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starting over new. maybe it's just because i wanna start over new. or maybe its also because i have that creepy feeling someone's looking over your shoulder....like when you're being stalked.

BUT ANYWAY.

message me if you want it!

edit: wtf, why is CSS still working??
i dont even have a subscription anymore!

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/26453132/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/26453132/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 20:36:07 PDT
i thought it was time to - my life has calmed down a bit, things have gotten better for now.

doesn't mean i haven't been doing art. that's why i'm back.

i've spent the last month or so at Sinai Hospital as an intern - it's interesting to see what goes on in there, but the truth is most of the things people go into the emergency room for are completely ridiculous.

i have about a week or two left of Sinai days left. to be completely honest, i'd rather quit school and intern there more and start college.

i'm not looking forward to school and the cold, harsh winters. they're exactly the same.

the only thing that will change it is the next spring and summer. it seems that everything that happens in winter comes directly from hell.

hell is colder than we imagine, if there is a heaven and a hell. they're only beliefs - not solid truth. we will only know after we die.

anyway, i've been photographing a lot of abandoned places and made friends with some cops - it's basically impossible to get onto the premises if you don't. i learned a lot of history about the places, which we're both insane asylums. Rosewood Center which is notorious for the abuse done there, and Spring Grove State Hospital, which is the second oldest insane asylum still running in the US, but their older building was abandoned.

but - i have photographs from there and other places, which will be posted.

either than that, my life has been a lot better than it really has ever been - besides from the confusion and lies from this one asshole.

but! i'm gonna go get my shit posted - i owe it to my friend aaron and also meg

-Rae



]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/24932461/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/24932461/ Sun, 24 May 2009 21:23:55 PDT
i'll be back who knows when, but im still doing art.

and i'm going to intern at Sinai Hospital

and i have people that mean a lot to me

and a lot more

but ive found a new meaning to life and shit is making a lot more sense lately.

fuck all of the shitty people and all the things ive done in the past, im done with it

i'm out.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/24162917/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/24162917/ Fri, 10 Apr 2009 10:35:32 PDT
i havent had internet in...over a week i think.

i've been in florida. and i'm still in florida. i just havent had internet till now since the hotel was extremely gay when it came to internet services and it was like...$7.00 an hour i think, down at the internet cafe

...i think i probably missed a lot while i was gone. and damn, that break was good. and i dont wanna go back to fucking maryland back to that miserable mess and have to go deal with that.

im moving to either florida or california now.

ANYWAY.

breakdown of what happened...

saturday - arrived in florida. it was hot as HELL. we're talkin like 90 degree weather. it was awesome.

arrived at hotel. apparently hotel property was so big, you could drive around and get lost on it. they had a fucking water park on the property!

sunday - went to seaworld for an hour or two...didnt do too much at that time.

monday - went to animal kingdom with molly - that place is huge! and everest roller coaster is bad ass. its awesome going backwards through a mountain thats pitch black.

tuesday - epcot. temperature must have dropped to sixty, and it was windy as hell. and epcot wasnt even that great. honestly. best thing there was this bigass turkey leg we got. oh, and italy.

wednesday - stayed back at the hotel with molly, we went to this waterpark at the hotel and got extremely lost. and....held an alligator! [got a picture of that]

thursday - went back to seaworld, and waited 45 mins to get on the Kraken...thing must have had 8 loops and multiple corkscrews...it was insane. completely worth it.

friday - well, im here right now.

orlando airport.

its loud, and i really am NEVER HAVING KIDS. i've dealt with enough kids this trip.

and i have more pics on my cam than i can ever possibly post. i gotta go through those later and put some on here...

anyway, i hear a screaming kid in back of me. i think its time for me to leave.

p.s. mom discovered the magic of a GPS. and now, shes more willing to go more places in maryland and anywhere else and is getting one.

just....give me that butcher knife now, please?

...im gonna go expel energy by walking around the airport. pray that i get lost and don't make my flight and mom does.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/24029553/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/24029553/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 18:52:26 PDT
i dont feel like making this a rant journal or saying anything else, so all i'm gonna say is shit has hit the fan.

anyway im leaving saturday for florida, and i wont be back till the saturday after that. and i'll be having to get surgery the week after that.

i'm gonna go do an internship too at Sinai Hospital this summer, so that'll give me more experience with anything medical, since i'll be in the ICU. i've been considering being a doctor, but i dont know if thats really what im going to do.

i'm gonna go write some things down. and try and come up with song lyrics. i want to write more songs.

i may post more things on here soon. who knows.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/23071807/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/23071807/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 22:41:58 PST
i'm waiting to get more together to post them all.

so whats new...

-I'm more in love than i ever have been in my life. and it's fucking amazing. and im not in one of those fucked up relationships either where there's flaws and always fighting and shit. it's great. i love you, Grayson.

-I've gotten a new camera - another sony cybershot, but it's more professional and takes much better pics than my last one

-i'm planning to go through my three memory cards sometime this week or something to see what i have and is worth posting; all in all i have around 1,700 pictures on them combined.

-i got my braces off, last month or so. and its a lot better.

-MY DESKTOP COMPUTER IS BRICKED.

-Ubuntu Linux fucking owns OS X and Windows. its a lot fucking faster, no virus worries, and you can customize the shit out of it. [thank you again Grayson. lol]

-I dont have sound on my laptop at the moment. i need to fix that.

-lauren, you owe me that story!

-i passed spanish with a 60.3 O_O

-i should be working on an art project right now, but i'm not, because i don't really have an idea.

-if anyone wants art of any sort - graphics, hand drawn, anything - ask me [meg, i owe you the Akatsuki, i know]

-i need to start doing more art...

and i'm tired as shit, and i think everyones pretty much asleep, so i'm out.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/22034669/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/22034669/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 15:20:49 PST
Took me about five hours, worth it though.

I was able to make it look the way it does from multiple pictures cropped from the art is resistance sites.

so, pretty much everything i used is copyright to Trent Reznor.

anyway, as for NIN, i hear they're putting on more final tour dates for Lights In The Sky for North America. it would be totally worth going to again if this is their last large tour.

either than that, i'm open for requests if anyone wants me to do anything, i have some time to do art and i need ideas for something...

currently i've been hating school and it sucks, so much hasnt been up with that, either than i need to pull my grades up.

...and, the new deviantart is awesome, the way you can edit it pretty much any way you want it and put lots of different features on.

i'd feature some people's art but i'm still not sure how to do that on the journal, so go check these people's profiles out -


-The most amazing person on Earth, aka Grayson

-Friends

[i'm also really aware this is hard to read, i meant it to be that way, lol. if you highlight it, it'll show up.]

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21986015/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21986015/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 18:16:36 PST
A
- Available: Nope. Taken for good.
- Age: 15
- Annoyance: Family and friends sometimes
- Animal: dog

B
- Beer: Corona Light
- Birthday: August 27th
- Best Friend(s): Molly, Meg, Lauren
- Body Part on opposite sex: no comment...
- Best feeling in the world: love, accomplishment, and making a difference in someone's life
- Blind or Deaf: neither.
- Best weather: whenever its warm out.
- Been in Love: i am right now. its amazing.
- Been on stage: yup, a few years ago
- Believe in Magic: uh...
- Believe in Santa: no. and amazingly, theres still some people that do.

C
- Candy: chocolate
- Color: blue, black, white
- Chocolate/Vanilla: chocolate!
- Chinese/Mexican: chinese
- Cake or pie: all depends on what kind
- Continent to visit: not sure
- Cheese: mozzarella

D
- Day or Night: night
- Dance in the rain: i dislike the rain very much, i'll stay inside

E
- Eyes: blue
- Everyone's got: a false sense of reality
- Ever failed a class?: almost

F
- First thoughts waking up: fuck school
- Food: dont know, usually meat

G
- Greatest Fear: ...
- Goals: i have a lot...
- Gum: 5?
- Get along with your parents?: pretty well
- Good luck charm: Dunno.

H
- Hair Color: dark brown with red highlights
- Height: 5'5"
- Happy: yup!
- Holiday: birthday
- How do you want to die: actually being remembered by people and a long time from now

I
- Ice Cream: vanilla
- Instrument: electric guitar

J
- Jewelry: necklace
- Job: school, and i work on art and music on my own

K
- Kids: NONE.
- Kickboxing or karate: karate
- Keep a journal?: yup

L
- Love: Grayson
- Letter: i dont really have a fav letter...
- Laughed so hard you cried: oh yes.

M
- Milk flavor: regular?
- Movies: anything thats horror and has a good story line
- Motion sickness?: nope
- McD’s or BK?: neither

N
- Number: 5, 7, 23, 1114

O
- One wish: to be an adult

P
- Perfect Pizza: normal pizza with pepperoni
- Pepsi/Coke: coke

Q
- Quail: ?

R
- Reason to cry: when depressing things happen and you feel the need to
- Reality T.V.: survivor
- Radio Station: all the radio plays these days is the same shitty pop songs over and over
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: yep
- Ring size: i dont know...

S
- Song: anything by Nine Inch Nails
- Shoe size: 5
- Salad Dressing: caesar
- Sushi: nasty.
- Slept outside: nope
- Smoked?: no. its disgusting. i'll keep my lungs.
- Shower daily?: yeah
- Sing well?: eh...okay
- In the shower?: ...
- Strawberries/Blueberries: strawberries

T
- Tattoos?: i've got certain ideas for some if i ever got any, but i dont think i ever will
- Time for bed: whenever i decide i can fall asleep
- Thunderstorms: i like them

U
- Unpredictable: life, most of the time

V
- Vacation spot: California

W
- Weakness: i dont know
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: my boyfriend's a lot like me
- Who makes you laugh the most: Grayson, Lauren, Meg
- Worst feeling: broken heart, failure, or that feeling you get when something bad is going to happen
- Wanted to be a model: i think at one point in life, not now
- Where do we go when we die?: heaven or hell, depends on the certain things that we've done that determine which one
- Worst Weather?: cold and dry

X
- X-Rays: they're cool
- Ex's: three

Y
-Year it is now: 2008
-Yellow: ?

