http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/12892690/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/12892690/ Tue, 08 May 2007 19:59:55 PDT

I checked my email recently and received a mail from and decided to visit. As some of you may have noticed (all two who ever paid attention in the first place), I've been absent for some 18 months and I'll likely be away for a bit longer. However, when I arrived I found the usual messages (journal notifications, etc.) but surprisingly there were also notes even though I hadn't visited in over a year. Do people not check the little *last visited* thingy? So, I've decided to do a little update just so my front page has relevant information because people still visit it. Back in my day (when computers were still pedal powered - none of this "rechargable battery" shit), people would write emotive journals announcing their intention to leave and then watch to see who missed them (like an extra wussy teenager threat of suicide). That's not what this is at all. I don't own a computer anymore (I only get to use one at uni where I pay for bandwidth so graphics heavy sites like DA are out) but I did make some friends on DA to whom I'd like to say hi and I'd like to leave a message for visitors so they don't think I'm a rude arsehole.

So, my life recently has been consumed by study; I'm back at uni (well, I'm approaching 18 months here) doing a PhD in philosophy and, as any grad student (present or past) will attest, it just consumes your existence, there's always more to do. Being a student again I have little money (I'm on a government scholarship but below the *official* poverty line - do non-philosophers see the absurdity there?) and so live a fairly modest existence. I don't have much money but what I do have mostly goes on books, film and music (including concerts - I saw Sunn 0))) and Boris on the weekend, I don't get why people find Sunn 0))) torturous, it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever listened to). I don't have a computer or internet access which is basically the only reason I don't visit DA or make fractals anymore. c'est la vie! Mind you, one of my goals this year is to finally make my interest in photography an active one so I might end up putting photos on here eventually.

What else is there? Oh yeah, some of the old journals and deviations are a bit embarassing, e.g. the Nietzsche essay is so unsophisticated it makes me wince; however, the essay is pushing five years old and is the first time I tried to think about something properly 'philosophical' (being and becoming) so, cringe worthy though it is, it represents part of a past that doesn't make me cringe plus I hate historical revisionism so it can all stay. Other things, the Morbid Musings or whatever it was called, are weird to remember because my life is so different now (I'm much more at peace than I was when I wrote that). Actually, I'm kind of tempted to re-write some things (the Anasazi novella especially); however, I have a friend who's a producer in small film company so I'm thinking seriously about extending my interest in photography into independent film. I'm not interested in working with the company (I know them and they're all too business or socially minded for my tastes); however, I have a real love of and respect for independent filmmakers (the Quay Brothers especially but also Stan Brakhage) plus the novella and my stories tend to come from impressionistic images in my head so the idea of turning the ideas into images and short impressionistic films is more exciting than mutilating them into narratives. Plus, I'm not talented enough to pull a Finnigan's Wake out of my arse.

I think that's it so I'll conclude. If you've just found my page by accident or have added me to your favourites in the last 18 months, I'm sincerely grateful. It's nice to know that things I did a while ago and have mostly forgotten about still bring other people some pleasure. Frankly, this is the biggest thing I miss about DA. Getting positive comments was never as important as the peculiar feeling that came from discovering that people get pleasure from something I consider mediocre at best. So, even though it could be a while before I upload or visit again, it's nice to know that, occasionally, random people still find my gallery and enjoy it. As for the friends I made when I used to frequent DA, what can I say? I have fond memories of you all and I hope your lives and work are going well. The note and message system here is an inefficient way to contact me; however, my email address is bill_gates_is_dead@hotmail.com and you're all welcome to use it. Just bear in mind, I only have internet access at uni and I'm usually preoccupied when I'm online so replies will rarely be immediate. Anyone who lives in or is visiting Brisbane, fee... ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/7073478/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/7073478/ Thu, 17 Nov 2005 16:23:17 PST
First up is Kaos; there's lots I could say (he was living with me for about three years before he went to live with Sharene and I could talk all day about how great he is) but I'll try and summarise: he's 5½ years old, he's desexed, healthy (fat but not unhealthy - cuddly), he's very sweet and gentle and loving but he's usually put off by loud people and he's a fairly (fairly) self reliant cat (he just only does what's necessary to survive between feedings). He's also really funny, there's one anecdote on his page but he does funny stuff all the time. He's great with anyone who'll treat him gently, if you or the environment is loud he'll keep to himself (well, he was fine with loud music when we shared a house, maybe loud isn't the right word, he doesn't like erratic, intimidating environments). He's a great cat and needs someone who'll love him.

The other two cats are Loki and Ashley. I can't say much about them, I don't live with them. However, on the few occasions I've been around them they're sweet and inquisitive and friendly. They're both under half Kaos' age and size so if you want a big sooky, cuddly cat you'll want Kaos, if you want relatively smaller more playful cats then you'll want to adopt Loki or Ashley.

For reasons I'm sure you'll all understand I'm reluctant to give out my or Sharene's details on DeviantArt; however, this is totally genuine so if you're interested email or note me ASAP and send me your number or I'll pass on Sharene's number so you can arrange a time to meet and hopefully adopt one of them

BTW, the only conditions we're going to put on whether or not you can adopt one of them is that you must be a cat person (at least enough to give them a safe, loving home - you don't need to be one of those crazy cat people like us) and you must be willing to email us every now and again just to let us know how they're doing. I haven't lived with Kaos for a long time and he's fine without me but I like knowing he's safe and happy and I know Sharene feels the same about Loki and Ashley (especially since they're the children of a cat of hers (Pagan) who's no longer with us). I know you'll understand this last request. ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/6403136/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/6403136/ Sat, 03 Sep 2005 07:08:18 PDT Mood:
Reading: Umberto Eco - The Island of the Day Before (still )
Watching: Warp Vision
Hearing: The Agriculture (d/l it, it's excellent)

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Hey everyone. This is gonna be short, I just wanted to let all two of my watchers know I'm still alive but I don't use the net very much which is why I might not seem around much. I made a flower thing in Chaoscope, hopefully a few people will like it.

I just have two things to mention:

Last Monday I met Karen (=Argocat8) and for the first time ever, meeting a net friend exceeded my expectations. Simply put, I really enjoyed the afternoon so, cue plug, if you've never seen her photography have a look, she's come a long from taking, admittedly gorgeous, photos of her pusscats to taking some of the best photography on dA. Plus, she's really friendly and warm and stuff, visit now.

Secondly, seeing how little time I have spent online the last few months I just ignored *swinck's stuff on my watch. Boy was that a mistake. I had a look at some the other day and they were fantastic so I went and had a good look through Serge's gallery and in the last few (or 6) months he's become a very good fractal artist, I recommend checking out his gallery. Two of my favourites of his: magic spiral and pink orchid beauty close-up.

