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anything you faved can probably be refaved there.. taht is if i decided to up-load it.

thanx for everything!

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/17711701/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/17711701/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 08:27:24 PDT
]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/16957147/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/16957147/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 06:06:45 PST Even is you stand alone...


Your heart beating next to mine..
Is the most beutifull sound that i've ever heard,
And the greatest feeling i never want to lose...

Not ever again



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Edit:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! naieve hoer.... just laughing my ass off at my own rediculous stupidity!



]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/16848050/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/16848050/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 12:43:26 PST
Ik ben stom geweesd...
Ik hou van je...

know that i will be here if you need me

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/16668066/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/16668066/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 02:17:03 PST

1. Post these rules
2. Each tagged person should post 8 facts of themselves
3. Tagged people should write a journal\blog about these facts
4. In the end tag and name 8 people
5. Go to their dA pages and comment saying that they are tagged
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1. I prefer writing with black over blue.

2. I like making a fool of myself to make people laugh.

3. Caffeine keeps me going.

4. I want to study humanistics in a couple of years.

5. Saving up to buy a private island. (only 3 million!)

6. I'm in love...

7. I've lost so many loved ones that i am scared to love again.

8. Music is my inspiration

I tag...

No one... most people i know don't like to be tagged
put this on if you like!

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/16382326/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/16382326/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 04:47:07 PST
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Stutter step through another trap set by deception
Mention rejection

Always lies in your eyes
Settles in your action

Jeopardize everything that I want
And I won't compromise anything anymore
In any way victimize myself any more
Liberty (YEAH)

Manipulations on my mind
Expectations well defined
Frustrate me
Liberate me

Cause everything's falling apart
You can't control me, You can't control me
Everything's falling apart

Now I can't see you
Doesn't matter what I do
I can't see you
Cause everything's falling apart
You can't control me, You can't control me

I got exposed to a deeper form of infection
Shout out "I need acception"
Always lies in your eyes
Settles in your action
You can't control me, You can't control me

Criticize everything that I do

And I will overcome anything that's in store
Nevermore look up to you and adore
Liberty (YEAH)

Manipulation is on my mind
Inspect me - try to check me
Expectations well defined
Dissect me - want to wreck me
Violator of my own will
Accept me- reject me
You can't control me, You can't control me

Separate or SHOOT TO KILL

-zebrahead-

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/16338690/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/16338690/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 03:11:43 PST
Sorry for posting this but i got the advise it was good for me to bring it out there, to write it off and this time actually let someone read it. He told me it was the first step of letting go.
I wish i could, though....

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Tonight i called someone for the very first time.
I hate to wake someone up just becaus i feel bad, and i almost ever do. But this night was worse then ever... i felt like i was dying...
My nightmare was so bad that i woke up with scratches on my body from my struggeling. I trew up tonigt, thats how sick it made me...

And the worse thing is i can't even share it with the one that's closest to me when i sleep, i don't want to put him through this again.

I close my eyes and i see it,
I open my mouth and i taste it,
I try not to listen but it's all i hear,
I try to focus but i can't think about anything else...
All i can feel on my skin
Is the f*cking sin
You forced upon me tonight


btw if your reading this... the little emoticon on the bottem shows kind of what keeps me buisey during the day time when i'm awake and acually NOT thinkin about the night before (not that that happens much)

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I shoulda called but it was late and you were sleeping, my dear.
I would hate for you to hear what I was putting you through...
I'm tryin' hard to be the girl I know that you think I am,
I'm really glad you weren't there but now I wish you were here...
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Dry your eyes, say goodnight
I don’t know if I can
Cut the ties, say goodbye
So I try and take it somewhere else
Pretending that we’re something else
I’ve been trying to find my way to you
Through the anger and the sorrow

Anything to escape but we’re going nowhere
Late at night when you cry
‘Cuz we’re living like we’re someone else
And wishing we were somewhere else
Losing everything that I used to know
Disconnected and hollow

-Lit-

Descibing exactly what i feel,

I should have known better...
I don't know what to believe anymore... ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/15887395/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/15887395/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 06:48:47 PST Psssh... devart should meet my goverment then

i'll be up-loading some things soon...
more creepy and morbid like my stile is
like i said before the cute pics where just a way to practice my tablet skills

so, lots of blood, drugs and naked bodeys comming up
i'll say around the end of this week would be good.

oh question: does anyone know where i can get real needles? like the hospital ones? i need them for my shoot. thanx people.



uhh.... yeah...
i hope my friends know i support them every step on the way, i love them more than life... please don't do anything crazy