Z
- Zoo animal: animals shouldnt be in the zoo

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Slept in a bed beside you?: no one
2. You went to the mall with?: i think that was Skye
3. You went to dinner with?: i dont remember
4. You talked to on the phone?: Grayson, i love talking on the phone with him
5. Made you laugh?: Grayson
6. Hugged you?: i think that was Molly
7. Said they loved you?: Grayson, and i love him too
8. Held your hand?: i dont remember
9. Spoke with?: only the amazing Grayson!
10. You cried over?: i think mom pissed me off awhile back

and i tag:
http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21881227/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 12:39:47 PST
stuff has been up. my laptop fried itself - what geeksquad originally told me was a virus and wiped the hard drive ended up being the motherboard. it went on some days but it hasnt gone on since i've taken it there last. WHY?!

don't even trust geek squad, ever. i paid so much to have them do nothing.

so i've gotten a new HP, it works well but has issues with the sound system [damn windows] and i've yet to see if i can actually sync my iPod to it.

and my old PC which i've had for over 8 years crashed two days ago. and then i clean up last night to just come home and find the house completely trashed since the people that are putting in new windows in the house decided to come at some random time and put everything wherever. and my math teacher then sends a note to my mom noting that i have a D and can't do shit to change that - even though i turned in my makeup work. so now i need to go there tomorrow and see what he's actually going to do about it because i am not going to fail math.

now normally by now i'd be like fuck all of this and be pissed beyond words [i am at certain people - geeksquad, the workers, my math teacher and evil glaring spanish teacher] but either than that, amazingly, stuff has been really good. i've got an amazing boyfriend as of 11.23.08 and things have been going great, and i love him. he's coming down here winter break, too.

so yea, either than all of the problems with school and whatnot, things have been going great. and i need to get working on art.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21581436/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21581436/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 12:54:59 PST
so i get it fixed at geek squad. they delete everything and make me pay $130. this was about two weeks ago.

and it wont turn on today. its doing the same thing. im thinking its NOT the virus they said it was because when i went to disable the battery to turn it off, a side of the screen was popped out, and i know the asshole who did it, too.

so now i gotta take it back there and make them fix it - its the only place i can get it fixed because i had originally went there to get it fixed and they said they fixed the problem, so they have to fix the problem.

Damn, i dont wanna get a new laptop either. I like my HP.

so...uh...if anyone wants art requests too, let me know! i need something to do. graphics, drawings, whatever, just let me know.

im gonna go play tap tap revenge again, anyone who wants to get iPod touch - its epic win.

UPDATE:

my computer is fucking FRIED.

i'm just using my side computer right now.

i need to get a new Pavilion.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21427117/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21427117/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 18:44:21 PST
1. Introduction
2. Complicated
3. Making History
4. Rivalry
5. Unbreakable
6. Obsession
7. Eternity
8. Gateway
9. Death
10. Opportunities
11. 33%
12. Dead Wrong
13. Running Away
14. Judgement
15. Seeking Solace
16. Excuses
17. Vengeance
18. Love
19. Tears
20. My Inspiration
21. Never Again
22. Online
23. Failure
24. Rebirth
25. Breaking Away
26. Forever and a day
27. Lost and Found
28. Light
29. Dark
30. Faith
31. Colours
32. Exploration
33. Seeing Red
34. Shades of Grey
35. Forgotten
36. Dreamer
37. Mist
38. Burning
39. Out of Time
40. Knowing How
41. Fork in the road
42. Start
43. Nature's Fury
44. At Peace
45. Heart Song
46. Reflection
47. Perfection
48. Everyday Magic
49. Umbrella
50. Party
51. Troubling Thoughts
52. Stirring of the Wind
53. Future
54. Health and Healing
55. Separation
56. Everything For You
57. Slow Down
58. Heartfelt Apology
59. Challenged
60. Exhaustion
61. Accuracy
62. Irregular Orbit
63. Cold Embrace
64. Frost
65. A Moment in Time
66. Dangerous Territory
67. Boundaries
68. Unsettling Revelations
69. Shattered
70. Bitter Silence
71. The True You
72. Pretence
73. Patience
74. Midnight
75. Shadows
76. Summer Haze
77. Memories
78. Change in the Weather
79. Illogical
80. Only Human
81. A Place to Belong
82. Advantage
83. Breakfast
84. Echoes
85. Falling
86. Picking up the Pieces
87. Gunshot
88. Possession
89. Twilight
90. Nowhere and Nothing
91. Answers
92. Innocence
93. Simplicity
94. Reality
95. Acceptance
96. Lesson
97. Enthusiasm
98. Game
99. Friendship
100. Endings


I might end up doing this. i need to do art, and i have incredible block right now. it's killing me.

p.s. the moods are actually fixed. holy shit.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21344652/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21344652/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 16:52:30 PST
i strongly believe there will be change with Obama. we sure as hell need it after all of the shit Bush caused - the war with Iraq, the Patriot Act, etc etc...

i was worried about McCain winning. he appeared just as another accomplice Bush wanted to get more power and cash after getting out of office. not like he really needed it in the first place.

Maybe people really woke up and gave a fuck after all the years. Maybe they realized exactly what was happening and how America was going further into a downward spiral, and people finally decided we needed something better.

i think we got it.

<sub>Works in process [that i really need to do] --

- B-day pic for</sub> &

- Post pictures on camera

- New story i just started [decided base theme sounded too much like Fight Club so now i have to edit it]

- Art homework.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21038778/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/21038778/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 21:22:54 PDT
either than that, i went to new york city yesterday. class trip - ended up leaving to go there at about 6:30 and getting back at around 10 at night.

it was fun. we went to museums, and i have to do five sketches of what i saw at the museums.

i thought there was going to be an exhibit for Closer in museum of modern art, but apparently they moved it. i wanted to see it...oh well, in my group the parent that was there knows their road manager and her husband met NIN. Found out apparently their road manager doesnt like them much. and more i'm not gonna post.

and the tour bus = bitch.

ANYWAY, i got pictures. and i'll post whatever i sketch when i sketch it...if anyone wants to have me do any art, graphics, anything for them i'll do it...i've had nothing to do. schoolwork isn't something to do in my state of mind - it's just something i have to do to get through high school. i need to do more art.

maybe i'll get more inspired - i found more amazing music tonight, and now i like Modest Mouse.

i just thought i'd post something.

i can't think of anything else to say or anything worth saying at all.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/20574745/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/20574745/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 19:54:46 PDT
i just started high school, i love it. i'm going to franklin high...

so yea, i've gotten a lot more work, and i've still been on, ive just either been talking to people or end up doing something else.

i've taken pictures, just havent yet posted them, i should sometime...

either than that, i just have my friend [skye] over and just the usual...listening to nine inch nails, doing art...

i should be back on here soon though and post more stuff. i've been kinda lazy about that since i've gotten back in school

...and if anyone wants requests, send them to me! i need to start working on photoshop again...i attempted doing a painting on photoshop and failed at it, looks like crap.

i need art to do. something.

hopefully i'll come up with something new soon.


<sub>am i still tough enough?

feels like i'm wearing down

is my viciousness

losing ground?

am i taking too much?

did i cross the line?

i need my role in this

very clearly defined

once i start

i cannot stop myself.</sub>

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19922526/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19922526/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 19:27:26 PDT
i went to the virgin mobile festival on sunday [august 10th] and stayed there from 2 pm to 10 pm when NIN was finished.

since they had a lot of other concerts there too, i also got to see the end of Taking Back Sunday [they played Cute Without The 'E', Whats It Feel Like to Be a Ghost, and MakeDamnSure] Lil Wayne [my bro wanted to see him really damn bad, but his music isnt really that bad, i didnt like the concert as much tho] Bob Dylan, and Stone Temple Pilots.

they were all good, but we missed Paramore since they played around 1 and we were still looking for parking till around 3.

all in all, there were around 75,000 people there.

anyway, before Bob Dylan was on, me and my bro sat on the sidelines [his head hurt and he was bitching] so im just like sitting there bored. next thing i fucking know, i look up, and theres Trent Reznor about 20 feet away from me, looking in my direction, walking backstage.

the minute i realized it was Trent, i froze. it startled the hell out of me, but it was awesome

now i just wanna meet him in real life [would have if he didnt walk backstage and my bro wasnt being an ass]

but either than that...when NIN came on, they were amazing. they started off with 1,000,000 [great starting act] and Trent sounded great, even though he had some throat problem before he acted.

i'd tell all of the songs they played, but i dont wanna spoil it for people who havent gone to the concert. the songs are good, though.

so.....i still need to post more NIN tour pics, but if i postpone it, its because im doing something...i have to get surgery later this week [its nothing big] and then im doing something on the weekend and next week.....

anyway im out. time to go watch draw this badass drawing on photoshop.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19796839/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19796839/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 19:21:36 PDT
i've been doing some stuff, so i've been relatively lazy here. >>

i got my electric guitar about a week ago, so i've been playing it. i just need an amp that works better...

and i got photoshop cs2 a few days ago from my really awesome friend [you know who you are]

so....expect more art soon, i was working on some graphics for a website i joined, now i'm done with that, so i'm free to photoshop and whatnot.

only problem is...i've got artists block at the moment, so i have no idea what i wanna do. hopefully i'll overcome that soon. i have another idea for an Art Is Resistance banner, but that's gonna involve a lot of work, so i'll complete that on a day when i've got nothing better to do...

either than that --

whos going to the Lights In The Sky [NIN] concert? i was able to get tickets a few days ago for the Virgin Mobile festival here in baltimore on the 10th and am going with my bro there because he wants to see Lil Wayne [haha]

i'm gonna be there all day [and die in the heat] because i wanna see the other bands there too. Paramore and Taking Back Sunday's gonna be there too, so i was like what the hell, i'll go see them too.

i'll be getting photos from the concerts, so far i've seen videos of Lights In The Sky and it seems amazing.

i dont have anything else to say [or more like cant really think or anything more] so all i have to say is four more days to wait is gonna be loooong.

i think i'll go write and mess with photoshop.

[and why are the moods still fucked up...? its been like that for months now]

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19560016/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19560016/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 17:49:44 PDT
Rules of the game
* Choose a singer/band/group.
* Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group.
* Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged).

Band - Nine Inch Nails

1. Are you male or female? - The Fragile

2. Describe yourself. - Gave Up

3. What do people feel when they're around you? - Last

4. How would you describe your previous relationship? - Only

5. Describe your current relationship. - The Becoming

6. Where would you want to be now? - The Day The World Went Away

7. How do you feel about love? - Love Is Not Enough

8. What's your life like? - Everyday Is Exactly The Same

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish? - The Only Time

10. Say something wise. - God Given

Isn't it almost creepy how Trent's life and his music somehow relates to mine? This is why i love NIN. anyway...

as for tags...i'm gonna tag and any other people who wanna do this.

