http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Ameliamalfoy&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Ameliamalfoy en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 03 Dec 2009 21:12:06 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/28678973/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/28678973/ Mon, 30 Nov 2009 19:03:43 PST Okay first I am going to get a few small things out of the way before I go on to the better part of this post. I’ve been gone for a long while because of NaNoWriMo, which I explained in an earlier post. I got to 50,000, actually I got 50,112 words and I still have four more scenes to write. One of them isn’t really important to the whole story but I like making my characters suffer, its fun to write and I think readers like it too. So that’s what has been going on in my day to day normal life.

Now onto what this post is really about. Yesterday I had my first experience of someone being generally rude about me identifying as trans. I hang out in the student center at my school and most of people are really cool about my gender identity, as I found out yesterday all of them respect it except for one. Now this kid is the same age as me, a freshman in college, and for a guy of 18 has no social skills at all. But while I was not in the student center, I was getting food, I heard from one of the girls that hangs out there that this kid said that “I try to be transgender.” Now, unless I know the person really well this just sounds like shitty made up gossip but I was still going to approach the guy who said it, nicely and calmly because if he hadn’t said it I would probably feel like a total ass for yelling at him. Turns out that that was exactly what he had said. And he continued to dig himself a deeper hole by saying (while I was yelling at him) that I was just faking it. I didn’t punch him, though I sure as hell felt like it. But I snapped at him, asking him if he really thought I would go through all of the shit I go through just to be pretending (he said yes, that’s exactly what he thought). I told him he was a fucking idiot and sat down in front of my computer, blared my music, and ignored people unless they tapped me on the shoulder so I could take my headphones off. That’s what I do when I’m mad as shit, I block everyone out.

But the worst thing is I had no idea how to deal with it. I didn’t know what to say to him, I just wanted to beat the shit out of him and though that may have been a way to let out my anger it probably would not have made him take back his words. And I can’t tell my mom about this because she has no idea that I’m trans, I’m too scared to tell her and every time we talk about gender she has this stereotyped view of it. So besides almost punching the shit out of a guy and then crying because I don’t really have anyone to tell, well I do since I’m telling you all, but still. I still have no idea what I should have said, and I know I should have said more. What made me happy was that the other guys were really nice to me, saying that that was a shit thing for him to do, and these are guys that I barely know or barely know me. That was cool, made me feel accepted when I usually don’t.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/28122777/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/28122777/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 10:37:28 PST Oh and I got my hair cut, since it was getting long and driving me insane. It's really awesome though my mom doesn't like it styled the way it is right now. She says it makes me look like a guy, and everyone knows that when my mom says that it makes me like it even more. It should be fun to mess around with tonight, see what I can do with it tomorrow.
And if anyone cares I'm currently at a 2,822 word count. I'm behind but I'm not too worried about it right now. This time last year I was doing much worse and I still made it.
Alright, back to writing. I may post something really quick later this month if I have the time, just a small excerpt that will go in a journal entry.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/28054238/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/28054238/ Fri, 30 Oct 2009 21:14:39 PDT Anyway, NaNoWriMo starts on the first of November and I will be writing Gabriel's story. I need help with two things. The first is I have no idea what I will be naming this book, and this is a slight problem (more of a personal problem than anything). I've been thinking of quite a few but none fit it like I want them to. So far I have 'Tell Me I'm an Angel,' 'Take This to My Grave,' 'Dead End Highway,' 'The Underground,' 'Underground Ghosts,' and 'Burning Bridges.' My favorites so far are 'Dead End Highway' and 'Underground Ghosts'. The problem is Dead End sounds kind of cliche and Underground fits Chucks story so well it's not even funny (so if I ever do write Chuck's story then that's what I want to name the book). So tell me what you think, especially about those last two. And if you can think of anything tell me that too, and of course if you have any questions about Gabriel and his story leave a comment.
The other thing, winners of NaNo can have a free copy of their book made (only one copy) and it looks like a regular paper back book. So if anyone wants to make a cover for my book do so, and start now. I might make it into some sort of competition, but that all depends on how many people are interested and if I can think of any prizes. And getting the copy of the book would not be one of the prizes, for very selfish reasons but hey... I can be a little selfish from time to time.
My Halloween is going to be spent writing a seven page research paper and a paper for my English class. And also sleeping, which is what I'm going to do right now.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/27912128/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/27912128/ Thu, 22 Oct 2009 19:01:48 PDT Oh boy is this short... Sorry you guys.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/27690527/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/27690527/ Sat, 10 Oct 2009 15:47:55 PDT Anyway, I think I'm going to spam all of my watchers with a bunch of my really sucky art. And to make up for all of that really sucky art I may just update with some writing! Key word being 'may' and you all know how bad I am with updating.
So I finally got my scanner to work which means that art that I've been wanting to update since last semester when I had my art class is finally scanned and sitting on my computer. But since I haven't done this in awhile I'm going to hand out artist suggestions, this includes people that I don't think get enough attention and people who I think are amazing and funny and I wish I knew them because they seem like really good people.
Ok, first a comic that is being written and drawn by one of my best friends, there's only 6 (?) pages up, there may be more which is why there's a little question mark there. It's cute and funny and has a lot of potential for amazingness, which I'm sure it will reach. go look!!
Another artist is one of the most humorous people I have found on dA, and I've found a lot of funny people on dA. I would link to pretty much every comic strip that she's done but I'll only find one that I think is brilliant. [link] Her stuff is so funny that I go back quite frequently and re-read the strips. They make good days even better and a bad day a little better. So... yeah go.
And lastly, just because I love this strip and it's kind of totally true it get's it's own link... by all means go check out the artist's whole gallery but I think this piece deserves it's own little spot. [link] And if you have no idea who they are talking about... then shame on you for not reading Death Note by now.

Alright that's it... Going to update some more and then write some so I can give that to you before tomorrow.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/27110882/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/27110882/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 09:49:30 PDT Just so everyone knows my friend Chris and I have 13 pages planned out and everyday we get more done. So by tonight we may have five more ideas, but what with both of us being in college the updates may be a bit slow. I'm not gonna say if I'll update once a week or twice a week or once a month because I always screw that shit up.
I'm also not going to promise any new writing any time soon. I have a few pieces that I've started but have yet to finish and I may post those on my tumblr soon. So I'm in psychology, not paying attention (obviously) and the teacher just said something about erections and I'm pretty sure half the class sat up for that brief moment in hope that they were going to hear something good. Thought that was funny, and I thought you aught to know.
Alright, I'm done wasting your time.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/27021315/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/27021315/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 18:33:17 PDT Alright, this will be the only place that I'm going to go into detail as to what's going on with my tattoo. As alot of people know I went to talk to the guys at Psycho Tattoo about getting an appointment set up to get my tattoo today. I found out that they have one set appointment for tomorrow so I was going to set up my appointment (you have to put down 50$ to secure your appointment and then that money will go towards the final price of the tattoo). I call my mom and find out that both her and my father have to go to the Georgia dome to work at the football game (long and complicated thing involving my brother being in marching band). And beside that she points out the fact that my dad never had to put down 50 dollars, but this was because he walked in and got it done. So she wanted me to talk to my dad and see if I should make an appointment. I do this and he agrees with me but then asks me if I'm really ready to get this tattoo. He also asks me if I have enough money for this and if I have nothing better to spend my money on. His conclusion at the end of our conversation; we need to talk because he doesn't think I'm ready to get this tattoo. My dad and I have yet to talk, but if you really want to know I'll update everyone on that when we do have the conversation.
So no tattoo this weekend, and this is weekend I really want to get it done too (I have both Monday and Tuesday off so extra days to let the tattoo heal before I start carrying around my book bag). You know, it doesn't really bug me that I'm not getting it this weekend. What really bugs me is that my parents don't trust me enough to let me get a tattoo. If this ends up being a mistake like 10 years from now then it will my mistake and I will take full blame for it. But really, I've been thinking about this tattoo for quite a while now and I've been completely sober while thinking about it.
Good news of today, I figured out a way to bind my chest without a sports bra, layers, or bandages. I'm very proud of myself and I must say that once I figure out who I'm going to be for Halloween it will be awesome.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26823584/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26823584/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 19:00:55 PDT The tattoo is going on my arm. I know it's gonna hurt and I know I've switched from my arm to my back and back again quite a few times but I really don't like my back. So... there you go.
Classes are going well, though they take up way too much of my time. I get early weekends, which is nice. I really hope that someone calls for a job interview soon so that I can get some money (I really need it). Then once I get a job I'll probably be busy until forever. One of the things that sucks about growing up.
I've started to really work on editing and rewriting The Quiet Things. I want to get it done before November (since November is NaNoWriMo). Alrighty... this random but I need to go to bed. I have to wake up early and drive to school and then work on my paper during all of my 2 1/2 hour breaks. Hopefully I'll get it done. Thankfully it's just a rough draft and it doesn't count as a grade, as long as we have something written down.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26638939/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26638939/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 22:08:02 PDT

... By my neighbor. My mom was downstairs sitting on the oversized chair shaking and hot. She's in the hospital and I still have to go to school in the morning. I can't stop crying, I keep trying not hyperventilate and I feel like I'm going to throw up. I need people, but it's one in the morning and I have no idea in hell how to get a hold of anyone.
Sorry this is rather depressing, I'll update soon with something happier.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26591064/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26591064/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 13:58:24 PDT So I leave you with this very small piece I've been working on (well on and off). It's not finished yet, which is why it's in a journal. Enjoy! Oh and comment people, I love comments!

