>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 17 Oct 2005 22:10:15 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ FIVE LESSONS TO MAKE YOU THINK ABOUT THE WAY WE TREAT PEOPLE<br />
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First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady<br />
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During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"<br />
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Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade.<br />
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"Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello".<br />
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I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.<br />
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Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain<br />
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One night, at 11.30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance and put her into a taxicab. She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him.<br />
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Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached.. It read: "Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away. God bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."<br />
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Sincerely,<br />
Mrs. Nat King Cole.<br />
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Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve<br />
<br />
In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10 -year-old boy entered a hotel<br />
coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him<br />
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"How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked.<br />
<br />
"Fifty cents," replied the waitress. The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it.<br />
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"Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired. By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient.<br />
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"Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied. The little boy again counted his coins.<br />
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"I'll have the plain ice cream," he said. The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left.<br />
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When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. there, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were two nickels and five pennies.. You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.<br />
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Fourth Important Lesson - The obstacle in Our Path<br />
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In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.<br />
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Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand!<br />
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Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.<br />
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Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts<br />
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Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister.<br />
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I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he... ]]></description>
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                <title>The question on most of your minds.</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 23 Sep 2005 23:49:12 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Questions:<br />
1. I'll respond with something random about you.<br />
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.<br />
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.<br />
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.<br />
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.<br />
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.<br />
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.<br />
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written. <br />
  Answers:<br />
1) You arnt shy about yourself at all ^_^<br />
2) My december - Linkin Park<br />
3) Graaaape, cuz its...Grapey XDD<br />
4) Life is a beatch.<br />
5) Seeing how confident your gallery is<br />
6) A Sparrow. It can defend itself well, and it dosnt let many people get close<br />
7) Where does all your confidence come from?<br />
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Now my answer to 7:<br />
1) I am a Leo, pide is my middle name.<br />
2) 8 years ago ( the begining of my Senior year)  I made up my mind to live for my self and not give a flying monkey to what everyone else thought.<br />
3) I have earned a Title very few can ever have.  I am former USMC. The Best of the Best they are called, and that is the men.  We women go through the exact same training as the men, which means we need to be better then them to make it.  My point, I am one of the BEST of the Best of the Best.<br />
4)All these pics of me are taken after both my pregnancies.  I feel my body looks pretty d@mn good for haveing 2 kids.<br />
5) I also told the USMC to kiss my lily white arse, and took a SGT Major down, getting him forcefully retired in the process (religous procecution of his part.  Wicca will not be tolerated in his Marine Corpes.  Wrong thing to say to me.) ]]></description>