-x-

i finally got The Heroin Diaries! it's amazing so far, and i'm almost halfway done. Once i'm done, i'll probably get all of the Final Destination books.

either than that, i'm working on some stuff now. i'll put up some pictures and stuff tonight i have, and try to finish more of the Saw story i'm writing with my friend

and i'm going away this weekend again, so i'll probably not be on [unless i can get an internet connection] so i'll probably just end up drawing/reading/taking pics

so, as for my to-do list

Saw - Survivalism -- almost done

Realities Fatalities -- done, need to type

Year Zero [story] -- done, need to type

any other shit -- ask me

i'm also writing songs too. i'm not putting them on here, though. internet = not safe. people steal shit.

i'm also getting an electric guitar soon, so we'll have to see how that goes...

moods = fucked up, so if i was gonna pick a mood, i'd have to say paranoid.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19317436/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19317436/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 22:54:23 PDT
so i have stories. and a lot

the past few days i've been with [meg] and [lauren]

it's been fun. on fourth of july meg and i set off fireworks at 10 pm, and got a lot of pics, its kinda creepy though to be outside my house at night, i've always thought of my neighborhood as haunted, and i've felt stalked by people before...

but anyway, i took a lot of pics, they'll be up soon

but for the past few days, i've been at meg's and laurens, we had a fun time she's over now.

the day we were at megs, we were outside a lot. we were going to go in the woods at around 10, but everyone fucking chickened out, so we just walked back to my town and went to the playground. LUCKILY, NO ONE GOT RAPED.

then when we got back we just kinda chilled on the front porch for a few hours [we couldnt get internet inside, it was gay] and we let off fireworks. then i got out my notebook, and we all wrote people's names of people we hate on paper and burned it.

i had fun with fire.

then we went inside and i drew for awhile and me and lauren wrote our Saw story [that will be up soon] and went outside again at 2 at night. again, because no one would go down to the woods, we decided to walk meg's fatass dog. amazingly enough it wasn't that bad.

so i got to sleep at like 6.

and then at 12 noon, mom wakes me up by coming over Meg's. and shes like "annie get up, we need to go to the emergency room, i got hit by a truck" and shes just standing there. and im like "what?!"

turns out the car was sideswiped by a Canada Dry truck, and mom wasn't hurt but her neck was jerked, and the dude hit and ran. mom got half of his license plate though and called the cops.

she just went to the hospital for the law suit, so the cops are tracing the fucker now, so we'll get them soon. the dudes a fucking idiot who thinks hes gonna get away in that truck.

but the creepier thing is my dream before it happened. i had a dream everything was on fire [that was obviously from the night before] but there were cars and trucks flipped over and were in accidents. everything was up in flames. and then i was reading some book on canadians, too. it was weird.

but why mom took me to the ER was beyond me, she was fine when the x-rays came out. i just had to sit in the waiting room for 3 hours or more doing nothing but listening to nine inch nails. everyone is a lazy fuck in maryland so it takes them an hour when it should take them 15 minutes.

but just after that i went back to meg's house and then slept over lauren's. it was fun but there was nothing but shit to eat [chips, yogurt, icing, slim jims, etc] so i just ate all that and a lot of blueberries because they were good. i hadnt eaten much at megs because half of the stuff i ate went to the dog [she gives you the face so its hard to resist] so i was hungry at lauren's.

last time i eat chips for an ass long time. i got sick as hell.

but i had to stay up all night because i couldnt sleep because both of them wouldnt shut up, so we just slept for like an hour from 11-12 noon on the couch.

and then after that Mom wanted me home so i came home. and i ended up falling asleep at 5, and woke up at 9 at night. it was weird. i felt like a vampire haha

either than that, today and last night i saw Untraceable. it was AMAZING. you need to go see it along with Battle Royale. that was amazing too. and the Broken movie.

you can probably get Untraceable somewhere online free, and i know you can for Battle Royale. i watched Battle Royale on youtube. as for Untraceable, i just ordered it on On Demand.

as for Broken, that's just a 20 min short movie that Trent made after the album. lets just say its so graphic they couldnt put it on TV. i'm not posting the link here for everyone to go make the mistake of seeing it and being terrified there on out [i already did with lauren and she couldnt get past 5 mins without freaking out, proves me right, and she watches saw and whatnot] so all i'm gonna say is you can find it on youtube in two parts.

i loved Broken though. but my mind's just that messed up. i love horror and gore. and Broken's the most graphic thing i've seen so far. it's not just about gore though, it also has a story behind it.

anyway i'm tired. i think i'll go post som... ]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19113440/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19113440/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 16:55:02 PDT This world rejects me
This world threw me away
This world never gave me a chance
This world's gonna have to pay

I don't believe in your institutions
I did what you wanted me to
Like cancer in the system
I've got a little suprise for you

Something inside of me has opened up its eyes
Why did you put it there did you not realize
This thing inside of me it screams the loudest sound
Sometimes i think i could

Burn



Okay....so I though i'd post a new journal. just for the hell if it since i've got some news...

i got sick on Friday so i wasnt able to go to Beach Harbor with it sucked. i dont know, i think i had food poisoning, but i got better that night.

so right now Megs [] over. and she has been for awhile. it's been fun. we went ice skating and I really sucked this time so i'm gonna get lessons. maybe with Meg. i hope. lol

either than that, we went swimming today, and were at the pool first for like an hour waiting for the pool to open since there was a storm...and then we went swimming for like an hour. and then meg killed her toe...so we had to go home...[her toe looked nasty...i'm not gonna go into details]

but megs sleeping over again. (: idk what we're doing tomorrow.

so as for other things....i'm just gonna post a bit on this [not to rant because i dont feel like it but it might turn out that way anyway] but since this rears its head a lot...[for a lot of people]

i hate it when people like bands because the main member/whole band's hot.

its annoying as hell. like the Jonas brothers. [as an example] i've seen a lot of people talk about them on forums and whatnot, and are all like 'OMG the jonas brothers are awesome joe jonas is so hot!'

i've never heard their music so i cant say they suck, but, me knowing the people that like them and do listen to their music, i dont think i would like them. >>; i'll probably end up listening to their music someday anyway since i listen to about any bands.

but yea. like said -- i only love Trent so much because of who he is. i've always liked Nine Inch Nails since the moment i heard them, just never really got into listening to their music a lot until now. [my friend was the cause of that...haha, he sent me more of their songs] but ever since i heard Closer and Only, i liked them and then i just started listening to more of their music. i've pretty much got almost every album downloaded now...and i really like NIN because i can relate to their music. a lot. but yea -- as for the fact of loving Trent, him being hot is just a bonus. lol

ANYWAY, either than that

apparently, they're letting me try out for carver again...

after rejecting me, finding out my score was wrong and telling me i could try out again, then saying they found out it was right, now finally saying it was wrong again on the rejection letter but they cant do shit about it so they're gonna let me try out again

seriously get it right.

but now since i'm better at paint shop pro/photoshop, i'm gonna try as hard as i can and hopefully make it in this time. i really want to get into Carver. i have to do a photomontage there.

and something else -- why does DeviantART keep screwing up? the moods arent working, and neither are the galleries, it wont let me get past the first page...it seemed to be working again earlier but its fucked up again now.

so i'm going to go work on replying to comments now. i need to do that. i was working on a layout but the person was being pissy about it, so i'll hold that off. since the backgrounds done, though, i think i'll post that.

and if i had to choose a mood, it would be the same mood as the song i'm listening to.

which is: [link] [it takes like 25 seconds for the song to start, but its awesome because its Burn AND The Ring movie. yes.]

--annie

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19045757/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/19045757/ Wed, 25 Jun 2008 19:56:12 PDT
so all day i worked on a stylesheet, and figured it out

...Trent with wings! it was really random how i came up with this, but i like how it ended up

so, now that i'm back in Maryland and have some time on my hands, i'll be posting pictures from my vacation in California

but then, this weekend i'll be leaving on vacation again to Beach Harbor with -- we wont have internet as far as i know....but i'm bringing my laptop in case i can get on

its like 9 days, so its gonna be awhile...im just glad i'll be away from where i live again

but california was fun. and it was even hot where my grandma lived in south san francisco by the bay, it's usually not because of the fog

the only thing that wasn't fun about the trip was the day we left the weather was freezing and the flight was delayed 3 hours. i guess Cali didnt want me to leave as much as i didnt wanna leave

but, anyway, i'm moving there when i'm 18, thats only a few more years

i've been feeling more and more creative for some reason. i wrote a new song today. i've written about 15 that are good in my opinion in the past month or so....i'd post them here but i dont want people to steal

anyway...to-do list

clean my room -- half done...xD

get more pictures -- done, just need to post

make a journal CSS code -- done

write Year Zero -- done, need to type and post

and i need to remember if theres anything else...haha

-- Dusky

[why i signed dusky idk, but i like that nickname better than my real name. haha. you can call me that from now on if you want.]

