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NO I DON'T CARE IF I GET BANNED YOU ALL CAN EAT MY GODDAMN PUSSY YOU ART NAZIS

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/21660789/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/21660789/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 09:12:28 PST
LOL @ U

need some chemical alarm clock. I'll be posting earrings sometime soon. Peace homes

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/20589914/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/20589914/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 18:23:57 PDT
It's called self expression through body art DA. You should be ashamed for allowing it to be censored.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/20393132/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/20393132/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 15:03:25 PDT
<3

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/20299861/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/20299861/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 22:51:50 PDT
I'm so glad to be happy again! And I feel like a mommy already <3

I was so utterly content this weekend. We took the two kids to Golden Gate park and played football, explored the woods and took them to dinner, and then all four of us cuddled till Crystal fell asleep. Chris and I fixed the water heater by first making it worse, shutting off hot water for three days, then mending it... all in all it was a great family weekend. The only hard part is trying to have a love life with a 5 year old and a 10 year old, but I don't think I'd want it any other way. I just felt like sharing my happiness : )

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/19791242/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/19791242/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 13:32:41 PDT
not to mention we did it ghetto style with a cookie cutter, a stove, a rosi and a pair of pliers.

Excuse me while I go scrub off the scab with lemon juice now.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/19594578/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/19594578/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 17:18:21 PDT

That's right ladies and gentlemen, I, Tessa, was finally granted my worker's compensation benefits after my coworkers fucktard of a child injured me. The injury occured in december. Figure out how long that fucking took guys. With RESIDUAL INJURY THAT WILL LAST MY WHOLE DAMN LIFE: make it difficult to bend, to lift my children, to hang up pictures... shit like that.

So Herr Govenator: Die in a Goddamn Fire or please go the fuck back to asswipe, austria, wherever the fuck you came from you worthless son of a nazi.

<3,
Tessa

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/19252980/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/19252980/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 11:25:43 PDT
So what shit should I draw so I don't PW FAG all over my page again.


Yeah.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/18557769/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/18557769/ Thu, 29 May 2008 10:07:19 PDT

This is being written on by my new baby. I'm embroidering a case for it. I'll post pictures soon.



Surprises are AWESOME.

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y/y

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I still love him.

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]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/17738660/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/17738660/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 20:04:23 PDT
YOU'VE NEVER SEEN A NAKED MAN.

So, as a favour to the internet I'm drawing some real gay sex. Armpit hair and all. Reality is a bitch.



NOTE: Not all men have chest hair. This is true.... my guy doesn't have any. THANK GOD.

So yeah.... YAOI BITCHES: JUST DRAW DAMN LESBIANS.


PS: I wish there was a LULZ NETZ icon.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/17640392/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/17640392/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 18:52:41 PDT
I hope Elsa got eaten but a fucking redead. If there are no Redeads in Das Schwarzes Auge, then there ARE NOW. I will also be a necromancer and make them all hate my ass. Or a defense attorney. Whichever one lets me yell more.

Torchwood time.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/17465394/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/17465394/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 21:07:14 PDT
And I found it. Oh internet, what would we do without you?

TAZER SEX

OBJECTION!!

OVERRULED BITCH!

TAZER RAPE

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/16292393/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/16292393/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 19:35:56 PST
please stop fucking with my favourite tv show; and stop making timelords have sex with daleks. I don't appreciate it and neither does the rest of the world. here's to keeping your deluded fantasies locking in your skull for eternity.

thanks.

also, dear google;

please stop linking these things when i'm trying to find a decent wallpaper picture.

thanks;

Antmuzak






hahahaha that face is like OMG NO

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/16222867/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/16222867/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 11:28:33 PST










Boyfriend. I loves him.



New Years was kickin' rad and I got to spend it with Melissa as usual. We just weren't in Austria for the first time in forever. I'm glad I got to call Adam and hear the fire works and that Max said hi too. I miss them all. Luckily I will be moving to Vienna fuer immer... well not really, but pretty close to it since it's a year without my cats or dog, in July so people should visit me *cough* melissa *cough* or if you're Austrian and I know you, also that'd be hella funny. I dunno.

YAY MOVING IN TOGETHER

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/16128691/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/16128691/ Thu, 27 Dec 2007 18:56:21 PST
sigh.




I'll watch Doctor Who instead and fantasize about David Tennant and all his hotness.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/15799220/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/15799220/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 20:01:26 PST
ANYWAY:

Boredom time: tagged by THE INTERNET

Ten Things You Never Knew About Me-

1. I am left handed.... OH SHI- sinister!!

2. I am my rabbit's bitch slut and I go so far as to import motherfucking rabbit treats from Austria every time I go because she likes them and basically nothing else. Hence, BITCH SLUT

3. I actually fucking hate art classes because I draw what I want, when I want bitch, I don't DO naked old men.

4. Due to a very long lasting, long distance relationship, I've decided that Pangea part II would be pretty fucking awesome. No more plane tickets!! ROAD TRIP TO EUROPE. Plus, maybe then we'd have new, improved rideable Dinosaurs.

5. I really like dinosaurs.

6. I really like science and enjoy sitting in the hot sun with a brush and a toothpick looking for shit in the dirt just for those two second of "OMG WHAT'S THAT" and actually finding something cool. .... I like archaeology guys.

7. Ich kann ein bisschen Deutsch sprechen, und ich denke dass es gut ist XD I also know some slang now!! Laiwand, Oeoe, bist du deppart and Bussi!!

