http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Artemekiia&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Artemekiia en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 06:20:45 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/28642218/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/28642218/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 01:15:58 PST messa JUST GAVE ME THREE MONTHS PAID TIME, ILU SO MUCH BB YOU'RE AMAZING. I'm so excited to discover all the fancy paid account features! OMG I can make polls now, and and have stamps, and I have a shout box, and and and OMG I CAN HAVE A FANCY JOURNAL SKIN. OMGGGGGGG



Also, welcome to all my new watchers, thank you so much for checking out my gallery! I haven't been uploading much, but now that I have a paid account I really want to make a concerted effort to turn out work on a more regular basis (or at least make a commitment to upload more often). It'll be a partay up in hee-uh.



Lastly, for this very brief update, I'm in the process of writing a guide on giving and receiving critique, so if you're interested stay tuned. I'm also going to be making a critique queue for those looking for in depth reviews of their work. Details in the coming journal entry!



Until then, let us bask in the light and magnificence that is Leonard "Bones" McCoy~

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/26143295/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/26143295/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 03:37:02 PDT
She's awesome. Go check out her work. Do it now. She's amazing. She goes to MCAD, of course she's amazing.

And uhhhhh.




.... >___>;; I'm *messa. Srsly.

AND IT'S LIKE, FIVE THIRTY IN THE MORNING. WE GET UP IN FOUR AND A HALF HOURS. SHE HAS TO DRIVE. HAHAHAHA. WE SHOULD PROBABLY GET TO BED

WE JUST HAD THE BEST MOST AWESOMEST WEEK WITH *Nadadee AND WE WENT TO AVENTURELAND AND GOT AWESOME TURTLES AND ATE FUNNEL CAKE AND WE SURVIVED HER FREAKY OLD HAUNTED HOUSE AND ......... PLAYED.... MARIO KART.. AND .... SUCKED AT IT

AND IT WAS AWESOME

We had lots of fun

We really should go to bed now.

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE *SMOOCHAS*

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/25818090/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/25818090/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 13:07:52 PDT
Also, I am working on the hugest crush I've ever had, which has me feeling all floaty and silly. I'm usually far too practical about things to let myself get this way, but I seriously can't get this guy out of my head. I've never had such a hard time convincing myself to be rational, it's ridiculous. He's super funny, has the most amazing laugh, giant hazel eyes, and awesome hair that I just want to run my fingers through every time I see him. That's all I'm going to say though, I've already said too much .

OMG, I'm in love with this animation right now though.

EDIT:
Okay, clearly DeviantArt is retarded when it comes to links, just go to youtube and search either "Revolution of the Crabs" or "La Revolution Des Crabes".

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/23495285/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/23495285/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 17:57:01 PST
EDIT: Unfortunately I can't upload a screenshot into the animation category (WTF deviantart) so I'll just be uploading into either traditional or digital sections for still work as the occasion arises.

Anyway, if my schedule allows I would LIKE to do some drawings for pleasure, so what should I draw? I already have some chibis in the queue for coloring, is there anything else you'd like to see from me, dear watchers?

I'd write more but I didn't sleep last night and only got four hours the night before, so instead I'll just leave you with this:
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]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/20612673/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/20612673/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 02:45:06 PDT
.... Can you tell I went to the RenFest yesterday ?

And hey, I hit 5k hits without even noticing. Go me!

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/17731540/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/17731540/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 12:57:40 PDT D !!

Oh, also, if you live in the Minneapolis/St. Paul area of Minnesota (or you're anwhere within a 1000 mile radius) it's your obligation to come to Spyhouse Coffee to see my illustration (this one:[link] ). Ahaha, the power of coffee compells you!! Also, they have great chai.

Also, WOO TWO MORE DAYS 'TIL MOM AND JESSE GET HERE I'M SO EXCITED YAAAYYY.

Oh, ahaha, also I changed my major from illustration to animation. I've been neglecting my DA account this semester so I forgot to mention it .

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/15683539/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/15683539/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 17:48:28 PST . My gallery is definitely MUCH stronger as a whole now. I can't believe I thought some of those horrible snapshots were submission worthy! I did leave some of my older drawings though, so that people can see my development. It's always fun to see where people have come from with their work.