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18921679/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18921679/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 23:28:05 PDT
so i havent been on here in awhile....or replying to messages at least, i was on here a few times

i'm in California right now, so i havent had any chance to xD

usually when im here i've either been fighting for a connection, or fighting with mom to use one....i've had to actually stand outside and sit out there to get any connection at all...i had to do that yesterday and because the connection was so bad all i could use was AIM. so i just kinda opened my iTunes and blasted Nine Inch Nails on my computer.

it actually appeared people sat outside to listen. the people are cool here.

and so far whats happened --

as for the airport, it wasnt as bad as it usually is...i got there a few hours early and the fucking airport was closed, so i had to wait....people were actually sleeping at the airport on benches...it was bizarre

the plane trip was cool though, the first plane was so damn old though it looked like it was gonna crash.

but im still here =]

either than the airport and plane, i went to the Santa Cruz boardwalk once so far, and went swimming in the pacific ocean. it was fun but i was really damn cold after that. lmao

and i've been shopping a lot. and got to meet up with people i havent seen in ten years.

it's been really fun...and i've gotten a lot of pictures

i'll post them later, and reply to comments

time to go listen to some nine inch nails.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18705250/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18705250/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 21:38:58 PDT
i went to Chincoteague island last weekend with meg []. it was really fun...took some pics, and some of them i already posted. i still have to add some, though....i have to add a lot of stuff on my cam. lol

what we got to do on the trip: we stayed at megs' grandma's trailer which was in a private park [it was really nice] and it was right by the Chesapeake. There was also a pool there that we went to that was awesome, and i ended up swimming in the chesapeake, and having to dig megs sis who ended up being knee deep in mud since she was being a dumbass, and had to have my foot wrapped for awhile because i cut it on a rock when digging her out. either than that, it was storming like hell outside. i even managed to get a pic of a lightening bolt [its posted here already] but it was a great trip. and Chincoteague island was awesome. we got to buy stuff and get icecream and see a horse. and i picked up long-ass nails on the ground and took them home. i just had to xD

either than that, i got sunburned to hell, but im better now xD

NO.MORE.SCHOOL. finals and tests OVER. that was HELL. im so glad im out of there. now for a nice long summer to do what i want instead of what they want. and post lots of art.

anyway, im leaving Thursday for California...the flight leaves at 5 am or something, so im not sleeping....moms all like 'lets sleep' and im like no...why sleep when im not going to be able to sleep at all from wanting to go, and we'd have to get up at like 1 am. lmao

so i cant wait....

either than that, NINE INCH NAILS CONCERT. i need to buy tickets....im going to the virgin mobile festival the 10th of august....i know other bands like paramore and taking back sunday are going to be there too the same day. the festival is also august 9th but a whole bunch of crap bands are going to be there that day.

i'm really excited though. mom hasnt said yes yet, but this is all i want for my birthday, and i better get this one thing. its all i want. i asked her about it and she said maybe. she better say yes.

it'll be amazing seeing Trent live. hopefully i'll be able to get a good seat, too. and sneak in a digital camera, haha

anyway....either than all that

what i've been working on/had ideas on:

Year Zero - The Warning story - COMPLETE [i just need to type it damnit]

new Art Is Resistance poster - i have ideas, just need to make it

pictures - i'll put some up and take a lot in cali

Reality's Fatalities - I NEED TO TYPE IT. RAWR.

Flatline - dont kill me....i'll write it....sometime or another...maybe next week....or year

and....i've been writing songs. and they're written well and sound great. im not posting them here though, i dont want them stolen.

so....im tired....time to go listen to some Nine Inch Nails...

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18515937/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18515937/ Mon, 26 May 2008 18:11:07 PDT
ok, from the beginning --

i got up at like 9 am, like i have been to listen to Nine Inch Nails because i like their music so much i wake up early for it without planning [usually i refuse to get up early] so i walk to Megs ['s] as planned to go to the pool. well we get there and its not open. so we wait. and wait.

and when it does open, we find out its fuckin members only. i was so pissed, i wanted to scream.

but it ended up turning out good in the end. we walked home and megs grandpa took us to the carnival....after about 2 hours of waiting and meg complaining about her ass-old slow grandpa [lmao that part was hilarious] we finally got there...

it was like a mini-carnival, the rides were small but they still had some really fun ones, like the High Die [if you've seen final destination 3, the one that picks you up about 100 or so feet in the air and drops you] and it was worth it going there. we also went into a zombie fearhouse-thing and meg screamed like a fucktard...lmao

then we also saw some kid also almost get injured/die. there was this ride where you're put in a wheel and it spins around where you go completely upside-down, and there was a little 5 year old girl or so on it. she apparently wasnt strapped in right, whether she messed with her seatbelt or they didnt strap her in correctly i dont know, they said it was her fault but i think thats a bunch of bs. she shouldnt have been on the ride in the first place. but yea, she was being thrown around violently from the ride and hanging onto it trying not to fall off, i was on another ride at the time next to it when i saw it happen, so all i could do was scream to stop the ride.

thank god nothing happened to her. but it sure could have. i dont even know where her parents were and why they werent screaming, and that was another shocker...

but today ended up being good in the end and fun. im totally sunburned now....xD

but either than that. i have been replying to comments/posting stuff slowly because i just got 4 Nine Inch Nails CD's friday, and mostly all ive been doing is listening to it and being lazy...but it has been inspiring me! so expect more soon =]

and, next weekend im going camping with Meg, so theres going to be some stuff on that too...hopefully i'll have internet xD

on more serious terms:

i've been researching a lot about Year Zero and the Art Is Resistance movement. and its starting to get interesting. if you dont know what it is yet, search year zero and art is resistance on wikipedia. i'd post it here but it involves a lot.

theres more to that later, i have an idea for a story now =]

<sub>art is action
art is witness
art is community

Art Is Resistance.</sub>

don't forget that.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18372594/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18372594/ Sat, 17 May 2008 19:52:23 PDT
so yes, happy b-day to Reznor. and lets hope he keeps up with his badass music. His stuff is so different and amazing.

i've just recently started to love Nine Inch Nails. my fav songs by them: wish, survivalism, only, closer, discipline, the hand that feeds, the perfect drug, every day is exactly the same, right where it belongs, something i can never have, and more....i need to hear more music though. my friend Sean gave me a huge-ass list of great songs by them last night so yea, i need to listen to them all...

anyway, on other terms. i need to do a quiz to just tag meg for it.

so here it is....



YOUR BOY SIDE

(x) You love hoodies.
(x) You love jeans.
(x) Dogs are better than cats. [fuck yea]
(x) It's hilarious when people get hurt. [most of the time...and that is why i love blood and gore]
(x) You've played with/against boys on a team.
( ) Shopping is torture.
(x) Sad movies suck. [i cant even sit through one. i nearly died when i had to see across the universe...the music was okay and the graphics were amazing though. the story was shit because i hate love stories. thats all i give it.]
( ) You own an X-Box.
(x) Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
(x) At some point in time you wanted to be a fire-fighter.
( ) You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
( ) You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
( ) You watch sports on TV.
(x) Gory movies are cool. [thats all i watch]
( ) You go to your dad for advice. [i havent seen my dad since i was 7, thats not my fault]
( ) You own like a trillion baseball caps.
( ) You like going to football games.
( ) You used to/do collect baseball cards.
(x) Baggy pants are cool to wear. [yup]
( ) It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
(x) Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favourite colours [i love them all]
(x) You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
(x) Sports are fun.
(x) Talk with food in your mouth.
( ) Wear boxers.


YOUR GIRL SIDE

( ) You wear lip gloss. [its annoying i rarely do if ever]
(x) You love to shop. [i do i admit]
(x) You wear eyeliner. [sometimes i used to a lot though]
( ) You have some of the same shirts in different colours. [thats gay]
( ) You wear the colour pink. [it blinds me. i hate pink]
(x) Go to your mom for advice. [thats the only person in my family i CAN go to for advice.]
( ) You consider cheerleading a sport. [no]
( ) You hate wearing the colour black. [black rocks]
( ) You like hanging out at the mall.
(x) You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
(x) You like wearing jewellery.
(x) Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
( ) Shopping is one of your favourite hobbies.
( ) You don't like the movie Star Wars.
(x) You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance. (I take dance class)
( ) It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
(x) You smile a lot more than you should. [i guess]
(x) You have more than 10 pairs of shoes. [my closets filled with them. they just build up.]
(x) You care about what you look like.
(x) You like wearing dresses when you can.
(x) You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
(x) You wear girl underwear.
(x) Used to play with dolls as little kid.
(x) Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it. [only if i get to make it all fucked up. lulz.]
(x) Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored. [take a look at my dA.]

i tag: [to see if he gets anything on the girl side xD]

anyway. everythings down. im leaving June 12th, and coming back the 24th for California. i cant wait. lol

either than that, http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18202191/ Tue, 06 May 2008 18:58:35 PDT for this quiz i promised i was never gonna get tagged by. only after she killed me though. xD

1. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name)
Ann ___

i have no idea what my dads middle name is.

2. NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Doug ____

mk. dont know what my dads fathers name is either xD

3. STAR WARS NAMEthe first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Maran

w.t.f.

4. DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Blue Wolf

a blue wolf would be awesome. lol

5. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Taylor San Francisco

xDD

6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The Black Sobe

sobe's awesome. lol

7. FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Anin

NIN....nine inch nails!

8. GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie)
Coffee Chip

wow. lol

9. ROCK STAR NAME: (current pets name, current street name)
Markie Central

oh hell no. xD

10. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy)
Princess Pocky

sounds yummy xD

11. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
Puff Briarwood

@-@ about as bad as rockstar name

TAGGING

lets see what you can come up with!!

mkay....either than THAT...

a lot has happened. or somewhat.

i got my hair done saturday. it was fun UNTIL the stylist got her brush caught around my earring and PULLED IT. i screamed from it. it hurt like hell. and the thing is ive gotten my hair done like 3 times when i had that earring in by her and she knows about it, and she always hits it a lot but this time it was like hell.

and then i had to take the damn thing out. the excuse for it bleeding so badly was because it was infected and she said she saw pus. well thats pretty damn strange because i didnt see any and i cleaned out my ear really well after and its fine. a little irritated but only from being pulled.

and they're all like 'ok let it heal your skin is sensitive you shouldnt wear earrings' and....-twirls new earring hanging from ear- i dont give up that easily. Moving on....

i got to go to kristens ['s sister] b-day party saturday. it was fun xD my legs look like i just had to run away from a serial killer cuz i had to walk through the woods with shorts and minus a pair of shoes, and add thorn bushes. that part was not fun xD and then kristen nearly got her finger bit off by an alligator snapping turtle

it was so awesome though. meg was there too.

and im going to cali this summer again! and moms having me plan the whole trip. so i cant decide whether to go on the tenth when we get out of school, or wait till its hotter at like the 20th or so...

and, while im there, hopefully i'll be able to meet in Sacramento. that would be awesome, i wish i could take all my friends to cali. meg, i might be able to cram you in a suitcase!

im really not up for the airport trip. I HATE AIRPORTS. too many people and its too crammed and theres too many halls and too many ways to get lost and end up in a different country instead of where you're supposed to be. the plane ride is fun though.

and im hopefully looking forward to more things in summer and june...and be abl... ]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18041792/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/18041792/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 16:39:57 PDT

so....

RULES:
1. Write these rules.
2. Each tagged person must write 8 things about he/her-self.
3. And s/he has to write a journal about these things.
4. Finally s/he has to tag other 8 people.
5. Go to their dA's page and write they've been tagged.