8. I pick up bugs. Except 'tato bugs. They feel squishy. Keep spiders the fuck away tho plz.

9. I love my boyfriend/fiance/that guy I have sex with/whatever the fuck he is very very very very very very very VERY much. Ok, so you all knew that.

10. I fucking HATE anime and all those psycho fangirls. Last con I was dragged to, the bitch screaming "chotto matte kudasai" was mocked and the fat people will labeled and referred to as such, especially the fat narufuckers that were sitting on the goddamn treadmill I wanted to USE and watching TV on it.... If you don't speak any Japanese, SHUT THE FUCK UP. If you're obese, don't dress scantily and sit on a treadmill... FUCKING RUN ON THAT SHIT.

ok slight e/n thread there.

yeah.
kay


Happy Chanukka

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]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/15398906/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/15398906/ Tue, 06 Nov 2007 21:33:41 PST
yup.

I bleached it. And it lived. Through no less than 4 bleachings.

ROCK

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/15166109/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/15166109/ Sun, 21 Oct 2007 22:39:57 PDT
My bunny, however, is fucking adorable and I'm going to squeeze her cheeks.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/15133386/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/15133386/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 18:28:44 PDT

Why can't Prince Charming be a little more... well, charming? Fuck you Disney. Fuck you and all your LIES.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/14963807/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/14963807/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 23:32:13 PDT
Also; fuck Die Angewandte and their 140 applicant process where they accept only TEN of those.



I miss Adam : (

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/14331630/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/14331630/ Sat, 25 Aug 2007 09:25:47 PDT
Fact#1: I love animals to the point where I won't even kill the ants in my room. I actually move the thing they want close to their entry point so they don't have to work so hard :3 I also regularly spend my half hour break in the pet store, cooing at all the critters.

Fact#2: I have a cat with ADHD... or something. She's completely insane and will whirl around the house screeching and yowling then dive in the litter box and launch out of it, spraying litter EVERYWHERE.

Fact #3: I've never had a professional art course. Everything I've ever learned was self-taught or my father helped me. I hope to take some classes, but I think I'm potentially fucked since I can't break my style and preferences

Fact#4: I cannot keep my room clean. Even if I get it sparkling and organized, within about 2 days it'll look akin to Hiroshima in 1945.

Fact#5: I collect earrings... I can't even go into Claire's because I will come out with millions of earrings! I have five holes between the two ears, so it's become a ritual to mix and match :3

Fact#6: I am a linguaphile. I've taken 6 different languages...I loooooooove languages, but my favourite has always been german. I've been trying to learn it since I was 12, but my mother wanted me to take spanish, so I really dislike that language now. I'm finally taking german in college (it's my second major) and it's become a necessity because of my fiance :3 And here my mother used to say, "what if you fall in love with a spainard? Then spanish will be great" then I turned around and went for the Austrian

Fact#7: I'm a preschool teacher. I absolutely love children, and I've volunteered with them for ages... and I can't wait to have 2 of my own. But I think my job is the greatest in the world... sure there are some kids who drive me nuts, and can make me dread the day, but once I get there, it's no longer a job. I'm getting paid to play with kids on a playground :3

Fact#8: When Jehova Witnesses come to my door, it's like motherloving christmas. Now I respect religion, but stop telling me how I'm going to hell and I need to be saved, yadda yadda yadda. My hobby is coming up with ways to mess with them. My favourite is to hold a science text, open the door, and before they get a word out say, "hello friend! have you heard the word of Darwin!?" I've come up with countless things.... but I'm never outright mean to them. I just like to play



I TAG:
:iconthetaxidermy: and whoever else wants



HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/14118849/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/14118849/ Sat, 11 Aug 2007 11:56:06 PDT
Three years of long distance, three years of overcoming this difficult separation... and it all might be finally coming to a full circle. If I get accepted to the university, we'll finally have the normal relationship we've wanted for so long.

fuck, talk about pressure.

I love you Adam!

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13837486/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13837486/ Sun, 22 Jul 2007 19:40:46 PDT
Fuck you people. Get over it. Hating people stopped being cool at Nuremberg.

PS: german speaking, german or austrian decent or nationality and having relatives who fought on the german side (ESPECIALLY WWII, nimrods) does NOT make one a Nazi. War is over, get over it.





I HATE PEOPLE.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13799539/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13799539/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 19:24:32 PDT
Suggestions?

(yes, I know it's early, but I'm a planner, whereas he's a winger)

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13737813/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13737813/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 21:35:14 PDT

that's right.



SUCK IT


I miss Adam


]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13726077/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13726077/ Fri, 13 Jul 2007 21:36:33 PDT
And now, I present: SEVERE BORDOM

A) 4 Names people call you:
1. Tess
2. Tessie
3. Honey
4. TP

B) 4 places you have lived:
1. Pacifica
2. Bari (for a summer)
3. Brisbane, CA
4. Hopefully, Vienna, Austria

C) 4 jobs you have had in your life:
1. Baby sitter
2. Cashier
3. Artist
4. Preschool teacher

D) 4 movies you could watch over and over:
1. Princess Bride
2. Alice in Wonderland
3. Nightmare before Christmas
4. Casablanca

E) 4 TV shows you love to watch:
1. Jem and the Holograms
2. Twin Peaks
3. Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends
4. Crossing Jordan

F) 4 Places you have been on vacation:
1. Italia, Bari
2. Wien
3. Greenbelt, Maryland
4. Owahu, Hawaii.... and probably my least favourite, actually

G) 4websites you visit daily (or semi-weekly):
1. Deviantart
2. Sinfest
3. GMX
4. Somethingawful

H) 4 of your favorite foods:
1. Eggplant Pameseana
2. Nectarines
3. Lasagna
4. Safeway deli sandwiches

I) 4 things you are allergic to:
1. Pollen
2. Wheat
3. Animals
4. The Earth in general

J) 4 of your siblings names (if you have any):
1. Olivia
2.
3.
4.

