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Anyway, I just got my computer back. if anyone is on facebook, I've gona mad with power and created my own "pick your five" list. Top Five Dead People I Want to Have Sex With

1. Walt Whitman (whouldn't he be the funnest lover EVAR?!)

2. Rainer Maria Rilke (who would probably cry after having sex, but that's part of what makes him hot)

3. Reinhard Heydrich (it would be all kinds of dirty and hot and I'd probably get pregnant, but it would be worth the dirty hotness)

4. Oscar Wilde and Bosie (WOOOO GAY VICTORIAN THREESOME)

5. Theda Bara (because I'd totally go lesbian for that)

GO PICK YOUR OWN AND SEND IT TO ME.

ALSO:

Shelfari [link]

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]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/26307011/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/26307011/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 21:10:43 PDT [link] (Oops. it got deleted. apparantly glittery blue dildos are offensive)

Twilight makes me fear for the future of American women.

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It's a shame that even a week later, his death will still be overshadowed by the death of Michael Jackson. McNamara's story is a genuine tragedy, a painful, gut-wrenching real life horror story as opposed to a garish tabloid tranwreck.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/25740740/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/25740740/ Sat, 04 Jul 2009 18:51:18 PDT [link] (yes the link is a tinyurl but when I tried putting in my normal adress I keep getting an emoticon in the middle of it and fucking it up) If you're on Facebook, drop by and say hello! I only have 2 friends so far! Allegedly they can help you get published. I'm still trying to figure this thing out.

I also started a new tumblr devoted the the uber fierce vintage fashion I find on the various corners of the internet. it's my new favorite obsession. [link]

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/25543194/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/25543194/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 15:25:43 PDT
Ed McMAhon
Phyllis Buzansky (Tampa public servant, Supervisor of elections for Hillsborough County, awesome throughly admirable woman. I voted for her!)
Ed Carr (pioneering researcher in the field of Autism who my mom greatly admires)
Farrah Fawcett
Michael Jackson.

WTF.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/25512236/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/25512236/ Wed, 24 Jun 2009 08:20:56 PDT Israel. T_T But it had to be done. I need love.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/24742149/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/24742149/ Wed, 13 May 2009 17:30:06 PDT Israel centers around the evacuation of Auschwitz, and I kind of need to know the military build-up to that.... I know the camp was evauated January 1945. But before that I'm a bit befuddled. I want the sense of time to be deliberately mushy and fuzzy, but this involves planning! Or something....

Don't make me get my books out! Or even worse, google it!

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/24593204/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/24593204/ Mon, 04 May 2009 22:02:24 PDT and I are having an epic smut-off. Whoever writes the best smut wins! This is my entry: [link] which is best read when listening to the appropriate mood music: [link] No, we don't have anything better to do than sitting around writing smut (still haven't gotten an offer from any agents). oh, well, read, enjoy, and leave a comment!

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/24526823/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/24526823/ Fri, 01 May 2009 07:57:11 PDT [link] watch the video. My dad shot all of the gator-related stuff. Now you know why alligator mating season is one of my favorite times of year. (1. christmas 2. alligator mating season. Hell, I may love alligator mating season more than I love christmas, (all the lulz without all the annoying commercials) but christmas has presents).

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/24478300/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/24478300/ Tue, 28 Apr 2009 10:52:57 PDT [link] XD last week my dad had to go take pictures of an 11 ft. Alligator that parked it on some poor woman's front door. Happens every year. [link] Anyway, my dad got some great video of the gator snapping at the trapper and did a write up that prominently featured the fact that the gator was probably all hopped up on testosterone and out cruisin' for chicks. Next thing you know, I'm checking my morning dose of the sensationalist British conservative bullshit the Daily Mail is known for, and lo and behold, my dad's pictures are on the front page. Anyway, check out the original page for all the sweet video and all the originals: [link]

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/24394339/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/24394339/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 13:24:20 PDT about Ferdinand Marcos and just saying "He went Batsh*t insane." Because there's really no other way of saying it. XD

I may put it up. Would you all be innerested in reading it?

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1. brute force

2. popularly elected (people voted to impose an absolute authority for one person)

3. "Hangover theory" (a history teacher once told me that every revolution is a giant party, and after every giant party comes the hangover. Anyone who can come forward with effective leadership in a time of chaos can get whatever the fuck he wants)

4. "He went batshit insane" theory (got elected normally, even may have seemed like a good guy at some point, but somethingwent wrong and before you know it he'd declared himself president for life, opposition leaders are being killed all willy-nilly, and the wife's got a closet filled with 3000 Jimmy Choos)

Anyone got a better name for the "he went batshit insane" theory? XD

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/23412342/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/23412342/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 08:19:51 PST
The story centers around Lilly, an opera singer degraded into working at a sleazy cabaret just to survive, her fiancée, Max, a Luftwaffe fighter pilot and loyal Hitler Youth struggling to comprehend the idea that Germany could have lost the war, and Jakob, a badly scarred childhood friend who is just trying to move along with his life. Lilly wants to move forward and get married, but Max insists on waiting until his twin brother, Erich returns. When she meets a charming American GI at her cabaret and befriends him for his love of opera, she begins to pull herself forward. When her friends don’t come back, she must force herself and Max to face the truth that the Nazis were not Germany’s salvation, but its destruction, but even in the midst of the Reich’s self-destruction, she couldn’t begin to imagine to what horrifying extent the destruction of the Nazi’s conquered could reach…

