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school is finished!! I hopefully passed my exams, which I will hear about in 10 days
I'm really happy lately, I can finally enjoy everything, since I've been learning for 2 months now. But that's all over now ^____^

Really stoked about this summer holiday, going to my third WOA, which will be flipping rad of course!! In flames for the fourth time, dimmu borgir and stuff
and my holiday is going to be like 3 months filled with parties because we left school
It will be such fun

btw go check [link], super funny videos of 2 crazy american guys, better yet, boys
and I will have to upload pictures again of course!!


<33

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/12158252/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/12158252/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 15:20:47 PDT
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Won't somebody come along
And teach me how to keep it alive?
To survive.

Come along and show me something
That I never knew in your eyes.
Take away the tournicate.

I used to be so full of my confidence,
I used to know just what I wanted and just where to go.
More than ever I could use a coincidence,
But now I walk alone and talk about it when I know.

Hey, oh yeah, how long?
I guess I ought to walk away,
Hey, oh yeah, so long...
What you gonna do today?

I don't wanna have to, but I will,
If that's what I'm supposed to do.
We don't wanna set up for the kill,
But that's what I'm about to do.

Later on, I'll cut you off when you're screaming into the phone.
Hard to own.
Anyway, I wanna let you know that everything is on hold.
What you gonna do to me?

You used to be so warm and affectionate.
All the little things I used to hear my fairy say,
But now you're quick to get into your regret.
I'll take the fall and now you got to give it all away.

Hey, oh yeah, how long?
I guess I ought to walk away,
Hey, oh yeah, so long...
What you gonna do today?

I don't wanna have to, but I will,
If that's what I'm supposed to do.
We don't wanna set up for the kill,
But that's what I'm about to do.

I don't wanna have to, but I will,
If that's what I'm supposed to do.
We don't wanna set up for the kill,
But that's what I'm about to do.

Hey, what would you say if I stayed?
Stayed for a while, if I may.
Say it again and I'll come around,
But not for the last time...

Hey, what would you say if I changed?
I'll change everything but my name.
Play it again and I'll come around, (come around)
But not for the last time. (not for the last time)

You used to be so warm and affectionate;
I used to know just what I wanted and just where to go.
And now you're quick to get into your regret;
And now I walk alone and talk about it when I know...

Hey, oh yeah, how long?
I guess you gotta walk away;
Hey, oh yeah, so long...
What you gonna do today?

Hey, oh yeah, how long?
I guess you gotta get away;
Hey, oh yeah, so long...
What you gonna do today?

Hey - RCHP


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]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/11028855/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/11028855/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 13:38:17 PST I just want to feel that high
And you refuse to lift me


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I'm too busy with school lately and now i'm sick...
Luckily it's almost christmasholidays, Looking forward to that!
I need to put more time in Photograpy, I need to make more time, even if i'm this busy with school and stuff.

Need For Sleep

<333

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/10622033/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/10622033/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 07:08:01 PST
I've had my first photoshoot a while a go with a friend from my class, Melle. At first it didn't go so smooth. We both had to adjust to the idea. It was the first time I made photo's of someone else. She was my first model I'll post some pictures through the weeks.

Otherwise I've been in a doze a bit. Everythings always the same.
Too much to do for school. It's so boring. It's the same routine over and over again. And I can't really understand someone who's very close to me. I just don't get it/him. mwah whatever eh?

I'm just going to enjoy my milo now
see you,

<333

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/10171279/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/10171279/ Sun, 24 Sep 2006 10:40:17 PDT We don't need anything or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace to remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
I just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

snowpatrol - let's waste time chasing cars

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/10086819/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/10086819/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 01:39:02 PDT ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9938561/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9938561/ Sat, 02 Sep 2006 08:49:41 PDT my departures were old I stood in the room shaking in my boots
at that particular time love had challenged me to stay
at that particular moment I knew not run away again
that particular month I was ready to investigate with you
at that particular time

we thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated
we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding
at that particular time love encouraged me to wait
at that particular moment it helped me to be patient
that particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant
at that particular time

I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself
and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt
and in the meantime I lost myself
in the meantime I lost myself
I'm sorry I lost myself?i am

you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no distraction
you felt you needed to fly solo and high to define what you wanted
at that particular time love encouraged me to leave
at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me
that particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left
at that particular time


- Alanis Morrisette ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9858209/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9858209/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 04:31:56 PDT cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking
with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos
and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin,
let the mourners come.

