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Goodday all.
How is everyone?

Quite a while since I've made a journal entry. Not that I have a lot to say anyway.

Yesterday was my last day of work. Having to get up at 3.30 every day is very tiring, so I'm glad I don't have to go anymore.
I will need a new job but I've paid off my debts and got a bit extra so I can wait a bit before I need to work again.

Uhm, what else? Going to my new school this Tuesday. Pretty excited about it but at the same time a bit nervous. You never know how it will turn out, but I'll just have to wait to see how it will be.

Also, from today I'm not a teenager anymore, more like uhmm, a tweentager or something?
Today was a pretty damn good day so far, so that's a big YAY.

Sorry for the lack of being on dA but yeah I'm was sleeping a lot and I lost a little spirit that made me reply to every comment asap. But I may have found it again. It was trapped in the sugarpot. I don't know how it got there.

That is all I think.

How is everyone?

Ta ta and Arrivederci.

]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/9362991/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/9362991/ Thu, 13 Jul 2006 09:17:08 PDT Mood:

Yay, I'm no longer Jess Jobless!
I finally got a job. I went to a few employment agencies a couple of weeks ago and they all made promises that they would call me back and stuff like that but they didn't. Now I called one today again and she got all happy because she had 2 jobs for me. It's easy, boring and hard work but I don't give a fuck. I'm happy I finally got something to do. I'm really bored over here. So bored I actually do nothing all day because I can't motivate myself to even do some shopping or the laundry. I work from 4.30 AM till 11 AM and then from 2 PM till 10 PM. I'm glad I got it now because I'm almost in debt.
I need to save money for next schoolyear and I want a new tattoo which I suspect will be costly. I also bought a poster with border and everything that was expensive and a few cd's yesterday. I got two Otep Cd's now. I really like it. It's different and cool. I think I blew my boxes from the computer.

I'm hungry and I hadn't had propper food and drinks in days. I'm going to do some quick grocerie shopping now and going to bed early.

Yay to me?

]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/8913585/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/8913585/ Mon, 29 May 2006 16:51:54 PDT Mood:

Hey

Back in the Netherlands and glad about it too.
US was pretty cool, stayed a bit too long on one spot though.
But it sure did woke my adventerous side. I want to go see lots more now.
And I'm sure that will happen too.
Flew back Friday and arrived Saturday.
The kid in the row next to us kept puking. It smelled.
So, well, that's it.
I will add some pictures of where I was and stuff in the scraps tomorrow or something.
Anything exciting happened or something I missed?

]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/8014312/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/8014312/ Sat, 06 May 2006 19:43:47 PDT Mood:

Hey all.

I won’t write much in this DJ, but I did wanted to make one before I go.

What I would like to see in this journal are random comments/ rants / things that happened/ just things from anyone that wants to at any time. So it kind of turns into one large DJ from everyone. So go ahead write here whatever you want, when ever you want. So I have something to read if I come online and so I know how everyone is doing.

Alright, going now.
Miss you already & see you in a couple of months!
Ta ta.

: pat:



Edit #1 : 03-03-06

Hello all.

How is everyone? (answer this question! Or I will get mad and choke little lambs! Yes, that is a threat.)

I'm doing pretty good. I'm a bit tired, another hard day of work.
Let me start of by telling you from the beginning.

Wednesday morning at 6:30 I got up. I couldn't sleep well, so I was awake before the alarm actually went off.
After a quick shower I went down to discover it had snowed. I had sixteenthousandeighthundred and nintythree panic attacks during the next two and a half seconds. After some tea and tranqualizer I thought to myself don't worry all will be fine.
At 8 my dad and I got in the car. I said goodbye to my mom and we drove off. My brother wanted to come so we picked him up. At about 8:10 we were on the road, ready to go. A lot of snow and traffic stops. A motorcyclist almost crashed 2 meters away from us, but he managed to keep his bike steady in the snow. I got worried shitless in the car about not being able to make it in time. Thankfully, my dad calmed me down saying all was going according to plan.
At 9:25 we arrived at Schiphol Airport. After 10 minutes of waiting I could check-in. I then said goodbye to my dad and brother. And I lost one of my contactlenses in the process of doing so.
After saying goodbye I walked around a while and headed to the gate. There I was questioned by some angry looking man about who packed my bags etc. etc.
At about 11:30 I got into the airplane. During the next hour all the other passengers got in. We flew out at 12:30.
After a long ass flight I got in Washington Dulles International Airport. There I got questioned again, 3 different times, by very rude people. The last guy who interrogated me in a Gestapo kind of manner, a little Mexican dude called Castillo topped the day for being the rudest. Calling me a cocksucker and pulling all my luggage from my bag and saying alright and left. Leaving me not knowing what to do with all my luggage on a table. After a few min I started packing again, but still not knowing what to do, after slowly packing in I got my bags and walked on. U.S. Marshall or Airport worker Castillo, you're a cunt!

I finally got out of the arrivel hall at about 4 US time. But then I couldn't find Eva, who was picking me up. So I got another fiftheenthousandfourhundred and seventysix panic attacks. After wandering around for at least half an hour and making numerous phonecalls home, we finally met up and drove to Keswick, VA.

At about 7 we arrived here. The first night I went to bed early because of all the time zone differences my whole pattern was ruined.

The next day, March 2nd, started off early, I woke at around 6:45. I got up and found Don, mixing milk for the lambs. There are 12 lambs that need to be feeded by hand 3 times a day. It's a cute sight. After that, we went and feed the big sheeps. All 100 of them, and I can t... ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7948807/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7948807/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 01:33:03 PST Mood:

Well hello there people,

Remember me?
I was that one foreign kid that used to write these things every day.
Yeah that was me.

Anyway, how is everyone?

I'm doing fucking awesome.

I'm going to the US on the first of March. I'm going to live with a family on a farm in Virginia. I got in contact with them through the mother of the kids I babysit on. The niece, Eva, went to US 6 years ago to work on a horse stable of an extremely wealthy family. Some time ago she went to live with Don, who owns a sheep farm. Last year they got married and got a baby.
They got a big ass farm with 500 sheep, some cows, goats, 8 dogs, horses and they could use some help. Then, the mother of the kids I babysit on, Mette, asked them if it was alright if I came to help them. They gladly did and so did I. Mette knew I wanted this because we talked about this a few years ago and she knew I've always wanted to live in America. So 3 and a half week ago, I got a text message from Mette asking me if I wanted to go to the US. Woohoo, felt like I was dreaming. From then on we exchanged some emails (Eva and I).
She told me I could come from last week of February till April. But first we'll see how things go. I will be there to help at the farm and help them move. They had some issues or something with their landlord and they bought or hired a new house with land. I'll be there for at least a month. If all goes well in their and my eyes I'll stay a few months longer.

So if anyway lives near Keswick, VA. Let me know.
I don't know what their new place will be yet. But I assume I'll hear that soon.
I hope they got internet too, I'll try to keep you all updated.

So yeah... Really excited and anxious. Looking forward to it but pretty scary too. So yeah, next week I'm gone.

Just had to type this.

Now I'm going to pee of excitement.

Ta ta, goodbye and arrivederci

]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7848393/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7848393/ Thu, 09 Feb 2006 16:05:47 PST Mood: (See 9 stars, that's how good I feel!)

I feel like biting someone, any volunteers?

]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7686203/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7686203/ Mon, 23 Jan 2006 14:39:25 PST Mood:

Good evening all.

How is everyone?
Sorry for the lack of DJ's, don't know if anyone misses them, if so, sorry. I still write DJ's, but now it’s just on a person page, here on dA. An extremely cool and funny person person, if I might add. Plus, she always replies so it's a lot easier to just talk and talk and talk and talk. More fun too.

Now, on to the reason for writing a journal.
My dad's going to be sixty in a little more then 2 weeks. 60 Years old already, wow. But I have no idea at all to of what to give. He hasn't got any real hobbies. He did just got addicted to Sudoka/Sudoku, so I'm thinking of giving him a subscription to a Sudoka/Sudoku magazine kind of thing.
But that isn't enough, I want to give him something cool. Something really cool.
Please could you people help me out and mention a few things.
He always was a cool dad, but last couple of months he's became one of the coolest people around, seriously, he cracks jokes every few seconds, jumps me to wrestle with him. He really is frikkin' cool. And to thank him for all the times to have been put up with me I would like to thank him with something special. Now a lot of you may think 'Well, you're the only one who can think of something'. I tried, for a long time, but I can’t think of anything.
I asked my mom, but she doesn't know what to give either. She told me she would like me to take a picture of me and get my brother to take a picture and get that in a nice silver frame. But she can't think of something else either. I want to give a present I can afford myself, I don’t want to share the costs with my brother, since we don’t hadn’t had contact for over 3 months now.
Please, tell me something I could give. It may be quite expensive, so there should be a lot of things I can give.

]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7590108/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7590108/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 07:07:11 PST Mood:

Hello.
How is everyone??

I'm extremely bored so I thought 'Hey, let me bore other people by asking them what there favourite lyrics are.' Then my other brainhalf thought 'Hey, that's quite a good question, lets ask them'.
So, now I'm writing this DJ to ask all of you to post your favourite lyrics. Can be anything, whole song, just a sentence or a couplet, anything.
So go ahead.

]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7509273/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7509273/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 15:15:46 PST Mood:

I'm bored.
Name three of the most pretty/meaningful/cutest/etc. words,sentences or proverbs you know.

Mine are:
Arrivederci
L'amour
Mon Cheri

]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7447882/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7447882/ Thu, 29 Dec 2005 10:59:08 PST Mood:

Mice...
In..My...
Kitchen...

Fucking disgusting.

If anyone wants them, come on over and get them.. please...

]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7388822/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7388822/ Fri, 23 Dec 2005 04:35:01 PST Mood:

I got, once again, a song stuck in my head but I don't know who made it or sings it. The song is about 'insane' or 'crazy', I beleive that the title is close to that as well. The music style is somewhat close to Skunk Anansie or K's Choice.
I think it has a sentence in it like 'You think I'm crazy' or 'I'm not crazy'. Dammit, that is all pretty damn vague. I know it's an older song, about 7-8 years old.
I tried to search for those lyrics on google and Matchbox 20 came up, but it's deffinetly not that song. It's a woman singing it. Sorry for the vague description but I hope someone knows. It worked last time I asked for a song. It's all I know.

Thanks in advance.

/Edit: Merde shit, I forgot to mention that I wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!!!!

]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7261806/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7261806/ Fri, 09 Dec 2005 04:36:54 PST Mood:

What the hell is this?!?
A Daily Journal from Paul! No way.
Well yes, sorry for lack of updates. I used to write these damned things every day. But, like... yeah... you know... I'm me. And I'm lazy.

Anyway, why I write this journal is because I had a really odd dream last night and I would like to know if someone could explain it.

