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deviantART: by:Aphoticsecret http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Aphoticsecret&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Aphoticsecret en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 15 Dec 2009 18:27:13 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Life is like photography http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/22202893/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/22202893/ Fri, 26 Dec 2008 02:03:59 PST

]]> ~Aphoticsecret It's my 18th Birthdayyy!! http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/21263045/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/21263045/ Sat, 01 Nov 2008 10:35:28 PDT

woop woop!
I'm legal

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Wherever you are http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/20785098/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/20785098/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 21:15:12 PDT
Someday.

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Busting my Nips http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/20732678/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/20732678/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 21:22:50 PDT I thought it was gonna be all fun and party
but yea.. I'm stressing so much about colleges now!

I know a couple of colleges that I'm definitely interested in and I already got a call from the New england Insitute of Art and I'm setting up a meeting with them. I really like Bentley College as well. Accept me please! haha I'm excited

I'm taking my SATs again.. ON MY BIRTHDAY!
Well Fuck! haha

The only thing that I'm really stressing about is the college essay. I mean, I can write good papers but not when my whole life depends on it! And trying to think of an EXTREMELY unique topic.. well that's another story.

oh and also, the grades for the first quarter of senior year.. yea, not so good there. Well, just my AP World History class I'm doing bad in.
Yea, I suck at life.

About work.. I've never seen so many naked bums before! xD Those poor kiddies.
It already feels like Christmas there because we already got all the Christmas backdrops up and it's still September for god's sake!

People are just crazy.

What now?

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Just another mistake http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/20504619/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/20504619/ Mon, 15 Sep 2008 11:53:28 PDT
It's a shame how we live today.

I can't fucking do this anymore.

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Where the crap have I been http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/20097036/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/20097036/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 14:01:44 PDT
but anyways
Last journal I wrote about how I got "let go" from that job, but you know what? Fuck that.

I'm now a fully certified photographer for a kids company. I've been working there for over 10 months and I love it.

Yea, things have changed a lot. My life is different now and I'm ok with it.

I'm going back to school on tuesday
and I'm now a SENIOR!

'09 baby! hehe

I'm gonna try to post some stuff up here soon
if I ever get the chance

but yea, I miss this place.

Now, Give me some lovin'!

]]> ~Aphoticsecret "let go"? What the fuck? http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/13978582/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/13978582/ Wed, 01 Aug 2007 22:32:25 PDT mm..
After only working for 4 or 5 days
I got "let go" from the ice cream shop,
'cause they were overstaffed.

The manager calls me at 10 in the morning
while I was SLEEPING, mind you
and tells me
"You did well kid, but we're overstaffed,
so we won't be needing you for the rest of the summer"

Nice wake up call?
Pissed me off.

and I'm still mad about that.
They got my hopes up so much about working there all summer
that I didn't bother looking for another job.
Now I'm jobless. Little fuckers.

Shvatever! D:

but ANYWAYS.
I finally got to see the Tenacious D: The Pick of Destiny movie.
And let me tell you, It was a mindmaze.
hahaha It was a good movie.

I'm really hoping I get to see my bf Zach soon this summer
I miss him so much and I love him so dearly
Can't wait to cuddle him.
teehee

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smexyclubsofdoom

]]> ~Aphoticsecret wow. It's been forever. http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/13786074/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/13786074/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 19:04:18 PDT
I definitely needed an update. I've been so.. not busy, just lazy I suppose.
Anyways, things are going ok.
So many photographs that I've done in the past and recently, yet I forget about them in countless folders and forget to submit anything here.

I need to be more organized. I know

Anyways, I finally start work tomorrow!
I got a job with one of my very good friends, but she's away on vacation this week, so I'm alone. :[
Crazy, huh? Kris, the lazy bum working?!
I know I know.
Ice cream shop. mmhm.
Seems simple enough, right?
Nooo.. There's all these different kinds and ways of how to do them
which will take me forever to remember.

scratch that.

It probably will not be that hard.
Because I always panic before, then I read these journals and see how stupid I was.

but it's definitely better than sitting on my ass all day
and spending my summer doing nothing.

