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so anyway, it's the christmas break already and we've been piled up with homework. at least this time, i actually enjoy this one.XD I'll be working on my 8-page comic for my comics class. it's about a tech scavenger girl and an assassin bot in search for an unlimited power source among the lost tech of the apollo cruiser wreckage. those two would be J.A.C. and Lia from my latest post.

I'm actually excited about this one since it's the first time i actually made a working comic script. I've always had episode scripts, but i always lacked the layout. at least this time, i could visualize it.

so, as long as i don't get distracted by all the video games i got for christmas, i'll prolly post my progress here. and IF i even have time, i'll prolly even color it.

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/21502981/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/21502981/ Sat, 15 Nov 2008 14:49:00 PST
so.... either I post the updates here per scene like how I used to back in my High Time days, or if you guys watching me on their list have any good suggestion on where I could post my scripts without too many flamers. i posted my old script on fanfiction.net and it was flamed like there was no tomorrow. (oh, and apparently "scripts" aren't allowed in their oh-so-high-culture of short stories.XD)

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19722552/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19722552/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 16:56:59 PDT
flash forward, I heard the descriptions of the course from sir ali. it's a damn design course and not at all something "i could use". had a long hard talk with the big guy himself, and he told me that i should take a course after, to specialize. in the meantime, I build up my skills on my own and start early. in a way, it's kinda like medicine. a few years pre med, and then your specialization. true enough, the core subjects are pretty helpful for life aspects. you just gotta know where to look.

flash forward even further. now my underclass is starting to consider leaving the course, in fact the school entirely. dunno much about what she's gonna do finally. I don't know if she sees the importance of the other core subjects yet. she's the 3rd in line from the people i know to come within the crossroads.

i guess the real important factor would be whether or not you wish to give in or push on. as for me, back to work

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19674498/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19674498/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 05:35:25 PDT
As of planning, tony's heading for college. JM, one of tony's closest friends, moves to another school. However, they still keep in touch. The interesting thing would be how, despite their distance from each other, the parallelisms between the two is undeniable.

of course, I'll be introducing a lot of new characters into the bunch. I have yet to name them though.

so yeah, i'll finally get back to my first love... making cartoons in my head.XD

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19614237/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19614237/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 21:34:24 PDT
"Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms" (1 Peter 4:10).

"My husband doesn't love me! The only time he says he loves me is when he wants something." I have heard those words more than once, and I usually prod a bit deeper, asking questions like, "Is he faithful to you? Does he support you and the family? Does he share in the responsibilities of the house? Take care of the kids? Bathe and change the baby? Carry out the trash? Ever give you a compliment? Take you out for dinner?"

In response to those questions I usually get a majority of affirmative answers, which helps me make a point. Maybe your husband, or your boyfriend, or your parents do love you, but you are not speaking the same language.

In his book entitled, The Five Languages of Love, Dr. Gary Chapman, a marriage counselor and personal friend, contends that there are five major languages or expressions of love. Quite often when someone does not feel loved, it may well be that the two involved are not talking the same language. Let me illustrate.

Suppose you go for a visit to Japan, and you go into a store to buy something. You pull out your money and hand it to the salesclerk. She would look at it, smile courteously and say something like, "I'm sorry, sir, but you don't have the proper currency. This is Japan, and we use yen here." Suppose you said, "Now just a minute. I worked hard for this money; there is nothing wrong with it." Just how far would you get? There is nothing wrong with your money; but it doesn't complete the transaction in a different country.

Are you starting to get the picture? As Dr. Chapman sees it, the five languages of love are as follows:

1) THE LANGUAGE OF WORDS / AFFIRMATION. Compliments and expressions of care such as "I love you," "I really like the way you look in that dress," "Your dinner was terrific!" Saying something nice is an expression of love. Does anyone ever tell an enemy how great he or she has done about something? Of course not.