1. I believe Art Is Resistance.
2. i have to get surgery next month.
3. my hometown is California but i moved to Maryland when i was 5.
4. Nine Inch Nails and Angels & Airwaves are my favourite bands. EVER.
5. i love someone. no im not with anyone right now. after Mike, i've been more cautious.
6. i'm Catholic. and so is all of my family. and i'm mostly Italian and Irish.
7. i have one piercing in the middle of my left ear where the cartilage is. i pierced it myself with just a needle, earring, and rubbing alcohol. i could feel everything.
8. i like to do multiple things im good at and be multi talented instead of just focusing on one thing. i love to graphic design, draw, write short stories, come up with movie ideas, do photography, and write music mostly. it depends on my mood.

tags: and i dont feel like putting any more names, so anyone who wants to do this, can

Mkay. so onto other things...

I should have a new ID up soon. i have the pic to use and a general idea, i just need to do it. SOON, and get my lazy ass up.

recently i've just been daydreaming. and i have some pretty good ideas for new stories. i need to do something about Flatline and get Reality's Fatalities back D:

MY KIDNEYS HURT. or something near my stomach but its not my stomach. at least its not my stomach. id rather have a headache or my kidneys hurting than my stomach. i hate feeling sick to my stomach.

school's driving me off the fucking EDGE. along with the rude ass kids and teachers, i have to deal with this other bitch. and she frames me and tries to make make ME look like the bad guy. well im sorry thats not gonna work noting the fact everyone knows that kid is a bitch in the school. PEOPLE TALK NON-STOP ABOUT HER. even the nice kids and not the bitchy preps.

i might just post the whole story here about what happened for the lulz. IT WOULD BE FUNNY SHIT, MAN. and if people vote they wanna hear it, i will. and if she complains, its freedom of speech. i have a voice, everyone has a voice. speak the fucking truth.

and i wont post their name considering they're on here. so a whole bunch of bs lies wont break out and then the counselor wont get involved, because knowing it, IT WOULD HAPPEN.

it's really hard to get me this pissed off at someone. I dont think anyone else but this child has actually achieved it. you have to REALLY GET ON MY NERVES.

i'll shut up now before i tell the whole story right now. let me know if ya wanna hear it. ITS FUNNY. REALLY FUNNY.

...

on other terms, meg found Bound Prince. YAOI MANIA!

it's a video game of L raping Light. and its got some nasty crap on there too. Like pissing. I feel bad for straight dudes that like deathnote xD

okay, and in one month....

i have to get....

surgery.

im honestly not scared at all. more...amused and interested, even though that sounds weird xD they need to cut some tissue in my mouth is all. but im gonna be put to sleep anyway. i've heard its cool being put to sleep. one minute you're awake the next minute you're knocked out. and you wake up and dont know what happened. lol

i wanna go to california so badly. mom still needs to make flight reservations damnit. i wanna go in early June and miss finals, i'm getting out June 9th [or so i've heard] this year since we're graduating THANK GOD.

ooh, and....CARVER IS LETTING ME RE-TAKE THE PHOTOMONTAGE! So that means if i get at least 9 more points, i qualify. they never admitted that i had the wrong score, but still. Lulz on the person who said they're not gonna let me retake and i should just give up.

hmm. i should post ra... ]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/17965753/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/17965753/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 19:08:20 PDT I should've turned back
I should've known better
than to walk away defeated

I'll say it tonight
and ill say it forever --
and this time i really swear i mean it

oh, i need you now
the earth fell fast asleep
this room is safe and sound
will you lay here with me?


okay...now LETS TRY THIS AGAIN. i had more than half this fucking blog done and Vista decides LETS BE AN ASS AND CLOSE INTERNET EXPLORER. Damnit. I dont even remember where the hell i started.

so lets go from here. I finished reality's fatalities! its my story for english class. at like, two last night, i was tired as hell today...

it was due last monday. lmao, so its really late today. when i get it back from ms. stanton i'll type it sometime and post it on here. its kinda confusing if you dont read the whole story....but i wanted to make it that way. it makes things more interesting =]

today was boring boring boring. except last period was funny. ive got mr freedman for spanish last period and if you dont know who mr freedman is...hes the stupidest man teacher and weirdest in my whole school. he cant even pronounce 'hola' right.

well we were being 'good' [or so thats what mr freedman said] so hes all like 'we're all gonna have lollipop time today! everyone burst out laughing and one kid was like 'oh mr freedman you really must like lollipops dont you?!' and hes like 'oh ive had millions of them!' everyone DIED laughing. most people on here i think should get this....lmao

right now, what im wondering: WHERE IS MEG?! meg, if you're reading this, i called your house and your grandmas over 20 times trying to get ahold of you. and you werent at school today...damnit im getting worried!

either than all that....i.have.good.news =] but im not gonna post it until its final...and its pretty good for now.

time needs to go faster!!

but only a month and a half of school left....i cant wait for summer =]

i have mostly all of my school work done for now. i want to keep it that way for the rest of the year. which isnt long. i should be putting more art up soon.

i feel okay now. for some reason i've been kinda more depressed last night. i think its just the change of things after my ex bf Mike. i'm over him but yea. i dont know who the hell he thinks he is anymore.

more to that later. either than that im in a good mood. =] except im still worried about meg. grr...

i'll end it here. bye people.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/17777782/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/17777782/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 10:36:45 PDT <sub>The ash set in then blew away
It's getting lost into the sea
I grew so close to all the thoughts I had to leave forever
I left the chill and voice of screams and kids and ran for shelter

You know I won't say sorry
You know I won't say sorry
The pain has a bad reaction
A blend of fear and passion
You know what it's like to believe
It makes me wanna scream</sub>

Thank you everyone for the 2,000 pageviews!

I love it on this site, its awesome meeting everyone here, i sure like it a lot more than Neopets which i used to play around a year ago. everyone's so much nicer here, and a lot of people on Neo were miserable, not to mention the site's gone down the shitter ever since they changed all of the pets and charge you for everything now. if you used to go there and havent been on since the old site, please, dont go back. it's hell now.

anyway, i'm working on more now, i still need to do something about school....@-@ thank god...one full month and a half to go, and i get out earlier 'cuz i'm graduating. and then i'll be on a plane to Cali. yay x3

so....anyway for anyone that thinks college is gonna be hell: its really not. i've been to so many classes before, i'm in one right now. it's easier then middle or high school because you don't have to get up as early by choice, and you get to take whatever you want. So thank god theres only a few years left until college. i'm still not sure what high school i'm going to. maybe franklin. but yea.

so only about a half hour left in this biology class left. yessss

The crap i still need to do? --

Reality's Fatalities - I still have ONE PAGE DONE. i tried to write some today but i have writers block. and its due soon....really soon....tomorrow soon...rawr...

Inachisama's Chibi Kitty Pic - good sketch done x3

Grim's Pic - DONE! after a week. yay

anything else, i dunno. ask me, lol

time to go talk to my friend Mike on aim before he gets ass bored out of his mind. xDD and stop ranting.

byebye people. :]

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New things? im back in school and hating it like usual. And we're taking state testing...>< already finished Math, think god, i have reading next week which isnt as bad. but its still three or so hours of testing each day i get it

i have ms. dudek, which amazingly she isnt as evil as so i've heard. she game us oreo cakes the first day of testing and a lot of candy...o.o

anyway, its getting close to summer, i have no idea what day i get out, i know regular grades get out around june the 16th, so probably around the 12th for me because our grade's graduating from this school. yay, finally

we'll probably end up doing some sort of ' party ' as they would call it at our school, being as dull as it is, they'd probably give us snacks and sit in the cafeteria and tell us to shut the hell up. We were supposed to go on a pool party but since idiot kids keep injuring themselves on field trips in one weird way or another, we cant anymore. ;_;

so im happy there's....two and 1/3 months left of school left. =]

summer i'll be taking a lot of photos, so far i know i'm going to california, and ocean city again im pretty sure, and also i might be going to ohio to crash at my friend dezi's...oh the fun i will have there >:3

we havent been doing too much in school but i still need to bring my grades up....grr...by the 18th, so so far i'm cool

soon enough i'll have art requests open for everyone, i would now if it wasnt for the fact i still have work to do for some people and need to do stuff at school for other things, lol

anyway i cant wait for summer, summer's so much fun =]

and as for works in progress:

Grim's Pic - currently inked and i'm about to work on it in photoshop [it took like an hour for the scanner to work....it kept refusing o.o']

Inachi-chan's Pic - I have a good quick sketch on that done and a good idea for it

Reality's Fatalities [short story for english class] - i have every idea for it down....but like one page done....now i just need to do it. lol, i'll type it when im done and put it here

Flatline - I need to do something about that. i havent worked on it since the prologue and chap. one xD

I need to get working, lol

Some Awesome People? -



Byebye. :]

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/17533758/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/17533758/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 22:43:32 PDT
rawr, why is it every time i go on vacation i get hurt in some big way? [bigger then the ways i usually get hurt] but like, this time i decided to try ice skating for the first time, and like after 15 mins i started to get good and then i slip back and hit my head on the ice...i dont remember much past that. but i got up laughing, it still hurts though. >_>

so i go back ice skating today. i managed not really to fall today. im getting better...this is only the second time. it's fun though. =]

it was so warm out today, except too cold out by the beach to go swimming in the ocean. lol, i got a lot of stuff here though.

anyway i think to myself too much sometimes. its been about a month since i've had to deal with my biggest nightmare ever, and im still not over the person who caused that. still can't believe he did that and acts like he still cares about me. oh well. i'm still friends with his ex. now me and her have something in common, since he did the same thing to her only worse to me. if you ever wanna know the whole story behind this, i might tell it sometime [hmm....good new idea for another short story...]

ok. maybe i do fall in love too easily. its strange. a lot of the time i dont want to. something that just comes to me...i dont like getting hurt. at all.

anyway im so tired and not really paying attention to much now. hopefully i'll be able to go ice skating tomorrow. i hope so. =]

and ill have more art up later when i get back home.

hi friends. =]

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the ride there was....BIZARRE. we drove through delaware and it was like redneck land. o.o but like, everywhere you looked there were some old creepy beaten up houses. i've never seen any places like tthis before. hell, i didnt even know places like this EXISTED!

i remember saying to myself that i wanted to go on a creepy ride there. well, i sure got it. looked like it was right out of a horror movie. Just add darkness and a serial killer and it would BE ONE.

i have pictures of it too. ill be taking a lot of pics this trip. i have some now, but i dont feel like putting them up, i have a headache and im tired.

so im out. im ASS TIRED.

hi friends =]

p.s. anyone who doesnt know where ocean city is its in eastern maryland. i had like, five people ask me today where it was, and then i have one friend thats going here too and is like halfway up the road from me. lawl.