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Well, I saw you with your hands above your head
Spinning around, trying not to look down
But you did, and you fell, hard on the ground
Then you stumbled around for a good ten minutes
And I said I'd never seen anyone look so dumb before
And you laughed and said I still know how to turn you on though

You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean

maria mena

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/15788283/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/15788283/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 03:40:23 PST Well, I saw you with your hands above your head
Spinning around, trying not to look down
But you did, and you fell, hard on the ground
Then you stumbled around for a good ten minutes
And I said I'd never seen anyone look so dumb before
And you laughed and said I still know how to turn you on though

You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean

And I probably forgot to tell you this
Like that time when I forgot to tell you about the scar
Remember how uncomfortable that made you feel?
See you're not what I expected
But you're the only one who knows how to handle me
And you're such a great kisser and I know that you agree

You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean

I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down
Just to keep you around
Cuz the day that you realize how amazing you are
You're gonna leave me

You're the only one who
Holds my hair back when I'm drunk and get sick
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean

Exactly what I mean

Well I saw you with your hands above your head
Spinning around, trying not to look down
But you did, and you fell, hard on the ground

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- (C) Maria mena

Is the world falling apart or is it just breaking down?
why do you do this to yourself? your better than this...
you really are the only one...

Noukie, bedankt voor het bellen je hebt geen idee hoe geweldig dat was! Bartje, bedankt voor alles...

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/15573277/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/15573277/ Mon, 19 Nov 2007 07:47:02 PST
My head is full of thought and yet so empty

I feel so many things, yet i feel nothing

I want to speak, but the words don't come out

And all i can do is stare and think of how much i miss you.

Do you know that i miss you?

That it hurts to think, to breathe...

Did you know it would be this way?

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I have no words for this feeling
No name for this pain

All i can do is be thankfull i had sombody to catch me
Somebody to help me
I wish you would have realised you had that to
You had me, you had us...

Did we meen nothing to you?

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Don't worry people i'll be fine, just an old wound that got scratched open again...
Damn already a year ago, and i still can't believe you are gone...

I Miss You

I cry when angels deserve to die

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/15268101/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/15268101/ Mon, 29 Oct 2007 05:32:23 PDT
Yes dear readers, this month has been a very strang month full of strage revelations and twists. It's almost like a J.K. Rowling book.

Speaking about that, This week J.K. declared that A. Dumbledore is gay! Not that it's a bad thing it just shocked the living hell out of half england.
"JKR: My truthful answer to you... I always thought of Dumbledore as gay."

Moving on,
In Padrane, India they seem to have discovered a new sort of tree.
A tree species that seems to be able to lift cows up un the air to devour them. The so called pili mara (aka tiger tree) are known under the local inhabbitants for quit a while, these trees are believed to be the reason cows came home with their tales missing. Now there are stories of a whole cow being attacked.

Sweatbreaking times arise for the vegitarians now that the trees strike back!

That being said on the border of Cornwall en Devon, great-brittain the headlessbody of the famous "snowy" has been found in the woods. Snowy was a rare white stag that the local people tried to keep a secret to protect the creature. They seemed to have failed now that sowy's head has been forcefully taken by someone as a prize on his wall.

Off topic:
I just saw some deer this weekend.
We where at a falconeer demonstration when a flock of deer came storming out the woods and stood there watching the demo, they where gorgious!

Well i hope that you people can never be amazed enough! it certainly keeps life interresting
Thank you for your attention and... if you have a strange/cool story? please let me know you'll learn i'm a good listener!



Oeh oeh oeh en ik ga mijn maatje weer zien!

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/14881155/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/14881155/ Thu, 04 Oct 2007 03:14:02 PDT
first i want to thank everyone who helped me, took care of me, told me everything would be okay
it's nice to have people to talk/note with ^^

i guess its crazy, but not doing anything can be the best as long as you are doing it with people you care about.

my week is ridiculous, i have no free evenings this week! all sorts of things to do, or places to be... but mostly persons to see.
i'm overbooked and, well, i dont have time for certain persons at the moment but im thinking thats okay for a while... you need some space sometimes.

oeh oeh oeh, i went to this party with my friend and it was so awesome! we stayed till the wee little hours and enjoyed the drinks, the food, the drinks, and then some more drinks XD
the party was fun, but the best thing about it was being there with you, and looking at the other people together... just letting life go by
i miss you

this weekend i went to a re-enactment event, may sound boring but it's pretty fun actually! i went there with some buisness people who selled bows. (you know those shooting weapons, i case you forgot
i thougt shooting them would be boring (yes, i do find legolas gay, and he is a disgrace for the rest of the gay community) but i found out it was rather addictive! i spent most of the weeknd explaining to people how to shoot a bow and getting money for it, and partying! a german friend of ours (the alcohol supplyer of the event ) he asked his girlfriend to marry him so we had to party party hardy all nighty

my boyfriend was there with me and i must say...
that night he did something that i will remember for a long time, i dont think i felt that good about us in a long time. i wish i could find the words to tell him, to thank him...

what he did for me was so great, i know it was hard for him
thats what makes me appriciate it even more
you know... i think he somehow fixed some parts of me thatwhere broken, just by doing that

i wish i could snuggle him now.

