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Okay, so, even though I hate to admit it, Christmas are knocking on my door. God I hate Christmas. I was in the mall buying gifts three days ago, and I wound up with three presents and NO BLOODY MONEY. None. NONE. I'm broke, dammit. And I didn't even buy anything for myself during the rest of the year. Yeah, I love Christmas.
Anyway, since me drawing pictures for everyone is basically a tradition by now... I've decided to bring back my ongoing projects list. I hope I got a little better over the last 12 months, too, so wish me luck. I need to keep track of everything, I only have a month left - which, in case of pictures, is not quite enough. Especially since my drawing rate is near zero. And also, there's TENS of projects I started but never bothered to finish. So let's just sum it up...
Also, school is zetta boring there days, so expect a new sketchdump in the near future.

PS: During the last three days, I managed to lose my glasses, lose my keys, break a plate, cry my heart out at certain unpleasant development in House MD all night (I saw it two days ago and I still feel like crap, actually), find my glasses, find my keys, forget my glasses at home, forget my essay, lose the keys AGAIN and thus be forced to spend an hour outside waiting for mom to come home and let me the hell in. I just love fridays.

Must-draws
Christmas gifts
- 0%; not thought of, not begun
- 0%; not thought of, not begun
Mom - 0%; not thought of, not begun
Sis (oh god please noooo my sister is visiting us in december noooo) - 0%; not thought of, not begun
Eve - 0%; not thought of, not begun.. I hate her, she hates me, but we still hang around together so...
Sayumi-tan - 0%, but I SO know what I'll draw. -grins impishly- 8DD

Uh... seems I don't have anyone else to draw for. Well, changing schools and all, I don't know that many people nowadays... so I guess that's it. Baw.

Non-Christmas Stuff
AT with - Her character Ewelyne - 0%
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]

OHAI!


Winsome Misfit #1-2


My great friends ^^
http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/28157019/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 08:33:02 PST
See, I try to memorize how things look every day as I go to school, home and uh... well, that's pretty much it But you get the point. You can't draw things if you don't know what they look like. However, like I said, my memory is complete and utter crap, so if you asked me how the corridor in our school looks like right now I'd be like uuuh... there's a carpet? o.o

So! I've been thinking and came to quite an interesting conclusion, methinks. Imagine you're in a bus. What do you see? Seats, windows and poles, right? Those are probably the first things you'll imagine when thinking of a bus. Now, however obvious it seems, say to yourself "why are those things here"? The answers are simple - for people to have places to sit, to see where they are and to be able to hang on to something. That was easy, right?

Now, focus on the details. When I imagine a background, an environment, the details are always blurry because I just don't know what belongs there, even if I've seen it a billion times before. When I was on the bus today, I saw lines under the "STOP" light (no idea why that's there, either, eheh). And it kinda sucks to remember things as "random lines". So, I examined the thing a little more, and saw that it's a door and a lock, sort of like a little built-in box. I have no idea why it was there for, but I assume some emergency supplies could be stored in the box. Or I saw nails on the floor - to hold the seats in place.

See where I'm going with this? I think it would be much easier to remember something when you know not just that it's (usually) there, but because it's there for a reason.

Of course, you can't do this with everything and not always completely accurately (we all know humans have feet and joints and whatevs, but still, it takes looots of practice to draw them right) but I reckon keeping this in mind could provide you with some basic guidelines, whaddya think? ^^

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/27951569/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/27951569/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 00:26:20 PDT I'm sick. For two days now, I've had a fever and I'm so cold it's not funny and it just won't go away. My head feels like it's going to explode. My stomach's killing me. My body as a whole is kind of out of order. I'm just saying because in case this doesn't go away anytime soon, it'll be baaaaaaaaad. I don't know what to do about it... I've taken so many pills I could build a city out of them, and still, the goddamn fever is kicking my ass.
Someone help me PLEASE T-T

The worst thing is, tomorrow I so HAVE TO go to school because we have this project going on and it's HUUUGE. The final presentation will be held sometime in December and if I miss the planning.. I'm so fucking screwed.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/27828617/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/27828617/ Sun, 18 Oct 2009 05:01:21 PDT
]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/27392039/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/27392039/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 13:06:56 PDT
Anyway... I'm so not amused... and like SO @^#(& NOT... because you know what? I decided to stick with the show because still, there's Cameron, which leads to my neverending fangasm.. at least I thought it was... well... I won't say it, I just don't have the guts... just click the goddamn link... [link]

I'm heartbroken... I'm emo... I'm... I'm... pretty much miserable right now.
Pretty much? Not pretty much, I'm completely @^(#&*) wasted.
Seriously... This was such a low blow I can't even explain it... This is what I get for my loyalty... Thank you very much...

Bye, bye, Miss American Pie.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/27205564/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/27205564/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 03:30:03 PDT ETA because I'm lazy to do a new journal: There's this devitation on DA I've seen a few days ago, loved it, faved it, but I still don't think I did it justice because of how much win it's made of. So just because I feel like featuring... ya know I'm really happy fer yeh an' imma let you finish, but CLICK THE DAMN LINK. [link]



I am deeply disappointed. I just found out there is like NO Cougar fanart on DA and even less Chrodechild fanart. ;_; As soon as I finish the damn game I'm drawing some. FANART TIEMZZZZ -dives into bed with my DS in hand and the Suikoden Tierkries theme tune playin'-

By the way, am I the only one who thinks reading "Chrodechild" as "Chrodekilled" is odd? ;_; (I still have to resist the urge to say Chrode... well, child.) (But whatever, the game has a BUNCH of weirdly spelled names. Like that Razwen girl or whoever it was. Lazlen? Seriously?)

PS: Oh, yeah, the whole rant was about Suikoden. Go play it.
PPS: My head hurts like hell and I don't think the game's helping. But what the hell, it's fun. 8D
PPPS: OMOCHIKAERIIII~ -fangasms over Chrode- -does the Rena-chan omochikaeri nosebleeding pose-

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/27127418/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/27127418/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 05:49:36 PDT .

Write out the names of your characters and explain
1) how you thought of their name
2) what made you create the character in the first place
3) how the character has changed over time (if they have changed)
4) any random fun fact about that character

1) Nella Mastriani
a) I actually have no idea how I came up with Nella, might be based on Nala or my childhood nickname Nany, but her surname I kind of stole from Jess Mastriani from the show 1-800-MISSING. I'm not even a fan of the show much, but her character was reaaally cute and foremost, I LOVED the sound of her surname in Czech. That was before I realized how it was spelled and sounded without the "-ová" suffix Czech surnames use. But it kinda stuck anyway. -shrugs-
b) I needed to draw myself, obviously. (~~laprasek)
c) Oh man has she changed. For some reason I can't in hell decide anything about this character whatsoever. Her looks are finally relatively stable now - at least I hope so - and she's had a lot of names before but I'm not gonna go into that (it is possible I'll change it again... though I like this one, nothing seems right). Speaking of this "version" itself she has changed... for the worse. She's had this animal inside her she's been losing control over over time. She was also very adventurous and kind of cheerful before certain events her life. Other than that, she's stubborn like hell, she doesn't like changes, thus, she resists them... When it's in her power to do so.
d) She tried to commit suicide once.

2) Josh
a) When I became obsessed with the game Subarashiki Kono Sekai/The Words Ends With You, I hated the character named Joshua, maybe some of you know him. He's such an ass 8D; Anyway, Josh is, in a couple ways, similar to him, so I renamed him (his first name was Michael, based on my hated ex-classmate 8D; But I had to make it more subtle. -cough- ).
b) I needed a "VS." to Nella, so to speak.
c) He didn't change, except his name. He just became even more of an ass. But wait, there is actually one bigger change in his life - when he became/found out he was bisexual.
d) He's obsessed with computers and technical stuff. Likes photography, too.

3) Kirujaisu
a) It was on a hot summer evening after I watched Kill Bill - Volume 1, that a wave of fangasm had gotten into me and I was reading Kill Bill trivia on IMDB. There I found out that the japanese symbols on the Kill Bill poster spell "kiru biru" which is basically Kill Bill in japanese. Anyway, everyone who knows me a bit must know I _HATE_ (seriously, I HATE HIM) Chase from House, M.D. (for numerous reasons), so I was like yay... so if I wanted to kill Chase, I'd say kiru... kiru... kirujaisu? And that's basically how it happened. 8D;
b) The name, really. I liked the way it sounded so much I decided to make a badass killer loli to go with it.
c) A lot. She's a killer but she wasn't in the beginning. If I were to name everything that caused her drastic change, it would be at least my DA page long with the title "Kiru's Series of Unfortunate Events". Her life's just fucked up.
d) She's a Korean outlaw.

4) Siibeizu
a) This was the greatest accident ever XD I was just saying good night to my friend on ICQ one night ("dobrou"), but I had a HUGE typo moment so I ended up writing "siibeizu" (if you look carefully at your keyboard, you'll find out that the letters are right next to each other). After I stopped laughing my ass off, I read it and thought it actually sounded kind of nice.
b) Again, the name. She's only an accident and that's why I love her so much XD Seriously I never wanted to create a character like her, but a freaking Typo™ made me think all the stuff about her up XD I still find it rather funny.
c) Not one change there. No one knows about her history or background whatsoever; she'll forever stay a mystery. An archetype.
d) She's mute.

5) Jaderyn "Jade" Yamanashi
a) Jaderyn is just a name I randomly made up one evening when I was playing Jade Dynasty and had to name my main character, and I like it very very very VERY much. <3 As for the surname, I just googled for japanese surnames (I'm terrible at choosing surnames -points at Nella-)
b) I needed a TWEWY OC, obviously. had this idea that we could write a TWEWY fic together with our OCs. We haven't got to it yet, but I just had to have an OC 8D;
c) She... learned a lesson. 'Nuff said.
d) She has an incredible imagination but had never used it... ]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26996018/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26996018/ Thu, 03 Sep 2009 12:48:31 PDT Rant of the moment: First, school. Yeah, you can skip the next paragraph.

God, it's the third day and school's pissing me off tremendously. I came home at half past 7 yesterday, had to do some homework for two hours and after that I jumped straight into bed because I was completely, absolutely wasted. I didn't even do all of the homework, a quarter of it I finished in the school today. I think this is going to be a bloody long year, with my mom being psycho about me going to sleep at 9 PM (now's half past, bwahaha) on a level that she argues with me about it even six times a day. I really don't have the energy for this. NEITHER do I want to go to sleep at freaking 9. D; My new classmates haven't pissed me off so far; actually, I think most of them is rather nice. Or at least I had thought that until I saw two of them smoking on the train station on my way home today. Yeah, high school, better get used to that.

Second and completely unrelated rant. I'm questioning my sexuality. Again. After... let's see... three years of being completely, absolutely, definitely, 100% sure I was a lesbian (act surprised). ...Until I watched the X-Men movies. Believe it or not (oh.. you'll most likely believe it, it's just that I don't in hell), I have a crush on Wolverine... I... think. Actually, I don't. No, I don't know. I'm not making any sense, am I. o_o He seems much less.. disgusting.. to me than other men. I mean I do like male actors too, like Keanu Reeves and Alan Rickman (HOMG HOMG SNAAAAAPE) but... I like Wolverine. I mean a lot. He's just.. damn... know what I mean? ...I'm talking nonsense o_o Anyway... yeah I'm just.. weirded out... a lot... I didn't read any House fanfics today and I've read 4 Wolverine/Rogue fanfics so far. Seriously, who am I and what have I done with myself. I thought it was Rogue I liked, with her being my favorite pre-movies character and Anna Paquin being one of the cutest beings alive <3, but now I'm like dude... wait... Oh fuck.

-sighs-

I don't know myself and lemme tell you, that just SUCKS. ;_;

Oh well, I never knew myself.