K) 4 places you would love to travel to:
1. Japan
2. England (everywhere)
3. Italia
4. Germany

L) 4 of your pets:
1. Boo, calico lop/dwarf
2. Fluffer McKitty, Maine coon/ tabby
3. Bitsy, the inbred calico
4. Truffles, aussie/border collie

M) 4 things you want for christmas this year:
1. Cannon camera
2. Wii
3. bigger Ipod
4. *phartz*




Are you happy with your given name?
Eh.

What is your guaranteed weeping movie?
hm.... Anything holocaust/WWII/WWI. I cry, because I know that people died there, in those horrid ways, and I cry for them.

What is the one thing you like to do alone?
Pait/Draw. Or just daydream

What's a major fear of yours?
Spiders. I'm terrified of them, and I have NO clue why

Are you a pyromaniac?
Yes.

Do you know anyone famous?
My dad went to highschool with Bob Dylan. I share his birthday too!!

Describe your bed
Purple. All purple. Adam's shirt is tucked under my pillow. It's coated in bunny fur.

What type of character would you play in a movie?
Mythbuster/Stunt junkie/ Boom coordinator

What do you carry with you at all times?
Ipod. I <3 music. It's my muse.

How do you eat an apple?
I jam it into my vagina and tell God to stick that on His tree of knowledge

Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?
I enjoy weirding people out as a hobby. I enjoy being left alone.

What kind of first impression do you think you give people?
Insane and unstable/ friendly and weird.

Favorite communication method?
Morse code.

What is your hidden talent?
I'm quite a good ballet dancer.

Do you own a Bible?
Nope. I own a book of paganism though. Jesus and I don't exactly "roll".

Do you have a problem changing clothes in front of friends?
Fuck no.

What should you be doing instead of this?
Hobbies.

Who was the last person who called you?


Are you ready?
Take it to the bridge!

What is the last gift you gave someone?
I got french fries for Alma because she had one of those suck days

Does everything happen for a reason?
Nope. Reasons happen for everything.

What is your biggest headache lately?
Being screamed at by hyper crazy children.

What color is your bedroom?
cream for 3 walls, then one wall of stripes of 4 shades of pink and purple.

Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
I consider myself to be too nice for my own good, actually. I tend to get walked on once I help people with their problems. I wish I had more friends :/

Have you ever pierced your own body part or that of someone else?
I pierced my own ears when I got pissed off at my mom.

What kind of watch do you wear?
I have a purple one. It's really nice though. Like Timex.

What's one car... ]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13708759/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13708759/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 13:48:10 PDT
But I'm excited. I'll be posting more and more or my work, so once again, comments are encouraged and loved. Especially suggestions!

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13664524/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13664524/ Sun, 08 Jul 2007 22:22:04 PDT
I'm going to book my ticket tomorrow, if all goes well! I'm excited!

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13624020/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13624020/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 17:08:34 PDT

-----------------DESCRIBE------------------

YOUR HERITAGE: American born, half Italian, one quarter Irish and an eighth each of Semetic Ukranian and Welsh. I burn easy...
THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY: None. Barefoot cause it's hot
YOUR EYES: coffee.... not dark brown, not light brown.
YOUR WEAKNESS: Adam, Boo and Art supplies
YOUR FEARS: Spiders. That's it.
ONE THING YOU'D LIKE TO ACHIEVE: Get accepted to Die Angewandte Wien!
-----------------WHAT IS------------------

-- YOUR THOUGHTS FIRST WAKING UP: mrgpth...
-- THE FIRST FEATURE YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: Eyes
-- THE FIRST FEATURE YOU NOTICE IN THE SAME SEX: Makeup and how heavy it is.
-- YOUR BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE: I like my eyes and legs.
-- YOUR BEDTIME: When I pass out
-- YOUR GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT: uhh... fuck if I know... being able to have an entire conversation in German finally. I've wanted to learn German since I was 10, and I'm finally doing it.
-- YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY: Ice skating in Austria

-----------------YOU PREFER------------------

-- PEPSI OR COKE: Pepsi
-- MCDONALD'S OR BURGER KING: gross
-- SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: depends on who we're double dating with!
-- ADIDAS OR NIKE: converse
-- CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: chocolare
-- CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: anything caffinated
-----------------DO YOU------------------

-- SMOKE: yuck, no
-- CUSS: like a sailor
-- HAVE A CRUSH(ES):Engaged
-- WHO ARE THEY:
-- DO YOU THINK YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE?: I am in love
-- WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE: In SFSU, want to go to Die Angewandte
-- LIKE HIGH SCHOOL: PSTBBTH no
-- WANT TO GET MARRIED: hopefully soon ><
-- TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS: yes actually.
-- GET MOTION SICKNESS: only in the backseat of a car
-- THINK YOU'RE ATTRACTIVE: sometimes
-- THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: Hahahaha no. But I don't really need to be.. I'm healthy
-- GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: On and Off
-- LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: LOVE
-- PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: Flute, piano and I sing pretty well. I can do harmony