I must say though, Thanksgiving break was a smashing success and I had a great time. Of course, finding out your oven is broken three hours after you've put the turkey in isn't generally good but we didn't have any extra company and just laughed out asses off all the way to my grandparents' house to cook.

Anyway, I'm back at good ol' MCAD now, and I have SO much work to do. That wouldn't be such a daunting task if I weren't still just exhausted, despite the break. I'm discovering this semester just how mean people can be too, and my faith in humanity is slowly declining. Thank god for friends though, I can just wrap up in their warmth and ignore it. I've been kind of depressed ever since Sunday when I received a second email from an ex-friend who is obviously just trying to hurt me as much as possible (I won't name names here, but I know some of my MCAD friends know him). I decided to just drop it and delete anymore messages without opening them since this school and my family life is difficult enough without being attacked all the time. Oh the power of friends though. A two minute conversation with my friend Jamie and I've shrugged it off and found my second win. Thanks dude !!

Wish me luck! Hopefully I won't crash and burn this semester!!

Edit: Whoah, I'm almost at 3500 pageviews! When did that happen ??

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/15513498/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/15513498/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 21:01:24 PST
-Communicating with teachers so I won't fail completely and get kicked out

-The Learning Center (they helped me work out a good schedule so I can hopefully get everything done and NOT die in the process )

-Free massages at my school's Spa Day

Yes, so those things are all made of win and I really should have done them at least a month ago (except the spa day because that wasn't available a month ago XD;; ).

Hooray for and , you guys totally rock. I feel like someone's pressed my reset button or something and now I wanna drink more often. Especially with hot guys. So I can kiss them and not care about stupid stuff. Yeeessss.

If I had I wouldn't have so much work to get done, but hey! Now I have a schedule so I don't feel like my head is about to explode.

That massage was wonderful though because I threw my back out last week. I basically couldn't move for two days. That was all kinds of fun, let me tell you -_-;;; .

Anyway, my ulterior motive was to get that last entry off my front page because it's just too depressing to look at for finals time . I keep having dreams that I'm home and Zuna comes running out of the bushes all plump and soft and I just snuggle her. It makes me very sad when I wake up....

Anyway, I'm off for another upload binge!! Yay !!!

Edit:

I almos forgot to mention, I LOVE the holiday season . I feel a bit ashamed because I usually complain about Christmas being everywhere before Thanksgiving, but I've already got Christmas icons on my dock and I'm listening to holiday music . I'm just a big flake, that's what I am. And I wouldn't have it any other way .

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/15209542/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/15209542/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 23:16:39 PDT
I love you Zuna, and I hope you come home.

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I really don't know if I can pull it out of the fire this semester. I just want to go home at this point. I've already missed more classes than I should and I'm behind on my work. I just have no energy left to do anything.

They say when it rains it pours, right? Well this is a freaking hurricane. I just need a break. Please, can I take a break from life?

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/14893250/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/14893250/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 00:29:22 PDT
Anyway, I know I haven't uploaded anything in FOREVER but I finally got around to documenting my work from last semester. So, la. I'll go upload it now.

AND!! New icon time !!! It might not last very long, but I was getting tired of the last one. I'll have a new ID up soon too, as soon as I dig myself out from under this mountain of homework T^T .

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/14326788/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/14326788/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 22:45:35 PDT ).

Anyway, my new place is teh bomb and it rocks having only one roomie. The fact that we're friends and are on the exact same wavelength about everything we've talked about so far is just gravy. Really super rich, awesome, gourmet gravy.

Dude!! I so can't wait to get my desk too!! No more sitting on the couch and holding a drawing board in my lap for me!! I'm getting one of these babies: [link]

I'm so excited I can barely stand it!!

Anyway, I'll start posting again soon, I promise .

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/13962843/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/13962843/ Tue, 31 Jul 2007 21:19:35 PDT .>..... This is gonna suck to clean up when I actually get a consistent internet connection again.....

T_T

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/13137421/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/13137421/ Tue, 29 May 2007 11:37:31 PDT .

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/12798020/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/12798020/ Tue, 01 May 2007 01:43:49 PDT .>......"

And I just went to put my retainers in (after finally brushing my teeth, mind you) and there's black stuff growing in them. Eww. No wonder I get sore throats after wearing them XP.