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                <title>Am I being overcritical?</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 22 Sep 2005 09:49:38 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have done 3 dif sets so far and all of them look like shit to me.  I stated one set in the woods, got 28 done, then people started to come and I had to stop.  Yet even still, every leave and plant seemed to reflect the light and mess up the pics.  I started a second set on some rocks at Pony Paster.  I have 24 digital and about 25 on a 35 mil.  I had 2 dif photagraphers working with me on it.  I hate the didgi pics,  the lighting is all messed up and the angles are shitty, as are the poses.  I'm waiting to see how the 35 mil turned out,  they are being developed today, so I should have by tomorrow.   As for the 3rd set,  i was going for something new.  I'm not sure exactly what to call the theme.  I look like a demoness or succubi.  I hate my expression on most of them.  Again I was working with 2 photographers.  The 35 mil didn't turn out.  not enough light for them.  One of the photographers decided to play some music to relax me (I was a little tense, nerves and all with the 2 sets i rejected already)  She played things like Jeff Foxworthy and "Dirty Sleigh Bells" and what not.  So as a result I was laughing in most of the pics.  I look soooo drunk.  not to mention the lighting is way off.  Another problem I am running into is that I'm now critiziing my body.  I know I look good fro having 2 kids, but still, my gut looks awful in the pics.  not to mention i can't seem to get a decent ass shot.<br />
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I still fully plan to go through with this, I just can't seem to capture the right set of pics to send in.  Both my photographers are saying I am being over critical, and that I am my harshest judge. ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>Attention to All</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 07 Sep 2005 12:25:53 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I know have stock photos.  My only limitation is that I get credit for the original.  You can kill me, fuck me up, behead me, dismember me, make me completely unrecognizeable,  I don't give a shit.  Just as long as I get what credit is due to me. ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>this must be said</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 12 Aug 2005 23:42:26 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am slightly annoyed tonight.  Here I am minding my own business in my Gaming Forum making my posts for the night, when out of the blue, I get an IM from someone I don't know.  Being the curiouse kitten I am, I opened it.  Someone is asking me about my name.  I'm thinking that they mean my AIM name so I respond in kind.  Turns out it was some critic who doesn't like my stuff here.  If you want to down me for my art, please do so here at Deviant.  I had no idea what the person ment, till my art was brought up.  Why IM someone just to down thier tastes?  Not to mention the person downed DA Photagraphers as a whole.  I mean the person tried to tell me that photo's are not art and they have nothing to do with art.  What ever. ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>My sexual Colors</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 03 Aug 2005 08:21:23 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Red:<br />
People who like red tend to be tigers in the sack. They are easily aroused and enjoy sex in every way imaginable. Once the sexual spark is ignited, it may take hours to extinguish. When two reds get together, the ensuing erotica could make Lady Chatterly blush. Lovers of red tend to be aggressors and weaker colors should be aware.<br />
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Black:<br />
Black color preferences point to black sex (not necessarily meaning black partners). These people are the misfits of the sex world and seek out each other in kinship. They tend to prefer perverted sex and are usually masochistic or sadistic in nature. They are moody people and often perform at their peak when under stress or during unhappy times. Police psychiatrists claim that sex offenders prefer the color black. And it is no coincidence that the uniform of mobsters and teenage gangs is black attire.<br />
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<a href="http://www.romantic-lyrics.com/lovetest3.shtml#red">[link]</a><br />
has the results if you want yours.  I really hate:<br />
White:<br />
If a person is infatuated with white, sex often seems filthy. These people are puritanical in nature. French kissing is obscene and to make love in the daylight is unheard of. Women who love white will undress beneath the covers. Men will shower before and after the sex act. These people still use pet names for their genitals.<br />
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but go fig. ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>Vith Dos, Vith Mina,</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 03 Aug 2005 04:18:19 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yes, I know none of you probably know what that means.  I am not saying it to any of you, but to everyone else.  I decided to say this due to the responce I received.  I plan to be submitting a lot more deviations.  I only wish to say that I am happy to be apart of this community.    Blessed be to all.  and may your muse never leave your side. ]]></description>
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                <title>List</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 25 Jul 2005 15:20:20 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So far I have a Angelic Fairy set, Cat #2 coming and a few more I'll be working on this week.  No names yet.<br />
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I plan to do a kitchen set, maid set, bondage set, a few sets with swords, looking at finding a place to do a few outside sets (one will be in a pick up truck bed) <br />
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Then I have to decide if I want the new After Hours set to be color, or black & white.  I'm not sure yet.  <br />
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Any Ideas would be greatly appriciated.<br />
<br />
                          Thanx<br />
                          <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/wink.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";)" title=";) (Wink)" /> ]]></description>
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                <title>What is Erotic Art?</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 20 Jun 2005 23:19:20 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ WHAT IS EROTIC ART? The Greek root "Eros" refers to the god of love, particularly sexual love. Erotic art tends to produce sexual feelings or thoughts, often with images of aroused genitalia. The value, meanings and effects of erotic art reside in the mind and senses of the beholder. <br />