I'm excited, yet scared 'cause I don't even know how to work the cash register. golly :0

I'll see how it goes haha

-Kris

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Clubs:

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Stop Human Rights Abuse of Immigrants in Greece http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/13531782/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/13531782/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 22:17:35 PDT They degraded them by making them hit each other as a punishment, in front of a camera. Breaking human rights rules.

Now this is not a message against Greeks.

This is a petition against horrible people like the policemen in the video.

Please sign this petition not for me, but for all human beings.

Respond to the recent demonstration of appalling discrimination and human rights violation by Greek authorities towards Albanian immigrants.

[link]

Please pass this on if possible. It would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you
-Kris

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Laziness is no gewd. http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/11488766/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/11488766/ Fri, 19 Jan 2007 00:12:46 PST This song always reminds me of
my love Zach and I

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I've been so tired lately,
probably because of my lack of sleep.
I get about 2-3 hours of sleep each day.
Ending up falling asleep in class is no gewd.

I'm hoping for a snow day in the morning. :]

I'm such an idiot
I left my big poster in some room
that had all my reports and papers
It's probably going to be stolen.

Gaah.. I'm frustrated.

Becides that,
I had a concert today at the VMA.
I kept making a fool of myself, because I couldn't concentrate at all.

It was fun I suppose. The audience seemed to like it though.

Oh and I want to say
Thank you very much everyone that has given me a watch, comments and favs lately!
I'm sorry I have not been updating
But I will as soon as possible.

-Kris

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Clubs:

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Have a Holly Jolly Christmas! http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/11176949/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/11176949/ Sun, 24 Dec 2006 14:41:34 PST Merry Christmas Everyone!

or

Happy Holidays!!
(I don't want to offend anyone
that doesnt celebrate Christmas)

So.. as you know
I've been going through a depression phase lately
but I'm really trying to change everything now
I'm trying to change my outlook on life
and forget about all the shit in the past
I noticed that by me being that way
I was also hurting many other people..
and I dont want to do that

But anyways.. I'll see how that goes

I might see my boyfriend soon
and That would make me oh so happy

I hope it happens

until then..
HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!
I hope you all have a great time!

What did you guys want for christmas?
and/or What did you get?

]]> ~Aphoticsecret 11.14//crap http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/10727816/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/10727816/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 20:21:29 PST
I'm tired
I'm sick
I dont want to talk to anyone anymore..
I'm sick of life
and everything in it
Same shit keeps happening
Because I can never have one fucking good day
at the least
I'm just tired of trying
and I need some warmth
yea.. like that will ever happen..
I should be ok
but somehow I'm not..

I'm in debt with my music school..
because I forgat to apply for finacial aid..
and now I have to pay over $2000..
I haven't even told my parents yet..
I'm sure they'll kill me..

I already got one suspension from school.
whoop-de-fucking-doo

I'm just so stressed out
and I need some peace with myself
and not constatly beating myself up
I'm a disgrace..

I have so much crap in my head
and I know I'm not ok..
at least not at the moment..

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Update. http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/10326750/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/10326750/ Sun, 08 Oct 2006 15:02:26 PDT I'm so confused of where my life is going.
School is turning out to be ok (sometimes)
even though we get so much work.

I suppose things are turning up for me lately.
Which is good. I'm tired of being depressed all the time.

I haven't done much of photography lately.
Busy with other things,
and also my computer got cleaned up
so I lost a lot of shots that I had taken.

mm.. oh well
you can't cry over spilt milk.

I can't wait until halloween.
My sweet 16 birthday is also on November 1st.
so.. I hope that goes well :]

-Kris

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member of:
=justportraits

Current contest entered:
Halloween Portraits Contest!

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All portions of my gallery are © AphoticSecret and must not be used without my written, expressed permission.

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Things change http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9814874/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9814874/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 10:56:05 PDT

Now that I don't feel so down, I've been trying to work on some new stuff, with barely any inspiration left. But I'm getting there.

I'm working on this new website, but I'm such a procastinator, I hardly get any work done. :[

School is going to start next week, and I got some important decisions to make which aren't fun at all.
Hopefully, I'll get through them.

-Kris

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All portions of my gallery are © AphoticSecret and must not be used without my written, expressed permission. ]]> ~Aphoticsecret it's over http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9770077/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9770077/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 09:49:26 PDT I suppose.. some things aren't meant to be..
no matter how hard you try to make it work.
Although, I'm so confuzed and I feel so empty..
I don't know what to do..
I got my hopes up after the engagement,
only to find out something so much worse.