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Everybody wants a smile and a promise,
well, i'll promise not to try!

I promise not to try, not to fuck with your mind,
I promise not to mind if you go your way, i dont mind,
I promise not to lie, if i'm looking you straight in the eye,
I promise not to try, not to let you down

" Dont let me let you go..."

-Eve6-

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/14781426/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/14781426/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 03:28:25 PDT
But the words won't come out...

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/14710569/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/14710569/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 05:29:47 PDT What can i say...

My art sucks, i obviously don't have any talent for it... so why bother?

If you want to make good photographs you have to have a good camera, not one that makes everything look like a crookes icid trip...

...Yes even my own bloody camera gave up on me

Aah well, i'm going to give it a last shot! going to do some shoots soon if i can find the time for it. And the right models of course...
Try to make a couple of good shots and see what happens... i'm just hoping my camera feels up to it

and if not, it take another piercig, dread my hair agan and see if i can find a better hobby thats not a total wast of my time

enjoy the sun people!

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/14682777/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/14682777/ Tue, 18 Sep 2007 03:56:47 PDT
What can i say...

Art sucks, i obviously don't have any talent for it... so why bother?

If you want to make good photographs you have to have a good camera, not one that makes everything look like a crookes icid trip...

(Yes even my own bloody camera gave up on me)

If you want to make nice drawings you need talent and good ideas...

But every time i try...
Every time i close my eyes, all i can see...
All i can see are things i don't want to see anymore.

Did you ever have this thing, like everything is good and okay.
Your having fun with friends, famalie, holidays, everything is just great.

And then there is still this thing no one knows about,
This thing you feel inside where ever you go, no matter how much fun your having...

Did you ever wake up so scared, that you couldn't conrol your heartbeat or breathing for the next 2 hours?

Do you know that feeling?
Its like your dog died, your mom told you she hates you, your boyfriend broke up with you, your house burned down, your best friend has a lethal desese... that all at once... that feeling in the stummick... only...
Everything is oke...

I can't explain it, maybe i'm just confused.
Maybe i'm just scarred

I'm not used to being scarred...

I never do anything about my fears, i hide them in a corner of myself until it becmes part of me, and then it just fades away.
Its like freddy krueger: take away its energy, and it stops existing.

But maybe this was part of me all along.
Keeping it with me isn't doing me any good.

That being said.
My art stinks, i've decided i suck at it.
Why can't i be good for something just once?

But hey, i hope i didn't depress you!
Seriously, everything is okay!!

I had an awesome vacation, had a great birthday... i had loads of fun, and i'm still having it!
Please don't worry, i'm not worth the effort.

______________________________
"You cover your nightmares,
You put them away,
'Cuz if nobody knows, Then they might go away"

-Racoon-

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/13147246/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/13147246/ Wed, 30 May 2007 05:30:20 PDT

I'm planning on making more free time for me to make new drawings and pictures. I've been so buisy lately, as most of you probably know already.

internship has been hell (i don't even know if you call it that in english but whatever) and i think my classmates would agree if i said 4 months would defenatly be enough... to bad we have about 6 more months to go on top of the already taken 7 months -_-;
i never thought i'd say this but, yes people i do miss school.

But whatever men, life is just crammed with good things and my internship can go stuff itself.
Last weekend i went to pinkpop with a bunch of friends and i ran into more friends on the festival itself. It was awesome...