------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU--------------

-- DRANK ALCOHOL: Nope
-- SMOKE(D): Nope.
-- DONE A DRUG: Nope.
-- HAVE SEX: I wish... fucking long distance. Though the amount of sex in may kinda makes up for it I guess
-- MADE OUT: once again... DAMN THE ATLANTIC
-- GO ON A DATE: I hate you...
-- GO TO THE MALL: Yes
-- EATEN SUSHI: No actually
-- BEEN ON STAGE: Nope
-- BEEN DUMPED: Nope!
-- GONE SKATING: Nope!
-- MADE HOMEMADE COOKIES: Yes
-- BEEN IN LOVE: Yes
-- DYED YOUR HAIR: Yes, and I'm doing it again in about a week or so
-- STOLEN ANYTHING: No
-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------

-- FLOWN ON A PLANE: Vielen zeit
-- MISSED SCHOOL BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING?:No... what kind of pussy does that?
-- TOLD A GUY/GIRL THAT YOU LIKED THEM?: I fucked him instead. does that count?... oh wait, you mean like ever? sure a couple of guys and one girl, but nothing ever came of it except some emo moments. Till Adam anyway, but technically he brought it up first :3
-- CRIED DURING A MOVIE?: Life is Beautiful....
-- EVER THOUGHT AN ANIMATED CHARACTER WAS HOT?: People are creepy who do that...
-- HAD AN IMAGINARY FRIEND: Of course... only one though : )
-- BEEN ON STAGE?: Yes
-- CUT YOUR HAIR: Yes
-- HAD CRUSH ON A TEACHER?: Nope
-- PLAYED A GAME THAT REQUIRED REMOVAL OF CLOTHING?: I dunno... Adam, have we done this yet?
-- BEEN TRASHED OR EXTREMELY INTOXICATED: No. Slightly drunk, but barely.
-- BEEN CAUGHT "DOING SOMETHING"?: Almost :3
-- BEEN CALLED A TEASE?: Yes :3
-- GOTTEN BEATEN UP?: No.
-- BEEN IN A FIGHT: Yes.
-- SHOPLIFTED: No

-----------------THE FUTURE------------------

-- AGE YOU HOPE TO BE MARRIED: 22-23 :3
-- NUMBERS AND NAMES OF CHILDREN: 2 kids, one boy, one girl. Griffin and Autumn.
-- DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING: really simple thing with only family and close friends. I want it to be halloween themed and have everyone dress up, then, instead of jordan almonds, give wedding favours of candy corn and vamp fangs :3
-- HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE?: Fantastically
-- WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?: A cartoonist or a children's book illustrator.
-- WHAT COUNTRY WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT?: Japan. And all of Europe

-----------------OPPOSITE/SAME SEX------------------

-- BEST EYE COLOR:... ]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13383176/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13383176/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 16:31:03 PDT
I'll be flying out to Wien sometime during the last week of September to take the entrance exam at Die Angewandte; magical school of uncertainty and enigmas. I hope I'll have what they're looking for.

I also need to practise my german.... Ich muss mehr Deutsch sprechen : O

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13234017/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13234017/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 22:11:51 PDT Blue

2) Can you remember who your starter was? If so, who?
Squirtle... because I'm clearly gay

3) Did you ever complete the Pokedex in any games? Which one(s)?
Every damn one that I own. What loser doesn't?

4) Did you watch the Pokemon anime? Who was your favourite character?
Well, DUH. Ash, actually, but now he's just a bitch. Sooooooooooooooo I dunno, Dawn I guess... or rather, all the angsty emo pokemon that cut themselves :3

5) Do you still watch the anime?
When I'm bored or it looks interesting

6) What's your favourite Pokemon type? Explain.
Dark and Ghost hands down. Look cool, powerful, and just fucking awesome all around. Now if only Sableye hadn't sucked such massive amounts of penis...

7) Who's your favourite Pokemon? Explain.
Eevee, because it is versatile and awesome and becomes many cute things. Otherwise Misdreavus... ISHOKYUTE

8) Which Pokemon do you dislike the most? Explain.
Fucking FIREMONKEY. goddamn cheap BITCH, that's what it is. Or that goddamn Luvdisk. USELESS

9) Which is your favourite region? Explain.
Dun care. I liked them all, actually.

10) Which is your favourite Pokemon series?
First season, hands down. Gotta catch em all, POKEMON!!


11) Can you say a series Pokedex, without a reference, in order?
Damn, I used to, back when the game first came out. Only the first 151 though

12) Do you know all the type advantages, disadvantages and all the super-effective moves for each type?
I still fuck that up.

13) Did you prefer Pokemon before the new ones, or after?
Eh, depends on the pokemon

14) Have you got an Original Character who is a trainer?
Fuck yes. I haven't drawn her since I was thirteen. I know what my next piece is going to be!!

15) Have you ever wrote a fanfiction story about Pokemon?
Pikachu gazed lovingly into Vulpix's eyes as his testosterone levels rose with each breath.... hahaha, yeah right. Fanfics are for girls.

16) Was the OC based on yourself?
not really

17) Who is your favourite gym leader?
Sabrina/ The French Whore with the Ghosts. All those purple ones :3

18) What about Elite Four trainer?
Dragon dude. Otherwise, I hate them all

19) If you lived in the Pokemon world, who would you starter be? (Please choose out of the normal starters, excluding Pikachu and Eevee).
Well that's stupid. I'd be jesuschu. fuck Jesus actually. I'd be Charmander, because I like to burn things.


