deviantART: by:BloodStoneFreedom http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:BloodStoneFreedom&section=today deviantART RSS for by:BloodStoneFreedom en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 18:06:02 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png The new http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/28925303/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/28925303/ Sun, 13 Dec 2009 14:56:35 PST
but things are pretty good. Sweetheart and saint lost a lot of weight, but saints looking much better now that we weaned the baby. She started to pick up weight now, so has sweetheart. Whats even better is saints rid able again, so that's a relief.

I got a new bit and all 3 of them love it. Sweethearts underweight but you'd never tell under saddle, she loves to work. she neck reins now too. smooths as a rail bareback, saint on the other hand, shes a jackhammer, if you can sit her you're doing good.

I sold the baby, the people who were gonna take her for free never called or anything so i found a new home for her. Sold her cheep, but its a forever home. Can't complain there.

but here the final vids of her [link]

Now im working on selling my sisters horse Zeuse. Hes lazy, i couldn't get him to jump, so i decided to lunge him over a jump, he was full of energy which was just what i'd hoped for. had a small cross rail, wouldn't jump it, just trotted over it. so i made it 2'6. Jerk cleared it from a stand still and didn't know it over, never refused, just did it perfectly. i knew the bastard could jump. I was nothing for him. course it wasn't the 4 foot they had a new thoroughbred free jumping, but i was happy. I just made him worth a lot more than i thought. 2'6 aint high, but considering he did it from a stand still and the trot, and never knocked it down or touched it, he can do higher. im very happy.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Good bye but not good bye http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/27652334/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/27652334/ Thu, 08 Oct 2009 14:55:31 PDT
There are these 2 ladys at the barn that own like 7 horses between the two of them. they came out to visit and i had saint and the baby in the indoor and was riding saint, the baby was just running around. The older of the two, shes had knee sugery and can't walk very well, wanted to ride, i had saint taked up, so i was like just ride saint. she did and saint was wonderful. when she got off we were all playing with the baby and she was leading her around. I said i need to sell cause i can't afford 3 horses let alone 4. I mentioned i'd give the baby to someone if they would keep it at the barn.

The barn owner gives me a call the next night and said she got an email from them, Now i thought they wanted saint bacause she was safe. Well they said they'd take the baby. I told Lisa to give them the ok its a deal, so if it definetly goes through it'll be like owning her without paying for her. i still get to do everything with her as if i owned her, that includes breaking her in the future. Im excited. Something finally worked out, and i know she will be safe.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom PIDA UUUGGGG!!!!! http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/27546995/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/27546995/ Fri, 02 Oct 2009 20:20:57 PDT ________________________________________ _______________________________

I just got reminded that pida existed!! Shoot ME! Those people make me so mad! Don't attack me for my oppinion, but if it wern't for then all of our good riding horses wouldn't be going for slaughter in foregin countries, Not the cripples, man killers, by-products, and other unfortinuate horses, the useful ones. Wake up and smell the coffie people! Sutting down the slaughter plants has almost destroyed the horse industry.

I've seen some of the nicest horses go for meat without a chance. Riding horses that just need a little TLC, gone everywhere. Think twice before you sell a horse, make sure it goes to a good home. And don't sell cheep, the kill buyers are looking for the cheep ones.

The pita people have good points but the extremity that they take things can cause more problems then good. there are quite a few examples i can think of off the top of my head. They need to think about the whole picture, what might seem like a benifit for some can be a killer for others, the horse industry now, hows it affecting trainers, breeders, everyday horse owners, feed dealers, everyone involved, its not good. And what about, the i think it was the wild horse and burro act and the affects of that, the problem that resulted was horrible, then the actions to reverse them were worse, mass slaughter. Read dayton o. hydes autobiography you'll read all about it from a first person perspective.

Its everyone not just PIDA, its just the only name i know to put a blame to, they have great points, i agree with them in many cases, its the dramatic way they go about changing things

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom MY COMP IS ALIVE! http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/27082349/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/27082349/ Mon, 07 Sep 2009 19:06:22 PDT
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In other news, My computer is alive!!! the one that crashed came back from the dead! I have photoshop again, and a scanner and everything again! so i will start posting something other than pictures, wo maby i'll get new view! I've done alot of drawing latley, so i have stuff the post, and i'll start doing photoshop again now that school is here.