PS: Also, I figured I'd be bored as hell at school during breaks, so I started reading The Gun Seller by Hugh Laurie and lemme tell you, it's honestly the funniest, most addictive thing I've ever read in my life. Go read it.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26794812/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26794812/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 12:43:12 PDT EDIT: Rant of the moment no. 2:
HOMG I SO SHIP WOLVERINE/ROGUE NOW. <3333 They're both awww and awwww and did I mention the awwwness? (finished X-Men and X-Men 2 and is preparing to watch the Last Stand and, with a bit of luck, Origins too) God PLEASE let there be some W/R scenes. Thank you. Amen. <3

Rant of the moment:
So I just finished watching Iron Man. (Don't worry, spoiler space is included for those who haven't seen it.) I was quite sceptical about the movie at first because you know how things go when you give them to people who know nothing about the actual thing (which happens often for comics in movies), and the first about ten minutes kept convincing me the movie was crap because Tony Stark was nothing, NOTHING like the Tony Stark in the animated series. NOTHING. And I kinda loathed the whole alcoholic jackass guy thing they put him up with. The comics were for kids, the movies are supposed to be for kids and I kinda doubt this is the impression of Iron Man Stan Lee wanted when he created him. Oh well, kids grow up.
Anyway, imagine my surprise when I saw freaking GWYNETH PALTROW in the movie. I was like... the hell? since the only movie I saw her in was Sliding Doors and therefore I sort of put a label "romantic movies only" on her (I loved her in Sliding Doors though, even had a slight, slight crush there -cough-, she's one of my favorites since then). I am now deeply sorry for that 0_0 She kicks @ss. <3 She was so cuuuuuute. I'm taking her home now. <3 -does the Rena-chan OMOCHIKAERIII pose- No really. She made it absolutely worth it. Along with a few other things but God was I pissed when she *SPOILER SPACE, STOP READING IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THE THING*
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kissed Tony except she did not. I mean, seriously. THE SEXUAL TENSION. -cough- Ahem. Not even the typical happy ending with a kiss and then marriage and a cellphone ringing exactly when... nevermind.
Then, the ending scene pissed me off. As far as I can remember, Nick Fury has always been white. HUH? -sulks-
Other than that, it was great and HOMG GWYNETH. <3 <3 <3 I'm so nagging into watching it now. -grins-
End rant.

Tagged by

1. Vymenuj tvojich top 9 OC, ak nemᚠ9 tak si rychlo pár vymysli alebo sa vykašli na tento tag! Okrem iného, chceme podotknúť, že o OC sa budeme ďalej v otázkach tagu zmieňovať v ženskom rode lebo TÁ OC. To však vôbec neovplyvňuje pohlavie tých, čo si vyberieš!
1. Nella Mastriani (a ticho.)
2. Jaderyn "Jade" Yamanashi
3. Astarte
4. Siibeizu
5. Elyse & Melissa (jsou to dvojčata, tak je to jedno .p)
6. Nightingale (Slavík)
7. Soturi
8. Josh
9. Haley

2. A čo tak k nim ešte pripísať charakteristiku? Nech sa zabavíš ,)
1. Nella - samotářka, která se směje jen vzácně, ale má dobré srdce.. kromě toho, že NESNÁŠÍ děti.
2. Jaderyn - zahořklá ignorantka, který je život jí i všech ostatních uplně u p*dele, nebo se to aspoň snaží předstírat.
3. Astarte - mladá pokétrenérka, trochu pesimistická ale dobrodružná, ráda si užívá života, jak jen to jde.
4. Siibeizu - noční elfka, jejímž posláním je starat se o děti, hlavně sirotky. Po nocích plouvá po řekách celého světa ve svém člunu a na březích nechává maličkosti pro děti, ale smít si je můžou jen ti, kteří si je zaslouží.
5. Elyse & Melissa - ztřeštěná dvojčata, která ráda provádí ostatním malé žertíky. Pořád se smějí.
6. Nightingale - pyšný a soutěživý hřebec, který se snaží za každou cenu udělat dojem. Je dobrý vůdce.
7. Soturi - zlodějka, která kromě kradení nic pořádně neumí, ale přátelí se s bezdomovci a okrádá jen ty, kteří si to "můžou dovolit".
8. Josh - narcistická, egostická, absolutně nesnesitelná, ignorantní osina v zadnici, která si bez přestání na něco stěžuje a vypadá jak Wombat.
9. Haley - chronická domina, která nejradši opíjí nevinné panny v barech a tahá je do postele, k čemuž jim ještě většinou ukradne menší finanční obnos

3. Okej, už máme ako tak predstavu o ich povahe. A čo ich výzor? Popíš ich alebo daj link na ich obrazok!
Většinu z nich jsem ještě nenakreslila a když ano, tak se jejich vzhled po tom stejně změnil... n... ]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26621667/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26621667/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 03:19:02 PDT 's journal.

Tag:
Rules:
~ If you don't have at least 8 OCs I wouldn’t recommend this meme
~ Add on questions to this meme! It will make it bigger!
~ TAG PPL PLZ
~ Enjoyyyyyyyy!

1.) First list all your OC’s by first name so we can see your list of all your wonderful OCs.
I'm not going to list them all, just the main ones, because then this list would be too long.
1: Nella Mastriani (I know what you're thinking and yes, YAY FOR ITALIAN MAFIA)
2: Kirujaisu
3: Elyse (& Melissa) (they're twins, so it doesn't really matter)
4: Michael (ololololol the memories -ROFLs and nobody understands why-)
5: Archeleron
6: Nightingale
7: Ephcaris (or Ephi, for short xd)
8: Siibeizu

Bwahaha I picked them quite randomly, not even based on relevance or anything, some of them I never even used anywhere yet XD; So... yeah. (Though I DO have an unfinished drawing of Kiru lying around here...)

2.) Who is your favorite OC?
I love them all (duh, I made them) but... Nella would be my favourite, which is why I always pick her first. She's the first one I can think of. And I don't care her name sucks. Dx

3.) Who is your least favorite?
Hello, they're my OCs o_o; I like them. Oh but, wait, -ROFLs- again, I forgot about Michael! That would be him. -laughs uncontrollably-

4.) Who is your most developed?
Mhmm. As much as I'm tempted to say Nella, I'd lie, because I didn't really have to think about stuff much while creating her. So I guess the answer would be either Archeleron or Siibeizu (despite her being created completely by accident XD -LOLs again-)

5.) Which OC would you want to date if they magically came to life?
O_O GOOD LORD. None. Seriously, none. Me and Nella would probably tear each other apart (more like, for sure), Archeleron, Nightingale and Ephcaris are freaking ANIMALS (no, I'm not a furry yet, thank you 8D; ), dating twins would be just plain weird, I hate Michael with a passion and Sii... well... if she came to life, I wouldn't meet her anyway, so to speak. Oh, and Kiru would kill me. Right away. 8D;

6.) How many girl OCs do you have? Boy OCs? It OCs?
_A LOT_. Seriously A LOT girl OCs. Most of them are girls, except for Michael and the animal OCs. There's Nella, there's my old Lucy/Akerai/Khion, Sii, Kiru, Elyse & Melissa, Sobat, Zeo, Soturi, Astera, Maenarra...
As for boy OCs, there's only Michael. Oh, and Chris, too, almost forgot about that guy. But I think that's all. (Unless Archeleron, Nightingale and Ephcaris count as well.)

7.) If you were stuck in a burning building what do you think the third OC on your list would do?
Run around screaming and yelling at me not to freaking die on the two of them 8D; Probably try doing some magic later with little to no success. And then I'd die 8D;

8.) Name one thing you regret about one of your OCs.
NELLA. I regret her name. Last name, to be specific, Nella is the part I like. But I'm freaking terrible with surnames. 8D; Also, I regret her personality. A lot. You wouldn't understand 8D; And I think she's boring. -sulks- Don't worry Nellie, I still love you. <3

9.) Which of your OCs do you think would make the best father/mother/it parent out of all your OCs and why??
Siibeizu, definitely Sii. She's the caring motherly type. Actually, it's sort of her job to take care of children, so she's already a parent. In a way.

10.) Which of your OCs do you think will most likely be put in jail?
Kirujaisu. She kills, like, everyone. Oh well, if they managed to put her in jail, that is.. 8D;
Also, Nella has her... let's say... a bit... well, thinking about it, SHE'S the one most like to be put in jail. Because there's no way they would catch Kiru. Nella's done at least two, maybe three things to be put in jail for. And that's just stuff I can think of at the moment. 8D;

11.) The eighth of your OCs was put into the future! What will their job be?!?
Still the same.

12.) Name the first OCs catch phrase! (if they don’t have one just make one up)
Ohhhh, catch phrase, me likey! I had to make up one for Nella anyway. Let's see... mhmmm... -opens fic.doc-
"Thank you, Captaion Obvious, you saved the day. Here, have this silence."
I can't help it, I think that will forever stay my favorite thing Nella has ever said. FOREVER. XDD
Or "I kinda like being tied up." XDD God, I love her so much. No, alright, for real now. The phrase would be... drumroll, please...
...
Nah, I can't think of anything expressive enough at the moment. I mean, I can think of far too many things. I'll get back here later. ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26494915/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26494915/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 23:25:35 PDT
]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26338539/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26338539/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 13:38:12 PDT I found my first anime sketch ever from back then (like, 2006-2007) for my friend and just OHMYGOD IT'S SO HORRIBLE HOW COULD I HAVE EVEN I MEAN GOOD LORD!

Seriously people, don't try this at home. IT HURTS TO LOOK.
...
On the other hand.
If I ever feel like my "art" is all crap I can always just look at how I was back then. THAT was crap.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26296948/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26296948/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 12:05:48 PDT [link] ) exam results and I'm kinda depressed. Or mad. Or whatever.

My results were 78/100 points, with writing being on an exceptional level, reading as well, use of English as well, listening - good and speaking - borderline. Which is the part that pisses me off. Last year on PET, my speaking was exceptional. What the hell just happened? Also, TWO MORE GODDAMN POINTS AND I'D HAVE PASSED WITH MERIT!!! Seriously. Two points. I SLEEP with my English textbook (not literally, lol, but you get the point) and I get a B because of two points. Wouldn't that piss you off.

I know I should be celebrating. I'm just... not.

On the other hand, my classmates had spent 2+ months preparing and since I wouldn't go to school back then (long story), I just looked in the book the night before the test.

So... yeah. I would have owned them if I tried. Taught me a lesson, I guess.

...TWO POINTS.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26264193/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/26264193/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 20:58:23 PDT
It's not even 6 AM here in Prague. I went to sleep at 3 AM. It's so fucking hot I can't sleep for the third night in a row. Because it's so hot, I keep drinking Fanta, which doesn't help me at-fucking-all and makes me sick as hell. Seriously, if I'm not dead due to lack of sleep by the end of the week, they will vypumpovat mi žaludek as we say, bwahaha.

I want to get my sleep, thank you.

Anyone in Alaska willing to trade places with me?

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25903176/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25903176/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 16:31:11 PDT
Most of DA artists (hell... everyone, I think) have their specific style, right. One person draws in manga style, that one draws wolves, that one cartoon-like characters, another one is a horse artist, then that one draws dragons or bigger heads or claw-like nails or whatever reason you can think of that separates them from the other artists (besides level, so to speak). Then there's me. One time I draw anime, then I try this cartoon-thing, I even try drawing animals, suck at it, get back to humans, try drawing chibis, a zillion different styles and I'm still at square one.

Know what I mean?

THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING.