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/12551289/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/12551289/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 09:21:47 PDT
Monday:
-Art History, 9:30-noon
-Illustration 2, 1-6pm

Tuesday:
-Asian Art History, 9:30-noon
-Graphic Design 1, 1-6pm

Wednesday & Thursday:
-Sleep 101 with a minor in homework

Friday:
-Media 2, 1-6pm

w00t!!!! And no drawing class!!! I get to take a break!!!! Hallelujah!!!!

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/12390463/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/12390463/ Fri, 30 Mar 2007 15:03:23 PDT
I'm not saying that is anyones intention and I'm not trying to attack anyone as I've seen this happen several times on Deviant Art. It's just aggravating for those of us with talent who DON'T get a lot of traffic on our pieces to watch popular AND talented artists get angry for people responding to their work. Hey, at least people are taking the time to respond to and enjoy it. Let me say this loud and clear.

BEING POPULAR ON DEVIANT ART DOES NOT MAKE YOU AN ART GOD.

I know some people will think that's arrogant and whiny and say I'm just jealous that I'm not popular, but number of pageviews and watchers doesn't determine your worth, for god's sakes. I do wish I got more feedback on my work but that doesn't mean that I think that popular artists deserve their success less. On the contrary, I have several friends (you know who you are ) that have great galleries and are very gracious and mature about their popularity.

But that's a bit of a tangent. Let me put this bluntly. What message do you think putting advanced critique discouraged sends? I want you to look at my work but don't actually put any thought into it? I want you to leave really worthless comments about how awesome I am? Seems to me that's not healthy at ALL for a community of artists. Of course if you're putting up a work in progress I can understand not wanting to alter a certain course you've decided on, but what about in progress critiques? Some of my best pieces are so great because I got comments partway through making them.

All in all, that's my response. If you have your own feelings and thoughts on the subject, please I would love to hear them. Perhaps we can discuss it further and reach a more round and educated conclusion.

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/12213885/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/12213885/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 00:58:55 PDT
La.

Now, I go to bed. Which I should've done hours ago. Not smart to stay up till 3am the night after an allnighter.

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/11894418/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/11894418/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 12:37:07 PST
By the way, I just wanted to say that it's totally awesome how I've been getting even more watchers lately. Thanks guys!!

But for now..... C'mon Nyquil, take me to oblivion baby!!

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/11652849/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/11652849/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 20:24:59 PST !!!!

TO WHOEVER WROTE THIS AMAZING PIECE: THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!

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To those who are looking for someone to do work for free… please wake up and join the real world

Every day, there are more and more CL posts seeking “artists” for everything from auto graphics to comic books to corporate logo designs. More people are finding themselves in need of some form of illustrative service.

But what they’re NOT doing, unfortunately, is realizing how rare someone with these particular talents can be.

To those who are “seeking artists”, let me ask you; How many people do you know, personally, with the talent and skill to perform the services you need? A dozen? Five? One? …none?

More than likely, you don’t know any. Otherwise, you wouldn’t be posting on craigslist to find them.

And this is not really a surprise.

In this country, there are almost twice as many neurosurgeons as there are professional illustrators. There are eleven times as many certified mechanics. There are SEVENTY times as many people in the IT field.

So, given that they are less rare, and therefore less in demand, would it make sense to ask your mechanic to work on your car for free? Would you look him in the eye, with a straight face, and tell him that his compensation would be the ability to have his work shown to others as you drive down the street?

Would you offer a neurosurgeon the “opportunity” to add your name to his resume as payment for removing that pesky tumor? (Maybe you could offer him “a few bucks” for “materials”. What a deal!)

Would you be able to seriously even CONSIDER offering your web hosting service the chance to have people see their work, by viewing your website, as their payment for hosting you?

If you answered “yes” to ANY of the above, you’re obviously insane. If you answered “no”, then kudos to you for living in the real world.

But then tell me… why would you think it is okay to live out the same, delusional, ridiculous fantasy when seeking someone whose abilities are even less in supply than these folks?

Graphic artists, illustrators, painters, etc., are skilled tradesmen. As such, to consider them as, or deal with them as, anything less than professionals fully deserving of your respect is both insulting and a bad reflection on you as a sane, reasonable person. In short, it makes you look like a twit.

A few things you need to know;

1. It is not a “great opportunity” for an artist to have his work seen on your car/’zine/website/bedroom wall, etc. It IS a “great opportunity” for YOU to have their work there.

