http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:BuzzRyan1963&section=today deviantART RSS for by:BuzzRyan1963 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 15 Dec 2009 11:59:29 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/22282736/ http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/22282736/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 15:18:44 PST
The Karpeles is a magnificent building constructed in 1920, and currently has on display the original handwritten manuscripts from Arthur Conan Doyle, original notes of James Bond author Ian Fleming.

We toured the entire building from the boiler room to the rooftops and the place is majestic. Our host was not only in kind nothing short of sterling, but full intends to join our ranks, and has offered a host of ideas that are very steamy, and sound likes a lot of fun. We have been offered a room in the museum to set up as our meeting space.

When I go back I will take pictures and post them in this thread. You will find the place delicious.

For my part a gesture of this magnitude, only deserves something in kind so I offered my service to the museum twice a month to do maintenance on the aged facility.

With that I after the January meeting we will be informing the Jacksonville Library thank you but we will no longer be needing their facilities, and will be holding our meetings at the Karpeles.

The only other change there will be, it is more convenient for the museum for us to hold the meetings on the third Saturday of every month instead of the second. I did not see this as a problem so I agreed.

Here is the schedule as it stands.

January 10, 2009 – Meeting at the Pablo Creek Library from Noon-2:00 pm, with an adjournment to a local eatery.

February 21, 2009 – Meeting at the Karpeles Manuscript Library Museum, Noon- 2:00 pm.

March 21, 2009 – Meeting at the Karpeles Manuscript Library Museum, the time may vary because this will be the day that we in conjunction with the Jacksonville Photo Club Meet-up group will be meeting us at the museum to use us as subjects for their groups monthly theme. If you have multiple wardrobes bring them. Count on doing group and individual photos in various parts of the grounds. When more detail come available I will post them immediately!

April 11, 2009 – The 1st Annual Cowford Beach Beach Party! Get your bathing costumes stitched and your bathing engines to the shore because it is going to be a great day of retro fun in the sun! Right now I am calling for it to be held at the middle entrance to the Guana River State Park. Time to be determined. This is Florida as Florida has been for a thousand years and I love it. There are no facilities save for a port-o-pottie in the parking area. Bring a cabana, water whatever you wish to play with or eat.

April 18, 2009 – Meeting at the Karpeles Manuscript Library Museum, Noon – 2:00 pm. This is the regular meeting for the survivors of, and citizenry that couldn’t make it to the 1st Annual Cowford Beach Beach massacre! I realize the beach isn’t everyone’s favorite place to be thus it will not be disrupting our regularly scheduled meeting.

May 16, 2009 - Meeting at the Karpeles Manuscript Library Museum, Noon – 2:00 pm.

June 20th, 2009 - Meeting at the Karpeles Manuscript Library Museum, Noon – 2:00 pm.

That is just part of the events that we have going on in the next six months.

As you know the Vice-Mayor has brought up on a couple different occasions paying a visit to the Green Cove Springs Train Museum that I want to fit into our agenda somewhere, and there are numerous SF conventions going on that I would like to see a presence at.

So there you have it citizens and friends, the news of Cowford.

In Your Service,

Buzz Ryan,

Mayor, Cowford Florida
1889-Pressent

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A while ago when my partner-in-ne'er-do-well formed the Cowford Steampunk Society I got the bright idea to take advantage of the natural wonders we have that is the ocean and its shore line and have the 1st Annual Cowford Beach Beach Party.

So I started doing research on bathing costumes of the Victorian Era, and I have to tell you back then with the rules of propriety and what not going to the beach was no picnic. I am sure everyone knows what the garb of the day was but did you know there was a device known as a Bathing Machine that would trolly the ladies into the water so they could step out into the ocean and then bring them back into shore free of the gaze of men?

On the Brass Goggles forums someone joked about something called the "Steamkini" in which my fiendish little mind ran away with. I produced concept drawings which are posted in my gallery and now have three volunteers to model them.

So guess what I have spent a lot of time working on?

For my part I was going to simply show up at the Beach party in my Steampunk Divesuit, but one of the ladies at the Brass Goggles suggested the men have steamkinis as well. By this point you should know what I came up with.