“Well shit, you haven’t talked to me in a long time.” Chuck laughed as his arms wrapped around me in a comforting hug.
“We’ve both been busy, so don’t be blaming the loss of communication between us on just me.” I snuggled in closer to his chest, the familiar smell of the cigarettes he always smoked clung to his shirt. “Speaking of, where have you been for the past month?” He didn’t answer instantly, and when I pulled away his arms gave way without a fight. “What’s wrong?” Chuck scratched the pack of his neck and looked down at his feet without saying a word. “Don’t you dare not tell me what’s going on, I will no be out of the loop again. Do you remember what happened last time?”
Chucks face grimaced with the pain of the memories that really were only a year old; he remembered just as well as I did what had passed. Our time with Thing One and Thing Two was not something any of us would want to experience again, we really didn’t want it to happen the first time but that was almost beyond our control. I had been angry with both Lucas and Chuck before, but now that Lucas was back in hell for a little while Chuck was going to take the full blame if anything went wrong.
“It’s about Gabriel,” He sighed. My insides crumbled and I could feel tears stinging my eyes. Chuck noticed quickly and started shaking his head. “He’s not dead, I mean he is but he can’t die again.” I placed a horribly aimed and weak punch on Chuck’s shoulder and he looked down at me in confusion.
“You ass, is something wrong or not?” I growled, ready to hit him again even though I knew it had no effect on him.
“Well,” a pause for him to scratch the back of his neck again, “kind of. No one knows where Gabriel is, not even Eth and you know how strongly connected they are.” Eth was the one who made Gabriel who he was today, they were conscious of each others whereabouts even in their sleep.

Ps. I don't think any of you know who Eth is. You'll find out much later, all you get to know about him right now is that he is very important to Gabriel's story and his full name is Ethanol (no one calls him that though).

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26482260/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26482260/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 18:41:40 PDT 1. publish these rules in your journal
2. each tagged person will write 8 things about themselves in their journals.
3. at the end you will choose 8 people who will be tagged and publish their icons.
4. go to their page and send a message to let them know they've been tagged.
5. don't tag the person who has tagged you.

1. I love looking through the Better Homes and Gardens magazine, they have random facts all over the place plus the gardens look gorgeous in that magazine.
2. People tend to think of me being really obsessed with gay men, one of my friend's thinks that I have an unhealthy obsession with them (but really there is no such thing as an unhealthy obsession when it comes to gay people.)
3. I would be happier with my body if I didn't have boobs and if I had a penis.
4. I hate how more people are popular with their shitty art then I am with my good writing.
5. I'm somewhat egotistical when it comes to my writing, I know it's good damnit.
6. I love making quirky side comments during serious movies.
7. I get giggly when I stay up too late, it's one of the signs that tells me I should be in bed sleeping.
8. I have a small fear of growing up, or of the future, or maybe it's the fear of the unknown.

I'm not going to tag anyone. If your bored then do it and watch The Day After Tomorrow as your doing it.

I'm currently watching 15 Most Notorious Women on E! One of the cases on the show was when a girl was being bullied via the internet. They found out that the "guy" who was bullying her was actually an older woman who lived in the same neighborhood. The girl actually killed herself. What I don't understand is how web bullying is so effective. If someone is bullying you on the internet you can just close out of the page, you don't have to talk to that person anymore, you can block them if they keep trying to talk to you.
I just wanted to put that down because I really have nothing better to do right now. I start school in a week and my birthday is in 6 days. I'm having a small party, like only 5 people are invited. Oh and you know the Sham-Wow guy, well he's in another infomercial, apparently you'll like his nuts.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26346381/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26346381/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 20:45:13 PDT 10, well I got up before then but I wasn't out of bed and my eyes weren't quite open.

2. How do you like your steak?
medium, but I haven't had a steak in a good three years so...

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

4. What is your favorite TV show?
One that's still playing... So You Think You Can Dance, or Kings

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
England, as long as I could visit my friends or my friends could visit me at any time

6. What did you have for breakfast?
nothing, and I only had a salad for lunch

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
I'm open to anything, it all depends on what mood I'm in

8. What foods do you dislike?
I don't like some Italian foods, like lasagna

9. Favorite Place to Eat?
I love places with personality, like Joe's Crab Shack or Logan's steakhouse

10. Favorite dressing?
Ranch, you can mix anything with Ranch and it tastes wonderful

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
a Scion XA her name is Frank

12. What are your favorite clothes?
My black blazer, my Taking Back Sunday shirt, and jeans... or just a pair of boxers and tee shirt

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
Any place I haven't been

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
depends on my mood, I usually don't think about the cup being half full or empty I just know when I need some more to drink

15. Where would you want to retire?
I haven't been to alot of places, so I don't know

16. Favorite time of day?
sunrise, especially when it rains the night before

17. Where were you born?
Okinawa Japan

18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Rugby or Hockey, or anything where there is a very good chance you'll see blood

*Yes I deleted 18-21... I didn't like them.*

22. Bird watcher?
well it depends on the bird, but no I don't go out to the middle of the woods and look for birds with a book in my hand so that I can identify them

23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Usually a night person

24. Pets?
my baby, Emmett

25. Any new and exciting news that you'd like to share?
Well Em looks creepy from the glow of my laptop

26. What did you want to be when you were little?
A vet

27. What is your best childhood memory?
I tend to remember some bad things so... my arm being stepped on my a pony

28. Are you a cat or dog person?
I'm accepting, I don't think we should have to chose between the two

29. Are you married?
no... god now. Who the hell would marry me.

30. Always wear your seat belt?
yeah, unless I'm in the trunk of my truck or if I'm moving my car to the next door neighbors

31. Been in a car accident?
Yeah, but I was in a big freaking truck and no one was hurt (oh if Jeff read this he'd totally say something but he's a pussy)

32. Any pet peeves?
Quite a few, but I can't think of any right now

33. Favorite pizza topping?
Meat Lovers from Papa Johns

34. Favorite Flower?
I love roses, like the really pretty bright colored ones, or lily's

35. Favorite ice cream?
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough, or coffee, or any kind of Starbucks ice cream... really I could eat almost every kind of ice cream

36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
Arby's if only for their curly fries

37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
none, and I'm pretty sure I'll be fine on the actual driving portion

38. From whom did you get your last email?
I don't remember (that tells you how long its been since I got an email)

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Probably Hot Topic, they've got band tee's and awesome guy pants

40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
not really, I get boring over the summer

41. Like your job?
I don't have one yet, but I am applying for a few soon

42. Broccoli?
smothered in melted cheese

43. What was your favorite vacation?
I loved my vacation to NC a few years ago, but it left me depressed so... any trip to Disney World

44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
I think with my mom and Scott, no... my dad and my mom

45. What are you listening to right now?
Comedy Channel though I'm not really paying attention

46. What is your favorite color?
red, grey, and black

47. How many tattoos do you have?
soon I'll have one, so very soon

48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
I'll tag whoe... ]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26346374/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26346374/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 20:45:03 PDT 10, well I got up before then but I wasn't out of bed and my eyes weren't quite open.

2. How do you like your steak?
medium, but I haven't had a steak in a good three years so...

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

4. What is your favorite TV show?
One that's still playing... So You Think You Can Dance, or Kings

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
England, as long as I could visit my friends or my friends could visit me at any time

6. What did you have for breakfast?
nothing, and I only had a salad for lunch

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
I'm open to anything, it all depends on what mood I'm in

8. What foods do you dislike?
I don't like some Italian foods, like lasagna

9. Favorite Place to Eat?
I love places with personality, like Joe's Crab Shack or Logan's steakhouse

10. Favorite dressing?
Ranch, you can mix anything with Ranch and it tastes wonderful

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
a Scion XA her name is Frank

12. What are your favorite clothes?
My black blazer, my Taking Back Sunday shirt, and jeans... or just a pair of boxers and tee shirt

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
Any place I haven't been

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
depends on my mood, I usually don't think about the cup being half full or empty I just know when I need some more to drink

15. Where would you want to retire?
I haven't been to alot of places, so I don't know

16. Favorite time of day?
sunrise, especially when it rains the night before

17. Where were you born?
Okinawa Japan

18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Rugby or Hockey, or anything where there is a very good chance you'll see blood

*Yes I deleted 18-21... I didn't like them.*

22. Bird watcher?
well it depends on the bird, but no I don't go out to the middle of the woods and look for birds with a book in my hand so that I can identify them

23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Usually a night person

24. Pets?
my baby, Emmett

25. Any new and exciting news that you'd like to share?
Well Em looks creepy from the glow of my laptop

26. What did you want to be when you were little?
A vet

27. What is your best childhood memory?
I tend to remember some bad things so... my arm being stepped on my a pony

28. Are you a cat or dog person?
I'm accepting, I don't think we should have to chose between the two

29. Are you married?
no... god now. Who the hell would marry me.

30. Always wear your seat belt?
yeah, unless I'm in the trunk of my truck or if I'm moving my car to the next door neighbors

31. Been in a car accident?
Yeah, but I was in a big freaking truck and no one was hurt (oh if Jeff read this he'd totally say something but he's a pussy)

32. Any pet peeves?
Quite a few, but I can't think of any right now

33. Favorite pizza topping?
Meat Lovers from Papa Johns

34. Favorite Flower?
I love roses, like the really pretty bright colored ones, or lily's

35. Favorite ice cream?
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough, or coffee, or any kind of Starbucks ice cream... really I could eat almost every kind of ice cream

36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
Arby's if only for their curly fries

37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
none, and I'm pretty sure I'll be fine on the actual driving portion

38. From whom did you get your last email?
I don't remember (that tells you how long its been since I got an email)

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Probably Hot Topic, they've got band tee's and awesome guy pants

40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
not really, I get boring over the summer

41. Like your job?
I don't have one yet, but I am applying for a few soon

42. Broccoli?
smothered in melted cheese

43. What was your favorite vacation?
I loved my vacation to NC a few years ago, but it left me depressed so... any trip to Disney World

44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
I think with my mom and Scott, no... my dad and my mom

