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deviantART: by:Birgu http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Birgu&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Birgu en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 10:34:07 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Alice in Personae http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/28630224/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/28630224/ Sat, 28 Nov 2009 12:52:27 PST
Im currently waiting for Stevie to email me with some important essay questions. She said she'd remember to..but then again shes so far forgotten 8/8 times, even with reminders..so sigh..uni is screwed = /

but yeah, our family is kinda depressive right now. Dad is tired, Mum is tired, Jess failed her driving test and is apparently "a extreme hazard", and i'm a mix. tired, bored, wanting some love. Chris is just being so nice and supportive to me about everything, and Carrie too (i know ur reading this carrie XD). They are just so awesome right now. We're going bowling some time soon, but apparently some of the girls are a little creeped out by the guy who's taking us. I can see where they're thinking but geeezzzz. technically you've already done stuff like this many times in life = /. i wants betta reasons

Im just about to update my deviantart with my 2nd uni story, so i hope you enjoy it

Also stuff from my last journal still stands. if you can answer my DS q then pls do. Im a lil annoyed no-one has..

really wish i could post this on facebook: [link]

to fully understand, you'd need to know the song, persona, japanese, and appreciate the art and outfits which are all used in the proper game, yuki's princess outfit, naoto's scientist, kanji + co crossdressing (pause at "lazy" and "crazy" in the 2nd half).

..though you prob just need to appreciate it's creation. thats all. nothing else is necessary. not even persona = p. Oh..bring an air guitar too XD

oh and this too: [link] .DO NOT ASK ME ABOUT THE FIRST 25 SECONDS!! be warned though. dont watch this while drunk or with an unstable mind, or you will..probably explode

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]]> ~Birgu Q about the DS http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/28511875/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/28511875/ Sun, 22 Nov 2009 15:12:33 PST My next uni work will come in tomorrow.

ACK! VALKYRIA ROTA IS GONNA HAVE EVEN MORE VIEWS THAN MY PROFILE XO

A lot of stuff today has been going wrong for me, but im still happy happy. dad's fixed my ipod and wednesday i am going on a different excursion to charing cross, rather than manga and anime. instead, bento boxes and melon bread = 3. Maybe i should just buy everyone melon bread for christmas. Then we'd all be happy <3.

Ahem, but back to SERIOUS ISSUE...yeah.i wasnt taking that too seriously either

ok, my q is based on this, Atlus's ds game "Devil Survivor" [link]

After celeste religiously converted me to atlusianity, i went today on the hunt of why atlus hates the uk so much that we've missed so many games. persona remake, raidou 13th series..etc.

this is playasia version, i.e japan-korea-asia etc.

But look at the specifics

American
NO REGION PROTECTION

so the q is "is this game safe to play on a uk/european ds?"

I think it is, but i know theres a few ds wizards in my watcher s, just to check that i can buy it or not = D

oh what I would give for a persona star arcana keychain for christmas too Xo. about $6-$11 american suppliers, but it'd fit me like a glove -_-. Wouldnt mind chariot either

[link]

So simple and tacky, yet with such an impression on me = /

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]]> ~Birgu There will be an update = p http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/28212985/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/28212985/ Sun, 08 Nov 2009 08:03:25 PST
On another note...

None of my friends are talking to me except for chris so...boo hiss Xo

I have just been admitted to take part in a game creation project. My friend who's organising it says that if im not 100% comitted then i might as well die so..eep..anyways, im the scriptwriter for the storyline and translations into english

Disgaea 3 is randomely awesome

fireworks show yesterday. sounded awesome but i couldnt go cause no-one would go with me Xo. so again..boo hiss..i even bought a hi-powered l.e.d torch for it XD

And finally, buso renkin = bleach + some wierd yaoi factor that cropped in

I am NOT a miracle maker. I cant be always correct. I cannot get you and your girlfriend/boyfriend back together>

Just to make that clear from now on ^^

]]> ~Birgu return http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/27972781/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/27972781/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 06:22:52 PDT
It sucked.

by all means everyone was pretty friendly, i interacted with a few, took some pictures on my phone. the drum band scared me when it started, and the theme tune stage act was a bit wierd.

It's just a few things

1) Anton's parents got lost and so they arrived 2 hours late
2) his brother is pretty rude
3) I think..we had trouble communicating
4) his parents called him every 20 minuites -_-

he stayed there just for an hour or so. I was pretty much done by the time he arrived.

all in all we

1) had our little dissidia tourney that hes been itching for. the score now stands at 3-0 to me, technically 2-0 cause his mum called him 5 minuites after he just got there during the start of one of the matches, we both had "snooze and looze" equipped which messed up our characters while we waited (for those that dont know it, it lowers your opponents bravery if they're idle in attacking, hence we started with me at 1000 and him at 0)

round 1: Goblin punched. pretty much 1 hit k.o
round 2: messed up match, he got cocky after he hit me once so I showed him I had terra's flood = 3
round 3: bit more fairer and closer, but when i say closer i mean not close at all. Flare is now a favourite to me.

we had the tourney, watched the drum band, waited 15 minuites whie his dad went off to buy him a makeshift sword, with his brother..throwing insults at us, then went outside immediately after, with him being stopped by security for trying to take the front entrance as an exit, sat down for 5 mins, phone called by parents to come eat at a noodle bar, with his brother resuming his insult parade. Took him back in, he bundled all his stuff on me and ran off to play monster hunter 3, while I couldnt really leave him but i wanted to go to a book signing. then phone call durning that and then he left. I immediately rushed to the book signing, where yishan li had disappeared to go get a coffee, since no-one was coming to the signing. I waited patiently with the others at the stall kinda giving me updates about where she was. She did eventually come back, and although didnt want to converse, drew a beautiful picture in my book within 10 minuites, signing it with a "to andrew" (which i had to spell out I didnt enjoy the expo cause of the lack of stuff there that was interesting, rather instead that I wasnt enjoying my solo expedition, while theres tons of groups running around. But there are a few things you get to do solo which you dont do in a group. you can take your time at a stall for absolute sureness, you can wander freely. One tip. if you stay long in the october expo,bring your camera to the outside complex at around 4pm. Theres a great appreciation you can get which is almost touching to the eyes, providing the sun is there to give the dying orange afternoon glow ^^. I swear if you get something like it, its well worth it ^^

as a finale, a list of what i bought >

The entire series of NHK, from 4-8
buso renkin dvd vol 1
gatcha gacha 3-4, <3
Air gear..7-12
A fruits basket
A dn angel
A black cat
2 manga clip art books, 1 being the one yishan drew in
Noir complete anime series, which ive been wanting to watch for 4 years
hack roots 4-6 (still missing 3 -_-)
pocky, i am prepared for the winter now ^^
A home made game , its one of those crazily hard games where you're dodging a few 1000 orbs at once

mmn, i think thats it only 2 things i regret not buying. A fate stay night manga while i was at it, since FSN is kinda what im focused on right now, and a poster for the game "masamasa", which is to be released on the wii later. It's kinda the sequel game to odin sphere cept you're samurai instead of storybook characters.

All in all i spent about 120, which was only half of what i brought. I did buy a lot in quantity i guess, but..no..i dont think im an addict or something. if i dare say, barry spent 200 on a single stall. I dare not ask how much he brought, but that is a lil over the top

Oh a final note, soul eater looks interesting

(moods is broken again, im not nervous, more relaxed.)

]]> ~Birgu the constant war of deviantart? http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/27886896/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/27886896/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 10:57:04 PDT [link]

any ideas as to what this is?

oh and im at the expo on sunday ^^. My friend anton and I are gonna have a battle royale beforehand we enter XD. gonna buy pocky for my friends ^^

Theres a damn clip art program I really want from blackwells in charing x, but i never have enough money Xo. maybe someone'll buy it for me for chrissymas = 3.

rough doodles to come soon. My cards are seeming extremely popular XD

]]> ~Birgu not satisfied http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/27572492/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/27572492/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 06:56:16 PDT
im also very exhausted these coming days cause of travelling to uni and tonbridge back and forth. Unfortunately, a lot of these times I arrive and expect to meet people and stuff, and they do kinda forget abouts me = /. With the fatigue from this, i am also having trouble eating. A lot of meals im having to leave half-finished, and with my condition as it's always been with food, things arent looking too good

1) as always, i will try try trrrryyyy to get stuff done for u guys, but when im not doing uni stuff im doing chores. when im not doing chores im helping with arguments. when im not helping with arguments im doing people favours. And when im not doing favours im probably asleep.

2)What im gonna be doing is just throwing a lil junk in for the time being. screenshots, doodles if i can find stuff. That anima+ pic is so old yet so not done and im rather annoyed about it

3)As of tomorrow for 3 days and another 3 days after that, i will be participating in the c9 beta test. This is more kind of a friend get-together of old players from 5 months back. I dont know what names are taken but if you do see either "Shinaka", "Birgu", "Nakashi" or "Catleia" within lunatia then glomp them. its probs me XD.

4) you can find me on any of these games still

Shin Megami Tensei: Imagine
Cabal
Resident evil 5 (ps3 version)
Stepmania 4.0
Wonderland
Final fantasy echoes of time (ds)

I dont know if you'll find me on the new srb2 release just so you know, and I currently run a dissidia service as asked by ristar J, who i might be meeting in real life soon ^^. Send me your file via .rar file and your request, and i'll do what i can. this includes levelling, story mode work, and friend card exchanges for ghosts. I'd love to cosplay as zidane if i had the western outfit and the monkey tail = p, but til then a ghost of my "magnet zidane" is ready for anyone.

5) i start cooking lessons tomorrow XD. im gonna make pancakes and then have a get-together and make everyone some ^^

6) 4 days til comedy night OO. ooh i hope everyone remembers.

feel free as always to spam, comment or w/e here = p. My mood today is "neglect" cause i havent heard from my friends in a while, and after forgetting that i was visiting on friday, and no-one wanting to talk to me well..ouchies. I hope they dont forget about me ='(.

love you all = )

]]> ~Birgu pre-emptive happy-go-bluntly http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/27248205/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/27248205/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 16:22:14 PDT " and then at some point just go flat and sound really nasty without them knowing it themselves. And i've got to deal with yet another depressive person, this time all "oh im such an annoyance you all disappear when I start talking". Sigh...it's not all bad news....but people this week seem to forget to highlight the good news.

just finished my first day at uni. I now have confirmed serious heartburn problems which my parents denyed that i have. After arriving at 10, tons of queues and forms to go through. They couldnt find my info file for registration = /. After I got out, couldnt find anywhere to eat. I managed to find a maccy D's but they got my order wrong, so no..it wasnt going too well for me after an hour and a half non-stop walk Xo. But ive made my first uni friend ^^. Her names Stevie and she's the near opposite of a certain someone i know, only blonde, slightly wider figure, and hates horror movies XD. I still really really miss going to wkc, but it can't be helped = /. Im gonna visit my friends extra often to help make them smile ='

i also got to visit my grandad a few days ago as well ^^. he's been in hospital with cancer, but he's made some realy good airplane models in his free time there . Unforts, he broke down crying cause he was worried he was being a nuisance. That really struck a chord. poor thing ='(

Settling down to draw tomoz after work, however deviantart has been playing up a lot. just so you knows.

I got really boredz and so in my head ive sorted all my friends into different arcana types like persona (What addictive curse have you put on me Celeste? Xo). Can't say who's got what cause it'll spread and then pple will get the wrong idea. But i will quote the arcanas I used.

hermit (for a person for staying a lot in one specific place)
Devil (for one who has a dangerous personality)
Tower (for one who is new and learning)
Fortune (for one who I think is intelligent enough to be given this)
Star (for one who likes simple things in life, like tea XD)
Chariot (for one with strength and determination)
Hanged man (for one with a lot of troubles)

Im thinking of putting it on facebook maybes.

other than that, noot much really. No-one will tell me what they want for christmas, and im being told i should try and get a gf again so...meh..whoever jumps in first gets meh = /. Not that anyone actually thinks im nice/cute or anything Xo

Moon (for one who likes attention)

]]> ~Birgu Agony Advice Andrew http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/27119957/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/27119957/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 17:59:05 PDT

I would, but not politically correctly, call myself an agony aunt, but you never know in life what sort of wierd questions you get asked. For me, it's suicide monthly, love fortnightly, illness and opinon weekly followed by an empty dullness. I was originally gonna write this journal on a whole section about dissidia but just gaming talk is boring. I instead came to this topic, after..well..I just gave silly advice to someone about love and..err..it's worked..I wont get asked some embaressing questions anymore that makes everyone else go "shhhhhh", and 2 small fragments of the world have changed. One in growth, and my own patch back to square 1. I still have my little mini-fan club at least XD, but it's kinda a shivering sensation when you see someone progress with their life and to leave you at the start or even at the sideline. Obliged now to keep up, eventually you either grab a hand and pull it with you, or you dont keep up with life and love. Imagine it how you want it to be = /. See it like this I think.

Imagine in your mind a running track, or the track of life. You stand there at the front of the pack, wearing your favourite outfit or even something you'd dream of wearing, or your ideal attire. The pistol shoots and you run, run as fast as you can, with the world cheering on. As your life gets older, imagine the people that conflict with you at that age catching up and forming a pack. Some that progress run ahead of you. Some that go lower slow down, and those that you forget split in different directions into the distance. Those that stay-stay with you. Those that you rival against speed up, and so you speed up too, shoulder barging each other until one of you disappears, and those that you fall in love with run fast. You give it your all for as long as you can until they disappear as well. If you truely love them, then they slow down, and you slow down as well. Fall in love and BANG! you grab their hand and you run a little faster. Nothing matters anymore, you dont mind where you come in the race of life, so long as you finish it with someone at the same time.

well..ehehe...i have a pretty vivid imagination, so not everyone will get what the meaning of it is, but if so then good.If you've read this far then thanks for doing so.

MY BIIG QUESTION TODAY IS "how do you think you help people cope with life?" is it reassurance? help? feel-good factor? Post in the comments cause I wanna know.

quick flick about life before I go

1) My room's been altered. so its actually clean for once. yuck Xo. it feels so damn empty now its creepy. On the plus Apparently I can have the old tv for it now = )

2)Holidays sunk in to be boring. No-one is doing anything for any time. My Ghibli collection and a few other films keep me sane for a lil longer.

3: isnt coming to the expo this october due to finance. Im not allowed to say boo cause I get smacked for guilt trips XD. Im not doing well myself tbh, but not everybody brings Â£100+ or even +50. there are those that just bring a 10 or 20..but...since its the expo, gotta agree that petty money amounts dont count well. SO! I needs a new group to go with to the expo cause obviously its gonna be lame by myself, my geography of travel is below human standards, and cause I er..need somone to help me with my wig direction. I'm trying though to find one and im gonna give it til the end of the month, otherwise im not going, and the money rolls over to christmas presents and possibly my next cosplay.

