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deviantART: by:BekkaLynn http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:BekkaLynn&section=today deviantART RSS for by:BekkaLynn en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 29 Dec 2009 18:16:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Recovering http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/28995531/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/28995531/ Thu, 17 Dec 2009 08:45:19 PST
Just a small journal to let everyone know I will be on very little until I recover from an allergic reaction to a medication. Last Saturday I had a very bad allergic reaction to a medication and past out for about 50 minutes before they could bring me out of it. I was completely unresponsive for about 10 minutes, then I was in and out for the rest of the time. I will be on when I can, so if it takes me some time to look at devs or reply to messages please forgive me I will do what I can as I can.
Hope you all have a Very Merry Christmas and A Very Happy New Year

]]> *BekkaLynn The Life I live http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/28328940/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/28328940/ Fri, 13 Nov 2009 08:58:14 PST
All the things that were said to me as a child.

You will have nothing, no good children, no good life, no good husband, and no nice house. I was told I would have nothing. I guess it is all true. I was told I was useless and unworthy of nice things and a nice life and love. I guess it was all true. I was told I would never be an artist. I was told to forget all that silliness. I was not good enough. I was told no one would ever love me, I was not worthy of love. I was told you will never be able to cook. That I was too stupid to do anything and would never be able to have the things in life I wanted. Because I wanted too much. I was told to stop lying when I said Jimmy was touching me. I was told that I would burn in hell for saying such things. I was told children should be seen not heard. I just hope Jimmy will pay for what he has done. I was told, on her dying day. I always hated you! I asked why? She said you took my husband from me. I did not understand. I did no such thing! He was my daddy, he loved me what was wrong with that. He never hurt me! He never did anything bad. He never hurt her. He was always there for her and always stood up for her. She still hated me! No mother should ever say those words to there daughter, adopted or not. I was beaten and emotions squashed. I was told to just get over it. I deserved it. I never understood why. I try to be nice to everyone no matter what they say or do. I donÂt understand why I deserve such hatred. What did I do? I donÂt know. Now she is gone and the pain lingers on. What can I do to forget all she had done? How do I forgive her? I can not tell her how much it hurt to hear all those things and so many more. I just want the pain to stop!
All I ever wanted was to be loved! All I ever wanted was to be accepted for who I am and not what others wanted me to be. I just want to be me. I just want to be loved. I just want the hurt to stop.
I did not ask for this pain. I do not think I have done anything to deserve it. I just wish for a nice life without hatred and pain. I just want the people who are causing this to stop. I just want it to stop.
I wish my husband would love me enough to make it stop. He is the only one that can now. For it is his family causing all the pain! As he is just as guilty as they are. He has never stood up for me. His family hates me and treats me very bad. He just ignores it all. As I cry from the pain. He has no idea how it feels. I donÂt think he ever will. I just wish he would try. I just wish he would tell them to stop treating me so bad. They donÂt have to love me, just treat me with respect, the same respect they expect from me. I just wish it would stop. I wish he loved me enough to make them stop. I wish he had the never to stand up for me. I wish he was not so intimidated by them. I wish he would do what is right and make them stop. I just wish he loved me enough. I used to try to like them. I used to try to be nice. Now I just stay away. The hurt is too much. I want to spend the holidays with him and his family. I just canÂt. It hurts too much! I donÂt want to cause pain for others. I donÂt understand those who do. I just wish I was not hated so much! I just want to cry. I do not deserve this no matter what they say. I did nothing to cause them pain. So why do they do this? No one tells them to stop. No one tells them to be nice. I am expected to take it. I am supposed to be ok with it. I donÂt know how. It hurts too much! No one deserves to be treated this way. No one should be expected to break the law because of someone else and there behavior. No one should ever say donÂt tell your wife you work here, and she can know nothing of your job. It is not like he works for the government. Instead he works for his family the same people who hate me. They hate me so much they will do anything to hurt me. Including hurting him to get to me. I just donÂt understand! I just wish they would stop. I wish my husband could stand up for himself and our life together, but he won't. He seem too scared of there rejection. If he would only stand up to them he might get more respect. I wish he thought enough of our life together to make them stop. I wish I was as important to him as they are. I wish he would just grow a pair, and tell them to back off.
I just want to be happy for a while. I just want to be loved enough to make the pain stop. I hope thatÂs not too much to ask. Is it though? Do I deserve the pain and hatred? I donÂt know. I just want it to stop! It is so hard to go on this way. I wish the pain away.

