http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:BloodXTransfusion&section=today deviantART RSS for by:BloodXTransfusion en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 07:09:07 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/27196168/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/27196168/ Sun, 13 Sep 2009 17:28:58 PDT I'm kinda nervous................not because school will start. of course everyone gets nervous about that, but i'm more nervous about my driving test at the DMV on Monday next week.
I'm seriously nervous!!!!!!!!!!
I really hope that I can just drive myself to school, because....to be honest.....the bus ain't cool after 4 years of getting up at 5:30am to just catch the bus that will take you to school on time.
but yeah.....i'm glad my best friends will be there with me.
i miss them so much!
i'm especially glad because then i won't be going to school and be such a newbie boobie everywhere hahahahahah.
so yeah.....my auntie now calls me the "college girl". love you auntie...
ahhhh so happeh!!!!!!!!
hopefully i won't be a lazy f*ck again.....i'm terrible at that......hahahahah
so yeah until then kitties......

oh yeah i'm going to csula XD just to clear that up hahah

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/26550984/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/26550984/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 15:06:51 PDT
Soooooo I haven't talked so much since prom, so I'm gonna update you all.
So ever since May, I've graduated from high school, turned 18, I've gotten officially confirmed in the Catholic Church, I've filed for a CA ID,got my permit, gotten driving lessons for an instructor, and have been staying at my mom's business in the South Bay area, and have gone to my college orientation at, CSULA, which I will be attending this Fall 2009.

It's a lot to have gone through this whole summer, thus far. Next up I have to check up stuff with financial aid so I can get my butt to being educated. I'm excited but I am also seriously nervous. This is the time when I look back at all my years in school and I'm like "woah, this is the first time I'll be in a classroom with boys in 4 years" , "wow I'm no longer a child", "woah, I can drive a car", "woah, I can play the lottery and buy a pack of cigarettes", "wow, no more curfew at universal city walk".

yeah....so many things rushing in my mind.
I talked to one of my best friends on the phone a week ago. Man, I thought I'd never cry from not being with her at school, but I did. No one has any idea how much she's helped me through out high school. Seriously, all that stuff is crap. She's become someone I can consider my sister. That doesn't mean however that I'll never see her again. Once I get my license, we're sooooooo going out to do many things!!!

I sooooooooooooo hope I get my license. You have no idea, how much of a pain in the ass it is to take the bus. I'd rather drive than spend 2 hours on the bus just to get to school. That is pressure my friend. Plus I can go hang out at the beach whenever I want and visit my friends or take road trips. The list is endless.

So that's a bit of what I have to say for now.
I hope you guys are having a great summer.
Enjoy it while you can!!!!

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/25410224/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/25410224/ Fri, 19 Jun 2009 07:39:50 PDT
It's me again, after pretty much a month and a hayf of not writing in my journal.
i know, shame on me. jk
I was at my dad's house for the week. It's been lots of fun. I get to take a break from the chores and my mom's house. I love my mom, but damn, she needs to quit trippin' so much.
At the moment my dad's ceiling/roof is creeping me out. I keep hearing little tiny steps walking all over it...................it better be something cute like a squirrel.
(btw, I've been seeing a lot of those everywhere, and they're not shy to humans)
So I've been on vacation for about 2 weeks now. I barely went to the DMV to sign up to get my permit on friday. Now I need to study the CA drivers handbook so I can take my written test. After that I need to get some driving lessons so that I can take my driving test to get my permit.
My goal is to get my ass to drive myself to college. I've been taking the bus for 4 years, and I am FED UP with it. Seriously. I love people, but damn, the ones on the bus are just a bunch of pricks!!!!!!! (well from where I'm from, that is)

(*scratches my own back* man i feel like i'm doing some kind of yoga)

Oh yeah, last June 6 I finally graduated from high school, huzzah!

UGH I feel like the world's on my shoulders again, but I don't want to complain since other people in the world have worse shit to deal with at the moment.

Oh yeah, I finally woke up early today. Like at 6:21 this morning. Lately I haven't been too good at the whole waking up thing. I've been waking up as early as 10am and as late as 2pm. yeah....that's possible.

So yeah, that's my update for now. I'll talk to you guys soon.

btw I Miss Dan very much. It's been a while since the world has been graced with his presence. But I just wanna say, man brotha, I miss you.

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
and I have the hots for a Guamanian/Italian/Mexican lead singer, Sonny Sandoval.
[link]
too bad he's married though......he's so hot.
Anyways yeah....talk to you guys later.

Te Bendiga!

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/24387003/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/24387003/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 23:44:48 PDT
Also saturday morning, I am finally going to be confirmed. FINALLY!
After 2 years, you'd think that I know my prayers by now?

So Leroy "Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey boo!!", is gonna go with me. So cool. He got his tux today and damn, he looks dope. His tux makes him look straight. "mhmmmm you know girl!" lol omg so cool. He swears that when they play "Put a ring on it" by Beyonce aka Sasha Fierce hahahah (i hope that's the right title) he's gonna bust a move on the dance floor & he's dragging me in it hahah! "TAY TAY!"

Ooh I can't wait to go to that thing Leroy's going to host at his school. They're going to make I guess a Carribean day with steel drums, carnivale, bright colors, and lots of Reggae. (Because he good like that brah!)

We got an upgrade on our prom's ballroom. Which is totally bomb. Originally we got the $16,000 room, but since they're going to be filming in there we got the Crystal room, which would have costed $40,000 (suicide if you ask me). That means lots of things are going to be sparkly......oooh....shineh........

Today the Music Club and I performed in front of our school. It was pretty fun. Hope and I sounded pretty good playing the congas. I think I have an apprentice in the works. WOOH! The drum set would have been cool too, but let's face it, that thing would take forever to take apart, bring over to the auditorium, set up, take apart and take it back to the school all within an hour. that's crazy talk. So we used the congas just because it would be easier to bring around.

I've got approximately a whole month of school left even though it's technically 23 minus the days I don't go to school and just wait for graduation.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So yeah, that's my stuff for now.
I'll update in a bit after prom and confirmation. I got a shit load to talk about after.

okay have a nice day. BYE BYE

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/23909695/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/23909695/ Thu, 26 Mar 2009 23:35:09 PDT I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?"

