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but maaaaaiiiiiiiiiiii name is JESSAMAKA. Srsly. Jess.

I hate writing. and drawing.

Ugh.Nothing to write.

I got an A+ in my college class/ ACC

Awesome.


Uhhhm.


Someone say hi to me?

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That is a bumblebee ball python.

It will be eating your Shit Zoo, Li-Li.

ANNYWAAYYYSSS.

Yeah, My families broke dick right about now, My step dad had like five bucks of his paycheck after bills, but my check comes at the end of the month so i might be getting a baby ball python then


Thiss allll came to be because my brother got a puppy.

After chino died, my mom and step dad were like NO MOAR PETZ RWAR.

and then josh brings pilot home and im like Wtf.

So jeffs like "i know, i konw. Want a snake?" And im like

Im thinking about naming him Singer, or if its a her would be Honey...or maybe ill just call it long slithery thing.

So anyways. We also have a kitten at my dads how.

Is it just me, or the more poor you get, the more pets you get? Lol

sooooo yeah

Super excited.

I made jakes costume for Gencon. It looks really bad.

And has anyone besides me come across VORE? Its kind of disturbing, really.

I think i might draw my new little boy or girl as a naga.

I think he/she'd be cute. Its only a year old so hes about 8-9 inches long. Im gonna have to breed and kill mice for him though. Oh well.. sorry mice.


i liek poatoes

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Wouldnt that be lovely?

You see im raving because noone reads anything. like now, im just dithering, yammering about how noone reads this shit, when noone will read this shit.

Unless someone decides to tell me or requst i continue writing BBI, Im done.

I didnt put that shit up for it to sit there and get no critique. I need someone to point out my flaws.

anyhow.

I'm angry at my boyfriend for getting angry at me beacuse i dont know directions.

so yeah. im bored, shitless, alone and pissed.

and noone will read this unless i put "hot chicks with big tits" in the title.

Lets try it.

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However this particular Shadow-child goes from the bad side, to the good side, and back and forth some more. Gaining a friend who is supposed to be his prey, becomes his ally. Then enemy again.

Never quite understanding why one side must die.
Demos struggles with conflicting emotions, The drive to kill and his masters subtly vicious enslavement.


The first chapter is very disturbing, And I warn you at that. If you like that kind of thing, go for it. All the other chapters are not like that, and if they are, they will be marked with an asterisk to signify they are of mature content.


I dont necessarily consider language to be mature, but there is swearing, so bear that in mind.


*Chapter One:[link]

Break I:[link]

Chapter Two:[link]

Chapter Three:
[link]

Chapter Four:[link]

Break
II:[link]

Chapter Five:
[link]

Chapter Six:[link]

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I was hacked!

So sorry for any rude or other wise stupid messages. I'm sorry, fucking assholes hacked me.

And Dawn I wouldnt say 'godz...you suck'

I'd be like. 'You really fucking blow at life. Get a new one.'

But i didnt, because you are actually are a very good artist.


So whatever.

]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/15223049/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/15223049/ Thu, 25 Oct 2007 22:56:19 PDT
Ive changed.

And hikari, if you are reading this. Thanks. I dont have feelings for you anymore, you gave way to something a whole lot better in my life. I hope i didn the same for you.

And the bullshit about me having other personalities was 100% correct lauren. im crazy.


Anyways.

Theres alot to write here.

I wont bother.


Read my recent submission. please.

Jake, you especially, please. I need some help.

Yeah. catagories are carzy these days. I miss the old three step submission. Wtfe.

miss me?

Light

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Goddamnit.

Anyways.

I have a NEW myspace, Its..

Myspace.com/Yaoi_Is_My_anti_Drug

Yeah bitches, go check it.



Hey...Im gonna believe in the small chance that my once light is reading this....So..

I miss you. And there's so much i want to say to you.
So much, I SHOULD have said.



So...

Meh.

I kinda missed DA, so i guess im back again, untill i break off of here again.

Anybody miss me?