45. What are you listening to right now?
Comedy Channel though I'm not really paying attention

46. What is your favorite color?
red, grey, and black

47. How many tattoos do you have?
soon I'll have one, so very soon

48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
I'll tag whoe... ]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26315545/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26315545/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 10:17:45 PDT And that's all that is happening... such a short journal.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26281310/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26281310/ Thu, 30 Jul 2009 17:00:42 PDT
Oh and something creepy and disgusting, there is a spider stuck in the downstairs television. You can see it moving, like it's on top of the screen but it's just underneath. I can't watch Reba without being freaked out by the freaking spider that's crawling all over.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26117187/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26117187/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 16:57:27 PDT But at that moment I wasn't unhappy, nor was I happy, I was just numb. I was completely aware of my surroundings, which might have surprised me if I was attentive to my feelings. The sun was making a slow rise over the horizon, it was still low enough that the light was barely peeking over the edge but if was enough for me to know the sun was coming. The birds had started their chirping before the sun had even started to climb, when was still dark out and any human would have thought of it being night. Sea gulls swept by overhead paying me no mind while they searched the waters down below for food. A few would sink down until they dived below the surface in a quick streak, seconds later they would return with a small fish between their beaks and swallow it quickly before returning to the sky looking for more food.
It didn't take me long to come to a decision, once the finally broke free of the watery surface and warm light shone fully on my face, that's when I slipped off the edge. Wind whipped around me, sending my short hair flying away from my forehead. The feeling of falling wasn't as horrifying as I had imagined it to be. The wind stung my skin but for those brief seconds it was calming. But my eyes were fully open and even though they were watering from the sting of the wind I could still see the water creeping closer and closer.
I felt like I had been hit by a large truck going 50 miles per hour and I held my breath thinking I had plunged underwater. But I wasn't wet, and I could still feel the wind along my skin. Yet there was something new too, I was no longer falling this time I was flying and when I opened my eyes I noticed quickly the two arms wrapped around my waist.
It's worth it" a familiar voice whispered in my ear. "All the pain, all the heartache, all of that is worth the happiness and the wonderful moments that will happen along the way."
It wasn't long before I was placed on steady ground and was able to face the one who had saved me. I knew it was Gabriel before I even turned around, I knew it was him when he had spoke to me while we were in the air. His large gray wings were spread out as far as they could go which gave him an air of greatness. But his blue eyes were narrowed in anger and though I know he would never hurt me I feared him then. His wings folded against his back in a sudden rush of air and he took a couple steps towards me.
"Don't ever do that again." It was simple and I knew better then to snap back a cocky comment. He continued to walk past me and I had to turn to watch him walk towards my car. I followed behind silently, keeping my head bent so that I watched the ground as I walked. The car ride home was quiet but by the time we reached home he was in a better mood and when I looked at him I could give him a genuine smile.

This is the somewhat finished version. I didn't make any corrections to the first part because no one made any comments.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26048461/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/26048461/ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 16:22:40 PDT The day after we got there, which I think was Monday, we went to Magical Kingdom. There were two big bummers of the day, Space Mountain was closed until like November because their fixing it up or putting new stuff in or something like that. And then while the big group of us were in line for Big Thunder Mountain Railroad is broke down and the cast members didn't know when it would be back up so they got us all out of line. A smaller bummer was that my camera ran out of juice at the end of the day so I didn't get any pictures of Cinderella's castle at night but I did get a lot of freaking pictures of that castle during the day.
The second day we went to Sea World, which isn't part of Disney but it's like five minutes from our hotel and it seems every time my family and I go to Disney we go to Sea World. I actually had fun petting the sting ray's, before when I touched them I got freaked out because they feel kind of slimy. But that was like three or four years ago. They have a dolphin nursery there too, which I don't remember being there the last time I went. And it's safe to say those are the cutest little things I've ever seen. They had two older dolphins in there that were like 1 to 2 years old and they were the biggest attentions whores I've ever seen. As soon as one of them saw a camera he would be right in front of it, so I got a lot of really cute pictures of them. I got a couple of pictures of Shamu too, since our big group went to two different shows. That was one of the biggest whales I've ever seen. He was huge.
The third day was a mix of Animal Kingdom and Hollywood Studios. We had to leave Animal Kingdom at noon because we had reservations at a restaurant at Hollywood Studios at 3. So we didn't get to do a lot at Animal Kingdom. Which really sucked because I still haven't gone on Mount Everest. By now we were all really tired of each other, at least I was tired of everyone so we went back to the hotel early. The next day we went back to Hollywood Studios because my mom thought we missed the most out of that one, the others went on the Hollywood Tower of Terror ride and watched a show the day before. The only thing I wanted to do was watch the stunt show Lights Camera Action and go on The Rockin' Roller Coaster, since I had never been on that before. A couple of us went on the roller coaster twice, it was so much fun. We left the park rather early and went to the pool at the hotel.
Then the last day we went to Epcot, which is my favorite of all the parks. Test Track was down with technical difficulties in the morning but we went on it later in the afternoon before we went to the World Showcase. I bought a really pretty red and gold mask in Italy and that ate the rest of my money. Which is a slight bummer since I found a little Vaporeon figurine in Japan (yes I'm talking about the Pokemon here). So I lost 100 bucks in a week, but I bought all the stuff I really wanted. I wanted a pair of fuzzy dice for Frank (my car), I bought two pins the Mickey gay pride one and the Mickey British flag one. I also found a silk bracelet with Think Happy Thoughts written on it (this makes me happy to no end.) I also got a new pair of boxers, they have Jack Skellington on them, they're comfy as fuck. And I think that's all I bought, my dad bought me a Mustang hat and my mom owed me a sweatshirt because we made a bet.
I'll add some of the better pictures from my trip, a few of them came out quite nice. The rest I'll probably just put on Facebook or Myspace.
That's pretty much it, I started rewriting The Quiet Things, finally, but I haven't gotten very far since I've been really busy.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/25878562/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/25878562/ Sat, 11 Jul 2009 11:28:48 PDT
]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/25683028/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/25683028/ Sat, 04 Jul 2009 08:41:24 PDT Happy 4th. That's not why I'm writing this, actually I have no idea why I'm writing this. I'm just very very bored.
I got my car yesterday, it's a nice little grey Scion XA. I love it death and I'll make sure to put some pictures of it up later (which means like tomarrow or so).
I'll be spending the rest of the day at Zoe's, because she's awesome and is having a party. So that's where I'm going right now. If anyone wants to talk just leave a comment or send me a note.

I’ve come to the realization that it’s probably a bad idea to listen to any CD by Snow Patrol when you’re trying to keep your mind off someone who means something to you. You could hate that person, love that person, be mad at that person, or you could be drunk and have no idea what you’re feeling about that person but you know your feeling something. I’ve also come to the realization that when you’re playing solitaire on the computer and you’re clicking through the cards; chances are you just saw the card you need to win the whole game but you’re too far gone to hit the undo button. Both of these realizations suck, but most realizations aren’t good things. We’ve already noticed the good things so they can not possibly be realizations.
So imagine, if you will, a young girl no older than you, bored out of her wits so much so that she’s gone through at least a hundred games of solitaire and is listening to Snow Patrol’s “Final Straw” CD on a constant loop of repeat. The area surrounding the computer screen is cluttered with witting utensils, an unsolved Rubik’s cube, and blank note cards (among other things). A sliding drawer beneath the desk that’s supposed to hold the keyboard (which is instead on top of the desk) is open to reveal a lime green cell phone that hasn’t rung in days and a open notebook sitting on a stack of papers. She doesn’t pay any mind to either objects, she’s used to the phone not ringing and she currently can’t think of anything to write in the notebook. Occasionally she pauses her game of solitaire and dips a finger into the pool of sugar still left in the bottom of the otherwise empty Sour Patch Kids bag, which lies to the left of her keyboard. The plastic bag is close enough so that it brushes her hand every once and a great while, but not enough to annoy her and move the bag.
The room surrounding the desk isn’t really important; though the door is open and lets in a stream of dialogue from the television that’s still on downstairs whenever the music reaches a low enough volume. Out of the corner of her eyes she can see her basket of overflowing dirty clothes, and she does notice that the pajama outfit laying on top isn’t dirty at all and she’ll probably slip it on after taking a shower once she finally wins a game of solitaire. She notices the arrival of a new presence as soon as it enters her room but she doesn’t turn to look at him. She lets out a breath that she didn’t know she was holding and the muscles in her back relaxed even though she hadn’t looked tense when the visitor had arrived. He didn’t say anything, he just walked over to the chair she was sitting in a wrapped his arms loosely around her shoulders. She could feel the brush of soft feathers against her arms from his wings, and the warmth of comfort seemed to enwrap her just like he did.
“I miss you,” she whispered, her voice barely breaking the steady stream of music. He would have heard her no matter what, even if she hadn’t said a word. He held her tighter before suddenly letting her go completely. The cold air made her finally turn in her seat and look about the room to find that there was no one there. Everything in her room was still in place; the blanket on her bed still thrown haphazardly to the side and a pair of jeans lying in a crumpled pile in the center of the room. “Hmm….” She said to herself in wonder before going back to her long losing streak in solitaire.

I wrote this today mostly because I was bored and couldn't write in an actual story; and because I was thinking about someone. Comments are welcome. That's all that's really going on. Sorry, but Gabriel's story isn't done yet, it's longer than I thought it'd be.
I'll have pictures of my new car up as soon as I actually get it. Which is Friday.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/25436424/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/25436424/ Sat, 20 Jun 2009 14:30:35 PDT I've been looking at cars, and I'll be getting one before I go away to Disney. So once I get it I'll tell you what make and model it is. Maybe I'll even put a picture up, if I can figure out how. And I'm slowly saving money for my BJD, I can't wait to get him but I probably won't get him for a while since I don't have a job right now. But I'm getting my tattoo soon after I start school.
There's not much else that I'm doing so if you want to talk just send me a note. Most of the time I'm bored and have nothing to do.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24932010/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24932010/ Sun, 24 May 2009 20:54:36 PDT But if you have a doll can you let me know what type of doll, if you bought it second hand, and bought with face up. If you're thinking of getting a doll which doll do you want and with what. And for both groups if you know of any helpful websites other than den of angels.

That's it, I know it's quick.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24894634/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24894634/ Fri, 22 May 2009 17:27:09 PDT I have a few more things to write down but I'll do those a little bit later. Right now I'm gonna convince my parents to give me one graduation present before I go over to Zoe's house.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24564274/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24564274/ Sun, 03 May 2009 11:05:45 PDT [link] Right now it's still in progress but the comic strips that are on the website are really funny. And the author even has a dA account! So you should go watch her just like I do!

Three more weeks of school, and I really don't want it to end. Well I do but at the same time I don't. I'll miss all my friends who aren't graduating, which is pretty much all of them. But I'm not going too far, only to Kennesaw and I'll definatly visit. Alrighty... new subject since I'm not gone yet.

