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]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/18017937/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/18017937/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 05:59:05 PDT So, hey! Let’s write a journal. When boredome strikes, do whatever enters your mind! Lol, yeah right. Like I said, I’m bored. Beyond all reason. Plus it’s… 8:47 in the morning. I don’t do thinking and common sense before 10:45.
Anyway. Just writing to let everyone know I stil exist. I mean, Syd, Anna, Cassy, and Rachel all still knew that, but that’s besides the point. (Did I forget anyone? The communitiy’s always growing.) I’ve been CRAZY BUSY lately, with volunteering and schoolwork and Jazz Band and ARGH. Trying to fit a social life in there is hard enough, let alone anything else. But that’s how spring goes, I guess.
Speaking of spring, I think everyone here has spring fever! Well, not everyone. But I’m having issues with four guys at once! FOUR! This is madness!
…This is not madness! THIS. IS. SPARTAAAAAAAAAAA! *Shot*
But yeah. Just some highlights that I won’t get into since class is going to end soon and I just don’t feel like it:
- I got to see Bill Clinton! He came to my school to give a speech about Hilary before Tuesday’s voting (It worked, huh? PA voted for her. Bleh.) and the Jazz Band played for him. We did this with less that 24 hour’s notice, too! How amazing are we?
- Things are going great with Pat. We’re acting like friends again, and he really seems to be showing in interest in spending time with me.
- Things with my friends are good, too. This makes a happy Andy.
- Things with my family? Not so much, but not going into that.

I’m going to wrap this up before the bell rings and I get caught. Until next time!

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17852758/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17852758/ Mon, 14 Apr 2008 17:08:54 PDT
Change is a'comin'...

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17717184/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17717184/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 14:25:59 PDT
Okay. So, I've been sick this past week. I've had a little bit of everything: Cold, cough, flu, fever... you get the picture. So, I missed school ONE day, but I vegetated the others because I didn't feel well. So, now, I have ALL this backed-up work to do, and a test that I have NO clue what it's on to study for.

Actually, I think it's ameobas or something. Hm.

Anyway. So, I'm thinking about this (And suffering under the weight of my bookbag) and I figured "Well, I'll put up a DA journal and explain that, even though everything's okay and I have an art drive, I have to put sketching on the backburner for a while so I can catch up." Makes sense, right?

Weeeellll... *Bites lip* Last night, when I SHOULD have been doing this backed-up work... I kinda sorta... finished two pictures (Gimmie a little bit and I'll upload them). Way to stick to my plans, huh? Ah well. That's me, the non-conformist!

Instead, I'll put math on the backburner. He lets us turn our homework in late. I can do this. I CAN!

...Pssssh, yeah right.

Progress on homework: 0% (Due to drawing and watching movies and reading manga and going to the mall and drinking coffeeeeeeeeeeeee! I love coffee~)

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17591399/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17591399/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 15:55:17 PDT EDIT: All right. So, I'm majorly confused, since she called that evening and acted like everything was fine. I'm really not happy with her attitude about this (She's blaming me, when it's only partially my fault) and with the outcome, but right now, I'll take what I can get. I haven't got much else, really. I s' pose I'll see how things go, and if it sucks again, I'll bring it up. This time, though, I'll make sure I am heard, too.

Thank you all for your supportive, thoughtful comments, especially Cass. They really helped.

I'll leave it at this: There's been this huge situation with Syd lately, and... it's not going to end pretty. I wish everything could have been different, but it can't be. I'm trying to make the best of it as I can, but... it's not easy. I won't talk about it, since I refuse to be an emo idiot and I refuse to complain about her. She still means so much to me through everything, and I don't think that'll ever be erased.

I was once told that with every ending, there's a beginning that follows... but I see no new beginning in sight. Right now, I see nothingness, and it scares the shit out of me. I'm usually one to face things head on and confront my problems... but, for the first time, I just want to run away. I want to shut my eyes and wake up in a happier time, when everything was okay and I wasn't crying myself to sleep at night.

I've already said too much and sound like an emo. I just... felt a need to explain why I've been... so dead on here for so long...

Well, this is it.

I'll do my best to stick around, but... I dunno how much I'll be drawing or writing in the future. Everything was built around her, and... it's all crumbling into pieces. I feel alone and broken, and I have to fix myself because no one is going to do it for me. I'm on my own here. Time to face the world.

I Am The Ram

*Just so you all know:
- The party was cancelled, since two of the five people invited couldn't come. I've decided to have it over the summer instead.
- Things with Patrick are very confusing right now. I just want to see him at this point, he'd make everything better.
- No, I will not talk about what happened.
- I am deleting all comments and deviations and journals and shit in my inbox. If there's something you wanted me to see, send a link through a note or something.
- Don't expect me to respond to much*

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17542113/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17542113/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 13:53:40 PDT He said he's coming, so I'm excited. I just hope he'll have a good time, since he'll be the only guy. Mum and Dad won't let me invite Travis, his cousin and my friend, so there's not really a choice... But still. I'll give him the option to not come because of it, though. I don't know how guys feel about that... And he's not an ordinary guy, so that makes it harder, lol.
Argh, just thinking about it gives me butterflies.

In other news, for my b-day, I got some new clothes (Brighter that my usual black, red, and purple. A message?), a new sketchbook, and blah blah blah. Nothing really major, other than two Anberlin CDs (Never Take Friendship Personal and Cities) and a Daft Punk CD (Discovery). I was like "Eh, jackpot Christmas and jackpot Easter (Got all of Dana's candy because she suddenly decided that she doesn't like milk chocolate), I'm pretty content."
Well. What I WASN'T expecting was a surprise visit to Megan, my hair dresser person, after school on Tuesday. Turns out one of the bigger items on my list had not been ignored.

I got auburn highlights in my hair. 8D They make me look... more sophisticated, I think. I dunno. I just know that I like 'em, lol. I'll try to take a pic of it sometime soon and put it up. I could use the pic. I need a new ID 'cause... 'cause I'm not fourteen anymore. o.o

Oh, and we got rid of our old satellite and got that famous cable... something with a D or something. Mum's going crazy with the Parental control. I'm going to have nothing to watch... v.v

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17347196/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17347196/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 12:49:14 PDT
This week has been rough. A lot of stuff happened that really messed with me. But with all hardships comes experience for the future. After finally being clear enough to think about things, I found that I’ve learned a lot not only in this week, but for the past few months, when things started going south.

What I’ve Learned:

Shouting never helps. If you’ve got a bone to pick with someone, shouting and making a big fuss about it isn’t going to help you one bit. If you’re starting to fight with someone, walk away, calm yourself down, and take a few deep breaths. Once you’re feeling a bit more leveled, go back to the person and talk to the person about the problem. Try to be understanding and make sure you know what’s going on. Hopefully, you can reach a middle ground of sorts with said person.

You can’t bottle emotions, but you can’t wear every emotion on your sleeve either. These are two hazardous extremes many people fall into for whatever reasons. Bottling emotions makes you bitter and angry all the time, as well as exhausts you. But, on the flip side, showing every emotion you ever have, especially if it’s extreme, scares people off and makes you seem like you’re bipolar or something. It’s okay to show emotion, but if it’s not necessary, save it for when you’re alone. Find an outlet, like a journal or something. Heck, if you’re angry, blow stuff up on video games. It makes me feel a lot better.

You can’t close your eyes and pretend everything’s okay when it’s not. I’ve done this for so many years, since I just hate facing up with the bad. I don’t know how to deal with it, is the bottom line, and that scares the crap out of me. But pretending it doesn’t exist won’t help you. It’ll just make you bottle up everything that’s happening to you and cause you to explode one day, maybe on someone that doesn’t deserve it.

Don’t take frustration out on other people. If you’re angry, and your friend or your sister didn’t really do anything wrong, don’t blow up at them because something else is bothering you. If it’s that bad, take it out on the person who did it to you. No one’s invincible. If it’s something small or something that can’t be helped that just builds up, find an outlet that doesn’t hurt anyone. I’ve found that homework, math in particular, is good at relieving stress. It kills emotion and gives me time to collect myself.

People change, and there’s nothing you can do about it. It’s sad, but true. Even your best friend, the one person you know inside and out, can become someone you don’t even recognize. And it’s going to hurt like hell, especially if they change in such a way that they don’t think highly of you anymore. You can’t force them to go back to how they used to be. It’s their choice and their life, not yours. If it’s possible, talk to them and see if you can make things work. You may not be as close as you used to be, but there was a reason you guys were friends in the first place, right? If not, you’ll just have to find a way to pick yourself up and move on, no matter how hard it’ll be. It’s their loss in the end.

Sleep on it. Before doing anything rash or anything that’ll cause problems, whether it be writing someone a note because of a problem there’s been lately, chewing someone out for something they did, or anything like that, sleep on it. I’m not saying that, in the middle of a school day or work day, you should fall asleep and then do it. Give it a day. Think about what you’re going to do, and don’t let your emotions control you. Things will be better in the end if you just give it time. Nine times out of ten, you’ll rethink your actions and find a better way to make things work.

You have to be self-reliant. I’m not saying you shouldn’t have friends. I’m not saying you should shut those friends out and be a lone wolf when it comes to problems. But you have to know how to tackle issues and pick yourself up when you don’t have anyone to go to. It’s nice to have a friend to cry to, but you can’t go to them for everything. They’ll get tired of hearing it. Not that your friends don’t care, but they have their own problems, and sometimes it’s not even as big of a deal as you’re making it. Find an outlet that involves just you. Journal. Blog. Talk to yourself, if you have issues writing stuff down like I do. It’s not that you can’t trust anyone, people can be there for you, sometimes unlikely people, but there will be situations you have to handle yourself. You need to know how to address it and move on, or else you’ll end up alone and miserable.

I learned all this the hard way. I know that it’s not easy, but try to heed my warnings in here. I realize that may not be possible, for something you ha... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17315998/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17315998/ Thu, 13 Mar 2008 13:15:29 PDT
All right. So I sat down and talked to Mum about it. Mostly, she's just concerned about how I wanted to go to his house in particular, afraid of date rape, etc. So I'm hoping maybe he can come up here and we can go to Panera or the mall or something. Wish me luck!

In short, this week has been super-shitty and is about to get shittier, but I'm trying to get through despite being mood swing central. NExt week SHOULD be better: Only have to go to school three days thanks to Easter-I mean Spring- Break, and then I get Monday off, which doubles as my fifteenth birthday. Woooo.
*Sarcasim*

Eh, don't mind me, I'm just in a bad mood. It's seemingly endless, but... Well, everything gets better in the end.

In other news, I went to the doc yesterday to see if I had a sinus infection or something since I've had an everlasting cold. After getting a shot (Owwie), they diagnosed me with...
Allergies!
...
I already knew I suffered from allergies. I didn't need to pay a shitload of money to find that out. Ah well. At least I got some Nasonex from them, it keeps me clear. Honestly, that stuff actually works. I was astounded.

That's all, I s' pose. Gonna go on Facebook and see if I can talk to my P. Mo.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17256244/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17256244/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 13:10:34 PDT AKA Patrick.
Okay. So, he ended up not playing the other night. Dunno why. But today, the phone rings, and a guy is there, answering my hello.
Patrick called me.
And he asked me to go to his house to hang out with him, his cousin (Another friend of mine, Travis), and Trav's girlfriend. Needless to say, I was estatic. Pat wanted to hang out with me! Yeah, Anna and Kristen were originally invited too, but that's okay, since Anna's my friend and I was still a part of that deal, meaning he wanted to spend time with me.
But, of course, I couldn't go. Why? Because. Of. Mum. Because he doesn't live right down the street. Because there's one inch of snow out there. Because he is of the opposite sex and that AUTOMATICALLY makes him by secret lover.
And, of course, in all that, I got to hear more about how awful of a daughter I am and how much trouble I am and I was left to think about how happy she'd be without a damn third daughter, as always.
I can't take living here much longer. I can't ever do anything but sit here and hate myself.

He wants to spend time with me. But we can't. Because of her.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17242353/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17242353/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 15:18:21 PST
Okay. Next week is opening week for the school play, Bye Bye Birdie. Pretty much all of my friends are in it. Why am I not, do you ask?
Well, I didn't make it. Tried out, wasn't accepted. Oh well, right? That's what I've been trying to tell myself since it happened in November/December. I mean, I am a freshman, and I'm not in chorus. No biggie. I'll try out next year. Of course, I wasn't completely unaffected, so I had to talk to my friends and enforce that they can't talk about it all the time, since I am very disappointed and will feel rather left out. I mean, if you couldn't go to a party, do you want to hear how awesome it was without you?

The bitterness began when I started hearing about how Mrs. Morris, the music director for choral (and orchestral) productons, is a bit prejudiced and isn't likely to accept someone into the musical if they're not in chorus. Now, I was in chorus last year, and I just didn't enjoy it. I like singing, but... she made it less-than-fun, if you catch my drift. So, I dropped out of chorus, since I realized it wasn't for me. Now, I dont have a bad voice. I miss a few notes here and there, but if you let me practice enough, I get it. I just didn't enjoy chorus. I thought maybe I was just under the bar a bit, that the other girls were better, but I was assured that I sing better than most of them. Despite its intent, it did NOT assure me. I just grew more bitter towards Mrs. Morris, even though it was a bit immature for me.

This has just continued until now, and it's been eating away at me no matter how much I try to destroy it. For the sake of my friends, I've been acting like its no big deal, but it honestly bothers the hell out of me. If I hear my friends talking about it, I walk away and do my own thing so I don't end up feeling crappy, which has been quite oftem lately. I don't want to be a thin-skinned, bitchy baby and tell them to not talk about it around me, even though I warned them at the beginning it was going to bug me, so I just don't say anything... At least there's only one week left.

That is, until next year comes and they all make it again and I bet you I won't because I'm not about to torture myself with chorus again and miss out on taking something I really WILL enjoy, like art class or band.