If Steampunk and bikini make a Steamkini, then steampunk and speedo make Steamo. Not that it stopped there... we are now up to Steamudas.

Naturally I have volunteered to make and model the Steamo.

You will be hearing more about this I assure you.

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I had peace today, and it was good. I wish this day can go on all year long, but that isn't very realistic. I do think this though. I can carry this peace with me, even when the circumtances are not condusive to that fact.

Besides.... I got the Discovery Channel Shark Week Collection as a gift and how can one be in a crappy mood when watching Kari Byron in a bikini...

Merry Christmas!

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I am not so much bah humbug, but Blah-humbug. I love this time of year. For me it is the season of rebirth but right now I am kind of pissed I woke up this morning.

I don't care how you celebrate, CELEBRATE DAMNIT! I don't want to be the only angry miserble person this night.

So here is my poem I wrote.

I am the drummer in the band.
I am the goalie on ice.
I am the TIE Pilot in the Empire.
I may not be the center of attention, but when...
I am.
I am spectacular!

]]> ~BuzzRyan1963 http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/21845027/ http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/21845027/ Sat, 06 Dec 2008 09:26:26 PST
At the last meeting I mentioned setting up a message board so we can share the wealth, and here is the link. It is a work in progress. This way we have freed up the restrictions of belonging to Live Journal, Myspace, Facebook, et. al.

[link]

Everyone from the area is invited to participate. I know there is a group in St. Augustine and a wonderfully active pressence in Gainesville.

My Best,

Buzz Ryan

]]> ~BuzzRyan1963 http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/21751351/ http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/21751351/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 15:24:02 PST
In what I hope proved to be a bountiful holiday weekend for all, I invite all to the next, the second at that, meeting of the Cowford Steampunk Society meeting two weeks hence.



This event will take place December 13th, from noon until 2:00 PM at the Pablo Creek Library meeting room.



This month I have small gifts for all who attend and we will discuss future events and have a show and tell.



Afterwards we will retreat to the Brass Bustle for fine eats.

Any Quetions please contact me at ti_010@yahoo.com .



My best,



Buzz Ryan

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Or at least in a coma waiting to have the plug pulled on it.

Brad Pitt’s Homer in Space? Yeah it’s over.

From the bookshelves littered, in the polluted sense even, with alternative histories, hot chick vampire hunters, and film and television adaptations, to the small and big screens the science fiction that was space opera is gone.

Serenity was the final seizure of a once grand adventure. Star Trek: The Next Movie may be the first nail in the coffin. Personally I am pulling for it to be the respirator.

There is no science fiction, just speculative fiction. Mark my words, one day there will not even be that. You will find all of what we know nestled amongst the mainstream fiction, romance and mysteries which basically is all any of this stuff is anymore. This has already started. Science Fiction DVD’s are interspersed at Blockbuster in the action and horror genres.

It makes me want to swallow a flaming baseball bat when I hear a very well produced science fiction, erg, speculative fiction podcast spending more time talking about Prison Break because there are no other notable works out there.

The best there is right now is Battlestar Galactica and I think it sucks.

I sit around and wonder what would my crew and I do if we inherited a spaceship full of beer? What my life would be like on a moon base and working as much overtime as I do now, and having to repaint Warhammer 40K figures because it’s a pain to get more shipped up?

If I can come up with something like that why can’t the pros?

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I apologize in advance for taking the liberty to set the time and place, but alas too much discussion leads to too much dissention. I fear that it is a universal maxim that you can not accommodate everyone, but please know that I did the best I could to accommodate the most people.



Mark your calendars and set your mechano-cartographer into action for Saturday, November 8th, 2008 at the Pablo Creek Library, 13295 Beach Blvd Jacksonville (904-992-7101). Time of the room reservation is from Noon ‘til 2:00 pm.



For this event, regalia is not a necessity, personas are not required, and there is no parking for airships. Bring your garb, your props, and your pictures of your work if you desire. Bring your writings, your sketches, but most of all bring your geek and constructive ideas to build upon this foundation.