4) still waiting for the release of cloudnine -_-. Least I am famous as soon as I start instead of playing pointlessly and then suddenly becoming famous out of mingling with the already famous by accident = p.

5) Uni starts on the 16th. I really hope my class is a good bunch and not a load of chavs. Fingers crosssssssseeeeddddd. I might bring a demon banishing kit just in case though XD

Another rant done XD. It's 1:49 a.m and I am jumping from chair to chair cause there is a huge and fast spider in the lounge. Nights all!!

DIE KEFKA!!!...stupid..clown...wont..ruddy..die. (moral is dont buy dissidia if you happen to be afraid of clowns. Not afraid of clowns? he'll freak you out anyway. GO ZIDANE!!)

]]> ~Birgu currently in a lil pain.. going ta uni = / http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26880667/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26880667/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 17:29:11 PDT

Pretty obvious, but i havent done much work cause of it and some uni stuff pushed into my face. It's been a tough week, but all my friends helped support me, and as always I owe a great deal to them, so i'm gonna work extra-hard on finding good christmas presents ^^. Im sure theres better stuff than a few gift cards and a corsa window sticker..which are...the only things i can think of....right now..I hate gift cards like a passion anyway.

I ordered some stuff off the internet recently..and it all kinda sucks..books..very battered and dirty..new mouse..teared packaging..zombie game...suppliers can't be assed to send it off to me -_-. I hope that when i do start killing zombies eventually, i leave the ones that'll take over the suppliers office XD muahaha. It was umbrella chronicles. im good with a lightgun but ill prob just be crap at it until i get a shotgun = p. next on my list is dissidia followed then by mario kart AT LAST. there is currently a dissidia demo on the ps3 store, letting you play as onion knight, terra, warrior of light, cloud, and sephiroth. I want zidane Xo.

I got this comment from my italian friend teo today "stupid kogals, they dont know that they are losing a nice boyfriend like you" . i was very surprised that he knew what a kogal was, but i feel smitten so what the heck XD.

just to show yet again that im alive. the next work that gets put onto devi is either gonna be...

anima + pic that i just cant be assed to upload
the sakura-hime colouring attempt (i cant colour for the life of me)
a card, since they seem quite popular behind the scenes. i get about 2-3 of them favourited every week.
some more mishaps in riviera, next one still will be "decisions"
A random pic. Either that inuyasha thats still buried in my mind, or I feel like doing...an experiment.

chao

]]> ~Birgu Lack of party members http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26572293/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26572293/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 15:29:50 PDT

Shopping in tunbridge wells today. Sigh. I dont say that it was bad or anything, it was rather quite nice. But from dawn til dusk, the sky's been bleak, on the edge of rain.

After much planning, the day kinda started with my playing persona. I've gone on a kamikazee streak on it, just doing as many social links and working my ass off in the dungeons. I set myself the task of reaching the "heaven's angel" boss before my exam results came in, and i've finally done it. He's...a lot freakier than on youtube.

ipod ran out of battery so i grabbed my psp before i went out. Theres so many songs i havent listened to in ages, like "tamashi no refrain" and "1000 nights". I ended up at our meeting place rather early but on time and, unimpressed, walked up and down and round the town and back into the train station twice to look for anyone. All rounded by 11 minuites past the appointed time but at least we have people now. Of the shopping center we went to, royal victoria place, which i organised after much poking and deliberation to chris to make up his mind, we headed to the food court which was kinda nice. All unhealthy restaurants with large queues. poor "spuds u like" with no customers at all. They can have the spare potatoes we have at home though.

The shopping on the whole was kinda a disaster. hardly any of us had money..to everyones unamusement i was loaded for working 3 days this week, and i couldnt make my mind as to what to buy, we were gonna come back later so i could decide but..i dunno..they forgot? It kinda saved my ass really XD. I'd love to get mario kart, but i'd love it if more people i knew would be able to play it with me. TBH mario kart ds had so much grinding and repitition of slide boosts, it kinda sucked. We spent a wierd 3/4 of an hour in the gadget shop, where i acquired back pains from a massage chair, the complete opposite effect. we ended up back at the food court, all opening fortune cookies. I got "bide your time, something good will soon happen". im gonna stick it above my bed and pray it comes true.

Tired as hell, we made a quick stop to waterstones before going back, kinda my chance to make up for not buying at game.

3 of us got the train home, and tash and chris got off at tonbridge, so a lil lonely me left, put on my mp3, and kinda just drifted. Not to sleep mind you, otherwise id be pretty screwed XD, but just kinda drifted out of thought. Arrived in sevenoaks a lot faster than i thought. Walked home, got an earful from mum that i should've been home earlier, cooked my own dinner, which seems to be ravioli every time, and then just drifted again. I love a good fortune or horoscope, butwhat kind of success am i being offered? Is it i've somehow survived exam death row? Is it ambition? is it love? Is it even something really crappy like video games?

Comedy night on the afternoon. Sorely tempted to phone tash and just hold up the phone to a joke, but i thought i'd get chucked out XD. I at least tried memorising a few jokes, which you'll see at the bottom. Im hoping to organise a small group of us to go for the next time, but i have to arrange it pretty fast too. i've had 2 oks so far but tickets run out incredibly fast.

i wish i could just go out of sevenoaks every free day i have and just explore with people, but the fact that other people dont want to do that kinda stinks...The past 2 months and a bit i've been to so many new places. i'm getting around and i'm loving it. I hope that when i sleep tonight and wake up, more good luck will come my way.

Ill work on a sakura colouring project when i'm ok.

ok..lets see..joke no 1: The armed forces are being paid less than the average parking attendant. Now, why dont we send them to afghanistan? 1: if they get shot, no-one will give a damnn and 2: They dont need any kind of protection, they're very good at popping out of nowhere behind you when you least expect it. It'll be great for spotting the taliban. All they have to do is leave their vechile unattended for a few minuites and BAM!

2: London 1012. The officials working on it believe it will be the best olympics ever. But the beijing olympics, phwooar, 30,000 entertainers, 1,500 fireworks, and the torcherbearer was flown in to the last leg. like we'll compete with that. lets try the cheapest olympics ever. Paula radcliffe, in a clown suit, with a sparkler in her hand. While we're at it, lets do the winter olympics in scotland as well. Downhill skiing on a half snow/half grass slope, and snowboarding with people that have only been learning for 3 days, wearing a shell suit and gardening gloves.

~Birgu sleeping on the streets...almost.. http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26451015/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26451015/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 18:33:55 PDT

part 1

Chris is one of a few people of a group i regulary hang out with, but in recent times he isolated himself, never taking phone calls, or considering how people worried about him. it really pissed me off. Then 2 days ago, he came back on msn and opened up to me. I confessed how i felt and how the others were handling, and he confessed what had happened to start his absence. It kinda became..i dunno..a "manly" conversation about fear, love, and music. The same effect as the camping resulted, i managed to make him open up, and i think that became a key part of what made his mind go from "im not going to a party tomorrow cause i dont feel like it" to the exact opposite, so when we turned up at the party together, a lot of people were surprised. Needless to say a lot of the girls are more comfortabler with him in conversation and give him hugs . I am stuck at the back with no hugs and not even a hello, but it is kinda his moment that day. Both of us now think that the theme song for the game "mirror's edge" is one of the best songs ever..dunno how it got brought up though. [link] . Since he's having a hard time, i also gave him my copy of fifa 09 which i never used, permenantly to either use or sell. I was gonna use it eventually..but he needs it more i think.

part 2

So we turned up at the party, and it turned pretty ok. The house we went to, carrie's, had a attic roof you could look out so i was a lil gutted i didnt get to see it. We all sat in the conservatory with a bunch of snacks and drink. Yes i still hate alcohol but i didnt really want to be looked down upon so . m and m's without the..well..m and m's, and popcorn which i usually hate to bits, but i kinda liked it. The party dragged on a lil, and it got a lil out of hand. I wont say what for my own personal safety, but I did get a lil upset. Its even worse that everyone keeps mentioning it now -_-''. like all the best laid plans this group makes, there was no certain way of how i was going to get home. i was kindly offered a lift from tash, but I just wish some things were better planned earlier. By the time we did leave, it was far beyond what i had originally planned. There was still some hope for me getting home by train however..

part 3

..and that hope was..pretty much utter rubbish. The last train had left about 5 minuites ago. My phone at the party had become a plaything, and so to make matters worse, not only had i missed the train, couldnt afford a taxi either, but my phone battery was almost dead. text to my sister " im ok, im not stranded", and text to tash "missed train, come pick me up?". phone dies. I put my ipod onto the lowest setting to save power, and waited 10 minuites..20...30...getting worried at 40...scared at 50...drowsy at 60. I was really hoping I wasnt gonna be singing "heartbeat heartbreak" til 5 am, but it seemed like it. In my mind was just the image that although i'd texted, there's no guaruntee that it'd been read. maybe everyone had gone to bed, and it was stuck in the car by accident. I'd seen cars come and go so often, why wasnt there one for me? When people feel really desperate, thats when they pray, and I did the shortest and most pathetic prayer ever that i wouldnt be stuck here all night. I was prepared to just roam the streets til dawn, plus im in the halfway point between religion, not one or the other, but its not nice to just wander around at night in the rain.

I got picked up, like a lost child or a ragged doll on the floor. One of my friends just happened to bump into me and tell me to get a taxi. I said i would but..i couldnt afford it. 5 mins later, he comes round in a car and offers me a lift. we have an amazingly in-deph chat about college on the way, and as soon as i get home i rush to charge up my phone, bombarded with texts of "how about you.." or "are you ok?". i think i got..9?

on the edge..hmm..i spend most of today sleeping and fiddling with microsoft paint. tomorrow i wish i could do the same, but i have work, and my parents come back from niagra falls. They promise to bring back copies of chobits and d gray man for me, but tbh, id rather have just a plain old crappy souvenir XD. I dread the possibility of becoming a manga N.E.E.T or a himikori. Im not crazily obsessed THANK GOD.

saturday I work, sunday i sleep. monday is a free day, gonna ask my parents about learning to drive. tuesday ive got to fill in for someone at work -_-. wednesday is my proper work day. t... ]]> ~Birgu not..a regular camping trip..an epically dull tale http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26366133/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26366133/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 18:58:13 PDT
I've occupied myself with the likes of guitar hero and klonoa for a bit. damn for a kids game, klonoa's short end-of-game challenges really are tough. The camping went ok, but it was really rough. i ended up getting no sleep at all..but i dont blame anything hehe, since im quickly writing this at..(checks watch) 2:11 am? haha. Unfortunately, the great alcohol rush has ended, and even i suddenly can't stand any sort of alcohol or alcopop.

for a summary of the camping, we got lost on the car journey there, and I wasnt really amused that we arrived almost an hour late. what have i got? 2 smirnoff ice's 4% vodka alcopop moltov cocktail, explosive jelly babies, poisonous minature heroes with nicotine in them, and cigarette italian breadsticks. tent set up with some help from , i go for a unsteady walk around the park, in which i almost collapse from, from forcing down too much drink and taking a strong verbal punch to the stomach. I think i went back to my tent and took a rest, after 10 minuites in which i got bundled and asked for contributions for a pizza order. silly Andy..i actually took a ton of money, and that pretty much all went to the pizza. Most of the day passed on with me trying to badly blend in with the crowd = p and helping nadir with firewood.I think because of the alcohol, a lot of people really opened up. I learnt things about people i'd never known before, like nadir's family history, what tasha secretly hates, and how becky feels she has trouble communicating with suzie. About midway through this the pizza we finally ordered came, and while everyone probably ate at lightspeed, i felt like going for a walk.the pizza was about...Â£28..got Â£12 paid back..but i didnt want a single bite. I came back from my walk about 10 mins later, and suddenly everyones been making a search party to find me OO. ok my sense of direction isnt good but its honestly not that bad..honest..

skip a few hours involving a drunk carrie, skinnydipping, a makeshift bed i make for nadir, and the uncanny will for me to be the last to go to sleep to make sure everyone's ok, in the end i couldnt get to sleep myself. This was about..4am. I instead joined some 13 year old kids from another campset, and we ended up burning jelly babies for most of the night. Heh, after using a square plank of wood to relight one of the fires, i became known as the fireman for the rest. Tbh, i dont know how they learned about me before i even met them, but i dont think i wouldve been able to join them that night if they hadnt. I helped keep both fires lit until about 8 am, which was the point when i had had enough and packed early to leave. The most sensible thing for me now, would have been to wait for carrie's dad and get taken directly home, but tash and i had enough of the camp, that we both agreed on. She gave me a lift to tonbridge train station, getting there after a few harmless wobblies along the way. it is incredibly annoying to carry an undersheet, tent, dirty clothes bag, and sleeping bag all the way from tonbridge to wherever in sevenoaks. dont try it, just dont. To wrap this up, i got home at about half 10 i think and set myself to clean the catastrophe my sister had left for me to tidy. I managed to get a rest at about 10:45, in which i think i passed out due to fatigue until 11:3,. cause otherwise i would've been tucked in bed, not on the top of it Xo

yes, an epic tale of fear and freedom, maybe i should write an entire book about it = p. All i can actually say is that the world is just as crazy and unpredictable today as it was yesterday, or before that day etc. My exam results come in 2 weeks so im really terrified right now about how badly i did.

I'll be doing another picture before then i think. maybe work on the next R mishap, which is either "decisions", "challenge", "Romeo" or "staff room, part 1", involving highlights, hearts, cigarettes, and the X button XD. cya soonies

]]> ~Birgu INTERNET IS DOWN!!!! http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26089351/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26089351/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 14:35:13 PDT So i've gotta take a frickin break. from all things internety. What annoys me the most huh..

Phantasy star subscription is 30 days plus 15 free. I'm about to lose 20+ of them. Plus I finally found the beach on the game, so i was gonna hang out there for a few hours..yeah..a cyber beach XD. I cant even get on the offline game anymore -_-

Can't really use msn except for frequent bursts by stealing other netwaves. if it gives up on me 3 times during any convo, I will NOT try again, oherwise i will phone you directly. you have been warned.

Dad is very, very "happy" since he still has the internet. He is trying to solve the problem, but also rather he's rubbing it in our faces. parents go on holiday on saturday, then we're very screwed

My newest friend Samanta was gonna contact me during the week cause she's been busy. looks like thats burnt as well = /

Told tash there was a breakthrough earlier about the crash from a special cord. Oh dear..he cant find the dial up on my computer -_- (sorry I gave hope Xo)

yes i am annoyed on a LOT of things..so damn cranky..augh Xo. i was really hoping to order guitar hero today for my get together.

