http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Angstious&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Angstious en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 02 Dec 2009 22:01:37 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/21346103/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/21346103/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 18:02:55 PST
I'm reeeally drawing again, and it feels awesome.


...Even if all of it is smut. XD

Ah, history was made last night, and I spent it writing pron, planning pron, and generally dicking around on Gaia.

At least I can answer honorably that "Yes, the first time I voted was for the first blackman to become president." ...If someone asked me what I was doing when it was announced..... eh.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/20099191/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/20099191/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 16:12:39 PDT

Eyeah... Ive flat out been too miserable and frustrated to really draw. I'm displeased with my style (or lack thereof, I keep changing), and spend too much time looking up refs instead of relaxing and just drawing.

I havent been commenting much on everyone I watch, either. Uggggggh bad bad bad me.

...Fuggin' period.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/19210735/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/19210735/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 22:49:35 PDT
Where the fuck do I go to file a complaint? I seriously need to know why the hell dA felt the need to delete my art with no warning whatsoever.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/18611822/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/18611822/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 14:26:12 PDT
So I amble off to delete the account because all my shit's on ff.net anyway, and it seems the last time I was there was in '06 (due to the ick password). Apparently some chick named Berri had really liked my Digimon Adv stories, and surprisingly really liked YamatoxMitori; I know, right? Since when do people give a shit about fan pairings? And they weren't even really a pairing. Regardless I deleted the stories and since I couldn't delete the account I put up a 'bio' stating that I was so fucking out of there.

And mediaminer doesn't allow cursing on PROFILE PAGES.

No wonder no one even remembers the site.

So after making my bio more kid-friendly, updating my password which I know had more than 4 characters but w/e, and REFSUING to give my real name because what the fuck kind of website requests you give your real name? I left that shit.

Oh. Oh yeah. If anyone sees DMC stuff depicting Vergil liking sexy librarians due to a comment made by Dan Southworth at Fanime or whatever convention he was just at, it's all freakin' me. I asked a friend to pass along a question (since I obviously don't live in Cali), and got my answer. Hell Fucking Yes. But I spazzed about it enough already.

Man why the hell can't I sleep? D8

Art? Well. I started two pics of Riana lately, unfinished due to me apparently not being able to draw HAIR anymore. Though I wonder if I should even bother since according to ED I'm no artist HA HA HA.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/18430118/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/18430118/ Wed, 21 May 2008 12:15:35 PDT
Is it dA policy to delete deviations without notifying the artist or something? I say it's bullshit.

...I doubt I deleted them and forgot...

Eh. New artwork? I can't seem to finish anything, I'm getting frustrated easily over stupid things and I think I just need to adjust the sensitivity in my tablet. And draw better. Updates on life? I'm a poor art college student, 'nuff said. And I've been having crazy insomnia as of late.

I SUPPOSE if one wanted an interesting journal I could go on about how much I hate Shitpodamn right now and the uber epic Naruto project in the works with a buddy. Or about any of my projects for that matter. But I don't see the point when I don't have anything to show for it.

These days I would have no problem cranking out drawings but I'm really anal about finding refs- and it's funny, when I going through sketchbooks for that sketchdump I put up I noticed that while I didn't draw in proportion I drew much more freely and often. I should loosen up and do that again- I've got a pretty good style going for horses now.

Hm. Felt kinda good writing this all up. I should do this more often.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/15270734/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/15270734/ Mon, 29 Oct 2007 10:40:11 PDT
1.- List 10 characters that you like blablabla in any order

Doodz

1. Duo Maxwell- Gundam Wing was the first anime that I leanred inside and out, and was one my biggest inspirations to create stories and the art to go along with them. I remember seeing the old trailers on Toonami classic; I totally thought Trowa would be my favorite character, but the braided goofy Shinigami totally won me over.

2. Nataku- Senkaiden Houshin Engi's version. He's just effing adorable. I could eat him if he didn't want to blow my ass up.

3. Ishida Yamato- What? Digimon Adventure is STILL one of my favorite anime, even if the US version totally skewed the story. Matt (I LIKE their English nicknames!) I totally loved back in the day before emo was cool. I still heart him muchly.

4. Zelgadis Greywers (or however the crap you say his last name)- Slayers is the shiz. Zelgadis is the shiz. Goes to show that hotness runs more than skin deep.

5. Aburame Shino- Dude, who COULDN'T love the pimp masta gangsta of the Rookie Nine? He doesn't get nearly enough screen time, 'cept for in the huge filler arc oddly enough.

6. Abarai Renji- Because he's such a good boy *rubs belly*. And he "ruvs" his Rukia so muchly.

Man, I haven't made a list with my favorite characters in a while. I'm pretty sure I'm forgetting some major ones. Let's keep going...

7. Brandon Heat- Love him for the same reasons as Nataku. Plus his bond with his best friend/enemy Harry was just beautiful.

8. Shin-chan- I AIN'T NEVER SEEN AN ASS. LIKE. THAT.

9. Lt. Armstrong- TEH PECKS. OMG MAN TEH PECCCCKKKKSSS.

10. Trunks Briefs- How could I get through this list without at least one guy from DBZ? Call him the pretty boy Saiyajin if you must, Trunks still kicked a lot of ass and IMO Future!Trunks was one of the strongest characters in the series, mentally and with a power level of OVER NINE THOWZAN.

Ladies

1. Lina Inverse- She's one of the best anime females period. They don't get much better than her.

2. Kiddy Phenil- From Silent Mobius. I didn't get into the series much, but I really admired Kiddy. I've always liked women than can be strong and feminine. Like... Sailor Jupiter.

3.- Hyuuga Hinata- She's probably the only chick I've squealed and totally fangirled over. It's... embarassing to admit, ha ha. Even if Kishimoto is not going to do anything with her or the rest of her team. And while I'm at it...

4. Tenten- It's sad that I've seen her character blossom under the hands of talented writers rather than Kishimoto.

5. Milk-chan- C'mon. She's badass!

6. Catena Garceilles- Am I wrong for liking my own character? Catena was one of the first I created, and probably my best, even if I still haven't gotten around to actually writing her story. It's gotten so complex that I don't even know if I can do it. Still, she, Mitori, Laripe, and Kahlil all hold a special place in my heart.

7. Inoue Orihime- Awesome proof that big boobied girls CAN be characters made of win.

8. Relena Peacecraft- I'm probably one of like a dozen people who actually LIKE her.

(This is hard... usually girls I actually like are few and hard to find.)

9. Genkai- Pink haired grandma that can kick your ass? YES PLZ.

10. Allenby Beardsly- For being the only female Gundam pilot that kicks serious ass.


Favourite Anime

1. Digimon Adventure
2. Gundam Wing
3. Slayers
4. Gungrave
5. Dragonball
6. Naruto (excluding Shippuden- yeah, I LIKE the fillers)
7. Yoroiden Samurai Troopers (Ronin Warriors)
8. Saint Seiya
9. TRANSFORMERS RAAAAAAAARGH
10. Yu Yu Hakusho

Favourite Anime Songs

1. What's up People?!- Maximum the Hormone (DeathNote)
2. Breeze- Megumi Hayashibara (Slayers Try)
3. Hero's Come Back- nobody knows (Naruto Shippuden- too bad the show itself SUCKS)
4. Rhythm Emotion- (Gundam Wing)
5. Cautionary Warning- Kacho Oji (Legend of Black Heaven)
6. Fighting Dreamers- Naruto. This song to me really captures the YOUTHFUL spirit of the series, along with R*O*C*K*S
7. Through the Night- Outlaw Star
8. That opening for the English dub of Digimon Frontier. LULZ.
9. ALONES- Bleach
10. Uh... both openings for Ghost in the Shell SAC. Yeah.

I tag...

You.
That douchebag over there.
Your mom.
That one hot chick.
My chihuahua.
Yeah.

There should be a video game version of this. I'll probably add that on later.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/13473922/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/13473922/ Sun, 24 Jun 2007 15:49:19 PDT

So...

....

...........

...I don't really have anything important to say. Um... I'm in college... still suck at life...


...That's about it.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/12433494/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/12433494/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 16:30:56 PDT
I don't lie.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/10075776/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/10075776/ Thu, 14 Sep 2006 22:50:45 PDT
Hm, yeah. There won't be an update here for a while. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8869317/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8869317/ Sun, 30 Jul 2006 20:55:56 PDT
(...until Driving School starts x_x )

You won't lose touch with me. I promise

July 30

.......ok, so maybe I lied. But at the time I didn't realize so much would happen, which did. Has. Erm.

-_-; I'm getting there, sorry folks. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8738009/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8738009/ Fri, 19 May 2006 10:46:21 PDT
E3's going down... and everyone is PO'ed. PS3 is gonna cost buku money, Shadow and Silver are being hated on yo, TP on Wii is either gonna pwn or suck...

Whatever! Nothing this year is really getting me excited since we know about TP and AC has come and gone, with DoC on the way. The new Sonic games look sexy And if anyone has to complain about them, why don't they just write a story? That's what I do; of course it doesn't change the canon, but it makes me happy.

Things are kinda winding down yet getting more tense as I graduate a week from tomorrow... Dunno what all's gonna happen when my mom leaves again later this month...