While not being a fan of tight formats, yet being versed in Roberts Rules of Order I have set a loose agenda for the meeting in order to maximize the time we have.



-Call to Order

-Introductions

-Discussion on the group format.

-Discussion of future events.

-Show and tell, lecture, workshop, what have you.

-Close.

-Possibly retreat to an establishment for a meal or tea.



I feel this should cover every thing for our first meeting, and future topics can be fleshed out in subsequent gatherings.



For any comments or queries please contact me at ti_010@yahoo.com



My best,



Vice-Admiral Rudolph Beggley



A.K.A. Buzz Ryan

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Oh mighty Valhalla of Geekdom, embrace me!!

EMBRACE ME!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

Costumes are done, plans are set, just need to wait and that my friends is the hardest part.

Buz

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This really got me to thinking more about something I have wanted to write about for a while. It’s just things that piss me off about the way I see the state of something wonderful.



Before my skeletons launch themselves out of the closet and start dancing around the stripper pole that is my life, let me say this. Fetish, and intercourse for me are mutually exclusive properties. I have done things of a sexual nature that was not sex. Often this has been done because it was fun and seemed like a good idea at the time or as a mechanism for me to please myself, when I am alone, with myself.



It was a choice on my part to have exclusive sexual contact with one person, and not a fanatical dictate handed down but my supposed moral superiors. It’s a mark of the species when we can rationally make this choice, with thought and intellect. I don’t think it is a wrong thing to not be confined to the parameters that I choose, and I encourage everyone to revel in their choice.



If I like, and at sometimes crave desperately, to share acts of extra bizarreness then that doesn’t make me or anyone else a freak unless these acts are done with out consent, or done with someone ore something that can not make an informed decision about it, then that makes me or anyone else a criminal. (Minors and animals. Sorry, a sheep or a donkey can’t give proper consent.)



Sex often is about love, but mostly about trust and sharing. I was in the military for 21 years and it was all about killing, and at its most basic level reducing the population. Sex is about increasing it and continuing the fight for survival. Why is it alright to have a video game that graphically depicts bloody carnage, yet if something that came out with full frontal it would cause an up roar of unheard of proportions?



I figure it comes down to the old axiom, “It is easier to destroy, than to create.”



What the fuck is wrong with us when we treat sex as dirty or as taboo? There is something wrong when the porn industry a couple years ago out grossed mainstream Hollywood in sales. There are a whole lot of people out there that are into it, but not talking about it. I know from frequent personal experience that there is more to sex that the mechanical procedures. I know the heart gets wrapped up, hence the phrase “Love Making”, and a broken heart is the hardest thing to get over. But that is a matter for the individuals involved, and not preconceived notions handed down my some defining authority. Because I have to, and often do feel for my partner, is part of my decision to be monogamous.



I didn’t make the choice to be heterosexual. I don’t think gays of either sex made that choice either. For me my sexuality is part of who I am, and I think at our cores, part of who we all are. I love Love in any incarnation that there is. That is why it pisses me off and to think it is incredibly crass, I am going to lose Man Points for this I am sure, to suggest that someone has sex with someone of the same sex if that isn’t their thing. Yep, guys quit asking your lady to have lesbian trysts if you aren’t willing to take one for the team. So do me a favor, unless it’s her idea, and knock the shit off! It’s embarrassing.



Girls, you’re not of the hook either. If you aren’t in the mood do not suggest that a guy do himself, and then ask to watch…. That is just wrong. If you aren’t in the mood and I suggest that is what I am going to do and would you like to watch, that’s different. We are not Playstaions!



We should all just love ourselves for who we are. We should all just love each other for who they are. All I am saying is to defy the societal norm, and accept sex as something great, something personal and absolutely individualistic gift that happens between two, or more if that is the way you want it, people that is consensual for all parties involved.



