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"Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die"
-Malachy McCourt

My favourite quote ever.
One of the truest Ive ever heard or read.
Booyah.
I really aught to go to bed.

]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/13994387/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/13994387/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 23:42:14 PDT
Im getting really... disappointed though. My trip to Eugene/Portland seems like itll have to wait more. School is starting soon, and I cant get time off work. I spoke to my boss today, and if I want to keep my job, I need to be around to do it. *frustrated*

Grace.. if you read this... I MISS YOU....

Quoleth... you r0x0rz. *hugs* My most constant dA friend!

*runs off*

]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/13944519/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/13944519/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 16:44:30 PDT Of course, I lost all of my music.
C'est la Vive...

Im all signed up for my college classes... and I have a job at EB Games...
I are a good Beka, even though I cannot brain. I have the Dumb.

Oh! anyway, Im taking french, theater tech, english and math. Theater and French are gonna be with Stephen, too. Yay!

Its raining... and I love it.

love you all.... I hope to see/talk to many of you soon!

]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/13586152/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/13586152/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 00:05:12 PDT
I should call work and tell them I quit.

I should try harder to think things arent my fault.

I should.

I havent.

Im happy anyway. Im figuring things out, yes. I am confused, and a bit lost, yes. Ill find a way to be happy anyway... life is too short to go about things with a raincloud over your head.

Id just like to pimp my lady [link] who is one of my best friends in the world... and like a sister to me. She is a very talented writer, and we have this great knack for playing off each others inspiration... she wrote [link] as a reply/collab to my [link] and its definitely worth taking a look at! She also did my ID... so goooo! See the amazing lady!

Also check out [link] this lady has some serious talent in her hands, I never get to talk to her as much as Id like.
She is (on top of drawing) an amazing musician, [link] (if this will show up as a link... grr)

To all you other amazing artists who I am lucky enough to call my friends.... look to be showered with compliments, as I drive others to your amazing works! :bwaha: ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/13294723/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/13294723/ Sun, 10 Jun 2007 19:24:28 PDT
My current projects:

1) More tattoo designs, and a possible apprenticeship at Shades of Grey.. (more pics coming soon..)
-----> Not all will actually be on my skin!
----------->Luke will be getting a tattoo I designed shortly and I intend on asking the ----amazing Radshay to let me post a pic of the tattoo I designed for her (currently on her ----belly.. the sexy lady!)

2) More photography! Pictures from a Dom show/club lights at OPM (great club downtown)

3) Embroidering silk flowers onto a scarf of Japanese silk (this one is going to take a looooong time)

All of this to come.. that is if anybody really looks here anymore *will be more active on dA.. damnit!*

]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/13255957/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/13255957/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 18:03:45 PDT
Gods it feels good to be worth a damn as an artist again.. I undermined all of my previous snobbery.. and got a digital camera. Six mega-pixel.. 715 picture capacity, and all kinds of groovy little bits for me to play with.
Its really hard to get used to that pause before the pic actually takes, but hey. Ill figure it out.

Apart from that... well. Life is-itchy right now. Ill get things figured out. I always do.

*runs off to FINALLY upload things again!*

]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/10558588/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/10558588/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 11:24:41 PST
its been interesting lately, i feel like i aught to get back into contact with certain people who ive lost touch with... but at the same time its really hard to get them back because by this time we both have gone such different ways, that we have to consiously make time for eachother.

ive got alot that i do in life, yet stuff is still in such a transitionary stage (im in my senior year, with a class list that leaves me with 4 out of 5 classes that just waste time.) that i feel like im never doing anything, at least nothing worthwhile. i need to get back into a darkroom. i need to get my artistic juices flowing again... because im drowning in the monotony right now. its sickening.

im happy, content, things are going fine... yet for 4 hours every day, it ruins any kind of good mood that i have, because i just sit. and do nothing. its driving me mad. honestly.

there is so much im waiting for... but so little to keep my now really interesting. mostly things are just to pass the time till we can get the apartment, just pass the time till grace is here, just pass the time till i graduate, turn 18, and we can go out and do something.

its the calm before the storm, everything that can be done has been done... and yet the quiet is so damn annoying!! i think right now id give anything for a little action: something new to happen!! ack. just... ack.

only a few more weeks... a month and a half... thats all i have to get through till i can try to change my classes around so that my time will not just go by, wasted. ill figure this shit out. then its just a few months, twelve weeks, and ill get the hell out of new mexios public school system forever! i want to go home. i want to do something... anything but just sit here.

ack. im done ranting.

