http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Blumascara&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Blumascara en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 03:57:02 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/28174377/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/28174377/ Fri, 06 Nov 2009 07:33:12 PST

how are you all? im glad to say that the comp is up and running again, albeit somewhat slower than before. however its been moved so i've been having to move back and forth to use the scanner installed on my folk's computer so scanning stuff has been a bit slower as waiting for the comp to be free does take a while!

as for requests, i've got three pending, 1 inked, 1 sketched and one that i'l be starting soon. i'll be on all these asap.

life has been pretty quiet since i left uni, i can't get anymore hours added to my shift rota in work so even at payday im pretty much broke so it's hard to get a leg up on anything. however im doing a graduate job search which i hope will get me a proper, 'grown up' job so i can earn enough to actually move forward.

well, that's all i got to say m'dears, a bientot!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/27872593/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/27872593/ Tue, 20 Oct 2009 14:01:41 PDT
see you soon!


blu











legal stuff: all works contained herein this site is (C)Kelly Blower unless specified

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/27519444/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/27519444/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 11:00:00 PDT that my comp has broken down and it needs replacing.
I'll still be drawing and sketching requests but any computer work will have to wait a while, hopefully it wont be too long untill i get a new machine to work on.

so until then, take care and i'll see you soon!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/27096846/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/27096846/ Thu, 17 Sep 2009 15:03:02 PDT
ho-kay! i've started a few of the requests i was given.

here we goo!

- pic of his muse and his pup together- inked
- pic of my tealeaf and her kizmit - finished!
- one of my girls as a Rtalon groupie-not started yet
:iconjoininjay:- himself with wolf ears and a tail- not started yet
-two of his charas-not started yet
more to come!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/26878540/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/26878540/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 09:56:58 PDT
any takers?

let me know!

blu


NOTE: can i just add that i, in no circumstances will draw anything
of a sexual or extremely violent nature to those under the age of consent.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/26676198/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/26676198/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 16:52:28 PDT
]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/26173391/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/26173391/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 15:30:44 PDT
[x] - You like cheese.
[ ] - You hate peanuts.
[x] - You agree that this quiz is random.
[x] - You have farted today.
[ ] - You have choked on something.
[ ] - You are a writer.
[ ] - You smoke
[x] - You like to swim.
[x] - You have farted more than once today.
[x] - You like ice cream.

TOTAL SO FAR = 6

[x] - You have lied more than 10 times.
[ ] - You are an only child.
[ ] - You have more than 3 pets.
[ ] - You prefer water to other drinks.
[ ] - You are an alcoholic.
[ ] - You are under 20 years old.
[ ] - You are over 30 years old.
[x] - You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] - You like jewelry.
[x] - Your favorite music genre is rock.

TOTAL SO FAR = 10

[ ] - You weigh more than 140 lbs.
[x] - You like pirates.
[x] - You like anime.
[ ] - You are a fangirl/fanboy of something.
[x] - You take a prescription drug every day.
[x] - You have a job.
[x] - You live with your parents.
[x] - You like to eat eggs.
[x] - You have a religion.
[x] - You dress stranger than other people.

TOTAL SO FAR =18

[ ] - You have had diarrhea in the past 2 weeks.
[ ] - You have eaten something odd before.
[ ] - You are bad at math.
[x] - You love electronics.
[x] - Someone/something has pissed you off in the past week.
[ ] - You cuss a lot.
[ ] - You believe in aliens.
[x] - You play video games.
[x] - You have low self-esteem.
[x] - You carry a purse.

TOTAL SO FAR =23

[x] - You like flowers.
[ ] - You are bisexual or homosexual.
[ ] - You are a Capricorn or a Scorpio.
[x] - You have used tarot before.
[x] - You believe in ghosts.
[ ] - You think *The-Fun-Group is awesome. (who?)
[ ] - You like =Fotus9's horoscopes better than *An-Unsure-Thing's... (umm)
[ ] - You thought today's funny saying was really funny.
[ ] - You have gotten one of the daily riddle's right.
[x] - You have gotten in/came close to being in a fist fight.

TOTAL SO FAR =27

[x] - You like fire.
[x] - You have fainted or passed out before.
[ ] - You have a high school diploma.
[ ] - You live in America.
[x] - You use hand sanitizer a lot.
[x] - You consider yourself a nerd.
[ ] - You have tried chewing tobacco.
[ ] - You are a conspiracy theorist.
[ ] - You sleep in the nude.

TOTAL SO FAR = 31

[x] - You have imagined yourself being famous.
[x] - You own a stuffed animal.
[ ] - You like watermelon.
[x] - You live in Europe.
[ ] - You have a fetish for something.
[x] - You fidget a lot.
[x] - You agree that this quiz has nothing to do with anything.
[ ] - You won't re-post this quiz.
[ ] - You have your own personal computer and don't share one.
[x] - You have a brother.


TOTAL SO FAR =37

[ ] - You can cook well.
[ ] - You like to party. (too lazy!)
[x] - You are a bad dancer.
[ ] - You are a professional dancer.
[x] - You have crossed paths with a black cat.
[x] - You have a friend that you think is crazy.
[x] - You have under 10 good, close friends.
[x] - You are anticipating your answer to this quiz.
[x] - You have ran away from something.
[x] - You have watched the movie: "X Men 3".

TOTAL SO FAR = 44

[x] - You like to mix soft drinks together.
[ ] - You have done an odd experiment.
[x] - People have stared at you oddly in public.
[x] - Your grandmother(s) are still alive.
[ ] - You have a step-mom or dad.
[ ] - You hate to be tagged.
[ ] - You have been a member to dA for under 3 months.
[ ] - You have a dA subscription.
[ ] - Your hair is brown.
[x] - You love to eat candy.

TOTAL SO FAR =48

[x] - You have dressed up for Halloween.
[ ] - You love cats. ( well, i like cats..)
[x] - You have a quirky personality.
[ ] - You are a coffee addict.
[ ] - You live near a body of water.
[ ] - You have had a toothache.
[ ] - You currently have to go to the bathroom.
[ ] - You like reading others' answers to "What would you do?".
[ ] - You are a vegetarian/vegan.
[x] - You use the term: "Epic Fail".