The hated one

]]> *BekkaLynn It's a great weekend http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/27049656/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/27049656/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 08:00:22 PDT Hope you all are having a great weekend

]]> *BekkaLynn Happy Weekend http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/26750077/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/26750077/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 08:18:30 PDT Hi everyone

It is going to be a great weekend good temps and sunshine and the Danish Festival. Also I finally got my car back from the body shop and it looks great. Oh and I received an email asking permission to use one of my photos for a book. I am so excited that someone would want to use one of my photo's.
Well I hope everyone has a great weekend and stay safe

]]> *BekkaLynn Miss you all http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/26255116/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/26255116/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 13:00:39 PDT I have been gone for a while and will not be here much in the near future due to computer problems. I wish I could just wave a wand and fix my computer but no such luck. I am currently using a friends laptop until I can get a windows xp operating system or have the funds to pay to have it fixed. So this will limit my time but at least I can get online again as long as I can continue using the laptop. So it will take me forever to catch up but I will try. I have browsed a little bit and have seen lots of great work so keep it up and I hope to be back a lot more full time very soon.

Have a Great Day

]]> *BekkaLynn It's Back http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/23962854/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/23962854/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 05:03:03 PDT Thanks for all your patients and I will try to get caught up on all your great devs as soon as I can.
Have a great day everyone

BekkaLynn

]]> *BekkaLynn Computer Problems http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/23852136/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/23852136/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 16:00:34 PDT

Becky's Mom.. She is having serious computer problems.. She has no control over her keyboard or mouse.. Nothing is working right.. She will be back as soon as she either gets things fixed or a new computer. Meantime I will be checking in now and then, or if you need to contact her, you can note me..

]]> *BekkaLynn The Start http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/23228332/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/23228332/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 04:40:31 PST
Hello just a note to say hello and to wish everyone a great day

]]> *BekkaLynn Happy Valentines Day http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/23187744/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/23187744/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 04:34:39 PST

]]> *BekkaLynn DA Member Needs our HELP http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/22976885/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/22976885/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 03:53:06 PST [link] to learn more. Please chip in if you can or put a link on your page for this great cause.

Thanks Much and have a great day

]]> *BekkaLynn Brrrr http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/22857436/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/22857436/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 05:32:10 PST Think Spring and have a great day everyone

]]> *BekkaLynn Ok so it's been a while http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/22555483/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/22555483/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 04:15:05 PST
]]> *BekkaLynn Hello and See Ya Later http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/19195748/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/19195748/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 03:59:27 PDT Thanks to all my watchers and I hope you all understand. So I will see all of you when I can and please be patient with me I will get caught up at some point. Have a great summer and take care. I will see ya all when I can.
I would have changed my mood on here but again it won't let me.

]]> *BekkaLynn I'm so excited http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/18995010/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/18995010/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 04:46:15 PDT I went and got my tripod so now I will not have to hand hold all the time. I bought a Manfrotto 190XPROB and a 486RC2 compact Ball Head W/RC2. This will come in very handy today to do some family portraits.
I hope you all have a good Monday and I hope the rest of your week is just as good.
Now on a sad note I just heard that George Carland my favorite comedian died last night I am so sad about that.

Well I tried to change the mood on this and well I guess I'll be waving a while longer I can't seem to change the mood on here must be one of those gremlins DA was talking about.

]]> *BekkaLynn So I didn't like it http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/18457667/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/18457667/ Fri, 23 May 2008 04:13:59 PDT
Have a great day everyone

]]> *BekkaLynn Just a Beautiful Day http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/18331463/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/18331463/ Thu, 15 May 2008 05:31:02 PDT Have a great day everyone

Also thanks for the 4500 page views

]]> *BekkaLynn I did it http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/17021648/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/17021648/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 08:09:29 PST I did it I went and purchased a new camera! I bought a Canon EOS 30D. I'm going to spend the rest of the weekend learning all about it and trying to get some pics if I can. So I wish everyone a great day and weekend.

Have fun

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]]> *BekkaLynn Have a great day http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16893494/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16893494/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 04:36:10 PST

Create your own visitor map!

