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                <title>Tis' the season</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 02 Dec 2009 22:29:39 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Its already frickin' December. Time sure goes by fast. It might actually snow Friday and that's a fucking rare sight to see. The weather is awesome but work is starting to suck a little. From meth head to snobby rich people coming in the store wanting their booze. Secondly the store I work at sells the second most amount of crown royal in the chain and the chain is the highest selling of crown in North America. So my store sells 2nd in the US I figured that out after stacking almost 700 cases of it fuckin' a. I drink for the most part scotch and beer and nothing more. Due to the price of the beer I like (usually german imports, Guinness, stouts, imperial stouts and russian imperial stouts) I usually don't buy them too often and don't drink much outside of Christmas, New Years, and my birthday parties (lol I did so many keg stands but the night ended very WELL for me). Just recently started learning about the modes in music in order to come up with some licks with my guitarist to start putting together songs, and we may very well be getting in on some jam sessions in an actual recording studio thanks to a friend of his which is pretty cool. Life's been pretty good so far. It may not have started out that great (well outside of Vegas that was fucking awesome way to start my new year seeing that we all might as well be dunk because politically we are gonna get fucked in the butt side ways no lube)but at least its ending on a lighter note. I have changed so much in so little time my views have gone in the polar opposite direction and I've become more tolerant of people by tolerate I completely ignore people. I've also become more social inside and outside my friends. And much more self improvement this year than the last. Physically, mentally, (musically) etc. It has been a good year. Many lessons learned and hopefully greater things to come. Cheers<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Halloween Party</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 01 Nov 2009 06:39:15 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ This Halloween wasn't too bad partied at a friends house chatted with people, drank scotch as people played beer pong. I actually dressed up this year first time since I was 8. I dressed up as Kyle from South Park everybody got a kick out of it. I didn't get to stay too long  but it was still lots of fun. Gotta clean up house before band practice. Hopefully they are not too hung over lol.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>" My Soubrette " by Oomph</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 28 Oct 2009 18:47:12 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ You can do what you want - I will never forget you<br />You can do what you want - I will always beget you - again<br />You can do what you want - I will never forget my soubrette<br />You can do what you want - I will never forget you<br /><br />Time to put your love back in your hands<br />Time to give your love a second chance<br /><br />You can be what you want - I will never ignore you<br />You can be what you want - I will always adore you - again<br />You can be what you want - I will never ignore my sweet whore<br />You can be what you want - I will never ignore you<br /><br />Time to put your love back in your hands<br />Time to give your love a fucking sense<br /><br />You give me reason to live<br />You give me reason to realize<br />You give me reason to live<br />You give me reason to realize<br /><br />You can say what you want - I will never forget you<br />You can say what you want - I will always beset you - again<br />You can say what you want - I was fucking upset - your kismet<br />You can say what you want - I will never forget you<br /><br />Time to put your love back in your hands<br />Time to raise in for the final dance<br />Time to put your love between your thighs<br />(Masturbate! Yeah! Motherfuck you!)<br />Time to face the fact - you're cold as ice<br />(Masturbate! Yeah! Motherfuck you!)<br /><br />You give me reason to live<br />You give me reason to realize<br />You give me reason to live<br />You give me reason to realize<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>The rumor is</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 21 Oct 2009 20:27:55 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Rammstein might be touring the states again. If so I'm psyched.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Soul Searching</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 19 Oct 2009 21:18:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ To me it feels that the last eight years have gone by so fast. I remember when the incident of 9/11 happened I was in geometry when they announced it. It feels as if time is going by so fast. This year I lost three friends and two relatives ( my aunt then my grandmother). Now more than ever I started thinking more so (seriously) about where I'm going in life and what I really want. I've actually enjoyed  being single, being so used to it I guess its inevitable lol, I've found it comfortable I guess you could say. I got into a band, worked one quite a few songs/song ideas and felt comfortable and somewhat proud of myself. I've built long lasting relations with my band members something that I will always cherish. And quite frankly I have never been so at ease in my life. I've become more accepting of people, more than I could have thought. And the anger and sadness has just lifted. Though I feel something missing form time to time. I tend to forget about it and the question still seems to find its way back. I have made many friends, and many more through drunken nights, and seen such diversity you wouldn't seen growing up around a bunch of old white people lol. College has been my only answer so far, but that emptiness is still there. Its not love I can say that for sure. I believe it may be that I feel I haven't done enough in my life at this point. To go out and see the world a bit more so. I've been so locked up in this hell hole they call Beaumont, Texas for over 23 years. And in the end only college is in my way. With my mother and fathers health as it is there's not going to be much support left. Its rough going to school and working full time. But I'll get out and look forward to the freedom that awaits. God knows I've been anxious about it. Tonight will be a sober night chilling with an old friend of mine and reminiscing and seeing the future ahead. There has been too much sorrow over the years, and things have gotten much better. I guess I feel that I am alone but in reality there are friends of mine doing the same thing. I just tend to take things father than needed. Life is short, especially when you're young. Live it to your fullest and be wary  for not all things that you do will bring forth something good, some of the consequences can cost you dearly. Be happy the sun rose and set. And another day has passed, allowing you to grasp the life you have. I take it for granted more often than not. I wish peace upon my friends and even to those that have moved on.<br /><br />While sleeping deeply<br />Inside our beds<br />The sun slowly rises<br />With the color orange glowing red<br />Another opportunity <br />To live yet again<br />To wake to sleepy eyes<br />Just wanting to go back in<br />The morning sun<br />Gives birth to a new day<br />Once again<br />So we can work and play<br />And at the end<br />When the sun sets<br />We all fall asleep <br />Only to forget<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Got it</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 19 Oct 2009 20:22:51 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have Rammstein's new album "Liebe ist fur alle da". It is fucking awesome.