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[thank you meg]

.: QUIZ :.


Rules:
- Post ONLY 8 Random facts
- You copy and paste these rules in your journal
- Tag 8 or more
- Tell 'em they're it
- You can't tag the same person who tagged you!


1. My best friend is Meg and she is the weirdest person i know but she is awesome

2. i work harder on graphics and things i do at home then at school

3. the only piercing i have is one in the middle of my left ear, and i did it myself with a needle and an earring

4. i was born in california and lived in south san francisco until i was 4

5. every time i fucking go to california i get hurt somehow but i still like it there [once i got ran over by my aunt and uncles dog and sprained my finger, and once i got poison ivy ALL OVER MY FACE]

6. i'm almost all Italian

7. im currently going 'what the fuck' because after like a month mike finally unblocked me out of NOWHERE

8. i eat and i dont gain weight. or barely any. o.o' and i've got a weird memory where i can remember phone numbers and song lyrics and basically anything and i can remember shit from years back in DETAIL [idk how i do this its weird but awesome] and, i dream in colour.

ok thats technically 10. i just wanted to add more because i thought of two more cool ones.


ANYWAY, i cant tag anyone since meg and all tagged an ass load of people. and im too lazy to think of anyone else she doesnt have. so anyone who wants to take it and wasnt tagged, have at it.

SO....we're doing that story in class. i named mine Reality's Fatalities and so far the plot is KICK.ASS.

tomorrow = spring break. FINALLY!

so yes. saturday i'm driving to ocean city and i get to do loooots of fun shit there. indoor pool at hotel! and lots of roller coasters yay! coming back wednesday or something.

i'll still be on. im bringing my laptop. probably not too much though, lol

but yes. and...that ear i pierced if you know me or saw that pic is getting better and healing. THANK GOD. i wanted to keep that piercing.

...anyway, my mind has been murdered again. so ill stop now.

hiya friends.

[shit, MORE MIND MURDER, G2G, NOW]

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/17284423/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/17284423/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 10:31:10 PDT
i wouldnt be on if i wasnt in the crappy bad mood i'm in, i dont know, Deviantart keeps my mind off of stuff that i dont wanna and shouldnt be thinking about, so yeah...

i should be posting Chapter One of Flatline today. half of it is typed, and the other half is on paper which i need to type. basically, so far its a phone conversation with me [Dusky] and meg [Maggie] i dunno where this is going, really. it'll get better, i hope >.>

i have an idea of what i'm going to do with my story for English. i'll post that here, after, too. its good =]

and...i've been bored lately, so if anyone wants an art request, i'll do it =] ask for anything...layouts, buttons, graphics, anything you want. things i cant do: flash [dont have the program] some animations [i can do blinkies and glitters and stuff like that but nothing elaborate] and skins [dunno how to do those yet xD]

and meg, your english story idea is awesome. i wanna read! good luck lol

and carver called today, so we'll find out about them some way.

anyway, time to go write flatline.

hi meg and skye and kate and other people =]

p.s. meg, i still wanna meet your cousin [i know that was random]

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/17123077/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/17123077/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 19:23:46 PST So Carver DID mess up.
Just as a matter of if I get in now -- talked to the school board, now just need to go to the school
anyway, i hope they allow me in. they should.
i knew they messed up. I WAS RIGHT!


So...for the past few days, i've actually been DOING SOMETHING. i've been doing a bit of art lately all month, but since i haven't had too much to do, i've been doing art and more of Flatline. As for school....lets not go there >>;

a lot has been happening lately. i've been mildly depressed but i'm fine. if you know me well enough, you may know some of the story. art's been saving me because it helps me to keep my mind off of whats happening and lets it wander. i really SHOULDN'T let my mind do this too much though, because sometimes when i get caught in my mind...well, shit happens in there.

Anyway, THREE MORE DAYS I HEAR. three more until i get my letter from carver to see if i got in. -crosses fingers- i think i did good on the interview, so i hope i got in. I really hope i did...also, if i do, mom will pitch in a good amount of cash for a new digital cam for me. mine's fine but i was at office depot today looking at professional ones. i was wondering 'i really wonder what makes them so much different from regular digital cams....and i took a pic. holy hell, it was amazing. I want one so bad now, lol

and yes. if you go to fms and have ms stanton, our next project is to write a story on ANYTHING WE WANT!! i'm looking forward to this =] meg, i can just imagine what you're going to do....lmao

as for terms of flatline. I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON IT!! i finally get my lazy self up and do something. i'm on the first chapter. i've been writing it when i can, usually in my notebook before i go to sleep [when i should be ASLEEP, not writing] or in class if i get time. BUT -- i thought i should post my character list. so if you know me and you know i'm writing this and you read the prologue and you're one of my really good friends, you're probably in it. If not, i'll probably end up putting you in it. also, in the story, the person you play might not act like you. i know the character i play doesnt really seem like me. so far, here's the list and the names everyone has in the story in no specific order --

Me [regular name] - Dusky Rae Palmieri [im fully aware that if you go to fms i did make my last name the same as the spanish teacher...lmao]

[married name around 10 years later in the story idk how many years im gonna make it]
Dusky Rae Day

Mike -- Mike Day [hes the only person i didnt change the name of. i couldnt really think of anything else. anyway, consider him special. lol]

Meg - Maggie Riley [meg-ness its you]

Mary - Alexandra Cameron [Nickname = Cam]

Skye - Carly

Brandon - Brendon

Cristian - Cole

Chris - Eric

...there's more. i dont feel like listing more, though, these are the main people. xD

Mkay. off to write more of flatline.

hello meg and friends.

aaand...
p.s. thank you everyone who says thanks for the favs sorry if i dont comment back a lot.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/16814858/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/16814858/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 10:32:50 PST 14 years 5 months

Are you single?
nope

Have you cried today at all?
nope.

What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
white wine

Do you want to be in a relationship?
yes i am in one. and i love it. <3

Do you actually believe in perfection?
yes because i know someone that is literally, in every way, perfect.

Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
sunny

Have you been to New York City?
no but i wanna!

What do you think about before you go to bed?
Mike, and usually end up falling asleep talking to him. i love that =]

Last time you did laundry?
i dont do laundry people do it for us. lol

Do you fight with your parents?
when moms being pissy

Have you went out with a girl/guy because you were desperate and they asked you ?
no

Where did you sleep last night?
my bed

Do you want kids?
yup

Do you have any expensive jewelry?
a lot from mom and grandma and family. lol

How many close friends do you have?
uhh lets see...meg, mary, emily, sierra, and some other people

What is your brother's name?
have a half brother his name's Chris but he doesnt live here hes like 20-something

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
yup i trust them more then all of my friends that are girls

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yup, final destination!!

When is your next road trip?
dont do road trips only planes, next plane trip i'm going to Ohio for the summer, yay!! =]

What are you listening to?
myself singing secret crowds by angels and airwaves and text messager going off and meg IM'ing

Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
depends on where im going

Do you get nervous with public speaking?
yes. a lot ;_;

Ever been in a wedding?
not yet, but im planning my wedding, lol

What type of girl/guy do you usually fall for?
a sweet guy that's really nice and tells you they love you and means it. and isn't a bitch.

Last time you saw your parents?
moms in other room -looks over shoulder-

What woke you up this morning?
7 in the morning Mike called, we talked till 8 for an hour, i went back to sleep, and just woke up normally at 12. xD loved talking to him though. normally i'd yell at anyone that woke me up that early on the weekend, lmao

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
mondays = sucky as hell, but tuesday theres no school so, yay

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
hugged and kissed mike and hugged meg =]

Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
mom

What was your first thought this morning?
i miss mike! -grabs cell phone-

Do long distance relationships work?
if you really wanna make it work and if you really care about the person a lot too it will

Who is your number one on myspace?
Mike

Who do you wish you were with right now?
Mike, but we're talking. =] i love him.

Would you rather talk on the phone or chat in IM?
depends on who it is

Do you listen to music everyday?
yes i can't live without music lol

What are you doing tonight?
idk maybe going to megs nothing really

Do you miss someone?
i'm talking to who i always miss when im not talking to them, but i miss a few old friends

Are you in a bad mood?
nope, awesome mood. =]

Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
si, Meg on IM and Mike on text on my phone

When were you the saddest in your life?
when jason beoke up with me after the asshole said he loved me and all these lies and shit and i believed it, karma will come back on him after what the asshole did to people, i need karma now to come back on a lot of people but instead it decides to pms on mary a lot and we dont want that. >.>

Have you ever loved someone and were too scared to tell them?
i've cared about someone a lot, but when i really loved someone i knew they liked me too and they kinda made me tell them and i did. i was scared as shit, though xD but LOVED how it turned out and wouldnt change it in any way

Are you a jealous person?
not usually im only jealous of like 2 people at the moment and i have good reasons to be

What are you allergic to?
fish, like the kind you get i those filets. i can eat some though and i can eat shellfish.

How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
ehh 5 to 7 i guess i haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately -goes to get energy drink-

What are some things that are needed in a rel... ]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/16738186/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/16738186/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 12:22:28 PST
i finally finished the prologue on Flatline!! Now, i just need to write the whole story. >< but, it's coming well so far for ideas. Meg -pokes- you should read it!! and i'll do you a fanfic sometime

So, basically on Flatline, the beginning [prologue] is only on 911. I just had to have that there because without it its not gonna make sense. the Time Killer's in flatline, it all links in after awhile. But anyway...

i'll do more of it when i can. right now i need to do a painting and decide some ad thing for GT art. I don't like GT art hw, or really the class because it gets boring most of the time...

anyway. i've been having a lot of story ideas. i've had an idea for a final destination story for i dont know how long now. i'll write it when i have some time. i've been kinda busy and putting school off. the first thing on my list i love doing but it takes up a lot of my time.

but we deal, we deal.

anyway, off to art homework and stuff.

Hi Meg and Mary and Paige and people.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/16225956/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/16225956/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 14:45:29 PST
If youve seen 85 or more, you have no life, or so ive been told, lmao

hmm...