Seriously, I've been trying to find a basic style I'd use for my drawings all the time. Variety is a good thing, I don't deny that, it's just that don't-want-to-always-start-from-scratch thing. Maybe I'm saying nonsense, dunno, it's past 1 AM, blame the... -sighs- me. Sitting here with a paper and pencil staring at pics and desperately trying to draw something, ANY-FREAKING-THING, that isn't from someone else's head. sent me this sketch of a dragonness not so long ago and I adore the style of it, so I thought I could try it. I JUST FREAKING CAN'T. I suck. Maybe it's my deeply rooted determination not to ever, EVER draw using a reference (I mean, constantly looking at a reference - unless it's realism, I couldn't do that without a reference if the whole world depended on it (like most things)) but I don't want to be a copycat, I want to draw by myself. The thing is I just CAN'T. C. A. N. T. I wonder if this is ever going to improve.

-sighs-

Ummm... yeah. Cookies for you if you actually managed to suffer through the whole rant. I don't know what I should do. I don't want to draw if I'm not good at it, to get good at it I have to practice, and to practice I have to have a freaking style. I have to know where to begin. -sighs again-

-gives you all my cookies- I don't like 'em anyway.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25833068/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25833068/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 07:18:03 PDT in his journal AND I'm bored. Random quiz time, anyone? :3

OH NOES I CAN HEAR THE CZECH DUBBER OF CAMERON IN STAR GATE AGAIN THIS DRIVES ME INSANE I HATE STAR GATE AND WHERE IS THE SIXTH SEASON OF HOUSE WITH LOTS AND LOTS OF MAH PRESHUS CAMS ALREADY.

1. Tag 10 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. Answer all truthfully
3. Take it in public!
4. Tell all tagges on their profile that they have been tagged,
and link to your journal.

Info
[/] I am shorter than 5'4. (I can't convert that to meters but I... have no idea?)
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes (Humm. Could it be - hypothetically speaking here - because I AM fugly? 8D; )
[x] I have many scars. (Let's see, two from the dog bite here when I was seven, another on by face when I was four, one from a vaccination and a bunch of self-made scars (UNINTENTIONAL, mind you))
[ ] I tan easily. (I get sunburnt easily.)
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. (BLACKBLACKLIGHTBLUEBLACKBLACKBLACKLIGHTBLUE - see what I did there?)
[/] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color (I have friends who have never seen any of my hair so... I suppose... )
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces. (Have had. For a year. Never. Again.)
[x] I wear glasses (Unfortunately)
[/] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free (reeeeeeeeeally unsure about this one.)
[/] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger (If "WHOA, who is that slut O_O" counts, then...)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents. (We argue all the time and yes, swearing is like a hobby of mine 8D; )
[x] I've run away from home. (At 4 AM last December... lasted about 6 hours, heheh)
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday. (I'm 14. I hate brats my age and less. And I honestly never thought about having a kid and even if I wanted to, eh, it kinda err uhh well for me... o_O Maybe I'll grow into that...)
[ ] I've lost a child

School/Work
[X] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school. (All the time 8D)
[x] I almost always do my homework. (I sure try to but I leave it to the last minute anyways.)
[x] I've missed a week or more of school. (I miss weeks of school all the time, you mean that's not normal? o_O)
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] Disney movies still make me cry. (Umm, helloooo, this is Ayoshen here. EVERYTHING makes me cry.)
[x] I've snorted while laughing. (Shit happens... 8D; )
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried. (More than once. Some things are just bloody funny. -points at Wilson on SPEED-)
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public. (DO NOT WANT 8D; )

Health
[/] I was born with a disease/impairment. (Sort... of... no one really knows what it is.)
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone (LOTS of times, usually my legs and my right foot is like a magnet to bone-breaking stuff or something.)
[x] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan. (-sob sob sniff sob-)
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe. (France, Greece, Belgium, England...)
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex. (...HELLOOOO.)
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher. (I'm really not proud of this one but it was like THIS little crush minus five. Minus ten. Minus the crush overall. For like one day.)
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain. (-cries-)
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.<... ]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25556347/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25556347/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 00:23:46 PDT
I play Pokemon. (BUMMER.) Anyway I started playing Diamond again after a year about a week ago and I never cared about pokemon stats, movesets, natures and EV's and all that (I'm such a strategist 8D; ), but after I found out just how much they can do I decided to give it a shot, with my first victim being a pretty little Adamant Scyther (named Cuddy :3). Here's the problem though - I plan to evolve it to Scizor and according to Serebii.net, Scizor has far lower base speed (which could be a problem later on). What I don't understand is how exactly does the speed lower itself when you evolve it. Does evolution reduce the amount of speed stat points you gain per level? Because I thought about evolving Scyther at lv. 99-100 (since scizor doesn't really have any better moves). Would that work?

Blah anyway, back to EV training... 134 attack EVs, 135 attack EVs... -zZzZz-

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25386178/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25386178/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 02:59:36 PDT OVER!
OOOOOOOOOVVVVVVEEEEEERRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

TWO AND A HALF MONTHS OF FREEDOM!
HOW AWESOME IS THAT!
YES, I LIKE YELLING!
AND NO, I WON'T PRESS THE CAPS LOCK KEY BECAUSE OF...........

FREEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so it's not technically over, my classmates will be suffering till the week after next week.
But because I'm a bitch, I don't have to go to school unless it's exam time and since today was my last exam (from Physics, sidenote: KATĚNKA, I FREAKING LOVE YOU FOR LENDING ME YOUR NOTEBOOK, OMNOMNOMNOM MAY YOU LIVE AND PROSPER AND MAY CAMERON SMILE UPON YOU EVERY DAY) and the grades will be decided tomorrow, I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

And that's just awesome.

I would express my euphory by a fitting mood smiley but for some reason DA's being stupid and won't let me choose one.

*wanders off to listen to Aloha From Hell - No More Days to Waste - [link] * WATCH OUT 'CAUSE TROUBLE'S COOOOMIIIIIIINGGG!

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25341188/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25341188/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 23:35:23 PDT Stolen from

1. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
At the moment? None... And in general, it's many colors But ok, I pick yesterday. It was BWACK. :3

2. Honestly, what’s on your mind?
Freaking exams. ALL THE TIME. -faints-

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
Listening to TV and writing notes from the whole year's Czech textbook, because I have to have it done by the end of the week and if I don't I won't be classified. Gooo Czech. >_<; (Yes, I know I'm the best procrastinator ever, thank you.)

(WHERE'S #4)

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
Haven't even pondered the thought in my life till... this year 8D> I actually do think that now from time to time. GOD BLESS HAIR STRAIGHTENERS. <3

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
Wtf, I woke up 25 minutes ago. I think not even Hitler would manage to screw something up in that little time if he were as sleepy as I am. D;

7. Honestly, do you watch Disney channel?
I don't have Disney channel. I love Disney movies though. :3

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
Uhh... yes. *cough*Evotyhnusnejluckere*cough*

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
There's something that makes me happy? O_O Oh well, ok I guess there has to be. Just lemme think for a moment... mhmm. I think that would be chatting with my sweeties and and WINSOME MISFIT #1-2. ( - HIGHFIVE! 8D) It keeps me alive. <3

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
Every day. I basically have no nails to bite anymore. ~~ Shat.

(Someone ate #11.)

12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
Contrary to popular belief, I DO NOT HAVE IT AND I'VE NEVER HAD. I can eat 4 pizzas a day if I feel like it. I'm just slim because... I am. Get over it D:

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
Usually, yes. This very minute the only thing I want to is to SLEEP and pray to Cameron my history teacher has a heart.

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
Of course. Everyone has one. Because EVERYBODY LIES and it's never lupus. (But don't worry, I'm not a drooling, child porn-watching old sailor dude waiting to rape you O8D; (but... there is something about that rape part, I guess. *MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHHH* (but still, I'd only rape Cameron, I swear O8D)))

15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?
If I don't like them, I don't call them friends, but we DO actually talk so... eheheh... 8D; That would be quite a few 8D; But it's not like they don't know! 8D;;

(#16 went missing!)

17. Honestly, are you loyal?
I consider myself pretty much one of the most loyal people I know to friends that matter to me, though I never remember stuff, they get mad at me afterwards and think I'm a narcisstic egocentric pain in the ass. If you don't believe me, it's up to you.

18. Honestly, are you in denial?
That's how I exist.

19. Honestly, who would you wanna be right now?
MY BED T_T Ok, no, seriously... my classmate Katěnka, goddammit. And House 8D

20. Honestly, do you like someone?
Yes, I like a lot of people and there's that special one. I luff you all though <3 -gwomp-

21. Honestly, does anyone like you?
Oh. Honestly. Hmmm.. I think so, yes, there might be a few people.

22. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them?
...,)

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY
*Anger Section*

1. What do you do when you're mad?
I punch my wall. When I'm really mad, I punch my wall. I managed to crack four or five knuckles that way. I can't do it when mom's at home, though.

2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
Honestly, I have no idea right now. Blame the sleepines... ]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25140564/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25140564/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 09:53:30 PDT because I... can?

Rules: Choose 10 of your OCs or anyone you like, except yourself. Then answer all the questions and have fun! ^^

1. Nella Mastriani (YAY for Italian mafia names) (and she's neither btw) (because she's a... *drumroll* GIRL)
2. Zeo (Goddess of the North Wind (and I don't give a damn if there already is one))
3. Astera (a guardian)
4. Soturi (a thief)
5. Nightingale (a steed)
6. Archeleron (wolf lord thingie)
7. Kiba (a dog) (NOT the Wolf's Rain character)
8. Elizabeth "Izzy" Hadley (13's sister OC)
9. Thirteen/Remy Hadley (I sure hope you know who this one is)
10. Allison Cameron (Did you think I'd leave her out? SERIOUSLY?)


1)
1 (Nella) and 5 (Nightingale) wake up the next morning next to each other and naked. How do they react and what might have happened the night before?

Nightingale: Neigh! o_O
Nella: OMG........... I'M A ZOOPHILE NOW, TOO?!?!?! HOLY CRAAAAAAAAP! *runs away screaming*

The two didn't actually... uh... you know together. I mean they don't even exist in the same universe, I have no idea where the hell Night appeared in Princeton from. I feel a disturbance in the Force. Ares probably pulled a prank on them and now he's laughing his ass off in Aphrodite's temple.

2)
3 (Astera) establishes a restaurant but needs some help. Who could be the cook? Who the barman? And who the waiter? Should 9 (13) or 7 (Kiba) be the doorman?

Astera? Establishing a restaurant? BWAHAHAHA. Oh ok but let's pretend it happened. She'd probably pick 13 to be the cook and the barman (she especially excells at... the barman thing, mwah) and Cameron as the waitress (she's just suited for this job... and Astera ain't stupid). Kiba would definitely be a better doorman, since 13 would scare most people off/not do her job at all and people just love fluffy furballs like Kiba is.

3)
6 (Archeleron) and 1 (Nella) want to badmouth 7 (Kiba) in his/her presence. How will they do that?

Archeleron: *steps in front of Kiba* *barks*
Kiba: OMFG! *all his fur is gone*
Nella: *laughs her ass off but then goes and hugs Kiba* Don't worry, I like you even though you're hairless.

4)
2 (Zeo) creates an invention and shows it to 5 (Nightingale), 8 (Izzy) and 3 (Astera). What is it and what do the other three think about it?

It would probably be a brand new beautiful bow with some kickass super special awesome powers.

Nightingale: *chases his favorite mare, clearly uninterested*
Izzy: That's... kinda cool. OwO
Astera: Pft, bows suck. LONG LIVE SWORDS!
Zeo: ARRRRRRGHHHH WHAT DID YOU SAY BITCH *beats the hell out of Aster with... the bow*

5)
5 (Nightingale) is moving to a new city and therefore throws a big party. Who out of 1 (Nella), 4 (Soturi), 9 (13) and 10 (Cameron) would most likely NOT drink any alcohol to give the others a ride home?