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That is all, you'll hear from me when you hear from me. ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5844345/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5844345/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 05:56:03 PDT Mood:
Reading: Umberto Eco - The Island of the Day Before
Watching: 2046
Hearing: An Anthology of Noise & Electronic Music, Vol. 1

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Not much to say except ... I got fired from my telemarketing job! I don't know whether I should be worried that it might be a hindrance to getting a place or whether I should laugh. No, wait,

I must have something going for me if telemarketers don't want me. ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5798324/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5798324/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 21:08:39 PDT Mood:
Reading: Umberto Eco - Travels in Hyperreality
Watching: A Very Long Engagement
Hearing: Ulver - 1st Decade in the Machines

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For anyone interested, here's some trivia:

The flame se déprendre de soi-même was originally going to be called je est un autre after a line from Artaud (which means I is an other) but, those of you who pay attention to the debacle that is my life will know I am/was working on an essay (which was to be called je est un autre with this flame accompanying it). However, because I don't know how long it'll be until I get my own place and my own stuff I've had to put the essay on hiatus for a little while (damn! if only I were less lazy it would've been finished before I left). I love the aforelinked flame quite a lot and I wanted to share it. Plus, the title se déprendre de soi-même fits it so much better so I was happy to upload it. I'll make another flame to accompany the essay when it finally gets done.

By the way, I did this flame months ago, Dave happily lets me use his computer when he's out (so I uploaded it) but I won't ask him to install Apophysis just for little old moi so this will be my last upload for a while. Sorry, I know maybe 3 people (including me) will actually be disappointed but I'm the one without Apophysis or Chaoscope indefinately, my pain is worse than yours

Edit: thanks =laethian for spotting a typo. Since I just copy/pasted se déprendre de soi-même everywhere I had to fix it everywhere, including the *.png, because typos annoy me.

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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5462935/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5462935/ Thu, 26 May 2005 01:15:50 PDT

Music Baton Passed by =Argocat8: OK so here goes...

Last CD bought - Untilted - Autechre

Song playing right now - Ten Piece Metric Wrench Set - Amon Tobin featuring Steinski

Five Songs I Listen to A Lot, Or That Mean A Lot to Me - well, I don't listen to many "songs" anymore and I identify with/find meaning in even less but I'll have a crack

1. Pushit - Tool - I dug out the Salival box a month or so ago and I listen to this song a lot when I'm walking. Tool's a band I have a great affinity for (God, the fanboys! I must distance myself!) and I think there's a deeper concept at work in Tool that gets overlooked by all the forum nerds who "jerk off" ( ) over Tool, I think even the guy who does all the mystical/magical stuff on their site misses the point. I considered pasting or linking the lyrics but this song, like all of Tool, only really makes sense as music, not words on a screen. Just find this song and hear it, preferably the version on Salival but if you're cheap or too lazy to find the boxset just get Ænima. Or, crack open the p2p client of your choice and "go hunt 'em down" (mmm, dodgy ad joke maybe one other person will get : I think "knick knack paddy wack" everytime that ad is on).

2. I Wanna Be Your STD - Jimmy Edgar - I know this is from Warp but it's kinda glitchy hip-hop (or hip-hoppy glitch), sounds to me like something which belongs on a Mille Plateaux compilation, I love Mille Plateaux's Clicks and Cuts series so this just fits. I have a Winamp playlist of 100 miscellaneous songs (from Philip Glass to IDM to DnB) that I play all the time and, even though it's on random, this track gets played a lot.

3. Gnosis - Ulver - Ulver's the band which moved me from metal to electronica when I was 20. They weren't the only factor but the ... Marriage of Heaven and Hell album was probably what kicked it all off (an excellent album I thoroughly recommend BTW). Even though my ex Sharene ruined this song for a while (in the way exes do by associating themselves with certain things) I got over her and got back into the e.p. from which this song is taken.

songs, songs, what else? this is hard

4. Wish - Nine Inch Nails - I'm long past the point of actually identifying with this, or any of NIN actually, I'm not like I was at 21, now I'm, um, all of the anger, none of the angst. Be that as it may, Wish is still one of the best punk/industrial/pop songs ever. BTW, if anyone wants to argue about my using the dreaded "pop", gfy, have you actually listened to NIN? It's all got a fantastic pop sensibility, why else would NIN be this big and Skinny Puppy or Coil still be relatively unknown?

#5 is a tie:

5a. Whiplash - Metallica - I can't even begin to express how much I worshipped Metallica when I was 16. I watched the Some Kind of Monster doco recently and it reminded me of it all. Sure, Lars is a greedy, whining bitch and they're past it but those first three albums; so thrash it makes me pee my pants.

5b. Process This - Recipher - funniest thing ever, and now I understand why Compu does the things he does: just d/l it.

I am passing the music baton to.......
~cosmo111687, ~Ladymialee, * FractalMBrown, *Tazzy- and ~alfakim

_{I wonder if these random watchers even read my journal}


BTW, those of you paying attention would've noticed I listed Bad Santa above. If you haven't seen this movie watch it ASAP, it has kids and Santa but is definately a grown up movie and had me in tears. "Hi Santa, hi Mrs Santa's sister" ~Body-Without-Organs

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5418650/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5418650/ Sat, 21 May 2005 07:36:44 PDT

Today has been interesting. I did the clean out that must accompany every move and I found a Batman money box with something rattling inside. After fighting the tin for 20 minutes (I'd lost the key) I found a crappy pendant I bought two years ago and forgot soon after. I also have a suit, an actual suit, goddamn, I'd be sexy if only I could fit into the pants

The real reason I'm writing? To express my joy at the Doctor Who series which just started tonight. It was very cool. The TARDIS looked a bit too fancy and the theme music seemed remixed: both disappointments. But what can we expect? This is 2005 and the show had to stand up for Doctor Who n00bs (I'm sure there's one or two out there under a rock). Mind you, this was made up for by the gestures towards the original pilot (the spray painted shed door Rose turns to when she and the Doctor are fleeing from Rose's now headless, insane and plastic boyfriend), the dry British wit (funniest people on Earth IMO) and Christopher Eccleston, one of the coolest actors around today (anyone who saw The Second Coming will surely agree). Now I'm just waiting for daleks and K-9.

This week I've also, finally, seen Kryzsztof Kieslowski's Three Colours trilogy. My favourite was Blue for lots of reasons, not least of which was the exquisite Juliette Binoche, but I recommend seeing all three if you haven't. They're fantastic, gorgeous films.

Also, watch these animations:

Deciduous

Biggest Fear

That is all.

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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5360236/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5360236/ Sat, 14 May 2005 22:52:08 PDT

Stolen from =laethian who in turn stole it from *mythicnorms, dA, it's one big plagiarism party