Let the aeroplanes circle
moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky
the message "He is dead".
Put crepe bows round
the white necks of the public doves,
Let traffic policemen
wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South,
my East and West.
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My moon, my midnight,
my talk, my song;
I thought that love
would last forever:
I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now:
Put out every one;
Pack up the moon
and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean
and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now
can ever come to any good.


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GAWD.. I love this poem.. ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9781855/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9781855/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 11:37:53 PDT 1,666 Pageviews



One of the strange things about living in the world,

is that it is only now and then one is quite sure

one is going to live for ever and ever and ever.

One knows it sometimes when one gets up

at the tender solemn dawn-time and goes out

and stands alone and throws one's head far back

and looks up and up and watches the pale sky slowly changing

and flushing and marvelous unknown things happening

until the East almost makes one cry out

and one's heart stands still at the strange unchanging majesty of the rising sun

- which has been happening every morning for thousands and thousands of years.

One knows it then for a moment or so.

And one knows it sometimes when one stands by oneself in a wood at sunset

and the mysterious deep gold stillness slanting through and under

the branches seems to be saying slowly again and again

something one cannot quite hear, however much one tries.

Then sometimes the immense quiet of the dark-blue at night

with millions of stars waiting and watching makes one sure;

and sometimes a sound of far-off music makes it true;

and sometimes a look in someone's eyes




Summerholiday is almost over http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9721582/ Mon, 14 Aug 2006 06:08:19 PDT
I've been too Wacken Open Air.. which was really really REALLY! rad..
Saw Arch Enemy for the third time!!
COB and Soulfly for the second time and went to see bands like
Six Feet Under, Soilwork, Born From Pain, Fear Factory and such
We went for 5 days and everything was just the way we wanted it to be ^^

Well as you have noticed I have a new camera, Fujifilm Finepix S5600 <333
I'm very happy with it and have been making lots of pics.. Still have to figure the whole thing out :') But I'm coming along.. Will submit more pics when I am capable to make normal pics

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9465423/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9465423/ Sun, 23 Jul 2006 06:53:42 PDT But I have good reasons
I'll fill you in..

I've been to Italy for a week with school, which was f*cking rad..
Did have to walk a lot but I saw a lot as well!!
Went to museums and stuff and had plenty of free time as well, which we used wisely by shopping, eating in nice Italian restaurants and looking for bars and drink a lot ghehe.. :sunglasses:

After that I had just a few weeks of school left.. Which past slowly, but finally School was over and I passed with no bad marks!! So I was kinda proud of myself..

My birthday was on the 29th and That morning I had to bring my books back, and the night before I had a party at a friends house.. Everyone got a little wasted and when me and a friend cycled back home we fell asleep at my place :') at like 5 am.. and I woke up at 6 am because he had to go home (because my dad would come to have breakfast with me on my birthday..)Which was really hard because we were still very sleepy after only having slept one or 2 hours :')

After showing him the door I slept for a couple hours more.. My dad came and woke me with croissants and stuff.. yumm.. After I brought my books back I had lunch with my mom and after that I went to Job, another friend, who's birthday is on the same day as mine.. so we decided to celebrate it together.. Couple of friends came over and we had a blast and we all slept at his place and in the morning we had pancakes for breakfast , it was really funn..