Yet, I'm a pathetic fool, and I still care for him..
I guess, I'm not meant to ever be happy..

I'm going to try to move on, but it's still very hard on me.
I believe in god, that everything will be alright as time passes,
And that, I'll be happy once again.. hopefully.

I just wish that someday,
I can listen to a love song without breaking down in tears..

-Kris

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All portions of my gallery are © AphoticSecret and must not be used without my written, expressed permission. ]]> ~Aphoticsecret How well do you know me?.. Quiz- http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9558953/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9558953/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 20:32:48 PDT just wanted to say that I am indeed engaged
to Zach Dailey ( ~dailey-images ).

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I stole this little quiz from =ArcticFreeze14

If you take it, you get a hug. *huggles*

HONEST OPINION ABOUT ME
Am I cute?-
Am I sweet?-
Am I hot?
Am I ugly?-
Am I crazy?-
Am I lovable?-
Am I funny?-
Am I psycho?-
Am I daring?-
Am I a good person?-

WOULD YOU
Hug me?-
Miss me if I was gone?-
Listen to my problems?-
Hug me if I cried?-
Be a good friend? -
Kiss me?-
Marry me?-
Go out with me?-

HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME
When's my birthday?-
How old am I?-
What school do I go to?-
Do I have any siblings?-
Who is my best friend?-
Favorite color?-
What is my worst subject?-
Best subject?-
Favorite sport?-
Favorite song/songs?-
Favorite music group?-
What song would you dedicate to me?-
What famous person do I most resemble?-

IF YOU COULD
Give me a new name it would be?-
Do one thing with me it would be?-
Drop me one piece of advice it would be?-

JUST A FEW QUESTIONS
What do you love about me?-
What is my best quality?-
If you could change one thing about me it would be?-
What is your honest opinion about me?-

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All portions of my gallery are © AphoticSecret and must not be used without my written, expressed permission.
]]> ~Aphoticsecret 022 http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9383570/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9383570/ Sat, 15 Jul 2006 12:06:24 PDT

Hey everyone.
I know I haven't updated in a long time
and that's because I really havent had
any time or any imagination to do anything new.

I'll try to work on some new stuff.

I just want to apologize.

And thank you all for your support!

But until then..
Vote For Miss Albania In The Miss Universe Pageant!!!!
She's Gorgeous!
You can find all the contestants here [link]
Miss Albania is the first on there. :]

VOTE HERE NOW!! - [link]

-Kris

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All portions of my gallery are © AphoticSecret and must not be used without my written, expressed permission.

]]> ~Aphoticsecret 021 http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9218114/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9218114/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 06:58:14 PDT

Hello there.
Things have been going well.
I suppose you could say that.

School ended.
and I thought I was going to be able to do
some more photography during the free time,
but apparently not, since I cant get out much,
and Im wicked bored
watching stupid shows on TV
because nothing good is on.

Going to the beach soon I think.
I'll get a tan and look hispanic.
Chyeaa

I switched my classes for next year,
cuz I was always complaining about
how much technology/engineering sucked.
So I switched to art class, and I'm thinking of opening
a photography club, if I can find a teacher that will help me run it.

Of course, Im not going to be with any of my friends
in these new classes, but oh well I suppose.
I'll meet some new people,
and if I dont.. I'll read a book or something.
Although Im pretty friendly and make friends fast,
so I dont think that will happen.

well.. dont want to make this journal too long.

à bientôt
-Kris

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All portions of my gallery are © AphoticSecret and must not be used without my written, expressed permission. ]]> ~Aphoticsecret [ dailey-images ] http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9162184/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9162184/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 18:18:09 PDT

Visit my luffly boyfriend Zach site now! ~dailey-images

He has some amazing work, a very unique style,
and It's great seeing him improve his style with no tutorials and books.

He also has some really good digital art, as well as drawings.
I think he was going to put some new pictures up as soon as he could get online. So be patient.

Well, besides his greatness in art, he's also very smexy. There is another reason to go check out his page. Nyeh?

So come on young lads and lasses, dont be afraid to look around Zach's gallery.