(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show[ehh....]
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
( ) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
( ) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 4

(x) The Princess Bride[saw it with meg....lmao]
( ) AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite[who hasn't seen this movie? <-- i agree]
( ) Labyrinth
(x) Saw [Annie, promise to tag you and add 3 and 4 so you can check them off xD <-- KICK ASS MEG!!]
(x) Saw II
(x) Saw III [best one so far]
( ) Saw IV [I NEED TO SEE IT....]
(x) White Noise
(x) White Oleander
( ) Anger Management
( ) 50 First Dates
( ) The Princess Diaries
( ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 11

(x) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 16

( ) Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
( ) Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
( ) Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
( ) Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
( ) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 18

(x) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Begining
( ) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect [LOVED IT. its sad and describes that we can't always get what we want, so true >.>]
( ) Suddenly 30
( ) I, Robot
( ) Robots
Total so far: 24

( ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
( ) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers [lmfao]
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
( ) KING KONG
Total so far: 26

(x) A Cinderella Story [pry out my eyes or something...TOO....HAPPY.....MUSHY -dead-]
( ) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination [...again, i promise to tag you, annie <-- -drools- LOVE....]
(x) Final Destination 2 [KICK ASS]
(xxxxx) Final Destination 3 [BEST THING EVER TO BE CREATED. EVER. AND I MEAN EVER. SECOND MOST FAVOURITE THING ON PLANET (dont ask what first is) BUT IM IN LOVE WITH THIS MOVIE. the end.]
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
( ) Flubber
Total so far: 34

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 36

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge [I screamed like a WUSS in my friends basement. annie remembers xD <-- yup i do lmao....this movie wasnt scary at all to me lol]
(x) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 44

( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
(x) Joy Ride (Road kill) [loved it]
( ) Lucky Number Seven
( ) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown [i saw like, half of it in Cali lol]
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 49

(x) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
( ) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss's Daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
( ) Rush Hour
( ) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 53

( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz [Ive seen this too many times, its gotta b... ]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/16160271/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/16160271/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 00:10:36 PST
and i did....

so the more i kinda looked into it, i thought about 'those were the days'...it was fun there

i quit awhile back like winter of last year kinda because i got busy and i just sorta lagged behind and slowly went on less and less and then nothing at all. as soon as i got aim and met more people last year there was like no time or i was lazy....

well after having to do what im doing and all this art, it's kinda re-interested me again

so....im probably going back xD

not necessarily to play the game but more for art and lookups because it kinds sucks not being able to do layouts here >_>

but i need to wait a bit and get more friggin art done. i still have....one and one half of a pucture to do, and do a portfolio, once im done that, im free, no worries, ill do more art of what i wanna do then what i need to do

screw school. i do ok but i still hate it. i don't get too much homework, all thats due sometime soon that's big is some 5 minute speech that i honestly don't care about doing but it looks like i have to....

so back to neopets. once i get that far ill be back here to say something and open a petpage for graphics and layouts.

im making myself angsty to join again. better finish what i need to do now ;-;

and the account im gonna use is probably going to be Butterfly__Effect. im thinking. it's my side. my main was Kacheeks_rule553 which i have a lot of old art on. i have nothing on butterfly yet.

and ill also be scanning and submitting a looot of old art.

anyway, im gonna go stuff i need to do and its 3:00 am and im not tired and im still like wtf why am i not tired....

hi meg, mary, paige, zaryhia, felicia, and other ppl too!

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/16028507/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/16028507/ Fri, 21 Dec 2007 12:06:27 PST
i'll put it up eventually, but i need to wait until like january something.

and im writing my story Flatline too. but mostly i've been working on art

and it's finally BREAK. so i will get a lot done during break too, including people coming over a lot too, i hope. too bad i wasn't able to go to florida like i wanted to though...

new fav band: Nine Inch Nails

i can't stop listening to them. lmao.

and my friend is now getting me obsessed with Scary Kids Scaring Kids too.

LOTS OF NEW MUSIC.

well off to work on random crap.

and learn how to play electric guitar too...

hi meg and mary and zaryhia and people

bye people.

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/15507746/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/15507746/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 13:47:55 PST
you should recognize why it's weird if you've seen the movie before xP [it's awesome]

So....i'm currently working on a lot of art....once i'm all finished it, i'll probably all put it on at around December.

i'll explain why i'm doing this later on lol

aaaanyway....i've been kinda busy with school

and homework sucks so...

Madina Lake and We The Kings kick ass! im so mad I missed the concert...

i need a new ID. i'll do that soon. =]

bye people...

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/15291815/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/15291815/ Tue, 30 Oct 2007 18:51:05 PDT
1. What do you say most when you're trying NOT to curse?
friggin.

2. What song do you have stuck in your head right now?
Tear Me Apart by She Wants Revenge.

3. Who was the last person you talked to?
Mary and Jessie and Jack [wtf?]

4. What Time Is Your Alarm Clock Set ?
6:30

5. Do You Want To Fall In Love?
Uh....you'd have to be like, the child of satan to not want to fall in love.

6. Do You Wear Flip-Flops When It's Cold?
yup

7. Would You Rather Take The Picture Or Be In The Picture?
be in it, just hope it comes out good. lol

8. What Was The Last Movie You Watched?
Cabin Fever

9. Do any of your friends have kids?
No

11. Do You Ever Take Medication To Help You Fall Asleep?
Yeah, when i feel like shit.

12. Are you a cuddler?
YES. <3

13. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate milk?
Regular, only if it's 2% though. [piiiicky]

14. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week?
yeah. xD today

15. When was the last time u had starbucks?
last month i think. yummy caramel latte =3

16. Do you know anyone who lost their dad within the last couple years?
yup.

17. Do You Have A Trampoline In Your Back Yard?
no

18. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?
Doesn't everyone get talked about behind their backs?

19. Did you watch cartoons as a kid?
yuuup, sometimes still do

20. What Movie Do You Know Every Line To?
Final Destination 3. I <3 that movie

21. What's your favorite CD?
Panic! At The Disco's a Fever You Can't Sweat Out

22. What's your fav. song on that cd?
Camisado! <3 fav song ever.

23. What is your favorite salad dressing?
house

25. Does anyone like you?
i hope they do?

27. Do you ever cry in public?
no. nobody sees me cry o.o but i do.

28. Have you told a secret to someone this week?
yeah

29. Think they kept that secret?
yup, because they're awesome like that

30. Do you think you could ever be in love?
Have been....broken heart -- damn it.

31. Would You Ever Marry Anyone Covered In Tattoos?
maybe a few and depended on what it looked like and what they were of.

32. What Did You Do Before This?
Talked in a chatroom with friends that are stalking my friend. o.o; very, very creepy.

33. When Was The Last Time You Slept On The Floor?
don't remember but i have xD

34. How Many Hours Of Sleep Do You Need To Function?
6 or 7

35. Do You Eat Breakfast Daily?
nope. never eat breakfast

36. Are Your Days Full And Fast Paced?
sometimes but if i want to do something later that day, then sloooow and then i get pissed D:

37. What are you doing right now?
Taking this, texting Mary, thinking about some things and being bored >>;

38. Wheres your phone?
In my hand

39. Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
Sometimes very picky >>;

40. Have You Ever Been To Six Flags?
i want to go D:

41. Who can you always turn to?
really not sure.

42. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite?
Opposite, guys kick ass!

43. Do you like mustard?
HONEY mustard. =]

45. Do You Sleep On Your Side, Stomach, Or Back?
Side

46. Do u watch the news?
Not usually unless ms. richards assigns one of those gay quizzes. then i will sometimes.

47. How Did You Get One Of Your Scars?
On my wrist [no, i DON'T CUT] when i was little i had this bracelet on and it stuck into my wrist and left a scar. o.o

48. Last person to make you mad?
skye [as usual. lmao]

49. Still mad at them?
somewhat, not really

50. What is the last thing you want to do today before you go to sleep?
talk to my friend ryan. he's awesome and there's no one else on and it sucks!

Tagged People:

-Megish [xD]

-Mary

-Skye

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/15149627/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/15149627/ Sat, 20 Oct 2007 21:46:36 PDT 1. Person You hung out with:
Jeannette -poke-
2. Rode in a car with:
Jeannette, her mom, and her mom's friend
3. Went to the movies with:
Jason and Jeannette and we watched across the universe 8D
4. Went to the mall with:
Mom
5. You talked on the phone to:
Chris xD
6. Made you laugh:
Brandon and Jeannette
7. Last person you told and/or they told you they Loved you:
SOMEONE.....

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R.

1. Pierce your nose or tounge:
Nose!
2. Be serious or be funny:
Funny =3
3. Drink whole or skim milk:
Skim
4. Die in a fire or get shot:
Shot
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies:
Parents, my mom is cool

A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y.

1. Do you like anyone:
Mhm
2. Sun or moon:
Sun
3. Winter or Fall:
Fall
4. left or right:
Right
5. 10 acquaintances or two best friends:
Friends
6. Sunny or rainy:
Sunny!

A B O U T . Y O U.

1. What time is it:
12:40 am
2. First Name:
Annie
3. Where do you wanna live:
Hawaii
4. How many kids do you want:
2 maybe
5. Do you want to get married:
Sure
6. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it:
Twirly!
7. Have you ever eaten spam:
ewwww yes
8. Favorite ice cream:
Hot fudge sundae....yummeh
9. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet:
idk
10. Do you cook:
nah
11. Current mood:
afraid....and idk why....weird

I N . T H E . L A S T . 48 H O U R S . H A V E . Y O U.

1. Kissed some one:
no
2. Sang:
yesh
3. Been hugged:
yesh
4. Felt stupid:
nah not rly
5. Missed someone:
mhm
6. Danced Crazy:
xD no
7. Gotten your hair cut:
no
8. Cried:
maybe

. S T U F F .

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops:
nah
2. Do you have a Dog:
i want a dog =[
3. When's the last time you've been sledding:
last winter
4. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
someone else
5. Do you believe in ghosts:
yup
6. Do you consider yourself creative:
i can be very creative at times
7 Who did you copy and paste from?
Megleh

And to determine the subjest if you end up taking this quiz...

Choose your birth month and day to get the subject of your bulletin post!