20) Which city would you live in before you started your journey? Why?
ehhhh.... Pallet, I guess?

21) Would you travel just in the one region, or spread to other places?
I'd spread, and then kill all the ones that I didn't want, cook em, and then use them to heal my pokemon, MAKING SUPER LEET POKEMON IN THE PROCESS

22) Would you train just one type, or different ones?
GHOST AND DARK. Because I'd clearly be the Awesome trainer

23) What kind of Poke-Person would you be? Trainer? Breeder? Gym leader?
God. So Breeder, because I enjoy forcing small, furry things to have sex for my monetary gain.... wait.... ew.

24) Would you collect gym badges? Or keep Pokemon as pets?
Can't I do both? I make my rabbit do the grocery shopping; why can't pikachu be a foot stool AND a battle bitch?

25) Who is your ultimate two-on-two team? Explain.
Misdreavus and Umbreon. Because 1337.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13222862/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13222862/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 01:17:51 PDT
i swear to god, i'm going to unleash a goddamn PLAGUE on the 1st district if that god damn fucking twat doesn't get his loving ass in his fucking office in the next 15 minutes!!

3 LOVING DAYS AT UNGODLY HOURS AND THAT SHIT STAIN IS NEVER THERE WHEN HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE

it's 1:17 am, it's dark, i'm bored and i'm wearing sunglasses.

let's do this.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13208526/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/13208526/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 22:27:42 PDT
suggestions will cause you to be loved immensly.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/12449357/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/12449357/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 20:15:22 PDT 1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
NO CHEATING

Also, I feel like rating this shit.

Opening Credits:
Das Model - Kraftwerk
Eeh… 3 stars. I’m not hot enough for this song. However it’s sound all mysterious if you have no idea what the lyrics are :3

Waking Up:
Burning Down The House - Talking Heads
Ok 5 stars. I fucking love this song and love to dance to it. It fits as I listen to it as I drive to work at 6:40 am.

First day at School:
San Francisco - They Might Be Giants
5! I go to SF State. I’m currently LMAOing, you just can’t see it. Hahaha a song about street names.

Falling In Love:
Hide and Seek - Imogene Heap
4.5... However this is actually a really good one… if only Adam would dance. I’d like to dance with him to this song…. It’s so cute.

Fighting Song:
Troll wood - Eisley
0. You can’t kick ass to this song. I love it though and *TIDBIT* I can sing harmony with it to make it sound pretty!

Breaking Up:
You Have Killed Me - Morrisey.
5... Holy shit. Yeah I think I’d die if Adam left me. This is perfect…. It really fits with the circumstances in how we got together and how it’d affect me if he broke my heart.

Prom:
My Generation - The Who
5! I love swing dancing and jitterbug so this works fine

Life's OK:
Stop - Spice Girls.
3. It’s an up beat creepy stalker song However I’d pick something different.


Mental Breakdown:
Si Tu N'étais Pas Là (Frébel) - Le fabuleux Destin d’Amelie Poulain
4. I could see this happening.

Driving
Shake it Up - The Cars
5! That’s funny so y’all can just Southern Tenet Farmers Union up in here.

FlashBack Theme:
Boten Anna - Basshunter.
1.… yeah funny song…. But Swedish techno for flashbacks? Maybe that creepy “ready for takeoff?!” part.

Getting Back Together:
What’s Left of the Flag - Flogging Molly
3. Eh.

Wedding:
Wild Horses - Rolling Stones
4. I could have it as a song…. I love it… so romantic. Adam and I had fun singing with it while driving on the coast….

Amazing Hot Sex Porno Scene:
Mr. Tambourine Man - The Byrds
….. I’d loose my erection if I could have one…. *love the song though*

Birth of Child:
All Around the World - Oasis
3. It’s about struggle and about new experiences :3

Death Scene:
Anti-Zombie - Die Ärzte
Oh god, 5 OH GOD 5! “Sie essen alle aus… sie fressen alle aus…” :3

Funeral Song
The Story of Nothing - The Aquabats
5. Very fitting!

End Credits Theme
Dressed in Black - Depeche Mode
4... Would’ve been better at the funeral

Director's Cut - Deleted Scenes Music
My Sherona - The Knack
4. I always get it up for the touch… such a dirty mind.

Product Placement's Theme:
Paranoid Android - Radiohead
….. Can I have the music video? :3

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/11967882/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/11967882/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 22:07:46 PST
The player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as stating the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

______________________________
My six weird(est) habits/things

1. I talk with my hands.... profusely. It's the italian thing showing. But I assure you that everyone on the street can tell if i'm excited or not. Luckily Adam just thinks it's hilarious, but my sister hates it. Also, I tend to rise in volume and get louder and crasser the more excited/angry i get. Again; this amuses Adam to no end.

2. I practise speaking german with my rabbit and dog. I've actually re-trained my dog to obey my german commands. Pretty ace actually. Pets don't judge you by your mistakes.

3. I can bend completely in half. I used to be able to do the splits too, and am getting back to it... but yeah, i'm flexible. IN BED LOL. no seriously, i am.

4. I can make the most horrible noises known to man. I can also imitate Stitch and Gollum pretty damn well.

5. My voice is about 2 octaves to low for someone with ovaries and a uterus. All the kids at the preschool I work at are convinced that I'm really a boy.

6. I got carded in Austria when buying champagne *age of drinking is 16...* and i'm almost 20. WTF. She thought I was 13-14. So did the lady that punctured my auditory flesh lobes. DAMN.