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Another night of partying</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 12 Oct 2009 11:31:26 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Yesterday was just all kinds of crazy. My friends mom s funeral that I wasn't aware about and the party after wards. Well of course I brought my magical bag of liquor. Drank scotch and served everyone my own personal mixed drink. Rusty nails is the only thing you can make with Drambuie. One of the girls told me its the kind of mixed drink that would make her clothes "magically" come off. I just took it as a compliment to the drink. Score. Its a hint of honey , orange, and butterscotch and smooth and a refreshing after taste. I gave 4 servings  (equals about 12 drinks{its all liquor etc. the ice})to my friend Julio whose mom died. It was a good night I was pretty drunk and ended up rambling about politics at Waffle House quite vulgarly and loud. I was lucky that no state troopers were there they usually are. I ranted about both sides and how the fuck that President Obama is such hot shit. He's no better and maybe even worse than the last president. We'll print money we can't pay for give money away to organizations and tax the fuck out of the people. Great going asshole, and thanks for bringing back the death tax, we don't just get taxed for being alive anymore, even when we die etc. our family has to deal with it. Left right it doesn't matter, it seems that the majority are merely puppets to someone bigger. Politics just sucks. But after leaving waffle house I was back to just being happy drunk and playing with my lead guitarist the new song we came up with. Starting off with a melody and going into a march style metal riff. Its fucking badass. We'll be working on it later in the week. Its looking very promising and we have a keyboardist who can play all kinds of classical pieces to put something else behind it probably violin or cello. But yeah alcohol has been quite a friend to me as of late. And I haven't had any hangovers. lol Well off to the liquor store, to work that is. wah wah wah.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>"Song For Whoever" by Oomph</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 07 Oct 2009 07:13:27 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey man! What's Up?<br />What the fuck is wrong with your mind?<br />My God! You suck!<br />You're so fucking stupid and blind<br />You Smile - you lie<br />You're so motherfucking sublime<br />Fuck you! Goodbye!<br />'Cause you're fucking stealing my time<br /><br />First you explore and you wanna taste<br />Then you exploit and you're laying waste<br />While you destroy and you don't repair<br />You cannot open your mind<br />You always judge while you can't forgive<br />You only take but you never give<br />You sit and wait on your liars' chair<br />You cannot open your mind<br /><br />Pain in your head now - you toss and turn in your bed now<br />Pain in your head now - if only you could forget now<br />Pain in your head now - and you deserve what you get now<br />Pain in your head now - you only wish you were dead now<br /><br />Hey man! Shut up!<br />'Cause I've had enough of your lies<br />What should that fuck?<br />You're a fucking creep in my eyes<br />You still deny - I'm so fucking sick of your kind<br />Fuck off and die!<br />You can fucking kiss my behind<br /><br />First you explore and you wanna taste<br />Then you exploit and you're laying waste<br />While you destroy and you don't repair<br />You cannot open your mind<br />You always judge while you can't forgive<br />You only take but you never give<br />You sit and wait on your liars chair<br />You cannot open your mind<br /><br />Pain in your head now - you toss and turn in your bed now<br />Pain in your head now - if only you could forget now<br />Pain in your head now - and you deserve what you get now<br />Pain in your head now - you only wish you were dead now<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>In Reflection</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 04 Oct 2009 21:33:28 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ A lot has happened in the last 5 years. Much has changed and no matter what time waits for no one. We all live our lives to the best of our abilities at the time. I have hurt people, I have been hurt. But beyond that everything is a life lesson. Not everything goes as planned and even saying that I still have a problem applying it when shit goes haywire. One must move on and go forward and progress. But I still find a part of myself wanting to make amends with those I have hurt or pushed. Life my friends is short live well and grab life by the balls or whatever you have lol. I would like to see my friends (and even those who I were very close to but not recently) succeed in life. That is that. Good night my friends<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Smooth Sailing</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 23 Sep 2009 09:43:50 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Everything is pretty much smooth sailing at the moment. Music, school, work, social life, and my personal time. I've never felt so free from obstructions that I have had in the past. Whether it be a relationship or whatever. What is it to have something like that only with fear of loosing it. I find freedom and understanding on my own, by myself, etc. To understand myself better and set goals for myself.I have become more independent in certain aspects of my life that I wasn't before. And I've never felt so free.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Over time and through all the obstacles</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 23 Jul 2009 11:08:19 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have found peace within myself in a way I had never had before. I am healthier and fit as ever while ironically working at a liquor store (with everything you could possibly imagine from beer, wine, and finer foods{even haggis}). I have saved up so much money in just a month and a half almost $700 while paying car note, car insurance, and a cell phone bill while still having some spending money. It crazy but so feasible. In the long run eating healthier, spending a lot less money and saving much more. I am suppose to go to Ireland and Scotland with my mom but she may not be able to go due to being in ICU for three days and insurance only wants to cover two. A day in ICU costs about $10,000. SO that takes a chunk out of her wallet. But worst case scenario we go the next year my car will be paid off my credit will be good and things are just getting better. I made an A in my last History course in college my GPA is up. Seriously I've never felt so good just by myself doing what is necessary and pushing through. My beliefs have changed over the years I and  I have matured a little more so. Much more calm, collective, and observant than I once was. The things and people I see are much more clear.  On another note I've finally joined a solid metal (though we play jazz, and blues for fun) band. We've been doing stuff for a while a few recordings then and there. The the guitarists and drummer really dig my bass lines really heavy yet at times melodic. Over so much time we've gotten so tight we fit right in with each other musically speaking. Life has been just grander than ever.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Now</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 11 Apr 2009 10:56:18 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am not the same as I once was a few months ago. I have grown tired both mentally and physically. I've hit a moment in time where everything just clicked in my head and instead of unnecessary emotion dictating my actions I began to think of more reasonable course of actions. This world we live in is chaotic and emotions are so unstable to dwell to deep into any of them so quickly is a self inflicting pain to come.Relationships are unnecessary at this point in my life. Yeah they can teach you things, but I believe I have learned enough.I need to focus upon MY goals and MY dreams. No matter what has happened tin the past or what hatred I may bare. I have one goal, to better myself and live a refreshing rest of my life. And to those with vengeful thoughts. Revenge is best served by living well. But I would more so like to leave  everything I had relationship wise behind and start over from scratch. First thing first comes my education. Once I move up in the world I can start looking into those of equal stature, instead of what I have dealt with. It is unnecessary  and for the most part bullshit. Everybody is out for themselves and are out to take. So why bother. Some people don't grow up so even after college I am not expecting anything. It would be nice but if I'm alone I'm alone. On the bright side I can go anywhere without issues. I've always wanted to go to Ireland, Scotland, and Germany. Yeah that would be nice.