I mentioned a certain girl in a couple of journals ago. It was the girl I used to see in the train to school every day. There was something about this girl, she wasn't exceptional pretty or anything. There was just something about her. In a good way, she was intriguing, although she was just normal looking.
Now back to the dream. I was sleeping in a car and when I woke up, that girl/woman (I think she is about 23-25 years old) was driving the car. It was odd, because in the time I was sleeping in the dream it seemed like there was a documentary about this woman. In her head or in the documentary she said she didn't know why she still did this job because it paid so little.
She wasn't a prostitute or anything, she was a saleswoman or something like that.
Anyway, when I woke up, she drove and after a while I asked her, why she never said what she thought. She got really angry at me. (I once asked Megan this question, she got very aggravated about it too.)
Anyway, she drove and argued. After a while we came at a gate with behind it a really big field and a palace/incredibly big house.
She parked the car and we walked through the gate, near the beginning of the field there was a stone with a statue. The stone said something with the name ‘Helene’ Or something like that.
The girl, I was with, kissed her hand and then pressed her hand against the stone, which now looked like a gravestone. She told me to go into the house/palace. When I walked towards it and looked back she was crying. While walking to the house I walked past 3 or 4 groups of people. They were on my left side, and at every group there was like a pastor to bury someone.
There were very little people in every little group, like 5 or 6, no more. And you could buy flowers and like funeral ribbon or ‘funeral wreath’ (as the dictionary says). All the prices were real big on the things you could buy. It looked all very cheap, although all the people were all wearing expensive clothing, with fur and all. All the people except for the pastor sat on chairs. I then walked past the second group, it was the same thing, 5 or 6 people sitting on chairs with all kinds of bouquets of flowers you could buy (again, with an exceptional large price tag). I then walked past a third group, once again, same thing, 6 people on chairs a pastor in front of them. The pastor said the name of the person that had died, it was a real long fancy name. He then said that (I think the guy that died) won a game of tennis with 5-1 and 5-2. Which is odd since that’s impossible. I then saw a hand crossing out 2 names on a list of 6 names. Not horizontally but vertically. I don’t remember the names.
Anyway, by now I was crying. I saw people walking from the house. When I was almost past the last group, an old lady that sat on the most right side of the last group of 5-6 people, tried to grab my hand. I jumped away but she still managed to grab my hand.
And then I woke.
I must admit, reading the story again the dream doesn’t seem Thát odd, but I really like to know what it means and if it means something at all. But what is scary that I remember it so incredibly clearly, I can rewind it right now in my head, almost the whole thing, except for a piece of the argument in the car. That was a bit longer, but from the moment where she parks the car to when I wake it... ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7159158/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7159158/ Sun, 27 Nov 2005 14:32:38 PST
It's nearly is Christmas again. If you want a card, let me know and I will sent you one.
I promise. I will cry if I see anyone who don't want a card on my watchlist. And I won't just cry a little but like really hard. ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7114659/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7114659/ Tue, 22 Nov 2005 13:26:43 PST Anoya than it someone else. This time~Esperesa tagged me.

Three names you go by
1. Paul... Just my regular name, most people call me that
2. Pappy... My nickname some people always use.
3. BeZerko on some website and forums. I’m a naughty little man and I’m going to add a fourth; Poppetje, Erik calls me that, I think it’s cool.

Three physical things you like about yourself
1. My eyebrows
2. Uhh…
3. This is hard...

Three physical things you don't like about yourself
1. My ears.
2. My (double) chin.
3. My belly when I sit.

Three parts of your heritage
1. Dutch, obviously.
2. I heard my grandmother was German.
3. None other that I know of.

Three things that scare you
1. Being buried alive
2. Things.
3. Talking face-to-face with people I don’t know.

Three of your everyday essentials.
1. Music
2. Computer
3. Reading and sleeping. ( I know, I know, I added a fourth again.)

Three things you are wearing right now
1. I’m wearing some sort of improvised pyjama suit. I’m wearing a black shirt
2. Pyjama trousers
3. ‘sloffen’, I think they are some kind of indoor slippers. They are nice. I almost always wear them at home.

Three of your favorite bands/musical artists
1. Insane Clown Posse
2. Twiztid
3. House of Krazees

Three of your favorite songs.
In no particular order:
Nothings Left – Insane Clown Posse
How Many Times – Insane Clown Posse
Ravel –Bolero
I think...

Three new things you want to try to do in the next 12 months
1. Do something I know needs to be done.
2. Do something else I know needs to be done.
3. Stop drinking when I’m alone.

Three things you want in a relationship
1. Love
2. Trust
3. Humour

Two truths and a lie
1. I am having a good mood today (T)
2. Last Saturday was the first time I ever visited a museum. (T)
3. Normally I’m having a good mood. (F)

Three things about the opposite sex that appeal to me
Every girl has her own cute things or less cute things so it depends on the person. Things that would make a girl extra pretty or loveable would be;
1. Great personality
2. An appearance I find attractive
3. Trustworthy

Three of your favourite hobbies
1. Sad but true, the computer
2. Photography
3. Music, just listening to it, that is.

Three things you want to do really badly right now
1. Brush my teeth
2. Read my book
3. Sleep

Three careers you're considering
1. Social worker.
2. Psychologist.
3. President of the Moon.

Three places I want to go on vacation
1. Madagascar
2. Italy
3. New York was very, very cool. I would like to go there again some day.

Three things to do before I die
1. Help people.
2. Get married to a woman I love with whole my heart. And have a perfect live with her.
3. Have kids and be the best dad as possible to them.

Three celeb crushes
Uhmm I don’t know. I can think of just one. Most celebs have some kind of slutty appearance. If anyone knows a celeb that has a bit of a ‘alternative’ look and has short brown or black dreadlocks and is just pretty, let me know. Anyway only celeb I can think of is;
1. Elizabeth Hurley, although she is not real young anymore, I think it’s still a very pretty woman, plus she has a great English accent.
2. ?
3. ?? ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7034401/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7034401/ Sun, 13 Nov 2005 09:53:17 PST Anoya, so here we go.

[My name is]: Paul, I recently (in another journal-tag) discovered it stands for “small”
[in the morning i was]: Sleeping. I slept till 11:30 so this morning I was sleeping
[all i need now is]: A guillotine. So I can chop my head off and to get rid off all the worries.
[love is]: Something I don’t know. I know my parents and brother love me, well I hope and think so anyways. But I don’t know how to is to really love someone, with all the butterflies in the tummy etc.etc.
[i'm afraid of]: Being buried alive.
[i dream about]: Nothing. I don’t have dreams all that often anymore. When I do it are nightmares. I don’t seem to have or remember happy dreams.

You:
-- Middle name: My full name is Paulus Franciscus Munnik, I think… So my middle name would be Franciscus.
-- Birth time: Around 15:35 in the afternoon, I never know if that is AM or PM. I think it’s PM (it’s just a guess though).
-- Birthplace : Zeist, at home. Where I lived for nearly 18 years.
-- Last place traveled: Travelled by bike to Zeist. Really travelling by train was Amsterdam. Last place I travelled by car was Schiphol. And last time I travelled by plane was from Paris to Schiphol in 2000.
-- Eye Color: Mixture of grey, blue and green.
-- Nail Color: Nail colour? Are there differences in nail colour…? They look pink but I think they are just white, and they just look pink because of the skin underneath it.
-- Height: About 5.11 ft or 180 centimetres. I am not sure about the 5.11, but I got this in my head that in 1 foot there are 12 inches. I really don’t know if 5.11 is 1.80 cm. It’s just that I got that in my head.
-- Zodiac Sign: Leo.

Describe:
-- Your heritage: Dutch and German.
-- The shoes you wore today: Black shoes from uhmm, let me check. From Converse All Stars. I have these shoes for like 4 years now and they are really worn off, but I still like em, they are comfortable.
-- Your hair: Dark blond, but lighter in mid-summer.
-- Your weakness: Not being able to say things I know I should say or tell others
-- Your perfect pizza: I don’t know, uhmm I guess just cheese and salami I think. Owwno, wait wait wait, I like the Al Capone’s Al Shoarma pizza. It sounds really icky but I like it.


What is:
-- Your most overused phrase: I use the words ‘Anyway’, ‘though’, ‘tampie’ and ‘joeke/duke’ too often. I don’t have a phrase or sentence I keep saying, I think.
-- Your thoughts first waking up: Ughhh…
-- Your current worry: I’m worried about, if I did good with walking away while having an extremely(!) important talk with my mentrix last Thursday.
-- Your plans tomorrow: I have a dentist appointment and I need to get groceries.
-- Your best physical feature: Being slim.
-- Your bedtime: Whenever I want to.

You prefer:
-- sunrise or sunset: Both, they can both be beautiful. If I had to choose I would go with a sunset.
-- gore or horror: Horror.
-- eastside or westside: Questions like these make me think, What?!? If I had to choose I would go with east. I don’t know why though.
-- stripes or polka dots: Polka dots? Let me check what those are on internet, brb. Oww, that, definitely stripes.
-- Planes or trains: Trains.
-- metal or hardcore: I don’t know the difference between those two… I’m a music noob.
-- Pools or hot tubs: Hot tubs, although pools are really nice too.

Do You:
-- Do you think you've been in love: No.
-- Want to get married: Absolutely.
-- Type w/ your fingers: No of course not. I type with my butt-cheeks. Everyone who types with their fingers are just amateurs.
-- Like to take baths: Well, yeah, occasionally. I like long really hot showers more though. When it’s really cold in my kitchen (my shower is in the kitchen) I try to get the water as hot as I can handle and see if I can make my feet disappear because of all the steam.

-- Get motion sickness: No, I only had that 1 time, when I was on a plane from NY to Paris in 2000.
-- Like talking on the phone: I don’t do it often. It depends on the person if I like it. I don’t want to talk to some people face to face that often, in those cases cell phones are ideal. But in cases of where I talk to people on the phone that I like, I rather talk face to face.
-- Like thunderstorms: They are beautiful.
-- Play an instrument: I can’t play any. I wish I had taken lessons when I was younger though.
-- Workout: I don’t. I try to have as much walks to the city as I can. I walk everyday for at least half an hour. If I am having my walk I need to add about 1-2 hours to that.
-- Like reading: Yes, I love reading. I read every night. Stupid thing is, I like reading... ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7024025/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/7024025/ Sat, 12 Nov 2005 03:50:58 PST Here's the rules:
1 -- Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 -- I will respond; I'll ask you five questions.
3 -- You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 -- You'll include this explanation.
5 -- You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed

I asked =Anoya to interviewed me, so here are the questions:

1. Who was your first true love?
2. What did you wanna be when you'd grow up?
3. What is your first memory ever?
4. Where would you still like to go some day?
5. What's your favorite line from a book?

1. I never been really in love with a girl, who I thought she would be the love of my life. I loved a girl but in a friend-way. She is a cunt now. I hope I truly only find one girl, who will be my one and only true love, till I die.

2.Ahh I wanted to be loads of things. I wanted to be an astronaut, like every boy on earth. I then wanted to become a surgeon. After that I wanted to become a ‘pyrotechnic’, which is a guy who makes fireworks and leads firework shows. But I couldn’t do this because I sucked at physics and chemistry. Now I just want to become a father and husband.

3. I think that would be either a little chicken shitting on my father’s hand, or that I am sitting on the lap of my grandfather. He died when I was 3 so it must have been at least one of my first memories. While I was sitting on his lap he was singing a song about a donkey or horse and then there was a bump in the road and then he opened his legs so I would drop down, I found this very funny, and that’s probably why I still remember it.

4. Madagascar. It’s an island east of the continental Africa. It’s is supposed to be one of the nicest places on earth. There is very little tourism because the government wants to keep it very minimal. So it’s a real ‘pure’ country.

5. It’s not a sentence, but somewhere in the beginning of House of Leaves there is a word; Thoughtographer. I really like that word, because I think it’s very true.
A whole sentence I really like is; “All words will be considered her last, until they are followed by others.”
I don’t know it has something magical about it. I like them.