If I was a country I'd be: Australia, I guess
If I was a ocean or body of water I'd be: a small, post rain pond with fishies
If I was a piece of candy I'd be: a watermelon jellybean
If I was a building or piece of architecture I'd be: a window
If I was a brand of shoes I'd be: Dunlop KT26
If I was a bad habit I'd be: eating junk food for comfort
If I was a swear word I'd be: fuck
If I was a ice cream flavour I'd be: boysenberry swirl (sweet but a bit fruity)
If I was a disease I'd be: influenza (mostly harmless but annoying none the less)
If I was a board game I'd be: chess
If I was a feeling I'd be: inquisitive
If I was a president I'd be: one who leaves the population to make their own choices
If I was a war I'd be: one fought by wealthy, beligerant politicians to benefit the poor
If I was a city I'd be: sunken and mythological
If I was a celebrity I'd be: an intelligent one who doesn't pontificate about things beyond my abilities
If I was a brand of toothpaste I'd be: Colgate
If I was a business I'd be: a charity
If I was a currency I'd be: cherished by archaeologists
If I were a month, I'd be: August
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Tuesday (that's when The Simpsons are on TV)
If I were a time of day, I'd be: a 2:45am insomnia
If I were a planet, I'd be: populated by burgeoning life
If I were an animal, I'd be: one of Minerva's owls
If I were a direction, I'd be: forward
If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: a futon (great but less comfortable over time)
If I were a sin, I'd be: lust
If I were a liquid, I'd be: water
If I were a tree, I'd be: a poinciana
If I were a bird, I'd be: a cockatiel
If I were a tool, I'd be: a tool?
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: a fern
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: rainy like in a noir film
If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: a drum
If I were an animal, I'd be: I'd still be one of Minerva's owls
If I were a vegetable, I'd be: a tomato
If I were a sound, I'd be: an embarassingly high pitched cock rock vocal
If I were an element, I'd be: water
If I were a car, I'd be: a coin operated fire truck outside a supermarket
If I were a song, I'd be: 1/1 by Brian Eno
If I were a book, I'd be: The Red Tree by Shaun Tan
If I were a food, I'd be: unhealthy
If I were a material, I'd be: flanelette
If I were a taste, I'd be: according to my last girlfriend, salty ice cream
If I were a word, I'd be: curious
If I were a body part, I'd be: a raised eyebrow
If I were a facial expression, I'd be:
If I were a shape, I'd be a: a Klein bottle
If I were a number, I'd be: irrational
If I were a band, I'd be: on my 8th farewell tour
If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: God

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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5290118/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/5290118/ Wed, 11 May 2005 01:58:42 PDT

Well, as per usual, I don't have a great deal to say but I got sick of the old journal being on the frontpage. For the 1.61803399 people interested here's breaking news from Jason's world (minus the asinine stuff like how I cut myself and my finger hurts - especially when doing the dishes - or how I stubbed my toe about three months ago and the nail still hasn't grown back - honestly, why can't we just do away with the pinky toe altogether?).

Well, the biggest news is, I'm moving to Brisbane in a few weeks. My scholarship application was turned down because of another person's slowness, fair enough s/he probably has some reason for taking three months to mark my dissertation but still ... On the bright side, it's prompted me to make a move I'm been putting off for too long and I'll be able to do my Ph.D at a better organised, better resourced university.

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Update 11-05-05: (to the tune of I got five thousand dollars from Wayne's World ) I got first class honours! Bow before me puny Earth humans!

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Plus it's a city with museums, and an art gallery and good cinemas. Packing is entertaining, I didn't realise how many cheap toys (you know the sort that come in vending machines for $1) I had that I'd bought because I regularly desire things with which to fidget and I just can't resist pretty colours when I'm at the shop.

Plus, now that my DVDs are sealed in a box I want to watch them

I apologise for the lack of submissions lately but apathy has overcome me. I still play with Apophysis and write stuff but when I come back to it later it just sucks. Maybe one day I'll do well again. I have a document full of ideas (that usually come late at night) which are inane but quite amusing (if I do say so myself) but everything I write lately seems forced. It deserves to be printed and shat upon.

I'm not sure if mentioning this is a good idea (don't want to raise hopes or anything) but I've been working on an essay. I don't want to say too much about what it's about really, because it's bound to change constantly, but = laethian and I have had some interesting conversations lo these past 12 months (conversations which have made my head hurt ) and =xexa once asked me about my thing with metamorphosis. Well, I keep thinking about these two instances as well as other stuff and this is really just my attempt to get some thoughts out and coherent. Currently it runs from my opinion on the body and its composition through to my developing interest in anarchy (well, I don't read about anarchist politics but wondering about an ethics of deterritorialisation just leads there IMO). Like I said though, it'll change. I don't know when it's going to be done (I can get very obsessive when writing) but it will get done, I created a flame to go with it which I really like and don't want to waste but the writing and the flame go together (in my mind at least), I can't upload one without the other. A few days ago I thought "I'll finish it before I move" but yesterday I started reading Weaveworld and am fully into it plus I keep thinking of new things or ways it should be done differently. Plus I'm lazy.

Enough rambling, I'm off to make something to eat. You should all visit Rob's art is way better than the rubbish you're currently reading.

Cheerio (god, I'm turning into an upper class twit now ~Body-Without-Organs

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/4985801/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/4985801/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 08:00:56 PDT Mood:
Listening to: To be released this month: Autechre - Untilted
Reading: Vincent Descombes - Modern French Philosophy & Ian Stewart - Does God Play Dice?
Watching: Blue Velvet

*****

To make my front page more sleek, well, less bloated anyway, here's a new journal entry. The topic? Things which, this month, have made me squeal with girlish glee:

Art: Bathsheba Grossman (if anyone out there loves me feel free to buy me one of these), Gregory Euclide, Alessandro Bavari, Marija Maroševic, and the greatest writer, artist and pre-Nietzsche Nietzschean ever to live William Blake.

Music: Jeff Harrington and Recipher (d/l Doublethink, it's tres grouse).

Miscellany: Musical Bear, Pointless Waste of Time, John Cheese's Magic Pimp Bus, *resurgere, if you're like me and lust after cyperpunk-ish illustration, * inception8 and last but in no way least, Corn Thins, the best snack food ever. Though why the company is called "Real Foods" is beyond me, what does unreal food taste like?

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Friends:



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Ciao ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/4659449/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/4659449/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 05:03:28 PST Mood:
Listening to: William Burroughs and Nine Inch Nails - Quick Fix
Reading: Max Frisch - I'm Not Stiller
Watching: Revisiting Twin Peaks

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Well, I've been meaning to do a new journal entry for a while and 4600 pageviews seems like a good enough reason to pull my finger out.

I don't have much to say except I'm finished my uni stuff (a week ago actually) so I'm gonna get back into doing stuff like fractals and some writing. The writing might take a little while but I've been going through my list of ideas for stories and I still can't develop a decent enough idea; however, with all that serious thinking behind me for a little while my sense of humour's coming back so I can feel bitchy stories on their way. Maybe you're pleased at the idea maybe you're not. Either way it's my dank dA pit and if I want stories I'll have stories.

BTW, I've given up on the dipshit award already, nobody's pissed me off enough lately. Although, my praise for this month goes to the reptile breeding season, there have been baby bearded dragons everywhere lately. Lizards named dragons by botanists that are only an inch long and cute as hell is a great paradox.

Now to steal an idea from Karen, five things from my favourites that you should all visit:

:thumb15439928: I'm the only person who has full viewed this? What's wrong with the world? [link]

:thumb15281041: This may just be the cutest thing ever (sad side note: my faves are full of cats [link]

:thumb11245541: This got a DD a few months back but I love it, check out ~ luciora's whole gallery. [link]

:thumb9970604: ditto *barnaulsky-zeek's gallery [link]

:thumb6692341: hey, it reminds me of the art from Autechre's Draft 7.30 (one of the best CDs of the last few years). [link]

Duh me, I have to be a subscriber to have thumbnails in my journal. Dang, well, I'll leave it as is. Until my sub is working again (I hope by about 5/3/05) click the links if you trust me.

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Friends:



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If you're one of the people who ask "dude, what's with your name" these links might prove helpful, I recommend reading them in the order they appear:

I just found an excellent primer on the work of http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/4197867/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 03:12:00 PST

With any luck this will appear exactly one year (date's right - can I get the time right?) after I joined.

I had it right (31 December, 5:13 pm) and screwed it up with th edit for the picture.

Not much to say really; I've met some wonderful people (*Argocat8, *laethian, *trinity-77 and ~xexa especially) and spent far too much time here uploading lame Apophysis crap when I should've been working. Oh well.