]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/10110469/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/10110469/ Mon, 18 Sep 2006 10:53:03 PDT ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/10044822/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/10044822/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 21:34:15 PDT ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/9895048/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/9895048/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 10:50:10 PDT
i got to hang out with muzy for the first time in ages... i am so damn glad that we will be able to get back to being friends. i think ill just not bother with anything with a penis just to make sure that we can stick together and my head doesnt travel back up my rectum.

anywho, everything seems to be looking up. this next year is going to be interesting, and its definatly looking up. ill be getting an apartment after graduation... and i honestly think things will be good. besides, i think ill get a kittie

anyway, im getting on almost every night here now, so ill *obviously* be alot more active. yay! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/9684469/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/9684469/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 22:31:22 PDT please forgive, and if you see this before i have a chance to message you, gimme a note?
i missed you all. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7628793/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7628793/ Tue, 17 Jan 2006 10:30:50 PST ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7326805/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7326805/ Fri, 16 Dec 2005 10:27:13 PST
time for a little pimping..... this is my beloved . she is AMAZINGLY talented but not well known... so go see her and marvel in the glory that is she!!

my sisters in town, so my moms all stressed out. gah. fah. bah. feh.

i dont really know what to do with this sence of freedom... wooooooo crazy time.

as the you may feel this title is misleading as there has been no mention of sexual activity in this entry... i shall sate te most lovely sence of prepubesant horndog in us all: silk rope handcuffs, ice, and hot wax. NOW MASTURBATE PROFUSLY!!
heh... as you can most likely tell, im a tad off my rocker, i swear once ive had a nice long rest i shall be quite myself again . . . . well hopefully.

ta my loves!!


MORE PIMPAGE!!!
see more amazing artists next entry!!
thankyou and goodnight! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7246245/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7246245/ Wed, 07 Dec 2005 11:05:59 PST so, anywho, scott and kathi and i are going down to day with an almost mint condition GOCART to donate. bwaha. stupid stoners my ass. take that bill may and chuck whateverface... you pathetic little gutter whores!!
bwaha.

in other news... finals are officially gonna kill me... for lit we've got to identify the title, author and significance of 50 QUOTATIONS!!!!! no list... no mulitple choice.. no nothing helpful! *dies* but thats ok... im just going to die. think good thoughts for me loves!!

wow it felt good to rant just now.

now... for the questions of the year (seen as how there is so little left)
if money doesnt grow on trees- now come banks have branches?
if you choke a smurf- what color does it turn?
when snow melts- where does the white go?
if you can have a popsicle- why cant you have a momsicle?

i loves you all! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7192798/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7192798/ Thu, 01 Dec 2005 08:43:27 PST anywhoo not-a lot-a is happening, made tamales in culinary arts, had my 8 month thingy with scott yesterday. of course i didnt remember till 3rd period, but i dont think anybody needs to tell him that.
i need to find a damn scanner!! ill prolly give a bunch of my prints to my lovely and ask her to scan them for me so as to upload. ill prolly have to come to school to do it too... my house is still on dial-up which is the most annoying connection OF ALL TIME!!
tralalalalalalalalala
im hyper.
like a moose.
yeah.
bye then.

ill leave on this one little thought: if money doesnt grow on trees, how come banks have branches?? (local radio station trippy thought)

good times.
yeah.
moose. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7067449/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7067449/ Wed, 16 Nov 2005 20:13:31 PST
i loves you all.

as for the moose orgasm... its kinda sick that you actually looked... dont you think the poor little moose should be able to fornicate in private?

]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7062092/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7062092/ Wed, 16 Nov 2005 09:17:01 PST
1. gentle kisses
2. photography
3. good company
4. books
5. handcuffs and hot wax
6. warm blankets wrapped around me and my lover
7. cuddles
8. the mountains
9. observing people
10. taking long showers

3 things that make you happy:

1. dancing
2. playing with my buddies
3. balloons

3 Things that anger you:

1. Being lied to
2. ignorant asshats
3. homophobes

10 Things that you hate:

1. liars
2. peas
3. indecision
4. getting depressed for no reason
5. being cold
6. Memorial Hospital (long story)
7. reporters
8. not knowing what to say
9. uncomfortable clothes
10. people who expect way too much

3 facts about your name:

1. im named for my father (rebecca -> robert)
2. nobody ever calls me rebecca
3. there is a terrible book called rebecca

5 facts about yourself:

1. i am very much in love
2. im afraid of being alone in the dark
3. i twitch when i have a nightmare (scott told me)
4. im very protective of those i love
5. i have a freckle on my right boob

4 random thoughts:

1. my nose is runny
2. travis is the best brother i could ever hope for
3. porn is good
4. i want my scott

Song you're listening to (give singer): nothing, but i have Rambling Rover running through my head