I'm gonna get those sketches up! Really! Umber's coming along nicely, though I don't know if my style is unique enough. I already know I don't have what it takes to be dubbed a worthy SA styler (yet!), buuuuuut I dunno if I can pull of my usual coloring style on the Sonic characters. Meh... "Hey!! What about me?!"


Cleo! I'm totally getting to work on Drakemon and that tutorial... >.> though I dunno how exactly I'm gonna do it...

*wonders if something to fear is ahead... then notices the cake* Sweet!

May 19- I'm GRADUATING TODAY!!!....

Hmm... I think the club is dying... ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8660133/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8660133/ Wed, 03 May 2006 08:40:44 PDT

Anyway about the wtf... I'm everyone gets wierd email and spam, but I don't usually. In the last few days, though, I get getting these mails in my junk that I can't read- because it's all Japanese. They all have a message and a link to some website I haven't been able to bring up yet called gyakuten6.net. I'm wondering if it's a joke or if I'm being stalked by, like, 7 people...



*ahem* Moving on, I know I haven't put up those GGX concept sketches yet... I'll get around to it eventually, along with some NiGHTS stuff. I've of course been in a total FFVII mood, especially when I got to talking with a friend about a parody we so have to do! (and that we're totally going to hell for)

"Yeah, i'm totally bad in dese shades yo" "WTF teh angst!!" ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8514011/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8514011/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 13:42:14 PDT
Monday I was playing volleyball in JROTC and tripped over my feet while going to hit the ball. There were some snaps, a lotta crackling, and perhaps a pop or two, but there was so much pain afterwards that I forget the details. Lo and behold my ankle ended up swelling up to about twice the size of a golfball (I have a picture, too ), and after some negotiations my brother was able to take me to the ER. It was quite funny, though; while on a field trip Thursday I had taken a picture of a lady about to cross the street who had a crutch and injured right foot (same as mine), a friend of mine was in the room next to mine with a light sprain on her left foot, and I'd had a doctor's appointment scheduled for the next day anyway.

Of course some stupid things happened too. While I was in the nurse's office at school this girl xame in and said "Oh my god! Are you alright?"

...

Yes, I do go to school with people like that. I couldn't be too mad since she ran around everywhere looking for my brother. Also the Assitant Principal wanted me to come up to the office to sign out... Yeah, when I couldn't walk. (Or maybe I could've, but no one would let me. The day after my 16th bday I had slipped on wet grass and sprained the same ankle about just as badly, but I just walked it off for weeks. It never did heal right, which is why I guess it was so bad this time.)

There was this old lady in the room with me whom I think was a victim of nursing home abuse... she was dehydrated and apparently brought in unconscious. Actually there were a lot of senior citizens in the ER... I felt pretty bad. But sadly it was kinda funny when the nurses gave her a bath... thankfully I didn't see anything due to the curtains, but my sister and I heard all too well when they had to clamp thsi special thing "down there" to gather...er, samples. XD heh heh heh.

Ah yes, my siblings! So yeah my brother had to drive me to the ER, and terrorized me the entire time, not limited to almost letting me roll into a car in the parking lot (he had placed me in a wheelchair), poking me when I couldn't reach him to hit him back, continuosly asking me for 20 cents when he knew I didn't have any money on me, and worst of all, when the lady who gathered my insurance info (courtesy of my mom via my brother's cell phone) told me to "take a seat over there", he just HAd to say "She's already taking a seat!"

Gah, bastard.

Anyway eventually my sister arrived with my niece of course, and Teh Piglet was actually very calm for the most part, but she had just woken up. She was curious about my wheelchair, but surprised us all when she rose her arms and walked over to this girl about my sister's age to be picked up. She even had the nerve to behave! Little traitor.

The doctor who examined my leg (who happened to be a woman so young I was worried I was being punked or something) told me I just had a really nasty sprain, as indicated by the xrays. They gave me this funky ice-pack (as no one had bothered to while I was in the waiting room) and soon had me splinted and wheeled outta there. I just chilled at home the rest of the day and eventually passed out from T3 (Tylenol 3, which have got to be the MOST extreme pain killers I've ever taken!!). I wasn't in any pain, really.

What's most surprising is that my mom came back because of this. Well, she was scared to death because the school nurse and I had problems getting ahold of my mom and/or sister, and the message my mom received was something along the lines of "Your daughter was injured at school and is going to the ER." I can imagine mom was all "z0mgonoes!!11!1!!" though I was had been smiling goofily while the nurse made the message. Anyway the incident happened at 9:15 AM and my mom was home at about 4 or 5 that afternoon.

She crooned and she babied me (when she wasn't catering to Teh Piglet) and the next day got actual groceries for my siblings and I (yayzorz real food!). I was really surprised she came down for two days for just a sprained ankle, but I'm sure mom was glad to be here and would do it again in a heart beat. After all... she won't be seeing much of us. She was supposed to have been home for good already, but her orders don't end until May 5 (maybe? ...hey, Cinco de Mayo!) and she gets new ones later in May for another year. So no college for me this year...

I'm hoping she'll at least get separated from her bastard husband with the little time she has.

Anyway, I'm okay, just really uncomfortable. The crutches aren't so bad, and I'm getting a pretty hardcore workout from them. Heh, maybe I'll even be able to do that uber cool chest-flex thin... ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8374200/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8374200/ Wed, 05 Apr 2006 13:38:11 PDT
Tee hee.

No worries, I won't spoil anything... But I was ecstatic to discover that my interpretation skills must be top notch. There were assumptions I made years ago just from ASAS and Deep Dive that happened to come true, and it just so happens that even events in the sequel itself already coincide with what I had written in Eclipse Realm. So I'm happy to say that I really will be getting back to that story... Of course, it's my 'version' of what the next game could be like, because of course my characters and Sonic the Hedgehog and others wouldn't really be in it. I just wanna write an entertaining story.

And it'll just get better when I see AC next month!!

...But I really oughta be working on those scholarship artworks... d'oh! >.<

Now for my tag info...thingy

Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours...

1. First and foremost, I eat weird things straight from the container. Cake frosting, dried minced onion, ketchup, chick peas, cookie dough...okay, maybe cookie dough's not so weird...

2. Ummm... Apparently I store and process too much information and talk a bit too fast and always write subtle messages, which is probably why I'm usually not listened too or understood. I'd say I'm like a computer... a really crappy Mac (heh heh).

3. Most of the time when I hear "I love you" or "I want to hang out with/see you", I'm like "Yeah, wtf ever". Then pitifully angst about being lonely. ...Wait, I don't think that's quite right... Okay, I just hate hearing that from guys. O.o uh, not that I'm welcoming girls... ah nvm.

4. Doodle-oo... I still have this thing for infomercials... Have you seen the one that's a tube that perfectly cooks noodles and vegetables? Cool beans!

5. I like and write Romantic and fantasy ideas but am a realist.

6. I absolutely cannot STAND unneccessary noises. Whistling, loud chewing, loud GUM chewing, lip smacking, teeth sucking... ARGH! Makes me wanna kill someone slowly.

I wonder if I can even find 6 people to tag...?

Maybe I'll post the sketch I made of Riku's ER costume- I had to almost totally redesign it. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8257163/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8257163/ Sat, 25 Mar 2006 05:23:49 PST .< mean bastards.

Anyhoo, I really dun plan on being online much, since I'm on Spring Break now and I wanna finish up Sonic Riders and DQVIII until Tuesday when I'll be all KH2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I figure it'll take 2-3 days max to beat. Tee hee.

btw, about that hospital business... everything's fine. Now that I've learned what's happened, it's all really on some borderline between pathetic and...pathetic. It was just stupid. Needless to say, you won't hear me angsting about former firends anymore.

I'm sooooooo much better than them! ...I mean, now that I know what's been up with them, I can honestly say I'm glad not to be a part of it. My only regret is that I don't get to say "I TOLD you so!"

RPGneeeeessssss.... Toodles!

"OMFG sexy Cloud!!"

Be nice! Read a story and make my friggin' day! [link] ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8234731/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8234731/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 08:37:45 PST
This is really bad, since I was just getting into being online again. And my latest pic needs to be replaced.

...And I think I just found out that a former good friend is now hospitalized...

Just great. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8063966/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8063966/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 10:15:32 PST Trying to find: a worthwhile Sonic fic
Listening to: Super Sonic Speed

>.< So much to do, so much to do... yet I'm getting nothing done.

I want to do a lot of Sonic stuff before I'm overtaken by KH2 at the end of the month, then soon after AC. I KNOW I can find out about them now, but I want to wait for the US releases. Besides, I'm supposed to be doing a lot.

Fanfiction wise, I really need to do a one-shot just to get my brain working, but I can't seem to settle on an interesting subject. Adding to my plethora of complicated fic plans, I decided on writing my own adaptation of ShtH to make up for the game's disappointment, though I only have it planned out to the Mystical Ruins stage. I plan on introducing Glow, Umber, and Nails, as they have a loose impact on the plot (namely Umber and Nails), as well as letting this adaptation be an introduction to another story which will star all of the characters, but will have the greatest impact on Knuckles and Shadow. I dunno how successful it will be, though, since I pretty much have no readers. *sigh* I guess I can sleep on that and just write when it comes to me.