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>"Alles nur Lüge" by Megaherz</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 03 Mar 2009 06:09:45 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Wir waren mal groÃ<br />Hatten jede Menge PlÃ¤ne<br />Ich weiÃ nicht warum<br />PlÃ¶tzlich war es rum<br />und wir zeigten uns<br />nur noch die ZÃ¤hne<br />Es ist das alte Spiel<br />Aus Lust wird Frust<br />und Eifersucht<br />macht eh alles kaputt<br />Statt drÃ¼ber zu reden<br />was einen frustriert<br />sagt man nur das Falsche<br />und wird ausradiert<br /><br />Hab ich dich jemals denn betrogen?<br />Wollte nur fair sein, ungelogen<br />Du hast gesagt, dass du mich liebst<br />Und jetzt?<br />Warum?<br /><br />Why are you gone?<br />War alles nur LÃ¼ge?<br />Why are you gone away?<br />GroÃe GefÃ¼hle<br />Why are you gone?<br />Warum?<br />Why did you lie to me?<br /><br />Ich hab diesmal geglaubt<br />Es wÃ¤re anders<br />Es kÃ¶nnte funktionieren<br />Ich war wie gelÃ¤hmt<br />als du sagtest wir zwei<br />wÃ¼rden nicht mehr harmonieren<br />Per Handy ausgeklickt<br />Kein Ton, kein Wort<br />Ich bin ausgetickt<br />Hast du's nie bereut?<br />VÃ¶llig kalt stehst du vor mir<br />und hinter dir Â dein neuer Typ<br /><br />Ich wÃ¼nschte, ich hÃ¤tt' dich mal betrogen<br />Und es wÃ¤r' alles aufgeflogen<br />Dann wÃ¼sst' ich wenigstens den Grund<br />Fick dich!<br />Warum?<br /><br />Why are you gone?<br />War alles nur LÃ¼ge?<br />Why are you gone away?<br />GroÃe GefÃ¼hle<br />Why are you gone?<br />Sag mir warum<br />Why did you lie to me?<br /><br />Why are you gone?<br />War alles nur LÃ¼ge?<br />Why are you gone away?<br />Spielst hier die KÃ¼hle<br />Why are you gone?<br />Sag mir warum<br />Why did you lie to me?<br /><br />Kannst du mir noch in die Augen sehen<br />Wo ist das Feuer, das ich vermiss<br />Soll es so jetzt auseinandergehen<br />dann will ich, dass du dich<br />fÃ¼r immer, fÃ¼r immer verpisst!<br />Warum?<br /><br />Why are you gone?<br />Alles nur LÃ¼ge!<br />Why are you gone away?<br />Von wegen groÃe GefÃ¼hle<br />Why are you gone?<br />Spiel ruhig die KÃ¼hle<br />Why did you lie to me?<br />Es interessiert mich nicht mehr<br />________________________________<br />Once we were great<br />Had lots of plans<br />I don't know why<br />Suddenly it was over<br />and to each other<br />we only bore our teeth<br />It's the old game<br />Lust turns to frustration<br />and jealously<br />destroys everything anyway<br />Instead of talking about<br />what frustrates you<br />you just say the wrong thing<br />and are erased<br /><br />Did I ever cheat on you?<br />I just wanted to be fair, honestly<br />You said you loved me,<br />And now?<br />Why?<br /><br />Why are you gone?<br />Was it all just a lie?<br />Why are you gone away?<br />Deep feelings<br />Why are you gone?<br />Why?<br />Why did you lie to me?<br /><br />This time I believed<br />Iit would be different<br />It could work<br />I was paralyzed<br />when you told me the two of us<br />were no longer in sync<br />Clicked out over the phone<br />No sound, no word<br />I went out of my mind<br />Didn't you ever regret it?<br />Absolutely cold, you stand before me<br />and behind you Â your new guy<br /><br />I wish I had cheated on you<br />and had gotten busted<br />At least then, I would know the reason<br />Fuck you!<br />Why?<br /><br />Why are you gone?<br />Was it all just a lie?<br />Why are you gone away?<br />Deep feelings<br />Why are you gone?<br />Tell me why<br />Why did you lie to me?<br /><br />Why are you gone?<br />Was it all just a lie?<br />Why are you gone away?<br />Acting cold<br />Why are you gone?<br />Tell me why<br />Why did you lie to me?<br /><br />Can you still look me in the eye<br />Where is the fire that I long for<br />If it's going to end like this<br />then I want you to<br />piss off now and forever!<br />Why?<br /><br />Why are you gone?<br />All just a lie!<br />Why are you gone away?<br />Deep feelings my ass<br />Why are you gone?<br />Just keep acting cold<br />Why did you lie to me?<br />I don't care any more<br />_________________________<br />This song is fucking awesome lol. I could relate to this about 2 years ago. What a bitch. Better things have come my way.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Update</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 27 Jan 2009 07:37:57 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well life is going well for the most part I'm doing well in school and I'm leaving my current job to go work at a large chain liquor store (hey it was inevitable XD, discounts ftw) Along with that I have been taking much better care of my health and backed off smoking as much as I used to (and frankly I smoke primarily clove cigarettes not much nicotine there so it it is a little to quit)and I haven't been drinking as much as I used to. yeah I do it when we party, I'll maybe have a beer but do more than that, except for Tony's Birthday party XD Doug handed me a margarita that was heavily tequila, and it kicked my ass. Now I'm wanting to get a little more in shape since I've been putting some weight on now it would be a good time to start. Once I hit a certain weight I'm going to start training with a friend for boxing and jujitsu. And finally I am in a metal band.We have some real good riffs  going and have a lot of potential and with connections we can get a little show at a bar or what not. We have been working on quite a few ideas, and no I am working on lyrics and bass lines to boot. So I will be writing more poetry to find what I'm looking for, and of course posting it here. *sigh of relief* Out of all the bullshit in life man life sure is a trip. It's nice to see the brighter side of it for once.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Las Vegas Is The Place To Be</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 11 Jan 2009 07:09:48 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It was a hell of a time. A whole lot of drinking and some gambling on the side. Mostly what I would do is play the penny machines and bet 1 credit (a penny) and get complimentary drinks for a few hours XD. Tony and I went to a few shows. Penn and Teller were badass.We took pictures and got their autographs. They were real nice guys. During the stay we did a shitload of walking and taking pics to bring back home. It was awesome. A lot of the people were nice and lots of free booze. Downtown Vegas was pretty sweet too. We saw where they hold the world poker tournaments and watched the light show on the under side of the roof  on the little strip. Cheap food too, steak and eggs for $3.99 not bad. And a hell of a saxophone player in the middle of the walkway. He was definitely hardcore. We were "high rolling" most of the time since we went with his grandmother and Tom (very wealthy and a business owner) so we saw the nicer side of Vegas. High roller parties with a few scantily clad women (very nice looking ones too except for one)it was just badass. The food was different for me. It was very upscale and classy to an extreme I've never seen/tasted before before. All you can eat crab legs not frozen but fresh and prebroken for easy access ^_^. The diversity was also a new one for me. All kinds of people from all around the world came there. I could tell by the many different languages being spoken. I could hear Chinese, Vietnamese, Japanese, a few other oriental languages I couldn't make out, Russian, Spanish, French, etc. It was pretty cool. The walking sucked after a while. But they had sit down bars everywhere so it was cool. They even had a Baileys shop XD. Oh and Tony took pictures of me sexually harassing the statues at Caesars Palace. XD It was awesome and I want to go back as asap. The mountains were also something new to me, and they were beautiful. It was a nice get away from Blowmont. Alot of sad shit happened when I came back, but man its hard to be sad when you just went to Las Vegas. Its the adult Disney World for people like me and its fucking awesome. I can walk around with two beers and my hand where ever I go.I guess its hard to get PI there unless you're just being stupid. We that's it for now. I might be going back the next two new years XD w00t. More parties to come.