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i've been reading. and playing violin because i can. im trying to do my stupid homework.

i hate my pre-ap biology teacher. i want to burn her classroom down. yes, but im in student council and therefore "supposed" to set an example, so i cant do anything. how crappy is that? i want to say something tart right back at her, and just laugh in her face...

my dad gave me a talk yesterday about how to get along with people. according to him, im antisocial. but he doesnt know the other side of me. when im in quartz mountain, im around with people i know. people i can relate to. i love them like i love my family. im more at home at quartz mountain than at my real house. thats sorta sad.

i miss quartz mountain where we climbed up that damn mountain at the hottest time of the day and played our violins up there. to prove that we can, and because we wanted to.

thats my home. my life. where i am most happy. and now, im not. im stressed. im sad. this is not home.

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/19704850/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/19704850/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 17:47:09 PDT
forgot to mention that after i came from quartz mountain, i learned that my poems are all crap. so i kinda got rid of it from the normal gallery. if u click browse, you can still read it, but its crap.

anyway, i've worked on this one poem. i really worked on it. i've fallen in love with shakespeare (again... but my first time, i had no idea what he was talking about, but the expression was beautiful) and i've memorized a bit of it. so my poem ended up sounding kinda like shakespeare... and kinda like sophocles because i've been memorizing ajax's final words. i have no clue if it has the ambiatic perimeters or whatever its called because i dont know what they are (but if i read the introductions to shakespeare, those people always talk about the iambiatic perimeters), but the expressions is kinda like shakespeare. im still working on it. its almost done, so be prepared.

i love reading and writing. did i mention that?

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quartz mountain was a blast. friggin awesome experience. so many friends. fun as hell. want to go back next year. got a crush on someone from there.

thats about it... ill try to get on deviantart more

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/18699120/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/18699120/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 14:35:43 PDT
well, i watched some episodes on internet and im hooked. i love the office. hilarious.

i also turned in some stuff for a local writing contest. an informal essay and a poem. i wonder how it'll go... i hope i win first place because i get 100 bucks.

studying and playing tennis. going to quartz mountain next week. its a summer camp for artistic people. im going for orchestra. kinda excited.

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/18509767/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/18509767/ Mon, 26 May 2008 11:39:37 PDT im already bored.

im still waiting for dan. i think he forgot. he was a nice friend. ill miss him.

need to go to violin shop to fix two of my pegs. i cant turn them. it kinda reminds me of my life, the stuck pegs.

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/18039770/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/18039770/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 14:10:33 PDT
there wasnt much story in the opera, but the singing and orchestra was awesome. they were amazing

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/17915411/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/17915411/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 17:00:29 PDT i finally remembered today to get on.

and i have nothin to do. i saw my subscription list (54) and went nuts and erased the whole thing. how stupid of me.

i came back from this student's house because we're in the same group. we had fun. as i was sitting on their lawn, watching four of them play catch together w/ football, it dawned upon me that i am very different from them. they will never face the pressure to study. they will never face boredom, nor loneliness. they will always have someone over on weekends, and go to NASCAR with each other. they'll have their teachers on facebook as their friends and text them at 10 at night. they'll jump on the trampoline and throw the tennis ball at each other, laughing. they'll have sleep overs almost every weekend. they'll go to dances together, as friends. and probably, they'll seperate for college but keep in close touch.

meanwhile..... i will have to study when they are hangin around. i will have the satisfaction of learning something. i will learn to brush off the loneliness and daydream while im bored. i'll go to the library during the weekends. i'll play bookwarm on yahoo while they're watching a basketball game. i'll practice tennis on the wall alone. i'll take a shower at 1 in morning because i have been reading. im different. not only in school, but everywhere. i see it now. its so clear to me.

maybe i'll get facebook. im thinking about it. hm. maybe i'll invite some of my teachers to be my friend on facebook. idk. maybe.

for now, i sit and read.

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/17349521/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/17349521/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 15:30:48 PDT
mom just made me turn off my music, title track by death cab. thats one good music gone.

anyway.
i dont like science. we just had like the lab where everyone has to draw a scale model of solar system as of thursday. pointless if u ask me. and we also need the planets to be graphed in a coordinate system. wtf?!?! i did it of course. the science teacher really shouldnt extend these assignments into 2 days. i took it home, searched the internet, and got it done pretty quick. the teacher needs a new tactic.

tomorrow, i get to check out THE TABLET!!!!

also gonna watch amazing grace tonight. FINALLY!!

i like taking pleasure in very simple (and stupid) things.

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/17244974/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/17244974/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 18:30:28 PST
went to play-a-thon. played 3 songs and had to go. blah.

so. im not depressed. just feels as if i danced a tonga infront of my whole school. humiliated. thought i could make it. im sure i would have made it, but i just screwed it up. damn.

well, we have our ups and downs

im having difficulty choosing the courses for next yr enrollment.

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/17215142/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/17215142/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 18:49:17 PST
im tired

during the day, i could close my eyes and go to sleep. my eyes were tired. just my eyes. it feels weird.

i need to sit at the desk and study
but i just cant
im tired. really tired. tired. tired. tired.
just wanna sleep for a long time. but im gonna wake up. no matter how long the sleeps gonna be. cus, u kno, i wanna live. i wanna live. i wanna do somthing before i die. there is always that hope for future u kno??

we had teacher conference. i see no point of it except for me to argue with my mom about what i should take next yr.

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/16391852/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/16391852/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 17:16:24 PST
the object of the game is to try to bite your bro as much as you can. no limited time, which means the game can go on till your parents catch you or till ur bro dies.


materials
1) a content brother. preferably younger brother that is doing something. it helps if he is wearing something.
2) ur teeth


instruction:
1)walk up to your brother. sit down/stand/lie beside him.
2)for a start, bite him in the arm.
3)bite him in the back
4)repeat instruction 2 & 3 continuously


rules:
1) no biting too hard
2) no slapping/hitting/smackin/kicking


enjoy the game!!

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/16361670/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/16361670/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 18:04:19 PST
i've been reading other great artist's journal.... so many comments.
im wondering when i will get that much people watching me.
those artists are so good, no wonder people read the journals. for now, i have a faithful friend that reads MY journals, and comments on my amature-ish works.

maybe one day i'll be good at drawing
and own a photoshop on my dream laptop complete with a tablet. and maybe people will read my journals. idk

but for now, im pretty stagnant. putting out some occasional works, which arent that good. i have no idea what will happen to me 2 or 3 yrs from now. hopefully i'll be better at violin, study more, and draw more.

]]> ~BluPen http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/16273784/ http://BluPen.deviantart.com/journal/16273784/ Sat, 05 Jan 2008 16:57:14 PST im trying the chicken pie from the microwave. its not so bad.

trying to recover from a recent shock when my friend told me that she was anorexic and could be taken away to a hospital.

the chicken pie fills my empty (and very hungry) stomach and provides a bit of happy time.

it will be a long time till the next journal entry. i wonder how long.

ah... screw everything for now. enjoy the happy time.

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