I'm definitely, totally, absolutely, 100% sure, it would be Cameron. Her sense of righteousness, subconscious and the voices in her head and everything would be like "Caaameronnnnn. DONNNN'TTTT. YOU'RE A GOOD GIRLLLLL. And I'll rape you if you only take a sip."

Cameron: X.X; YES YES WHATEVER YOU SAY!

(Not to mention Nella would drink herself to death probably)
(I'm not obsessed with Cameron-raping. Seriously. I swear. *hides my rape!fics*)

6)
1 (Nella) meets after a long time finally with his/her Internet friend. As 1 (Nella) gets to the meeting he/she finds out that 8 (Izzy) is that Internet friend. Unfortunately 8 (Izzy) is 1(Nella)s biggest rival in real-life. Does 1 (Nella) still go to the meeting? If yes how will it be and if no, how does 1 (Nella) excuse his/her absence?

Nella would definitely go to the meeting, probably in a ninja suit with shuriken and all, to chop Izzy's head off. It would go like this:

Nella: HI-YAAAAAAAAAAAAA! *jumps at Izzy from behind*
Izzy: *dodges* Dude what the fuck are you insane?!!
Nella: ONLY I HAVE THE RIGHT TO KISS CAMERON YOU BITCH AIEEEEEEEH *kung-fu moves*
Izzy: DUDE CHILL OUT I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND OKAY!!!
Nella: YOUUU BIII--- wait... wait what... you do? YAY! Let's go to KFC and have some Grander or Twisters or ice cream ok -^w^- I love you now <3

7)
7 (Kiba) has ordered something strange from Beate Uhse but the parcel accidentally ends up at 4 (Soturi)s house. What does 4 (Soturi) think about it (and 7 Kiba) and what will 4 (Soturi) do with the contents?

Soturi: *has no freaking idea what the hell the thing is* U... ]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25064685/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/25064685/ Wed, 03 Jun 2009 12:23:43 PDT Mom officially told me I cannot have a dog because her exboyfriend's possessing me and I can't defend myself against evil energies, BWAHAHAHA. Yeah, absolutely, sure, I just nod, what can I do I'm POSSESSED! BWAHAHAHAHA. We're all going to hell if we buy a dog. And of course it will be the exact same dog I choose, even if my opinion changes like every five minutes! OF COURSE! AHAHAHA! I'm just waiting till she calls an exorcist, with torches and rituals and all that. I AM NOT KIDDING.
I'M GONNA BURN THAT WITCH AT THE STAKE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!!! CAN SOMEONE TELL HER I'M JUST A KID WHO LIKES DOGS JESUS CHRIST!!! WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS, WHAT!!!!!!

I FREAKING HATE MY MOM GOOD LORD THIS IS INSAAAAAAAAAAANE!!!!!!!!!




...that is the question. I'm going through a dilemma here. Halp! I r not cheezbrgur!

See, all my life, I've wanted to have a dog. For the first 7 years, I couldn't because my Dad was allergic. After my parents divorced and my grandpa's dog died (she was my best friend, I might add), I was still too young to have my own dog but hey, I was good at school. Okay then, let's have a cat! And here I am, three years later, with a cat. Buuuuuuuuuuuut..........

Yesterday I had this dream, really powerful, and it kinda made me dig all that stuff up again. I haven't mentioned buying a dog to my mom in quite a long while, so I just thought... Anyway, later, we made a deal (I won't get into details as to how I got her to agree but it involved a huge depression over grandpa's dead dog) that if I manage to take excellent care of myself and my cat (because Mom kinda takes *cough* care of him all the *cough* time), she will think about it. A deal is a deal! :3

But... I have doubts. Sure, I want a dog, they're so awesome and OMG FLAT-COATED RETRIEVERS ARE JUST SO AMAZING AND ELEGANT AND AEEEEEHHHHHHHHHH *system failure* but I'm not sure I'll be able to take care of it properly. I've never had a dog before, I don't know where to start, I just... have no idea X_X AND MY CAT! What if he won't like a puppy in the house? And and what if it's too small for a retriever? I know they need lots of movement and our flat is 105 sq m large but I would go out with it three hours a day but then there's the question what if I don't have enough time because I will be going to school from September on and what if I forget and ARGHHHHHHHHHH X_X I'm sooooo unsure about myself. I mean... people have to go to school or work or whatever and manage to keep dogs at the same time right but I just don't think I can handle it. HALP X_X One minute I think I could do it, then the next I'm like NOOOO THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE T_T

Uhhhhh... any ideas? :/ *insert a white flag here*

Current Projects X_X
AT with - Her character Ewelyne - 0%
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
WoW comic w/ - 10% of teh first page, lols

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship ) ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24946353/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24946353/ Mon, 25 May 2009 16:05:28 PDT Well, not mine, see, a certain girl on this board thought it would be an awesome idea to take pics of everything you do one day and post it. I didn't want to do it because my days are BORING AS HELL but my camera walked in and said it would be fun. And it was really sooo much fun. (Even though I played up the going to sleep part - as you can see I'm still here. But not for long, lol.)
->> [link] <<-
Bilingual. Suitable for English and Czech speaking people who can stand me.

Current Projects X_X
AT with - Her character Ewelyne - 0%
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
WoW comic w/ - 10% of teh first page, lols

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


Winsome Misfit #1-2


My great friends ^^
http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24922918/ Sun, 24 May 2009 11:18:50 PDT
Anyway, that's not the point of this pointless journal... I have quite a few works in progress, one Kirce James pic (google it.. unless you're and you'll get it), art trades with and and uhhhh I have to finish my Cameron song lolz aaaaand just a LOT of projects... I just can't seem to bring myself to finishing any of it... Soon my Projects folder will take over the world. Bahahahahahah.

That is, if I have some free time, but especially these days school's just plain killing me... I have NO time for anything (I'm just here because I, well, procrastinate, lol) and.. yeah... Yeah.

Also, I need to finish 's project. Aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I'm done. That is all.

Current Projects X_X
AT with - Her character Ewelyne - 0%
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
WoW comic w/ - 10% of teh first page, lols

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24823420/ Mon, 18 May 2009 14:10:15 PDT ...
Not. A. Word. Not a single damn word.

I know I'm overreacting. But I had a REALLY (and I mean REALLY, at least in my shittyness meter) bad day and I've been looking forward to it since the morning. IT WAS MY ONLY DAMN JOY ON THIS DAMN MONDAY. Seriously. AND I FUCKING FALL ASLEEP RIGHT BEFORE HOUSE STARTS. CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW MUCH IT PISSES ME OFF. Of course I woke up just in time to see the final 2 or so Chameron minutes.

WHY, CEILING CAT, WHY ARE YOU SCREWING WITH ME?!!!!!!!!?!?!?! I SET THE ALARM! I TOLD MY MOM I WANTED TO WATCH!

I guess this means I have to sacrifice more mice to you, but P-L-E-A-S-E, tell me sooner next time, kthxbai.

I'm fucking pissed like living Mordor. So much the icebergs are melting. So if you drown in a tsunami in the next couple of hours, it's probably my fault. Sorry.

Something tells me this is going to be a DAMN week.
...
I'm pissed.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24715594/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24715594/ Tue, 12 May 2009 05:55:07 PDT
I need a hug.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24691408/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24691408/ Sun, 10 May 2009 17:44:42 PDT

Even Mom's starting to be a little suspicious why I'm feeling like crap all of a sudden. This can't be good.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24662709/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24662709/ Sat, 09 May 2009 04:04:38 PDT
Drumroll, please...
[link] <- HERE.

Now, excuse me while I continue faving the whole gallery. *faves* I so need to collect those cards...

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24524221/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24524221/ Fri, 01 May 2009 12:52:13 PDT These last few days I've developed a habit - I started going out with my bike every evening and just bike around for an hour or so, exploring the village (since I'm not really that familiar with where we'd moved to yet). So it's 8 PM today, a bit early for me (I go out ONLY when there's no one around, I just feel much safer overall, which is around 9 PM) but I just couldn't wait so I jump on my bike and fire away.
No, I didn't meet a bunch of Huddies along the way, it wasn't THAT bad. But I met someone much creepier.
I turn into this strange alley I've never been to before and there's this REALLY weird, old, dirty gipsy guy waving at me. I thought he wanted to yell at me for riding too fast or something, so I take down my headphones and drive to the sidewalk, and he says "g'd evenin' there, ya didn't hear me with those headphones didja?" "Huh um... no I didn't" "hah happens. Evenin'" And he wanted to shake hands with me like five times, it was weird as hell. Then he looks at me and my feet on the pedals and he's like "oy, workin' out, are ya? I live o'er there y'know" and he points directly behind me and I knew I should have looked but I was scared as hell. I think if I looked away he would have grabbed either my stuff, that would be the better case, or me, which would be DAMN BAD. So I just kept looking at him, yay for eye contact huh. And he's like "and where do ya live, lil' gal?" It happened on the other side of the freaking village. But of course I'm not gonna tell him that! So I go "Yeah our house is right there across the street." "A'well, all the best in da new day gal, see ya, evenin'" and dude did I shoot out of there like a freaking bullet.
He was INCREDIBLY freaky. I'm never ever going out before 9 PM again I tell you. *shivers*

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Stolen from


:FIRE:.

[x] You have a short temper. (VERY, though I'm not really proud of it.)
[x] You often act on your emotions without thinking first.
[ ] You are very competitive. (No way in hell. I hate competitions.)
[x] You like to play with fire.
[x] You are not a strong swimmer or you can't swim at all. (I can't swim for long and I think my swimming is sort of lousy - I'll never understand how can people hold their head up and breathe freely when swimming. I quite like to swim though-- wait, not swim, DIVE. I love to dive. Swimming itself is boring.)
[ ] You prefer warm weather over cold weather. (Winter's my favourite season... so nada.)
[x] You often lose control over yourself. (*points at the first question*)
[x] You can be quite reckless.
[x] You sometimes hurt people without realizing it. (How do I know if I don't realize? Lol but I suppose I do.)
[x] People have often called you insane.
Total: 8 of 10

.:WATER:.

[ ] You have a calm, laid-back personality.
[ ] You like to go to the beach. (HATE BEACHES. There's sand everywhere, sand on my swimsuit, on me, in my eyes, in my mouth, ARGH just no thanks.)
[ ] You rarely get angry.
[ ] When you do get angry, you know how to control it.
[x] You think before you act. (It depends, but I guess mostly I do.)
[ ] You are good at breaking up fights. (I'm the one who STARTS fights, mind you.)
[ ] You are a good swimmer.
[x] You like the rain.
[ ] You can stay calm in stressful situations. (If freezing's what you call calm...)
[ ] You are very generous. (I try though.)
Total: 2 of 10

.:EARTH:.

[ ] You are physically strong. (Haha yeah right. I wish lol.)
[ ] You have a close connection with nature. (I like nature... a LOT... but if I said I have a close connection with it, mom would laugh at me.)
[ ] You don't mind getting dirty. (Depends how, but I'm not a fan of dirt lol. I can do it... I just kinda do mind usually.)
[x] You form strong opinions on issues that concern you.
[ ] You could easily survive in the wild.
[x] You care about the environment. (I try.)
[ ] You can easily focus on your work without getting distracted.
[ ] You rarely get depressed.
[ ] You aren't afraid of anything. (1. Dentists; 2. Spiders; 3. Our school's headmistress!.. among others)
[ ] You prefer to have a strict set of rules. (I hate rules. I do things the way I want, I hate timetables, plans. I'm spontaneous in this manner.)
Total: 2 of 10

.:AIR:.