On the surreal side, today is also the day I've crossed 4000 visits (though certainly not unique visitors - not that my friends aren't unique but, well, I assume there's just five people who visit me all the time).

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Dipshit of the month for January 2005:

Greg Behrendt, author of He's Just Not That Into You

Why is Greg a douche? Four words:

"Don't waste the pretty"

And now, three words from me:

Fuck off Greg

I HATE anything or anyone who has passed through the Oprah orbit.

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The Worst Moment of 2004:

Looking through the Rage playlist for Saturday night night/Sunday morning (January 1st is always the top 20 singles of the previous year): Shannon Noll's ghastly cover of what was once a pretty cool song What About Me? was the most popular single of 2004 in Australia. 2004 was definately the year for scraping the bottom of every available barrel in this country. At least the Glass House "Awards For Eksalince" are being repeated tonight (though Hughesy is currently in a commercial for Holden ).

Groups to which I belong:



Nice people on DA:

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If you're one of the people who ask "dude, what's with your name" these links might prove helpful, I recommend reading them in the order they appear:

I just found an excellent primer on the work of Gilles Deleuze. If you've never heard of him but want to get some idea of all this crap I'm on about give it a burl. Also try checking out the various links in the article for Bergson and Spinoza.
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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/4016783/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/4016783/ Wed, 08 Dec 2004 06:37:16 PST
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I got this from follow these three steps.

A) First, recommend to me:
1. a movie:
2. a book:
3. a musical artist, song, or album:

(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want.

(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything.


My apologies to anyone who's made unanswered comments, I'll get to it. Ask stuff on this journal, I can handle direct questions much better than I can handle conversation.

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After being mortified while I was eating breakfast at noon today I've decided to start a tradition of an erratic "Dipshit of the Month" award. This month's winner: Dr. Phil ([link]). Congratulations douche, may you continue making the world a stupider, less informed, less tolerant and less sympathic place for years to come. (Unless Dr Mezmer's prophecy comes true soon and you're crushed by your own ego.)

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Groups to which I belong:



Nice people on DA:

()

If you're one of the people who ask "dude, what's with your name" these links might prove helpful, I recommend reading them in the order they appear:

I just found an excellent primer on the work of Gilles Deleuze. If you've never heard of him but want to get some idea of all this crap I'm on about give it a burl. Also try checking out the various links in the article for Bergson and Spinoza.

The Body, the Meat and the Spirit: Becoming Animal

An article about Rhizomes

How do you make yourself a http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3898371/ Tue, 23 Nov 2004 03:23:25 PST
RIP Jacques Derrida.

I know I'm a month late but I only found out two days ago that on October 8 Jacques Derrida, 74, died of pancreatic cancer. For those of you who don't know Derrida was the father of deconstruction. I'm too lazy to try and explain it, that and I don't understand it properly myself (because saying I did understand it would require deconstruction ). But if you're curious have a look. I often wonder why people bother with obituaries, the greatest In Memorium I've encountered is Mille Plateaux's tribute to Deleuze. I guess it's just a gesture of respect when considering the impact a person has on one's own life. In that case: if it weren't for Derrida my time at uni would've been easier but so much less, he was loved and hated in equal measures but this fact is a tribute to his influence. He isn't and probably will never be the most influential thinker in my life but if it wasn't for him our world, from pop culture (South Park and The Simpsons wouldn't exist without deconstruction) to philosophy and art, wouldn't be anything like it currently is.


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And now, this ....

My half hearted apologies to those who've visited my page or commented on my work lately, I've been in a total funk and lacked the motivation and energy to engage with people. I have work to do (still, my dissertation comes across as anthromorphising forces which shouldn't be anthropomorphised, I'm sick of the stuff ) so I'm pulling myself out of it. I'm looking for part time work of any kind just so I can afford to get away, even if it's staying at a pub at a local coastal area just so I have a few days without TV, work or a computer. I don't have much else to say but if you've commented on something lately I'll answer it, I just feel lethargic. That and the fact that I'm getting bored with life lately, no doubt it'll pass when I'm finished my work and can think new thoughts instead of dragging myself back to the same things over and over.

That reminds me, there's a story I'd hoped to have written by now but it's been postponed because I'm back in front of this damnable box everyday and I doubt anyone can be creative with a word processor. Here's to being able to take a note book and a pen and just sit under a tree thinkingly haemorrhaging (that sentence contains mixed tense verbs, a word that doesn't exist and a misspelled word - I blame typing).

Much of what I've seen on dA lately has left me a bit cold. That doesn't mean there's nothing good, there's lots that good but not much new. Well, there's plenty that's new but not much that's new. I shouldn't complain, I'm having trouble with being repetitive lately, but I have a problem: "how to make it unique, not simply new?". I reckon I need a break to do something I haven't done in a while: wander aimlessly through streets without attached memories.

I hope noone takes that personally, I didn't mean it to be insulting to anyone but coming to dA, the frontpage is pretty much the same everyday (Anime, Macabre and someone's kid in the DTF and the same tired topics in the forums. I'm off to moan at something else

Oh, and is it just me or is the Freddo head thing just plain wrong?

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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3790705/ Tue, 09 Nov 2004 03:02:37 PST

Either someone made a mistake or someone is more generous than I deserve. It does get me to thinking though:

Almost two years I was going through a rough period which hit its peak when my then girlfriend found me, um, broken, in the shower at 11pm. From then I would just start sobbing for no apparent reason. After a week of this she and my dad made me go to a doctor and I got anti-depressants (there's a rant there but I digress). Long story short: stuff went okay for a few months then for the twelve months from my 25th birthday (last July) stuff went progressively downhill and I had had enough of everything. Then ... I decided I'd really had enough, no more whining, no more "I'm a victim of shit from the past" shit, no more anything. I got rid of the medication and decided to do things differently.

Long story short redux: I cocked up my enrolments for the second half of my honours year and I'm not eligible to finish when I thought I would. But lo! I decided "honest mistake and it won't matter in 12 months" and just kept working. Now that I know what I can do about everything, how my enrolment will work and that I will still be able to apply for a Ph.D. scholarship at the same time (some, in the wash, I get a few months extra to do a really good job on my work) I'm realising something. Something cemented by the generosity of an as yet unidentified deviant (well, not so unidentified now ): the universe is benevolently indifferent. I'm not espousing karma, that's too problematic a philosophy, what I'm saying is, live as best you can in a given situation and try to be a good person and stuff will work out well. The world is an amazing place with some genuinely good people.

I don't know who you are (yet!) who got me subscribed but thank you.

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Ben Elton is an Australian (dual) citizen!

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If you're one of the people who ask "dude, what's with your name" these links might prove helpful, I recommend reading them in the order they appear:

I just f... ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3747803/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3747803/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 21:45:52 PST Mood:
Listening to: Björk - Greatest Hits (Joga and Bachelorette are the greatest songs ever)
Reading: Nothing really, too much work to do.
Watching: Various films noir (is it just me or were women sexier in the 40s and 50s?)

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I have approximate answers and possible beliefs and different degrees of certainty about different things, but I'm not absolutely sure of anything, and many things I don't know anything about, such as whether it means anything to ask why we're here, and what the question might mean. I might think about it a little bit, but if I can't figure it out, then I go on to something else. But I don't have to know an answer... I don't feel frightened by not knowing things, by being lost in the mysterious universe without having any purpose, which is the way it really is, as far as I can tell, possibly. It doesn't frighten me.