Art
I promise to update more soon. I'll be putting up new pieces of The Quiet Things at least once every week. Probably during the weekend since that's when I spend the most time on the internet. I just finished coloring the main part of a picture of Greg and Valentine, though I'm not too sure how people will react on here. I still have to finish the background, which I probably won't even start drawing until next weekend.
And very soon I will scan the picture of Gerard Way I drew quite a while ago. I'm gonna sell it so if any one wants to buy it just name a price and I'll probably give it to you. If I have more than one person who wants it I'll try to make copies but I'm still not sure about that.
When I get done with my art class I'll be uploading like a fucking fiend. There are quite a few pieces that I'm very happy with.
I haven't written anything that's a complete little snipit in a while. I always start things and then move onto something else. I'm not working on a solid story which isn't helping me write at all. But there are definatly two different scenes with Greg and Valentine that I want to have done by the end of school. I may not post both on here but who knows.

The End
I think that's all I have to talk about. Leave some comments and critique on the part I just posted and make me happy. Expect a new journal on Saturday or early Sunday since I'm actually going to the prom. Might be good might be bad, we all have to wait and see.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24327838/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24327838/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 14:43:03 PDT
Oh and don't worry, something new artistic wise is coming soon. And I'll be selling a picture I drew based on this picture of Gerard Way... okay I can't find the picture on the internet, but it's on my iPod (so that means it was orginally on the internet). anyways... i hope that wasn't too bad of a journal. I don't want to reread it cause I'm slowly starting to feel a little better.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24202868/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24202868/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 14:19:48 PDT Oh... and another reason I'm not feeling too hot right now is one of my friends from NC called. I hate thinking about that place, too many bad and good memories. Makes me angry at the shitty memories and sad that I can't go back to the way things were before I moved to GA. OH wells.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24071893/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/24071893/ Sun, 05 Apr 2009 08:52:37 PDT
I really don't like spring break. I'm going to Albany Georgia for almost a whole week and then I'm going to Tampa. If anyone wants to take my place my parents are leaving today. I've seriously thought about staying home but my parents are pressuring me into going. I plan on writting, drawing, and blarring music while by myself in the room that I have at my dad's apartment.
Speaking of my dad have I ever told you just how much of an ass he is? I'm pretty sure I have.
This journal is becoming pointless. As soon as I have time I'll scan some of the stuff I've been doing for art class and post it. I haven't been able to write anything good or complete for awhile because I've been so busy. I feel like shit.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/23597591/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/23597591/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 18:13:49 PDT
Who watches the Watchmen?
I do... and I loved it. It was almost page for page like the comic book, though they did have to take out the comic book within the comic book. Which means there none of the smaller stuff with the newspaper vender.
I can't pick my favorite part, but the beginning where they kind of introduced the characters was amazing. Rorschach will forever be my favorite character, in book and movie. He just kicks ass.
And for everyone at my school who talks to me, beware because tomarrow i will be talking nonstop about the movie.

Sunburns suck
I don't know why i felt like I needed to go out in the sun today but it was a really nice day and i do like the outdoors. So i went outside... and got sunburnt. My shoulders, my chest, my upper back, and my legs are all sun burnt. I'm luky that I didn't have on my bathing suit top or else I'd be compleatly burnt. I'd be a walking lobster.

I wrote something the other day but it's not finished quite yet but hopefully i'll have it up some time soon.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/23543247/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/23543247/ Thu, 05 Mar 2009 15:55:44 PST
]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/23456743/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/23456743/ Sat, 28 Feb 2009 18:37:13 PST The Good
I finally get to go to bed, or at least I will as soon as I get done with this journal.
And if you've never heard of fmylife.com than I highly suggest you go there now.

The Bad
I started drivers ed today, it's not all that fun. We had to watch a really disgusting video today too. At least I know someone.

The Wonderful
I have a boyfriend. It makes me happy because he's cute and incredibly sweet. And he has a dA account... [link]
The weird thing is his ex-girlfriend and one of my friends who i no longer really talk to anymore friended me on facebook the day after he asked me out. I laughed at the irony.

Now I'm going to sleep because i'm dead tired

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/23344275/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/23344275/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 13:46:45 PST
I just finished reading 1984 by George Orwell, I have to read it for my AP language class. Trust me, I would have never picked up the book if it hadn't been for school. I must say that it wasn't a horrible book, but it wasn't wonderful either. It didn't start getting interesting until the main character fell in love with Julie. And then he becomes a pussy and doesn't stick with rebeling against the insane government. If you start to rebel then stay with it, don't drop out when you finally get somewhere. If you've ever read the book than you know what I'm talking about. I don't think it's a good enough book to suggest but if you liked Brave New World than 1984 is your kind of book. Brave New World scared the shit out of me though.

So.. my mom finally took me to Best Buy today, and they did not have the new cd by Thursday there, which is the whole reason I wanted to go there. It pisses me off. I still got a Thursday cd, 'War All The Time' which has Signals Over the Air and Tomarrow I'll be You on it. I adore Thursday, my mom on the other hand thinks that they're too loud.

I'm not gonna promise anything new. Since I have yet to start rewritting "The Quiet Things" and the only things I've really drawn have been for my art class. Though the other day I did start on something based off a picture of Gerard Way, which I can't find on the internet right now soo... It's pretty freaking awesome and I'm very proud of it considering I can't really take a picture and get something from it. Not in this way at least.

Anyway, if anyone wants to talk just note me or something. I get really bored on the weekends and would have probably written a journal earlier but I had to get that stupid book done.

-AMI

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/22315056/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/22315056/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 20:36:32 PST
I'm sick of my family, at least i'm sick of my mom and my grandma. everyone leaves me alone and is actually polite, so I can live with them being in my house for a week. i think they're leaving on the second, so really one more day before they're gone and everything is back to normal.

i've been in an unusual mood, or phase because it involves more than one actual mood. i've been switching from to depressed to actually alright and then right back to depressed. i don't know if this would be considered just regular mood swings because usually i don't have mood swings. so this is different for me and not very much liked.

i had a good christmas, i think it was partly because i was just glad to be home. i got my Ray Ban sunglasses, which i've wanted for quite a while. and i also got queer as folk season three, all i need is season 4 and 5 before i have the complete series. i'm beginning to think that it would have been so much easier to just buy the whole series boxed set but i can't change that now. i also got some bright colored clothing, which Sierra has already seen because i ran into her at the mall. so expect that on the first day of school when we go back. unless i'm not feeling to well than it will probably just be my usual clothes.
i also got a Murder by Death cd, which i've also wanted for quite a while. if you've never heard of them, than please go listen to them. i've had their cd on repeat since christmaas and i've got four other new cds, not counting the Mozart cd's i got after christmas.

anyways i'm thinking i should go downstairs with the company and stop being so anti social. happy new year. and if you have any new year's resolutions and want to share them i would love to hear them.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/22180739/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/22180739/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 03:19:12 PST We've already found (because my mother hid them) and opened our stockings. I got chocolate, tootsie rolls, a misfits cd, Marley and Me, an egg clock that changes whenever you tap it to the side, a posion ring, and a gift card to starbucks. And now that I listed all of that I don't think I'll actually list all of the things I'll be opening in about 15 minutes.
So Merry Christmas you guys, I hope you get cool things. And expect an update from me later as to what happened during the rest of the day.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/22104359/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/22104359/ Sun, 21 Dec 2008 14:20:42 PST Happy Holidays . I'm at my dad's house right now, and me and my family are going to be here until Christmas eve. Then we're heading back to our normal house and family will be coming down from Michigan for after chirstmas and new years.
I'm not sure if any of my watchers will get what I'm saying when I tell you that I really don't want this year to end. For the first time in school I really liked my classes, and my lunch. It all could have been better, of course, but it has been the best school year so far. I don't know what my classes for next semester will be, though I know I only have to take my AP Lang class in order to graduate.
My mom's watching some weird ass movie on TBS in the same room as I am in. But she went to take the dog out so I'm gonna grab the remote while I can.
Leave a comment if you feel like talking. I'm pretty sure I'll be bored during the break.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/21805317/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/21805317/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 18:45:00 PST I'm just so fucking bored. And I want a cool id, so...

Challange !!!!
I challange you all to make an id for me to use on this website. I don't really care if it's anything special because in all reality you aren't going to recieve anything special in return. This is just for those people that love me and get bored in school. But I've found out that I really can't draw myself and I really don't look good enough to put a picture of myself up. And there's really nothing I like sooo much that I find it personal and would put a picture of it up. I know that makes no sense at all. I'm bored.... Like I said.

Alright I'll leave you alone. And yes this journal was totally pointless

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/21734046/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/21734046/ Sat, 29 Nov 2008 15:58:09 PST Let me tell you this has been one long month. I started out late, then wrote only 669 words one day when i hadn't even caught up. I found out about alot of things a little late. Like moving my keyboard up to my desk so that the drawer it had been currenty sitting in could serve as a very good desk so that i could sit comfortably. And finding out how to use the sleep timer on my iPod, which to only 30 minutes i could write two full notebook pages.
Now I can start editing it, or at least fix all of the spelling errors and obvious grammer errors. Then I'm handing it out to a few people, and i'll edit my own during classes when i have nothing better to do. So if anyone can think of a way i can mass print about 75 pages without having to pay let me know. I'm probably gonna go to my school's library but the woman that work in there are rather bitchy. Who knows. A edited and shiny piece of my story will be coming to you soon, hopefully by the end of December but we'll see.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/21728526/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/21728526/ Sat, 29 Nov 2008 10:01:30 PST
Besides that we're having Thanksgiving today, since we couldn't have it in... it just was turned off. I don't know how... but. We couldn't have thanksgiving in Myrtle Beach, which is where we were on Thanksgiving day. And I'm writing as much as I can today because I have 1,969 words until I reach 50,000 so that's the goal for today, if i get 2,000 words written today that would be great too.
I still don't know how i'm going to end it, but right now that doesn't really matter.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/21630470/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/21630470/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 12:07:36 PST
Movie
I went to see the movie today, just got back from it in fact, and I didn't mind it too much. Some of the lines were a little corny and all of that staring was really annoying. But on the plus side, Jasper and Alice are both amazingly hot. The sparkling vampire wasn't that sparkling, which made me happy because really vampires are not supposed to shine. The baseball scene is epic, they played Muse throughout the whole scene and the way it was shot was really well done.