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Finally http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9099587/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9099587/ Sat, 17 Jun 2006 20:08:23 PDT

Finals are finally over!

I've had the worst headaches/backaches this weeks,
from those damn exams.
Especially the technology exam..
Let's just say... It was really wicked hard..

Well, besides that,
this week was good for me,
I got to talk to my sweety everyday
and It made me so happy!

Just two more days of school
and summer starts!
which means
being on the phone with Zachy for hours,
eating junk food,
TV nonstop,
going to the beach,
and getting tons and tons of sleep.

ah.. It'll be like heaven.

I got tons of new work
but I'm not sure if I want to post them here yet,
because I'm not fully happy with them.

Ah well.
How was your week?

-Kris

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All portions of my gallery are © AphoticSecret and must not be used without my written expressed permission. ]]> ~Aphoticsecret &update; http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9048494/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/9048494/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 15:42:50 PDT
Well, I thought it was time for a new journal.
Things are going ok so far.
I'm sorry for all these self-portraits.
I know, I'm getting sick of them too.

But I dont have any other models unfortunately.
I have so many ideas that I want to do,
but I can't, at least not yet.

And there are just not many things
you can do with a park.
I need to visit someplace interesting.

I'm not happy with my work,
and I dont expect anyone else to be.

Final exams this week.
Wish me luck.
I'll really need it. @_@

Well, I gotta go study study!
I hope everyone is doing well. :]

Kris

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All portions of my gallery are © AphoticSecret and must not be used without my written expressed permission. ]]> ~Aphoticsecret &&Love http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8952738/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8952738/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 18:18:19 PDT

Yay! Me and my darling are finally back together.
We love each other way too much to be separated.
I can finally start living again.

Words cannot describe how happy I feel.
I finally have my love back!
what more is there to say?

I hope everyone is doing well. :]

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All portions of my gallery are © AphoticSecret and must not be used without my written expressed permission. ]]> ~Aphoticsecret Failed.. http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8929799/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8929799/ Wed, 31 May 2006 11:38:57 PDT

I thought we could really make it..
but we failed.
My heart hopes that he will come back to me..
but I know that that will never happen..

I dont feel good.
I feel like a bomb went off in my heart.
and I know you all will say..
"You'll get over it, there is plenty other fish in the sea"

but that's not the case..
First true love never dies..
and I dont want anyone else but him..
I mean it from the bottom of my heart.

I wish things would return to how they used to be..
I couldnt even get by a day of school..
I broke down every period.. and I havent eaten anything since..

I feel weak..
and my heart is broken and empty..
I need him..
I hope he doesnt forget me..

words cannot describe how much he means to me..

I still love him with all my heart..
I wish he would come back to me..

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Show You Love http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8901265/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8901265/ Sun, 28 May 2006 11:16:24 PDT

Speak- say the words that no one else will ever say
Love- love like the world we know is over in a day

You're beautiful and I am weakened by the force of your eyes
So shine bright to separate the truth from the lies
I'm gonna show you love

I'm gonna show you a love in every language
I'm gonna speak with the words that need no form
I'm gonna give you what you never had before

So tie me to a tree and let the smoke and ash collect
No, I won't regret to let love do what love will let

don't give up and don't let go.

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Shwat?! http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8858368/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8858368/ Tue, 23 May 2006 20:43:46 PDT

So lately, I haven't been happy with my work.
I hate having just self portraits and doing the same thing.
Lack of variations, I tell you.

When I find the most beautiful place for photographs,
or when even I get a nice idea.. I dont have the camera,
or I dont have any models.
And since I dont know how to work the timer/
or even if my camera has a timer rather, that makes my situation worse.

I might delete some pieces from my gallery that dont fully make me happy. I dont know what I'm really going to do yet.

Maybe tomorrow I might get a chance to shoot something decent at least. We'll see, hopefully. ]]> ~Aphoticsecret Cutie-Patootie http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8772648/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8772648/ Sun, 14 May 2006 20:44:07 PDT

Its been a pretty bad weather lately, but I love it. I just wish I could walk to the park and take photographs. Especially in this rainy weather, I think it would be pretty.
I might go do that sometimes. Soon, hopefully.
I cant wait.

I just want to say Thank you to everyone for supporting me.