Sorry for the lack of DJ’s lately. I just wanted to update this DJ so I wouldn’t wait to long to fill in the answers.
Don’t know when there will be a new DJ.
My mom called, she insists I need to go home today. I don’t see why I have to, but I’ll go.
So bye for now again.
Arrivederci ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6971651/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6971651/ Sun, 06 Nov 2005 12:56:25 PST Jet another DJ, because the day is already over. I am almost 100% that this one will be short.
What did I do last night, after the journal of yesterday I went to bed to finsh reading the book ‘Deadkidsongs’. It was the ending I expected so wasn’t much of a surprise, I think the book isn’t worth reading. It’s about 4 boys who grow up in a small town in (I think) England, during 1960. The father of one of the boys had fought in WW2 and is obsessed by army stuff. The son of that man is called Andrew. Andrew is going to start a little army group called Gang. Andrew is highest in rank, after him Matthew, then Paul and as last Peter. When Matthew gets ill, his grandparents tell him to go to bed, after 4 hours Matthew shouts that he needs a doctor, his grandparents tell him he doesn’t need one. He gets very ill during the next hour and dies. Then Andrew decides to take revenge on the grandparents of Andrew. Andrew wants to kill them but Paul and Peter want to make it look like an accident. There is a fight and in the end Paul takes the leadership over from Andrew. Andrew goes berserk an kills the grandparents with a knife and completely molests the bodies. After that he commits suicide.
It was as how I thought it would end, so nah, not really a great book. I finished reading at about 2:30. I slept at about 3 o’clock I think, because all the people that went out were shouting and singing.
This morning I woke up pretty damn early, at about 8:30. I have no idea why, I wasn’t really that tired. My back did hurt like hell, I think I must have slept diagonal or maybe even vertical tonight..
After spending about 30 min behind the pc, I went back to be to start in the new book The Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius. I read only 25 pages thus far, but it seems like a damn good book. It has about the same humour and writing-style as House of Leaves.
I then talked to HFS for a while. I took a shower and sat behind the pc, again(sigh). At about 2:30 I went to have my walk and do groceries. I ordered a new CD from ‘Boudisque’ it was the nice lady. I then walked around a bit before I went to the supermarket. I bought my stuff and headed home. I did 1 laundry, although I planned on doing two. I also wanted to clean the kitchen and my room, but I was lazy.
I ate a bag of winegums and wanted to know if winegums could make people drunk since on every gum a different type of drink is imprinted. The red one is Gin, yellow is Cognac, etc. The people I asked it to laughed at me, while I was serious… like this
I also had a whole bag of crisps. I know very unhealthy but I was in a good mood. I then made fried squid or something, you know, the tentacles. Sounds nasty but it really is tasty. Although I think I messed the recipie (sp?) because I got pretty sick afterwards and felt like throwing up hours later. It could also have been because I get sick if I have too much fat on a day.
Anyway now it’s nearly 10 o’clock again. It was a very boring day again. But tomorrow I am really planning to clean everything up. I want to see what kind of carpet I have again.
Alright I think I’m going to watch some documentaries now.
Good night.
Arrivederci


P.s. wrote these. Don’t know what to do with em, submit worthy or not? Some sound very depressing, but don't worry I feel a tad better now.



Bloody Rain

As the clouds dropping the red drops
Time, movements, everything except memories stops
Memories will never stay away
They will be there till my last day
How hard you try not to think
They do nothing but the opposite of shrink
Never gave in to the emotions I felt
Hadn’t had the slightest idea of how they should be dealt
Now the time has come for me to die
goodbye




1-Way Ticket

It’s the most simple way out
Then why is there so much doubt?
My head has made it’s mind up
The body just wont cooperate
There seems to be one solution
My final act is my own execution



Joy

This is a little poem about joy
This poem is about a little boy

He died in the belly of his mum



Closed Eyes

The eyes are closed but I just get more tired
The real sleep and cute dreams burn in fire
Because cute dreams and real sleep never flash in my head
The cute dreams are the ones where I’m peacefully dead
Real sleep never comes, I’m awake before I get to that
The flashes I have before that are the ones where I fight in combat
They say you need 8 hours of sleep a day
I sometimes have twice that amou... ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6964396/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6964396/ Sat, 05 Nov 2005 16:42:23 PST How is everyone?
Once again sorry for the long read in the last journal. I will do you up most best to make this one a lot shorter and a tiny bit more interesting.

Thursday night my muscles really began to hurt from aerobics, I think it’s safe to say that I hate aerobics. I went to bed right after writing the journal. I read my book for some time. It’s still that book ‘Deadkidsongs’. It’s finally getting more interesting now. I think I will finish it tonight. Then I can start to read in one of my 3 new books, woohooo. I think I will choose to read ‘A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius’

So Friday morning I woke up at around 7 again, to get ready for school. It was going to be such a lovely day, I really looked forward to it . First 2 hours were English. The teacher seems like a nice guy when he is relaxed, but he really just can’t teach us anything. He just can’t. If we hadn’t done our homework we had to leave the class. Barely the half of the class could stay. It was immensly boring, like really really really boring ( I'm not even exaggirating). He gave us a shitload of homework again. After 2 truly lovely hours of English I had an hour free in between the next class. Martijn, who is the only guy who is kind of cool called to tell he wasn’t coming today. So I just walked around a bit and after a while I sat behind the pc to browse some sites and stuff. They got one guy who monitors the sites we visit because some times I can check DA for some minutes without a problem but other times when I load DA I can watch is for 10-15 seconds before my mouse starts moving and closes the screen. They just can’t appreciate art, damn barbarians!! Anyway after some surfing I walked around the school for a bit again, then Jermaine( I don’t know if I spelled his name correctly) grabbed the named tag on my bag and pulled very hard and all the strings snapped. Damn fool! See this is how it was before [link] and this is how it is after he broke all the strings [link] . I got the name tag from when we were in New York in 2000. I put it on the back of my bag because I sometimes forget what my name is, so it’s really handy. I actually bought this in the WTC in NY.
Anyway, after some walking I headed to my next favourite class; German! Really, I know I have said this many times before, but it really is an awful language. Dutch is horrible too, I wish we could just have one language that the whole world would speak. English would be good, not American-English but Great Britain-English. And it would be even better if all the girls would have a cute accent, like Elizabeth Hurley had in that Austin Powers movie .
Anyway, we had German. The first hour we have to sit in a class full of computers where we got like a headset. We need to talk in the microphone so the teacher can hear us doing our thing. I can fake the accent so he says I do alright, but I really, really despise the language... After the first hour we got an assignment to translate a German newspaper-article about Hotel Reservation Service or something. We only got 45 minutes to write a summary of the article since we would have lessons directly after it. So one of the 2 girls from my class and me started working on it, because we have to work in pairs. She is the girl I had wrote earlier about, the one that whines about every little thing (not Megan). She had a new phone so she kept going on about it, at least she wasn’t whining so much today, which was a plus. We worked on it for 45 minutes but we were nowhere near finishing it. We would get a grade for it so we skipped the two hours of Economics. I wanted to go because I had a 46 (Out of the possible 100 points) . But I really couldn’t go otherwise I would have had another insufficient mark, or how should I call this. I would have a mark that isn’t high enough again to get my diploma... ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6946286/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6946286/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 15:50:28 PST I’m sorry. I don’t know if anyone had noticed it but I haven’t submitted a journal whole week, way to long. I like just typing what I did that day. This time it was a bit different. I’m quite lifeless lately. Not feeling like doing anything. Plus, I’ve been sick and busy with school and projects. Enough negative babbling, time to move on to the DJ.

Last submitted DJ, was the DJ I wrote Thursday the 27th of October. I remember Friday, I just don’t know all the things I had done that day, so I’ll just say what I think I have done that day. Got out of bed at around 12:00, sat on the pc checking DA and playing Bejeweled till about 3. After that I might have taken a shower. After the shower I think I headed to the city for my walk, might have done some groceries while I was at it too. I do know that Megan hasn’t called me. I do remember that, well you were right, Anoya, she just is a person that can’t be trusted.
Saturday the 28th, I once again have no idea of what I did. I might have woken up at 12 again. I might aswell copy and paste the little story from above here. I do know I went to Zeist (city of where I was born) to my brother, my father picked us up and the three of us headed to Schiphol to pick up my mom from her trip to Libya. Her plane should arrive at 18:30 but they changed it so it would arrive at 17:45. But she still arrived at 18:05 or something. So we greeted her 20 minutes later. She had a good time. Pretty country, only the group she travelled with wasn’t really friendly. They were rich folks, my mum definitely doesn’t fit in with a group like that. Because it was getting late, we decided to go to McDonalds. We always order in the Drive-In or Drive-thru or however they call it. After we scored the food we drive home as fast as possible, because the fries always turn cold so quickly. Anyway, we had McDonalds she showed me the pictures she had taken. They were pretty nice, I just some them on the screen of the camera so I haven’t seen them when they had a viewable size yet. I got pretty sick after eating the food, but I wanted to head home so I walked to the train station and headed home. I don’t think I did a lot of things other then sitting behind the pc for most of the night. I do know I chatted a bit on that chatroom on DA. Been talking a bit with some nice people there. * Edit oww wait a tick, I remember going to bed pretty late because I had to set all the times on hour backwards. Wrote some things, I think they suck quite a bit, I don’t know of others do, but meh.. If you want them note me.
Sunday the 29th. Woke up with a very sore throat if I recall correctly. What the heck did I do that day… Oww yeah I know I took some pictures. I haven’t even looked at them yet, should do that right away. Anyways had my daily little walk. It was a nice day, not cold, not warm not too busy because it wasn’t ‘buying-Sunday’ (as how my brother always calls it). Just a nice day. I don’t think I had dinner that day because my throat hurt and my taste really is messed up, chocolate tastes like shit (no, not literally), so does jus d’ orange. Wow, I think this is the most boring journal ever posted on DA. *edit 2. I now remember I had chocolate covered cookies with ice-cream for dinner.
Monday the 30th. I had an awful sleep Sunday night, I think I had only slept 6 hours or something. My nose is stuffed and 1 second I’m really hot almost boiling and the next second I was shivering cold. I studied for my math test that I had Wednesday, math sucks, it’s hard. I did groceries and had my daily walk, I remember that 1 of the members of the projectgroup called to see if I could work on the project Tuesday. So I talked to him for a bit, other then that I don’t think I did anything, I do remember I made some burrito’s for dinner(I think..)(They actually tasted nice, sometimes I’m a good cook). Edit 3 I also remember I got my grade for accounting back, I scored 80 out of 100. Is that an A or a B in US or something?? I also remember saying goodbye to Barrett, who went in the US army on the 1st of November. So I said goodbye to him, I don’t actually know him, but we started talking because we both played a computer game some time ago. Now I remember too that I bought a birthday card for Mitja. He lives in Slovenia and his birthday is the 9th of November, so I bought him a card that I could sent him.
Tuesday the 31th. I had just 2 lessons, so I was done at 10.15. After that the group started working on one of the many projects. Bilal was sick, so he didn’t come. We stumbled at the same problems we had the Wednesday before at my place so we worked on that. After 3 hours of working we still hadn’t figured it out. Then the fun began, Stefan, the guy who sometimes just ignores to do anything or listen to anyway, started to pack his bag because he was going home. So we had quite a massive argument. After that none of us felt like working anymor... ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6883008/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6883008/ Thu, 27 Oct 2005 14:26:05 PDT
Today a short DJ again. I have not much to tell you all.
Yesterday night I watched The Sopranos. After that I sat behind for the computer for about half an hour to write a few new ‘poems’. I also asked Dutchshun what makes a couple of words a poem. I got a very poetic responds but I understood now.
I had drank a bit (!) too much whiskey again, shame on me. When this bottle is empty I really shouldn’t buy a new one again. Luckily for me, it’s almost empty. I also saw I had smoked two cigars last night….Me + Cigars = must be a really weird sight.
Anyway, I slept pretty good last night, my brother phoned me at about 8 o‘clock to ask how I was doing. I always get so damn grumpy when someone wakes me with a phone call. So I told him I was asleep and hung up. Fortunately, I fell asleep very quick again, till he phoned again at half past 12. Now I couldn’t get mad at him because it really was time to wake up and get out. So I got out, made myself a nice cup of tea and checked DA. I then send *Dutchshun a few things I wrote last and Tuesday night. Much to my surprise she seemed to like it. She even used the word ‘Wow’, which make me feel pretty damn good to be honest. Thanks Dutchshun!!
I might submit some of them, but I know not many people read just poetry, I rather add a nice picture to it that fits the poem. But I’m not that good of a photographer so that make take a while, or maybe I just submit the poems as poems, without a picture. Some are too personal too, so I'm not thinking about adding those.
Anyway,I sat in my boxers and room mantel(?) till about 3, I then took a shower and had my daily walk around the city. I went to musicstore ‘Boudisque’ again to see if that nice girl was there, she was so I asked if they could order a cd for me. Unfortunately the cd wasn’t in their system yet, so I have to come back next week or the week after that again. I then headed to the supermarket to do some groceries and see what I could eat tonight. After that I had another walk around the city before I headed home. While walking home my father called, he had spoken to my mom. She said the tour manager wears a little scarf all the time and try to talk very poshy and act like he is all rich. The whole group she travels with seemed to be like that. I hope she is having fun. Libya seems to be a pretty nice country, a lot of deserts. I hope takes some nice pics.
I got home at about quarter past 5. I sat behind the pc till about 6, because I prepared dinner. I had mushroom-soup, it tasted pretty damn good. Since then I sat behind the computer being bored and doing homework. Does anyone knows a nice chatroom or a cool/funny/good website? I’m bored to tears.
So now I think I’m going to bed, might read in my book some more. Oww wait, I nearly forgot I worked with Photoshop for some time too. I came across a tutorial for colouring eyes, so I tried that. The outcome was pretty good actually, hadn’t expected that, but it came out way nicer then I had imagined.