I read my news on Foxnew.com because I quite frankly have conservative leanings, but the thing I find quite shameful and can be said for aspects of conservatism in general, is that everything involving sex between two consensual adults is a scandal. I want my politicians and other leaders hammered for the misuse of the public trust and finances, and not who they choose to do a natural act with. I want to see them screwed for not doing their jobs in our best interest, and not because the got some on the side. In a few of these case I would have owned up to it and said, “Hell yes! Did... ]]> ~BuzzRyan1963 http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/19258526/ http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/19258526/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 16:29:42 PDT
I was 2 and a half miles into a three mile run when I ran upon a motorcycle policeman hiding behind a tree and yelled at him to clock me. So I sped up as much as I could and he clocked me at 12 miles and hour.

I have joined fellow members of the 501st Imperial Legion to form a cycling team that is doing a 100 mile ride for the American Diabetes Association on February 22, 2009. This is a fundraiser with a goal of $150.00.

I’ve written the next paragraph over and over with no small measure of introspection.

I swore I wasn’t ever going to get involved in something like this after failed the Team in Training last year. Then again maybe this is why the stars aligned to give me another chance to do something decent. I don’t mind telling you the fear of screwing up again really scares the hell out of me. My fears are nothing compared to the misery the victims of diabetes have to deal with. I see it everyday on my own home.

I mentioned this is a fundraiser, and donations can be made to either to my team, or myself with the links are below and I made the first contribution. There is the opportunity to join us or volunteer in February to be part of a support team.

This is my personal page. Umm, when you see the participants name is Jonathan Ryan, that’s me. Only the precious things in life get the J-word

[link]ersonal&fr_id=5500&x=4274621

This is my team, The 501st Blasters, Page.

[link]

As and added bonus, anyone donating $10.00 or more I will mail you an autographed 8X10 of your choice out of my modeling portfolio. I apologize because I know that is egomaniacal but it is the only thing I have to offer! Most of you live to far away for me to come and fix your houses!

My best to all of you,

Buzz

]]> ~BuzzRyan1963 http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/19215317/ http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/19215317/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 08:23:31 PDT
Well if things happen for the bad I figure they happen for the good also. I know I have said often in the past that the best way out of a funk is to go into action. After the rotator cuff incident and the continuing deterioration of my knees, I had pretty much written off ever being active again. Still… a couple of nagging thoughts prevail.

One is it is that time of year where I get to teach my annual water survival class and this year I am continuing with the theme of “It is your responsibility to save your own ass.” I believe this. In the end it’s up to you if you choose to live or die.

The other thing is after much dallying I finally joined the 300DC costume group. I will be a Spartan! It’s funny though. So far all I have posted is, “Hi! I’m Buzz!” I keep wanting to write about all my plans to transform myself from a fat old man, into a ripped old man but it seems to me action is the key. So into action I have gone. That and teaching myself how to play drums.

I quit smoking cigarettes a month ago. I will admit to partaking in a few cigars though, because… well because.

I started running also. I know I mentioned the deteriorating knees, but when you dream that you are running it is kind of hard not to dig out your Nikes out of the back of the closet and let you feet fly. So with much pain and biting of bullets I did it. Plus I signed up for the Celebration 5K. Two years ago that was the first 5-kilometer race I ever ran, and no matter what shape I am in I make sure I run in it.

I know a major part of my psyche is the need to belong to a group. For 21 years I had that then I retired from the Navy. Some of my greatest moments of joy have come from belonging to groups like the 501st, where we do multiple charitable events, the Omega Wing, TIE Pilot enthusiasts extraordinaire and many other online groups of like-interested geeks. I completely revel in the brilliance in that creativity and the selfless sharing of imagination, dreams, knowledge,and deeds.

But in my core I have to run. The only times I successfully managed to stay off cigarettes has been when I was running. I quit for over a year to prepare myself for Army Airborne School and after that, I started smoking again. I quit on and off many times since then but it has only been the last couple of years I have been trying to because I really need to instead of some other goal. But there is also that sense of community that I lack when I am not wonderfully entrenched in the good, very good, company of my fellow geek, and that is another reason I go and run these races that I shouldn’t.

Because you get to meet these forces of nature called Brandy! I have to tell you it was starting off to be one of those days where I was just going to show up and run my race the best I could and go. Then out of nowhere I bump into Brandy.

