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<3 ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/5504738/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/5504738/ Mon, 30 May 2005 17:50:06 PDT got my wacom in a while ago. . just decided to announce it ^^ my most recent pic is an example of a Wacom experiment . .and i acttually like the way it turned out ^^ look forward to seeing more pieces like this ^^ . . in other news. .. got a little curious and dyed my hair cherry red, it's already almost completely washed out. . but it looked sexeh while it was in. . i mean. . i felt like a sex goddess with cherry red hair. it made me spend at least 10 minutes every morning getting balls to the wall gorgeous just to sit in front of the comp and type. . but it doesn't matter how many people saw it. . only how it made me feel. . and i liked it. . next week it will be purple . . oh my ^^ i looks forward to it ^^ i also am severely concussed. . for those of you who haven't heard my hillarious tale. . . . i was out at the jetties watching all the pretty fish, and the pelicans were diving which i thought was pretty cool to watch. . cause when i was watching. . there were only 4 and all four were in front of me . . then out of no wher . . BAM fifth pelican slams straight into the back of my head. I'm apparently severely concussed. .. . and my head hasn't stopped hurting since last week. . . ^^ but ive been out and about as much as possible lately. . . swimming, beaching, kayaking. *which i might take up as a new sport feel free to join me* and after a week of no rest. .i'm exhausted. . but the damn head ache won't let me sleep .. sooo who knows. . . I'll be around. . cya ^^


Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/5291643/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/5291643/ Sat, 07 May 2005 08:20:08 PDT .< blah. . okay .. not really "failed" persay . . but i didn't accomplish what i needed or wanted to. . .. blah. .. . needed 7 more pieces. . and i couldn't think of shit >.< soooo. . . i didn't turn in a portfolio this year. . . looking forward to a summer of work. . . i need more than a few pieces so next year i can pick and choose. this years portfolio looked like crap >.< blah. . . . oh well. . . hope for next year .. right? ^^ gots to make the best with what i got. . but I finally gots me wacom. . soo i'm happy ^^ lol and a printer. .so i can actually take my work when it's finished ^^

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/5148074/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/5148074/ Thu, 21 Apr 2005 12:01:53 PDT ONE. Give people more than they expect anddo it cheerfully.

>TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to.As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

>THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spendall you have or sleep all you want.

>FOUR. When you say, "I love you,"mean it.

>FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry,"look the person in the eye.

>SIX. Be engaged at least six months beforeyou get married.

>SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

>EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams.People who don't have dreams don't have much.

>NINE. Love deeply and passionately. Youmight get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

>TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. Noname calling.

>ELEVEN. Don't judge people by theirrelatives.

>TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

>THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a questionyou don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

>FOURTEEN. Remember that great love andgreat achievements involve great risk.

>FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when youhear someone sneeze.

>SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose thelesson

>SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respectfor self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

>EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injurea great friendship.

>NINETEEN. When you realize you've made amistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

>TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone.The caller will hear it in your voice.


#18 is IMPORTANT! ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4964646/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4964646/ Thu, 31 Mar 2005 20:31:25 PST What's your name? :: Moki, Trance, Simon, and egh Morgan >.<
Birthplace ::
agh. .you all know already ^_^
Age ::
17
Age you act ::
anywhere between 10, and. . . how ever old my mommy is ^_^
Current location ::
a wing backed pink chair in the psuedo-living room
Eye color ::
Hazel
Hair color ::
dark brown to gold
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::
Right
Zodiac sign? ::
Virgo, or Bunny ^_^ heh heh BUNNY
Height? ::
5'3


[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::
hawaiian
Your hair ::
Long reallllly curly, and uncuttable cause Matt and D would stop talking to me. .
Your fears ::
certain people, drunks, small dogs (don't laugh)
Your perfect room ::
all neon baby. . cept. . i like my satin sheets ^_^
What you practically do in a day ::
wake up, shower, dress, go to school, hang with Donovan and the group, bus ride home, computer, clean. . as always, feed shithead. .err. .bully, go to bed

[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::
twitch,
Phrases you overuse :
i'm in shape, round's a shape
Your first thought when you wake up ::
"sigh" i'm late again
Your greatest accomplishment ::
moving up to heavy on DDR. . thus far ^_^
Something you want to do ::
become a famous comic artist

[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::
Uh... Mt. Dew
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::
blah
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::
twitch
Chocolate or vanilla ::
chocolate
Adidas or Nike ::
blah shoes suck
Black or white ::
Black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::
Cobra tokens and BILLS
Burgers or hot dogs ::
burgers. at least i know what it's made of

Egypt or France ::
france
Rock or rap ::
Rock.

[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::
No
Cuss ::
Yup
Sing well ::
i'm not bad
Sing in the shower ::
every chance i get ^_^
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::
giggle, i don't consider them parts of me. . persay
Believe in yourself ::
yes
Like taking these longass surveys? ::
it occupies my free time
Play an instrument ::
piano
Want to go to college? ::
yuppers ^_^
Want to get married? ::
One day
Want to have children? ::
kidsess get wierd sicknesses. . like buttgrubbs
Think you're a health freak? ::
not really
Get along with your parents ::
my mom
Get along with your siblings? ::
mostly. . . when they don't resent me
Think you're popular ::
lol. i'm a cool kid. . yea right

[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::
No.
Drank alchohal ::
no
Smoke ::
No.
Get high ::
No.
Done any drugs ::
Only prescription.
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::
hides trash. . no
Been on stage ::
Just a DDR stage
Gone skinny dipping ::
wish i hadn't been alone though
Dyed your hair ::
Never
Stolen anything ::
No.

