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My day started off with me just chillin at home then me and my gf Josey went to get our checks from our P-City jobs. Then we hung out for awhile til we went up to HCC for the comedy routines. After that we (me, josey, tommy, roberto, ray, brownie, g, some girls, oz, and some other guys decided to go to Pool Hall. Well, it was 10ish and they were still goin around to pick people up so I was like.....Um...I'm supposed to be stayin wit my baby tonight so...drop me off. Lol, they got mad I wasn't goin to hang out but for real...I wanted to spend time with my Booski. So I go over his house and...it was just sooo peaceful. I spoke to his mom a little bit and told her happy birthday and then we went upstairs to chill. His cousin Leo WAS gonna pick us up but that boy went to sleep so we ended up going for a walk at....2:00am lol...crazy right...well we get back in the house at around 3ish. He's sleepy so he grabs me up, settles me in bed, and then starts rubbing my back and hair...I'm out like a light. Wake up like 5 times during the night because the boy is CONSTANTLY moving lol. He either lifts me a certain way or he squeezes or some other cute gesture to hold me. We wake up at around 8ish and end up goin RIGHT back to bed. We wake up again around 12 and chill til about 5ish. We take showers and get cleaned up and eat a little before our friend Keith picks us up and we all go to the mall...From there it was just a night of advertures...amazing...absolutely amazing...more later

]]> ~AnitaEdwards http://AnitaEdwards.deviantart.com/journal/28302378/ http://AnitaEdwards.deviantart.com/journal/28302378/ Wed, 11 Nov 2009 20:05:01 PST and I'm just getting home....spent most of day with him...and it was the BEST thing ever...we talked,kissed,...we even fell asleep lol...which is ....surprising because I don't just randomly fall asleep with ppl. I may relax and just lay down but I never really FALL ASLEEP...but I did...and we held onto each other....the most beautiful thing ever...seriously...I'm sooooo beyond happy with him...I have...NO want for anything or anyone else...I don't even know what to say or real....he just takes my breathe away....

]]> ~AnitaEdwards http://AnitaEdwards.deviantart.com/journal/28197718/ http://AnitaEdwards.deviantart.com/journal/28197718/ Sat, 07 Nov 2009 12:23:35 PST I'm sooo excited it's the same guy I was talking about in my other journel...the one who was dubbed sir Channce....OMG soooo much has happened that it's crazy to believe that it all was in the same week...shoot it was all in 3-4 days...I mean...who would have guessed that me and him would be where we are now.......I'm so happy that I can't even write a lot and that's scary lol....he's great.....one of my favorite things he does is that when i'm looking off or have my eyes closed or napping or something he starts to rub my face and he just stares at me and smiles...I LOVE IT....he treats me...like a queen but he doesn't spoil me. I mean...it's just...a great balance...More later....