2) ACTS OF SERVICE. When you do something for someone, especially something you did not have to do – like wash the car, change the diaper, take the kids for an afternoon so your wife can have some quiet time – all of these are expressions of love.

3) THE GIVING OF GIFTS. All over the world anthropologists have noted the relationship between gifts and love. It means you care enough to go out of your way to do something for someone you like.

4) QUALITY TIME THAT YOU SPEND WITH SOMEONE. Take a walk, go to dinner, sit in the swing and talk to someone, have coffee and chat leisurely. All of these are ways of saying, "I love you; you are a very special person to me."

5) THE LANGUAGE OF PHYSICAL TOUCH. This includes the touch of a hand, an embrace, a kiss, and intimate relations in marriage.

One of the reasons that we often feel unloved – the biggest reason by far – is that very seldom do two people speak the same love language. Men and women are different; they came from the drawing board of heaven with a different set of nuts and bolts. They are different psychologically as well as physically, so the expressions of love are usually different.

Before you say, "I'm not loved," you must learn to hear and understand another language. Be sensitive to the language of the one you think may not love you. In reality you may be loved far more than you know.

Resource reading: 1 Peter 4

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19609367/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19609367/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 15:40:40 PDT [ ] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[ ] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.(food=instant [x])
[x] You can eat a Full English Breakfast. (food you say?XD)
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] Its football...not soccer. (it's foooozbawl!)
Total: 2 = 18%

Australian
[ ] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.
[ ] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[ ] You love the beach. (the last time I went to the beach was when i was 2... so i wouldn't know)
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing. (unfortunately...)
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[x] You have an Australian something. (went there and go quite the souvis)
Total: 3 = 30%

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[x] Your first/last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''
[ ] You know what an Italian horn is
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world! (FAZOLI'S!!!)
[x] You talk with your hands. (*two thumbs up*)
Total: 5 = 45%

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of Remember.
[ ] You speak Spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr. (dude... i l33t speak sometimes but not THAT much)
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[x] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally. (when nervous, yes.XD)
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair. (just to cover the stress marks.XD)
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total: 4 = 44%

Russian
[ ] You say villian as:
[ ] You get short tempered.
[x] You know of somebody named Natasha. (if i took this test last month, then no)
[ ] You get cold easily.
[ ] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather. (the power of temperature immunity!)
Total: 3 = 43%

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best. (I don't drink)
[ ] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes. (green would be cool, but, no)
[ ] You like the colour green. (It's ok...)
[ ] You have been to a St. Patty’s day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 0 = 0%

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[x] You know how to shoot a gun (Glock anyone?XD)
[ ] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[x] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon.
[x] You can dance. (you'd be surprised.XD)
[x] You can 'sing' gospel. (member of the village choir)
Total: 2 = 22%

Asian
[x] You have slanty/small eyes. (the koreans thought I was a local before.XD)
[x] You like rice a lot.
[x] You are good at math. (good... yes. but enjoy? the heeeeellz no!)
[x] You have played the piano. (played, yes. but not exactly good at it. I need someone to teach me.XD)
[x] You have family from Asia. (;D nowadays, who doesn't?)
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth. (what's wrong with that?)
[x] Most people think you're Chinese. (or korean)
[x] You call hurricanes typhoons. (That's because they are! they ain't hurrcane's!)
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 8 = 88%

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good. (as long as it's chocolate)
[ ] You Speak some German.
[ ] You know what Schnitzel is.
[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2
Total: 4 = 57%

Canadian
[x] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[x] You say eh. (probably not the way the context is trying to get at, but, yes)
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[ ] You speak some French.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's. (is that the elephant?XD)
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi.
Total: 2 = 25%

American
[ ] You hate foriegners.
[x] You hate non - Christians. (well, not exactly hate. I just hate christian bashers)
[x] You'... ]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19565931/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19565931/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 02:33:30 PDT
from here on end, this journal would be more light hearted.XD

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19494414/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19494414/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 04:36:05 PDT
dark knight was entertaining intellectually. it was well made. joker was just priceless. and the bike was just nosebleed.

however...