I guess though that ill be doing stuff to pass the time. I can still just about use artrage so thats a start = /, plus im camping on saturday anyway. But for now..i cant do anything....eccentric. I'll post stuff when i get chances to, but it looks like ill be dead for a while.

Mr birgu-san

hope the weather (and all my problems) clear up in due time =S.

]]> ~Birgu the shopping channel..only on your brain.. http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26028251/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/26028251/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 15:02:14 PDT . First thing i did was that I finally ordered a copy of persona 3 fes . Mmn, its alright, but disappointing on the easyness of normal mode. I'm gonna go back to playing persona 4. Im about to make a major breakthrough on it. For those that have the game, you'll understand why if i say the words "cross" and "september 21st"..but whats amrita?

i've ordered some manga's to keep me occupied for now. suzuka. hayate, and nhk. im a lil upset though cause i forgot to order gacha gatcha Xo.

I'm having a get-together party on the 29th. it was o be the following monday but carrie's little brother's birthday is on that day.honestly i got a lotta probs.

what time it should be til and from
is it a convenient date?
is it drink self service, or self preparation by request?
do i need special "things" for it?

worrywart = /. ill also be going camping next saturday. apparently we're gonna have a tent shortage so i have to bring one to share with. camping unfortunately gives me a headache. sleeping in my sleeping bag is even worse. dam loose strand keeps landing on my nose OO.

last social thing. my parents are going away for a fortnight, leaving me to cook and...i cant cook. it'll work out..somehow..

apologies for no progress on anything yet.. ive been working a lot and after having a bad tablet day, got a lil put off doing anything. im gonna finish that damn anima+ pic once and for all, as well as progress on working on "riviera mishaps 3: decisions".

]]> ~Birgu an Elixir of hearts and smiles http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/25476125/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/25476125/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 13:42:43 PDT
so now..ahem..well..i guess the hiatus is off already. I'm heading off to charing cross so i'm..well for the first time ever, asking tons of people around if they're interested. Currently I have asked around 7 people and so far i've gotten a no due to finance, and a yes from one.i've warned everyone that clothes shopping for me may be involved. rather than a chore, to people it's more of a hilarious fate that other people are gonna chose clothes for me and im gonna have to agree with them (gulp, i'm being told i'm gonna change to emo cause of this Xo)

*bows* communications are back. Thank you's to Tayla, suzie, and blizz. currently blizz and i are still discussion ideas for a joint story idea which is gonna be lots of fun once we start.

and ATCHOO..*sniff*..i got a cold for moping outside for half an hour til half 12 am, and a sore throat for lip synchronising in that same air. serves me right for being an idiot ^^. But you'd be amazed when you look at the sky intensively. I mean...i thought i saw the sky turn white twice for split seconds. So cool *o*

Ooh i can't wait for friday, and i've been told that on monday a certain someone is buying me lunch cause they didn't get me an oriental buffet for my birthday >

]]> ~Birgu exams over, alcohol troubles begin Xo http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/25401169/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/25401169/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 18:22:36 PDT
Ill see how i am in the morning, and try and cook something up for devi like those valkyrie chronicles pictures, otherwise i'd probably best stay in bed. Just thank god that I havent thrown up, despite so many people expecting me to. Anyone who wants to can add me on my ps3. The Username is Birgu. I can give people my wii/brawl number still but it might take some time to find it again

Goodnight Deviantart peeps. Sweet dreams

(hunting for a copy of persona 3:fes on ebay or anywhere Xo)
(i have just cleared my room of it's 6th spider Xo)
(ty suzie for being concerned about me's =' )

]]> ~Birgu ..where has ivan gone? http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/25309442/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/25309442/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 13:02:25 PDT
glory be praised, the once dead Golden Sun series haveth returned

[link]

I know the graphics aren't anything special, and the battle gameplay this time is slightly ripoff dragon quest, but look at the summons. The arrow rain from the sky by the Atlantica summon seems immense. Theres also rameses, nereid, and even eclipse makes a return. And think of how big a golden sun game is for the graphics. I actually think that compensates for it. There are a few things that bug me a lil, like why isnt ivan part of the returning cast as well, and if we get to beat up alex, but i guess we all have to wait.

exam on thursday. it's my last one but eepos!

art is being slow cause im actually focusing on the riviera comics right now. "Patience" is acting a lil bugger cause of the right wording needed. Plus if you've ever played riviera, a lot of the stuff is risk and unclear button sequenced. i slipped on a banana skin in the hub world ='(

<3 Suzuka anime even more. aww if only bellflowers were real..

sigh. i get tons of online hugs but for every 3 hugs I get online I start to desperately want a real one. My pillow isnt thick enough to hug >

ill catch you later when i've finally finished something

]]> ~Birgu A distinct lack of..valkyrie.... http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/25175383/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/25175383/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 08:26:16 PDT
finally to update. I got glomped a few times at the expo and a few photos taken of me by some people there. No-one noticed the armband was wrong luckily XD..the fixed one came in the post 2 days later...

lets see..i got..off the top of my head...

a tsubasa sakura plusie which is hanging right now on my calender
an ouran high school plushie of tamaki which i gave to my sis
full boxset of the familiar of zero (region 1 unfortunately)
odin sphere for the ps2
dirge of cerberus for the ps2
posters of shana, ouran, and final fantasy
some .hack and kingdom hearts colllectibles
ouran 1 and 2 mangas and the first of the gentlemans alliance, and 2 of shin megami tensei
4 badges
a quick drawn picture by which I <3 and got free of charge thank you soooo much ^^

there were about 5 more mangas i wanted to get, mainly gatcha gacha, but we kept on zooming past the stalls and in the end everyone was just too tired, i can get them from amazon i guess = /

erm..few other notes, valkyria chronicles the anime is coming to the uk eventually (yay). i've just looked at the bonus missions in the game which you get by paying about Â£3 for (edys detachment squad, selvaria behind the flame, and the dreaded extra hard mode where the imperials gain 5 tanks...you lose both of yours.. eep)

hayate the combat butler season 2 in japan..can i just say instant win? They've only added to the cast a kitten and a violent nun but originality is probably good.

I have a lot of exams coming up, and i'm oficially a lazy ass when it comes to drawing now, but i looked on a search for yalkyria chronicles on devi..

..just around 200 images only..geez..

so, as a contribution to this disaster, i'm gonna do 3 valkyria chronicles pictures. I'm doing Isara and Marina, but i have no third choice.

so ahem...

The first person to give me a name from list below i will do a pic of that character. I'm using a list as while it may not contain everyone's favourite character, i wont be given anything impossible XD. if theres a pic on images, i'll use that as ref. if not, watch the anime til i find them

the list contains..

Welkin
Alicia
Largo
Rosie
Homer
Aisha
Suzie
Edy
oscar
Irene
Captain Varrot
Faldio
Maximillian
Selvaria
Damon (possbility but like hell anyones gonna pick this ass XD)
Hans (..what?)
Jann
Karl

so yeah..umm..dont all rush at once (lol for sarcasm XD)

]]> ~Birgu A shotgun called "philosophy exam" Oo' http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/24883851/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/24883851/ Fri, 22 May 2009 01:19:36 PDT
I just spent 3 hours in the back garden revising the basics of analytical and synthetic stuff, priori and posteriori, rationalist and empiricist and innate thinking. But that's just enough revising for 1 chapter. I need to cover 4 so i'm really weally scwared Xo.

if it's not a bad omen, i've been having chest pains and my headphones are making shuddering noises since yesterday, and people keep on trying to steal my revision book -_-'. They give it up one you phone call them, they hang up on you, and you bump into them when they least expect it.

for the people going to the expo, my cosplay is Arisato Minato from the persona 3 series. I have the jacket, the armband (in a way), the wig, not too bothered bout h phones and shoes, and replica weapons are banned from the expo, so my fingers will be doing all the headshooting XD. I'm going with Becky and tash (who is dresing up as chobits Chi).

unfunny jokes about a persona and a personacom are allowed...once...

off to mah grave XD. bye byes ^^.

]]> ~Birgu delay..again..gomenesai http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/24612622/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/24612622/ Wed, 06 May 2009 04:20:13 PDT
Ahem, but serious now, it was again guessable, i got delayed in drawing again for those that wanted to see the pics.

why?

1) I have a history project to be done and its kinda important
2) got caught up with invitations to go shopping and a birthday party Oo
3) Eternal sonata is kinda addictive XD
4) exaaaammmssssss

once the history project is comfortably over, then i can work on them with confidence. if you'd like something to do, you can add me on the ps3 to play sometime, or if you have an xbox, my sister can go xbox live with u. she just got gears of war annnddd...died pretty spectacularly on the first mission.

there seem to be a lot on peoples minds this month, i achknowledge that. Just get through ok?

A new story idea is being worked on as well. It's called "It's last child" and it tells a short story about the last human on earth who decides to grow a tree to keep him company. It sounds kinda wierd, but i kinda like the structure and planning. maybe this might be the one..

while i'm at it, i wanna ask..

WHY IS "THE VALKYRIAN ROTA" SO DAMN POPULAR? XD. Thanks for my first 1000 views on that ^^. It really is a surprise.

]]> ~Birgu Student? What student? *cosplay* http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/24457395/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/24457395/ Mon, 27 Apr 2009 05:11:10 PDT
"we've accidentally deleted you off the system"

so thats how much work disappeared now? A ton of history and a hell lot of english..roughly 100 files gone down the drain..it's so fun being me..no seriously XD

Ok, I said I was doing some more drawings, and I am. I'm posting them in a triple pack which i'm working on. If you have me on facebook, then you can see the first one prematurely.

GET CREATIVE!! i'm cosplaying for the first time, shoddily chosen by my parents as the persona 3 protagonist..not the p4 protag..in a panic I decided to ask the gaia community forums about what should i do..it..kinda worked, I was told I need creativity to work things out..

SO SHIN'S FIRST EVER D.I.Y COSPLAY CATASTROPHE!! XD.

first i'm gonna concentrate on the evoker gun that the protag has. I'm gonan try something along the lines of..

A soft gun (i.e a pellet gun, as similar to the real evoker as possible

a chisel (i'm, gonna round it down so no unecessary pointy things are there, plus try to do the niche in the barrel)

Some paint (silver i've definetly agreed on from extract references. i'm not sure about the other colours.)

thin strips of cardboard (painted over for the image. not sure if i will need them or just the paint, but they can be outlines or something)

black pen (S.E.E.S anyone? otherwise the cardboard.)

so pretty much...i have no idea what the hell i'm doing. Had i not had a haircut, i could've spun past a midnight blue wig..but thats kinda out the q now. But from first impressions of comments, if you can't do an almost perfect cosplay, prepare for tormentation.

If you got some ideas to help me, much appreciated, and as for the drawings..i'd like to focus them on stuff I've planned to do in the past.

Note for the week? torturing girls with cod-liver-oil and a funnel gives benefits in demands XD. I am now Shin-Sama, or master shin to be precise for the next year.

]]> ~Birgu A whirl for missing people.. http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/24329573/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/24329573/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 16:30:58 PDT
unfortunately, everyone i usually hang out with has more or less disappeared..

Silience: currently enrolled in the army
Mizu: cramped up with work
Motoko: grounded cause her mum thinks we could be killers or pedophiles -_- (seriously)
Pichu: currently missing
Rizii: missing, possibly in the army. same for his best friend
Krystals: quit until december
tasha: just disappeared from my knowledge
jade: hates me for no apparent reason
tayla: hates me, she hates everyone.

teo: the last one left Xo

I have some stuff to clear up first before requests are allowed to be made

fullmetal fans wake up if you havent. the new fullmetal alchemist series started 3 weeks ago.

oh and i hope theres a few people who like baptisms out there, i just went to one today

]]> ~Birgu demons and dating: persona 4 review http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/24231971/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/24231971/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 03:02:58 PDT
But right now, i wanna talk about persona 4 which i got on..thursday? By now everyone knows the ps2 is dying out, but not just yet. It may live longer, or a short lifespan by now, but persona 4 seems to be one of the last few decent rpgs to be released prior to its possible death.

if you wanna just skip to the bottom, there's a ranking instead of being bored on details.

storyline

The storyline is a lot different to other rpgs. Anyone who's played a persona game should know the basics. Basically something bads happening in school and you're at the center of it. Players have a time limit of 1 year in which to figure out the answer. Dont win by then, and you get the worst ending in the game, where your problems are abandoned and the world continues to suffer, much to your ignorance. for persona 4, people have started to mysteriously be murdered and found in the most..painful places. As the protagonist, your job is to stop these murders. fail and its game over.

rpg element

battle is turn based depending on who's standing next to who. if chie is next to yosuke, it's chie's turn next..(probably). Level up, create persona guardians to help you out, learn who has a weakness to what and exploit them while covering your own. find a weakness, and that thing is knocked to the ground and you get another turn. knock all enemies down, and then beat the hell out of them in a cartoon-form bundle on top of each other.

you get a game over in the game by..

@failing to save a victim from becoming a bloody ornament
@the protagonist dies in battle. chie can die, yosuke can die, but if you die, its all over.

dating..element?

yup. hang out with your party members and act as nice or coldly as you want. be nice enough, and your rank with that character goes up. each rank lets a certain type of persona you create get stronger upon creation. get it to rank 10 max, and you can create an all powerful demon. theres about..say..24 different ranks so you've got a lot of talking to do.

some of the characters (that i know at least)

protagonist: the main hero of the game..duh. thunder type, can create different persona guardians. uses a long sword/ golf club Oo

yosuke: clutz with a dad working as a popular department store you'll go to a lot. often crashes on his bicyle. wind type, uses kunai/ spanners

chie: long time fan of martial arts and kung fu, but shows a feminine side at times. ice type, err..she kicks stuff..

yukiko: rarely gets angry, but is depressive a lot of the time. If you can make her laugh..she'll laugh for aaagggeesss. Fire type, uses a fan

Kanji: (still working on. he's a biker thats a bit scary. uses a chair as his weapon Oo

shoorrrt summary

rpg element: it relies a lot on luck and guesswork with the weaknesses at the start, but gets better as you go further.

dating sim element: annoying when you skip days for no reason so you dont get to use it, or a wrong option stops you from doing something, but it's fun to try and play along with it.

storyline: the oddest people you'll ever see, but learning about a particular character makes you see them in a different light.

fmv: anime-animated

music: dannng good, and you get the cd soundtrack with the game as well Oo.

recommended for the kind of person with..either a lot of time on their hands, or wants a challenge with the annoying boss battles at the start (the first bonus boss battle geez that was crazy. Its either win, or watch everyone die from the brink of hope suddenly)

better than final fantasy 12
worse than the world ends with you
as good as valkyria chronicles on the amount of difficulty at certain point

]]> ~Birgu CONGRATULATIONS =D http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23979685/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23979685/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 03:40:21 PDT

Let the world be known about the good news people. Just say if you have some congratulations you wanna add or if i get something wrong, and ill edit the list.