Time?: 10:12 am

now for a real journal. my friend kathi is being sent away to memorial hospital. i dont want her to leave, she is so dear to me! im getting really burnt out at school... serious senioritis... only im still a junior. fuck.
things will be fine though. kathi will always come back and i get to see scott and i have friends like muzy and travis and all you loverly loves who happen to be reading this. i owe you all a debt i can never repay!! all around!! muah! i am gonna go, its school right now and i aughta do something productive. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7042894/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/7042894/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 07:28:30 PST ill also be uploading the pics ive taken since i last posted here, so... alot.
i loves you all! message me for requests, i need more ideas.
oh, and the asshats in the world are annoying... but remember they dont quack like a good chicken!! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/6997595/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/6997595/ Wed, 09 Nov 2005 07:34:53 PST
tralalalalalala

mmm... im making ginger snaps next period (culinary arts..) bwahahaha!

i have a strong urge to write some complete nonsence, so, here, for your reading enjoyment, babble!

cereal boy, toy surprise. milk spilling into a bowl of white oleanders and boughinvilla flowers dripping color and staining the tablecloth. vase of flowers with marbles and koolaide. sugary syrupy mess being guzzled by students making sugary treats. they cut your mouth and sting like powdered sugar doughnuts. i cant spell. cries of "moose! no! it hurt so good!" from computers in agony over viruses installed by compy geek boys. undulating meditating tantric orgasm.

ok, now that thats over, im gonna go back to the land of the sane (i.e. school) and work my ass off... thank god theres no school tomorrow. bye everybodys! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/6984493/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/6984493/ Mon, 07 Nov 2005 19:12:28 PST sorry ive been so inactive (this is if any of you remember me anymore *sorry*)
ive missed you alls sooo much
so many things have been happening, im gonna try my best to get into contact with all of everybodys again!
heres a solomn vow to do my damndest to be active again!!
*lovelove* ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/6445462/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/6445462/ Wed, 07 Sep 2005 20:43:53 PDT ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/6016935/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/6016935/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 22:19:53 PDT there is a JDRF *juvinile diabetes recerch foundation* walk for diabetes (in new mexico) and most likely soon in your area (unless you live out of the u.s.) its a really great cause, and im gonna be doing it here!
if your interested, go to [link] for info! (if your in newmexico, just go to [link] well, anywhere in the US and just /yourplace should work...) and if you do, please comment or something, so i can feel like my efforts are not totally wasted...
i love you all!!!
]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5872479/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5872479/ Thu, 07 Jul 2005 23:16:11 PDT zee trip was good, but id like to impress on all of yous *my beloved buddies* that over 20 hours in a car with 5 people in it is NOT pleasent... ill write more later, i have to run. also, myspace is odd. love yous!! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5773360/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5773360/ Mon, 27 Jun 2005 15:56:33 PDT
ima gonna be gone for a week starting thursday the 30th... im going to chicago for a week. for my cousins wedding. yep yep... so if you need me send me a message and ill get online (if i can) and message you back.
its funny, scott is out in dallas for his moms (biological ones) handfasting (wiccan wedding ceremony) and the day he gets back is the day after i leave, i leave on our anniversary tawney is convinced that its a sign or something. (although he did catch the garter at his mommas wedding) hmm...
anyways... i heart y'all biiiiig and go see because she is awesome, but just started a new account here so she needs pageviews. (muzy, i know im advertising for you with out like, permission, but your just too awesome! i heart you biiiiig)
well, im neglecting my pally, ciao! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5706513/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5706513/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 17:10:41 PDT yeah... sorry! it wasnt nice the way he said it though!! (god i feel dumb. i hate being stupid) ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5687823/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5687823/ Sat, 18 Jun 2005 17:38:13 PDT i dont think i handle rejection well. but that shit just hurts, its like, yes, we are going to make you very happy and slightly independant, then SMACK go die now. meh... i need a hug.

anyway, so good news time, ok? my dear bestest buddy is coming over on monday, which will be great fun because she kicks all ass, and is the spiffyest artist in new mexico and yay.

im at my dads writing this... bleh. double bleh with extra bleh. i want to go home and sleep, some asshole called my house at 2:30 last night... woke me up. then my sisters damn alarm went off like 5 different times... uhg. today is NOT a good day. no job, no sleep, no improv because i couldnt get ahold of chase... poo.
sorry... im being angsty and sad and annoying... somebody please tell me to shut up now. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5583082/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5583082/ Tue, 07 Jun 2005 19:21:59 PDT love and kisses to allllll!