Speaking of the trio, I'm working on all three, starting with Glow [link] Umber I don't think will be too bad, as I plan on keeping his design both simple and complex (simple being his shoes and gloves, complex being his quills and personality). Nails I'm having the most diffculty with since it's hard to make an original Sonic-style echidna that's not a "crap recolor". On an off comment from an unlikely source, I wanted to make each design unique enough so that the characters are discernible from their silhouettes. I have a sketch of Nails that's a start on this concept, but I haven't scanned it yet.

>.< I still need to do my half of the trade with Cleo...

I've been getting really stressed with graduation approaching, preparing for scholarships, still not being able to take the ACT, my mom returning for a day eariler this week, my niece being sick, and not being able to get completely over a stupid crush. Argh.

The good news is that the college I want to go to is really awesome.

Doesn't help that I need inspiration. Badly.

I seem to be only wasting hours away at the computer in this broken chair, hence my painful neck.

Man, I really need to try and join more clubs. May be a problem though if no one's willing to look past that crappy avatar to see what I've got... (Well duh, moron, replace it!) ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8050549/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/8050549/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 19:37:29 PST .<

...Hey, now my crappy new avatar shows up...

Hmm.... now who should I choose...?

1: What is the original name of the official character?
Link! Of course you can name him in some of teh older Zelda games, but Link is Link.

2: Where is is he/she from?
No one really knows, but Hyrule is the common birthplace (depends on which Link it is, though).

3: How did you get to know him/her?
After playing Ocarina of Time, since before then I didn't even know his name. I swear I thought the little pink-haired kid running around in a green skirt was Zelda. Now I know the kid or incredibly smexy swordsman in a green skirt () is Link.

4: Tell us something about him/her. Like his/her story and character.
Link's a sort of quiet guy with a knack for swordfighting and solving puzzles. He's unbelieveably kind and generous, but is chained to his fate which is linked with Zelda, Ganondorf, and the Triforce.

5: Just what exactly do you like about him/her in both appearance and character?
I've always liked that he's the sort of hero that does what he does because it's right, with no sappy speeches or vows to vanquish evil. He doesn't need to do the latter since I believe he's confident- though I believe he could rebel against his destiny, as he's had some violent moments (such as bitch-slapping Ganon multiple times at the end of OoT before stabbing him between the eyes, and a similar technique was sued in WindWaker. Yeowch.).

6: Are there things you DON’T like about him/her?
I would love to see him get angry! Snap! Preferably at Zelda or maybe even the goddesses themselves.

7: In what way(s) do you express your infatuation to the character?
By declaring myself his official whore, crediting the beginning of my "creative career" to when I first began to learn about him.

8: What’s the worst thing someone can say about this character, in your opinion?
Calling him a coward. Never. Never. NEVER. Call Link a coward.

9: Did you ever dream about the character?
A few times maybe...yeah. Although when I dream about Hyrule, it's even more surreal than how it's portrayed. It's really confusing, actually.

10: On to the customizing: did you alter the character’s appearance to your personal liking?
Yeah, I've drawn Link in modern fashions with a slight punk look. I'd also like to add little scars here and here, to enhance his smexiness

11: Did you alter the personality of the character to your personal liking?
A little, and I mean a little. I can't say it's altering since we don't see much of Link's personality. I sort of made him more rebellious and...well, selfish in a way.

12: Anything else you altered of the character?
Nothing I can recall.

13: Are there any interesting new features you added to the character’s abilities and such?
Yes...? Ah, yeah, I believe I gave Link a new specialty magic and a new sword or two.

14: Did you make your own characters to go along with the character?
Oooooooh yes indeedy I have. And they'll make him go crazy!

15: Are there stories you made where this character appears in?
MM-hmm, and it's more complicated than I can handle. *sigh* I always do this to myself

16: What’s the worst thing you made happen to this character?
...Ah, you mean what I'm GOING to make happen to him!

17: Did you pair him/her to someone, even if he/she was already officially paired to someone else?
Kindasortamaybe.