Richard P. Feynman

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_{"Hmmmmmm, I guess but without the grease all you can taste is the hog anuses"}


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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3640948/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 09:08:19 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Vile Techniques (a dark D'n'B compilation)
Reading: Neil Gaiman - Coraline (I read this the other night when I couldn't sleep, it reminded me of The Thief of Always by Clive Barker)
Watching: Director's Series, Vol. 3 - The Work of Director Michel Gondry

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Well, I wasn't going to post another journal entry for a day or so. I was going to express my joy at having a completed draft of my dissertation done three weeks before it's due (two weeks editing then a week to print and bind three copies and send them off ). As it is, I still have the conclusion to finish so it'll be tomorrow.

No, gentle reader, the reason I am posting early is that there is a dire need for constructive criticism. If you check my general page you'll find this comment by ~slut-desingz: [link]

I don't know if it was a lazy disparagement towards my work or a clumsy attempt at constructive criticism. Since he is 17 and German (not that I'm dissing Germans, I just mean English probably isn't his native tongue, props then for being bilingual) with a misspelled user name I assume the latter. I like to think I'm mature enough to avoid flaming people anymore so instead I have a favour to ask everyone who reads this: visit his page and be nice. Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to look properly through his gallery. If you like his work, by all means, it or him. If, like me, you don't mind 3D stuff but have to be in the mood peruse his gallery and pick a piece to which you will give positive feedback. Whether critical or gushing, encourage his work. ~slut-desingz

This message will self destruct when I write another journal entry.

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What must I be, I who think and who am my thought, in order to be what I do not think, in order for my thought to be what I am not … [How] can it be that being, which could so easily be characterized by the fact that “it has thoughts” and is possibly alone in having them, has an ineradicable and fundamental relation to the unthought?

_{Michel Foucault}

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Movies based on Tom Clancy books suck

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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3491363/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3491363/ Sat, 02 Oct 2004 05:06:36 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Vile Techniques (a dark D'n'B compilation)
Reading: Neil Gaiman - Coraline (I read this the other night when I couldn't sleep, it reminded me of The Thief of Always by Clive Barker)
Watching: Director's Series, Vol. 3 - The Work of Director Michel Gondry

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To mark the occasion of

I looked up at the mass of signs and stars in the night sky and laid myself open for the first time to the benign indifference of the world. And finding it so much like myself … I realized that I’d been happy, and that I was still happy. For the final consummation and for me to feel less lonely, my last wish was that there should be a crowd of spectators at my execution and that they should greet me with cries of hatred.

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3470028/ Wed, 29 Sep 2004 00:14:18 PDT Mood:
Listening to: The Bogans Next Door - Cold Fucking Chisel ( I didn't know hicks understood irony)
Reading: Deleuze & Guattari - Of the Refrain
Watching: Director's Series, Vol. 2 - The Work of Director Chris Cunningham (still, best $40 I've spent in a long time)

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Hmmm, just a quick entry for something new. My postings of messages/deviations might be a bit erratic in the next little while. I'm 14,000 words into my dissertation and everything's on hold until that gets done. I'll still be checking in regularly I just might not be uploading anything new which shits because I don't like having a screenshot as my latest deviation but then everything I do in *

~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3372827/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3372827/ Mon, 20 Sep 2004 23:10:37 PDT Mood: Could do with
Listening to: Funkstörung - Disconnected
Reading: Neil Gaiman - Coraline
Watching: I wasted $6 going to see Hellboy last night. Read my thoughts

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3335223/ Sat, 11 Sep 2004 02:13:04 PDT Mood: Could do with
Listening to: Kings of Convenience - Quiet is the New Loud
Reading: Shaun Tan - The Red Tree
Watching: Director's Series, Vol. 2 - The Work of Director Chris Cunningham

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I'm going to do something I normally try and avoid, whine. Yes folks this is the sort of thing that keeps me up at night (I actually wrote it at 1:56 this morning). Enjoy because it'll disappear soon and I probably shan't do it again for ages.

Where to start?

This is something I think about a lot, how am I supposed to want that which I want? That sounds nice but it's a bit obtuse. It's easy to say "I desire ..." and complete that sentence with the insertion of a suitable goal/life path. The difficult part is wanting it enough to work for it. Every step requires sacrifice, even if it's just allowing the passing of the current position. How do you believe that the step will be worth the sacrifice? I know what I want but working towards it requires effort and sacrifice but, contemptible though it sounds, I like being lazy. Not that that's stimulating or satisfying but I know it, better the devil you know, hell, it's all I know. How do I know that sacrificing it is going to be worth its replacement?

Let's replace consideration of life goals and instead consider the in-between moments in life. I'd like my in-between moments to be happy, stimulating and, well, worth caring about. At the moment my in-between moments are empty, it's like my life is one big period of down time, drawn out procrastination. It sucks but it's all I know and I've become adept at distracting myself from how hard it sucks. My problem is, in order to obtain happiness I'd have to sacrifice that suckiness. I'm not particularly fond of it but I don't know if I want to let it go. If I may wax poetic for a moment (and why shouldn't I? this is my journal), it's like I'm dancing about the rim of a yawning chasm, not a necessarily nasty, depressing chasm (heaven forfend, I'm veering close to teenage, angsty gothism [sic] here), it's just a sucking hole of, well, suck. It's like a singular point of infinite banality but I've been doing it for so long I've got pretty good balance and I can distract myself so well I only look down 5% of the time. Now, filling, or moving away from, that chasm has risks, risks which, considering how unfulfilling that suckhole is, I'm willing to risk if the risks are worth it. Problem is, how do I know? It's not like I can ever go back so how do I know risking how I define myself now will pay off instead of just making the forces of sucking stronger? Either way what I am now will change which is fine, change is what I want, but what are the odds the change is for the better? I'm being literal, I'm placing a bet and my future is the collateral, how do I know I'm not just replacing the devil I know for one I don't know? If I can't answer that (and I'm smart enough to know I shall probably never be able to) how do I want the changes I want? Desire for things is all well and good but if you can't inspect beforehand and don't get a warranty how do you go from "I want that" to "I want that"?

One final question: I just used an allegory of buying whitegoods or a car for my life, is there something intrinsically wrong with my life and the world in which I understand my life?

I'm going back to bed.



I hate that I may just share something with angsty teens. This hasn't been a plea for sympathy but if anyone knows the solution to problem I'm all ears. I guess, at the end of it all, the question is, if you don't trust that your decisions are going to be the right ones, if you'll end up on a course that you never wanted in the first place because you never understood what you were getting yourself into, and you know you can never go back, how do you make any decision? How do you take any action? How do you avoid succumbing to fear?

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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3280275/ Fri, 03 Sep 2004 19:09:14 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Alias - The Other Side of the Looking Glass
Reading: A Deleuzian Century?
Watching: eXistenZ

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1. What's your name?: Jason but you can call me Susan if it makes you happy

2. When's your birthday?: July 25

3. Do you have a bf/gf?: No and No

4. Are you Hetero, Bi, or Homo?: Hetero

5. What's your favorite color(s)?: Blue, Purple and the green of healthy grass and ferns.

6. What's your favorite food?: Anything I can eat with my fingers except McDonald's puke burgers

7. What's your favorite drink?: Coke and lemon squash

8. What's your 5 best friends name?: Karen, Cameron, Sharene, Kaos, Pagan

9. What color is your hair?: Darkish blonde

10. What's your favorite movie?: I never understand these questions. There are so many films I love and they really have the common ground necessary to compare them so I'll just pretend it says "what movies do you regularly recommend to people?" Blue Velvet and Brother, Where Art Thou? (funniest movie ever).