sorry, im forcing myself to be optimistic, there are a bunch of clutch pig asshats who are kinda getting on my nerves, and my grades are leaving enough to be desired that i kinda hate myself right now... and im worried about my good buddy and i miss my best buddy who kicks all ass but yeah, stuff will get gooood! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5124237/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5124237/ Mon, 18 Apr 2005 19:23:40 PDT ive searched all over the internet for this information but all im getting is support groups for people diagnosed with it, and those dont give me the info i need.
im begging, please help me, anyone with knowlage, or even a site i can go to to learn more!
thankyou from the bottem of my heart,
beka ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5044518/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/5044518/ Sat, 09 Apr 2005 16:40:58 PDT ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4831522/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4831522/ Wed, 16 Mar 2005 18:53:04 PST
1. what do you *honestly* (be brutal if you wish) think of me?
2. what is your favourite memory?
3. true or false: alls fair in love and war ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4752417/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4752417/ Mon, 07 Mar 2005 14:53:43 PST (if you can figure out what i mean you get a biscuit. its easy, just think dirty)

now, excuse me while i dance around my house wearing only a sports bra and spiderman boxers.

god its good to be single!

p.s. mewzy, you are muchly awesome, ah lurve you

p.p.s. all of my watchers are awesome... *cuddles you all* muchly loving love ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4656120/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4656120/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 17:40:43 PST im so effing nervous!! some one act plays written by students are preforming at my school on march 10th and 11th... and improv is going on stage inbetween them and whatnot. i know that when i get up there with the troupe it will be fine, and we will most likely do wonderfully, and we will have great fun, but im wigging out here! major wiggage... not to mention the fact that these asshole city workers are knocking down a bridge by my house day AND NIGHT. so im getting absolutly no sleep, which of course makes my nerves twich like a goolage.

anyway, enough complaining. life is going wellish. and soon i will strip naked and soak luxuriously in a bathtub full of bubbles and very hot water.. ahhh the bubbly goodness!

mewzys birthday was great fun, there was extensive playage of mario party 6... which i suck at by the way. happy sweet sixteen my buddy, your effing awesome. and, at this point, only two years away from being legal.

putz is a great damn word. i should use it much much much more.

by the way film noir sucks my ass. sad endings are no fun. while i know it rarely happens, i like it when the badguy gets his ass kicked, and the guy and girl get eachother in the end. it allows me to be in denial for a good twenty minutes, and its a refreshing break from my goofy type of cynesysm.

yeah, so there is nothing else to say, well, there probably is but i dont really feel like saying anything else, so remember, duct tape is like the force, it has a dard side and a light side and it holds the universe together! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4581365/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4581365/ Mon, 14 Feb 2005 15:28:01 PST
oh! i made a really sexy shirt.. its sort of corset-y. made of satin...

nother reminder MEWZY BIRTHDAY IN THREE DAYS!! woot!

happy vday ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4549079/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4549079/ Thu, 10 Feb 2005 18:56:01 PST its cheap and its like if your not in love in the middle of february there is something wrong with you. and flowers and candy dont even last, cant you just buy your sweetheart a little pewter pendant? hell.. its cheaper, and its classy, and they will remember you. bah. im just mean.

first thing second, its mewzys birthday on the 17th, she is awesome, and i lurve her muchly!

its too bad that i can get y'all down here by sunday, we are putting on a musical at my school, and we need some more people to come.

by the way, will and grace is fxing awesome.

i adore you all, my dear watchers. please know i appreciate all of you dearly, and i want you alls to be blissfully happy. *hugs to all* ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4507049/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4507049/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 12:18:19 PST
i am very very bad lucked with doors lately! one shut on my leg, and took with it some blood and skin. it sucked... *heavy sigh*

i convinced my friend joel to join up here, he has been very inactive, but he is a damn good artist, so yeah.

*does handstand* i gots me a laptop all my own now. its name is hal, after some scary a.i. comp in some movie that goes crazy and tries to kill everyone. (the name was NOT my idea, it was my stepdads) its an old compy, but a really good one. muchly happy happening, no?

yeah, nothing worth saying left to say. read books, dont do drugs execively, be relatively good boys and girls.

oh! by the by, has about 125 pageviews left till he gets 1000, he is an awesome artist, majorly kick ass. go see him, hes got some great stuff. bwaha! the radioactive rubber pants command you!! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4443542/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4443542/ Sat, 29 Jan 2005 08:16:06 PST
i keep having dreams where im looking at pics of me with my hair all spikey and some of my pallys here, so im going to do up my hair all spikey, get my pallys and post a pic. haha... ok, im odd.

anyway... the competency exam for highschool is soo incredibly STUPID its questions are STUPID its writers are STUPID its intelligence is STUPID it makes everyone taking it feel STUPID it is soo very STUPID. ok... im better now. heh. its just all the degenerate little ashpoles who wrote that idiotic test need to have their eyeballs ripped out with a rusty spoon.

im going now. lurve. bye ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4270434/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4270434/ Sat, 08 Jan 2005 14:44:38 PST im revolted by the media.
i am going to bed. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4203858/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4203858/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 15:45:40 PST
possibly expect some prose coming soon.