Masters of the World grew out of my curiosity surrounding the monstrous specter that is the Third Reich and the Holocaust. It was sparked when I learned that the men who were the executioners of the Einsatzgruppen, or first wave of the Holocaust in which people were rounded up, shot, and buried in mass graves, often experienced severe mental trauma, and that the gruppen experienced rates of desertion, alcoholism, and suicide unprecedented by anything else in the German military. My greatest philosophy as a writer has always been to speak for the unheard, to find the perspective no one has seen yet. There are countless novels and movies telling the harrowing stories of the victims of the Nazi regime, but what about the Nazis themselves? How do you fall in love so completely with a beast like Hitler? How do you willingly take part in the slaughter of six million people? And most of all, what happens to a generation of young people when they lose the war they were raised to fight? I spent two years coming up with the answer that is Masters of the World.

I have graduated from the Blake High School Magnet School for the Fine Arts with Master's Certification in Creative Writing. Basically, I went to high school and got to study writing for four years alongside it in a way similar to most college Creative Writing programs. I was the first Creative Writing student to win a national-level award from the prestigious National Foundation for the Advancement of the Arts (NFAA) Arts Recognition and Talent Search (ARTS) Award. I have self-published two books of poetry and appeared in Southern Voices literary magazine. I am currently seeking a degree in History and Sociology."

My new cover letter. Hopefully it's better. Because I've got a new list, and I'm actually doing it properly this time, with snail mail. Argh this is going to be interesting.

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]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/23146686/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/23146686/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 20:22:03 PST [link] so I went and fixed up my sex scene a bit. (a lot).....

it was really fucking hard. ^_^;; srsly, you try it. Bah, anyway, for fun, I give you Mia Kirshner, who is *exactly* what Nora looks like (well, except for she has blue eyes and Nora has green eyes. Oh, well, close enough): [link] [link] [link]

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/23012963/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/23012963/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 00:12:53 PST if you want more of "Israel" because his story is consuming my life. XD it's immensely fun imagining what the 3rd Reich would be like in 1954 with Heydirch as Fuhrer. You get to wonder about the most bizarre and amusing things, like which Nazi kids would end up having crushes on each other and get married? (answer: Heider Heydrich and Holde Goebbels. WOULDNT THEY BE HOT?! XD The propagandagasm that would be their wedding would be mind-blowing, I've had the time of my life planning it XD) The main charcter, Dietrich, eventually sort of becomes the Himmler to Heydrich's Hitler, (complete with odd sexual obsession!) so that's another fun aspect of it all, adding your own character into the mix. I'd go on and on about the other fctiona chracters in it and the fabulousess that they all posess, but I guess that would take a very long explanation of the story. ^_^;;

Anyway, on the my own story which I should be fucking writing front, sex is still hard to write I have the scene written, but I'm not quite satisifed with it yet. No fucking clue what it needs. So I'm working my way onto the rest of the story,which I'm not sure what to do with either. XD So, I'm givig you the soundtrack, as of late:

1. "The New Zero" by Rasputina
2. "Roads" by Portishead
3. "Smells Like Teen Sprit" Tori Amos cover
4. "Falling Slowly" Glen Hansnard & Marketa Irglova
5. "The Terrible Sad Side of Hippydom" by Pretty Balanced
6. "Numb" by Linkin Park
7. "Sober" by Pink
8. "Hurt" Johnny Cash cover
9. "Strawberry Gashes" by Jack off Jill
10. "Existentialism on Prom Night" by Straylight Run
11. "I Will Follow You into the Dark" by Death Cab for Cutie
12. "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis
13. "Hanging by a Moment" by Lifehouse
14. "Simon's Sleeping" by Pretty Balanced
15. "How it Ends" by DeVotchKa
16. "Needle in the Hay" by Elliot Smith
17. "Otherside" by The Red Hot Chilli Peppers
18. "Lenore's Song" by Yunyu

So there. Speaking of soundtracks, I've gotten horrendously in touch with my inner hot topic goth by ahem, *acquiring* the album "Nightmare Revisited." All your favorite hot topic goth bands covering the songs from The Nightmare Before Christmas! yes, it's got to be the most steretypical teenage gothic thing I've ever done, but I fucking DARE you to listen to Marilyn Manson's version of "This is Halloween" [link] or Korn's version of "Kidnap the Sandy Claws" [link] and tell me that isn't totally fucking EPIC!

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22788870/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22788870/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 18:49:34 PST
Actually.... damn, I have a question I need to ask /b/ for once. XD Is it wierd that i've found writing sex from the male perspective easier than writing from the female perspective? hm. whatever.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22644824/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22644824/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 02:05:31 PST _<; OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG Plz go read it and tell me what you think. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, DO IT, FAGGOT.

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Johnny Cash covers "Personal Jesus"

if that isn't made of pure, highly concentrated EPIC WIN, I don't know what is.