GRAND TOTAL =51


0-25 = A spaceship.
26 = Corn.
27 = The Chosen One.
28 = A donkey.
29 = Flashlight.
30 = Weed.
31 = Stalker.
32 = Poodle.
33 = A turd.
34 = Pacifier.
35 = Chili.
36 = A continent.
37 = Bamboo.
38 = A Nissan Skyline.
39 = Pedophile.
40 = A rather large and smelly fish.
41 = Parachute.
42 = Mob of angry sheep.
43 = A clone o... ]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/26070318/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/26070318/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 16:24:46 PDT (as of 00:22hrs Greenwich Mean Time)

im 24! i feel ancient!

but still.. woo!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/25801003/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/25801003/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 16:43:08 PDT
i wanna know how to stop the lines looking so pixellated, i've seen some artwork on here created in opencanvas with smooth lines. how do i do that?

any help is muchly appreciated!

blu

EDIT: i've tried anti alias and stuff and it does look ok, but enlarging the image makes it pixellated,any way to get around this? if not i'll have to use someting else, huuu~

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/25543066/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/25543066/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 15:21:27 PDT [link]



blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/25323292/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/25323292/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 07:09:17 PDT what will it prove anyway? it wont change anything.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/24979984/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/24979984/ Wed, 27 May 2009 13:43:59 PDT
all of the pages, links and images are done and html ready but putting the page links together? computer says no!

the really bad thing is that it needs to be handed in tomorrow and it'll only get 40 points (equivlent to a grade D) if its not web ready.

am i going to fail because of this? do the university take the whole 3 years into account or just the personal project and pro. practice? i saw a few people finishing off stuff from freshman year, so i don't know.

im really depressed, my whole degree is gonna fall down because of this, no matter how hard i worked.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/24824655/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/24824655/ Mon, 18 May 2009 15:16:27 PDT
gosh, i've got loads to do and yet so little time!

if i get all this done, time owes me a coke!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/24199087/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/24199087/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 10:51:27 PDT

God bless!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/23918666/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/23918666/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 14:56:55 PDT
lol.

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/23603792/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/23603792/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 04:46:20 PDT
now, im not going anywhere so dont worry, im just here to thank everyone for watching me. you are all awesome!

i just logged on today and saw all my messages and faves, these things im grateful for because these messsages and faves tell me that im doing something right, that im doing something credible and profitable as an illustrator.your comments are important to me because they tell me where i need to improve on and whats going ok,in all honesty the most important people here is not so much the bigwig publishers or established illustrators, its you, the consumer. you,as the viewers and consumers of my work are important because without your faves and comments i wouldnt know what i was doing right or wrong. these comments and faves are my stepping stone into the world of illustration and without knowing what was good or not, i would never get any work and therefore be unemployed.

so i just want to thank everyone who watches me for your support and thank you for your comments. and i want to say thanks to my friends for supporting me and being there for me through the hard times and for just being my friends. you guys are awesome!

i wanna thank this very sweet and lovely guy too he's my boyfriend and i want to thank him for all his love and support through the difficult times i've been having.

thanks everyone, you guys ROCK!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/23432610/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/23432610/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 12:34:37 PST
but.. i WILL be back! i havent left so i'll eventually return
with arts and shiz.

please bear with me, i will be back soon!

bai!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/23152664/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/23152664/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 08:55:02 PST
im trying to find my tutor and i cant find him, i need to hand in my journals because they didnt transfer over the 'web. student webmail sucks! i can't find anyone so have the classes changed? i wasnt in on monday cos of illness so did i miss something then?

im clueless! *ish confused*

ps. what's with the i.d scanners?

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/23054703/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/23054703/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 06:29:40 PST
i was in tears this morning, now i just feel empty,drained and numb. im tired, headachey and cold on the inside, despite me wearing a sweater and with the central heating on.

im really sad to see him go, but in a way im relieved. he was suffering a great deal so for him to go peacefully is a small comfort.

im just waiting for my parents to come home, something im treating with great trepidation. im scared of what will happen, how will my mum and grandmother cope? what happens next? i dont know.

R.I.P Johnnie Nichol Walker, make sure you take care of nan so she doesnt buy too may pairs of shoes lol

rest in peace.

EDIT: thank you to all my friends and watchers for your kind words of comfort and support. i really appreciate it and im really lucky to have people who care. you guys are awesome!! woo! *hands out cookies*

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22785528/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22785528/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 15:46:19 PST
the events over the past few months,including my family problems
have crept upon me and have become pretty mentally and emotionally wearing.

i didnt realise just how much until now.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22668552/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22668552/ Mon, 19 Jan 2009 08:28:39 PST **by the way, i am not attacking jordan,jodie marsh or anyone else who practices what i've mentioned in this blog/note thing. im speaking from an emotional sense**

(facebook dubblepost!)


do I?

*sigh* the things we do just to be liked.
even giving up dignity and our value just so someone will look and listen.

there's something i've noticed, especially amongst young girls and women that a scary trend is growing: sexualityopularity.

i see it all the time, girls who believe that sexuality equals popularity, friendship, acceptance, even love. on myspace, bebo, facebook and any other social networking website i can see waves and waves of painted babies in preteen glamour shots where young girls as young as 12 clamour around a camera, in mini skirts, frilly tutus, and low cut tops exposing acres of immature cleavage from budding chests,heavily mascaraed eyes flutter and glossy lips purse and pout at the camera shutter,little faces chubby cheeked and seductive. i open newspapers and magazines reading about 12 year olds aspiring to become glamour models and 15 year olds saving up for breast enlargements. the teenaged and preteen female demographic of today would rather step into Jordan's shoes and become glamorous, sexy page 3 models rather that go to college/university. ten years ago the most popular career aspiration was a doctor.