I suppose the real reason it bugs me isn't because everyone else made it. It's because I didn't. I've always wantd to be on stage and become someone else, if only for a little while. Ever since I saw Annie as a second grader. Ever since I saw Aladdin in Pittsburgh when I was in first grade. Ever since I saw the frickingLion King when I was five! I dremt about it so much when I was little, imaging myself on the movies on TV or as the voice overs in my Disney movies. It died after a while, my lack of self-confidence knocking down the hope that I could make it big... But I knew about the school musicals and figured I could at least participate in those.

So much for that, huh?

Sorry, just needed to vent about this. Mum brought it up a little bit ago and it began taking over my mind. Decided to finally get my real feelings out there. Ignore it if you want.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17225724/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17225724/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 14:56:57 PST EDIT: I can't go. I'm kind of upset, but I can understand why. The roads are AWFUL here. Anyone who lives in the northern part of the US can probably relate, especially Cleaveland. It snowed all fo last night and all day today... It freezing rained last night, too. In other words, the roads are pure ice. And where he's performing is about ten-twenty minutes from here. So, I'm upset, but I'm not angry. I told him I couldnt come and that I was sorry about five times in doing so, so that's that. I plan on going to the track meets when his school competes against ours, and I'm sure he'll tell me about his next gig, so there's hope.
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Oh. My. God.
I know this isn't that big of a deal, but it is.
Okay. You know Patrick? Of course you do, he's all I talk about anymore. Well, we haven't talked for a long while, as you know, or seen each other...
He's asking me to do something with him tomorrow night at six.
AAAAAAAAAAH!
My mom better let me go, oh please please please let me go!
Can't really say much else, sorry. WAAAAY too excited! I was going beserk in the computer chair when I first saw his invite.

...EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

If this isn't love, this is the closest I've ever been...

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17181944/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17181944/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 15:15:31 PST
The reason, I realized hlfway through the period, that I went through with this is because this sub reminded me of him. The boy I want so desperately but can never have.
Patrick.
Part of me is slowly dying because I can't let him go. He has a girlfriend, and I know he wouldn't be interested in me anyway. Even if he WAS, by some miracle, we probably wouldn't last long, due to my fear of commitment. I'd just end up hurting him.
But it still eats at me. For the love of god, I'm dreaming about him now! I was finally catching up with him and talking with him and all that in my dream, but when I went to see him again, he brought his girlfriend, blissfully oblivious to how much it hurt me to see him with her, and I just felt so awful, and... I woke up after that, both relieved and depressed to know that it was a dream. It's getting to be too much. I have to do something. I have to see him, at the least. I'm losing my mind.
At least it's track season. Hopefully, I can go the the meet when he comes to our stadium. IF we're competing with their school this year. Ugh.

On a lighter note: The other day, I went to the gas station with my dad. I always wait in the car while he takes care of everything, so I get to look around and study my environment. I actually enjoy it, trying to see every last detail and making my own stories on what might be happening. Something that took me way off guard, though, was a person clothed all in black in front of the building.
There was an ommish person at a gas station.
Man, I had a fun time coming up with the story for THAT one! Lol.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17013172/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/17013172/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 17:11:29 PST
Well, in other news, life has resumed to normal. Tension got high with friends and drama reached its peak, but we got it sorted out and hopefully nothing will come of it. I've got a few worries at the back of my mind, but hey, what else is new? Though the new changes lately will be needing a bit of a transition time for me... I'll get through. You guys know me, always truckin'. Or at least I'd like to think so.

Well, since I don't like blathering about my drama probelms on here anymore, I gotta find something else to talk about. Uhm... One of my TV shows, Supernatural, is coming to a close lately. I'm getting agitated at my sister's constant immaturity about it (She's twenty four, for the love of Pete), but I plan to see it through to the end. Though, if they decide to come out with a fourth season (This is the third/final), I dunno if I'll watch it. It gets to a point where there's nothing more you can do, ya know? Where it gets old and redundant. Plus, the show will be nothing without Dean, and they can't make it so he can come back without ruining a bunch of things, so I think I'll pass. The only reason I bring this up is because I'm reading the Supernatural handbook from the end of the second season. It's a good read and useful for inspiration when you're stuck on a sort of supernaturalish plot. *Cough*

Oh! I finished The Looking Glass Wars, finally. I stopped reading for a while because I just got wrapped up in drawing and video games and stuff. But I finally finished it. It's a good read, I suggest it. Can't wait for the sequel, Seeing Red, to come out. I wanna see some Alyss and Dodge romance action! Lol.

I'm trying to work on a bunch of things at once that I have buzzing in my head, leading nothing to be finished, as always. I'm putting effort in, though! So... hopefully, you'll get SOMEthing. Got a few... different... ideas in store.

Well, I think that's enough rambling about nothing. Plus it's hard to type while trying to pet your cat. XP

*69 Devations, 8 Messages, 9 Comments, 35 Journals*
*OH SNAP*

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16865181/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16865181/ Wed, 13 Feb 2008 14:22:17 PST
To make things short and to avoid being a big drama hog, things haven't been going so well. Stuff has been happening. It comes and goes. That's life, ya know? I'm just trying to get through right now, so bear with me. It's been like this for a while, I know. I don't know when it'll end and I'll get my time of peace. But it'll come. It's like what my sister put in her Buddy Profile:
"Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end."
Dunno if that's from her or from a song, but schwhatevah. It helps.

I've been thinking up a Kingdom Hearts fanfiction. I dunno what to make of it. But, let me tell you now, it doesn't have to do with Sora, Riku, Kairi, Donald, Goofy, The King, or anything like that. It's got my own cast, set later in the future. The group from the games are mentioned, dunno how much, but... yeah. Keeping it to myself right now. Been doing that a lot more, have you noticed? Lol.

Other than that, life's been boring. School, sleep. School, sleep. When it's not boring, it's depressing. I'll stick with boring, thanks. XP I'll do my best to shake this... mood, but no promises.

Andy loves you, whether you love her back or not.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16525043/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16525043/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 16:52:05 PST I felt it the moment I laid eyes on you
My pulse is rushing
My head is reeling
My face is flushing
What is this feeling, fervid as a flame?
Does it have a name?

It's not loathing, I know that.

Okay. So, to be breif, there's this boy... and he's not like the others, believe me... He... Well... I had a crush on him from when I met him about... half a year ago, and I just blew it off as infatuation, since he's very attractive (HOTTTTTTTTT) and funny. But... it hasn't gone away... I thought it did, I thought it got rekindled, but... it's always been there...

Those other two boys... I didn't feel that strong about. This guy? My stomach twists into serious knots, making the butterflies bounce around, trying to get out. My throat feels closed up. And I'm not even NEAR him right now. He's twenty minutes away. I BARELY felt this when the other guys were right next to me. The closest I got was when Coty held me. But, compared to this, that was nothing.

It's enough to drive one mad, because I can't have him. My mind says NO. My heart? Psssh. My god. It's ready to jump right out of my throat and run to him like a lost puppy. But there are reasons we can't date... One, he's not into me. That's a big one. He also just got out of a relationship (About two, maybe three weeks ago, he broke up with his girlfriend... Dunno the details). Three, he's got all these girls he could choose from, he's not going to pick me. I'm not the prettiest, I'm not the funniest, I'm not the sweetest... I'm just the Average Joe. No. I'm the Annoying Joe that is loud and blunt and hyper all of the time. No guy wants that.

Maybe I'm overreacting. Maybe there is a chance. But you all know my attitude about things. It's really... argh... It's like a roller coaster. One moment, I'm hopeful about everything, and I think about him and look at pictures of him on Facebook and I just... I feel the best I have in a long time, and I go see if he's up for hanging out, the next... well, you saw it. I even broke down crying at one point, since I was listening to "When You're Gone" and since he doesn't go to my school, I can't drive, and the likelihood of going to another party he'd be at is slim... I wasn't sure if I'd ever see him again. It only got worse when it came on AGAIN while looking at pictures of him, and whenever a song comes on that I know I instinctively sing along, and whenever I feel sad, I always start crying when I sing... Ugh.

Is this normal? Is this how it's supposed to feel? I kind of hope so. A part of me really likes it, even the lows. Because I feel... full... Weird, I know, but yeah. Anyway, I'll stop now. I need to do something to get my mind off of him.

...*Snrt* Ha, that's funny.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16490774/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16490774/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 13:24:05 PST "I'm hungry!
...
(In New York accent) I'm gonna stand right here 'till you do somethin' about it. (A direct quote from Jinx in Jak II)
...
Meeeyoomeeeyoomeeeeyoomeeeeyoomeeeeyoo
MEEEYOOMEEEYOOMEEEYOOMEEEEYOOMEEEYOO!
...
YipyipyipyipyipyipyipyipyipYIPYIPYIPYIPYIPYIPYIPYIP
yiiiiiiiiipyiiiiiiiiiiiiipyiiiiiiiiiiiipyiiiiiiiiiiiip
...
Sleepy bunny!"
I swear to god... Maybe it's from boredome. Lol.

In other news, it's finally time to stop being an emo, lol. I'm going to go see my "family doctor" ("I'm your official family doctor now, I work for free and no, I will NOT see any other family members." Tee hee) today and stay there until Monday, so shyeah. I've just been going through a lot lately with no outlet. In my mind, it's really not that big, but... I know she'll never rest until I do, so save some time and effort for both of us. I'm just tired of snapping and being angry and tired all the time... Hoping this'll put an end to it.

Uhm...

I put art up! Didja see? Didja seeeeee? *Shot* I've gotten ANOTHER art block, growr, but I am having a bit of an inspiration to write. Actually, to write Tamran's Backstory, which has its very own composition book that I haven't touched in forever. Perfect timing, hm? Over the long weekend when it's in my locker. Ugh.

Well, to compensate, I'm going to go make some Tamran muffins. X3 Lol, I'm actually thinking about trying it. One of those half-chocolate, half-vanilla muffins with frosting and stuff... Tee hee

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16390648/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16390648/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 15:58:48 PST Attention! To All Valentine's Day Haters, I have found something for us to use against that horrid day of the year!
For whatever reason, you despise February the fourteenth as much as I do. Yes, it sounds immature and all on my part, and it used to be, since I was bitter about not having anyone, but now it's pain from heartbreak, so there. Anyway. Vitamin Records is releasing a CD on January fifteenth to help us get through that disgusting day. http: //www .vitaminrecords. com/web/page.asp?pgs= product&catid=20&id=1328
Check it out if your intrested! My only beef is that it blantantly calls it an "Emo" CD. I'm not emo, just... 'different,' as my mum put it. Lol.

Anyway, down to business. As you all know, I got a PS2 for Christmas. Two days after Christmas, I bought a used memory card and copied all of my files off of Syd's memory card to mine. No problem, right?

Well... Something happened with my Jak X file. Yes, Jak X, one of my favorite games ever. My stress reliever. It glitched on my while saving, corrupting both my Jak X file and my Jak 3 file. I was pissed to say the least. After trying to delete both corrupted files, as they were taking up valuable space, and failing, me and Dad went to GameStop to see if they could help us.

Chris wasn't working today (figures), so we had the stupid people helping us (Two of them were new, I recognize them from school, and one of them... my GOD, he's such an IDIOT) with our memory card. Bottom line was, Dad returned the one we had and bought a new one. A NEW one. I was like "That's money down the drain..." He lectured me a little bit, but he didn't seem too mad, since I was very upfront with him about everything that happened, and I even told him about my friendship with Chris, so... I think that helped matters. Dad also advised me against playing Jak X or copying anything from Syd's memory card to mine with talk of how two things, while they do the same purpose, can function differently, and since Syd has the fat PS2 and I have the Slim, something might have happened there. I might take his advice if only to play through the games again and make them, you know, mine, though I will continue to play Jak X. I know, to prevent the corruption, all you have to do is turn off autosave by pulling out the memory card and putting it back in. Also, Dad was talking about getting me the updated software version of Jak X for my birthday, since enough people complained about the glitching, so there's hope.

One thing I'm going to comment on a little, but nothing more: My dad smokes. He has since he was sixteen, and he's turning fifty-one in March. He's been trying to quit, and he was doing really good! I think he was on his third or fourth month without a cigarette. But, yesterday, I walked into the bar of Sunset Bowling Alleys to talk to him about my bowling, and... there he was with a cigarette. To say the least, I'm let down. I mean, I realize it's an addiction, but... I really want him to quit. I really do. Call it the childish side of my coming out.

So, that's that. Going to hopefully put some stuff up soon. I know, I know; I've been saying that for a while. But I AM making progress so nyeh. Now, if you'll excuse me, Hatter Madigan just escaped from his ruggid confines in France and I'd like to see what happens next.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16331232/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16331232/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 14:43:00 PST
I don't really understand anything anymore, it seems.
*Sighhhhhh*
Just because I have problems doesn't mean I don't care about everyone else's...

Thinking. Don't expect me to talk, I'm kind of taking a vow of silence for the benefit of others. Maybe I'll do another Shout It Out, but... I dunno. It doesn't feel like anyone really read it. I know you did, but, like, no one remembers anything I said, it seems. Keyword: "Seems." It seems to be the theme of my life.

*Does no one understand? I wish someone would. I don't need more weight to push me back into the waters of depression. I'm already finding it harder to breathe.*
(I know I sound emo. Maybe I am. I don't know. Just ignore me. You don't need to worry about it, I'm probably being overdramatic. Just got out of a sort-of fight with Syd, so I'm feeling really shitty. That plus continuous bad days is bad. I'll get over it, be perky and hyper again before you know it.)

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16320447/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16320447/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 18:37:33 PST
To brighten the mood, here's a one-hundred question quiz! *Dies*
Also, I've been trying to work on art... hopefully, I'll have some up soon.

1) Full name?
Andrea Marie $#P*%_!

2) Male/Female?
Female

3) Were you named after anyone?
Yeah, but I don’t remember who. o.o. She was famous, though

4) Does your name mean anything?
Yeah; The masculine version of Andrew. XP I’ve gotten others from weird quizzes on the internet, like “warrior princess” or something.