Somewhere Only We Know by Keane

Oh Dan, I can only remember the days when life was so vibrant and all any other person our age wanted to do was live life to it's fullest. Buddy, you brought a light into my world that I can never find in any other person. You helped me to see the beautiful person in myself and realize that the world was a place that could not bring you down but your own self. You were and still are my brother from another mother. Thank you for being one of my closest friends. I know we never met and I know we didn't talk much, but I just hope you know that you mean a great deal to me and that you'll always be special and remembered in my heart. I'm glad God gave me a chance to be your friend.
Man when life calls for your life to end, it's like....you never know when it's going to get you. Kid, you had so much to offer the world. I just wish that the world knew how important you are. And if it's not to everyone then you were to me.

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/23738542/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/23738542/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 22:05:54 PDT No this is not our fate; the lives in which they are bound
And there is something more we know it has to be found
I know the world won’t wait, the tide is turning around…

And there’s not enough time…

With all their wicked words they’ll never hold you down
No this is not our fate; the tide is turning around

No there’s not enough time…

In the fallout of the wasted, in the halflight
I stand before you in the last dance of an old life…
Now the cool wind’s blowing and we can’t stay, but it’s alright…
When the night is gone I will still be here…

No there’s not enough time…"
Cosmic Gate Feat. Emma Hewitt- Not Enough Time



So I've been counting down the days to my graduation and I realize that in the past 4 years, I have gone through a lot of ups and downs and changes. I have experienced the failures of love, friendships, and disappoinments but I have also learned from these experiences to live better, to love better and to look forward in to the future.
Lately I've been comtemplating about life and the joys we encounter and lose and I realize that it is true "A man who is faceless is a man who does not know who they are." (personal quote)
I have grown to see the masks people, and sometimes even I , wear to get away.
But those days are going to be over soon. In the fall I will be going to college. (my choice is still pending upon the wait of my final letter)
With every disappointment and approval in life there is a purpose that is yet to be discovered.
Why do we love someone and get hurt either by letting go or watching them leave?
It's a part of life.
I hope that when I start off a new in college that I will be able to cleanse myself of the things that have pulled me down, however I will never forget the people that have influenced me.
Monica, Diana, Kanani, Selma, Derek, Dustin, Justin, Momo, Lolo, Christian, Edwin, Tony, Chris, Ban-Anna, Shmart Sarruh, and my Athenangel...

Changes, like water, dissolve, harden, and turn to liquid. It's versatile and unpredictable....like life and love.

Good night everyone, and until my next post. See ya soon!

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/23161538/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/23161538/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 17:54:04 PST - Available: have been for a long time

- Age: 17 1/2 literally

- Annoyance: People that act stupid to get attention

- Allergic: to dust

- Animal: horse, rabbit, sheep

- Actor: Joachim Phoenix

B
- Beer: ew

- Birthday/Birthplace: July 11, Downtown Los Angeles

- Best Friends: =too many of them. Maria, Hasshe, Janelly, Anna, Sarah, Jackie, Nancy....too many to name

- Body Part on opposite sex: eyes

- Best feeling in the world: Love.

- Blind or Deaf: none

- Best weather: a bit of cold and a bit of warm

- Been in Love: Yes.

- Been bitched out?: kinda

- Been on stage?: Many times!

- Believe in yourself?: yes

- Believe in life on other planets: sometimes

- Believe in miracles: yes

- Believe in Magic: maybe

- Believe in God: yep, i'm catholic

- Believe in Satan: ew

- Believe in Santa: not really, but it doesnt hurt if he is real

- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: yes

- Believe in Evolution: no

C
- Car: none, i bus

- Candy: twix

- Colour: violet, crimson, black

- Cried in school: yes

- Chocolate/Vanilla: shokolate

- Chinese/Mexican: Mexican. I eat too much Asian food as it is.

- Cake or pie: omg........idk......pie

- Countries to visit: everywhere, especially europe

D
- Day or Night: Night.

- Dream vehicle: Maseratti

- Danced: sandwhich XDDD and the soulja boy...but i did it just to make fun of the songs hahaha

- Dance in the rain?: lovely

- Dance in the middle of the street?: all the time. well my street
- Do the splits?: ew no

E
- Eggs: scrambled

- Eyes: brown

- Everyone has: a heart to love

- Ever failed a class?: elementary school....never failed in high school so far

F
- First crush: Octavio in kindergarten

- Full name: Gennie Samalahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

- First thoughts waking up: what time is it?

- Food: cool to invent

G
- Greatest Fear: loneliness

- Giver or taker: pertaining to what?

- Goals: graduate, college, dermatologist, further my art experience

- Gum: is okay

- Get along with your parents?: dad = i'm such a daddy's girl, mom = we have our days hahah

- Good luck charms: self identity, parents, siblings

H
- Hair Colour: I was born with black hair but it turned like a brownish thing that is faintly red due to shampooing

- Height: 5'5"

- Happy: yes

- Holidays: idk....v-day is tomorrow.....but i dont have a significant other so whatev.

- How do you want to die: peacefully

- Health freak?: i can be a bit of a germaphoebe because i take public transportation, but other than that, no

- Hate: people who choose to deny their own culture

I
(In guys/girls)
- Eye colour: doesn't matter

- Hair Colour: doesnt matter

- Height: taller than me

- Clothing Style: comfortable

- Characteristics: someone who can laugh at themselves, respectful, considerate, loving, patient

- Ice Cream: cookies and cream

- Instrument: doesnt matter.

J
- Jewelry: a cross

- Job: nada

K
- Kids: one day...i want 2-3, i love kids

- Kickboxing or karate: street fighting

- Keep a journal?: shhhh how did you know?

L
- Longest Car Ride: 12 hours

- Love: friends, sister, family

- Letter: A, D, G, J, M, N, O, R, S, V, W, Y, Z

- Laughed so hard you cried: omg yes

- Love at first sight: yep

M
- Milk flavour: Chocolate.

- Movie: too many....50 first dates

- Mooned anyone?: ew my ass is ugly

- Marriage: one day

- Motion sickness?: not really

- McD's or BK: Johnny Rockets

N
- Number of Siblings: uno

- Number of Piercings: 2

- Number: 2, 4, 7, 11

O
- Overused Phrases: teehee

- One wish: peace

- One phobia: germs and STD's hahaha

P
- Place you'd like to live: somewhere cold and chill

- Pepsi/Coke: pepsi

Q
- Quail: tiny

- Questionnaires: cool

R
- Reason to cry: Love.

- Reality T.V.: ew

- Radio Station: KROQ , when it had only rock, and none of this emo crap.

- Roll your tongue in a circle?: how?