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Likewise pornography. The Greek root "pornographos" refers to the "writing of prostitutes." Pornography often depicts explicit sex acts and, like erotic art, can arouse sexual feelings or thoughts. <br />
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Ultimately, it is difficult to differentiate between the two. Erotica and pornography are extremely subjective and personal concepts. Since time immemorial, established institutions have succeeded in controlling a society's beliefs and actions, sometimes for the better, sometimes not. The term "pornography" with all its negative connotations comes from that urge to control. And guilt is its handmaid. <br />
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erotic art is direct, often exciting, usually controversial, and always unabashedly honest. <br />
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Hey It's ME.<br />
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<a href="http://www.metroactive.com/papers/sfmetro/08.96/erotic-art-96-8.html">[link]</a><br />
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I look up Erotic Art and find sites like this, <a href="http://www.pretty-nudes.com/">[link]</a> .  Now Deviant advertises for Blue Blood and SuicideGirls.  Two sites I love.  Yes my Goth set is a little crude, but it was also a request.  I'm not truely happy with the way they turned out, but some one wanted to see them up.  So up they go.  I have more to the set,  but they can't be placed up.<br />
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And BTW, to all of you who comment,  Thanx for giving me what I want.  Attention, just like a young child who acts up.  Possative attention is always nice, but negative works as well.  I love makeing waves and getting a rise out of people.  I am soooo UnPoliticaly Correct. ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>What is Art?</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 20 Jun 2005 00:37:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Is it just me, or are some of you just downing me for no real reson.  What is art? art is a universal language, art is an opportunity, art is as old as people, art is a way that people express themselves, art is a way to connect imagination and materials, art adds new dimensions to our world, art invites us to think in new ways, art gives hope and opens possibilities, art can lift us above the ordinary, art has power to open windows on the world.  <a href="http://www.csulb.edu/~jvancamp/361r14.html">[link]</a>  I would love for some of you to read this.  And please remember that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.   I appreciate critizism, as long as it it constructive.  If you view my page, then something of mine has caught your eye.  If it is something you don't like, then why investigate it? Or even look at it to begin with, much less take the time to comment on it?  To me, it seems hypocritical.  It may not be art to you, but that doesn't mean it isn't art at all.  Art: noun: the products of human creativity. ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>Meaning of my Devaint Name</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 25 May 2005 01:11:14 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I no longer hide in the broom closet,  so I can say all this with pride.  I'm  not a once-born christian, and will  never be one again.  I can still  remember Her eyes.  So deep, so  peircing.  They were a deep emerald in  color, a nice contrast to her ivory  skin.  Soft pieces of jade colored  cloth wrapped willowy around her.  So  peaceful, so beautiful.  I knew it was  Her.  It had to be.  Her touch was  warm, yet icy cold, velevtly soft, yet  rough as bark.  Her hair was a soft  aubern, a beautiful reddish/brown.<br />
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This all happened at a time when I was  unsure of what I believed.  I had  already turned away from christianity.   They were to hypocritical and "you're a  woman thus you carry the first sin of  Eve.  You must repent or go to Hell."   and all that shit.  My period is not a  curse, it is a blessing.  I bleed for 5  days and don't die.  Besides I can feel  my energy rise around that time anyway.   I had just learned of wicca and  similar religions, in fact I was  studing them at the time.<br />
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    I had drunk at least a gallon of  water that day, due to the fact that I  knew we had a 10 mile run planned for  that day.  I don't know how far I got.   All I remember (even to this day) is  running and hearing my Sgt. yelling at  me to pick up the pace.  My classmates  were leaving me behind.  Fuck them, I  thought.  After my classmates were out  of my view, I began to get tunnel  vision.  All I could see was the path I  was running on, and little soft lights  along the side.  The next thing I knew,  I was in the back of a truck struggling  to breath.  (pardon the refererence  here but,) It felt like someone was  Force Gripping my me.  I could not  breath to save my life. (which I was  trying to do.)  Well needless to say I  blacked out again.  This time I came  too in the back of an ambulance.   Everything was fuzzy, blurry, except  Her.<br />
    I heard the one guy over me ask  "who much longer till we get there?"  I  couldn't hear the responce, but then I  heard the first guy "we're loosing her.   We'll never make it in time"<br />
That's when She touched me.  I faded  out, I think.  All I could see was Her.   She whispered to me, "not yet, my  hunter."  Her voice sounded like the  wind. She faded into blackness.  Then I  opened my eyes and found myself being  rushed into an ER room.  They placed me  on the table, just as the doctor came  in.  I sat up to greet him.  I still  couldn't breath at this time.  When I  opened my mouth to try to gasp, I  spewed on him.  He was at least 3 feet  away too.  After that I could breath  normally. no problems whats so ever.   My belief in Her was comfimed that day.   I knew She was no angel, She had no  wings nor halo, but She smelled of  Mother Earth and flowers in bloom.  Not  to mention she glowed like the moon and  had the Trple Moon symbol on her chest.   I also remeber all the little fairies  around her.  Later that night, I  meditated, and the truth came to me.   She was the Goddess and I had recieved  Her blessing.<br />