why is that? maybe its our desire to be accepted and loved, for someone to pay attention and care about who we are and what we do.but why love the body over the heart and mind? isint it enough? but then again everybody loves attention and the old adage; "sex sells" always rings true. however you can't blame these girls for thinking this way though, in newspapers and glossy magazines column inches are dedicated to glamour models Jordan and Jodie Marsh, who Jodie's dating, Jordan's latest fight with Peter with them both wearing almost nothing. despite said column inches having a mocking tone it does not matter, they're getting attention. anyone of importance is usually placed on the back burner. like in school, the girl with the straighter, blonder hair or the most make up get the attention and popularity, the smart kids get bullied and ignored.

however, im not here to preach about anti sexualisim or whatnot, im here to ask when it became all or nothing. becoming a sexual being is part and parcel of growing up, as its ground in our DNA through evolution to mate and create offspring. that's what animals do, but as a human being, with higher consiousness and intelligence, should'nt that be one facet of one's personality and identity, rather than the dominant one? as a person, arent we worth more?

girls and young women are made to believe that if you are not considered sexy or attractive then you're not worth the time of day. Jordan, for instance gets very upset and gets more parts of her enchanced or tanned to look like a fence after a fresh coat of ronseal if her husband Peter gets a couple more mentions in a tabloid than her, but why? Peter loves the very bones of her so it's not for him. is it for her? to validate her self worth? people who get enchancements for themselves i salute you, but do people get things like liposuction,breast enlargements and botox so they can be sure and confident that someone will find them attractive which in turn builds the confidence they did not previously have?

im veering of the subject a little but i genuinely believe that the above statement does apply. one time on facebook there was a application called 'are you interested' which i joined out of boredom and curiosity. i posted a picture of myself just looking at the camera smiling and waited but i got nothing, so, i reposted with a picture of me posing with a sexy pout and the hits came in a mile a minute. now, with no hubris intended im a nice girl who's reasonably smart but because i was not considered attractive i was passed by. so called 'camwhores' who bare breasts, butts and anything else do it for the popularity and those who have constant one night stands so they can feel attractive and loved, passing themselves around like sandwiches at a buffet. both doing it for acceptance and the desire for someone to at least pretend to care, whilst diminishing their value and worth.

im probably boring you now so im going to close with this. society has the values on which acceptance is based on completely backward. people, especially young women should be appreciated for what they have in their heads and hearts, not what's in their bras. but to strip yourself of your self worth and dignity in the hope that someone will love and accept you for what they see than for what you are begs the question:

do i have t... ]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22480824/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22480824/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 01:31:07 PST
anywhoo, here's is a nice quiz i stole from


Hi, my name is:
what? my name is, who? my name is, *frikkyfrikky* kes bee!

Never in my life have I been:
feeling so fat. wait,i have so i cant have that, ermm.. tired?

I hate it when:
people are arrogant and bigoted

The one person who can drive me nuts is:
a few people

When I am nervous:
i hyperventilate and shake

The last song I listened to was:
in bloom-nirvana

If I were to get married right now my best man/ maid of honor would be:
erm..

My hair is:
a mullety mess, i need a new haircut

When I was 5:
i burnt my arse on a heater

Last Christmas:
was nice

I should be:
more comfortable in my own skin

When I look down:
i see my wacom tablet. it's a bit dirty but it's lasted me 3 years!

The happiest recent event was:
just whenever i hang out with ian

My current annoyance is:
not being able to sleep

I have a hard time understanding:
how to flat colour/cel shade in photoshop, and illustrator. lord i hate illustrator! its so restrictive!

The thing I want to buy is:
shampoo cos i need some. and a haircut

If you visited the place I'm from:
wrap up well and dont make eye contact!

I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than:
work full time for the co op

The most recent thing I've bought myself is:
THE mcmuffin. oh and some juice

Most recent thing someone else bought me was:
my xmas pressies?

My middle name is:
anne

In the morning:
im usually fumbling around in the dark getting changed for university

Last night I was:
trying to sleep

If I was an animal I’d be:
a wolf or something

Tomorrow I am:
going to work. NUUUUUUU!!!

---

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22246654/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22246654/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 16:50:43 PST
ok, i've noticed whilst surfing through this site that there are loads of people on here who wish to become anime artists and illustrators and far too little of those who actually put in the effort. kudos to those who wake up in the morning and think to themselves; "i want to be an anime artist!" or "i want to be an illustrator!" and achieve it through study, practice and hard work. i give these people my respect because like anything worth doing it's tough to get to a level you want to be, but that's not who im addressing, im addressing the others, the ones who would rather not start at the bottom and work up, the ones who want instant popularity..

.. the ones who trace.

people who trace existing artist's work are far too commonplace on deviantart, which is called an ARTIST'S community, note how i've put the emphasis on the word "artist" because people who trace are not artists. tracing and copying other people's work is not art nor is it a valid form of illustration, it's pure lazyness and unfair to those who study for years to hone their craft and tracers undermine them by copying their work.

ok, im expecting a chorus of "im tracing cos im still learning" and other related rubbish, im going to cut to the quick and cut through the whining before it starts simply by saying that tracing does not in any way, shape or form help you to learn.what does help you to learn? practice, study and old fashioned hard work. want to draw cute anime girls? look up Julie Dillon. want to draw guns and cyberpunk insired work? Patrick Shuttleworth does very detailed and easy to follow tutorials. just want to develop an illustration style away from anime? dig around for Don Bluth or Preston Blair. all these artists have created tutorials (especially the last two which have written books on the subject) to help you get to know the basics so you can practise practise practise until you make something totally and completely your own, making the ideas that are in your head form on the paper the way you visualise them after a long slog is way more satisfying than copying someone else, it's a great sense of achievement.

something else about tracing, tracing does not bring popularity. for a short time maybe, but expect most of your fans and watchers to leave you and expect other artists' to stay away in case of theft when you get caught. it's a pretty serious violation of the site's policy, with tracers getting their work removed, a suspension or a permanent ban.


right, i hope i've made this clear. tracing is lazy, unfair and it gets you no respect. if you've got time to trace then you've got time to draw.

useful websites:

[link] - julie dillon's tutorials are on here
[link] - patrick shuttleworth's tutorial site

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22160842/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22160842/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 08:51:10 PST !
RULES :
#1) You must fill out EVERY question! No skipping!
#2) Tag five people afterward.
#3) Leave a message on their page telling them they're tagged.