SO i tag the usual suspects:

and

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/11479891/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/11479891/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 09:00:09 PST
Other than my parting angst, AnoDoMinion, AdamWK and I had a blast just wandering in Vienna. We saw some spectacular sights and met an awesome hobo who was originally from the UK and just told us a bunch of stories. We saw Pandas and butterflies, and spring weather in January, celebrated New Years/ Silverster on Shafsberg and bought champagne simply so I could have the little Canister it came in.

anyway, more stories and pictures later.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/11221413/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/11221413/ Thu, 28 Dec 2006 10:39:39 PST
an 11 hour United flight to Frankfurt on board a plane with my german teacher. Which is a coinkidink.

wish me luck.

i hate flying.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/11163997/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/11163997/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 15:36:12 PST
OF MYTHBUSTERS

IN PERSON.



AT BLOOMINGDALE'S SHOPPING CENTER.


it was a religious experience. an apiphany.


i found god.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/11003825/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/11003825/ Sat, 09 Dec 2006 08:46:27 PST
]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10985419/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10985419/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 15:33:20 PST
Cervix looks funny for some reason.

ANYWAY, that shot hurt like a fucking bitch. But I have +7 anti-cancer armour now :3

Roll for success?

20. YESSSSSSSSSS.

Don't get cancer. Cancer fucking hurts, which I sumize from the shot pain level. It was equivalent to getting raped with razorblades.






FUCK YOU CANCER. STAY THE FUCK OUTTA MY BODY.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10953313/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10953313/ Mon, 04 Dec 2006 19:51:26 PST
adam's 18. nevermind.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10783617/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10783617/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 23:20:44 PST . the only difference from the one here is our story, and photoshop

[link]

muwah

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10750252/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10750252/ Thu, 16 Nov 2006 21:06:25 PST *Don't say who they pertain to.
*Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.
*Never discuss it again.

1. I tried to be there for you and to help you with life and look where it got me.

2. I never understood where our friendship went and why it went away like it did.

3. I wish I could save you from all the pain and uncertainty you ever suffer.

4. I'll never be good enough, but I'm so glad you picked me.

5. I never loved you, and in the end, I hated you.

6. I'm proud of your newfound sobriety and where you've gone with your life.

7. I wish you were more independent and brave.

8. I wish I could have stopped it.

9. I don't understand why you keep making the same mistake over and over.

10. I'm so happy to hear you turned out to be a drug addicted whore on the streets where you belong.

11. Would you just fucking kill yourself already? It's up the fucking street moron, not across it.

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10714239/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10714239/ Mon, 13 Nov 2006 16:30:27 PST


8======================0

rain does that to me >>









i get to go to vienna soon!

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10692779/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10692779/ Sat, 11 Nov 2006 17:49:04 PST
1. Do you sleep with your wardrobe doors open or closed?
closed... i'd prefer that the mess were hidden from the eye of mortals

2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?
i like the thrill of the hunt. I like to steal them directly off the carts while the maids are busy. one time i actually did while humming mission impossible.

3. Have you ever 'done it' in a hotel room?
hmmm well, not yet, but the car, the family room couch.... was there anywhere else? OH YEAH at the house we were petsitting at ^^

4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
certainly. I stole a real estate sign and a not-a-through-street sign

5. Do you like to use post-it notes?
i have 4 pets. does that answer the question?

6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
Well i try to use them.... but sometimes those deadlines just slip by

7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
BEES. I would punch EVERY BEE in the FACE. Fuck Bees.

8. Do you always smile for pictures?
unless adam is bugging me, or i'm trying to be silly

9. What is your biggest pet peeve?
bussers who don't do their jobs, and stupid people.

10. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
I have nightly seizures that kill any tucking

11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
when Kate and I are doing it in French and German

12. Have you ever peed in the woods?
I was in girlscouts!

13. Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
I'd like to say no, but sadly.... yes

14. Do you chew your pens and pencils?
yup. nervous habit

15. Ever talk on a cell phone in a public bathroom?
ewwwwwwww.

16. Do you like popcorn from those big tins?
if it's got cheese on it :3

17. What is your "Song of the week"?
Too Shy - Kajagoogoo

18. Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
It doesn't matter... my future husband does all the time ><

19. Do you still watch cartoons?
I watched approx. 10 hours of spongebob yesterday

20. Whats your favorite scary movie?
Cabinet of Dr. Caligari

21. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
I'd hollow out your face, and stuff it inside : D

22. What do you drink with dinner?
Milk or juice

23. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
CatSoup

24. What is your favorite food/cuisine?
italian

25. Last person you kissed/kissed you?
mom

26. Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
i got my silver award. REPING THE G S A whu-WHUT!

27. Ever gone skinny dipping?
yes! not too long ago actually

28. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
almost daily. i send like.... diary letters to adam a lot.