18: And finally, do you consider yourself to be a hardcore otaku (fan) of this character?
Oh yes. Multiple games, posters, drawings, stories, speeches of my dedication... Yeah, I'm dedicated.

~~~~

...Is it me, or have I just not been able to do anything entertaining? ._. It's just not a good time... and I'm not doing much good about it now that I know Cleo's gonna worry. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7993354/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7993354/ Fri, 24 Feb 2006 19:24:59 PST

While there were a few things I liked about Shadow the Hedgehog, the gamne just was not presented well. Sonic Riders, however, is presented much, much better. That's not to say it's perfect!

The Bad: The voice-acting. While there was an uproar over recasting the 4Kids actors for ShtH, I didn't think it was so bad. After all, Charmy didn't annoy me no where near as much as he did in Sonic Heroes (though some of his comments to Shadow where kind of...odd ), but Vector was completely bastardized.

In Riders... everyone's off. The main thing is that the actors were too...loud at too many points, like there were exclamations when there was no need for them. Sadly, the worst of them is Jet (though waddya expect, 4Kids apparently doesn't have many actors, and in making Jet sound different that Sonic, he just sounds horrible).

Also, the stages get glitchy, though I think it's the kind of glitchy that can be used to your advantage if you can work it right. I did, only by accident . Sometimes it's easy to fall through the course, or get lost.

Aaaaand the game has a tendency to pwn you. >.< Sure I beat both sides of the Story Mode in about 12 hours (having started playing yesterday afternoon... I know, ), but only with a lot of blood, sweat, and explicit cursing. Sure it's the first racing game I've really placed in a long time, but even I was shocked at how much work needed to get done. No breezing through for me.

The Good: OMFG the speed!! I haven't seen such a great depiction of speed in a 3D Sonic game since SA2. I really don't like the character models in Heroes and ShtH, but all is forgiven in Riders. The cast's taller, leaner look goes perfectly with the animations on the Gears, and is...well, kinda sexy. 'Specially Knux in the anime opening. Rarr!

The Extreme Gear Air System is really cool and innovative, and I think it will be imitated in the future. The Gears themselves I think are the revival of the boards used in an old Sega game I played on the Dreamcast a long time ago that had a similar style.

The Babylon Rogues are a great addition to the SegaSonic universe, in my opinion. Neverminding the voices (though Wave turned out pretty good), Jet's little band are really quite cool, though Storm didn't make much of an impression on me. I'm not hating on him, I just think he could have been depicted better. i really love the Power characters; after playing the same track for a few hours because the freakin' AI is perfect, you really learn to enjoy knocking crap out of your way automatically.

There's also more lore and mysteries added to this world. I was first hinted at this in the guidebook when Knuckles' little bio included that he guards the Master Emerald "for reasons he himself doesn't understand". After learning about just who the Babylon Rogues are, it's clear that there's more to this that what's seen in this installment of Riders. Methinks there may even be something special in store for Knux in the future; if not, we can always hope!

While I like Crush40, the sort of techno vibe is awesome, especially the main theme of. Try to resist the sudden longing for strobe lights.

I really liked the elements of the levels in ShtH, from the first stage with its multiple laser attacks to racing on destroyed corriders in space. In Riders, the stages are even more detailed, really to the point of being distracting (like in SCIII for me... "Ooooh what a pretty sky-", insert bitch-slap courtesy of Siegfried's zweihander, RING OUT). Depending on the stage, they can be straight-forward or complex, forgiving and MERCILESS. You really have to have a sharp-eye and a good twitch-reflex to spot and use the certain shortcuts made for whichever type of character you're racing with (y'know, speed, power, or fly).

The Gear shop is run by a Chao in the Dark World. Tee hee!

The game itself is sold at the bargain price of $39.99, and ShtH really should have been, too.

Last, but not least, a certain beloved SEGA character is unlockable through a lot of hard work. I'll just say it's a character you'd dream about.

...Wow, since when has Trayne given out boring game reviews? O.o?? >.> It's kinda hard to come up with something quirkly to type when it's cumbersome to type with a bandaged finger anyway. Meh.

My... ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7929369/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7929369/ Fri, 17 Feb 2006 20:52:29 PST
Argh.

So what's been up/on my mind? Well, surprisingly I updated NWAS last week. You know, that Digimon Frontier fic I hadn't touched in over two years. Oh, wait! Of course you didn't know; I lost my readers long ago.

(...who the heck am I talking to?!)

I managed to find out a LITTLE info on FFVII:AC and KH2 without spoiling myself on either. Namely the English voice actors for AC (Jason from General Hospital really is Cloud! w00t! But Steven Blum doing Vincent? And Crispin Freeman doing Rude?! WTF?!) and a favorite FF character appearing in KH2 (omg the kiddies will be shocked).

I'm delving outta YYH and back in StH with Riders just about to come out... but with the weather being so erratic, I may not be able to get it... ;_; I AM supposed to be doing possible scholarship-winning art and Cleo's art trade...

I hope Cleo's doing all right.

._. Maybe I need to talk to more people, but I can understand why no one would talk to me-

ARGH!!!

....

*ahem*

While thinking about Umber and Nails, I developed new ideas that sound pretty fun, but involve ironing out and combining Sonic Heroes/Battle/ShtH. And I never got to fight Metal Overlord in SH. *sigh* But I can make ideas all I want; it's obvious I don't follow through with them to the end if they're too much.

I may get a tiny comic put up over the weekend. I dunno.

what other club would accept me, I wonder? ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7784808/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7784808/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 19:50:07 PST
Here goes anyway:

10 things you like:

1. cool people, like friends should be
2. raspberries
3. music
4. cookies!!
5. video games
6. drawing
7. anime/manga
8. bellybuttons
9. aminals. They're just so cute and deadly!
10. fweeeeeee cooking
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3 things that make you happy:

1. my niece
2. Cleo-ness and all my comrades
3. anything inspiring
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10 things that you hate:

1. My. Mother's. Husband.
2. grown-ups. Blegh.
3. The kids at my school
4. anyone who's all "OMFG Myspace!11!!" Die.
5. everyone who's ever crossed me
6. my brother's addiction to BET. *sigh*
7. paparazzi... what?
8. being denied anime
9. ADVENT CHILDREN BEING DELAYED FOR ANOTHER YEAR!!!! GAWD!!! >.<
10. all the time I've wasted these past few years
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3 facts about your name:

1. Uh... when I had to write about in elementary school, I always described it as 'French Jamaican'...uh, yeeeaaah...
2. almost no one can spell it correctly (which I never understood, really)
3. my brother still says it funny... even though I've known him for all his life...
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5 facts about yourself:

1. I'm reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllll lllllllly lazy
2. It takes little to make me happy
3. It takes little to make me mad
4. I've been known to break statues over heads when deprived of Pop-Tarts (no, seriously)
5. I'm embarrassed and disliked easily
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2 things you expect (at least for now):

1. not to get much done XD
2. not to get my dvds tomorrow. ;_; I want my Yuyu Saiyuki NOW!!!
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4 random thoughts:

1. ...why did they let Martha Stewart out of prison? Why?!
2. I wish we had more water here...
3. Ah crap I have muffins to bake
4. ...my brother really needs to shut up ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7773866/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7773866/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 17:49:02 PST .> I'm not sure how much partying will get done, but whoooo! I'm one today!!!

But what's there to celebrate? I've been a lazy ass and have made little effort to even keep in touch with those I've talked with here ('cept for Cleo). I let my ego get to me for work that's only so-so, and let myself be distracted by people I won't bring myself to forgive.

Though I did find out just how much of a bitch I am. Heh heh.

But really, no guy is worth all the time I could have spent creating- especially not guys who try to change who you are, twist around your words until you become dependant on them, have no testicular fortitude, or completely throw away your concern even after years of dedicated friendship.

Eh but what else can I expect from kids around here? At least this is my senior year and I'll never have to see them again. ...Of course how can I sound eager when I'm sure to be doing nothing after graduation... lol I love being such a disappointment to my parents!

*sigh* Man it can be exhausting to be so freakin' lazy. I suppose there could be something wrong, though, since I surprised even myself with my apathy... I can at least say I tried to change (as much as I hate it), I tried to care... and look where it got me. They didn't need me, and I measured my worth by how others wanted me.

...I think in the end, I'm the one who really screwed up the idea of friendship... I could write all about the trials of it, but for me, there was only failure.

If I had two things not to regret and feel....thankful for, they would be that I have a healthy, happy, and crazy niece, and that Cleo was there for me and I for her whenever it was needed. I hope I was helpful... I was once told by a precious friend that a 'faceless' friend could be most helpful.

...Wow, I'm out of things to say already?

(Good going, Trayne, nice way to depress those that bothered to read this.)

*ahem* I don't think I met any of the goals I had wanted to do last year... namely update my Digimon fics and start my Gundam Wing one, and there were tons of pictures never drawn (or finished). I guess for now I need to practice incorporating my own drawing style digitally, as I'm sure there's a simple way of coloring that I'm just not getting, and start working consistently. Because I need money. I believe if I had a constant supply of music, manga, and anime, I'd be set for life. Heh.

And to whom should I give thanks? Everyone who took the time to look at my gallery and say something, whether it was a 5-minute critique or a 2-second comment. Really, I know I'm no where near great, but I've already done better than many. And of course to everyone who inspired me. I give thanks. To YOU. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7726439/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7726439/ Fri, 27 Jan 2006 19:32:39 PST
Actually my latest one was about a school shooting... uh, no worries there! There was way too many people involved, and the kids at my school are both too smart and too stupid to do something like that.

Another one involved me walking down my road with a bunch of friends I haven't really talked to in a couple of years. We were all supposed to be walking in a certain order because we were headed to training of some osrt (or were running away from someone), but Atem (aka Yami Yugi) being his silly self was riding all over the place on his horse summoning Slifer and scaring the crap outta everyone. It was weird I tell you... I made no attempt to glomp him.

I also had a cool YYH one that was like I was watching an episode. I was in my brother's room and all happy and such watching it while he was asleep on the floor, then he woke up in time to cut the TV off just as thE episode was ending! Really, the nerve! Sleeping through YYH and then daring to cut thE TV off! Plus I woke up before I could get to my room to finish watching it...