I actually had more fun at ironman than this. in fact, what really made my day was watching the avatar finale. (it's over...T_T)

on personal news, I'm not entirely sure, but I think i just removed all the weight from my shoulders finally. I told the truth... well, not the whole truth, but the truth that mattered. what remains doesn't need to be revealed to anyone.

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19476056/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19476056/ Sat, 19 Jul 2008 02:34:54 PDT
There are just a few things i'm hoping for coz, so far, things are looking up. however, from experience, I really shouldn't keep my hopes up. for starters, i haven't really made any actual progress. I was able to start something at least. I just really hope I didn't drop one path in my life to simply enter a dead end...

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19330579/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19330579/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 10:06:10 PDT
Has one simple conversation ended a year's worth of confusion? I guess, right now, i'm GENUINELY content with just friends.

That little spark somehow just vanished, and I'm not really looking for it anymore. have I accepted the fact that that person just isn't the one? go figure, I just know i'll be rejected anyway. let's just say.... maturity levels are rock bottom.

well, I HAVE been wasting my time anyway. first and foremost, time constraints usually limits the time we spend together. besides, I don't get to talk much on my own. I'm just used as a sounding board for stories and stuff, I barely even get the chance to share about things I like. I'm just there at that person's lesiure.

well, it is fun to listen, but those really aren't the things i'm looking for in the long run.

what i'm really looking for is:
maturity
morals
selflessness

none of which are clearly evident as of now.

sure, it's possible for those things to develop, but for now, i'll just have to be content with what we've got: a good friend.

well, I know that i feel like i've found closure, but let's face it. things can change. in the meantime, I'm just hoping it doesnt. not yet anyway.

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19228933/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/19228933/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 02:20:47 PDT
on an unrelated issue, I'm starting to feel like it's time to create closure. if I don't do anything now, I'll just continue to be in pain. the day it all ends is at the day of the outing. Whether or not things turn out well, it will end one way or another. It all depends on how she will be on that day...

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I'm not exactly the best in illustrating, nor even coloring. even worse, I know absolutely nothing about design. I doubt I even have that natural sense that everyone else in the block has.

I'm not a designer.

I'm not a born artist.

..

But this is not going to stop me.

from here on out, I promise myself that I shall dedicate myself to learn the things that would make me up to par with everyone else. I don't need to be better. I just need to be... a designer.

sure, sir Ali said it's bad to focus on things, but this isn't philo or theo. it's a skill I need to learn to survive in my field. If I don't focus on it, then I'm a goner.

if any of you guys have advice as well, I'd really appreciate it. I really don't know where to start.

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18939239/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18939239/ Thu, 19 Jun 2008 22:14:46 PDT
well, I really need some additional training so....

if anyone wants a mecha or perhaps macabre peice, I'm working on some for free. it's more like a "give me some ideas" thing. They'll be done in digital cel shading if anyone's interested.

just send me some references of what you want done and how you want it to look.

some things i won't do (in relation to macabre):

1) anything erotic. I can handle nudity up to some extent, but nothing sexual. strictly art.
2) anything offensive to any culture, religion or whatnot.

other than those and a few i might forget to mention, anything else goes.

as for mecha, I don't think there are any problems with that... as long as it doesn't violate the above descriptions.

so, just send me a note if you want anything done. thanks

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18832561/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18832561/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 05:15:02 PDT 2) My dad arrived 5 minutes earlier
3) I hadn't stopped at the wrong side of the mall
4) The seat was occupied by someone else
5) I stayed on the other side of the escalator


...things would've happened differently. Is the Big Guy shooting off signs again?

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18815044/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18815044/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 06:32:35 PDT
getting that monster book of manga really helped! now i know what the heck to practice!

I wonder what lineart i'd color next...