2. It is not clever to seek a “student” or “beginner” in an attempt to get work for free. It’s ignorant and insulting. They may be “students”, but that does not mean they don’t deserve to be paid for their hard work. You were a “student” once, too. Would you have taken that job at McDonalds with no pay, because you were learning essential job skills for the real world? Yes, your proposition it JUST as stupid.

3. The chance to have their name on something that is going to be seen by other people, whether it’s one or one million, is NOT a valid enticement. Neither is the right to add that work to their “portfolio”. They get to do those things ANYWAY, after being paid as they should. It’s not compensation. It’s their right, and it’s a given.

4. Stop thinking that you’re giving them some great chance to work. Once they skip over your silly ad, as they should, the next ad is usually for someone who lives in the real world, and as such, will pay them. There are far more jobs needing these skills than there are people who possess these skills.

5. Students DO need “experience”. But they do NOT need to get it by giving their work away. In fact, this does not even offer them the experience they need. Anyone who will not/can not pay them is obviously the type of person or business they should be ashamed to have on their resume anyway. Do you think professional contractors list the “experience” they got while nailing down a loose step at their grandmother’s house when they were seventeen?

If you your company or gig was worth listing as desired experience, it would be able to pay for the services it received. The only experience they will get doing free work for you is a lesson learned in what kinds of scrubs they should not lower themselves... ]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/11416953/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/11416953/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 00:22:20 PST
I'M SO GLAD TO BE RID OF THAT PLACE AND THOSE PEOPLE.

I'm sooo much happier with my new roommates and my new apartment. It's so much friendlier and open up here and the apmosphere is so different, even though it's the exact same floor plan and my bed is right above where it used to be.

For those of you who haven't had roommates yet, PLEASE be nice to them. For those of you that have had roommates or have them now, I really hope you were nice to them. Bad roommates SUCK.

I must say that I got my revenge though. I got my shelf!! HA!!! Take that! They had all their food and crap on it and I got relegated to the very top shelf (on my very own fracking shelf!!), but I go them back by taking it!! They wanted to buy it from me but I have triumphed and taken my power and my shelf back. Suck on that, douchy roommates!!!!!!

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/11020305/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/11020305/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 17:26:36 PST . Wooh, we're procrastination buddies now !!!

And, how could I almost forget, it's only five hours until I'm 19!!! Oh boy!!!

How stupid are you?

[x] I have walked into a glass/screen door.

[x] I have tripped on my shoelace and fallen on my face.

[x] I have choked on my own spit. (Not fun.)

[ ] I’ve seen the Matrix a bunch of times and still don't get it.

[ ] I type only with my pointer fingers.(used to )

[x] I have accidently caught something on fire. (I can't remember what, but I know I have )

[ ] I’ve told a cop to freck off and gotten screwed for it.

[x] I attempted to sip out of a straw but it accidently went into my nose, rather than my mouth. (Dude, I don't even know how I did that. I've spewed out my nose more times than I care to recall, too)

[x] Sometimes when I think of something funny, I laugh out loud and people look at me weird. (My roommates think I'm sooo weird....)

[x] I’ve caught myself drooling.

[ ] I’ve accidently caused an explosion. (Cant' say I have, though there's always tomorrow )

[ ] If someone says the word "fart", I can’t help but laugh.

[ ] I’ve turned into a "do not enter" one way road plenty of times.

[x] Sometimes I just stop thinking & zone out.

[x] It is POSSIBLE to lick your elbow. (I'm sure a contortionist could)

[x] I just tried to lick my elbow. (But I am, alas, not a contortionist ....)

[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from me. (Oh, ALL the time)

[x] People often tell me to use my "inside voice". (Yes, I am SO loud)

[x] Gum has fallen out of my mouth while talking. (I never, ever chew gum though, so you might say that I'm out of practice)

[x] I’ve used my fingers to do simple math. (Yes, I suck at teh math. That's why I'm at an art school where we have NO math )

[x] I’ve jumped off a moving vehicle. (Hey, golf carts count!)

[ ] I ate a bug for $5 or less.

[x] I’m taking this test when I should be doing something more important. (My poor, neglected drawing final )

[ ] I repost chain letters because I’m scared of what they threaten will happen if I don’t.

[ ] I’ve done something really stupid while I was drunk.