[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! [x]
Craziest ::
Twix
Loudest ::
. . . Jose
Most shy ::
Mish
Blondest ::
hmm. . . . .
Smartest ::
we're al about equal in diff subjects
Kindest ::
Shella, Donovan, Matt Whit, Jess, Shannon, K-chan, Panda. . wow. . just keeps going ^_^ lol
Best personality ::
thas a tough one
Most talented ::
Freakin Fluffy :tantrum: love you
Best singer ::
Fluffy. . that i'm aware of, haven't heard anyone else
Most ghetto ::
Jose
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::
i have no room to talk
Pain in the ass ::
Matt, but he's a lovable Pain in the ass ^_^
The o... ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4883760/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4883760/ Tue, 22 Mar 2005 17:23:51 PST i was looking over some of these ha ha . stole it from so and so journals where you fill out the survey ^_^ why does every one think i'm gonna reproduce. . i've been very careful. . no eating after midnight. . i don't get wet after midnight ^_^ oops. . wait. .thas was a movie. . . seriously. .i'm curious. . why does every one say imma have the most chitlens.. . . kiddiessess. . . manahunis . .. can some one explain? ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4883696/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4883696/ Tue, 22 Mar 2005 17:17:38 PST 2) Birthday: Sept 6 1987
3) Zodiac Sign: virgo
4) Sex: Female
5) What Time Is It? 6:55 PM

Last Person Who......
8) Saw You Cry - Donovan
11) You Shared A Drink With - Donovan
12) Went to the movies with - Donovan
13) You Went To The Mall With -my Mum
14) Yelled At You - . . Adrian
15) Sent you an email - Dorian
16) Said They Were Gonna Kill You - Adrian

When was the last time you............
17) Taken A Picture Of Yourself With A Milk Mustache - dun have enough lip hair to achieve one
18) Said "I Love You" And Not Mean It - Shrug i always mean it
19) Gotten Into A Fight With Your Dog/Cat?
20) Been To New York? Never
21) Been To Florida? I live here...
22) Japan? after senior year!
23) Hawaii? when i was 8
24) Mexico? never
25) China? one day
26) Canada?
27) Stalked Someone? spooky
28) Danced Naked? every chance i get ^_^
30) Had A Mud Bath? very soothing
31) Wished You Were The Opposite Sex?when i wonder what it's like to masturbate as a boy ^_^
32) Had An Imaginary Friend? Fred is not imaginary
33) What Time Is It Now? 7:00 PM

Do you Prefer......
34) Apples Or Bananas? bananas
35) Red Or Blue? shrug
36) Backstreet Boys Or N Sync? lol i'd like to beat em both up
37) Wal Mart Or Target? WalMart
38) Spring Or Fall? Spring
39) Santa Or Rudolph? RUDOLPH! purty red...
40) Math Or English? english

Other.....
41) What Are You Going To Do After You Finish This Survey? work on my portfolio
42) What Was The Last Meal You Ate? pizza
43) High School Or College? High school
44) Are You Bored?nope. . easily amused
45) How Many Of Your Buddies are on? 15
46) Last Movie You Went And Saw? Boogy Man
47) Last Noise You Heard: heh hehh Come to Butthead BOIoioioioioioiNG

Which One Of Your Friends:
48) Laughs The Weirdest? ????
49) Will Grow Up And Be A Model? Shanchan or Tiffy
50) Going To Have The Most Kids?
51) Have You Known The Longest?. . . Kayla?
52) Loudest? Jose
53) Is The Quietest? how so? O.o Kay-Chan
54) Who Do You Have The Most Classes with? sniffle. . no one
55) Who Will Fill This Out And Send It Back? every one
56) Who Is The Funniest? Tiff, Tab and Kris.
57) Who Is The Moodiest? me
58) Who Do You Usually Go To About All Of Your Problems? Matt or Donovan

The Last Few Questions:
61) Last Time You Went Out Of State - 2 years ago
63) Cool OR Dorkie - Dorkie!
64) Weirdest Thing About You? - my habit of randomly humping people ^_^
65) What Book Are You Reading Now? - Forged by Fire. . actually i finished it
66) What's On Your Mouse Pad? lol no mouse pad
67) Favorite Board Game - i dun like board games
68) Favorite Magazine - Anything with good pics I can draw!
69) Favorite Sound - laughter
70) Worst Feeling In The World - failure to protect those who need me.
71) Best Feeling in The World - knowing you put a smile on some one's face
72) What Is The First Thing You Think When
You Wake In The Morning - oh shit. .i'm late again
73) Can you feel another persons pain? always
74) Future Daughter's Name - Vespa
75) Future Sons name - Scooter
76) Chocolate Or Vanilla? CHOCOLATE!
77) Favorite Alcoholic Drink?
78) If You Could Have Any Job You Wanted Right Now, What Would It Be? -drawing for Marvel Comics
79) Which job would you want soon? comic book artist and writer
80) Do You Type With Your Fingers On The Right Keys? nope
81) What's Under Your Bed? i don't have an under the bed ^_^
82) What Is Your Favorite Number? 24

and just so every one knows. . i don't plan on namin my k... ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4831774/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4831774/ Wed, 16 Mar 2005 19:24:58 PST leave it up to spacey little Trance to be intrigued by potentially dangerouse attributes of an illness eh? but seriously. . it was a really neat concept. . one unlike any of my other stuff. . i think this will be better than any of my stories. . cept for Kamikaze Dive. . but thas a different genre . . so it doesn't count i'm thinkin about doing the art in the same style as Sin City. . . great work you should check it out. .but i like the whole effect that the stark black and white and the sudden significant burst of color has on the story ^_^ I'll be working on concepts for it for a while ^_^ maybe i'll put them in my portfolio. .