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Vegas Here I Come</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 29 Dec 2008 19:22:13 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm leaving with Tony for Vegas Tomorrow afternoon. I'm fucking psyched.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Holy Crap</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 18 Nov 2008 06:07:56 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Stahlhammer is coming to Austin Texas in May for the Thunder of Gods Festival II. That's going to be so friggin' awesome. ^_^ It'll be their first US concert. Mwhahahahahahahahahaha<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>As of late</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 11 Nov 2008 19:20:12 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Life's been great. I'll be flying to Las Vegas in late December. I'm in a band consisting of two guitarist (very talented) and a drummer(also very talented) and myself the bass and keyboard. There's much progression to be made but the first complete jam out where all were present went rather well. I myself was impressed, and that is very rare. Life's been pretty good. I just really want to get this semester over with.I can't wait for Vegas.Cheers<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>You know what's awesome</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 28 Oct 2008 21:20:35 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Kanon is awesome. I'm already hooked and I haven't seen too many episodes XD. I've been watching a lot more anime as of late. Getting back to what I used to do around my freshman year. I've watched Shuffle, Clannad, and seasons 1 &2 of Higurashi. I must say they're pretty bad ass. Higurashi was a trip the first season. I suggest you watch it its pretty interesting. "Higurashi no Naku Koro ni"<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Finally</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 28 Oct 2008 07:40:46 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have found something I have been looking for for quite some time n ow. I'm offically patr of a band that doesn't consists of me and one other person. Thank God. There's  2 guitarist, vocalist, drummer, and myself the bass player(bow chika bow bow) Oh yeah. We've jammed out a few times to certain riffs written to lyrics. Not bad at all. Even I like the style of the band and I'm somewhat nit picky myself.It's very heavy metal sounding but at teh same time its not just the same shit.(esp the bass lines I'm adding a bit myself  in that department).And by jamming out I'm starting to find my own unique style of playing. My friend and fellow musician says he see's  a mix of the American music I listen to and the german in the music I play and even a little spin off of my own. But it's friggin' bad ass. Hope things keep progressing as they have been. Maybe we'll get lucky <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/wink.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";-)" title=";-) (Wink)" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Las Vegas</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 19 Oct 2008 23:05:30 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Looks like I will be going to Las Vegas at the end of the year. It's going to be fucking awesome. It's Tony's 21st birthday so its going to be very interesting and i never really thought I'd ever go there. Well I'm out for now.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>" Heuchler" by Megaherz</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 01 Oct 2008 16:14:15 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Ich hab dich leider schon so oft gesehen<br />Wer dich nicht kennt, der glaubt ja,<br />ach wie schÃ¶n<br />Da ist doch endlich jemand,<br />der so denkt wie ich<br />und der mir in allem<br />ganz und gar beipflichtet<br />So glaubt man schnell,<br />du wÃ¤rst ein Freund, seist mit dabei<br />Wir trinken, lachen, singen noch<br />auf uns Zwei<br />Doch was heimlich hinter<br />deiner Fassade bricht<br />weiÃ keiner, denn was du denkst,<br />das sagst du nicht<br /><br />Heuchler Â du bist ein<br />Heuchler Â du bist ein<br />Heuchler Â du lachst uns allen ins Gesicht<br />Heuchler Â denn echte Freundschaft kennst du nicht<br /><br />Du schlieÃt dich stets der Meinung<br />anderer an<br />Du zeigst Betroffenheit, tust so,<br />als gehe es dich an<br />Du gehst in jedem Freundeskreis<br />mal ein mal aus<br />Wie ein Vampir saugst du<br />unser Vertrauen aus<br /><br />Tief im Innern freut es dich<br />Du lachst uns allen ins Gesicht<br />Echte Freunde kennst du nicht<br />denn irgendwann zeigt sich<br />dein wahres Ich<br /><br />Heuchler Â du bist ein<br />Heuchler<br />Heuchler Â du bist ein<br />Heuchler Â Heuchler<br />Heuchler Â du bist ein<br />Heuchler Â deine SprÃ¼che sind so falsch und dreist<br />Heuchler Â du gottverdammter<br />Heuchler Â deine Freundschaft ist<br />Scheinheiligkeit<br /><br />Scheinheiligkeit<br />Heuchler<br />Scheinheiligkeit<br /><br />Tief im Innern wurmt es dich<br />denn eigentlich bist du ein kleiner Wicht<br />Du hast kein Herz und kein Verstand<br />Nichts an dir ist aus erster Hand<br />Du bist so hÃ¤sslich und so dumm<br />Du denkst, es nimmt schon<br />keiner krumm<br />wenn du ein bisschen trickst und lÃ¼gst<br />und dich dabei nur selbst betrÃ¼gst<br /><br />Heuchler Â du gottverdamter<br />Heuchler<br />Heuchler Â du bist ein<br />Heuchler Â Heuchler<br />Heuchler Â du bist und bleibst ein verdammter<br />Heuchler Â du lachst uns allen ins Gesicht<br />Heuchler Â du gottverdammter<br />Heuchler Â ich hoffe, dass du daran erstickst!<br /><br />Translation:<br /><br />Sadly, I have seen you so often already<br />If someone doesn't know you, they think:<br />oh, how nice<br />Finally, there is someone<br />who thinks like I do<br />and who agrees with me<br />on everything completely<br />So, they are quick to believe<br />that you are a friend, you're on board<br />We drink, laugh, and sing<br />to the two of us<br />But what breaks in secret<br />behind your facade,<br />no one knows, because what you think,<br />you don't say<br /><br />Pretender Â you are a<br />Pretender Â you are a<br />Pretender Â you laugh in all our faces<br />Pretender Â because you don't know real friendship<br /><br />You always take on the<br />opinion of others<br />You look concerned,<br />you act you care<br />You join and leave every<br />circle of friends<br />Like a vampire, you suck<br />our trust dry<br /><br />Deep inside, you're happy about it<br />You laugh in all our faces<br />You don't know real friendship<br />because eventually, your<br />true self appears<br /><br />Pretender Â you are a<br />Pretender<br />Pretender Â you are a<br />Pretender Â Pretender<br />Pretender Â you are a<br />Pretender Â you words are so fake and brazen<br />Pretender Â you goddamned<br />Pretender Â your friendship is<br />hypocrisy<br /><br />Hypocrisy<br />Pretender<br />Hypocrisy<br /><br />Deep inside, it eats you up<br />because you're actually a little runt<br />You have no heart and no brains<br />Nothing about you is original<br />You are so ugly and so dumb<br />You think, no one will take it<br />the wrong way<br />if you trick and lie a little<br />while only deceiving yourself<br /><br />Pretender Â you goddamned<br />Pretender<br />Pretender Â you are a<br />Pretender Â Pretender<br />Pretender Â you are and will remain a goddamned<br />Pretender Â you laugh in all our faces<br />Pretender Â you goddamned<br />Pretender Â I hope it chokes you! <br /><br /><br /><br />Very bad ass song. I'm really liking this new Megaherz.