I want to edit my gallery so i have stock photoes is anyone is intreasted? it would be mostly stuff i have already in my gallery. I won't do it unless people actually want me to so it might be a wile.

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]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom going away and a new comp http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/26650212/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/26650212/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 13:01:30 PDT
i'll keep everyone posted if i get computer acess along the way


other news,
I got a new old comp, cause mine crashed and i've been using a lab top. i lost photoshop when it went so as soon as i get the other comp up and running i'll try to get some kind of program. Its a comp that was stored in our garage and its a good one, but it was a game comp and as soon as i put a virus program on it, boom bad luck lots o trojans, and ones that are really hard to get ride of. so im on hold with it untill i can get ride of them.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Update http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/26230006/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/26230006/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 09:59:30 PDT stock images. Anyone can use them. I'd love to see people use them.

On other news theres a carbon minoxide and gas leak inb my house, really sucks. My comp offically crashed so posting is gonna be slow cause im using a lab top. I lost photoshop when the comp crashed, im not happy at all, oh and i can't use the scanner either so im back to using a camera, which is ok cause i have a new one now too.

The baby is doing great, i'll post updateds on her progress. and new pics pierodically.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom The baby was born http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/26157308/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/26157308/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 18:50:40 PDT
]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom My comp crashed http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/25670463/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/25670463/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 10:20:32 PDT someone lost my camera so i really can't upload. life sucks.

im really bored, we have a labtop so i can still get online but i don't have photoshop.
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4 or less weeks till saint is due! i can't wait! im so excited.
sweethearts riding aswem under saddle, she has a jog and lope, rides english aswem and goes over anything i put in front of her, she jumps but gets lazy and won't jump them and trots over them.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom getin like no views http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/25056988/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/25056988/ Sun, 31 May 2009 18:17:44 PDT gettin no views,
Kinda dicouraged,
Cause im gettin no views.

Comments are rare,
And i'ts all a little sad.

OOOOOOHHHH,
Gettin no views
OOOOOOHHHHOOOOOHHHHHH
Getting no views

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im bored, theres no one to talk to on here, no one looks at my stuff. I would do comissions if people were intreasted, but no one looks at my stuff so whatever. i'll keep posting, but really, SOMEONE PLEASE COMMENT OR SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Other news, horses are good. Saints Due date is coming up, can't wait to see the baby. Sweethearts training is coming along great, i've decided to make her a gamer finally.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Anniversary http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/23919027/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/23919027/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 15:18:59 PDT _____________________________________________

On other news i moved my horses 2 weeks ago. The new barn is nice and the horses are happy. A little fired up from to much alfafa. Lol they were ready to jump out of their skins. One almost fell on me the other tried to run me over, despite that they were good, just spooky because of the new place.
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I'll try to post more stuff soon

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Scanner http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/23341711/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/23341711/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 11:36:08 PST
My girls are good, were finally gonna move them, i can't wait. I can finally start putting the training i need on sweatheart. I might start roping soon to. woooo!

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom video retry http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/23180753/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/23180753/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 18:39:04 PST I was bored and decided to make some new videos on one true media. Heres the links please view them. Lets see if this link works.

View this montage created at One True Media
Joe 2

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Videos http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/23180722/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/23180722/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 18:37:38 PST I was bored and decided to make some new videos on one true media. Heres the links please view them.

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Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com


]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Nothing http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/22882277/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/22882277/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 09:46:12 PST
Im back on Vitual horse ranch and was supprised to see the effects of my breeding program, though small my rare colored horses have number of less than 30 in each breed. And my lines made up the majority of of them. It was cool

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom lifes always tough http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/22510409/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/22510409/ Sat, 10 Jan 2009 16:58:34 PST ____________________________________________________________
On other news, moneys tight and boards due.

Im dancing with the devil and thinkin of selling saint.
It kills and i cry every time i think of it. Shes my rock, my crutch, shes always given me 200%, always tried her hardest for me. I don't wanna loose her. Shes pregnant with a special baby, a baby im memory of my mom. My mom had a great ranch mare back when she use to ride and she knew a special little stallion, she breed her mare and got a bueatful little colt. When we got sweethear and saint we me a stallion identical to the one she knew, obsevly it wasn't him, but he looked and acted exactly the same way. My mom never said she wanted a baby between the two but we talked about it alot. After she died, i had a chance to breed saint to him for free, i yook the offer and breed her. The baby is for my mom, I hope to God i can keep it. Its due in July.