Goodbye for now ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6873039/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6873039/ Wed, 26 Oct 2005 12:28:51 PDT Kee de-ir?
Well yesterday was Tuesday if I remember correctly.
As far as I can remember I didn’t do that much. I know I cleaned the house, for quite some well. I tried to take some picture of things I came up with Monday, but they failed yet again.
I did groceries and had my daily little walk. Yesterday was a nice autumn day. Not cold, not warm, nice too windy and dry. Nice colours all around you.
My brother arrived way too early. He was supposed to be here at half past 5. But he got here at a quarter past four. My dad arrived at half past 5. So when he got here I started preparing dinner. I always seem to screw up the food when someone visits. I almost always let some cook to long and it will burn or whatever. Although I didn’t thought it was that nice, my father and brother seemed to enjoy the meal (or they are just really good actors). They left at about 8. I then cleaned up the mess they left behind and sat behind the pc for most of the night again. I went to bed early because I hadn’t slept all that nice the night before again.
When I still hadn’t caught sleep at about a quarter to 2 I went out of bed and sat behind the pc and just started writing. I don’t know what I wrote, well I do know whát I wrote because I saved it but I don’t know what it is. It rhymes so it could be poems or just short verses for songs or something. I was quite surprised I just started writing it down, I never did that before. I’m not saying it’s show-off worthy material but it was just spontaneous typing, after rereading it I don’t think it’s that bad.
After doing that for 45 mins I went back to bed again. I still couldn’t sleep so I started reading in my new book (which sucks by the way.)
This morning I had to wake up at half past 8 because two projectmembers would come here and they wanted to work on the project since the school is closed. So I quickly cleaned the kitchen after I showered and had a small breakfast. I had to pick them up at Central Station, but they weren’t there yet. So when the train arrived they came out and asked me if I had seen the 2 other project members yet. I wasn't expecting those other 2 at all. And 5 people in my room is a bit too loud and small at 9 o’clock in the morning. Fortunately (from my view) one couldn't come because he had caught a cold. The other girl arrived ten minutes after the other groupmembers. So the four of us headed to my place to start and hopefully finish at least one assignment for one of the projects. We worked on it for about 4 hours till the girl said she ‘just couldn’t continue anymore otherwise she would faint from the hunger’. So another groupmember and I went out to get some fries for her, so she wouldn’t suffer any more.
After getting back home we worked on the projects for an hour more, till we decided to finish the assignments next Tuesday at school. I walked them back to Central Station and waived them goodbye “Bye, see you later, _{don’t come back soon,please”}
After they had left I cleaned up again, and began playing some bejeweled and sat behind the computer. I was planning to study math for next week, but don’t really feel like it yet. So instead of learning I did work on another task for school; we have to make a schedule of how we divide the time we have when we work for school or eat or travel, do grocerieshopping or go out etc. They wanted it as detailed as possible, so I worked on that in photoshop. I’m not finished yet, but I don’t feel like working on that anymore now. So I thought about writing a new DJ since I actually promised myself when I started this to do 1 a day. But no, at least I do a few a week. Not that I think this is interesting or anything.
Now I will quit before it gets even more boring.
bye ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6855014/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6855014/ Mon, 24 Oct 2005 13:09:24 PDT How is everyone?
I had an awful night of sleep last night, nightmares where I killed people and I woke up every 1 or so. It was dark so I couldn’t see how long I was asleep or what time it was. But I do know I woke at 7 and I just couldn’t sleep no more. So I got out of bed at about quarter to 8. During my frikkin’ vacation, argghh.
So I got up, turned on the stove, or whatever it’s called, because I was frikking freezing. After that I turned on PC, checked DA and played some bejeweled. I got a new highscore, 198K. Wow, I was really proud of myself by getting 50k, after that I was really proud that I got 100K. But I don’t think I can go above the 200K as easily. I doubt I can get it to 198K again, it was so fast.
After a few hours of sitting behind the pc I decided to clean my room again. I always drop my stuff on the other side of my bed, since I’m alone and I got a big bed. My kitchen was a mess too. What I noticed during cleaning that I talk so much with myself when I’m alone. Sometimes I catch myself having complete conversations with me. Seem to happen more and more. Well I cleaned the kitchen, got a few ideas of where I could take pictures off. I tried them out, but they didn’t turn out like I wanted them. I think the ideas were once again good, but it just won’t look like I want it. Fortunately, I can just try again tomorrow. The whole cleaning process took me about 4 hours, but I’m far from finished. I continue and make it all clean and tidy tomorrow.
It’s depressing weather, every time I woke up last night it was raining. When I woke up this morning, it was raining. Now it’s still raining.
It about 2 o’clock I went to get groceries and do my daily walk. I don’t like umbrellas so I didn’t brought one with my, consequent was that I was soaked from the rain, but that didn’t really mattered. I went to music store ’ Boudisque’ but the guy who works there, walked past me and began sorting cd’s for like 5 min. The guy just kept sorting cd’s or did whatever he was doing so I got outside and thought I would come back later this week. I hope that then that nice girl is there, she is always friendly and helpful. After that I went to the bookstore Broese. I bought 3 new books, all English ones. First one, Donna Tartt – The Little Friend, I think that’s the book my mom said I should read. I read the back and a few pages in the store and it was an easy read and felt good. Second book was ‘A breathtaking work of staggering genius’ by Dave Eggers. When I asked a person who worked there if she know a book that had about the same writing-style and weirdedededenesseses… she said this might be a good book. Third book is ‘Trainspotting’ by Irvine Welsh, I know there is a film based on this book, I saw little pieces of it some time ago and that looked alright. So I bought those 3 books and then headed to the supermarket. Books are so frigging expensive, I should getting a library card so I can rent them from now on.
While I was in the supermarket my father called, my brother and father are coming over for dinner tomorrow, I got to cook them a meal. I’m gonna make them ‘Andijviestampot’ which is a dish of mashed potatoes and uhmm some other things.
Being in the supermarket got me thinking, I saw the supermarket sold Shoarma. Shoarma is pork, but why do so many muslims have a Cafeteria/Shoarma-shop (it’s the wrong word, I know, but I don’t know how else to call it.) Why do they have a restaurant like that when they can’t eat it themselves? Maybe I’m talking rubbish now and shoarma isn’t from pork-meat but it was in that section of the food area.
So I bought all the ingredients and some other nice stuff, like chocolate and headed back home. Entered my room, took of my clothes and put on new ones and let the other dry, didn’t felt like taking a shower because I would make my whole kitchen like a mess again (I don’t have a bathroom, my shower is in my kitchen).
After some more surfing and checking DA etc. I had dinner, I had Spareribs for dinner, it tasted like shit.
After dinner I tried to take a new photo of something I thought would look cool, but, no…
At about 8 I got called up by a groupmate for our projects. He wants to work on 2 projects during this vacation, but since the school is closed he asked if we could work on it here. I thought it was a shitty idea, but for school you got to make some sacrifices. So Wednesday, he and maybe another projectmember too is coming here and continue working on the projects. Hopefully we can all finish it quickly.
So well Megan hasn’t called yet, not surprised. Uhm.. what else, what else… I think that was all for today again. Conclusion? I can make a long story of a day where I did nothing, cool huh?
Bye. ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6837747/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6837747/ Sat, 22 Oct 2005 14:42:33 PDT Keefak? (That’s ‘How are you?’ in Arabic)
So last night was a long one, I stayed up till about 4, I then went bed to read in House Of Leaves. I think I fell asleep with all the lights on at about 5:30. Gladly, I had set my alarm so I would still wake up in time to catch the train to say goodbye to my mom. Well, that was the plan, if I hadn’t slept through the alarm. I woke up at about 7:15. The train I needed to catch left at 7:19. So in no way I could have made it, I felt kind of bad, but I phoned her and she understood. Plus, she will be back next Saturday again. But I still felt bad, since I promised I would wave her goodbye.
But I phoned her and at about 8 I went back to bed. I slept till about 12. Got up, checked DA to see if I got replies or comments on the deviants I added last night and went back to bed to read my book. I finished the book at about 3 o’clock, read the whole 700 pages…. Mixed feelings about it, I’m not going to spoil it but it’s just so weird. I’m glad I bought a couple of more books a few weeks ago. The book I’m going to read now is English aswell, it’s called ’Dead kid songs’ by Toby Litt. I have no idea if it’s a good book, I just bought it.
I am still in pyjama so I didn’t go out nor did anything, just reading, internet or tv. Since I hadn’t made spaghetti in a week, I made that and had that for dinner.
Well that was my day… Boring, long day.


Since it’s a short DJ today I will name my daily top 3,4 or 5.

Avenged Sevenfold – Remenissions (the guitar in the last 30 seconds is just awesome.)

Godsmack – Re-align (Acoustic version) ( I just like it.)

Twiztid – Madness (I don’t know if I have named this in a previous DJ, but I can’t remember I did)

Insane Clown Posse – How Many Times (Long time favourite.)

House of Krazees – Liquid Friend (strange song, can’t resemble it with anything, I just like it. I don’t know why I should explain why I like these songs, so I don’t think I will do that from now on anymore)

Well it became a top 5.
Talk to you later.

