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I am now officially 4 days over-due and starting to get REALLLLLYYY cranky. Sorry there's been no pictures up of me during my pregnancy really. I might get round to putting some up after I finally pop her out, but the last few months have been so stressful that I just can't deal with staring at the PC screen while the photos load up (it always goes SO slow on here).
I'm sure I will have some nice pictures of our little family up soon enough, Jake (daddy) will take some lush ones and I will steal them to put up giving him full credit (seeing as he's the one with the photography skills and I most certainly am NOT).

xx

]]> ~BleedingRed http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/19586186/ http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/19586186/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 07:47:16 PDT I attend my first antenatal scan on August 27th (12 week scan) and fund out how far gone I am for definite and get the first glimpse of the tiny life growing inside of me. God it's all so amazing.
So keep your eyes peeled for plenty of picture of the bump, my partner Jake [link] will probably be doing the same. He's so excited, as am I.

YEY!

]]> ~BleedingRed http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/18019829/ http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/18019829/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 09:16:30 PDT A little update - As of September 4th 2007 I have been with the most amazing boy you could ever meet, my wifey Jake [link] . He is so wonderful to me you just can't imagine, and there are so many aspects we don't have in common but I don't believe in all this nonsense that to make something work you need to have all your hobbies intermingle and be on the same intellectual level and have similar life goals. All this is untrue and I have found this of all my relationships to be the one in which we meet in the middle on most things, some we hate and disagree over but neither stifles the others creativity or opinion. I think that is what is most important - feeding one another's passions.
So for now I am happy and settled with him, grounded. We are currently living in my home town in the UK and are moving into our first owned home hopefully in the next month of so. We will be living in a little two up two down house, very well decorated and shared with our friend Gillian. The house has potential as a family home, not helping with my obsession over family and the prospect of one. So it shall be myself, Jake, Gillian and our two white kittens; Milky-Jo (mine) and Hitcher (Jake's).
My baby obsession is driven by the new arrival of my Godson Connor, weighing in at 7lbs 5oz, he was born on Wednesday 23rd April 2008 and is the sweetest little thing I have ever seen. His mammy is a very lucky lady and I can't wait to hold my own little bundle of joy in my arms. Again this obsession with babies and pregnancy is driven and un-helped by another of my friends been pregnant and expecting a little girl sometime in the summer. These two women are so very lucky to have these little angels and I am the broodiest woman alive right now. Seeing a baby gets my stomach churning with longing. Oh well.

Goodbye.

]]> ~BleedingRed http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/13265893/ http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/13265893/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 13:30:30 PDT
So I recently was ditched by my bpyfriend of a year+ and whom I loved deeply. However I am refusing for this to be a downer on my life, at such a crucial time in life, I need to stay positive and see the good side to life. I have two amazing friends an they are all I need, as even when my family are being unkindly I can turn to them and smile with them.

I am living for me at the moment, for as it was pointed out to me that I am the only person that will be here from birth till death...surely I am the most important person in my life. And shall remain that way. I don't see why some boy should become that important again, at least not easily.

]]> ~BleedingRed http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/10020635/ http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/10020635/ Sat, 09 Sep 2006 15:35:13 PDT I hate that I gave him my world and I got a glance in return!

poetry will be posted soon for all those wondering...I've been working on some real gems lately.

love to you all
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ]]> ~BleedingRed http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/9660210/ http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/9660210/ Wed, 09 Aug 2006 07:16:29 PDT So the new/old boy is back on the scene...sorta never left but was pushed out to watch from the sidelines bless his little cottons...and he is beautiful may I add...I think we should all have a Benjamin...as long as he is not mine becuase well my Ben is ALL MINE!

I love him like a fat kid loves cake I really fucking do...my GOD! it's an obsession and an addiction worse than my addiction to coffee so SWEET FUCK is in order.
I am off to Bristol to see him this Sunday I really can't wait...means there will be none of ME on DA for like...6 days...so be warned! I wanna have nice comments and that when I come back if ANYONE ever reads these things...which I highly doubt.

Anyhoo must dash I have to go to the park and meet my Emmar. =] x ]]> ~BleedingRed http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/8932282/ http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/8932282/ Wed, 31 May 2006 16:20:51 PDT

So...whats new...erm...well I have a new hair colour...if you hadn't noticed I am my natural deep blonde now...how fancy does that sounds "deep blonde"What I really mean is a mucky shade of blonde or a faded out shade of brown. Lols.

Also I have a lovely boyfriend on the scene...loves him I does...wish he was here right now...he's one of those people you can't deal without being around...if I could live with him...I WOULD!

[link]

Thats him...my Owen...doesn't he look evil...and I look just plain UGLYYYY and look...theres my boobs popping out becuase I was DRUNKEN!!!

Ooohhh am going to Download...yumyumFucking gooooooooooood moosic for 3-4 days straight...in a tent with my loverrrrrrrrrrrohhh yeah!! And no loos...[not clean ones at least] and no shower...icky ewww!! Am taking baby wipes with me...shower in a wipe!!!!!But like...omfg...Avenged Sevenfold are playing...and and and Devil Driver...and just YUM!MUUUUSIC!

Erm...what else...ahh yes...I want a god damned tattoo!! I know exactly what I want and all I need is the bloody money!! but as per usual I am skint as a dog and can barely afford to go away.stupid job...I've had my hours cut by 30 hours this month...it's getting to be a JOKE!