My sisters birthday is comming up. Yes yes, the little princes is turning 8 years old ^^ (not that she is a princes, but she sure likes to act like one )

Then i've been planning on starting up my own buisnes, but first staring out with a on-line store for selling soem stuff that makes no sence, i mean, first i gotta finish school right.
I have the plans and everything ready, just a couple of more things to figure out and then the only thing i need to pick up this program is funding. But hey, i'm sure money will arive soon, as i came up with a plan to find the big pile of gold on the end of the rainbow... oke no i don't but shit men nobody is gonna read this... ever

Well, honestly i might just go to ireland this summer so if i catch one of those little green gnomes he has to tell me where it is... thats what the legend says anyway.
Aaaaaanyway, i have been planning my trip to schotland wich is going to be totally awesome


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Comming up soon:

I'm gonna make some illustrations for my t-shirt designs ans really wrong wrong underwhear... just another spiffy little project i'm going to work on as soon as i get this damned report finished i'm working on right now...
so i wil probably give some of them away to my friends as a little thank you for all their support en friendship

I expect them to be on-line about the end of next week...
Work in Progress people


]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/12575571/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/12575571/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 03:16:42 PDT
I felt like giving a couple of artists the recognition they deserve… some of them deserve so much more attention for their Works!

Hmm… i think i should get a subscription again…
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~Shachiel
-i just love his work!-

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~horrornoukie
- She is simply great!-

[link]
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~The-DeDE
-whoa awesome guy-

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~Gullible
-sweet girl, great pictures!-

[link]
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~Bixxus
-twisted… this guy is briljant-

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~MetalDready
-gorgious pictures, lovely piercings -

[link]
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~1llus
-A guy with talent and potential!-
... ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/12471414/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/12471414/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 14:10:55 PDT




The rules for the game are simple:

*The first ten people who respond this journal will be featured with three works from their gallery, that I will select

*People who will be featured here, must do the same in their journals so the chain could grow, grow and ¡explote!




Staring with the one making me do this.

~Shachiel
-i just love his work!-

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[link] briljant movement capture!

~1llus
-A guy with great talent and potential!

[link] a drawing with a good story behind it
[link] check this one out! great line art, an everyone seems to love it...
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Wiiiii have fun! ^ ^




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I wish i would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.

i just quoted some lines from *lithp

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/12322968/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/12322968/ Fri, 30 Mar 2007 03:23:29 PDT
I wish i would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.

i just borrowd some lines from *lithp



i feel sick, i feel... wel... not mutch actually, or maybe TO mutch...
i wish i didnt have these nightmare, i wish i dindt hurt the people i love, i wish i made the right desicion, i wish i could do things right for a change...

and if i could i would give nothing but happyness to all of you...
i just want the best for all of you.


]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/12151298/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/12151298/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 01:37:22 PDT Oh, als je hier kon zijn vandaag
Mijn vreemde vriend
En dat je nuchter was
En je geschoren had
Wat zou je lachen om mijn shirt
En m’n huis en m’n oude hoofd
Ik zou je vragen hoe het is
En ik had je niet geloofd

’t was een mooie tijd
Als ik me niet vergis
We hadden zo’n gelijk altijd
Maar ja, we zeiden niks
Je had het eerder door dan ik
Er is zo weinig tijd

Je zag er heel goed uit
Je deed als iemand van TV
Zo kon ik toch nooit zijn
Niet ik, niet met dat haar van mij
Een cirkel op je arm, ik niet
Want ik was veel te bang




Can i tell you something?
Do you believe me when i say i will never forget you?

Would share something with me that is eternal?
... just as my feelings for you...

oh and spinvis makes me think of our summer together ^^

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/11334085/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/11334085/ Sat, 06 Jan 2007 07:37:06 PST

anyone have any good ideas for some cool pics/drawings? i could use the advice...

i need my muse back, where i she going with a punk like that?




oh and.. WHOAA i have 2, yes, freaking 2 eyebrowpiercings!! i had them put in thursday with a friend of mine. i'm so happy with them!
they reprisent a new phase in my life...


i'm happy

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/11149623/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/11149623/ Fri, 22 Dec 2006 11:50:49 PST check the "mood" emo!!! ist sooo awesome

ooh lookit!! its us!! me, anouk, renee, renee,thomas and flea at pann-party yay twas so much fun
sooo... quote time: "do you have some icecubes i can rub over my nipples?"
mjah thats what you get is you have a grouppicture with your head on it on the pann website

oh sorry... i know it doesnt make a lot of sense to alot of people

time for an up-date...
so first of all, i still mis my friend. i'm having a difficult time with it but i'm surviving and i'm getting better already
i knew this could happen so i sort of prepaird for this, i know it sounds weird... but sometimes you just recognize the signs.
miss you sweatheart

then i shall soon post i theory i have developt with abel while i was sitting in the stairway with him (stairway=a hardrock cafe) its an evolutionary theory on how man and woman behave in a relationship an wich factors play a role in it blablabla... i'l upload it soon so you can all tell me what you think

