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IMO, if you can't use something, I think it should just be left off your page, 1) to avoid confusion, and 2) so it won't be staring you in the face disappointing/pissing you off.

God...I think my opinion of this place goes down every time I come back on. Nice job being disappointing and/or irritating, anyway...

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/27962793/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/27962793/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 15:32:20 PDT EDIT: Ok, I think I managed to manually fix the problem in options, but now I need to know...

...has there been some kind of major update recently (I haven't been here as much, so I'd have missed it)? And can non-subscribers actually use journal skins and stuff now? That would be SO nice. o_o

(Now if we could only use stamps...)

--

Not to complain, but since WHEN did it show your oldest stuff first, especially since it's called NEWEST?

I don't know about other people, but my old stuff was INTENTIONALLY crappy, as part of an unofficial experiment (don't ask), and I'd rather it *not* be shown to people first.

So, sorry to complain, but what's wrong, and how in the world do I fix it?

Does anyone--anyone at all--have any idea?

Before I go out of my mind trying to figure out how to put it back the way it used to be?

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/25315159/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/25315159/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 18:35:39 PDT
As for what this is about:

For those who don't know, I live in west TN, and on friday afternoon, we had a bunch of *really* bad storms and a tornado.

I think that was the scariest tornado warning I've been through in a VERY. VERY. long time. The second we got into the hall under a mattress, we started hearing stuff breaking outside. ...and then, if that wasn't bad enough, right after that started, the power went off and everything went completely black.

Even worse...we didn't have a mini-TV we could use because this happened on THE day of the swap to digital TV and we just hadn't had time to address that yet as concerned our mini-TV.

(And by all rights, it shouldn't have mattered, because we NEVER. EVER. have this kind of weather anywhere remotely near this time of year. Or rather, when we do, it's really rare. This was VERY much not something we could have forseen.)

So in other words, we were stuck in the hall for 30+ minutes (from about 5:00-5:30 PM or so--right around dinnertime), with things snapping outside, almost total darkness, and absolutely NO way for us to even know what was going on, aside from a veryveryflaky radio we remembered after a few minutes that only barely got AM radio, and was being messed up two-thirds of the time by the severe lightning.

And once it was over...? Well, when we went outside, our house and yard was pretty much ok, but god...every other yard down the street nearly had all their trees ripped down, including some that had fallen onto garages and such. Quite a few people also lost fences, and/or parts of fences. Even the metal pole to the neighbor's birdhouse was bent over.

(However...apparently, the tornado didn't even DO all of that. It wasn't even right outside, because we'd have heard that train noise if it were that close--turns out, the damage in *my* neighborhood was mostly just the straight-line winds. Apparently, the storm was *THAT* bad. o_o; )

As for us, we lost one section of a maple tree in our backyard (luckily, it fell the other way into the yard, and not into my bathroom), and a couple of sections of fence at the other house (we technically still own my dad's dad's house, but he died a while back and we think we're getting ready to sell it)...

...not to mention our power, along with something like 130,000 other people. o_o

Unfortunately, we were in/near one of THE hardest-hit areas, so we didn't get our power back for almost four days (day four would be tomorrow). As a matter of fact, it just came on less than an hour ago.

In other words, I've had a lousy time of it since friday, and could have got wiped off the map by a tornado (one *was* officially confirmed fairly close to here, and it's rumored that one was even closer, at an intersection practically just down the road from here, but that's not confirmed), but instead, the straight-line winds from the storm took out our power for the entire weekend.

Luckily, though, other than the lack of electricity and ability to tell people I know that I'm *NOT* dead, I'm fine, and, for anyone who wanted to know, yeah.

I didn't die.

I just nearly went insane from a combination of outright terror (I'm a *really* horrible tornado-fearer), no power, and the heat. @_@;

Thank GOD it's all over and back to normal now.

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/23997381/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/23997381/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 02:36:16 PDT
This is by far NOT quite like anything I had expected. o_o;

Close-up:

[link]

Seriously, this is how small we are:

[link]

We can't even out-height our own mini pets anymore in some cases. o_o;

Also, on a side note:

Am I **THE** only one who immediately thought that that looks like Dora the Explorer in a Gwen costume? >__>;;

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/22790404/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/22790404/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 20:15:52 PST
(*Except in Ember's case. >___>;; )

Originally made by .

I found this earlier at random in search for something else, and decided to do it.

I feel like doing this with a LOT of my characters, but I can't NOT do it for one of my oldest first:

<_< ...yes, Ember.

~~BACKGROUND INFORMATION~~

Historical Period: Any one--she seems to jump between every possible world and time period along with her best friend whenever she feels like it. O_o;
Gender: Female
Age: She seems to be young, maybe as young as12-14 or so, but no one really knows for sure. Once she claimed to be 16-17, but other times, she's said other things, including 'eleventy-hundred-million', two teddy bears ago', and '-7 lemon wedges'. ...so...she could be any age, or even eternal/immortal for all anyone knows. (*Scared.* o_o; )
Given Name (Full): Ember Faei
Meaning(s): Well, it seems kind of obvious, but she's named Ember because I originally intended her to be sort of a fire element. That, and she has VERY naturally red hair. o_o
Ever changed name? If so, why? to what? for how long?: No. Ember is Ember, and I can't see it any other way.
Nicknames (with reasons): None really, but I'm sure OTHER people have plenty of names for her. >_>;;
Nationality (Citizenship): Again, it seems to change constantly. She's been sighted in LOADS of places, including at Hogwarts, in Vvardenfell, and even in the Paper Mario version of the Mushroom Kingdom. She always seems to play a different role, too, including once impersonating a death eater and terrorizing the Order of the Phoenix is all sorts of very...nonsenical ways. (Mattress-sledding, paint thinner, and Mr. Happy, anyone?) O_o;;;
Background (Nationality): No one really knows.
Born in: Again, no one really knows.
Birthday: ...no one knows for sure, but it might as well be everyday, because Ember is excited like it is. >__>;;
Birth Mother's Full Name (Maiden): No one knows where Ember came from, or who her parents are.
Birth Father's Full Name: Again...no one knows.
Other Parents: No one knows Ember's history. Seriously. O_o;
Siblings: An only child as far as anyone knows, and for the sake of EVERY world, let's hope we're right. >__>;;
Grandparents: No idea.
Mother Tongue: Seems to be English, but no one knows her history.
Fluent in: No idea, but it would be safe to not rule anything out, given all the places she's been mysteriously sighted.
Parents are fluent in: No idea, again.
Eye Color: Red.
Skin Color: Pale white (caucasian-white, not albino).
Hair Color: RED. Very bright, 'unnatural' red...except, strangely, it IS natural in her case. o_o;
Natural Colors? If not what is?: Yes. ...somehow, it naturally is *THAT* red.
Freckles: No.
Birthmarks: No.
Beauty marks: No.
Moles: No.
Scars: None that we know of. Probably because she seems to have an ultra-concentrated dose of 'idiot's luck', leaving her completely immune to sickness, injury, death, and pretty much any consequences for anything happy-hyper-crazy she manages to do. ...any for HER, anyway. Can't say the same for her poor victims. o__o;;
Tattoos: No.
Other skin marks: No.
Face Shape: I guess (maybe ironically) a sort of anime appearance, as that's strangely how I imagined her to look, and how she was first drawn, too.
Nose Shape: Same.
Eye Shape: Same.
State of Teeth: Perfectly fine, but probably should have all rotted out by now due to the mass amounts of candy she must consume. >__>;;
Blood Type: SUGGARR AND CAFFEINE~! ^___^ ...no, really, no one knows.
Posture: Posture? POSTURE?! Like, when you sit down or stand up still?! XD We're talking about EMBER, who NEVER does either of those things!
Physical Build: Shortish, thin, and HY.PER. >_>;
Eyesight: Good.
Hearing: Good.
Flexibility: Probably abnormally-good.
Double jointed?: I would have to guess she probably is, given some of the stuff she manages to do. o_o
Middle toe larger than big toe?: No.
Other Physical Quirks: She has naturally-red hair--not as in the kind of 'read' a real-life redhead has...I mean, like BRIGHT red. Also, she seems to never run out of energy and seems to be completely immune to disease, injury, death, etc. ...you can thank the concentrated dose of 'idiot's luck' I mentioned. >_>;;

~~PERSONALITY~~

General Temperament: HAPPY. HYPER. LOUD. ...and did I mention--
--Ember: "... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/22718385/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/22718385/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 17:01:49 PST .

Sorry, but I felt I *HAD* to get the Sonic quiz off my front page (I may delete it at this rate) after this sick animal-fetishist randomly got my AIM name from somewhere and wouldn't quit AIMing me and saying stuff about Rouge and how he wanted to lick my feet and junk. I assume it had to have stemmed from my posting what I thought was an innocent quiz.

See if I post anymore character stuff anytime soon. Not from anything like that, that's for sure.

Another good reason I'm barely on dA--those kind of people are *everywhere* now. T___T

Anyway, here's another quiz I took off of someone else's page. It's 50 questions, so it at least occupied me for a few minutes while waiting (forever) on dinner.
1. What does your deviantart name mean and why did you join this site?

Well, the name was for a couple of reasons:

1) At the time, I was somewhat known for a non-serious/joke online rp-esque character/persona who was happy/hyper/nuts all the time, as if she were on an eternal caffeine high, but much worse. ...some of you who've known me for a long time know of who I speak...>_>;;

2) I was also known for how the slightest bit of caffeine--not sure why--seemed like it made me go tooootally nuts, as evidenced by the speshal journal entries I made at those times...so...yeeeah. >_>;;

As for dA...I found out about it from and thought it looked like fun. It was at first, but IMO, it's gone WAYWAYWAY downhill recently and now feels a lot more like deviantPorn or deviantFetish or deviantAnime or deviantJapanophile or deviantGaySexFangirl to me, so I'm not on here all THAT much anymore. x_x;;

2. What fandom where you obsessed with when you joined and what are you into now?

Well, I don't technically DO 'fandoms', given what it seems 'fandom' has come to mean (I like the TRUTH of the stories/games and generally despise 'fanfiction' [most of it's turned into sex stories, anyway x_x;], ' pairings', people lusting after other people who don't exist, and just generally how obnoxiously the 'fangirls' act loud and shove their weird interests down other people's throats...), but at the time I joined here...

I really, REALLY liked Harry Potter. ...right before the weird sex shipping got shoved in my face and ruined it all. x_x;;

And now...

Guild Wars. ...especially Nightfall. And no, I'm not some loser who ' plays games 24/7 and never leaves their room.' I like playing, but I also find the storylines and characters somehow entertaining. And I *LIKE* it, too, because no one's 'shipping' it around like everything else, PLUS some of the characters are actually mine I make up, so no one's going to mess with them, either.

...Finally, a nearly-ruin-proof interest. @_@;

(...and before someone laughs...honestly, it's definitely no worse than some of your yucky animes or lame 'teen drama' stories...like effing NA. RU. TO. or whiny, annoying 'Twilight'. x_x;;; )

3. How many watchers do you have now?

Unless I miscounted, 63. However, at least one of them is banned, very few of them are active or ever come to my page as far as I know, and I actually KNOW about 5-6 of them, max, and consider myself 'reallyreally actual friends' with only a couple.

4. Name 3 of your favourite artists on DA.



I don't know THAT many people, really, and most I know, I like them as people, but NOT always the stuff they put on their pages.

5. Do you comment, fav and both?

I try to do both, unless I'm REALLYREALLY short on time, then I just fav so I don't *LOSE* the thing and can never find it again. Then I *try* to still go back and comment if I can remember to later.

6. Do you participate in clubs' contests here on DA?

No. I'm not really an artist in ANY way, shape, or form so much as some person who just made up random BS and posted it up with totally BS descriptions about 'what it was supposed to mean' out of boredom 3-4 years ago, just to have something to do. >_>;

8.What are your favourite non-anime shows?

Er...I don't much really watch TV.

And before you ask, I generally HATE anime. YES, I watched some stuff on the **CARTOON... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/21635648/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/21635648/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 17:31:10 PST .

Sonic:
[/] You're a leader, not a follower.(I'm most DEFINITELY not a follower, but I don't think i can be considered a leader because there's no one around TO lead...)
[/] You're really fast and famous for it. (Not famous for it...but...)
[ ] There's someone who admires you and stalks you all the time.
[x] You don't like to be held back.
[x] You usually know what your doing.
[ ] You're carefree and go with the flow.
[/] life is like a roller coaster to you, there are ups and downs. (Yes and no...)

Total: 3.5

Shadow:
[x] You're pretty anti-social. (Not the 'omg i hate u all an i wnat u 2 diiiie11!' kind, but I don't bother with people too much anymore.)
[x] Nobody really knows you, not even you sometimes.
[/] You've lost a great friend and can't get over it. (Lost people, but seriously...why worry over it at this point? It's not going to fix it.)
[x] People have called you a fake.
[x] You're really fast.
[/] You don't smile a lot. (Not ALL the time, but not 'never', either...but less than I used to, maybe?)
[/] You talk to yourself. (Not aloud, but mentally maybe...)

Total: 4.5

Knuckles:
[/] You're pretty short tempered. (Not with ABSOLUELY everyone...but some things...some times...)
[ ] You're gullible.
[/] You're very strong/tough. (More than most girls I've known, but I'm probably not the BEST IN THE WHOLE WORLD EVER or something.)
[ ] You sometimes make a fool of yourself showing off.
[x] You're very protective. (I don't know too many people, but don't mess with the ones I do.)
[ ] You prefer mittens instead of gloves.
[ ] You're a bit full of yourself.

Total: 2

Tails:
[x] You're very smart for you're age. (I've been told that all my life, but I don't know.)
[ ] You're very good with technology.
[ ] You hang out with people that are older than you. (Opposite, if I hang out with anyone.)
[ ] You look up to a friend. (I don't really have them.)
[x] You love to play around on computers. (GUILD WARRRRRRRRS! >=O )
[ ] You have some kind of deformity that gives you and advantage.
[/] You're always the one to figure things out. (Eh, sometimes, not always.)