Im working to take sweetheart as far as i can, my little girl wants to work, she lives for it. If it wern't for these two horses, i'd probly be dead right now. They've saved me, and given me a reason to live again.

Im gonna swear, right here right now, for the whole world to know,

IM GONNA LIVE FOR MY HORSES
BREATH FOR MY HORSES
THEIR FUTURES
THEIR GUIDENCE
AND TO PROTECT EVERY HORSE I MEET

I will suceed in my life
And i will learn everything i can learn
Work my hardest to earn an honest living
From now on and forever
I will work to go west
Be a true horsemen
With soft hands
And a gentle quiet touch
With each individual in mind

For my mother, and for my father
I will make a future for my self

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom update http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/21955714/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/21955714/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 22:25:58 PST
Decided to update!
I haven't posted much latley cause im working on improving myself! Photoshop and traditional!

Im getting there, starting to reach my goals, woo.

Finally can draw people, big sucess there! lol lots of exclamations.

My camera's batterys died and i have no scanner and have no idea where the charger is. BUT!!! good news, my destroted old camera still works enough to take clear pictures of my art! So i can still post traditional stuff! WOOOOOOO!

So expect more better works from me, im spending alot of time drawing latly, very glad to too, i missed having the time to draw.

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SO on another note for those who have been following my crazy life, the horses are fine and are gonna stay where they are. Good news indeed.

I started taking kickboxing, might switch to karate. Im pretty good at it, too. hard workout, good thing to do over the winter to stay in shape, i sugest it as a way to get out of the house!
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]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom minor trubble AGAIN http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/21439297/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/21439297/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 13:52:58 PST i've got to move my horses again, anyone got any recomendations??

things arn't horrible, its not impending doom or anything like that, just stuff not working out where we are, we just gotta find somewhere to move them, no biggie.

And anyone got a trailer we can barra? so we can move them

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom horseback halloween http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/21237572/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/21237572/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 18:36:07 PDT
Yeah im gonna take my green broke three year old out on halloween night. lets hope i don't die.

lol im wearing all black and riding a black horse, lets hope people can see me.

i'll try to get pictures

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Real life War http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/21083587/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/21083587/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 17:31:39 PDT
Well shit like that happens.
There is a war like that happening in my life.
After the crazy incident at Horsfeathers and me getting kicked out.
Someone. not me or anyone that Was involved in the incident of getting the horses out.
Ransacked Horsefeathers farm, spray painting all the macherniy with graphity and slashing all the tires on all the macherniery and everything. They also ransacked the tack room destroying all the saddles and tack.

Then the same night, someone broke into the barn where our horses are and tried to steal one of them. then the same day they tried again! its unbelievable, no one knows what the hell is going on!

Its absolutly crazy. I think they also tried to poisen the horses to. im just awe struck that everything has gotten this crazy. I have no idea what to do.

I had a hole phloispy though out about this but i forget it. it was really good to. I need to start carrying a tape recorder.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom LIFE IS HELL http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/21048479/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/21048479/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 14:04:43 PDT
Which by the way are doing good. Sweetheart is doing aswem under saddle, we rode through town the other day and she did aswem, people were taking our pictures and stuff, it was cool. but things are settling down a little bit.

so i don't know what else to say, if you wanna know the hole story message me.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Life is, well i just don't know http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/20399256/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/20399256/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 21:24:24 PDT
On other news, the morisville girl that has here stallion here moved in upstairs with me and is super nice! She just so supportive and helpful. Shes a little crazy, but knows a lot and wants to help.