bye


Plus you can keep it, so later you can still put it in your library with the other nine hundred ninety nine thousand nine hundred and ninety nine books > ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6830661/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6830661/ Fri, 21 Oct 2005 18:36:13 PDT Ca va?
Well where did I end with the last DJ? Oww yeah, I talked about being so happy and the tests.
Well yesterday I got up at about 12. Took a shower, got back to bed to read my book. I’m at page 530 now, 180 to go. Still a cool book, it’s just so fucking weird.
I felt asleep but fortunately my mom called to see what timed we would meet where. So I took a quick shower again and got dressed so I wouldn’t be late. I would see her at 17:15 at the ‘Bijenkorf’ which is like a cheap and smaller version of Harrods in London. Met her there, to head to the city to have dinner somewhere. While we walked we went into a few shops, because I needed a new jacket. Found a nice one, but pretty damn expensive. Since I could afford it I still bought it. It made me laugh that they put a jacket that was that expensive in a little plastic bag. You know in the supermarket like Tesco or AH or whatever, when you buy fruit you got those tiny little plastic bags. They put my jacket into one of those, haha.
Well euhm, bought a new wallet too. My old one, was well old and teared. We then headed to a restaurant that was near the opera house where my mom wanted to watch the opera at 8. While we walked towards it, we saw my nephew with his girlfriend, which is a coincidence since they live somewhere in Brabant. Anyway we found a nice restaurant and had dinner there, for desert I ordered Hot Choco with Baileys and a Contreau. That’s a little tradition we have, we always have a Contreau after dinner. Since it was nearly 8 I quickly drunk my drinks, kissed my mom goodbye and headed home. Got home, read my book and watched some tv. Guess who didn’t call me yesterday? 6 Billion people and that includes Megan. The cunt…..
This morning I woke up at about 11. Turned on the PC, checked the sites etc etc. Took a shower and got dressed, at about 1 I got a textmessage from Megan, if I still felt like going to get a drink somewhere. I was like ‘sure’. So few min later got another text message over where we should go. I didn’t know so I messaged her . After that one a long time no reply till about 3 when she sent me a message that she had an ‘unexpected visitor’ and that she couldn’t come. It made me laugh, I was tempted to phone her and shout´ I knew it, you bitch, hahaha´ Megan is such a fucking cunt. Anyway at about 4 I headed to Zeist, to have dinner at my parent’s house and to be on time for baby-sitting. Got home, since my dad said he was ‘ ohh so tired’ I made dinner. Told him I got the tattoo, he laughed. Anyways, I made dinner, quickly ate it and went to the Korvers. Douwe was at a sleepover so only Wouter and Liselotte were there. Mette gave me the fake black fur blanket. It looks pimp. She is going to redo the edges and saw a second suede or silk patch to the other side. Which will make it look even more pimp. It’s such a nice blanket (see I got a soft side). Well they got home at 12. Got home at about a quarter to 1. Now it’s 3:34. Just uploaded some pics. I’m tired but I don’t really think I will go to sleep anymore. I have to get up at 7 to catch the train to Schiphol to say goodbye to my mom. I’m tired so I don’t think this whole DJ makes any sense. I don’t really care and I can’t be bothered to reread it and correct the mistakes.
Bye ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6809833/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6809833/ Wed, 19 Oct 2005 13:36:11 PDT
How are you?
Ahh alright.
I’m in an exceptional good mood today. I have no idea why, I slept good last night although I was worried about the tests.
Woke up before the alarm went off, something that happens only like once a year.
Took a shower, I sang while I was showering, once again something like that happens only once a year. So the coincidence of having those two things happen on the same day is : 365^2 = 133.225.
Which is just really rare.
Well I sang while I showered, happens once a year, blablabla… oww yeah I made breakfast, I baked an egg and made some bread for when I was on school. I checked DA and hotmail, turned off the pc to try and learn some more. Try to massage my pimples and see if they would go away. I think I should be in the Guinness Book Of World Records for the only 19 year old guy with the biggest pimples. Really you can fill a bathtub with it, uggh I’m a sooooo nasty. Anyways, I went to the train station at 8:10. I got in my train and there was this woman there. I see her almost everyday when I get the train from 8:19 to Amsterdam. She is not particularly pretty or breasted or anything. There is just something about her, she seems quite a bit older than me, like 25-27. There is just something about her, I’m not appealed to her or something there just is something about that woman. I think I have repeated myself about 5 times there, but there is just something about that girl…
Anyway, I got off the train, again seeing that girl, smoking her cigarette. Anyway ( Do you notice I say ‘Anyway’ way to much? I need to think of a new word to start a sentence with when I catch up with my story, can’t think of one. Help me!) I got this call from Shareen. I think Shareen can be nice, if she wouldn’t bitch about every little thing every frikking quarter of a second. Before she’d even ends complaining about one thing, she’d already started to whine about a new completely useless thing. I should tell her that, maybe she would get the point then.
Anyways (yes, again. I’m sorry) she called to ask where we had our first test. I didn’t know so I told her. I quickly hung up, before she could start to complain about how bad the school was and that no one informed her yet where the test was.
I got in the school and asked a guy from my class where the test was. I got in and sat on my usual spot. Right in front of the class on the right side next to the wall. The closer you are to the blackboard or the wall where the blackboard is on, the less they will notice you if you cheat. I always plan on cheating and having a little piece of paper with some formulas. I just never have the guts to cheat actually, never needed it too either. Well finished the test at about 11:00. The next test started at 15:30, so I had a looooooong wait ahead of me. But I sat down with some members of the project group to study. I was in such a good mood I didn’t worried about it too much so I hadn’t studied during those hours I just listened to some music and drew some stupid thing in my block note. So after waiting I headed to the next test. Was a big test but not too bad, did well enough I think (and hope).
I got a text message and a phone call while I was in the test(I felt so popular) Well the call was from my brother and the text message was from Mette. Mette is the mother of the children where I babysit. When I babysit there I sometimes fall asleep under this black blanket of black fake fur. I asked years ago where she got it from, since it’s so nice to lay under. Today finally she found the black fake fur, so she is making a blanket for me now. Next to that, she asked if I could babysit this Friday. Since I hadn’t heard from Megan yet I said it was alright. So I’m not going to have dinner with her yet, maybe just lunch. I think I shouldn’t call parenting the kids babysitting, but I don’t know what other to call it. None of them is a baby anymore, far from it. They are growing so fast, amazing but frightening also
Well I got on my train and sat down next to Kavita. I used to be in her class during the last 3 years. She is nice, very quiet, but she seems to be lot less shy now than she used to. She is nice, so we talked for a while till we arrived in Utrecht. I wished her good luck, and walked to my bike. While I cycling home, I had a brain-pop-up with the message that I have vacation, weeee, Yay, woohoo. No school till the first of November.
Got home, kicked off my shoes and put on my ‘sloffen’ I have no idea what that is in English. Yes, Erik, still the suede Ozzy Osbourne ‘sloffen’, we bought years ago.
Well it was about 6 when I got home, I was tired, but my mood was still good. I made miniature mini-mini pancakes. In Dutch we call it ‘poffertjes’, they tasted very good. Although I could tas... ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6791217/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6791217/ Mon, 17 Oct 2005 11:24:56 PDT
Hello,
How are you?
Sorry for the lack of updates. This was supposed to be a daily journal, turns out I’m a lazier person that I thought I was. I just don’t feel like writing something every day. So from now on DJ doesn’t stand for Daily Journal anymore but for Deunregular Journal ( I just made the word Deunregular up, but that doesn’t matter, well not for me)
Ok well, my weekend was quiet, went home. I had dinner at my parent’s house. I finally told my mom I had a tattoo. I have a dentist’s appointment next month, so they will hear/see it there anyway because I always go with my paps. So next step is to tell my dad. He will be a lot less happy with it than my mom, I think. She thought it was cool, she is considering getting a tattoo now herself… She wants a little butterfly or flower. We will see, I just hope I don’t chicken out again and just tell him.
Sunday was very quiet and long, didn’t do anything actually. Well I’m lying now, I did do some homework, and started to learn for the exams I have next Wednesday. Yesterday I received all the work the fellow project-members should have finished. The work from 2 was good and the other 2 was just plain wrong. So I called up 2 members from the group to finish it today. So this morning I woke up at 6:45 (ON MY DAY OFF!) to get to school to work on the project. We had to hand it in by 12 so we had 3 hours to work on it. But the three of us managed to do it. I’m happy with the result. I hope the teacher is too.
I got home at 1 and sat behind the computer for a bit. I got a new Bejeweled hi-score. Weeeee, 164K, Yay! Ok anyways, after that I went to do the laundry. After that I went for my daily walk. I walked for about an hour and then went to do some groceries. But the shop where I got my stuff from didn’t have all the stuff I needed or wanted. So I got home dropped some of the stuff I had bought and went to the other shop to get the groceries. I’m in a grumpy mood today, so I bought a lot of candy and chocolate. I know nothing of girls but I think I feel a bit like a girl feels when she having her period… I don’t know I’m aggravated and I don’t feel like doing anything and I just keep eating chocolate… And my stomach hurts for no apparent reason… Uggh I don’t know why I even telling this.
After I got candy and cookies and everything I head home. Well here it comes. I bumped into Megan AKA ‘Girl that smells like a cunt’, ‘Cuntgirl’ for short. She seemed surprisingly well-mooded. So we chatted for a few min and then all of a sudden she asked what I was doing this Friday. I said 'I don’t know, I’m free and I don’t have any plans yet'. So she was like ‘Ok, I’ll give you a call Thursday night so we can go on a date this Friday.'
I was kinda speechless.( I don’t think she actually wants to go on a date, I think she just meant to have dinner at some restaurant) I’m amazed by peoples personalities some times. When I don’t expect it people seem to be totally different from what I expect or what I thought. Most of the time in a bad way, but I’ve happy to have had some exceptions last couple of weeks. I just don’t know now, maybe there was an explanation for why she completely ignored me during these last 5 months. I really want to know, so I’m planning to ask. But I don’t want to ruin the moment Friday. On the other hand it isn’t just a little thing; to me it’s a big thing. And I really want to know. She was a good friend while I had her. Ughh I’m getting to personal now, I don’t want these DJ’s to be personal. Well that was it, kind of…
I should continue studying for the tests for Wednesday. I have accounting and Economics, Yay

Bye. ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6766464/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6766464/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 13:09:35 PDT
I always thought Murphy’s Law only applied for certain days or situations.
I never could have thought it was something that you took with you for live.
If Murphy’s Law doesn’t stick with you for live, I think I may have discovered a new Law; Munniks Law. It applies for certain people that always seem to have bad luck. Things never, ever, ever go the way you would like them to be. Always the worst case scenario seems to come up. This seems to stay with the person for live. No cure, antidote or anything.
It might be bad karma, but then I really don’t want to know who I am a reincarnation off. I’m sure it wouldn’t be of a nice person like Jesus or Ghandi.

I’m listening to a lot of classical music these days. I don’t feel like listening to the music I always liked. I can’t think of a top 5 so I think I’ll make a top 3.

1. Ravel - Bolero (to me this seems to be the nicest song ever composed! Go get it.)

2. Shiro Sagisu – Never meant to belong (I never heard of this (wo)man before, but I can tell you it’s a nice song. I like it a lot.)

3. Nancy Sinatra – Sugar Town (once again a completely different song, it kind of makes me feel better. I don’t know but I think it’s some kind of hidden message to get people onto drugs, atleast that’s what I seem to pick up from it.)


That’s it…
I want a dog, I need company.
bye. ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6747125/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6747125/ Wed, 12 Oct 2005 09:58:02 PDT
My last journal entry had to me comments I had so far. Yay, for me and now moving on the rant.

It will be short but not very sweet. Today was a fucked up day, everything that could have gone wrong, went wrong. I won’t get into details. But to top the day of:
I was having my daily walk through the city. I live in large street, very long and quite busy, water/canal on one side and nice house on the other one. I get out of my room and headed to the city, about 50/100 meters from me lives this girl. Who I used to consider to be a girlfriend. I saw a guy waiting before he entrance and I just knew she was coming, I could feel or smell it or something, I just knew. Well surprise, surprise when I walked by she got out of her door. I hadn’t seen her in months, but because about 4/5 months ago, she just stopped saying anything, not replying mails or phonecalls. I received one reply on a mail I’d sent her to ask if she was angry about something. But no, she said nothing is wrong I’m just busy. So from one they to the other she had been to busy to talk to me. I thought well ok, if she doesn’t wants to be friends, sure, not much I can do about. It can’t be a one-way street, it goes both ways. Well I walked passed her and said ‘Hey.’ She said ‘Hey’ and I carried on walking. when I was a few meters away from her, she shouts. “ Szooo verwaaaint” Which means like ”Are you that cocky/stuck-up?” The fucking cunt. I mean she stopped talking to me from one they to the other and after 5 months of not replying or saying anything she calls me cocky. I mean, sure people can be busy, but… geez. Well it’s enough ranting for me for today, I was in a bad mood, I’m in a worse mood now. I’m going to read my book and do some homework.
I think today will be full with spelling-errors, because I can't be bothered to reread and correct the mistakes.
Bye. ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6730997/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6730997/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 14:21:51 PDT If you don't like this, start spamming her page. [link] ( if anyone stabs you for this, I'm sorry)
She made me write 20 random things about me, so here it is:
1.
My curtains have been closed for nearly 3 days now. Oww wait, I need to tell random things about me, right? Euhm, I haven’t opened my curtains in nearly 3 days now

2.
Elizabeth Hurley’s English accent turns me on.

3.
I have respect for people like Al Capone, I respect their loyalty towards their own crew and the cunningness these people had to have to make the amount of money they made. Like Anoya I’m very interested in Serial Killers too. (although it might sounds weird, I'm the most interested in Jeffrey Dahmer) I used to watch Discovery Channel on Thursday, Crime Night every week. I used to watch the programme ‘Reportage’ too, but now they only show episodes they had already shown. I also remember getting books from the library before we went on holiday. Then, my brother, dad and I sat or laid in bed reading the book out loud so all three could hear it from beginning to end. It was always a book about murderers or serial killers. I remember one story in particular about a man who wanted to kill his ex-wife by a sunstroke ( zonnesteek). She didn’t die from it, but later she found his plans on how he wanted to murder her and he got arrested, after having been in jail for 40 years or something for Attempted Murder he moves to Spain to start a new live. He sits on a beach, falls asleep and dies from a sunstroke. Ahh, the irony.