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Alive and Well</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 23 Sep 2008 11:20:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well the storm is over and life has gotten back together, somewhat. I finally have a laptop so I am not stuck at home when I have work to do on the comp or just want to get online. Well I'm out for now. I have a bunch of school projects to catch up on.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Here comes the storm</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 29 Aug 2008 17:31:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Another Hurricane headed my way. Hoping it hits only because it will increase my jobs in construction greatly. I'll make tons of money and there will be a surplus of jobs.  *crosses fingers* I know its morbid  but I hate this place anyway, at least I'll make some serious money.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Work</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 24 Aug 2008 20:03:26 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well I will be leaving my current job shortly once the contract is signed and I will be remodeling houses and flipping them for profit with a few friends of mine. Its gonna bring in a hell of a lot of money. I will definitely enjoy the cash. Its going to be tough but things are looking promising on this first job. I'm also getting a gun soon. Oh joy. I'm going to be needing it though some of the job sites are should we say a bit dangerous.And surprisingly dangerous at that. It's going to be a hell of a trip.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Feels Good To Be 22</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 03 Aug 2008 22:25:23 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Time to change the age exciting isn't it. Time for a beer<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>The Party</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 02 Aug 2008 10:52:20 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Was fucking awesome. Theres still tons of beer, chips, and sausage s left over. I'm probably going to have another party tonight and on monday (my actual birthday). It was fucking cool as hell. Cheers for 22 years.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Silence of The Lambs</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 17 Jul 2008 22:13:55 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Never gets old. Mom just left for Europe. Its pretty boring around here. Recently made some new friends that just moved down here a few years ago from Michigan. They're pretty cool. They just recently had a kid. And for some odd reason smiles a lot when I'm around and stares at me. XD its so fucking funny. Cute kid though.  Just can't wait till my B day. Its going be a blast. I'm making up for last year. That and Apocalyptica is coming around the same time and I'm taking that whole week off. It's going to be awesome  .<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>What a day</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 14 Jul 2008 21:33:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ You ever have one of those days where so much shit was happening and you couldn't keep up? Well today was one of those days. Time to throw back a beer and get some rest, my mother leaves for Europe Wed. I'm going to spend some time with her before she leaves. She'll be gone for 40 days. Lucky.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>My Niece's B-Day Party</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 12 Jul 2008 16:16:06 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well today my niece Sarah turned 3 years old. I went to go to her little party and give her her gifts, she wasn't afraid of me and didn't cry, which she usually does she has this weird social problem from time to time. I spent a lot of time with her and my nephew Litter Johnny (Johnny the 3rd). Whether it was pushing them in the swing and playing with them in the little bouncy thing my brother bought for them. It was fun. I found myself attaching myself to two little kids. That and realizing how shitty other people are with raising their kids. All it took was 14 of them in the same room. My niece and nephew did pretty well. Most of the other kids were completely insane. My brother made a remark "Oh you can't take 14 kids all at once" I just gave him the fuck you look and he laughed. It was spending what little time I did with my brother, caught up on a few things yada yada. He's going through a lot of lawsuits on foreclosures. Driving him up the wall and all over Texas. But in the end he makes the $. Today was a good day I can truly say. For once in a long time I felt like I had a family, if that makes any sense. One of the kids just pushed over my nephew and he started crying so I went over to him and picked him up. he just clung to me and I hushed him down. Didn't take 10 seconds. He's usually a pretty happy kid, so it makes things a lot easier I guess. But today I felt different, I never really thought I was good with children but today proved that I have some capability to deal with kids. But most of all what I learned, discipline your kids for the love of god.Jesus. Well thats about it. I'm off to relax for the remainder of my day off.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>On A Lighter Note</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 10 Jul 2008 20:48:34 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Getting into shape with one of my friends who's going to be going into MMAs in the near future. Its going to be bad ass. Can't wait to see him go at it. But it's definitely going to help me out a bit as well. Though I'm more on the line of jujitsu, I'd still like to learn some boxing and what not. It's going to be cool though. And it'll be a good way to release stress and being more proactive. On another note it's 25 days still my b day and 22 days till my party. There will be a keg. and it will be awesome. It'll be my first keg party. So I'm gonna have to make it count. My mom will be in Europe while this is going on and my old man doesn't care too much. And by mid August I should get my Scottish and Irish Whiskey as birthday gifts from my mom. It's gonna be fucking sweet XD<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>My Views On Relationships</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 10 Jul 2008 16:56:49 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ As of late I haven't really thought much of relationships as I used to. Too busy with school and work, so many other things have occupied my mind. Though recently one of my friends broke up with his gf, and has told her in the last month or so of his feelings just kinda drifting away. When the time came the storm was only brewing. And as I watched from afar. The drama boiling, eventually to cool off. It reminded me of something familiar. When people bitch about their relaionships ending I see this. Why did you go and have one, why did you give so much emotion, when you're so young and naive (oh boy was I). Theres much to live for in this world even outside of romance goals, dreams, etc. When you're ready the time will come for such serious things. For now we must live accordingly. To cry over spilled milk is to waste time on something that no longer matters anymore. Over the year of all my sobbing over some chick that didn't care anymore. WTF was I thinking goddamn. I wasted a year of my life being drunk and just wasting away. It wasn't worth my time. I learned from it. Sometimes thats all you can do and walk away. In order to have a serious relationship. You first have to be able to stand on your own, emotionally, physically, etc.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Vin Diesel +D&amp;D=WTF</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 01 Jul 2008 20:26:16 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well I almost ran over an old man and his dog today while driving. It was kind of funny, it was late at night. WTF are old people doing out at night walking their dogs. Other than that just shooting pool and working out as usual. Schools about over. Doing ok though I could've done better. Its all good. Now comes a break for me. I get to relax a little more. *Sigh of relief* I haven't felt so out of it yet so good in a long time.