And again on other news, Sweetheart has been on 2 trail rides now and swam also, and canter for a long wile on the canal, with another really green horse. And Also i've been enlisted to do an actual stallion ad for the QH journal and horsebits magazine for the morisville girl, yeah i kow what your thinking, can she even do that kind of photoediting? or something like that, well yes i can actually, i just havent had the time to do any, only really just photography. though i've been drawing i just haven't posted anything cause i haven't had the time, living on a farm is exagusting, its past midnight as i write this so yeah, anyway, i'll post my progress on the stallion ad.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom titles suck(lol) http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/20118671/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/20118671/ Sat, 23 Aug 2008 19:00:18 PDT
My best friend is probably going to elmcrest, FOR NO REAL FRICKEN REASON! Stupid govt. the poor girls horse just got hit by 2 cars yes 2. shes alive but there not sure whats gonna happen. And she might have to loose her other horse to because she gonna end up in kid jail, the girl never did anything wrong.

we've got a new boarder here at the farm, shes got 2 stallions and a mare and she just bought rondevu, thank god, she'll give that mare the attention she deserves. Shes got a 25 yr old stud whos an own son of Sunny D bar, and a 2yr old with an impressive show record and is a son of the other stallion. Hes so good you can ride in the ring with him on a mare that is in heat! I can't believe it but i did it so thats proof enough fo me. But there georgious the both of them! The girls an expert trainer thats going back to morisville for her masters degree, so shes here for 2yrs. SHes got a great eye for horses and trains futurity horses for reining and i guess i've been putting a good foundation on my filly and been doing it right.

My filly is doing good, i rode her outside the ring for the first time around the yard and i didn't die! yea! Other than that im doing dressage! aswem no! we've got this skinny warmblood thats just a diamond in the rough. he jumps 2'7" like its nothing and is just a wonderful dressage horse so i convince Sue to teach me a little and she did! Watch out megan i'll woop your but in road hack classes! I can get a real extended trot now! lol

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Im FREE, YES SIR'E http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/19544816/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/19544816/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 20:52:15 PDT
so meg, i'll see you at the shows this summer but im probably not going to cns next year, im going to canastota schools probably. if you wanna call the number is 697-2750 you can leave a message, these guys here are nice, ignore everything anyones said about richard, even me ok. i'll give you the full details if you want.

i dont have acess to the computuer at the other house so i don't know how much i'll be adding stuff. i'll be getting a camera soon so i'll be able to post something, sorry people.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom free will, i have http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/19282183/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/19282183/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 21:34:52 PDT
Im going through hell right now and this is what i see, im stuck in a house that dosn't feel like home, everyone i though of as family is dead and now people i know, but who feel like strangers are trying to decide things for me, im not gonna let that happen, those i feel are my family are not here, they are elsewhere, at a place these people do not want me to live, i haven't decided, but i will soon, and it will rock to foundation of the people who are so calledly "trying to help me." I just dont see it anywhere.

I do not feel at home in the place i've called home for my whole life. I feel like a stranger in someonelses home, just taking up space, my bead and this computer are my only comforts in this....this......place, that i can no longer call home. My home is where i've really been since my mom died, with the people and animals that were really there to comfort me, and still are, and give me the real support i need.

These people here at my former home are not giving me that support, support that i truly need. There just trying to set things up so they can keep me "entertained." They say they want me to try to be a kid again, i lost my childhood, Mentally i am to old to be a kid. They want me to be a helpless little kid that thay can make all the decisions for, well......there never gonna get that. Im far to intelligent to do that. they wanna please me with trinkets and gadgets, and keep everything from me. To bad for them i can see what there trying to do, I sound crazy don't i! maby i've finally snapped form all the crap i've gone through.

Everything weighs on my mind, everything, I never sleep truly soundly, im edge and am terrified of everyone around me, im tempted to sleep with a knife or gun under mt pillow because im terrified of all these unknowns, i feel like there gonna come and get me in the night and finally do me in, im terrified of dying, i feel like at every moment theres someone waiting for me to find my voice and speek up, and then when i do the'll shoot my and leave my to suffer in guilt and agony, its weird to feel like this, i know no one is gonna get me but i've lost it, almost every sense of certinity in my life is gone, it drives one mad when they can't find the answers to to puzzle of terror and lies they face every moment of there lives.

My parents are gone, but i still have the feeling of death hanging around me, the feeling of am i gonna wake up or get a phone call and there gonna be dead, its maddning, completly maddning.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom fun week http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/19081687/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/19081687/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 19:16:47 PDT
Well let me tell ya, that old mare can run! we were up against some tough competition and we came out with two 4th, two fifths, and a sixth, we placed in all of our classes but one. that was my first time on full sized patterns and my first time poles, i did alot better than some of the girls there who've been riding for many years, our times wern't fast enought to catch the younger horses, but we had a heck of a lot of fun. I also gotta say the people were really nice, they were really supportive and made my first time out a lot of fun, we ran with all we had and were really happy.