p.s. happy new years. hope y'all with and without sweeties have a totally badass time. *hugs and kisses to y'all* ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4187010/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4187010/ Wed, 29 Dec 2004 16:56:30 PST are YOU finger lickin good?

yeah, so, new years eve is up and coming. hope all you who have a sweetheart will be all togethery and whatnot. i plan on eating some chocolate, and locking myself in my bathroom and having a nice bubblebath. ha!

well, some people here are totally kick ass... and i feel the need to (since its the holiday season) pimp out there great galleries. take a looksee, damnit!!

if your not on this list, it doesnt mean i love you any less, or i dont think you are the awesomeness, it just means im being braindead and stupid right now
lots of lurve and goodliness to y'all ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4105578/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4105578/ Sun, 19 Dec 2004 19:27:30 PST
well, i think i did this once in the past, but im doing it again anyway because i feel like it.

ask me any three questions (i have to answer). then put something to this effect in your journal and have others ask you any three questions. good way to get to know others, no?... or or have them get to know you. yeah. heh. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4061284/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4061284/ Mon, 13 Dec 2004 20:12:14 PST
and IM GOIN TO RIVER OF LIGHTS WITH MEWZY.. we went last year, amazing good time, i must say! and not to mention the fact that mewzy is like, the awesomest bestest buddy ever.

this guys writing is amazing... go check him out. seriously.

meef... reaper sent me a song his band did... its taking forever to load!! betcha its awesome... IMPATIENCE STRIKES AGAIN!

yeah... i gots to go now, love loves! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4019739/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/4019739/ Sat, 11 Dec 2004 17:38:54 PST special thanks to everybody who just put me on watch, and the favs i got on opium eyes, tehe. i feel loved.
anywho, my goddamn ex boyfriend kissed me yesterday... i think im going to vomit. then some nosey little girl decided to go and tell all his friends. gawd...
anyway... the GIANT RADIOACTIVE RUBBER PANTS tell me to go now... so here are some awesome people before i do:

and if your not on this list... or your icon isnt coming up, i still love you to bits, so dont be mad at me!!

oh, and also, if any of yall out there are crazy like me and like bugging the shit out of faculty, a great little trick is to get 6 or 7 people to all fake orgasms when the teacher is out. tehe... im a bad girl ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3951242/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3951242/ Mon, 29 Nov 2004 19:52:23 PST


10 Bands you've been listening a lot to lately:
1. rasuptina
2. Metallica
3. drowning pool
4. voltaire
5. stabbing westward, dont ask me why
6. the cranberries... wow im weird
7. sonatra
8. rammstein


9 Things you look forward to:
1. The end of first semester
2. Christmas
3. sleep
4. playing in meh darkroom
5. seeing meh granny
6. river of lights with mewzy
8. The Extended Edition of Return of the King


8 Things you like to wear:
1. my large green guy shirt
2. green converse
3. gir shirt
4. tight black tank tops
5. superman undies
6. crazy socks
7. my cheapo watch
8. the scarf my momma made for me

7 Things that anger you:
1. hypocrits
2. racists/bigots
3. being ignored
4. my goddamn french teacher
5. abusers
6. men who exist to hurt women



6 Things you say most days:
1. fuck off
2. holy shit
3. butt smear
4. damnit!
5. okie
6. you suck

5 Things you do everyday:
1. brush my teeth
2. take a real hot shower
3. brush my hair
4. think about books
5. eat

4 People you want to spend more time with:
1. MEWZY
2. travis... id be happy if we were just speaking again
3. joe

3 Movies you could watch over and over again:
1. lotr
2. dark city
3. tank girl

2 Of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. doomsday averted- rasputina

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. no say... someone who loves me

NUMBER OF:
- height:5'5
- shoe size: 5 and a half
- hair color: brown
- siblings: a sister and step brother

LAST:
- movie you rented: down with love
- movie you bought: no clue
- song you listened to: that first song on the newest drowning pool cdd
- person you've called: mewzy
- person that's called you: ria
- show you've watched:er....
- person you were thinking of: travis and mewzy

DO:
- you have a crush on someone: duh... but i aint tellin
- you wish you could live somewhere else: california or arizona
- you believe in online dating: meh
- others find you attractive: how the hell should i know
- you want more piercings: mebe yes... mebe no
- you like cleaning: only when furious
-you write in cursive or print: print... me and cursive dont mix

FAVORITE:
- food: chinese
- thing to do: photograph/be held
- thing to talk about: anything
- drinks: sprite mixed with apple juice
- clothes: tight top, loose bottoms
- movies: dark city
- holiday: all of em

HAVE YOU:
- ever cried over a girl: not really
- ever cried over a boy: far too many times
- ever been in a fist fight: duh.. im very confrontational
- ever been arrested: not quite yet


WHAT
- shampoo do you use: dove mositurizing stuff
- shoes do you wear:converse
- are you scared of: needles
- number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: dunno, couple
- number of people I consider my enemies: couple

FAVORITE:
- disney movie: no say
- word: fuck/ass/marzipan
- nickname: beka, bear, french girl, foxy
- eye color: green/gold
- flower: daisys

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
- pretty: no
- funny: only when i fall down
- hot: meh
- friendly: when im in the mood
- amusing: when i fall down
- ugly: yep, basically
- loveable: how should i know?.
- sweet: some say i am
- dorky: and proud of it!!

DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] blue with velcro
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily – claugddah ring and silver band that belonged to my mom, pendants my mother gave me and my kitty collar
[ x ] Pillow cover – my old baby blankie
[ x ] Underwear - undies of various colors, tight boxers when i wear a skirt
[ x ] Favorite shirt – my gir shirt!!
[ x ] Perfume/cologne - dont wear any... amy says i smell like sweet peas
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - disturbed-believe
[ x ] What you are wearing now – tanktop, loose exercise pants, green man shirt
[ x ] In my mouth – teeth, my tongue
[ x ] In my head – current troubles, exitement about seeing river of lights with mewzy
[ x ] Wishing – a real loving relationship, actually
[ x ] After thi... ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3827190/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3827190/ Sat, 13 Nov 2004 17:15:19 PST ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3823518/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3823518/ Sat, 13 Nov 2004 07:41:12 PST
once again, a few special thankyous are going out (if your not on this list dont take it personal... i still love you!) your the bestest friend ive ever had, and your art kicks all ass! your wit and our little chats have kept me (relatively) sane in the recent unpleasentries... your great your gonna be a really great comic book penciler one day... i can feel it in my bones!
also love to everyone i didnt mention... you guys are the best there is ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3777422/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3777422/ Sun, 07 Nov 2004 14:49:06 PST im not letting my dad or stepmom get to me anymore. when they start on me im doing my best to either make fun of them in my head, or block them out. its been working quite well so far.
travis is still not talking to me, and whenever i see him i still want to cry. but, a really good new development: i dont need him. not the way i thought i did. before he was comfort... now just a friend. i feel all weak and stupid that i ever depended on anyone but myself so much. i mean, i understand depending on a lover or something, but we were just friends. im not gonna get so attatched again. not after the way he dumped me on my ass. wow, i feel like such an idiot! yep.. .gonna go walk into a wall or something now.
thats it.. i think. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3746826/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3746826/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 18:56:04 PST
im slacking off a hellavalot in school... bad little me.

yeah... i need a break. stuff is starting to wear on me... you know? well... put on a happy face.... tra la la...

might start kickboxing again. yep. winklejohns here i come... at least then ill be able to work out some of this aggresssion, eh? just go beat the living shit out of something, aahh... sounds nice. better then going and getting stoned off my ass, isnt it?

special and major thanks to she is awesome, the best friend ive ever had, and let me steal her comp and scanner long enough to load my pics. yep! also, she is an amazing artist... so get off your asses and go take a looksee!

mmkay... well. thats it i think... yeah. wow... i need to go do something ANYTHING ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3630610/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3630610/ Tue, 19 Oct 2004 21:15:43 PDT and i went to all this trouble... and hell im curious, so answer me soooon!!

01. Who are you?
02. Are we friends?:
2B. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE WE LIKE, DONE IT?
03. When and how did we meet?:
04. Do you (or did you ever) have a crush on me?:
05. Would you kiss me?:
5B. IF YOU THINK YOU HURT MY FEELINGS IN THE LAST QUESTION, NOW IS YOUR TIME TO MAKE IT UP:
06. Describe me in one word:
07. What was your first impression?:
08. Do you still think that way about me now?:
09. What reminds you of me?:
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
11. How well do you know me?:
11B. DO YOU WANT TO SEE ME NAKED!
12. When's the last time you saw me?:
12B. WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW ME....NAKED!
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
14. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?: ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3613955/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3613955/ Sun, 17 Oct 2004 19:42:21 PDT
yep yep... ive been really inactive lately... so i return for a bitty little bit. lets hope i get out of my little lethargy enough to pass all my classes and get here to converse with y'all more. yep yep.

i introduced two of my friends. rachel and cali. now they hook up and ignore the fact i exist... i do hope its not on purpose. i guess all im good for is a fucking dating service. fuck everything.

i cant get access to a scanner. i have a shit load of great pics and i cant get any access to a scanner. not even a bit. BAH.

yeah well. failing french. my mom is being really fucked up. yep, stuff sucks a bit. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3563421/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3563421/ Mon, 11 Oct 2004 08:30:03 PDT
but i got invader zim season 1 from an aunt... so things are good. but bad... engh... im confused.