Total: 2.5

Rouge:
[x] You're always coming up with sneaky plans. (Yes, but most of them are joking/not serious and/or I never actually do them. >_> )
[/] You'll do whatever it takes to get what you want. (Depends. There are still a few things I wouldn't do, but I *will* give my all on something once I dedicate to getting it/doing it/finishing it/etc.)
[ ] You could care less about people's feelings as long as you get your way.
[x] you don't really have any friends. (No, and it might be for the best.)
[x] You're a loner. (And fine with it.)
[x] You just go place to place, sometimes unnoticed. (Yeah. Like the scenery change sometimes, but I don't bother to get involved with people.)
[ ] You flirt a lot.(NO. Nonononononono...)

Total: 4.5

Amy:
[x] You're tougher than you seem. (People don't know me and assume I'm 'omg just another dumb boy-crazy girl', when nothing could be further from the truth.)
[/] People are afraid to get you mad. (In my family, anyway, because they sometimes assume I'm going to be pissed for no good reason, or care about ____ more than I do. O_o )
[ ] You're obsessed with someone.
[ ] You're always following someone around.
[ ] Sometimes you get reeeeaaaalllllyyy annoying.
[x] You don't like to be messed with.(No. I really don't.)
[x] You usually hang out with people younger than you.
Total: 3.5

Wow...so I'm most in common tied with Rouge and Shadow...? ...weird.

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/21358315/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/21358315/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 14:11:38 PST Dear :


I don't really know how to tell you this, but Xemnas just got run over by a wheelbarrow. I think I realized it when I was attacked by The Plum-Flavored Potion on Squeaky Little Wheels during Xemnas' yardstick-wielding, fishing wader-clad rampage through Disney Castle and I saw you paint happy, ^_^-faced pictures of nobodies all over a twisted, blue-and-purple-spotted cross between Riku and Donald with potion bottles for eyes and magical keyblades for arms. I'm sure you're furry enough to understand that Leon and Tifa's excavating the depths of the laundromat's washing machine while using Sora's face as a pickaxe is just simply not acceptable. I'm returning Leon in a Ronald McDonald costume to you, but I'll keep Yuffie's magic apple-stapler as a memory. You should also know that I was the one who stole Xemnas in a hula skirt singing 'I'm Walking on Sunshine'.


Greetings from the trippiest, purplest town in all the world(s),

Caffeine-Master
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RULES/EXPLANATION:

Ok, this warrants a bit of an explanation.

Basically, I borrowed/stole the orignal format of this from the Letter Quiz/Meme that's been going around, and used it to make an inside joke version of the quiz for me and a friend a few weeks ago. However, during that time, I met , who eventually came to my page, read my version of the quiz, and found it hilarious. So, since both her and my other friend thought it was so much fun, I decided to make another one tailored specifically for Owls (or whatever she'd like to be called), but with a special condition:

She had to pick a video game cartoon, anime, movie, book, etc. that I knew nothing about, and then give me a list (separated into categories of people, items, and places) of things from said game/cartoon/etc. Then, I was to take that list and completely blindly insert the things from the list into phrases of my style of random silliness, some of which are modified versions of old inside jokes (with another friend), and some of which I just completely made up out of my head.

So, in other words, the end result is this:

*She* doesn't know the full extent of the jokes and/or what--if ANYTHING--they may mean, but I...

...

...well, *I* don't know my victims, or the full extent of EXACTLY what sort of horribly-silly and embarrassing things I may have done. >_>;

Otherwise, this works JUST like the normal letter quiz, in that you fill in each numbered blank with your answer to the corresponding question, and then post the entire quiz (questions and all) in your journal, with the completed 'Letter' posted at the very top.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:


Dear (the last person to comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,

-Sign/Type your name here-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Donald Duck is drunk on paper clips again
Red - I know you're the one that stole all the toilet paper out of Hollow Bastion
White - I've discovered the location of the secret Nobody-only tea parties
Black - Xemnas just got run over by a wheelbarrow
Green - I just took a long, long bath in Yuffie's apple-stapler
Grey - Leon just was died by because explodination
Yellow - I just flooded The World That Never Was with eleventy-million tons of cream cheese
Pink - I just stole Goofy's cigarette lighter
Brown - You're scarier than Ansem gleefully dancing in a Winnie the Pooh costume
No shirt - I accidentally dropped your gunblade in a toilet in the Eternal Bathroom o_o;
Other - Sephiroth was just trampled by a horde of Norwegian Shoe Lemmings


2. Look at the clock. What hour is it right now?
1 o'clock - The night that Xehanort turned into a candycorn-person
2 o'clock - During that one battle when Sora poked Cloud with a lockpick
3 o'clock - When Tifa danced the Dance of a Thousand Llamas
4 o'clock - When I was attacked by The Plum-Flavored Potion on Squeaky Little Wheels
5 o'clock - Yesterday... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/21103799/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/21103799/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 23:45:01 PDT
[link]


It's the VERY. FIRST. RESULT. O_O

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/21072856/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/21072856/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 00:55:07 PDT
(Note: Yes, the jokes may get more diverse as it goes on because I started to remember more of them. I hope it's ok if they start out from one or two sources and then spread out as things go on.)

Also: It says to adress the fake 'letter' to the last person who commented on your journal, but anyone who bothers to steal this might as well address it to me, as I'm the only one who'll really get the jokes, anyway. >_>;

Anyway, here it is.

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(My finished 'letter' when I did the quiz: )


Dear :

I don't really know how to tell you this, but Grenth is a purple kitty. I think I realized it when we were nearly murdered by that sentient bed-and-breakfast in rural Arkansas in the Thousand-Year Bathroom and I saw you paint happy figs all over Avrelle's miniature pet lich. I'm sure you're speshal enough to understand why mesmers and cars don't get along. I'm returning the army of line-dancing penguins to you, but I'll keep the secret of Wisyhode Pissingly's real identity as a memory. You should also know that I am now officially terrified of the barrel of cheese .

Forever dreading the wrath of Grenth the Purple Kitty and his Eternal Bathroom,

Lunar

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RULES:

Do the "Letter MEME" by answering the questions and putting the words/phrase that correspond to your answer in the correct blanks.

Afterwards, post the entire thing, including the finished 'letter' in your journal.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person to comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,

-Sign/Type your name here-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Your future will be slightly blue with a ton of parsley! @_@
Red - I know you've been abusing the Magic Remote
White - Mhenlo is not 'The Monk'
Black - Grenth is a purple kitty
Green - I got kicked out of Ald-ruhn for stealing a piece of paper
Grey - The fadey thing is broken again
Yellow - I secretly like to nibble on Nord Cheese Shrines
Pink - I just ruined Palawa's new pink ball gown
Brown - You have angered the mighty Lord Snippy
No shirt - I think I just glitched reality
Other - I hide knifes in my pajamas


2. Which is the most boring month?
January - That one especially lunar night
February - During that one AB with the Dreaded AB Singer
March - When Pancake wouldn't stop poking me
April - When I was attacked by the Winking AIM Smiley
May - Two teddy bears ago
June - When Leiber's wife got mad
July - When the apples invaded
August - When we were nearly murdered by that sentient bed-and-breakfast in rural Arkansas
September - When I got run over by a wheelbarrow
October - When the ship got pulled over for drunken flying
November - When Danika flipped out and went on that murderous rampage through the cathedral
December - When I overdosed on the Hyper Potion


3. Which food did you last eat?
Tacos - In the Corprus Stalker Disco
Pizza - In the tuna can
Pasta - On the outskirts of Retardville
Hamburgers - Under a very small couch
Salad - As you tortured someone with a persimmon
Chicken - In the Thousand-Year Bathroom
Kabob - With Machine Gun-Happy Bowser
Fish - In a small, pink towel
Sandwiches - At the studio when Ember was being interviewed
Lasagna - On Moonsugar Day
Hot dog - Under the influence of Nyquil
None of the above - During the Argonian Pants Quest


4. What's the color of your shoes?
Yellow - Poke
Red - Insult
Black - Interview
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Run over
White - Set fire to
Grey - Drop a barrel of cheese on
Brown - Put a dress on
Orange - Lay seige to
Pink - Steal
Barefoot - Nibble on
Other - Paint happy figs all over


5. What's the color of underwear you would be least-willing to wear under ANY circumstances?
Black - Master Togo
White - Lord Snippy
Grey - Prince Rurik
Brown - Psycho-Colette
Purple - Remoose the Ancient Typo God
Red - QAAAARRRG<... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/20892725/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/20892725/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 16:04:15 PDT Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:


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*Note: I'm almost never on here anymore, so I'm not sure of the last person, but it was probably...>_>

Dear :

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it when we skinny dipped under the bus and I saw you drive out my best friend. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning the pictures from LA to you, but I'll keep your neighbour Martin as a memory. You should also know that I never will forget to hate the Boston Celtics .

Greetings to your freaky family,

Lunar

(Also, I don't really like doing stuff with last name, so I just picked a random one of those because it made me feel better to do so.)

You know...I'm going to make an inside-joke one of these for us to do later. Should be a lot funnier/more fun. >__>

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RULES:
Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:


Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,

-Your name-
1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed


7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
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Scroll down in that first jounral on the front page there--this person FEATURED my 'In The Shadows' pic of me pretending to be a 'shadow beast' or something.

O___O I *NEVER* thought anyone would even notice that, much less feature it, or anything ELSE of mine...

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1.YOUR ROCK STAR NAME (first pet, current car):

Dusty Nada

(What?...it's too expensive to have one right now...@_@ )

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME (fave ice cream flavor, favorite type of shoe):

Chocolate Mint Sparkle

(...yes, I LIKE sparkly/shiny type of shoes. Especially silvery ones. And is it just me, or does that sound just a BIT more like a My Little Pony name...? >_> )

3. YOUR NATIVE AMERICAN NAME (favorite color, favorite animal)

Silver Cat

4. HIPPIE NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree):

Blank Willow

(...THAT is a weird name.)

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 of your first name):

Not using anything out of MY last name here, but I can assure you, it's a very stupid/not even cool-sounding name.

6. SUPERHERO NAME (2nd favorite color, favorite drink):

[Red, Light Purple/Lavendar, Sky Blue--I like all of the above] Tea

YESSSS~! With my caffeiney powers, I shall save--no, wait--CONQUER THE WORLD! I will unleash my almighty, ultra-superior TEA magic, and break free--!

AUUUUUUUUGH! NO! THIS CAN'T *BE*! I--I have a drop of BLOOD in my tea system! I...can't...believe you VANQUISHED ME~! NOOOOOOOOO~~~!

*Disentegrates into a tiny pile of tea leaves*

(...ok, sorry...I got carried away there. >_>; )

7. NASCAR NAME (the first names of your grandfathers):

Robbie Joe

(XD Why is that name almost funny to me? )

8. STRIPPER NAME (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy/pastry/etc.):

Pure Poison Chocolate

(Whoa...poisoned chocolate? That sounds kind of dangerous... o_o; )

9. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME (your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter):

Wittmann Washington

(Why can I see that as a real weather person name?)

10. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower):

Endless Iris

(Endless, because I like ALL seasons and holidays, even new ones people might decide to invent, and one or another is ALWAYS going on, so, hence...endless. And somehow, this name makes me think I would be a better packrat than I would a spy...>_>

...and oh my god. I just realised the kind of mental images that name creates for me. At least I didn't pick 'legions' as my word to use for the first part... *Imagines a legion of Irises taking over Elona...* We...would be DOOMED. One Iris is PLENTY...O_O; )

(*Note: Iris is one of my GW characters, for those who don't know. There's a full interview/write-up of her a few journals back.)

11. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now):

Coconut Shorts

(Wow...what kind of character is THAT? One that farts tropical fruit? Ok, so that was idiotic, but sheesh--so is that name! XD)

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18483734/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18483734/ Sat, 24 May 2008 18:32:28 PDT
"This is great I'm going to go make something like this for Oblivion."

...And *I* had wanted to do that at some point, not to mention that the "100 Secrets of ______" lists were sort of my ideas as far as I know.

I guess my actual content isn't being taken (hell, I haven't seen that anything has been, as I've not seen anything about anyone following through with that yet), but I feel like some person is trying to sort of cash in on MY idea, so to speak, and I'm not sure I like that too much.

So, the question is this:

Is my idea being stolen, or am I being oversensitive about it?

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I think I may have actually gotten better at this as I got farther into it.

Anyway, I liked it so much that I was sorry to see it end, so I may even make a big, weird, long one of my own soon.

If I do, I'll take it and put it up here, so look for it.

(...but if you steal it, be sure to say where. >_> )

dA Links Quiz-thing

RULES:

1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation (or deviations) from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you

1. The age you will be on your next birthday: Who cares?

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2. A place you'd like to travel: Fantasy

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3. Your favorite place: Imagination

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4. Your favorite object: iPod(?) (...'background music' and 'theme songs' for EVERYTHING.)

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5. Favorite food: Chocolate (and meat, and spicy food...tie, maybe?)

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(...and is it sad that I find those last two really funny? Especially the 'Meat' one. >_>; )

6. Your favorite animal: Cat

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7. Your favorite color: Silver (It IS a color, darn it! >= ( )

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(>__< I just wish it were a girl angel, as posting pics of guy characters and stuff is too awkward for me.

The rest of the pics for 'silver' reeeaally sucked, though. Seriously.)

8. The town/state/etc in which you live: Memphis, TN. (It effing SUCKS here. X_X )

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9. Name of past pet: Dusty (aka "Doofus" >_>; ), Orange Drop, Bootsie, Monkey, Howley

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10. A dream come true: Fantasy Is Real/Fantasy Becomes Reality

http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18278001/ Sun, 11 May 2008 17:45:44 PDT
Sorry to say this, but I'm just getting **extremely** frustrated. If you don't like it, just don't read it.

ALSO: Before they flame like they almost always do, no matter how NICE I tried to be in the past, I would like people to understand where I'm coming from here, especially after seeing these stupid fuckers systematically BRAINWASH AND DESTROY the only real-life friend I ever had at any point in history, EVER.

It's like, a lot lately--but even moreso these last few days--I've seen all the people who seem to be wrecking the world being hailed as 'good', and it's starting to really bug me.

'More tolerance and freedom of choice in your life' my butt.