I spent the rest of the week out at the barn, Were finally painting and things are going alot smoother there now to. In 3 days i must have rode at least 18 hours. I finally got to ride in the front field, its like 20 acres and i can really open a horse up out there, its alot of fun.

I rode my filly some more and she aswem! shes learning real fast, my friend gots pis and a video so when she emails them to me i'll post them.

My paint mare finally got shoes and pads, my farrier is like so nice he did it for free. Shes been lame for over a year, i haven'y been able to ride her much, i really miss it, but now shes sound, happy, and willing to work! Oh im so happy.

And thats a short summery of the few good things that have happened in the past 2 weeks, the rest is hell and im not going to bore you with that.

P.s, ignore the mood smily, im not high it just wont change

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom fun week http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/19081686/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/19081686/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 19:16:47 PDT
Well let me tell ya, that old mare can run! we were up against some tough competition and we came out with two 4th, two fifths, and a sixth, we placed in all of our classes but one. that was my first time on full sized patterns and my first time poles, i did alot better than some of the girls there who've been riding for many years, our times wern't fast enought to catch the younger horses, but we had a heck of a lot of fun. I also gotta say the people were really nice, they were really supportive and made my first time out a lot of fun, we ran with all we had and were really happy.

I spent the rest of the week out at the barn, Were finally painting and things are going alot smoother there now to. In 3 days i must have rode at least 18 hours. I finally got to ride in the front field, its like 20 acres and i can really open a horse up out there, its alot of fun.

I rode my filly some more and she aswem! shes learning real fast, my friend gots pis and a video so when she emails them to me i'll post them.

My paint mare finally got shoes and pads, my farrier is like so nice he did it for free. Shes been lame for over a year, i haven'y been able to ride her much, i really miss it, but now shes sound, happy, and willing to work! Oh im so happy.

And thats a short summery of the few good things that have happened in the past 2 weeks, the rest is hell and im not going to bore you with that.

P.s, ignore the mood smily, im not high it just wont change

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom i hate titles http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/18787189/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/18787189/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 15:37:15 PDT
I just updated and added alot of pictures. My budy HorseWhisperz sent me some pics so i decied to uploade them.

I'll do comissions if people whant me to! Im getting better all the time, just message me, we'll come up with a payment or i'll probably do some for free, all you have to do ask!

Lala i don't know what else to write, i guess i'll say what my new anime fandom is, its dudududun TRIGUN!!! its funny and aswem and short, its only 26 episodes long, if your bored look it up, i read the manga too, which is much longer and better than the show, but the show is good too.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom no more rodeo for me http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/18350886/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/18350886/ Fri, 16 May 2008 11:56:12 PDT little joes gone from me,
that mean old bastard took him away from me!

Never more to ride,
Never more to play,
Never more to gallop on, riding without a care,
never more, never more, ohoh never more.

little joes gone from me,
That mean old bastard took him away from me!

little joe, my little partner, my little friend,
My escape from the world.

Gone from me you are,
and with you went my hopes, and fears, and dreams.
that mean old bastard took him away from me!

Im gonna mis you, but life does not end,
You've got a new chance and life, and so do I,
we're sill both alive, just far apart now, but someday may we meet again,
Someday please let us meat again, sooomme ddaay!

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Richards selling the farm, Sues leaving him, the horse are at auction, i hope they all get good homes.

Now my biggest worry, where am i gonna move my horses to?

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom derby results http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/18151095/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/18151095/ Sat, 03 May 2008 15:26:58 PDT
]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Kentucky derby http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/18149867/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/18149867/ Sat, 03 May 2008 13:53:05 PDT
Its Eight Belles, the first filly to run in the derby since like 1922 i believe, im not positive on that, feel free to correct me. do you have any idea who she looks like? Guess, think, big, black, and FAST! Ruffian. I just watched her excersizes, my heart just stoped, she runs just like her, and i watched her races, it was like seeing a ghost. im amazed! Check her out at [link] its some vids and pics of her, i'll post later on who wins.

IN other news, i GOT MY CAMERA TO WORK!!! SO I CAN POST STUFF!!! YYYEEEESSSSS! and thanks to layla56? i now have photoshop 7! Yeah im finally having good luck! nock on wood, don't wanna jinks my self.