She is the reason I ran as fast as I did. I wasn’t in this mood to push myself, but for some reason this bouncy, funny, intelligent and effervescent visage of athletic beauty let a fat old man hang out with her! The entire encounter allowed me to share what knowledge I have about how these things are organized, and first hand knowledge about how not to screw your self up before, during, and after a race. It felt good, really good to be able to share this with a stranger and have it well received.

So in my head this is how it went. We ran the race together. Okay at first I set the pace a little higher than I should have because my Man Gene kicked in and I had to look all studley in the face of Brandy’s beatific athleticism. Truth be told now I was dying, and she was keeping up. A couple of times had to stop running along the way but kept moving forward. I swear if it weren’t for her I would have taken an hour to finish the race. She kept me motivated. I helped her, she helped me. We were undeclared teammates and we were going to get each other through this self-inflicted trial. And we did! In 30 minutes an 20 seconds!

Afterwards we hung out, I got to explain, with encouragement, the basic workings of an Ion Engine, and actually said, “This is the beginning of a beautiful friendship.” Bogey would have been proud.

It was an awesome day! It was awesome companionship! I can’t wait for the next race!

I re-learned something here. Alone we may be able to achieve much. But it is only by doing with others that we can achieve great things

Thank you Brandy for letting me learn that again.

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It didn’t help that JoAnn Fabrics had a big sale on patterns.

I was working on my long stalled Nemo-esque diving suit, which required looking up goodies on the internet. It’s rather irritating that so much attention is given to airships! Don’t get me wrong… I love airships, but if you are going to have a ride, why a bag of gas when you can troll in an armored clad submersible!

Karen sent me a badass link for a gentle that made steampunk Star Wars action figures! It so rocks! Star Wars being the wondrous mythology it has developed into, used to be the lens I would watch the world with, but now I am beginning to see the world through brass goggles. I am sketching out a steampunk TIE Fighter. Yeah… I know… I went off on airships in a previous paragraph.

If anyone out there knows of a steampunk group in Florida let me know!!!! Be they costumers, craftsmen, or visionaries, anyone that has regular meetings! I have developed a reputation at work for being a mad scientist, for reasons deserving a blog unto itself, as of late and would love to revel in the fellowship of my contemporaries.

So I was trying to think of a way to describe Steampunk to a friend of mine and this popped out of my head. I said, “It’s about applying a late 19th century veneer over our modern world. Not so much recreating the time period, because quite frankly if I had to live by the mores as laid down by the Bronte sisters, and Jane Austin I would even more frankly tear my skull out.” I am finding that deviantart.com is the trove, a vast effing trove of Steampunk wardrobe references! I was thinking about this the other day when I was riding my ritualistic 35 mile trek along the coast. I really want to get a penny-farthing bicycle and ride it in my steampunk regalia from last year along with a leather pack for picnic supplies and have lunch on the beach at my return waypoint.

I was listening to a podcast the other day and the commentator described “fetish” as “anything that you give more attention to than it really deserves.”

Anyways, as I was looking for references on Victorian diving systems when I found this adult erotica site. I am surprised at my own fixation with this underwater fetish group. There were files upon files, pictures upon pictures, movies upon movies of men and women underwater wearing anything from…well nothing... to big brass commercial dive suits. Guess which end of the spectrum you are going to find me? After hours of heavy breathing and sweaty palms, I have most decidedly developed an unnatural fixation on women in masks, fins, and snorkels. I now have pic after pic of bikinied clad snorkellers. Propriety is keeping me from going deeper into this matter; suffice it to say, I really do think scuba fins are sexier than heels. I wonder how flippers would look with a black cocktail dress?

I always knew I was a bit of an aquaphile; it’s kind of refreshing to know that I am not too old to land a new fetish!

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Not going to go on about my house getting struck by lightning.



Not going to go off about my health insurance company actually hires another company to investigate wither or not someone else was responsible for my accident.



Won’t wonder why I don’t feel old now that my baby girl has graduated High School.