11. What type of movies do you prefer?: I guess that depends on the criteria for preferentiality but I guess B grade horror movies with demons and monsters.

12. What kind of music do you like to listen to?: Mostly electronic music.

13. Do you like to dance?: Nope

14. Do you have any nieces or nephews?: Nope

15. Are you still in high school?: No

16. Where do you see your self in 10 years?: A pretentious intellectual living in France (if dying in Paris then dying does not matter!).

17. What do you look for in a gf/bf?: A sense of humor, intelligence, an open, tolerant mind, honesty (very important), eyes & smile

18. Who do you look up to? and why?: Baruch Spinoza because he was willing to sacrifice everything in order to be true to his own intellect. Plus William Blake, I love anyone who can so obssessively construct their own world.

19. Do you smoke cigarettes?: Not since my dad made me smoke a whole packet when I was 14 and I spent the weekend puking.

20. Do you smoke illegal substances?: Nope

21. Are you a cop?: Since I hate all forms of Imperialism whether traditional empire imperialism, cultural, moral or ideological the answer is a resounding no.

22. Who would you vote for?: Alive or dead? What kind of election are we talking about?

23. Have you ever cheated on your bf/gf?: Absolutely not, to me that is one of the worst things you can do to someone (betrayal I mean).

24. Are you sexually active?: Not for nearly a year

25. How many people have you been with?: Just one. I'm not into casual sex and I'm too introverted to have many relationships.

26. Who's your DREAM man/women?: Gillian Anderson, Nicole Kidman or Julianne Moore. I have a thing for petite red haired thespian types.

27. What are you thinking right now?: I'll get to question 30 then have some breakfast and do something more constructive and do this shit later.

28. Who's your worse enemy?: I don't really have any enemies. There's a few people I despise and they're idiot politicians.

29. Do you trust people easily?: No, yet I'm being very open with this little survey. Go figure.

30. What's your definition of a whore, slut, hoe, smut?: Well, the first three are all kinda the same, anyone who uses sexual explotation to get what they want, as for smut, absurdly graphic stick books and flicks.

31. How long does it take for you to fall asleep?: It depends, sometimes I listen to music and it takes longer but generally between 10 and 30 minutes.

32. Do you like sex?: Of course.

33. Do you listen to music or watch TV so you can go to sleep?: I sometimes liten to Philip Glass, it just creates a relaxed atmosphere I think.

34. What's your age limit on dating/sex with someone?: Well, I don't really mind about physical age, as long as I'm not commiting a crime and she's a good person I find attractive then age... ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3214491/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3214491/ Sun, 29 Aug 2004 03:23:36 PDT Mood:

Listening to: Funkstörung - Disconnected (I'm fully addicted to this album, it's the next CD I'll be buying.)

Reading: Valentine Moulard - The time-image and Deleuze's transcendental experience

Watching: Natural Born Killers & advertisements for Newlyweds

Wondering: Wouldn't it be good if breathing was a voluntary action? That way people like Jessica Simpson would suffocate. Surely noone is actually that stupid.

Yearning for: An expeditious supplial of this

~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3030294/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/3030294/ Tue, 03 Aug 2004 06:45:42 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Aphex Twin - I Care Because You Do
Reading: Keith Ansell Pearson - Philosophy and the Adventure of the Virtual
Watching: Shrek 2

(Consider the last three recommendations)

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This is an email I sent to my ex (with all the personal stuff cut out) and it's just something I wonder about a lot:

Why do good things end? I don't get the world. It seems to me there is no point, no purpose, no reason, nothing about life. It's all just a big let down. You know, that feeling you get when you really look forward to getting something but, when you do get you wish you hadn't because it isn't even close to satisfying your expectations. And it's not like your expectations were unfairly high, reception is just disappointing. That's how I feel about life. It's not infuriating, it's not cruel, it's just, well, disappointing. Which, in an existential, chicken little kind of way, is cruel. God is dead but only because his potential for existence was choked laughing at our disappointment in the life he made for us. I don't understand why life is the way it is. It's not cruel, it just seems to be moving towards a state of complete banality and vapidity.

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Evening everyone; it's 23:25 here and I just had a shower. While I was in there I got to thinking about suicide. While the link between shampoo and the snuffing out of one's life may not seem immediately clear it wasn't a hard leap for me. In the next few days I'm going to put ads in as many school newspapers as I can, some supermarkets etc., to tutor kids in English. For those who don't know, I'm a uni grad student with a BA in literary and cultural studies. After doing volunteer work at a local high school and meeting education students (ha! an oxy moron if ever I heard one) at uni I've come to the conclusion that a shaved monkey in a sports jacket knows more about the English language than my generation of school teachers so I figure I'll advertise to tutor kids at half the cost of 'actual' tutors and have an income of $20 a week @ being able to eat.

Anyway, I got to thinking about my time at school and I realised that today would've been the 26th birthday of a school friend of mine only he killed himself four years ago. It puts an interesting spin on suicide. Even with my above rant (and regular 'IRL' misery) about the pointlessness and absurdity of existence a lot has happened to me in the past four years. I've graduated university, fallen deeply (insanely) in love and had my heart broken, developed a love of philosophy and some actual life goals. While I still have a lot of shit from my youth my life is heading in directions I could never have foreseen four years ago. I wonder, if Tim were still alive today would whatever problems caused his suicide still be prominent? Would they even matter at all? There's no way to know and I guess that's the lesson here folks, for all its absurdity and futility life is changing all the time. It might seem imperceptible at the time but nothing stays the same if it's let be. Something that tears you apart today might be resolved tomorrow or it might still hurt. There's no way to tell until tomorrow arrives. The only thing I can say for sure is that gassing yourself in your car means you'll never find out.

Suicide kids ... just say no.

RIP Tim, I remember all the stuff we did as kids and your legacy, if nothing else in my world, is a moment of clarity.

Now, before I start sounding like Tipper Gore I'm going to bed. Night everyone.

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BTW everyone, go see Shrek 2. I saw it with my sister when I was in Brisbane recently. It was kind of boring (There were times in the first 20 minutes when I nearly left) but puss in boots is just too cool.

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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2876743/ Tue, 20 Jul 2004 06:11:24 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Ulver - 1st Decade in the Machines
Reading: Clive Barker - The Damnation Game
Watching: The Others

(Consider the last three recommendations)

Okay folks, I'll be away for the next couple of weeks so any notes/messages will most likely go unanswered. Don't get upset, I'm just off researching stuff. While I'll selectively rummage through deviations/journals when I get back a lot will suffer the "clear all" fate because I don't want to sift through 200/300 messages when I return. If you have any particular deviation you want me to see or anything else you feel you must show/tell me post it here and I assure you I'll see it on my return.