Don't go to the movie expecting to see the book. You can't do this with any book to movie senario, it just doesn't work. So if you come out of that theatre and complain about how there are parts missing then just shut up. You don't need every scene for the movie to make sense, especially a book/movie like twilight.

NaNoWriMo
I've got a 36,647 word count, and hopefully by the end of today I'll have a 38,000+ word count. I'm bettng i will because I really like the part that I'm at right now. I'm just worried that I won't have enough parts to finish it at 50000 words, which is the ultimate goal. So... If you by any chance have a random seen that you would love to see written just tell me, and soon because i won't have internet till Friday. Just leave a comment or a note, I'm always on even when I should be writing, like right now.

Talk to you all later, probably not till December 1st, but who knows.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/21465048/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/21465048/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 06:07:37 PST Now, I've decided some things about the book I'm writing for Nano.
First off, I will NOT be posting the whole story on here. I will post a few chapters but after that I will be moving to a new story.
Second of all, I will be printing out three copies. Two will be for my friends to pass around and the last one will be for me. I'll be asking my friends to edit it or write notes in and such. so if you want to do that just let me know on here or at school. (I really don't want to spend all of that money mailing the whole thing back and forth so that's still on the brink.)

I'll keep this short because I'm in school right now and I really should be writing right now. I just wanted to write a journal and let everyone know how i'm doing. So peace... I'll see you all on December first.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/20940706/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/20940706/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 17:05:27 PDT
NaNoWriMo
If you've never heard of it before go here [link] to check it out. I'll be participating in it and I'm thinking its going to pretty time consuming. So all of November I will be away from dA, hopefully I'll be coming back at the beginning of December with a brand new story for everyone.
And if you have any writing ability at all participate in it, the worse that oculd happen is you don't write 50,000 words, and that's not really that bad.

I feel emotionally drained
For one of the first times since I moved to Georgia I won't feel like saying that. I'm acutally rather happy; I have a boyfriend, I'm doing well in school, and I might just get a car at the end of this school year. No, I'm not a spoiled little bitch, I've traded an out of state college for a year of community college. It's just to get my first year out of the way, and I'll need to get a car anyway since my dad has the car and my mom needs the truck (my parents live in two different parts of Georgia).

The truth behind this journal
was to totally get rid of that long thing I had before, it was bothering me. I have this thing where whenever I visit my page I have to scroll all the way down to the bottom, don't know why. I do it because I can.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/20812034/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/20812034/ Fri, 03 Oct 2008 16:33:10 PDT I was bored today, and I really just wanted to update saying I'm still alive, that I didn't do anything drastic. So its time for things that I got from 's journal.

Dear ____
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but you’re a pervert. I think I realized it when I saw the shrunken head in your apartment and I saw you carve your initials into the crazy monk. I’m sure you’re middle-class enough to understand how awful I’ve felt. I’m returning our matching snoopy-bibs to you, but I’ll keep your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I will tell the authorities about the incarnation as an Eskimo.
Good luck on your short-term leave from jail,
Megan
New Thingy quiz thingy

1) Name: Megan

2) Name Backwards: Nagem, sounds like the name of a foreign sea monster.

3) Were you named after anyone?: no one as far as I know…

4) Does your name mean anything?: Well its short for Magnolia which is a tree

5) Nick Name(s): people usually just call me Megan, which is really boring

6) Screen Name(s): Amelia Malfoy, I’ve never changed it

7) Date of Birth: August 15, 1991

8) Place of Birth: Okinawa Japan

9) Nationality: I’m the whitest kid you know

10) Current Location: Georgia, and because of my GPA that’s not going to change anytime soon

11) Sign: Leo, so I’m pretty fucking kick ass

12) Religion: I believe there’s something that helps us move along but I’m forced to go to a Christian church

13) Height: 5’6 or 5’7

14) Weight: 100 something… it’s been a while since I’ve weighed myself

15) Shoe Size: Woman’s 8 Men’s 6

16) Hair colour: Really dark brown

17) Eye colour: Brown

18) What do you look like?: Tall skinny nothing really special about me
19) Innie or Outie?: Innie

20) Righty, Lefty, both: Right, though I’ve been trying to teach myself how to write left handed

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: I’m open, I’ll fall in love with who I want to and it doesn’t matter to me what there gender is

22) Best friends?: my best friend is Chris, he lives in NC and I adore him with all I’m worth

23) Best friends you trust the most: Pretty much the same answer as 22

24) Best friends {your sex}: I’d like to say some of the girls I hang out with at school are my best friends but I don’t use the term lightly

25) Best friends of the opposite sex: Chris… and my guardian angel (everyone should know who that is)

26) Best Bud(s): Everyone at my lunch table and the ones who I wish were at my lunch table but I see in the 300 hall every morning, you know who you are

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: single, and I’m getting really bored with being single so I’ve started liking someone, though I’m pretty sure he doesn’t know and he doesn’t like me

28) Crush: I’m the only one who knows

29) Parent(s): My dad’s in the military and my mom is a stay-at-home-mother… it’s not all that fun

31) Favorite on-line Guy(s): like people I know or don’t know… because technically I know him but I’ve never really met him. But I’m not all weird and stalker-ish… I only do that at school.

32) Favorite on-line Girl(s): again… are we talking people I know or don’t know?

33) Funniest friend: Harrison… though sometimes that gets really weird (and not in the good way)

34) Craziest friend: depends on what type of crazy we’re talking about

35) Advice Friend: Chris, he’s like my therapist

36) Loudest Friend: Anyone down the 300 hall except a few exceptions

37) Person you cry with: I’m totally emo and cry by myself

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: nope

39) Any brothers: a younger one, it makes me happy when I see him in the hallway

40) Any pets: one big ass horse-dog named Emmett

41) A Disease: not at the moment

42) A Pager: no

43) A Personal phone line: I probably wouldn’t answer it if I did

44) A Cell phone: Yeh, but I never answer it

45) A Lava lamp: in my closet

46) A Pool or hot tub: neither but we almost got a hot tub when we moved here and my mom really wants a pool

47) A Car: not yet but if I go to community college instead of an university than I’ll get one ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/20491603/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/20491603/ Sun, 14 Sep 2008 15:02:56 PDT I'll be fucked if i start crying tomarrow during school. seriously fucked. So if you see my crying for no apparent reason please don't try to comfort me. just don't. I wish i didn't have to go to school tomarrow, that would be nice but I can't skip.
That's it... unless you care about my grandpa Bob dying today because I really don't.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/20362985/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/20362985/ Sat, 06 Sep 2008 18:40:56 PDT I was supposed to have a chapter finished by today. I don't think that's going to happen, which probably means I should get my ass of the computer, stop playing solitare and just write the freaking chapter. I'm almost done with it to.
I also need to post a few pictures that I recently finished... including The Crow one that has been waiting unfinished for the past half year. I'm not sure if I like it but it's done.

My list of Redo's is longer than my list of Redont's
That should totally be the name of the single off the new Falloutboy cd (don't look it up cause I'm the one that made it up).
1. The Butterfly picture I did a few years ago. I'm not sure if I posted it on here after I deleated my other account. But it's the one based off the ending of Corpse Bride.
2. Jared. He deserves a new picture. And everyone loves him so...
3. The Crow. I know I just finished it and none of you have seen it yet but I think that comic book deserves more.

She say's she's leaving on Sunday...
Oh I love The Format. They are so fucking catchy and have the best music videos ever! (I'm sorry OkGo, they totally beat you). So go check them out. NOW!

Because I haven't asked a question in forever and I think I should
What's your favorite music video?

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/20171668/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/20171668/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 17:30:26 PDT
Oh the wonderful shit I buy
I got my boots today. They look so fucking kick ass but I don't have my camera so I can't take a picture of them. For those who go to my school get ready for me to shove them in your face.
I'm back on my Queer as folk kick so I'm debating on if I should buy the 3rd season on dvd or not. I got money in late for my birthday and I'm thinking that's what I'm going to do with it. And then my parents can get me the 4th season for christmas.
One of my friends got me an iTunes gift card for my b-day. And if you know me you know just how much I hate downloading. Well those damn cards are so fucking addicting. I got a few songs that I've been wanting for quite a while. Others were spurred by my QAF obsess...
List of them
Closer by Nine Inch Nails
My Way Home is Through You & Kill All Your Friends by My Chemical Romance
Slit Your Own Throat by The Used
Save the Last Dance for My by the Drifters
The Dead, Paralyzed, Wraith, Time, and Controlled Chaos by Criss Angel
Mad World by Sacre (from Donnie Darko)
Mob Scene by Marilyn Manson
Foreve Young by Ella
plus I also got an episode from Criss Angel Mindfreak. Its the first video I've gotten on my iPod so I'm totally in love with it.

Shit ends with the word Fuck
I'm getting annoyed with HTSPDT. It's kind of bugging me. But I'm trying to pull through and finish it out. After I write all main stuff I'll move things around and add things in. I might be taking out Valentine's chapters compleatly, but right now that's only if I can't write another chapter from his prespective.

That's all... School's going fine though they're starting to give us the college speeches which always freak me out. They make me feel unprepaired for whats gonna happen after high school. It's not a good feeling.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19957022/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19957022/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 17:36:52 PDT
I'm also going to buy those boots that I've been saving up for. The Doc's, I swear I had a link in one of my journals, if you want you can search for it. I'll probably post a scrap picture of them when I finally get them... like at my house.

Arty Art
I've be writting, like really writting. I'm trying to plan out the story featuring Gabrial and Lucas. That's going pretty good, even though I just kind of started on it today.
As far as HTSPDT, that's actually going really well. I just finished another chapter, so I'm hoping to get that typed up this weekend but I'm not going to make any promises.