Won’t be going into how in love I am with audio dramas and geeky podcast.



Won’t wax poetic about a beautiful weekend I spent with a special friend, her beautiful family, and wonderful friends.



Won’t go into marching in the parade at Disney Hollywood during the opening of Star Wars Weekends.



No what I want to talk about is Cataclysmo and the Time Boys.



Yes, despite high gas prices, impending recession, reduced disposable income, and the fabric of our society being torn by extreme partisan politics (My word to the presidential candidates, “Grow the fuck up!” I have been fixated on a web series called Cataclysmo and the Time Boys. It rocks! You would expect it to be cheesy but it’s not! It delivers! We are talking big budget production values for something at least one-percent of the cost. Please, I invite you to check it out! [link]



I am not sure of the search criteria I was using on Youtube when I came across episode 13 of 24, but after that I had to go back to the beginning and watch them all. OMG this is the funniest stuff I have seen in a while! You guys know me. I am not a big fan of comedies. Hell I am not a big fan of comedy, so it may shock you that I loved this! Great care obviously had gone into the script before filming ever began. I guess when you only tell your tale five-minutes at a time then your continuity has to be tight, and I say “Rock On Dammit!” It’s what keeps CaTB awesome ep after ep!



The story is pretty straight forward. The future sucks. It’s ruled by apes, and two freedom fighters from said future come back in time to save the world, meet a girl, defeat the mad-scientist, and comedy ensues. This is a very simplistic, but trust me… this is anything but.



There are two stand out performances in this work. Jesse GrothOlson as Dr. Solomon Crankshaft, who by the way is the lead in Webserial’s Trunk: A Love Story, and Erin Sullivan as Sam the present day love interest. Not a simple the “villain” and the “damsel” because the former isn’t so villainous, and the latter is rather proactive. They made me believe in their characters, and in the end isn’t that what film making is all about? Suspending disbelief? In episodes 13, so far my fave, and 14 Mr. GrothOlson in the blink of an eye masterfully went from over the top villainy to a moment that was quite poignant and then back again with flawless execution. Ms. Sullivan emoted these developments with a quiet but noticeable shift reflecting the way I felt in those moments. I haven’t felt moved by that kind of subtlety since watching Marlon Brando in Don Juan DeMarco! Both can consider me their biggest fan right now.



Distributed by [link] CaTB falls under the production umbrella of New Renaissance Pictures, [link]

and if you read their mission statement then you can argue with me that the future of creative entertainment isn’t going to come from network or cable productions. My justification? Fox cancelled Firefly too soon, and the SCIFI Channel continues to spew out the same formulaic waste. In the end inventive and original productions are going to have to find original and inventive means of delivering the goods. I can’t be the only one seeing this!



New Renaissance Pictures has many wonderful works and they are all on Youtube or iTunes, for you to look at for free. DVD sales looks like they are beginning and I am going to buy CaTB as soon as I can. (They are currently taking pre-orders through PayPal, but I currently at war with PP so here’s hoping different options later.)



Truth be told the bullets at the beginning of this blog, were the blog. Lot ’s of woe-is-me kind of stuff followed by the life-isn’t- to-bad-after-all goodies. My daughters graduation and spending a great weekend with Karen and company and dressing up as a TIE Fighter pilot for the parade, are hands down the best things to happen in the last month, but I assure you when I needed some quiet time Cataclysmo and the Time Boys were right where I needed them to be at the right time. Please enjo... ]]> ~BuzzRyan1963 http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/18439144/ http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/18439144/ Wed, 21 May 2008 21:47:03 PDT


I write this on the cusp of the celebration of my birth. So I ask you dear reader to bear with me as I feel like a hobo on my own train of thought.



Traditionally the week before my birthday has been a rough one. This one isn’t any different. I wish I knew why but my Mom has told me I have always been like this. I’m trying to picture a pissed off one-year old. The fact that I can see it, is the sad thing. Hell, when we moved from New Mexico they say I was all manner of vile, and I was three.