JAN. - make love to me
FEB. - call me a slut
MAR. - spank my ass
APR. - suck my dick
MAY- shut up and kiss me
JUN.- I'm a sex freak
JUL.- I'm a freak
AUG.- I wanna fuck
SEPT.- Im so fucking horny
OCT.-Cuddle with me
NOV.- I want to make out
DEC.-Let's fuck harder

pick your day of birth --

1-on the couch
2-in the kitchen
3-in the car
4-in your parents bed
5-in the morning
6-at the movies
7-because i love you and always will.
8-when you're horny
9-in my bed
10-at skool
11-right now
12-becaus ei am am drag queen
13-under the stars
14-at a wild party
15- after I brush my teeth
16- on the washing machine
17-on the teachers desk
18- in the shower
19-when im sweaty
20-everyday!!!
21-right here, right now
22-on the kitchen table
23-on the couch
24-while watching porn
25-all night
26-at the library
27-while watching TV
28-while I'm asleep
29-everynite on ma bed all nite long
30-alll night
31-whenever u have time

Tag 5 people to take the quiz

Taggs:

uh idk, skye xD

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/15133001/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/15133001/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 18:00:28 PDT What is your first name?: Annie
What is your middle name?: Taylor
What is your zodiac sign?: Virgo

L O O K A T M E
What is your natural hair color? Light brown
What is your current hair?: Light brown with red and blonde highlights
What color are your eyes?: Hazel and Green
Piercings?: None
Straight or Curly hair?: Curly

C U R R E N T L Y W E A R I N G
What shirt are you wearing?: a tanktop...and it's mid october and like 80 degrees and i love the warm weather!
What pants are you wearing?: short-shorts
Are you wearing socks?: nah

T H I S O R T H A T
Pepsi or Mountain Dew?: eh....i guess mountain dew
Coffee or Hot Cocoa?: COFFEE 8D
Wild Night out or Romantic Night in?: Romantic <3
Chocolate or vanilla?: chocolate...yummy
History or Science?: eeeeew...i guess science, ms. richards makes history like 10 times worse D:
Sleep in or Early to rise?: sleep in
Beach or Boardwalk?: beach
Hoodie or Tee Shirt?: tee shirt
Night Or Day?: day
Jeans or Capris?: jeans
Simple Plan or Good Charlotte: good charlotte

H A V E Y O U E V E R
Hugged someone?: DUH?
Been on the phone until the sun came up?: i've been on the comp lmao
Got chased by the police?: naw but i have friends that have been xD
Got in trouble with the police?: nah
Went to Juvy?: been inside one before for some work thing but never was sent there because i did something bad
Went streaking?: lmao no but i know someone who has
Slept past 4 in the afternoon?: yeah xD
Skipped a Class: i've wanted to!

T H E L A S T
Person you talked to in person?: Meg, she's right behind me reading sasunaru stuff probably
Person you talked to on the phone?: Jeannette
Person you talked to online?: Dezi
Person you texted?: Jason
Person who texted you?: Jason
Thing you drank?: Cream Soda....yummeh
Do you like surveys?: sometimes, depends on the questions
Are you scared of what life will be like in 10 years?: not really
Do you get sad?: yeah i am sad a lot.....and i've never known someone not to get sad--...well scratch that, meg usually is never sad lol

1. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?:
yeah, a whole bunch of people actually xD

2. Do you still talk to the person you kissed last?:
mhm

3. Have you ever punched a tree?:
lmao yes

4. Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?:
yeah, if you go to extremes to get it and really really want it, prolly like 90% of the time

5. Do you watch a lot of TV?:
if there's something good on

6. Have you ever snuck out of your house?:
nah there's not much to sneak out and do

7. Kill or Be killed?:
depends on who i'm killing >D

8. Break someone's heart or have your heart broken?:
damn hard choice...i hate heartbreaks but i don't want to break someone's heart

9. Never sleep or never eat?:
that's gay, either way it'll suck because you'll either be really tired or really hungry

10. Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off?:
somebody...

11. Would you ever get a tattoo?:
mhm

12. Who was the last person you saw cry?:
idk i don't cry around people

13. Are you a morning person or a night person?
night person

14. Was Friday a good or bad night for you?:
friday = today = awesome

15. Have you ever snorted something?
so but my friend meg snorted a pixie stick

16. Do you snore?:
nope

17. Have you ever gotten an STD?:
nooooo!

18. What are your plans for today?:
uh....going to watch a movie when the damn food comes

19. Where do you work?:
i don't work unless you call school work

20. Do you enjoy your job?:
NO.

21. Are you there for your friends?:
yes!

22. Do you like to spend time with people?:
depends on who with

23. Are you hungry?:
yeah...damn pizza man

24. Are you a forgiving person?:
mhm

Tagged People to take this quiz?:

Meg [kyuubi-san]

Skye [divine-touch]

Mary [kyouto-benzaiten-san]

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I'm trying to get my friends Sisi and Emily to join Deviantart =]

This is my new fav site. I'm on here a lot now, with Meg if she's not reading fanfictions xD quit neopets awhile back. a ton of people did. it really sucks what it became.

Life's been really crappy recently. I have things planned out now though and most of it is all in it's place, now. well not really. but somewhat.

Going to write a NOVEL. -may post once done- it'll be long. i need cast names because i'm not using regular names.

MEG. i have sasunaru.

obsession over new song! <3 read what i'm listening to below! and it's on my myspace

myspace: [link]

and yes, that song has your name in it, Meg.

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I NEED TO UPDATE.

bad.

So i'll try to get some done now because i'll be way too busy this weekend, meeting some kick-ass people. Still need to get stuff for GT art done and update brushes on my paint shop pro since I got a laptop, I like it, but don't exactly approve of having to move everything.

I'll do a new ID when i get an idea, i have somewhat of an idea now.....

and do some other stuff. Lots of stuff has happened....oh yeah...

and....i'm really in love.

So....i'm going to go watch Naruto. I shall update soon....hi Meg! and....-waves to Mary- hi Mary!

]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/14606671/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/14606671/ Wed, 12 Sep 2007 17:01:49 PDT
TYPE YOUR NAME WITH YOUR...

1) FINGERS: Annie
2) CHIN: anne <--close....but some people call me anne so it still counts
3) ONE FINGER EYES CLOSED: ann8w <--got first part right, rest no
4) ELBOW: aannie <--- really really close
5) NOSE: annie
6) PALM: annie <-- yay to both

1) List four fandoms you have.
1: Final Destination [IT ROCKS, BOOK 3 AND MOVIE!]
2: Saw
3: uh, some bands but not like a huge fan....like Three Days Grace and Avenged Sevenfold
4: something else....

2) Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
nah

3) Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
got it highlighted like last winter break and layered, i want to again soon though!

4) List four people you look up to most
uhhhh...i'll name the 2 people that i am good friends with on here, and i have a lot of other cool people i know, just don't feel like naming them all, but i'll name some....
Megleh - Kyuubi-san! go meg!
Skye - Divine-Touch
Brandon [he's awesome]
Dany [idk why i named him. Random!]
Jeannette


5) How many pets do you own as of now?
One...an evil lovebird named Markie....

6) Which do you prefer white or black?
black!

7) I have no idea what your talking about...
wait, wut? o.o <-- same answer as meg

8) Choose one or the other, not both
WHAT THE SHIT *confused as hell* <-- same answer as meg AGAIN....

9) Name three aspects that tell who you are
1: smart i guess
2: i love scary stuff.
3: head = always in the clouds <-- I AGREE TOTALLY MEG

10) If you could have a power what would it be?
To fly....fun!

11) Who was the last person you talked to
skye

12) Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
Jason <3 we both said it to eachother.


13) Write down the first five words that pop into your head:
hmm....Meg, cell phone [idk, i'm staring at it], love, iPod, and aim. i really do not know.

14) What's one thing you wish you could do better?
Be better at math. o.o''

15) Do you like the way you are?
eh i'm ok but i'd rather be somewhere else

16) Choose, Summer or Winter:
SUMMER ALL THE WAY

17) Choose, Rain or snow:
snow!

18) Water or ice?
water

19) List two odd things about yourself:
1: i can stare at things and think for hours
2: i'm usually really good at art but right now i have major artists block and it's REALLY PISSING ME OFF!

0) Today you feel like turning into a color, you turn to that color, then the yellow color comes and mixes with you, then the red color, then the white color, then the orange color, then the black color, then the blue color, which color is the resultant to the previous mix?
uh...i'm guessing brown because if you mix so many colours it will turn to one big blob of weirdness usually, but honestly i have no idea

1) Answer the first thing that goes into your mind after reading this question, ready?
why isn't my text messeger going off yet? is there something wrong with my phone?!

2) The word "bargest" makes you think about WHAT?
bargains?

3) What is your response to someone who just yelled "DUN DUUUN" at you?
well i really have to say that's REALLY CREEPY because at the same time my e-mail went off and it has a 'dun duuun' sound to it, so i'd have to say wtf and who is sending me an e-mail?!

4) Delicious is to Pizza, while craptastic is to---
Peas. >>;

5) What does "drommel" means? (YOUR definition, not the real one)
i have no idea....

6) Is Pink Delicious?
I have a shirt that says pink is delicious. Some pink candy is delicious, so i can say yes!

7) Uga Boga, Boga Uga?
OMG, A CAVEMAN

8) If, after three weeks of detention, your mind started splitting into three different personalities, what would you do?
The teacher would probably go mental first from me making it a living hell every time he sent me there.

9) Banging your head against a wall is fun, true or false?
Banging head = true, headache after = false

10) The person who sent you this is quite amused for you to be this far, what would you comment him/her about this?
i already did comment them, lmao

11) Is your mind damaged yet?
i think my art project last night damaged it a little. o.o and homework.

12) This is the 12th question, true or false?
NO, ITS NOT. ITS THE 13TH IN A NEW SERIES OF QUESTIONS THAT STARTED WITH 0! *brain hurts now from so much thinking* <-- i... ]]> =Beautiful-Fantasies http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/14500902/ http://Beautiful-Fantasies.deviantart.com/journal/14500902/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 11:13:39 PDT
Updating my iPod with new songs [i've been pestering myself to do this for MONTHS NOW] - doing this at the moment, damn freezing compaq...

Honors Choir - Applied, i need to audition next tuesday o.o''' -scared for life- i hate singing in front of people.

Meg Gaara Pic - Complete, i need to scan!

Hospital Pic - It's almost a year old o.o I need to re-make and put it up.

Any pics? - i need to check my cam.

Final Destination 4 - I need to start it.

Other things - ask me.

I'm done here. Hi Meg =]

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