If this song doesn't make you shout FUCK YEAH, something is wrong with you.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22426670/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22426670/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 02:11:03 PST
ALSO. I need to find myself where I can get the Writer's market 2009 book. It's a sort of national yellow pages full of literary agents. and I'm like actually going to send out proper submissions this time. with a plot synopsis and everything. Even though a plot synopsis of Masters will be really hard to write.... I mean, it's not like it has no plot, it's just all character-based, so if you just lay out the actions it sounds like a bunch of random happenings. And that's just it, I don't know if they want a quick summary that leaves the ending open, like how you get on the back of a book, or if they want the full thing. AAARGH I guess that's what the internet is for. Or I could like.... maybe email a few potential agents that say they want a synopsis and ask. 0_O

Anyway, thanks to I now have a favorite couple to fangirl over. DIETRICH AND HANSEL AAAAAGH. Ethan wrote me an AMAZING scene where the two of them confess their love for each other and, well..... WHO HERE IS THINKING ABOUT GAY SEX?! *raises hand* sorry I got the sudden bizarre urge to do that the other day and thankfully didn't give in. It's even wierd because they're semi-original characters.... Ethan thought up Dietrich, I suggested the idea of Hansel, but Ethan was the one to make Hansel into what he is. so in a wierd sense they are my babies. I'm like the sperm-donating brother of a lesbian couple who wants to have babies. if that makes sense for a metaphor. Anyway, keeping in the tradition of all my OC couples, they have a song. "All You Wanted" by Michelle Branch. [link] I will gladly send the scene to anyone who wants it. If you're nice I might even trow in a recording of me reading it out loud in the style of the easter master of storytelling. [link] Trust me it is well worth your time. ^_^

I will try to get back to writing "Israel" when class starts.... I may have to kill some babies in it, but I swear I will get it written!

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Anyway, BEHOLD: [link] it is Joseph Goebbels in kitten form. Small, scrawny, noisy, adorable and with a disproportionately large head to boot. X3

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22206284/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22206284/ Fri, 26 Dec 2008 09:12:02 PST
Sooo what did y'all get for chriiistmas? I gooot..... chocolate, tea, new pajamas, headphones, a book of all the different manuscripts of one of my favorite poems, "Howl" by Allen Ginsberg, and a book about Jim Jones and Jonestown. and a bunch of other crap. ^_^

I'm currently looking for the perfect love song for two doomed Hitler Youths.

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]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22143739/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22143739/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 14:27:51 PST --Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn

<3<3<3

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22039846/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22039846/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 20:16:21 PST is awesome. I'm totally jealous of him. He managed to totally upstage me. When I finally go and have a great idea for a really dark story, he goes and has a great idea thats over 9000 times more fucked up than mine. You may not believe me, but it is. Trust me. And it will be awesome. ^_^

As far as my story is going, having a bit of trouble picturing the start, but once I get it going I know it'll be wonderful. SRSLY IT WILL. I just need to keep telling myself that. Anyway it's difficult because I want to set up and describe Auschwitz without having all the cliches of Auschwitz there.... Whic there are a lot of, believe me. Don't get me wrong, accuracy is still the ultimate goal here, but I don't want to sound like the millions and millions of other accounts of it that are out there. Plus I'm trying to keep the details accurate when I don't quite know all the details. I have a book I really ought to re-read. It's a sort of biography of Auschwitz and it's really really handy because in it is the account of a guard and a sorting-room girl who had an affair and I need to details for how they managed to carry on, but I can't quite remember. Bah I guess I can fudge for a bit and then re-read and adjust where needed. XP

Plus, I'm trying to reveal Kurt's story without laying it on too thick, and Kurt has a pretty damn thick story. So I guess I'll just keep hacking away. Once I get to the point where Kurt meets Nora, it'll be relatively smooth sailing from there, and I want to get to that point quickly.... but there's a mood and conflict I have to set up so it's difficult.

XP

This is how writers are emo, BTW. We angst about moods and shit.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22022079/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/22022079/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 19:24:37 PST Valkyrie still makes me want to kick kittens. For a bunch of men who managed to kill hundreds of thousands, if not millions of Jews, they couldn't kill one man. If that isn't a great big steaming pile of FAIL, I don't know what is.

And, it may shock you, but I've managed to get a decent start on Kurt's story, which for now is tentatively titled Israel. It's not quite to the point that I want to post what I have on here, but it's getting there. I have a soundtrack for it! w00t!

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21955538/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21955538/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 22:09:40 PST with an alternate-history novel. It's theoretical speculation on what would happen should Reinhard Heydrich survive his assassination attempt and the 3rd reich survive ww2. Heydrich's finally become Reichsfuhrer-SS (more on how later), and Hitler is terminally ill and almost ready to name his successor. Everyone knows it's going to be Heydi, but dear Heydi, being the paranoid insecure control-freak that he was, is busy doing everything he can to quiet any competition and secure his place as Fuhrer. The story of the novel itself is actually set between two of Heydi's underlings/protegees and a scandal that breaks out between them, but that's all to be revealed later. What I want to know is what y'all think of how Ethan and I imagine the rest of the Nazi brass would have ended up.