-Jess

]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/8752670/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/8752670/ Fri, 12 May 2006 18:55:59 PDT
Ill never be able to pay for my crimes, and ill never be able to look the ones i hurt so badly in the face ever again but, i look back and wonder why? Why did i do it?

Why did i hurt you? Why did i let myself fall back into a fake reality...and when i awoke, why did i drag you out? Why did i throw you down like useless trash?

Ill never know that answer for sure, maybe its because i really am all but light and perfection.

Maybe its because the fuckup that took so much away from me, but that was then, this is now.

If there really is a god or whatever, He fucked up when he made me.

Or maybe he didnt, and he really is some sick fuck and im his little play thing.

There are so many questions, but all of them have no answeres.

I guess, in a sense, i am the darkness, but could i ever be considered an innocent?


My facade, the one ive hidden behind for so long, is falling apart. Im seeing the real me.

I cant apologize
But i dont want to either.

That would be like commiting murder, and telling them that 'you're sorry, and it wont ever happen again.' It'd be total bullshit.




Where is Wolf? Then one who sees with closed eyes

because i cant see anymore. ]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/7310740/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/7310740/ Wed, 14 Dec 2005 15:05:25 PST
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Heh heh. Im just dying over here. I can belive how long this worked. I forgot about it, it became my second nature and...... BAM! Last night it came back to me. Amazing? Yah.
Sorry, most of you dont understand, and wont, but this is directed to someone else.



Im going over to cloudys house this weekend and we're buying Advent childern...Yay! But sadly, not watching it.


Yes yes. Ill write more in my other journal ]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6600765/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6600765/ Sun, 25 Sep 2005 17:02:50 PDT
Lalalala Im moving to my other account (its my screen name i used for the longest time) So meh...If yer my buddie go hookit uppy


Im going to learn how to skateboard....Why? Just to spite everyone at school XD


Man, Tailgate was fun.

Okay so we're all partin and what not, and i go to buy me some snickers cause i was hungry, and shane was like...four people in front of me and andrea was like forcing him to go out with me. I was all like 'ANDREA SHUT UP YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL YOUR TALKING ABOUT! I WANT TO BE HIS FREAKIN FRIENDS NOT HIS DAMN GIRLFRIEND! IF YOU WANT TO GET IN HIS PANTS THATS YOU, BUT I SEIRIOUSLY DONT BECAUSE THATS.....LIKE RAPE! IN HUNDRED AND TEN STATES!'


Everyone was staring at me like i was a lunatic XD But hey, Isnt that a suiting title? XD naww what gave you that idea? *snickers*


Okay so after wards, Hes sittin on the counter, And so i jump up there to watch the fireworks...Omg i wanted to roll over and die.

He said 'im not the dating type..sorry...'

I DIDNT WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE >< GOD! WHATTA IDIOT.

XD Blah i had a weird dream...But it was kinda fun...Except the whole part about me being a murderer and all....Lol



If i killed someone for trying to mess around with me in a way most people dont like to be messed with, would it still be called manslaughter? Or murder...whichever.. XD


I want to be a pirate. I love this song. The offspring-splinter-cant get my head around you.

I love it! Its like Crazy. XD

The game was so great! Not the game it stelff...Higlant had a score of 0 to 60 but still...It was snowing...I wanted to cry. I loved it. I cant wait till we get snow snow, the kind that stays with you; the kind that One: makes me have money and two: Is fun to play in and makes me all giddy inside and happy.





If snow were black, id be living in a pretty tight snowglobe; Seeing as you can never get away from highland..heh heh

Chocolate..Mmmm...Fun wrapped up in tin foil


Man. I need to getta hobby. XD Like that'll ever happen. ]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6538816/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6538816/ Sun, 18 Sep 2005 16:10:12 PDT
Bakura, Ryou, And Garfield.

Baku and Ry-chan are the gold fishies....and Gar is a somethin that starts with a 'G'...Hes all blue with orange stripes.