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4820930/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4820930/ Tue, 15 Mar 2005 15:08:34 PST .< . . . . and oh yeah. . did i mention the constant need to vomit? But i can't. . cause it would make the open bloody parts in my throat infected >.< . .. grawr. . . i don't like being sicky. . . >< . . . sad thing is that the crap the doc gave us aint worth crap. . . . Vicks baby. . . thas all i need. . . . Vicks. . . . . and no citrus fruit. . . dear god talk about pain. . why didn't i think about the citric acid on my throat ? >.< . . . :sigh: imma go to bed now. . . . i'll be back in a few days. . maybe even tomorrow. . . . hey. . i'm coughin up a lung. . any one need one? much loves from your favorite cripple ^_^ ha. . cripple rhymes with nipple ^_^ stop thinkin about my nipples Snuffles. . ..> .> <.<


Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4691115/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4691115/ Mon, 28 Feb 2005 08:51:41 PST still have a year before i really have to worry. . but it's better to actually accomplish something this year too ^_^ well. . i'm extremely hyper. . had way too much caffiene. . maybe i'll play DDR. . or Step mania or something. . . twitch. . oh boy . . lol. . maybe i'll walk to the store and buy pudding. . who knows . . . . but i'm feelin bullet proof. . which is funny,. . .cause i dun even do drugs. . that's right my duckies. . . i can be wierd with out the aid of our good friend Mr. Narcotic

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4674360/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4674360/ Fri, 25 Feb 2005 22:46:12 PST .< still stalked by the motherfucker. . blah. . and a whole bunch of other shit that follows in the process like some morbid shampoo bottle reading rinse lather repeat. lol. But then Donovan and I started dating. and things started to look up. . i stopped having flash backs of the. . umm. . "R" word. . i was feeling lighter on my feet. . and i think i'm starting to heal. . and now. . tonight. . i finally moved up on the DDR scale. . w00t finally made it to heavy! hell yes. . . now. . i don have to look stupid when i'm dancing next to Donovan and he's on heavy where as i'm only on standard. . . look out Matt and Donovan. . and Alex cause I'm working on beating all of you :grin: but yesh. . The Moki Mojo is back. . and all is right again. . i've returned to being every one's favorite magic eight ball . .and the signs are no longer hazy. . so go ahead. . throw your best at me. . cause right now i'm like percocet and alcohol. . bullet proof. .. :face:

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4609790/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4609790/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 19:58:26 PST 1.flogging molly
2.malice mizer
3. DJ Ghost child
4. jack Off Jill
5. Tsunami Bomb
6. the police
7. Mini MOni
8. The cranberries
9. metallica
10. Lacuna Coil

10 Things you look forward to:
1. seeing Donovan every day (lol girly i know ^_^)
2. going back home, Hilo
3. DDR
4. roadtrip
5. going to Japan
6. remembering how to surf once i have waves
7. healing this open emo wound >.<
8. fnishing my comic book
9. passing high school
10. getting into college

9 Things you like to wear:
1. Neon
2. baggy pants
3. tank tops
4. leg warmers
5. jeans
6. heart necklace (given to me by Donovan)
7. plaid skirts in all colors mostly yellow
8. my boxers i stold from fuzzy ^_^
9. hello kitty cheekie panties

7 Things that anger you:
1. when people hurt some one i love
2. see #1
3. see #1
5. see #1
6. see #1
7.see #1


6 Things you say most days:
1. are you okay
2. im horny
3. i may kill him
4. i love you
5. i'm fine stop asking
6. stop it. .i'm not hungry

7 Things you do everyday:
1. talk to my bf
2. listen to music
3. draw
4. eat
5. dance
6. sing
7. love

4 People you want to spend more time with:
1. Donovan
2. see #1
3.see #1
4. see #1
5. see #1

3 Movies you could watch over and over again:
1. hmmm. . . Jaws
2.
3.
4.
5.

2 Of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. Matrix 2 trance mix
2. inner universe

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. Donovan ^_^

NUMBER OF:
- height:5'3
- shoe size: 8
- hair color: brunette to white


LAST:
- movie you rented: the village
- movie you bought: stepford wives
- song you listened to: matrix 2 trance remix
- song that was stuck in your head: matrix 2
- person you've called: no one. .don't like the phone
- person that's called you: no one. .
- show you've watched: MXC
- person you were thinking of: Donovan ^_^

DO:
- you have a crush on someone: yes
- you wish you could live somewhere else: sometimes
- you believe in online dating: . . .
- others find you attractive: i've no idea why
- you want more piercings: sure.. if i didn't keep bleeding >.<
- you like cleaning: sometimes
-you write in cursive or print: print

FAVORITE:
- food: asian and hawaiian
- thing to do: all that happy relationship stuff, and drawing
- thing to talk about: music,movies,cultured stuff and hot sex
- drinks: mountain dew, orange soda
- clothes: big baggy boy pants and tight tank tops (big boobies)
- movies: scary stuffies, and the occasional cartoon
- holiday: . . .

HAVE YOU:
- ever cried over a girl: yeah a close friend
- ever cried over a boy: . . .
- ever been in a fist fight: several
- ever been arrested: no comment

WHAT
- shampoo do you use: what ever's cheapest
- are you scared of: . . adrian
- number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: 4
- number of people I consider my enemies: 1

FAVORITE:
- disney movie: hmmm. . dunno
- word: fuck it goes with everything
- nickname: moki
- eye color: dunno
- flower: i like em all. . .