Himmler would have retired and gone back to farming chikkins. OF course this would have been a recent development, because he'd liek to continue serving the Reich, but there's no way in hell he'd ever be willing to serve Heydrich. Also, he's divorced his wife and married his long-time mistress.

Goebbels would be doing the same thing as always: being everyone's favorite little propaganda monkey, albeit one speculating retirement. His eldest daughter, Helga, is preparing to get married to some intellectual/artistic royalty or something, and one of the two underlings is in charge of the security at the wedding.

Goering would have had one prime rib dinner too many and his heart just up and went "FUCK YOU, MAN!" in an absolutely spectacular manner. I'm thinking he was giving a rousing victory speech at an extravagant state dinner when HNNNNNNGGGGH. They buried him in a square box next to his beloved first wife at Carinhalle.

Hess would be enjoying his insanity in a quiet, secluded area far from prying eyes and airplanes.

Are we geniuses or insane? Are we dead on or totally lost? How do YOU think they would have ended up?

(Ethan and I have agreed that if he starts writing this, I will start writing Kurt and Nora. So stay tuned)

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21923464/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21923464/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 22:19:03 PST [link]

You heard right I'm twenty fucking one years old. 21, legally able to drink. Still a technical college freshman! wh000000!

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21899119/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21899119/ Tue, 09 Dec 2008 13:58:11 PST 1. Make it about Nazis
2. Make it about Nazis
3. If the required subject has nothing to do with Nazis, MAKE it about Nazis.

Those rules will never let you down. Srsly I think the best academic papers I've evr done have been about Nazis..... Well, my best, a Sociology research paper about hate groups in America, was more about neo-nazis, but hey, I learned a lot about anti-semitism in America. *nodnod*

Anyway, I just finished my evil research paper for English. I was supposed to "research" other literary criticisms of The Handmaid's Tale or some shit, and include block quotes from other critiques or something..... I quoted Hitler and Karl Marx. Oh yeah. yeah, I got to go on for five pages talking about how it sucked to be Magda Goebbels and how Stalin was a total meanie. I didn't get to get into the Ceausescu regime, which I thought was a realy interesting historical accuracy put into THT with how the harsh enforcement of fertility actually kills the population, but oh, well. Never marry a self-loathing emotionally needy short man!

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I may have found a new thing to obsess over. I was looking through my Roald Dahl Anthology and I read his little bit about advice to writers: find pictures of people who look like your characters. So you can describe their face more accurately. Holy crap! That is an excellent idea! 8D What a wonderful way to satisfy my obsession with casting my novel as a movie when I can't figure out who to play difficult caracters! w00t! expect lists soon. Watch mah blog! [link]

And, baaah I've been siiiiiick! Illness is NOT fun. Just your basic cold/flu thing, not bad but enough to make you utterly miserable for a few days. I always get a sore throat. WHY do I alwaays get the PAINFUL symptom?!

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with all the drama that goes on wherever she goes, it was bound to happen. Agh I haven't talked to Nihil in like forevarz, I must do do that.

Seaking of ED, I got the most awesome compliment ever yesterday. I was talking to and he said that the ED article on Nazis never failed to make him laugh. I said, "you know i wrote the ED article on nazis, right?" and he was all like "OMG NO WAI" and I was like "SRSLY I SPENT LIKE A MONTH WORKING ON IT!" [link] (look at the history if you don't believe that I wrote it, or go look waaaay back in my jornal, seems to me I documented the process on here) only it was much more intelligent than that. So I've been feeling horrendously egotistical lately. William Shirer ain't got shit on me, I have written the definitive article on Nazis, MWAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA!!!!

AGH I have to do my history. XP I also should work on my math and get started on my English paper. I was suposed to work on that shit friday adn yesterday instead of sleeping. oops.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21705914/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21705914/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:04:58 PST Feed by MT Anderson. It's marketed as a young adult book and sold in the young adult section but it's WAY moar intelligent thn your average YA book. It is the great dystopian of our generation. srsly.
[link] (I'm just linking to Amazon.com so you can get a look at it, don't buy from amazon.com, writers don't get a cent from sales on there).

Anyway, I was talking about it in my Anti-Twilight guild on Gaia, in some discussion about how book length doesn't necessarily mean book quality. I mentioned that I'd read Feed when I was in the 8th grade and it was the only book I've ever read that's scared the crap out of me (srsly horror shit never did it for me). Of course that was when I was 14, so I wasn't sure if it was becasue I read it when I was 14 or if it was really that amazing. I'd lent my copy out a while ago and never gotten it back, so yesterday when I had to stop by Barnes & Noble to get a copy of The Communist Manifesto (w00t!) for my english paper, so I got a copy of Feed as well. I read it in one night. HO LY SHIT! It's still as amazing as I remember it. And it's even better because now I can understand the whole "ripeness is all" aspect of it. Go, read it, NOW! You will never look at the words "everything must go" the same way again. It's srsly the 1984 of the internet generation.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21638437/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21638437/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 20:29:19 PST
I keep filling in the back stories for all my minor characters... already I have a second novel for Kurt and a biography of Heydrich somehwere in the future. XD I've planned out the terribly cutely romantic way in which Max's parents met and their courtship-by mail while he was fighting the war and her letters ket him sane in the ugliness of the trenches. It's all rediculously romantic to underly what losing his wife did to Herr Risinger. I've kind of based some of it on Mimi and Carsten, because of their annoying cuteness together. XD

And then there's Kurt's epic.... which is wonderful because I swear it contains some of the hottest sex in the history of mankind in it (srsly it like easily makes it into the top twenty. Kurt and his unnamed, the concentration cam guard and prisoner... forbidden, passionate, sad, angry, and desperate, grasping for something that feels vaguely like being alive.... Fangirls, eat your hearts out).