ARE YOU ,

1. Perfect ?
nuh uh!

2. Tall ?
nope, im 4"11, v. short!
im on the chubby side too, i can't stop eating! lol

3. In your pajamas ?
naw
4. Left handed ?
no
LAST :

1. Friend you saw :
Ian

2. Talked to on the phone :
my Nan, she wanted to talk to my Mum about something

3. Person to text you :
Ian ^^

4. Was today better than yesterday ?
nope, yesterday was awesome

FAVORITES :

1. Number :
7
2. Color(s) :
black,blue,grey,turquoise,silver,purple and maybe some pink

3. Fruit :
bananas and apples

4. Place :
my bed,Ian's room or wherever is quiet

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS :

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
tied my hair up. it's one of the first things i do

Q: Do you have anything bothering you ?
ermm, probably university. im scared of graduating and stuff

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
tropic thunder

Q: Where is the last place you went ?
Ian's place

Q. Do you smile a lot ?
no, unfortunately. i've got big teeth so i smile funny! XD

Q: Do you wish upon stars ?
not really, i do like watching them though

Q: Are you a friendly person ?
err, im not sure. i guess im kinda friendly but really shy

Q: Where did you sleep last night ?
my bed

Q: When was the last time you cried ?
last week

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night ?
"dear God, look at the time!"

Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great?
maybe 4, it's a bit bleh at the moment

Q: What do you hear right now ?
the TV

Q: Does anything hurt right now ?
no

Q: What's your favorite month ?
ermm, i personally like the summer months especially july cos' that's when my birthday is! lol XD

Q: What did you do last night ?
messed around on my DS

EIGHT EMOTIONS :

1. Are you missing someone right now :
yeah, very much

2. Are you happy ?
somewhat neutral

3. Are you sad ?
somewhat

4. Are you bored ?
a little bit

6. Are you nervous ?
nope

8. Are you tired ?
a wee bit

ABOUT YOU :

001. Real name ?
Kes, you're not knowing the rest ya stalker!

002. Nick names ?
kes,kel,angel,kessu-chan,kessy-kun,kessy-kes,dudette,gasbag lol

003. Eye color ?
left eye green,right eye blue

004. Zodiac sign ?
cancer

005. Male or female ?
chica

009. Smart?
sorta

010. Hair color ?
black/turquoise

011. Tall or short?
didnt i just answer this?

013. Sweats or Jeans?
hmm, maybe both. jeans more though

014. Phone or Camera ?
both?

016. Drink or Smoke?
neither

020. Tattoos ?
i would like one

021. Righty or lefty?
righty

FIRSTS :

024. First best friend?
when i was 11

025. first crush?
when i was about 9 ish

027. First pet?
a dog, he was a lovely thing too!

028. First big vacation ?
i've never left England, eh heh..

049. Eating?
i had some porridge this morning

050. Drinking ?
coke

052. I'm about to :
call Ian later

053. Listening to ?
nowt

054. Plans for today ?
bleh, nothing, prolly draw

079. Drank bubbles ?
eh?

080. Lost glasses/contacts?
not sicne my surgery

081. Ran away from home ?
no

084. Broken someone's heart ?
yeah, once. felt terrible for ages

085. Been arrested ?
nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN :

090. Miracles?
sorta

089. Yourself ?
almost never

092. Heaven ?
yes

093. Santa Claus ?
im a bit old for that now, arent i?

094. Love ?
yup

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. Do you like someone?
oh yes! very very much so, in fact more than 'like'

099. Do you believe in God ?
yes

So now I tag...

~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22060516/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/22060516/ Fri, 19 Dec 2008 04:53:01 PST
ohh, what am i going to do? everything is rubbish, i don't know how to be right now.
im dreading going to work tomorrow, thanks to my boss nitpicking at everything i do and generally being a complete jackass i've become really paranoid and nervous around everyone to the point where i can't work properly. i feel that everyone is talking about me, waiting for me to slip up despite me telling myself that i don't hold any significance in anyone's life to have them talking about me. what makes me so special? but i still do.
im completely broke to the point where i owe my bank an overdraft charge, plus i've been sick for two weeks with the first week being in so much pain and unable to breathe i could barely stand. i have so much that needs handing in but i couldnt because my illness gave me joint pains so bad i felt like my wrists were broken. im trying to catch up now but im really scared i'll be kicked off. i don't blame them if they do, everything i draw is crap and my colouring skills are terrible no matter how hard i try.
my Grandfather was rushed into hospital too cos not only for a chest infection but for a mini stroke and a heart attack. it's a miracle he's still with us, i don't know what to think or say because all i hear is about how much he wants to give up and im torn because as much as i want him to improve i also want him to let go so he dosent suffer anymore. his lung disease means he'll never be truly well and be on oxygen all the time (which he is fed up with) so i don't want him to struggle through it anymore so it's a toss up between being selfish and being heartless.
what do i do? the only things that are keeping me sane are my family/friends,my ninja clan and my boyfriend Ian. im worn out and i just want to be happy again, i can't take much more of this, im only human!

i hope and pray that 2009 will be a better year for me, i just want to be happy again.

~owari

R E Q U E S T S

cos of the christmas period i'll have a bit of time
to do a few requests, so far i've got one:

1) - a picture of my blu and his tissi (speaking of which, can i have a ref pic of her? and what sort of 'theme' type thing would you like?)

ok, that's it for now, there's two slots free atm so if youre interested just let me know!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/21876104/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/21876104/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 04:15:01 PST *claps hands*

you've broke me down. chipped away at my resolve, at my esteem at everything, you've finally brought me to my knees. made me question myself. made me feel insecure and paranoid.

i hope you're happy.

it's not you're fault though, it's mine. it's my fault that i let you do this. i wanted to throw it all away but i know it's a sin.

but now that i've hit the bottom i know the only way is up. it's time for a change, it all ends here. no more miss nice girl, you won't get away with it next time.

owari

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/21712554/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/21712554/ Fri, 28 Nov 2008 09:21:48 PST
i've just been clearing my fb page up a bit. im wondering wheather just to give up and abandon it, there really isint any reason for me to stay there, well none i can see.