So I have started preparing myself for 45, by telling people I am almost 50 when they ask how old I am. Guys my age get freaked out when I do this, and there can be considered some small measure of sadism in the fact I generally do this around guys my age. I think I’m doing this that maybe I’ll think I’m better looking at almost 50 than at 45. Then again 45 is the total lives of five cats! It’s not a bad thought, since I like cats better than dogs.



I am the oldest of all of my pals. I feel like I have to set an example of better living through geek. I’m kidding…. Seriously.



I have watched The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou a couple times in the last week. He has this line in it. “What happened to me? I used to be good you know? Will I ever get that back?” I feel that. It resonates like an echo in my skull. You know I have a Zissou uniform I’ve brought to every Dragon Con for the last three years and have yet to wear!

So I think my answers to Steve’s questioning is, “Life happened, I still am, and did I actually lose it?” It feels like it sometimes. It’s getting to be a pain in the ass to keep driving on you know? I force myself into doing things just to remind myself that this is why I have a heartbeat.



I keep thinking I should give you guys something. Something that sums up in a nutshell everything I have learned in the near half-century of life, but I haven’t learned shit. Some preconceptions change as they are challenged, while others are solidified and this gives a whole new texture to my mindscape. In lieu of wisdom write out an I.O.U. for flowers or puppies or something. I keep getting asked what I want and all I can think of is lawyers, guns, and money. God I loved Warren Zevon, but seriously lawyers, guns, and money!



This is the great thing. All I really want I have. Great children, good friends, and pretty bizarre hobbies. Seriously I can’t see how to top that. Well there is this espresso machine….



At this age I will have out lived my father. Not that that is a really great thing. I would prefer to have kept the Gent around. But the final score in the game of life is death, and I have surpassed that of my dad. In a few years I’ll have my grandfather beat. Yeah… we die early my kinfolk. That bothers me in a way. I spend too much time wondering if this birthday is my last. Will I see my grandchildren? Will I see their children colonize space? Will I see their children live adventures I have only dreamed of? Will the Rolling Stones still be touring then?



I thank you all!



Celebrate this day with me!

Be good to yourselves.

Love each other.

Have lots of sex.

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It's like I am bound, gagged and beaten and not in the fun way.

Work. Family. Friends. Life is the three legged stool. Right now work is kicking out the other two legs. I went to call the kids mother the other day and the office answered the phone. The mechanics I work with have become my social circle.

My utilities, gas and groceries have eaten beyond my disposable income and I wonder if I can support my family until the economic pendulum swings the other way.

I really need to find some play time somewhere. Not sure how much longer this is going to go on.

Naybe this entire journal is a result of this time of year. Mindless sulking is inherent in late May but this year it seems a little more painful

]]> ~BuzzRyan1963 http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/16672590/ http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/16672590/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 10:36:42 PST
Since Christmas when my kids gave me a sketchbook from Hot Topic, I have been going nuts. My local comic book store cored me a lot of Blue Line Art supplies and I have been tinkering with comics and comic strips letting the world inside my head out.

modelling has slowed down a lot to but I have been writing down different types of shots I want to be involved in.

I have a fear that my brain is going to shut down on me and I will never be able to pick back up.

]]> ~BuzzRyan1963 http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/16416515/ http://BuzzRyan1963.deviantart.com/journal/16416515/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 11:53:02 PST
Well common courtesy for starters. I am sorry I have yet to reply to the many "Thank You's" I have recieved. You are welcome and i swear I will reply in a manner that is deserving of the time you took to leave a message.

I've been a member of DeviantArt for a while now and have yet to submit anything. I keep meaning to fix that but just haven't done it. I guess mostly because I feel a bit out classed. You can look at my favorites and who some of my frineds are and figure out what I am in to but it's not a statement of what I can do artisticly.

What I have done in the past is mostly costuming. I am a rabid science fiction geek and an avid convention goer. I love make beleive and role playing. My guess is that is one reason at age 44 I can still act like a kid.

Besides that I draw my own little cartoons, comic strips, and world building. Recently I started modeling and am haveing a grand time with that.

I am going to submit some of my work one day and I hope that you enjoy it.

Buzz

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