My weekly obsession
I always tend to have these little obsessions. Some go away, like my obsession with everything emo. Some tend to stay, like with My Chemical Romance. And right now I'm totally obsessed with Criss Angel, which also leads to an obsession with BELIEVE. So everyone should go search for Criss Angel Believe and find the Cirque Du Soleil website. I really want to go see the show when it starts, which if I'm correct is in October. But it's held in Las Vegas, so that's not going to happen anytime soon. My mom said maybe as part as my graduation present. I'm pretty sure I could convince my grandparents, cause they're really into gambling and everyone knows that gambling goes hand in hand with Las Vegas.
Another obsession is the book Heart-Shaped Box by Joe Hill. It's a really awesome ghost story and I can't really explain it so search for that on Amazon or something. And if anyone's read it already please don't tell me what happens in the end, I haven't finished it yet.

Question
One thing you wish you could tell your parents but can't or are afraid to?

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19795994/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19795994/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 18:29:46 PDT I changed my room around... I tend to do it every summer because I can't stand with things being the same for too long. My dad's living in Albany so he had to take on of the mattesses that makes up the king bed in the guest bed room. I just switched my bed with one of the twins in the guest bed room (i used to have a full). I don't mind it too much, though I expecting it to take some time getting used to a bed without a fluffy blanket underneath the sheet. But my mom's kind of odd and wants to protect my old full bed so the nice blanket stays with that matresse.
In other news:
I drove, alot. Over the past two days my mom and dad have been forcing me to drive them places. So I'm betting ever time my mom wants to go to Target then I will be driving her. I don't really mind it, as long as I don't have to go on the forever busy road by the mall.
My dad finds it funny/sad that I don't know streets by there names. But neither does my mom, we know them by what stores are on the street.
I'm getting alot better at turning and stopping slowly (i tend to slam on the brakes). I also tend to stay towards the right side of the road, like on the white line.
Arty Art
I'm working on something! An actual drawing. It's turning out pretty well and its kind of a practice on anatomy proportions. So... I'm pretty happy about that. Writting is going slow though, sadly. I'm hoping that once school starts I'll write more, but it will all be on paper so it might take a little longer to be posted on the internet.

School sux
And not in the good way. School starts in less than a week... 5 days to be exact. Seeing that number is probably one of the most depressing things happening to me right now. The good thing is I get to see my friends and I'm a senior (finally). So I only have a year until I'm graduating and I'm out on my own. I really can't wait for that (though I am kind of nervous).
So to all of those in my school, I can't wait to see you on Monday, even if I did see you today. Oh and Zoe, if you're reading this... that was one of the funniest things seeing you lie to my mom about your eye. She was probably wondering why I was laughing.
And Blake... I still have your book, tell me when you want it back!

Bye my peeps

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19646005/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19646005/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 19:44:27 PDT Edit!
Oh the fucking excuses I will tell you right now. A few of the fucking small reasons I totally blew up...
1. I was tired; both mentally and emotionally.
2. I was overstressed; I've been looking at colleges and school is starting too fucking soon.
3. My parents are bugging me the fuck out.
So, I'm very fucking sorry. But I have chocolate now, so I'm doing pretty good. I'm kind of bored though, not that that fucking matters right now. In 30 mins I'll be watching Will & Grace like I always do on the weekdays.
I will be with you...
I can't fucking wait for college. It's one of those things you don't want to do because it's this big change in your life but at the same time... You're gonna be away from your fucking annoying parents. No more nagging. Think it about that one.
So far I've found a bunch that I like that all seem to be way too fucking expensive. Appalachian State is the cheapest one I have so far (and that 19,954, not counting books, lab fees, and that jazz.) There's a pretty cheep one in Canada but my mom and dad don't want me going that far. It's a pretty fucking sweet school too.
Now I know what it feels like...
to be without a home.
Seriously, I don't have an actual home. And I just realized this... like yesterday. I'm not saying I don't have a fucking house to live in, cause I do. But being in the military you don't really have a spot you're connected with. Which kind of fucking sucks. So college is not only a time where I can pick a cool school with cool classes. But I get to pick the state that I want to live in, not be forced to a state that I don't want to even be near.
I should probably be writting this fucking shit in a diary, not in journal for an art website.
My wonderful shitty art
Is kind of coming along good. It's nothing special and I really don't know when I'll have something new for you. I've started pieces but I haven't really finished them. They're too short or just plain crappy. I still have no idea what I'm doing. I'm compleatly clueless. And this is a compleatly useless journal. I'm sorry for waisting your fucking time.

New Question!
What song do you identify with most?


I'm tired of it. I'm so fucking fustrated right now. I'm on the edges of fucking tears. This is why I can't wait for school to start back up; this is why I want to a college in a state my family doesn't live in. They are the problem, they are the reason that I'm this fucked-up way. It sure as hell isn't because of the kids at my school, the most they do is run into me in the hallways.

Okay, sorry about that. I had to take some time and cool down. My parents are fucking hypocrites and seem to be compleatly useless. I should take a shower, take a little time to fucking breath. I'll get back to you after that.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19526122/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19526122/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 19:12:35 PDT by the Smiths
EDIT!!
Does anyone that I know want to go see The Dark Knight with me?! I seriously need to see that movie again before it comes out on dvd. When it hits the dollar theatre you know I'll totally be all over it. But I want to see it now, so anyone? please.
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First off I would like to thank The Smiths and their awesome music making, next I would like to thank Heath Ledger (RIP) for being a truly amazing actor in a day where none are. I would also like to thank the people who post their starburst braclet making tutorials online for people like me who should be reading a book for school but don't really feel like it.

The Dark Knight= Amazing preformance by an amacing actor
It really is a sad thing that Heath Ledger passed away. He went from playing a pretty bad boy to a guy who played with "sticks" to a gay cowboy when there really wasn't such thing as gay (other than the orginal term which means happy) to an awesome super villian.
Someone I know said that she didn't like The Dark Knight before it came out just because The Joker was played by someone other than Jack Nickolson. I'm not really sad to say she was HORRIBLY wrong.
Go see it, even if you could really care less about Batman (i'm totally in the same boat with you). It's worth the 7+ bucks.

Driving for Dummies + hot guys who I don't know
There, sadly, is probably a book called Driving for Dummies. I went driving today, for like 5 or 10 mintues. I don't like driving the car, so it's a good thing I'll be getting the truck. Though it is easier to turn the car... oh well.

Gerard Way, Frank Iero, Heath Ledger, Ryan Gosling, Johnny Depp... all increadibly hot guys that I will never ever know. That's so sad.

I don't think I have a question... give me some and I can put them in here

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19505294/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19505294/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 18:32:11 PDT New York, New York
Okay, maybe not NYC but like a few miles outside of Albany, New York. It was just a few days spent visiting friends. I didn't do much writing, which is sad. But I did finish two books. I'm still working on HTSPDT, and I'm not gonna stop working on it for awhile. School starts on August 11 for us poor souls in Georgia so things are going to slow down soon. I'm not saying the amount I write is going to slow down (I actually tend to write more in school than I do out of) but I am saying that updates will be very limited. I'll probably put up old stuff, like pieces of the Gabriel and Lucas story.

Question
What helps you fall asleep?

Hope you enjoyed the short journal!

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19458499/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19458499/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 05:06:50 PDT For some reason it’s not until five in the morning that he walks back into the room. He had been gone for almost two hours; he had left complaining of a headache that he thought could be healed by a cigarette or two. It didn’t take two hours to smoke a few cigarettes, and from the way he tried to strip of his day clothes without trying to disturb me (even though I hadn’t moved from my spot at the computer). His fingers pushed through his hair; it was something it did when he was anxious, a little something that he never caught unless someone else told him he was doing it.
“What’s wrong?” I asked, turning around in the white chair. My voice sounded a lot louder than it was; my ears were used to the quiet music playing in the background.
He jumped, his eyes moved sharply away from the floor to me sitting quietly in my chair. “Shouldn’t you be sleeping?” We both knew was skipping around my question, we both also knew that he wasn’t going to get away with it.
“You answer first,” I demanded. I crossed my arms over my chest, my eyes trained on his strongly even though sleep had been pulling at them for hours.
He opened his mouth as if to argue and than closed it; his eyes darted away from mine and went back to the floor, though he was no longer searching for anything. “Nothing,” it was a downright lie that made me let out a huff. “I’m serious Megan; it is nothing to be worried about.” The fact that he used my full name made me worry even more. “Now why aren’t you sleeping?”
“Because I’ll just have to get up in three hours anyway; I still have a full can of Monster, so that should hold me off all day.” He frowned at me but didn’t say anything else; which left me to turn around and go back to reading stories and playing games of solitaire so that I could pass the time quickly. And time did pass quickly, though every hour or so I would contemplate going to bed to join my little figment. Than it was already seven; neither my ghost nor I had gotten any sleep, I could tell by the way he hadn’t stopped his tossing and turning.
“So will you tell me now what was going on last night?” I asked quietly, knowing perfectly well that he could hear me above the music.
“You didn’t sleep at all, I don’t see any reason I should tell you.” The response he gave made me grind my teeth in annoyance.
“Oh stop being an ass,” I growled, finally pushing myself out of the uncomfortable wooden chair so that I could stand over him at the edge of the bed. “We’re supposed to be helping each other out apparently, and I can’t really help you if you don’t tell me what the hell is going on.” He sat up slowly, making sure to stretch his long arms high above his head.


it's as simple as that. I'm too lazy to get out my jump drive and save this on there, since I'm at a friends house. By the way, this was written with absolutly no sleep so I'm sure there are mistakes coming out of its rear. I don't really care.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19242505/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19242505/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 20:21:18 PDT I'm gonna try and go in order here...
Has anyone ever heard of Bay City, Michigan? I didn't think so. The place is smaller than Jacksonville, NC, its insane. But if you go there on July 5th and go to the fire works, well you'd think the population was the size of Marietta (which has to be a least 5 times bigger). The fire works are amazing and they're right on the matter. They had flames! Like actual fire going off in mid-air. It was awesome, especially if you're a little pyro like me.
So I just got back from Michigan today. Imagine an eleven hour car ride with a big bag in front of you with all your crap in it and you're brother sharing the back seat with you. That's not too bad (the brother part can be annoying but thats a usual). The worst part was the 9 month old 85 pound puppy who acts more like tiny dog than the horse that he is. Eleven hours both ways... thats a total of 22 for all you out there that can't add.