BOW TO ZIM!! henh.. fun stuff dudes.. and dudettes, whatever.

i dont care what any of you say... gir is the cutest thing ive ever seen, read about, or heard of. bwaha! take that hamtaro!

yeah.. so im like all crazy right now, beg your pardon. negh.. fuck that, pardon is overrated. and its a stupid word. and they say it alot in my french class. its all "pardon moi, madame"
im like, expected to be "a polite little lady" in that class... engh.. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3497480/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3497480/ Sat, 02 Oct 2004 18:39:46 PDT
ive got about 4 b&ws coming, as soon as i can get access to a scanner. i also have a bit of prose coming... as soon as i stop being lazy and get my ass into gear for long enough to post it.

yeah, if i snap at any of you, im sorry. im like being all moody and lazy right now for reasons im not gonna go and post online.

w00t! hangin out with mewzy tomorrow. i loves you...
everybody, seriously, check out her gallery, total awesomness. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3425271/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3425271/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 21:40:04 PDT
well, ive decided that who ever gets my 1000th pageview will get a special deviation from me! it can be anything, a photograph, a poem.. just whenever s/he gets it, all s/he has to do is message me, telling me that they were my 1000th (or somewhere very close to that) pageview and what they want! by doing this i guess im hoping ill get to 1000 quicker.. hehe.

and well, if you want me to do something special for you, message me anyway with requests, and ill do my very very best to fufill them!

ok then.... ta! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3415415/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3415415/ Tue, 21 Sep 2004 16:15:45 PDT ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3388092/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3388092/ Fri, 17 Sep 2004 21:43:46 PDT
im so sick of sociaty. its all so hypocritical... like we live in some goddamn contradiction that totally fills up our lives, and as rockgenie so blantantly pointed out, we percieve time only as a record of our own decay. im sick of it! today i saw a "new age" hippy type woman wailing all about peace, and love and never getting into any kind of argument. not ten minutes later, i saw her screaming at some guy who had apparently cut her off. riight... thats not contradicting yourself at all. gah! screw it all.

im stuck in a rut. i have been trying to write and photograph all day, and i just havnt felt inspired yet. its really frustrating. i cant get myself to stop thinking, concequently i get less sleep, which in turn is making me irritable. all i really need right now is for someone to hold me, kiss my forehead, and tell me everything is going to be ok. bah. im such a girly girl lately, this shit isnt me. im the tomboy girl who is all lound and obnoxious. screw it all... im gonna go play with my lighter or something. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3376557/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3376557/ Thu, 16 Sep 2004 11:14:11 PDT ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3358017/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3358017/ Mon, 13 Sep 2004 19:59:36 PDT
this week about 6 of the sophomore english classes have to do this "knights and ladies" deal where we wear a paper sheild.. and the girls wear little garland things in our hair. hehe... i like my garland, but i havnt been a lady my whole life, and i have to prove my ladynesstocity 3 big times to get a grade. its hilarious though.. the "ladies" can demand an "act of adoration" where a "knight" has to publicly spout poetry to them or something. teehee.

speaking of my english class... a new guy transfered in. a guy who i just happened to know all though elementry school. who i ment when i was like, 5. i havnt seen him since the 5th grade... its crazy! he sits right across from me.. its a bit awkward. im not sure if im supposed to talk to him.. or what to say, or anything. heh.

club fair is this week. w00t! there is this big tradition thing at school where all the clubs get to gether and like, have fundraisers and advertise and stuff. one club always holds like, wedding ceramonys. funny stuff. i think im getting "married" this time around

oh, by the way, homecoming is on saturday. i dont know why this is important... hehe

thats it for now ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3334501/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3334501/ Fri, 10 Sep 2004 18:51:14 PDT
i miss mewzy a hellavalot. i never see her anymore. *cries* (feel better mewzy! it sucks muchly that your sick)

im at my dads this weekend so i cant gaurentee that im gonna be on alot, but ill try to. my dad has some "surprise" that he wants me to get exited about. well, i guess ill see. who knows? it might just be really really good. im deciding to be optimistic about the whole thing. (i know, not usually my thing... but im all happy because of a certain guy in my french class)

ok, well, back to my soap opera of a life.... well, nick isnt doing my friend, but they are going to homecoming and julie (my friend) is all paranoid that im interested in nick because he was comforting me when my dad had been an ass. gah, girls can be so friggen stupid.... alex (mewzy, not the alex you know, this one is really freakin tall, and blonde. the natural kind though, not the nasty pumpkin guts deal our alex does) is being all like, anti-caffine, its funny..... emily and charlie are trying out for improv with me... i really really hope we all get in, that would r0x0rz m3h b0x0rz!!! lexie and dayven are as frisky as ever, its so cute. ok, well thats about it for now. not like anyone cares or anything... ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3311833/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3311833/ Wed, 08 Sep 2004 20:04:54 PDT
heh... sorry, i havnt slept in about 4 days, and im really suger hyper right now.. bear with me and the random emergance of NINJAS!!

well, im living (once-a-feakin-gain) in a soap opera. tanner is an angsty asshole... joe is trying to control my life again... travis and maron are still at odds, and even if they get back together im never talking to that fuck maron agian... nick may or may not be doing some er, fornicating with my good friend... and i fell down and gots an owie
NINJAS!!

anywho... i gots a little bity haircut, just got everything evened out with my bangs (basically earlobe level) and dont worry, ive still got mah blue! and... NINJAS!!