Firsty

to & . If you dont know already, they're both partners in crime for the excellent "Twosideswide" webcomic...

AND THEY'RE GETTING MARRIED! ^^

feel free to spam them with congratulations. cause i'm sure they'll appreciate every single one they get.

Secondly

to . Her 18th birthday was on saturday AND!!! (dun dun duuunnn). She's been applying for a job as a..I think it was a council voice or something like thats (sowwy's xp),

AND SHE'S BEEN OFFERED IT

however now she just has to pass her college exams but we's all has faith in her ^^.

]]> ~Birgu Friends of worry http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23953668/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23953668/ Sun, 29 Mar 2009 15:20:17 PDT
DETAILS

Q1) you did something today, what was it?

A) I went to a birthday party

Q2) nice! did you have fun?

A) yeah, i had a lot of fun. we did 10 pin bowling and went to a restaurant

Q3) ooh, did you win the bowling?

A) no XD. but i did quite good i think. small hole balls ftw

Q4) where did you go to eat?

A) frankie and benny's in maidstone

Q5) how do you feel right now, and how long about was this?

A) 50 mins ago, and i feel sick right now

Q TIME

Q6) ok, so your title is "Friends of worry". care to elaborate?

A) I got worried.

Q7) did you tell someone you were worried?

A) yes. they said they'd inquire at a later date, but they understood and said they'd root for me.

Q8) the main problem being?

A) Alcohol consumption and chavs outside

Q9) are you still worried?

A) yes

Q10) how worried?

A) I started crying silently in the car I have to confess, and I wanted to grab the wheel and turn the car around.

CHEER

Q11) this was a birthday party. what was the present?

A) anime-decorated pillows

Q12) err..why?

A) a was expensive. b was sexist. The pillows we concluded, are something to look after, to comfort, and for memories

Q13) deeeppp. did anything unexpected happen?

A) we bumped into some drunk girls

Q14) and what happened?

A) well duh, they were drunk so they bumped into a few of us. I got worried of theft and it'd spoil the day. The urge to hit them lingers...

Q15) as a finale, anything you'd also like to get off your heart?

A) If I confessed then people would say I worried too much or was too serious. Dad did try to cheer me up in the car when i was crying, and it worked to some degree. But all i can say is that i hope people around there had decency instead of wandering eyes. But people sometimes just cannot fathom as to what others are thinking. I also had a picture in my mind somehow implanted that everyone'd have left, and i'd be waiting for dad on the bridge, singing "the messenger".

thats all

(a new addition to my small army of groupee supporters has been added ^^. we're now at..wow..must be around 16 people)

]]> ~Birgu New OC's + Riviera reborn http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23725435/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23725435/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 08:31:54 PDT
My two new oc's out of three. They curently dont have proper names, so as temporary names i've called them Jirou and Yuki.

Riviera. Yes I know theres a place called the riviera, but this one i mean the promised land. It was a psp game I got say..august. Loved it and hated it.

My poem "under the sakura tree" is gonna get put up soon. We're just waiting for the results of the poetry contest

OCs

Okies XD. So :infoLNC-Blizzard: and I are starting up a new writing project. It's got no name, no storyline cause I cant read the files anddd we're still in discussion. ere my New oc's though

Jirou

A worryer in all senses. Jirou takes problems into account and keeps it at all times, be it safety, the past, or the future. His innocence tends to be his weakness, and when depended on, performs badly, but even miracles of courage can happen sometimes. He is however a good cook

Ability

Jirous ability is Gemini, the twins. Symbolising Jirous fear as well as his unseen strength, Gemini allows him to split into two seperate beings to fight. The strength is weakened though, but with two people, changes can happen. THe main weakness is that the two bodies are linked together. When one takes pain, the other will too. If one breaks their leg, another will as well, you can guess what happen about death too

Yuki

Yuki is innocence in another form. A child of around 8, yuki doesnt know much but wants to learn. Shes positive a lot, but because she doesnt understand graveness either. Jirou is her (unofficial makeshift) father and cousin.

Ability

I thought a lot about how to explain for this, but came up with no answers, but Yuki's ability is called "bloodlust". Maybe something like..part vampire in a way, but whenever yuki has blood smeared on her, she will go beserk, and I mean Matrix badass style. Her weapon is pin needles that do a lot more than just prick, but her fragileness makes her a one hit k.o. The effects last for up to half an hour, after that she faints, and it wont work for the next hour unless she's regained consciousness and fresh blood is smeared. Its better to clean her up just in case, trust me XD. Possibly the strongest character in the story, but also the least fight-worthy. If she seems too unlikely to have bloodlust then I plan to change it to something a bit more easier like a cat embodiment (i.e she'll attack, pose, and act like a cat)

ok i just recieved some text from blizzard about a few hours ago, suggesting that abilities are to be categorised by level. You can see the over-level bar at the top of the screen, and by pressing the select button and then looking at status. 100 gold for those that just did that XD.

ok so hows this..

Yuki's bloodlust starts at level 1, but on a bad situation, is pushed to 5, which as a result negates bloodlust for the next few days as instead a phobia of blood. With every level yuki gets stronger, faster, and a teeny bit more scary. At level 3 she gains the strange ability to drink pools of blood to heal wounds, and at 5 is at her fastest, strongest, and gains a ability called..err.."handprint?" that if she touches a person with a hand seeped in blood, then the blood pressure around the body speeds up until ultimately after a few more presses, it gets fast to the point to an episode of elfen lied i.e explode XD i dunno, i'm just knocking around a few ideas here.

Jirous gemini starts at level 1 but levels slightly faster than most others to level 2. str and hp up with each level blah blah blah, at 3 when jirou splits, weaponry of any kind does as well instead of just the body and clothes, and at 5 gemini becomes a Tri, with also the nice ability that by remerging back into one body, it gains slight healing properties

the third character oc i make eventually will be "the ladies man". aint got a name yet but he'll hopefully provide light comedy.

oh and the riviera part of the journal i changed my mind to talk about instead. Read the minicomic of it instead, up now XD

]]> ~Birgu knight of the OMG EPIC FAILZ? http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23596133/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23596133/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 16:49:54 PDT . It will include an introduction to 2 of my new original characters, possibly the third as well, but a proper storyline is yet to be decided on from the both of us.

it suddenly hits me...sonic and the black knight came out..well i'm sure it got good reviews so i'd better go buy it...oh dear, how wrong I was when I checked up on ign and found a rating of 3.6/10 (i.e BAD)

apparent reasons for this..

1) waggle waggle the remote = epic destruction insta win
2) not as good as Unleashed..
3) he's not running fast..

ok ok, i'm finding this quite funny. If you want better sword controls then i'm sorry but sega cant teach you to do a somersault so sonic can do a somersault. Black knight is supposed to be a follow-up of secret rings, not unleashed. And he's not running fast...i mean..if you want sonic to run fast then sure, have sega make a game where you just run fast and finish in 2 seconds S rank. Nothing personal or anything but i'm sure it's not THAT bad a game. The only complaint here is that a certain few characters have bitten the dust. The last game i remember espio and silver in were rivals 2..shadow isnt emo in black knight -_-', and vector and charmee are probably in a zoo with big and cream. How about scourge then make an appearance?

oks enough of thats. I didnt really wanna talk about it cause i'm not gaming much right now, but sonic has been a big childhood memory and he's falling down again..come to think of it..what would happen if he broke his leg?

ok i'm not gonna talk much about the old valentines massacre, but i'll put it in key words for creativity points XD

Spelling out C.C Apples

Caution
Conned (by 4x)

Anxious
Problem (issued by text)
Panic
Leg it there
Exhausted
Solved/falSe alarm

So basically, there was a technical error, grabbed some provisions, ran out the house, got there, and I go told "oh..wait a minuite -_-...yeahss....go home again". If theres anything I like about running it's not worrying. If I worry then you get that kinda choking on your own saliva thingie.

I just finished my first of 2 entries for poetry contests. This one being "Under the Sakura Tree" which was an old poem I started when I was a bit emotionally distraught. I'll upload it laters, and its in a 6 verse 4 line format with a 1 2 1 2 3 4 3 4 scheme.
I aint too hopeful of winning, but the prize isnt much either. However, no hope is not an option, so my prospects for it remain very much high *o*

Few other bits left over

1) I found out from Tash i'm a star tarot and YAY! it's high rated in the tarot system ^^
2) My phantasy star collage is halfway done for such a small thing, but until I finish "the nest" on 2 accounts, it remains incomplete
3) right now i ams ill

hope ur all feeling better than i do right now Xo

]]> ~Birgu Almost done ^^ *cancer?* http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23464397/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23464397/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 06:51:44 PST
1) I wrote a journal about 5 days after valentines day, but it got erased accidentally. annoying -_-.

2) there was another thing that I heard and wanted to note about, but i went against it in the end.

much as I had said I wasn't doing anything for valentines day, in the end i did. And because of it I got a little more confident, I had a panic attack, and i got hate mail XD. i'm gonna talk about it another time, but the journal will be only up for a few days so..gotta read quick.

so my first person banned from my account. No names to be said, but he's been braggy. so BANHAMMER TIME!! XD. *THWACK!*

but..cause of him i lost a little motivation. it'll come back soon ^^

I..

1) have 2 weak-but-better-than-nothing collages that i'm gonna post up soon. one is a rota of my phantasy star characters, and another rota of my valkyria chronicles squad.

VALKYRIA CHRONICLES IN THE UK IS SELLING OUT EXTREMELY FAST SO BE WARNED. MY SISTER SAW 10 COPIES IN HMV AND THE NEXT DAY THERE WAS ONLY THE ONE LEFT!..which is mine now XD

2) my sister also works at the dvd company that checks that the uk versions of animes like "NARUTO" and "SHE THE ULTIMATE WEAPON" are ok, so she brought a few dvds for me ^^

Mar volume 4 skip 26 episodes to watch that -_-'
She the ultimate weapon volumes 2 and 3 (i dont have 1 -_-'
baldr force exe (wanted to see this for 3 years or so. it's good, but..neo magazine didnt agree so much with a score of 2/5)

all ze non-essentials out the way now. It's nothing serious but grandad has cancer, which however sounds bad, is treatable at this stage. he's got all sorts of problems like he has to rest a lot and to urinate into a bag. fingers crossed ^^.

ok next journal i'll be looking at the valentines day *massacre*, the collages or one of them at least should be finished, i'll be highlighting a new writing project being performed by me and , andddd some other stuff

If you have a ps3, you can find me on the Network as Birgu of course XD

registered games so far are Littlebigplanet, sonic unleashed, mirrors edge, and valkyria chronicles. i have fifa 09 as well but..i dont even wanna touch a football game in truth. guuuh

]]> ~Birgu erm... http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23161801/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23161801/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 18:08:20 PST

An early warning for now, I may need to disappear for a while both on deviantart and on msn. I did my crazy thing which I said I had plans to do and I may need to lie low in case of a wrong interpretation. It did however snow as soon as I was done so..thats nice. Btw, hppy vtns dy 2 thse stl alve.

2 of my 5 orders at least came in. the 2 dvds. Man I really am getting into black cat..

grandad's coming out of hospital. YAY ^^!

the next 5 days I will get some outstanding stuff down, tweaked a little maybe. But really I got a english essay to do, and i've been given 6 very heavy books to read Xo.

yeah, so this is just a concern journal. You see here appreciation for other things that I appreciate. you appreciate, well come appreciate with me. If not, then, hey, i havent been an artist much. check the age gap, I still got years to find something even better.

*this journal was intended for the deviantart public. No animals to my knowledge were harmed and if you have any problems, we'll duke it out matrix-style round the back next thursday, ok? And yes I havent gotten much sleep so youcan understand the randomness of it all..I hope at least*

]]> ~Birgu ouchies Xo *and Rthym Eyes story explained* http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23119138/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/23119138/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 11:19:26 PST
throughout the week, my heart haveth been skewered, and by the words of my various online friends "deep-fat fried or raw". Personally I think more "hard-boiled with people dipping bread into it" sounds more accurate.

But also ooh. Don't you just hate it when you see someone and you expect them to say "hi" "hello" or "goodbye" but just get nothing? Extreme peeve that I have. Or when people just ignore you or leave suddenly like it's "oh i've had enough of you now go away bye bye go to hell".

*icon:a-tear-is-only-water*, while ignoring my deviantart now..got me these "how to get published" and "how to write sci-fi and fantasy" books. very lengthy in text but I am amazingly reading a normal book for once. So sweet of her <3. Unfortunately..now happy with me right nao...

Ok, i have a few various things to do with valentines day I have to post up. A poem I did around december, the song..if anyone wants to laugh at me... and I have a picture of "Chi" from chobits on the way. Maybe other things as well will come up, but really. Valentines day seems such a miserable time y'know

(I have a crazy master plan that involves parents, and being anonymous. I need to speak to my friends about it, but they suggested I went out with a bang)

Right now i'm waiting for like a billion online deliveries. Well course not but theres quite a few and i'm getting impatient

1) Slayers volume 1 on dvd
2) black cat volume 4 on dvd
3) romeo and juliet urban manga version
4) hayate the combat butler manga volume 3
5) Higurashi/ When they cry manga volume 1, which came out just recently..or will at least come to me Xp

erm..anything else..anything else...oh yeah..my story

)completed the 1st draft character list of "Rthym eyes". The main character I am going to call "Nicole Walkwood", with friends "chris" and "jasmine". I also added in a boyfriend interest "sy mooring", a bully "Beatrice", and a little explanation on "project warmonger"

*pauses, forgot to have lunch again Xo*

STORY SYNOPHIS

Nicole Walkwood has one major problem on her hands. Since the age of 10 she has the severe problem that she is blind. With her mother dying shortly after this due to illness, she now lives at home with her father, however the very same man that consumed Nicoles life out of control, and still is. Funded secretly by the military for creating a machine that makes the subject into a electronic weapon, Professor Jeremy Walkwood uses his daughter as a lab rat for this same crazy goal, until a minor flaw ends him up in prison. Now with foster parents and 3 great friends helping her with every struggle, Nicole is still unknowing about the horrors befelled from her dad. But when she struggles to adapt to her new lifestyle, she learns that her blindness is not a curse forever. For when the beats that reach the heart fill into her, colour comes to this unexplored world. What once was lost, is now found again.

just a little idea i had that people seem to like. If I can then i'd like to write a few more stories afterwards involving music. maybe music + twewy= something like..i dunno..."stereo thieves"?

