http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:AmberSpike&section=today deviantART RSS for by:AmberSpike en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 20:36:00 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/29055680/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/29055680/ Sun, 20 Dec 2009 07:40:42 PST Haha, look what I'm eating and drinking...I'm so British...

It's snowing like a bitch where I am. It never snowed when we were little, but for the past coupla years it's really snowed a hell of a lot. Britain's weather suffers from Bi-Polar disorders it seems. I think if it keeps up like this we'll have an inch or two of snow...but I'm not sure if I want it to keep on snowing so violently, I would like to go and see my friends before Christmas
It snowed when we were at school, we had some lovely photos with each other I've been spending a lot more quality time with my friends lately, and you know what it's really given me a brand new heart warming perspective, I feel all nice and warm inside It's lovely. I can't get over it I have a few friends on here from school, so if you're reading this, thank you and I love you! Haha hey Eve You're gayyy. But you're also gonna Dubai or something for Christmas...lucky bastard

I'm never usually happy at Christmas for some reason...not few the past like 5+ years anyway :S there's only once been an actual reason, every other year I just felt sad and lonely, but this year I'm...just warm and happy It's pretty awesome.

Cause of this snow we can't go to my nans today like we usually do the Sunday before Christmas, since the road is absolutely caked in snow. Soo...looks like I'm staying in all nice and warm playing The Legend Of Zelda: The Wind Waker...that'll do me just fine

I'm not sure if I'll update again before Christmas, probably not unless something happens of great importance or significance, so I'll say it now: Merry Christmas! And if you don't celebrate Christmas, then have fun with what you're doing over the holidays. Muchos love

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/29002276/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/29002276/ Thu, 17 Dec 2009 15:40:27 PST

I am just so choked up and happy today, I haven't felt so loved and looked after in such a long time

I have some of the most heart warming friends, I can't believe I've gone so long been ignorant of this fact. It's just beautiful how much they care. I'm so grateful right now, I could actually cry hahaha, such a girl, I know

I gave my friends a present today, and she got me one too! I didn't expect it, so it was such a lovely surprise...I'm not going to open it until Christmas since she won't open hers until then, but I'm quite confident that I know what it is The same friend also took me home today in her car, which is way out of her way - she didn't want me to go home with the guy I do regularly because he's a dangerous driver when it isn't snowing already flipped his car over bloody hell haha, although I do like the adrenaline I'd rather not risk it...not worth it at all. I would have gone home with him but it was icy and snowy like I said...so...but I was just so touched that she'd rather me go home with her and not risk me getting hurt. I mean it doesn't sound much, but this friend, she never says I love you, or she at least rarely says it. I've known her about 4 years (2 years well) and I've heard her say it about twice. But even though she doesn't say she loves you, you can just tell she does from her actions such as what I mentioned previously. I really don't expect anyone to have any idea about what I'm going on about haha, but I don't care, I feel so loved and protected and happy tonight!

My other friend is making me feel really loved too...and tomorrow we're giving each other presents haha, she's bought me something and I dunno what it is :S I told her not to but I'm lookin forward to it We've made each other mixed CDs of our fave songs since we both love singing and dancing together She ought to be coming to my house tomorrow night, it should be really lovely and eventful

I'm really happy, I feel warm and fuzzy X3 Time for bed then I think, it's so much easier to sleep when you feel like this I find.
Night peeps

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This stupid guy is bitching and whining and feeling sorry for himself because one of my best friends left him. I would understand of course, if this was a regular situation, but he cheated on her twice. So, you know...he deserves it, it's the consequences of his actions the whiny bastard.

My God some people are so blind and idiotic. Fuckin drama queens.

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Not sure what to draw? Who cares. Just look in the fridge and find something interesting jigga jigga Or look in the bottom of the kitchen for deformed potatoes or something...either way do it tomorrow and then try out one of your essays. Then you can play on Zelda, cus it's awesome


Just a lil note to self here So I don't go forgetting like a spack.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28886555/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28886555/ Fri, 11 Dec 2009 16:21:08 PST
Of course I brought on these expectations myself - I am usually a lively person with something to say to try and cheer up the mood, or lower the tone. Whatever is needed usually.

But then people start to expect you to be like that all the time, a lot of people think I'm always cheery yet bolshy and opinionated, head strong, vulgar...strong all the time, and that does my head in, cause to be honest I'm such a fucking girl, so overly emotional sensitive and caring and all that "weak" and pathetic shit

I also don't like been treated like "one of the guys" just cause I'm a lesbian doesn't mean I'm on of the guys, Jesus I'm still a girl haha, what the hell. People confuse the hell out of me.

Oh well, I'm pretty sure writing a journal on the internet isn't going to make a difference, ever.

I felt like talking about it.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28865909/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28865909/ Thu, 10 Dec 2009 14:30:26 PST
I fucking love Panpipes

I'm listening to a Panpipe version of My Heart Will Go On and it's just so fucking beautiful I could cry.

IT'S SO CUTE <3

I'm such a douche

Panpipes though, they're awesome. I've always loved them, and violins. Awesome instruments. I have a violin. After my exams I'm gonna try and learn how to actually play it...then I'm gonna get some panpipes Yesss.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28749134/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28749134/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 15:36:47 PST Don't get me wrong, it is kinda scary, well it is to me because I'm really paranoid, but still...it was funny, I belly laughed a lot when everyone else screamed in the theatre. I mean I say people which is a fair statement because everyone did scream a bit, but there was a group of teenage girls who I assume were at the lower end of the teenage scale who screamed extremely loudly at - everything - it was funny.

So...I would say, watch it as long as it doesn't cost too much. It was only £5.30 for me which I didn't think was too bad, but if they didn't let me pay as a student then I wouldn't have wanted to spend a lot on it It's not too scary here, but I can see why such a fuss was kicked up about it in America, since some parts of the US are much more religious than we are here in England. There are definitely religious undertones in the movie which makes it suspicious.

But there is no way that is actual footage. It wouldn't get released No way. If this was real footage then it would be absolutely terrifying, but it's really not. I'm quite sure that the government/FBI/CIA/Whatever else the is wouldn't release it to the public or allow it to be made into a God damn movie for people of 15 and above to see haha, that's absurd.

Watching it gave me fucking motion sickness/a headache and made my eyes hurt because the God damn camera was just so wobbly! Not impressed with that in the slightest haha, I still feel ill.