[ ] I’ve ran around naked when I was drunk.

[ ] I’ve ran into a golf cart tire when I was drunk

[x] I’ve searched all over the place for something, and then realized it was in my hand the whole time. (about once every week or two, yeah .....)

[x] I accidently break a lot of things. (My friends know how much of a klutz I am)

[ ] My friends know not to use big words around me.

[x] My friends like me because I’m fun to laugh at. (Not the MAIN reason, but they stick around longer than they usually would otherwise, I think)

[x] I tilt my head to the side when I’m confused.

[x] Sometimes I start telling a story and suddenly forget what I’m talking about. (Alzheimers, early onset. REALLY early )

[x] I’ve fallen out of my chair before. (usually when I'm laughing at something because I. Laugh. HARD.)

[x] When I’m lying in bed, I sometimes stare at the ceiling and try to find pictures and words in the texture. (maybe it's part of that whole insomniac thing )

Multiply your answer by 4 and thats how... ]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/10887459/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/10887459/ Wed, 29 Nov 2006 06:56:51 PST
On the other hand, I drew just about the CUTEST picture ever!! It'll be new avatar time, soon !!!

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/10860478/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/10860478/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 18:50:57 PST ....

ZhaoWuxia's Journal:

FIRST 10 PEOPLE TO REPLY TO THIS JOURNAL GET FEATURED ON HERE.

Be one of the first 10 people to comment to this entry and I will rummage through your galleries and pick your 3 best works and post them here on my journal for all to see! The catch is, you have to post this on your journal as well. I will post the 10 commentors later this week, just to make you're keeping your end of the deal!

Ready...set...GO!!!

ZhaoWuxia

This dude is just wickedly funny.
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thriced-cursed

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]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/10472422/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/10472422/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 04:42:59 PDT
That's right, my roommate is having sex on the futon.

So, That was probably at about, hmmm..... 3:30. I actually realized I didn't have my retainers in and couldn't hear anything because of the TV blasting Clockwork Orange (which is just a creepy movie anyway) and I saw something I really didn't want to see. Really.

I am so totally moving out.

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/10342190/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/10342190/ Mon, 09 Oct 2006 21:45:58 PDT
w00t for snow forts!!! I'm totally gonna buld one!!!!

]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/9886254/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/9886254/ Mon, 28 Aug 2006 15:26:27 PDT
w00t for Macs!!!!! ]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/8013308/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/8013308/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 21:49:34 PST w00000000000000000000000000000000t!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I get to go freeze my butt off in the winter with Nyamo, 'cause we're goin' to Minnesota!! Booya!!!!! ]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/7983876/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/7983876/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 18:29:43 PST ), a sheet of tin foil, and a couple of pieces of cheap bristol board that amounted to about the same area as your average piece of computer paper. We weren't allowed to use any pens or pencils either. It was all high school juniors and seniors with a small sprinkling of sophomores and the product of out labors looked like the efforts of elementary schoolers. Besides that, when we gathered at 9 o'clock They didn't just tell us the rules and let us get to work. No, they had to blab on about the most useless things for HALF OF A FRAKKING HOUR!!!!!!!!! Give me a frakking BREAK!!! Not only were the supplies inadequate, they cut down on our already too-short working time. So of course when 11 o'clock rolled around I was frantically taping the disparate pieces together and scribbling color on it when this snotty bitch walks up and says, "Didn't you hear us say 'time's up?'" Needless to say, that nettled me further and in my frazzled state I can hardly be expected to be NICE, can I? Of course not. So I simply informed her that I didn't appreciate her attitude (though not as politely as that) and that we were promised two hours and allowed only one and a half. She beat a rather hasty retreat. One thing I will say in their defence (though it's a poor defense and I believe I could have at least partially pulled it off if I had been allowed the full 2 hours) is that my idea, which was to construct a face with blinking eyes that could look side to side, moving eyebrows (which was the only moving feature I managed), and a mouth that could open and close. It failed miserably, but that is in part because of the limits on supplies and time. I mean, if they wanted us to make stuff move even just providing some popsicle sticks would have made it that much better. As you can see, I'm NOT happy with today's results. ]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/7878952/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/7878952/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 23:48:36 PST
So, how did she get herself kicked out, you ask? Well, as usual she was wasting food during dinner while we were watching the Winter Olympics by using titanic scoops of mayonnaise and gargantuan glops of ketchup for one small piece of salmon burger, Mom told her we can't afford to waste food like that, Emily got angry, and it spiralled out of control until Emily basically told Mom that it's disgusting how Mom doesn't provide her with whatever she wants when she wants it. In as many words. DISGUSTING, she said. She actually used this very word in that context. Now do you understand why I want to kick her and rip her hair out until she stops breathing? That sent Mom through the roof and she told Emily to pack her bags. Then Emily cried like she always does and Mom let her stay. That's a very abridged version, mind you. There was a lot of screaming and running back and forth while I was sitting in the kitchen pushing the food around on my plate, my stomach in knots.