My birthday lasted like 2 days which was really rad.. and I had so much fun!!
Robert, that friend that fell asleep at my place (from the party) gave me a really awesome gift.. the weekend before my birthday he took me to graspop.. Where I got to see In Flames and Arch enemy (both for the second time ) So actually my birthday lasted 3 days

And a week after my birthday Robert’s parents went away on holiday, so me and some other friends stayed there for two weeks, it was sooo rad.. we chilled all day and did all kinds of stuff.. we had a swimming pool and his house is nice and big.. so we were really spoiled.. but that has come to an end as well.. We are going to stay at a other friends house when his parents are gone but that not before another 11 days or so..

What I am going to do within 12 days is that I'm going to WACKEN OPEN AIR 2006 I'm soo excited.. I will see arch enemy for the third time, soulfy for the second time, just like COB Six feet under will also be coming and lots more!

I'm also planning to go to Lowlands.. where bands like hawthorne heights, muse, panic! at the disco wil be coming


Well that's way more then I wanted to write..


Ohwyeah I've been tagged By :babsie:
something with 5 strange things about myself..


here I go:

1. I never take of my nail polish off with nail polish remover.. I just scratch it off with my nails (a)
2. I like looking at peoples faces when there I a awkward silence or if nobody notices.. it's funny
3. I secretly believe I'm a fairy, don't you?
4. I'm an ice-cream freak.. you can always bother me for ice cream.. even wake me up in the middle of night..
5. I would like to do great things in the world and learn a lot of music instruments.. but I just too lazy

I'm not so fond of tagging so I'll just leave it to this..




ps. New pictures will be uploaded very soon!! ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9444946/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9444946/ Fri, 21 Jul 2006 05:49:39 PDT Yesterday I wanted time to end
I wonder if my heart will ever mend
I just let you slip away

4 AM forever

Maybe I'll never see you smile again
Maybe you thought that it was all pretend;
All these words that I could never say
I just let them slip away

4 AM forever

Why don't you hear me when I'm calling out to you (to you)
Why don't you listen when I try to make it through (to you)
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, you never know
Hold a little tighter

4 AM forever

Maybe one day when I can move along
Maybe someday when you can hear this sing
You won't let it slip away

4 AM forever

And I'd wish the sun would never come
It's 4 AM and you are gone
I hope you know you're letting go
It's 4 AM and I'm alone

Why don't you hear me when I'm calling out to you (to you)
Why don't you listen when I try to make it through (to you)
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, you never know
Hold a little tighter

Why don't you hear me when I'm calling out to you (to you)
Why don't you listen when I try to make it through (to you)
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, you never know
Hold a little tighter

4 AM forever...

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soon more about what i've been up to ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9238789/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/9238789/ Sat, 01 Jul 2006 04:42:54 PDT
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ps. More news comming soonnnnn ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8805764/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8805764/ Thu, 18 May 2006 08:32:50 PDT
still packing away, I always take to much with me…but we're going by bus and that leaves us with a road trip reaching a day... so I’m gonna take a lot of food with me

I'm planning on eating soooo much ice cream there gna gna
I also got my grades list back today and there all good marks, so everybody's happy at home and stuff…

But now I’m going to sit on my suitcase and try to close it

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8567629/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8567629/ Mon, 24 Apr 2006 04:29:19 PDT

Annddd to tell that I went to the Elf Fantasy Fair yesterday, which was realllyy rad!! me and babsie ([link]) looked awsome and we had a lot of pictures taken of us
I'll put some pics on DA soon...

This week is sooo boring and stupid , full of learning...
butttt saturday morning i'm off to South-Africa!! To see my fam and go to my uncle's beach house and go to my niece's wedding ^^.. I'm sooo excited!
Can't wait till this week is finished.. grmbl


well that's all for now, got to go study again





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With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
You try this trick and spin it
Your head will collapse but theres nothing in it so you ask yourself

Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?

Way out in the water
see it swimming

I was swimming in the carribean
Animals were hiding behind the rock
Except for the fish and it told me
I swear its trying to talk to me

Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?

Way out in the water
See it swimming

With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
You try this trick and spin it
Your head will collapse but theres nothing in it so you ask yourself

Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?