We enjoyed it very much going out my friends and I so I'm pretty sure that in the Christmas holidays we'll be going again to see this Avatar which is been advertised and spoke of a lot. I must admit I think it looks pretty amazing and interesting, I'm sure there will be a lot of fan art for that in the months to come I'm looking forward to that too, the blue creatures look interesting and very cure I'm gonna have some dirty grubby take away food now Haha. Right good. I'll either watch American Dad or continue listening to Britney Spears, who, I'm ashamed to admit, I am slowly falling in love with *facepalm* but she's so tapped! I love it

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28686556/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28686556/ Tue, 01 Dec 2009 08:11:05 PST Thank you

If this fails then I'll ask some people I'm close to at school and maybe give the resulting picture to them as a leaving gift for when they go to uni and I go to a different college for a year to do a foundation course...it depends

Anyway today I took some photos of two pieces of art that're for school, so they should be up on here today or tomorrow sometime.

Aside from that there's not too much to report. It's almost Christmas - I usually get a bit depressed around Christmas, at least I have done for the past 2-3 years at least :S I can only put it down to SAD, but this year I'm really enjoying winter, I was in my city centre this weekend with a friend of mine and wow, there were some markets next to the Peace Gardens (That's basically a part of town with a bit of grass, trees/plants and fountains haha, nothing too special), there was a lot of people there...it was getting dark and cold, the atmosphere was great. I love that sorta atmosphere in winter, just before dusk It's great.
Chistmas is going to be awesome: Presents, friends, get-togethers and parties and really simple films they put on every year that you start to love eventually, eg Home Alone (1,2 or 3), Fivel (sp?) Goes West, Homeward Bound and whichever other mediocre Disney movie they decide to put on. I love it.
Failing any of those I'm getting a load of DVDs/Boxsets/a game for Christmas <3 I'll watch them instead.

What're you guys getting for Christmas?

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28549028/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28549028/ Tue, 24 Nov 2009 13:58:45 PST Cause we all have and if I forgive yours, will you forgive mine?

I love that song so much. It's called How Do You Do, it's by Shakira and it's about God and religion I really really love songs about religion. It's always been a big issue in my life, especially as of late. I mean, I always question religion - I have to almost everyday because of a subject I do at school haha - but outside of school I do as well. Lately I've felt really compelled to just try it out and maybe have more faith, to see what difference it makes to my life. It would be good to experience it since I question it all the time - how can I question it to the full without experiencing it? Is what I keep asking myself, so maybe after exams are over I will do that...it should be interesting.

I have a few friends who are Church of England, a few who are Roman Catholic, one who is Indian and is a Sikh and my cousin is a Buddhist, so I'm not exactly short of people to talk about religion to.

Until them I'm gonna worship House, Shakira and Subway. OMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOM. It's not gonna help me lose weight, but it'll be rate I should start boxing soon anyway, my ribs are almost fully healed Good stuff man!

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Simples *squeak*

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28465724/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28465724/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 09:52:26 PST Last time we were on the dance floor for about 4 whole songs and didn't realise everyone else had left and we were the only ones up there That was a good good night. I don't care if I can't dance, I love to make a douche out of myself

In other news I'm really starting to love Shakiras music and songs...and Shakira herself, along with a few other famous ladies! I never used to fancy any actors or singers, but now I really do. Maybe I've finally hit puberty, even if I do still look 12. Hooray!

I need to post some more art up here soon methinks. I finished a canvas painting at school of a Rooster in a suit, I should take a picture of it.

...My dance friend licked my face today. Bitch!

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28358666/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28358666/ Sat, 14 Nov 2009 17:10:43 PST I'm quite scared of dying, but it would be nice if after it was a white bus journey to heaven, or wherever it was going, like it was on that episode.

But the likelihood of that happening is extremely debatable

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28270229/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28270229/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 14:02:47 PST but that's because I'm anaemic, so my immune system is a bit rubbish because I don't have a lot of energy. It's just more noticeable around winter, for obvious reasons, it's cold and there are more bugs going around and such. My ribs hurt as well, cause I was coughing loads and pulled the muscles in-between them. Then I lifted some heavy stuff, heard a crack and I couldn't move too much haha, fitness fail.
I hope they get better soon though, cause when they do I'm joining a boxing group in order to relieve stress and lose weight about time I did that, I'm such a fat shit you know.

Until then though I'm gonna sell fish to Tom Nook on Animal Crossing. I missed this game so much :'

Hopefully I'll get more art done for school soon, then I can put it up on here yay.

Such enthusiasm for school I have atm Not. I'm tiiired. Bring on Christmas I say! Looking forward to it so much Yay presents

'Neways...I'm gonna go play Animal Crossing more. I want a Nook plush <3
Anyone got any game suggestions for the GC/DS? I have some spare money, and want something to play after I've done work

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28196674/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/28196674/ Sat, 07 Nov 2009 11:20:21 PST
"Hey mate, can I have 2 tickets to Loogabaroo?"

Bus driver: What?!

Australians: You know, Loogabaroo?

Friends on bus: *Watch with intent*

Bus driver: I've never heard of a Loogabaroo mate...

Australians: *Get out leaflet* Nah, here you see, Loogabaroo.

Bus driver looks at the leaflet and tried to stop himself from laughing. It was a leaflet with information about Loughborough

In all fairness I pronounced it wrong at first, thought it was pronounced "Loff-bur-uh" Like cough, but it's pronounced "Luff-bur-uh". But definitely not pronounced Loogabaroo. My friend proper belly laughed when that conversation took place hahaha, I woulda been pissing myself too. I thought it was hilarious.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27962916/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27962916/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 15:38:33 PDT

Yayyy

As the title implies I have a temporary job - the company estimated that I (And a hell of a lot of other people, about 60 new employees I'd say ) would be working there for around 4-10 weeks, maybe longer. They probably won't keep people on after that, but I don't mind. I'm glad it's temporary, because it means that I can get into doing loads of school work again soon. I have a lot to do, but we'll save that for another journal.

So, what do I do? Well I work for a call centre really, but it's not one the gives you outgoing calls, asking you if you want a boiler, or a really super state of the art hoover, or a cat, or something absolutely stupid like that, thankfully, I wouldn't like doing that. We only receive calls, from people who are worried or want information about their insurance policies/data, whatever. So, basically, I work in a call centre called TSC, but I answer calls for an insurance company, Zurich. The people who ring up are...well endowed when it comes to money, shall we say. More upper class people ring up, and celebrities too apparently...I don't know why they told us that though, I honestly don't care if they're famous or not. All I care about is getting paid

So, I get paid £6.50 an hour and I only work part time, in the day on the weekends. I earn a little short of £100 a week, which you know...pretty swish right Well I'm pleased with it, even if it is temporary. It's really good for a first job and for someone under 18 (17), plus it's a good job to put on a CV, shows good experience, been able to handle people when they're not in the calmest state, been polite, been able to handle awkward situations etc...so in all, I am very pleased! This is cool, though I am sure it will begin to wear me down after a few weeks of it...but that's why they call it work, right?