CAPPOT DRACONUS!! bwaha... watching harry potty, the first one.

well, thats it for now.. NINJAS!!

oh, and for wondeful gallerys: check out and alexandre.. your awesome dude. im glad to have met you. ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3303314/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3303314/ Mon, 06 Sep 2004 19:25:49 PDT
[ Name ]: Rebecca
[ Nicks ]: Beka, Kitten, French Girl, Noodle Bug
[ Born in ]: Santa Fe
[ Resides in ]: my house
[ Good student? ]: i try to be... and am in lots of stuff... exept math
[ Eyes ]: green/gold
[ Hair ]: dark brown with blue for the moment
[ Shoe size ]: USA 6

Last time you..

[ Had a nightmare ]: i dont get nightmares, just freakie dreams
[ Said "I love you" and meant it ]: to family, 10 min ago, to a guy... well, its been a really long time
[ Ate at McDonald's ]: yuck! i dont do that.. greasy..
[ Dyed your hair ]: lol, yesterday
[ Brushed your hair ]: dunno... yesterdayish.. its short enough that i dont really need to
[ Washed your hair ]: bout an hour ago
[ Cried ]: meh... few weeks ago
[ Called someone ]: er... dont remember, i talk to everyone online
[Smiled]: one nanosecond ago
[ Laughed ]: all the time
[ Talked to an ex ]: er, right now
[ Smoke? ]: yucky, definatly not!
[ Do drugs? ]: no
[ Have sex? ]: wow, personal.. i think ill just leave that up you your imaginations...
[ Sleep with stuffed animals? ]: 5th grade
[ Have a dream that keeps coming back?]: sometiems
[ Play an instrument? ]: meh... i try
[ Believe there is life on other planets? ]: always!
[ Remember your first love? ]: havnt had true love yet
[ Still love him/her? ]: kind of hard to, seen as how i havnt had one
[ Read the newspaper? ]: only the funnies
[ Have any straight friends? ]: yep yep
[ Consider love a mistake? ]: never
[ Like the taste of alcohol? ]: not usually
[ Believe in God? ]: i havnt made up my mind yet
[ Pray? ]: nope
[ Go to church? ]: nope
[ Have any secrets? ]: plenty, its not like im gonna go broadcasting them though
[ Have any pets ]: 2 adorable doggies and a rock named bob
[ Have any piercings? ]: two in each ear
[ Have any tattoos? ]: not yet.. but its likely gonna happen
[ Have an obsession? ]: hehe... guys. im boy-crazy
[ Have a secret crush? ]: yeah... y'all can just think on that boys!
[ Collect anything? ]: nope
[ Have a best friend? ]: yeah, she is really great!!
[ Have a boy/girlfriend? ]: nope, im single as they come
[ Like your handwriting? ]: eep.. its messy
[ Have any bad habits? ]: i bite my nails
[ Care about looks? ]: only a little
[ Boy/girlfriend's looks?]: not really, so long as they are really great personalities... being sexy as hell helps though
[ Friends and other people? ]: not really
[ Believe in witches? ]: well, i believe in wicca, my friend travis was raised wiccan. his mom is really awesome
[ Believe in Satan? ]: goat man with a pitchfork? not really
[ Believe in ghosts? ]: guess so

Current:

[ Dress ]: tight black shirt, loose pants, and green converse
[ Mood ]: lucid
[ Make-up ]: eyeliner
[ Music ]: sisters of mercy
[ Taste ]: Mountain Dew
[ Hair ]: messy with blue tips
[ Annoyance ]: my puppy.. shes a crazy lil thing
[ Smell ]: i smell like orenges ^^
[ Thought ]: im hungry
[ Book ]: none
[ Fingernail Color ]: natural
[ Refreshment ]: Mountian Dew
[ Worry ]: my friends
[ Favorite Celebrity ]: dont really have one.. liv tyler i guess... she is really beautiful.

ok, all done!! ]]> ~Belatrix http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3295650/ http://Belatrix.deviantart.com/journal/3295650/ Sun, 05 Sep 2004 20:22:33 PDT ~Belatrix