-Kris

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Help someone in need. ~Megan-Jones-Fund

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Recommend & Funding http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8751794/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8751794/ Fri, 12 May 2006 16:59:25 PDT

been testing on this camera a lot lately and Im super happy that I can actually take some pictures. I know its not much but hey Im practicing.

Now, if you want to recommend me, please do. It's not like I want to become some famous person here on dA, honestly. I just want my work to get out there, and maybe get a critic or two to help me become a better artist. Im really eager to learning more, and I love photography.

here are some banners you can use.
[link] .[link] .[link] .[link] .[link]

These are the times that I really wish I had a subscription.

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in other news.

Please visit this account ~Megan-Jones-Fund

This account has been set up in order to raise money for Megan Jones. She is 19, lives in the UK and has a malignant brain tumour. The treatment she need is only available in the US and will cost in excess of £50,000. This account is one of a few attempts at raising the money for her.
For more information, read this letter- [link]
No money is required, to help all you have to do is donate a piece of work by note to ~Megan-Jones-Fund suitable to be uploaded as a print. 100% of profits from the print go directly to Megan.

If you do wish to pass this message on, feel free to copy the information into your own journal so we can spread the word around.

---- ]]> ~Aphoticsecret Need some brushes mon! + Emo Quiz! http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8645812/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8645812/ Mon, 01 May 2006 20:17:52 PDT

I thought it would be time for a new journal. nyeh?

Things are going a bit better I guess.
I love the new camera, and I can use it sometimes now for photography stuff. It makes me giggle.

but I was wondering if someone knew a place where I can get some PSP8 brushes, because I really want some for photomanipulation. But they only have PhotoShop Brushes, I havent seen any Paint Shop Pro 8 ones at all.

so If you know where to get some snazzy brushes, pwease let me know and you get a hug!

well. Toodles =]

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I'll update this later when I get less lazy.

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Stole this EMO quiz on =ArcticFreeze14

[ ] I listen to Dashboard Confessional
[x] I have cried myself to sleep
[x] I have woken up crying from a dream
[ ] I have cried over an ex
[ ] I have cried in a corner
[x] I have cried next to a window
[ ] I own a billion sweaters
[ ] I own an argyle sweater
[ ] almost NONE of them fit properly
[ ] I'm a guy and wear chick pants
[ ] I'm a guy and wear eyeliner
[x] my eyeliner is black...and ONLY black
[ ] My sister gave me eyeliner for Christmas
[ ] I cried out of joy when I got that eyeliner
[ ] I have all 12 myspace pictures
[ ] most of them are of my head in wierd lighting, are black and white or are of me in weird hats/fancy clothes
[ ] [link].sometimes
[x] I've written songs about a breakup
[x] I still cry when I read the lyrics
[ ] I play guitar
[ ] It's almost ALWAYS acoustic
[ ] I keep a dream journal
[x] I have at least one stuffed animal on my bed at all times
[x] I change my default pic often
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ringer
[ ] I cry every time I hear it, bc its one of my favorite songs
[ ] I dont personally know 99.99999 percent of my myspace friends
[x] Nobody understands the real me
[ ] I have dyed my hair black, blue or deep red
[x] I am a straightedge
[ ] I dont hang out with non-edges
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my haircolor
[ ] Real punks tend to beat me up alot
[x] I am a camera Whore
[x] I love to have people do my hair and make-up
[ ] There is a phrase such as "music is my boyfriend" on my myspace
[x] I love to give and recieve hugs
[x] I hate germs
[x] I am self-concious all the time
[x] I like the way I look when Im crying
[ ] I dont do sports
[ ] I just stand around during Punk/Ska concerts
[x] I can't skate (*cough* >_>

[x] I have borrowed clothing from a member of the opposite sex before
[x] I know that Emo stands for emotional
[ ] I usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house
[ ] I only have like 5 billion hair products
[ ] One of my myspace pictures is of me crying
[x] My best feature is my hair (maybe? I dunno o_0

[ ] My special talent is to be able to "emo flip" my hair
[x] One of my myspace pictures is of me making a kissy face ( I deleted it though x3)
[ ] I almost never spend more than two dollars on a shirt
[x] I reapply my eyeliner up to 200 times a day
[x] I have wished I was never born
[ ] "caring is creepy" means something to me
[ ] I know who that song is by
[ ] I just started listening to their cd
[ ] And now I'm crying
[ ] I know that Sunny Day Real Estate is not a real estate agency
[ ] I have their cd
[x] Guys with mohawks are Cool people to hang around
[x] I dislike animals which are bigger than me
[x] This include... ]]> ~Aphoticsecret New things?.. maybe? :O http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8565268/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8565268/ Sun, 23 Apr 2006 20:31:06 PDT

Well, got some good news and got some bad ones.