5) Nickname(s)?
Andy, Andeh, uhhh… Adder… An-An…

6) What do you think you look like?
My sister Brett, and Anna too.

7) Date of birth?
March 24th, 1993

8) Place of birth and current location?
Pittsburgh Hospital and in front of the computer

9) Nationality?
I’m one of those American Melting Pots. Some of my most prominent nationalities are Polish, Croatian, Romanian, and Belgian

10) Astrology sign?
Aries

11) Chinese astrology sign?
The COCK. X3

12) Religion?
Roman Catholic. In other words, THE RELIGION THAT MAKES ME WANT TO SHOOT MYSELF BUT GUILTS ME INTO NOT DOING IT. Growr.

13) What's your favorite smell?
To be honest, I’m kind of keen on the smells of gasoline and smoke. Arsonist, much? Lol.

14) Political Position?
Uh, independent. I vote for who I think is best, not for their party. Not that I vote yet.

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Milk. Or water. LOTS or water.

16) Hair + eye color?
Brown and brown. BOR-ING. XP

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
Uhhh… I might. You tell me, you’re the ones that see me. I only see me if I look in a mirror, which isn’t often.

18) What do you look like?
What’s with these appearance questions? Well, I have an oval-shaped face and dark brown hair. Not dark to the point where it looks black, but pretty dark. My friends have commented on its constant shininess and say they want it, but it’s REALLY hard to tame and control. It’s real full of volume and hard to style when it wants. The brightness of my irises change depending on what I’m wearing. For example, right now, they’re nearly black, since I’m wearing a black shirt. Yesterday, I wore orange, and they were lighter than my hair, so it just varies. I’m very tall for a girl (5’8” and still growing, supposedly) and very skinny. Mum worries I’m anorexic, but I sure do eat a lot, especially of junk. I have scrawny limbs, since I don’t really have too much fat or muscle, but I make up for it with big feet. XP. Uhhh… clothes-wise, I’ll normally be wearing layered outfits with mostly black, purple, red, gray, or white shirts, jeans, and black converses. I’ve been wearing a navy blue Pitt zippered hoodie a lot lately, though, since Brett got me one for Christmas and it is very warm and comfy.

19) Any unusual talents?
Uhm… Not really. I’m pretty average in everything I do. When I was little, I could put my feet behind my head without the use of my hands, but now I can’t even do it WITH my hands. And, if I manage, it HURTS LIKE HELLLLL. XP

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?
Righty. I WISH I was one of the other two. I’m tired of being so ordinary. v.v

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?
I’m pretty sure I’m bisexual, but I’m still young, so that might change.

22) What do you do for a living?
I don’t have a job yet; too young. No store in the mall or pizza joint or skating rink is going to hire a 14 year old. I could use the cash, though.

23) What do you do for fun?
Eh, I draw, play video games, write, bowl, read, watch movies… But mostly, I roleplay. Much fun. X3
But I do NOT do math problems in my head for fun. x.x;;;

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?
Uhmmm… Mostly just pencil and sketch paper. I haven’t really been too… into inking and coloring lately, if you will.

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
Dude, I’d love to either have a tablet for the computer or get Prismacolors/Copics for traditional art…
And some nice, white-colored paper. v.v;;

26) Have you met your grandparents?
Uh… my grandmothers… and my grandpa on my mum’s side. My other grandpa died before I was born; suicide. v.v

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
Oh boy… don’t even go there…

28) Crush?
Don’t feel... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16186536/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16186536/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 14:39:10 PST *Cringe*

Anyway. As you can see from the top... thingy... I'm back into listening to The Killers. It's not just from Guitar Hero, either! I just got one of their songs "Where Is She?" stuck in my head one day. Before getting Guitar Hero. So there. But, as a result of that, I'm starting to plot with mine and Syd's Jak fanfiction thingymabob. We call it KM, shorthand for Kane and Marien, but I'm trying to find a giid title for it. Not easy, especially because SOMEONE keeps dissing my ideas. Lol, just kidding, Syd. But yeah, I've been drawing Kane and coming up with ideas and such... I even read through the re-do of the fanfiction. Well, as much of it as we have. Not too much. The first real antagonist had just walked in, and we're only in the first part of the story. Three parts. And, if you know the Jak games, I bet you can guess where each of those three parts take place. I swear, we're not killing the games like many do. I think we did pretty good at keeping things to a sense of normal. If anyone's intrested... Yell at Syd to get in the mood to rp it so we can finish it. Lol.

Went to go see National Treasure: Book of Secrets today. It was a family thing, since we normally go on Christmas Eve, but this year the theaters closed before Dana got off of work. So that was a no-go. Instead, we stayed up late playing Uno, and that was SO much fun! I'd rather do that every year. X3. Anyway, so we decided to go to a movie today for my mum's 50th birthday. Mum's birthday doubles as New Years Eve; spiffy, no? *Snrt* Focusing... I wasn't too thrilled on seeing it, since I hadn't seen the first one nor was I really intrested in seeing any National Treasure movies. So I went, was like "Schwhatever..."
And, my god, I'd go see that movie again if only for Riley.
He is SUCH a cutie! Oh my god. I was spazzing over him the whole time. And the fact that he'd really dorky only makes it better. SO adorable. Justin Bartha is my new actor obsession, lol. Look at him! He's so... AAAH!
http:// www.imdb. com/gallery/granitz/6733/JustinBar_Dimit_15241972_400.jpg.html?path= pgallery& path_key=Bartha%2C%20Justin&seq=3
http:// www.imdb. com/gallery/granitz/4453/JustinBart_Mazur_7823329_400.jpg.html?path= pgallery& path_key=Bartha%2C%20Justin&seq=6
(You'll have to copy and paste and remove the spaces to see those, they become emoticons otherwise. *Grumble grumble* You see why I don't like them!)
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But yeah. He'd make the perfect Sabaka! X3 *Shot* Anyway. The movie wasn't as bad as I expected. VERY unrealistic, yes! But not as bad as I imagined. The car chase was pretty sweet, especially because Riley got in on the wrong side to drive (They were in London). My favorite part was, well, the climax of the story. At that part, Mitch Wilkinson (Played by Ed Harris), the main antagonist had teamed up with them... and I saw everythat that happened as if it was in KKS, since Ben (Nicholas Cage), Riley (Justin! ), and Abigail (Diane Kruger) were with him most of the time. Yes, Patrick and Emily (Ben's parents) were there too, but the emphasis wasn't on them, you know? Anyway. So, I saw (I'm sure Syd can guess, this don't make much sense to anyone else) Ben as Ken (It rhymes!), Abigail as K2, Riley as Sabaka (He's so perfect for Sabbie! ^^) and Mitch as Max. Yey Max! He doesn't get enough attention from me... Anyway. So that's that... The fact of Ben's ancestor's honor being smeared, which was why everything happened in the first place, seemed tied up pretty messily and quickly, but oh well. Get prepared for a thrid movie about Queen Elizibeth and the Confederacy or something, since they nearly shouted that the next sequel was about that at the end.

In other news... Well... there is no other news. Nothing worth reporting here, anyway. I'm tired, suffering from a headache, and kind of just waiting for the day to be over. Mum's all nazi-ish since it's her birthday. Ugh. So much for my new year's resolution... (Have a better attitude towards her, as well as being less critical)

Oh, random fact: KKS, as many of you know, is mine and Syd's main story. That is also shorthand, as we used the names of the three main characters: K2, Ken, and Sabaka.

Maybe I'll go play some Guitar Hero. You see it in a whole new perspective when you're playing sideways. *Shot*

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16139492/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16139492/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 13:50:26 PST
1 . YOUR REAL NAME:
Andrea !@#*%&!$*%!# (Intresting last name, no? X3 If you can figure it out from this quiz, note me with what you think it is, and I'll let you know if you're wrong or right. Hint: It isn't as long as my censor. X3)

2 . YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Andizzle (Psssh, yeah right. You people know nothing of gangsta. XD)

3 . YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Black Wolf (Hehehe, I'm cool~)

4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Caran (A few more letters and that spells Caravan. *Twitch twitch Band Camp*)

5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Purple Dr. Pepper (Okay, this superhero name thing sucks. That is not a superhero name. x_x )

6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Nrmaearly (Pssssh. Have fun trying to pronounce that!)

7.YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)
Ann James (At least I THINK my dad's middle name is James. I don't really remember. o.o )

8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black
- Fluffy
- Misty
- Whiskers
- Spooky
- Charlie
- Katie
- Red Fish
- Blue Fish

...
Take your pick. XDDD


Anyway. Now that's over... uhhh... random news? I lost a skull earring, it was the Tamran earring, though I'm going to go through the vaccuum bad to find it. Dad says he might have sucked it up. Uhhh... Oh!
I AM THE GUITAR HEROOOOOOOOOO!
...On medium, that is. X3 I still gotta get my fund on the game up, though, so that I can buy Lou. I'm $450 short. I think. o.o
Aaaaand... Yeah. Syd got a PSP and I failed Through the Fire and Flames. Whoo!

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16095761/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16095761/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 15:14:43 PST
So, now that THAT's out of the way, I'd like to say that I really like what I got this year. No, it's not as good as what others got *CoughSydcough*, but I like it. Here's a pretty little list (I'm saving the best for last):
- Pittsburgh University Clothing (White, long-sleeved shirt and navy blue zippered hoodie) - Hey, my sister Brett attends Pitt. It's what I expected from her. XD
- New headphones - My God, my headphones keep either breaking or fizzing out REALLY fast. Dana got me one of those heavy-duty pairs to use at home so that I'll always have something to use even when my earbuds fizzle out.
- Some new long-sleeved shirts - Just a black one and a white one. Mom pointed out how she doesn't know what colors I like other than neutral colors, so I told ehr I also like purple, red, blue, and brown. Oh my God. She turned to Dad and was like "I TOLD you we shoudl have gotten her the brown one!" I just laughed.
- New pajamas - They're silky! But I needed new ones badly, my winter supply is running low and the other ones I have are thin and skimpy. 8(
- The Incredibles on DVD - Not even something I asked for, but Dana picked up the fact I liked it from my spazzing around Thanksgiving when it was on. My God. That movie is SWEETNESS.
- Pirates of the Caribbean: At Worlds End on DVD - This was a given, lol. Finally, I have the entire trilogy... And I can watch Crazy Jack whenever I want. X3
- A new pair of black converses - No, they're not high-tops, but WHO CARES? I got another pair! My old ones had hoels in them and everything, lol
- A new mp3 player - My old one just sort of DIED recently and I had to use my sisters, so I got a new one! It is a... SanDisk Sansa c200. Kinda cool looking. Now, if only I could getit to work...
Here comes the killers!
*Drumroll*
- A PS2 - That's right, bitches! I FINALLY got one! I think I'm still in shock, kind of trying to wake up from a dream, because I always believed it could never happen. But, let me tell you, those things are DINKY. My god. I mean, they downsized it again, even after making it thin! It can fit in my purse! Not that I'd put it in there. But you know.
And the game to go with it:
- Guitar Hero III - ANOTHER impossibility come true. I was soooo shocked. When I got both of these, I must have shouted "OH MY GOD" for, like, five straight minutes. It's proved to be something me AND my sisters can enjoy. ^^

The only bad thing here is that my folks did not get me a memory card, so I can't save any progress on Guitar Hero. Therefore, no 3' and 7's or One for Andy yet. v.v

Other than all that, I got $40, a red scarf with white and black stars, and a red pair of those gloves that are fingerless but have the mitten tops from my grandma, which I'm all squealy about, and I've still got anothr grandma to visit (Though I dunno if I'm going to get anything from her). I'm also borrowing a book to read and two movies to watch from Syd, a Nintendo DS and a few games from Angela, and I brought home my tenor to practice. I am going to have one helluva break! Lol.

Finally... Yes, I've been quiet. I haven't been looking at many deviations, comments, or journals, but I usually comment on the ones I do. Currently... I have 124 deviations, 8 messages, 14 comments, and 18 journals. This has built up by my own laziness, and I apologize. It may not change soon, so I apologize again for that. Also, I have not uploaded anything lately, and I realize that. I have something on my computer, typed up and ready, to post (Though who knows how long it'll be before I post it), but other than that... nothing is finished. I have had a weak art drive (It's there, just... not too strong), and I have a Christmas picture that's almost done (I was trying to finish it for today, but... Eh heh...), but my writing drive has been NUTS. My god. SO many ideas. I'm working on a few and have the others scratched down in breif outlines, so hopefully I'll get to them all. Another list for you guys on what they are:
- A Very Merry Christmas To You
The title is subject to change. A little KKS one-shot about two friends, two ex-friends, and a cold Christmas Eve. Curren... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16078171/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/16078171/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 13:42:25 PST My Side: I don’t try to break things, it just happens.
Her Side: She’s reckless and doesn’t care about what she has.

My Side: I try hard to be careful with what I have, but it’s hard.
Her Side: She doesn’t try hard enough. She should just do it.

My Side: I try to tell her this, but she doesn’t listen.
Her Side: She just doesn’t listen to me when I tell her to do things.

My Side: I just can’t control my temper around her. Everything she says makes me sound like some horrible screw up. Maybe I am.
Her Side: She has no right to shout at me! She needs to learn her place and hold her tongue.

My Side: She’s scary when she shouts.
Her Side: She needs to stop crying and mouthing off.

My Side: I didn’t even see that coming…
Her Side: Maybe a slap will make her shut her face.

My Side: She still isn’t listening to me, and I can’t hold back my tears. I just want to disappear, but she’s still shouting, and I’ll come off as bratty if I walk away.
Her Side: I can’t take this anymore!

My Side: She looks at me like I’m the worst mistake of her life.
Her Side: She looks at me like she hates me and like I’m garbage.