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I don't even know WHERE to start. Me, Tracy, and Channce were in the car all happy and listening to the radio. I was dancing and stuff cuz I was HYPER. Um, we get to the mall and Channce starts tickling me and stuff lol too funny. Then "Papers" came on (by Usher) and I started to sing it. And I LOVE that song. It always makes me FEEL some kind of emotion. So, I was a little sad after hearing it and Tracy got a little worried but I assured her I was ok. We go jumping around stations and it comes on again and I almost lose it, so Channce see's my eyes gettin cloudy and he pulls my arm til I'm sittin with my back on the seat and he starts rubbing my face and hugging me. I was sooo comforted by it. So after that I laid on the glove box and he started to rub my back and it put me to sleep for a little while. And from there I just kept getting touches here and there. I didn't think anything of it. Then Tracy texted me telling me she thinks that Channce likes me. I told her that it was impossible and he only see's me as a friend. But APPARENTLY when he rubs my face and stuff he gets this really...loving look on his face. BUT if you let her tell it: "IDK, it's just the way his face got when he carresses you...he looked so gentle and...caring" So after an hour and a half we FINALLY get OUT of the car. And I start getting leg and stomach craps...smh...hurt soooooo bad. Anyway, I end up going to sit down and Channce sits next to me and starts to rub my back so I'd feel better. Helped sooo much. And then idk...we just kept touchin each other. Not sexually just casual but it was the most NATURAL thing for me. I didn't feel akward or weird or anything like that. Just felt like....home. So then the guy Tracy likes came by and ended up sitting with us, we call him Twilight. And then I saw 2 co-workers and my boo boo Ashley saved me some food. I smelled it and almost threw up, so I turned my body away from the smell and held my breathe and the next thing I know Channce is rubbing my back and arms. So after a minute or so I turn back around and he's asking me if I'm okay and rubbing my back and stomach...soooo cute. And it's a whole 3minutes and he still worryin about me being sick lol. Even though I told him like twice I'm ok. And Ash walks around and see's him huddled into me and rubbin by stomach and back and she just pauses and her eyes get all big...hilairous. And I choked on my food and Channce started to crack up laughin...and she was like "Is there something I need to know???" and we were just laughing but I told her he's my besti and there's nothing going on so it's all good. Now Channce doesn't like Twilight. And I know this Sooooo. When Twilight came over I wrapped my arms around Channce cuz I know how he gets. And things were going good and then next thing I know he's biting the crap out of my shoulder...He KNOWS thats a no no because it excites me. I get up and walk away and stand by Tracy and Twilight and I move Tracy back to give the evil eyes to Channce and he looks COMPLETELY unrepentent...I go back and sit down and tell him he knows better and he says "you know why I did it". My first guess was cuz of payback but then I remembered Twilight and nodded my head. Anyway, we all keep that up and he gets a call so me, Tracy, and Twilight are talkin about just...relationships and death...and I started crying about Jamal and lean on Channce while he on da phone. So after all that and we all chillin, I decide I want to go to Spencers. Fun right? Uh, definitely. We chillin and chillin and then I see this AMAZING corset...absolutely BEAUTIFUL! So I try it on and man oh man I was sooo happy because even though the first one I tried didn't fit the 2nd one did soooo I bought it...then a cop came in the store. And my eyes went right to Channce lol. That boy is like a bad luck detector....so I grabbed him and was talkin to him and what not to distract him. Then we left the store and we were walking out the mall when he grabbed my hand and held on to it. And I pulled us to a stop when I saw the little store by the exit because I had been really feigning for a Black & Milds...and I was going to but Channce came back in after Twilight and Tracy went out and stared me down. So I asked what and he went all "if i can't you can't. Idk right now what's stressin you, but no smoking" so i suck my teeth(of course) and we walk out. We find Tracy and Twilight and he goes and leans against a light post and started playin wit my sides and stuff and one thing led to another and we were head to head talking, well debating my seeming "need" to take a drag of Twilights cigarette. And he had... ]]> ~AnitaEdwards http://AnitaEdwards.deviantart.com/journal/28039008/ http://AnitaEdwards.deviantart.com/journal/28039008/ Fri, 30 Oct 2009 00:39:30 PDT
]]> ~AnitaEdwards http://AnitaEdwards.deviantart.com/journal/28027709/ http://AnitaEdwards.deviantart.com/journal/28027709/ Thu, 29 Oct 2009 11:46:06 PDT >>>>>>WTF....are you kidding me? WTF how old are you? I wasn't even worried about him getting on there or I would've been changed my password(which I see I should have done because he's the dishonest type to hack it). I KNEW it was him so I was LIVID...I mean I was sooooo upset it was crazy. I wanted to walk down to his house and seriously punch the crap outta his jaw....because that is sooooo petty man...He texts me and goes "your new facebook password is chantez11, you might want to change it, lol" .....son...really....wtf....he ....man...I'm tellin you lol. He seriously doesn't understand how lucky he is that I am who I am because my ppl wouldn't have put up with that type of bs. This boy up at Bowie JUST got jumped for callin his ex a bitc*...maybe he needs one of those cuz for real da boy is out his rabbit mind...but seriously, I'm not the type to do that bs or I woulda let my Love Pooh bear or my bro Jay and his boys get that tail when he came out the mouth to me wrong...BUT I didn't let that go down cuz I don't do my business that way....but seriously...I'm just astonished that he's so....idiotic...straight up and down. The boy is delusional...seriously. Nobody is going to seriously put up with him like that because nobody wants to feel like I do when he gets like that....its crazy...So that's the sum up of what's happened recently...

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He JUST hacked my freaking facebook and changed my password...wtf not only that but he freaking texted me and told me what my new password was....WTF man I am .......I am ....LIVID

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Why would you think I cried when I found out you had sex with her out of jealousy?
Is that why you were mad at Leo? were you jealous? No, you were hurt and angry. Why does that change for me?

You say you couldn't have hurt me because I was thinkin of datin Leo...
You said "what if I wanted to marry her" you don't think that should hurt? You don't think that the fact that now you think you were in the right doesn't make a difference to me?
I'm talking to someone new now...does that mean I shouldn't be hurt for every girl you have sex with right now? That's stupid. I was trying to move on. I was trying to have mindless fun and just....GO with the flow and jump into the water feet first with NO sight of the bottom...After you had sex with her you didn't feel anger or hurt towards me and Leo? But how could you? You had sex with someone...or does that rule not apply to you too? UGH PLEASE...I'm drowning I need to know these things...
Why are you sooo WRONG....