Currently busy, please hold
I had to wait an extra week to get The Black Parade is Dead! and I must say... it was totally worth it. And now I'm watching the live New Jersey set. So... please hold while I watch....















Intresting Things that shouldn't amuse me
Like Sharpie pens. They're not markers, they're pens! It's amazing... Epic! Biblical! (go watch Life on the Murder Scene if you don't know where thats from, or just ask me).
I gotta get me some new black nail polish before warped. Oh yeah I said warped, I'm totally going. It's this wednesday, and I'm probably gonna get my ass kicked cause it's my first concert but I'll deal. I've been craving a black eye and bloody nose lately anyway.

Okay I'm off to bed... but first!

A question
I'm not sure if this a thing that's totally my own but... is there a band/singer/rapper (though I'm pretty sure none of my watchers are that into rap, than again i might be wrong) out there that inspires you to do something (anything)?
Oh and if someone knows how to say Sorrows in french that would be mighty useful for moi.

goods nights

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19079257/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/19079257/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 21:17:36 PDT Edit/ Saddest damn movie! Ever!
Okay I think the fact that I cried like a little girl who scrapped her knee over a movie about gay cowboys deserves a spot in my journal. I'm not even kidding when I say that was the saddes movie I've ever seen. And now it's got me speaking with bad grammer and a country accent.
I only got to watch it on tv and I've never seen the actual dvd or theatre version. So no good sex scenes, and I think they only showed one kiss on the tv; unless you want to count the part where Heath's wife finds them making out as more than one kiss. Well I guess you would but... none the less.
Yeah that's the only reason I made an edit, oh and not having a proper title bugs me.
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Money Issues
I don't know if you are at all like me, but if you are than you're suddenly realizing how much your parents are having with money. Over the past year all this trouble with money is starting. It's like it's compleatly sudden, and I know it's not.
So along with these issues I'm starting to think that my parents won't be able to pay for some of my college if I go out of state. For me there's nothing in Georgia. For the first time in my life I get to have a little bit of a choice of where I want to be. Being in a Military family you don't get that choice. And I really want to take that opportunity, kind of grab life by the horns.
I guess I'm just really throwing it out there, because I highly doubt anyone would pay for one of my crappy pieces of "art". And I don't know how someone could sell writting without it being bound and put on a store shelf. So if you think I'm totally out of my mind and would like to pay me something for anything than note me or put a comment in this journal. I definatly won't be charging much, and if you live out of state than I can't promise you how fast I'll be able to get a hard copy to you.

Now on a more hopeful note (or not)
I got my drivers permit today. The test was really easy, though I almost failed the first part. So anyone living in Georgia I would watch out if I were you.

Valentine (blank) Moore
Alright... I don't think this is a real big issue right now. I just can't get it out of my head. So, Valentine and Greg will be moved to a different story after I finish HTSPDT. And for this I need to know Valentine's middle name. I have a few I like (Gavin and Geoffery are two of them). Right now just tell me which one you like and if you have any other names than I'm totally open for suggestions.

Question
Do you have any pets? If you don't than what pet would you want if you could have it?

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18972125/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18972125/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 19:17:55 PDT
Get Smart
Has to be one of the funniest movies I have ever seen. I'm not even exagerating. There's almost no pause in the laughs. Plus theirs action and romance... so it's a movie for everyone. I just saw it tonight so I thought I'd let everyone know just how good it is. So if you have like seven bucks to spare then definatly go see the movie.

The Quiet Things
If you haven't read any part of The Quiet Things then you can totally skip this part.
Okay... The Quiet Things was going to be split into 3 books, I've finished the 2nd but never finished the 1st or 3rd. But I'll try to sum it up into something that's not too long.
1st Book: Amelia and Miles actually get together. They have a slip and Amelia ends up being pregnant; she gets an abortion of sorts thanks to Dumbledore (who is like everyones hero). Miles and her have an off and on relationship and when their off Amelia tends to fool around with Fred. Other than lots of other pointless drama thats the 1st book.
2nd Book : The book starts out with her dating Ron but you know she likes Fred. There's not too much drama until the end; the first part is mostly made up of Quidditch games. At Chrismas Draco pays a rather suprisingy visit to the Borrow (where Amelia, Fred, Ron, and everyone else are celebrating their holiday). He's bruised and bloody and only lives from a blood transfusion given by Devi (who hates Draco more than anything). Lucius is the one who beat Draco; and something happens between Draco and Devi.
Oliver Wood is an asshole and dumps Devi on Valentine's day, she disappears. Meanwhile Lee (who's in love with Devi) beats the shit out of Wood. Charlie almost dies *cry, cry, cry*. I'll be posting the next part up because I like it so much (it envolves a mini-van with Dumbledore at the wheel lots of sexual tension and about one of the closest things ever related to the movie Titanic that isn't the movie itself).
3rd Book : Amelia gets pregnant, marrys Fred, has the kid, and then dies when the kid is like 3. There's other more magical related shit in there too but that's really freaking hard to explain and I'm not to keen on the idea anymore.

The Lovesong Writer
Sitting alone in the dark of a stadium
He whispers his secrets into a cheap guitar
With the flick of his wrist he turns words into melodies
Chords into church bells, fill up the allies
Lovers intwine in the heat of the night
And by dawn are apart in the shivering silences
We will pretend
That its all just made up
The songs that he writes
Are too personal
He cant play them for anyone
When hes all alone, the lovesong writer sings
Ooooh
Can anyone, hear me now?
No one hears him now
So he stumbles through syllables, cut from their sentences
Lost letters call to him, deep in the alphabet
"Please give us meaning"
Pose for me now
You're the broken heart
You're the sigh in the back of the throat
And on the other side
You're the queen of spades
You're the sound that she makes on her way
Theres always a way out
Theres always a way out
When hes all alone, the lovesong writer sings
Ooooh
Can anyone, hear me now?
But no one hears at all
The lovesong writer sits all alone
When he hears the sound of the knock at the door
50 red roses, falling apart
In the hands of someone that you scraped in and left behind
All of the others strolled up and showed up at your door
Staring you down, they said:
Sing for me, sing for me, sing for me now
Sing for me, sing for me, sing for me now
We already are
For some reason this kind of fueled me to write the part I'm writting now. It's really hard to write; for personal reasons I think. You won't be seeing it for awhile considering its at the end of a story. Or in the middle of one, depends on how you look at things.
Mr. Ghost-man decided to show me how he died, so I'll be writting that soon to. It's also inspired by a Thursday song. This is what I get from listening to Thursday almost non-stop.

Question
What's you're favorite song?

So enjoy the scraps and the horribly long journal.

Books that are worth it
The Sandman by Neil Gainman
Rainbow Boys by Alex Sanchez
Uglies by Scott Westerfield
Maximum Ride by James Patterson
Everybody Hurts by Leslie Simon and Trevor Kelley

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18841643/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18841643/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 16:50:50 PDT And another Holy Crap! The journal thingy has changed, I kind of like it. Its very organized and... smooth.

Travels... oh where they take me
Most of you guys know me well enough to know that I develop crushes way to easily. When that guy is one of my friends boyfriends then there is something seriously wrong with me. God damn, and the sick thing is... He likes her alot, I can tell when he looks at her. But she could give a flying fuck about him.
I'm never going back to NC again! Everytime I go I end up kissing someone, and that makes me feel like a slut, and that's not exactly good.

Sleep
I'm tired, and from now on I probably will be. I am not planing on going to bed until my eyes aren't even able to open. I want to write, I need to write. I really wanted to finish HTSPDT this summer but a new guy has come to visit and right now he's stealing all of my creative juices. He doesn't have a name, and he probably won't tell me it for a while. But I've seen him, so I actually know what he looks like. And I know what he sounds like... so right now he just goes by MR. Ghost-man (or plan old Ghost-man).
I wish I had some coffee, it wouldn't help keep me awake but I just really want some coffee.

Ink and Lead
I've got some new pieces that I'm gonna put up on here. And all of my old art pieces that were on my other account are going straight to scraps. But expect some new stuff, I've got a picture of Amery that I want to finish sometime this upcoming week.
I don't care if you guys are into comic books I want you to find someone that own The Sandman and read it. I got the first volume (finally) while I was in NC and I really want the 2nd. I don't know how soon that's going to happen considering I'm saving up for an awesome pair of boots [link] they're really expensive but they're totally worth it.

Question
What is you're favorite book? If you can't pick one then list a few.

I'll talk to you guys later!

Books that are worth it
Glass House by Rachel Caine
Uglies by Scott Westerfeld
The Sandman by Neil Gaiman
The Crow by J.O'Barr
*This list will change almost every time I change my journal!

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18615329/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18615329/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 17:28:45 PDT Edit
I put up a few things in my scrap. They're rather old but if you want to read them go ahead.
I would edit more but I don't really feel like complaining about my parents again.
Go listen to Thursday, they make everything better.
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How do you get a guy you don't like at all away from you?
Sadly its not some joke or trick question. So here's the situation, there's a guy that likes me but I don't like him (not even for a friend). He thinks I like him despite my constant hinting that I don't like guys like him. I don't want to be a total bitch and totally just throw him to the curb. I hope he reads this and gets the hint. And I hope he thinks I'm a total bitch and just leaves me alone.

Today sucked. My dad yelled at me as soon as he got home. He's been gone for two days mind you. I was pretty damn proud of my grades, I passed and that was all I was worried about.
French: 71
History: 80
Anatomy: 76
Algebra II: 71
Do you know what the fuck he yelled at me about? My two worse classes, the ones I was very proud to pass. My mom was at least happy that I got a B in History. Which means I might be getting a My Chemical Romance action figure.