Cheers

Also: Happy Birthday Chantel! She'll never see this but it's my little sister's birthday today so we'll sing her a song. Well, lets not and say we did

Chantel on Saturday night at her party

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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2785669/ Mon, 12 Jul 2004 08:21:12 PDT Mood:
Listening to: µ-Ziq - Bilious Paths
Reading: Matt Groening - Childhood is Hell
Watching: Series 7

(Consider the last three recommendations)


I've been thinking, all this crap about dream interpretation; it's crap. Is it just me or is the idea of reducing everything to some lame Freudian narrative just asinine? If you're like me you may be rather bemused when you see people talk about films like Lost Highway or Mulholland Drive as though it can all be pieced together and figured out. I think films, books and the like must be approached on their own terms so if it is a total nightmare to arrange into a coherent, linear story then DON'T! Sometimes things are erratic, fractured and dislocated. Life is.

My point is this: why should we assume that the fragmentation we see in dreams must be translated into meaning something? Why do people have weekly radio programmes reducing everything in dreams to symbols? From where has come this idiot attitude that houses and water are emotions? Fences are symbols of our own desire to identify and overcome repression? Like fuck. Perhaps life is a dream, existence is what we experience while sleeping and our lives are the dreams. Not to talk about Edgar Allen Poe or teenage gothic shite. Perhaps there simply is no us, dreams, daydreams, affections may all be qualitatively different types of affect on the surface singular bodies. Perhaps attempts to reconcile dream life and waking life are erroneous simply because the supposed dichotomy twixt the two doesn't exist. They're just various pieces of litter lying on the floor of the same forest. They're linked but not reducible to each other.


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Also a big thank you to

~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2751651/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2751651/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 23:10:11 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Mouse on Mars - Iaora Tahiti
Reading: William Burroughs - Naked Lunch
Watching: The Shining

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Grab the nearest book.

Open the book to page 25.

Find the fifth sentence.

Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.


Rather it is what dismantles consciousness, what dismisses consciousness; it is what consciousness cannot formulate, and even what consciousness forgets in order to compose itself.

D. N. Rodowick Reading the Figural, or, Philosophy after the New Media


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Well, I've finished my essay and it's only 6200 words. Huzzah! Now for more work.


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Thought for today courtesy of William Burroughs:

Paregoric Babies of the World Unite. We have nothing to lose but Our Pushers. And THEY are NOT NECESSARY.

Look down LOOK DOWN along that junk road before you travel there and get in with the Wrong Mob...

A word to the wise guy.


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I've added new links to my collection, check out the bunnies; it's funny as hell.


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BwO isn't here anymore Mrs. Torrence.


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http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2634569/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 01:08:22 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Mouse on Mars - Iaora Tahiti
Reading: Clive Barker - Cabal
Watching: The Shining tonight


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Grab the nearest book.

Open the book to page 25.

Find the fifth sentence.

Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.


Therefore biology could and would continue to establish between living forms the same relations and the same kinship as transformism supposes to-day.

Henri Bergson Creative Evolution


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I'm almost finished my current article about Deleuze's philosophy of cinema. It's just over 4000 words. All I have left to do is finish a brief explanation explanation of time crystals, discuss Antonioni's Blowup as a crystal-image, write a conclusion/introduction and then polish. I wish I worked faster though.

Update: I'm in the intro/conclusion/editing phase and my 5 - 6000 word essay is currently 6300 words. eep!


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~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2609804/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2609804/ Fri, 11 Jun 2004 03:06:07 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Gregorian Chant - The Ultimate Collection
Reading: Ronald Bogue - Deleuze on Cinema
Watching: The Experiment


Reasons I am a big man:

I found two cheap albums at a music shop in town. Gregorian Chant - The Ultimate Collection and Open Space (a double chill out CD, it cost $6.99 instead of $35 because someone stole the case! Go thievery!)

I recently recieved a letter that I've won an award ($200) for havin the highest GPA in Literary and Cultural Studies in 2003 at my uni.

I've recently undertaken a quiz to find out

http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2571170/ Fri, 04 Jun 2004 21:23:11 PDT Mood:
Listening to: agf (Antye Greie-Fuchs) Westernization Completed
Reading: Brian Massumi - Parables for the Virtual
Watching: Starship Troopers (tonight)


Starship Troopers is on tonight! Huzzah! Doogie Howser in an SS uniform. Lame movies from people who made Robocop with fascist under(barely)currents r00l! Support your local Einsatzkommando!



Edit: I have 1005 pageviews! woo-hoo!

I know I shouldn't think of them as a status symbol or anything (which is lucky cuz I don't) but it's gratifying to know there's a few people out paying some attention. Thanks to everyone who watches me or checks out gallery or does something which lets me know that the time I put into making/uploading stuff is worthwhile.

What's unfair is some godly people have over 300 000 views. At my rate of 1005 in six months (+/-) I should be up over 100 000 by the time I'm on my deathbed at 75.

Groups to which I belong:



People whose work has made me wet my pants this week: (ie; check 'em out)




Is God a Taoist? by Raymond Smullyan

adios muchachos ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2526807/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2526807/ Mon, 31 May 2004 01:27:56 PDT Mood:
Listening to: the looped music at Eye Digital Emotion (check it out)
Reading: Brian Massumi - Parables for the Virtual

You are an Artist!

(Dominant Introverted Abstract Feeler)
You are an ARTIST (DIAF)— creative, adventurous, and deep. Although you are an introvert, your dominant ideas lead you to assert yourself often— especially through your work. You actively put your creativity to constructive use, and because you are ruled by your heart you are less likely to be inhibited by logic.

You have an intuitive understanding of emotion and know how evoke it in others, but the real world can be a prison of foolishness and embarrassment if you don't get your head out of the clouds a little more. Also, you are 87% likely to write poetry. Please, for the love of God, stop now.

Aren't online personality tests naff?

Click here to do it.



Groups to which I belong:



People whose work has made me wet my pants this week: (ie; check 'em out)





Edit: I don't wanna add another journal entry just for a link so I'll add this here link and just recommend it to all four people who visit me.

adios muchachos ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2518344/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2518344/ Thu, 27 May 2004 08:54:34 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Alec Empire vs. Merzbow Live at CBGB's
Watching: Charmed (in a few minutes actually)
Reading: Brian Massumi - Parables for the Virtual



Slayer

Kill Again

(Lyrics King; Music Hanneman/King)

Lurking in the dismal fog
Hungry for your blood
Seeking harmless victims
Satisfy my needs

Schizophrenic lunatic
Uncontrolled desire
Rape and ravage lady fair
Pledged to die


(Chorus)
No apparent motive
Just kill and kill again
Survive my brutal thrashing
I'll hunt you till the end
My life's a constant battle
The rage of many men
Homicidal maniac...

Trapped in mortal solitude
Lift the gleaming blade
Slice her flesh to shreds
Watch the blood flow free

Hatred growing stronger
None survive my wrath
Suffer from the throbbing pain
Yield your life to me


(Chorus)


(Lead - Hanneman, King, Hanneman, King)

Kill the preacher's only son
Watch the infant die
Bodily dismemberment
Drink the purest blood
Unrelenting need to kill
Death upon you now
Anxiously awaiting
Next in line.

[Chorus]

[KILL AGAIN]


Kerry King is obviously a genius. Why is he playing guitar instead of advising George Bush?

God I wish I was still 15. My tastes were good then.