Way out in the water
see it swimming… ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8465234/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8465234/ Fri, 14 Apr 2006 02:38:28 PDT We had lots of fun and I took her to the best icecream shop here,
I have a long weekend now, because of easter. A friend is having a party saturday because he's becoming 18 sunday! Should be fun.
Tonight some friends are coming to my place
Still feel shit actually.. because I had a little argument with a friend, he just doesn't get it.. sometimes he makes me sad
I dunno what to do..

well whatever, I needd to get out of bed!



ps. Elf Fantasy fair is coming up! And maybe someone can make me this dress from the video of MCR- Helena.. I hope so!!


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Long ago
Just like the hearse, you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on, just like a match you strike te incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what’s the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

[chorus]
What’s the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star falls
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what’s the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

[chorus]
What’s the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me
Are you near me
Can we pretend to leave and then
We’ll meet again, when both our cars collide

[chorus]
What’s the worst that I can say
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8373898/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8373898/ Wed, 05 Apr 2006 13:08:20 PDT I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home
I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again
And there's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
I will love you always and forever

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you're pretending.

I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
and I am alone
In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast is taking me home.

We saw the western coast
I saw the hospital
Nursed the shoreline like a wound
Reports of lover's tryst
Were neither clear nor descript
We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows

So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

"Do you leave your razorblades lying around?"
"Don't be a philistine Winnie."

Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
but as for me, I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone
Making out.

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you're pretending.

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast is taking me home.

"Look, darling, hasn't this gone a little too far?"
"It certainly has."

And iiii....

So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

(Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.)

So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop down
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

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AAAHH I’m so stoked, my 'aunt' a.k.a frienndddd is here in Holland and
I'm going to see her Friday!! Yaayyyy...
And Saturday I have a party, so it will be a rad weekend!
School is going well, no problems there Just have to hang on for a little while!
In May I'm going to South Africa, I’m soooo excited! Going to see my fam again and go to the wedding of my niece Jessy (who's is finally going to marry Ian and there having a baby!!). Can't wait . And like two weeks after that I'm going to Tuscany, Italy, with school..which should be pretty rad as well
I feel like shit btw.. but fuck that lets be happy! Music helps...



]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8282248/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8282248/ Mon, 27 Mar 2006 07:59:25 PST with your cigarette's lying between your lips?
Why do you always need some stars
They just go out to find themselves

Why do we never, ever act
My life is stepping far ahead
Why do we never, ever act
Your life is stepping far ahead, but

That might be so cool
Yeah, that might be cool
I might be a fool in your eyes
That might be so cool
Yeah, that might be cool
I might be a fool in your arms

Get out

Dodel up,dodel up, huh?
Dodel up, dodel up, huh?
Dodel up, dodel up
I'm locked up and I'm bored

Do you really need all this
See your shiny eyes down in the crowd
Am I really made for this?
I think it feels good to be around

Why do we never, ever act
Life is stepping far ahead
Why do we never, ever act
Your life is stepping far ahead, but

That might be so cool
Yeah, that might be cool
I might be a fool in your eyes
That might be so cool
Yeah, that might be cool
I might be a fool in your eyes,
in your eyes, in your eyes, in your eyes
1,2, SHOUT OUT!!!

Dodel up, dodel up, huh?
Dodel up, dodel up, huh?
Dodel up, dodel up,
I'm locked up and I'm bored!

Am I made for your guy
Never ending, never ending
Am I made for your guy
Never ending, never ending

Dodel up, dodel up,
Dodel up, dodel up, huh?
Dodel up, dodel up,
Never ending
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I've been listening to Guano Apes a lot lately..
Here are some more songs I like (some mean more..)

* Gogan
* Living a Lie
* Quietly
* Don't turn your back on me
* Anne Claire
...