I don't think so. AT ALL.

More and more and MORE, every DAY, I see the stupid people going on and on about 'gay rights', and 'going green', and 'animal rights', and all this other garbage, and guess what? It's going to KILL us.

And it's pissing me off. I should be allowed to not buy into it if I DON'T WANT TO.

People shouldn't have any right to enforce their ideas on me like that, and if they really were the wonderful ' progressive and tolerant and open' people they claimed to be, they WOULDN'T be pressing their ideas on me and other people like they were THE only right way to go.

Thanks to THESE freaks, I now am not about to:

(In no particular order of importance, and trust me, this is SUCH an incomplete list.)

-Eat a steak or something without being called a monster

-Wear a furry vest in the winter if it's freaking COLD, and that happens to be what a person has to WEAR to PROTECT themself from the cold

-Talk about being straight in a perfectly normal way without being called evil and cruel, or want straight people to QUIT being made into the bad guys by a bunch of (ironically, mostly *straight*) extremists, JUST for the fact that they're straight and not ashamed of it in some way

-NOT be a wild perv who wants EVERYTHING to be as explicit and public as possible, without paying VERY dearly for it

-NOT support every retarded-ass [insert pet group of the day] RIGHTS!~112!!!~~!!!! cause under the sun totally blindly and without ANY question or though put into it at all, even if supporting said thing is NOT in my best interest

-NOT be ok with the idea of people freaking shooting up drugs in public unhindered

-NOT be a moral relativist (aka, someone who says right and wrong don't exist, and that NOTHING, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, is wrong unless the person doing it thinks it's wrong, and therefore no one should ever be punished for doing anything bad, EVER), and STILL be treated as a real-live, living, breathing human being who has EVERY RIGHT to think that good and bad DO exist

-Drive whatever car I want (when I actually have money to pay for that sort of thing--damn gas prices and such X_x ) without it being keyed or torched or something by a bunch of lunatics with "OMG SAVE TEH ENVIRMINT!1!~~~~!!!!" shirts or something

-Celebrate whatever the hell holidays I want and CALL them what they are--CHRISTMAS, EASTER, HALLOWEEN, ETC. (YOU KNOW, THE *REAL* NAMES.)--without being mauled by angry politically-correct losers

-Thinking WHATEVER the hell I want about right and wrong and people and the world and whatever else, without being accused of trying to brainwash people into a religion if one GRAIN of my ideas are even HALF-speculation based on experience (which is even dumber for people to accuse me of in my case, since I don't even really HAVE a specific religion to brainwash people INTO)

-Simply BE what I am--A STRAIGHT AMERICAN WHITE GIRL--without having 97% of the world and its opportunities be closed off to me, especially for the 'American', 'white', and 'girl' parts

-Be unashamed of what I am, especially without--again--being mauled by a bunch of nutty people who think I'm evil for NOT being some little ' pet minority' group

-Play whatever the hell game I want, no matter how much some idiot (who's never even SEEN or HEARD of the damn thing before) thinks it's going to make me into a 'mass murderer' (or any other BS thing they can come up with to let the government control what goes in MY console's disk slot)

-And oh yes--did you hear? I was just informed that we're about to have a government-required type of LIGHTBULB we have to use, which WON'T work with half of our lights (like my ever-loved light-dim control light in my bedroom), and contain nice, big amounts of toxic MERCURY (bet the little 'green' bitches never told anyone THAT, did they?)

And SO much more.

I can't even come online ANYWHERE ANYMORE to talk to a friend anymore without being flooded with:

-Eleven-year-olds' SEX FETISH PICTURES, *completely* unquesti... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18270947/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18270947/ Sun, 11 May 2008 09:56:24 PDT
...because there's a LOT of changes and new interests, likes, dislikes, etc. that aren't on there, so that it's WAY off.

So, again, since more people are probably out of school or pretty close now...

...how do people feel about that?

If/when I make a new one, it's most likely going to be the same model as my current one--in other words, a chain of pictures with different info for each one.

Of course, I'll have to get some new pictures first (although, I already have one I kind of like for the accidental weirdness of it when I took it), but then I can probably change it fairly quickly.

Again, so much has changed in the last year or so, there's a LOT of stuff on the current one that's insanely innacurate.

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Basically, I've just found out that my only real-life friend is very confused right now, and is not seeing me or any of her other friends at the moment, because some bad kids she knew when she was younger have been calling her and getting her to hang out with them.

She's pretty much dropped her whole life and is trying to spend time with them, and I wonder if it's because they've pressured and intimidated her or something, but I'm not 100% sure. I know they were calling her and bugging her for a while, and that she had to block them from her pages online and stuff, but this is really new to me.

I mean, it's NOT me specifically, it's all her friends and family, really, including people she's known since she was like 4-5, literally, and we're all very worried about her. So, please, hope that she gets un-confused/wakes up/etc. before these people ruin her for good.

Oh yeah, and guess what...?

And I found out that my bitch of a worthless mom kept this from me for a month or more, and decided to drop it on me NOW, right at the end of the school year. All I can say is that if I don't trust her lousy ass, it's because she's ALWAYS kept shit from me since I was VERY little, then thrown it in my face at the worst possible time, just because. And she's justifying it, saying she wanted to ' protect ' me from being hurt. Protect me my ass. All that does is make it a hundred times worse, because now I feel betrayed and lied to on top of it. All I can say is

"Good job, you thoughtless moron. You ruined my weekend, and god knows what else. I hope you're happy you ' protected ' me."

Either way, please, even if you're really skeptic it'll actually help anything, I'm desperately worried, and want you do to ONE thing for me:

PLEASE SEND YOUR SUPPORT AND SERIOUSLY WISH FOR HER TO GET CALMED DOWN AND GO BACK TO HOW THINGS WERE A FEW MONTHS AGO.

Also, please wish for me to be able to do the right thing and know how to handle this, and to not say anything or do anything at the wrong time and ruin my chances of helping.

I don't usually make stuff like this, but this is the most worrying thing that's happened in a long time, and I don't want it to end with her for-good leaving me and her other friends and family, as well.

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(*Reason we're out SO early this year is remodeling/repair/etc. on parts of school, if anyone wondered.)

And I think I did ok on everything--I'm pretty sure I didn't fail any of my stuff, or even close.

...so, in other words, today turned out all right overall.

(In the end, anyway.)

So thanks for the support, people who wished me luck.

Now just wish me luck for tomorrow; it sounds like we're going to have a chance at getting scary weather, so just hope there's no tornado problems.

Anyway, though, just letting everyone know that I think it all went ok.

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18104966/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18104966/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 16:30:58 PDT
I have a hard science final first thing in the morning, at 8 AM, right when I get to school.

Then, a little while after that, I have two major group project presentations.

...one right after the other. X_x

So, basically, tomorrow's going to be the day that could make me pass or fail the entire year, even though I have perfectly ok grades so far.

It's just that all the things I have to do at once are worth a stupidly-big percentage, so if I do lousy on even one of them, there could be a problem.

So...yeah.

Tomorrow: Fly or fall.

Everyone wish me luck.

I *don't* want to repeat anything.

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18069206/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18069206/ Mon, 28 Apr 2008 11:08:32 PDT
Last night, it was like NOTHING would let me go to sleep; every little itch, ache, pain, noise, weird thought, kitty antic, etc. that could happen did.

It was like a conspiracy to keep me up, which lasted until 5 AM or something. So, eventually, I realised I had a beat-up, still-barely-useable one of those little sleep blindfold things that I forgot I even had hanging on the corner of the bed, so, out of tired, frustrated desperation, I randomly stuck it on my face and tried to fall asleep again.

Well, eventually I did. Now, I have NO idea of anything I dreamed, but I know this:

When I woke up this morning, I had *completely* wrestled myself out from under all my sheets and blankets and stuff (which is a lot), and was in a VERY suspicious position where it looked like I had been trying to get up out of bed, and half-suceeded.

...and I have a history of doing stuff in my sleep, including talking, swearing, lying that I'm awake, walking, taking off my socks (once, I was even hanging halfway off the bunk bed o_o; ) and once, attacking/grabbing someone's foot on a school trip.

So, guys, I seriously, honestly think I tried to go BLIND-FOLDED SLEEP-WALKING. O_O;

...off of a TOP BUNK. x_x

Luckily, someone woke me up first, but just...WOW.

That would have been...very bad.

...Although, seriously, I bet my reaction would have been pretty damn hilarious to everyone else if I'd woken up in a weird spot totally blind-folded. >__>;;

(Whoa man, I'm awaaake--OH MY GOD MY EEEYYYYESSS~! WHAT HAPPENEDED TO THEEEEEEMMMMM~!?! @_@! )

Anyway, just wanted to say because, god, that was a freaky thing to realise this morning. o.o

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18021699/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/18021699/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 11:57:48 PDT
Is it time to do another new one?

I just say this because I've had this one almost a year, and a LOT has changed since then.

If I make a new one, it'll probably still be long like this one, just different-looking, as in, different pics and such.

Anyone have an opinion...?

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I don't know. Not good, but there have been worse times.

402. What do you find yourself encouraging others to try?

Thinking more about right and wrong and reconsidering some of the things they're involved in.

403. Which is better: Mel Brooks or Woody Allen?

I don't care about this sort of thing.

404. When was the last time you were up all night?

A weekend or two ago.

405. __ is life. The rest is just details. Fill in the blank.

Confusion

406. Are people too complex and different to be categorized?

I don't know--I used to think so, but it seems like they're becoming less and less different now--which is scary.

407. Is it good to have pride in your own race or does that separate people from each other because it makes them think of everyone else as 'outsiders'?

I think it's good to be happy with what you are and not be ashamed of it, but to NOT take it to the degree where everyone else are sort of 'lesser' or 'outsiders' or 'bad guys' or 'oppositon' for NOT being the same as you.

408. What fictional story would you like to live through?

That's one of the hardest things someone's ever asked me in a quiz--to pick just ONE would be too difficult.

...unless I have the loophole that I could choose this weird make-believe game I made up as a little kid that combines me (as a sort of superhero) and real life with EVERYTHING I've ever liked, practically.

If my own stuff is allowed, that, because it lets me be part of whatever story I want, whenever I want.

409. Are cats or dogs smarter?

I think it kind of depends on the individual animal, and not necessarily one or the other.

Like I have this one cat that's--honestly--a lot dumber than a friends' dog, but then I have this other cat that I swear is just about THE smartest pet I've ever seen--just as smart as the dog, or maybe even moreso.

410. Have you ever guessed someone's password and broken into their diary?

No--that would be wrong on WAY too many different levels, and totally cruel. I wouldn't even do THAT to someone who'd bullied me.

411. What teacher, if any, has effected you the most in your life?

I really can't think of one that changed my life, really.

412. Are you more easily bored or excited?

Bored. Very easily bored--as a matter of fact, I think I spend MOST of my time bored.

413. What's the bravest or most daring thing you have ever done?

I guess getting through a few of my bad life experiences--not the usual kind, but still, bad.

No details will be given to the general public, because I don't like to do that.

414. "What's the point of robbery when nothing is worth taking?" (- Adam Ant)

For the people who do it when there's nothing that's really worth anything, they get some kind of a screwed-up charge out of it, I think, because they feel like it makes them 'cool' or 'bad-ass' somehow to have committed a crime.

415. If your man or woman served you breakfast in bed as a treat what would you want?

I don't HAVE a 'man' or 'woman', so this is sort of a non-issue.


416. What do you do only when you are upset?

A lot of things that would sound dumb to other people--but nothing bad or yucky like 'sit in my room and hurt myself'. x.x

417. What's the oddest CD in your collection?

Off the top of my head, I'm not 100% sure.

418. What's the best diary name you ever saw?

I don't really spend time looking at people's journals and such, so I don't know of one.

419. What would your friends be surprised to learn about you?

A lot of people who know me or have known me as solely funny or silly could be surprised to find how far down my serious side just might go--especially now that a lot of things have changed.

420. Who owes you an apology?

Some past bullies--a good few of them, really, at different times. I don't think it would be good to give names, though.

421. Who deserves an apology from you?

Anyone I've lost my temper on or patience with more recently because--yes, I was somewhat upset with them--but other stresses and upsets unrelated to why they were bothering me just pushed me past what I could take.

422. How would you like to treat your kids differently from the way your parents treated you?

I could write a book on this, but I don't want to detail the things they did wrong for all to see.

423. Which do you like best: 60's, 70's or 80's fashion?

I don't even know off the top of my head.

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Not ALL of it, but there HAVE been some huge improvements.

First, I think, THINK I did good on my test that I thought I was about to fail on Thursday. Luckily, the idea of failing something and having my head taken off for it at the VERY end of the year didn't actually happen.

...and the teacher randomly decided to give us a big homework assignment instead of a third test, which is great because his tests are scary. o.o

And now, SOMEHOW, I mentioned my problem with the date change on our science project presentation/speech thing, and the teacher in THAT class moved it back to the original date, since it was causing problems.

So, I will still be here and stuff on and off, because I *DO* still have a lot of work in the next two weeks, but then, there shouldn't be any more problems for a very long while.

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17880950/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17880950/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 13:32:44 PDT Hell's Recipes, of course!

Guess what now?

My science teacher told us to have a 20-page paper we've just started AND a 50-minute presentation (YES, an entire class-long speech on our project--how freaking retarded and overdone) with a long, detailed-as-possible powerpoint by WEDNESDAY. >__<

YES, the 23rd. A week from TODAY.

He just up and moved the due date way backwards, and only told us THIS MORNING, totally screwing up the way we scheduled everything, to the degree that NOW we may get a bad grade just for not having time to really finish everything. DAMN IT.

On top of my hard-ass test tomorrow, other three projects, and assload of homework I was given in the SAME class on top of the test, GOD--how AM I supposed to do all of that...?

I can't freaking COMPLETELY DEFY ALL BODILY FUNCTIONS for the next 2-3 WEEKS SOLID to do all this work! >= (

I could just KICK these idiots for this crap--it's absurd, I don't care WHAT the subject is or who the teacher is--I'm NOT some kind of freaking undead or immortal or something that doesn't NEED food or sleep! FUCK.