christmas is comming up soon ^^ so i'm looking forward to doing fun stuff again
i'm going to play in a movie that Thomas is filming, i'm going to Antwerpen with some friends, i'm going to have a newyears party at my place and i'm hoping people will show up
oh and tomorrow i'm going christmas shopping with abel... maybe we can develop another theory about something weird...
after the holidays i might go to cruise town with my stalker that i havent met yet (Yes robbert im talking about you...smiecht ), i'm going to a concert from KILLSWITCH ENGAGE!!! you can tell it's metalcore... i'm going with all guys! well, theyre 2 good friends and my un-official twin brother so its no biggie but its killswitch!! *is very very happy about it* also i'm concidering piercing some random bodypart... oh if i'm in town tomorrow anyway i might just donate some money to the glass house (some project from dutch dj's to collect money for removing landmines) i can go ask for a song

and maybe just MAYBE i'm going to the willemheen in Arnhem with a guy from school to see some friends of him play in a band... i hope i can make it... would be fun ^^

mjah... soon i'll be up-loading some drawings or pictures again...

oh en robbert.. you got that card comming!




*t-shirt quote: "Jesus Was Wrong." -little miss sunshine*
this movie!

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/11016296/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/11016296/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 11:03:18 PST thanx to everyone that e-mailed me, send me a message, texted me and of course those that gave me a call and showed up at my door

thank you i'm really glad i still have you guys to help me through this...

remember sweetheart... god is the biggest bitch of them all!
let's all get along and stop fighting. why should we hate just because someone is different?
acceptance and respect are the most important things a human should learn to have towards others...

baby... we'll always have those rainy summer nights ^^
one day i'll dance with you again...in the rain under the moon.
i have lots of things that remind me of lots of people.. but the rain is yours sweety... do you want to dance with me?

oh.. and... people who kill themselves must really hate their friends, to put them trough this....


i smile.... and noone will know something is wrong

Self-rightious suiccide,
I Cry...When angels deserve to die...
Father into your hand I comend my spirit
Father why have you forsaken me
in your eyes Forsaken me
in your thoughts Forsaken me
in your heart Forsaken me?
Trust in my self righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
SOAD

the person that said life was easy obviousley wasn't a homosexual teenager living i a christian famelie situation...
R.I.P.

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/10698849/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/10698849/ Sun, 12 Nov 2006 09:08:39 PST I found you...
Damn i can't believe how mutch i missed you!

yeah i'm doing great right now!
even tho its autum i can feel the warmth of the sun... i'm looking at things so positive now. i can hear the songs inside of me.
i feel that i canged back into the person i once was, the person i once loved.
Now i remember who I am.
I found myself again!

Shit i can't believe i'm singing out loud again!
yeah i used to sing alot (okay it sounded awefull and i can't carry a tune but it's singing nontheless ^^)
it's been to long since i was relaxed enough to sing...
way to mutch troubles on my mind, but thats over now! i'm freaking happy and i don't give a shit about what you think about that!

*starts singing loudly* :

" Maybe your right, we've had a good time,
while you sat around, i got myself a new life
i got my spot, i found my smile,
i got happy!
i'll save you a smile, man i just hope your happy..."
(altered bowling for soup lyrics)

ooh lieffie begrijp me niet verkeerd hoor...
ik mis jou echt! we hebben het zo leuk gehad
.. het punt is alleen dat ik mezelf ook heb gemist...het is gewoon fijn dat ik mezelf weer heb terug gevonden.

het is jammer dat ik niet eerder wist dat ik alleen maar mezelf hoefde te zijn

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You need him? I could be him...
I could be an accident but I'm still trying.
That's more than I can say for him..."
-fallout boy-

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/10503954/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/10503954/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 06:59:12 PDT You say you love me, You love me again...
But if you love me, Where have you been?
-Reel big fish-
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I Try The Best I Can...
And i hate that it´s not good enough.


i just want to thank all my friends that they where here for me when i needed them,
and i want to say sorry to them if i ever did anything to hurt them...
i love you guys!

i´m workig on myself... to be a better person.
i´m getting rid of my insecurities...
and i´m finally going to admit that i´m not alright... but i´m going to be i´m sure of it.

Illus. I Believe In You
and i believe in You&Me
We are gonna be okay^^ thank you!


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Looking at herself but wishing she was someone else,
Because the bodys on the posters stuck to the wall they don't look like hers at all.
So she straps it on, she sucks it in, she throws it up, and gives a grin
Laughing at herself because she knows she ain't loved at all.