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]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom desperation http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/18045172/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/18045172/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 21:02:44 PDT
Everyone seams to know but me, like i've said my mom just died, so were in the process of cleaning the house out and working on fixing it up so my gardian can move in. Theres a benifit for us coming up and i have no idea whats going on with that, or social security, or disability or anything. I have no idea how we stand financially or anything.

If so afraid that i might have to sell one of my horses, im scared, i don't wanna. Or more i just can't, if i do have to it will just crush me beyond anything, my heart, soul and mind will just be destroyed. But its more than that, i promised never to sell the one with the guy i got her from, and i just can't shes older and is a one person horse, she loves me so much and hates everyone else, she'll do anything for me and she'll just barly tolerate everyone else. She'll bite or kick, shes a great mare, but she was abandoned once, i just can't ever let that happen again. i promised her i'd never let anything happen to her, i just can't, i can't, when i got her it was the best day of my life, and i know it, shes my crutch, my person to forever talk to, i need her.

My filly is worth so much, i promised to never let her end up in a bad home again, or to ever be sent to an auction again or a dealer. Shes my baby girl, shes like my child, i just love her to much, i just can't sell her either

i wanna help everyone, and i don't wanna be selfish, everyone is giving up so much for me, i just don't know what to do. i wanna help so much, but im 14, i can't get a job, and i.i.i just can't take it anymore, losing a horse is just something i just can't take, i just can't take any more.

Thankyou to anyone who read through this, and let me vent, i've just been so alone for so loooooooooong! i lost so much, all my friends and everything, i've been alone for 3 yrs, without friends to talk to, just hiding in my hole, all alone. The horses gave me something to live for, a reason to breath and be a kid again, because i haven't been able to for so long, i wish someone knew how i felt so they could tell me what to do. oh my life is just to harsh. damn it, i feel so friken alone.
p.s. i cried through this hole thing

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom hell in freedom http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17754465/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17754465/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 19:47:58 PDT well i think im offically in denial.
You know, life just SUCKS, sometimes.
I know i've said this so many times and am just boring you people with it, but i'll say it anyway, i've had hell thrown at me like 4 times now.
Just take things as they go and don't over stress yourselves if things just look hopless and bleak.

My mom just died and my dad died 2years ago, plus i've seen more things in my short life than many people see in 60 years of life. Don't give up on your dreams, things may look bleak, but if you keep just a little hope, things will get better, they may not be the same as they were, but you can return to the felling of normalcy, just don't loose hope. I beg you people, just don't loose hope.

sorry i'll get my tag up soon, it will take me some time

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom i hate titling journals http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17657179/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17657179/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 19:01:58 PDT
My moms funeral was good. we put together some really good colages of pictures for it. a lot of people showed up, like half the teachers in my school, lol. it was good, i had the farm bring my moms saddle so people could see it, its a good old saddle, its 50yrs old and going strong, i ride in it. i weighs like 50lbs though! lol!

My mom was a good person, everyone who ever met here never had a bad thing to say. She was the kind of person that was right there with you when someting bad happened holding you hand, always helping people, and never asking for anything for herself.

Im gonna post some pictures of her on here so you peoples can see what she looked like.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom yo http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17625438/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17625438/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 08:18:50 PDT
ok on another not, HOW THE HELL DO YOU GET THIS ICON OFFFFFFFF! I CAN"T! ITS A PAIN IN THE BUT!! be careful i think is a virus, which is really bad!

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom my mom passed away http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17577223/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17577223/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 17:06:06 PDT





layla15, megan don't expect me in school till after break. im not sure whats gonna happen now, with the horses and everything, im kinda lost, send everyone my love and if those bastards at school are gonna caus trouble, please beat them up, tell them they made my life miserable, that because of them i spent the last few month worring over that crap they gave me, and that because of them i lost the meaning of what was important, and didn't spend as much time as i could with my mom. when i get back, if they pull anything with me, i will beat the bloody crap out of them i don't care anymore, i will not hesitate.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom art http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17409807/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17409807/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 12:26:36 PDT
I might post some tutorials to, i know layla56 wants me to.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom nothing is imposable http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17155303/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17155303/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 19:34:34 PST
If you read my last journal entry you'd think my life was over, or atleast hell had reared it ugly head......again.