Excuse me, I don't usually do this too often on here, but again: FUCK.

*Walks away really amazed at the stupidness of this, and pissed off*

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The teacher said, basically:

"You only need to complete your parts of the project. You can't be responsible for doing hers, too."

So, if nothing else, I'm thinking that maybe he's sort of realised what's going on, and just MIGHT be taking our work effort into account on this, and that maybe if she does bad enough, I can still pass because of my still turning in MY stuff and actually TRYING.

So, the question is: at least on this, is it too early to breathe a very small--but MUCH MUCH needed--sigh of relief?

I certainly hope this makes things better.

Still, wish me luck on NOT failing that test thursday, and on making these people for this other project shape up somewhat--among my other work like the science project and possibly hard science final coming up in around 2 weeks.

Still so much that COULD go wrong...@_@

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The people in one class 100% fucked up everything again, AND THEN right after that, the teacher has now informed us that we have to move the test forward to thursday and learn all of TODAY'S NEW MATERIAL IN DETAIL by then. Yes, THIS thursday.

Not only that, but as far as I know, he also refuses to deal with this little ghetto bitch that's 15 assignments behind and doesn't give a fuck.

At this rate, I'm going to fail at LEAST 2 classes, and get totally held back and EVERYTHING, because of two ghetto bitches and one rich-ass bastard whose family's going to PAY his way through everything.

And guess what?

I. DO. ALL. THE. FUCKING. WORK.

EVERY. LAST. LITTLE. FUCKING. SCRAP.

And what do I get for it?

PUNISHED.

METAPHORICALLY KICKED IN THE FACE.

LEFT TO FAIL FOR PUTTING OUT MORE EFFORT THAN ANY ONE OF THESE LAZY, CLUELESS, CARELESS IDIOTS.

I swear to GOD that if I EVER, EVER, EVER fucking pass and get to change schools after the end of the year, I'm going to write the longest, most detailed, formal complaint and make sure the whole fucking world that can make a difference there SEES the damn thing.

I don't CARE if I'm not there at the time, either--I want people to KNOW what a shitty, ghetto-ass school this place is, how fucking horrible the teachers are, and how freaking SHITTY they treat people who do the most work and TRY THE HARDEST.

I'm sorry, but this is just--I think this is THE most upset and pissed I've been in a VERY long time.

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I have no idea why, either. O.o

Either way, though, I hope people here like night pics with eerie lighting.

...because there might be a swarm of them here today.

P.S. ...now I know exactly how the little 'Frustrated' emote up there ripping its hair out feels. It's SUCH a perfect fit for me right now. @_@

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A Lucid Dream (the most dumb one of the five, I guess)


B Trip to a real, major city other than this one (seriously--this place doesn't qualify)


C Winning some kind of a REAL, worthwhile competition and actually being considered NOT sucky at something for once


D Going somewhere new--like moving, a new school, etc.--and NOT ending up feeling ostracised almost instantly for one reason or other (usually a) REALLY cliquey people or b) people who won't talk to someone who's not a cookie-cutter dumb, boy-crazy girl)


E Being able to just do what I want without having to incessantly second-guess whether I'm wrong or not, and without feeling like a bunch of people are hovering over my shoulders just watching and disapproving of every little thing



302. Will you try to accomplish any of these things within the next year?

Already working on A, and I think I made progress a couple of times, but didn't QUITE get it.

303. What do you feel controlled by?

A lot of things and people. I don't know if I should detail it.

304. If Jesus appeared to you and told you that the moon was made of green cheese would you believe him?

I would have to figure out whether it was *really* Jesus or an elaborate hoax before anything else. >__>;

305. What is one thing you are sure of?

What I can and can't do as a person, as in, what kind of standards I can't let myself fall below and still be able to live with myself at all.

306. At what part of the day do you feel the most alert?

At night, for some reason.

307. Have you ever played in a band?

No, I haven't the foggiest idea of how to even play an instrument, anyway.

308. Have you ever stared into the ocean thinking 'early creatures crawled outta that'?

Not really--although, I've thought a lot of other weird things, probably.

309. If not, what do you think of when you are staring into the ocean?

A lot of made-up ficitious plotlines and stuff I just imagine in the moment, I guess.

A very long story in itself.

310. Do you like the mental challenge of chess or other games?

Not really--that sort of thing is kind of tiring to me, really.

311. Do you ever think of where your atoms were before they were in you?

Not so much, no.

312. Do you ever think about where your atoms will go after they have been in you?

I have once or twice, I guess.

313. If you didn't know that people couldn't fly do you think that you could?

Is this asking if I think the only thing stopping people from doing things they can't is that they think they can't?

Then, no, I don't think that. That makes no sense.

314. Are you someone that others call when they're having a problem and want to talk about it?

Not usually--once upon a time, it was like that somewhat online, and I tried to be nice and patiently calm people down, talk to them, anything--but most of those people I had any kind of acquaintence with changed and decided they didn't want to talk to me anymore.

315. When it comes to literature, do you see beyond the writing and into the meaning intended by the author?

I don't like to read, especially things that have a screwy 'message' where the person wrote to deliberately try to preach their screwed-up ideas/philosphies/etc. to you.

316. Is there anything you can take apart completely, and then put back together, and have no left over parts?

...a clicky pen? >_>;

I think I've accidentally disassembled one of those before and rebuilt it in time for class...>_>;

317. What are your feelings about the death penalty?

That I'm tired of hearing people fight over it, and I don't want to talk about it.


318. If there was a god and you could ask him/her one question what would it be?

"Why did you make a world and people and then ABANDON us? If you hate us and don't any anything to do with us, then why make us to start with? I don't get it."


319. Do you believe that life will be found on other planets?

I guess it's technically possible, but I doubt we're going to find little green men. >_>;


320. What is something worth suffering for?

Knowing you did the right thing when no one else had the guts to stand up and do it.

321. If you could put an extra eye on your body anywhere you wanted, where would you put it?

Ok...now...that all depends on whether this is a NORMAL world and I need to hide it, or this is somewhere that sort of thing would be accepted and not ca... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17809467/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17809467/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 08:42:22 PDT


10---> female human, male human, dolphin, house dog, wild dog, manta ray, vulture, caterpillar, oak tree, rock <---1

...and before someone says so, yes, maybe it looks at a glace like it's written backwards from how they said to.

202. What do you feel unworthy of?

A good few things. Maybe I shouldn't go into too much lengthy detail.


203. Would you rather be remembered for having done something for humanity or being a really nice person?

I'm not sure--either would be ok, I guess.

It would also somewhat depend on what I had to *do* in each case to be remembered for each thing; that would figure into it a lot.

204. Which do you value more: science or intuition?

Intuition, for some reason. I just 'know' when something's good and right and normal or not--sorry, but I don't trust science to
' prove' that for me, since it can be manipulated by the people doing it.

In contrast, my feelings and stuff are MINE, and absolutely *no one* can change that to suit their weird agenda or plans or whatever you want to call it.


205. Your best friend and your significant other are in the hospital at the same time with the same ailment. Who do you visit first?

Best friend. That's all I have, and all I really want to bother having.

206. Does the universe revolve around human beings?

Not really--I mean, sheesh, people are just a very small piece of everything else...and the universe is BIG. o.o


207. If you are no longer a virgin, do you wish you still were?

I am still, and I'm probably the only person alive who's not ashamed of it.


208. Who is your favorite poet of those who are alive right now?

I don't have one, I guess. I'm not much of a poetry person, to say the least.


209. What is your favorite song from the 90's?

I never listened to music as a younger kid--I don't think I even owned a CD until I was somewhere in later middle school, and that was just a soundtrack.


210. If you were in alphabet soup what letter would you be?

I'm not sure. If you go by name, E, but that doesn't say anything about my personality or whatnot.

...but all that other stuff, I don't even know how to describe, and most people don't seem to get it.

...so X, for unknown, like in math or something? ...I still don't know if that fits. x.x

211. Do you believe in fairies, ghosts, aliens, angels, dwarves, elves, etc.?

Prove them to everyone beyond much if any doubt, and I will. Otherwise...no.


212. What makes you want to be someone’s friend?

They have to be a decent, moral person who's not into too much bad stuff and/or stuff that bugs me, not too serious and 'old' and 'mature' to do anything fun or exciting, and has to have enough in common with me so we at least have something to talk about besides other people.

...and for gods' sake, they have to be someone who's NOT going to either act

a) excessive boy-crazy stupid,
b) extremely high-and-mighty, phony-intellectual and pushy about trying to make everyone else agree with them on everything


213. Do you troll around the Internet harassing people anonymously for fun?

HELL NO. I think that's one of THE single most wrong, cruel, immature things a person could do.

I don't know where the hell the myth got started that it's OK to be cruel to people long-distance and that no one online should CARE, but it's BS.

People are STILL REAL PEOPLE over a long distance, and they can still get hurt and/or badly affected just as easily.

As far as I'm concerned, I think anyone who DOES do this for fun is the scum of society and isn't worth a crap.

214. Have you ever seen the movie A Man Who Fell to Earth?

No, I've never even heard of it.

215. What is your favorite line from a movie?

I don't know.

216. What's your favorite video game?

Legend of Zelda series, and Skies of Arcadia:Legends

217. Have you ever taken something that wasn't yours?

If you're asking if I've gone out and really stolen something from a store or somewhere, then no.

On the other hand, as a little kid in a house with four little kids, we all four probably ran off with each other's stuff without permission occasionally, but it was always temporary.


218. What is one phrase people say that irritates you?

"OMG LIEK _____ IS LOVE!"

...I hate that... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17783708/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17783708/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 17:15:03 PDT
Now, I have to go--just hope there aren't any tornadoes here.

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101. What does happiness/joy feel like physically?

Hyperness--wanting to MOVE, fast and constantly and in every possible way.

102. List five people you love starting with the one you love the absolute most.

A

B

C Er...if you mean like crushes or something then...how about no?

D

E


103. How many movies have you gone to see this month?

None.

104. If you could have 3 wishes...but none of them could be for yourself, what would you wish for?

1) A different, maybe better outlook on life for a couple of people who I feel like I can't name

2) A chance for one friend to finish school with the degree they want, and to be able to live how they want later on, on their own if they want

3) For yet another friend to keep going in the right direction and succeed at what they want to do in life, and never go back to being around really bad people ever again

105. In what ways do you relax and de-stress when you are really tense?

I have trouble doing that, actually. So I don't know.

106. How much money would it take to get you to drive to school naked in the springtime and get out of the car?

I would NEVER do that--it's just not worth it to me.

107. Have you ever killed an animal?

No. I wouldn't do that, either, unless I had no choice.

108. Have you ever lost someone close to you?

I've lost a couple of family members (not immediate family, other relatives), but they weren't the closest to me.

109. What do you think of cloning?

I think it's dangerous if used wrong, but that it could also be used for great stuff someday far down the road if used right.

(Imagine if they could, say, just make an exact copy of your kidney or something, and save it for if you ever needed a transplant. That'd solve a lot of problems.)

However, I have a feeling people are going to eventually use it wrongly, to the point of doing some serious damage to the world/people/society as a whole.

So, we need to sort of watch what we do as we get to know more about it.

110. Do you read or watch TV more often?

Read, technically, because of schoolbooks. I don't LIKE to do either, though.

111. With all this talk of terrorism going around are you willing to sacrifice rights and freedoms for increased safety?

Depends on how far you're talking about going. There's only so far you can go with anything, after all, before it gets ridiculous.

112. What is the punishment you would come up with for Osama Bin Laden if you caught him alive?

I don't want to get into this.

I mean, obviously, probably just about everyone would kill someone who had giant buildings full of innocent people destroyed like that, but if you want some kind of sadistic, detailed scenario, I'm *NOT* a person to ask to come up with something like that.

113. Have you ever named an individual part of your body?

Not that I remember, unless I did it while so sleep-deprived I forgot.

I *DID* name a friend's printer Waldo once, though.

She *still* calls it Waldo, 3-4 years later, too.

114. Have you ever been on the radio or on TV?

No.

115. Have you ever won a lottery, or sweepstakes?

No.

116. Have you ever won a contest or competition?

Yes, a coloring contest when I was about 6. I got this huge art set that I *loved* when I was little.

117. Do you like to watch The Joy of Painting show with Bob Ross?

I've never even heard of that.

118. Do you know what your grandparents and your great grand parents did for a living?

My grandparents:

My grandmother had a couple of different jobs (not the high-paying post-college kind, though), and my grandfather was an air traffic controller.

I don't know about my great grandparents for sure, though.

119. Is there anything really interesting in your family history?

I don't know loads of the detail of my family history, so I'm not sure.

120. Is there anyone you trust completely?

Not totally. There are a couple of people I trust with more, but I realised recently that all of those people, even, only know a part of everything, so to speak, and no one knows everything about me, exactly.

...because, I guess I don't trust one single person to know everything. Nothing personal against my friends and family--I just don't trust people that much.

121... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17773628/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17773628/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 02:19:36 PDT
That is, if we don't have a tornado and/or I don't get killed/my house flattened/etc.

*Just found out there's a tornado watch until 11 AM, and am afraid to even go to sleep*

Just hope none of that happens, please.

Part one

1. Who are you?

Erika.

Some person or other who you probably don't know, anyway.

2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you?

1) I can't stand nastiness/pervertedness, rebelliousness/delinquent-ness, and basically anything else most people live for.

2) I really don't make friends very often or have very many; similarly, I'm not so easily entertained or impressed, especially by what most other people call entertaining.

3) I'm not someone to try to be a part of a 'high school stereotype' or something like that; people can call me every weird or bad label they want, and even though I don't LIKE it, that doesn't mean I'm really that way.

3. When you aren't filling out 5,000 question surveys like this one what are you doing?
Going on the computer (mostly Guild Wars or AIM with one or two people), playing video games, going out somewhere (anywhere to get out of the boring house), or doing homework junk (unfortunately x.x).

4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time).

I think I dislike them all about as much. I really just can't stand school.

5. What is your biggest goal for this year?

Actually PASS all of my classes; the problem isn't ME not trying or anything, so much as it's a couple of teachers who are being absurd (not just me saying so, relatives/parents/etc. even when I showed them), and a LOT of team projects where the other people won't cooperate.