ARGH I need something new to write about. OR TO GET PUBLISHED!!!!!

And if that didn't make things worse, OMFG has anyone else hit up he new google image search feature? Life Magazine has teamed up with google to put its entrie photo archive online. MILLIONS OF HISTORICAL PHOTOGRAPHS ALL FOR YOUR VIEWING PLEASURE. They have a ton of amazing shots of post-war Berlin, I think I might just go through them a bit more and adjust my descriptions of the city accordingly. As well as some great pics of Li'l Joe which is fun because this time when I look at them I can know the context in which they were taken! ^_^

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21562658/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21562658/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 07:55:47 PST Writer's Digest so they've probably been inundated with other queries thus it's taking for fucking ever but I AM starting to wonder if maybe I should start compiling another list. It's frustrating because I know on the websites of some of the agencies (particularly Bliss Literary Agents, or something like that, because I really liekd what they looked like and was thinking they'd be the perfect fit for me) they said they'd definitely reply no matter what, so maybe I just need a bit moar patience? Bah, it's horrid.

For my English paper I switched from the WW1 book to reading The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood because the first one I read and could tell tehre wasn't mcuh in it I could write about, but there's a world of things to write about in The Handmaid's Tale, which I have a lot of personal experience with. I read it in my freshman year of high school after a friend told me about it: basically a dystopian (I LOVE dystopians!) where fundies take over America. But it's mroe than that, it's a wonderful contemplation on the meanings and differences of love, sex, human relationships and most of all what it is to be a woman. Plus a ton of what could be seen as a harsh critique of the Christian Right. Though that's not it, I swear. I've met Margaret Atwood, and she insists it's not about that. But that doesn't stop horrible book-banning fundies from burning it! My dear Fairweather almost got fired for teaching it when he was up against uber-fundie bitch Rhonda Storms (for those of you unfamiliar with this Tampa Bay icon of evil, be glad. Woman looooooves putting the b& hammer to magnificent pieces of literature, squashing gay rights and regulating the morality of everyone else). It's funny because in THT, it's not so much the men who are trying to control female sexuality the way they want it, but it's other women, and reading it I can't help but think of women like Rhonda Storms, Phyllis Schlaffey (who became the most prominant anti-women's rights, traditional family values voice in the 1960s and 70s), and even Sarah Palin.

Anyway, the wierd thing is in the space between my two readings of it, I learned to write, and, like Atwood, became quite handy with the prose and the poetry. Re-reading it, I'm really struck by how much her prose sounds liek the prose in Masters. Only better. ^_^;; Haha, they're about two vastly different things, really, but one thing I really did pick up from it that shows up in Masters is the power of female sexuality. In THT, the narrator, despite being greatly repressed in her sexuality and daily life, still can use it to her advantage. agh, I have to go now, (damn math class) but I'll be back to selfishly ramble about the meanings of my work even though I'm sure no one's interested. Au revoir!

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BEST. COMMENTS. EVAR. ^_^ I sent about five minutes trying to figure out what the fuck he was saying and another five minutes laughing my ass off.

Agh, should I reply? I already have the person blocked, but I'm predicting a lulzfest if I just toss in a little bait and let the flames bricht los.

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This wouldn't be so awful if I could get away from the nagging suspicion that I'm wasting my youth and all my youthful brilliance and creativity are withering away, despite my best efforts. I'm about to turn 21 for god's sake and I don't have anyone besides my parents to go drinking with. Next week will be the tenth week I haven't heard from any agents and I'm startig to wonder if maybe I should just give it up and try to find another batch of agents that will ignore me. I'm frustrated beyond belief and I don't know how to make things better.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21424235/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21424235/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 16:01:45 PST [link] That. is. fucking. huge. OMFG I want to get a look at the plans soooooo bad, in German or in English!

Of course, it was faked, there was no gas chambers, millions of people never existed in the first place, blah, blah, blah. XP what a bunch of bullshit. How the hell do you keep denying something like the Holocaust, honestly?

I find that the primary documents often speak the loudest about what happened. It's chilling to see it all laid out in black and white.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21416502/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21416502/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 06:47:02 PST The Guns of August by Barbara Tuchman, which I have only read the first few pages of. ^_^; Luckily, Professor Google and I are best friends so I think I'll be able to scrounge something up for later.