Both: I just don’t know what to do anymore. She has an uncontrollable temper, no respect for me or anything I do, and she just doesn’t listen to what I have to say. Nothing has worked. I’m at my wit’s end. Something has to change. I just can't keep going on pretending everything's okay.


Got into a big fight with Mum. I need a hug. And not a “*insertactionhere*” hug or an emoticon. An actual, physical, you-mean-it-when-you-say-you-want-me-to-feel-better hug.

And, when I get one of those around here, Hell will have frozen over.


*Do you people really wonder why I'm such a Scrooge? Or why I wish I had never existed?*

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15920145/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15920145/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 16:11:30 PST
I'm having one of those periods of life.

I hope it goes far, far away soon.

*It might just be PMS maginfying it right now. It'll sink down into something unimportant soon enough. I hope.*

In other news, I just watched the final Endzone animation by Unknown-Person. It was way awesome. I should probably tell him/her that. But I probably won't.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15738713/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15738713/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 17:58:46 PST . Love you, girl~

RULES
1. Choose a few of your own characters.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!

OCs:
Tamran DeJiro (KKS: Behind the Mask)
Terra Kalan (Danny Phantom)
Isabell Fencierez (Resident Evil)
Cyrus Jerisol (Second Chances)
Athodnes Bour (KKS: Generation X)

How old are you?

Tamran: Sixteen, bitches! Well, if you count the years I was immortal, I'm in my thirties or fourties.
Terra: Well, I died when I was seventeen, and that was about, oh, twenty, thirty years ago, maybe?
Isabell: Nineteen! But don't tell the bartenders that. To them, I'm twenty-two.
Cyrus: This is about... oh, my two hundred-twenty fifth year as a vampire? So I'm about two hundred forty-seven years old. If you stink at math like me, that means I'm twenty-two physically. ...I think.
Athodnes: I don't think that's any of your business, now is it?

What is your height?

Tamran: WHY is this question always asked? Well, since my growth spurt, I've been five foot eleven.
Terra: An average five foot four.
Isabell: Five foot eight! I'm taller than all my friends~
Cyrus: One hundred eighty-five centimeters. Oh, wait, you're American, aren't you? That'd be... uh... Six foot one.
Athodnes: Seven foot. *Grins*

Are you a virgin?

Tamran: o//////o THAT SHOULD NOT BE A QUESTION. DX
Terra: I got awfully close once, but yes.
Isabell: Uhhh... if you only count while I'm sober.
Cyrus: Yes sir. Who would I have sex with? Tori? And then be murdered by Laurent? Don't think so.
Athodnes: *Smirks* Nope.

Do you have any kids?

Tamran: Hell no!
Terra: Unfortunately not...
Isabell: Why would I want one of those?
Cyrus: Once again, who would bear my children? I value my life, thank you! Though it would kind of be nice to have a son or daughter. With my hair, her face, her eyes...
Athodnes: As if I need a fat little ball of snot. Puh-leeze.

What is your favorite food?

Tamran: Ice cream! 83
Terra: Chinese food~ Lo Mein, please!
Isabell: Uhhh... beer?
Cyrus: Blood. Duh. T.T
Athodnes: How trivial. *Snorts*

What is your favorite ice cream flavor?

Tamran: Rocky road, bitchessss!
Terra: Any kind Damien's having.
Isabell: Um... Chocolate?
Cyrus: Oh, for the love of- I don't eat, mmkay? I don't have a favorite. It all tastes like cow manure to me.
Athodnes: And I thought that LAST question was bad...

Have you killed anyone?

Tamran: Yeah, what of it?
Terra: No, though I did want to at one point.
Isabell: Do gonados count?
Cyrus: Countless people. A fact I'm not particularly proud of, but I can't avoid what I am.
Athodnes: Fuck yeah.

Do you hate anyone?

Tamran: Yeah. I do, as a matter of fact.
Terra: Fred. D=<
Isabell: Hate is a worse disease than the T-Virus!
Cyrus: I try not to, but when people make themselves enemies...
Athodnes: Be nice, DeJiro. Anyway, to answer the question, yes, I do. Anyone and everyone that gets in my way.

Have any secrets?

Tamran: What the- NOSY PEOPLE. I'm bisexual, mmkay?
Terra: Well... Part of me still loves Freddy, even after everything that happened.
Isabell: Uh... I'm an underage drinker. Though that's not much of a secret.
Cyrus: More than you ever want to know. *Grimaces*
Athodnes: Yes, but there's a reason they're secrets. No one knows them.

Do you love anyone?

Tamran: >//////////< Goddamnit! I ain't taking any more of these!
Terra: Damien~
Isabell:: My friend... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15693163/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15693163/ Tue, 27 Nov 2007 12:46:09 PST
Life has been... improving. Me and Matt are on good terms, me and Coty are on good terms, me and Kallie... we kind of don't exist to each other, XD, aaand the Allison thing is gone, since I'm in Jazz Band and don't sit there anymore. So it's all good!

Bowling is still going on, which is exciting. I AM improving, even though it doesn't seem like it sometimes. One of my bowling buddies, Jason, is now my Sadie's date, which is a plus. He's really nice and funny, so hopefully we'll have a fun night. AND I get to miss CCD because of bowling, so that's REALLY exciting!

Ummm...

I've become obsessed with a plot me and Syd have that I often looked over, Behind the Mask. We redid it recently (We're almost done, on the last part, like LAST part, the big photo finish), and we are both in LOVE with it. It's just... before, it was so plotless, and it didn't have much of a purpose. Now it just... smacks you in the face! Anyway. It makes a great finish to KKS, if you ask me. Heads WILL turn, it makes you think. AND I got to use a few lurking ideas that never fit in before! ^^

Anyway, I've got to head off. Time to bowl! Yaaaay!
*Mutters something under breath about being jsut under the quote to be on the Varsity team*
Ah well~

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15562806/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15562806/ Mon, 19 Nov 2007 13:37:09 PST For The Record: I have not ready ANY comments, read ANY journals, or looked at ANY deviations. I've got a lot to go through. Give me time and don't be insulted if I don't say something or if I don't look at something.