6. Where do you want to be in 5 years?

I'm not sure, but definitely better than how things are now. Maybe more like my old self again?

7. What stage of life are you in right now?

I don't quite follow the usual, I guess, in one way--the whole 'fit your age group stereotype perfectly just because you're a certain age' thing.

So, I guess one all my own. I don't know.

8. Are you more child-like or childish?

Child-like, I would guess.

9. What is the last thing you said out loud?

I can't remember--it was a little while ago.

10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now?

I don't know. I can't think of one that fits.

11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes?

Yeah, a bit when I was, what, 10? It didn't last forever, though.

12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same?

In a lot of ways, worse. Honestly, right when it seems to be improving, I promise something usually happens right about then.

13. Does time really heal all wounds?

No. Some things, I wonder if it doesn't make slightly worse, depending on the circumstance and the person.

14. How do you handle a rainy day?

Do the same things I usually do--rain just doesn't bother me. I just don't like *tornadoes*.

15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights?

Losing my luggage--the holiday lights are WAY less of a problem.

16. How is your relationship with your parents?

I'm sure I'll get an immature comment or two for saying so, but in all honesty, not all THAT great.

Will you miss them when they are gone?

I haven't really sat down and thought about it.

17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you?

Yes, and it's a burden when you know about too much.

18. What is the truest thing that you know?

That bad is bad, and good is good, no matter what kind of ' progressive' or 'modern' idiot relativity-type slant they try to put on things with this BS about 'oooh, a thing is only bad if YOU think it's bad, so therefore there should be NO RULES ABOUT ANYTHING, EVER!'.

19. What did you want to be when you grew up?

Under the surface, I never really knew, so I just told people a bunch of different stuff when they asked. I still don't know.

20. Have you ever been given a second chance?

I don't feel like it, and I'm not so sure I did.

21. Are you more of a giver or a taker?

I never thought about it.

22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart/m... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17617539/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17617539/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 01:15:49 PDT _>;

So...character quiz for Iris.

...and yes, parts of this DO contain a couple of inside jokes, so if you don't get something, you probably weren't meant to.

(...and is it just me, or is the avatar thing on dA slightly annoying? I still don't get that joke.)
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1. What is your character's name?

Iris Moonstar (my Guild Wars: Nightfall elementalist/mesmer)

2. What is your character's name in another language?

Since everyone, and I do mean EVERYONE will probably do Japanese, I'll do:

Italian: Iride Lunastella

French: Iris Lunetoile

German: Blende Mondstern

(...and don't blame me if a translation thing got something slightly off.)

(And yes, I also know there should be accent marks but I don't know how to do them.)

3. How old is he/she?

She looks young, but she's actually never told anyone her age.

4. What is your character's race/species?

Human, specifically Istani.

5. Do they have a crush?

No--she's too busy collecting...er...everything. >_>;

6. Do they have many friends?

She seems to have a few, but they tend to get slightly tired of her obsessive junk-collecting at times. >.>

7. What planet is your character from?

She's from Elona, although, I don't know that you can call that a planet so much as its a continent.

8. Does your character like to eat?

...yes. ...but watch her or she'll probably ste--er--COLLECT--all the food.

9. What's his/her favorite food?

I don't know for sure, but it probably contains sugar or caffeine, given how she acts sometimes. >_>;

10. What's his/her favorite drink?

...you know that blue stuff that makes you REALLY hyper? ...again, I'm not 100% sure, but if I had to guess...

11. Is your character annoying?

<_<; Yes. She definitely can be, when she gets in a really, really bad ' pack rat ' kind of mood...

13. Is your character loved?

Loved by some, hated by others. ...just don't get in the way of her collecting anything, or things will get ugly. o.o

14. Is your character d?

What in the world does THAT mean? Do I even want to know? O.o;

15. Is she/he emo/goth?

No--I would NEVER make a character like that, as those things really creep me out and seem kind of wrong to me.

16. Is she/he straight, bi , or gay?

Straight.

17. Is she/he a virgin?

...Yes. She's been too busy running around outside, picking up every piece of insignificant junk in Elona, to even be bothered. >.>

18. Name 3 hobbies

-Collecting random junk/being a pack rat

-Treasure hunting (...guess WHY? >_>; )

-Burning stuff (BECAUSE FIRE IS PWETTY! ^__^) ( <--Dang, that sounded like Ember. o.o )

-Bonus 4th one: unintentionally(?) driving all the other Sunspears nuts half the time >_>;

19. Is your character normal?

Er, NO? She has natural purple hair, and is the worst, most obsessive pack rat in all of Elona--how is THAT normal?

20. Is your character attractive?

A lot of people might actually say yes--that is, as long as they don't have problems with naturally purple hair.

21. How does your character handle emotions?

Let them out...on everyone, whenever. She's usually in a good mood--you can tell because she'll be running around trying to pick up everything and take it home with her >_>; , but if she's pissed enough (say if you *cough*tookherstuff*cough*), she'll probably set your head on fire or something. o.o;

22. Does your character have other forms?

No, and it's probably a good thing.

I shudder to think what would have happened had Iris been a dervish and been able to get avatar forms...x.x

23. Does your character overreact?

If you try to take treasure, money, dropped junk, or generally interfere with her pack rat-ism in any way, yes. o.o;

24. Is your charcter a criminal?

Wouldn't that all depend on who you asked? >_>;

25. Does your character go to school?

No...as if they have normal, organized school in Elona.

26. What's his/her IQ?

No one really knows, as it's (obviously) never been tested--she's not stupid or anything, though, no matter what anyone might assume.

She's just a bit...odd. >.>;

27. Does your character have a disease/curse?

Well, some people say she has an addiction/compulsion to being a pack rat and needs to go to Pack Rats Anonymous. >_>

(Some people even whisper rumors that she's the REAL reason Kormir's eyes went missing.
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I just realised I forgot the name of the person who I got it from. o.o;

Single or Taken: Single, thankfully. Who wants to have the general pain-in-the-butt-ness and 'drama' of all that? x_x
Siblings: Two brothers (one full, one half), and a sister (half).
Eye color: Blue
Shoe size: 6. I have small feet. o.o
Height: 5'0". ...actually, I'm small, period. o.o
What are you wearing right now?: Jeans, a long-sleeved shirt (the kind that's made to look like a long-sleeved one over a short-sleeved one) that's covered in this weird black, white, and grey hearts pattern, black socks and little black shoes with silver laces and big silver lightning bolts on the sides, and a necklace that looks like a big, black, old-fashioned key.

FAVORITES
Kind of pants: Jeans, I guess? I don't know.
Number: ...not sure. I seem to overall like odd numbers better, though--1, 3, 5, 7, 9, etc. No idea why.
Animal: Cats, dolphins, wolves
Drink(non alcoholic): Tea. Lots of tea. @_@
Drink(ALCOHOLIC): ...and you ask me this why? >.>
Sport: I don't really like sports all that much.
Month: I'm fine with any month, except August. I *HATE* August here--it's really hot, dry, and the air gets so polluted I get sick sometimes.
Juice: ...coconut doesn't count, right? ...if not, I guess apple, if we're just doing apple vs. grape vs. orange.
Favorite cartoon/anime character: I have more favorite video game characters.

Have You Ever...
Given anyone a bath: No.
Bungee Jumped?: No.
Made yourself throw-up?: No.
Gone skinny dipping?: NO. o.o;
Eaten a dog?: O_O; No! What the HELL kind of question is THAT?!
Loved someone so much it made you cry?: Definitely not.
Broken a bone?: No. By all rights, I *should* have broken a few by now, though.
Played truth or dare?: Yes, as a kid. Nothing 'ervy' happened, but some of it was still pretty weird/stupid/funny. >_>;
Been on a plane?: No.
Came close to dying?: I can think of a few times I probably came reasonably close.
Been in a sauna?: Once.
Been in a hottub?: Yes.
Fallen asleep in school?: ...once or twice, for only a few minutes. Never did have anyone notice, though. I think my eyes were open. o.o
Broken someone's heart?: Most *definitely* not.
Cried when someone died?: Yes, assuming my cat(s) count.
Cried in school?: No. I felt like it a few times, though, at one point. I just held it in.
Fell off your chair?: Yes, because I was being hyper/stupid/etc. with friend(s) at the time(s).
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?: No.
Saved MSN conversations?: No.
Saved e-mails?: Yeah, I have a few still saved now, for reason of keeping up with things me and a friend decided about something we're doing for fun.
Used someone?: Not that I know of.
Been cheated on?: ...once again, most definitely not.

What is...
Your good luck charm?: I have a lot of them--it all depends on what one I feel like using at the time.
New favorite song?: Again, it depends on what I feel like listening to at the time.
Beside you?: A huge cup of really strong, unsweet tea, that glowy air-freshener/nightlight thing, the wall...
Last thing you ate?: The hottest kind of boneless wings I could get, and fresh onion rings. @_@
What kind of shampoo/conditioner: Suave Naturals--Coconut-scented. >.>;

Ever Had..
Chicken pox: No.
Sore Throat: Yes--who hasn't? O.o
Stitches: No.
Broken nose: No.

Do You...
Believe in love at first sight?: No. That's one of the dumest myths I've ever heard.
Like school?: NO. School is one of my main sources of misery right now. X_X
Who was the last person that called you?: My grandmother, a little while ago.
Do you have glasses or contact lenses?: No, and I won't be getting them. Putting glass in/near people's eyes is unnatural and dangerous, anyway.
Do you get along with your family?: Don't stereotype me, but hell no. Not too terribly well.

Are You...
Obsessive Compulsive?: Thank GOD, no. Sorry, but OCD people drive me out of my mind. x.x
Selfish?: Everyone has a moment or two as a little bitty kid (like 5 or something), but generally, no.
Brave?: I hope so. I try to be, anyway.
Honest?: Yes.
Trustworthy?: Yes, treasonous people make me sick. I've had enough problems with them.
Clumsy?: No, the only time at all is when I purposely get badly sleep-deprived. >.>;

Final Questions:
What did you do yesterday: Went to school, came home, did cruddy homework, ate dinner, studied a bit for a cruddy test, and then played GW for a few minut... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17188565/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/17188565/ Wed, 05 Mar 2008 00:22:00 PST
So, for now, I guess I should tell the truth, especially since I've been feeling like this has been coming a long while.

Saying all this may ruin my spring break, but not saying it's getting to me even worse right now.

Here's what I have to say:

Honestly deviantArt is now more overall like deviantUntrueFanPorn and deviantBully, and I'm feeling like I just can't stomach being around it anymore because it's ruined a lot of stuff for me. Not only that, but I really *can't* handle the bullies and stuff that seem to make up a majority of that fanbase, and this place in general now. I've had enough trouble with those things and people to last me a couple of lifetimes, as well as enough people essentially telling me I'm not allowed any basic feelings, as a person, and that I should not be phased, hurt, upset, or disturbed by anything, ever. Between that and way too many other things I feel like I can't say wearing on me for a long time, I can't take any more extra worry. So I've only been coming here the very bare minimum, to occasionally check on one or two people I know.

That's pretty much it.

This place isn't too much fun for me anymore, so I rarely spend time here.

If you want to talk to me, IM me or something, but I'm not going to be doing loads more around here anymore, at least, not as things look now.

I will leave my account up for now, but I just won't be around very much.

Just thought everyone should know, instead of assuming I died in another tornado or something.

Sorry.

Some really feelingless people somewhere probably think it's funny, I'm sure, but I really AM bothered by all the bullies, feelinglessness, and weird stuff people are putting up, and I really DO feel overall better when I'm not around here as much, I've realised.

So I felt like it might be better for me to just stay away for the most part and just talk to my few worthwhile friends I already have in IM, and not go to any more sites, because they're too full of feelingless creeps, and I sometimes feel like I have enough to deal with these days without that.

My stuff will probably come down at some point if my one or two friends get tired and leave, as well, because then there won't be any reason to stay.

To those couple of friends: Please, don't leave for me. I'd rather you stay, really, if you like even one thing about being here. I don't want to make you do anything for me, because I care less about myself than I do other people in a lot of ways. If I feel badly enough about coming at all, I can always just not do it and let you continue on doing what you do and see you elsewhere. I know one of you really likes graphic design and such, too, so don't toss that out the window because of some loser who plays silly computer games with you sometimes.

Anyway, that's what I have to say, I guess.

Also, before I end this totally, I just want to apologize, sort of:

I really am not doing this to make an obnoxious public stir of some kind, and I'm sorry if it would come off that way to someone, or if my saying this bugs someone in some way. I wasn't even going to say anything until a few different people IMed me about my disappearance. At that point, I realised what people might think, and figured maybe I *should* come back and say something--even if it is messing up my break for a day or so, and making me feel bad at the moment.

Anyway, I figured I'd get this done, since I had some time to now.

See you people, I guess, at some point or other.

EDIT:

I found out just as I was about to leave, that a very long-time friend tagged me, so I figured I would at least do that first.

I guess since this is probably the last thing I'm saying here unless I see very huge reason for things to change, I can say a lot of stuff I wouldn't otherwise say, since I'm likely not going to come back and read any insulting posts in my journal, anyway.

It might be a release for me to do so, and stop about 3+ years of hiding a lot of stuff to the best of my ability. At least people could see more of me for me, and not a bunch of manufactured stuff, and then decide on that if they still want to talk with me or not.

This stuff I'm about to say is one of biggest reasons I've stayed away and not even been decent enough to tell people what's really been happening.

So, here goes. Last forseeable tag, more serious than normal ones.

P.S. Sorry I used your tag to confess what's bugging me in this way. If you want me to do another one with normal stuff, I can and will.

It's just that this has been building up for too long, and I felt in the... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/16744133/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/16744133/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 21:41:06 PST -----------------------------
EDIT: Apparently, this IS out on the news, so I edited the last part. Don't tell anyone if you already read the details I felt safer removing, please.

Anyway, I just wanted to let everyone who might have wondered or worried earlier know:

One came pretty close to our neighborhood, and I seriously thought we were going to die, but it missed by only a few miles--so me and my house and family and friends and pets are fine.

(Although, it's miraculous that we are--that specific one was slated to come RIGHT through here, but JUST missed.)