Agh, I've been ignoring DA, I know. Between the election and Gaia's new MMORPG everything else in my world has pretty much been sucked under. I've been so distracted that I've almost forgotten to realize that Wednesday marks EIGHT FUCKING WEEKS. AAAAAAAAH. XP I'm beginning to wonder if I sent the wrong information in my letter or if I should be watching the mail or something but I did get those two emails so maybe.... baaah, it's frustrating and confusing.

Gaia's MMO is so fucking addicting. Now I know why kids drop out of school to play video games all day. So much more interesting than getting lectured on why you're writing a paper wrong.

As far as the writing front goes, it's horrible but the only thing I've found myself wanting to write is a rich lovely Truman Capote-paint-a-picture-with-words-style biography of Reinhard Heydrich. I need to get off the Nazis. XP I'd get started on it right away but I think for this I will need many many more books and information somehow relating to Heydi's life and times. I know there are several biographies of him out there, and I'd probably need a few biographies of Himmler and Hitler and several general histories of the SS, the holocaust, and the 3rd Reich in general, as well as PRIMARY DOCUMENTS. agh, I love primary documents, and the Nazis documented fucking everything, but it's all in German and English translations could be hard to come across. I may have to learn German for this. Which is entirely feasable, given my tendancy to try learning a language, get half-way to capable and then give up. I also need to read more lush beautiful nonfiction and biographies. Do any of you have any suggestions? Right now the only thing I can really think of is In Cold Blood by Truman Capote and The Gulag Archipelago by Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn, which I need to get a non-abridged copy of some day, even if it IS a three-volume work costing $20 dollars per volume USED. Having read The Rise and Fall of the Third Riech and Les Miserables I've grown quite fond of epic-length works of literature. The book I'm reading is supposed to be beautifully written non-fiction, so I guess I could do the whole good student thing and read that. Maybe.

I did have a bit of an idea for a poem about how the followers of Jim Jones at Jonestown rehearsed their mass suicide several times before actually doing it. You learn very interesting things on the 30th anniversary of wierd events such as the massacre at Jonestown. so maybe I'll do something about that. Or I could just keep pretending to be asking Professor Google for information on my book.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21327070/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21327070/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 20:25:12 PST never cry about this sort of thing. GOD BLESS AMERICA!

I've never been more in love with my country. <3

YES WE CAN!

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^_^

You know, it's ironic. If any of y'all remember eight years ago, when George W. Bush first got elected, he said he'd be a uniter in a time when the US was about as divided as it can be. I the end, he did become a uniter. Americans have united under what a fucking horrible president he has been. XD

I'm super-excited. My mom and I made my dad go out and get champagne. I've been an Obama supporter since day 1, it feels amazing to see it all finally coming to fruition. The idea of having an American president I can be truly proud of, not just one I can grudgingly vote for becuse he's the lesser of two idiots, is utterly thrilling. Historical implictions of the first African-American president aside. ^_^ But it's not that he's Black! I honestly think Obama wins this prestigious slot in history because he's a Black man White people can relate to. He transcends it all and is simply an American, and America is finlly reaching its highest ideal "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness." <3 I love my country, and PRESIDENT BARACK HUESSEIN OBAMA!!!!

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"REFORM?! We can't be about no reform! We're the incumbants!" Pappy O'Daniel.

Think about it. ^_^

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]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21266187/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21266187/ Sat, 01 Nov 2008 13:52:53 PDT
So, did everyone have a happy halloween? Mine was boring. I went to the mall and joy upon joys! discovered that the Scilons had moved out. I don't know if it's because of Anonymous complaining to the mall management or if they only wanted to be there temporarily in the first place, but they're gone! woohoo! Anyway, NO jackboots at the Torrid store, and I also discovered that one of my favorite teas from Teavana, Darjeeling Puttabong, is being discontinued. They're replacing it with another really high grade flush Darjeeling tea, but I like the Puttabong. It has a really lovely floral, almost spicy and fruity complex flavor to it that I love. T_T Yes, I am a tea snob. Thank you for noticing.

So yeah things are boring ATM. Still no word from any agents. T_T Elections are Tuesday! Want to know something neat? Florida's electoral votes are predicted to go to Obama, and the last Democrat that Florida voted for was Franklin D. Roosevelt. It's close and there actually *is* a chance they could go to McCain, but Obama's still got a HUGE lead nation wide, which makes me very happy. ^_^ Also, if you live in Florida, keep your pets inside! Sarah Palin is in Tampa!

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21214468/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21214468/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 09:34:13 PDT
Today was finally cold enough that I could break out my SS coat, so I broke it out with style. I wore my Hermann Goering hunting hat and striped stockings along with it, and this morning stopped by a CVS on my way to class to get some lipstick in the perfect shade of bitch red. I look really good with red lipstick!

Anyway, my English teacher decided to do away with our poetry papers so I'm happy! I began reading the WW1 book I got and it turns out it's disappointingly only about the first month of the war, not the full thing. So I don't know exactly what number of poems I'll be getting out of it. I still want to keep on with the idea of a collection of poems relating to WW1, it'll unfortunatley just have to spread out over a longish period of time, how long, I don't know. I kind of like the idea of having my poetry respond and relate to the poets and writers who actually experienced the damn thing (Wilfred Owen, Siegfried Sassoon, Erich Maria Remarque, Rudyard Kipling, to name a few at the top of my head), so maybe I'll just go find a decent anthology of ww1 literature and write to that.