And is anyone else having issues staying logged in?

~~~~~~~~~~

Okay. Wasn't feeling my spiffiest yesterday, as you saw. I've been having enough rough times lately to fill up the moon. Some of it's little stuff, like my parents shouting at me all the time (The only thing about that is Dad's trying to quit smoking, so he yells at me more than Mom now) and stuff that isn't too major. There HAVE been a few events, though, that have made me crumble. I haven't really been wanting to talk about it too too much, since it seems all of my issues are connected with me being upset and letting it out, and people don't seem to want to be around me as much if I show any sign of displeasure and wanting to open up. Maybe it's just in my head. I don't know. Anyway, onto business.

Why I Was Grounded: Matt
Okay. Everything starts here. So, basically, a friend of mine (Won't be using her name out or respect for her) kind of had an online relationship with this guy, Matt. Now, we've made sure he's not a 40 year old pedophile. The friend that introduced me and her to him talks to him on the phone. So, we trusted him. He was a part of our... dysfunctional family, if you will. He didn't really belong where he lived, an outcast, and he got along really well with us. Well, said friend from the beginning developed feelings for him, and he acted like he liked her too. I was happy she had found someone, since she's been rather unlucky in love. I talked to them both, obviously.

I knew something was wrong when he began advancing on me slightly. Complimenting me and such. I grew uncomfortable, and talked to the friend who talked to him on the phone about it. She assured me that it was just a part of his personality, that he was flirty. Releif and dread spilled over me at the same time. He wasn't into me, that was a plus. But what if he was just being flirty with my friend, and she was just misinterpreting it just as I did? I addressed him about this, and he assured me he wasn't lying to her. Releif swept over me completely, and everything was fine for a while.

One night, he IMs me. It's pretty close to when I have to get off (I got my time back since I had bowling practice, so it was.. eh, 8:00 ish? I had an hour, anyway). He starts talking about how numb he feels about my friend, and I'm just like "Shit, my suspicions were right..." So, I tell him that he needs to address everything he's ever felt about her, and if he doesn't think it's enough to manage a relationship, then he should enforce that to her.
"I wasn't aware there was a relationship."
That just made me trip, right there. I'm sitting there and I'm just swearing to myself, because I KNOW this is going to be bad. She's going to get hurt, he had been leading her on... And I was trapped right in the middle against my will.

The whole process of being there for my friend and trying to straighten things out took three hours. Three very long hours. I knew I was over my time, but I also knew I couldn't desert my friend. At this point in my life, my friends seem to be the most important thing in the world. Without them, I'd be nothing. Whether or not this is truth, I have no clue. But anyway, I've done about all I can when my parents investigate my whereabouts. I quickly get off, telling my friend that I'm grounded. There was no doubting the fact. I went downstairs for another "talk" with my parents. AKA where they make accusations and anything I say or do is held against me.

I was hoping the fact I stayed on to support my friend through a rough time would help me at least a little bit, since every other time I've been on the computer over my time was due to roleplaying and they know it. But no, nobility meant nothing to them, and they actually told me that what I did was stupid, that I should have saved my own skin. Okay, wait a second. What's more important? Being there for my friend during a REALLY HARD time and losing the computer for a few days, or NOT being there when she needs me the most and still have computer time? I could still talk to her on the phone, and I did see her in the mornings at school, so I picked the first option. I just... It frustrates me, that I can never do the right thing in their eyes. I mean, it's not always like this. I'll do what they say and they'll tell me it's wrong. It's so confusing.

Anyway, back to the situation. So, I have no communication with Matt at all, since we only talked trough AIM. I had no problem with this, I was fuming for another few days before I calmed down enough. But it turns out, since I was mad at him and mentioned that I wasnt sure if I wanted to talk to him a... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15548191/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15548191/ Sat, 17 Nov 2007 12:43:38 PST
It's been one helluva week, I'll say that. But that's it, ya know? It's nothing important, and besides, I'm the happy one. It'll pass.

Right?

All I know is that I just want to scream and cry until I feel better, but hell if that'll help anything. It'll just make everything worse.

I actually finished a picture over the week, let's see how long it takes me to upload it.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15346691/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15346691/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 13:34:13 PDT [Edit:] I remembered! |D
For the record, me and Coty are having issues, since he can't seem to handle being "just friends" and making a big deal about it. Ugh.

I know, there's next to no art, but I haven't really had time or the attention to ink and color anything. I have a ton of sketches! Just... nothing finished. XD

Next month will be my 2-year anniversary on DA! Whaddya know. Think I should do anything special?
[/Edit]

Got some things I've been meaning to say, just small things that I just never got around to making a journal about.

First of all... [link]
Syd () suggested it to me to help with some recent anger and depression issues. Cue gasp! No, I was not as bad as I used to be, like in seventh grade, but I was getting there. Why? Because I was bottling everything up. In there, I mentioned that I keep everything inside for my friends, right? Well, I was doing that especially since this year started, since things seem to be going downhill for everyone ele, and it's just same-ol', same-ol' for me, so, well, I instinctively clam up and make myself available as the shoulder to cry on. What I didn't realize, though, is that I need to keep letting those things out, because it's ongoing. So, yeah, I started regressing. Syd was worried, especially because I was getting snappy and bitchy again, lol. So, after a LOT of hesitance, I did it.
And, you know what? I'm happy I did. Some of those things I said, I've been keeping inside for so long, and they'll randomly pop up and make me feel horrible. It felt pretty good to finally throw it out there, to break my decision to carry it to my grave. What was even better was to know my friends like me still even through this (The major reason I swore I'd never tell anyone was because I felt that the moment I did, they'd think I was creepy or messed up or something and turn their backs on me) and that I've got a shoulder to cry on now. So, thanks guys. You know who you are. In fact, I started crying again (see? I cry too much, lol), but these were happy tears.

My Halloween went MUCH better than expected. Admittedly, yes, my wig got completely screwed up (I didn't have a head to put it on to cut it, so when the bottom folded to the inside without me knowing... ), but hair gluing my actual hair worked out in the end. I was actually a real hit, thanks to the beard, lol. I spent it over at Alana's house, a new friend who lives in my neighborhood, and we ended up trick-or-treating a little at the very end. I had a REALLY god time. And I'll put up costume pics soon!

I've been doing a lot better in bowling, and it makes me happy. I mean, like, last year was a terrible year for me, my average was just above 100. This year, it's only a 116 so far, but I've been getting more and mroe scores up in the 130's and 140's, so I'm pretty proud of myself. ^^. Also, if I have a really bad start (Which is HIGHLY possible with a fingertip ball, there's such a little margin for error), I can come back and break a hundred, which makes me pretty happy. ^^

Speaking of Alana, me and her are getting along real well! I've been having a blast with her. Went to her house twice this week, lol. Admittedly, she's no Syd, no one could evah replace my darling, but you know, lol.

Uhhh... I had a bunch of random things... XD Can't remember half of them.

I remember one! I was at the Golden Dawn with my dad, and I noticed that, to my right, was a Good Housekeeping magazine with Dr. Phil and Robin talking about how to "Wake up Happy Everyday." Robin was in his arms, and they were both smiling. To my left was a Globe tabloid talking about how their marriage was strained, and they photoedited two pictures of the two shouting to face each other on the cover. Sad, no? Also, I learned my dad is frickin' smart, because before the lady gave him the total, he had $26 dollars out, and the total ended up being $25.87. X3

Aaaand... that's it. I think. o.o Uhhhhhhhh... Don't do drugs! Stay in school! Please don't let my sister lick my ear! AAAAAAAAH!

...XD

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15289133/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15289133/ Tue, 30 Oct 2007 15:35:41 PDT
1)What's your character's name?
Tamran DeJiro

2)How old is he/she?
Oh snap, dillema of the century. He looks like a thirteen year old, but he's somewhere in his twenties or thirtes.

3)Is your OC a boy or girl?
Boy

4)What's his/her race?
He's half black, dunno if it's directly african or not, and the other half of him is... German, let's say. *Making it up as she goes*

Appearance

1)Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
Appearance-wise? A little gothic, but yeah.

2)What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
His gold irises and his small height (4' 9 1/2")

3)Would you consider your OC as attractive?
Cute, but not hot. He BECOMES hot when he finally gets older, though. X3


Personality

1)Temper?
Hosnapyes. Don't call him short, whatever you do.

2)Does your character ever get depressed?
Pssht, all the time. He's so goddamn angsty, lol.

3)Leader or Follower?
Leader

4)What is the main aspect of his/her personality?
Despite he recluses from everyone and acts like he doesn't care, he'd do anything for his friends. Isn't that always how it seems to go?

History

1)Did your OC have a family of any sort?
Yes, but they're all dead. I think. Hm.

2)Is your character out on his/her own?
Pretty much.

3)Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
Oh, yes, several. >X3

4)What was probably the best time in his/her life so far?
Uhhhhh... *Ponders*

Romance

1)Single?
Depends.

2)Has your OC developed any romantic relationships?
Several of them, lol. Tammy's a ladies' man!

3)Virgin?
That aspect of him is currently pending...

4)Does your character like flirting?
Nope.

Symbolism

1) What animal would you associate your OC with?
Uhhhh... uhhhh... a stray cat. 8( Out on his own and too proud to accept help, but craving love from another.

2)Musical Instrument?
Bass guitar: Often overlooked, but very important.

3)Element?
Earth: Firm in position and hard to sway

4)Planet?
...Mercury. It's tiny and hot-headed. X3

Showing the Love

1)Do you draw your character?
Mmhmm. It's gotten to a point where he's ALL I draw anymore. x.o

2)Do you write about him/her?
Yep yep! He's my star.

3)Do you use him/her in any rps?
That was how he was CREATED. Yes. In fact, I have an rp with him open right now, with my Sydey-diddy-dinker-doo.

4)What other ways have you appreciated your OC?
I have a caddy hat to match his and have considered dressing up as him.

Random

1)Is your character wanted for anything?
Uhhh... kinda?

2)What are three weaknesses in him/her?
- His temper often distracts him from the task on-hand
- He gets way too worked up over small things if it is a problem to those he cares about.
- He often makes bad choices, sometimes irreversable ones.

3)Strengths?
- He's REALLY agile. Like, wicked agile.
- He can manipulate the flow of time to his will.
- He's got a lot of wisdom in that tiny brain of his.

4)Does your OC drink or smoke (ect.)?
Nope, not yet. He tries to drink, but he's either too short to reach it or someone stops him, teasing him about being "underage."

5)What's one quirk about him/her?
Uhhh... he's really short? But everyone knew that...

6)Does your character have any phobias?
Mmm... not that I can think of.

7)What could you do to get him/her into a blind rage?
Call him short. Like, ten times in a row.

8)Does your OC like chickens?
Well, duh!

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15260106/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15260106/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 15:10:37 PDT
- Me and Coty broke up. It was my decision. I came to the comclusion tha,t yeah, Cody didn't show me enough affection, but Coty did, and when that happened, I just couldn't handle it, thus proving I am not ready for a boyfriend. I'm going to wait until I'm older and more mature than a 14 year old fresh into High School.
But he doesn't seem to understand that I'm not going to be ready for a while, despite the fact I've told him several times. XP

- Me and Coty are still friends. Hey, he's fun to be around.

- Marching Band is officially over. No more football games. D8 Part of me is releived, but most of me is sad. I'm trying out for Jazz Band, and there's also Concert Band that everyone's in, so this is thankfully not the end of the saxophone until next fall. ^^

- I enjoyed Ghoul Mansion and went to a second haunted house the next day. I'm, like, addicted now, lol. I also helped out with a halloween party with Anna (~immortal-nevermore), and we scared those kids shitless (Though they tried to act tough. Stupid fifth and sixth graders...)

- And, finally...

SYD'S BACK, BITCHESSSSSSS!!!!


Squeee~

So, moving on. Quizzie! Tagged by Purple.

1.What’s your DeviantArt Screen name?
AndyWasHere. Funny story behind that name, really... Syd's the only one who expirenced it, lol.

2.Do you watch anime? (if not, ignore these next 3 questions)
Yeah. I'm more into manga, since the animes kinda get screwed up (Like in InuYasha), even though they're cool sometimes (Like in Death Note). My advice is, if given the choice, READ THE MANGA. It is ten times better. Anyway!

3.Have you ever cos-played?
Yes, as Axel from Kingdom Hearts and I'm working on a Maes Hughes (From Fullmetal Alchemist) cosplay

4.Ever been to a con? How many?
No, but I would like to, like, a lot, lol.

5.What’s your favorite con so far?
I haven't been to one yet.

6.What country do you live in? (optional)
United States, though I'd like to move to Australia, if for a year at the least.

7.Do you go to school? (Elementary/middle/high/college)
Mmmhmm. High school, freshman.

8.Do you have a job?
Not yet. Not 'till I'm sixteen

9.What’s your favorite hangout spot?
Uhhh... The living room. My parents stick to the family room, and in the living room there's a TV, DVD/VCR player, a couch, a bunch of chairs, a stereo, and a large window to look out of. Who could ask for more?

10.What clique are you in / would be in if you went to school?
Uhhh... I'm kind of in the "Goth/Emo/Outcast" group, though I'm a total nerd, an art... person..., kinda bubbly, a total metalhead, and I have a ton of friends. Go fig!

11.*gasp* what is … your favorite color?
Black. Maybe this is why I'm considered goth... Hm.

12.Where does most of your money go?
Mangas! They've caused me to go broke. D8

13.What career do you want? (you can do more than 1)
Author. Maybe a cartoonist of sorts, like a manga artist, but I'm not japanese.

14.What style of music do you like?
Rock, metal... I will really listen to any type of music, to be honest, I just prefer those. Rap and Country are at the bottom of my list, for the record.

15.Have a favorite musician?
Oh, it changes all the time. Right now, I'm pretty obsessive with Queens of the Stone Age.

16.Check your gallery. What’s the majority? (optional) (Fan drawings, OC, stories, poems…
Mostly traditional art of my OC's

17.Are you religious?
Ehhh... Not really. I go to church school every week, but I don't want to. There's a religious side of me, but I use it mostly for morality an... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15201920/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15201920/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 13:02:03 PDT [x] Brown - $100 [x] Brown - $1
[] Blonde - $50 [] Green - $75
[] Black - $15 [] Blue $50
[] Bald - $5 [] Hazel $100
[] Other-$75 [] Other - $15

Height: Age:
[] Over 7' - $200 [] 31 to 40 - $100
[] 6'8" to 7' - $175 [] 26 to 30 - $75
[] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150 [] 21 to 25 - $50
[x] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75 [] 19 to 20 - $25
[]4'9" to 5'4" - $45 [x] 0 to 18 - $100
[] Under 4'9 - $45

Birth Order: Drink?:
[] Twins or more than twins - $300 [] No - $400
[]First Born - $300 [x] Only Holidays - $250
[] Only Child - $250 [] Sometimes - $215
[]second born - $150 [] YES - $200
[] Middle child-$100 [] Only weekends - $350
[x] Last Born - $100 [] Every other day - $50
[] third born - $100 [] Once a day - $15
[] fourth born - $100 [] I live from the bottle -$Bankrupt$
[] fifth born - $100

Vision?:
[x] perfect vision -$300
[] need or have glasses/contacts but dont wear them - $200
[] No correction $100
[] Glasses $50
[] contacts $25
[] Surgical correction - $1

Car(s) Color: Shoe Size:
[] Pink - $2,000 [] 13+ - $300
[] Maroon - $800 []12.5 to 13 - $250
[] Gold - $700 [] 11 to 12 - $700
[] Gray - $600 [x] 7 to 10 - $500
[] Blue - $900 [] Under 7- $550
[] Obsdian - $800
[] White - $475 Favorite Color:
[] Black - $450 [] Green-$750
[] Red - $400 [] Red - $600
[] Green- $350 [x] Black - $100
[] Silver $300 [] Yellow -$475
[] Purple- $250 [] Brown - $50
[] Metallic - $200 [] Purple - $225
[] Yellow - $100 [] White - $400
[] Primer - $75 [] Aqua - $350
[] Tan- $20 [] Orange - $300
[] Rusted - $15 [] Blue - $300
[x] No Car - $0 [] Pink - $100
[] Other - $ 50