I've got a quote... a quote from a friend, but this is my version of it, i used her idea to form this, these life changing words, "Everyone says that god is always there to keep us safe and out of harm, but if that was true, then the ones with the biggest hearts, and the most courage to stand up for what they believe in wouldn't have the weigh of the world apon their shoulders, and the constant suffering of others that weighs so heavely apon our souls leaving unhealable scars apon our hearts. If he protected us, then why is our lives a living hell. Hell is not a place, it is a term that describes our deepest fear realized, our loved ones, familys and friends suffering around us, and there is nothing we can do, everything we know vanishing before our eyes. If god must pass his devine judgment apon us, to those who truly diserve it, then hell is a test, a test to show how well we can pick ourselves up to face the next challenge, and become stronger with every one, then heaven can truly be reached."

Sue challenged the bastard and called his bluff. The horses are saved, he's of no harm now. you people have never met the devil untill you've met him or someone like him, the scary thing is, there are so many out there. When you can stand up to a devil, you can stand up anything, and no obsticle can defet you no matter what.

I learned that today. Hell is something i know well, good has passed his judgement apon me, and i will survive, no matter what. there are still more tests for me to complete, my journy has only begun. For some of you hell has yet to surface, you'll know when you face the devil, because there is no more evil thing to walk this earth. Hell is a test, those who can surmount it will survive.

When the bible was written, i think there was a deeper meaning there than what people take as face value, which is that there is heaven and hell, a devil and a god. i think there is some truth there, but i think that there is more to it, i my self have never read the bible, so don't preach to me, i can take what ever meaning i want from it. Hell is our worst fears realized, the devil is a being that causes hell or makes a new hell just for you. Hell is a test humans must surmount to become enlightened, to know true strength. Heaven is the result of surpassing those tests. Your virture, honar, and spirit all all tested, many never make it to enlightenment, because they are weak. Those who are truly tested are ment to make it in this cruel world. life is truly never a straigh forward path, god himself looks for those worthy to lead his people, we do not decide our selves, everything is left to fate, you can change it to, and make yourself worthy.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom My Dreams, life, hope is gone http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17062603/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/17062603/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 18:01:42 PST
Im gonna start from the beginning. I work for a, well usto, not any more fucker! A MENICLE, SELFSENTERED, OLD BASTARD THATS THE DEVIL HINSELF! Im a nice person see, so i wanted to help out at this rescue farm right, i adopted some horses from there, i love um there wonderful. So i stared working there and well I loved it, i got to go on animal cruelty cases and save alot of horses. But the man started to show his true colors, well, first he minuplates us into trading our boat for a horse. Well you may think its just a boat right, WRONG! It was my dads, hes dead you see, died from cancer 2 or was it 3 years ago, he used that boat to save lives, he was in the coast guard, he was comander of flotilla 2-1 in Ny state. He was a great man. We had no use for the boat, and well we traded it, along with my dads guns.

Well that was fine, but then my sister wanted a horse, he was a cruelty rescue. well we went to the court case on him, and the thing was rigged, the guy got the horses awarded back to him, it was so rigged, That man was a lying sun of a bitch, EVEN I COULD TELL THAT! IM 14! But he got the horses back, well my sister was devistated. But, well i dont want to say his name incase by some stroke of bad luck this gets back to him, But the old bastard blames it on sue, sue is the barn mannager, shes the nicest lady anyone could ever hope to meet, how she ended up with him i'll never know, but he blamed her, and kicked her out! shed been living with him for 15yrs! he sent her to england! I was destraught, but after she left the guy who got the horses awarded back to him didn'y want the stallion he wanted the mare, my sister wanted the stallion, so he signed the stallion over to my sister for free, now heres where it rilly irked me, The old bastard made my sister pay for the stallion after he lost the horse! now thats just wronge. She gave him the guns.

But wile sue was away in england, it was me and my mom taking care of the farm, now this is no small farm, its 150acres and at the time there were a goo 200 horses on the property. after all that, working for a straight month my mom yelled at him and he KICKED US OFF! wa wa after all that!