Well I hope things cheer up a little, cause until it does, i can't watch anime, I can't game, frankly I can't throw out the care without giving a care.

(biiig ty's to the serenearia gang and to my new big friend kim. Sorry that I have the blue eyes that you want instead of black Xo.)

some stuff about the yu-gi-oh card game I could talk about, but i'll just put it that a guy with a big beard that I know is doomed. very..

*chi pops up*

Chi: CHIII!
me: oh hey Chi. what are you doing here? I'm just writing a new blog.
Chi: Chi..ru..
me: huh?
Chi: rub..
me: you..want me to rub something?
Chi: rub..rub..
me: you..found a magic lamp?
Chi: rub..rubbish.
me: O_O
Chi: Hideki rubbish. Hideki draw Chi NOW!
me: wha..wha..wait..what do you mean rubbiHEY HEY HEY, EASY WITH THE EAR PULLING. GAH

*dragged to graphics tablet to draw*

*I'm sorry but the blog server is experiencing pointless techical issues that arent even funny. Please hang up, and try again in the next ten minuites. thank you.*

mood is desperate. i'm desperate for comfort. hugs meee nao Xo

]]> ~Birgu I can't sing =') http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22929040/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22929040/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 18:44:56 PST
I was going to add some song literature to my deviations, but I typed it out to a few people I know, and they kinda laughed at it, so I am a bit depressed about it, but i've taken the time to improve it slightly. comment it you wanna see it.

Basically it's more kind of a romantic version of the song "sky chord", i.e the latest bleach ending song right now. hehe, i find it cute how inoue's head wriggles a little when she sings "zuuuuuuto", dunno why.

the song is found here [link]

oh yeah, moods aint working again Xo.

]]> ~Birgu cold chill, crying child http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22898256/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22898256/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 05:11:48 PST
But i'm scared....

The concert was great, but I still feel kinda distant from everyone. I have this horrible chill running down my spine ever since I got back from home. I haven't eaten, and I feel really sick.

"are my parents angry about me?"
"yes, very"

Philosophy: bad starter grade, but on the right track. late for lessons (..no i'm not. Also asks about my report..which I never got..)

History: bad starter grade, needs to keep more track on time but is doing good (then..everyone happy? of godammn course not)

English: Doing good, no real concern but help on my coursework is offered on next tuesday (my birthday)

Heck it's better than most peoples, but do they care? noooo, just because my sister did better than me, they expect me to be einstein after her..i'm a godammn otaku with a misunderstood life.

@) My social life is weak (parents)
@) My love life is amazingly depressing ( @) My general life is detested by my parents, consisting of loud anime music and gaming
@) My handwriting is dyspraxic
@) my revision is weak but strong with the right materials

For those that notice, Valentines day is on the 14th, which is a saturday. So teens sending stuff either know your gf's/bf's workplace, or send it a day early..which is also not advised

FRIDAY 13TH

so yes..I will say it now, and later as well..

THIS VALENTINES DAY IS BAD LUCK FOR MOST!

Godammn god yes i'd love to get something for valentines but...it's not gonna happen..otherwise i'll donate Â£10 to the first charity I see.

If you've ever been dumped and hated every second of it..read "Gatcha gacha"..it'll make you feel better^^

i just really dont have much to say. heh, i'm crying while talking to people who have nice parents, ones that dont shout, or find my grades ok.... I'm happy about what I do and who I please, and I love to look after people because they mean so much to me........A real-life hug would mean the world to me right now.

]]> ~Birgu Judgemental angel http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22869630/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22869630/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 16:22:46 PST [link]

I'm heading to the concert tomorrow and my parents are heading to parents evening. Here's a weak schedule of what i've been told..

6:50 a.m Thursday: wake up and check everythings ready.

around 8 : leave for college

9 : history exam

11:15 a small club session

11:45 or so?: we take the train to taylas

unknown: spend time there

Birgu's birthday treat, oriental buffet CANCELLED cause they dont have enough money to buy me anything...-_-

around..say...5ish: head to the concert area

7: doors open

11: curfew, head home and meet . we all head back to taylas

FRIDAY

those of us still living instead of bed zombies, head to college via a 7:20 bus, then go home normally.

still very blocky

[much as i know i'm gonna be ok, i just have this..nostalgic feeling like i'll never write in this again..]

just in case though, i got comments from about some of my story ideas, and she likes one I made called "rhythm eyes" about a blind girl who is given the power of sight whenever music is playing. I'll bring my notepad and scribble all my ideas about it down. I'd like to finish writing at least one story before I leave college. When i get back and am all clear then I will write about the general plotline for rhythm eyes.

Well..i guess..um..keep sharp deviantart, i'll miss you while i'm away ^^.

"If you cannot smile, then what is the point of existing? If you cannot find a purpose, what is the point of living? We all must die in the end, so fufil this god-given task, to make your own purpose so you can smile for it"

]]> ~Birgu ..wow... http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22693785/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22693785/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 13:03:09 PST for answering to my topic "wanna choose my fate?", and an extra BIIIIIGGGGGGGG thank you to for not only answering to it, but watching me as well. hehe, always get a little smitten for every watch i get ^^.

*cough cough*, oks. I am pretty suprised about getting 5 replies i'm the space of like..12 hours, and i will say, a few things have progressed, and i am now "negotiating" with my mum if she and dad can go by themselves..amazingly..it's working O_O.

so just before the start of today, i.e last night, and i tried our luck picking up tarot cards. With my set came out "casual", "duo", and "serenity" (remember that mine isnt a proper card set), wheras she, with a proper set, picked out "the world"(past), "the hanged man" (present), and "the emperor"(future). hmm..odd..

*pauses and leaves for the next 10 hours for an english exam*

yes an english exam. God how i hated doing an essay on Bolton Wanderers F.C. but i did it. In celebratory of finishing, i actually cried a little, bought the new fire emblem ds game as a present to myself, and since i finished early, waited for and concert-pal Tayla to go and celebrate themselves in either mcdonalds or kfc which they always go to on a tuesday, so i could ask them how it went. no-one came after 40 minuites so i gave up XD.

And fire emblem ds is kinda hard, but i've managed to finish the prologue and travel to chapter 4 in the game.
If you like fire emblem, buy it.
If you like some sort of strategy game, with some challenge, buy it.

If you don't like a game based on luck, stats and resources, where money is sparse, enemies are tough, and weapons that eventually break after usage, where any character that dies will never come back into the game, THEN DONT BUY IT XD. It's a weak spoiler but at the start of the game, you need to choose 1 of your 5 sub-characters and let them go on a suicide decoy mission. Bitter-horrible for perfectionists like myself, but its either that, or get raped by 14 oncoming lvl 11 heavy guards..oh, and you're probably only lvl 2. I'll say now, get rid of the old geezer. He may be the strongest character you have, but he's only just stronger, and a padalin to boot. With time, the other horseback characters can get to his level and be waaay stronger.

any developments about the concert i will blog, but again, thanks to those that gave a response. Will...try...do...some..pictures..drawing..hand..will eventually say "yes"...needs more bribery XD

]]> ~Birgu wanna choose my fate? vote now Xo http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22645812/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22645812/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 04:26:18 PST
@) original plan: All american rejects concert: 6pm. staying at friends house for the night, then back to my house.

@) Screwup: parents evening just established to be on the 29th. 5-8. told mum and she INSISTS ON LIFE AND DEATH that i go, sod socialising, sod being with friends, sod the Â£45 deposit (and apparently it's part of my birthday celebration -_-).

now..

If I go to the parents evening: i'll probably get bad remarks from teachers. not to mention i'll feel gloomy, guilty for leaving 2 girls by themselves (i get very worried bout...THAT..kinda situation). lose Â£45, look like an idiot..possibly lose friends

If I make a runner and go to the concert: ill incur the wrath of satan himself(or herself). probably my laptop and consoles and whatnot i won't see for a month, an earful for a very long time, strict college regieme will get established, but i'll at least have a ok time while it lasts. The friend i'll be staying with says she'll try and get her mum to calm mine down a little..but hers gets pushed around easily.

The main argument about this is that i'm 17, going on 18 in a few days, yet people see me like a caged rat under strict discipline. for gods sake woman, why can't you just go to the parents evening yourself? -_-

I'm trying to find some sort of alternative option that'll work out in both favours, but prospects look pretty grim.

so vote now, cause we've got some intelligent people out there and it's driving me very insane

thankies

Andy

current score

concert: 1
unsure : 1
parents evening: 0
holding out for a miracle: 0

]]> ~Birgu Camera-shy http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22518478/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22518478/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 04:57:24 PST

I got me's a webcam that I really wanted to get from the whsmiths sale...and I regret forgetting the problem that I don't look good on any good photo. It's like falling in love or best friends with someone online, and they'll ask *can I see a picture of you?* and expect either this hot guy or girl of their dreams to pop up. When they see someone completely ugly though..bam..your discrimination kicks in and suddenly you lose interest. That's really what scares me online.

is wearing the necklace I got her. YAY! ^^ *dances*. So happy.

On great days of waiting and anticipation, I got me a postsecrets book, and WOW do the people confess anything. love, hate, babies, bogies, parking tickets, even problems about sex or being forgotten. These brave people over the world, I salute you for being honest...but it scares a few of us. Nethertless, I'd love to one day go to one of these "postsecret exibition galleries in the U.S

S'all i'm gonna say for now. We're having Grandma for lunch in about 10 minuites. I've been meaning to work on some pics, but I have exams coming up so thats my excuse. In a months time i'll be 18 so if anyone has Little Big Planet online then my sackboy's ready to adventure into the big world..almost XD it would sooo much help if mum and dad stopped grilling me for everything =_=.

(cardcaptor cards seem quick enough so ill try and do a few of those if i can find any time)

]]> ~Birgu The boy who leapt through adoration http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22264652/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22264652/ Mon, 29 Dec 2008 16:35:33 PST
YOU MUST WATCH "THE GIRL WHO LEAPT THROUGH TIME" AT ALL COSTS!!

I'll make up a review before new years k? ^^

oh and dont eat too many sweets. 3 mouth ulcers isnt that nice.

]]> ~Birgu A picture missing.. http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22029942/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/22029942/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 10:20:21 PST
Oh and the purple bag question..epic fail XD

]]> ~Birgu The mystery of the purple bag O_O http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21700506/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21700506/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 13:53:43 PST
I shall say that i'm still in the living by telling you the tale of the purple bag. I brought it in on a English lesson on wednesday, just a small purple paper bag wrapped up. Someone did ask me about it, so I went outside of the classroom, showed it, and came back. Immediately I got questions of "whats in the bag, whats in the baaagggg!!". Kinda of taken aback, I said they were postcards for Postsecret and that i couldn't show it to anyone else because then my entry would be known if it even got published..

I wasn't prepared for the amount of questions that came about it but just for people that use deviantart..

ITS NOT POSTCARDS XD.

Dats right. A complete and utter lie, and i have tried to reinforce the superstition by talking about it openly to those that are interested in it, i'm not hiding anything really^^

Obviously doesn't sound much, and is supa unfair, but until the 12th of november, if you can guess what it is right, then you can have a 7 day auto request, which allows you whenever once to make a request to me to draw something and that request will be done within 7 days, otherwise you get another, and another, hence taking contro of me Xo.

Each deviant can have only 2 guesses so choose wisely. No vague guessing either like "jewelery" or "food". You have to be more specific like "necklace" or "pockey", "DVD", "clip on hooks etc"

If you can bother then HAPPY GUESSING ^^. I'll start tableting..soon as i find my pen Xo.

]]> ~Birgu Manga recon=ok, everything else=sux http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21566258/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21566258/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 13:16:30 PST
So..in short bullet points.

@ I feel lonely and secluded from things. Every time I go by myself I feel lonely. If i'm in a group of just me and someone else then it goes really good. Any more than just me and one person, and I seriously always get thrown out of all existance and replaced for just those 2 in front of me. Yeah..hi..remember me? Xo

@ West kent recon. I bought some manga and got some free stuff. Submitted my gurumin picture for a art competition and all i got were "it's ok", "alright". Much as I had loved to win sooo badly, I did lose, and then I didn't win anything in the raffle, especially a gothic lolita book that was there that caught my eye.

@ Ty Jade P for the idea for christmas..but..the shop assistant can't find it anywhere and something else is wanted now...soo...sux..

@ Dad's on the warpath with me because I walked home instead of a unknown car ride home

I have a ton of people saying i'm pessemistic and so they don't like me in that way...well..today confirmed something....it's not me thats the problem. It's the people. I mean, see the first point for example. Can you blame me?

I won't dishearten my drawings as is my soul, for one I want to still become as good as and and of others. A successful artist i want to be...

So i'll be working this time on an anima+ picture, and I'm going to try a Tales of Symphonia minicomic for a bit. Stay sharp deviantart.

oh yeah, SUPPORT MILKYCABBAGE FANDUB SINGING ON IMEEM

]]> ~Birgu quick note, ALMOST 2000 VIEWS ^^ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21457885/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21457885/ Wed, 12 Nov 2008 17:02:28 PST

Yeah, college work's a bugger still, but I am going to do a christmas picture and an experimental 2000 views special. I also have some valentines day poetry ready as well so thats gd.

The experimental special will be on...ahem..drum roll pls... (drdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrddrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdrdd etc etc)

HIGURASHI

Why? Frankly I have little clue. Basically this morning a guy on youtube asked for a background music song name that plays when rika gets...uurrrgghh..dissected.
(see [link] and click on execution of the club folks for that one)

So I searched..and searched..found it..sent it....and now..I think i'm kinda possessed. It's a 2 min 30 song but I have it on repeat for like 2 hours and I don't mind. Have I gone crazy?..probably.

Ooh, ooh, and i'm gonna revise my play "summer snow" as well..and watch Onegai teacher since thats in the winter as well.

Thats pretty much it. The higurashi manga doesnt come out until january and it's hard to find strawberry panic...

OMG

THE STRESS POCKEY HAS BEEN EATEN! WHAT I ATE IT STRESSED UPON NOBODY KNOWS...cept me ^^

So look out for...

omg a request might finally get done?
2000 view special higurashi
christmas special Shana/?
Valentines day poem "Limitless love"
Possibly a sectioned out smash brothers brawl gallery
Anima+
Hinata?
Misa Misa?
INUYASHA VS CARNAGE...?
A continuation of the CCS cards and the world ends with you gallery

that car -_-. You just got hit by a car. Though you did die, Birgu has ressurected you. Still, you died so..