S
- Song: Amber by 311

- Shoe size: 9-10 US

- Sushi: yummo

- Skipped school: no

... ]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/22303296/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/22303296/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 13:40:20 PST Well yeah. I just came back from church, had to straighten some things out with the ministry office. I got to sit next to my best friend Leroy and some girls in the other class that use to go to school with me. Friggin Leroy....I really hope that whatever he does, he doesn't end up down in the dumps.
Anywho since he last time I posted in my journal some things have happened. I finally sent in a supplementary application to UCLA. I'm hoping that I get accepted there. It's such a good school. I also got my letters from CSUN & CSLA. Excited about those. College is such a stressful thing to get into. So many applications, tests, due dates, placement tests, and the anxiety to wait for your letters.
To be honest I really wanted to study in the east coast, but as of recent economic times, its a highly impossible thing. I really wish I could. It would be some kind of experience for sure.
I'd get to see the leaves turn beautiful autumn colors, lie down in the snow and watch the flakes fall and tickle my nose, feel the light spring breeze sweep my feet away, and the beauty of a summer day.
Maybe one day. When I'm older, I'll get to see the other side of the place I call home.

Over the three years of high school, I've gone through so many changes. I can't even count them all. I've started from a slight believer in God to a more than convinced believer with my whole heart. I've become more mature with the decisions I make, I tend to speak up for myself more than I did three years ago, and I value my body more than I did at one point. The subject of love has been the same however. I still haven't met that person that is willing to spend their time with me and if I did, then I must have done something wrong....sometimes I think so....
Healing takes a while, and right now I'm still in the process of it, but that's fine. I'm still young =]

So In less than 3-4 months I'm going to get confirmed. Meaning I will complete the 4th sacrament of the Catholic Church. Which is really awesome because now I can get married =] Just kidding. Not now. I'm too young. OMG but I hope that whoever does marry me loves me because I'm me and because he respects me and him back.

{UGH THIS IS SO LONG HAHAH}

I just hope that this year brings me whatever I need to survive hahaha. This year is going to be interesting and rather stressful. I'm on my way to start prepping for the AP tests in May for Enlish, Calculus, Euro, and Art. Art is my best one, but Euro and Calculus are pretty TOUGH!

Also our senior year is almost over! I'm going to miss my girls.

PROM PROM PROM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ugh I still need to get my dress and a date. I was thinking of getting a nice dress that's a dark dark violet or a dark wine red that's not shiny. I don't want to wear one of those dresses that look like you got them at Ross. It's too obvious. Plus it's a special occasion. I want it to be long and if it can't then I want it to be a nice slighly ruffly skirt that reaches just about past my knees. I'm thinking of either getting it strap less or with that one that has like sleeves that expose your shoulders. My hair....ehhh thinking of leaving it long like it is, but making nice flirty waves with curles at the bottom. [nice...not baduy like my grandpa says] hahahah
Tonya's mom said something from jessica mcclintock or however you spell it.

Hasshe and I want make a stance on our dresses. Like not something that someone would typically wear to a prom. We want to look elegant since the dance hall is going to be spanish theme. OH QUE ROMANTICO!!
shoes= not sure.

Well my cheese puffs are getting all over my laptop and my homework is piling up slowly on me, so I'll write in this thing again some time soon. Hopefully not in another month. lol that'd be too long!!!!!!

OK TAKE CARE EVERY ONE!!!!!!!!

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21790051/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21790051/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 19:35:37 PST of my friends.. they tell me 2 shut up.. im between 140150lbs.
im 5'6" and
i think im fat. some girls are smaller then me but still skinnier.
what
should i do?.. am i really fat?

some random guy who is being a jerk (and I mean totally, why do guys like him exist?) says that she’s fat and ugly. his name is chris. and I respond with.


me:Chris, you are such a vain jerk.
One day guys like you will wish there was a girl left to love you.


Chris Mitchell December 2, 8:57 PM I WONT NEED TO WISH!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAH I HAVE MORE GIRLS THEN I CAN HANDLE!!!!!!!!

meecember 2, 8:59 PM Chris, obviously you are in denial.
The only men that needs to assume, prove, and make such an impression that they
have the girls they want are the ones that have nothing at all.
The only girls you probably see are the images of your reflection in the mirror,
because you obviously lack being a man.
Grow one, will you?

December 2, 9:01 PM UR JUST MAD BECAUSE NO1 LIKES UR EMO ASS!!! AND YEA FATTIES EAT THEIR EMOTIONS

meecember 2, 9:09 PM damn, chris, i know a bunch of jocks that don't act as stupid as you do.
and to call yourself a jock is a total disgrace.
if i may recall there is a
certain character to sportsmanship.
you obviously dont carry those characteristics.
you're such a nobody

December 2, 9:13 PM HAHAHAHAH YEA BUT THEY ARENT PROFESSIONAL JOCKS ARE THEY?!?!?!?!?!? I AM SO THEY
DONT COUNT

and then some guy backed me up and said

December 2, 9:26 PM i looked at your pics they are FAKE, your still in fuckin high school, no bodys
PRO when they are in HIGH SCHOOL.


END OF STORY

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21752988/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21752988/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 16:55:44 PST I almost crapped myself when I looked at my messages on myspace.
There's this guy that I have had the biggest crush on for the past year now since we both started confirmation classes.
I've known him since 4th grade and now we go to high schools not so far apart from each other.
So 15 minutes ago I looked in my inbox and there was a message from him.
And when I read it, I was in total confusion.
He asked me for my number and I replied with my number. and omg
I wonder what it could be for!!!!!
ahhh!!!
OMG
dude ask me out already!!!!!
I'm so obvious with my hints and whatnot. OMG and that halloween gram was not 5 paragraphs long for nothing!!!!
come on!!!!!!

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21695909/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21695909/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 09:36:46 PST Every year we all must have at least one thing to be thankful for on this very day!
And if you don't at least be thankful for being alive and more if you are healthy and living well.
The things I'm thankful for this year is
1. my dad being alive and healthy
2. my mom being alive and there for me
3. my sister for ......being a dork
4. my education. i love my school
5. my friends for having my back
6. my laptop and wifi and printer, without those i'd be having a hell of a time in school
7. getting my college applicaitons done (well the universities that is)
8. for the show going well this week since it's my first time playing the drums.
9. my friends all over the world
10. teachers that care
11. my room , because every other room in the house is frigid.
12. ex's from the past. hey we all learn something from those experiences
13. my dad's support

There are so many other things I'm thankful for, and if I named them all in this blog, I'd be writing some kinda of book!