To make that part shorter, sue came back, we moved the horses back la de da. So i started riding horses for them and such.
Then gets this little pony named joe, he said it was for me, oh my god i love that pony so much, i have 2 of my own but me and this pony were partners, we were gonna join the hight school rodeo and have fun gaming. He promised me, i should have never believed him. I don't have the money to buy him! Im lost, hes selling out, selling everything, the tractors, the horses, everthing, and now he said hes selling joe too! He PROMISED ME! PROMISED ME! he wouldn't sell him, that hed be mine! I know it seams like im being dramatic but, i cant give him up! I need him so bad, my future almost depends on him. The bastard said oh were gonna have fun this summer, you me and joe just friday. then yesterday he called and said hes selling out, and gonna sell joe! He threated every month like clock work he was gonna sell out! now hes actually gonna do it. the dates set, all of them are going to an aution, the guy was there today. now, now he has the gaul to sell my belgin at the auction. See i bought him at an auction last year, saved him from slaughter you see, they were gonna kill him on the spot so i bought him for $50 and brough him home. he was so skinny then i adopted him out to a nice lady, but she couldn't keep him so she gave him back to the FARM! no me damit! Now the bastard wants to send him to auction! I vow i will not let that horse end up anywhere bad again!!! Im speeking my wrath! I will find a way to buy that horse at the auction i will!!!!! joe can get a good home, but a 30yr old belgin, its a long shot. but now the bastard says hes pulling out and renting the barn to sue. good once hes gone everyones life will be better!

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom Comissions http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/16805259/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/16805259/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 18:18:09 PST
im going back to the basics for a wile, so don't expect anything to sepctatular. I wanna improve my drawing. i've been slipping on my confermation so i need some work. I wanna do portraits of famous horses soon so im practicing so i do them justice. on my list are three bars, lost in the fog(look him up, aswem thorougbred, won all of his races, had a perfect 10 for 10 wins in a row, died in 2006 as a three year old from cancer, believe it or not he was faster than barbaro. And died around the same time too. his speed index was 106 wile barbaro's was 96), man o war, poco lena, and who ever else i fell like doing.

Any of my photos are up for stock use i guess. just send me a link of the finished product.

I'll do portraits of peoples horses if they want, no charge, a trade maby, probably for free, i don't have any good examples on DA but i can post some if someone is intreasted. though i'll probably never get a request, come on people, i'll do it for FREE!!! i'll do an acrilic painting and send it to you! NO LIE!

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom take me home http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/16303351/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/16303351/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 15:43:00 PST Country road,
To the place,
That i belong.

Take me home,
country road,
Fare away from hear.

Take me away,
far away, for there is nothing here,
Nothing here for me,
All it brings is endless pain.

And keeps me away,
From where i could be,
Making a name for myself.

Country road,
Take me home,
To the place that i belong,
Oh lord, take me home,
to anywhere but here.

Oh, lord please take us home,
To the place we've never been before,
Yes take us home,
Take us to the mountain please,
To the place that we belong.

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom What do we do? http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/16194661/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/16194661/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 21:40:00 PST with all the change,
with the grange?

How do we act,
When hell breaks loose,
When life takes a turn for the worse?

How do we live,
breath, endoure,
When were stuck?

Can't break away,
From this curse,
This curse called a heart?

When we pour it out,
adding others pain,
to our existing tourment?

When all that we love,
Seams to disapear,
evaporte before our eyes?

And when things seam to get better,
everything makes a turn for the worse,
Hell breaks loose again,
And the would crumbles some more,

And again our hearts break,
and they ache, then we endure somemore.

What do we do,
with all the change,
with the grange?

How do we act,
When hell breaks loose,
And when life takes a turn for the worse again?

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom eternal battle http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/16003013/ http://BloodStoneFreedom.deviantart.com/journal/16003013/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 16:02:18 PST
We find that we are lost,
without a purpose, Alone, not wanted.

We want to end our existance,
stop fighting, and give up hope.

But in time, if we wait,
purpose, a new life, and a meaning.

Untill then we are hopless,
without life, empty shells.

But in time, someone comes,
a new light approaches, and we are free'd.

Open to life and emerge from our depression,
finding we found someone to help,
who understands that feeling,
that depression, that saddness.

Come to me, tell me your pain,
I understand, more that you know,
I've been there, alone, sad, hurt, unwanted.

I hate to see others suffer,
Be in pain, and be alone,
I do not judge, thats the way i am.

I understand, I understand.

:iconhieixmukuro: ok this is for the hiei x makuro club

]]> ~BloodStoneFreedom