29. Can you change the oil on a car?
yep. and the lightbulbs

30. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
amazingly no

31. Ran out of gas?
once. that was a bad day

32. Favorite kind of sandwich?
those honey chicken sandwiches at Quiznos..... or a fried egg sandwich

33. Best thing to eat for breakfast?
mmmm scrambled eggs with cheese

34. What is your usual bedtime?
11 ish

35. Are you lazy?
i procrastinate

36. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for halloween?
lots of things

37. Ever eat a Chaco Taco?
yes :3

38. How many languages can you speak?
english, some german and some japanese

39. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
used to do the nintendo power

40.Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
adam makes lego lesbian bondage pr0n in dungeons.... you should post that baby

41. Are you stubborn?
yes :3

42. Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
i don't know i don't watch

43. Ever watch soap operas?
Depends.... is queer as folk a soap opera?

44. Afraid of heights?
Nope.

45. Sing in the car?
yes!

46. Dance in the shower?
yes, and sing

47. Dance in the car?
I dance WITH the car : )

48. Ever used a gun?
once, a musket from the civil war

49. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
for my senior year

50. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
some are.... well most are. but i like em

51. Is Christmas stressful?
can be

52. Ever been to GoofyAuctions.com?
I'm intruigued...... as well<... ]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10598927/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10598927/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 22:42:10 PST
while it's no secret, the relationship i share with adam is a unique one. we knew each other only slightly and as new friends when we began "dating" if you will, and our only form of building a deeper bond has been through our words, voice tones and a series of pixilated images that we use to include each other in our daily lives. very rarely do we actually get to hold hands, talk face to face, watch a film together, make a meal... you know, couple things.

since pictures have been our main way of sharing our days, our jokes and our love; i use pictures to explore the physical aspect of our romance. in other words, it's kind of like i channel our frustrations of a strange and seperate relationship through the lives of my characters and creations.

if you're wondering where this comes from, it's because i sat down to draw, and low and behold, i drew the pain of parting; the pain of those last moments and those last kisses, those last touches and those last looks. i realized how much i missed him; i saw my mother bought a pack of the razors he uses (i know, it's lame) and it was in the shower and for a moment my heart broke.

and i got to thinking. that's how the story goes.

sorry for the emo, just had to get the thoughts down : )

in the words of Robert Smith "it's time for Gloom and Doom".

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10467938/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10467938/ Sat, 21 Oct 2006 17:05:11 PDT
I also stole like... 4 bottle caps from work :3

\/ plus I bedazzeled mah ass pawkehtuhs

DOUBLE YAY

]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10127628/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10127628/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 22:36:34 PDT
1.- If I were a fruit I'd be... a berry of some sort; i'll go with Taeberry.
2.- If I were a colour I'd be... purple. duuuuuuuh
3.- If I were an animal I'd be... a Steve Irwin. Crikey.
4.- If I were a dometic appliance I'd be... a blender. or an oven *insert obligatory nazi joke here*
5.- If I were a book I'd be... Catch-22
6.- If I were a clothing item I'd be... panties.
7.- If I were a jewel I'd be... fire topaz.
8.- If I were an object I'd be... a sex slave.
9.- If I were a car I'd be... a Smart or a mini... OR GERMAN ENGINEERING. FO VEH HOLLA BACK WHAT WHAT.
10.- If I were an element I'd be... tantilum. it tantalizes.
11.- If I were a tree I'd be... TANENBAUM.
12.- If I were a drink I'd be... black tea.
13.- If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be... nutella.
14.- If I were a person I'd be... myself.
15.- If I were a planet I'd be... uranus. HAHAHAH WIT
16.- If I were an insect I'd be... a DMV representative.. wait, what?.
17.- If I were public transport I'd be... FLUGZEUG.
18.- If I were a song I'd be... Grotesksong - Die Arezte *glaub kein mench* .
19.- If I were a movie I'd be... That porn i made with your mom. or Princess Bride
20.- If I were a season I'd be... Herbst/ Autumn : D.
21.- If I were a flower I'd be... a Bat Flower.
22.- If I were a job I'd be... Jesus.
23.- If I were a cartoon I'd be... ehmm...venture brothers i guess .
24.- If I were a place I'd be... the bedroom : O.
25.- If I were a gift I'd be... special :3.
26.- If I were a memory I'd be... that one that reminds you where that VD came from.
27.- If I were a city I'd be... San Francisco or Vienna
28.- If I were a sense I'd be... hearing.
29.- If I were a game I'd be... strip poker
30.- If I were a candy I'd be... gummi bears.
31.- If I were a time of the day I'd be... FORENSIC FILES TIME.
32.- If I were an invention I'd be... the carrier pidgeon.
33.- If I were a bodypart I'd be... the genitals.
34.- If I were a country I'd be... made of sand, rocks and foilage.
35.- If I were a flavor I'd be... BAM.
36.- If I were a sport I'd be...badminton.
37.- If I were a smell I'd be... that smell right after you've had sex and you're both sweaty and gross but neither one cares and you're cuddled in eachother's arms. *wow i was serious that time*
38.- If I were a subject I'd be... Art, History or GERMAN.
39.- If I were a flag I'd be... a bloody one.
40.- If I were a building I'd be... anti tank fortress.
41.- If I were a month I'd be... October
42.- If I were a perfume I'd be... Halloween. it's fucking purple. I NEEDED IT OKAY?
43.- If I were a gummy candy I'd be... DEELICIOUS.
45.- If I were a toy I'd be... a yo yo.
46.- If I were a textile I'd be... kinky.
47.- If I were a shape I'd be... concave.
48.- If I were a answer I'd be... the wrong one that was SO CLOSE but not quite.
49.- If I were a common liquorice I'd be... there's more than one kind of liqourice?.
50.- If I were a word I'd be... Defenstration. look it up fuckers

TAH DAH. ]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10126770/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10126770/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 20:28:41 PDT my mom wants me to move out.... i can just tell. maybe it's the fact that she's mentioned it 20 or so times in the past week, but i can't afford it and i've no where to go.

david hatfield, if you ever read this, know that i swear to god i will one day RUIN your family life the way you have mine. i will tear down your self esteem and slef worth, not with a knife... but slowly with my bear hands the way you did my father. i will kill you if it's what it takes. you worthless, fat, mother fucker. i'd say i hate you, but that's far to kind. ]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10074663/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/10074663/ Thu, 14 Sep 2006 20:09:14 PDT
I'm officially open for business!