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27838574/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27838574/ Sun, 18 Oct 2009 15:27:17 PDT I have something I can talk about today though, so...


I watched Coraline today. I didn't have any great expectations of it from the adverts. I mean, yeah, it looked pretty cool, the animation and character designs were great - but it looked to me like it would be for the young teenagers of today who think they're cool wearing their Jack and Sally rucksacks that you probably couldn't fit a dead rat in - so I thought the producers were over compensating, making the visuals appeal to their audience to make up for lack of character depth and story line. There wasn't exactly much information about the story line in the adverts on the TV, just a blue haired girl talking to a woman with button eyes (Something else that would most likely appeal to all the younger teenagers around here). However, I was pleasantly surprised! They sure taught me not to be a cynic ever now and then, I really enjoyed the movie. The main character, Coraline (who would have guessed...) is really loveable I think, realistic too. I'm not sure how old she's supposed to be, but she really is a great character. Not perfect at all, loads of realistic flaws. Her parents are realistic, too. I think the younger teens will actually like it because they might be able to relate to their parents not having enough time for them, concentrating on their career, what with the current economical status of the world. The little cat sidekick is a nice touch too, shows up to give bits of advice to Coraline in just the right places, but doesn't give her too much advice, just enough for her to figure things out and gain independence through out the film. The story line is really good too, I understood it first time (which is unusual for me since I usually like films such as Donnie Darko & The Butterfly Effect - not the easiest films to get a grasp on), but it was so simple that it makes you bored, you do think about it for a bit.

I'd recommend it to anyone...but it's only just come out on DVD, so watch it online somewhere. That's what I did, now I've ordered the DVD, the novel and the graphic novel I'm looking forward to the graphic novel, I love comic books. If anyones seen this film or they have read the novel/graphic novel, let me know what you think

I've also watched The Butterfly Effect. I loved it so much, if you like Donnie Darko, or you like films that make you think, or films that make you want to watch them again, then watch it. It's about £4 from Play.com and I bet it's about £2 from ebay or preowned DVD shops like Cex Super awesome value.

I'm now watching Batman and Robin since I've never watched it before, or can remember watching it at least In all honesty I'm watching it because I love Poison Ivy...in the comics and the games, that is. I'm not sure about in this film, not got to a part with her in it yet, we'll see how that goes. I'm into around 8 minutes of the film and I've already come to the conclusion that Robin is a massive retard who should just shut the fuck up and go back to school. I'm glad you die so many times in the comics Robin, you're a retard.


That's all I have to say School in the morning, I love school, I love seeing my friends and all of that...lifes really good at the moment, maybe one day I'll update a journal telling you about that, it's a bit more important than random movies...to me anyway

Hope whoever reads this is also having fun with life Much love to you

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27293961/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27293961/ Sat, 19 Sep 2009 06:16:16 PDT They cancelled because...I don't actually know :S but either way it means I can both get some commissions done AND do homework...then I can...do whatever the hell I like tomorrow

I wonder if I will actually do any of the above I just mentioned, I hope so

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27281968/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27281968/ Fri, 18 Sep 2009 14:37:01 PDT That's such a daft thing to do, I explained this in the previous journal, chill out and stop caring about this stuff, it's just not worth anything at all. Merely a petty internet feud between people who don't talk any more...btw I don't want to talk to you :S I dunno where you got that impression from...you'd think an adult would be above this sort if thing, no?

It's only quarter past 10 here in't t'old England yet I am tired because I ate take away pizza and chips...God damn I am gonna die so young if I keep been so fat I should lose weight I suppose...I'll start that up again this Monday since I'm busy doing Sixth Form work this weekend, and going out for tea tomorrow because it's some of my friends birthday, and also a few people in the group are going to University, so I won't be seeing them as often. It's sort of a good thing despite the fact I'll miss them, it means I have less people to distract me from work for Sixth Form...so then I can go to University myself...man that's going to be absolutely terrifying but also an amazing experience and one big long path of self discovery won't it I doubt then I'll be on the internet...or at least here, much, if at all. Need to go and...develop as a person and...live man I am so looking forward to it, I'll miss everyone though, especially my closer friends...I miss them when they're off sick never mind on the other side of the country Anyhow...I'm tired, so to bed I go

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27163190/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27163190/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 04:35:21 PDT know I'm intelligent, I am no fool. I admit I can't spell and I swear a lot, but it does not mean I am unintelligent and vulgar.

(How do you know what I do in life without visiting my page? :S) Additionally, I do get drunk a lot, couple of times every month at birthday parties and various celebrations...I'm a teenager, I have a lot of friends who like to party...they throw parties a lot, I enjoy parties it's what I do I still get the results at school I want though, so there's nothing wrong with that man. I control it as well, I am not an idiot or an alcoholic. As for smoking...I like cigars But I've only ever had one, at a special LOOK HOW WELL WE DID IN OUR EXAM RESULTS party. As for been violent...I do have a temper I admit, is it my fault? Yes and no, people have short tempers for a reason but it's my responsibility to control it. Which is why I used to punch walls, not people I say used to because I don't really have a temper any more. I'm too mellow and happy about my life to be angry at anything.
As for visiting her page (not mentioning names cause it would be innapropriate) you're right, I do. I know you say it's because I'm stalking, and I can see completely why you think that, it's completely reasonable. However, in all honesty? I just like going to see how she's doing No, I'm not stuck on her, don't love her. Not bitter or hateful in any way at all, hate and bitterness just envelops people, so I choose to not hate. I'm just one of those types of people who like to see how people are doing - even if we fell out or don't talk any more - I do still care about people who hate me or people who just drifted in my past, because that's the type of person I am. I do not feel that this makes me a stalker, as I do not have any sinister intentions. If you feel I do though...well, that's your issue, not mine I'm afraid. As for visited YOUR page I wanted to see if I was blocked
I know you may ask how I know all this, well if someone insulted one of your friends you'd want to tell them right? I would, I don't like people insulting my friends because I love them.