Erm, anyway, the episode was about Kurama, who had finished planning... something, then went somewhere for a romantic evening with his lady. Yeeeeeah... Actually I wasn't too surprised since now that I've been waking up reeeal early on Sat. mornings to watch what I can of the 3 Kings Saga I've gone ahead and finished one part of a YYH fic I started planning waaaaay back. So anyway, there was his girlfriend in all her glory, and I was like "OMg teh s3x!!!" lol I mean she had a certain aura of sex appeal that I had never even considered for her. Kurama began to tell her of what he had planned, and it involved something about them being able to turn into their respective demon forms. This part included a very cool flashback of Kurama in Youko form and she in her own demon form in the Makai (which I MUST draw someday). Kurama's voiceover was saying something about when they were together back then, they may have been in love.

I'm guessing this meant that they shared some sort of...something, though the scene was very suggestive, if you catch my drift... They weren't doing anything, jeez! ...but I can't say clothes were involved... >.> *coughcough* Anyway, chick grew mad (I'm not revealing her name here since I'll most likely talk about this story in a later journal or deviation) and said that she "didn't want to fight anymore" and ran off, transforming into a cat along the way and eventually running into Hiei- who went all Shinobi on her O.o.... Um, I guess that meant that Youko and she fought as much as they..."did the deed"...

The last interesting dream I had was... TMNT!! ...Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles centered, for those of you who aren't as much of a nerd as I am. I was kunoichi turtle, if you will, who was supposed to be inflitrating Shredder's base which looked suspiciously like my mother's aunt's guestroom... uh, anyway, eventually the guys came in (you know who!) along with that one human chick who hangs with them (I think), but then she got caught and the gang got caught while freeing her so they ordered us girls to go back to Splinter's. I guess they were in a panic since they tried to hide me under a bed... Mutant turtle, under a bed...yeeeeaaaaah... We eventually made it to the sewers and Splinter had a whole of dojo of...bishie MNT! ...I guess was on my mind for me to have this... unexpected fantasy...

Soooooo there goes another random journal. I'm doing a crazy circular dance trying to get PS CS installed, but in the meantime I'll try to at least get up what sketches I have. Aaaand I may work on a fic while I'm on this YYH... though I know I need to get back to my other stories... *sigh* I really need to write something funny.

Those moogles are lookin' mighty yummy right about now...

sez: WTF?! apparently lol ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7657797/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7657797/ Fri, 20 Jan 2006 13:20:20 PST
Ah... my bit of insanity is over for the most part. Things are just sorta... stagnant here. Don't ask.


As for important stuff, I realized that DA holds the key to me being successful at life... but first I need to find the right lock on the right door. ...yeah, that totally made sense... Um, what I mean is that I really, really need to draw and write again. All the ideas I have would go to waste if I don't use them, and I want- no, we needs to show what we can do!

(We also learned how to do italics via html. hee hee)

Though I mostly get the feeling that everyone dismisses what I do as sorta pretty pictures (since we know our stories are ignored). Ugh. Blargh. Gezundheit. My head feels dizzy .

>.> Oooookie I'm totally rambling. 'at's the last time I try to make a journal entry after taking my meds late O_o. Dah... I wonder what I have to do to really make myself at home here? Whore myself out?...eh, I dun have any leather corsets... Oh, how about GETTING YOUR LINE ART DECENT??!!!

;_; I'm totally unable to use PSE and my tablet to even half their full potential. Waaahh....

Buuuuuut I am most definitely (if slowly!) getting stuff done! So far it's sketches of stuff related to KH ER, Slayers, and my half of the art trade wif . I'm really just trying to learn how to clean up my horrendous lineart; 'tis not going to well. Also I need to finish the other half of my FFVII winter ficlet... but man it's like 70 degrees outside! I hate the weather here... It did snow unexpectedly the other day (and we danced and rejoiced and had soup!) but melted the next. Neee....

So, on that note, I must ask: What the CRAP is up with fanfiction these days?!

Have you ed your today? ^^ ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7556032/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7556032/ Mon, 09 Jan 2006 16:10:33 PST stupid crap happened at the end of last week, and now my household is in the midst of the eye of the hurricane. My predictions came through, and now even my brother snapped. I'm...

I'm kinda scared.

So yaaaay, life just got worse.

As for DA updates, I'm working on a new ID, and any deviations or sketches I may post are that Mitori WP, a collab with a friend, and a KH sketch. If I can take a good picture, and if I actually do it, I may add a weird poster I have planned.

*sigh* you'd think by now I would realize these journals are obsolete...

On a brighter note, my niece turned 1 this past Friday. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7440009/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7440009/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 12:54:58 PST
It's been oddly warm and rainy where I live, so I've had no winter inspiration whatsoever... Though I did begin to think of a twisted version of the Nutcracker involving the key players of the Jenova incident... Eh, blurgh.

Then I've been goin all Nihongo crazy with reading 'Memoirs of a Geisha' and RuroKen vol. 18! Ninja and geisha and Sanosuke and intrigue and Sanosuke... yeah, I've totally been going crazy.

And I FINALLY figured out just how to beat CotS on SCIII... though why you get Soul of Sophitia and Cassandra through Sage is beyond me... >.>

I know I'd be much happier if I worked constantly and received what I wanted through that... but considering that I get so little if anything when I do, can I really be blamed for not wanting to try? ...um, yes I can. I got good reviews for Er, and I should've worked off that. I just let stupid shit distract me from what I like to do. And on that note... Hey!

Who the hell ate all my cookies...?!

(Trayne would love to have a brain, a good excuse to go insane, but now's the time to be inane, go and pwn and embrace d4 p41n.) ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7377698/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7377698/ Wed, 21 Dec 2005 22:24:16 PST
But an actual pic is on the way... After talking with *iconbananagoddess* I decided that I'll do some fanart with little original focusing around Eclipse Realm (Kingdom Hearts) and Digimon Adventure, with maybe some kunoichi and Rockman.EXE thrown in since I've been in the mood. I dunno if I'll do a holiday pic (seeing as I haven't been in the spirit), but I may at least do a winter pic to go along with my annual winter ficlet. ...But I don't have a clue what to write about (I've previously written snippets of stories I'll write in the future).

Man I'm in so much pain right now from staring at my computer screen and being in a hunched over position all day. >.< This better be all worth it!

...! Hey, I'm nearing 2000 pageviews. Cool... eh, wonder if my lazy ass would do a kiriban?? XD But who would want a pic from me anyway? I'm pretty mean to people.... well, boys. Ugh. I'm really disliking them right now. I think it all stems from my brother's new habit of walking around in his underwear...

...

Sleep! Uh, yeah, sleep is good, after some reading. Eh heh heh...

With Din as my witness, as soon as I get a social life again I'll join more clubs! ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7344075/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7344075/ Sun, 18 Dec 2005 20:04:28 PST
It's just the usual feeling that comes along when I feel I've worked hard...okay, I haven't with 'Glow' that much, but still... and it's like it hardly matters. Then I see other stuff *coughcoughcrapcoughcough* that get tons and tons of recognition. Then again, I don't want want to be like them. Not that I have much talent, but still... everyone likes pats on the back. I just wish I had more. And criticism. Some sign that someone sees what I'm doing as more than 'pretty' pictures. I admit, I hate getting half-assed comments like 'Cool!' and "blahblah!". It tells me nothing. Bleh.

I suppose the problem is that I sort of don't feel like reaching out again. I broke ties with the three poeple who were supposed to mean everything to me, and only gained the lesson learned that nothing is ever what it seems, and... complete trust is usually betrayed. I hate how I was misunderstood. I guess this year was just full of horrible, horrible mishaps. And with me graduatiing next year, I really should get off my ass and do something. But I never have been the hopeful or determined type, even with what I want to do.

...

......

Ah fuck.

I wanna say I'll have better luck on DA since artists really are my people, but I can't until I'm sure. I haven't quite been here a year yet anyway.

...

Okay, okay. I'm uninspired because...I just am, alright?! I hate not having the will to work on what I want to do. I hardly see a point anymore.

ARGH.

I need cookies. Badly.

And I need to shut up.

(my last entry was so much more fun )

is deserving of your love and worship....yesh... ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7304440/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7304440/ Tue, 13 Dec 2005 19:28:49 PST
Back in 2001 when I was all "OMFGSA2!!1!!1", I immediately made plans for a story, since then I would only create stories to accomodate characters I happened to like. In this case, the victims- er, subjects- were Shadow and Knuckles. Thus Angel the winged fox, Aloe-Ra/Crystal/Pearl the oddly colored aqua echidnereid (yeah, wtf), Spike the black badass echidna, Pepper the pygmy lion (???), Blaze the rockstar hedgehog, Electrya the bitchy sister hedgehog, and Razor the green shade-wearing porcupine were born. There was also a brief mention of Anansi the spider or something else, but he soon died and was never heard of again. My purpose: to create a story using elemental Chaos Emeralds (as I loved putting elements in stories and still do) that revolved around several triangles of LUV.

Oh. My. F'ing. GOD. What was wrong with me? I was merely a raging fangirl, with only extensive knowledge on the two SA games I owned and limited knowledge on the Archie comics, along with a faint memory of the SatAM cartoon. I was still in the period where only the characters I created to be with so-and-so mattered, scantily clad bats be damned.

Ah, I am so glad to be past that. Now I understand the meaning of PLOT.


So, now that I have a basic grasp on the comics and SatAM, and with the events of Sonic Heroes, Rush, Battle, Advance 3, and Shadow the Hedegehog well memorized, I now have a new idea.

For starters, I'm planning on using only four of the original created characters (back then, I couldn't tell the difference between fanfiction and facts, so...yeah). Glow (previously Angel), Venice (previously Aloe-Ra and whatever else I had called her), Nails (previously Spike), and Razor (who's... still mostly the same). Glow and Razor will have a background with GUN and the experiments surrounding Project Shadow (as well as the products) that will have a connection with the Dark Legion. That's right... Julie-Su (whom I had not been fond of back then for stupid reasons, but now am cool with), Lien-Da, Dimitri and the crew should make an appearance, as well as at least Sally and Bunnie of the Freedom Fighters. Naturally I shall be doing some redesigning for the SEGA style...