So I hope everyone is having a great thanksgiving! and if you're not celebrating thanksgiving, then just keep in mind to count your blessings. =]]]]

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21389896/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21389896/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 14:22:36 PST
]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21221703/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21221703/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 17:57:56 PDT I just don't care what you've done in your life
Baby I'll always be here by your side
Don't leave me waiting too long, please come by

I-I-I-I still believe in your eyes
There is no choice, I belong to your life
Because I will live to love you someday
You'll be my baby and we'll fly away

And i'll fly with you-ou
I'll fly with you-ou-ou
I'll fly with you-ou-ou-ou

I'll fly with you
I'll fly with you
I'll fly with you

Every day and every night
I always dream that you are by my side

Oh, baby, every day and every night
Well I said everything's gonna be alright

And i'll fly with you-ou-ou
I'll fly with you-ou-ou-ou
I'll fly with you-ou-ou-ou-ou

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21179288/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/21179288/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 22:13:41 PDT I am the visual,
the inspiration,
that made lady sing the blues

I'm the spark that makes your idea bright
the same spark
that lights the dark
so that you can know your left from your right

I am the ballot in your box
the bullet in the gun
that inner glow
that lets you know
to call your brother "son"

The story that just begun
the promise of what's to come
and imma remain a soldier
til' the war is won (won)

chop chop chop
Judo flip, chop chop chop
Judo flip, chop chop chop
Judo flip, chop chop chop

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/20956613/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/20956613/ Sun, 12 Oct 2008 16:23:34 PDT 1. Name: Gennie but you can call me Gen
2. Birthday: 7-11-91
3. Birthplace: Downtown LA. I'm G like that.
4. Current Location: Hollyweird
5. Eye Color: Dark brown
6. Height: 5',4"
7. Right or Left Handed: righty
8. The Shoes You Wore Today: black flats
9. Your most Overused Phrase: "uh" "eh" "ha!"
10. Thoughts First Waking Up: "omg where's the light?"
11. Your Best Physical Feature: eyes and lips
12. Your Bedtime: i really want to start going to bed at 10:30
13. Your Most Missed Memory: being with my ninang
14. Your Fears: dying alone
15. Your Weakness: kitties meowing & family suffering
16. Perfect Pizza: meat lovers & combo
17. Thoughts First Waking Up: didnt i answer this already?
18. Your Best Physical Feature:" "
19. Your Most Missed Memory:" "
20. Pepsi or Coke: pepsi...coke is kinda evil
21. MacDonald or Burger King: BK
22. Single or Group Dates:single
23. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: both
24. Chocolate or Vanilla: choco
25. Cappuccino or Coffee: both
26. Do you Smoke: never
27. Do you Swear:hardly
28. Do you Sing: wann hear?
29. Do you Shower Daily: ew of course
30. Have you Been in Love: yes
31. Going to College?: si
32. Going to get Married: one day
33. Believe in yourself: most of the time
34. Get Motion Sickness: if i'm in a car too long
35. Think you are Attractive: pshhh hell no
36. Are you a Health Freak: no
37. Get along with your Parents: yes
38. Like Thunderstorms: if i'm with someone
39. Play an Instrument: piano
40. Drank Alcohol: once or twice
41. Smoked: never
42. Been on Drugs: no
43. Gone on a Date: no
44. Gone to a Mall: lol yes
45. Eaten a box of Oreos: yes
46. Eaten Sushi: yes
47. Been on Stage: yes
48. Been Dumped: yes
49. Went Skinny Dipping : no
50. Stolen Anything: maybe when i was little. but i didnt even know it was stealing
51. Ever been Drunk: under adult supervision
52. Ever been called a Tease: yes
53. Ever been Beaten up: not really. i've been egged
54. Ever Shoplifted: no
55. How do you want to Die: peacefully
56.You want to become a: dermatologist
57. Country you want to visit: europe

In a Boy/Girl..
58. Favorite Eye Color: any
59. Favorite Hair Color: any
60. Short or Long Hair: moderate
61. Height: taller than me for sure. way taller than me
62. Weight: it kinda doesnt matter, just not over weight to the point where he's on the point of death
63. Hair color: already answered
64. Hair length: already answered
65. Best Clothing Style: comfortable and dark

66. Number of CDs I own:quite a few
67. Number of Piercing: 2
68. Number of Tattoos: nada
69. Number of things I Regret: a few

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/20955184/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/20955184/ Sun, 12 Oct 2008 14:37:17 PDT after waiting a whole summer for a printer i can use for school, I finally got one!
but this time it's even better
its a
-printer
-scanner
-copier
-wireless/usb
printer
ah!
now i can show my drawings without having to use a camera and make sure i take the picture alright!
yay!
well i can't wait to use this new gizmo!!!!!!
take care everyone!
oh and happy almost (the day i was made) halloween! (not born on, made one teehee!)
-gennie

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/20764357/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/20764357/ Tue, 30 Sep 2008 17:33:13 PDT What happened to those nights nothing mattered but what we had did?
What happened to those promises of kisses under the stars?
What happened to the dreams of warm embraces in the winter time?
Whatever happened to the words that you wanted to whisper so tenderly in my ear every time you saw me?
Did none of that matter to you when I told you I loved you?
My heart wishes for the days when you couldn't bear to keep one word unheard by my ears.
My heart wishes for the moments that you couldn't keep from talking to me.
I long for those hopes... those dreams......and now where have they gone to?
What happened to us?
What happened to me?
What happened to you?
What happened to us?
Have you forgotten what my very entity was to you? Have you forgotten my existence? Have you forgotten I was here all along? Have you forgotten me?
It's so sad how the seasons have come to soon, but what we had has gone away far too fast...
Where are you my love?
Where are you?

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/20727399/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/20727399/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 16:06:45 PDT
It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/19772586/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/19772586/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 14:08:08 PDT
what is it anymore?

is it just a word with no meaning?

i question what is it to the fullest extent at times.



love is not made to hurt you. oh no....it's not....

if love hurts you physically and emotionally it is not love

but it is in the likeness of being stubborn and posessive.



love does not take complete possession over one, but sets the soul of one free.



i've yet to know what it means or truly feels like

but what i do know is that love is not meant to hurt you...oh no...

love is patient, love is kind, love is ever enduring, love is sacrifice.



sacrifice, not abuse. there is a difference.



love is what we make our lives with.



without love, we are cold and dead humans inside out.



love is what i'm made with and give in return.