Things I am a member of:



People whose work has made me wet my pants this week: (ie; check 'em out)

]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2502600/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2502600/ Tue, 25 May 2004 01:00:57 PDT stuff. There's many books I wanna read and so much music I wanna listen but I'm so poor


Groups I'm a member of:

]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2424859/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2424859/ Thu, 13 May 2004 23:40:39 PDT

Also today I bought a Roni Size CD after hearing Watching Windows on the Pi soundtrack CD and it is great.




On the downside, I had a large chocolate thickshake whilst walking home from town and I feel a bit ill. :0_o: ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2410635/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2410635/ Tue, 11 May 2004 23:34:41 PDT
"I think if you have triplets you need a bit of help from somewhere," he said.

Mr Costello repeated his call for couples to go forth and procreate because those who could have children needed to make up for those who couldn't.

"Some people won't marry and they won't have any children, that's why those that do, we've got to make up for them as well," he said.

source.

Hooray for living in a country that pays you to breed. Perhaps, since Australia pays women to have kids now and screws students over, China, a country where population controls are in place, would treat me better since I'm a single white male student. I'd just have to stay away from Tiannamon square.

Australian political dictionary entry:

Low income earner improper noun: one man, one woman, both straight and have only ever had sex with each other, married with at least three children ("one for the husband, one for the wife, one for Australia" (Peter Costello, 7:30 Report Tuesday May 11 2004)).
See also: battler, nuclear family, reintegration of 1950's morality in a PC guise, Pauline Hanson, Xenophobia, Homophobia. ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2403923/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2403923/ Tue, 11 May 2004 23:19:20 PDT of pointless pride*


My first (s)crap.


All I can say about it though is that:

A/ It's treason, I put far too much effort into that picture and betrayed my working class heritage.
B/ It deserves a new avatar, say hello to Julianne Moore (one of my favourite actresses - I reckon she was the best actress in the Hours).
C/ I washed up and my tongs are sharp. I wish I had a




]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2389869/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2389869/ Sun, 09 May 2004 03:42:47 PDT


]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2348487/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2348487/ Mon, 03 May 2004 02:44:21 PDT coolest in the history of cool things.

I pity tha fool who doesn't click that [link] right fucking now! ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2341642/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2341642/ Sun, 02 May 2004 03:28:33 PDT



A call to all poets and prose writers: visit here and here. ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2335438/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2335438/ Sat, 01 May 2004 05:00:16 PDT
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

+++++++++++++++++

P.S. My friend [link] asked me to put this here ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2333426/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2333426/ Fri, 30 Apr 2004 20:12:03 PDT
Don't tell my heart,
My achy breaky heart,
I just don't think he'd understand.

And if you tell my heart,
My achy breaky heart,
He might just up and kill this man ......


Ahhh, Billy how we miss you. Tee hee I watched Mulholland Drive again the other night. ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2327767/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2327767/ Thu, 29 Apr 2004 23:34:52 PDT [link] ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2321825/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2321825/ Thu, 29 Apr 2004 05:33:22 PDT

butterflies are pretty

]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2293018/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2293018/ Sun, 25 Apr 2004 03:29:55 PDT ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2253379/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2253379/ Mon, 19 Apr 2004 04:29:07 PDT

My rifle, without me is useless. Without my rifle, I am useless. I must fire my rifle true. I must shoot straighter than my enemy who is trying to kill me. I must shoot him before he shoots me. I will....


My rifle and myself know that what counts in this war is not the rounds we fire, the noise of our burst, nor the smoke we make. We know that it is the hits that count.

We will hit...


My rifle is human, even as I, because it is my life. Thus I will learn it as a brother. I will learn its weakness, its strength, its parts, its accessories, its sights, and its barrel. I will ever guard it against the ravages of weather and damage. I will keep my rifle clean and ready, even as I am clean and ready. We will become part of each other. We will...


Before God I swear this creed. My rifle and myself are the defenders of my country. We are the masters of our enemy. We are the saviors of my life.


So be it, until there is no enemy, but Peace!



This is the creed of the U.S.M.C. ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2253338/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2253338/ Mon, 19 Apr 2004 04:18:56 PDT
Conclave Obscurum: [link]

Alessandro Bavari: [link]

Alex Grey: [link]

Art Politic: [link]

Daniel Martin Diaz: [link]

shelley: [link]

Floria Sigismondi: [link]

Stanza: [link]

agf (a great artist and the world's leading musician): [link]

Alain Resnais: [link]

La Jetée: [link]

Chi Chian: [link]

Rechenzentrum: [link]

Body Without Organs (ooooh, self reflexive): [link]

Schizoanalysis: [link]

The Official String Theory Web Site: [link]

Fractals, Chaos: [link]

William Burroughs: [link] ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2252919/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2252919/ Mon, 19 Apr 2004 01:19:04 PDT
I'm not being unnecessarily harsh with this idea. If I had my way illiteracy in anyone older than 10 would be punishable by death. If you end sentences with prepositions, split your infinitives, use unnecessary dependant clauses or are just too damn stupid to know that would've, could've and should've are ellisions and thus "would of", "could of" and "should of" MAKE NO FUCKING SENSE then I believe you deserve to be beaten with a big stick. Now, as much as I hate 1337 speak and general wigga idiocy (you know, fat with a "ph", good things that are dope and women are hos) I have no qualms with regional dialects and linguistic evolution but how many 50 Cent fans read Milton and understand it? Stupidity is NOT evolution; it's stupid. Being an illiterate dipshit is not justifiable just because you're a phat homie with lots of hos. Or some such shit. I actually have some respect for Eminem and I'm a philosophy graduate student but the irony is that Eminem fans (the idjits who buy the shit on MTV instead of downloading it - for your information: people like Metallica aren't being adversely affected by file sharing, they're being adversely affected by their shit music that no sane person would waste money on) wouldn't understand. See, to do improv rap the way Eminem does requires a real talent with language but understand language and its uses this form of contemporary poetry will remain shit for idiots to loudly play in their crap cars impeding intelligent people from having intelligent conversations. But I digress.

To wit: noone will break your thumbs if you learn how to spell and punctuate correctly. If you use shortcuts like "WTF", "BTW" and "FYI" for the sake of efficiency learn to type. End rant.

Believe it or not I'm actually a nice guy but I'm having a rough day and general stupidity is getting to me more than it normally would. ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2238322/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2238322/ Fri, 16 Apr 2004 20:15:19 PDT
[link] ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2238300/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2238300/ Fri, 16 Apr 2004 20:11:18 PDT ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2189675/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2189675/ Fri, 09 Apr 2004 23:31:31 PDT
--Friedrich W. Nietzsche; The Gay Science Section 298— ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2189673/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2189673/ Fri, 09 Apr 2004 23:23:06 PDT to and understand as much as possible of the complexity of
the world - its beauty, its mysteries, its riddles. The more
you understand, the more you look, the greater is your
enjoyment of life and your sense of peace. That's all there
is to it. If an activity is not grounded in 'to love' or
'to learn,' it does not have value.

--Anne Rice--


(Oh to regain my days as a goth, things were so simple and much less depressing then - oh! the irony!) ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2189667/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/2189667/ Fri, 09 Apr 2004 23:21:38 PDT
Albert Camus – The Myth of Sisyphus ]]> ~Body-Without-Organs http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/1760149/ http://Body-Without-Organs.deviantart.com/journal/1760149/ Thu, 29 Jan 2004 02:18:05 PST ~Body-Without-Organs