But do you want to know the part that just really makes me sick? Ten minutes later Emily was laughing and smiling like nothing had ever happened and being polite and compliant, as though she thought she were polishing some kind of halo. She thinks she can kick a person in the face and then be best friends the next minute. I have had it with her and I told her so as soon as Mom left the room. I also told her that she would've been out on her ass a long time ago if it weren't for Mom. Then she did the unbelievable. After all that, she tried to SASS me. She said it doesn't matter what I say because I'm the LITTLE sister. It got really quiet then and I watched her face change from condescending to that of a mouse looking up into the gaping maw of a cat. I don't actually remember what I told her, all I know is that I said it really low and dangerous and she didn't sass me again.

Then, just a bit ago I was sitting here in the office downstairs, uploading a new sketch to DeviantArt, when all of a sudden there was a sound like a handful of gravel hitting the window and I whipped around to see Emily's sneering face in the yard with a cat food bowl in one hand. When our eyes met her expression became panicked and she tried to run away. I caught her and had to fight the urge to drown her in the pool. Again, there she was wasting things, even if was just cat food and I had to stand there and ball my fists so that I wouldn't slap her. Her eyes were red and puffy from crying. Mine, on the other hand, were so dry that they hurt. I don't know why I don't cry like they do when things get heated, I just don't. I don't even cry later, I just stay dry and angry. I was so angry and I glared at the spoiled, selfish, apathetic, and thoroughly useless lump of a human being in front of me as she hastily squeaked out an apology. I knew she would, not out of any sincere feelings of regret or guilt, but only because she could see the cold hatred in my eyes and feel the rage smoldering before her. I took a step closer. All I had to say was that she better be careful and she was scared again. I hope she's still scared. I hope she's so scared that she wets herself and has nightmares. If she's not then I'll just have to reming her tomorrow.

So now here I am at a quarter til midnight on a Sunday night and Emily and I still live under the same roof. I've been emotionally, mentally, and physically drained not only by my sister's outburst but by an entire weekend with Emily and Dad (talk about peas in a pod) yammering in both ears. I suppose I've sort of waxed eloquent on this journal entry, but it's cathartic and seemed right. So life will continue, but I'd just like to make it known that the main thing keeping me going right at this moment is the fervent hope that I might get to kick Emily's ass someday soon. And it will be a glorious ass-kicking, the like of which has never been seen before. ]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/7809005/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/7809005/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 12:34:01 PST .... I'm totally on a roll, too because I already have like, three pieces finished and several more on the way after figuring this out, what, yesterday? Heh heh heh! Observe the Pokey-Joe at its most productive!!! ]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/7725849/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/7725849/ Fri, 27 Jan 2006 18:26:40 PST
Woe upon your Cylon heart
There’s a toaster in your head
And it wears high heels


Number Six calls to you
The Cylon Detector beckons
Your girlfriend is a toaster


Woe upon your Cylon heart
Alas, disgrace! Alas, sadness and misery!


The toaster has a pretty dress
Red like its glowing spine
Number Six whispers
By your command

This is definitely one of my favorite songs now. ]]> *Artemekiia http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/7620632/ http://Artemekiia.deviantart.com/journal/7620632/ Mon, 16 Jan 2006 13:00:39 PST !!! A couple of girls volunteered to pose but they just sort of sat there and didn't come up with any interesting poses.

So now I'm sitting here trying to write my essay so I can apply to the Minneapolis College of Art and Design and it sucks!! Nothing is flowing and beyond that, my mom won't shut up about how I have to clean my room. I am not having a very good day.... ]]> *Artemekiia