and want/need

-GDS

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/19669798/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/19669798/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 21:02:21 PDT Hahaha what a depressing title...eeeekkkkkk I couldn't think of any better title.... oh well.
Tomorrow I get to take my senior pictures. I'm so EXCITED!!!!! Finally! I'm a senior!!!!
I still need to get my hair done!
I can't believe I'm already a senior!
Time went by SOOOOOO fast!
I can remember being a freshman. My first super heart ache (even though it wasn't physical), My first lunch break, my first friends, my first homework, my first art project, my first essays and my first day wearing a uniform!
I've been so excited that I'm even looking at possible designs for my prom dress already!!!!!
I'm insane (right selma!?)
No...No...insane doesn't cut it! SELMA! I'M MAD AS SIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What an awful thing to say!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well. I feel like writing so much tonight!
Anyways it's been a while since I wrote in this thing.
I have a feeling that this year is going to filled with so much drama. I'm not going to emphasize on it because just emphasizing on it is too dramatic alone!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
*messes hair up with fingers agressively*
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!1
It's been som crazy 3 years so far, Gennie!
My love, you are growing up!!!!!!!
gah it's 9pm on this lonely Tuesday night!!!
I can't wait to get PE and Health over with at Hollywood High. I love my classmates though.
Going to a public school for the first time was kinda different for me.
I can't get the song "Souls for Sale" by the Mad Caddies out of my head for some reason!
*jams*
I wish I could slow dance to this song with a guy. Hahaha so weird, but yeah.
Shizzzzz I need to finish my 3 books before I get back to AP English this August. I'm such a bad prcrastinator!
There was an earthquake here in So. Cal. It was so scary. That's the first time in a LONG time that I have ever experienced an earthquake in the middle of class.
Hahahah this is how it was

****scene****
*ground slowly begins to shake*
gennie: *thinking* is this an earth quake? *says* "Is this an earthquake?"
Edith: *turns around wide eyed at gennie*
Gennie: "oh shit it's an earth quake, GET UNDER THE DESKS!"
everyone: *gets under their desks*
****end of scene****

It was kinda scary but it was also all sooooo surreal!!!!!!!

So....I finally got my make up and hair stuff to make it nice and wavy for tomorrow! It's going to be awesome!!!!!

I even have my dress to wear!!!!! How awesome is that?????????????? IT'S RIGHTEOUS AND EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I g2g right now. Gotta go to sleep. Or......knowing Gennie well, she will probably go on her laptop in her room and do doodles on paint or make funny faces on camera!

Well I'll see you all soon!!!!!!

DULCE SUENOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18470982/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18470982/ Fri, 23 May 2008 21:54:10 PDT Your words only hurt me more than fix the damage done.
You told me I was someone special to you, but now I can see the truth.
Burn it! Burn it! Burn it! Now!
For many days and months I counted the day when you'd come back to me.
Now I can see that it's all a damn lie!
Saying you loved me, saying you cared, saying you'd be there, saying you'd remember me...what a terrible lie.
It was on this day, the very hour of this very night, that I finally told you I loved you.
You told me you loved me, you told me you cared, you told me you'd never forget me......what ever happened to those promises.
Promises broken, promises never to be repaired, promises that broke me and shattered my heart in despair.
What have you done?
What have you done?
You may be laughing right now, but have you ever thought about how you have left me?
No you haven't. You obviously haven't.
I tried to be patient, I tried to be kinda, I tried to be ever enduring, but you alas you disappointed me.
How I have kept this feeling up for such a long time, is a mystery to me.
Remembering you so much is a pain I think of every moment.
At times I hate you, at times I care.
As of right now, I have no idea how to feel.
All I know is that it was this night that I made you mine.
And ever since I haven't let you go.
I wonder what you're thinking at this very minute.
I wonder what you will say.
I wonder if you'll ever bether, somehow some day.
Why do I keep praying? I have no reason why.
Why do I? Why should I?
You don't even remember me.
Do you know how much it hurts when I think of you?

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18407383/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18407383/ Mon, 19 May 2008 22:01:48 PDT Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while
Since I first saw you
It's been a while
since i could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been a while
since i could call you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

It's been a while
since i could say that i wasn't addicted and
It's been a while
Since I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must i feel this way?
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day

Its been awhile
Since I could lok at myself straight
and it's been awhile
since i said i'm sorry
It's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
It's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
I know it's me i cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while since i said i'm sorry

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18407365/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18407365/ Mon, 19 May 2008 21:59:37 PDT
o the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and screw up the guys in their lives without saying a word. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.

This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude comments and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced. This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.

This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing tha... ]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18343191/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18343191/ Thu, 15 May 2008 20:31:50 PDT Sometimes I'll feel so heartbroken over someone that was never mine in the first place.
And then there are days when I feel like loves is just so impossible for me. No matter how many times I try to get passed that "Just friends" phase with someone actually here, I can never get passed that.
People tell me that I need to find a person in my area, but the thing is, I've been trying so much, but it won't work.
I want to keep waiting and be patient, but it makes me feels like no one will ever love me for who I am, for what I am, for me as a whole. Maybe I'm just being a jerk for wanting something I can't have, but it's starting to really hurt...

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18309912/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18309912/ Tue, 13 May 2008 18:00:23 PDT I would have told you that
You looked good
As I walked away

And if you could've tried to trust the hand that fed
You would've never been hungry
But you never really be

The more of this or less of this or is there any difference
or are we just holding onto the things we don't have anymore

Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not at all
Just stand still
While we fall
In or out of love again I doubt I'm gonna win you back
When you got eyes like that
It won't let me in
Always looking out

Lot of people spend their time just floating
We were victims together but lonely
You got hungry eyes that just can't look forward
Can't give them enough but we just can't start over
Building with bent nails we're
falling but holding, I don't wanna take up anymore of your time
Time time time

Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not all
Just stand still
While we fall
In or out of love again I doubt I'm gonna win you back
When you got eyes like that
It won't let me in
Always looking out
Always lookin

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18105743/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/18105743/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 17:18:30 PDT I feel like letting go, life goes on
Wasting no more time
So much to be done
Everything works out
So they say
Over my shoulder, it's tough getting older
Yeah, yeah.......

(Chorus)
Seems like nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of grey and I feel a weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
I always thought that I knew where I'd want to go
Now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder
It's kinda tough getting older

Here before my eyes, many roads ahead
Time for me to choose one way now
If I take a chance
What lies down the road
Feeling so confused, turned round
On and on, on and on
yeah yeah.....

Seems like nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of grey and I feel a weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
I always thought that I knew where I'd want to go
Now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder
It's kinda tough getting older

Waited all my life for this day to come
I feel like letting go, life goes on
Over my shoulder (on and on)
It's tough getting older (on and on, on)
Yeah, yeah.....