Oh, and I know you'll probably ask yourself, if I don't care or if I have so much of a life, then why are you writing this big journal Lauren? Well I'll tell you why, because I do not appreciate my name been slandered and I feel if you're going to say something about me, then I have a right to defend myself. Since I have no other way to contact you or inform you of my opinion, my only other possibility was to write a journal about it stating my points(Which is why I left everyone anonymous). Additionally, you don't know me any more. I know it hasn't even been a year but if you spoke to me now I have changed so much you should see me outside, at school, at home. You would be amazed at how much my life has changed and how much I've become a better person, more studious than ever...I have these friends, and I simply cannot describe how amazing they are and how they have influenced me...and how much I love them. It's amazing, these past months have just been...one very long and beautiful epiphany There is very little that I would change.

I know you say that people cannot change and I can understand your belief, but I disagree completely. I believe the world and everyone are constantly in flux. That the only thing guaranteed is change. Of course people change, it's why people fall out. People who you feel are your friends now, may not be your friends in a few months time, because of change.

That is just my opinion you can accept it or hate it, I do not mind.
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Anyway, I don't have too much to report back to everyone. First week back at college went quick, but oh I enjoyed it so much. Looking forward to next week http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/27031688/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 09:20:12 PDT

Be nice to have a rest from parties n such tbh, and I would just love to get out of the house for...learning and getting up early I love school <3


Anyway now I have to go and...do some...something for my art journal :S dunno what

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But results day night I did go to that party and got absolutely smashed I drank a lot...2 big bottles of smirnoff, beer and a whole lotta whisky and a cigar. I enjoy cigars, I don't care how much they're going to kill me. They're very nice. I'm going to get a big fat one for them prom methinks

So yeah, had that epic house party...slept over, came home on bus and got home about 1ish. Good exam celebrations there Then today went to Rother Valley with the lads which was good. Cought sun yay.

Anyways I'm off the play some Advance Wars and eat my tea. Good day

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/26707484/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/26707484/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 06:47:58 PDT I got 2 A's and a C

I'm pleased with that myself! A's are in Art and English Lang/Lit and the C is in Philosophy and Ethics - Epic fail. I was shocked with that, cause I revised fuck loads :S Asking around though, the highest I came across was a B and all everyone else who I asked had a C/D so...maybe we are all just not amazing at it or they marked it harshly. Either way it's a decent pass So I am pleased.

So tonight I am going to party and drink my fat fucking ass off I haven't spent time with my friend Paris properly for aaaaaaaages, so tonight I am going to haver such a laugh with her I miss her.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/26704134/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/26704134/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 00:18:48 PDT Well tbh I'm looking forward to getting my results - I tried hard this year so whatever I get, well I don't mind

I'll post up what I get later...for now I'm gonna read the 2 graphic novels and the 1 comic I bought yesterday, and also play advance wars on the gamecube I want the next hour and a half to hurry up...

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/26553020/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/26553020/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 16:57:02 PDT

Well, since I came back off holiday it hit my like a black president hits a fly that I need to do a hell of a lot of artwork for school in the next 4 weeks, due to the fact I did nothing at all for the first few weeks of the holiday, except for paint on a canvas (which is unfinished) and start 2 more canvas' - they can wait for now because they take the longest. For now I'm going to do a hell of a lot of small (A5 - A3) drawings Basically I have to draw human bodies with animal heads for school - doesn't sound difficult since I do it anyway - but it is, because I have to do it realistic Challenging? yes. Impossible? not at all that's my sort of thing right there. So after I got home Sunday I decided to crack down with some art for school right? I did much more than I thought possible! Two pieces of good art in two days. Monday and Tuesday! Haha, I did better than I thought I would, I worked all day until about 1-2 in the morning and I loved it. So today I thought I'd have a break and went out with 2 of my friends to the shopping mall and town centre. I had a lot of money left over from holiday, since I only spent some money on art materials. On holiday I wrote a long long list of games I want, so. Since I was out today I thought I'd spend some money on myself I still have a decent sum of money though. Going to save that for now. Anyway, here's what I bought:


Metroid Prime
I did have this previously when I was younger, but I traded it in due to me failing at any sort of game that didn't feature a self absorbed blue hedgehog. Recently I purchased Metroid Prime 2: Echoes which I am loving to bits! So I bought the original Prime in hope that I'll enjoy it equally as much. Besides, it was on the list of games for me to buy I have one to cross off now.

Battalion Wars
Another game for the Gamecube which is also on the list I wrote. I have only ever played one (the first) Advance Wars game and I absolutely loved it. Usually I don't appreciate war based games, but this with its tactics and it's interesting characters I feel for instantly (I plan on buying the other games in the Advance War series for the DS when I want to spend money again.) Battalion Wars is a 3D version of the game it's had good reviews always around the 90% mark and I saw it today for just £6 so I thought hey, why not.

KT Tunstall Special Addition Eye to the Telescope & Acoustic Extravaganza CD & DVD
I absolutely LOVE KT Tunstall. I rarely find artists which make me love them completely, who's music just speaks to me and makes me want to sing uncontrollably. Well, this lady does. I adore her music and lyrics. She seems an interesting person as a plus too. I love when musicians personality and thoughts, feelings comes out so clearly through their music. I love it so much. I love her albums, I recommend her a lot if you enjoy music with deep feeling.

Batman: Arkham Asylum
Oh my God. This Graphic Novel. This Graphic Novel. Oh my God. Yes. Yes to this Graphic Novel. It's fantastic. My favourite. The story line and the concepts are fantastic, the characters are great and the ART. My God the art is beautiful. So beautiful, the colours and how it's done just suits the story perfectly. I would recommend this if you like good art and stories that arn't so...happy but you like dark things. You don't even have to like Batman to enjoy it - I am not a big Batman fan. Trust me I'm all about Catwoman and Superwoman But I completely adore Arkham Asylum. Buy it. Now.

So that's that kinda unnecessarily long, but hey never mind Since I'm doing so... ]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/26479743/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/26479743/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 08:39:37 PDT

Anyway I'm back from holiday, not that I really told anyone I was going But nevermind. Holiday was okay, I'm kinda glad to be back cause I get stuck in a rut on holidays most of the time. I really nheed to do some art though, and I miss one of my...actually all of my best friends. The one with the car has gone on holiday! Omfg, what a bitch I love her so much aha. And everyone else.

I made a list of games I want whilst I was on holiday, so I'm going to go ebay my heart out now

I'll update sometime later...I'm really busy with life now, can't hang around here all the time anymore. I'm growing up and have responsibilities, but more importantly - parties

See you later guys How's it going with you lot anyway? Hope you#re all okay.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/26236668/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/26236668/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 15:33:25 PDT amber.spike@hotmail.com is my paypal email.