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>New Music</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 24 Jun 2008 20:10:22 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well My friend Mykul and I have started back with new music. This time with more people actually getting into it. I've gotten better at Guitar bass and keyboard. Things are looking up.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Its a nephew</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 15 Jun 2008 19:07:02 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well just got an email from my sister in law. Looks like I have a nephew on the way. Feels pretty good ^_^<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Recording Session</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 14 Jun 2008 22:07:56 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well today went rather well. Mykul and I finally finished recording and got something better than we expected. Even got a few other friends of mine into it. Though its just a base to a bigger picture its good to hear opinion of others. It feels real good to accomplish something in music every once in a while. hmm hmm hmm Damn good.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>"I Don't Care" by Apocalyptica</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 04 Jun 2008 04:52:51 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Words kinda sting don't they<br /><br />I try to make it through my life<br />In my way<br />There's you<br />I try to make it through these lies<br />That's all I do<br /><br />Just don't deny it<br />Just don't deny it<br />And deal with it<br />Yeah deal with it<br /><br />You tried to break me<br />You wanna break me<br />Bit by bit<br />That's just part of it<br /><br />If you are dead or still alive,<br />I don't care,<br />I don't care,<br />And all the things you left behind,<br />I don't care,<br />I don't care<br /><br />I try to make you see my side<br />Always trying to stay in line<br />But you're all I see right through<br />That's all I do<br />I'm getting tired of this shit<br />I've got no room where inside this<br />But if you wanted me just deal with it<br /><br />So...<br /><br />If you are dead or still alive,<br />I don't care,<br />I don't care,<br />And all the things you left behind,<br />I don't care,<br />I don't care<br /><br />[I never cared about, I never cared about]<br />[You won't be there for me; you won't be there for me]<br /><br />If you are dead or still alive,<br />I don't care,<br />I don't care,<br />And all the things you left behind,<br />I don't care,<br />I don't care<br /><br />If you are dead or still alive,<br />I don't care,<br />[I never cared about, I never cared about]<br />I don't care,<br />And all the things you left behind,<br />I don't care,<br />[You won't be there for me, you won't be there for me]<br />I don't care at all<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>This shits funny as hell</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 31 May 2008 08:22:27 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <a href="http://screwattack.com/AVGN/2008/SMB3">[link]</a><br />Watch the whole fucking thing its great. It really brings back memories though lol<br /><br /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Guinness Extra Stout </title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 30 May 2008 18:12:00 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Is awesome w00t. Donavan's  bday party is tomorrow. I have half a mini keg to finish. Also my professor for economics is awesome. Fucking cool guy, he's from the Philippians. He's a funny guy too, always laughing and smiling throughout the class. Pretty friggin' cool. Economics is going to be pretty interesting. I'm taking a few other classes in summer 2 session. I'm trying to get as many classes out of the way as I can. So I'll be taking all summer semesters and possibly a mini-mester, I'll take off work but it'll be worth it. I have  a responsibility to get in and get out asap. You only live once, so once college is over. I'll be living damn good. Then get my masters on the side and move up in the world. Can't wait until it's all over. It's gonna be great to say goodbye to this hunk of shit town Beaumont, Texas. Oh yeah <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":D" title=":D (Big Grin)" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Workout Session</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 29 May 2008 19:44:50 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It went pretty well. My arms are sore as shit but doing well. The hot tub was cool, the sauna was pretty tight too. The only thing that really bothered me was the random old guy that just didn't seem to belong at a gym/wellness center walking around naked in the men's locker room. Yeah it's natural I guess to the older generation but holy crap was it an awful sight. X_X Well I have school tomorrow best head to bed.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Plato quotes</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 29 May 2008 10:45:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Plato born in 427 BC and died in 347 BC. A Greek philosopher.  and well know student of the Great Socrates. I Find quite a few quotes of his. Best thing to do though is to read some of his books. I recently started reading "The Republic" its quite interesting.<br /><br />We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.<br /><br />Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools, because they have to say something.<br /><br />You are young, my son, and, as the years go by, time will change and even reverse many of your present opinions. Refrain therefore awhile from setting yourself up as a judge of the highest matters.<br /> <br />Plato, Dialogues, Theatetus<br /><br />He who is of calm and happy nature will hardly feel the pressure of age, but to him who is of an opposite disposition youth and age are equally a burden.<br />   <br />Plato, The Republic<br /><br />Love is a serious mental disease.<br />Plato<br /><br />	Nothing can be more absurd than the practice that prevails in our country of men and women not following the same pursuits with all their strengths and with one mind, for thus, the state instead of being whole is reduced to half.<br />Plato<br /><br />	Any man may easily do harm, but not every man can do good to another.<br />Plato<br /><br />There's a victory, and defeat; the first and best of victories, the lowest and worst of defeats which each man gains or sustains at the hands not of another, but of himself.<br />Plato<br /><br />	To love rightly is to love what is orderly and beautiful in an educated and disciplined way.<br />Plato<br /><br />	Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and charm and gaiety to life and to everything.<br />Plato<br /><br />	Honesty is for the most part less profitable than dishonesty.<br />Plato<br /><br />All the gold which is under or upon the earth is not enough to give in exchange for virtue.<br />Plato<br /><br />	There are two things a person should never be angry at, what they can help, and what they cannot.<br />Plato<br /><br />	Music is the movement of sound to reach the soul for the education of its virtue.<br />Plato<br /><br />	Poets utter great and wise things which they do not themselves understand.<br />Plato<br /><br />Poetry is nearer to vital truth than history.<br />Plato<br /><br />Good actions give strength to ourselves and inspire good actions in others.<br />Plato<br /><br />Tell me what your favorite quote was out of the ones I listed. ]]></description>