As you can see, obviously main ideas will revolve around GUN and its experiments and the echidna race being alive and well (sort of). However, I grew very fond of the Chaos Angel stage in SAdvance 3, so I will be getting involved with the old legends of stuff... Can I get a hell yeah for Tikal and Chaos?! ...No...? Um, well then... Also, I want to involve elements from Heroes, Battle, and ShtH. Maybe the explanation of Shadow wasn't all that great, but I think I can make something of it (I'll save Shadow for another day). I definitely wanna use Emerl, and who doesn't love Metal Sonic?

As far as my characters go, Glow is the one closest to finished. Venice I'll have the hardest time with since I'm not even sure of how I'll develop her character... you don't even wanna know what her original idea was...

Nails will be central as I've noticed the rival thing going on in Sonic games. Remember? Kunx was originally Sonic's rival, then it became Shadow, but now there'll be another adversary in Sonic Riders with Jet the Hawk. So I wanted to give Shadow his Knuckles equivalent of a rival in Razor and Knuckles his 'shadow' in Nails. Nails is bad ass... really, I can't wait to work with him. Whereas Shadow had an ego issue before he became an angst-filled pincusion of yumminess, Nails is cold and sinister and has a deep animosity towards our dear Knux... why oh why? You'll have to wait....

Razor seems like he'll be the cool one who comes off as laid-back but may actually know more of what's going on than anyone... I've seen some pretty cool renditions of SEGA-style porcupines on DA (as opposed to Archie's...ugh...), but my version will look like a spikier hedgehog with rounded ears that can swim as well as climb. Porcupines actually can, you know... I dunno at this point if I feel like adding in anymore characters. Blaze is out of the question since there is the official Sonic Rush Blaze, and she's much cooler anyway.

So...yeah. That's my plan. A story that features many characters, but I think will ultimately revolve around Shadow and Knuckles. Nothing (new) is written, but that could change in the next few months. I really should get back to my Digimon and Kingdom Hearts stories... oh, and if you think this information was bad and realy useless, wait 'til you see my ideas for FFVII and Zelda. Ha ha! I've got a million of 'em.

Ah, if anyone was curious about the old couples I had planned out...

AmyxSonicxSally
ShadowxGlow
TailsxAmy (ppfffft as if)
Julie-SuxKnucklesxVenice
NailsxJulie-Su
MightyxPepper
BlazexT... ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7238297/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7238297/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 13:07:18 PST
While in Art, one of the teachers looked to see what I was doing and said "a true artist." I was really surprised, since all I was doing was attempting to make a new sketch based on a preexisting one (and not doing very well at that).

You know, rather than constantly fretting about other people's problems, I'd much rather focus on myself. I was also basically told today that I'm nosy anyway. But I would think there would be a cause to say something when your 16-yr-old supposedly best friend says she wants to get pregnant... There's no use in blaming anyone but me. I didn't have to care, and now I don't.

...I was really upset at the ones I thought cared. Now I don't feel much of anything.

So, from now until something else, I really, really want to focus on drawing. Getting my ideas out to those who would really be interested. Ff.net didn't go over too well, and much less so mediaminer, so I think here I can really let myself go. I used to think it wasn't worth it until gave me my present. I'd really love to see more of that.

...well, that's enough, er, angsting for today. Next journal entry will definitely be all about the loveable furries who wield guns and stuff. Maybe, just maybe, this can get me to the point where I'll want to work on my oh-so-neglected stories. Chao!

you know, I'd really like to join some more clubs... >.>

s ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7164298/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/7164298/ Mon, 28 Nov 2005 04:49:09 PST


Bestest chicka ever! ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6956360/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6956360/ Fri, 04 Nov 2005 18:31:21 PST
I'm depressed and playing SCIII and ToS, bitches.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6710744/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6710744/ Sat, 08 Oct 2005 08:15:20 PDT
I did find the manuscript for NWAS and worked on that for a while... so we'll just hafta see.

There's an unfinished Gundam Wing pic in my Scraps. I wanted to do some GW stuff this year since it's the ten-year-anniversary of the anime's premiere in Japan, and five-year-anniversary of the anime in the US. I'll still try to get the story going, since I already started.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6625723/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6625723/ Wed, 28 Sep 2005 13:42:00 PDT
Great. Just fucking great. Granted I haven't put up my best work, but the only attention I immediately grab is of some immature asshole who apparently has nothing better to do than sit around (most likely in his mother's home) and give out stupid opinionated and ignorant comments as if someone cares WHAT THE FUCK HE THINKS.

But I'm not much better.

Lookit me, I soo managed to drive away all who were supposed to be my best friends, the people I loved most in this world. one went off into BFLalaland, another closed in on himself and couldn't find me reliable, and the last just got fed up with my bullshit.

I couldn't take the way they were living, so I whined and bitched and moaned and complained 'til I got what I apparently wanted. The ones who mattered most. Gone.

In all good reason. I'm suprised they stuck around me as long as they did.

But this time... heh. That's it. I'll really snap soon, and then...









]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6555386/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6555386/ Tue, 20 Sep 2005 14:16:27 PDT
That is all.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6479289/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6479289/ Sun, 11 Sep 2005 17:42:27 PDT
What? Want me to say something compassionate because it's the oh-so-horrible 9/11? You wanna know what I think of this day? 1) It's MY f***ing birthday 2) Twins were born into this family today 3) My grandfather that I never really knew died today and 4) There were terrorist attacks that brought together then screwed up this country.

And somebody laughed at me today and said something along the lines of, "It's kind of funny; 1 life for and 10,000."

F**k him.

And f**k you too if you feel like b*tching to me about this. You really WANT me to feel all bad and crap when I could be doing something productive?

Club I've joined
]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6444352/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6444352/ Wed, 07 Sep 2005 18:37:11 PDT
I went through many things today, from a funeral to stuffing a guy in a trunk. In between involved cigs and half nekkid guys and lotsa homo undertones and much more that is the daily life of my friends. I'm gald it's becoming mine, too.

And as for my personal life... well, I think I'm getting to where I can manage it.

Art to expect in coming weeks include mainly Legend of Zelda concept stuff. Gotta do something since TP was delayed (all for the better; I have no ill feelings towards Nintendo). And if I'm lucky... FFVII and Advent Children, like most everyone else. Oh yeah.

Clubs I've joined (we-ell, i need another lol):
]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6420177/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6420177/ Mon, 05 Sep 2005 06:32:33 PDT Please? ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6354777/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6354777/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 21:05:32 PDT
Not to be bitchy. Much.

It's just me.

...It's weird. I'm getting tired of everyone telling me "Everything's gonna get better." ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6235229/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6235229/ Mon, 15 Aug 2005 14:54:28 PDT [link]

It's far from my best written work, but it was something I just had to get out anyway. Naturally I didn't expect any reviews, however...

JyouraKoumi: Fucc jyoumi in every direction! Jyoumi succs dicc big time..

This.... This is just rich.

I was hoping to get a flame to have a good ol' argument- or at least some harsh criticism, I wanna get bitten by Cloaked Fox so badly it's not funny. But this... I've had enough of this asshole. Child. Imbecile. He dared to violate on story of mine already, and this was the last straw.

I felt it was high time I gave him a piece of my mind after seeing his reign of... stupidity on ff.net. I had to take a stand, too, for everyone else he just insulted:

It's funny, I did get angry when I received your... hm, how shall I put this?- Words. Yes, words in response to what I most recently posted. It's not a review, and sure as hell not a flame. Just mindless abuse of the English language. I did consider reposting my story to be rid of such filth, but what's the use in that? Me? Upset over ignorance such as this? Please.

Really- what's there to get upset over? You're a loser who has to keep making accounts because you must have been blocked countless times from spoiling the works of those of us who can actually write. What do you call those 'words' anyway? All you've done is go around like an opinionated ignorant fool- which is the conclusion I have come to in the case of just what you are.

And judging from your lack of writing skills, you must have poor literacy skills in general. Did you even read what it was you bothered wasting time to say something about? Jyo and Mimi had nothing to do with it. I do like them as a couple, however. What of it? I'm not going to say you should rot in Hell because you don't agree.

I won't even be angry.

I don't condone wasting such energy.

I'll just laugh and pity you.

Join me? I normally don't do this sort of thing, but I how could I resist? I'm tired of staying silent and putting up with bullshit such as this.

Who's had the last laugh? Me. Word. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6229289/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6229289/ Sun, 14 Aug 2005 22:10:52 PDT
...

But I got 1000 pageviews. Yay...

I've noticed that I get a good amount of hits here and on ff.net, just not many comments... well, here it's understandable; of all the pics I have here, I think only two are good enough to be admired (Mirage in Blue and Edgy XO). Apparently I've lost the right to be considered an artist or writer, so I'll shut up until I'm worthy again.

...I'm not depressed, really, just stating the facts... Okay, I experimented with pancakes, cherries, and vanilla today, and I'm a bit messed up >.<.

So... yeah, that's it. I have some sketches I may put up this week when I get the time; some costume concepts for Riana and a study of contrast with Komoku. I need to try and not stress about not really getting my AP art summer assignment done and take it easy for once; instead of listening to teachers... okay, my art teacher, just listen to myself for once. And my friends. Yeah... ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6192236/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6192236/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 21:16:51 PDT
I'm back for my senior yeah of high school (yay... )

I'll be getting my 1k thanks pic ready, which shall star Renge-chan-

Renge: Yatta! ^^ x3

Nataku:...

I'm, ah, over my depression for the moment.

I won't be sticking to plans >.<

I wanna do another angsty Yamatori pic...

I also will be working on a new ID and avatar(because they SUCK!!).

Maybe release some concept and old sketches...

May share any writing ideas for those curious... >.>

Will lose my soul to Advent Children (which had BETTER come out on dvd! ).

Will lose body to Twilight Princess two months later.

Yes, I am a Zelda whore. And damn proud of it!

Last, but not least: Wishes a Happy Birthday to St. Jimmy again! And wants Cleo to know she's doing well, and wants her to do well! x3 ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6151407/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6151407/ Sat, 06 Aug 2005 16:04:40 PDT .<