Mommy is going to be all potty mouthed at me XD

She said no more fishies

Oh well! Grammy said i could get some guppies, but they turned into them...so meh. They live in the kitchen RIGHT NEXT TO THE CATS FOOD BOWLS.

Har har har....Patches hates me XD


Ry-chan and baka-bakura are plotting, They sit in the corner and 'blub blub' at each other.


Ha ha. Ack. I went sailing, it was hell.

I kept my mouth shut...Amazing no?

I have a baby steel head! Hes still in egg form...But he'll hatch! Just you watch!


...Fuck


Gar, Ry and Baku are..Dead...*sniff*



Ry and Baku killed themselves, They drowned...Well..choked on rocks...and Gar...just died..


Well. The three of them are in my freezer... freezing.
Im going to put them in joshuas shorts. Or someones drink...>D dead fish have their uses

Because im a mental case.

But its sucks...My fishies are dead...

My new friends! I killed them T_T Im a bad person...Dont be my friend.



I hate today. ]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6515141/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6515141/ Thu, 15 Sep 2005 19:38:46 PDT
Good why thank you

Mmhmm. You are welcomne.

I must like talking to myself. Because...Its not like any one reads these XD so why not...I get to rant and no one listens! Yay! My life goal! Seriously!


My hands are clean! Hahaha Yes. Took me long enough.

This moring. Freakin Ra. I GOT A PEN IN THE CHEERIOS BOX


I almost choked on it, Wouldnt that have been fun. Why yes, jess, It would have.
.
It snowed for a breif moment. I wanted to lick the stupid snowflakes off Shanes face XD But that be like..rape in five different states. That is not joy in a box of cracked jacks.

Its now raining...If only it was snowing...Huff. I miss the winter so...


winter is the best time of the year, the only time of the year that feels good, it dosent hate me like the other three. lalala...

Im sick XD I was crying for no reason and now i have the sniffles


ahaha Guess who's single and straight! I am! I am! I cant say i dont regret it either. I did what i did because it felt right. Oh well. Im a lot better off being alone XD Now i can do whatever i feel like. AKA Eating everything bloody and wholesome.

Oh yeah. Most people dont know what the real meaning of evil is. I envy them.



OH! I fell asleep during school and everyone said i was screaming like bloody murder...Thank ra we were in gym....

i have issues when i sleep...Im always angry when i wake up and what not....Hahaha i scared Mike. I find that Really funny.


I do belive im going a bit over the line, but thats always fun, im everyones daily dose of crazy. You just kinda love me! Tee hee!

¬¬ Yesss...


I need...a cookie...If only i didnt empty my pants...Huff.

*yawns*

Helllooo? Are you reading this?

"Of course not! Why would anyone in the seven hells want to be your friend? Eh?"
"You're my friend..."
"I am you, You jackass"
"Oh...Damn"

haha..Thats from........tech ed XD I was talking to rain outloud and reciting what he said...Quite fun.


Omfr. I was running around the school screaming at the top of my lungs 'DO YOU EVER GET THE FEELING YOU'RE BEING WATCHED?!!?! WELL! HAHAHAHAA YOU ARE!" And soon after i'd run into the bathroom and start laughing my ass off.

Everyone was giving me the 'I think you're fucking nuts' look. Well. I am...SO ha ha!



Alot can happen over a full moon and another. (two months)