The bad thing is that they went right through the middle of the city, and there's a lot of damage and probably a lot of people dead, but we don't know yet.

All I know is this:

-A huge warehouse collapsed on the other side of town and a bunch of semi trucks got blown *into* the building, and people are being taken out of there now.

-Part of one of the malls (not the one by my house--other area of town) had the roof collapse in several places, and the wall of Sears is totally gone to the point that you can see INTO the store, like the clothes racks and stuff. The entrance to Sears from the rest of the mall is also completely caved in so you can't even get in and out of the store from the mall itself.

-One especially big tornado came down on top of a nice, upscale shopping center here, and it's so bad they haven't even been able to tell on TV what's happened yet. I'm scared to think how seriously bad it probably is over there.

-A college a town or two away got flattened:

-The dorms there apparently consist of several multi-building complexes, and one of the boys' dorm complexes looked so bad that it was "cut in half", literally, as in the thing went right through the middle of it and flattened every building in its path.

-Another of the boys' dorm complexes has people trapped in a common room type of building that's caved in, and at least one of the actual dorms on that complex had the roof torn completely off, and areas of that building have collapsed, too.

-Possibly worst of all, one of the girls' dorm complexes was so bad that it's completely and totally collapsed.

-It's SO bad that the school's closed for possibly as much as the rest of the month.

Sorry, guys, to rant this off, but I HAD to tell someone--I'm still really scared and stuff, and I just want everything to be ok.

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/16373151/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/16373151/ Sat, 12 Jan 2008 13:44:33 PST

The main thing I don't like about it, though, is that parts of it pretty heavily assume that ALL people draw *and* write, as if those are THE only two kinds of artwork there is, and that everyone can--and does--spend time on them.

01.] What is your pen name?

Pen name? As in, for writing? I don't write, so I guess I don't really have one.

02.] What made you choose this name?

I just said "I guess I don't really have one."

03.] Do you use PC or Mac?
PC, of course.

04.] What programs do you use most often?

For art, or otherwise? For art PS7 (What? It WORKS...), Terragen, very occasionally play with Apophysis.

05.] Do you use mouse, or tablet?

Mouse, especially since I don't actually *draw*.

06.] What color or color combinations do you find yourself using most often?
Some of everything, at all different times.

07.] What part of a picture do you put most effort into?

Nothing specific--I just make things up as I go along, usually.

08.] How long does it take you do draw a picture?
I don't actually *draw*.

09.] Do you keep your rough drafts?
No, because, I don't write. This quiz sure is good at assuming that everyone draws and writes, but does nothing else.

10.] What font do you use most often?

All sorts of weird ones--it varies, depending on the kind I need.

11.] When you scan your image, what DPI do you use?

I almost NEVER scan anything, and I have no idea what DPI means.

12.] Do you do anything else when you're drawing?
I don't *draw*, but I listen to music and talk to friends on AIM when I'm working on something.

13.] Approximately how many pictures do you draw in a month?
I don't *draw*, but what I do varies really widely. Sometimes, I get stuck for months with nothing new, and then at other times, I have massive art dumps where I spout 10+ new things off in 1-2 days.

14.] What kind of paper do you draw your pictures on?
Hmmm...now *what* was it I said about assuming that drawing and writing are the only kinds of artwork?
(I don't draw...got it in your head now?)

15.] What kind of paper do you use for rough sketches and drafts?
Same as above--I don't draw or write.

16.] How long does it take you to ink something?
I don't--I just said why.

17.] Do you do comics, or fan comics?
No, and I don't plan to.

18.] Do you like comics? Are they fun to make?
Not particularly. A lot of them online are either perverted and make my favorite characters gay and such, or else really shallow and sarcastic, so they aren't entertaining whatsoever to me.

19.] Have you ever submitted anything to a magazine?
No, and I don't plan to, since I'm **NOT A WRITER**.

20.] Did it get published?
...did you read my response to the last question?

21.] Who are your favorite artists?
ChaosEmeraldHunter. Great emotes, and other funny randomness. (BOB COMETH! O__O )

22.] Do you like anime/manga? If so, what are your favorite series?
NO. NO NO AND NOOOO. If it weren't for the creepy anime subculture and people trying to copy off of Japanese porn cartoons/comics, people wouldn't be turning my favorite characters gay (when they aren't necessarily said to be like that, really) and pornifying EVERYTHING I watch, read, or play. Not only that,. but there would be a KAZILLION less bullies online, and I could actually talk to other people who weren't LIKE that, because they would still exist.

23.] Do you like cartoons/comics? If so, what are your favorite series?
A couple of old cartoons, but not THOSE kind as mentioned in the last question. o.o;

24.] Any artists that you wish you could draw like?
I can't even draw, so anything would be better than nothing, I guess. If I was THAT obsessed with the idea of drawing, anyway.

25.] Do you read a lot of books?
No. I almost NEVER read.

26.] Did you ever buy a book to inspire or teach you to draw?
I tried to learn for years from all sorts of different ways, but I never could.

27.] Any video games you enjoy?
Legend of Zelda series, Skies of Arcadia: Legends. There are others, but those are my very favorites, and I *do not* like to see people calling the characters gay, so don't even post those kind of comments on here.

28.] Any favorite characters from video games?
Quite a few, probably too many to list, but Link and a lot of... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15972978/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15972978/ Mon, 17 Dec 2007 12:49:39 PST
Each one is going to review the most memorable jokes of a specific year, and they're going to go in order starting with 2000, and covering all the way up through this year--2007.

There are several categories, which are as follows:

New and Important This Year: These are the most big, memorable new jokes created in this year. Why list JUST the more memorable/bigger ones? Overall, there are too many to list. o.o;

The Ones That Endured: The jokes that were not only remembered after this year was over, but were still pretty regularly used at that point in time.

The Ones That Were Once Used, But Faded: The jokes that faded at the end of the year. They weren't forgotten entirely, but they just fell out of common usage. Fear not, though, because occasionally, faded jokes can be resurrected, as we may see in later episodes of The Inside Jokes Files...>.>

The Fads: The jokes that took off very quickly, were colossally-big for a short time, and then suddenly just faded, sometimes *very* abruptly, and were never in regular usage again.

The Jokes That Never Really Were: The things that happened once or twice and were funny and memorable, and we *thought* they would become long-term jokes, but they actually never did.

Seeking Entrance into the Hall of Legends: Jokes that are currently seeking entrance into the Hall of Legends, but are still in debate. For a joke to be accepted, it has to be not only immediately memorable a number of years later, but also must be still in at least fairly regular usage today. However, there is one colossal exception to the second rule: that something is SO memorable that even though it's no longer used as a joke, it still gets mentioned very often in reference to the fact that it was SO ridiculously huge back when it *was* in usage. Needless to say, this can be a VERY fine line, so some jokes stay in debate for a long time.

Hall of Legends: Not just jokes--THE Jokes. The ones that have truly stood the test of time and are still alive and in use today get accepted into the Hall of Legends. For a joke to be accepted, it has to be not only immediately memorable a number of years later, but also must be still in at least fairly regular usage today. However, there is one colossal exception to the second rule: that something is SO memorable that even though it's no longer used as a joke, it still gets mentioned very often in reference to the fact that it was SO ridiculously huge back when it *was* in usage. Needless to say, this can be a VERY fine line, so some jokes stay in debate for a long time.

All that being said, I have one last comment:

These ARE inside jokes, and many are from long before I'd ever even been online, so none of you would know some of them.

In that case, feel free to ask what they are or where they came from, but there are two things to keep in mind:

1) If I would rather not share some embarrassing detail or other of one joke, I don't *have* to, just accept it and move on.

2) ASK AT YOUR OWN RISK. My jokes are not generally nasty or anything, but some of them have the potential to completely weird out the poor question-asker, as well as create bizarrre mental images in said asker's mind. Trust me on this. >_>;

Anyway, without any more pointless rambling, here's the first year!

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Seven Years Ago: 2000:

New and Important This Year:

"That is WEIRD! o.o"

"Licey Hair"

"Locked in the Eternal Bathroom"

"I bet it's the dynasty! >= ("

"Shubadoo...Shubadoo..."

"Emerald"

"Her eyes are going to fall out. o.o;"

"____ is being mind-controlled by [insert evil villain group]!"

"...why did I ever HIRE you...? -.-" (aka "Trapped in the Closet")

"The SUN!? That's not a weapon! >= ("

"**FLUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSH~~!!"

"The Great Evil Dimension-Wide Pillowfight"

"Kaaaaayuuuurraaaaa...Kaaaaayuuurraaa...~"

"TRUNKS! *Bow!*"

"NABOOOOORUUUUUU...@_@"

"I think they're in the house..."

"She's an ELEPHANT! >= ("

"The Intruder"

"Dr. Binky"

"The Wipey Phantom"

"Bobby's 'Restaurant Adventures' " (...don't ask. >_>; )

"VWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...!"

"The 'Venom Cartoons' "

"The Bear"

"The Great HP War"

"Bobby the House Elf"

The Ones That Endured:

"That is WEIRD... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15953317/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15953317/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 02:32:14 PST
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1. I love... ...my friends, but not like THAT. o.o;

2. Right now I want... ...honestly? To finally be able to go to sleep, and have this headache go away.

3. I feel like... ...my head is going to explode--why do you THINK I'm awake at 4 AM doing thing...?

4. I hate it when... ...people claim to be mature, but then they mass-bully total strangers for fun in a totally cruel, conscienceless way that makes them completely *immature*.

5. I fear... ...a lot of things, but I feel weird telling most of them; I've already said more than I felt like I should.

6. I'm lonely without... ...the people I think of as my three best friends--even if I've never seen two of them in person.

7. I need... ....right now, headache relief and SLEEEEEEP. ...and maybe a teething ring. I keep chewing on EVERYTHING. @_@

8. Today I... ...wished it had been good enough weather for me to go out and run in the park or something, because I miss doing that.

9. Tomorrow I'm... ...not sure what's going to happen--after all, how can I know before it happens?

10. I just... ...caught myself chewing the crap out the corner of a towel I used to dry my hair. o.o;

11. I want to meet... ...SLEEEEEP...and teething ring...@_@ No, ok...actually, for a serious answer...I'm not sure.

12. I'm hungry for... ...something SPICY! So spicy it'll set everyone but me on FIRE! >= )

13. I love it when... ...I find a non-perv every once in a while--it seems to be becoming a rarer and rarer treat these days...x.x

14. I'm afraid of... ...seeing the same question twice. >.>; Actually, like I said, a lot of really weird things, and I feel like I've already said too much, so no need to say more.

15. I'm listening to... ...the sound of my computer, my own typing, and the sound of--wait! I have GOT to quit chewing this poor towel. o.o;

16. I'm wearing... ...light blue shorts-type pajamas with little white/silver moons on them, and white slippers with little yellow moons on them. Basically, lots of moons. ^_^

17. I wish I was in... ...some game or cartoon I liked, and not sitting here as an average, boring person with a pounding headache, no sleep, and a horrible habit of nibbling everything around me.

18. I'm craving... ...spicy boneless buffalo wings...the hottest kind I can get. >.>

19. I want to get... ...the thing I just said, AND maybe some potato wedges and some tea.

20. I can... ...constantly make everything around me into something (like a game, etc.) I like--unless I feel really badly at the time.

21. I can't... ...handle people hassling me, especially if it's people bashing me over my not doing stuff I think is wrong.

22. I have... ...been a lot more up-front and vocal about morals and how I feel about them lately.

23. I haven't... ...ever once felt like I've gotten the correct picture of how I really feel about things across to people.

24. I'm nervous to... ...tell people too much about how I really feel--anyone who thinks I *do* tell a lot doesn't know the half of what's really there to tell.

25. My Mom thinks I'm... ...a textbook or a computer something--she acts all like "Erika=school!", and that's all there is to me, is her obsessing over my schoolwork and grades.

26. My Dad thinks I'm... ...just here, to be ignored while he goes in his office to work--he's a total workaholic--pretty literally.

27. I think... ...I'm really not able to define myself to other people--I'm someone different to everyone, I'm afraid.

28. I'm happy when... ...I'm with one of my very, VERY few friends.

29. I'm sad when... ...people bully me and stereotype me as all sorts of unreal, untrue things for even just *thinking* something popular is wrong.

30. I like eating... ...SPICY STUFF! And most sweet things. And meat--especially roast beef.

31. I hate eating... ...raw tomato chunks/slices/etc.! God, if I try to eat THOSE, I physically can't keep them down, and I pretty much immediately puke them up. X.x

32. I love watching... People play with video game glitches. Random, I know, but some of the stuff is SO hilarious sometimes...

33. I love listening to... ...music, but usually a lot of weird stuff like game soundtracks, obscure-ish stuff, etc.

34. I like playing... ...video games, especially LoZ, SoA:L, and GW ( <--- technically an online game). ^_^

35. I hate waking up to... ...either my mom talking really loudly (her voice is LOUD, even when she's not yelling or something), or the severe weather alert radio thing.
~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15952429/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15952429/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 00:01:53 PST
2. My home is... ...somewhere I don't feel very comfortable sometimes.

3. If I had a million dollars, I would... ...not know what to do with it.

4. My best friend... ...might not be who people think.

5. My parents taught me... ...to not enjoy life at all, and then lie about it--whether they meant to or not, I guess.

6. Every day... ...things make less and less sense in some ways.

7. My life... ...isn't what people reading this would assume--I'm not one of *those* kind of people. x.x

8. If I found out my ex was gay... ...this issue would never come up, because I don't have an ex, and won't.

9. Boys are... ...frightening and only care about using girls for...yeah.

10. Girls are... ...confusing, boy-obsessed, obnoxious, and these days, a lot are VERY disturbingly-perverted.

11. I hate people who... ...claim to be mature, but then bully (usually, group-bully) random strangers for no reason, and actually *BEHAVE* with the maturity level of a bunch of cruel, sarcastic, conscienceless 12-year-olds.