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[] Yes - $0
[x]no- $1000
[] on some - $550

Repost with:
"I cost ____ a night."

Stole from Di, just for fun.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15145089/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15145089/ Sat, 20 Oct 2007 14:32:22 PDT
Now, Mom says I'm too old for Trick-or-Treating (My feet couldn't take it anyway, they hurt so much from waling around those gravel streets so much), I have to make a costume behind her back (Maes Hughes), and I'm expected to go to haunted houses and the likes.

But, unlike everyone else, I've never been to a haunted house before. Ever. Not even when I was little, my parent's didn't like them (and they're also kind of old). I've been to Yellow Duck Park, where you sit in your car (Or the trunk, as i was with my friend) and you keep driving as people jump out at you. Haunted houses... not so easy.

I'm signed up for two haunted houses, a hayride, and a maze. This weeked.

Wish me good God.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15101746/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15101746/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 13:11:29 PDT Begin Update

- I have been pretty busy with school and life and the works. And it's only going to get worse, since I'mg etting sax lessons outside of school and applying for a job at Brusters. So I've been kinda dead.

- I have a facebook, that distracted me for a few days, but I'm going to make a beter effort to do more for here

- I'm in school, so, since I draw during class more than anything and none of my teachers care, art might ACTUALLY come.

- I dumped Cody.

- I got together with Coty a week later. I kinda figured out it was him I liked when he was gone for two days and I couldn't function, heh. Cody seems to be okay with it, thankfully. Me and Coty were stressing about telling him about us (We knew he had the right to know, to hear it from us, since he's my ex and it was so fast), we were so afraid he'd retaliate or something.

- I'm happier than ever. Coty actually treats me like a girlfriend, unlike Cody who had to be freaking nagged to hug me (Hugging me was the first thing Coty did once seeing me the day we were official). I can't get enough of being with him. He's perfect, I'm telling ya.

- I drew art of me and him. Sad, no?

- Uhhhhh... More to come soon?

-The only thing I don't like about my life lately is the sense of neglect I'm getting from my friends. It's like no one wants to be around me. Coty does, obviously, but I don't see him all day, you know? *Sigh* It's probably nothing and I'm being stupid.

End Update

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15016961/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15016961/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 15:19:14 PDT
=-Outcast-=-
[x] You don't have very many friends.
[x) Often times, teachers forget your name.
[x] You were always picked last for kickball.
[ ] You don't like to talk a lot.
[ ] You tend to avoid mass social activities
[ ] You don't participate in any extracurricular activities.
[x] All you wish for is to move away or get a fresh start.
[x] Your friends have blown you off before.
[x] You sit alone in most of your classes.
[x] You have a feeling that once you leave high school or college, nobody is going to remember you.
[x] You hold interest in activities that other people find strange.
[x] You have a large sexual background.
[ ] People don't find you friendly.
[x] You hold extreme hate towards another high school stereotype.
[ ] You eat alone at lunch.
Total = 10

-=-Party Girl/Boy-=-
[x] Lets face it: you like to party.
[ ] You party every other weekend.
[ ] Or every weekend?
[ ] You've been going to frat house parties since early high school.
[ ] You're the defending beer bong champion.
[ ] You know the best hook-ups in the state...world
[ ] Everybody who's anybody goes to the same parties you go to.
[x] You've hooked up at parties.
[x] You spend time getting ready for parties.
[ ] You've passed out from being too drunk.
[x] You've partied all night.
[ ] You've snuck out of the house to party.
[ ] Actually, your parents really don't care if you party or not.
[ ] You're pretty much nocturnal.
[ ] You like to go clubbing.
[ ] You and your friends always party hop.
[ ] You've crashed a party before.
[ ] One way or another, you've wound up naked in front of everybody at a party
[ ] You've thrown up from drinking too much.
[ ] You've done something that you regret at a party.
[ ] You can dance.
[x] You're friends with a lot of people older than you.
Total = 5

-=-Scene Kid-=-
[ ] You know what sXe and hXc actually mean.
[ ] You have a obsession with dinosaurs, robots, and Pokemon.
[x] You idolize Jeffree Starr
[ ] People have called you scene before.
[x] You spend at least an hour getting ready to take pictures of yourself for your myspace.
[x] You have a mirror pic.
[x] You listen to bands that most people have never heard of.
[x] You enjoy going to shows.
[ ] You only go to shows for the sake of going to shows, not the music.
[ ] Your hair is multicolored.
[ ] You accessorize your hair with kiddie barrettes and bows.
[ ] Fashion is one of the most important things that define you.
[x] You mosh.
[ ] You often mix vintage with modern.
[ ] Your myspace picture captions are sad lyrics to sad songs.
[ ] All of your friends are scene.
[x] You dont know many of the people on your friends list in person
[x] You take angled pictures of yourself.
[x] You enjoy photography.
Total = 9
Jeffree Star is awesome, bitches.
Bitches is the word of the week.

-=--=-Prep-=--=-
[ ] You pop the collar
[ ] You wont go near the Goths
[x] You own at least one thing from a designer store.
[x] You are very clean cut.
[x] You are squeamish.
[ ] People have called you preppy before.
[x] You never leave the house without putting on cologne/perfume
[ ] You have a lot of money.
[ ] You know who LC is.
[ ] You watch shows like The OC, The Real World, The Hills, and Laguna Beach.
[ ] One favorite stores are Abercrombie & Fitch or American Eagle Outfitters.
[ ] You're afraid to set foot into Hot Topic. (*Snrt* That is my HOME)
[x] (Girls) You carry a purse wherever you go.
[ ] You need to wake up at least an hour before school so you can get ready.
[x] (Girls) You do not leave the house without make up.
[ ] You are content overall with how your life is going.
total= 6

-=--=-Band Geek-=--=-
[x] You have played an instrument before.
[x] You still play an instrument.
[x] You are/were in regular Band.
[x] You are/were in Jazz Band.
[x] You are/were in Marching Band
[ ] You've never dated anybody outside of Band.
[x] Most of your friends are in band.
[x] The band room/band hall is your second home.
[ ] You enjoy listening to classical music on occasion.
[ ] You aspire[d] to be a Drum Major.
[ ] You've made out with somebody on a band bus or at a band competition.
[x] You have trouble getting your non-band friends to go near the band room.
[x] Band is your favorite class.
[x] You have been to band camp.
[x] You walk in step with all your friends. (Damnit, band camp!)
[ ] You talk about band constantly.
[ ]... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15000284/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/15000284/ Wed, 10 Oct 2007 13:05:42 PDT [link]

(The reason for my continued absense)

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14885899/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14885899/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 13:59:11 PDT cutiejingles024

Her name is Krista, and she is a friend of mine.

She also takes beautiful pictures.

Go welcome her and look at her gallery. You won't regret it.

(Admittedly, I do not comment or favorite, but I get so much stuff to look at each day in a certian amount of time that I only comment on some journals, stuff that I REALLY REALLY REALLY like, or if I'm in the mood, so I can't comment/fav everything. But I DO look at all of them and smile when I do.)

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14786754/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14786754/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 13:33:59 PDT
Hokay. So, I'm supposed to put eight intresting facts down about myself. Ummm...

1.) I'm tall for my age and sex (A girl at 5'8"), thus often being mistaken for a junior, senior, or college student. XP I'm 14, people! Lol.

2.) I look almost identical to my older sister, Brett (four years separating us), and I am thusly called "Brett" too often for my sanity

3.) My last name doubles as a first name, but I'm not telling what it is~ It gets annoying when I'm called that too, though

4.) I like math and Algebra class, despite how hard it can be. Don't ask me why, but math is fun. And I'M NOT A NERD! *Whimper* XD

5.) Speaking of nerds, if I were to fall under a stereotype, I'd be the happy, nerdy, friendly goth girl. XD

6.) Along with drawing, I'm trying hard to write stories. In fact, an author is my dream career. I don't want to grow up to be an artist or animator or something; If it becomes work, I won't enjoy it anymore. I can live without writing, but not without drawing.

7.) I didn't start wearing make-up regularly until the start of this school year, one of the last girls to do so in my school. And, hell, I think I look pretty damn good in it.

8.) Umm... PIE. 8D Okay, how about this: I am a girl who is okay with her weight. I weighed in at 122 pounds in gym, and considering my height, I'm pretty average. And I've got no problem with that.

Okay... Umm... I tag... THE WORLD. 8D

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14774378/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14774378/ Mon, 24 Sep 2007 15:17:51 PDT
Matt (4:40:59 PM): hey

Auto response from Andy (4:40:59 PM): I just can't take anymore!

Matt (4:43:09 PM): whats up
Andy (4:45:31 PM): Hey Matt
Andy (4:45:50 PM): Just really stressed and angry and ready to pull out all my hair
Matt (4:46:16 PM): looks like our emotions have switched

Auto response from Andy (4:46:16 PM): I just can't take anymore!

Matt (4:46:21 PM): *hugs*
Andy (4:46:27 PM): Heh, yeah
Andy (4:46:29 PM): *Hugs back*
Andy (4:46:41 PM): Though I'm just angry, not like "Why am I here?", you know?
Matt (4:46:51 PM): I know
Matt (4:46:55 PM): whats up though?
Matt (4:46:59 PM): whats causing the feelings?
Andy (4:47:33 PM): A really, really, really bad day
Andy (4:47:38 PM): And I don't feel like talking
Andy (4:48:05 PM): To be honest, I realize I have one of the better lives and I feel I shouldn't complain about it because others have it worse
Andy (4:48:16 PM): It's not the best idea, but I feel like less of a baby.
Matt (4:49:16 PM): you've just got to accept that even in a perfect life, things go wrong
Matt (4:49:22 PM): and I'm here to listen
Matt (4:49:47 PM): what? you thought that you would just get to listen and never talk?
Andy (4:50:09 PM): Heh
Andy (4:50:14 PM): I'm better at that
Matt (4:50:19 PM): so am I
Matt (4:50:29 PM): it's my turn to be the caring, good friend
Matt (4:50:32 PM): so talk to me
Andy (4:50:57 PM): I just...
Andy (4:53:42 PM): Well, I'm back together with my boyfriend, as you may or may not know, and it was like the love bug bit the school or something, because everywhere I turned I saw people holding hands and walking together down the hallways together with their arms around each other, etc, and then my mind went to my boyfriend, who can barely HUG me. I feel ugly and unwanted and stupid at this point.
Matt (4:57:09 PM): I still say he's an idiot
Andy (4:57:16 PM): I play the saxophone in my school band, and my reed's all busted up and crappy, and all my other ones are too, so I can't make a good song or play right. I would just tell my mom and we'd get more, but I just got new ones at the beginning of the school year. What SHE doesn't understand is that I have to sit in a crammed stadium with about 200 other people, and the slightest rub will break the tip of my reed, and that I play my sax for half an hour everyday in school and then for another hour after school every Monday and Thursday, plus games and any other performances. So my reeds are going to wear out FAST. I blew up at her earlier because she was shouting at me about that (Along with taking care of my saxophone, which I HAVE been and looking like a total IDIOT and making people aggrivated with because it takes me so damn long to make sure everything's in it's place, put cork grase on my sax, and swab it out, so...
Matt (4:57:16 PM): but whatever makes you happy *hugs*
Andy (4:57:19 PM): *Hugs back*
Andy (4:57:25 PM): He's not making me too happy lately...
Andy (4:57:30 PM): He's a sweet guy
Andy (4:57:36 PM): He just needs to be affectionate
Andy (4:57:43 PM): Cause otherwise I feel worthless and unloved
Andy (4:57:44 PM): Anyway
Andy (4:57:48 PM): There's more
Matt (4:58:13 PM): I understand about the sax, remember, I played the clarinet for a few years >.>
Andy (4:58:17 PM): Ughhh
Andy (5:01:26 PM): I've barely been seeing Syd, just talking to her on the computer and seeing her for about five minutes in the morning and a little bit at band, and when I do, we either fight, act like nothing's wrong when we know there is, or one of us is upset about something or another. Also, she keeps trying to dictate who I'm freinds with, sicne I have a friend Coty, who says some pretty perverted stuff to try and get some laughs and said some stuff about me. And my body. I talked to him about that (Since the last time I just cut it off cold turkey, it ended up badly), and the conditions have improved, but she keeps trying to tell me not to hang out with him. He's a nice guy, much more observant when something's wrong that my boyfriend (I was SO mopey and Cody didn't even notice, which REALLY pisses me off), and he has a good side, he just tries to be funny in a wrong... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14715986/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14715986/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 14:27:37 PDT
- Cody and I are back together. I overreacted and he messed up, but we put it behind us and he's proven to be much better of a boyfriend this time around. We got back together on the 16th.

- I MIGHT be entering some art and writing contests. Wish me luck!

- Life has been hectic, yet boring. I have tons of homework, class, band, and a social life going on, though nothing I can really tell someone about.

- Homecoming is on October 6th, and I'm ACTUALLY going WITH A DATE!

- A compound leaf has no blade. Evapotranspiration is the process of water going into the roots of a tree, up the stem (trunk), through the branches, past the petiole (stem), into the leaves and out of the blade.

- I have to work on my leaf project. And my biology homework (50 vocab words, 15 chapter review questions, 5 section review questions, and a 6-page packet, as well as drawing and labeling the parts of a flower). About leaves.

- I also have to work on my World Cultures homework (A worksheet about the characteristics of rivers in Africa and a summary of a current event). And my Algebra II (Numbers 1-26 on absolute value inequalities, IE 5|2x+6|-4 < 8x+72).

- I am typing this while I'm supposed to be typing up an essay on the computer about Freedom Writers, which we watched in English class. We're supposed to be reading "The Most Dangerous Game" which I REALLY want to read but she didn't even give us a book. Though that's a good thing, because I already have 3 books, a binder, two more notebooks, and my sketchbook to carry before lunch.

- Whaddya know, I did talk about school.

- Other than my boyfriend, at least two other guys like me. It can't be because I started wearing make-up, is it? I mean, I know it's not because I'm pretty, because guys would have liked me before now. They liked everyone BUT me. Shallow idiots... But I got my Cody, so I'm happy~

- You know, I was miserable without Cody. I'd see someone with messy, black hair and think it was immediately him. And I never stopped thinking about him, like, ever. I bawled the first night. And tried to draw 50000 vent pics, though none of them turned out. I mean, I don't LOVE him, though I do LIKE him a lot, so that's normal, right?

- My sister thinks me and Cody have made out already. O.o We haven't even KISSED... I'm gonna try at homecoming, though. It's the only time without parental supervision, 'cept for maybe the mall.

- Uhhh... yeah... I'm going to go back to my essay, since I have to get it done so that I can work on my other homework and focus on other things (Like Foamy and websites with the contests I want to enter)

Pictures of me should be up soon. If I remember, lol. If you want, I'll try to put some homecoming pics up. MAN, am I excited!

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14592622/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14592622/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 16:37:52 PDT Cody hurt me real bad. So I dumped him.
Not feeling my greatest, for obvious reasons.

September 11th.
God Bless.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14503094/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14503094/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 13:58:19 PDT

Well, today was my first day at the high school. Contrary to my belief, it was good! My homeroom teacher is a bit of a bully, but if you can take it as a joke like it's intended, you get along fine. I don't see him anymore after today until report cards, though, lol. My teachers seemed relatively nice, though time will tell how true that is. I have almost all of my classes with my friend Emily and my last class with Cody, even though I have no classes with Syd. D= That made me kinda sad, but oh well. You win some, you lose some!
Anyway, a few bad things DID happen, which I will talk about, but for the most part, excluding a few times I got lost and those things that happened, it was a good, quite survivable day.

Okay, so the bad things. There are... two, I think.
1.) I don't have anyone to really sit with at lunch. I mean, I do, but they're not close people. I've got three choices: Laura, Sam, and Alyssa. Laura, I sat with her today. I like her, but I don't like her friends, which puts a damper on that. There's Sam, Anna's friend who I get along with, giving me the opportunity to make new friends, but it's a matter of working up courage and sitting there, lol. And then there's Alyssa, who's really popular and might not have room at her table. I know I'd enjoy it the most with Alyssa, since we're close-ish, but you know.