When I fell over the edge I told you what would happen and that I would be the worst person to be around...I FORE WARNED YOU....yet you hold it against me...You bring up how I cursed and drank and just acted horribly...You don't think I know? You don't think I felt bad about that? But what's your excuse for being horrible whenever you mad at me? What's your excuse for how easily you lose control of your actions and your mouth when you're in your feelings? Why is it okay when you do it and unfavorable when I do it? EXPLAIN? Why can I apologize for being so messed up when you can't? HUH? TELL ME?...

So much more to say, so much more I want to know...but I'll never get straight forward answers...I know that by now. I'll get answers that blame me, answers that say that if I hadn't, or I'd said, if i hadn't said, if I, if I, and you, you, you....You'll never just man up and admit what's what and say that the reason this is the way it is, is because you have so much guilt on you that you can't look at me anymore...you can't stand the fact that you hurt me as bad as you did...you can't understand how you could do what you did with her when your heart told you that you loved me more than life...yet you did it...all because I wouldn't talk to you....you hate that you were that messed up...you hate that I could weaken you so...You don't think i feel the same? You don't think I understand? You don't think I think?

I see, SEE, you and Amanda in my head at LEAST 5 times everyday...EVERY SINGLE DAY...I see you, with her...you don't think that hurts? You don't think I want to just forget and wash it from my brain? you don't think I wish I hadn't read those messages or seen the pictures? yet you did nothing wrong...how could you? You see kissing and sex as the same thing...then how do you measure what I did to what you di... ]]> ~AnitaEdwards http://AnitaEdwards.deviantart.com/journal/27898500/ http://AnitaEdwards.deviantart.com/journal/27898500/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 23:16:46 PDT They even said he was a spiritual leader down at the base camp. At the funeral ....it was like a normal funeral. It was hard. But I didn't cry until the end....Seeing them close the casket on him was just too much for me to handle. I couldn't not cry anymore....My friend is trully gone. But during the whole thing I felt the peace of God just surround me....I never thought it was TOO TOO much for me to handle. Whenever I thought I couldn't take it I'd just call out to Him and the weight would be lifted...We went to the burial but unlike other funerals they don't take you to where the body is being placed into the ground. *BTW Jamal got a Veterans Funeral* They got everyone into the chapel, went through the protocal, shot off the guns, and gave his father the flag...that's when the tears started to trickle again...my friend was trully gone. *who would be cruel enough to play a joke that long?* Then a commander came and spoke to his father and the trickle sped just a bit...and then they took him away...and the tears where streams....I thought my heart would explode from the pain...but it didn't, and I survived...I walked outside looked at the hearse and I told Jamal I loved him and that I'd be up so keep the big guy laughin til I get there....I know he'll do his best. But I'm betting he won't have to try that hard....

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I was writing yesterday about me and my ex boyfriend and Anon. Basically Anon was just using me to have sex. And anyone who knows me knows....that's impossible and a very lost cause because I don't have sex. Me and my ex...well we....idk. We cheat about what we do and don't do.(which has been a constant moral battle with me) I mean sooo much stuff has happened that it's crazy. I don't even know how I can still look at my ex...he did something that I never thought I could forgive someone for, but apparently...he's not just anyone. I've tried to tell him to bury the hatchet with Anon, the same as he told me. But he doesn't seem to inclined to do it. I know he misses the fact that they hung out or that he knew he had Anon as his right hand in a fight...But he just won't let what happened go in terms of being friends. Me, I was forgiven right off the bat, which was indeed not what I expected. But, it's been a week...or two...maybe even three. I've lost track of time...But I think it may be three because it happened when I first started at Party City...IDK things are always so confusing. I mean I still don't want to hang out with my ex and his friends because they're the typical males. A girl can't say how she feels and drink and act like they do or she's a ho...I hate that. A guy can say he's hot and bothered and no one would think twice about it. A girl says it and she's acting like a slut...ever wonder about that? Ever wonder how guys would feel if females switched with them? All the abuse and name calling and disrespect we take from them...they would get fed up and want to fight it out the second it comes at them...IDK I just have a lot to think about

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She also has a seperate book called: The Host
Here's her site: [link]
You Will Love Her

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or maybe she's dying and she finally tells him she knows and she wants him to save her but he tells her he's not really a vampire but a werewolfor maybe he's not even that maybe he's the first human born from vapires...that could be an amazing ending

or maybe she gets kidnapped by his dad because he's been thinking of becoming a mortal for her and his dad wants him to continue the underground when his time is uo (the dad's time is up) and then he finds out kills dad, rescues girl, becomes mortal, and mourns sister because when he killed dad he made everyone human and they all couldn't survive the life we live.

or maybe someone comes into town and see's the way they interact with each other and he tries it too but ends up killing the person he tries it on only for amara to find out it was her best friend Janice......

IDK guys there's so many paths to take i don't know which one...any help would be very very appreciated

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