4.
My current mentrix told me several times that I apologize way too often.

5.
When I was little I threw a wooden presse papier ( it’s French I don’t know how to spell it) at my brothers head, he had a big gash on his head, I felt bad for weeks.

6.
Like Anoya, I’m an ‘aggressive sleeper’. I slept in my mother’s bed till I was fairly old (like 15). My mother said I always cussed, kicked and scream etc. in my sleep. When she needed to go to the bathroom, I instantly sat up straight in bed with my eyes wide open. She told me it freaked her out.
I don’t know if I still am, because I haven’t shared a bed with anyone for the last 4 and a half years. But since I wake up more tired now than I can remember doing at home I think I still do, maybe even worse.

7.
I used to think only guys or men have to go to the restroom to do more then, like you know, just take a piss. I thought women didn’t had to take a dump (lol), I thought this till I was like 15 or 16.

8.
I only had one girlfriend, her name was Joyce, she was/is a slut. I used to do gymnastics. And once a year we had camp, and well some people there set me up with her. I remember sending here cards after camp with hearts on it. We even kissed. 5 minutes after kissing she broke up with me. I was 10 I think.

9.
I felt bad (still feel actually) that I called Bram, a guy who lived in my street, a ‘mongool’ years ago. Wait let me rephrase that: Bram is a guy who used to live in my street. I called him a 'mongool' years ago. I still feel bad I dit that. He helped me with something I never thanked him for. And next to that I cussed at him. If I ever see him again I must thank and apologize to him.

10.
I need certainty (Surprise, surprise ). I think a lot and if I don’t know something for sure it’s starts (s)nagging on me. If I think someone things some way about me I can't stop thinking about it till I know. I hate myself for it too sometimes.

11.
I like gifts, a lot. Especially when it has a lot of wrapping on it, I enjoy opening things of which I don’t know what is in it. I tear the wrapping into as many (or much? I think it is many) pieces as I can.

12.
Nature calls, I need to piss so bad right now, be right back.

13.
The smiley with the little tongue on dA (this one: ) irritate the hell out of me. The smiley on MSN with the little tongue out of it’s mouth irritates me even more, you know this one : p ! I always need to swallow words (although that’s hard when you’re typing) when people use those smileys when typing to me.

14.
Although I don’t play any instrumen... ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6720468/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6720468/ Sun, 09 Oct 2005 11:28:20 PDT
Today, yet again, a very short DJ.
I just got nothing to report or tell.
Well I woke up fairly early today, at about 10ish.
I played some bejeweled, watched some DA.
I’m still in my pyjamas and mantel or however you write it.
I stink, but I’m here alone so I don’t care.
Anyways I was on the pc till about 2 I think.
After that I went to bed to read my book. I’m at page 266 now. I want to get to page 350 before I go to sleep. I really don’t know what to think about this book, one moment I’m all hysterical about it and the next second I am thinking ‘WTF?!? What kind of stupid book is this’ The next moment again I like it. It’s very weird. This guy lives with his family in a small house he bought. After a year or something after he comes back from his holiday he discovers there is a new closet in his house. Instead of the closet being just a meter deep, the closet is endless and endless. Anyway I won’t tell the whole story. It’s just a very weird book.
I got out of bed at about 6:30 to see if I had some food. I felt and still feel actually like having fish, I mean I would like to a fishdish. Unfortunately, I’m all out of goldfish
I really need to do groceries again, my fridge is so empty.
So I didn’t had ate or drank anything all day, it’s kind of like my own Ramadan.
So at about 6:35 I watched some tv. Dutch television is like a huge litter box. They only show crap, it really is shameful. P.S. Can someone teach when I need to use 2 l’s in a word and when just 1? I know some have 2 l’s but words like beautiful and shameful have just one. Why is that?
I want a pet; I would like to have a dog, one that doesn’t lose a lot of hairs or poops. I want to have a turned down dog for blind people. Uhmm how to say this, a dog that was trained to be guide dog for blind people, but that failed his final exam. I want one of those.
Unfortunately, my contract says I can’t have any pets. I think a dog would be good for me.
Anyway while writing all this nonsense down I started a game of Bejeweled and I got a new highscore, almost 144K.143940 to be exact.
Well that was it for today again, I’m back to bed to read some more.
I should be able to get to page 350, or even 400. Let’s see.

bye ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6712192/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6712192/ Sat, 08 Oct 2005 11:58:51 PDT
Goodday, how are you?
Sorry for the lack of updates the last couple of days. I don’t think anyone even reads these things + I don’t have anything to write here.
Well I had a nice long sleep tonight, I actually slept good. But I’m ashamed to admit I was a little uhmm, well let me put it this way, I like icecream with whiskey and uhhm I had way to much icecream…. ( I was out of icecream too.. you do the math)
Anyway I woke up not as tired as last couple of weeks so that’s good.
After I woke up I checked DA and played Bejeweled for about 2 hours. After that I took a quick shower and made breakfast. After breakfast I continued to play Bejeweled till about 2:30. I then headed to the city, I had nothing to buy I just went there to get to the book shop and just wander around a bit. I was hoping for a cool shot, but neh, unfortunately not. I went to ‘The Boudisque’ which is a music store here in Utrecht and listened to a few cd’s. Someone recommended a song called Linchpin from Fear Factory. I like the guitars in that song, so I hoped the bands album would be just as good. But no, I didn’t like there album at all IMHO. But I only listened to it for about 15 min. I wish I can just find a band or group or gospel or whatever that is as good as ICP. I got their first album in ’97 I think, and I’m still hooked. You can’t compare anything to them. Which on one hand is cool, they are unique but on the other hand, you’re kinda stuck to just one band. I got about 10/15 albums of them now, but by now I kinda know it all…
I wandered around for about another 1,5 hours so I got back at around 4:30.
After that I sat behind the pc checking DA or playing Bejeweled till now. I am bored to death and on the verge of falling asleep behind the pc.
I am thinking of going to watch some tv or going to bed to read my book (still at page 88, I couldn’t read much last night). So that was it for today, I don’t have plans for tomorrow or Monday but I’ll see.
Because it’s such a short DJ again I will put my 5 songs for today here:

Godsmack – Serenity (I don’t know, I just like it!)

André 3000 (the guy from Outkast) – Prototype (yet again, I don’t know, I just like it!)

Twiztid – Alone (I’m sorry but I don’t know I just like the song!)

Insane Clown Posse – Nothing’s Left (I mentioned this song in a previous Journal entry too, but I just like the song so much!)

Guns ‘n Roses – Every rose has it thorns ( I am not even going to mention that I just don’t know why but that I just like the song!)

That was it.

Goodnight ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6695793/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6695793/ Thu, 06 Oct 2005 14:09:23 PDT No no, wait I think I got dressed before that, yes yes I did, I got dressed and then had the cup of tea. After I had my tea I quickly made me some bread that I could eat later today. By now it was about 7:32, so I really had to hurry up now. I quickly got all the books and clothes I needed for today. I ran to the train station and found my train hadn’t left yet, YAY woohooo.
The train was packed, no seats left and I couldn’t even sit on the ground it was that full, but thankfully it only took about 35/40 min to get to Amsterdam. After I arrived in Amsterdam I headed to the trams. The tram I needed is # 16, that one arrived pretty fast, so I thought ‘ Yay Yay, I’m gonna make it in time today!’ I thought wrong, the tram broke down along the way or something, I don’t know what was wrong but I just stopped for 10/15 min. When I arrived at the tram stop at about 8:55 I had to run in order to get there on time, I was late just 5 min so they didn’t mind that much, thankfully. So I put on my gym clothing and headed to the hall (I hate PE!) , where the rest of the class was. We squashed, I never did it, but it wasn’t too bad. I mean I don’t like it, but on a scale from 1 to 10 it’s about 4,5. I somehow managed to get a big ass bruise on the palm of my left hand. I never had a bruise on the palm on my hand before but now I have and I can tell you it hurts. You don’t notice how often you use your hands until you hurt it every time you use it.
Ok well, after an hour and a half of squashing we had to head back to school ( I never know what my ‘school’ is. I know Americans call it University because I’m studying for bachelor. But the Dutch don’t call it a Uni. We call it a Highschool, because only when you’re studying for Master you’re in a Uni. I’m not making any sense, am I?)
So we headed back for school. The next 2 classes were Accounting. It’s boring. But I somehow managed to get through it without falling asleep this time (woohoo )
After that I had 2 hours off, but I worked on one of the projects we have. After that I had 3 hours of Management. Which was very boring once again. Thankfully we didn’t had to sit through the 3 whole hours. The teacher gave us a new project that we could work on. So we worked on that because we had to hand in the first assignment for the project. We were done at about 16:15. So I ran to catch my train that left at 16:23. I made it again. I got home at about 17:00. I then turned the pc on again, checked DA and a couple of other site I check daily. My mom called at about 6. I went to get some fastfood at 19:15 ( Mmmhh….). I hadn’t had that in quite some time so it tasted good enough.
After dinner ( If you can call it diner) I played bejeweled and been on DA nothing more, nothing less.
Now it's time for me to go to bed, I'm gonna skip the first 2 hours tomorrow to finally get some more sleep ( I hope!)
Well good night. ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6668994/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6668994/ Mon, 03 Oct 2005 13:29:54 PDT Guinness Book of World Recors' Short!

Because I won't write one.
I'm tired, didn't do alot today.
Having mixed feelings.

But to still keep you busy for about 2 min.

Watch this: [link]
And see how cute it is. Pinguins are cool.

If that's still not enough I will put here my 5 favorite songs of the day.
Not in a specific order:
Twiztid - Familiar ( Cool song, pretty loud but good lyrics and it just hits me)

Immortal Technique - You never know ( Emotional song, I like the last verse A LOT! Makes you think)

Wu-Tang Clan - I can't go to sleep ( Odd choice. Once again the lyrics are rough, but they 'sing' it with a lot of emotions in it. It sounds like they mean every word, which makes it rare and very good.)

Enigma - Return to innocence ( One of my favorites for the last couple of days, the music is very pretty and it just hits a snare for me.)

Opgezwolle - Waarheid van het uur ( Some underground dutch rap duo. Very poetic if you ask me. I especially like the part 'Steigerbouwers bouwen steigers, aan het eind worden ze afgebroken en is het afgelopen' I think we all feel like that at times.)

Goodbye ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6659082/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6659082/ Sun, 02 Oct 2005 11:39:32 PDT
Today’s DJ is going to be very short.
Ok so I guess I’m not an hedgehog after all that needs hibernation. I wish I could just go to bed and wake up 3-5 months later. How cool would that be.
I woke up very late this morning at about12:30/12:45. I took a quick shower, sat behind the pc for about an hour then went to the city. I wanted to buy some thing I need for the upcoming photographs. Unfortunately, you can never find the stuff you want to find, and when you don’t need them ( anymore) you find them. So I went to the city and went to a couple of shops where I thought they would have it, but no. Then I went to Hoog Catharijne, which is a very big mall in Utrecht, I don’t like it there but today it was even worse. They made 2 huge platforms and on one of them was some kind of barber and 3 ladies and they were demonstrating how you could cut your own hair or something. I think that was it, but I didn’t watch it. Just walked past it, on the other platform there were cheerleaders dancing thingies and a baby-beauty contest. Disgusting!
After that did some quick groceries and I was back at about 4 here. I sat behind the pc for most of the evening except of when I was cooking or trying to make some things. It didn’t work out because I couldn’t buy the things I wanted.
So now I’m bored as hell. I think of watching some tv now. Just an indication of how bored I am.
See how short that was.