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the thing i was worried about the most didn't happen, and the teachers today weren't so bad either. sure, we have homework already, but it's nothing i can't do.

the only thing that killed me (and would probably kill me in the following tuesdays and thursdays) is my killer break of 3 hours. we were even dismissed early in my first subject, so that became a whopping 4 hours.XD it's a good thing that the finearts lounge was open some time after an hour, so I didn't have to drag myself around campus in the scorching heat. but daym was i bored through my skull. everyone else had class some time in between, so conversations were pretty short, and my cellphone didn't receive good reception so I couldn't do anything else but stare.

still... better that nothing happened rather than "that" happening.

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18740439/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18740439/ Mon, 09 Jun 2008 00:32:29 PDT
not because of academics again, I don't really mind that. it's the other thing...

back when vacation started, I started forgetting about all of my worries... my problems... my feelings. and just because of that one random message... it's all back. now, to top it all off, it's back to school and back to the rollercoaster ride of emotions.

makes me wish I were just a kid again... worrying about how to finish the next game, and what would happen to kenshin after the duel.

it's just too early for me to worry about these things. realistically, I can make due without such issues.

now I just wonder what would happen this coming weekend...

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18640028/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18640028/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 06:44:58 PDT
Am I crazy for holding to something that may not even happen, something that would just waste my whole life?

I'm going to give that person one last chance... but this time at least I know what not to do so that history wouldn't repeat itself.... again. if still, that person does not change for the better, then I give up entirely. it's a hopeless case.

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18604283/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18604283/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 05:00:54 PDT
so yeah... it just gets me pissed... why do I still look back? I mean, after I do, I still end up getting depressed. It doesn't make me feel better at all. Is there still something I want out of this?

I really have a strong feeling that that person still has no idea about how I feel.... or at least... felt. that person always pushes me away one way or another. that person has been really important to me... but the thing is... I don't think it ever was mutual. I don't see it. all i see is how i've been treated like trash.

deep down inside, I have the primal urge to get even and let that someone feel the pain that i've had to go through... But, I don't want to stoop to that level. afterall... we were friends (probably still are... I just don't know anymore. even that, I don't sense anymore).

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18323544/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18323544/ Wed, 14 May 2008 16:06:17 PDT
their LCD tablets are just nosebleed.XD I WANNA DRAW ON THE SCREEN!!! *tries desperately to use wacom pen on lcd screen*

toei philippines is a dream come true (almost). it's got everything I imagined an animation company could have.XD (complete with little statuettes in each cubicle.XD) it even has air conditioning.XD (unlike take one studios *gets heatstroke*... meh...unlike tony stark, I gotta learn to walk before learning to run.XD)

I really wanna finish my training at take one so I could start working at toei. *excited to death*

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18213928/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18213928/ Wed, 07 May 2008 15:26:28 PDT and I'm doing it coz I'm just plain bored.XD

8 random things about me:

1. I'm an OC completion whore. when I get a new game, I just HAVE TO finish it as soon as possible. a few years back, finish it at any cost (that means cheating ) but I soon learn that doing it the hard way is more fun.XD

2. I'll eat anything edible... the more exotic, the better. I don't see it as a duck embryo, cow tongue or whatever. if it's food, then that's what it is... food.XD my only weakness is the Ampalaya (bitter gourd). the green vegetable is my kryptonite.XD

3. I'm a strict water drinker. if I drink anything other than that, my stomach goes ballistic after a few minutes. that's why I never take alcoholic drinks, avoid soft drinks, and dislike juices.XD the only exception to the rule would be milk for some reason. just gotta love it with themz cookies.