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
- pretty: in a way
- funny: sometimes
- hot: gots curves
- friendly: very
- amusing: apparently very
- ugly: a little
- loveable: i guess i am ^_^
- sweet: been described as that
- dorky: forever

DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] Wallet- i have a wallet?
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily –class ring and heart necklace
[ x ] Pillow cover – gold satin
[ x ] Underwear –cheeky panties
[ x ] Favorite shirt – . . .
[ x ] Perfume/cologne – plumeria
[ x ] CD in stereo right now- DDR music
[ x ] What you are wearing now –cheeky panties and a tank top
[ x ] In my mouth – spit
[ x ] In my head – lots of hair
[ x ] Wishing – i could be with Donovan
[ x ] After this – bed time
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now – Donovan
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month – . . .
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood – kinda like a penny but yeah
[ x ] Do you believe in love – deeply
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven – yes
[ x ] What do you want... ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4508572/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4508572/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 01:32:59 PST 02. How and where did we meet:
03. What's my middle name:
04. How long have you known me:
05. Tell me one good thing about myself:
06. When you first saw me what was your impression:
07. My age:
08. Birthday:
09. My favorite band at the moment:
10. My color eyes:
11. Do I have any siblings:
12. Have you ever had a crush on me:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do:
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. Describe me in 3 words:
16. Name 5 things I love:
17. Do you think I'm good looking:
18. How would you describe me to someone:
19. Would you ever date me:
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me:
22: If we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day? ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4206549/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4206549/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 21:12:35 PST
this year i grew close to a lot of people. . . my best friend mostly. . . and i know they would never ever say anything to hurt my intentionally. . . and hey. . who knows. . more than likely i'm reading too much into it again. . . how ever. . some things that are said when we talk make me feel as though maybe they doubt just how sincere i am. . . so let me clear things up. . . everything and anything i told you this year. . is true. .. . much of what i told you was way to serious for it to have been a joke. . i hope only that you can believe me. . and eventually tell me what ever it was that made you doubt me. .

on another subject. . i've had some things said to me that make me feel as though maybe i was misunderstood. . or just unaware of the things i had done. . either way. . . I'm tired. . . this summer may have tested all my friendships. . but i think it was just a taste of what my every day life it like. . and i don't complain. . knowing people trust me and will talk to me anytime they need some one to listens is one of my only reasons for living. .. . which is why i have a hard time understanding why some are so frustrated with me . . . i'm human too . . . and yes . every one has had some rough shit happen in their lives. . . i have too. . . and i've hidden it from every one. . . this year happened to be worse than most. . . but all i can say is that for those who stuck by me the entire summer. . . despite all the drama. . know that I'm always here. . even when i seemed detatched from most. . (mush moment) and on a final thought. . . . just so every one knows. . . my feelings for certain people are in no way any one elses business. . those of you who disagree. . as far as I'm concerned can go to hell. . . . and on the final thought. . . . happy new years.

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4017716/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/4017716/ Wed, 08 Dec 2004 09:17:38 PST but now. . this new house has grass. . and a BIG front yard. . and it actually looks like a house. . . . dot dot dot. . wow. . i do sound like i'm on crack. . . hmm. . . . oh well. . i'm excited about moving ^_^. . some where around the first ^_^. . yeah. . . . . and then. . oh well. . . you all get the picture. . .after christmas i'll be posting from a new location. ^_^ . . whoo hooo ^_^

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3848641/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3848641/ Tue, 16 Nov 2004 10:49:59 PST
Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3563765/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3563765/ Mon, 11 Oct 2004 09:23:58 PDT ,< ah well. . . . eventually they'll heal. . guess we'll see friday if i can still play ddr. . . but then again . . it'll take a hell of a lot more to stop me ^_^. . . . I was bored. . and i felt like complaining. . soo. . BLAH. . . I did complain. . and yesh. . . i am being a emo child ^_^ but every one deserves their one little moment of emo. . . ness. . .

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3499425/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3499425/ Sun, 03 Oct 2004 00:04:22 PDT and now i won't have this overwhelming guilt above my head because i couldn't keep my mouth shut. . . but anyhoo. . things are cleared up^_^

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3413611/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3413611/ Tue, 21 Sep 2004 12:03:09 PDT
Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3413567/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3413567/ Tue, 21 Sep 2004 11:55:59 PDT you'll rue the day you were better than me at DDR >.< and no that is not RULE >.< i'm just playin. . but i do so hope to be as wonderous at the DDR as Snuffles one day. . ^_^. . instead of a sumo wrestler in baggy pants and fishnet ^_^. . oh. . and also. . . i hope to hae the ID done soon . .wish me luck. . . ^_^. . .

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3413165/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3413165/ Tue, 21 Sep 2004 10:47:35 PDT for those of you who don't know me. . i can't really get past standard. . as my ass is too big to move that fast my shapely round ash ^_^. . well. . toodles to all my loverlies. . . that is all ^_^

I PASSED IT ON HEAVY!!!!!!!

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3383557/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3383557/ Fri, 17 Sep 2004 10:20:04 PDT i shall work on it in the car on the way home. .I have a whole 9 hours to do so ^_^ oi. . 9 hours in a Stratus. . . teeeeeeeny car. .>.< and i may be part asian and small. . but trust me. .asian or not. . sitting in a teeny car for 9 hours appeals to NO ONE! and no, i'm not being discriminatory towards asians >.< for all you wierd flighty people who take offense at the drop of a hat. >.< okay . . so anyhoo. . look forward to a brand new ID coming to a devart near you ^_^

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3372224/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3372224/ Wed, 15 Sep 2004 18:25:58 PDT ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3236083/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3236083/ Sun, 29 Aug 2004 00:18:33 PDT and distorted,
and my vision's stained,
but in my mindless space,
silentvoices wake
speak no good or worth,
i feel no gravity,
another promise broke
another empty stroke
then i fall headfirst,
and slowly i escape
and i release the pain
i feel the gravity,
i feel the gravity,
and i scream.
when my mind can't eat,
and my sould won't sleep,
won't you feed my swollen appetite,


this first verse reminds me sort of how I'm feeling right now. . .. . but hey. . i'll get over it, stress is just something i have to learn to deal with.