I will draw you something based on the amount of money you send me. icon, atc, sketch, even a full commission.
Here is how this will work:
1: reply with a ref (or a few pictures)
2: send what you can to my paypal and i will draw what I think is fair. make sure to write your username in the paypal payment so I know who I am drawing for!!

I am going to take as many of these as I can and I am going to go in the order in which I get them.

please no less then $5.00

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25963011/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25963011/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 12:00:09 PDT


YOUR BOY SIDE:
[x] You love hoodies
[x] You love jeans
[ ] Dogs are better than cats
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt and fall
[] You've played with/against boys on a team
[ ] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck
[ ] You own a XBOX
[x] You played with Hot Wheels as a little kid.
[x] At some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You owned a DS, PS2, or Sega
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[] You watch sports on TV
[x] Gory movies are cool
[ ] You used to go to your dad for advice
[ ] You have at least 1 trophy of a sport
[x] You used to play Yu-Gi-Oh
[ ] Baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[x] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[ ] Sports are fun
[x] You sometimes talk with food in your mouth
[] You sleep at night with your socks on
[x] You have fished at least once
TOTAL = 13

YOUR GIRL SIDE:
[x] You like to shop
[ ] You wear eyeliner
[ ] You wear the color pink
[x] You go to your mom for advice
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport
[ ] You hate wearing all black
[x] You like going to the mall
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[] You like wearing jewelry
[ ] You cried watching The Notebook
[ ] Skirts are a big parts of your wardrobe
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[] You don't like the movie Star Wars
[ ] You are/were in gymnastics
[ ] It takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[x] You care about what you look like majority of the time
[] You like wearing dresses
[x] You like wearing body spray
[] You like high heel shoes
[] You used to play with dolls as a kid
[ ] You like putting makeup on others
[ ] You like being the star of almost everything

TOTAL: 4


How unexpected.

BORED

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25957047/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25957047/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 05:19:27 PDT I'm actually crying. Do any of you guys watch house? You got a fave episode?

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25540795/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25540795/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 13:47:22 PDT How bout them quizes?

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the "world peace", etc.). What are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you re-post this so I can fill it out for you?

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25447762/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25447762/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 06:25:00 PDT Whenever I see them I have an immense urge, so here we go:


YOUR LIFE AS A MOVIE SOUNDTRACK.
Gather up a whole bunch of musics, and click shuffle. The first song goes with the first chapter, and so on and so fourth. Sometimes, the results are quite surprising and creepy!


1. Epic Prologue
"Feel Good Inc." - Gorrilaz (Love it )

2. Birth
"Wherever I may Roam" - Metallica

3. Childhood
"You found me" Kelly Klarkson

4. First Day of High School
"Moving" - Supergrass (That's generally accurate for ALL of high school! For almost everyone I would assume.)

5. School Bully
"Lucky" - 311

6. The After School Fight
"O Green World" - Gorillaz

7. Graduating High School
"Because Of You" - Kelly Klarkson

8. New Home
"Lilac Wine" - Jeff Buckley

9. Creepy Neighbors
"Never Take Me Alive" - Kirk Brandon

10. Flashbacks
"Silet Sea" - KT. Tunstall

11. Mental Breakdown
"The Great Below" - Nine Inch Nails (It would be fitting if the situation allowed it? Sounds like a breakdown sorta song.)

12. Meeting An Old Friend
"Last Goodbye" - Jeff Buckley

13. Falling Asleep/Having a Nightmare
"I'm Not Dead" - Pink

14. A New Enemy
"Hopeless" - KT Tunstall

15. Final Battle
"Rain" - Breaking Benjamin

16. Death of Enemy
"My Friend of Misery" - Metallica

17.First Day of New Job
"The Frail" - Nine Inch Nails

18.Starting College
"Clint Eastwood" - Gorillaz

19.Falling In Love
"The Other Side of Things" - 311

20.Graduating College
"Follow" - Breaking Benjamin

21.Facing Your Demons
"Of Wolf & Man" - Metallica (I love this song )

22.Growing Old
"Evolution" - 311

23.Your Funeral
"Same Mistake Twice" - 311


There was a pattern of bands there :S Do not want, stupid shuffle needs to shuffle better.

ANYWAY

I went to Sheffield Gay Pride yesterday It was...interesting. There was a bondage tent Good times. I bought some stuff Shirt and bag and bands, usual things.


And here are some notes to self:

Remember how annoyed you are that you don't really have much time despite finishing your exams because the school is SO DEMANDING OMFG
As a result of this you must:

Draw/paint/whatever lots of sexy art mother fucker
Read more.
Look at your Philosophy and Ethics books to learn things in advance.
Keep on trying to improve your memory It's going well so far!

But there are also other things you must do which don't involve school:

Try and do more personal art and explore that more, you're losing it a bit.
Get that fucking trade done for you stupid twat.
If you can't come up with your own characters, how about doing gift art or fan art? That sounds nice a good idea
Stay close to your friends. Your close friends. You know the three, you love them a lot and the best way to show it is always been there whenever they need anything It's been a while since you've really loved people properly, and you're finally getting there again. Just remember how possessive and controlling you can be, okay? Don't take things so personally, don't be as paranoid. They love you as much as you love them. You're way too emotional sometimes.
Talk to your brother more. She's right - bad times like this mean that even if it's difficult you need to s... ]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25374493/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25374493/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 14:01:36 PDT I'm rate happy me

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25111749/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25111749/ Wed, 03 Jun 2009 17:10:35 PDT I would really like them. I'll happily draw something in return

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25044840/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/25044840/ Sun, 31 May 2009 04:59:36 PDT Stubborn yeah!

So...I'll do sketches of really simple characters or sonic character etc for about $5 I think. But if the character a complicated anthro around $10, but I don't know too many overly-complicated anthros

If there's anything else in my gallery you see and you like (such as the portraits, full colour pictures, pen drawing on book pages etc) let me know and we can figure something out with that

I have got on comission already. A friend is comissioning me to design her a full back tattoo that she'll actually get That's for $60. Good times.


Back to Philosophy & Ethics revision now Fun times aha!

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24802134/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24802134/ Sun, 17 May 2009 09:55:24 PDT Score.
Awesome D D D D D Fuck. Yes!!

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24754729/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24754729/ Thu, 14 May 2009 14:08:31 PDT Fun times, then my birthday on Saterday, hopefully it'll be eventful.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24723050/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24723050/ Tue, 12 May 2009 15:26:20 PDT

Just thought I'd let you know.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24680812/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24680812/ Sun, 10 May 2009 06:17:01 PDT

Suggestions/requests?