4. Chocolates are my sleeping pills. instead of keeping me awake, chocolates make me go on suger crash so fast, I barely even notice the sugar rush. after eating a pile of chocos, I usually pass out on the bed.XD

5. Most people know me as a guy with really thick hair (almost afro in a way), but before college, I actually had a shaved head. and not just for the mandatory military training.XD

6. I play a lot of gore-fest games and watch bloodbath animes, but at the sight of real blood (or just imagining an actual injury) I get the feeling of fainting.XD

7. I'm the biggest in the family, despite being the youngest. and when I say biggest, I'm talking both height and bulk.XD

8. my eyes were so chinky back when I was a kid. so much that when we went to seoul korea for a vacation, the locals thought that I was one of em.XD but if you see me now, I barely look chinese.XD (though for some reason, a classmate of mine still thought I was.XD)


alright, since not many people read my page anyway, that would be a good number.... so I tag whoever is reading this right now!

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18177205/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/18177205/ Mon, 05 May 2008 08:15:27 PDT
training's been hell lately. animating smoke, clouds and fire ain't easy.XD I mean, I spent the whole day today just making 1 frame for the fire loop... and I've got 9 frames for the whole thing. does that mean I've got 9 days to do it?!>.>

well, it really drained me... but the gamer in me would not let down.XD I just got my copy of super smash bros brawl yesterday... and I finished the subspace emissary adventure game today.XD

uuuuunfortunately, the physical aspect of my brain would not keep up with the mental aspect... so now, I have a freakin migraine.XD

I might need a gaming break tomorrow to recover....

...

...

or not.XD

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/17892109/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/17892109/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 07:21:17 PDT
over the past week, i've definitely sunk into wii addiction. my PC games have been untouched for the whole duration, makes me feel guilty.XD i mean, I still need to earn the commander rank in CoD4, and practice for when jers gets kane's wrath. eh well, as long as i'm having fun.XD

on the downside, it makes me wanna go home earlier from training.XD buuuut, i guess the fact that i have training is a blessing in disguise. at least i'd just be playing for 6 hours rather than 12.XD

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/17773972/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/17773972/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 03:25:22 PDT
it's really tiring and tedious, but it's way well worth it. It's only been 4 days, and i've already learned quite a lot, and i've got the rest of the summer to learn more.XD

to think, the studio's just within walking distance, and i'm getting training for free.XD (plus possibilities of getting PAID to learn.XD)

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/17701015/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/17701015/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 15:01:05 PDT
*starts tallying*

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in less than 2 weeks... daym... twenteens, here i come!

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]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/17296058/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/17296058/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 03:51:49 PDT ...
...
... HOSHIT! I only have 25 more days before I'm no longer a teenager.XD daym, how time flies.

well, not once have I celebrated my birthday in school. not even for summer. it ALWAYS falls within the part of the year that is in between regular classes and summer classes.XD

it's real tricky celebrating these things over the vacation. everyone else is most likely packing up for a trip abroad or something.

what's interesting though is the number of greetings you get. sometimes, it's the typical handful of best buds, while others tend to go off the scale.

another hard part is the fact that no one really knows.... and it's usually a hassle for them to go all the way here after they've set themselves to vacation mode.

in contrast, for those celebrating birthdays during school, at least everyone's already there. as for vacation birthdays... bring out the invitations.XD it's also unsettling to invite too many... but makes you feel guilty leaving out others.

eh well, eitherway, I still enjoy. just once, though... I'd wish i'd have a birthday celebration that didn't feel like any ordinary barkada outing.

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well, the good thing is, it's coming out in my art, and not in reality. it's probably the fact that surreal art and the like don't really need proportions and realism. it's the freedom to make anything without any limits. a means of expressing emotions.... except... i have no idea what emotions those are.XD

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I'm sorry, but I've done everything I can na. still nothing. I don't think it's worth it anymore.

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/16947352/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/16947352/ Mon, 18 Feb 2008 14:15:40 PST darn this forced life vacation... why did it have to happen kasi..



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it's pretty immature, I know, but I really need to get away from it all. I'm gonna need to fade away for a couple of days... weeks... idunno. but, I really need to let go and move on, and my heart and brain just aren't sync'd up right now. so, if ever I do hurt anybody in this process, I'm sorry. It's not the intention. I just need a vacation from myself.

