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Yes!

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To be quite honest it annoys me and somewhat hurts my personality when people have to be negative about so many things. I have never understood why people have to make comments about everything and be "critics" about every part of life. Is it because they know they have no control and are trying to find as much to control?

Just because they don't like some things in life doesn't mean it should be burnt, shot or suffer in any way... And in saying that, which I realize is probably just them saying something, what do they gain? People live in this world in so many ways. To say a place should either be burnt down, this person should be shot, slapped in the face or any other horrible thing that one could do breaks me. I suppose if that place or person is doing evil it is a different story. But just because they may do something different they automatically are ostracized (at least from their perspective).

I suppose I have never liked any discrimination in this world. Just the tiny little bit can throw me off. I have never been a negative person, and I fear I may be turing into someone who I wasn't several years ago. Why can't we enjoy what is infront of us and be open minded instead of stuck on certain ways?

I can't change it. Nor do I want to, but the thing I can change is my ways and my life... All it takes is an open mind, and possibly an open heart.

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However, to ask those questions outside of your own mind seems absurd. So you think, "I can live with the insanity." "It'll only be possessing my mind for a short while longer. Just give it some time." But then you worry if you don't, and you start a pattern every day. First, starting off innocently thinking about it. You shouldn't have gone there in the first place, but you have. Then once or twice a daydream may occur, and there is no use to stopping it... You love daydreaming... So you bloody well encourage it. Then, towards the middle of the story you convince yourself of something that would only come true to you in a dream. Hence why this life you desire has mostly been lived in a dream. And, yet again, near the end of the day, you convince yourself one more thing. It will most likely never happen. So the mind was wasted. And then... you wish you could rip out the neurons that encourage this habit. You know that if you could just do that that all could be erased and the embarrasment wouldn't have to be lived any longer. After much thought and contemplation about the surgery, you come to the conlusion you can do without the ripping of the brain, and calm down a little... Evening seems delightfu, once you finish up at the gym, going to start drawing, reading, cooking, keeping the mind busy. But once it comes time for sleep, you know - the time for rest, the thought of tomorrows adventures creeps in your mind... ... ...

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I look at the glass, broken, and in a million shards if it where to fall. I stare at the point where the damage began, and from there a web of tension, at which the shards form a pattern and should have fallen.

However, it stands, and remains as one. I wish to see it fall, but I know it won't. It will wait to fall until I leave and not there to witness. It knows my desires, and perhaps it may be best to let go.

So, as it remains in its place I conjure another desire. I want to touch it. Not break it, but feel it. It needs to break on its own, but I feel that it needs to know I'm here.

I feel at times that the glass can look a lot like ice. Perhaps that is why I lack the ability to reach out at it. If only I could muster up the courage, for there would be no greater pleasure than to rub my hands, and feel every shard cut me and see my hand bleed.

And yet, I remain passive, and only imagine. So I see the blood drip down in my mind. If only I could see it for real. I could walk up, lift my hand, and it wouldn't even have to take much effort. Although, it seems to take the most effort of all.

So, I still remain infront of the glass. Or perhaps I am behind the glass. Whichever way I stand to it, I keep imagining the blood, and the feel of the shards. The pain only occurs realizing that I have done nothing.

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Sigh, and I got so many ideas for art projects that I would like to dive into, but I can't. If only life could just magically provide money for me, and have my exams done and over with. That would be awesome.

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The University Opening should be fun, but I am mostly wondering about my closing at Sterling Mutuals. I haven't heard too much back from people, but I know e-mails were sent and putting the posters up was challenging. I don't have too much money to be printing off a lot of poster so there was a huge limit as to how many were posted. Hopefully I posted them in the best areas...

I can't believe the semester is comming to an end. I guess I am equally happy and not-so-happy for this semester to be over with. I'll be glad not having to do academic crap for a while. That is, if i decide not to take a summer course this summer.

O yes, the summer...
Now I have to start cracking down on finding jobs. Its kinda hard to study with all that is going on in my mind and so much more. Its also disappointing that some of my friends are not comming back for next year. It'll be disappointing when its all over and my friends will be leaving to start a new journey in there life. I hope the best for them, but I hate to see them leave.

Well, back to Neurobiology... not looking forward to the exam...

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...And i think i realized things might not be the way they seem...

Making it all up in my head...

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