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                <title>Cello</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 29 May 2008 09:22:50 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well I'm saving up for a cello soon. Just a cheap one for now. Just a little over $200 with shipping and handling. From there I'll ask the music professor, whose name I can't quite spell, who plays cello and used to teach at one of the local high schools about finding someone who gives lessons. I already found a piano teacher in the music department, I tend to forget their names but she's cool as hell. Very nice lady, she showed up a few times during class and played a few works. But I definitely want to learn cello. Esp. after the concert I went to it was crazy how fast they were and how beautiful the instrument itself sounded. Its great. Secondly I'm already working on music, and if I could add another instrument to my capabilities that would be great. By the end of Summer 1 I should have my cello. I've played one before, its pretty cool. Not too difficult either. Well I'm off to goof around a bit more.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Its Going To Be A Good Day</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 29 May 2008 07:26:10 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Lately I've been feeling pretty good physically and mentally. Just great. I've been taking better care of myself and taking vitamins and minerals everyday. Working out on a weekly basis. Today I'm going swimming and working out then salmon for lunch. Fucking perfect.Its going to be a good day.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Niece  or Nephew </title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 28 May 2008 22:24:41 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My brother is having another kid in Oct. *crosses fingers for girl* That'll make three. AwesomeXD<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I originally </title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 28 May 2008 21:44:03 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Wanted to rant about something but I drank a bottle of wine and I'm in too good of a mood lol. Ironic. Well I'll say this much I'm almost in the business management program and I'll be moving my way through it. I plan on getting my Masters after I graduate. Though more than likely it won't be in Texas. I have to get out of the south. I want something different.  But At least I have goals, and much more motivated that before. Hmmm. Class starts friday X_X. *pulls out books and starts reading*.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Stahlhammer  "Keine Tränen Sehen"</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 27 May 2008 21:45:58 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I've always liked the way a lot of the Stahlhammer songs were. Very heavy instrumentally and with heavy words. But not yelling or gurgling fucking mouth wash. lol<br /><br />Das Licht geht langsam aus, der Tag ist<br />nun ein kleiner Punkt am Horizont.<br />Keine Worte mehr, es ist alles gesagt<br />im Tal das ewig wÃ¤hrt ist man allein.<br /><br />Und wenn ich sterbe, wenn ich<br />gehe, will ich keine TrÃ¤nen sehen.<br />Die Zeit steht still und Ewigkeit<br />fliesst in mein Herz hinein.<br />Und wenn ich sterbe, wenn ich<br />gehe, will ich keine TrÃ¤nen sehen<br />und meine Asche weht im Wind.<br /><br />Mit jedem Tag starb ich ein bisschen<br />mehr, verlor das Ziel, das ich als Kind<br />gesehen. Keine Schmerzen mehr, es ist<br />alles schon ertragen. Ich gab dir meine<br />Liebe, doch du konntest sie nicht sehen.<br /><br />Und wenn ich sterbe, wenn ich<br />gehe, will ich keine TrÃ¤nen sehen.<br />Die Zeit steht still und Ewigkeit<br />fliesst in mein Herz hinein.<br />Und wenn ich sterbe, wenn ich<br />gehe, will ich keine TrÃ¤nen sehen<br />und meine Asche weht im Wind.<br />______________________________<br /><br />The light goes slowly out, The day is<br />now only a small point on the horizon.<br />No more words, it is all said<br />in the eternal valley one is alone.<br /><br />And when I die, when i<br />go, I want to see no tears.<br />The time stands still and eternity<br />flows here in my heart.<br />And when I die, when I<br />go, I want to see no tears<br />and my ashes blow in the wind.<br /><br />With every day I die a little<br />more, lost the goal, that I saw as a<br />child. No more pain, it is<br />all already borne. I gave you my<br />love, yet you couldnt see it.<br /><br />And when I die, when I<br />go, I want to see no tears.<br />Time stands still and eternity<br />flows here in my heart.<br />And when I die, when I<br />go, I want to see no tears<br />and my ashes blow in the wind.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 24 May 2008 19:42:59 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Does anybody watch Yu Yu Hakusho Abridged? The abridged movie has been completed and released. I love the 4th part. It was so awesome. XDDDD Made my friggin' day<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>The Hate That Motivates</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 24 May 2008 15:32:31 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Today for some reason I feel lonely. Not in the romantic kind of way. This kind of loneliness    is a bit different. The only I truly have to hold on even through time where I feel alone like I do right now. Is the goal of getting out of this shit hole racist ying yang of south east Texas. Almost 22 years of being here. The culture sucks. There's nothing to do, except drink. We have a giant ass liquoer store by Target, its about 1/2 the size of the old Wal Marts so its easy access I guess you could say. Along with the culture comes the pollution. Refineries everywhere fucking sucks. There's also no difference in seasons. Winter and Summer pretty much. Winter it doesn't get lower than 30 and that if its really friggin' "cold".<br />The humidity sucks ass too. Just feels shitty being here. So here is the hate that motivates. I hate this crap hole, so I'm in college taking summer courses whatever I can to gtfo. I'm going into Business Management, I've already taken the hardest one from what I've been told. So get my general crap out of the way and get rolling. The hate motivates me more and more everyday. A sweet little reminder that to get out I have to get out of college and roll. I plan on Going up north, though a friend of mine is trying to get me to go out to Cali with him. I'm still thinking about it. I like the north though.. Well that felt pretty good. Fuck Beaumont, Texas. Just a little further and I won't have to deal with it ever again.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>"Bittersweet" by Apocalyptica</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 22 May 2008 20:13:13 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Apocalyptica  - Bittersweet (Feat. Ville Valo & Lauri Ylonen). They played this at the concert. Hell of a damn good job. If I remember correctly is was near the end,. I believe the last song was "Nothing Else Matters" by Metallica. Was hell of a trip. This song hasits own beauty about it. Ville Valo has a unique voice too. Maybe I'll finally open my music preferences a little finally. lol Apocalyptica is right behind Rammstein to tell you the truth. I finally have all of their albums. All very bad ass. Though a lot of the songs I really like ar every mellow and melodic.<br /><br />I'm giving up the ghost of love<br />And a shadow is cast on devotion<br /><br />She is the one that I adore<br />Queen of my silent suffocation<br /><br />Break this bittersweet spell on me<br />Lost in the arms of Destiny<br /><br />Bittersweet<br /><br />I won't give up<br />I'm possessed by her<br /><br />I'm bearing a cross;<br />She's turned to my curse<br /><br />Break this bittersweet spell on me<br />Lost in the arms of Destiny<br /><br />Bittersweet, I want you<br />Oh, how I wanted you<br />And I need you<br />Oh, how I needed you<br /><br />Oh, break this bittersweet spell on me<br />Lost in the arms of Destiny<br /><br />Break this bittersweet spell on me<br />Lost in the arms of Destiny<br /><br />Bittersweet<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Recordings</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 19 May 2008 06:31:13 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well I finally got off my butt and decided to jam out with my friend Josh. He just got form recording programs and has been messing around with them for a while. We did a few recording and got a base for future works.Pretty much something we can build on. The recordings about 3 mins long but once we mess with the structure a little bit, we can extend it. We both have been wanting to get together. You can do so much by yourself, with other people around you get more diversity and a different perspective for the music. It came out pretty awesome. The lead worked just right. Heavy, melodic, and most of all captivating. A job well done.  