Seems like nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of grey and I feel a weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
I always thought that I knew where I'd want to go
Now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder
It's kinda tough getting older

Seems like nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of grey and I feel a weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
(fades out)

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17963467/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17963467/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 17:02:59 PDT How painful the hangover was today
In front of the toilet, hands and knees
Trying to breathe in between the dry heaves
My baby made me some coffee
Afraid that if I drink some it's probably coming right back out me
Couple of advil, relax and chill
At a standstill with how bad I feel
I think I need to smell fresh hair
So I stepped out the back door and fell down the stairs
The sunlight hit me dead in the eye
Like it's mad I gave half the day to last night
My bad sight made me trip on my ass right into that patch of grass like that's life
All of a sudden, I realize something
The weather is amazing, even the birds are bumpin
Stood up and took a look and a breath
And there's that bike that I forgot that I possessed
Never really seen exercise as friendly
But I thing something's telling me to ride that slow speed
The brakes are broken, it's alright
The tires got air and the chain seems tight
Hopped on and felt the summertime,
It reminds me of one of them Musab lines like

[Chorus 2X]

Sunshine, sunshine, it's fine
I feel it in my skin, warming up my mind,
Sometimes you gotta give in to win,
I love the days when it shines, whoa let it shine

If I could I would keep this feeling in a plastic jar
Bust it out whenever someone's actin hard
Settle down, barbeque in the backyard
The kids get treats and old folks get classic cars
Every day that gets to pass is a success
Every woman looks better in a sun dress
The sunshine's an excuse to shoot hoops, get juice
Show improve their moves and let loose
I hear voices, I see smiles to match em
Good times and you can feel it in the fashion
Even though the heat cooks up the action
The streets still got butterflies
Enough kids to catch 'em
Ridin my bike around these lakes man
Feelin like I finally figured out my escape plan
Take it all and the day started off all wrong
Somehow now that hangover is all gone
Ain't nothing like the sound of the leaves
When the breeze penetrates these southside trees
Leanin' up against one, watchin the vibe
Forgettin' all about the stress, thanking god I'm alive
It's so simple, I had to keep the song simple
When I get home I'm gonna open all the windows
Feelin all right, stopped at a stop sign
A car pulled up, bumpin Fresh Prince's Summertime

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17740134/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17740134/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 22:09:50 PDT
anyways here are some lyrics that have been stuck in my head for a while. I can't seem to get the song out of my mind and out of my heart...

talk to you soon and message me when ya want...this makes me want to draw or paint now...

Piece of Heaven by Cascada

The minute you walked through my door
I knew this love is forever more
But then you told me all these lies
See the tears filling up my eyes

All I want, is a little piece of heaven
All I need, a little piece of heaven

Piece, of heaven

All I want, is a little piece of heaven
All I need, a little piece of heaven

Naaaa, na na na na na na, na na na
Laaaa, la la la la la, laaaa laaaa laaaa

Piece, of heaven

You taught me right from wrong
And told me always to be strong
But now i'm better off alone
Searching for a better home

All i want, is a little piece of heaven
All i need, a little piece of heaven

Naaaa, na na na na na na, na na na
Laaaa, la la la la la, laaaa laaaa laaaa

Piece, of heaven
Piece, of heaven
Piece, of heaven (heaven heaven heaven)

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17675181/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17675181/ Thu, 03 Apr 2008 21:40:15 PDT
Hey I've been watching you
Every little thing you do
Every time I see you dance
In my homeroom class, makes my heart beat fast
I've tried to page you twice
But I see you roll your eyes
Wish I could make it real
But your lips are sealed, that ain't no big deal
'Cause I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin'to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me

(Hey Juliet)
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet

Girl you got me on my knees
Beggin' please, baby please
Got my best DJ on the radiowaves saying
Hey Juliet, why do you do him this way
Too far to turn around
So I'm gonna stand my ground
Gimme just a little bit of hope
With a smile or a glance, gimme one more chance

'Cause I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin' to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me

Hey Juliet
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet

I know you really wan't me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin' to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me
You don't have to say forever
For us to hang together
So hear me when I say
Hey Juliet

Hey Juliet
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just wan't you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet

Hey Juliet
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17500412/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17500412/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 21:00:54 PDT That your warmth is
Crashing down on me
Take time to realize
That I am on your side
Well didn't I, didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, now

Take time to realize
Oh oh, I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
Take time to realize
This could all pass you by
Didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, but

It's not the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other

Just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, now
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now owa, owa ohh
Realize
Realize
Realize
Realize
uh-ohhh

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17216936/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17216936/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 21:03:06 PST It's the only thing that there's just too little of
What the world needs now is love, sweet love,
No not just for some but for everyone.

Lord, we don't need another mountain,
There are mountains and hillsides enough to climb
There are oceans and rivers enough to cross,
Enough to last till the end of time.

What the world needs now is love, sweet love
It's the only thing that there's just too little of
What the world needs now is love, sweet love,
No, not just for some but for everyone.

Lord, we don't need another meadow
There are cornfields and wheat fields enough to grow
There are sunbeams and moonbeams enough to shine
Oh listen, lord, if you want to know.

What the world needs now is love, sweet love
It's the only thing that there's just too little of
What the world needs now is love, sweet love,
No, not just for some but for everyone.

No, not just for some, oh, but just for everyone.

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17102367/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/17102367/ Thu, 28 Feb 2008 12:43:41 PST I can't wait to finish the Meyer books. Also this some of you may know, but there's going to be a movie based on Meyer's books soon. I'm guessing it's going to be like a Harry Potter series. I don't mind. I love vampire books, and a book based on Twilight's characters is a good movie to me. It may be out around the end of this year or something. Just go to the author's website. [link]

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16730851/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16730851/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 21:08:33 PST of course

2. What was your dream growing up?
a wife, mother and a lover

3. What talent do you wish you had?
to fly

4. Favorite place?
anywhere as long as i'm with my friends

5. Favorite vegetable/s?
potatoes (i agree with selma)

6. What was the last book you read?
Twilight

7. What zodiac sign are you?
Cancer.

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercing?
Just two earrings.

9. Worst Habit?
covering my mouth when i say something stupid, studdering

10. What was the last thing you touched besides the keyboard?
my precal book

11. What is your favorite sport?
dodgeball

12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
a bit of both

13. Can you eat 50 hot wings?
hand them to me, NOW! better accompany it with some ranch sauce too, and a pepsi

14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
living far away

15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
I"m one of those laid back girls that values herself.