12. Last November... ...I finally **REALLY** got into SoA:L.

13. Hickory Dickory Dock... ...the mouse ran up the clock. Yeah, of course I know how it goes...

14. The best invention ever... ...SoA:L...? ...no, actually, I don't know.

15. I love it when... ...I find an actual non-perv somewhere--it's such a refreshing relief sometimes.

16. Sometimes I... ...wish people didn't have a lot of the technology they have now--they're going to kill themselves with it.

17. I work... ...on schoolwork--did people expect me to have some kind of an extra job right now?

18. GO... ...AWAY AND QUIT HASSLING ME! CLEAN-MINDED PEOPLE HAVE RIGHTS, TOO! T-T

19. The funniest thing that has ever happened to me was... ...actually not something I can pinpoint to one, single event.

20. God... ...is something I wish people would just quit bullying each other about and get along.

21. Jesus... ...is something people argue about too much--if he were real, he'd probably be disgusted with how people make him into a thing to attack each other with.

22. Buddha... ...is something you don't hear people argue about--why one religion and not another? People are confusing.

23. My last relationship... ...never happened, because I don't do the whole "romantic" thing.

24. The best movie ever is... ...well...actually, I don't know, because I hardly ever watch them.

25. One weird fact about me is... ...that I think, from what I've seen, technology is probably inherently bad and is going to cause people to accidentally wipe themselves out in my lifetime.

26. Stuffed animals are... ...something you're not allowed after a certain age.

27. I wish... ...I could make everyone stop fighting. Period.

28. My dream last night... ...was horrible: I was nearly drowned along with my family in a car when some kind of wall that was holding back a lake or something mysteriously broke, I lost almost all of my belongings, then quickly found out that ALL my living relatives weren't even real people, meaning I was totally alone in the world, and that the near-drowning incident was done intentionally by some evil group of people who was trying to hunt me down to turn me evil.

29. My first thought waking up this morning... ...wow...it's raining...hard. o.o

30. My favorite kitchen utensil... ...is a fork, because it's the most useful, as you eat nearly *everything* with it.

31. Today I ate... ...steak topped with bits of bleu cheese--it was actually good.

32. Sometimes I swear... ...that I'm a totally different person to everyone I talk to.

33. Politics... ...is ruining my life, because it just makes me feel horrible, and it effects EVERYTHING now, including movies, video games, cartoons, and even whether or not I'm allowed to enjoy holidays with a clear conscience.

34. My body... ...doesn't match up with my age all that well, really.

35. I dream one day I will... ...finally be able to please everyone, I guess. I really don't know what I want.

36. Tomorrow... ...is supposed to be really windy and COLD... o.o

37. Love makes... ...me sick, not because I "had a bad break-up" or something dumb like that, and not because I'm trying to be part of a really bad subculture, but because I've always felt that way, ever since I can remember.

38. Sharpies... ...are those wonderful permanent markers--the metallic silver ones are my favorites.

39. As a child, I... ...didn't realise how messed-up everything is, and I was a million times better off for it.
~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15951561/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15951561/ Sat, 15 Dec 2007 22:17:44 PST
2. )How old were you? Why do you care...?

3. Where did you live? Same house I moved into when I was four.

4. Do you remember your best friends? I didn't have any friends then.

5. What kinds of things did you like to do? Play video games
(N64...*THOSE* were the days...@_@ ), watch cartoons I liked back then, play outside, pretend

6. What did you want to be when you were older? I had no idea, but I told everyone a bunch of different things to make them happy.

7. One memory? Nintendo 64 was still NEW...and rumors were flying about a "3D Zelda game"...

8. EXACTLY FIVE YEARS AGO... 2002

9. How old were you? Once again, who cares...?

10. Did you live in a different place from ten years ago? No, same house.

11. Who was your best friend? Heather.

12. What kinds of things did you like to do? Video games, watch cartoons I liked back then, play outside, pretend, hang out with Heather and act crazy

13. How much do you think you changed from five years ago? A lot--in ways people who know me now wouldn't believe if I told them...in some things, I'm polarly-opposite now.

14. Do you remember being in a relationship? Romantically? No, I wasn't.

15. What kinds of things did you worry about? In 2002...? Never being allowed to do what other people do, never being accepted as a person.

16. Did you have a job? No.

17. Did you have a positive or negative outlook on life? In between--half and half, but more towards the positive side than at some OTHER times of my life.

18. One memory? A certain cartoon I once liked came back on TV for a little while--the hypery obsession resurfaced, and it was loads of fun while it lasted.

19. EXACTLY THREE YEARS AGO... 2004

20. How old were you? Once again, who CARES...? It's a stinking number...x.x

21. Who was one person who was very important to you? My 1-2 online friends, I guess. No one much else at the time.

22. Were you in a relationship? if so how serious? No, I wasn't in one.

23. What kinds of things did you worry about? That my life was sort of over and the only even HALF-good part got wasted by something I couldn't control, and being accused of things I didn't do

24. Name a few of your friends? ...hm...I guess screennames will do: CEH, BlackIsSnuffles, a few others who I don't talk to now and don't want to name.

25. Things you liked to do? Video games, talk with my online friends, pretend/daydream/etc. (as always)

26. Something bad you did or something you regret? I regret that the year ended on a very bad note, and that the next two would be even worse, mostly outside anyone's control.

27. How would you desribe yourself? At the time? Quiet, sorta lonely (LEGITIMATELY AND NON-ROMANTICALLY), daydreamish at times, hiding a LOT from a lot of people (though nothing bad)

28. How happy were you? Not very--but still a lot better than 2005, and parts of 2006--those weren't fun years.

29. One memory? Sitting at my laptop at 3 AM this one time and AIMing this one friend, and us both getting creeped out VERY badly.

30. THIS EXACT MOMENT IN TIME... Now...? Near the end of 2007...?

31. How old are you? ...I thought we covered this.

32. In what ways are you different from how you were ten years ago? I'm a lot less-happier with the world in general (I see how hateful and pervy it's gotten T-T), don't like a lot of things I once did

33. In what ways are you different form how you were five years ago? Less happy with the world in general (same reasons), like even LESS of what I once did, and *now* I've actually been online

34. In what ways are you different form how you were three years ago? Even LESS happy with the world in general (same reasons, basically), like even LESS of what I once did, trust people less, am a LOT more vocal against what I think is wrong--especially perversion

35. Do you worry about the same things as you did three years ago? Sometimes, but now it's more "Is the world going to end/be too ruined for me to enjoy in my lifetime?--they sometimes make it sound that way."

36. Are you currently in a relationship now? No, and I'm just not looking for one.

37. Who is your best friend(s)? Heather, and two of my online friends (CEH and Ris)

38. What is one important thing you have learned throughout all these years? The reason things are so messed-up in the world is that all the people who realise the problems are too chicken to speak up about them.

39. What are your goals or future plans? I really don't know.

40. Do you think you will have the same b... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15920042/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15920042/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 16:04:38 PST
DONEDONEDONEDONEDONE! ^___^

Now I can be up all night and play as much GW as I want! ^_^

TO HYPER TIME--AWAAAAY~!

*ZOOOOOOOOOMS OFF TO HYPER TIME!*

--AND--

*Sings a hyper song for Christmas!*

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15907273/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15907273/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 17:35:42 PST
After Thursday we'll all go bug and frighten those who've missed us! ^_^

'Round and round the mall I'll run, twitching my antennas--and when I find the things I want, I'll bring them home for Christmas!

--BECAUSE--

DARK CHOCOLATE MARZIPAN HEARTS MAKE-THE-WORLD-GO-ROUND~! !^_^!

DARK CHOCOLATE MARZIPAN HEARTS MAKE-THE-WORLD-GO-ROUND~! !^_^!

DARK CHOCOLATE MARZIPAN HEARTS MAKE-THE-WORLD-GO-ROUND~! !^_^!

OH YES, SING A **HYPER** SONG, A HYPER SONG FOR CHRISTMAS!

ALL ABOUT FUN CANDY HIGHS AND--SCHHHTSCHHTZrooooooooooooo...

...

Ok, which of you asparagus-eating MEANIES cut my music...? >= (










(**This song doesn't make sense to half of you, but that's because of an inside joke involving a happy, hyper real-life candy "addiction", a weird emoticon typo I made [said typo is used in the song, and might just so happen to stand out], and something called the "mental images game". It might be better to just not ask. XD )

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15891802/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15891802/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 15:21:34 PST
5 YEARS AGO- 2002:

1. How old were you?

Why do you care...?

2. Were you in school?

Yes.

3. If so, where? What year were you in?

A lousy private school. Enough said. x.x

4. Who was your best friend?

Heather.

5. Were you single or taken?

Single.

6. If you were taken, who were you dating?

I said I was single.

7. How long did that last? Why?

Er...I SAID I WAS SINGLE.

8. On a Friday where could you be found?

At home, with pizza, a friend, and a bunch of video games.

9. Hobbies?

Video games, hanging out with a friend, imagining myself to be in games/cartoons/etc. I was crazy about at the time, ATTEMPTING to draw

10. Where did you work?

I didn't--and couldn't--work at that time.

11. Were you happy with your life?

Not really--I was in a fanatic Southern Baptist school that literally tried to rule my life, including outside of school.

12. Where did you live?

Same house I moved into when I was four.

13. What was the best thing about that year of your life?

Me and Heather got into a fun resurgence (sp?) of an old cartoon interest/obsession thing when it came back on TV for a little while, and we had LOADS of fun with it while it lasted.

14. Given the chance would you change anything about that year of your life?

Ditch the evil Southern Baptist school--I'd have been HUNDREDS of times happier without it.

15. What was your greatest accomplishment at this age?

Surviving said school--seriously. You'd understand if you went there in my specific situation.

4 YEARS AGO- 2003:

1. Where did you go to school? What year were you in?

Same evil Southern Baptist school. T-T

2. Who was your best friend?

Still Heather.

3. Were you dating anyone?

No.

4. For how long and why did it end?

I said I wasn't dating at all.

5. Did you have any hobbies?

Yes--Video games, hanging out with a friend, imagining myself to be in games/cartoons/etc. I was crazy about at the time, ATTEMPTING to draw

6. Was this year better than the previous year?

Not much--but maybe slightly, as I got into a new interest/obsession thing with my friend (we liked said thing a bit before that, but it became a bigger interest at this time) and we had LOADS of fun with it; many inside jokes were made during this time which still persist today.

7. Would you change anything about it if you could?

Yes, DITCH THE EVIL SCHOOL. @_@

8. Highlight of this year of your life?

A lot of the fun times with friend, brother, and his friend--usually times involving crazy things we did, some involving the aforementioned interest.

9. Greatest accomplishment at this age?

Once again, surviving my second year at the evil school and NOT failing the Bible class where I had an angry, excessively sexist teacher who tried to fail me (very blatantly) on purpose, just because he didn't like me. x.x

10. Were you still living at home?

Of course. O.o

11. Overall, were you happy with your life at this point?

No, not really--not really much more than the year before, for sure.

12. Biggest mistake made at this age:

Really, it was 2002 when I made it: finally admitted (under MUCH pressure) to my parents that I didn't--and never had--really believed their religion...and of course, they freaked out VERY badly, in ways that would likely weird out people if I explained.

13. What kind of car did you have? Did you parents buy it for you?

No--couldn't even *drive* at that point.

14. Where did you work?

I didn't work.

15. Did you have an idea of what you wanted to do with your life?
Not at all--the main thing at that time was to get OUT of that school and away from the crazy stuff that was happening there more and more.

3 YEARS AGO- 2004:

1. Who was your best friend?

Heather.

2. Who were you dating?

No one.

3. Why did this relationship end?

I said I wasn't dating.

4. On a Friday night where could you be found?

At home, with a friend, pizza, and loads of video games, or else spending the night at a friend's house doing similar things.

5. Any hobbies?

Yes--Video games, hanging out with a friend, imagining myself to be in games/cartoons/et... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15827560/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15827560/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 21:16:11 PST
Anyway, for a special twist, I'm going to use ONLY my own characters:

1. Ember Faei
(A hyper, happy fire-obsessed teen witch who's always completely oblivious to any and all danger. Her best friend is Syra--another insane, hyper teen witch, who's a water element--and they go on all sorts of hyper adventures together...unfortunately for whatever poor soul they choose to torment--I MEAN--accompany. Ember is especially known for ranting about "Norwegian Shoe Lemmings"--whether anyone else likes it or not.)

2. "Alfonsia"
(According to the random music quiz that created her, she's Alfonso's daughter, and unfortunately, she takes after her father. She also has a VERY annoying obsession [thought not EVEN to the "Mewaru" degree, just a REALLY big, sissy, stupid crush x.x] with Ramirez--who hates her, of course. It's amazing that Mewaru hasn't killed her yet, especially since Mewaru hates Alfonso more than just about anyone else does--and that's saying something. And, yes, there IS a reason her name is always in quotation marks. >.>; )

3. Pi
(Another random music-quiz character. Real name: The First Fifty Digits of Pi--She's a reincarnation of a goddess, who came back as a very...er..."special" angel with a highly obscure and messed-up family tree; her goal is to beat Galcian to conquering the world, and she hopes to win...with an army of attack monkies. O.o She also boasts a number of very...interesting...hobbies that include watching the Dark Rift Channel, obsessing over We Like the Moon [her favorite musical, which stars Sonic the Hedgehog], stripping to the Valuan armada theme, and jumping around in trees playing with cute monkies. As villians go, she's not ENTIRELY a failure--she almost took over the world and destroyed the hero once, even! ...too bad she forgot to lock the door to the base, and the hero escaped. >.>; )

4. Ray-girl
(A nameless part-human, part-bioluminescent stingray born in Deep Sky under apparently completely freak--but also completely unknown--circumstances, who somehow managed to survive being dragged to the surface after her family was killed, and ended up living on Crescent Isle somehow. Unfortunately for the easily-frustrated, she barely speaks a word of English even now, and is so innocent and naieve that she makes Fina seem totally normal. Also unfortunately, her feelings get crushed VERY easily--but that doesn't stop her from being innocently-and-unintentionally annoying when she *is* in a happy mood. >.>; Her abilities include powerful lightning magic, bioluminescence [her body has lots of pretty, glowly lights on it, if you don't know what that means], flight, and big poisonous sting. It also seems that she has an unprecedented tolerance for pressure changes and the like, and can also communicate with rays--possibly other sea life, as well.)