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24495700/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24495700/ Wed, 29 Apr 2009 11:42:10 PDT Which annoys me, really it does. I don't want to keep drawing sad art, although been sad doesn't make me want to draw . I really want to feel all cheerful and happy So I asked my mum about it, and she says we have a history of depression and all that which runs in the family So, what, I'm going to randomly feel depressed because of a rediculous biological defect? That's outragous, I wish I was born into a better family I know that's harsh, but I don't really love anyone. Just an attachment that's programmed into my brain since we have the same genetics really. That's all. Nothing spesh.

It annoys me that I'm only sad because my brain isn't producing the right amount of a certain chemical. No emotional problems that could be solved >( Those are better. I can talk to friends about that and give an actual reason to why I'm sad and they can maybe help. But this? This is frustrating.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24056365/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/24056365/ Sat, 04 Apr 2009 10:58:38 PDT Man I'm getting invited to a lot of these, I'm so psychced!
This one is going to be much better than the previous one

I'm gonna upload some stuff soon hopefully, now it's the holidays. Anymore pokemon suggestions mates? I'm thinking Raichu at the moment.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23810243/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23810243/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 08:33:28 PDT


I went to another party last night, it was okay. Not as good as the last one. But I have no money to buy my friend a present so I drew her a pokemon instead Evee, might put those up later once once I've completed my English coursework <3.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23705997/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23705997/ Sun, 15 Mar 2009 05:38:43 PDT I think they're great, although I do need to buy more. Which will have to wait a while since they're particulerly expensive =/ Buuut worth it I think. Good job it's my birthday in a few months, though I'm not sure if I should learn to drive or not? What do you think, should I learn to drive? I'm not sure.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23696953/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23696953/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 15:39:14 PDT
Burns and eats away at your soul. We don't want that do we?
Escape that man.

I did. It's not easy but it's doable,like pretty much most things in life if you ask me.

Lets see what's happening in life right now...erm, nothing today tbh Got some prismacolor markers, dayyym they are good.

Got a party next Friday again, hopefully I'll be in the mood. I'm not right now, I'm tired And I'm thinking about life again, which always leads me to not seeing the point. It just seems so worthless in the end, since we're just gonna die anyway haha. Suppose that's a good thing, bit of sleep. Least I might live to see some people I don't like die. Should make my motivation to lose weight the ability to do a sexy dance on top of someone I dislike's grave Awh yeah.
Think I'll go to bed now, I have some stupid essay's to do tomorrow You know, for school. That thing that gets you places in life, remember that? Education is where it is really at? Not the internet? No you're right it's totally the internet. Have fun with that

Money is the key to end all your woes~ Your up your downs your highs and your lows. Won't you tell me the last time that love bought your clothes? It's like that and that's the way it is.
Run DMC, hellz yeah.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23572236/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23572236/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 10:20:56 PST d: It was miiinnnnnt. Got drunk and sang a lot...
I was the only girl that slept over haha, his parents said that girls weren't allowed because drunk boys + drunk girls isn't good. I told them I'm a lesbian haha right good.
Erm...my teeth hurt from opening bottles =/ Flirted with lots of straight girls, I ought to stop doing that Erm...had about 3 hours sleep was up until 4/5 talking about who we'd shag. Misty off of Pokemon Awh yeah. Annd then when Sam's mum (Sam hosted the party) came down she made us all cups of tea, then loadsof sausage sandwitches. Then a massive amount of bacon sandwitches. THEN another cup of tea. Omg, yes Argh I love her man.

This was a good weekend!!
I really want a mint aero XD

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23464844/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23464844/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 13:01:10 PST I AM SO TIRED. Even though I had about 14 hours sleep And I still have loads of homework to do, urrrgh.

I went to my friendds for about 15 mins then we met my other friend at the bus stop, went into Sheffield and stopped there for ages. Then we caught the tram to Sheffield Arena to see our friends who'd been queing since 9 in the morning to go see Metallica That's crazy. Then we went back into Sheffield...

When it was about half 6 we started making our way down to The Plug (A place where DJ's/Bands go play live and all that) where we met yet even more friends, there must have been at least 20 of us by then And we waited to go and see the Gentlemen, who a few of us previously saw at our friends house last Saterday for an accoustic session thing. That was so good. Errrm...They were equally as good both times we saw them But now my freakin head/neck/ribs hurt from too much jumping around So good.

But now It's annoying to draw because to look down hurts >( Baw.

But it was still awesome I think next weekend I'll be going bowling and then to another party. Awh yeah.



EDIT


I forgot to mension, we saw two hot chicks holding hand.

Can't forget that man, that was just the best.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23355922/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23355922/ Mon, 23 Feb 2009 03:20:45 PST
I'm gonna see if this is true by telling myself I can do whatever the hell I want to do. Not in a breaking the rules way, but in a I can achieve what I want when I want way. Personal development and all that rubbish

I'll get back to you on that Although I bet there's only 2...maybe 3 people who care. But I'm not bothered about that, I'm doing it for me, not you.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23310792/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23310792/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 17:34:08 PST )

I attended your funeral on Thursday sweetie. There was so many people there, what a turn out. How loved were you huh? I sure hope there is a heaven, or an afterlife after this. So I can meet you properly and speak to you properly. I don't know if you remember been friends with me when we were little, I don't remember much to be honest. But...I'm not bothered. It's who you were at the present that matters. You sound so amazing, such a good person. I'm so proud of you for getting all of those A-A*GCSE's! You amazing person you . I can't believe how hard you tried and how much you achieved in such a short period of time. Listening to everything you had done, and everyone's opinion of you. It's the most inspirational funeral I've ever been to I really wish I could be like you, and I will try to be from now on. To be a better person, if not for me, for a homage to you. Even in death you managed to touch someone. If I died, that wouldn't have happened, haha. I wish I'd have known you properly, at our age. You would have been such a good influence on me, and I would have loved to get to know you more. When it's been a few months, my mum will get in contact with yours, and I will try to befriend your brother and sister and be there for them I promise. I just...I can't believe you died. I wish you didn't. There's more people who deserve death. Way more people, myself being one of them. You had so much to live for and so many people who loved you. I just...I don't know. I want to let you know that just hearing about the kind of person you are inspired me and made me want to become a better person, so I can't imagine what your friends are feeling. I just want to let you know I love you And I'm so sorry that happened to you >< I wish I could bring your back for your friends and your family.

I hope I see you after I die. Make sure you find me! I'll try to be more like you from now on, thanks for helping me see better again.