]]> *BekkaLynn Happy Valentines Day http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16876153/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16876153/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 06:32:04 PST

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]]> *BekkaLynn Clear winter day http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16866376/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16866376/ Wed, 13 Feb 2008 15:35:56 PST

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]]> *BekkaLynn Doc Update http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16829619/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16829619/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 09:03:22 PST

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]]> *BekkaLynn Can you believe this http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16720528/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16720528/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 09:31:28 PST

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]]> *BekkaLynn Snow and Ice Day http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16645118/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16645118/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 14:32:55 PST On Monday I had a doctors appointment it didn't go as well as I had hoped I was sent from his office to the ER and spent several hours having tests I go back to the doc's on Monday to find out more the ER doc is suggesting a nuclear scan to see more and then possible surgery all because my right side has hurt since my car accident they are not sure yet what the problem is. It sure would be nice if I had insurance though this is going to be very costly. I will update when I know more.

Have great day!!!!

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]]> *BekkaLynn I'm some what back http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16398432/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/16398432/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 06:19:45 PST

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]]> *BekkaLynn Devious Journal Entry http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/15543250/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/15543250/ Sat, 17 Nov 2007 05:24:21 PST

*Marsille here.. Becky asked me to submit this for her..
She was in an accident Wednesday evening. This is what her car looks like.. She is not seriously injured.. Just badly bruised and in too much pain to sit for very long.. She will be back as soon as she can sit at the computer comfortably.. Her knees are bruised and she has pulled muscles everywhere.. You can contact me for more information.. I talk with her daily.. Lets just say she is a bit upset.. Some guy made a left turn right in front of her.. Guess he figured his hamburger was more important than safety..

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]]> *BekkaLynn A BIG Thanks to Marsille http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/14882029/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/14882029/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 08:22:09 PDT

Just a few of her works

Such a wonderful Mom
I love you

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]]> *BekkaLynn It's a Beautiful Day http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/14055234/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/14055234/ Tue, 07 Aug 2007 06:45:20 PDT
]]> *BekkaLynn Still HOT http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/13983397/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/13983397/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 08:47:06 PDT
]]> *BekkaLynn It's HOT http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/13966469/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/13966469/ Wed, 01 Aug 2007 05:47:48 PDT

]]> *BekkaLynn It's a beautiful day http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/13855628/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/13855628/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 05:49:33 PDT

]]> *BekkaLynn Devious Journal Entry http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/13855565/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/13855565/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 05:41:43 PDT
]]> *BekkaLynn I'm back http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/9744886/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/9744886/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 06:41:29 PDT *BekkaLynn Devious Journal Entry http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/8832086/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/8832086/ Sun, 21 May 2006 05:54:34 PDT That the amount of people who are interested in dA increases daily?
And the fact that so many artists have found a platform to dicuss and present their work to others?

Without a doubt it's a big, interesting and versatile community.
But isn't it amazing to always see the same artists on the frontpage every single day concerning the fact that so many new deviations have been submitted?

We're all aware of that and believe that this has to change. It is already quite difficult for the "unknown" artists to promote their work and gain more attention.

Clearly, we do not intend to deny the skills of those great artists who enrich the community by sharing their magnificent work. But we do intend to enhance the platform in such a way that "unknown" artists might get a real chance to draw the public attention to their own pieces of work by promoting it on the front page of the community.

In our opinion we think it unjust to only have the chance to be represented on the front page if one has the luck of having many watchers.

We would like a better system which allows a deviation to be seen on the front page if, for example, it has 'only' reached about 40 favourites and about 200 views.

Take a look at the actual situation: You have uploaded an impressive piece or art that gets faved according to the number of your total views/watchers. Then, however, a more popular deviant uploads a more or less 'average' deviation and automatically reaches more than the double of your favourites/views in a mere moment.

A new structure of the frontpage could enhance the actual competition on dA, i.e. popular deviants wouldn't be able to best the "unknown" artists by posting a rather average deviation.

A reasonable alternative to present the "daily top favourites" on the front page would be a bigger amount of thumbs which would show the 40 best deviations of the day in a random order.

We think it's in everyone's interest to change the current situation and make dA a place where creating and sharing unique art plays a far bigger role than scrambling for new watchers.

If you agree, help us and yourself by copying and pasting this entry into your journal. ]]> *BekkaLynn Sorry http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/8184790/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/8184790/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 04:30:55 PST
Thanks and see you soon
BekkaLynn ]]> *BekkaLynn Clean up http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/8071613/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/8071613/ Sun, 05 Mar 2006 06:32:02 PST Have a good one and see yoou soon!!! ]]> *BekkaLynn Thanks http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/7797253/ http://BekkaLynn.deviantart.com/journal/7797253/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 07:31:39 PST *BekkaLynn