i was hoping it would be a useful tool to help me gain more confidence with talking to people as im extremely shy, but i dont get anything. i do leave comments but im a bit scared of what people will say, if they say anything at all.

i think it's just there to show me how different i am and how i'll never be normal, which does not help the grieving process at all. all in all i don't think i'll ever come to terms with it and accept my illness. it will always be bothering me, like a big black cloud.

i put art up there, just as a talking point maybe, not to be big headed but because its all i can do properly. my whole life and spirit revolve around drawing, if i cant do that then i would have no reason to exist, i wouldnt be able to carry on as there will be nothing in the world for me. what can i do? is this why no one's interested?

this feeling of isolation and lonliness is something i really don't need, with work problems and cash and university worries this is something i can do without. maybe i should leave it, at least for a little bit.

and my teeth are all kinds of fucked up. *sigh*

ok, on to other stuff.

right, i need to know. do you have any requests that i might have forgotten about? please remind me! gomen!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/21709447/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/21709447/ Fri, 28 Nov 2008 03:00:53 PST
*panic panic panic*

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/21521718/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/21521718/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 16:04:33 PST
i decided not to come back untill i've sorted out my requests, i've started the ones outstanding again, so watch this space!

a few weeks ago, i submitted a piece in university and my tutor said that i suck at photoshop. that can't be totally true, can it? i know that there's some things about it that i can't quite grasp but im not that bad surely?

plus, i have a few watchers and people who like what i've done so i must be doing something right, arent i?

oh, i don't know!

huuuuu~


EDIT: on top of all this, the journal which i saved to my pen drive has gone! what the hell is going on!? arrrggghh!!!!!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/21010925/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/21010925/ Thu, 16 Oct 2008 01:59:41 PDT
anyways, things are beginning to get more settled
so i'll be back soon, im sorry im taking so long with requests+art trades, but they will be done.

just let me get my head sorted out and i'll make like arnie in no time. "i'll be back!"

lol (lame joke)

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20844297/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20844297/ Sun, 05 Oct 2008 14:56:16 PDT
there's stuff i havent done yet so im not allowing myself back until its done.

no more procrastination! *slaps wrist*

before i go, im gonna do this!

Dear

I don't really know how to tell you this, but youre a pervert. I think I realized it when I threw up in your closet and I saw you sit on my father. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist . I'm returning your memories from the military service, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I told my psychiatrist about the incarnation as an eskimo .

Greetings to your frog Leonard,
-Blu-

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lol, tis' teh funny!
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Tags:



done aaaand done!

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RULES:
Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20539238/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20539238/ Wed, 17 Sep 2008 14:59:36 PDT
Feed Me!

Adopted from Valenth

have you ever liked someone so much that you just want to get under their skin so that you could stay with them, no matter what?

i really, really like Ian. it may sound freaky but i like him so much i just want to shrink down and burrow through his skin,muscle and ribcage so i can just cuddle up inside his heart.

this might sound disturbing but that's how badly i want him close. am i going to far? is this too much?

im weird and awkward and not what you'd call 'normal' but he dosent care. he still likes me. when im with him i feel really secure, he makes me feel so special and i can't help but feel really lucky.

*le sigh*

blu


]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20522849/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20522849/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 14:28:32 PDT
Feed Me!

Adopted from Valenth

yeah, it its!

i've got a really sore mouth and i don't know why. i don't have any teeth problems as far as i can see but there's a weird flap of gum over my left wisdom tooth which is really painful. hopefully the doctor can sort it out tomorrow.

i've got a question, does anyone here know how to draw dog/fox like muzzles? i've looked at other pics and photos for referance and i still can't draw them properly? could anyone give me a tutorial or maybe some tips? thanks for your help!

blu


]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20475150/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20475150/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 16:13:53 PDT

Is there someone you wanna date right now?
im already dating someone..

Why did you stop liking the last person you liked?
all im gonna say is that he was horrid!


What was the reason you last cried?
that's personal and i don't have the hutzpa to go through it right now.

Do you have a best friend?
yeah

What do you think of people who don't have sex before marriage?
kudos to you for having such restraint

Do you believe that what goes around comes around?
sometimes

What is your favorite fruit?
bananas and apples

What is the last song to make you cry?
'forever' by chris brown. i was feeling sensitive that day

Does anyone love you?
(excluding my family) no one

What is your biggest pet peeve?
a few things

Is your best friend pretty?
yeah, my best friends are very pretty


Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
yeah, sometimes

Whats the one thing that's getting you through this week?
art and my BF

Who do you miss?
i miss my uni friends and my BF

Do you give out second chances too easily?
yeah, im far too nice and naive

Where is one place you want to visit?
australia or new zealand

Do you like hugs or do you freak when people hug you?
i only like hugs from people close to me, such as friends/family/my BF but otherwise they freak me out and get me defensive untill im like: 'dont.touch.me'

Done anything illegal lately?
no

Who do you like?
my friends and my BF

Are you a tease?
naw

What is one thing you did yesterday?
took the dog to the park with my brother and sister

What was your worst mistake in your life?
ehh, dunno

Where did you sleep last night?
in bed

Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?
a few

How's your heart lately?
blue! i say this because blue's my fave colour so i want my heart to be blue! XD

Who was the last person to disappoint you lately?
me

Was it a boy or a girl to text you last?
a boy

Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
chocolate milk

When was the last time you had star bucks?
a while

Do you sleep on your stomach?
yeah, and on my back and side too,
i just flop all over the place

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
no

Are you ticklish?
depends on where

Last time you saw fireworks, with whom & where?
on bonfire night with a few college friends when i was 19 at the docks

Who did you last share a bed with?
erm, to 'sleep' sleep? well, i spend the night in my own but sometimes i like to curl up next to my BF and catnap on his bed

If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a regret?
a million bucks plz

Do you have a deep dark secret?
i dunno, prolly not

Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
eww none!


What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
lol im too old for that!

Do you crack your knuckles?
no

Favorite color?
black,blue and grey

Do you like horror or comedy?
they're both good

Anything you want to tell someone?
erm...