For starters, my parents bought my sister a new digital camera for her birthday, so hopefully I will be able to use her camera for photography stuff. But my mom said, she might be able to buy me a real proffesional camera for my birthday. Lets hope, nyeh?

As I said in my last journal, that I might re-start drawing again. It's not working that well for me, I've tried drawing again, but all the pictures look like crap, so they just end up in the trash. But Im willing to try again... so gotta have some practice before I post anymore drawings up here. I'm truly sorry.

Things are generally going ok, even though Im kind of experiencing some depression again. But not to worry, I'll be fine.

well, 'till next time..

Thank you!

]]> ~Aphoticsecret So, I've decided.. http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8294670/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8294670/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 12:37:45 PST

So I've decided that..
I really have to get back to drawing.

I miss doing it but now..
it seems like I cant do it anymore.

I need to draw and design the character Rose
which I'm voiceacting for ~dailey-images and ~ChaosAngel09's show called Colide
I already have a bunch of ideas for her clothes etc.
but need to really try drawing again.

On another topic..
It was Zachs and I's 13th month anniversary yesterday

Awwww...

I'll be updating this journal for farther information.

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]]> ~Aphoticsecret So there was this time at band camp... http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8134955/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8134955/ Sat, 11 Mar 2006 21:52:19 PST Mood:

too many things to do..
Listening to: "Fly Farther" by~ Jars of Clay

Quote of the day: "Grow old along with me, The best is yet to be.. " - Robert Browning
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So my subscription ended and Kris is sad : (
I wish I had a real subby. ;_;
I thought it was a time for an update.

So anyways.. School is being a beeznatch.
I have 3 projects/1 test due on the same day which sucks

I can barely talk to Zach now..
because my sister doesnt let me use the phone..
and it really sucks, cuz I get so depressed when Im without him..

I cant wait to finally see him this summer *sob*

Music rehersal went well for once in the whole year.
Concert tomorrow.. not that excited about it.. x_X... I hate wearing high heels and getting dressed up for it.

so.. yea.. I have so many ideas for photography pics that I want to do so badly, but I dont have a cam ..so there goes that.

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]]> ~Aphoticsecret I love how unknown I'm on dA :D http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8066105/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/8066105/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 14:39:24 PST

..and it's official.
Im addicted to photomanip and photography.
Im always on psp8 messing around with pictures.
'tis not healthy.

I wish I had a nice digital camera so I could do more with my pictures. ): Guess, I'll have to use my old pictures Ive taken.

Things have been going so so lately.
Some personal problems, dont want to get into them.

Although, I do wish I could get some more feedback on my stuff. I just want to know what people think so I can improve.
I really enjoy doing this and Im glad I got back into it. C:

DragonForce is going to have a concert here soon and I cant wait to go. They're a pretty awesome band C:

7 day free subscription trial = Love

This picture is dedicated to my boyfriend Zach

*~My dear Zach
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doodlebob42@yahoo.com

]]> ~Aphoticsecret Back with some new stuff :D http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/7980540/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/7980540/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 12:23:07 PST Hello Everyone.

I know I have been gone for a long time and I apologize for it. ):

Things have been going a little better if I may say so myself. Being with Zach for almost a year now has really made me think of the negatives differently and he has helped me through a lot. Thanks hun

So, I've decided that Im leaving my ~KeelyTheLLama account, because I cant handle two accounts. I might leave all my old photos up there for people to see, but I might delete them in the future. But as for now, Im going to be throwing everything into this account.