GAME OVER XD

--> Continue?
--> Restart from Last Save Point
--> Change Party Members
--> Restart from the Last Chapter
-->Multiplayer
-->Return to Hub World (Des Sanctus)-(Hinamizawa)
(Your Room)---(Arena)
(Forest)------(Xina)

]]> ~Birgu Ingame blush : /// o http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21346246/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21346246/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 18:09:18 PST
ok, main topic seems a bit wierd. Basically I was playing Holic and most of our guild was in channel 6 just messing around in luna, and everyones "shhhiinn, come to 6!", "we is having a party", "omg pukz's harassing me Xo". so I zoomed over to 6 when i could, put my character in a gd place, nd..somehow..i end up face to face with my Monk class rival WolReiko (it's a girl -_-) and we ended up blowing kisses and using small heart/big heart emotion. She even gave me a rare gift for my new priest and I apologised for being competetive. I know it's ingame and all, but it's..wierd. Wtf wierd. And everyone's going "awwwwww".

Crazy developments are going to happen, i just know it...

had a philosophy essay to give in, gives it in, my teacher says "this is inadequate". I got so annoyed about his damn attitude and negativity to me all the time that I did 3 times the amount during the afternoon, huffed and puffed like crazy, and stormed my way through the high street. I intend to give it in to him tomorrow and just say "there, ya happy?". How the heck can people write large essays in half an hour is what i want to know. This took 7 -_-.

Can't get that much free time around these days, but I soo badly intend to do some writing and art. Ive got a new story idea called "Paper tetrion" which is like..hmm..

harry potter + paper + fate/stay night -:- wands x typical fantasy setting.

and I really wanna do some art, I am gonna do a christmas picture when I can

nothing much, but if my life was recorded for public tv, it'd have many awards by now XD. Some tagging is hopefully to be done next.

]]> ~Birgu A glass of random pulease ^^ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21219121/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21219121/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 15:19:57 PDT
Okies, a proper journaley..if thats even possible. In this journal is..

@ The pockey of doom

@ Hmm, hume, hime- Mezame haunts me once again

@ Why the heck I havent done anything recently.

@ Asked to live

@ Expo results screen

@ Not a freakshow

first on the agenda

The Pockey of Doom....?

Oh come on, you're used to the randomness by now, it's cause i'm bored. During the expo was my chance to get some more Pockey cause I ran out. The only problem is..I only bought one pack cause I was pressured for time, and I..kinda finished it in 1 day..actually..theres 1 stick left. Just the one. I do not know why, but a sudden concept on emotions by food came to mind, So now I hold on to this 1 stick of pockey. I'm gonna take it to college with me when we restart, and i'm only gonna eat it when I get really ticked off. That way, hopefully instead of just sighing and marching out the classroom for fresh air, someone might get the hint i'm annoyed about something..but it'll never work anyway..why? Cause no-one knows this pockey rule in the first place..therefore i'm just eating pockey X'(. Clever me..sigh..

Hime

After buying a bundle pack of hack//sign box 2, i saw i'd save Â£5 if i bought 2, so I shakily grabbed a bundle of "My-Hime" dvd's volumes 1-3, and it seems actually kinda a good series. It's not often you see a girls only team kicking evil ass, I don't own many dvds like that. It's basically magical girls with a fraction gundam. Hmm, favourite character so far has to be Mikoto, the short animal girl with the black sword. I think it's cause i like how she spirals round a few times dragging her sword on the ground before she actually strikes. Plus theres always a character with a huuge appetite XD.

Mezame

I've known the song "Mezame" for over 3 years now. Originally when I first heard it, I thought it was sung in latin opera and was a theme song for the game "Lineage 2". i know now It must be korean, but I was shocked to hear it while I was watching "My-Hime". The first times you hear it are in the menu seletion screen of every dvd (dont remember it in volume 1, volume 2 yes with the black sword smacking down into the screen, and 3 with summoning Durron) when you press one of the buttons, and at the start of episode 3. It's a pretty cool song.
nice amv i found of My-Hime that uses the song, otherwise stay away from spoilers. [link]

Nothing getting done

Essays. Big fat damn essays..My teachers are so nice..

Asked to live

So like, 3 weeks ago, I kinda went emo and shouted on this problems page "Everyone's mean to me, every looks at me bad, everyone ignores me. nobody cares. No-one will understand even if I make it simple for them right in front of them. No-one will talk to me. I feel cursed". Since then things I admit have gotten a little better, but I actually got a reply from a total stranger a few days ago, telling me to actually keep on living for the future. I was so touched I actually replied "bless you for being alive and having concern". YAYS! I FEELZ SPECIAL NOW ^^.

Expo results screen

Expo..expo..hmm, well this is all the merchandise I got...

2 posters, 1 of d gray man and 1 of Lucky Star.

Manga, aoi house volumes 1-2, fate stay night volume 1, hack//g.u+ 2, hack//xxxx volume 1, shakugan NS 3, and kingdom hearts II 2. I tried getting zero no tsukaima but I couldn't see it, and Strayberry panic 1 sold out Xo.

Anime: My-Hime 1-3, Hack//sign box 2/2 with liminality discs, Shakugan no Shana volume 4 (omg early release by half a month), black cat volume 3.

oh, and the box of pockey.If you know me well however, good things go quickly because they're new. I never really got a good time to "relax" and watch any of the animes except for the last volume of my-hime, other times i just get bugged a ton, but everythings been used up now pretty much. I'd love to bring my-hime to the anime club..if we ever get it properly together and we actually bother to WATCH something. I've basically given up on fooley cooley cause of the first 2 sessions. huh..

not a freakshow..erm, actually I've forgotten why I wrote this one..Oh yeah. I was playing holic and our sub-guild leader promoted 3 of us to Couseillor status which is the highest non-leader status we can get. Well we 3 are the most strongest and most active in the guild. I'm lvl 48, sharin's lvl 50, and Mizu is lvl 50. The only difference is that in terms of power, I seem to be stronger than Sharin, and mizu plays like..8 hours a day. i can do 4, maybe 6 if i'm really bored, but 8? I t... ]]> ~Birgu A..personal...tug of war http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21193451/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21193451/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 20:00:59 PDT
very quick entry, dunno why i am actually writing this up, but it's something fresh at least.

If you're on facebook, then you've probably heard of "owned", the application that buys and sells your friends around. Well, for one of the people who I owned, that person now is in the middle of a tug of war between me and some random guy who we dont know, but all i can say is..
despise him, for he is the enemy.

We are now currently exchanging blows by buying the person back and forth between each other, and he's pretty much beaten me, but not totally.

The asking price to buy this person is 1.8 million money. I had only 600,000. I can't believe I was actually desperate not to lose at this point still, but the battle continues. I spent an hour searching for actually how to get more money in a short amount of time.

After some sneaking around, I have found a solution, and a program to suit it. I now spend 20 minuites every day, swatting mosquitoes off a sunbather for cash. My money since then has risen to 1,100,000, 700mil out. I don't feel like stopping at 1.8 million though. 2.5 million sounds much better.

Just to show that even the stupidest things can end up with wierd results The higher my bid, the higher the next one, and I just feel like carrying on this cycle if i have to, just to win...wierd..the most basic babyish things can become unpredictedly competetive...

this is just a filler journal for a little while. My next journal will be a proper one with all the stuff I said i'd do..

(btw, the 4th song of hack//liminality, kioku. isnt the shortened version just kickass? Actually, I've recieved mixed opinions about it. why!?!?)

]]> ~Birgu U kno what I herd..well.. http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21083882/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21083882/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 17:48:31 PDT
[link]

mmn, so anyways...heres hows stuff's going.

1)Expo within one week, i know. Nd for our little group of 8, i gotta arrange a time of rendevous. hmm

2) Arties, nd while the last free pic on my list for now thats incomplete are my tsubasa pic and my +anima pic, work has been started on the requests at last. A bit of inuyasha done and for the bleach request i've changed from soi-fon, to ishida, nd now to Byakuya. Fangirls please do not scream.it may put his hair out of place...

3) verryy busy with large bundles of homework, and all i can say is WE HAVE SOCIAL LIVES! HONEST XD

4) So like..a week ago, I had a wierd dream that I was in a murder mystery on a boat, not making much sense, and my neck got slashed at the end of the dream,..then it changed to me somehow try to make a digimon eat a cabbage leaf for the first time..liek, wierd...

5) I..am going...to work on a poem which I started in about may. Its not creative and its kinda basic, but i like a little of it. It's called "Underneath the Sakura tree" or something like that...

6) want to try flash art, shame I not have flash program anywhere, can't buy either....braaaiiinnnsss. DIE ZOMBIE!! XD

7) i'm making a compilation of every story idea i've thought of so far. Got most that I remember, but theres a few i've forgotten such as "Seitsuya" and "Rogue hardware". Realllyyy wanna get "love angel" up and running again though. OOOh and "Hook, dream, chase" as well.

Seitsuya= 12 furry friends kicking ass

Rogue hardware=5 year old + strongest robot assassin in the world

Love angel= god+angel+granny+guy+satan ^^.

hook,dream,chase=boy+girl+gd+hatred+the creepiest arcade game ever...

..damn, i just remembered another one.."under the presser" which was to be a halloween story last year Xo. i am really forgetful it seems XD.

ok, next time will be a normal journal I SAID NORMAL!!! it's gonna have a few facts about me on it and then the one after that i agreed to do some journal tagging so..yeah

(eeeee, talesrunner tournament starts in 3 days Xo. I'm really scared. But it doesnt seem my first round has many strong opponents, and the NO.1 player is in group b ^^.
prob be a elimination, b elimination, c elimination, d elimination, ab elimination 2, cd elimination 2, abcd final round)

]]> ~Birgu Tournament signup...OOPS!!! Xo http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21026116/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/21026116/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 03:00:20 PDT Ok, so the new online game "Tales Runner" just opened up, a game where you jump hurdles, ski down off cliffs, and run away from giant octopus's. I've been playing it for a little while and I consider myself half decent...

It must have been something I drank last night or something, but right this morning I signed up for a tournament on the 24th

you can see the signup-list here until the 24th [link]

So i'm in group C. All I know is dragonic and lordofspeed are very very good, have my doubts about supah.

If I do well, or if someone is willing to go with me, theres another tournament on the 30th.

ANYONE WHO IS INTERESTED IN THIS TOURNAMENT HAS UNTIL THE 19TH TO SIGN UP! IT'S THE FIRST 100 TO SIGN THAT GET THE PLACES!!

I know I'm screwed but..wish me luck ^^.

Birgu, level 3 runner.
Favourite stage: Either Hurdles (E), Ice Queen (E), wrath of the octopus (E), or any of the 2 brothers (E)

Most hated level: The Moonlight forest (E), speedrun (E), or Wrath of the Octopus (N)

Used character: Charlie (balanced stats)

]]> ~Birgu The Blamming police are a-coming http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20936185/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20936185/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 11:43:20 PDT [link]

It seems many people hate tracers..and what am I myself? I myself am one of these tracers. So..I thought I'd answer these stupid questions and kick them in the nuts while i'm at it XD.

Oh, and i am annoyed about the article a lot so..you may see a meaner side of me. annoyed was originally meant to be "pissed off"

1) No I don't know how to draw, thats why i'm learning in the free time I get, plus i'm dyspraxic and i'm not using that as a full excuse to why I can't draw Xp

2)I do change parts of it at times, but I have never said the picture to be copyright me, only the work done in the traced version

3)It is fan art to show my appreciation to the series in question, so shut the hell up XD

4) No comment..wtf's a vector artist?

5)..so because I trace I shoplift too? Geez..If there's anyone who shoplifts, it's probably you of course...

6) But what people do is freedom of choice. If we wanna draw normally, we do it. If we wanna trace, we do it. No-one wants to take orders from some crazy people we've never met, shouting at us because of what we want to do. To people against our own freedoms, they get flicked off the table, simple as that.

7) When you see a picture on google and such, do you really spend hours on end looking for the original artist? If you post something on the internet, it's crying out to be shared among people. Eventually it spreads out into a needle somewhere hidden in the world and you're the last person alive with no transport. If you don't want stuff to be shared then by all means do something about it. Put it on a private website, block it to people can't save the picture onto computer, ANYTHING!

8)They should be proud that their work is seem worldwide and everything started from their own hands. If I drew an amazing picture, maybe not everyone would, but I'd be happy for people to make copies of it in their own style. The ones that take it completely 100% as theirs, colours, reference and all and that it was the original design that started off everything should be shotgunned. Still got a problem? Tough! bye bye ^^.

9) I explained in 7 and 8 for the last half hour. What am I gonna do? Grab my wizards cap, summon him/her and kiss their feet for a minuite, before giving them a bouquet and then summon them away? This question just asks the same as 7 and 8, and is meant for the artist to feel confused, trapped and guilty. IT! DOESN'T! WORK!!

10) Oh..original..the same question as 1 again -_-. I trace for fun and enjoyment, and freehand practice for an hour at different things every week. Supplying us with websites on how to draw well is a pretty nice thing to do, but..some of us are not so..immediately gifted as most artists are. I practise more than most people I know, and I do worse than them still.
Plus, whatever happened to finding our own style of drawing? isn't a guide pretty much a tutorial to draw in a style freehand via tracing? If you want good quality art to come, then leave the freehand wannabe's to practise the proper thing in their own time and style? Not just pile them into a group and make the tutorial "God".

I'm not starting war or anything, and I understand some of this non-tracing lark, but just because you can doesn't mean you can stick your tongue out at the people lagging behind and call them losers when they still have dreams and ambition. If you forever have a problem with tracing, then the doors just on the other side of the room. You..might want to use it XD.

So anyone who reads this, I wanna know your opinion for the week. Should people trace or is it such a sinful crime to have freedom?

Birgu 2008
Andrew Christopher Shaw
17 years old
novice writer, poet, learning freehand artist and tracer
AND HAPPY ABOUT WHAT I DO!

]]> ~Birgu Generousity Is a curse.. http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20878192/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20878192/ Tue, 07 Oct 2008 17:22:10 PDT

Or so many people have said, and I am willing to join them on it.

Over the past week, a lot of people have said "You're nice" or "he looks cute". Much as good compliments go, getting the same compliment over and over again is..pretty infuriating actually. Maybe somebody'd like to elaborate for me?
Geez, now pretty much all the people I wanna be close to have zoomed to the other side of the room with bazookas, and the people that I don't wanna get close to..I feel like a rare cuddly animal suddenly. I at least have given 7 hugs in the week to strange girls i've only known for less that 2 hours. Added to the knowledge that others have piled up work for me zooming around the college for them, making me a cash dispenser and still emotionally stabbing me "hopefully" by accident, and you know somethings wrong with society. It's impossible to have a perfect day, but people could at least consider a few situations. Im only angry because people give the impression they want me to be angry..this fairytale so far, does not bode well. My heart says that beauty is yet to come in life, but my conscience is egging me on to be one of those..emo self harmers...I didn't know it could do that O_O.
But I can see what they're getting at. If their lifes a mess, then maybe by sacrificing blood will fate give pity on them and make the world better. It probably doesn't but..it gives the moment a bit.

enough ranting ranting ranting. I found kinda a rare pure black/red leaf out of the thousands i've seen so far and i've taken it home with me. A sign to be evil a bit? Or the crummiest sequel ever to the Shadow the Hedgehog game? Either way, it looks pretty cool

1) If you've asked a request and you think it's been ignored, don't think that for 1 second. I know perfectly still that i have 3 requests from Dormhal and 1 from Luigiboy85. I however just can't find the right references for the best pictures for each request. They'll come eventually however..