Are you someone's best friend?
prolly

What is your birthstone?
garnet

Any plans today?
go to bed

Do any of your friends have children?
nope

Do you hate anyone right now?
not really

Are you confident?
no..

Have you ever been given roses?
yeah, once.

What is your all time favorite romance movie?
none

Remember?
whut?

How many times have you really [really]fallen in love?
erm, about twice

Who was the last person to hold your hand?
my BF Ian


What's your current problem?
cash plz!

Hookups or relationships?
relationships, proper, serious ones

Do you believe in the saying ONCE A CHEATER ALWAYS A CHEATER?
yep! (only cos' it's true)

One night stands?
absolutely not

Would you kiss the last person you kissed?
yeah.


Do you know someone who likes you... ]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20453922/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20453922/ Fri, 12 Sep 2008 12:07:44 PDT
im hating to admit this, but im a bit jealous of someone.
she's just a friend but still..

...what she got that i don't?

in comparison, a fair bit.



blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20376966/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20376966/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 14:32:09 PDT sorry about my long absence, i was just working and nursing a rather stiff shoulder.
i am still trying to pluck up the courage to give a friend of mine's comish, its sketched but everytime i go to colour it i see how bad it is and i hate it more and more. i look at it and think to myself; 'is someone who is paying for this expect more skill?' i think so but its skill i lack.

so, i've decided i won't take commissions for a while. i've realised that im just not at the skill level i want to be. i'll still do requests as i think they are good practice for me but no commissions for now.

speaking of requests..

R E Q U E S T S

1) - a pic of one of her BF charas (i chose wars!) - sketched

2) - a pic of chiisai after 'laying legos' *giggle!* with his chara (aww, i've forgot his name!) - sketched (i've had to be sneaky with this as it's a bit risque!)

i will be back soon, i just need to get my mojo back!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20265660/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20265660/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 06:17:23 PDT
i've been feeling horrible, not physically but in an emotional sense. im so insecure it's ridiculous, it's really hard to explain how im feeling, i dont know how, all i know is that it's driven me to tears and other destructive emotional outlets.

i honestly don't know what to do. who can i turn to? him? he'd never understand.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20041258/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20041258/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 12:36:06 PDT

and now, just something.

stolen from 's journal cos' im baaaad..

1] are you bi?
nope, straight.

[2] where is your ID picture taken?
i drew it, so nowhere! XD

[3] what is your middle name?
Anne.

[4] Do you have a crush?
yup yup yup!

[5] does your crush like you back?
see above! hee hee!!

[6] what is your current mood?
somewhat blah because my BF Ian is going to the Leeds Festival and i won't see him untill monday so im gonna miss him.

[8] what makes you happy?
family/friends,chillin' with Ian, drawing,poi spinning

[9] look at a poster in your room, who's on it?
i don't have any, however my walls are bare so i doodle on them. :3

[11] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
a wolf! or maybe a GSD cos' they're lovely.

[12] have you ever had a near death experience?
nope.

[14] the song stuck in your head?
Fly me to the moon.

[15] what is your desktop background?
some raindrops on a twig. yup.

[16] what are you wearing?
Iron Fist t'shirt, ripped jeans and a studded belt.

[17] when was the last time you cried?
erm, a while ago.

[18] have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
yeah, im my school's talent show when i was 15.

[19] if you could have a super power what would it be?
to be able to jump really,really,really,really,really,really,really high.

[20] what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
now, this might be weird but the first thing i notice is wheather they have a kind face.

[21] what do you usually order from Starbucks?
caramel hot chocolate wit' lots o' cinnamon! :d

[22] what's your biggest secret?
im not gonna tell you that!

[26] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
i've got a glass of coke.

[28] what's your favorite smell?
cinnamon, vanilla and violets. and Ian always smells nice.

[29] if you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
BLARRRR!!!

[30] when was the last time you had a hug?
today. :3

[32] what/who are you thinking about right now?
ahh, nothing really.

[33] what should you be doing?
prolly finishing my requests/comish

[35] how often do you laugh?
more than some, less than others.

[36] do you like working in the yard?
hmm, depends. not sure.

[37]
what?

[38] do you act differently around your crush/significant other?
kinda giddy and girlish. X3

[39] name songs that remind you of an ex?
ack, 'hotograph' by Nickelback. that's one of the reasons why i don't like it. X(

[40] who was the last person to make you cry?
LOLZ Ian! i misread something he sent me and thought he was messing me about, he wasint though!

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20002796/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/20002796/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 11:06:12 PDT
im not good enough to be paid for my stuff, there's so many things i don't know how to do, so many things i don't understand. i need to improve in so many ways and yet my time has ran out.
i've got a commision outstanding because im so scared that the guy im doing it for will hate it. im just not good enough to do anything, i don't know anything, no one will hire me.

im terrified, well and truly terrified. nobody will want my stuff because it's crap. sure i can draw anthros and cute anime girls but nobody wants that, they want other stuff too, stuff i havent learned yet.

but, what scares me more is that drawing is the only thing i can properly do. i was good ad science and stuff in school but even then i was only average. this is the only thing i have excelled in and even then it sucks, but if i don't draw, what will i do? DX

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19973226/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19973226/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 15:42:54 PDT
yet again, my manager has collared me for having black hair, but with a turquiose fringe. yep, fringe.

now, according to my handbook im not allowed anything colour or style that's too extreme, now, would having a turquoise fringe/bangs be considered extreme? even with black hair?

not at all.

i am a peaceful, reasonable person. im not some brat who enjoys breaking rules. i did this as it represents my creativity and keeps within work constraints, a compromise you can say.
i decided to dye it all black a few days prior as i want it to grow one colour however forcing me to change MY appearance, despite my compromise is not on, they have overstepped the mark of enforcing company policy to being completely unreasonable and unfair and violating my human rights.

this aint over. apparently the area manager (the head honcho) is coming to check the store soon so i will be having some words.plus, im gonna get some legal advice and do as much research as possible on this matter and since the human rights law is european union approved it won't matter what the company policy says, if they're breaking the law they're breaking the law and they aint above that.

like i said before, im a reasonable, peaceful, mature person but im not scared to fight back and stand up for my right to be an individual.