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3181443/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3181443/ Sat, 21 Aug 2004 15:59:36 PDT i know, what a spoiled brat, announcing her B-Day. . i'm only sharing, actually, i hope to have at least four pieces done by then. and it was an easier dead line to remember than if i had just picked a random day. I more than likely will, seeing that i have a critique every week, I'll have something to show for it at the end of it all. ^_^. . . sooo. . a quick reminder that I'm almost 17,despite the fact that I'm smaller than my 12 year old brother, and that i should be posting a lot more often than i am now. ^_^ thanks for listening. ^_^


Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3125950/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3125950/ Sat, 14 Aug 2004 17:33:33 PDT
2. Were you named after anyone? the almighty ruler of the freakin world

3. Do you wish on stars? yesh . . yesh i do ^_^

4. Which finger is your favorite finger? ummm. . . . that's an odd question

5. When did you last cry? after my last fight.

6. Lunch meat? don't eat lunch

8. Any bad habits? i have a tendancy to get distracted and forget to finish things

9. What's in your CD player right now? Gackt and Mana, Sweet 16

10. Do you believe in soul mates? yes

11. Are you a daredevil? yesh. . .yesh i am. .

13. Do looks matter? nah, I'm not exactly a looker, but they do count as brownie points but love makes all beautiful (you may now yak)

14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? me? decapitate a word? never

15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? not any more, now it's just a a big gay pride parade

16. Do fish have feelings? yesh. other wise we wouldn't have the saying, "there are plenty of fish in the ocean

17. Are you trendy? hell no, i'm teased as being lamely cute ^_^

18. How do you release anger? drawing, or ranting, or beating the hell out of a punching bag

19. Where are your second homes? i have a lovely sugar plantation on Maui

20. Do you trust others easily? unfortunately sometimes

21. What was your favorite toy as a child? the box that the toy came in

22. What class in school do you think is totally useless? astronomy, it's taking funds from the AP classes, and we still have no teacher

23. Do you have a journal? yeah, but it's full of espianage stories that i dream up

24. Do you use sarcasm a lot? no never, , , (meant sarcastically)

25. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? yup, and i was crushed, cracked a shoulder

26. What do you look for in a Man or Woman? they have to love to laugh, have a free thinking mind, and be willing to stretch the odds some times

27. What are your nicknames? Moki, Trance, Milo

28. Would you ever bungee jump? hmm. . .signs are hazy, ask again later

29. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? hell no, if i did i wouldn't have an excuse for wasting time in the morning

30. Do you think your strong? as far as character, yesh, physically, sort of, i have strong legs.

31. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? mint chocolate chip

32. What's your favorite color? don't have one

33. What is your least favorite food? fish eyes

34. How many wisdom teeth do you have? how many am i supposed to have, and how long does it take them to work?

36. Who do you miss most right now? Rich, or as ya'll know him, Rad-ed

37. Do you want everyone you send this to to send it back? ah hell, why not

38. What are you wearing? clothes that are too big for me

39. What are you listening to right now? an odd conversation about my asian family traditions

40. What was the last thing you ate? concoction of asian yummies in a soup

41. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? purple

42. How is the weather right now? finally sunny, i can breath again and nice and cool

43. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone? ummm. . . . Me sister

44. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? personality

45. How are you today? hyper, and my ass is numb

49. Favorite Drink? ICED TEA, or mountain dew

50. Favorite alcoholic drink? absinthe, which is illegal (it makes you hallucinate ^_^)

51. Favorite sport? surfing, Volly ball, Sumo wrestling

53. Eye color? hazel

54. Do you wear contacts? nope

55. Siblings? um, blood related 2, inlaws 13, step, 3

56. What is your favorite month? ummmm . . september,

57. Favorite food? i like em all, my rice belly explains it ^_^

58. Last movies you watched? exorcist, the scariest fucking movie in the world

59. Favorite... ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3005152/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3005152/ Fri, 30 Jul 2004 16:09:10 PDT around noon, but that's because i go to bed at five in the morning

2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE?
ummm. . . . Hugh Jackman^_^

3. GOLD OR SILVER?
Silver, my skin is yellow

4. WHAT WAS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA?
I,Robot

5.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
ummm, X-men the classics

6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?
i don't eat breakfast

7. WHO WOULD YOU HATE TO BE STUCK IN A ROOM WITH?
some one who can't seem to smile

8. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?
now there's a question to reveal a kinky secret about yourself, well, I'm not saying yes, and I'm not saying no

9. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
My friends and artist that I admire.

10. WHAT IS YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
ummm. .. Imma say Moki ^_^

11. BEACH, CITY, OR COUNTRY?
beach

12. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
mint chocolate chip

13. BUTTER, PLAIN OR SALTED POPCORN?
Butter baby!

14. FAVORITE COLOUR?
i don't have one

15. FAVORITE CAR?
'39 Jaguar, freakin classic baby

16. FAVORITE SANDWICH FILLING?
ummm. . . . dunno

17. WHAT CHARACTERISTIC DO YOU DESPISE?
selfishness, and those people who seem to think that nothing in the world is ever good enough

18. FAVORITE FLOWER?
hmmm. . . imma say, sunflowers, or gardenias ^_6

19. IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN IN THE LOTTERY, HOW LONG WOULD YOU WAIT TO TELL PEOPLE?
depends on whether some one needed money or not

20. FIZZY OR STILL WATER AS A DRINK?
water

21. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHROOM?
Tan with dragon flies all over the walls

22. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
umm, . . just my car keys, i have to climb into the house through my windows

23. WHERE WOULD YOU RETIRE TO?
not quite sure, not old enough to worry about it

24. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
only if multi-tasking counts

25. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
friday and saturday

26. RED OR WHITE WINE?
red

27. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
went to the arcade and played DDR, then had a party with a couple friends and my family and ate munchies

29. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL?
umm. . Kitty. . . or maybe a Yak

30. FAVORITE ANIME?
hmmm. . . . at the moment, Fushigi Yuugi

31. FAST FOOD OR HOME COOKED MEAL?
home cooked, that's why i learned

32. WHAT ATTRACTS YOU TO OTHERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
lips, hands, eyes, sense of humor, mostly personality

33. DO YOU BELIEVE IN UNICORNS?
Yeap.

34. WHATS YOUR DRESS STYLE?
what ever seems comfortable at the time which can be nothing at all at some times nothing at all.