2.) After lunch, I couldn't open my locker. XP The locks are ON the lockers, so I have to memorize a new combo. I had mine taped inside my asignment book. Good idea, right? Well, what WASN'T a good idea was sticking my assignment book inside my locker before lunch, lol. I got my homeroom teacher to give me my combo. Well, then I had problems opening it, lol. I'm not too too worried, but I am freaking out slightly. My homeroom teach once again comes to the rescue, opening it, then closing it and telling me to do it myself. I was late to my Algebra II class, but Mr. Cochrin didn't care, understanding we freshies were having a few complications today. Then, I had a few problems at dismissal, which was bad since the buses don't wait for you and you have to get up there and FAST so that you don't miss it, but it wasn't as bad and I got it under control by the time Cody came to meet me.

3.) Oops, guess there's three, lol. In Biology, Mr. Mastrian (Going by Mr. M since that's what I do with all the teachers I like) was explaining to us how he deals with points. I'm half-asleep since it's my thrid period and not paying attention too much.
"Okay, so if you got 80 out of 100, that's 80%, right? So, if I made that 100 a 50, what would your points be... Andrea?"
"Ummm... 80?"
I only snapped to attention for my name, so I had NO idea what he was asking.
"You got 80 out of 50? Good job!"
And he gave me a high five, lol.
Funny with hindsight, I must say. Mr. M's cool.

As for the rest of the day, I just mostly found out about classes and what we'd be doing (Except for Mariani, which is World Literature. We did this activity in which we find out about each other. Everyone put down false info, and she called them out, lol). Me and Emily goofed around the entire time, I heard how I look like my sister Brett about 5000000000 times (Okay, about 6 times, but still. I don't need to hear it from nearly every teacher!), and I got two teachers to refer to me as Andy (Mr. Cochrin, my Algebra teach and Mrs. Black, my art teach).

And there's one more thing of the day. It makes me laugh and grimace at the same time.

Cody is being threatened.

It's already been proved he's kind of the jealous type (He's not bad about it, but he didn't like it when me and Chris had a friendly hug and Matt was talking to me, but those are understandable). Well, the bad thing is, Matt likes me, and it shows. He has since last year. He and Cody are BOTH in my art class.

Can you say "Oh, no..."?

Well, it was okay for a while. I noticed Matt was kind of avoiding me (Guess he got word me and Cody were dating) throughout the day, but he had his normal, friendly, I'm-gonna-pick-on-you-so-you-better-pick-on-me-back attitude come art class at the end of the day. Maybe that's why he likes me, 'cause he can tease me and I'll just tease back. Anyway. So, he's talking to me. Cody's desk is beside mine (We get these nice, wide, wooden desks for art! Me like!), and I'm talking to him a lot and acting like I always do with him. Well, we had to make portfolios for our work. How we did that was by receiving a large piece of paper with the color of our choice, folding it in half, and taping the sides down. We have an oversized class and one roll of tape. Me and Cody were help... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14488136/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14488136/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 13:12:48 PDT EDIT: My father is a KIND man. My computer times is staying from 3-6, even though school has started. This is gonna make Wednesdays a nightmare, but oh well. I got more tiiiiime!
[/EDIT]

I know I've said thia a billion times, but for those who don't know or have forgotten...

I have a scheduled time limit on the computer. This summer, I've been on from 3-6, unless something got in the way. If so, I got my time back later.

Now that school is starting, I will only be on for two hours. Which means it'll either be from 3-5 or 4-6. I'm praying for the first one, let me tell you.

Also, I am starting high school tomorrow, among other things, so I will be busy. I might not get on at all some of these days, due to homework, marching band, bowling, family and friends/my boyfriend, which will take up about all of my time. Art may or may not be lacking, due to the fact that I don't know how much I'll be drawing during school, if at all.

So, be kind and don't get mad if I don't comment on your deviations, reply to comments, or carry on a conversation immediately. I WILL be swamped.

Just a reminder.

Side note: In preparation for school, my toenails have once again been painted black, like they were at the beginning of the summer. X3 Guess I SHOULD get my bookbag packed...
...
Nah! *Goes to play Okami*

Side Side Note: That reminds me. The reason art has been nearly non-existant lately is because I have the PS2 once more and have been playing Okami. SUCH an awesome game. Anyway, I was hoping to beat it today, which is highly possible, so I haven't been doing much of anything else, lol.

No wonder my mom won't let me get a PS2. XD

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14426258/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14426258/ Fri, 31 Aug 2007 13:32:48 PDT
Last day of August. Four days left of school. Nyehhhhh.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14395463/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14395463/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 12:58:56 PDT
Yesterday I was excited because there was no Naruto fanart on the front page. Unfortunately, that same occasion didn't grace me today, but oh well.

I know me and Cody won't last forever. Chances of that happening is about one in one-thousand. But that won't stop me from spending time with him and feeling pretty damn good about myself! X3. One day, yeah, we'll break up, people will be hurt, but oh well. That's how the story goes.

Been talking to Brett every night on the phone. It's nice to be able to keep up with her life at college and laugh like we did over the summer.
"I found a new creeper today."
"Oh?"
"Yeah. He talked for two hours and fifteen minutes. Straight."
Man, I love her.

My Sydey-Diddy-Dinker-Doo is gone all day today and she won't be on the computer tomorrow due to soccer and a hair appointment, so no rping for me. I wonder what I'll do... I know I have to remind my mom about getting highlights...

My mom hasn't been feeling well, she won't tell me what's wrong, and the doctor's office called and told her to call back, which normally isn't good. I'm scared, man.

Latests News: Just got off the phone with Cody. I get to go to the mall with him on Friday!

Got lot of Link comics up in my cranium, due to the fact I've been plaing LoZ. So, for the fans of that, more is to come!

Cody likes my gallery and FMA. *Swoon* And he can read all this too... eh heh...

I'll hopefully be finishing Eclipse soon, if my plan works out. Which it probably won't, lol. What is my plan? It's easy.
After I get off the computer, I'm going to grab Eclipse, sit down, and start reading. And I'm not gonna stop until I'm done. 8D

I'm still in my pajamaaaas. X3

Yah. So, there ya go! X3

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14383431/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14383431/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 16:21:37 PDT
Right when I start my first relationship, my friends start getting down about love and talking about how bad it is. It's really starting to bug me how I'm all happy and hopeful about love, that I'll find it and I'll enjoy it, but everywhere I turn I'm reading about how much it sucks.

Admittedly, I haven't experienced it. But I want to more than anything. Even if it does suck in the end. I've always wanted to fall in love, to be with one I adore. It's one of my greatest wants, to find the one I love and get married and have a family and such. I mean, I realize you tend to fight and such after you get married, but I still want to be a part of that world. I'm hopeful about this, and I'm going to stay that way. I've been knocked around and let down before, but it happens. All you can do is get back up and keep going.

I mean, one friend doesn't even know about how I have a boyfriend because she's going on about how she wish she had never fallen in love, and I'm not about to jump in and say "Hey! I got a boyfriend!" You know? *Sigh*

Think I'll call him up now and see if he's up for going to the mall tomorrow. I need a break. I'll leave you with the words of Frank Sinatra (Or whoever wrote it if he remade it) in "That's Life":

I said that's life (that's life), and as funny as it may seem
Some people get their kicks stompin' on a dream
But I don't let it, let it get me down
'Cause this fine old world, it keeps spinnin' around

I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate, a poet, a pawn and a king
I've been up and down and over and out and I know one thing
Each time I find myself, flat on my face
I pick myself up and get back in the race

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14304103/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14304103/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 13:10:35 PDT
To-Do List
ASAQ refrences for Syd
- Quinton Jackson (100% complete)
- Andy Jackson: (100% complete)
- Tamran DeJiro (Younger) [43% complete]
- Tamran DeJiro (Older) [0% complete]
- Cyrus Jerisol (0% complete)
- K2 Carly: (0% completed)
Internal Struggle
- Part 1 (100% compete)
- Part 2 (10% complete)
- Part 3 (0% complete)
LoZ comics
- Comforting News (0% complete)
- The Power of the Poke (0% complete)
- Tough Decisions (0% complete)
- Hero? I Think Not (0% complete)
- Inside His Head (0% complete) [Might trash]
- Deja Vu
~ Part 1 (0% complete)
~ Part 2 (0% complete)
~ Part 3 (0% complete)
- Frustration (0% complete)
- Dig! (0% complete) [Title subject to change]
Parking (0% complete)
Pokemon comics (Got a few ideas, they're on hold, though)
The Truth about Bananas (Still in thought process, name subject to change) [Might trash]
Request for Purple: CardCaptor Sakura scene (7% done, on hold) [Purple! I need refrences of your OCs. Could you possibly draw some? Your drawing ability doesn't matter, I just need a visual]
Scenes from Always (1% done)
Scenes from Buried (0% done)

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14303866/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14303866/ Thu, 23 Aug 2007 12:57:15 PDT
I'm SICK of being the mediator
I'm SICK of always having to be "the good friend"
I'm SICK of feeling sorry for myself
I'm SICK of others feeling sorry for themselves
I'm SICK of feeling angry
I'm SICK of being blamed for everything
I'm SICK of being treated like a five year old
And I am just SO SICK of all this DAMN stress I've been going through, with all this stuff piling up on me one by one and suffocating me!
And I gotta stay happy and hyper through it all.
Well, FUCK that.

Also sick of the pictures here at DA, all the same stuff over and over and all of the Naruto pairing art on the front page. It's a good show, but enough is enough!

(Just kinda pissed off right now, not gonna talk about it, just need to calm down. I've been having a REALLY hard week. No, longer than that. A REALLY hard THREE weeks.)

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14292698/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14292698/ Wed, 22 Aug 2007 18:02:38 PDT
So, today was the big day. Move out day. It wasn't as bad as I thought. I guess yesterday was the worst of the storm, since it was our last day together. So, basically, we packed the car and set off for Pittsburgh, her stuff threatening to fall on me since I was in the back with the luggage. We got stuck in traffic for an hour before we could wait another half hour to go up an elevator to reach Brett's room, then spend anouther three hours helping her move in and get snapped at by an irritable family. Mom was trying to cope with Brett's leaving, I know, and Brett was stressed and scared. Their bad mood rubbed off on Dana, who's emotion-prone, and so I was the scapegoat here since Dad stayed out of the room. Ah well. I don't mind. I didn't take any of it personally. So we helped her set everything up, met up with her friend Ryan who's on the floor beneath us, explored the campus with him, and eventually left. We left early, actually, since Mom and Dad were bored and they got to come back the next day for this stuff they have to attend or something. I dunno. So, me and Dana said goodbye sadly but happily at the same time 'cause we knew she wouldn't have problems here. Then we ate some dinner and went home.

I didn't cry once. Though I did blast my music on the way home. Nothing but Fall Out Boy existed. Maybe it was subconcious coping. I tend to listen to my music rather loud when I'm upset (Normally, my music's soft, since my ears are kinda sensitive, so loud is normal to most). But yeah. I... feel a little sad now, but I'm not gonna cry. I'm gonna put my emotions about this in the wastebasket and move on.

But, last night, I drew her a picture and left my DA link on it, asking her to "keep an eye on me." I asked her if she got it today, and she said yeah and that she was going to hang it up on her wall.

That made my day. And made the tears come. But that's okay, 'cause they're happy tears.

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14276765/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14276765/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 17:56:47 PDT The last time I get to wake up and look over, seeing her curled up in bed and grunting to me to shut up.
The last time I get to look across the room from the couch and see her typing away on her laptop.
The last time I get to hear that damned cell phone ring and her yak on it for about an hour, flitting from room to room and laughing about some dirty joke she was just told.
The last time I get to hear her randomly blast Bob and Tom while Mom’s watching her shows.
The last time we sit down as a family and eat dinner, all of us: Mom, Dad, Grandma, Dana, Me, and her.

“Haha! I was so young in that picture!”
“Oh man! Look at Dad’s face! And his hair!”

Tonight is a tough night. Really tough. It’s the last time for anything with Brett before she goes to college, before the family becomes kind of broken and there’s an empty room (Or in this case, empty bed, since we shared a room) to remind us that someone supposed to be there.

No, she’s not dying. But she’s leaving to make her own life. And that’s enough to make a 14 year old girl on her period cry. I don’t think I regret anything with her, in honesty. Whether it was good or bad, everything made a cherished memory that we’re both going to hold with us forever.

Tonight, me and Dana gave Brett her “Going Away” gifts. The first thing was a photo album. The front of it had pictures of the three of us (And some embarrassing pictures we laughed over). Then, with the blank spots in between for her new memories and experiences that are to come, there were the Mario Pictures.

The Mario Pictures are what they are titled, in honesty. A few years ago, we got this Mario Pez dispenser, and Brett got the bright idea to start hiding it in Dana’s room. Me and her would take turns, moving Mario after she found him and took a picture. Well, all of those pictures were put in that photo album. We sat there and laughed about it, remember the ones that were really good and the ones that were impossible to find.

Then came the grand finale. This may not seem like much to anyone else, but it was something special with us. We gave her the Joe Barbie doll.

Now, a Barbie doll may not seem like the smartest thing to give an 18 year old about to move out. But this was her doll. Way back when I was younger, even before the Mario Pictures (Also known as “Where’s Mario?” we played with Barbie dolls, them just humoring me and trying to play with me. We only ended up using three of them mainly: Dana had the traditional Ken doll names Kenny Grapevine, Brett had Joe, who didn’t have a last name, and I had Teresa Gibson, daughter of Mel Gibson. Both Kenny and Joe were after Teresa, and they were also tight friends. I think Brett and Dana made them be estranged brothers at one point. Yeah!

“I love you, man! …Like a brother.”
I remember that now! We laughed and had fun… We had other Barbies, too. There was Martha Grapevine, who was after Kenny and was very maniacal.

“What was her name? The evil one? Oh, yeah Martha! And she wasn’t Martha Stewart, she was Martha Grapevine!”

She was controlled by Dana as well, and she would do a really high voice for Martha and a really low one for Kenny. So, when Joe was trying to put a move on Teresa, Dana made Kenny freak out on him.

“HEY! KEEP YOUR-”

At this point, Dana realized she was using Martha’s voice instead of Kenny’s. So she improvised.

“…I mean, HEY! KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF MY GIRL!”

We roared with laughter. That is probably the most prominent one we have of playing dolls, in honesty. It just… means a lot that we can still remember that, along with our other inside jokes.

“Congratulations, you’re the greatest!”
“Sorry, no bonus!”
“Do not enter! Do not enter!”
“You win, I have no money!”

Yeah… it was fun… But it’s time to grow up now, to move on. She has to spread her own wings, and so do we. We can’t use each other to move along anymore, we gotta forge our own paths.

But I’ll always look forward to her once-a-month visits and holidays, when I’ll see her again. Hell, if this keeps us, I might enjoy Christmas. Ha. Haha.

Well, I should probably stop now, since I’m supposed to be working on my comic-in-progress and I only have ten more minutes until Mom puts in Wild Hogs.

The last family movie with everyone there.

Tomorrow may be the official move-out day, but tonight’s the real goodbye.

“Okay guys, here’s the gameplan: Be good, stay safe, and be a pain in the ass for Mom. At least once a day. You guys can take turns.”