EDIT: look what i've found!
[link]

if this holds true then they are going to be very,very sorry.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19848561/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19848561/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 16:04:57 PDT

anyways, just a brief update.

all of my requests are finished so it's on to the art trades!

A R T T R A D E S

1) - her very cute chara tari in exchange for my blu in gothic attire

if i've missed someone please don't hesitate to remind me! im getting quite forgetful!

and in the words of jerry springer; "take care of yourselves and each other"

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19806379/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19806379/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 10:17:14 PDT

anyways, now that the scanner is fixed my requests should be done pretty soon.

thanks for sticking with me!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19790888/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19790888/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 15:36:34 PDT
people saying that im so nice and pretty and cool and that he's a jerk and blah blah blah, no hubris intended at all but im sick to death of it.

other girls may love hearing all this and may lap it up but not me because i know better, i know that no matter how pretty, smart, cool or whatever it will never be enough for you, never.

everybody has something i lack, something i wasint born with and will probably forever be without which will affect me and make sure that no matter what i do i'll be hurt badly. maybe it makes them hurt me, this lack of whatever it is.
saying all this to me is so patronizing it's unbelieveable. do you really think, despite what's happened to me, that im stupid enough to believe you? do you?


no matter how pretty, smart, cool or whatever you say i am it will never, ever be enough. ever.

EDIT: deleted the other entry because i dont feel ok.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19787508/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19787508/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 09:59:12 PDT im so annoyed right now, my scanner's missing the drivers needed for it to work so i can't make any uploads at the moment, my requests are drawn but im unable to colour them.
however, i've found someone who can help..
ack, my chest hurts and im out of breath all the time, it's like there's no air.

anyways, on to the requests!

R E Q U E S T S

1) - UTN chiisai and blu the wolf- sketched

i'll get the scanner sorted as soon as possible, i hate being unable to render! arrgh!! >.<

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19755547/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19755547/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 16:09:41 PDT
the computer's hard disk crashed so i have been intarwebsless for a while. happily enough we've got a new one fitted so i'll be around alot more often.

did y'all miss me? prolly not, lawl!

anyways, now that im back there should be a bit more activity on here pretty soon.

senior year starts in a months time, oh noes!

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19656834/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19656834/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 08:31:11 PDT
i thunderstorms.

anyways, sorry i havent been around much, i've been doing a few commishes, but since im halfway through i'll be here alot more often.

my last commish was awful though. for some reason i've lost my drawing mojo, nothing im coming out with seems to be any good. im finding it hard to visualise what's in my head onto paper which is very annoying! arrgh!!
maybe it's cos of a lack of sleep due to the heat?

anyways, moving on..

R E Q U E S T S
i've finished my requests so far, but if you have a request or if you are owed one, please note me!

sayonara kitties!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19557488/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19557488/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 14:59:19 PDT move on, i have.

walk on.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19503006/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19503006/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 16:01:42 PDT
yay!

yay.

ack, too tired to continue.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19430712/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19430712/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 15:29:15 PDT

anyways, i might not be very active for the time being as im doing two comishes, which i am finding somewhat difficult as it's summat i've never attempted, but it aint gonna be impossible and as i've got them sketched it wont be long until they're done. so, afterwards i'll still be around to do requests and stuff due to the fact that i, contrary to popular belief, have not died.

i'll see you all soon, take care!

a bientot!!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19268549/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19268549/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 07:07:58 PDT
righty then, requests!

R E Q U E S T S

1)-UTN cheesecake chiisai

i've got a couple of comishes to do so i might be a bit slower with the uptake in concerning requests and art trades so please bear with me!

a bientot!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19033397/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/19033397/ Wed, 25 Jun 2008 06:34:39 PDT
I wear BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.

I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.

I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.

I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.

I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.

I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.

I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.

I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.

I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.

I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.

I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.

I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.

I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.

I'm JAMICAN so I must smoke weed.

I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.

I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.

I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.

I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.

I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.

I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.

I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.

I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a stuck up whore.

I wear skirts a lot, so I MUST be a slut.

I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.

I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.

I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.

I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.

I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a big peter.

I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.

I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.

I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.

I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.

I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.

I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.

I HAVE BIG BOOBS, so I MUST be a whore.

I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.

I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.

I hang out with GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO

I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.

I'm HAWAIIAN, so I MUST be lazy.

I'm a VIRGIN, so I MUST be a prude.

I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon and fried chicken.

I'm ASIAN, so I MUST have a small penis.

I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.

I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.

I'm PREP, so I MUST be rich.

I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.

I’m CHRISTIAN, so I MUST hate gay people.

I have ARTISTIC TALENT, so I MUST think little of those who don't.

I don't like to be in a BIG GROUP, so I MUST be anti-social.

I have a DIFFERENT sense of HUMOR, so I MUST be crazy.

I tell people OFF, so I MUST be an over controlling bitch.

I'm TEXAN so I MUST ride a horse

I’m a GOTH, so I MUST be a Satanist

I am a FANGIRL so I MUST be a crazy, obsessed stalker.

I watch PORN so I MUST be perverted

I'm an ONLY CHILD so I MUST be spoiled.

I am AMERICAN so I MUST be an obese, loud-mouthed and arrogant.

I'm CANADIAN, so I MUST love hockey and beavers.

I'm a FEMINIST, so I MUST have a problem with sexuality and I want to castrate every man on the earth.

I'm a TEENAGER, so I MUST have a STEREOTYPE.

I'm ENGLISH, so I MUST have bad teeth.

I’m WHITE, so I MUST be responsible for everything going wrong on the planet.

I don't like YAOI or YURI, so I must be a HOMOPHOBE

I care about the ENVIRONMENT, so I MUST be a tree hugging hippy

I'm PAGAN so I MUST worship Satan

I'm CONSERVATIVE, so I MUST be against Abortion

I'm SWEDISH so I MUST be a tall blonde blue-eyed lesbian.

I like READING, so I MUST be a LONER.

I have my OWN spiritual ideology; therefore I MUST be WRONG.

I am WICCAN, so I MUST be a SATANIST.