35. SAY SOMETHING NICE ABOUT THE DEVIANT YOU COPIED THIS FROM:
I always love the colors you do ^_^ they're absolutely stunning ^_^
36. WHO DO YOU LEAST EXPECT WILL COPY THIS?
ummmm. . . . Johnny Bosanova

37. PERSON YOU EXPECT WILL COPY THIS FIRST?
ummm. . . Yume


yeah. . another redundant quizzy brought to you by Milo Kamikaze and the people she gets them from ^_^

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3005145/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3005145/ Fri, 30 Jul 2004 16:08:09 PDT around noon, but that's because i go to bed at five in the morning

2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE?
ummm. . . . Hugh Jackman^_^

3. GOLD OR SILVER?
Silver, my skin is yellow

4. WHAT WAS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA?
I,Robot

5.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
ummm, X-men the classics

6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?
i don't eat breakfast

7. WHO WOULD YOU HATE TO BE STUCK IN A ROOM WITH?
some one who can't seem to smile

8. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?
now there's a question to reveal a kinky secret about yourself, well, I'm not saying yes, and I'm not saying no

9. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
My friends and artist that I admire.

10. WHAT IS YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
ummm. .. Imma say Moki ^_^

11. BEACH, CITY, OR COUNTRY?
beach

12. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
mint chocolate chip

13. BUTTER, PLAIN OR SALTED POPCORN?
Butter baby!

14. FAVORITE COLOUR?
i don't have one

15. FAVORITE CAR?
'39 Jaguar, freakin classic baby

16. FAVORITE SANDWICH FILLING?
ummm. . . . dunno

17. WHAT CHARACTERISTIC DO YOU DESPISE?
selfishness, and those people who seem to think that nothing in the world is ever good enough

18. FAVORITE FLOWER?
hmmm. . . imma say, sunflowers, or gardenias ^_6

19. IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN IN THE LOTTERY, HOW LONG WOULD YOU WAIT TO TELL PEOPLE?
depends on whether some one needed money or not

20. FIZZY OR STILL WATER AS A DRINK?
water

21. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHROOM?
Tan with dragon flies all over the walls

22. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
umm, . . just my car keys, i have to climb into the house through my windows

23. WHERE WOULD YOU RETIRE TO?
not quite sure, not old enough to worry about it

24. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
only if multi-tasking counts

25. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
friday and saturday

26. RED OR WHITE WINE?
red

27. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
went to the arcade and played DDR, then had a party with a couple friends and my family and ate munchies

29. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL?
umm. . Kitty. . . or maybe a Yak

30. FAVORITE ANIME?
hmmm. . . . at the moment, Fushigi Yuugi

31. FAST FOOD OR HOME COOKED MEAL?
home cooked, that's why i learned

32. WHAT ATTRACTS YOU TO OTHERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
lips, hands, eyes, sense of humor, mostly personality

33. DO YOU BELIEVE IN UNICORNS?
Yeap.

34. WHATS YOUR DRESS STYLE?
what ever seems comfortable at the time which can be nothing at all at some times nothing at all.

35. SAY SOMETHING NICE ABOUT THE DEVIANT YOU COPIED THIS FROM:
I always love the colors you do ^_^ they're absolutely stunning ^_^
36. WHO DO YOU LEAST EXPECT WILL COPY THIS?
People who are busy or didn't read it...

37. PERSON YOU EXPECT WILL COPY THIS FIRST?
People! ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3000376/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3000376/ Thu, 29 Jul 2004 23:51:21 PDT
smugly yours

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3000337/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/3000337/ Thu, 29 Jul 2004 23:43:53 PDT OLIM

[The story behind your pen name]:
long story actually. . can't share it. but as far as I'm concerned. it is my real name

[3 words that sum you up]:
fear of bunnies


{DESCRIBE YOUR}

[Wallet]:
oh so very lonely and empty

[Hairbrush]:
can't brush my hair. . i have to take two showers a day because i have curly hair ^_^

[Jewelry you wear daily]
silver zodiac necklace, anklet, and toe rings

[Pillow cover]:
white with blue sparkly snowflakes

[Coffee cup]:
anything that can't potentially burn me when i pick it up ^_^ or shock me. . do not drink out of the toaster

[Shoes]:
don't wear any. . other wise. . . sandles

[CD in stereo right now]:
Techno and the Italian opera. . it was Gackt

[What are you are wearing now?]:
absolutely nothing. . lol. . no. . umm. . boy pants that are falling off and huge tank top. . also falling off and a flanel shirt. .ohhh soo comfy

[Hair]:
golden brown and curly

[In your mouth]:
umm. . my foot. .lol. . . mountian dew

[In your head]:
trust me. . you do not want to go there

[Eating]:
can't keep anything down. . haven't eaten in days

[Some of your favorite movies]
X-men 1 X-men 2, and a bunch of others i haven't watched in forever

[The last thing you ate?]:
squeeze cheese and crackers

[Something that you are deathly afraid of? ]:
being alone with out family or friends. . . big black rooms

[Do you like candles?]
yesh. . but i like incense more ^_^

[Do you believe in a thing called love?]:
how can you not when you are in love

[Do you believe in soul mates?]:
Yes

[Do you believe in love at first sight?]:
yes

[Do you believe in forgiveness?]:
always

[If you could have any animal for a pet]:
hmmmm. . . . i would have to say. . my beautiful kitty kitty ^_^
or a yak

[What are 3 places you wouldn't mind relocating to?]:
England Hawaii and Japan

[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]:
ummm. . bacon?