Some day I need to write my own biography of Reinhard Heydrich. Something that wouldn't be written so much for the purpose of bringing a new and original aspect to his life, but to capture it and describe it in moving and luscious prose, which he totally fucking deserves. Something rich, poetic, beautiful, and utterly disturbing. I shall do that some day. When I'm famous and I have the time and resources to read a bazillion books somehow relating to dear Reinhard.

Anyway, I believe my parents want to go vote early today so instead of going to the mall and using some money I recently came across to get me a nice pair of jackboots, I think I'm going to do that.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21183906/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21183906/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 09:25:47 PDT Lolita under my desk and exuding a strong aura of bitchy aloofness.

Call me egotistical, but I think English teachers hate it when you're a better writer than they are so they needle you about not being able to write a decent short story analysis. I call it the Joseph Goebbels effect, after one of it's more famous practicioners. I shouldn't have mentioned sending my novel off to agents. *sigh* Still no word, BTW. And it's coming up on six weeks.

Anyway, the ww1 poetry is still very much on, even if it's not for a grade. I think the title is going to be Pro Patria Mori, again alluding to Wilfred Owen's magnificent poem, "Dulce et Decorum Est." [link] Either that or To End All Wars, alluding to how ww1 was allegedly "the war to end all wars" and the purpose of anti-war literature. *sigh* you would think human beings would learn better. Which one do y'allz think is better?

Random thought: it may very well just be me, but the Ultimate Fighting Champion website the guy across from me is looking at looks a horrible lot like a gay pr0nz site. So I guess it IS socially acceptable for heterosexual men to look at pictures of shirtless overly-muscular men writhing against each other's bodies!

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21177609/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21177609/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 19:40:54 PDT Valkyrie rant when I had something of a realization about how to bring to full potential the character of which Arthur Nebe is the character model for (Herr Graebe). So I went in and fixed i and voila everything is wonderful.

damnit.

I need to stop doing this.

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I'm wtching the end of Sex and the City, the part where Carrie goes to Paris. OMG I want to go to Paris! I want to go to Europe! soooo that has me wondering.... if I get published.... and I use some of the money to pay off my student loans.... why not bring a friend (or two) to Europe? My first instinct would be to go to Paris, where I know the language.... but seeing as how Masters of the World is set in Berlin (where Mimi knows the language XD)..... it would seem wrong not to go there, too! Or maybe I could just fuck it and go to Moscow while I can still go there without getting a KGB tail. I dunno. It depends on how much money I make, and I have no idea how much first-time authors can expect to make, along with how much student loan money I'll have to pay. XP But it's a lovely fantasy to have. I want to go be a big brash American bitch in Paris. But for right now it's a sweet sugary fantasy that I love having. Who knows, maybe I'll even be going there to do a book signing. XD

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21111169/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21111169/ Wed, 22 Oct 2008 13:53:58 PDT
And still nothing further than the 2 nos. I can only hope this is a good thing, though I have no idea. XP

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21083623/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21083623/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 17:33:28 PDT Reinhard poems and read the book, writing as I go along with anything that strikes me. And this book is supposed to be very beautifully written, too. the Heydrich biography I read was informative and readable so I can't criticize it, but it rather lacked the poetry I think you could bring to the story of Reinhard Heydrich's life and mind. Which is why I need to write one. A real one, not just one in poetry! XD But that's for later.

Another idea in the back of my mind is a collection of short stories under the collective title of Empire which would be my attempt at being the voice of my generation. BAsically a collection of stories about modern American youth. I think my two short stories up here, "The BAghdad Gita" and "Sunny and Clay: All Grown Up" would go in there. But I don't have many ideas for it yet. so I dunno. I just like the idea.

Bah I've been all fret-y and obsessive today. as documented in my bloggity blog: [link] FIVE FUCKING WEEKS, MY FRIENDS. FIVE. FUCKING. WEEKS. And I would go lesbian for Kiera Kinightley. Over and over and over again. She WILL play Lilly in Masters of the World: The Movie

Je ne suis pas obsedee.

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]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21031838/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/21031838/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 13:14:16 PDT Masters (Ha! j/k!), I found myself wondering if, knowing that Joseph Goebbels was a writer of fiction as well, and that all writers are inherently needy, clingy creatures who survive off of praise, attention and feedback but can never seem to get enough, the following scene ever took place:

Goebbels: What part of my novel are you on, Mein Fuhrer?
Hitler: I've finished reading it.
Goebbels: Reeeeally? Did you like it?
Hitler: Yes, I enjoyed it.
Goebbels: Who was your favorite character? Why did you like him? What was your favorite part? What did you like about it? Did any images in particular stand out to you?

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Anyway, I wrote a new poem, go read it! It's lovely!

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/20966667/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/20966667/ Mon, 13 Oct 2008 09:32:39 PDT
"Killer bees have been known to chase people for up to 1/2 of a mile, while domestic honeybees will normall chase a person for no more than 105 feet, or 7/352 of a mile. How much further will a killer bee chase a person than a domestic honeybee?"

actual problem I got doing my homework yesterday. Killer bees FTW.