I DISAGREE with my government, so I MUST be a TERRORIST.

I'm a PERSON, so I MUST be LABELED

I don’t CURSE, so I MUST be an outcast

I'm SWEDISH, so I MUST be WHITE.

I’m STRONG so I MUST be stupid.

I'm AUSTRALIAN, so I MUST hunt crocodiles and talk to kangaroo’s

I don’t want a BOYFRIEND so I MUST be Lesbian.

I'm NOT CHRISTIAN so I MUST just need converting.

I’m RUSSIAN, so I MUST love Vodka and Caviar.

If... ]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18994432/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18994432/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 03:19:32 PDT 's request, this is something im finding quite challenging so as not to mess it up im gonna take a little more time over it, however the skeleton is sketched out so a quick fiddle with the proportions and it should be ok to draw.
thanks for your patience!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18767335/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18767335/ Tue, 10 Jun 2008 13:31:34 PDT
awww, i feel bad about my friends pages, i honestly never know what type of feedback to leave on your stuff, im not ignoring you, i just don't know what to say!

anyways, now for the request status!

R E Q U E S T S

1) a goth chick with bat wings-sketched

2) balancing act with my charas - not started yet (looks difficult!)

signing off!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18575043/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18575043/ Fri, 30 May 2008 10:56:01 PDT
i am pretty bored though, im pretty glad i've got some requests to take care of!

admittedly, im quite liking being alone right now (i mean, in a relationship sense) for some reason during the past year up to now i've been feeling like an empty shell, y'know, just not me. so i'd like to get back i touch with my inner self and have some fun!

i think i might start poi spinning again, i do miss doing that, i couldint for a while after surgery just in case they whacked me in the face but i just forgot about them. but i found them the other day and have been doing a few spins, i don't know much but now i have the time to learn!

i think i might go to martial arts classes, the little incident i had that tuesday reminded me of how vunerable i was being a young female on my own, and i didnt get much support or sympathy of my then boyfriend which made me feel more scared and alone but i've decided to at least be able to have the means to look after myself. there's no point in asking one's significant other to look after you and take care of you when you're scared, cos i don't think they will. i've had three of them and my welfare was the last thing to cross their minds so it's best i take care of myself.

it's my birthday in a month's time, i'll be 23. i feel so old! quick, pass me my slippers and mug of ovaltine!

enough of the blurb, on to the important stuff!

R E Q U E S T S

1) a goth chick with bat wings - sketched

2) a picture of his chara ellie - sketched (but im not too happy with it, i might start again)

3) balancing act with my charas - not started yet

all of my slots are full however im taking art trades!

A R T T R A D E S

im willing to take art trades, anybody interested?

that's it for now, take care y'all!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18528902/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18528902/ Tue, 27 May 2008 14:44:52 PDT
......what's wrong with me?


without blowing my horn im kinda smart (no genius) i like to mess and kid about, im genuinely kind and nice, im not beautiful, but i am kinda pretty and cute and im in ok shape (no playboy model!) so what's up?

my sister says that i lack confidence and have low self esteem. and im kinda shy and.. well, disabled. is that why?

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18513201/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18513201/ Mon, 26 May 2008 15:17:24 PDT

well, it's my fault for genuinely believeing that everything had changed for the better and stuff was worth another shot, but the truth is that we are both too messed up in the head to help each other and basically deal with each other. well, never mind eh?

however, this has left me with another problem. he still wants to be friends. and he's been calling me, alot. i said i would remain his friend, ya know, someone to talk to once in a while, but not so soon! admittedly he has alot of problems which he's completely mired with and it makes me sad that apart from me and a few others he dosent have anyone to talk to. but im still a bit sad and i would really like the time alone to sort my head out. what's worse, is that my parents think that im still contacting him when i really want him to leave me be for a while, i really need a break! but how do you say that to someone who seems to be in dire straits? so, i tried to say that i need time alone to help myself before i can help anyone else as nicely as a possibly can (i don't like hurting people's feelings) and my mum shook her head at me and is now giving me the cold shoulder. i think she said that she's given up on me which is completely unfair as i was trying to get him to leave me be as im upset enough and she dosent believe that i've deleted his number and he called me despite me trying to ignore him. i've even switched my phone off. i honestly cant be horrible, i can't be horrible to anyone so this is my only option.

to tell the truth, my folks can be pretty harsh and unfair if i don't conform, i feel like a 'thing' rather than a person and that they 'own' me. but what about me?

this is all too much.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18426287/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18426287/ Wed, 21 May 2008 06:39:20 PDT
tis' request time!!

R E Q U E S T S

i have a request!

1) an goth/rock chick with bat wings-
2) open
3) open

i still havent wrote the letter to im real sorry, i just don't know what to say! i hope i think of something soon!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18378650/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18378650/ Sun, 18 May 2008 07:50:34 PDT does this give people a licence to plagiarize and trace other peoples work? despite them working so hard to gain their skills?

and what about artists in other countries?

i hope this dosent go through.

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18207281/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18207281/ Wed, 07 May 2008 06:08:16 PDT
how did it get so hot out here!?

also, on a more sombre note please swing by and give her hugs, lots and lots of hugs.

see y'all!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18131544/ http://Blumascara.deviantart.com/journal/18131544/ Fri, 02 May 2008 11:05:41 PDT looks like fun!

I have to say 8 things about myself, along with the rules.
* 1. Post these rules.
* 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
* 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
* 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
* 5. No tag-backs

1- i've been a bit depressed with myself and things for a while. it's not me to be feeling low for this long, so im gonna take a break from my job.

2- im OBSESSED with new super mario bros game for the DS!

3- im addicted to soda

4- as well as drawing, i love music and poi spinning. i want to get a nice light up pair.. *thinks*

5- i think that university is the only time when i have had a few proper best friends

6- i think the unoa quluts ABjDs are beautiful.

7- *cries* i've missed my kiriban! i really wanted to do it too, aww!

8- im feeling awkward and uncomfortable in my own skin at the moment. im just trying to evaluate my own life and mindset at the mo'

hooookay! i tag:
:iconjurrasic-gothic:
taggety tag!

blu

]]> ~Blumascara