Lots of love, your old friend.
Lauren Jepson

(And forgive me for all the horrible jokes! It's just my sense of humour. You know I don't mean them.)

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23293606/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23293606/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 17:32:36 PST

Alrighty, lets start the basics:
Name: Lauren Sarah Jepson
Age: 16
Height: 5'3
Eye color: Blue/grey
Hair color: Dirty Blonde

That was positively boring! Now make it more interesting!
Give yourself a first name that is a word you would use to describe mashed potatoes: Creamy
Give yourself a last name that is also a plant: Daffodil
Give yourself an eye color that would cause people to scream: Electric PINK
Give yourself a hair color that would fit this new persona: NEON GREEN

Now you're more interesting!

Name three of your favorite colors:
~Green
~Orange
~Maroon

Name three smells that some people find offensive, but you enjoy.
~Turps (Used to clean things that have had oil paints on them. Probably has other uses but I dunno what they are )
~ Varnish
~ Erm...musk

Fantastic, you're gross. Now, have you ever broken a bone/bones? How did you do it?
~Nope :d I think I almost did when I jumped off the side of some stairs at school though

Those reasons both suck! Now make up a one-sentence story for how you broke your bone/bones that doesn't suck. Thats right, I'm giving you license to lie.
~ I was fighting a fucking TYRANOSOARUS REX AND IT STOOD ON MY FOOT BUT THEN I FUCKING ATE THE BASTARD.

Swearing makes it cooler kids

Name three of your favorite TV shows/webisodes along with two of your favorite characters on each:
-Family Guy
>Lois (Would do her)
>Stweie
-Scrubs
>Elliot Reid (Would do her too )
>Molly Clock (Her an Elliot, fucking...yes mate )
-House M.D.
>House
>Cameron (I think that's how you spell her name, but still, yep.Would do her too.)

Can you tell I'm a teenager ?


Do it again! Replace the second of those characters with a sesame street character!
-Family Guy
>Lois
>COOKIE MONSTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER
-Scrubs
>Elliot Reid
>Big Bird
-House M.D.
>House
> Errrrm. The Green one in the trash can?

Do it again! Replace the first character with an object in the room you are in.
-Family Guy
>Seahorse
>Stweie
-Scrubs
>Dog
>Molly Clock (Her an Elliot, fucking...yes mate )
-House M.D.
>encil Sharpener
>Cameron (I think that's how you spell her name, but still, yep.Would do her too.)

Well, that was silly. Name three weird things that you are afraid of. And we mean really weird.
~Mushrooms...
~ The ocean That fuckers got dangerous things in it! And it's not good to drown either.
~erm...industrial machines

You're honestly afraid of those things? You freak. I hope you die. Now write two haiku. The first about the lunch you had/will have today, and the second about the last time you were fairly ill.
(I feel silly having to explain... ]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23254769/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23254769/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 14:26:12 PST That's really cute. How do I know? I can just tell man.I know you
But it makes me really happy. Good on ya

I am happy man. IT'S SO GOOD

Tomorrow I'm gonna meet my friend Emily. I would do her all over and she knows it She owes me a kiss anyway...need to get her drunk sometime. It's the only way anyone will ever sleep with me ;~;

Haaah I havn't seen her in months!

I love this song. P-PUSH IT REAL GOOD

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23247998/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23247998/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 05:48:39 PST I havn't drank enough water today methinks. I'm quite warm, I went on a pin hunt and came back with just saftey pins and nails D; But I can live with that. I'm sticking them onto a canvas and painting over them. I've done this already, but on canvas board and with big screws/nails. These nails are 25mm so yeah, pretty small. It was just 1£ for 300 grams Which is great if you ask me, I'm gonna be busy this afternoon. I'm gonna cover the canvas...and then I'l gonna do another canvasboard/nails painting. You'll get to see them sometime <3

I brought home some artwork I was doing at school, just quick drawings of hands. So you can look at those later on if I put them up.

Man my headache refuses to go away! XD But that's okay, I just had some of the nicest toast ever...man it was so nice.

I feel better than I did yesterday, I should stop staying up so late. That's when I get sad I suppose I meant everything in that journal though, I barely lie ._.

I really wanna thank Sarah and another mate of mine for talking to me last night man. It's a good sign If people desert you when you're at your worst they don't deserve you at your best.

How are you all doing? Hope things are going well for ya. People in England - it's half term yay! What fun mischeif are you filling your holidays with eh?

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23239534/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23239534/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 16:38:24 PST I miss how I felt.
I miss how you felt.
I miss feeling safe.
I miss feeling invinsible.
I miss feeling proud.
I miss who you used to be.



But I don't miss who you are now. And I know you don't care, and I know you won't think about this because you never did think about things that made you sad. But I like to think about this kind of stuff, resolving problems is much better for you than repressing them. I'm happy that you've got lots of new friends now to support you, as long as you're happy. I can accept everything, hell I don't have a choice, never had a chance either. But that's okay too. It all happens for a reason. It was just such a shame. I hope you don't give up so easiely in everything else you do. I'll get back in touch when I'm at university, you always liked that idea. Just...make sure everything you say in future, you actually mean. Make sure they're not just empty words, or just dreams. Because some people don't have dreams, they know what they want and they'll do anything to get it =/ When what they want is a person who just dreams and never tries...eh, it's not good.

Speak with your actions next time, not your words. Only thing you can judge people on is what they do. Everything else means nothing. It has no consequence.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23238226/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23238226/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 15:28:39 PST
I wanna cuddle you so much man. SO SO MUCH. <3.

Cute mother effer.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23197399/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23197399/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 13:58:20 PST
Nah I'm jokeing - cheer up! Look on the bright side - tomorrow there will be lots of discount chocolates and teddy bears for sale So you can be fat AND lonely! You can be me! *hit* Nah I'm not lonely I got all the love in the world.

To be honest I'm really happy because I didn't have to spend any money this Valentines day *smacked*...I love money man, I love saving it So...not buying anyone anything is just so good for me. SO thank God I didn't have to buy cards and teddys this year...I think I'd prefer to buy people something they actually need/want for Valentines day though Like a nice DVD boxset or something. Speaking of epic boxsets - House season 1. Wow, it's so good. I love it. I would do Cameron all over. I like the episode where House's ex wife first comes in, when he gives three examples of people who had problems with their leg and one turns out to be him. And then the one after that. So good.

Anyway I hope you all had a lovely Valentines Day whether you're with somebody or not. If you're with somebody I hope you have lots of sex. If you're not with somebody I hope you have lots of sex Or at least thought about it. Have fun with that

Lets have something to take your mind off been all lonely Question time:

If you could spend Valentines day with any celebraty, or actor/actress, or anyone remotely famous, who would it be and what would you do with them?