-Faust ]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6506319/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6506319/ Wed, 14 Sep 2005 19:22:47 PDT [x] I am an OKAY dancer.
[x] I am a morning person.
[x] At times I am a perfectionist.
[] I am an only child.
[] I am Catholic.
[] I am currently in my pajamas.
[]I am currently pregnant.
[x] I am currently single
[] I am currently suffering from a breaking heart.
[x] I am okay at styling other people's hair.
[] I am left handed.
[] I am married.
[] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I am very shy around the opposite sex at first.
[] I bite my nails.
[x] I can be paranoid at times.
[] I currently have a crush on someone.
[] I currently regret something that I have done/am doing.
[x] When I get mad I curse frequently.
[] I don't hate anyone.
[x] I enjoy Country music.
[] I enjoy Jazz music.
[x] I enjoy smoothies.
[] I enjoy talking on the phone.
[x] I have a car.
[] I have a cell phone.
[] I have/had a hard time paying attention in/at school.
[x] I have a hidden talent.
[] I have a lot to learn.
[x] I have a pet(s).
[x] I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
[] I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" guy/girl
[] I have all my (real) grandparents, none of them have died.
[x] I have at least one brother and/or sister.
[] I have been in a threesome.
[] I have been to another country.
[] I have been to Europe.
[x] I have been told that I am very smart.
[x] I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
[x] I have broken a bone.
[x] I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
[x] I have changed a diaper/nappy.
[x] I have changed a lot over the past year.
[]I have done something illegal.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have had major/minor surgery
[] I have had my hair cut within the last week.
[] I have had the cops called on me.
[] I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
[] I have kissed someone of the same sex.
[xxxxx] I have mood swings
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] I have rejected someone before.
[] I have seen The Lord of the Rings trilogy.
[] I have seen the television show The O.C.
[] I have tried a drug that is illegal.
[] I have watched Sex and the City.
[x] I have watched Spongebob Squarepants.
[x] I like Shakespeare.
[x] I like the taste of blood.
[x] I love to cook.
[x] I like to sing.
[] I love Michael Jackson
[What friends?] I love my friends.
[x] I love sleeping.
[x] I love to play computer games.
[x] I love to shop.
[x] I miss something right now.
[] Are you sad about something?
[] I own 100 CDs or more.
[] I own a library card.
[x]I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.
[x] I read books for pleasure
[x] I sleep a lot during the day.
[] I strongly dislike math.
[] I think Britney Spears is/was pretty
[] I was born in a country other than the US.
[] I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
[x] I will try anything once.
[x] I work at a job that I enjoy.
[] I would classify myself as ghetto
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 percent safe, free of cost and scar-free.
[] I can name all 7 dwarfs from Snow White.
[] I am currently wearing socks.
[x] I hate summer.
[x] I am tired.
[] I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt




Done. Have fun. ]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6504055/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6504055/ Wed, 14 Sep 2005 14:48:45 PDT

I wanted a dog. Badly. as in i'd do anything for one. But jeff said no. I come home from my dads, and what do i see? I see 'sheela'(now named Yuna beacuse sheela sucks.). See. I wanted a german sheppy. well. Guess what. I got then next best thing. A sheppy and collie mix. Meaning...she dont shed. Thank ra. And another thing i found really weird, She has a black tail with a white tip. I wanted a black dog with a white tip on its tail.

No no...shes not all black, But she is a cutie. I love her. And the mutt's starting to grow on me too...Thats always good XD

Anyways...she was a stray...all beat up and what not, but now shes ours because who ever owned her was a jackass. she was covered in grease, her ear has a nick in it, shes was way underweight and she had never been to the vets in her life. so ha loser, shes ours now.

ahahaha.she has such a good temper. Shes so awesome. shes like me, but constantly happy...And she is a little bitch too XD


She keeps tidus in his place...Something i never thought could be done, But im not complaining XD


Yeah yeah.....I have to go now...Bye bye ^_^ ]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6423138/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6423138/ Mon, 05 Sep 2005 13:09:00 PDT
I did like 100 situps and pushups...along with 35 killers...Omfg.

I still hurt and its been like two days >
Today is evil. Im so tired. I had like 7 nightmares in two days(compared to three, maybe four)..And they are scaring the hell out of me. Ive always had nightmares...But not this bad. These are like...woah scary. And They hurt. For the past three days, ive had my heart ripped out, shoved in a blender and fed back to me.


Gr. Im complaing...Well. some good news is....Im not stuck with this ra dammed pink nail polish anymore. I found my blue and black. Yip. E.

Huff. Nothing to talk about.



_Faust_ ]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6317013/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6317013/ Wed, 24 Aug 2005 15:44:55 PDT
He thinks i am not mad.

I hate him.


Anyways......