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Ellie really made me forget all about life's problems. I'm just so happy.XD

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What I'm doing is just making me more depressed... I know it couldn't happen due to technicalities and lack of actually BEING there... but, you know that feeling in which you just care about someone no matter what? where you protect that someone you care about, even though nothing can happen between you, nor does that person even know what you're doing... or feeling?

it just sucks sometimes.... no.... everytime. I mean, somehow, something comes up and bites you in the a$$ to tell you that it just can't be.

am I doing something wrong to deserve this? what part of me always ruins things? if only i knew, I'd definitely come clean... no matter what.

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no, i'm not talking about playing God and stuff. I'm talking about making an OC series, like Bleedman's sugar bits. [link]

so yeah... it's pretty tricky. I started out thinking about the auxbot school thing, but it felt too much like medabots. SCRAPPED

I then tried a kid in a school of monsters. ends up way too similar to "my gym partner's a monkey". SCRAPPED

tried the girl who is accidentally enrolled in an all boys school. too much like hana-kimi... and well... I don't exactly have the girl's point of view.XD SCRAPPED

there's the story about the twins in one body thing... but it the stories just don't roll out. ON HOLD

so yeah... I'm STILL thinking up ideas.

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1. What did you do in 2007 that you’d never done before?

-Go to a con WITH FRIENDS
-It's called self control
-give gifts... quality gifts
-try out CGI

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

-my new year's resolution was to remember my resolutions... sooo.... nope.XD better luck next year.XD

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

-hmmm.... nope, don't think so

4. Did anyone close to you die?

-unfortunately, the christmas season was filled with death. the closest one was our old maid... may she rest in peace

5. What countries did you visit?

-unusually, for free unlimited plane rides, I didn't go anywhere this year.XD

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?

-love *goes emo*

7. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

-once again, it's called self control.XD

8. What was your biggest failure?

-meh... I screwed up my last sem for first year

9. Did you suffer illness or injury?

-I am invincible!!! *cough cough, migraine, colds, sniffles*

10. What was the best thing you bought?

-GeForce 7600 with Crysis, and Command and Conquer 3

11. Where did most of your money go?

-games and gifts for my closest friends

12. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

-*smiles and hides*

13. Compared to this time last year, are you:

a) happier or sadder?

-happier, probably. last year, I was freshly rejected.XD

b) thinner or fatter?

-fatter... but not too much. my metabolism keeps me on my weight limit

c) richer or poorer?

-even if i spent a lot, the overall savings makes me rich.XD

14. What do you wish you’d done more of?

-drawing... if i had the right skills

15. What do you wish you’d done less of?

-emoing

16. What was the best book you read?

-well, I only read one series this year... so i'd say Cirque du Freak

17. What did you want and get?

-and upgrade and Crysis.XD

18. What did you want and not get?

-that's a secret.XD

19. What kept you sane?

-Jers... for without him, that rusty razor would be stained with blood

20. Who did you miss?

-M. L. K.

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well, the party has come and gone, I've had my 6 hours of sleep, my fair share of generic gifts during, and specific gifts prior (horay for Geforce 7600 AGP!XD *man, i need to up my mamaboard.XD*), and had an unusually social reunion.XD

it's funny, as time goes by, "Christmas" really changes its purpose. back then, it was a time of "OMG!!! NINTENDO SIXTY FOOOOOAR!!!!!" (search nintendo 64 on youtube, you'd get that.XD), and now, it's more of a "what do I get ?". don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. feels fuzzy when you give something someone really wants.XD

3 fancy gifts (not including other build up gifts even waaay back.XD)... not bad for a first time in giving ACTUAL gifts.XD

so anyway, seasons greetings to you all! and may you enjoy them the way they should be.XD

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- Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your journal. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your journal, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two:

- Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.