For me, it would be Emma Watson The girl who plays Hermione Granger in the Harry Potter movies. The day would go like this:

Make her some kind of nice breakfast.
Take her out for dinner or tea.
In the evening take her to see one of the Harry Potter movies.
Comment on how her boobs look much bigger on the big screen.
Secretly smile about how angry she's getting with me.
Take her home in the car where we don't speak to each other.
Get home and have very angry sex.

Yesplz.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23155986/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23155986/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 13:05:13 PST Like the second journal this week talking about how I'm in pain?

Well, I hurt myself again today. I didn't fall downstairs this time - I stapled my thumbs

Baisicly, my friend couldn't put the "lid" onto the stapler. It was a really tiny little baby stapler too, so I got it off of her and pressed down on the lid with my thumbs underneath the lid. Since the stapler was so small I didn't realise that my thumbs were at the bit where the staple's come out >( They were, and a staple came out and punctured both of my thumbs XDD

Tpday was a good and fun day school is going well, can't complain. Also on holiday next week, though I reckon I'll be going into school to do some work anyways But I like doing work. So that's good isn't it.

I hope you guys aredoing as well as I am I love you, how're your lifes going at the moment?

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23119905/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23119905/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 12:12:13 PST Epic fail on your part. Sort yourself out damn it.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23082109/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23082109/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 12:34:42 PST That's right good that XDD. I dunno how it happened...good job our stairs arn't all square and hard >( their carpety though, so...pretty much the whole of the right side of my body is carpet burned from my forearm downwards...fuck that's gonna hurt tomorrow XD And it's gonan bleed. Wooo

Today was good I got some homework done, watched a lot of House episodes. Good stuff.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23016738/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23016738/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 08:32:38 PST

They sent us into school again today D< and then sent is home at half past 11. WHY YOU STUPID CUNTBAGS. I don't have lessons until after then damn it D< I mean sure I had a really nice bacon and friend onions sandwicth but it was so pointless ;; WHY DO THIS YOU STUPID SCHOOL. So I'm not going tomorrow. PROTEST. YES. Kiss iiiiit >D.

Well, when we all got home we decided to meet up on the cricket feild and have a massive snowball fight Lasted like 2 hours, was great. But then I decided to go home because I cba I bought some pepsi, crisps and chocolate lol ;D Healthy. Is good...I think I'll go upstairs now, watch family and perhaps draw. Maybe colour. Maybe nothing I love you guys.

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23001499/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/23001499/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 08:02:34 PST
There were 6 kids I think, and the oldest was 16. They were sledding down a hill on top of a car roof (Or a car boot/bonnet, I've heard several things - but that's not really important) and my friends brother who saw it (actually a couple of my friends younger siblings saw it) said they must have been going down at 25mph easy. There was barbed and chicken wire at the bottom of the hill. But they didn't stop. The younger ones ducked, but Franchesca didn't. They all went into the barbed and chicken wire. They must have been shredded to pieces ._. I know two of them (including Franchesca) had big gashes in their foreheads, they're in hospital because of the severity of the injuries. The wires must have just shredded through their skin and muscle. The one that didn't duck, her throat was cut. She died in hospital. I'm not really a big believer in religion or whatever, but I hope she's okay wherever she is.

I'm writeing this to get it off my chest D: cause I knew the girl who died, Franchesca, when I was younger. And I mean really young - like toddler/nursery age. And I don't really think I have a right to feel sad concidering I don't know her at all, I don't know anything about who she was or what she wanted to be. But I still feel kinda sad, especially if she was one of my first friends. I dunno, I feel sorry for all her real friends and relatives. I wanna give them hugs.

What a fucking horrible way to die and lose somebody.


EDIT

I've been reading some newspaper and some news site reports and I could have got some of the information wrong such as the ages of the other girls etc, so don't quote me on anything My mum got out some old pictures of me and Franchesca when she was younger D: and other photos which have me, her and other friends in them. I sorta wish she didn't...it's like, eh. I kinda wish she hadn't moved away, she seems so nice ._. But since I didn't know her personally, I'm gonna try and look after the people who did know her in order to show I care and stuff. Getting the photos out is nice and all to remember, but when it's because you can't actually...touch that person anymore, or a person doesn't really exist to you anymore, it's kinda...really sad and depressing, even though you can look at the photos and remember the good times. It's just, really sad. Hell, why do you think I never look at photo's of my ex Aha, I'm over her, I can get over people pretty easiely. But it doesn't mean I don't miss what we had when we were happy, that goes for old friends too man.

Two more people died today too in seperate inccidents- they were walking the fucking Lake District of all places! It's snowing God damn it, why would you go up there man?!? IT'S DANGEROUS *headdesk* I tell ya man...I like the snow and all, but so many people have died because of it in the past three days >( I think I'll be glad when it goes.

I'm gonna write a new journal shortly to get all of the sadness off my page D; Man, I hope no one else dies. I fucking love people.

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Seriously though, my school is about as useful as a handbreak on a kanoo - they let us go to school on the busses, then when we got to school sent us back home It took us an hour to chuffing get there! So I got up at half past 6...to get shipped back home for about half 9. Holy crap, how pointless. Waste of time >( I could have slept and everything ;;

But still, I think I'll ring up some friends and see if they'd like to get together or something This will probably not work though lol So I'll just do some work perhaps, or go on the PS2...or draw, or maybe rtead Spoilt for choice. I hope school is closed tomorrow too, I'm not a big fan of Wednesdays, even though I have the same lessons everyday I just don't like going on work experience so much, I don't really do a lot and it's cold in the classrooms (I do work experience at a primary school acorss the road from my Sixthform). But they might still be closed tomorrow, even if my school is not. So...hope! Yay~


I'm gonna ring some friends now, snow days are very good X3. I hope you guys are haveing a good day. Let me know how you are, see you later

]]> ~AmberSpike http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/22959823/ http://AmberSpike.deviantart.com/journal/22959823/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 08:28:59 PST I'm gonna put some on though, my brother will be home soon.

So, people in England, how snowed up are you? We have a good few inches down here in South Yorkshire. It's goooood.

I love eeeeet today was a good day, I hope yours was too.

I'm improved drasticly in English Language and Literature I could get all A's if I tried...I think I'll try

Now, I don't really have anything to do so I could play on the PS2, watch some DVD's or draw...hmmm...I'm not sure what I should do aha :d I do have a massive craving for food though. I'm not even hungry though

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