[What's something you wish you could understand better?]:
mathmatics

[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]:
RICH! or Rad-ed as ya'll know him


{In the last 24 hours, have you}:

[Cried?]:
several time

[Gotten sick?]:
constantly

[Sang?]:
yep cures the blues

[Eaten?]:
no

[Felt stupid?]:
always it's part of my charm

[Hugged someone?]:
Yes

[Wanted to tell someone you loved them?]:
yes

[Met someone new?]:
Yes

[Talked to someone you have a crush on?]:
Yes

[Fought with your parents?]:
nope. . . they don't notice me much. i'm too sneaky. . lol. . but honestly i don't argue. there's no point takes to much energy to get no where but sick and vomiting again

[Dreamed about someone you can't be with?]:
yes Rich lives in england. . sniffle

[Are you center of attention or the wallflower?]:
center of attention at all times dammit or i'll just die. .lol . nah. I'm both at the same time

[What type of automobile do you drive?]:
1987 Honda Accord. . ever notice how all japanese cars beep after four years? and it's a puke gold color. oh how i loath the color. . but oh well it was only a dollar

[Would you rather be with friends or on a date?]:
if Rich were here . .sorry guys it would be him. .unless he wanted to be with ya'll too

[Do you attend church?]:
no but i pray each night. . and i meditate in the afternoon. . and i do many other things spiritual

[Do you like being around people?]:
always

[What time is it now?]:
1:41 in the morning

[What are you planning to do later?]:
drink 17 cans of mountain dew

[What do you hear right now?]:
lots of giggling girls talking about sticking things in your mouth and chewing it. . I dunno what it is. . .

[What was the last thing you watched on TV?]:
umm. . . inuyasha. . and scrambled porn, i woke up to it


and now you know a little about me. more redundant shit ^_^ thanks James we love you ^_^
... ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2699664/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2699664/ Sat, 19 Jun 2004 19:49:51 PDT -- Birthdate: September 6, 1987
-- Birthplace: Honolulu, Hawaii
- Current: Panama City Beach, Florida
-- Eye Color: hazel and gold, (they turn lilac in neon lights.)
-- Hair Color: dark purple brown to white (birthmark)
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty.
-- Zodiac Sign: virgo
inie or Outtie: Innie.

---DESCRIBE---

-- Your heritage: portuguese Hawaiian, and cajun
-- The shoes you wore today: none . . ,. ever
-- Your eyes: umm. . .. glazed cause i haven't slept in a while
-- Your weakness: friends
-- Your fears: my past
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: some intellegence

---WHAT IS---

-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: spiffy
-- Your thoughts first waking up: don't slip in the bathroom
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: the laugh
-- Your best physical feature: my hair, my chest and my ass
-- Your bedtime: bout 4 in the morning
-- Your greatest accomplishment: keeping friends happy
-- Your most missed memory: black sand beaches of Hawaii

---YOU PREFER---

-- Pepsi or Coke: coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: neither
-- Single or group dates: depends on how kinky i'm feeling
-- Adidas or Nike: don't wear shoes
-- Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino
-- Bras or Panties: both, can't go commando(uncomfortable, and if i go braless, I'll give myself black eyes.

---DO YOU---

-- Smoke: can't
-- Cuss: every fuckin chance i get uh huh. . damn spanky
-- Take a shower everyday: twice daily
-- Have a crush(es): sorta. .. but I love Rich more than any of the crushes
-- Who are they?: wouldn't ya'll like to know :wink:
-- Do you think you've been in love?: i am right now
-- Want to go to college: more than certainly
-- Like high school: yesh
-- Want to get married: eventually yes
-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: every time
-- Believe in yourself: always
-- Get motion sickness: nah, only people who speed through life get motion sickness
-- Think you're attractive: to an extent. . physically, sorta. . if you liked short round on Indiana Jones
-- Think you're a health freak: hell no check out my rice belly
-- Get along with your parents: my mommy (and my dad when i see him
-- Like thunderstorms: God yes
-- Play an instrument: piano

---IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU---

-- Drank alcohol: can't
-- Smoke(d): can't
-- Done a drug: just doctor perscribed meds. . then i flushed em
-- Have Sex: nope. . still a happy virgin
-- Made Out: can't, Rich lives in England
-- Go to the mall: yupyup
-- Eaten sushi:yup yup
-- Been on stage: yup yup
-- Gone skating: can't skate not coordinated enough
-- Made homemade cookies: all the time
-- Been in love: yesh yesh
-- Dyed your hair: never
-- Stolen anything: nah, nothing worth stealing

---HAVE YOU EVER---

-- Flown on a plane: yup
-- Missed school because it was raining?: yesh i skipped to go dancing in the rain
-- Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yup yup
-- Cried during a Movie?: Willie Wonka and the Chocolate factory, the oompa loompas scare the piss out of me
-- Ever thought an animated character was hot?: yeah.
-- Had an imaginary friend: i have several
-- Been on stage?: yes
-- Cut your hair: yeah
-- Had crush on a teacher?: blah :twitch
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?:
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated:
-- Been caught "doing something": girls can't do that. . .
-- Been called a tease: actually...yes several times (dunno why)
-- Gotten beaten up: . . . not a word Snuffles
-- Been in a fight: dot dot dot
-- Shoplifted: nah. . nothing worth shop lifting

---THE FUTURE---

-- Are you hoping to be married: eventually
-- Numbers and Names of Children: ouch
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding: umm. . . . i dunno. . I"m only 16
-- How do you want to die?: gloriously?
-- What do you want to be when you grow up?: the first African american president (now to become black) but if that doesn't work, an... ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2562086/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2562086/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 21:15:52 PDT


1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. How have I affected you?

5. What do you think of me?

6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?