Well, Im back for a while with some new pictures :]

Hope you guys will like them n_n ]]> ~Aphoticsecret Im back.. at least for a bit.. http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/7242402/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/7242402/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 21:00:40 PST Current Mood: Crappy~
Currently listening to: Downfall ~ Children of Bodom
Currently wanting to: Call Zach and Sleep ;__;

Hey everyone... I just want to apologize for not being here for a long time. Some things just have not being going that great.
I dont really want to get into it.

My drawing skillz still suck, but hey.. Im trying to get back up to were I was.

I'll try to update every once in a while, and I'll post anything new that I have.

Thank you :]

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Lyrics~ Something Corporate

..and it's over, but it just started
the blood stained the carpet
her heart like a crystal
she's lucid and departed
a life left behind, she can find in her mind gone away

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Currently listening to: "Bloodwork" by ~ 36 Crazyfists WOOT!

Currently Wondering: ...Im so gonna fail my history project for tomorrow ¬_¬;
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Hey youz guyzes.... I just want to say, I am so sorry that i havent been here in like forever.
School is taking a lot of my time now. Way more homework than last year and Its way harder, at least for me it is.
Im really trying hard everynight and I still cant make the grades. I only get about 2-3 hours of sleep everynight.
So thats why I havent been able to do anything for dA. I havent even drawn in a long time.
I think I even lost all of my drawing skillz0rz! (If I ever had any x3 ) ..But Seriosly, when I try to draw something, I totally fail and just cant do it anymore. I have to practice some more for a while until I can put something at least half decent up here.
Im thinking of taking just a little bit of time off of dA. Just a little bit, just until I make a little bit better grades, until I get to relax and get some time off of school. Im so stressed out @~@;;...

and yes, I want to thank everyone for supporting me.
Thank you so much!

I will see you all in a little while! n_n

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]]> ~Aphoticsecret Back In Black! :D http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/6403713/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/6403713/ Sat, 03 Sep 2005 08:40:05 PDT Currently feeling: A Happy Goose

Currently listening to: Left Behind ~ Slipknot

Currently Wondering: If you go back in time before you were born and you kill your parents, doesnt that mean that you were never born in the first place to go back in time and kill your parents? Oo;;
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Yusss.... Im back! D:..

Traveling was fun, We went through New York, Pennslyvania (sp? xD;

, Ohio, Indiana, and Illinois (where we stayed)

It was pretty nice there I guess.
When we entered Chicago, It looked exactly like Boston here exept much filthier xD;..
But yea, I didnt have much to do there exept help with the wedding. I called a few friends of mine on the phone, to just talk to them *coughMaycough* xD..

The Groom was pretty nice though, it was the first time meeting him and he had a nice family too =O

When we were to rehersal, The pastor was so funny though, he was more than a joker than a priest xD;..

I did draw a few sketches when I was in there but not much because I listened to a lot of music instead and I was also very tired and absolute no inspiration for drawing o_o;;

but I drew a few, and Im gonna post them up here soon n_n
and now I got some new drawing pencils, Im gonna test them out soon with some new sketches ^^

Thank you for your time n_n

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]]> ~Aphoticsecret Vacation here I come! =O http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/6305834/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/6305834/ Tue, 23 Aug 2005 11:04:23 PDT Currently feeling:... meh

Currently listening to: Simple Design ~ Breaking Benjamin

Currently Wondering: Whats with Mariah and bathtubs?... still...

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Finally! I get to go away this summer! Im going to a Wedding in Chicago Illinois for a week. Its gonna be an over 16 hour drive to get there from here e_e;;...

anyways, Im not gonna be here for a week, so I have to turn off the thing-ah-mah-bob so I wont get a lot of messages.

and I get to miss the first two days of school

But, since Im gonna get some free time, Im gonna draw a lot I think, or maybe sit on mah ass all day. I still dont know.
and I have to do that crap of summer reading thing x__x...

But Im most likely to have some done sketches when I come back! ^_^

Miss me already?... I didnt think so ._.;

Hope to see you all pretty soon! ^^

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]]> ~Aphoticsecret Welcome Me! http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/6265837/ http://Aphoticsecret.deviantart.com/journal/6265837/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 21:16:50 PDT
Although I do have some drawings in my other account, Im still not sure If I should leave them there or delete them there and submit there here. Im going to need an opinion on that please.

well If you wish to know more about me and all that Jaz, you can Visit my photography account~

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