Handwoven Bracelets: $7, $10 for a choker

Custom T Shirts: $15 for basic design, $20 for irritatingly complex ones

Scarves *OMG KNITTED*: $15 thin, $20 for thick (width wise) extra 5 bucks for the "furry" ones.

I take all requests. Prices are in accordance to material and time :3 ]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/9913545/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/9913545/ Wed, 30 Aug 2006 23:20:03 PDT It seems like only yesterday that I was shyly sitting next to you on the floor at the foot of the bed, stealing glances of you during the Princess Bride, itching to place my hand on yours; heart thundering so loudly in my chest that I was so certain you’d hear it over the dialogue… and in a few days it’ll be our 2nd anniversary, and I’m even more in love with you than I was that day I first met you and sat next to you to watch what has since become “our” film ^^.
Anyway, as it’s somewhat of a special occasion, I’ve decided to publicly embarrass you by letting everyone know how much I love you and why, simply for the reason that I’m very proud to be your Fiancée… I’m proud to be the girl you chose to have in your life as your partner, to be the woman who you trust to bear your children. I’m proud that I can call you my Fiancé, my “Verlobter”… that I can fall asleep in your arms, knowing you’re there because you chose to stay with me. I’m proud that someday, I’ll share the name Kriegl with you, as your wife.
Little girls always dream about the knight in shining armour that rides up on a white horse, who whisks her away to a fairytale castle and makes her a beautiful princess and they live happily ever after. As a little girl, I dreamed of such things too. So often I’d believe that my “prince had come” so to speak, and each time, my heart was either handed back or crushed underfoot. When I met you, I had just begun a relationship that I’d believed was love. My mind was full of guilt when my heart fell hard for you that night, and I pushed you to the farthest corners of my mind. Looking back, I wish I’d simply leaned on you or something… you looked so handsome, with your tousled brown hair, and your stunning eyes… sitting there in khakis and that grey sweatshirt, which is now laying on my bed… I can still remember that you wore purple socks…but what was so intriguing were your eyes… I swear they hold the stars… I can see right into your soul… but not only your eyes, your face. You have the most gentle expressions, and you looked so shy… god it was so adorable. I remember thinking how beautiful you were…and still are ^^.
I meant to keep in touch with you afterward, when you went home… but it never happened. Every now and then, I’d think of you… but I’d feel so guilty with my conscious telling me I was in a relationship. Then a year later I was informed that we’d be seeing you again… spending the night if you will. I could feel my cheeks turn red; I was trying to pretend that I didn’t remember you ^^…kinda embarrassing ^^…but I did ^^. When I looked out that window and made eye contact…I couldn’t form words; my heart had jumped into my throat. I was just a melted happy puddle that you kept sitting near me and brushing me and talking to me. I was just happy to be near you…why do you think I stayed up till 4am? ^^
And when you let me hide my face during that shark thing and told me when it was safe to look, without making me feel stupid for being grossed out… if you did that today, I’d fuck you right there on the couch ^^. You showed me you cared about me.
Oh and the next morning, after convincing myself for over 40 minutes to ask you on a walk when you woke up…walking down the stairs to see you laying on the couch looking at me… then realizing I didn’t have makeup on and I ran to the bathroom because I wanted to look pretty for you. I loved walking with you, just talking. I don’t know if you even saw, but I was looking at you with sheer adoration when you told me about the song about the little ducks. The whole time, all I wanted was for you to put your arm around me or hold my hand… I’ll admit I got my hopes up when you asked if I was cold.
But the whole time, I felt guilty… that I was a bad person for being in love with you. It was that last day that I knew it… when I realized I was doing anything to get to see you one last time before you left… then I realized I had no control anymore, and it was during our hide and seek game that I’d decided that maybe next summer, if Devin was out of the picture… I’d tell you how I felt. But things went badly in my relationship and he was really mean and accusative and I felt worthless and taken advantage of.
The whole time, you there for me. You’d talk to me and make me feel better and you simply stayed as a friend. You listened to me when I needed to cry or bitch or be angry… you know, you cared about me. And as it went, I ended it with Devin because helping remodel my kitchen counted as cheating; as I recall it. You didn’t even make it two weeks when you slipped and gave away your secret.
Of course, I was willing to give it a shot, but I assumed that it’d never work. Little did I know it’d last 8 months and that you’d fly out here to come to my prom with me. As I waited in the airport for you, I was full of the jitters and I couldn’t sit down and I couldn’t... ]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/9911900/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/9911900/ Wed, 30 Aug 2006 19:47:50 PDT <

IN OTHER NEWS: I'm now a waitress.... may i take your order or do you need more time to decide?

also, my beloved and i are coming up on 2 years on Sept 11 and i'm excited!! ]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/9866913/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/9866913/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 21:25:11 PDT
i typed in gibberish and LOOK WHAT COMES UP. JUST COPY AND PASTE OR CLICK OR WHATEVER

once again

dklfgj/;akljsgklawejg.com ]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/9859676/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/9859676/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 08:35:02 PDT



LOL i made them funnay ]]> ~AntMuzak http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/9848731/ http://AntMuzak.deviantart.com/journal/9848731/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 09:10:46 PDT
now i need adam's up >< ]]> ~AntMuzak