usually I like my dad's cooking, but.... uh, I guess I should never eat sasauges with cheese that aren't cheddarwurst with unfamiliar chili and damn Kroger brand cheese...

I appreciate Cleo's review (lovelovelovex3), and the fact that I nearly have 1k pageviews. I will thank you all... when I feel up to it.

Please excuse me now. I've become very fond of my bathroom floor. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6008587/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/6008587/ Fri, 22 Jul 2005 21:48:13 PDT
...yeah, ignore random outbursts at being light-hearted... ha...ha...ha....

Just to let y'all know (see? I'm being CASUAL, writing all informally n' stuff...), I'm not mad at anyone here... Okay, maybe there's this one guy I'm particularly pissed at for being all pussy-like... *coughcoughcough*



Like I was saying, Trayne luvs ya all...

...

...She just isn't in a happy place right now. Perhaps if she can stop poppin' Excedrin and eat ravenously in the 'Nati (thus gaining weight and rocketing its number to over 120 lbs, at which she'll consider herself fat).

She also has to endure uncomfortable car trips with a thing she hates and two people she doesn't like, although the Holiness that is Hyde and L'Arc en Ciel shall keep her sane (as we all know that Hyde is Japanese sex for the ears, with AFI's Davy Howie being the American equivalent), along with some Korn, Gorillaz, Linkin Park (typical cure for teenage angst and depression), Keane, and various others.

She would very much like for the people she cares about to leave kind comments and especially reviews (though the latter I don't expect anymore ), and give her something to look forward to coming back to.

Okay, am I done now? Can I go?

(Sure, fine, Kashi. Thanks, you did great. Here's a treat, as I know how much you enjoy Enzan and his fanservice.)

Ah! Um, thanks...?

(Whenever I can get my mits on some Rockman manga, as I was prevented today, you all will hear more from Kashi. Maybe Riana too, who just gave me that look that I'd hate if it wasn't so darn cute of absolute cluelessness when I asked her to do this journal. As for me... meh.)

(Go here and make me happy. [link] C'mon, you know you wanna.) ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5992569/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5992569/ Thu, 21 Jul 2005 06:22:33 PDT
August 9th school starts up...

Only... 3 people expect stuff from me here on DA, but I'm not sure what all I'll be up to.

I did receive two reviews for Eclipse Realm... It was nice seeing one person had actually been waiting, and the other reviews was unexpected.

Other than that, no one really cares, and I haven't made a difference.

I don't feel like talking to anyone. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5968728/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5968728/ Mon, 18 Jul 2005 13:46:15 PDT
But ff.net is being a bitch today! Sheesh, of all the days for the site NOT to come up... >_<

I'll pass time here then, mweh heh heh...

So, for those of you who care (and most of you who don't x3), Eclipse Realm is a story I started near the beginning of my ff.net life. It started out as the sequel to Kingdom Hearts, but as time went on, it rather ended up becoming in a sense like a third PS KH game; meaning it could take place after KH2. I even managed to have element of Chain of Memories in it before I even played the game.

I'd like to think of myself as having mad skillz.



*wipes off tomatoes*

Any-way... It stars Riku and [link] primarily (Sora and Kairi will be in later), with LOTSA appearances from characters from other games. So as not to spoil much, I'll say that they come from games made by Square, Tri-Ace, Sammy Studios, Capcom, and most recently Sega, more specifically, Team Sonic!

So my next piccie should be how Sonic and his crew appear in there. that is, if I never finish the Gundam Wing one I had started.

Nyer... I'ma gonna go see is ff.net will be nice to me now...

(btw, the title of this entry comes from me writing spontaneously and Riku getting his sweet ass whupped in the chapter ^^.) ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5941702/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5941702/ Fri, 15 Jul 2005 11:12:30 PDT
>.>

Any-way...

It's no secret that I am a fanfiction fan; I write when I'm up to it and read it when I can find something DECENT.

Now, both sites have the common problem of being pains in the ass, but I know DA is one of the best art sites and ff.net one of the... er, most populated fanfic sites. I also know that many lovely people on this site are on the other. Soooo.... Seeing as I'm still new here and am frightened of the massive forums (O.o;;;; ), I was wondering if anyone could kindly point me to any groups or people who do these things?

I feel that I'd be better if I could find more people who can get frustrated like me. I'm not all sure how much help that would be, since I'm never afraid to leave a nice comment, but most people... well, ignore me.

<.<;;;;

Um, two things I have to say, because I know they bother people:

1) I'm not ashamed; I enjoy including OCs. Unfortunately, I can only think of one or two... or three other stories I've read that have good ones too.

2) I'm not a heavy slash fan; so sue me! (I don't have any money anyway... >.> ) It's not that I'm close-minded to the idea of two guys or two girls hooking up, but I rarely see a good plot to back it up.

...Yeah, I'm a loser

And apparently not a real writer if I lose sight of the dream because I stopped doing it for myself somewhere...

>.< Fine, Fine! I'll shut now, sheesh.... ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5933332/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5933332/ Thu, 14 Jul 2005 13:24:20 PDT

Red Wine Walnut Chicken (nummers!)

ingredients:
boneless skinless chicken breasts ( breasts)
a bottle of red wine walnut vinagrette dressing
grated parmasan cheese
grated fetta cheese
grated walnuts
onions
olive oil

prep: If chicken is frozen, run under hot water to thaw off the ice glaze. Pour dressing into ziploc bag (a whole bottle should handle about 4-5 breasts... ); ta-DA! Instant marinade! Place in chicken and shake to coat; zip bag, after squeezing out the air, and place bag in a storage container for any accidental leaks. Let marinate overnight (if chicken is frozen, it'll be thawed thoroughly by the next day). If you're short on time, try doing this about 2-3 hours in advance.

Now for the cooking! Whee!

Preheat 'cho oven to 375 degrees! Fahrenheit! Cover a baking pan with foil to make clean-up easy; otherwise, use a non-stick oil, but no butter! (Butter burns).

Heat a non-stick skillet to about medium heat (or about hot enough to where oil will smoke when you add it to the hot pan). I personally use a little of olive oil (extra virgin!), but you can use whatever is available; again, no butter!

When the pan is ready, place chicken on it. Yes, it will sound like it's burning, but it shouldn't! This is called searing; while it best for sealing in juices for beef and/or pork or cooking fish quickly, this works well for the chicken and for a sauce. Let the chicken sear on each side for about a minute (I'd say until the skin was golden, but if you let it marinate for a night, it should be nice 'n' pink 'n' pretty), then transfer to the pan, and let bake for about 20 minutes.

For a yummy topping idea, mix the desired amount of grated or shredded cheeses and walnuts (if you don't have fetta and/or parmasan, mozzarella, parmegiano reggiano, or provolone will work fine), and place on chicken in about the last 2-3 minutes of it's cooking, or after the cooking is done, place back in the oven for that amount of time.

Now, for the sauce!

While the chicken is cooking, turn down the skillet you did the searing in and add in sliced or minced onions. You wanna sweat them, NOT sautee 'em; the onions shouldn't brown, so they'll become translucent and yummy. There should be black and/or brown bits on the botton of the pan; that's okay! That's where the flavor is, so as you stir the onions, make sure you scrape them up from the bottom of the pan. But whatever utensil you're using MUST NOT have a metal tip! It'll make the food yucky! Salt, pepper, and minced garlic should be added to the onions for seasoning.

When the onions are done (should take about 5-10 minutes), add in the leftover marinade. I know, usually this is bad since raw chicken is dangerous, but this will cook out the bacteria, so dun worry. Turn the heat back up to about medium until the sauces starts to sorta smoke; this means it's evaporating. Turn the heat down to low and let simmer for about 5 minutes, then turn it off and let it chill out.

Side dish ideas!

You can add pasta! Tortillini is what I used! Just cook according to directions and toss with parsely and olive oil or butter (easy on the butter!).

A mixed salad would be great too! Plus, if it's about room temperature, you can use the sauce or leftover dressing (in the bottle) as... dressing!

You can serve the chicken either alone on a small puddle of the sauce, or on a bed of greens or noodles!

This is an easy recipe, and a perfect way to relax if you've been stressed or depressed or both! You can even adjus the flavors or portions as you like! Happy cooking, minna-san!

...What's that? Don't like vinegar or all the Italian flavors? Okie! Stay tuned, and I'll be bringing an Oriental version! 'Til next time, remember to Hail Da Cook! ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5922494/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5922494/ Wed, 13 Jul 2005 11:11:08 PDT
And I'm not compelled to write anymore. At least not now... I just don't get any satisfaction out of it anymore. I don't think I can make others feel the same way I feel when I read something good.

And that's what really crushes me. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5899378/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5899378/ Sun, 10 Jul 2005 22:55:31 PDT
Now, I've noticed already that of course while I'm not popular, I seem to me getting more hits and responses here on DA than on another site I whore myself out on... a little... Anyway, while I'm glad that all of you who have seen what I've done and liked it and complemented, something has bothering me for months now.

No one really knows, but I believe I write better than I draw. Much better. If the two could even be compared.

I've been on DA for only a few months and have enjoyed the rsponse; I've been on ff.net for three years and, save for Rook, whom I don't get the pleasure of seeing often, I've gotten a weak, pitifully weak response.

Oh sure, some people dropped lame one-liners saving "it was good" (as if my stories were over, friggin' posers...), some even said more and seemed like they were interested, but when I'd work my ass off for months and finally update - whaddya know, NO ONE NOTICES.

What's really crushing is that apparently what I do is just not interesting enough to cause someone to remember to click a wittle box - in the rare chance they do review - so that in the rare case that I do update, they would know. And be eager to read something worthwhile, interesting, entertaining.

So I suppose it's been none of those things, all along.

Oh, it would be nice if Rook were here to tell me it isn't so, but she isn't. I don't put her at fault; she's out building a lifestyle and whatnot, so she doesn't have time for a little irritated whelp such as I who is SO caught in the throes of her often times depressing teenage hormones that she believes next to nothing really matters anymore so she can rant all she want knowing no one would read, even if that's all she really wants. (Alas, she's usually so self-absorbed that she ignores the plight of others, and seems to not grasp the concept that karma is a real bitch. But she's not Buddhist anyway.)

Because even though she's shunned society and most of the human race, she just can't sit by and be nothing.

And so, if the off-chance someone takes pity on her, she leaves a [link].

And vaguely - vaguely - hopes that someone would at least take the time to leave her a flame (yeah, that's right! And, for the love of Din, you SPELLCHECK!) so she can have a good reason to vent and defend what she once thought was worth her efforts. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5793819/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5793819/ Wed, 29 Jun 2005 18:00:31 PDT