2)Expo..expo..suddenly I have yet another job to organise where we all meet at what time. No rest for the innocent huh..still a bit angry that everything anime club or expo related is just thrown for me to do, but it can't be helped. Everyone else lives just such busy lives..why yes..that was sarcasm XD. But I guess I'm the only one that has contact to everyone. Barry has no contact to Sam and vica versa, and Tasha? Best for me to not ask probably, hence a hanging commences..

3) SAAAIITTTOOOOO SAN XD!! I have GOT to draw me a picture of Saito sometime...possibly with in it.. 7 letter word across, coconuts, begins with B and the 6th letter is T, i.e B _ _ _ _ T _ XD. *explosion outside!*

4)Nyuu, not much has changed, i still think i'm a cat ^o_o^ ..yeah..that's a pretty bad cat design i've done..but at least it's original. Try and improve it

5) Just picked up a manga copy of "Rozen Maiden". cutesy..but..wierd..who never know dolls could slap you in the face so much and have Winnie the Pooh with kitchen knives? XD.

Thats pretty much all right now. I'm slowly getting to hit my 2000 pageview mark so whoever shows me a screencap of it..i dunno..can have a specific series, character, or picture drawn of their choice, though it still probably won't be much.. I'm not open to requests for a bit otherwise until i've cleared 2 of the outstanding requests. Cyas ^^

*reason the mood is "Longing" is cause of still messed up moods button, though I would like a proper hug from someone who I actually know more than 2 hours Xo. Suppose i'm lonely too so i'm longing for company as well, so the mood wasn't "too" bad..I guess*.

]]> ~Birgu Return of the bloody cicadas http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20669046/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20669046/ Thu, 25 Sep 2008 13:37:25 PDT
yup, an obsession for "higurashi no naku koro ni" has smoothley returned, and to celebrate, i thought i'd download this [link]

to no avail...
but i'm working on it ^^.

Ok, i seem to have a bit of artists block. i'm gonna try fighting it though so i asked :icona~tear~is~only~water: for advice and she shakily replied to do a +anima pic, so i'm gonna do that. Gomen, but all other stuff's still on hold, especially if the pic isnt perfect.

Ugh, i now officially suck at keyboard ddr, so..i am making a strange collage to get better.

The 100 clear collage

1: the collage is made up of 100 "stage cleared" pictures. Sounds easy yes..but...

2: The stage clear sign can only be added to the collage if one of the following terms are met

a) The song used must be on hard or above and at least rank 7. Rank 6 challenge is also accepted.

b) for level 6-7 the level must be perfected without combo flaw. For 8-9 it must be at least AA (with exceptions for extremely crazy songs), and 10 and above..just survive

c) (made up just now) for anything that is "medium difficulty, it must be at least level 6 and x1.3 speed.

sounds really stupid..well..flip. I just feel like doing it.

screens collected so far: 4

Fullmetal alchemist series 2 starts april.
higurashi the manga is out next january
season 3 of higurashi is being worked on

tis all..unless i'm forgetting something

]]> ~Birgu Salva Nos: My melody of despair http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20535474/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20535474/ Wed, 17 Sep 2008 10:52:38 PDT
The title's made of the song "melody" from the forgotten anime "Noir".

So, after going a bit crazy for half an hour, then coming back to finish beat, I woke up this morning, in pain, but I seemed to find even slight things funny which helped to cheer me up a slight bit. At college, I was dreading going to english for reasons, but it didn't turn out too bad, plus I made kinda a peace offering to some peeps i'm not getting along with, nd made gd contributions in english, got lost and had to ask directions to philosophy (lol), and in history i made the great comeback of myself there most, that i seem to come in late at the worst of times. We all found it funny, so yeah, a little better.

The afternoon..as fun as setting yourself on fire..literally. Suddenly everyone's eyes seemed to look at me as if i'm a asshole, smokers kept on getting in front of me, some kids threw paper at me etc etc. Rushed into woolworths to grab some headphones, saw some people that knew me, nd..well..ignored me. I trudged outside even worse and in an effort to cheer myself up, got a copy of "Dramacon 1". First few pages, de-pre-ssing as well. Chucked it back in my bag and walked home, thinking that so nice feeling that everyone's laughing at you behind your back and any moment one of them'll come up to you, hand you a gun, and you'll blast yourself without question. cause..well..as roxas would say in kingdom hearts..

"No-one would miss me"

But hey, i'm not that kind of psychotic person..yet..still..hopefully never

The later afternoon's cheered me up a bit more, with me nowsa working on removing the ban on fellow deviantart member cause he only did 1 offence while the helpdesk requires 3 for a permenant ban.

So..anything new?

1) my english teacher is actually really interested in seeing some of my story writing attempts, and altough I don't wanna really show any, I am going to be working on a brand new story which I may show her. details below

THE DARKEST TEAR

The main character in the story is a devil. Plain and simple. He has a very sweet and kind nature though, which leads him being outcasted from the devil race. Because of origins, the angel race outcast him too, and so he lives in the human world. But, he is still an enemy of both races. They aren't just gonna let him live peacefully. They'll make him suffer because he is the enemy, not of who he is.
what you might say as my version of "A series of misfortunate events", one catastrophe comes after another, in this painful journey of misunderstanding, leading him to the brink. People don't mean him any harm, but you gotta remember, humans are the pawns of the 2 superpowers. Puppets, as you might say.

Despite how you look at it and says my life in a nutshell, I never thought of it with myself in mind, and so..I like it at least.

2) The Hinata request is next on my list with..some bonus work in the breaks. Dunno what though..

quickly done, so I just have a few things to say while avoiding moaning..

WHY CAN'T I FIND ANY TRACE ANYWHERE OF BALDRE FORCE THE ANIME!?

(p.s I just found out fooley cooley's been thought of as one of the funniest animes ever! YAY!)

Those that will be taking part in the west kent anime club in college this year, I'll be having a word with the form tutor about it on either friday or monday. Don't worry, I got it covered this time..I think..

]]> ~Birgu Wreckage: Take 2078 http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20509367/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20509367/ Mon, 15 Sep 2008 16:43:05 PDT
So..yup..this is the return of the depressing journals, cause half an hour ago I was crying my eyes out cause one of them kept on telling me to deny hope of any success in the near future and I need something to shout at.

No names obviously, but I will say this..you godammn destroyed my life just as I had rebuilt it to hold hope again..but a glimmer is better than nothing, and it is NO WAY POINTLESS...idiots...

might as well give an update, since college is starting nd all.

1) The picture for "Beat" has been started on. It's pretty difficult, but looks very promising. Hopefully expect the same quality as I did with Rhyme, cause it's looking good.

2) I've acknowledged to try and do 's request of an Inuyasha vs Carnage picture. Gonna be very challenging, but hopefully ends with some satisfactory results. Had a discussion with a few friends, and we all agree on the same word to create it
*MUGEN*

3) The Hinata request i'm gonna be doing I didn't ask about the time span last time. Dormhal would like it to be of "Older Hinata". More to draw cause of tallness and hair, not to mention the boobs XD.. aw comeon. THAT WAS FUNNY!!!

4) i'm thinking for practice to start doing 1 hour scenery challenges to test my pen accuracy. Not glamerous but..it makes a change. lemme know what you think about the idea.

5) gonna do some writing practice too. The practice will use random OC's and to create a short story using all of them. For instance, Konraie could be a drug dealer, Kaiser could be in outer space, Shinaka could even be a janitor XD. Good career choice. it doesn't matter if it turns out completely random..

6)..but I will eventually after all that, try a proper story draft nd see if I improve. I still wanna try writing "The Clockwork Tower" and "A thousand blood red diamonds...starring oc's of course.

Aaah, this journal actually made me feel a lot better to scream about problems. Well at least i'm smiling a bit again, and the tears have stopped.

Next update..don't know when. Problems made before them..don't care. Will I be crying by the next journal?.. i'd better not.

]]> ~Birgu REQUESTS GALORE! YAY!!!! http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20453607/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20453607/ Fri, 12 Sep 2008 11:40:04 PDT
So these are DORMHALS requests made

1) A Naruto Character (preferably Hinata)

2) Any Bleach character (well I like Soi-fon so maybe her, though i might wanna be a bit more original)

3) Misa Misa from Death Note (I don't know much about Misa Misa, but earlier before the request, I said I was going to do a picture of Naomi Misura, so he added that in)

So now for every normal art I do, the next one will be one of those requests.

so hopefully it'll turn out like..

Beat
Hinata
Naomi
Bleach Char
Chi/Tsubasa/Haruhi
Misa Misa
etc

Now, my weeks been pretty boring for now, so i'll going to do..this...

HUZZAH

For those that don't know. THIS IS BLIZZARD. I.e "THE" Blizzard.

After asking his opinion on my picture of Rhyme right after i'd finished it, he remembered that he has a Deviantart account. Now, these days he's been working on a navy-based story called "the little nipper chronicles" and cause of some issues with a hacker in the forum he posts it in, instead hes now put it into a brand new deviantart account (which is that one), so now it's pretty much safe from hackers..but not from me ^^ muahahahaha. Blamming time...

Anyway, he's not that up to tone with deviantart himself so I expect anyone who's reading this journal entry to give him a warm newbie's welcome..that is..if anyone actually reads this XD.

Ok, thats pretty much it this week. Maybe one on tuesday cause that's when college restarts. But hopefully I might have Beat at least half done..otherwise i might start up a previews section if u don't like suprises nd want to see how much is actually done..

POWER TO THE PEEPS!! The only thing that's annnoying me right now is that i've gotten every dvd I ordered thats available right now except for Suzuka 2, which was one of the first I ordered. ooh, I am gonna go soooooo bezerk if I get it on saturday. The Dvd I want most out of them all, and to be delivered on a day when..I just can't enjoy it cause of work. Mr Postman better be scared by the time his next postal round comes ><. A warm greeting to be ready for him, kitchen knife and all XD.

]]> ~Birgu It's raining..it's pouring.. http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20356092/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20356092/ Sat, 06 Sep 2008 11:06:55 PDT
1) "The windy" has been added to the gallery. It was a product after watching cardcaptor sakura for a while and then thinking "well the designs are nice..". If you haven't checked it out yet then pls do so as I need to know whether I should carry on doing a few more.

2) "Rhyme" for *the world ends with you* section of the gallery is now underway. I did a bit during my lunch break at work so now it's...1% done? It might not be as good as the others cause I haven't done one in a while, but watch this space if you care. It will be done in the same style however as the rest.

3) buying dvd's online. On wednesday I ordered Bleach volume 1.2, Fooly Cooly 1, and Suzuka 2, taking literally 2 hours to choose school rumble 3, then change it to FLCL out of interest. Then friday? mum WANTS me to buy more so she can get free post delivery on amazon, so I ended up ordering Death Note 1 and Shakugan no Shana 3 out of force..Sometimes you just can't take a break from spending even if you want to..but I suppose this is a gd thing.

4) O_O I met a professional consultant online while playing on holic on thursday. She gave me a free consult so I said what my life's like and stuff, and she literally said "You're the kinda of guy almost every girl would want". Extremmmmee wtf. Stoppit, you're making me blush XD.

5) Holic photography screenshots may come into deviantart, but only really really gd ones...and I have only 1 of those..

6) My lost oddessey disk broke and I sent it off to get it repaired. Got a brand new copy of the game instead with all 4 disks again and instruction manual etc. Bit dodgy still when I started playing it, nd i do get worried it'll reset at any moment, but I've managed to have a 1 day intensive back into it, beating up a giant plant and a manned cannon in the process "OUR CANNON'S INVINCIBLE!!! Wait..why isn't it working? Augh nuts!" ^^

7) College starts on the 16th which is pretty cool in an ok way. Unfortunately, i'm getting all these complaints about our anime club just from one person who doesn't even like anime. I'm hoping a few guitars to the face will change her mind ^^.

Ok, thats it pretty much this time. Right now i've just bought some really strong strong superglue to fix my "lionheart" necklace i got at the london expo this year. One of the blades has snapped off and metal is pretty hard to glue back on.

If you want someone to view this week, i'd reccomend . She's done a lot of great photography, but recently kinda told me she lost the confidence to put anything new up. Perhaps a few comments on her work might change her mind ^^.

*btw, although my mood says sadness, i'm not actually sad at this point in time. Just I'm still having trouble with none of the mood icons showing up, so I have to take pot shot guesses*

]]> ~Birgu Mr poetic arse ^^ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20184138/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/20184138/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 12:47:32 PDT poetic= sudden spiritualist sentences on msn
arse= lazy= me

yup, thats about sums me up this month.

thanks to and for sending care to . Yes she did notice, nd thanks you guys for doing it.

i've gone strangely poetic this month, filling my msn message with wierd lyricals. The first one was about rejected love and the second one seems to be about salvation

"the night sky is watching all your joy, yet it's calling to you from my suffering. Steal away back into the night, because you refuse to care for a demon. if I am a true monster, then kill me...for your peace.."

it aint good, it aint poetic, but hell it feels spiritualist.

ok..whats been happening recently to me...

1) I've totally refurbished my manga shelf in my room. it'll eventually collapse cause i've removed the end supports for the books if they fall, but it actually looks better (added d gray man 1, school rumble 3 + 4, buso renkin 1 and tsubasa chronicles 7 to my collection, making 115 manga on one shelf ^^)

2) I've been playing holic online most of my time and I got offered this week to join a guild called "death note" on it. We're only 6 members but cause i've been active a lot cause i'm bored, i've been promoted in the ranks from 5th rank to 3rd rank admin ^^. lucky ^^)

3)well.. has disappeared from the face of the earth...again.. *sighs*. Nobody knows where she's gone..and nobody cares cause she told us not to.

4) tomorrow I SWEAR I'LL GET SOME WORK DONE. project haruhi, project dragon, and project windy..which i forgot about for a while. Don't throw the tin cans at my head yet. If you want me to work then.....i'm not gonna say it again...starts with an r, ends in an s, has a q in it.