[x] You have a free spirit.
[x] You hate rules. (Not all of them, I mean, they are there for a reason after all. I just... yeah. Lol.)
[ ] You prefer to be out in the open rather than in small, enclosed spaces. (If there are NO people around and I mean NO people.... ]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24474050/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24474050/ Tue, 28 Apr 2009 02:32:25 PDT
HOUSE YOU GODD@MN MORON, if you wanna kill someone DO IT RIGHT for God's sake! They had me hoping there for one sec! ARGH!
And can someone tell me just HOW in the world can a party happen - a party with strippers *drool*, the Pharaoh and his Cleopatra, with drunken Wilson for God's sake, but WITHOUT CAMERON and even more importantly, WITHOUT CAMERON IN UNDERWEAR? Hell, even without Thirteen in underwear!!??! (Oh well, she is partially justified by the "You okay with this?" "I paid 50 bucks for this!" scene and the "If I get drunk enough I might make out with one of the strippers... or become one." "SOLD." one. Shame it didn't happen.)

It's just so unfair. So much. And I mean SO much. They be stealin' mah bukkit. *cuts self*

...
And he didn't die. The one thing that would make me squee in bliss didn't happen. Why do they have to be so cruel to me. *sobs hysterically*

I missed Amber though. "Damn imaginary pen!" *wipes tears*

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24358298/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24358298/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 10:59:24 PDT HOLY HELL I FUCKING DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I REALLY DID HOLY FUCKING SHIT I'M GONNA STUDY JAPANESE HOW COOL IS THAT OH MY GOD I DID IT THEY'RE TAKING ME IN I DID IT I DID THE DAMN EXAMS I DID IT HOLY SHIT JESUS CHRIST OH MY GOD I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow. Guess I am religious after all.

-------------------
Alright um, just thought I could let ya know I'm doing exams tomorrow... VERY VERY VERY important exams, because if I fail I won't be able to go to this new school and I really really really want to go there and just aetjknmktdl *chokes* *sighs* Anyway um... so I'm literally DROWNING in books today and I'm nervous as HELL (haven't slept and eaten anything for a day *blurp* I can't help itttttttttt) and if you could cross your fingers for me, that would be great.
I pass or I fail, either way I won't be here for a couple of days because if I pass, I'll just about yell my lungs out and end up in a hospital. Or I fail and I'll spend the nights getting drunk to unconsciousness.
*mutters*
*buries face in THE BOOK*

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24230565/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/24230565/ Mon, 13 Apr 2009 23:26:41 PDT ...
...
Someone tell me they're lying.
...
NOW.
...

I went to the House thread on this board I go to. Last night, the Americans got to see 5x21. I haven't yet.
...
...
SOMEONE TELL ME THEY'RE FUCKING LYING!
... *a-hem*
... *tries to stop tears*
... *fails*
... They said...
... They said Hameron is officially dead...
...
...
...
... THEY'RE LYING. RIGHT?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!?
...
... Knife or at least a rope, anyone?

Current Projects X_X
AT with - Her character Ewelyne - 0%
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
WoW comic w/ - 10% of teh first page, lols

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23928253/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23928253/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 05:00:47 PDT [link] !!! *cries on DA's shoulder*


Current Projects X_X
AT with - Her character Ewelyne - 0%
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
WoW comic w/ - 10% of teh first page, lols

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23803556/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23803556/ Fri, 20 Mar 2009 20:04:51 PDT to keep myself awake. :3

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:

1. I know that when you say rude things, you don't really mean it. I'll still be here. And I know you will, too

2. Leave me the hell aloooooone. I'm sick of dreaming about you for God's sake! I'm OVER YOUUUUUUUUU BAHAHAH I AM alright... Stop it.

3. I hope you're feeling better soon, kiddo Just take your pills like a good girl, a'ight? We don't wanna have you end up in hospital or something now do we.

4. I've always wanted to say this to one certain person: F**K YOU YOU F**KING MOTHERF**KER. End rant.

5. I'm still sorry about your uncle hon. I know it's been a long time, but I guess it will never really go away, will it. I just hope you're okay by now.

6. Wake up and smell the Vicodin! Stop letting them treat you like crap. You really ought to... get mad, eventually. You can't take it forever, WAKE UPPPPP. Maybe, just maybe, your fracking parents will realize, in a few years, that they could have had a daughter. Forgiveness is overrated.

7. Subtle message to David Shore & Katie Jacobs (counts as one because I only have one thing to say to both of 'em): Stop acting like morons, stop fracking drugging yourself out on whatever the crap you're high on when you write new episodes is, get laid and, finally, THINK. THINK HAMERON. And femslash. And say no to Foreteen. Morons.

8. I... uh... you know... I... errr... *trails off*

9. Cameron before ho's, pal. *wink*

10. I'm sorry for the things I said. I know I keep repeating myself but I didn't mean it. I really wish you two are happy, Momsis... screw this, I don't. But just don't forget about me, a'ight? 'Sall I'm asking. Plus, no more incestous insults, please. It was serious bussiness, a'ight.

NINE things about yourself:

1. The most obvious thing everyone has ever heard about me: I'M OBSESSED WITH HOUSE. And yes, I'm gonna keep writing this in all those "about you" questions. :3

2. I'm planning to stay up all night and successfully failing. It's 3 AM and I'm tired as hell already.

3. I play WoW for about half a year but I've never made it higher than to level 50. *blushes* YET.

4. I don't have myspace nor facebook nor twitter and I'm, actually, alive.

5. When I was in sanitarium for the holidays one year, I was so bored I started counting how many Xena characters can I name. I don't remember exactly, but after a week I got somewhere near 120 characters.

6. I'm an EXTREMELY fast typer. My mom saw me typing once and she's still shocked about my "cosmic typing speed". Well, that's what years of practice do. :3

7. I want to move to an English-speaking country when I'm older, probably New Zealand - that place is just wonderful.

8. I hate where I live. (the Czech republic)

9. My mom annoys me as hell and we fight real often. :/

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

1. BE CAMERON. You can't possibly fail with that.

2. I want to be protected... AND to protect. I'm an amazing paradox of a person, so keep that in mind, lol. I always want it both ways (or so it seems to me).

3. Make the moves. I like watching... till the time comes.

4. Understand me but don't make me feel all too cared about. I know I'm pigheaded as hell and I need a few kicks in the butt every now and then.

5. BUT I love cuddling! Please please please can I cuddle pleeeease :3 *cuddles*

6. RESPECT MAH AUTORITAH! Well, not really, just the stuff I like. In all seriousness, if you didn't like mah shows *hugs them* I'd probably dump you right away lol. (Ok, don't take me THAT seriously... but it kinda matters. ,)

7. Ohhh oooohhhh wait wait, did I mention that if you're Cameron, you win at life?

8. Last but not least, don't ever play tricks on me and don't try to be who you're not. What the hell is the point of that?


SEVEN things that cross your mind... ]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23761305/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23761305/ Wed, 18 Mar 2009 10:24:27 PDT 's journal.

The first 10 people who comment on this journal entry will be having me go through their gallery and pick out 3 of their deviations and feature them here. In return, you should do the same in your own journal to other people. ^^

1.
[link] <- OMG IT'S THE SHIZ.
[link] <- Irresistable.
[link] <- Poor dragon

2.
[link] <- Here be TIGERS!
[link] <- There's something about the shading that I wub. :3
[link] <- Lovely style there.

3.
[link] <- Why? INO! B'cooos... it's hawt (Yes, I'm a perv. Just like you. )
[link] <- Random Japanese stuff + random cool quote = win.
[link] <- YAY 4 HOPE.

4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23605066/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23605066/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 07:37:22 PDT Anyway... Anyone uses PowerDirector for making music videos? Please tell me you do... Because - here comes the surprise - I have a problem. I've been making this music video for two days, it was almost finished, I was really proud of me, it was pretty fun to make you know. A single clip before the end, Powerdirector shuts down. I'm like, oh well, happens... but when I want to continue with my project file, I get this message: [link]
Excuse my while I yell my godd@mn lungs out.
HNWETJKLHNKZLNMKETL4#u&h(s)sgTSNLHNKLHNAE%(&owr#562!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think it has something to do with autosaving, because the last time it shut down, my project was done right till where it ended at the time. I thought about disabling it for a moment but I was like hey, it can be useful... well here I go. Bummer. Anyone knows what to do? Please? I'll do anything in the whole world just make it work! Why meeee! WHY YOU F**KING STUPID SONOVAB!TCH D@MN STUPID MOTHERF%&*!ING PROGRAM! *wanders out to break some furniture* *cries*

What more can I say... PLEASE.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23415575/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23415575/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 12:41:16 PST for the hell of it.

A : Easy to fall in love with.
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : One in a million.
E : Great in bed.
F : You love to drink
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You are Quirky.
I : You are popular with all types of people.
J : People Adore you.
K : You're wild and crazy.
L : Unbelievably great in bed.
M : Best kisser ever.
N : You like to drink.
O : Crazy
P : Great in bed.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
S : You are dead sexy.
R : Fucking crazy.
T : You are very Loyal to the ones you love.
U : You really like to chill.
V : You are not judgmental.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You never let people tell you what to do.
Y : Best boy/girl friend any one can ask for.
Z : Always ready.

And I am:

J: People adore you (well thanks. )
U: You really like to chill. (indeed. Nothing like just chillin'.)
L: Unbelievably great in bed. (anyone wanna try? )
I: You are popular with all types of people. (Great. So not me.)
A: Easy to fall in love with. (Yeah right.)
N: You like to drink. (Lol, yeah today I kinda do.)
A: Easy to fall in love with. (Yeah right.)


Ok this is fun so I'll try my handle:

A: Easy to fall in love with. (oh gimme a break with this already.)
Y: Best boy/girl friend any one can ask for. (I'm flattered.)
O: Crazy (finally something that actually fits!)
S: You are dead sexy. (Dead? Probably. Sexy? I have doubts about that...)
H: You are quirky. (Yeah.. I kind of am. )
E: Great in bed. (tee hee.)
N: You like to drink.

Whoever wants to do it, do it, tis kinda fun.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23248365/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23248365/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 06:29:57 PST ) and well it was amazing, but the most amazing thing ever is that I got a TABLET! YES! To be precise, an A5 wide Wacom beauty is now sitting on my desk. But, see, there's a, um, slight complication... Despite it being so much fun to use, my computer, alas, doesn't seem to get on well with this new friend of mine. Since I plugged it in, installed the drivers and the bundle software (Corel Painter Essentials 3), I've encountered a Blue Screen of Death (which scares the living hell out of me!! - But it could have been two as well, when I signed up today in the morning, my computer told me Windows were restored after a serious error... or something), while I was trying out Corel, and every now and then I get a Hotkey Keyboard error message saying access violation at 7XXX... [link] <-- see here, it happens everytime I run an executable at least 600 times and it pisses. Me. Of-fuh. *imitates Jeff Dunham's Peanut*

Anyone knows what's wrong, pretty please? I'm scared as hell there might be another BSOD and what if my hard drive burns or something and aaaaaaaaaah--- ok I know I'm overreacting lol but hey... It scares me. I really, really can't stand BSODs.

Oh and, for the record, my TV also doesn't work with the tablet, or at least hasn't been for the past half an hour. What the hell is going on here. -_-


Current Projects
AT with - Her character Ewelyne - 0%
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/23033627/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 03:49:42 PST If you recieve a comment saying "Hey. I think i saw your picture on this website/blog here CLICK HERE", or Hey. check out this funny blog!! LOL CLICK HERE OR ANYTHING ELSE don't click on the link!!!!
Pass on the message if you can.
DO NOT click on the link. It will take you to a fake dA login page which will steal your login details if entered.

If you receive a comment or note/private message on your page (or any other sites you have joined, for that matter) with a link that says REQ_09BLOG DO NOT CLICK ON IT! It's a virus, and a real hard drive killer. It can also steal your passwords on sites that you've joined.