I’m gonna mi... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14257877/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14257877/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 14:41:54 PDT EDIT: I just noticed, I broke 2000 pageviews! Yay!

Well, today was the big day for me. I got to go to the movies with my crush, Cody, without there being a third person. We went to see Transformers (Which was AWESOME). My hair was a mess, my outfit looked like crap and my makeup was applied in the car.

But he said he'd hold my hand anyway.

^////^ I'm all excited now. We held hands through the entire movie, and it just felt SO GOOD! We haven't kissed or anything yet, I was trying to keep going on the courage streak and give him a kiss on the cheek, but I settled with a hug goodbye. I just... AAAAAH! I wanna scream and dance and sing and PARTY!

We haven't really formally said anything, but I'd say we're going out now, hm?

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So, Brett graduated from High School last spring, and she's getting packed to go to college. She's leaving this Wednesday to go to Pittsburgh State College, to get a degree in engineering. Now, this is the first time a chuld has left the nest in this house. I bet you're all thinking: "What? But you have an older sister, who's 23!" Yes, I do. But that sister has chronic type 1 diabetes. We have to keep an eye on her, take care of her, even when she's an adult, that is until she moves in with someone who can take care of her like we could. So, she went to a local college and works as a nurse locally so she can come home everyday and live with us. So, Brett moving out is a new experience to me.

Now, Brett was not the best older sister. She often blew me off for Dana, leaving me to play by myself when I was young. And, as I grew older, she still treated me like an annoying little toddler who constantly tried to barge in on her and her friends when they were there, rather than treat me the way I deserved for what I really did, which was hang with my parents or in my room. She was selfish and a bit vain and I hated her. If you had told me that she was leaving for college for four years about three months ago, I would have said "Good riddance."

But something happened over the summer. I dunno if it was her or me who changed, but something did. She became warmer to me, and I did likewise to her. We've gotten kinda tight between then and now, joking around a lot and spending time together just because we can. IT is at this point, ladies and gents, that she will be leaving in the time span of three days. And now I feel how I should: Sad. I regret the way I felt about her before, but I am glad that we made ammends this past sumer. I want her to stay now, so I can still spend time with her. I want her to be there to guide me through high school, to joke with me about the good times and the bad. I don't want her to go.

And, now that I am in tears, I will leave you. I'll deal, that is a fact, but it's gonna be emotional. Don't expect to see me on here on move-out day (Wednesday, as a reminder). The entire family is going to Pittsburgh to help her move in, and then we're going to the Carnegie Science Center. I think.

I love you, Brett. Have fun in college. I'll miss you.

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Danny Phantom... it was a good show. Really, it was. Morals, non-childish humor, a great plotline... It appealed to both teens and kids. Hell, adults even liked it! And, at first, I was upset to see that it was being cancelled.

But... I've been thinking...

It's better this way, being cancelled after three seasons. Danny Phantom had a continuous plotline, unlike Fairly OddParents or SpongeBob Squarepants. Everything that happened stayed that way. Like a movie, book, or anime. I read in an interview that Butch Hartman at first only signed up for the first season, but then was given more and cut off. So, what do we see there?

Season One: Best season by far. The art isn't as good as the later seasons, but that's to be expected. You see Danny maturing from a naiive, young teenager to mature, noble superhero. All in season one, since that's all Butch thought he had.

Season Two: Butch is given an extra season, but Danny has already done a truckload of developing. So, what's the only thing that can be done? Make more problems that need to be fixed. Now, I've notced several people steamed about the fact that he seemed to go back to Pre-Mystery Meat Danny. Well, there wasn't really a choice. This was sprung on Butch, and, yeah, he was excited, who wouldn't be? But he couldn't develop Danny much more, and if he couldn't do that, the show would lose a MAJOR spark. So that took Season Two down the tubes, since many fans were frustrated with the disregarded maturity. Though it did spout out some good episodes, like Flirting With Disaster (Showing more than just the canon pair), Ultimate Enemy (Giving the story a darker twist), and Fright Before Christmas (Proving that not everyone enjoys the holidays. meanwhile some of the most unlikely people do, introduced a charming character, and made for many good laughs), it just... would have been better if Butch had been able to spread out his devlopment more.

Season Three: Keep in mind, I haven't watched ALL of this season, but I have seen most of it. I'm denying myself the finale, waiting until it comes on TV. But, this one... It was... okay. Cleary, Butch had to make up for time he didn't have, so he had to cram a LOT in at once, like Danny's beloved fans, his budding relationship with Sam (Which was put on WAY too strong), and Vlad's rising of power, plus the fact that he no longer adored Danny as a son anymore. That aspect greatly disappointed me, in honesty. I'm all for the Danny + Vlad Father-son relationship, and I was sad to see that as a canon possibility go. But I liked some of the characters, though because of the cancellation, they had short lives, like Amorpho and Frostbite, as well as more Mayor Vlad action. But ah well.

Because of news of the cancellation, many fans have risen up in attempts of stopping it. I was one of them. No I did not go to the rally, but I did sign an online petition and make one ofmy own, getting signatures around the school. I still have not lived the latter down. But, here's something I've never revealed and constantly fibbed about:
I never sent in my petition. It is lying under my bed, in one of my craft boxes.
I did plan to. I was motivated. But one thing led to another and I just... never got around to it. Now, I'm kind of happy I didn't. I think it's better of Danny Phantom is ended now, while it's fresh. I mean, think about it in matters of food: You'd rahter eat a fresh turkey than an old one, right?

Most depict Danny sdtruggling about his cancellation, trying to break free. I see him going willingly, happy he is still loved as he goes. I mean, it's better now, since he's gone through his development at least twice (Scratch that, three or four times). Ladies and gents, it's going to get old. If it went on without end, Danny would no longer be loved on the TV by most. I mean, yes, there are the handful of fans who would love it until the end, watch every episode no matter how bad it was. I am not one of them. I accept Danny's cancellation, knowing it is for the best.

Does this make me a bad fan? I think not. I mean, I do have regrets: Wulf not returning, Dan not returning, Amorpho and Ghostwriter being one-shots, ect. But this is the truth people, whether you want to admit it or not. I may be accepting defeat, but I am accepting it with logic and happiness. And I think Danny would too.

So, in the end, I am satisfied, if not more. I will miss the new episodes, but it is a small price to pay to cherish these wonderful, happy memories of Danny Phantom, Vlad Masters, Sam Manson, Tucker Foley, and the rest.

Besides, just because he's cancelled doesn't mean we can't still love him.

This has been "Speculation: Danny Phantom" by AndyWasHere (Who still is unwi... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14181757/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/14181757/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 14:32:01 PDT
Rules
1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Tag three other people (Anyone who wants to do it can do it)

_____________________________

Characters Chosen:
1. Andy Jackson (My fursona)
2. Quinton Jackson (My fursona's twin. NoIdon'thaveanentirestorylinewiththemwhatareyou talkingabout?)
3. Tamran DeJiro (ASAQ. The storyline, which I'm not saying exists *Shifty eyes*, with Andy and Quinton in it)
4. Matthias Taknid (KKS, which is his main storyline. He can't talk, but this isn't necessarily talking, is it? Tee hee)
5. Maximillion Powers (KKS, his main plotline)



1. How old are you?
Andy: 14 years old
Quinton: Well, since I'm Andy's twin, I'm 14 too, but she's seven minutes older than me.
Tamran: 14 as well
Matthias: 26 years old, though people say I look older.
Max: 38

2. Height?
Andy: 5'8". And it's NOT FAIR he's taller than me...
Quinton: Sorry! Umm... Last time I checked, I was 5'10"
Tamran: I HATE these quizzes... *Muttering* 4' 9 1/2"...
Matthias: I'm about 6', but don't hold me to that.
Max: 6'3"

3. Bad habits?
Andy: I bite my nails and other people's heads off
Quinton: Uhm... I'm told I'm really loud and hyperactive, but I don't really think I am, because of I was I'd probably have ADHD or somthing, which I got checked for, and I don't have it, so yeah!
Tamran: I have a REALLY bad temper. Don't piss me off. And I tend to be overprotective and rely on my closest friend too much.
Matthias: Hmmm... Tough one. I can tend to be too motherly and trusting, but that's only what I'm told. Personally, I like who I am, even if these habits are bad!
Max: ...I kinda tend to have a loose trigger finger, if you know what I mean.

4. You a virgin?
Andy: Mmyep.
Quinton: *Blushes* Of... I-I mean, maybe, er... uh...
Tamran: Yeah. I should be, at fourteen. And, Quint, we DON'T need to know about your love life, okay?
Matthias: Unfortunately, no, though I haven't found any woman I've cared enough for to have sex for real with. I kinda have a hetic, complicated life.
Max: No, haven't been for a long time. *Slight smirk*

5. Who's your mate/spouse?
Andy: Adrian, he's such a sweetie...
Quinton: PETER!! *Gushes over Pete*
Tamran: Ugh... spare me, you two... Syd. *Slight smile*
Matthias: As I stated above, I haven't found anyone as of yet. Though one of my coworkers, Veronica, has been spending quite a bit of time with me. I think she's into me.
Max: Because of my... habits, I stand alone.

6. Have any kids?
Andy: I"M 14! I DON'T PLAN ON GETTING PREGNANT, THANKS!
Quinton: Nope! I mean, I can't, I'm a guy, and so is Pete, but once we're older, we can always adopt...
Tamran: That'll be a warped kid. No, I don't. Fourteen, remember?
Matthias: I feel like a broken recorder. I do not have a lover, and as far as I know, I am not a father, so no.
Max: No, not to my knowledge, anyway.

7. Favorite food?
Andy: Cheese Puffs and Dr. Pepper, even though the latter is a drink.
Quinton: I like pierogies, but I don't get to eat those too much unless I make them myself, and Mom doesn't trust me with the stove too much.
Tamran: Ice cream! 8D
Matthias: I always enjoy a nice BLT now and then.
Max: Turkey. Always get the whole thing to myself on holidays.

8. Favorite ice cream flavor?
Andy: Mint Chocolate Chip
Quinton: Twist! You know, when they mix chocolate and vanilla together, like at Dairy Queen. And I LOVE sprinkles on my ice cream!
Tamran: Rocky Road! Though I'll eat ANY flavor of ice cream. I can't get enough!
Matthias: Banana.
Max: Pass. Lactose Intolerant.

9. Killed anyone?
Andy: Uh, NO.
Quinton: Kill someone? No! I'd never kill anyonje, everyone's a person with feelings and a life and people who care about them, I could never!
Tamran: No, though in one of my rages, I got pretty close
Matthias: My soul is clean. Even though I have gotten into fights and had a... rocky past... I never killed anyone.
Max: On several occasions.

10. Hate anyone?
Andy: Yes. YES YES YES.
Quinton: No, but I do dislike the people who tease me because of what I am.
Tamran: My mother.
Matthias: I try not to, but yes, I do hate some people.
Max: Everyone's an enemy

11. Any secrets?
Andy: ...Like I'll tell you...
Quinton: It's not so secret, but I'm gay.
Tamran: The only thing I'll tell you that I try to keep quiet is that... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/13987966/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/13987966/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 14:36:27 PDT But, I have to for tennis. *Sigh*

In other news, I've been neglecting my inbox once more.
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*Bigger sigh*
*Clicks to delete all journals*

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Not feeling up to much lately. Sorry folks.

I'm glad you're back, Len, really, even if I don't seem like it. I'm just not at the top of my game, ya know? I'm sending my love to ya.

Art will come, just... slowly. And I'm not reading too many journals or looking at many deviations, only if they seem to spark my intrest in the title.

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Which is your favorite Harry Potter book?
Mmmm... Dunno. Goblet of Fire, but it might become Deathly Hallows once I finish it. 541 pages left!

Which is your favorite Harry Potter movie?
Oooh. Chamber of Secrets. Order of the Pheniox would have won it it had a bit more explanation and a bit less cut out. It was really confusing for those who didn't read the book like me.

Who is/are your favorite HP character(s)?
Fred and George Weasley, Sirus Black and Severus Snape taking a close second

What house do you prefer to be in?
Ravenclaw

But what house would you think you'll be in?
Slytherin

Which ghost within Hogwarts is your favorite?
Mmm... S'ose Nearly Headless Nick, none of the others were shown too much 'cept for Myrtle, who I hated from the start, and Peeves, who was funny at first but just got annoying.

What subject in Hogwarts do you like the best?
Defense Against the Dark Arts, when Lupin teaches it

Who is your favorite teacher in Hogwarts?
Hmm... Snape or Lupin

Which position would you want to be in for Quidditch?
Seeker. I like solitary positions

Which position in Quidditch do you think fits you the most?
Beater. MAN do I have a mean smack! Give me one of those bats and BAM!

Who do you want to make friends with?
Fread and George Weasley

If you were in Hogwarts, who would be your best buddy?
Realistically? Probably Neville or Luna

Why would he/she be your best buddy?
We're all kind of outcasts. We've got out own thing going, not always accepted by others but kinda happy with who we are and we've got loyal friends to stand by us

Which character in the book can you relate to?
Mmm... Neville

What pet would you get? A cat, owl, toad, or rat?
Easy: A cat

Yes/No Questions:

Do you think Snape is on Voldemort's side?
No. He's with Voldie.

Did you cry when Dumbledore died?
No, but I cried during his funeral. Guess the shock took a little while.

Did you cry when Sirius died?
No. I was sad, but I didn't cry.

Did you cry when Cedric Diggory died?
No.

Do you like the outcome of the Half-Blood Prince?
Mmm... Not really, I was a little disappointed, it seemed to be lacking something, but I like the whole RemusxTonks thing. That took me by surprise and I squealed

Were the romance going on in book 6 bothering you a bit?
Nope! I had been waiting for it, hoping it would show up once they got older.

Do you often dream of yourself in Hogwarts?
Yes. Probably too often for my own good.

Would you freak out if you found out you had to come face-to-face to a dragon?
Most likely.


If:

If you happened to discover the Mirror of Erised, what would you see in it?
...
...I'd see myself, holding a pair of woolen socks. You can never have enough.

If you had a choice between a Firebolt and an Invisibility Cloak, what would you pick?
The Firebolt

If your friend was pulled into the Whomping Willow by a black dog, would you jump in and rescue him/her?
Hell yeah! My friends are my life.

If Sirius Black turned up in your doorstep, what would be your reaction?
Mmm... I'd probably be happy to see him alive, might hug him.

If you found out you could speak Parseltongue, who would you tell to (characters in the HP book)?
Neville and Luna. Neville can always keep a secret, he's real trustworthy and loyal, and I'd love to see what Luna had to say about it.

If you landed yourself in the same situation as Harry was in with Umbridge's detention, would you tell anyone about the marks on your hand?
Yeah, probably. I bitch a lot and have to let things out. Though some things do stay secret.


More questions:

Who do you want to go to the Yule Ball with?
Hmm... Fred or George, but it would be nice to go with Neville, even if he is clumsy.

Post a HP character that has the same hair color as you do.
Hermione

Post a character that has the same eye color as you.
Ginny

What colour comes into your mind when Sirius Black is mentioned?
Gray

What colour comes into your mind when Tonks is mentioned?
Purp... ]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/13744905/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/13744905/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 14:15:10 PDT
Legend of Zelda Comics
Link and the Windmill: [link]
The Misnamed Dungeon: [link]
Attack of the Glove: [link]

Californication (Reminder: This has nothing to do with sex!)
ON HIATUS!
Page 1: [link]
Page 2: [link]
Page 3: [link]

Miscellanious (Or.... however it's spelled...)
Stage Fright (Chess Piece): [link]

And now, Upcoming Works!
- A comic concerning figments of Tamran's imagination
- Um, hopefully some more Kane stuff
- Gonna try to work on more unfinished pics
- Purple's b-day card
- A new animation
- If anyone wants to request something, that too.

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I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay now
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth!
I mean it
I'm okay!
Trust me...

]]> ~AndyWasHere http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/13592270/ http://AndyWasHere.deviantart.com/journal/13592270/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 14:00:34 PDT ~AndyWasHere