Today was great.
School is great.
I love it.
Almost as much as my hikari....Funny.

My houars (hours)

01 Mrs Biggsiscover
02 Mrs Biggs=Science
03 Mrs Lantka=social studies
LUNCH! WHOOO HOOOO! And rei has to open my locker, because i cannot....I dont know my right from my left too well...*blah*
04 Mrs Madura=reading. Yay. She has a wooden lip...I found that funny. I have two teaches in that class...I just dont know the really short ones name.

05 Mr Towesonre-algebra...OMFG YES~! I AM AWESOMEEEEE
No regular math for this one! Pre-algebra! IN WHICH I AM AWESOME AT!
06 Mrs Lubarski= Language arts...*blah* Im good at it...Just dont like it.
07 Teach. (mr townsend) = Tech ed. woodshop....That guy is scary. He talks to himself, he answers his own questions, and hes missing a finger. I know i talk to myself..but god...not that much!


annnddd.......I have to follow ppl around....

I stay in the same room for first and second hour with andy, rodney, and hugo, Then i follow rod to SS and meet up with danni (^___^! Hes mah bestestfriendever!) XD then i follow rod again, meet up with evan, kel, tammy, and nicole.....After that,I follow kelsey, (shes the class next door to mr towenson) Then i go and stab lauren with my pencils and give chris a great big hug. Because every one Loooooovveeess chris XD Hes awesome, but he cant replace you love.

Then im allll by my self..I have to run half way across the whole school to get to tech ed. Ack...Bad. i have Hugo, Radu and Trevor in my class..But i dont like walking alonee....


Luch...Muwahahaha...I hope it dosent have crappy food like warren...Ew...I hated their food.

MY BUS. !. !!... XD I hate it...Im the first one off and....MISSY IS THERE. *dies* AHHHHHHHHH! HATE THAT BITCH! GRRRRRRR! And then there's cassy and carolina(making fun of her name) Gr. I was going to rip their faces off. Stupid.


I thought i was short...Holy hell...half of the people only came up to my waist. everyone else is under my collar or something

..I made friends! One's name is jack(? not sure)...And his hair is freaking AWESOME! HES A SKUNK! <3! Love man, Love that hair.

Then theres mike. I liked his shirt...It was yellow. And plaid...I like my plaid. He looks like a mini tim...Except he has the body of a guy and not a girl and does not confuse me....Lucky him.

Huff puff. Im tired. my number is freakin 1140903. HOW DO I REMEMBER THAT?! RA! GR!

Tammy got the easiest combo ever...2 8 4..

Mine is a bunch of numbers i dont want anyone other than chris danni and rei knowing. because....rei is the only one that can open it for meeeee....And danni. But he cant remeber which locker is mine.

Huff huff huff. Joshua needs to shut up.

Alright. Im out.

-Jess ]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6308522/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6308522/ Tue, 23 Aug 2005 16:50:12 PDT
I have no clue what to do anymore honestly.

I wanted joshua to be freaking proud of me. To like me Just maybe.
But you know what. You dont always get what you want, Now do you? No, You dont.

Freakin read his xanga
He wants the old me back.. Meaning in other words, he wants that asshole terry to come back, Har har har.

He says im being influenced by my online friends and such.

Im being influenced by you joshua, and you alone.

If you havent noticed by now, I dont have what you would call 'real' friends.



You say i never get in trouble....Jesus Ra Josh.
I get in trouble for things you do and things i have absolutly nothing to do with.

I hate you. Damnit. I always hide behind a freakin smile so you'll leave me alone...Which never works. Its retarded.
I shouldnt be afraid of you. Youre supposed to be my brother. So Start acting like one.

You never helped me with anything, You made my problems.

Why do i even try? Why do i even care?

I hate you.

-Jess ]]> ~BladesofBlood http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6298466/ http://BladesofBlood.deviantart.com/journal/6298466/ Mon, 22 Aug 2005 15:04:23 PDT And a popup deleted it.

i hope you die. ]]> ~BladesofBlood