Anyhoo this tattoo...I am going to get a butterfly on my wrist...and it's gonna be custom drawn so it's the only one around...heehee...all pretty and pointy and black and stufs...I don't want colour becuase colours mean certain things to certain people...and can change their meaning...so...meaning will all be in the butterfly...am not giving you a meaning just yet...becuase it's personal...and people are THEIVES...and to be honest it'd devistate me to see someone come out saying the same thing as me when it's meant to be me and only me!!!! RWAR!

Anyhoo...so thats the news...

Mood - Generally happily in love thanks.
Status - Needing to pee.
Music - Demon Eyes - The Haunted.
Time - 00:19.


Love to alll..xx ]]> ~BleedingRed http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/7481199/ http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/7481199/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 17:02:01 PST
Finally it's 2006.

We've been waiting an effin' year!

Could of come faster couldn't it??

So New Years resolution...

I have a new attitude...

It's so famously called the "fuck YOU" attitude!

I am sick of being told who I am and what I can and cannot do!

So the fuck you attitude just seems to go with life and 2006.

From now on no ones gonna tell me "you can't do that" without a "fuck you" right back.

If I think it's right...warn me all you like against it...but it's my choice at the end of the day!

And I have the right to say "fuck you" to the world and make a choice to be different.

Need an image change...am loving the HardXcorE image I have going atm.

Hats are my new best friend...YES!

Also...love life.

I am a head fuck and a half...

All I ever get is a head fuck...

It's happened and it'll happen again.

But this time not without revenge and a mother fucking kick in the balls!!

I have a new boy now...and if he fucks with me...am gonna fuck with him...

No matter how sweet he seems atm...if he does...I will kick his pretty little face in!

Hell yes I am gonna be a nice person this year...

I might seem like a cunt...

And hell yes maybe I am....

But this isn't something I am gonna constantly do...

This is something you'd only see if you fucked me over...

So my advice...DON'T!

Lovelovelove
xx ]]> ~BleedingRed http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/7481144/ http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/7481144/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 16:55:15 PST And all I will do is screw him the fuck over...watch me...I like him and I'll still do it...I don't mean to it just effin' happens!
I don't want it too I don't wanna date atm...am I bitch for that? I am such a headfuck hella yes!
Mergh...
Lordie.
x ]]> ~BleedingRed http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/6522412/ http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/6522412/ Fri, 16 Sep 2005 17:37:01 PDT
Blag.
So yeah.
Somehow each time I want a someone...they seem to be as far away as possible.
So far only within a drive away...atm...some what 4 hours.
And like...it sucks basically.
Hums...
Life is...an interesting thing...
Full of wonders which if we set our minds too would make all the more sense.
But we are born to be lazy and take it all in our stride and take life as it comes.
I am that person just as much as the next man.
It's madness.
Hum...so yeah...I've started college, tis fun really.
I am taking.

Psychology.

English Literature.

English Language.

Philosophy.

IT keyskill [because I am thick.]

All good fun and I know someone in each class now which is nice.
Making friends makes life fun also.
Hums...
What else is new in life.
Hums...Ali...
Like him...he's adorable.
Friendly, kind, gawgeous looking, kind willed, jokey, flirty, meaningful...
Far Away!
Sometimes I wonder just how I do it each and every time.
Do I sit around like "ohhhh guy from far away I think I'll like him"??
Tis all a blag as is life.

Playlist Favourites:

Everything Is Alright - Motion City Soundtrack.

Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson.

Emily - From First To Last.

History - Funeral For A Friend.

Four Words To Choke Upon - Bullet For My Valentine.

The City Sleeps In Flames - Scary Kids Scaring Kids.

Soundtrack To Our Movie - Mae.

Current Moodset && Feelings:

Upset.

Lonely.

Tired.

Need hishug.

Need a kiss.

Where is the love?

Why am I not with someone?

Finally:
< / 3 s o m e t i m e s l i f e j u s t i s n t w o r t h t h e w e i g h t i n l o v e < / 3

byes xx ]]> ~BleedingRed http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/6134603/ http://BleedingRed.deviantart.com/journal/6134603/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 17:27:30 PDT I'm sat waiting for this freaking Avenged Sevenfold [A7x] video to buffer...which it taking hours...and I am getting more and more inpatient. As well as that...it seems all creativity has been lost with this illness of mine and I am also left high and try by the one person I really care for at the moment.
He is just so perfect to me...no inperfections in my eyes...beauty is in the eye of the beholder and that's all I see in him...but he's just so far away and it's becoming so much more than just liking him...I want him so badly...the things I would do to be there with him it's...well insane really.
But then again isn't the inisial thought of me going 246 miles to see a guy two year my senior for a day? Just to know if the hug is right...if the kiss is perfect...if everything you have dreamt...is the true and fickle reality? Something for you to miss and torture yourself over...
I just wish I could hold him in my arms you know...I wish he was here with me now...so we could stay up late and just talk like we always do...and hold each other...and kiss and stuff...I just WISH...I wish it with all my heart like I've never wished before...becuase I've never had something I've wanted so badly be so out of reach and complex as this...I feel like I could explode at any given point...my guts across the floor but my heart throw out to him and beating red in his hand...so he can keep it close to his own forever.
Anyway...I'm gonna shurrup.xxx ]]> ~BleedingRed