7. How long do you think we will be friends?

8.Do you love me?

9. Do you have a crush on me?

10. Would you kiss me?

11. Would you hug me?

12. Would you ever make out with me?

13. Physically, what stands out?

14. Emotionally, what stands out?

15. Do you wish I was cooler?

16. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

17. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

18. Am I lovable?

19. How long have you known me?

20. Describe me in one word.

21. What was your first impression?

22. Do you still think that way about me now?

23. What do you think my weakness is?

24. Do you think I'll get married?

25. What makes me happy?

26) What makes me sad?

27. What reminds you of me?

28. If you could give me anything what would it be?

29. How well do you know me?

30. When's the last time you saw me?

31. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

32. Do you think I could kill someone?

33. Do you think I would kill someone?

34. Are you going to put this on your deviant journal and see what I say about you? ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2561957/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2561957/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 20:58:55 PDT anic: and before all of those who know what my hair looks lik .. IE the people who live in the same city as me. . . don't freak. . hair grows back . . it's not like the hole where your belly button is. . still can't figure out why that never heals. . :scratches head: oh well. . . . it was either that . . .or pierce something. . . and piercing really isn't an option for me. . :sigh: thin blood and all. . :sniffle: but maby doing something crazy like get my hait cut to my shoulders. . . . not thinned though. . . that's easily 9 inches. . which is more than enough to donate to a cancer society. . that is if i don't talk myself out of it.. . :sweat: ant: i'm just as twitchy about my hair as every one else. . . . so I'm still talking myself into this. . . wish me luck. .


Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2434124/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2434124/ Sat, 15 May 2004 11:36:54 PDT I'm more afraid of being well
I'm not afraid of the gun in my hand
I'm just afraid it will hurt like
hurt like hell
I'm not afriad of screaming
and I'm not afriad of crying
I'm just afraid of forgetting
and I am afraid of dying. . .


yes. .the words speak true. . I'm afriad of being better. . . maybe because I'm so used to feeling like something is tearing at my insides. . i dunno what the relief of not feeling that will be like. . it know. . you all probably think I'm odd. . but it's true. tonight ends it all. . it's the big surgery. . the last one. . . and I'm hoping that all this will be cured. . but at the same time I'm afraid. . . . who know's what it will be like not being in pain anymore. . .:sigh: but things can only get better. . i'll have to get used to not flushing pills anymore. . oh well .. I will see you all soon. . .and hopfeully i'll have fresh new ideas . . . and skin tone. .


Amp[ ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2398211/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2398211/ Mon, 10 May 2004 10:04:29 PDT but anyhoo. . there is a downside . .i don't have the net at home. . >.< sooo .. i shall try to find a way to get it. . or be happy with my few and far between visits. . :sniffle: but all those who don't live here. . :ei Rich love.. : sniffle: shall see me seldomly. . soo. .I'm working my ass off to find a job to pay for the net. . it's really hard to find a place around where i live that isn't a ma and pa store. . >.< . . . guess I'll just work at the theatre house. .

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2350152/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2350152/ Mon, 03 May 2004 10:08:32 PDT .< . . . dragged me into the office again on wednesday only to tell me that i had to be measured for a wheel chair as a precaution. . .fuck that. . . >.< if you're more than positive that a surgery for a benigne cancer polyp will cause me to be a vegitable. .then it's not worth it. . >. < . . . and that's the thing. . it's not even going to hurt me . but they want to be on the safe side. .i'm sorry if i seem a bit rash about my decision in saying no. . but i would rather risk it than end up a vegitable. . not a quad. . a vegitable. . . with out use of anything. . . Ethan hawking kind of vegitable. . fuck it. . >.< . . . i look at my brother in law a man who has been a quad for almost 8 years now and one of the strongest people I will ever meet in my life. . . he lives every say as though it were nothing. . . even his artwork is incredible. . it dwarfs mine . . :sigh: he's strong. .but i don't know that i could do that. . . maybe i could handle being a quad. . but not a vegitable. . . that's too much. . .so for now. . the procedure on May 14. . is canceled. . those docs can find some other way to waste their time. . but cutting me apart. . no. . that's not happening. . >.< . . thanks for reading. . just thought i would vent. . no worries. . i don't intend to be in any kind of medical trouble any time soon. . :grin:


Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2273915/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2273915/ Thu, 22 Apr 2004 08:56:36 PDT .< . . now that it's out of my system . . i should be fine. . >.<

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2221279/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2221279/ Wed, 14 Apr 2004 10:42:10 PDT
GOD SAVE THE QUEEN. . .
and for those of you wondering. . i love America. . but i refuse to follow the leadership of some unibomber in office. . so instead. . . i'm thinking about finding a country to reside in until further notice. . and so far Her Majesty Queen Elizibeth is the only one who hasn't murdered and bombed other places. . only leader so far who isn't fucking things up. . .

-smugly yours again-

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2204910/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2204910/ Mon, 12 Apr 2004 05:25:46 PDT
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smugly yours and hopefully feeling better by later. . .

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2163258/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2163258/ Tue, 06 Apr 2004 08:23:53 PDT
maybe I'll go buy a patch. . gasp . . a fraggle patch !!!! i love the Fraggles. . i love Jim Henson. .and i especially love David Bowie in the Labyrinth. . drool . .. ^_^. . .


Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2136256/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2136256/ Fri, 02 Apr 2004 09:53:41 PST
oh well. . time to go find some caffiene. . maybe that would help. . . I love you all. . hope to hear from you ^_^

Amp ]]> ~Amp-Essex http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2121677/ http://Amp-Essex.deviantart.com/journal/2121677/ Wed, 31 Mar 2004 10:02:00 PST soo. . imma have Neko help me with my Band photos until we can work on the Death project. look for band photos. . those are coming soon . . to a computer near you. . lmao. .


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