http://browse.deviantart.com/journals/?order=5&q=by%3ABloodyLai deviantART RSS for in:journals sort:time by:BloodyLai en-us Copyright 2013, deviantART.com Thu, 20 Jun 2013 04:58:50 PDT deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://st.deviantart.net/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/GAME-OVER-by-BloodyLai-244282104 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/GAME-OVER-by-BloodyLai-244282104 Sat, 23 Jul 2011 18:14:53 PDT GAME OVER by BloodyLai nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai I was once addicted to it
That even my own time that i put too much through it
I can't help myself to think about it if it was all over
I even made such strategies and plans for me to win it over
As I was about to reach to the point of its peak
I saw a sign that I might be putting myself into trap
Then somebody told me not to look back
For I hear three people who cried out who lose the battle
Thinking the possible hints and cues why they lose
I was stupid not to realize all the signs and cues
For there was a strip of cloth bind to my own sight
Still going to the point of losing my own mind
Then I fell ]]> http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Forever-you-and-me-by-BloodyLai-237267757 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Forever-you-and-me-by-BloodyLai-237267757 Sat, 16 Jul 2011 19:48:48 PDT Forever you and me by BloodyLai nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai It's like every notes I hear is like you're in pain
I wonder where you have been
I might be dreaming since you left
You never said anything to me
How can I see the reality between you and me
Each moment I linger seems like only a dream
I search every corner but you were never there for me
Nights and days, I am seeing your face
But woke up from the realities of pains
I wonder if you saw me after the last time we met
If you did, can you hear the words shouting in my mind?
I needed you, I love you dear
These are just the few words that stay within my mind
And in my heart though it is shattered with ]]> http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Alone-by-BloodyLai-217924825 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Alone-by-BloodyLai-217924825 Fri, 17 Jun 2011 13:54:45 PDT Alone by BloodyLai nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai Echoes beneath my shoulder
It seems like it was hugging me in the cold
I wish someone could give me enough courage
But no one seeks to give me enough reason to hold
My sufferings blind me like a melancholy lyrics
I sought to find truth to all my troubles
But I never meant to seek a pain of strings
Since my fate had twisted like I was supposed to be blame
Blood drops as I raise myself to the ground
I have put myself in a drastic shame
I never had been so selfish
Just to get your full attention
Yes, my life had been so messy these days
Like a deep abyss that tries to confuse me in shame
I cannot co ]]> http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/quot-Stalker-quot-by-BloodyLai-218766675 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/quot-Stalker-quot-by-BloodyLai-218766675 Fri, 13 May 2011 16:12:13 PDT "Stalker" by (BloodyLai) nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai
As if I can hear footsteps before I gaze

I keep running back and forth away from you

But you keep me holding back to you

'Till my image in darkness had gone in view

I was looking for myself in this empty room

A mocking face lit up on a one full moon

I was terrified seeing you with those fangs you can't hide

Shouting in vain till my fears cannot be denied

Because I saw your true image on this cloudy night

I am trying not to be scared after all

Helpless because of my limited human actions

With just a stare in your eyes

I can't help myself to fall

Now I am trapped to you forever in this nightfall ]]> http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Passion-of-Rivalry-by-BloodyLai-218766948 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Passion-of-Rivalry-by-BloodyLai-218766948 Fri, 13 May 2011 16:10:08 PDT Passion of Rivalry by BloodyLai nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai
but its a feeling of being mess up,

forgiveness may not be given now ,

but lies beyond a heart is a soft gentle echo that you can forgive her somehow,

yes, it hurts and the wounds cant be replaced.

But deep in your stoned heart the scars can be erase,

sorry can be the hardest word,

but it is the only word you should never fail to spoke,

cause what cures an aching heart,

Is the love and friendship to both of you,

that always has been a part,

its never too late because you can always go to a brand new start. ]]> http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Where-are-you-by-BloodyLai-218766742 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Where-are-you-by-BloodyLai-218766742 Fri, 13 May 2011 16:11:44 PDT Where are you? by BloodyLai nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai
Is what makes me come and look for you

Worries is not the price for all of these tears

I just wonder where you have been

I think you just need your woman not me as I am

I accepted you as you are and I don't care if you think you are different from us

All I want is the real you and nothing less or more

I chose a different path to fulfill the happiness of others

Abandonment is not what I meant

This is also my happiness including you in my own world

Guess its too late then to bring back the past

You may choose them instead of having me as your best

I can't explain my feelings if it has been ]]> http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Heartless-by-BloodyLai-218766779 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Heartless-by-BloodyLai-218766779 Fri, 13 May 2011 16:11:03 PDT Heartless by BloodyLai nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai
Once you never experience the hurt till you drop,

A bleed can be heal but a scar is always there,

You seem to feel the pain but you never seem to care,

All you wanted in life is to belong to someone you dearly hold,

Till you came to realize that he is not worthy to behold. ]]> http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Losing-by-BloodyLai-218766984 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Losing-by-BloodyLai-218766984 Fri, 13 May 2011 16:09:29 PDT Losing by BloodyLai nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai
but what made me feel bad is to here you cry in danger

I thought you are with me but all of the sudden you are far away

I wanted to hold you tight again but I guess it wont happen again

I trusted you, i cared for you but I guess you won't be back to see you through

Your a friend to me, a brother, a master but all of the sudden your a lost to me in forever ]]> http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Misses-You-by-BloodyLai-218767136 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Misses-You-by-BloodyLai-218767136 Fri, 13 May 2011 16:08:41 PDT Misses You by BloodyLai nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai
but don't know the reason why,

am just so tired now,

like I was fed up so much,

I keep asking if i am worthy,

but i think i am almost ready,

think how hard it is to discipline myself,

making all my life so messy,

but things are already in track,

with the help of my lonely self,

I am not alone but feel so alone,

why? because i was missing someone,

that is far away and seem i am nothing. ]]> http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Love-Stranger-by-BloodyLai-218767213 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/Love-Stranger-by-BloodyLai-218767213 Fri, 13 May 2011 16:07:54 PDT Love Stranger by BloodyLai nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai
It doesnt matter anymore if you don't love me for sure,

I am not expecting anything even a little thing,

all i want is to say how i cared for you till the end of the day,

If you don't love me in return i accept that rest assured,

I will let you go to the right person whom you love for real,

Even it means seeing you from afar together with your millions of roses,

I will take this pain because this is what i chooses,

it is much better to see you smile and not to suffer,

From a grip of the knife that I am about to lose my life,

Till I lose my sense, you enjoy every drop of my energy,

I k ]]> http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/quot-Worried-quot-by-BloodyLai-218767457 http://bloodylai.deviantart.com/journal/quot-Worried-quot-by-BloodyLai-218767457 Fri, 13 May 2011 16:06:49 PDT "Worried" by (BloodyLai) nonadult journals/personal BloodyLai http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/b/l/bloodylai.jpg?2 Copyright 2011-2013 ~BloodyLai
Like all my thoughts are just for you

A numb on every step that I take

Is like a knife that will keep my life at stake

Have you ever thought of me?

Even in single moment without me?

If you only knew how I cared

Like a little child within a mother's care

I have always want you

Feel every kisses you've made

Is simply like a drug to me each day

How I wish you are here with me every night and day

A touch of your lips is like a fire

With every burning passion full of love and desire

But all I could do now

Is still wondering where could you be now? ]]>