Well off to work. Comment if you get bored.lol<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Damn that was alot of alcohol </title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 18 May 2008 15:19:49 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Enough said. and I don't remember adding certain favs. I think one of the guys did that while I was chugging from the mini keg lol. It was a fucking crazy night. Thats probably the 3rd most drunkest I've ever been. I drank around a gallon of beer (a smooth russian lager) and a bunch of mixed drinks. Oh the crown and coke. What a mix. lol I had fun. Next week should be another party with my friends B day coming up. Shazzam!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Party Time</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 17 May 2008 15:03:53 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ well tonight a friend of mine is having a party and invited me over. A whole lot of beer and video games to go around. On top of that I just got my digi cam. So I'll get some pics, and hopefully some funny ass ones too <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/letters/=p.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":P" title=":P (Lick)" />.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Wow</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 16 May 2008 22:05:06 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So this customer in the store I work in comes and asks me where the milk is. So I show him the milk. He comes back down the aisle I was on and say, "Don't work too hard now, and don't work with a hard on. Girls'll start jumping your boner." It took all that I had in me not to bust out laughing. Jesus fucking christ that was funny as shit. Then he bitched about Kroger, used a few racial slurs and told me to take it easy. Wow, that was fucking crazy/random/funny as hell.. That made my day.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Prince Caspian</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 16 May 2008 01:18:28 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Was not too shabby. A pretty enjoyable movie. Got to hang out with some friends and chill out for a while. Well I have work in a few hours. Laters my ninjas.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Well......</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 13 May 2008 20:38:24 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Being subscribed is pretty cool. I can finally see all the people who actually visit the site. Just playing my keyboard, messing around with reason. Got nothing else to do at late hours. that and possibly watching the 3rd season of scrubs *yawn*. Its been nice this 4 days in a row off. Its gonna suck tomorrow when I have to go back. But gotta make some money. Turn in my Apocalyptica concert report tomorrow during lunch(hope my Professor is still there he'll get a kick out of it, he's fucking cool).Well off being bored as shit again. Goddamnit.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Subscribed bitches</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 13 May 2008 19:32:44 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well you could probably tell I got bored as hell. But he gives me something to do.. Also might be getting a printer, scanner, and (another, long story) digital camera soon. I've been saving. Also a friend and I will be going to New York in July. We just need to get away from this shit hole of a place.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>"Faraway"vol 2 by Apocalyptica feat. Lin</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 13 May 2008 09:19:45 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ There is something in the way<br />You're always somewhere else<br />Feelings have deserted me<br />To a point of no return<br />I don't believe in God<br />But I pray for you<br /><br />Don't you slip away from me<br />It's you I live for<br />Don't you leave no<br />Don't you slip away from me<br />I'm vulnerable to your love<br /><br />There is something in the way<br />You're always somewhere else<br />Feelings have deserted me<br />To a point of no return<br />So the light fades out<br />And you're so close to lose it<br /><br />Don't you slip away from me<br />It's you I live for<br />Don't you leave no<br />Don't you slip away from me<br />I'm vulnerable to your love<br /><br />Don't you slip away from me<br />It's you I live my life for<br />Don't you slip away from me<br />I'm vulnerable to your love<br />Don't you slip away<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>The Concert Was</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 12 May 2008 08:38:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Awesome!!!!. It was kinda crazy though. I got there fucking way too early. Though I did get to meet one of the cellists while I waited and the guy from Fuel, he was pretty cool. They seemed kinda pissed off about the equipment like it was fucking up or something, but the show was great. Back to the crazy part, from what I could see the surrounding area was pretty much the outer rims of the barrio. So as I was walking down the street in my rammstein shirt I had some guys scream at me and shit and call me a freak. It was great lol. So I went and hide from the ethnically challenged retards and wanna be homeless people in the near by pub. Drank my ass off. About $60, so I was good and ready to socialize XD. Oh and I had a big ass burger too. lol. The bartenders and waitresses were pretty cool. They were surprised and I chugged the Arrogant bastard ale like it was water. They then decided to say that people from Beaumont don't have anything else to do apparently. And sadly I thought about it. I have very little else top do XD. But they were cool.Then I had a shot of Barenjarger and a few beers after that, or what may have been more it doesn't matter as long as I didn't turn it in a big tab. Then around 5:30 I got back out side. Still nobody there. About 30 minutes later a guy shows up and then another and another and we start chatting. Of course I'm still drunk so I'm loud and obnoxious, and a little bit perverted. But hey, I'm almost like that anyway.Then the long haired blond guy (I'm bad with names other than the members of rammsteinXD)that I usually see doing leads walks buy. I get 2 pics with me and one of teh guys I was chatting with. Shazzam motherfuckers. I was still drunk. So I probably look like shit but its cool.I was the first person in. But then we had to change rooms (after having a few buttery nipples, yeah thats playing it a little softer, lol)I was still up in the front, and it was bad fucking ass.They iimpressed the fuck out of me. My only beef though. They had only one singer. And of course Till wasn't there *tear* I understand why, but he is a hell of a great singer.But thats pretty much it and I enjoyed it quite a bit. I bought 2 T shirts a beanie and an autographed CD. Fucking sweet. I ended up driving in the wrong direction for a while heading home, but managed through the route I was going to find a path back to Bevil Oaks(little po dunk town I live in west of Beaumont) And thats about it.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I'll explain later, but</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 11 May 2008 22:24:51 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I just wanted to say goodnight ^_^<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>One Day Until Apocalyptica</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 10 May 2008 15:17:37 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ One more fucking day bitches. I'm living it up until then. A few beers and a cheer. Life is grand my friends. And 4 days off, can't get much better. Ja<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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