Cause when the pretty girl walks,
She walks so proud
And when the pretty girl laughs,
Oh man, she laughs so loud

Here comes another one, just like the other one,
Looking at himself but wishing he was someone else
-jack johnson- think clearly-

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/10110341/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/10110341/ Mon, 18 Sep 2006 10:39:14 PDT "lovesongs suck and fairy tales aren't true
And happy ending Hollywood is not for me and you
lovesongs make me sick 'cause they're not true..."
-bowling for soup-




hellow.... uhm...
happy birthday to me?
gehehe... i turned 18 a week ago and i forgot to mention it... oops

wanna know what i got?
i got a super hott electric guitar!!
*hyper-attack* its dark red with wooden patern and i'm going to be the best guitar player in the world!
*gasps for breath* i'm so happy happy with it!
you can sureley be suspecting a picture of it soon

i think... i fell in love, with the most gorgious guitar in the world!
i shall call him jay! (okay, thats what it says on the handle ^^)

thank you grandma thank you grandpa! i love you loads!





on another note: i still think fairy tales arent true...
no matter how hard your trying to convince me otherwise... ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/10036461/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/10036461/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 07:09:03 PDT "lovesongs suck and fairy tales aren't true
And happy ending Hollywood is not for me and you
lovesongs make me sick 'cause they're not true..."
-bowling for soup-

YAY!!! school started again ^^

okay, please read that with a sarcastic undertone, because really, who likes going back to school?
it meens the summer is over, getting up waaaay to early in the mornings, stressed out friends high on caffaine, and tons of homework...

on the other hand, i got plent of time to hang around the internet because i got nothing to do right now in school so that meens i get to catch up with all my dev-buddys again
and no...that was not sarcastic...

i really missed you crazy people!
please forgive me for being off-line for such a long time, i just really didn't have the time. so this is for all you crazy f***ers that are still bothering to read this^^

well after that being said... i think i might actually start editing some pictures soon because i really didnt have the time for that either... so i might actually up-load something soon! i know... don't get shocked now

so why don't you all tell me about your holidays and the things you went trough? i'm curious about it!!



on another note: i still think fairy tales arent true...
no matter how hard your trying to convince me otherwise... ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/8572398/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/8572398/ Tue, 30 May 2006 10:41:04 PDT we were young and feeling high
living like we’re bulletproof
And feeling like we’re never gonna die

-Lit- Bulletproof
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Yeah I was bored…. soooowwww…. A friend of mine had this on her livejournal and I was inspired by the intellectual spasm that is created by a combination of Boredom, Lack of Sex and To Much Homework….
I greatly encourage everyone who is experiencing the same circumstances at this time, to fill out the form and take part in the wonderful interesting practices that sad wankers like ourselves like to participate in…

Get inspired… Be inspired…
Or bored, really whatever you prefer…



Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song titles by that band: Lit

1. Are you female or male: -------------------- Everything
2. Describe yourself: ----------------------My Own Worst Enemy
3. How do some people feel about you:---All or Nothing
4. How do you feel about yourself:------- Alright
5. Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:
Ooohh… aqward question… “No Big Thing” would be evil and “Perfect One” sort of a lie… so I’ll just say: --------------------------------------------------Over It (thinking)
6. Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:- Hard To Find
7. Describe where you want to be: --------A Place In The Sun
8. Describe what you want to be: ----------Something To Someone
9. Describe how you love: ------------------To Fast for a U-Turn
10. Share a few words of wisdom: ---------The Best is Yet to Come Undone

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well that burned 10 minutes... ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/8166584/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/8166584/ Wed, 15 Mar 2006 08:35:02 PST
And he doesn't know who I am
And he doesn't give a damn about me

'Cos I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
Yeah, I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
Listen to Iron Maiden, baby... with me
Ooh

How does he know who I am?
Why does he give a damn about me?

...Teenage Dirtbag...

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wow... *sigh*
I don't really have anything important to tell here... at least... nothing that any of you would find interresting

My last journal entrie was on januari 27...
(wich i deleted because... well lets say its not really important for future reference... )
My last login was 2w 1d 6h 40m 3s ago...
i know i have been a little inactive on devart... but hey... what do you expect...
Well i'll promise to up-load more pictures this week... and i deleted some old pictures...for all the people that kept interrested in my stuff even tho i really haven't been feeling like making new "Art" ... Thank you i'm glad you guys didn't give up on me

Soooo....
Life has seriousley flipped up-side down.
in some ways bad in some ways good... in some ways REALLY good..
But it certainley is different.
The last few weeks seem to have just gone by so fast, that there was nothing i could do to stop it. And i guess i'm kind of glad that i didn't...

How it's all going to work out from here i have no idea... good or bad.. i don't really care. of course i hope it turns out good...
i'm just so fucking glad i don't have to wonder about the "what if's..." anymore, even about the things that went bad. I'm learning to accept myself for who i am now...
And You know what?
I'm fucking happy, and i don't care what you guys think about that!!