It's terrible weather out here.. I hate it.. It's getting warmer and stuff but now it's like raining and what not. I don't feel like I now myself anymore. It feels kinda weird to feel that way.. The only one I can tell my story to.. sadly enough.. is my laptop.. I don't think anyone would understand or would try to give me advice, when I just know it's not going to help. Because it's different for the person who's going through those emotions then for the person that heard the story.. from that point of few it looks like the awnser is just for grabbing.. but it's not that simple.. well look at me blabbering on about funny stuff.
I'll feel fine in a couple days...

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8234913/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8234913/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 09:06:28 PST I need the fear.
Push me out
Ohh be brave
Show me signs
Should I feel shame for the questions that I have with you?

If you could be
The things I need.
(I'll crawl through knives
An inch per tear.)
These knees, they bleed for you.
(Let the colour persuade the hate
That you fear.)

Feed the lie.
Force the reason.
Leave me in doubt.
Need some motivation

It's in my hands.
The sky, so bright.
It's burning.
It's for me to decide.
If flames will reach heaven tonight.
It's in my hands.

Nailed to the floor
Paralyzed
Emotions drifting
Though(?) the new

If you could be
The things I need.
I'll crawl through knives
An inch per tear.

It's in my hands.
The sky, so bright.
It's burning.
It's for me to decide.
If flames will reach heaven tonight.
It's in my hands.

It's in my hands.
The sky, so bright.
It's burning.
It's for me to decide.
If flames will reach heaven tonight.
It's in my hands.

It's in my hands.
The sky, so bright.
It's burning.
It's for me to decide.
If flames will reach heaven tonight.
It's in my hands.

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Yesterday I went to In Flames/Sepultura and it was fucking rad!!!
We were sooooo close to the podium and we could see everything and it was just fantastic!! It was a shame we had to take the train back, because we missed part of the concert .. But it still was one rad evening

I finally found my cord, and put some pictures on DA...
I hope you like them! You can see how my hair turned out.. But I will make a even better Picture of my hair so it's more clear. I'm happy I could finally submit some stuff.. took some time!

Next event I’m going to is probs going to be graspop, where I will see In flames again!!! and Arch Enemy and soulfly, all for the second time. Bullet for my valentine is coming as well and lots more..

I'm off to eat chocolate and do lazy things, only because I'm so good at it

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8118366/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/8118366/ Fri, 10 Mar 2006 04:50:06 PST So, I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you and things we used to do

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Going to see In flames on the 21st of march..almost now!
Disturbed has been postponed to September -_-
Going to graspop (23-24-25 june)
Going to Wacken (03/08 - 05/08)
Looking forward to all of it...



ps. New pictures will come eventually... sigh...
pps. Part of my hair is black, big part.. ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7782206/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7782206/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 15:10:28 PST
Listening: Oblivion – 30 seconds to mars <3333


Well…
I’m being a bit lazy these days, so I have to get into some action. Finally
submitted something again… It’s not much, but it will do until I find my
cord (which has still disappeared into thin air!!)
My school marks are still good. No worries about that. Only that I don’t
Want to go to school anymore… but that’s normal and stuff.
I have a party tomorrow at my friends house… should be pretty cool…
I’m in a mood for a good party. He’s giving the party because he just turned
19 last Wednesday. He asked for this weird bracelet thingy in form of handcuffs,
From criminal, so a friend and I bought it for him… I hope he’s thrilled .
Just came back from one of my best friends, and it was awesome, had some
Crazy fun as always

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:::Concerts & festivals planned:::
20/03 – Disturbed (maybe mudvayne)
21/03 – In Flames (with Sepultura)
03/08.05/08 – Wacken Open Air [link]


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Evanescence - Missing

Please, please forgive me
But I won't be home again
Maybe someday you'll look up
And barely conscious, you'll say to no one
Isn't something missing

You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant
Am I so insignificant
Isn't something missing
Isn't someone missing me

Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me

Please, please forgive me
But I won't be home again
I know what you do to yourself
I breathe deep and cry out
Isn't something missing
Isn't someone missing me

Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me

>| And if I bleed
>| I'll bleed
>| Knowing you don't care
>| And if I sleep just to dream of you
>| I'll wake without you there

Isn't something missing
Isn't something

Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't something missing
Isn't someone missing me ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7738196/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7738196/ Sun, 29 Jan 2006 04:48:41 PST
It was fucking rad! They're so good live! I had a really good time.
I went with 3 of my friends. And we met up with a couple of more friends when we arrived. We stood on the balcony, because you could see better and it was less hot. The crowd under us was really going crazy It was a small place so the there was like one big pit before the stage . On the way back (hour and a half drive back) Every one fell half asleep in the car haha. But that was also because the parents of robert (one of my friends) wanted to listen to some jazz music.. and it made you feel sleepy .. At 2 o'clock or something we finally arrived home. And with a really satisfied feeling I fell asleep .
My next concert is in march --> Disturbed 20/3 (maybe with mudvayne!) and real soon after that (21/3) I'm off to see In flames (& sepultura!) Looking forward to it!!
Now i'm off to being sleepy and doing nothing



ps. New pictures will arrive soon!! ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7580944/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7580944/ Sat, 14 Jan 2006 07:55:49 PST Mood: Just Fine
Listening to: Tentative - System Of A Down

Hmm I managed to get no bad marks before the christmas break.. so I'm kind of proud of myself ... I hope I can keep this up.. but I think i'll have to work a bit more then I did.. even if I was lucky enough to pull it of the first half year

I'm kinda wondering about what to do with my hair... Let it grow for a bit again and just leave it the way it is.. or do something crazy with it again...
Maybe i'll do both, let my hair grow and then after a while cut and colour it again...
Still have to find out what..

Christmas break is just over... I miss the free time and the party's and all... But In about 5 weeks I got another holiday.. spring break waajhaajjj .. Looking forward to it...

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Wajjjhaajjjj... thnx all for looking at my page

UPDATE : I know I haven't submitted anything for like a long while.. but I replaced my camera cord thingy and now I can't put them on my computer -_-
So You'll just have to wait untill I find it ^^ ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7479580/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7479580/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 14:07:15 PST ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7411395/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7411395/ Sun, 25 Dec 2005 08:24:06 PST xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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It's christmas \o/

I had a lovely family dinner yesterday on christmas eve'.. Had turkey and and all the good stuff, and for desert we had caramelised apples with hot custard poored into the core of the apple.. it was reallyy yummie!!!

The tree, me and my sis had decorated (!!), looked lovely and all the presents under it gave it a nice and warm look.. we had lots of candles and stuff so it was really cozy and everything

And I got a ipod video!!!!!!! I'm like so fucking happy right now :')
I can stare at it allll day..
Now I just have to put all my music on it and stare and listen to it alll day

But now I have to help with dinner ^^

Merry Christmas to all \o/


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Hooray it started snowing again!!
I hope that this week won't be covered with snow...but when I (FINALLY!!) have my Christmas break!! So I can sit inside with my cup of Hot Chocolate with whipped cream () and stare outside to all the snow dropping down and building it's way up to the sky again... such a wonderful feeling *sigh*



I got one more week of brutal studying to go and than I can relax again ^^
I'm just not really in the mood to study.. but hey.. who is?! And I’m delaying things that I shouldn't be delaying and my planning is getting all screwed up..
But.... All we need is love and beer. And old school metal and holiday cheer.
To be happy And that's what's keeping my head high.. so no worries

But than again I still have to study a bit.. So Bubye





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I've put up a picture of me with my new hair.. I know.. you can't really see it that clearly but if you look close you see the red in my hair at the bottom..
This week I'm going to redo it, so you can see the color better.. And then i'll make another picture..

I'm doing alright these days.. Just accepting school and stuff ( 2 more weeks and then 2 weeks of holidayyyy *\o/* ) Got good marks.. and I'm planning to keep it that way.. now let's see if my planning truely works..

Feeling fine...just fine...

Gotto go to bed!!