Try to let your watchers/friends know, too. Because if they get it and click it, you can get it too because your page is connected with theirs.

If you receive a comment like this, MARK IT AS SPAM using the Mark as spam button on the comment. This will alert moderators to it and will also hide the comment it so others won't be caught out.

Current Projects
AT with - Her character Ewelyne - 0%
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22916690/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 04:14:53 PST I'm watching TV, this Czech program, Óčko. There's music videos all day long, and well, down there on the screen there was this thingy... People text to the program a message with their names and names of their love interests included, and it would tell them (=copy a random quote from the cache) whether they are right for each other.
So, all of the messages come in male + female format, of course. And because the answers seemed kinda random I wondered how it would react if I wrote two female or two male names in the text...
My first victim were "Eve" and "Cathy". I sent my precious text and sat and waited in anticipation, drooling over my desktop (ah the wonders of a TV card), eyes sewed to the little red box down there... Unfortunately, it threw me back an answer where no words would change with changing gender of my victims. I was a little disappointed but hell, I would give anything to see faces of all those people across the republic watching, and at least now I know my two classmates would never find their luck together.
However, I was not willing to let it go that easily. I mean c'mon, out of all those brilliant replies, I was just unlucky, let's try it again. I asked my friend and he told me to put in the names of two of our teachers, Henry and Venceslas. So I did. I push the "send" button, sit down again, not looking away from my computer for a single second...
GOD THAT WAS PURE PRICELESS!!!
This is the answer I, and millions of other people got, along with their names. "You got her! Everything has its + and -, but you're her chosen one."
I was laughing so damn hard for a minute there. I am utterly satisfied at the fact that I just proved it does nothing but throw a random saying to every text it gets, AND I discovered that those two are the ideal couple. Someone should tell them to finally confess their love for each other.
............


Current Projects
AT with - Her character Ewelyne - 0%
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
The Smiley Monologues - 1%

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship ) ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22772140/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22772140/ Fri, 23 Jan 2009 23:42:50 PST , she did it D:

Rules:
- Post these rules.
- Write down 8 things about yourself in your journal.
- tag 5 people and post a message on their page telling them they're tagged.

1) I LOVE CAMERON (this is where you act surprised!)
2) I'd been sleeping for 13 hours yesterday/today. I have no idea how I did it.
3) I have a cat. His name is Simba and he's my preshussss lil' bro I like to torture. >:3 (in a completely brotherly/sisterly way, you know what I mean.)
4) I ALMOST ENDED UP HAVING A B FROM ENGLISH!!! Dude, I'm able to stand a D from math, a C from everything else, but NOT effing ENGLISH. It's the most important subject ever to me. If you saw me freaking out, you'd understand. Fortunately for me, yesterday I saw I had an A on the school website and I was like wtf, that must be a mistake, so at school I went and asked my teacher and she said she had reconsidered my grade "due to some very positive... deeds, so to speak... *wink wink*" and man was I jumping around with joy! You go, teacher! Screw the tests!
5) I had a dream about my mom looking exactly like Cameron and me wondering whether I should kiss her last night. It was the weirdest (ok well maybe not, once there were pink fluffy flying puppies for example and-- oh better not tell you more about that one), most disgusting dream I've ever had. *vomits* Thank Cameron I didn't do it in the end.
6) I'm obsessed with GTA: San Andreas and Vice City at the moment. I play all the time. And I still can't pass the damn Robbing Uncle Sam mission...
7) I'm looking for a good moviemaking software. I've been using Windows Movie Maker for about two years but hell, I think I've done all I can do in it and for the record, it's not working on my new comp. I tried Sony Vegas, but it wouldn't accept my House eps. I've had this problem with more moviemakers (Ulead, Adobe Premiere) and that's why I haven't been using them, they frakking won't let me. So, if you know a good moviemaker which will accept those weirdly-codeced (is that even a word?) avi files, I'm open for business. Thanks.
8) I do not like yaoi and I don't get what most girls see in it >_> Might be because there's not only one hot guy nekkid, there are TWO... and yeah that doesn't exactly do it for me. Yuri, on the other hand... >:3

I'm pompously lazy. I won't tag anyone.

Current Projects
AT with - Her character Ewelyne - 0%
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
The Smiley Monologues - 1%

~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22754077/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22754077/ Fri, 23 Jan 2009 07:17:59 PST
I'm growing blind. Literally. More and more with every day. I can't see people's faces unless they are up to 2 inches away from me. I can't read signs. Even the big ones are damn hard to read. I can't decide what to order in a fast food because I don't see the menu. I'm afraid soon I won't be able to see the colors of the world at all. And the most important thing - HOW THE HELL CAN I LEARN TO DRAW IF I CAN'T SEE?

It's bothering me. I seem to see less with every single day. Today, when I was going home from school, I couldn't read the damn bus station name no matter what. What's bothering me even more is that it's spreading so quickly. Believe it or not, this happened in a month or two; my vision was semi-perfect before then.

Also, mom wants to take me to see the doctor. No way, they're gonna tell me I need glasses. I despise glasses, I hate glasses, I will never ever wear glasses. First, they make my head hurt tremendously, second, I look absolutely terrible in glasses, third, I would always forget to take them with me and actually wear them. Yeah, I'm irresponsible like that.

Go me.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22676758/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22676758/ Mon, 19 Jan 2009 15:30:14 PST I mean that I (we) have literally MOVED this weekend. Away from Prague, to a village called Zbuzany (ok, so it's not that far away I guess ) and I absolutely LOVE IT here. My room and the whole house is in such a mess right now it's not even funny - you have to jump over bags full of our things when you want to go anywhere - but hell, it's so awesome. It's so calm around here. Like, one car passes us by in a day. How cool is that?! *-* I don't like city rat races or any of that stuff, I like quiet. This place is full of quiet! The only connection we have with civilization here, is one bus station... Darn I love it.
And I have a new bed, a new desk, a new lamp, lots of new stuff. I have to take a picture of my room if I actually manage to find a camera or something. Today I got connected to the internet again (YEEEEEEEEEES! Those two days were HORRIBLE) so I'm gonna be active again, meaning reading my devwatch and this stuff.
So, yeah, just thought I could let ya know.

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22560195/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22560195/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 11:50:50 PST
>>>>> [link] <<<<<

*me has died*

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22488237/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22488237/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 13:45:55 PST :3

Rules:
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.
Tag 3 people.

1.) Your name?
Juliana

1. An amazing paradox of a person. Can be open yet reserved, silly yet intelligent, beautiful and not realize it, and loud yet meaningful. Contact may stop your heart.

1. "So then she cut me off, but I didn't do anything about it."
"Why not?"
"Because dude, she was Juliana."
"whoaa"

2.) Your age?
13

A number commonly known for superstitious beliefs about it being unlucky. Originally it was a holy number, but somewhere along the way it was hijacked and portrayed as unlucky. Fear of this number is called triskaidekaphobia.

3.) One of your friends?
Katěnka

silken, soft, pleasant to touch, caressable. [indeed!]
this skin is so katenka.

4.) What should you be doing?
Studying [Godfrakdammit >_<]

An excuse you give your friends when you want to stay home alone and masturbate. Also known as 'reading' 'cleaning your room' or writing a term paper.
"Want to hang out?"

"No, I'm going to stay home and study."

5.) Favorite color?
Purple

Extremely potent marijuana, specifically marijuana buds that have a purple hue to them. Also accompanied by a fragant, usually fruity smell and mad perma-grin.
Yo, you gotta come over and smoke, boy! I got the purple!

6.) Birthplace?
Prague

A beautiful city in Central Europe. Home to 1.2 million Czechs and countless ex-patriates; cheap beer, second only to the Belgians and arguably neck-and-neck with the Germans; a beautiful Old Town Square, framed by an Astronomical Clock and the Tyn Church, unfortunately clogged with tourists in the summer; and a number of production teams who help American film producers too poor to shoot in the United States. A charming metropolis soon to be overrun by a double-bladed sword of post-communist economic growth and tourism.
The only two Czech words you have to know are "Praha," or Prague, and "pivo," or beer.

7.) Month of your birth?
February

February is the best month of the year. Its still nice and cold and snowy, but you know that spring is just around the corner if you're tired of all the bad weather. February is also the most unique month. 28 days long,(unless its every four years on a 'leap' year) Valentines day is also in February. (the fourteenth)It's a fun holiday named after St. Valentine, and it's for cute happy couples. Many single or unhappy peope celebrate the anti Valentines day, ie. Singles awareness day.

People born in February are without a doubt the Cutest, Smartest, and Funniest set of people. [I am most pleased... :3] If you are born after the 20th, you are also a PICES. This is the best Zodiac sign. [Damn, four days off.]

"Kristy is so cute! Shes nice too! How did she get so purfect and talented?"
"She was born in February"
"OF COURSE! THAT MUST BE IT"

"Eight days till march!"
"No. Nine days till march."
"*shakes head* Silly- this year is a leap year!"
"ahhhhhhh"

8.) Last person you talked to?
My psychologist...

A certified and trained prostitute of the mind, who naturally charges for his/her services by the hour. [I can't but agree.]
Dr. Sigmund Freud

9.) One of your nicknames?
Juli

Whore also known as a cum guzzling slut.
Wow she is such a juli

I tag !

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22426430/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22426430/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 01:35:10 PST
]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22410135/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22410135/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 08:42:50 PST cus I'm bored and tireeeeeeeed!

1] Have you ever showered with someone?
No T_T

2] Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
Actually, I never did.. sort of..

3] Strawberry Milkshake or Banana Pancakes?
Strawberry milkshake, but I kinda dislike both >_> *chocolate ftw!*

4] Last movie you saw in theaters, with who?
Uhh, I can't even remember... o_O Might be the Journey to the Center of the Earth, but I'm not sure.

5] Burger King or Wendy's?
BURGER KING!

6] What time is it?
4:55 PM

7] Where are you right now?
In my kingdom- er, room.

8] Who is your last text from and what does it say?
It's from saying "sorry"... Don't ask.

9] Would you rather go to Tokyo or Paris?
Already been to Paris. TOKYO!

10] Are you listening to music right now?
Yup, Linkin Park - Leave Out All the Rest

11] Who else is in the room with you?
Nobody

12] In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
Mhm, the first thing I grab.

13] Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
Yep *-*

14] How long can you go without your mobile phone?
All my life, I don't need it at all, lol.

15] Ever kissed a brown haired, dark eyed person?
No, dammit! T_T

16] Ever kissed someone else's boyfriend/girlfriend?
Noooope. And I would never do that x_X

17] Where did you last sleep other than your house?
Ummm... I have no idea... can't remember...

18] What's the worst way to say I love you?
Through a text, probably lol. I mean if it's for the first time.

19] If an ex said they hate you, you say?
I say... Hmmm... Never had to say that... But I say "yeah well then, why did you tell me? It's not like I have to care you know," but it probably depends who the person would be.

20] Who is the next person you will kiss?
Hmmm, does my desktop wallpaper count?

21] What is your current annoyance?
Damn SCHOOL and damn EXAM WEEKS.

22] How many pills do you take a day?
1+.

23] What was the last item you bought?
A teddy bear, I think. It was a Christmas present.

24] Are you afraid of roller coasters?
Noooo waaaaay! They're so much fun!

25] What would you do if your best friend told you they were moving?
It happened, by two best friends moved at the same time away from me three years ago. I still miss them but I did nothing except feeling down...

26] Apple bottom jeans or hollister gift card?
Huh. Apple bottom jeans, I guess :3

27] What is/was your school mascot?
As far as I know, we don't have a mascot oO

28] At what age do you want to be married?
NOW! ...I mean... 25?

29] Where is your mom right now?
Bahahah I don't care, as long as she's not home! x3

30] What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Studying, I guess...

31] Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
I sure hope I am.

32] What are you thinking about right now?
*points at my desktop and drools* THE EYES... SQUEE... *-*

33] Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a H?
*stares at the ground* Num...

34] Can you play guitar hero?
Never tried.

35] Do you prefer warm or... ]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22387237/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22387237/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 04:49:51 PST because it looks FUN!

1. Type in "[your name] needs " in Google search:
"Juliana Needs to be Exorcised" - True dat, ho.

2.Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:
No results *wants another name*

3.Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search:
"Juliana Likes Rock'n'Roll" - I do not, liars >_>

4. Type in "[your name] says" in Google search:
"Juliana says PEACE!!" - Yay! ^_^

5.Type in "[your name] wants " in Google search:
"Juliana Wants to Watch her Sister" - What the frakkin hell... I'm completely satisfied with the state I barely know my three sisters

6.Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:
"Juliana does it again" - Yes, I do. All the time.

7.Type in "[your name] hates " in Google search:
"Juliana has mentioned that she HATES Hey Babe and thinks it sucks and hates the way she revealed herself on it" - ...Ok, whatever, it sounds like something I might hate. O_O

8.Type in "[your name] can" in Google search:
"Juliana Can Actually Say, 'I Love You'" - Hell yeah! I say it all the time! Just not to you! x3

9.Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search:
"Juliana Goes International" - ..Do I? o.O Cool! ^^

10.Type in "[your name] is" in Google search:
"Juliana is laid to rest" - Um thank you, I'd like to, but unfortunately no one has murdered me yet and I'm 13, so, yeah, I just woke up a while ago.

11.Type in "[your name] loves " in Google search:
"Juliana Loves It Deep In Her Ass" - Holy $h!t, I'm seriously disturbed by this O_O People who know me know that's the LAST THING... I mean... NO. What the HELL. O__O
"Juliana loves ice cream" - Now there's a more relatable example. Indeed.

I tag and (yes, I'm bitchy like this, to tag people who have already been tagged so I actually don't have to tag anyone. :3)

Current Projects
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
The Smiley Monologues - 1%

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI! http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22346568/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 03:28:09 PST [link] ...This page needed updating anyway.

Current Projects
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
The Smiley Monologues - 1%

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22142989/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22142989/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 06:27:13 PST
Yours,




ETA: Lol, I got tagged on Christmas by . Go me 8D

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
LMAO, the 18th page of that book is empty. Seriously. It's Angel & Demons by Dan Brown.

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
My purple wall.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
The first Christmas episode of House, 1x05 Damned if You Do, and now I'm gonna watch the second and the third and the first one again because Cameron is inevitable cutenessTM incarnate and love!

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
15:00?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
ROFL, I was right. It's exactly 15:00

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Nothing. Really, nothing except my laptop working and my fingers typing. I'm trying to listen but I don't hear a single thing, it's so quiet around here o_O

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Like an hour ago, we had lunch with mom in a restaurant.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
My DA messages

9. What are you wearing?
Um. My wristwatch, panties, the Hello Kitty bra I got last year for Christmas (I love it ), an undershirt and most important of all, blanket!

10. Did you dream last night?
Yes I did. I had a horrible nightmare about burning my hard drive. *shivers*

11. When did you last laugh?
Awww, I dunno, five minutes ago? I've been laughing and smiling all the time today, I'm weird

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
A picture of horses, picture of a ninetales I got two years (I think?) ago from , poster of a black leopard and, um, various writings I drew once with a brush and black paint over the purple part of my wall.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
A boy peeing on grass in public. Heh

14. What do you think of this quiz?
It's probably gonna be long, huh?

15. What is the last film you saw?
Flourish, starring Jennifer Morrison and Jesse Spencer. I loved it

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Heh. The toughest computer in the world, every PC game in the world, the fastest internet connection there is, House M.D. DVDs, a few millions here and there would go to charity and another few I'd spend on research, preferably medical research. The rest... I dunno, I'd have to think about that and I certainly don't want to at the moment.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.
I've written about 30-40 fanfics in my life, but 95% of them got deleted because I hated them.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Easy as toast, I'd make everyone happy. I mean I'd give everyone the thing they want the most, so they can be happy. Then no matter how much pain and suffering one would go through, if they are happy, well... they're happy!

19. Do you like to dance?
NO. NEVER. I HATE DANCING. The fact that I can't dance in hell might be the reason.

20. Ge... ]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22102227/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22102227/ Sun, 21 Dec 2008 12:21:50 PST
I'm really, really pissed. -_-

Nah but the "really, really" is just because I was posting CamTeen pics on this community along with others posting Hilson pics and because the mod's a Hilson fan, she deleted _my_ pics and told _me_ to frak off, while she let them have their fun (except for my friend who was posting Hameron pics, she told her to frak off as well). God I frakkin' hate mods. D@mn you. Seriously. Go to hell. -_-

Anyway, why I've been pissed on the first place.
There's this girl, who's really nice and all. She came to my blog two days ago and commented on like every article of mine (which is unbeliavable) and she seems to really like my work. Which is great, of course.
What's annoying the hell out of me is that she started to copy my articles and pics and post them on her own blog.
I mean she gives me the credit, and I guess that should be fine, right. ...She gives me credit.
But I'm still pissed... Dunno whether I should say something to her or just keep my hole shut. She's nice other than that. She just didn't ask. It's bugging me.
Ah, whatever... *wanders off, muttering something about bitchy mods*

Current Projects
Christmas presents - 100% (eight complete AND 3 of them coloured! *faints* and I think I'm done.)
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
The Smiley Monologues - 0%

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22041780/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/22041780/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 20:05:05 PST <3

Edit: Ok, I took sleeping pills yesterday night. And yet I've slept for 4 hours. 4 f**king hours. Enough. ENOUGH.

---
Yah, the title says it all. It's 8 AM atm around here. I've been awake since 5 AM, not to mention it took me about 2 hours to fall asleep yesterday (or should I say today). My tummy hurts, too Which could be why I can't fall asleep anymore. So here I am, with my best friend (I, of course, mean my laptop) surfing on the net or rather, clicking at my bookmarks for absolutely no reason, watching Brainiac vids on YouTube and reading my screwed fanfic I'm never gonna finish, thinking I am, editing and just screwing around with it. I'm cold. I'm tired. I want to sleep. Plus, I still have to draw 2 pictures today, do a 4 page paper for school and study my brain out.
I'd say I'm off to a great start. Now where did I put the goddamn bottle of coke.

Current Projects
Christmas presents - 80% (eight complete AND 3 of them coloured! *faints*)
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
The Smiley Monologues - 0%

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21973741/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21973741/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 02:33:59 PST Nyahahahahh. Or should I say ho ho ho~?
OMG Christmas is so soon. I still have to buy half of the presents and draw the rest of 'em and I don't have tiiime ;_; All I can focus on at the moment is Christmas. I'm stressed as hell. I'm packing presents, drawing presents, making presents other ways, not having enough damn money, not knowing what to buy and how many pressies and how to do it so they don't know it's from me ARGH. I always buy pressies and remember I forgot someone and just make the time stop, please! ;_;
Plus I'm sick and feeling shitty overall... *cough* I've been on a trip with my class to Bratislava (the capital of Slovakia), which was really cool, but after 6 hours of hanging around in cold, half of my classmates (including me) kinda passed out. *cough* So the last thing I feel like doing now is going shopping... Plus my mom's birthday is two days before Christmas I HAVE TO BUY MORE PRESSIES OH MY GODOHMYGODOHMYGOD!
Ahhhh what am I still doing here, I have to draw! *runs off*

Current Projects
Christmas presents - 70% (seven complete AND 3 of them coloured! *faints*)
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
The Smiley Monologues - 0%

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21891744/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 05:36:12 PST
Current Projects
Christmas presents - 20% (two complete!)
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
The Smiley Monologues - 0%

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21794494/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 05:15:40 PST ...she drank 'em both up...

Haha sorry just watched the newest episode of House (5x10) and well yeah I'm feeling a bit... er. Down but still happy but down? Besides I need to update it here anyway.

Seriously. There's something wrong with me. I cried FOUR TIMES during that episode, basically everytime Thirteen showed up. _13_. And it was probably so sad my brain got dehydrated, otherwise I have NO explanation for why I didn't mind all the Huddy and 14 at all. I actually found it... cute.
See! There _is_ something wrong with me! Oh my gawd!

But the ending finally slapped me in the face and I LOL'd all around. Kutner and Taub got what they deserved... in the House way!

But I still feel down. Damn you, Thirteen.
She put the lime in the coconut, she drank 'em both up, she put the lime in the coconut...


Current Projects

Yes, I have decided to write my personal progress bar. It will be empty most of the time, but it will be here. Jump with joy. Yay.

Christmas presents - 20% (two complete!)
The Balloon (CamTeen) - 80% [colouring]
The Smiley Monologues - 0%

IRL Friends! ^^
(<- yep we have this love/hate relationship )

OHAI!


My great friends ^^
http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21684242/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 16:11:04 PST

1. What does your deviantart name mean and why did you join this site?
Ayoshen is my first screen name ever. I have no idea what it means, but when I was about 8, I read this article about a WoW player Ayoshen in this Czech magazine and I liked it, so it stuck. And I joined because I can't draw, but I try. x)

2. What fandom where you obsessed with when you joined and what are you into now?
Pokemon, definitely. And Xena, too. Now I'm completely into House M.D., though those two sure took an important part in my life.

3. How many watchers do you have now?
Uh, do I have to count? T~T You do the math! *runs away*

4. Name 3 of your favorite artists on DA.


5. Do you comment, fav, or both?
I try to comment as much as I can. When I fav (which doesn't happen that often) I usually comment as well. Not all the time, though.

6. Do you participate in clubs' contests here on DA?
Not really, my art's so not worth it.

7. What is your most popular deviation?
...You mean they are popular? HUH?

8. What are you favorite non-anime TV shows?
HOUSE HOUSE HOUSE HOUSE HOUSE, Xena:WP, Cold Case, detective stuff (CSI, Law & Order etc.)

9. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
Everything. Preferably lineart, shading, anatomy... ANIMALS

10. Summer or winter?
Winter all the way.

11. Rain or Sun?
Rain.

12. What's your favorite type of music?
I've given up trying to figure that out. I listen to plain everything.

13. PC or Mac?
PC.

14. Anime or Manga?
Anime. Too lazy to read.

15. Coke or Pepsi?
Pepsi!

16. Read or TV?
Hell TV, I'm obsessed with TV shows.

17. How many hours a day do you spend on DA?
Er, like, all the time I'm on the net. I just check from time to time but keep the tab open usually. Means about 15 hours a day.

18. Name a hidden talent.


19. Flash or traditional cartoons?
Whatever. I'm not really that into cartoons whatsoever.

20. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
KFC for-frikkin-ever.

21. What are your top 3 favorite books?
...You know, I read a lot. I've read a BUNCH of books in my life. The problem is, I don't remember anything of the book the next day...

22. Wii or Playstation?
Wii. Makes. Me. Move. What the hell, I'm for PS3.

23. Name 3 of your favorite bands.
Within Temptation, t.A.T.u, Linkin Park

24. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
I'm very fast. At least my mom says so. And she is pretty damn fast too.

25. Do you like Denny's?
What the hell is that.

26. What is your favorite emoticon?


27. What did you want to be as a kid?
A superhero! Fighting crime! Protecting the innocent! No matter what you say, I'll forever stay Captian Nappy!

27. What do you want to be now?
Crap, I have no idea. I want to be an actor, a singer, an artist, a policewoman, a firefighter, a nurse. I'm never gonna get that far, tho.

28. If you could eat one person, who would it be?
Eat... hmmm could mean lotta things... Well... I'll stick to the brutal one, and then it would be Mr. Shore. Yes David, I mean you. Along with frickin Thirteen.