Gotta go eat.... help me

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18477397/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18477397/ Sat, 24 May 2008 10:32:43 PDT
Schools out for Summer
No more school for like 3 months, its pretty awesome. The bad thing is when I take off just a week of school I don't want to go back. It's probably bad enough that I've considered dropping out. So if it's a good summer, then school is going to be hell. But... I'm a senior. Two more semesters and I'm out of high school. Let me tell you who ever said High school is the best years of your life was a fucking liar. I'd say elementary school was pretty fucking awesome.
The two last days of school were exams, or finals, or whatever you want to call them. I'm betting I failed French, which doesn't bug me too much considering I almost failed last year. I know I did good in History, it was a normal test and I actually studied for it. I got a 60-something in Anatomy but I also got 10 extra points so I got a 70-something on the final. And then there's math... I suck at math, and I was getting a 70 in the class. I'm really glad that the final was multiple choice but I guessed on a few so I'm not too sure if I passed the class. I hope I did, I hope she's nice to me and just adds a mysterious 5 points to my final so I can get out of Algebra 2.
Next year might actually be pretty kick ass. I'm taking AP Biology (which is supposed to be a pretty hard class so I'm hoping colleges will look at the fact that its Ap and not my horrible grade); AP Lang (which I already know will be pretty fucking awesome); Physcology (which is a pretty slack class); Algebra 3 (its what the school signed me up for, I didn't pick it); Gov and Econ (this class is going to blow, I could care less about our government); and I have to pick another class, I think, but I don't know what to pick... so thats going to be left blank for a little while.

Gabriel
You all should know who Gabriel is, my little gardian angel. Well I'll be putting up little conversations that Gab and I have had in my journal. I'm not putting them as full out devs cause most of them are too short. So...

I had to keep on moving, making myself uncomfortable because who knew what would happen if I fell asleep in French class. Fingers were working gently into my shoulders. I groaned gently then looked around frantically hoping no one had heard me, no one had, at least no one alive.
“Did that feel good?” He asked, pushing into that same spot. I turned around and glared at him, taking him completely by surprise. But there was still a sly smile on his lips.
“If you keep massaging my back I’ll fall asleep. I can’t fall asleep in a class I’m failing, it just doesn’t work.” I hissed, pushing my paper and notebook into my book bag as the bell went off for the third time.

other account:
I'm pretty sure I'll put up another jounal soon just because I'm bored... so talk to you guys later!

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18333072/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18333072/ Thu, 15 May 2008 18:51:45 PDT Guess who's going to be watching Queer as Folk this weekend? ME! I'm also going to get some new stuff up, like a new chapter of HTSPDT cause I finished the first chapter (finally). But right now I'm really tired, and I've only had cheese its, trail mix, and diet coke. I don't know why im not hungry, I'm weird like that. And if anyone can find me pretty pictures of gay guys I would highly appreciate it. It gives me inspiration, especially for the parts I want to write.
“This is pathetic.” I told him, ignoring the concerned stares from my friends and the music pounding into my ears. “Just because I have to have this fucking project in tomorrow doesn’t mean I should cry about it.” He wrapped an arm around my shoulder and pulled me against his chest.
I knew he wasn’t there; he was a total figment of my imagination. But he held more comfort than anyone else I knew, more than anyone who was real.
“You know this isn’t really your fault.” He whispered, his voice cutting through the music. “You told them you weren’t free on Sunday and that’s the day they decided to do it.”
“That’s what I keep telling myself but why am I being punished for it?” I asked, knowing I wouldn’t like the answer, if I got one.
Based off a real event, though it happened a few month back. A small conversation between Gabriel and I. Expect alot of these little convo's, I get bored alot in school.
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Let's hear it for not having anything to do in American History class. So here I am, typing about anything special.
I just got done with my French Presentation last period. And i handed in my journal, so no more to do in that class, other than study the fuck out of my brains. I seriously can't wait for school to be over. Only one more week left! After that you people will be getting a shit full of writing, and all the cool little sketchs I did in class.

if you aren't updated on all the shit i have to do go here

Peace all!

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18198753/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18198753/ Tue, 06 May 2008 15:32:15 PDT And of course my mother has to interupt me while I'm actually writting, all of my writting is done at school so this was an odd occasion for me to be writting at home. So instead of actually studying I'm writting on here, ain't I clever.

Stories
I'm hoping to start writting the My Chem stories again. I'm not sure how much time I'm going to get to write them, so it's going to be a lesser project.
I'm still totally working on HTSPDT, that is not something i'm going to give up easily. I really want to get the first chapter compleated by friday. Then I'll finish the script version of chapter one and upload that. I also want to finish two other things I'm working on right now. Most of you know about the multiple personality one and none of you know about the other one (so thats staying a secret). Things might be put on a big fat hold next week, and possibly the week after that. I'm not sure how bad i'm going to have to study for these stupid exams.

Question of the week, or month, or day
What do you guys think of me? I want all honesty here; and I don't care if you know me in real life or just through here. If you think I'm some stuck up bitch tell me! If you think I'm compleatly awesome, then thats well... compleatly awesome. I think i'm just going to start asking really random in all of my journals to end it. That would be pretty awesome.

Be cool, answer the question.

Au revoir!

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18153580/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/18153580/ Sat, 03 May 2008 18:37:35 PDT And oh yeah... writers block sucks. Especially when you're working on a rather intresting sex scene for one of your friends, and have to finish a piece for a contest, and have a story you really want to finish. The sex scene and contest piece are total blanks. I have no idea where I want to go with them, you wouldn't think a sex scene would be that complicated would you? And I have everything planed out for HTSPDT but I feel like everything I write is absolute crap. It might be the whole tired thing.
Oh and does anyone know how to get rid of someone who thinks they are your friend but they're actually super annoying? And I can't really be mean, at least not too mean. And I really don't want to push her away because then I will lose some pretty awesome friends I just made because of her. Damn I can't wait for college, I'm leaving all of this behind, and I'm totally hoping I won't see most of the people I know down here again. (Notice I said most not all, I still love Zoe and Sierra and Nat and pretty much everyone else I hang out with in the 300 hall).
And possibly next week I'm going to be going out with a guy I don't even like. Just on a date, not actually going out as in bf/gf. Oh the sad web I weave.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/17981150/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/17981150/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 18:21:52 PDT To tell you the truth, i dont know why im writting this. A lot of things have been going on, not alot of drama but just alot of things. so I've been rather busy and confused and such. I need my right ear bud to work again, maybe thats what's been a little off.

Art News
I'm still really working on HTSPDT, and I'm thinking about having the script parts line up with the story (well duh)... but line up when i let you read them. So the next real thing you should see from me is the new and better introduction to the story. I'm almost done writting it, then i'll be typing and editing it. And possibly after that you will get the next scene in the story. It will be alternating like that.
Gabriel and Lucas have taken full hold of me, so you might be getting little pieces about them. like this...
Lucas pulled himself up and onto his feet as if nothing had even happened. There was a long cut across his cheek, blood dripped down his face and off his chin. “It’s not going to be that easy anymore Gabriel. She’s as much mine as she is yours.”
Gabriel turned me towards him, keeping his eyes locked with mine. “Don’t look at him, don’t talk to him. Don’t even acknowledge him.” But as soon as Gabriel said that I wanted to look at Lucas, I wanted to look him in the eye and figure out just what he wanted with me.
“What do you want Lucas? Why do you care about this; about me?” He looked completely shocked, his black eyes opened wide and his eyebrows raised. Then he laughed; a sudden burst of comedic relief.
“I need you just like every other demon needs his own human. Just like every angel needs a human.” Lucas turned away from me and looked at Gabriel then back to me. “You are a lifeline of sorts when we are on earth. If you got sick we would too; if you died we would go back to heaven or hell or wherever we came from. You’re just lucky enough to have both a demon and an angel by your side.”
It was too much information to in all at once.

All of that was originally written on a calculator. you know the ones that graph and have the alpha-lock. I was bored in Math and couldn't remember all of the lyrics to a song i had stuck in my head. You would think I would be trying to pay attention considering my grade in that class.

School, grades, homework, blah blah blah
My mom's been getting on my case about my grades, and since I have two C's, a D, and an F, with only 5 weeks left I think she has all rights. But once you've heard it you don't need to hear it again the next day. I'm doing horrible in school, and my mom keeps on telling me that I'm never going to get into college and stuff like that. Thanks for the downer mother.... she finally left me alone after I snapped at her today. Has anyone noticed when parents talk about this stuff, its always in the car?

And that is all.... oh wait if you haven't seen the movie for Queen of the Damned go watch it. I'm on one of my little vampire phases.

]]> ~Ameliamalfoy http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/17901409/ http://Ameliamalfoy.deviantart.com/journal/17901409/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 18:49:57 PDT
First we have
she's a really awesome friend, plus her art is freaking awesome! Cocaine is just as addicting as the drug! go check out Cocaine: [link]

Next we have another friend of mine another good artist who has some really odd but good art for example: [link] one of the most colorful pieces in her gallery.

Now onto someone who i haven't featured before , and even though she probably already gets enough pageviews i think her art should be given a look [link] you might recognize her from her previous account.

And one of the best writters on this freaking website she deserves every freaking person to watch her, i think, thats how good she is. Her writting is captivating, and even though its long, it holds you in till you finish. I highly suggest reading The White Parade. It will make you laugh, it will make you cry.
Alright done with the oopsy!

Okay does anyone else want a Ball jointed doll? seriously, they're the most beautiful things i've seen... ever! and i really want one, oh do i want one, but that costs money, and right now money is what i don't have.
i wish i could get one of those instead of a my chem action figure if i get B's, but they're so expensive, and i won't get enough B's for my mom to say yes to that.
Okay besides that I want you all to know that the planning of HTSPDT is finally over. I'm gonna start rewritting cause im ver unhappy with the beginning i have so far, which means the two parts i have in my gallery right now are moving to scraps sometime soon.
Once i start writting it im hoping to get it typed out and onto here, but school's almost over and teachers are already stressing me out. so it might be awhile till i get more stuff up. So it might be a good idea to watch out for some scraps or my other account.

WARPED TOUR!!
we were talking about it at lunch and im seriously hoping Zoe can come, that would be awesome. I was going through all the bands that are coming to GA for it and Im seriously pumped. I was going to make a list of all the bands i want to see like Madina Lake, The Pink Spiders, and Say Anything... but ill do that when it gets a little closer to July 9 (which is the date). None the less, its gonna kick ass.

I'm pretty sure i had more to say... o yeah... I'm tired and i should probably go to bed but tomarrow's friday! and it won't matter if im tired tomarrow! just to tell you all, i can't wait for next week, its gonna be pretty awesome, hopefully.

ps. my titles usually have nothing to do with what im writting, well maybe they do but this one doesnt!

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