16. Do you have any pets?
a cat

17. What’s the weirdest pet you’ve owned?
a lady bug

18. Where are you?
Hollywood, CA

19. What is the dumbest thing you’ve done while intoxicated?
took a nap at a hotel lobby while a pro wrestler passed by and photographers took some shots of me sleeping

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
my mid section, and scars

21. Weapon of choice?
a book, skillet, or my wallets chain

22. What color eyes do you have in real life?
dark dark dark brown

23. Ever been arrested?
lol no

24. Bottle or Draft?
bottle?

25. If you found a $100 bill on the ground, what would you do?
turn it in to the police

26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
mint

27. Where’s your favorite place to hang out?
my computer desk, out in the mall with my friends, the local in-n-out or johnny rockets, or the random hollywood streets

28. Do you like your room cold or hot?
both

29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
Draw, computer, read, hang out with friends, talk to stephen or eric, talk with my sister about chisme

30. Do you swear a lot?
ppl find it extremely weird when i swear, so i don't even bother, but if i get really mad, yeah....it's just as bad as a sailor's mouth

31. Biggest pet peeve?
when ppl are arrogant, super sarcasm, short man syndrome, over posessiveness, when it's super windy, ppl who question my belief in christianity. seriously...if i want to believe in god, just leave me alone. nothing's gonna change that.

32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
random

33. What’s your shoe size?
8 1/2 oto 9

34. Do you have the same features (eye color, body size) as your furry character?
i have different characters. one is a one eyed purple monster with kitty teeth, another one is almost wolf like....

35. What is your favorite outfit?
my black dress i usually wear to confirmation class, or my black jeans with any of my shirts, and the ever noticeable signature hoodie

36. Favorite image in all of the internet?
my bff's pictures

37. How many windows/tabs do you have open?
2

38. What's your desktop image?
an anime girl that looks evil with red eyes

39. What shampoo do you use?
dove

40. What cologne do you use?
haiku, but most of the time i use victoria secret lotions. favorite ones are love spell, pure seduction, and endless romance (mmmm stephen)

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16666405/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16666405/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 21:45:06 PST Tú dímelo
Dímelo

¿Dímelo por que estas fuera de mi?
Y al mismo tiempo estas muy dentro
Dímelo sin hablar y hazme sentir todo lo que yo ya siento

Después yo te veo y tú me miras
Y Vamos a comernos nuestra vida
Yo no voy a conformarme inventándote
Siempre ha sido así
Por que yo no puedo despegarme de ti
Cuanto más quiero escaparme más me quedo
Mirándote a los ojos sin respirar
Esperando un solo gesto para empezar

¿Dímelo por que estas fuera de mí?
Y al mismo tiempo estas muy dentro
Dímelo sin hablar y hazme sentir todo lo que yo ya siento

Dímelo suave
Dímelo fuerte
Dímelo fuerte
Dímelo suave
Dímelo por fin de una vez

Me gusta de ti lo mucho que me gustas
[Dimelo lyrics on [link]

Y que poco me perdono dentro de mí
No tenemos nada que perder
Y tenemos demasiado que vivir

Dímelo

Si yo no quiero o lo quiero dímelo y después olvídate de todo

Quiero

Las buenas nuevas siempre son así
Y las malas que se alejen de mi

¿Dímelo por que estas fuera de mí?
Y al mismo tiempo estas muy dentro
Dímelo sin hablar y hazme sentir todo lo que yo ya siento

Se repite coro

Dimelo, Dimelo, Dimelo

Se repite coro 2 veces

Dime que siii, Dime que siii, Dime que siii

Dimelo, Dimelo, Dimelo
Dimelo, Dimelo, Dimelo

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16588977/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16588977/ Sat, 26 Jan 2008 22:42:36 PST Its a game I just cant win
There you are breathin soft on my skin, yeah
Still you wont let me in
So come on

Why save your kisses for a rainy day
Baby let the moment take your heart away

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone you just couldnt have
Did you ever try so hard that your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And youre the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby, yeah

There you go, midnight promises again, yeah
But theyre broken by the dawn
You wanna go further, faster everyday, baby
But in the morning youll be gone
And Im alone

Why save your kisses for a rainy day
Baby let the moment take your heart away

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone you just couldnt have
Did you ever try so hard that your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad

Every dream I dream is like
Some kinda rash n reckless scene
To give out such crazy love
You must be some kinda drug
And if my time dont ever come
For me youre still the one
Damned if I dont, damned if I do
I gotta get a fix on you

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone you just couldnt have
Did you ever try so hard that your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad, so bad
Have you ever wanted someone, have you ever wanted someone, yeah
Did you ever try so hard that your wourld just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And youre the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby, yeah

Its a game I just cant win, oh

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone
Have you ever wanted someone, you just couldnt have
Did you ever tried so hard, yeah

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16543350/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16543350/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 20:36:18 PST I've told him that I liked him too, and that I admitted I was sorta jealous when a girl decided, out of the blue, to sit by him at lunch one day. ><
He only sees her as just a friend, and not more because he said he doesnt have a connection...idk... I just wished that I could live so close to him.
We're totally the same, and he's so cute... like dreamy cute... *sigh*
oh also just incase anyone has ever known me as long as I've known them in the past year, that webcam stuff is sooo overrated. If you think about it, the things I use to do at 14 &15 were pretty weird...idk I want to start off new.
And I think that if anything starts off with me and Stephen, well I'm going to keep it clean. None of that stupid stuffs i use to do. Gosh that was horrible.
Man oh man oh man oh man! If only I lived closer, we could've had so many movie nights, and go to the various anime conventions over there. Aw que fun!
I don't really get to talk much with him during the day. When I'm at school He goes online, and when I'm at home, he's at work at the deli.
And no he's not one of those balding, chip & dip eating, football watching, old goons. I actually kinda know him, through another friend of mine.
I just don't know what to do. I remember what happened to me the last time I fell for someone like this, and I fell so hard. And I remember that when we went our separate ways, well...i guess he just never wanted to talk to me again. It's been a little over a year since I've talked to him. And I don't want that to happen between me and Stephen. But I like him sooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He makes me smile from ear to ear. I just wish that love was in my favor for once!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16467894/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16467894/ Fri, 18 Jan 2008 23:56:24 PST Well My dad called me from the Phil. about 1 1/2 hours ago.
It's my cousin's wedding and I congratulated her on microphone. XD funny dad.
I was just sorta thinking for some time.
lol and I'm sure many girls have probably said all this chicky stuff hahaha.
Well I was just thinking (omg i feel so embarassed) about the word love and what it means to me.
I love my family and my friends. God only know how much I care about them so much.
And then I though, how it really feels to actually be in love you know? I've never been asked out before. Or any of that.
And then valentines day is right around the corner, and I remembered that someone that was actually around here and actually knew me because of my old school was about to actually go out with me, but he (sorta kinda) dumped me on valentines day last year.
It hurts, but I know that I shouldn't let it hurt forever.
But I've always wondered what it would feel like, to actually be held tight, and to feel like you meant more to someone.
Sometimes I feel like the emotion of someone actually loving me, would only end up hurting me. I don't really want to feel that way anymore.
I'm probably too young to feel this way anyways. I'm probably acting like a typical teen just complaining like a foo or whater. XD
But for once I just wish that someone could love me, for me. For who I am as a person, a person with actual feelings...a person that people know is always listening....someone that knows that I have a heart that's still beating.
Love was hardly ever in my favor, but for once I really wish that it could.
It's not because so that I can be with someone and show people that I have a boyfriend. (btw I think is stupid) But I would want someone to love me because of who I am as a whole, inside and out.
If I had to think any kind of person I would love to love, is someone who can make me laugh all the time, someone who doesn't mind a cuddle at times, someone who'd accept me for what I love, my hobbies, and my beliefs, someone who can respect me, as a person, a girl with value, and no less.
Believe me, love is a powerful thing. It can make the coldest man kind, the stubbornest person caring, and the saddest person smile.
(I'm sleepy)
I'll continues this tomorrow. Right now I'm too tired.
dulce suenos = sweet dreams.
"Love me for who I am as a whole and now less" that what I dream about one day.