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Amarande means immortal in Greek and  Artemisiaart is greek for Hunter  Belonging to Artemis (also know as  Diana)  What I hunt veries.  Sometimes  it's demons, sometimes it's spirit  animals, sometimes it's dark users (IE  my ex room mate Chris Ross.  He was a  demon collector.  I didn't find out  till after he moved out.  But I bound  him good once I did.), and sometimes  it's non-believers who try to give us a  bad name or oppress us.  I'm mostly a  healer and diviner.  I love to use the  Tarot cards.  I'm pretty good at it  too.<br />
eeewww, looking at the time, I need to  get to bed.  Nite all and pleasant  dreams. ]]></description>
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                <title>G. R. I. T. S.</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 17 May 2005 23:04:25 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Girls Raised In The South.<br />
AKA Me.<br />
I may not seem like it all the time,  but I'm defenately a red neck woman.   Damn straight and proud of it.  Born in  VA, raise from SC on up to VA.  I call  all three states home.  Pure Dixie  Girl.  I can shoot a rifle (made  marksman).  If you drive by my house  you're bound to see my laundry airing  out,  thongs, bikini briefs, hell even  a G-string or 2.  Don't like bras  though.  I say let them girls be free.   I can drink with the best of them.   Jack Daniels is one of my heros.  Black  Lable all the way baby.  But I can't  forget the Captain.  When I was little  (about 2 or so) my lulaby from my dad  was Jimmy Buffet's "Why Don't We Get  Drunk and Screw."  Can sing the whole  song by heart.  I love all of his  biggets hits, and some that didn't make  it.  My dream is to visit  Margarittaville (hopefully soon).  I'm  all for lettin those boys go fight.   After all, it is what most of them  signed up for.  I say "we'll put a boot  up your ass"  "courtesy of the red,  white, and blue"   Hell yeah Toby says  it best.  But we can't forget Grechen  Willson though.  Her songs really hit  home for me.  Darrell Worley aslo say  it best, "Have You Forgotten"  Hell no  I can't forget.  My sone was mear  meters away from never getting to know  his grandpa (who was 30 meters away  from the blast in the Pentagon).  Where  is he now you ask.  He;s over there  kicking some serious ass.  I wish I  could, but I got out too early.  I told  my SSTG that I had PMS and he was  giving me a M16 assult rifle with live  ammunition and putting me within 500  yards of the fucker who screwed me.   Then I thanked him for doing so.   Needless to say I never got to go to  the range to fire.  My doc just laughed  when I told him what happened.<br />
My fav place to sneak in a good fuck is  still the truck bed.  And the only  sport I watch is Racing.  Put me at  turn 4 and I'll be as happy as a pig in  a mud hole. ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>Odd sex places</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 16 May 2005 01:03:15 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well I've had a bit to drink, so bare  with me on this.  I've been with a few  people and in a few diff places.  A  walk in freezer is nice, if you can get  over the hard floor.  The cold will  keep you nice and tight, and all  nipples will be perky.  A hot dog truck  on the other hand can be fun.  Since  the space is small, you have to sit in  his lap.  The best thing to do is use  the benches on either side to raise and  lower your self, unless he has strong  enough arms to do it.   My fav is on a  sandy lake shore in a park watching the  sun set.  There is just something  romantic about making love while  watching the sun set over the water.  Beautiful.  I would not suggest on the  side of the road though.  On a traveled  road you have to deal with passers by,  on a "forgotten road." not to bad as  long as you stay in the vehicule.   Getting out, not a good idea, nor is in  the woods.  It hurts the one on the  ground's back.  A military barracks is  always fun.  Each branch is diffrent.   Marines are good for one night stands  or affairs (you need to check that left  hand very carefully).  Army one nights  or short term relationships.  The Navy  has the best group and bi (female Bi  that is).  But if you want a classy,  treat you like a queen type, I'd say  Air Force.  I've had tried them all.   At least before I got married.  <br />
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One of my most embarassing memories is  being covered in honey (both of us) in  my baracks room, when my room mate  walks in.  We had to finish in the  shower.  Which is kinda small and  cramped.  But over all fun. ]]></description>
                <author>~AmarandeArtemisiaart</author>
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                <title>my body</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 11 May 2005 20:02:37 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I looked in the mirror today and  realized something.  My body ain't that  bad.  I have just enough meat to have a  button ass.  My waist is a size 5 (I  know because I just got my shorts out  of the attic).  I could stand to tone  up my abbs, but as a mother of 2, it's  hard to get rid of all the baby fat  (the fat from the pregnancy).  My legs  are decently long, and not too flabby  or spindley.  My chest is plenty big in  my opinion.  But still proportioned to  my body.  The only gripe I trully have,  is the german blood.  Too much hair (or  too dark).  I don't like tanning, and  shaving it all won't work.  I mean come  on it would be a pain to do.  And as a  mother of 2 I don't really have the  time.  Bleaching is an alternative, but  don't have the money.  Would love  electrolocis (i think thta's how it's  spelled)  but still money is an issue. ]]></description>
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