NOW HERE'S TEH LIST!
1. Geforce 8 series
2. Crysis to come with it
3. Instant creatures to redeem myself
4. a PSP (pero pede na rin DS... first priority lang yung PSP. XD)
5. a PS2/3/XBOX/360/wii .... basta console.XD (wag lang yung patay na.XD)
6. some mad CGI/drawing skillz.XD
7. Self confidence (since cowardice is cheap)
8. some piece of mind and an end to this depression
9. The missing piece to my half-a-heart
10. *censored for personal reasons*

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/15873881/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/15873881/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 08:24:59 PST
*waits for tablet driver and conjures up meme ideas*

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The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Then tag 10 people and force them to post this meme on their LJs. Because it is good. Everyone needs a little happiness once in a while.

1) Doujin Work anime! gotta love those short 12 episodes of sheer misunderstanding.XD
2) Became top Field ops in enemy territory: quake wars for the first time. it's really fulfilling to see your artillery shells land on the right spot once in a while.XD
3) got some answers to my emo issues from a girl's point of view. it's kinda tricky to handle these matters with just a guy to refer to.XD
4) I finished my p38 lightning 3d model after so long of putting it off.XD
5) actually cleaning up my PC. goes to show that I can actually NOT be lazy as long as I put my mind into it.XD
6) HEROES 7!!! *spoilers*
7) I'm NOT going into ROTC!XD that whole reg fiasco really made me worry.
8) I discovered that I still have drawing skills even if i stopped for some time.
9) I was able to buy the christmas gifts for special people in my life.
10) I got tagged for the first time (and even got special mention.XD)

now I tag.... EVERYONE WHO READS THIS!!! MWAHAHAHAHHA!!! (and I don't know how to tag those I want to tag specifically.XD)

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/15371092/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/15371092/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 03:02:30 PST
normally, when i feel emo, I play games to forget all about it. now that I need to forget about games, I'm getting emo again. a vicious cycle indeed.

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/15075091/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/15075091/ Mon, 15 Oct 2007 15:04:20 PDT
1. What the Ef?
2. The Ef?
3. So...
4. Well...
5. amf
6. Krahp! (extra crispy.XD)
7. (some people recognize this well.XD)
8. the heeeeellz no!
9. eyng?
10. Eyya!
11. aye
12. sabagay...
13. now that you mention it...
14. now that i think of it...
15. shangaps
16. ei, side track lang
17. kewlies
18. suries
19. ayty
20. orayt
21. speaking of which
22. yeboi!
23. must... ... ... ...
24. omg lol
25. ah yes.... the signs from the Big Guy...

so that's it about me. don't forget to post this on your journals, and comment on any more noticeable expressions I have.XD

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/14858418/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/14858418/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 15:23:29 PDT
only thing that niffs me right now is.... they just said everything that my other friends said.... just in a different way.XD well, at least my heart is at ease at the moment.... in terms of keeping things secret from my parents. but in terms of self control... well... we'll just see about that, won't we?

on a side note.... I just checked some horoscopes out of curiousity and....

"Aries, you are extremely independent. At times proud and arrogant. BUT WITH STRONG PERSONALITY AND CHARM"


ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?! WAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

It's just funny how the horoscopes say i'm an outgoing person, but i'm the complete opposite. does that make me a freak? am i even aries? makes me wonder if i was switched at birth, considering the many factors. if ever i was, I hope I was half chinese.XD

this horoscope just proved to me that it's all a bunch of horsesh t and that only the Big Guy shows true results. tried and tested! *thumbs up*

]]> ~Axixion http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/14796261/ http://Axixion.deviantart.com/journal/14796261/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 06:24:33 PDT
I see the potential, just not the procedure.XD

I've been using AC3D all this time, and it's great.... for mechs and vehicles that is. when it comes to detailed rendering (anime style...T_T)... I really need something else.

I'm really tempted to look for those other programs like... hexasuper... and lightwave 3d. I mean, they're already in the book. problema nga lang... i really have no idea what they CAN do... and I might just end up wasting my money.XD

meh... must hold strong... kaya yan! the fumies will not get me down!

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