I just wanted to say... that if you really want something to happen you should just go for it... don't waste your time hanging around waiting for a miracle to come along...or worrying about what other people would think... because you could just be missing out on the best things that could happen.
Before you know it your chance could be gone, so you'll just have to get over yourself and all of your stupid insecuritys and make something of your life!


"Believe in the possibilety of the impossible..."



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(just for fun i'll add a quick recap of all my expressions this week: in no particular order......)
http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/7412476/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 09:01:34 PST im confused... for sum reason DevArt decided to give me a free trial...

well... her goes:

Mood: worried...
Listening to: please don't take my sunshine away
Watching: mysterious skin

--Are you really dying
Is that really all you feel
Because when I tutch you
I know that this is real

I see the hollow emptiness
That creeps into your eyes
And now it takes me over
It eats me up inside

Because all I can do now
Is sit here on my own
Can’t think, can’t move, can’t breathe
Because your gonna leave me all alone

I see the stupid plans you make
I see that your trying to cover all the scars
I see the sorrow and the pain
I see your gonna take the fall
And I know I cant do a single fucking thing to stop you
I know I’m just not enough

All day long I see you all
I think about you guys all the time
Because so many of my friends
Are all walking down that line

When I say I wanna make It better
You say I already did
But then I see those scars again
All the vains you tried to slit

I sit alone in the dark right now
Just starring at the wall
can’t think, can’t move, can’t breath
imaginary screams, echo thru the hall

I see how it consumes you
The cold that spreads inside
I wish that I could tell you
That I’m standing by your side

And now I’m so scarred
you won’t be here tomorrow
just come sit in the dark here with me
I’ll take over all your sorrow--


So many of the people I know are in a rough patch right now. I’m so scarred for them…
It breaks my heart to see them cry… it hurts when I think of what their going thru…
I can see how their hiding it, it hurts me when they lie
No… your NOT fucking aright! Stop saying that you are and talk to me… please let me help… and if I can’t help just let me be there with you…
I wish that my friends could see… that every scar they put on themselves hurts me a thousand times over…

And sometimes I sit in the corner… in the dark…. Just starring at the wall..
Because I’m so fucking scarred to lose you guys…
Its not like I don’t feel the same,.,, from the sixth year of my life I’ve had something inside of me that’s eats me up from the inside… but I made a promise and I’ll keep it no matter what…
I just wish there was something I could do… I feel so utterly useless… all I wanna do is help…
Sometimes I can’t fall asleep, because I’m scarred… one day I’ll wake up in the middle of the night because the phone’s ringing….
Or worse… what if it doesn’t ring and I will be left here… wondering where you are
Would you really leave? With a promise I can’t keep?

...Just come here and I’ll wrap my arms around you,
I’ll listen to all that you have to say,
I’ll whisper sweet things against your cheek,
I’ll kiss all your tears away…

Would you really leave me all alone… Alone in the dark…
With the thing that’s eating me up inside?...

]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/7315640/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/7315640/ Thu, 15 Dec 2005 05:09:27 PST

i've past the 666 pagevieuws O-o... i find it weird that people actually like the crap i make...
i'm being watched *cough stalkers* by a lot of people... now don't get me wrong i love each and every one of you guys and i really appriciate your support...
but i just don't feel i deserve all that attention

uuh... altough i'm kind of having an art-block right now...
(how DO you catch a glimpse of an imagenary world...) i still hold up my end of the promise so comming up:

anouk, i just have to colour yours

for my cute dev-stalkers:
zienna, i´m scared to up-load yours but i will as soon as my bloody scanner starts working again..
Jon,... just cuz i promised to make you something
and for you DeDe.. i'm gonna show you my own little world where i hide out when things get scary...

well... there you go... not that this is an interresting journal... i just thought it was time for something new.

and sorry if its not as hyper as your used to, comming from me...
i was kind of happy before i checked my agenda yesterday... next week is gonna be rough (you know personal reasons and stuff) and i don't want anyone to think its because of something they said... so if i'm a bitch i'm really sorry just know i didnt mean it like that... its just that freaking wednesday...

like the white stripes said:
"pretty tough to think about the beginning of december,
pretty tough to think about..."