29. What character would you hate to be stuck in a room with?
Definitely House. We'd probably tear each other apart, you'd find this little pieces of us left.
And the pink, jumping, singing twit from LazyTown. Oh please G... ]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21516401/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21516401/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 10:48:10 PST

Count your numbers and multiply by three.
Then title this journal "My life is ___% happy."

[ ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an iPod/ mp3 player.
[ ] Your parents are still married.
[ ] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard. - used to have one, tho.
T 0 T A L: 3


[x] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room. - it's my life source, lol
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[ ] People don't use you for something you have.
[ ] You have been to a concert. - too many people, too loud.
T 0 T A L: 7

[ ] You have over 50 friends on Myspace. - I don't have a Myspace. And I'm alive.
[ ] Your parents let you have a Myspace. - In fact, my mom doesn't care, it's just that I don't let myself have a myspace.
[ ] You get allowance. - Not anymore. Goddammit.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[ ] You look forward to going to school. - what the hell?
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else. - ...what the hell?
[ ] You play a sport.
[ ] You do something after school. - Ah yes, I'm an internet addict. Thanks for reminding me, I forgot.
T 0 T A L: 7


[ ] You own a car.
[ ] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[ ] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.
T 0 T A L: 8


[ ] You know what is going on in the world. - not in the slightest.
[ ] You care about so many people.
[ ] You are happy with your life. - Lol.
[x] You know more than one language. - Czech, English, could speak German I suppose, then a few words here and there... and there and there again.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to 5 songs. - I know the words to like every song I have on my computer. Which is A LOT. And proud of it.
[ ] You don't have any enemies.
[ ] You are a generally nice person. - What kinda creature is that again? oO
T O T A L: 12

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21431432/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21431432/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 01:35:31 PST
Philosophical rant about Cameron's character, go!

Oh God, oh God, why do I still watch that damn show. Since the first season I like every new one less and less, though the first three were all brilliant. Then there was a huge drop but I still can't stop. But but why does her character have to change so much?! In the beginning, I was stunned at her honesty and pure good and blah add every good adjective you can think of; but then... Then she gets herself drugged out and we're in dips#$%!t! Sleeping with Chase because of sex - pfffffft. Rejecting Chase despite he was begging so nicely - I know I hate that animal but I didn't see that one coming... pfffffft. Falling in love with Chase in the end - YOU M#%!(&@"ING BI--- PFFFT!

Yeah I could get over all this. In sorrow, I've been watching all those episodes, where my lovely, uncorrupted little being began changing into a bloodthirty creature. Because with every new episode there was hope that the damn process will stop till it's too late. With her leaving House's department, my childly soul began drowning... and then IT came! And I can't say it was nice.

I'm talking about the 4th season. The IT!!! which kills and depresses me. The IT!!! which once and for all dumped my vanishing hopes. The girl comes into the hospital with BLONDE hair, just like that. First it was a massive shock for me but I've been recovering. She actually looks very nice like that. But... she looks much more mature now. She's not the little girl she used to be anymore and I don't believe it's just because of the hair. Deep within there still has to be my little girl (goddamm I sound like a pedo), right? WRONG! With increasing number of episodes, still sassier and more corrupted Cameron proves me that those times are long gone.

I don't understand something and that is why. Why did they do this to her. Why did they write it like this. Why is she changing. Seems to me that nobody except me even likes Cameron. They find her annoying, childish, too good... FOR GOD'S SAKE PEOPLE, SINCE WHEN, SINCE _WHEN_ IS BEING GOOD A BAD TREAT?!?!?! It occured to me that society in general is corrupted as hell these days. People are so mean to each other it became a norm. And norms are to be followed. Hence when a stranger comes to the circle, someone different, someone who reminds them how it's supposed to be, they push them away. No no, she doesn't belong with us, away, stab her in the back, insult, taunt, let her die a painful death, kill her. I think it's incredibly sad.

The worst thing is, the House cast probably got manipulated by society. They don't like her, but we don't want to get rid of her completely, we have to do something about it. An annoying character less equals better ratings! People want vulgarism and brutality and crap, let's give it to 'em. We'll make Cameron a bitch. People love bitches. Whoa, imagine the ratings, the RATINGS! But just so it makes sense, we'll give it time. We'll be corrupting her sloooowly, so they don't say she's schizophrenic. Dude, the audience will come at this. Good is boring. Bad is supercool. America will love us. They'll give us moneyz on a golden plate. And that's the purpose, isn't it?

-----------------------------

Yeah... Guess I just can't handle how babies grow up so fast these days. *sob*

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21359087/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21359087/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 06:27:35 PST hate!sex and some more hate!sex. YAY. ME SUPPORTZ.

And yes, I do read smut. Reading sex is almost better than actual sex.

No, wait, I just remembered. It's not.

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Hmmm I'm bored and it's midnight, so I thought I could spam yar devwatch witch crap, junk & crappy junk a la news. So, wassup currently in my life?

First and foremost, today it's become official - we're moving by the end of the year, out of Prague, to a village called Zbuzany. We'll probably spend this year's Christmas in our new house. I'm quite excited about it, since I LOVE moving (no clue why). Tis fun.
So today me and my mom were out looking for our future furniture, and I chose this beautiful blue bed with a desk and I'm just so excited about it, because for two (or three already?) years I've had this dumb, stupid... bed... And my desk's best years are long over, too. So yay for us!
Also, I'm feeling SO creative at the moment but at the same time I just can't bring myself to actually making something. Most of all I wanna write. But hell, I just can't. Do you know those moments? Do you hate them as much as I do?
So I just spend time surfing for piccies of Cameron, and... yeah. And I met a new Hameron shipper (YAY! HAMERON IS NOT DEAD!!!), which is AMAZING, since she's Czech, 14, and we're practically twins - and I've known her for like, eh, 2 hours? We're completely the same. Yay for twinsisterness!
The problem is I should be studying. I'll be having some very, very hard exams at school next week. And I'm. Still. Not. Frikkin. Studying. Goodbye, life. Actually I've studied a LOT, but I've kinda quit it, huh. Don't feel like it anymore. But I know I won't make it, so I should... humh. Just humh.
Instead I'm blogging (my blog, The Universe of My Own, is here, take a look if you're Czech! [link] ) and chatting and did I mention looking for piccies of Allie-chaaan? And she's the best? You know that, right? Right! And daydreaming. It's not even funny how much I daydream these days. Really. And there's Cameron. Act surprised. I'd most likely just fall asleep and never wake up again. Dreams are life! It kinda hurts when I realize (again) it's not true and never will be. But what can one do.

Quote of the moment: "What can I say, I'm a bitch." - Allison Cameron

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21066577/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21066577/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 16:01:56 PDT Stolen from 's journal 'cus I'm fucking angry at the moment and want to chill out.

001. Name → Juliana
002. Nickname(s) → Ayoshen, Warrior Princess, WPz, Atheiya, Akerai, Kion, Asterflame, etc. (Yes, I have a thing for A's.)
003. Status → Single (godfuckingdammit)

004. Zodiac sign → Aquarius
005. Male or female → Female

006. Elementary → Voršilská blah blah you never knew never will
007. Middle School → -||-
008. High School → -||-
009. Smart → Nope.

010. Hair color → Brown (DAMNIT^2)
011. Long or short → Medium lol
012. Loud or Quiet → Quiet.
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans

014. Phone or Camera → Neither...
015. Health freak → Hell no.

016. Drink or Smoke? → Neither
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → Yep, a LOT of girls, which sucks goddamn badly. But first and foremost and my angel Allison Cameron and I wub... (insert lots of "<3" here, I'm not writing "<3" here because again, I'm pissed as hell. Doesn't mean I lubb her less.)
018. Eating or Drinking → Drinking
019. Piercings → Never.
020. Tattoos → Nope, but they're nice.

FIRSTS:

023. First piercing → Never.
024. First best friend → Dita and Jarka, three years ago, then they both moved. ...
025. First award → Umm, kindergarten olympics...? Lol
026. First crush → Veronica Layton from The Lost World lol...
027. First pet → A guinea pig
028. First big vacation → Ummm, I was 2 years old at the time or something... I believe it was Yugoslavia...?
030. First big birthday → 12! Got a full set of Xena DVD's! YAY!

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating → Nothing
050. Drinking → Hot chocolate, which got cold by now
052. I'm about to → play some goddamm game and then go to sleep when I'm less pissed
053. Listening to → Roxette - Sleeping in my Car
054. Plans for today → Being less pissed than right now
055. Waiting for → Siiigh... *points at mah Allison-overloaded folder on my desktop*

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids? → Not sure yet, but since I'm a lesbian I guess it would be a no either way lol
059. Want to get married? → Yep
060. Careers – Whatever... Till I can pay for my internet and oh, food or something, I'm happy.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH OPPOSITE SEX? (I take this as "same sex" for my purposes lol)

068. Lips or eyes → Eyes (awwwww what beautiful eyes Allie has... *swoons*)
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Nice stomach
074. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
077. Troublemaker or hesitant → Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:

080. Lost glasses/contacts → Nope, I don't wear any.
081. Ran away from home → Yes, the day before yesterday lol...
084. Broken someone's heart → Ummm... I hope I haven't... but I think I have.
085. Been arrested → No
087. Cried when someone died → Hell of course. Even in the movies. I cry all the time.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → No
090. Miracles → Yes
091. Love at first sight → Yes, yes, YES!
092. Heaven → Yes!
093. Santa Claus → Aww, gimme back my childhood... sadly, not anymore lol... but in a weird, twisted kind of way... I do.
094. Sex on the first date → Hell, why not? I'd have sex on my first date with Allison anytime. *faintdiereboot*
095. Kiss on the first date → Hell YEAH! I mean, kiss is like.. the.. basics? Lol

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yep... Allie... Forever *-*
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → You kidding, hell no and I doubt I will ever be.
099. Do you believe in God → I do believe, I just don't believe in God. Not the way people think of "God."

100. I TAG
Come on, do it... you know you want to

]]> ~Ayoshen http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21062262/ http://Ayoshen.deviantart.com/journal/21062262/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 11:36:54 PDT Ok, ok, I'm bored you know, and yes I need to get a life, because I ended up writing a journal filled with useless crap no one will ever read. Not that I care, I'm bored.

'Sup?
Sooo wassup in my life right now. Hmmh. I'm downloading House M.D. in multiple dubbings at the moment; I finished downloading the Czech dub, though I still don't have half of the third season in my arsenal due to broken links. I'm downloading the Slovak dub from the second season onwards, which is hella fun (I dunno, maybe it's just me, but the Slovak dub seems soooo hilarious to me most of the time. I love Slovak language, tho!) I'd love to download Spanish and German dub, then maybe Polish too, but there's always the damm question - where do I get it from? I tried d/ling the German dub through torrents but alas, noooo seed So.. yeah.

Then again, I'm still bored, 'cause I have no game to play. I'm randomly downloading free MMORPGs and hoping one of them gets my attention, but alas, none did so far.

AND I have NO new picture of Allison Cameron to drool over. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!
I certainly can't. *opens up Google and types "Allison Cameron"* The world needs more Allison.

...Which makes me think I should draw more. I really, really really like drawing in this chibi style I tried, which is sort of why I even bothered COLOURING (a word I wasn't able to find in my personal dictionary ever before) my last pic of Killian. I like it! <3 I even have this lame sketch of chibi House and Cameron, but it's really lame. I have to redraw it. But hell, I love it!

/end of random rant of craziness caused by inevitable boredom all around/

Current Projects

Yes, I have decided to write my personal progress bar. It will be empty most of the time, but it will be here. Jump with joy. Yay.

NONE!

OHAI!


My great friends ^^