I'll make another journal next week cause i'm enrolling back into college around then. For now, it's back to bashing snakes with a metal axe on fire for another 3 hours..fun..-_-..might do a collage and do a story based on my monk and rogue characters on it..

]]> ~Birgu request: pls give a hug to.. http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19955198/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19955198/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 15:37:31 PDT
A quick request, but could a lot of people or as many as possible give a hug to . From what she's told me, not much is going swell in her life.

SO BE A FRIEND INDEED FOR A FRIEND IN NEED!! GIVE A HUG, REASSURE, GIVE A COOKIE TO, SEND SOMETHING FUNNY, OR JUST COMMENT TO HER. You obviousy don't have to, but it makes that slight difference in the world go up rather than down.

Now, much as i'd like to truely scream "ICHIJOU!!" from the top of my lungs to you while looking scary, i'll just leave you with a small progress update.

The haruhi project: 62% done with just a 1/4 done large scale image left to draw and a huuuuge box around the pic. After that, i'm gonna try and see if i can put some sort of weak light filter on it.

the dragon project: 35% done and 2 1/2 of the character's done out of four, with most of the difficult background and black blind spots left to do.

the angel project: 3% done. I'm doing other stuff so it doesn't go far.

And at the ready are..

The Key project
The bliss project

Nyaa, the sky is pretty much screaming tonight in all black and white forms of rain and constant lightning. Back home in 2 days Xo.

Currently I have collected zilch requests and have finished 1 request (still). The number of art trades happening aint happening either.

]]> ~Birgu here...11 days earlier!? http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19863891/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19863891/ Sat, 09 Aug 2008 14:35:01 PDT
"For all those that noticed I was still here, add 2000 points to your score. For those that visited and didn't notice, YOU LOSE A LIFE!!!" ^^

during my time in italy i managed to...ahem.."Borrow" a internet connnection. Now, i'm writing this in darkness with my sis trying to sleep so i'll be quick and write a better one later. It's 11pm and we've got the las ketchup song playing outside so it's not much fun right now.

I have done a bit of art, but only a little. my parents keep occupying me tons and when i did get something done, my sis critisized me heavily for being a tracer, so i'll shout this just once more..*gasp*

I AM ON DEVIANTART AS A TRADING CARD MAKER AND A DYSPRAXIC TRACER! I TAKE ANY REQUESTS GIVEN TO ME SO LONG AS THEY ARE OF A POSSIBLE STANDARD AND THAT YOU DON'T MIND WAITING UP TO A MONTH FOR IT AND AS LITTLE AS 2 DAYS. COLOURING IS SOMETHING I AM WORKING ON SO ALL MY PICTURES ARE IN B AND W FOR NOW. IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT THEN BY ALL MEANS ARGUE WITH ME!!

not that anyone I know minds or so. I try freehand every now and then still. Practice makes perfect.

I want to draw pictures in the future of..

1)Inoue Orihime
2)Finish my "the world ends with you" section
3)Hayate
4)Soi-Fon
5)Aoi Nagisa
6)Sonic teh hedgie
7)Haruhi Suzumiya
8)MORE SHANA ^^
9)Ryuuga Rena

so just a few on who i'd like to draw overtime. If I do another collection, it'll be based on higurashi murders or so.

ugh, grease lightning's playing outside..-_-

so i'll be back later in the week. even if ur a complete stranger, if you have any pic requests then PLS either note me, message me, or w/e with the character you want drawn and maybe a pic url for me to trace, otherwise i'll find my own. I pretty much challenge you to keep me occupied. Yeah! XD

Will do art trades as well.

Requests done so far: 1/1
Art trades done: 0/0

]]> ~Birgu holiday mp3 list: cya onda 16th ^^ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19721239/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19721239/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 15:26:52 PDT
so my rooms a mess, i've only packed a few games and my tablet so far in my personals, and i'm off in under 9 hours. should be interesting..and hope that 1/100000 chance of the plane crashing or such doesn't happen on this coin.

In the end I underestimated the drawing I was gonna leave you guys due to the power of tiredness blurring my vision, that means that you'll have nothing now, but more to look forward to when I get back..ok? I should have quite a few done.

so I remember wednesday that i said i'd post my songlist for the holidays. I revamped half of it but there's still a lot of songs i'm missing. however, i got a crazy selection PURELY OF ANIME AND GAMES..almost again...

1) A thousand and one nights (.hack/liminality)
2) Guri guri (green green)
3) Hikari to kage (tales of the world radiant mythology opening/japanese vocal version)
4) Kaishite! knee socks (lucky star)
5) Ivory Hospital ward (.hack/roots)
6) Give me all your love (the world ends with you bgm)
7) Sluggish heart (.hack/roots)
8) Wolf in winter (.hack/roots)
9) Degenerate awakening catharsis (.hack/roots)
10) Emptiness and (the world ends with you bgm/game loop)
11) chain (air gear)
12) Alones (bleach/tv size)
13) Kono Namida ga aru kara tsugi no ippo to naru (school rumble/2nd ending)
14) Sentimental generation (school rumble/2nd opening)
15) Angelus (inuyasha/tv)
16) Blaze (shakugan no shana/tv)
17) life is like a boat (bleach)
18) hanabi (bleach)
19) after dark (bleach/tv)
20) baby its you (bleach)
21) uverworld (bleach)
22) Ichirin no hana (bleach/tv)
23) bouken desho desho (the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya/tv)
24) Mizuki nana -brave phoenix (unknown)
25) Calling (the world ends with you)
26) platinum (cardcaptor sakura/tv)
27) catch you catch me (cardcaptor sakura/tv)
28) let me be with you (chobits/tv)
29) daidai (bleach/tv)
30) darker than black opening (""/tv)
31) brightdown (d gray man/tv)
32) Hajimari no hi (d n angel)
33) true light (d n angel)
34) face of facts (baldre force/fogotten song)
35) 1st fate stay night ending (""/tv)
36) decisive battle ff6 (black mages)
37) ready steady go (fullmetal alchemist)
38) rewrite (fullmetal alchemist)
39) undo (fullmetal alchemist)
40) lights camera ACTION! (getsumen to hieki mina/tv)
41) God diva (.hack/roots)
42) hare hare yukai:seven mix (the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya)
43) higurashi no naku koro ni opening 2 (""/tv)
44) higurashi no naku koro ni opening 1 (""/tv)
45) junkyousha no yubi (.hack/roots)
46) Brand new morning (kamisama kazoku)
47) Toshokan dewa oshitte kurenai (kamisama kazoku)
48) Kirameku namida wa hoshi ni (fate stay night 2nd opening/tv)
49) being (shakugan no shana)
50) snow angel (unknown/ onegai teacher!?!?)
51) melody salva nos (noir)
52) mezame (lineage 2)
53) motteke! sailor fuku (lucky star/tv)
54) movin!! (bleach/tv)
55) no boy no cry (naruto)
56) salva nos (noir/similar name as 51, lot different)
57) Naraku no hana (higurashi no naku koro ni/tv)
58) onna no ko otoko no ko (school rumble/tv)
59) MERCURY GOO!!! (pumpkin scissors/tv)
60) rolling star (bleach)
61) kinjirareta asobi (rozen maiden)
62) sanctuary (kingdom hearts 2)
63) scenario saboten (naruto)
64) hishoku no sora (shakugan no shana)
65) aka no seijaku (shakugan no shana)
66) triangle (shakugan no shana/tv)
67) Tenjou wo kakeru mono tachi (shakugan no shana the movie)
68) Joint (shakugan no shana)
69) Shoujo meiro de tsukamete (strawberry panic)
70) original! (SHUFFLE! on the stage/tv)
71) Sociometry (shakugan no shana/tv)
72) Blaze (tsubasa chronicles)
73) why, or why not (higurashi no naku koro ni/tv)
74) Yoake umarekuru shoujo (shakugan no shana/tv)
75) Yura yura (naruto)

for this trip, my favourites cause they're new and lively to me are

59) mercury go!, 23) bouken desho desho and 70) original

very very long to post but..meh XD.

Ok, i'm starting to drop now. I'll pack a few art books in the morning and maybe grab a copy of dnangel to take with me or so. Theres not much I can say really now, but i'll download a bit of strawberry panic to watch while i'm there as well.

so..ahem..see you on the 16th/17th.

(p.s: if i don't appear for some reason, i doubt i'd be dead very much. My exam results will be at my house when I come back so thats pretty scary and i may die from that. I'm confident i passed english, but i'm hoping I can sidestep past psychology in terms of merit, i.e i'm one of the 3 people out of 20... ]]> ~Birgu soon to go.. http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19682652/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19682652/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 14:45:33 PDT
More realistically, i'm off to italy on saturday for 2 weeks, then back on the 16th. A few things about it..

1)The place we're staying looks out on a lake. the actual living area's small but we're living on the top floor of a building with 2 other families, so we get a better view instead. It's also not far from switzerland so a few hours drive gets us there.

2) by my mum's idea, i'll be bringing my laptop with me. I'm not usually one for tans nd such so in a bit of relaxation time, i will be drawing pics still. just..i can't send em to ya til i come back XD.

3) right now i'm working on another "large scale" picture to tide you guys over while i'm away. It's under half complete still so If i don't submit it beforehand then it'll definetly be ready by when i get back.

that's most of it really. Just before I go, i'm reorganising my mp3 music list on my psp to something different. POSSIBLY if i find enough, i'll post the list of every song before i go.

Saturday i managed to grab a copy of final fantasy: crisis core. The graphics r awesome but the amount of missions to do really is bugger annoying (300.and its repetitive over 70 times). The storyline's pretty sweet but I expected more out of when you have to fight sephiroth as of a final fantasy 7 re-enactment. He's not really that hard and 1hp reduction attacks are so easily countered by auto-potion (for those who have the game, it's an accessory called "doc's code")
the second fight was more interesting with now a kind of time limit to kill or be killed, but every time he knocks you back, you just think "crud..." and roll back into the pain. slightly panicked when he started advancing so i spammed quake on him which is my strongest spell. 5000+ damage but useless against birds and i can only cast 4 times (yes my mp is that damn low. epic failz)

ok, now i'll finish up sounding a bit l33t this time..

epic winz of teh w33k

New wii game announced to me, sonic and the..black knight? (sonic + sword + secret rings gameplay

All teh pepple that come visit my devi.

all the people that watch me that i watch back. No specific names nd such nd i dnt comment still, but seriously good stuff around.

this twewy comic [link]

anime company "Clamp" almighty

My hororscope and tarot cards. omfg tey're right again..AGAIN!

Getbackers anime

the new bleach ending song [link]

epic failz

brawl's *cruel melee*..sux..

Work, the rest of the staff r out to get me..

blizzard. I texted him 10 times and he hasn't replied to one. he's terrible at replying so now i'm a bit grumpy.

the mood button down here. it's still broken Xo

being lonely. My theory is pretty much that if you're content, you've never been in love. if you're in love, the sky's golden. If you start to hate couples, it's cause you once were in love and now hate others enjoyment. Get back up before I call an emo to hug ya 24/7 XD. (no emo's were harmed duing it's making)

:I fall in the *hate couples but there's a silver lining i'm following* category. If the linings right then i'll be a lot more happier, otherwise i'll probably become one of those freaks that spend 22 hours of their life on their computer.

Ok, til tomorrow or friday or so, i'm gonna be working on teh picture and sorting up a new mp3 playlist. then as I said ill post it......huh? augh! crud! giant spider!!!! get...back....

]]> ~Birgu Cold as Rye http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19464632/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19464632/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 12:34:05 PDT
So..to start off this time, good man Blizzard has asked me to be the artist for his writing strip based on an online game. I've said no countless times but i've agreed for a 1 time test run. i can quit at any time cause..seriously..he's got it wrong SO badly..i swear to big man almighty up there I can hardly go freehand without my template and pass the F rank grade.

Sunday my parents dragged me to the seaside town of Rye cause it's the place they stayed before their honeymoon many eons ago just after the ice age..Not much to see but I saw this really cute ring in a store which was emerald green and had wings on the side of it...tempted to buy but it was Â£98..so i'll keep it in mind if needed anyway. Seaside...freezing. Everybody else enjoyed the breeze cept me huddled as close together as I could with the odd sneeze. Gack, eventually caught a cold in the end.

I'm not gonna have any art up for a bit longer cause I can't get time to right now.

My tarot cards, i.e cheap shakugan no shana cards i got at excel..r still godammn scaring me with their predictions, and r still right. oddly enough, My prediction about work I asked for was right, that someone would call in sick today. I'm mostly worried about when I asked for the future of life, i picked up 2 very serious looking cards, and the third one indicating either love or valentines day. This is probably only the second time my cards r gonna be wrong, cause I see no way in anything to do with that coming..or is there?

One art i wanna do before I go on holiday is of the anime Suzuka, which is a sports romance anime i've just been watching. cute, not that funny cept at times, but gd. theres a lack of art as well, so i'm trying to fill those gaps in.

happy devi-ing XD

]]> ~Birgu waddle dee'd off.. http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19296518/ http://Birgu.deviantart.com/journal/19296518/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 17:04:34 PDT
Working at my part time job full-time is starting to get on my nerves. Most of the time i'm opening boxes and running around lifting big boxes. But I spent the last 2 working days godammn vaccuuming so much with all the customers getting in my way and being sarcastic to me. Heavenly father, please smite these many dumb miscreants so that they too may learn the word "politeness", or so send them to hell to burn in 1000 flames. than you ^^ *gives god a holy chocolate chip cookie*

smash brothers stuff now. I'm about to hit 100 offline brawls which means i can finally get the issac trophy ^^.

The deal now with online mode is that now I alternate between characters a lot more, call it my little army. I'm only truly gonna say you've defeated me if you defeat all of them in a row, and happily enough, thats not happened yet.

Birgus smash army

Head

Ike [very VERY large threat. Heavily strong and I do use counter a damn lot]

captains

Marth [slightly dangerous]

Sonic [not that strong, but annoying ^^]

subordinates

Lucario [be scared only of double team]

zelda [suprisingly..]

captain falcon [run around, F kick to death, practising the old reverse punch as well]

in training

Kirby [^^]

Pitt [eventually..]

I feel like the first person ever to use zelda online, cause i've never seen anyone else use her. I'll finish up here by saying..

ALL YOU PLAYERS OUT THERE PLS LEARN TO BE DECENT AND NOT SPAM THUNDER OR W/E. YOU'RE GONNA DIE 5-0 ANYWAY ^^.

I have my latest picture on standby ready, but I havent drawn anything whithin the week. I'm planning another grand picture even bigger than my 1000 views special, but i'm gonna be drawing 12 or so different people in it so it will take time and will. As of now i'm still taking any requests proposed.

I'll post up a few planned images later.

]]> ~Birgu