XxX ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7237171/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7237171/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 10:32:25 PST
I finally did my hair, and it looks really nice..if I say so myself
I haven't cut it this short for a while so it's something totally different \o/
The colour turned out a bit different then I thought it would, it's more red, but I like it anywaaayyy...
I still have to make a picture, but i've been really busy with school this week and the colour is less intense already so i'll have to use the other halve of the stuff so you can see it more clearly..


School's been a draggggg lately..But I think everyone has the same problem...
I started drawing more at home aswell.. haven't done it for a while now, which is really sad because I like it so much.. but my inspiration is like totally gone so just making little sketches.. and when I finally make something interesting I will admit it... Hopefully that will be soon, haha

Andddd I want to go to a concert agaiinnnn, really soon, like NOW!! haha
Me and a friend would've maybe gone to Hatebreed this friday, but due to the leck of money we decided to skipp this one
BUT! 25th of januari I'm going to see Children Of Bodummmmm, and I'm sooo excited and I want too ggooooo, but have to wait a little longer!!


And well I guess that's it for now.. Going to watch sex and the city, Desperate Housewives and Gillmore Girls ^^ haha!

laterrrr ]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7183145/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7183145/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 06:36:20 PST
It's been a total of 5 days now.. slowly getting worse.
But hopefully i'll be all better again \o/ can't wait!
Because it's soooooo boring..

I'm realllllly getting tired of school.. would love to drop out and still get my vwo-diploma :') but that's a wish a can't make true..

A little highlight in my days is that i'm going to do something with my hair \o/
I want it a bit shorter again and in layers and then I want to colour the bottomlayer stuff cyber purple (that's what it's called..sounds freaky, looks very very nice ). The purple lasts only 6-8 washes but I bought it, and I don't want to wast my money. My hair is blond so I was afraid that it wouldn't turn out that nice if I did my all of my hair.. but just to see how it turns out the hair by my ears and neck and so are perfect for testing.. they are darker so it should turn out better as well.
And if all goes well, I will take a picture of it and put it in my gallery (maybe scraps, haha)

Well i'm going to rest some more,

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7042105/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/7042105/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 05:00:15 PST Like I have to clean my room today.. but I really (!) don't feel like it. But I know I’m going to feel better once it's done..
Part of that I am feeling better, not that confused anymore.. things are calming down.. see stuff more clearly..

Well I’m off to make an attempt on cleaning my room, so adios

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/6978331/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/6978331/ Mon, 07 Nov 2005 06:46:26 PST Don't know the exact reason for this. Maybe it's because of school or the uncomfortable situation at home, or the fact that my life is a bit of a mess these days. Or even my confused feelings for a particular person.
Just want to have fun and stuff, which I often have. But sometimes I just break down for a moment and just don’t know what to do…
Maybe I’m just fooling myself, and actually there’s nothing wrong… But it just doesn’t feel right these last few days, maybe weeks. And it’s getting annoying.
So I’ll have to do something about it won’t I …
And that’s what I’ll do…

*Goes and starts doing something ‘bout it*

]]> ~Blank-File http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/6873952/ http://Blank-File.deviantart.com/journal/6873952/ Wed, 26 Oct 2005 14:18:43 PDT
There's this nasty flue going around, and I was just lucky enough to catch it.

It's sooooo boring being sick...really...all the fun options just seem to disappear
But now i'm better!! And I can finally go to school again (yes, i know, i can hardly believe i'm saying that myself..) and do fun things again *\o/*

As I was laying in bed today, I was looking threw some things of mine and stumbled across a little poem I wrote a while ago..
I kind of liked it..
So here it is :

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I'm confused...
Days of joy
Leave me nights
Of crying

I'm in love...
But I don't want to be
My mind is fooling me
I can't think straight

I'm greedy...
More than this I could not expect
I never thought it would go this way
But still I want more

I'm not satisfied...
But why not?
Why do I cry?
Not because of his actions

But of mine...

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Well i'm off to bed, Night Night ]]> ~Blank-File