O.o

Now I understand why so many old maids complain about 'slaving over a hot stove all day'. Especially in the summer. heh heh, I'm not COLD anymore.

What's worse is that I can't complain because she's the one who'll be getting me Photoshop. Plus I was quite... er, relaxed after gulping down some of a special 'ebeverage' she had. heh heh...heh...

-_-;

It seems any time I'm bribed, it involves food. Go figure.

I was hoping to get some line art done so that sometime Saturday I could finally upload a new pic, but it seems my drawing abilities have abandoned me.

*shaketh fists* Damn you's, acursed inspiration! How dare ye flee me?!

At this point I guess I'll be sure to get up the first pic of Kashi I got done; not a very good pic, but by far the best work of digital coloring I've done. It's just the lines that are kinda iffy. I wanted to get more Rockman Battle Network stuff done (Who wants some Enzan and/or Blues fanservice?!!), but since I've been so into the Gorillaz lately, I may do a simple GUndam Wing pic themed around 'El Manana'.

BOW BEFORE TEH SECKSINESS THAT IZ DA GORILLAZ!11! lol

So I'm feeling better, just quite inactive... hey, I did make it to the final stage of Rockman and Forte (aka MegaMan and Bass for you dern kids)! w00t!

...then promptly got my ass owned... *cough cough*

It's all thanks to Cleo! Cleo-chan! Thank you for brightening my mood, and for the yummerific snack the other day. x3

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5766523/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5766523/ Sun, 26 Jun 2005 21:55:23 PDT
Since I have more spare time, I've gotten better with coloring digitally. I've mostly been working on stuff for Rockman Battle Network.

I'm close to taking an official break from writing. It's hard to work so diligently on something when it's treated like it's not even there, or like crap, when it isn't. Or maybe it is? I feel like a little kid trying to display their latest scribble, and it's just being shrugged off as something not really so worthwhile. Except I don't have the benefit of anyone at least pretending they like it.

....I know, I apparently have lotsa problems, including apparent self-pity. Well, screw you too.

]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5668678/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5668678/ Thu, 16 Jun 2005 16:41:01 PDT Ironic that I find traditional work so impressive, and now I'm going crazy over digital. Anyway, I want to get a Photoshop program for graduation or my birthday, and a Corel program somehwere down the way.

I would LIKE to show just what I've been able to get done, but to be frank and short I can't upload anymore pics; dun have the programs anymore to edit or even view them properly. ;_; it's quite a shame, I actually got a rather nice pic done (well, almost, I hafta finish something by hand, but now I can't! >.< of a girl named Kashi, sweet and sorta sexy little thing inspired by Mega Man Battle Network.

Seeing as it's likely I won't be able to go to this workshop next week, mayhaps I'll have some writing done soon.

But I'm rambling nonsense. ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5407678/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5407678/ Thu, 19 May 2005 23:26:32 PDT
....I hope I graduate, I know I'll be repeating Alg II and all, yeah...

For important news... yeah, haven't added a new pic lately. I'm supposed to be getting some Copic, but I should do something in the meantime. My mind's jumping from FF7 to Zelda (Link) to Digimon to Link- OMFG he's a WEREWOLF!!!

Thass my mad sexy beast! Atta boy, go Link! w00t!

OT suggested I do something that everybody likes, sell myself out a little to gain a little of the attention
I've been whining about not getting. I'm just not sure though. I really wanna finish that idea I'd been working on, though, share my FFVII plans.

But bleh.

I did make one accomplishment; I finally touched and X-box controller. Yeah, they only way you could get me to go near that system is if DOA or any other Team Ninja game (or Panzer Dragoon Orta) is in, or a DDA mat is attached. I suck at DDA. Horribly.

(lol We get to hear Link scweeeam as he transforms, and ride around on him! Ho yeah!)

The Trayne is very happy with her friends, jess-chan, st. jimmy, Lord Massc-ness, OT, Cleo, Raven. Yeah...

(I guess any Link fangirl is about the equivalent of a wittle hyper monkey, so it's no wonder that that's what we get to ride around on him on.)

...The PS3 is sexy; the graphics orgasmic.

(And it seems we're returning to the old elemental temples of OOT. Hm...)

Yeah, whenever I get this FFVII stuff done with for now, maybe I'll share my Zelda (Link) notes. I did go ahead and post two little stories; one for FFVII, the other for Digimon (AU, set in Adventure universe with Ryo and Alice too, bit o' Naruto...).

(...I want Sheik back too, my uber hot little elvin ninja... What? C'mon, we know he's more than Zelda in drag. Right, ladies?)

So, um... Kinda working on Eclipse Realm's next chapter and SSSC too... Hope rook doesn't get made at me for Suspended in Dusk, I'm not in a terribly angsty mood as of late.

And in that note....

OMFGIWANTTHATGAMENOWTRAYENEEDSHERLINKFIX NOWBECAUSETINGLEISGAYANDSHECAN'TGETENOUG HRUPEESTOGOGETTHELATOFTHETRIFORCEBECAUSE LINKISMUCHTOOYOUNGTOWORKONTHECORNERINWWA NDSHE'SBEATENTHESNOTOUTOFEVERYGAMETHATHA STHEOLDERLINKANDYEAHANDALL!

That is all. ^_^ ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5228046/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5228046/ Sat, 30 Apr 2005 08:17:07 PDT
How do I feel about it? Kinda pissed like everyone else, but I'm nobody here, so I doubt it'll affect me. I considered making my own site to post notes and writings along with pics, but like my lazy arse would keep up with it?

I wonder how many of the real popular artists are leaving because of it??

Eh, anyway... I'll be sticking around. I've waited too long to let something like this stop me from world domina.... I mean, from showcasing what I can do. Yes, yes...

Thanks to my friends x3.

Oh, what am I doing now? Still working on FFVII stuff... I really need to do other things, but I still don't have the gist of my new paint system (which is available for a limited time), and I don't know how to update TFO without OT's help ;_;.

I'd like to be getting more stuff done, but it's hard to without the right inspiration; I'm so picky and all XD. I'd play through FFVII again, but I erased over my new file, and I'll be damned if I go through Junon again! Maybe I oughta go through the last battle on another file... yeah...
(Though I really need to be working on Digimon...)

Nothing to worry about. I'm happy ^^... -ish... ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5162353/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5162353/ Fri, 22 Apr 2005 21:32:27 PDT

I've been expressing myself for going on three years now freely, and while I never expected a huge or even mediocre response, even though most every comment I received was genuine, I was getting discouraged.

For being a typical fangirl, for one, yet at the same time so different from the other girls because I chose to be. I set out thinking there were tons more like me, only to discover that there's almost none. Not that I know of.

Then there's the people who just 'get' me and make it worth it: Rook, Torn, Aiddon, Kuroya-chan, and everyone else who took the time to truly see just what I'm trying to do here.

And make me realize that I'm not 'trying' anything, but I've succeeded.

It's just that occassionaly I'd like to hear this from someone. I want to say I do what I do best for myself, but it really does seem insignificant when no one pays attention. You guys did.

No matter what my family or anyone else says, I have a life. It's here with you.

So what if I'm not hardcore, be it in the interest of yaoi or the Goth look or whatever? I like being original - as much as I'd like to think I am - and taking my own approach to what I love.

And I'd like to dream that someday I'll be able to be as known, admired, likable - as great - as not just Torn and Rook and everyone else, but as Jules-san, who first inspired me that I can take what I love now and carry it with me for the rest of my life.

This isn't just a passing fad or phase, and overall I think I really am glad I'm the way I am now.

I wasn't expecting to get so heavy like this here - or ever, for that matter - but now I feel that I should let my thoughts flow and bear it if hell breaks loose. People like me. People don't like me. I'll disregard the latter and focus on the former. I wouldn't do any of this if I were to just BS it, so I'm gonna be real.

Be glad I got that out of the way; now you'll have to endure random rants and comments and whatnot that you could care less about but I'll say anyway. Nyar ha ha ha ha ha! ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5033583/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/5033583/ Fri, 08 Apr 2005 11:15:51 PDT
But this tme, I really AM getting a new computer, and when I come back, I'll be better than ever!

...or rather, I'll begin to be good... *sigh*

So, unless I find a new proxy to use at school to come here, I'll see y'all in about a week.

I miss you already! T-T ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/4945013/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/4945013/ Fri, 01 Apr 2005 08:02:52 PST Spirit, Sleeping Somewhere Cold (Digimon Adventure), Chapter Nine

Numb, Without a Soul (Digimon Frontier), Chapter Four

Eclipse Realm (Kingdom Hearts), Chapter Six

Suspended in Dusk (Digimon Adventure/02), Chapter One (I'm getting there, Rook!)

Romance of the Sealed Gods (Senkaiden Houshin Engi), prologue and Chapter One

Revelations (Gundam Wing), Chapter One

untitled one-shot (Digimon Adventure)

Reading:
Hero (Legend of Zelda) by Jules
Naruto
Shaman King
One Piece
GetBackers
Chobits vol. 7
Dragon Knights vols. 15-18
The Romanovs: The Final Chapter by Robert K. Massie

Drawing:
originals for Legend of Zelda and beyblade

Researching:
Russian culture
names...
all the Zelda games I haven't played (ack!)

Longing for:
More GetBackers
Energy to stay up and watch Gad Guard
Spiral

Surprise, surprise, no new computer for me. But my old e-mail address is working again. Right now I'm preparing for Saturday's anime convention, and lucky me, it seems this year's main course is LINK! Oh yes indeedy...

I'll eventually get around to answering all of you back, once my siblings stop harassing me for tying up the phone line. And starting with this post, I'll put up my current activities at the beginning of each entry.

Holla back! ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/4843937/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/4843937/ Fri, 18 Mar 2005 08:02:14 PST
Though I am in the process of getting a new computer, abruptly my main e-mail account and access to the internet have been terminated! So, until I can get them back, please contact me here or through my myspace page (under the same username I have here). Also, if any e-mails were sent to me yesterday, i won't be able to check them, so if you can please send them to Eisa_Einmyria@yahoo.com. Or you could always leave me a note on fanfiction.net under Trayne somehow.

Until then, Ah'll be bahck... ]]> ~Angstious http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/4746945/ http://Angstious.deviantart.com/journal/4746945/ Sun, 06 Mar 2005 21:18:06 PST
Devil. May. Cry. 3.

What say you, people?

I'd probably have the game beaten by now if it hadn't taken me so freakin' long to realize I had a first gen PS2 that needed to be replaced badly, so I got one of those new ones. And - dare I say it? - it's cute. Seriously. It's so small I wanna eat it, smothered in honey mustard sauce or something. Although that little red light bugs me since I can't turn it off...

So, I'm alive. Just kicking ass in the levels of Hell, with no intentions of leaving anytime soon.

????WTF? I put up the last journal entry twice...? Urp...

Oh yeah!! Thanks to everyone that I can now call friends!! I'm so glad I'm welcomed here! I'll do more for you all when I get done with this game... and stuff... ]]> ~Angstious