Anyways that was it.

See you tomorrow later ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6653419/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6653419/ Sat, 01 Oct 2005 18:23:09 PDT
Goodday, how are you?
I’m tired ( I know it’s getting old I won’t mention it again).
I was thinking today while I was cycling, right. Maybe I’m not a human-being but I’m like a hedgehog. And no one ever told I wasn’t a human but a hedgehog. And that’s why I’m so tired right now. I need hibernation. So I think I will try that. I just ate a shitload of grapes and chocolate that I’m keeping in my cheek-pouches now. That should get me through upcoming winter. I took a nice hot shower and a quick shave. So I won’t stink during my 4 months of sleeping. Well time is coming to tell everyone goodbye here.

But first I will tell you something about my day.
I woke up half tired this morning. Took a nice long hot shower. Had some orange juice and then headed to my parents home. Weather was nice so I went by bike.
It was nice weather so I had fun cycling to my parents house, which took about 45 min. I was thinking of future pictures and how and when to take them. I think the thinking up what you want and having the picture already in your mind is more fun then actually taking the pics. Because my pics never end up as nice as I have them in my mind. Which sucks!
Anyway I got home, kissed my mom and talked a while about there holiday. After I made something to eat. After 2 hours or something my dad came home. I asked if he could help, so he drove me to a grazing-land for cows ( I have no idea if that makes sense). So I took some pics while he jumped in the field to get the attention of the cows. You should have seen him, I laughed so loud.
After taking a lot of pics I asked if I could drive, I never drove but he said ‘Ok’ so I drove around for about 15 mins. After that we got some groceries and headed to my brothers house. My dad, brother and I always have dinner at my brother’s house on Saturdays. We made Italian Mussels. I really don’t see what Italian about the mussels was, but that was what the recipe said.
It was very tasty, although we made way too much.
Always after we have dinner I have to serve them the deserts. The last couple of months it has been, cinnamon ice with whiskey. I can recommend that to everyone it is really really really tasty.
After that I was stuffed, but it was already 19:15 so I had to get home, since I got no lights on my bike and it was getting dark and cloudy. So I while I was on my bike it started raining really hard. But I didn’t really matter, anyway I arrived home at 20:00 exactly. I got rid of my wet clothes and took another long nice hot shower. After that put on my pyjamas and tried to make ‘The Orcowstra’ look good. I think it’s a cool idea and concept just very poor outcome. Well I tried and I’m still a beginner at photoshop and taking pics, so I don’t mind too much. I hope I will improve over the months though. I got another cool idea, which should be a bit easier. It’s gonna be a bit girly shot. Ok it’s almost half past 4 so I really need to get to bed.
I will try to sleep for the upcoming 4 months now, so good winter and autumn all. I wish you all the best.
Shit I almost forgot to put my cell phone off, I don’t want to get a wake up call during the hibernation. That would piss me off.
Well see you all later.

Goodnight ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6643129/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6643129/ Fri, 30 Sep 2005 14:18:25 PDT
Ok, well I went to sleep about 4 hours ago. I fell asleep almost immediately, Yay. Word of advice, turn of your cellphone when you go to bed. Especially when you have (a) annoying brother(s).
So I slept for like an hour and a half I think. After that I couldn’t anymore. Shit.
Well I still tried to for over 2 hours but I just stared at the ceiling or at my book. So I thought, let me get back on the pc.
Well my day:
I woke up at 7. I don’t think I ever woke up this tired. I think I need to see a doctor about it, this can’t be healthy. I know I don’t have a lot of stamina, but waking up tired after 8 hours of sleep can’t be good. The shitty thing is, I’m afraid of doctors or going to the doctor for examination. I participated in a few surveys for schizophrenia ( sp?) and I don’t mind that, but if I need to go to the doctor for myself, I’m very afraid and just won’t go. Let me look if this phobia has a name.
* 2 minutes of searching*
Iatrophobia- Fear of going to the doctor or of doctors.
So I got Iatrophobia……


Anyway I went to school at 8. I was on time for school, Yay. It was a very boring day though. I fell asleep during English two times. All the kids laughed at me
The class still sucks. I might be antisocial or something, but if all these kids weren’t retarded I could just become friends with them.

But ok, after 2 hours of very boring hours of English, we headed to my personal favourite class….. German
I don’t think I will go into it too much, or maybe on the other hand I will. I just hate it too much. German has to be the most disgusting sounding language EVER. I rather study Swahili, Russian ánd Chinese then I study German.
Well we got our grade back from the summaries we had to hand in last week. I got a 6 ( 6 out of 10). That was about average, so I was happy about that. After the 2 hours of agony, I worked on the project. I had to hand in a Meso-assignment.
After I worked on the project for another hour I headed to the next class. Economics, that was quite interesting, but only because the teacher is cool. The lecture or the college itself was boring.
So at about 3 I finished the day. I was just in time to catch the train, the doors closed but I managed to get my foot in between the doors. There was a magazine laying on the seat next to me. I cried in the train, well cried is the wrong word. I controlled the crying, I had tears rolling on my cheeks but no hysterical sobbing. I had people watching at me but I really didn’t matter at the time.
But anyways on the way home I got some groceries. I went to Albert Heijn, which is a supermarket. Our supermarkets are midgets compared the ones in the US.
I got me some grapes, chocolate, jus d’orange and bread. When I got home I washed of the grapes. I’m kinda addicted to grapes, I eat about 2 kilo’s of grapes a week. Anyways I washed the grapes and I noticed a few of the grapes were mouldy. Yuk, well I removed the ones I didn’t trust. The rest I washed of extra good. But all the grapes tasted a bit like mould. It tasted like shit. I brushed my teeth over 4 hours ago, but I still taste the grapes in the back of my throat. That can’t be good….
Well tomorrow my parents are coming home. I am planning on visiting them. I just hope the weather isn’t as bad as it is now, I want to cycle to them and take some cool pics. I got so many ideas but I really need others people help with it. I hope my dad can help.

That’s it for today, I don’t know if I can edit journals or just messages in general but let my try. If this is the second Journal for today, I’m sorry. Wasn’t intended.

Goodnight, see you tomorrow ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6641012/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6641012/ Fri, 30 Sep 2005 09:06:43 PDT

My daily diary journal thingy, of today is about nothing.
Why? Because I'm going to bed, too tired.


Goodnight, see you tomorrow. ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6634752/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6634752/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 14:24:45 PDT Well this is DJ # 4.

Sorry all, you should know the routine by now, close the screen, yep go ahead. Thank you.

Only 2 people beside me may read this. Fabled-Faythe ( Faythe) and Anoya (Nancy)

Dear Diary,

Well today was a day like every other one, really. I woke up in time today, I only slept for like 5 hours tonight, but I didn’t woke up tired today. I have no idea how. But I woke up at 6:15 to get ready for school and PE and everything. I took a quick shower made me some breakfast ( hadn’t made breakfast in weeks). Well I packed all my stuff and my schoolbooks and everything and left for school. I nearly missed my train so I had to hurry, in all the rush I forgot my bag with gym clothing that was in my saddle-bag. Stupid me. And of course I noticed I forgot my back while I was in the train and couldn’t go back to get it.
Well I couldn’t help it now so I just headed to the gymnastics hall and hoped for the best. Well the teacher was nice enough to let me in. So we played volleyball. I mean that has to be the stupidest sport ever, but that’s just me.
After PE we headed back to school, it took is over an hour to get back, so I missed two classes, after that I worked a bit on a project.
The last 3 hours were Management. It’s boring.
After that I went home. I was happy, because my bag was still in my cycle-bag. No one stole it, yay.
It was raining very hard. But I don’t care as long as I can get home and take a shower and put some dry clothes on. I made dinner and sat behind the pc for the rest of the evening. I’m in a good mood today, don’t know why or how.

I guess half of you fell asleep already, I just got nothing exciting or funny to say, but you should be used to that by now.

I'm tired so i'm off to bed

Goodnight, see you tomorrow. ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6625463/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6625463/ Wed, 28 Sep 2005 13:11:40 PDT Well this is DJ # 3.

I’m sorry but it’s that time of the day again. It must be really annoying to see a new journal everyday, but sorry.

I guess all you people know the drill right now, yes close this screen. Well not all, everyone except Fabled Faythe, because she made a vow.

Dear Diary,

Well today was a day like every day. Nothing cool or fun happened.
I woke up at 7. Tired, again. I am still sick, still got the cold, can still blow bubbles of snot.
I took a shower made a cup of tea with crumpets and had a nice breakfast. I didn’t had the tea and crumpets naked today, because I figured it might get me more sick. Oww yeah, before I forget it again. Yesterday morning, I heard a song in a radio programme on 3 FM. It is a song that’s quite classic. In the music clip everything is played backwards, and the singing sounds a bit African. In the clip there is a wedding and everyone is throwing rice, but it’s all played backwards. Really nice effect with the music and singing. The song is about 12 years old now. Well I think. It’s an awesome song. Please, if someone reads this, TELL ME PLEASE WHAT SONG IT IS!
Ok, well I got to school on time today, weeeeee. I had very few lessons today but I was on school whole day, I studied for math. And indeed I failed it. I had 45% of 100% correct. I think it will go up to 54% of 100% though, I saw I gave an answer of 1.30 somewhere the answer should be 1.3 the PC automatically sees it as a mistake but I think he will correct it for me, at least I hope so.

Ok well I got home at about 16:15. I was very tired, felt asleep in the train on the way home. I had a lot of things to do today. Well I had all these things I did today, planned for a few days before but I couldn’t be bothered to do it at that time. Wow I’m a king in making crooked sentences.
Well I went to the tattoo parlor ( I don’t know if this is the actual word, but it’s just stuck in my mind that it is.) I asked if they could do the foot tattoos, unfortunately they couldn’t. Tattoos on the sole of your foot just fade away in just a matter of days. Shit, now I was planning to tattoo an image of a x-ray on the top of my foot. So that if you would look at my foot it looked like you were watching an x-ray of my foot. But I thought that while I was at the store, and that would be quite a big tattoo and I don’t want to have a tattoo just for the sake of having another tattoo. You still get me? Well I did some shopping, I need new sweaters, I saw some guy with a really cool sweater but I have no idea of where I could buy them from. Well I bought a new lamp, now I can read my book again, weeee. I also cleaned my kitchen so I was a busy bee today. Now I’m tired, but Season 4 of The Sopranos is beginning tonight. Finally a good programme on tv again. Weee, wow I’m happy, I might have eaten too much chocolate again. ( if pimples make a person pretty, I would be one sexy bitch)
Tomorrow I have the first 2 or 3 hours PE, in Amstelveen... I really have no idea of where that is, so I should figure out where I have that. I don’t like PE, I like doing sports, but we do things like volleyball and tennis. I don’t like that.
These diaries ( ?) get more useless by the day, love it.

Goodnight, see you tomorrow.


P.S. PLEASE TELL ME WHAT SONG IT IS! ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6616462/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6616462/ Tue, 27 Sep 2005 12:23:11 PDT Well this is DJ # 2.

Well people I think you know the drill already. Good, move your mouse to the right top and click that little cross. No no not that … I mean that little cross, yes that’s it. Ok nice, thanks.
By the way it might be better if all of you just go [link] And un-tick the Journal box. Now you won’t receive my journals anymore and so everyone will be happy again. Good.

Ok shit It’s not really smart what I just said, because I first told you to close the screen and later I said how to stop receiving the journals. Shit, well I ain’t a bright person anyway.