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16231378/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/16231378/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 21:02:01 PST I have a crush on Stephen. He's in the Air Force Aux.
I really really like him.
The thing is he lives totally far away.
He use to go to the same school Eric did, and Eric and him are pretty good friends.
He and I share the same interests (shockingly)
We both love anime, we both dream of going or possibly living in Italy.
He has this aura thats totally inviting. He makes me feel happy. Like I'm the only girl around. But then again I could be falling for him too fast.
Well when I talked to him a few times, while I was with Eric, I actually thought that he was really really cute. But I didnt want to say anything because it might scare him away, so I didn't.
Recently I posted a bulletin saying "Would you __ me?" and he wrote that he'd hug me, kiss me, date me, help me and all the good stuff, and i'm happy that he didn't mention anything perverse or anything. That stuff is overrated by a mile.
The night before New Year's day, we were talking through myspace and myyearbook at the same time, and we just wouldnt stop talking until the early hours of the morning.
He's very interesting. He's like this tall giant tough guy that smells like engine fuel, but inside he's really a hopeless romantic, well - mannered teddy bear. =]
Well I guess I'm just gonna have to wait and see =]]]]]
hopefully it will be good.

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/15966497/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/15966497/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 22:36:26 PST It really makes me mad because in a way it feels like I was totally crash landing on earth ya know. That feeling like your worlds just fallen flat on God's face. But what am I to say that?
Anyways....yeah...been feelin like a jerk lately. I should be happy for him, cuz well yeah...he's got someone new to love.
Distance wasn't working for him, and God help him that distance will help him and his new relationship. They're far too.
I still can't let go of the feeling of being totally rejected still. Maybe it's just me, but I feel really bad. errrr ok ok i'm not going to lie, i just feel sad. He meant so much to me, and in the end I guess I wouldn't anymore. I hate having this feeling, the last person I really cared about was just like this. He was soo far away, he had a 3 hr difference from me. Again, I know that distance may not always work, but I mean, gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh forget it all. I'm just a stupid girl with a stupid head... I guess that's all I'll be to anyone. I'll just be that girl that everyone will know one day, then the nest thing you know I'll be forgotten. I feel like that's all ppl really see and know when they see me.
Sometimes I can't help but feel forgotten and betrayed by the people I love the most in life. And when ppl promise me things, that are very simple, they never seem to keep their promise.
I've always been there to listen to people, I'm always there for them when they need a shoulder to lean on, I'm always there whenever they need me.
Why can't someone be there for me to lean on?
I feel so lost.
I just wanna go away, cuz that's all I'll ever become in the eyes of everyone.

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/15499654/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/15499654/ Tue, 13 Nov 2007 20:39:15 PST Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
The promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

Hand me a world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/14992299/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/14992299/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 21:31:41 PDT lol that foo foo got me so worried...
well i guess ROTC takes a lot of his time hehe.
but i wasnt amused by the cayote thing hehehe.
gahhhh eric stop eating road kill XDDDD
awww i love you
X.X i wanna.......................................get outta this crazy shell hahahahahahha jk jk
i miss arrowhead
i miss eric
i miss mdread
i miss moni
i miss diana
*sigh*
FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
><
"woah amber is the color of your energy" - 311
"oh really?" - mr. darcy
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
bye bye

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/14888699/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/14888699/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 17:12:01 PDT Take the wave now and know that you're free
Turn your back the land, face the sea
Face the wind now, so wild and so strong
When you think of me, wave to me and send me song

Don't look back when you reach the new shore
Don't forget what you're leaving me for
Don't forget when you're missing me so
Love must never hold, never hold tight, but let go

Oh, the nights will be long when I'm not in your arms
But I'll be in this song that you sing to me
Across the sea, somehow, someday
You will be far away, so far from me
And maybe someday I will follow you in all you do
'Til then, send me a song

When the sun sets the water on fire
When the wind swells the sails of your hire
Let the call of the bird on the wind
Calm your sadness and lonliness
And then start to sing to me
I will sing to you
If you promise to send me a song

I walk by the shore and I hear
Hear your song come so faint and so clear
And I catch it, a breath on the wind
And I smile and I sing you a song
I will send you a song
I will sing you a song
I will sing to you
If you promise to send me a song

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/14875010/ http://BloodXTransfusion.deviantart.com/journal/14875010/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 17:51:59 PDT Shoot I gotta get to finishing my Chemistry project.
We gotta do this ad for and Iron ad. =[
then I gotta figure out what to do for our first anime club meeting.
ITS GONNA BE SO FRIGGIN RAD!
"til then send me a song" that song has been singing in my head all day. I love it. It's by Celtic Woman, should check it out during ur spare time.
well thats me today.
not the best picture in the world.....well..........idk..i dont think it is.
so yeah. nothing much here.
i wish i could talk to someone i know of that doesnt want to talk to me. but he's busy. he's probably in college right now.
but yeah i'll catch up with u guys later. so TTYL

-gennie

]]> ~BloodXTransfusion