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I'm sorry i'm so bad at journal writing... im used to writing stuff that noone ever reads... how to entertain the public?

and suggestions and comments are still welcome. i don't bite...
...usually ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/7183796/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/7183796/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 08:34:21 PST and theire tearing down the building behind my house...
...waking at 5 is´nt cool, not cool at all.

and still i´m in a good mood, dunno why... i´ve been singing that weird song from the Goo Goo dolls all day now... *cough*

AAAAnyway... i started drawing sum stuff for a few friends of mine and now i feel like i should give sum gift-art to the rest to,
for my real buddy´s:
anouk, i just have to colour yours
maartje, i can´t draw milan, sorry, but i have an idea!
maaike, no effing idea what to draw for you... any thoughts?
(by the way, die surprise werkt niet )

for my cute dev-stalkers:
zienna, i´m to scared to up-load yours
bloodytearsofremorse, i wanna draw sumething for you... you deserve it
Jon,... really... how do you draw an imagenary friend?
and for you DeDe.. i'm gonna show you my own little world where i hide out when things get scary...

does anyone else want to abuse me? really now´s you chance...
now if you people don´t mind i´m gonna make a party with my imagenary friend... ... *cough*

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I'm sorry i'm so bad at journal writing... im used to writing stuff that noone ever reads... how to entertain the public?

and suggestions and comments are still welcome. i don't bite...
...usually ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/7146511/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/7146511/ Sat, 26 Nov 2005 05:06:43 PST

yeah there is actually a story about that but i really shouldnt put that on deviantart

WHEEE! it's finally snowing... i must owe this to someone

aaaanyway to all the people that wanted me to put a picture on of my new (all curley) hair... sorry... i can't seem to get myself taking a picture of me...
i hate it is someone makes a picture of me... selfphotography seems like selfmutelatin to me...
Respect to all the DevPeople that can! ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/6940834/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/6940834/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 00:56:47 PST
i cut my hair short yesterday....
it's like... i dunno... all curley and stuff well it is sort of funny.
i still have an hour befor i go to school so i wonder what their going to say... or how long they will laugh
it's defenatley different from what it used to be...

*still singing:


All We Need Is Some IceCream And A Hug
All We Need Is Some IceCream And A Huuuuug*

ahum...

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I'm sorry i'm so bad at journal writing... im used to writing stuff that noone ever reads... how to entertain the public?

and suggestions and comments are still welcome. i don't bite...
...usually ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/6915524/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/6915524/ Mon, 31 Oct 2005 11:52:58 PST dunno why but i was singing all day!


"Take a good look around
Does life really suck Are we just complaining
I hope that this mic is on (testing 1, 2)
Cuz im on a roll here...
I hope this is making some sense
I hope that you’ll throw up your hands and sing it
And tell all the haters that they should just shut up and smile, yeah

all we needs a harmony and we’ll convince the world to sing
la la la la la la
throw your arms around someone (throw your arms around someone)
maybe spread a little love
I know it sounds a little dumb (or maybe I’m a little drunk)
But all we need is some ice cream and a hug!

All we need is love and beer
And old school metal and holiday cheer
TO be happy
(All you need is someone near)
like ben and jerry
(to hold you close and pretend that they care)

all we need is some ice cream and a hug!
all we need is some ice cream and a hug!
all we need is some ice cream and a hug!"


weird song to be singing on halloween...
Well see yah all soon, i'm gonna go to the beach now!

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I'm sorry i'm so bad at journal writing... im used to writing stuff that noone ever reads... how to entertain the public?

and suggestions and comments are still welcome. i don't bite...
...usually ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/6701381/ http://Blais-Zeroni.deviantart.com/journal/6701381/ Fri, 07 Oct 2005 05:37:31 PDT
gee, i'm so tired!
last night i had my birth day party (my b-day was 10 september but never mind)
me and 3 of my best friends went to a concert.
THANX MOM FOR THE GREAT GREAT TIME!
my mommy was so sweet to pay the tickets for us...
i had an amazing time, i hope my friends did to. i can tell you that racoon is a lot lot lot better live than on the radio...
and Blof (the forprogram...can you believe it?) absoluteley rules!
it was really funny and oh so sweet when blof and racoon did a duet on 'love you more'
and we wont discuss what me and maartje yelled at the stage... the whole room went *cricket cricket* LOL

i bought a present for my mom that night but i can't tell what it is because i didnt give it to her jet...
well tommorow i'm going to the zoo with my mom,grandma and little sister. i'm going to bring my sketchbook and camera and CAMP in front of the wolfcage and ofcourse the anteaters (deu to my old kingdom hospital and Kett obsession)

i'm sorry i'm so bad at journal writing... im used to writing stuff that noone ever reads... how to entertain the public?

and suggestions and comments are still welcome. i don't bite...
...usually ]]> ~Blais-Zeroni