Dear Diary,

I went to sleep last night, but couldn’t again. So this morning I woke up tired as (excuse my French) FUCK. And not only was I tired, I was sick too! I caught a cold. If I exhale through my nose I would blow huge bubbles of snot, lol. But ok, now I woke up took a shower, made a few cups of tea with a little squish of lemon and a biscuit. After that I felt a bit better, thank god. Well after I got dressed, oww yeah I had my tea naked this morning .
I nearly missed the train this morning, otherwise I would have been late for accountancy AGAIN, we only had like 10 lessons so far but I think I was late in like 9 of them. He wouldn’t let me in the last couple of times, so I had to be on time today. It was a short day to, thank goodness. I still wasn’t feeling alright but we had to work on our project. I was the only one who had worked on it. The guy who phoned me yesterday even forgot to do his stuff. Anyway we worked a while on it. So we all headed back to the trains and this guy from my class asks me if I’m gay. I was like ‘what the fuck’. He started laughing but I thought he was serious, I really couldn’t laugh about it, I should have punched him in the fucking eye, for fucks sake. But later on, in the train I was thinking why I got so mad, he could just have thought I was, not that big of a deal, but I just got really pissed. Don’t know why.
I’m glad no one reads this by the way.
It was raining when I got home, so my idea of cycling to my parents’ home was washed away. That was a joke, you get it? Ha..ha….ha……h…a
I got 3 really good ideas of things I want to photograph now. I like the ideas I just need to take some professional help in arms to do it. But I will make the pics and work on it as long as needed till I’m happy with it.
When I got home I got back on the PC to play some bejeweled. I got a new Hi-score! Yay, 130025! Well I had enough of playing bejeweled that girl from my class called. I don’t want to sound rude or anything but she really is a fat cow. I’m sorry but she is. I know I complain and whine a lot at times, but she is just go on and on and on about these tiny things. I don’t like her, but I don’t want to sound rude and just be unfriendly with her. So I just try to ignore her, haha
Well after she called I started studying for the math test we have tomorrow. I am afraid I will fail miserably, it’s fucking difficult. Man I need to stop cussing, I do it way to fucking much, I mean I do it way too much.
I started to work on a few more things on the project. I think it’s going to turn out nicely. Anyway I spoke way to much again and yet again it’s a dull and stupid story.
So that was it.

Goodnight, see you tomorrow. ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6609031/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6609031/ Mon, 26 Sep 2005 15:30:44 PDT This is DJ#1, which stands for Daily Journal #1

This is not for you to read, so I would appreciate it if you move your mouse cursor to the right top. Move it to the little cross, no no a bit more to the right, Ok great now press the little cross. Thanks!

Good, no one can read anymore because they all closed this.

Dear Diary,

How are you? Good to hear you’re doing alright.
Me? Well I was in quite a moody mood Friday and Saturday. I was planning to do some groceries Saturday but I didn’t get to it. I am addicted to this little game called Bejeweled now. It’s so stupid yet so cool and addictive. That doesn’t make sense but really I don’t care.
But anyway, because I didn’t bought groceries Saturday I was out of food. I’m glad I had some spaghetti left, so I boiled that and had a nice Italian meal. Saturday, I was thinking of new things to photograph. I had some cool ideas, I just suck too much with Photoshop to make cool things. I went to bed early Saturday because I was tired, I don’t sleep to well these days. I mean I am tired and I lay in bed, but I just can’t fall asleep. It sucks. (I sound like a woman during her period with all my whining...., but it’s all good, no one can read this)
I started reading in the new book I got ‘House of Leaves’ by Mark Z. Danielewski. So far it’s very cool. It’s about this house where a family lives, the weird thing is that the guy who lives there measures the sizes of his house but the interior seems to be a quarter inch wider than the exterior. How weird is that, huh? So far it are 2 stories going through each other, it’s too weird to describe. You have to read it yourself. But I think the book it good for my English.
Anyways after I read some more pages in the book I was too tired and tried to sleep. Unfortunately I couldn’t and went back to read some more. So I woke the next morning with my book still open. But now my little lamp was broke. It got overheated or something, it stunk so badly. So Sunday I was planning to go visit my old folks. So I phoned them if I could, what you think they said? They were on holiday, AGAIN. I really don’t know where they get the money from but the go on vacation like 6 times a year now. They asked me to come too, but if I would go I would’ve came back Monday night again. That was to short, so I didn’t go. So now my whole Sunday was free again, because I was planning on visit them. Well I cleaned the house a bit. My room is clean again, I totally forgot my carpet was red, but now I actually could see the floor! I was amazed!!!! And another cool thing I found during cleaning, I found a little bag from some kind of music store. Guess what was in it? A new CD, Score!!! ( as Sexytoaster would say). I don’t know when I bought it, but I don’t care. It was the new Twiztid CD, it’s a lot different from all their other CD’s, this a lot more rock, well I don’t know if it’s more rock, but they use a lot more guitars now. It was in a bag of music store Fame, but last time I was there was like 3 weeks ago…..
Anyway, I wanted to clean the kitchen too and see if there would be another surprise for me, but I didn’t want to clean anymore. So I went playing Bejeweled some more. I downloaded some music, I got some new awesome songs; Clubbed to death (Kurayamino mix), 4Hero with Les Fleur and a few more. I really like that kind of music now, I wish I knew more of those songs. Anyway Sunday night before I went back to sleep there were some street races in my street, it was awesome! I’m so stupid I didn’t grab my camera. I think I got a fetish for the sound an engine makes while accelerating. It roars…. I know I know I am weird. I’m just so glad no one reads this.
Ok well I tried to read a bit more in my book after that but I couldn’t see shit without my little light. I have to buy a new one now.
Ok well today I woke up because someone phoned me, I answered the phone cussing because I thought it was my brother, apparently I was wrong. It was someone from school, lol. I think I got a light form of Gilles de la Tourette… I cuss so much lately. Well it might not be Tourette because I talk a lot in general out loud when I am alone lately. I don’t know why, I sometimes notice me having complete conversations with myself, haha it’s weird.
BTW I envy Erik a lot too, he seems to have such a cool girlfriend, I was I had one like he had. I’m glad for them, they make a great pair I’m just jealous I guess. Anyway this guy from school called and I was cussing at him, till I noticed it was not my brother, I was glad he could laugh about it, because I said some quite nasty things. I’m always bloody irritated when I wake up because someone calls. I’m actually glad he called though because now I knew I had to do a shitload of school... ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6530433/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6530433/ Sat, 17 Sep 2005 16:45:25 PDT What Does Your Name Mean: It means.. don't laugh.. 'small'
Who Picked Out Your Name: I guess my moms.
Nicknames: Pappy.
Age: 19
Occupation: Student and part-time employee at [link]
Location: The Netherlands, Utrecht
Height: About 6 feet.
Weight: I'm skinny, i'm like 125 pounds.
Eye colour: mixture of gray,green and blueish
Hair colour: Blonde
Sign: Lion
Kids: I want loooots. (I just kept the answer from Cinnamongirl, because I want a lot too)
Any Pets: nope
Shoe size: 8
Piercing: Nope
Tattoos: A lip tattoo, I would like to get a few more though. I am planning to get a smiley on my right big toe and a crying smiley on my left big toe. I also would like to get the colours of a deck of cards ( Diamond, spades, heart and I forgot the english term of the last one) tattoed on the remaining four toes of my right foot.
Righty or lefty: Righty
Musical Instrument you play (if any): None, I can't play any.
Hobbies: Music, DA, reading.
Do you Have Any Scars? Yes I got a few. the biggest one is on my knee, got it cut open from glass, a piece of glass was in there for years.
Do you have an innie or an outie? What?
What do you like about yourself? My tattoo.
What do you always get complimented on? Me? Compliment? hahahaha
What is your worst quality? I'm shy.
What makes you happy? The feeling that I actually accomplished something and when I can make other people happy.
What's the best advice given to you? Lol, shit.. I really don't remember...
Have you ever won any special awards? Not that I know of, nope.
What are your future goals? Be happy.
Do you have any enemies? Well I'm a notorious gang-banger so yeah...
What is your greatest fear? Being burried alive has to be the worst I guess.
Would you rather be Rich or Famous? Rich

Have You Ever:
Been convicted of a crime? Nope. Never been caught.
Been so drunk you blacked out? Yes.
Been in a car accident? I'm glad to say I'm not.
Been hurt emotionally? Yes.
Been Sarcastic? Yup
Been on stage: For a few presentations for work, I hate that *shivers*
Kept a secret from everyone? Yes.
Had an imaginary friend? Lol, yes.
Had a crush on a teacher? Well my current Mentrix is cool. But I dont have a crush on her.
Smoked? yes.
Taken Drugs? Yes.
Cried during a Movie? Lol, yes. Bambi made me cry. ( I had to babysit last night and we watched Bambi, I got all emotional.)
Wanted to get together with a friend? Well at times I think I loved a friend, but I never tried to show her that. I don't think it would have worked out anyway.
Thought of Committing Suicide? Yes.

Now:
Drinking? Drinking? Nothing now.
Thinking about? My head is full of worries and other stupid stuff, but I'm kind of blank now...
Listening to? Nothing.
What are you wearing? pair of jeans and a sweater
How are you feeling? Tired, numb. Fed up with all the bullshit.
What are you eating? Nothing.
How many people are online? There are quite some people online but no conversations.
How's the weather? Rainy.
What's on your mouse mat? A black jelly thingy from the brand Curtis

In The Last 24 Hours Have You
Cried? No.
Met someone new? No.
Cleaned your room? I was planning to but like whole last week I just made a bigger mess.
Done Laundry? Same answer as above, I need to do my laundry quick now. I'm out of boxers and socks
Driven a car? No, got no money for a driving lessons

Do You Believe In
Yourself? What?
Your friends? Nah...
Destiny/ Fate? Yes.
Ghosts? No.
Santa Claus? No...
Lock Ness Monster? Nah
Tooth Fairy? No.
Angels? No
Devils? No
Aliens? Yeah I guess there could be something out there.
Love at first sight? It could happen. Sure.

Family & Life:
Do you like anyone? No.
Who have you known the longest of your friends? Erik
Who do you cry to? Me.
What's the best feeling in the world? Making someone happy and achieving something you worked for.
Do you have more girl or boy friends? Fuck well. tbh I don't have like alot of friends....
Are your parents together? Yes.
How often do you get together with the family? My whole family or just parents and brother? With the whole family like once a year and with my own family once a week.
Anything special about your parents? .
Friends:
Most Caring: ...
Mos... ]]> ~BeZerko http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6450390/ http://BeZerko.deviantart.com/journal/6450390/ Thu, 08 Sep 2005 13:12:12 PDT There's ain't no gimick that ain't been sold
There's no ocean that never been swam
There's no jobber that ain't been slamed
There ain't no road that ain't been traveled
There ain't no doctor that ain't been baffled
Ain't no thug that never cried
Ain't no preacher that never lied
There's no rumor that ain't been passed
Ain't no question that no one asked
There's no tree that won't get chopped
There's no bomb that won't get dropped
Ain't no path that no ones laid
Ain't no beast that ain't been afraid
There's no feet that no one can
There's no saga that never began
Ain't no snow that didn't melt
There's no punch that ain't been felt
There's no skill that no ones learned
There's no planet that he ain't turned
There's no fued that never disolved
There's ain't no problem that ain't been solved
There's no tale that no ones told
There's no beauty that won't get old
There's no garden the sun ain't beemed on
There's no shoulder that ain't been leaned on
There's no color that ain't been seen
Purple, yellow, forest green
There's no desert that ain't seen rain
Nobody here that ain't felt pain
There's no bigot that ain't been clowned
There's no treasure that I ain't found
Ain't no cave they ain't never explored
Ain't no mother that ain't been ignored
There's no leader that ain't been led
There's no blood that ain't been shed
There's no dish they never made
Ain't no brick they never laid
Everything left's been done before
Nothing's new, nowhere to explore


On the day when the wagons come
I'll just pray that you let me on

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Song from ICP, I think I listened for the first time when "The Great Milenko" came out in like '97, I was hooked from the first time I heard them and still am.
This song is from the cd The Amazing Jeckel Brothers and the song is called "Nothings left". I absolutly love this song.
So yeah well that's it I guess.
I can tell you all how much I hate school, but I don't want to sound like a bitchy bitch, so no. ]]> ~BeZerko