AGH Im feeling lazy and non-cooperative. Hopefully I'll blast through my history exam quickly (I take tests obscenely fast. Thank you, years of constant standardized testing!) Then I hope I can book it over to Jo-Ann's or Michael's and get somre moar beading supplies. I made 20 bucks over the weekend and need to spend it. And I found 4 bucks in my pocket this morning which only could have only meant one thing: it's motherfucking doughnut time!

*sigh* still no word from agents, nine days after my first official rejection. XP

AND I found my mom's ancient (srsly ANCIENT) digital camera the other day. It's one of the first commercially available digital cameras. It's huge, it eats batteries for lunch, and I'm not sure if the date setting will go over 1999, but it works. So maybe I can put up some pictures of myfabulous creations for you allz. As well as plenty of pictures of my doggies and my kitty. GO ADMIRE HOW CUTE THEY ARE!!!!

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/20940573/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/20940573/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 16:55:08 PDT [link] I figured out how to enable comments on my tumblr! GO!!!! REEEEAAAAD!!!!!! LEAVE ALLL KINDS OF WONDERFUL COMMENTS FOR ME BECAUSE I'M A COMMENT WHOIRE AND I LOEV IT!!!!!!

XD

Now if only my stupid laptop would stop randomly requiring a new plug I'd be golden. Agh I wish I could upload my songs for you!

Oh, well

Anyway... Sunday (well, technically Wednesday) begins the fourth week since I sent everything off.... eeeeh, the suspense is killing me. Of course maybe that I haven't gotten any more rejection letters yet is a good thing. MAybe. I don't know. I don't know how the publishing industry works, that's why I need an agent. ^_^;

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And John McCain's supporters scare this shit out of me: [link] WE CAN'T HAVE A BLACK MAN PRESIDENT!!!!! D8<

But it's really cool to see what Obama's doing bringing people together. [link] As a propagandist, I think Obama;s definitely got the edge here by keeping his campaign positive and McCain is just starting to sound desperate and scare people out away from Obama, which in a time when people need something to look up to, people want a lot more than. But I'm a bit biased. Then again Obama has a huge lead in the polls.

Agh after having a leader iconic in his badness, I think right now the US needs more than anything a great iconic leader for his greatness, and I think Barack Obama definitely has that potential. AGH only a month until election day, I'm excited!

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/20903406/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/20903406/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 10:07:18 PDT and his love for all things Disney, I've been spending the past few days admiring the exquisite Asian stereotypes presented by the two evil siamese cats from Lady and the Tramp. You know, the two cats with the big slanted eyes, bucked teeth and no souls who go and wreck everything and blame it on the dog. Well, turns out I should have been watching my own dynamic duo of Australian Shepherd destruction (well, at least one half of it) because when I let Ruby in from outside she had gone and rolled in something absolutely foul and disgusting and I just had to go give her a bath. She got water and soap all over the bathroom and all over me. Right now she's sitting next to me giving me that "I'm too cute for you to be mad at me!" look.

In other news, congratulations to this years winner of my future award, the nobel prize for literature, Jean-Marie Gustave le Clezio of France. [link]

agh I'm way behind on my math and I've got a test Tuesday so I should get to work on that XP.

]]> ~CWnerd12 http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/20887199/ http://CWnerd12.deviantart.com/journal/20887199/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 09:49:58 PDT
In other news, I have to write a poetry analysis for English. Fuck! I've done a few of those! Agh, I have to do it on a poem in my reader, so I'll go looking through some of my old poetry analysises from AP lit and see if I can rustle up one, or if I'll have to suck it up and do another one. XP However, today I did discover a lovely poem that surprised me. "The Rising Sun" by John Donne. I've never really been much of a Donne fan, his writings are a bit too archaic for me, but I really liked "The Rising Sun." So maybe I'll do my paper on that.

The Rising Sun
by: John Donne

Busy old fool, unruly sun
Why dost thou thus,
Through windows, and through curtains call on us?
Must to thy motions lover's seasons run?
Saucy pedantic wretch, go chide
Late schoolboys and sour prentices,
Go tell court huntsmen that the king will ride,
Call country ants to harvest offices,
Love, all alike, no season knows not clime,
Nor hours, days, months, which are the rags of time.

Thy beams, so reverend and strong
Why shouldst thou think?
I could eclipse and cloud them with a wink,
But that I would not lose her sight so long;
If her eyes have not blinded thine,
Look, and tomorrow late, tell me,
Whether both th' Indias of spice and mine
Be where thou leftest them, or lie here with me.
Ask for those kings whom thou saw'st yesterday,
And there shalt hear, all here in one bed lay.
She's all states, and all princess, I,
Nothing else is.
Princes do but play us; compared to this,
All honor's mimic, all wealthy alchemy.
Thou, sun, art half as happy as we,
In that the world's contracted thus.
Thine age asks ease, and since thy duties
To warm the world, that's done in warming us.
Shine here to us, and thou art everywhere;
This bed thy center is, these walls, thy sphere.

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