5. Mewaru Hoshitsu
(A joke character [obviously, a sort of silly imitation of the "obnoxious, excessive raving fangirl" type--which I am *NOT*, by the way] that was originally created by a music quiz, but I tweaked her a bit. She's a very loud, obnoxious Yafutoman girl who also happens to be a *very* powerful blue mage. She's obsessed with Ramirez from Skies of Arcadia: Legends, and thinks they were DESTINED to be together. As a result, she stalks him everywhere, and if anyone stands in her way, she has a big crazy fit, which usually turns to violence. Figures that, really--he hates her.)

Ok, so now that I have an assortment of people--some of which who should never, ever meet--on with the quiz.

What would you do if...

1 (Ember) woke you up in the middle of the night?

She would dive on me while shouting "HIIIIIIII, MUGGLE! ^___^", waking me up instantly and scaring me half to death. When I realised what was happening, she'd get right in my face and go "THE LIGHTBULB TRAIN IS IN FINE STANDING WITH THE NORWEGIAN SHOE LEMMINGS, ISN'T THAT RIGHT, MR. LUNAR TRICYCLE!? ^__^". Then, when I managed to pry her off of me, she would probably do something like "decorate" my entire house with a several tons of powered cheese (like the stuff from macaroni and cheese boxes...you know what I mean), cover all my shoes in paint thinner, use magic to permenantly stick all the contents of my fridge to the outside of the car, and name it "THE SNACKIEMOBILE OF DOOM AND FISHIES! ^__^", shortly before sending the entire block up in flames while singing "Oh, Suzanna!" and juggling angry ferrets. I would stare in disbelief for a minute, and then trudge slowly back to bed, trying desperately to convince myself it was all a horrible... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15806588/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15806588/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 12:06:40 PST , who got it from .

1.) Name your favorite book series of all time:

I almost NEVER read, but the one thing that I *did* read outside of school and loved (and became obsessed with for a long while, and am still really into) was Harry Potter, so it would HAVE to be that.

2.) Name everything in your favorites/bookmarked slot in your browser:

O_o; Er...this is going to be too long. Mostly random video game music videos, and random silly things.

3.) Name of the song you are listening to right now:

Moonlight Shadow (one of its kazillion dance remixes)

4.) The next song you will be listening to...

...after this, I have homework and stuff for 2-3 hours. >.<

5.) Name of the book you are currently reading:

HP is over, so nothing. I normally only read junk for school. x.x

6.) Current favorite video game:

Legend of Zelda will *ALWAYS* be my favorite series, and Skies of Arcadia:Legends will *ALWAYS* be my favorite stand-alone/non-series game. ^.^

7.) Weirdest video game you've played (a real one, not a flash game or something like that):

...er...well, Dynamite Headdy and Earthworm Jim were pretty weird.

I know everyone besides me probably says "Katamari Damacy" or something, but I've never played that, so...going to have to go with some older games.

...and there's a thing saying to tag, but I'm just going to leave this for whoever wants to do it.

Also, don't worry--if nothing happens, I should have a much more amusing thing up later on.

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15772386/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15772386/ Sun, 02 Dec 2007 22:44:54 PST
Anyway, here they are.
-------

What would you do if you became your character?
Character: Ember Faei (YAYS HYPER TIME~! ^.^)

1. How would you react?
"...HYPER TIIIIIIIIIIIME~~! ^__^ *BOUNCEBOUNCEBOUNCE!*"

2. How would you handle the situation?
Go insanely hyper and wreck EVERYTHING--what ELSE would I do as Ember? >.>;

3a. What would you do if it happened (in front of a crowd)?
"HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII, MUGGLES! ^__^ *Shoots the words "Feathered Platypi" into the air...*

3b. (at home or in your room)?
"*Sees my computer* @_@ Ooooh...glowy blue thing...REALLY REALLY PWETTY..."

3c. (In front of your family)?
"...plywood quills...o.o"

3d. (lost at some place such as a building or a forest)?
"HEY! I KNOW! I'LL GO FIND SIR HAPPYNOODLES THE TALKING ANTELOPE! HE'LL KNOW WHERE TO GO! ^__^"

4a. What would be the hardest part about your character (physically)?
Nothing, really--we're not THAT physically different--she's human, after all.

4b. (powers, if any)?
...I doubt there would be any difficulty there, besides the fact that my obliviousness to any and all danger would probably get me into a LOT of trouble. >.>;

4c. (mentally)?
I wouldn't be able to be serious if I NEEDED to be. >.>;

5a. Who could you tell about this?
Er...an online-type friend, maybe? My in-person best friend, possibly, though she'd be more freaked out, I think, though, as she gets that way easier.

5b. (friend, like a next door neighbor, you don't have to say their name)?
...er...only possibly Heather--only in-person friend right now.

5c. (net friend)?
I just said--CEH.

6. Would you become a Hero or Villain?
Ember is kind of neutral--just goes around acting crazy and making a mess of everything. >.>;

7. Will you hide yourself or try to live life as normal as you can?
XD Ember--live a NORMAL life? Now THAT's hilarious. "...ALL HAIL THE LORD OF BACON BITS~! ^.^"

8a.There is a cure but...(you have to leave on big journey.)
...AW, BUT THIS IS FUN! ISN'T THAT RIGHT, MR. LUNAR TRICYCLE!? ^__^"

8b. (...you have to switch bodies with someone.)
">= ( No! Not if you were the last Haunted Toilet Oyster in all the Cheesecake!"

8c. (...you have turn a lot of people into whatever your character is.)
...The world is officially DOOMED. O__O;

8d. (...you have to kiss your true love.)
Wait--how am I supposed to kiss my favorite games and cartoons? They're not even PEOPLE. O.o

8e. (...you have to drink medicine every once in awhile to avoid changing back.)
"DOES IT TASTE LIKE CHOCOLATE!? ^__^"

8f. (...you have to become a were-yourcharacter *you turn into them at full moon*.)
...and I thought Lunar Time was bad enough ALREADY...o.o

8g. (...it's only temporarily.)
"...awww, why do I have to change back? I was just about to feed PoppyTarts to the Lightbulbakeets...v-v"

8h. (...there's nothing wrong with it, go on take it. )
...you know, maybe it's better--for the sake of everyone ELSE--that I took this junk and changed back. >.>;

===

What would you do if you became your character?
Character: Pi (Real Name: The First Fifty Digits of Pi)

1. How would you react?
"WHAT THE #&%$^!?! WHY'D I HAVE TO BE PI!? O_O"

2. How would you handle the situation?
Try to find a way to change back--Pi is kind of messed-up--and has some freaky friends and relatives that I'd rather not encounter.

3a. What would you do if it happened (in front of a crowd)?
"Oh #^&#&. O__O;; *ZOOOOM~! FLIES AWAY!*"

3b. (at home or in your room)?
"...OH. MY. #&#&#ING GOD. If anyone walks in here right now, I'll DIE. O__O;;"

3c. (In front of your family)?
"... O____O;; *ZOOOM~! FLIES AWAY!*

3d. (lost at some place such as a building or a forest)?
"...first I'm lost and now THIS!? ...wait! Now maybe I can FLY out!"

4a. What would be the hardest part about your character (physically)?
Getting used to the wings--Pi is an angel, after all...which would be weird. >.>;

4b. (powers, if any)?
...er, once again, the whole angel thing. I have a feeling that wouldn't start off too well at first. >_>;

4c. (mentally)?
...well, being totally messed-up and having the weird ideas of fun that Pi has would be kind of scary.

5a. Who could you tell about this?
...er...maybe CEH, if ANYONE.

5b. (friend, like a next door neighbor, you don't have to sa... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15619107/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15619107/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 10:35:41 PST
YAAAAY for one year of beating annoying bosses, and one year of SoA:L obsession! =^.^=

...and now, I must go get hyper on chocolate desserts. >.>

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15378239/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15378239/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 14:41:29 PST
Why?

Well, I've come on today and things just seem to be getting worse and not better--on top of MANY other scary (and REALLY rude to me personally) things, even someone who I've watched almost since I started here back in early 2005 is verging on making LoZ porn.

YES, GAY SEX STORIES AND DRAWINGS OF LINK.

If she does it, I hope to god she loses every single one of her watchers as a result of her being a freaky pervert and contributing even more to the horridly-bad corruption of basically any and all entertainment in general.

Sorry, but this weird porn stuff has messed up enough things, including most everything I like--hell, it's SO nasty and out-of-hand that I've actually started AVOIDING new stuff based on what I see the fan bases doing: anything that has a lot of perv-fans, I'm not going to even START reading/watching/playing, and that's that.

That's right--there are LOADS of games and cartoons I won't even CONSIDER THINKING ABOUT GOING WITHIN A MILLION MILES OF because of this sex-subculture garbage--as if it wasn't bad enough when people made Galcian and Ramirez from SoA:L have graphic gay sex scenes and even KIDS together, as well as having Ramirez (who is NOT the girly, gay one--Alfonso's the only *truly* questionable one at all, as far as I see--damn it, even his voice clips sound a bit girly, if you don't believe me, go listen to some x.x ) try to force himself on Vyse, not to mention all the sick three way scenes of the main trio (none of which *EVER* get together, no matter what some fans say--if the game was putting any or all of them together, they'd have said, since they went to the trouble to tell us about something as minor as Hans and Urala) and the lesbian scenes of Aika and Fina, and then when people had all the HP characters magically turn into pedophiles and do child rape and/or incest scenes all the time, Remus and Sirius all have sex scenes and kids, Draco and Harry have sex scenes and kids, and SO much more in other games and cartoons, even DISNEY crap now has porn fan clubs and stuff on here, apparently.

Just...god, even though I have a passionate dislike of some of this stuff that gets messed-up the VERY worst, like most anime in general (especially this popular "Naruto" and "Bleaches" and "Dead Notes" or whatever this other sick, dark, morbid filth is called) and Final Fantasy or anything like it or related to it, I actually feel sorry for my few non-perv friends who like any of the above--they have the nasty crap HELLISHLY bad to deal with. >.<

My point is--I'm stepping out. Not closing my account, but I'm staying with not coming here much, especially for the time being.

Sorry, but people have just lowered themselves SO low I can't sit here and watch anymore.

You might go off and call me a fanatic--call me a weirdo--call me an "ignorant, idiot, Bible-thumping Christian" even though I *HAVE* absolutely no religion that I'm part of, anyway--go ahead, I've heard people's junk before, these three terms are NOT new to me, and even though I don't LIKE them, they will NOT be changing how I feel about things.

Do it, and you're blocked--that's all there is to it.

I would have done that LAST time I had trouble with some people, if I'd *known HOW* when the problem got to the point where I needed to know how.

Because last time I said anything, I got told to commit suicide repeatedly, sent all sorts of horrible, insulting, wrong links and pictures, and called a "wannabe whore who covers it up by acting innocent" (which, by the way, is a lie--I'm NOT a "wannabe whore" or anything like it) as well as a VERY bad label-word, in my opinion, anyway, one which I'm NOT in the LEAST--yeah, you potential flamers out there, if you're there, you had better hear me now.

I'm NOT a fake, whiny, attention-seeking ANYTHING.

My feelings are AUTHENTIC--100% AUTHENTIC--and I don't usually even PUT THEM OUT THERE like this all THAT often, and I used to even less, as in almost NEVER.

...but now, things have gotten so much ruder and nastier, including things referencing me personally in IMs and other places, that I feel like I have **REASON** to open my mouth and say stuff--on my OWN page, anyway--not like you immature flamers have to CHOOSE to read it.

...and by the way, on the subject of people who just don't think there's ANY reason for me to say any of this or to be upset, did it ever occurr to ANY of you that, you know--

--maybe I'm just upset because I--uh oh--*GASP*--actually SUPPORT AND BELIEVE IN something as "stupid", "illogical", and "outdated" as MORALS, including and especially NOT BEING PERVERTED?

Maybe that, and the fact that people some way... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15242266/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15242266/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 11:05:13 PDT [] Blood intrigues you.
[x] You prefer night over day.
[] Bats and wolves are your friends.
[x] You wish you could fly.
[] You despise mirrors.
[] Coffins don't bother you in the least.
[/] Living forever sounds like a great idea. (Only if I could somehow reverse it if I decided I wanted to die for some reason, so half.)
[] You can hang upside down for long periods of time.
[] Garlic is your kryptonite.
[] You sleep all day.
Total: 2.5

--Frankenstein--
[] You owe a lot to your creator.
[] Fire is scary!
[x] You are unpredictable.
[] You are very tall.
[x] Little kids are more fond of you than adults.
[x] Most people don't understand you. (They might could, but sometimes I think some of them are too lazy to try. >.>; )
[] Your speech leaves a lot to be desired.
[] You often look a little green.
[] Fashion means nothing to you; it's like you wear the same thing everyday.
[/] You wish you had more friends. (Sometimes.)
Total: 3.5

--Werewolf--
[] You're quite furry.
[x] The full moon drives you wild. (XD Yes--LUNAR TIME! ^.^ )
[/] You often wake up in strange places with no memory of the night before. (Occasionally--not THAT often.)
[] Silver repulses you. (Nothing could be further from the truth. >.> )
[] Dogs hate you.
[] You love raw meat.
[x] You are pretty strong. (Apparently compared to most girls here.)
[] Pentagrams fascinate you.
[x] You feel kind of cursed. (In some ways. Bad luck...x.x )
[] Some of your clothes are shredded and bloodstained and you have no idea how they got that way.
Total: 3.5

--Zombie--
[] Your skin looks gray.
[] You rarely speak, but you do groan a lot.
[] Brains should be one of the food groups.
[] Your clothes are ratty and tattered.
[] You're alive, but you feel dead.
[] Being near fire makes you uncomfortable.
[/] Guns scare you. (Only if someone's about to shoot me--just seeing one somewhere, no, no reason to be that scared.)
[] You're not very smart.
[] You have an insatiable desire to feed.
[] You lost your personality a long time ago.
Total: 0.5

--Ghost--
[x] You have some unfinished business to attend to.
[] You hang out in cemeteries.
[x] You enjoy playing pranks.
[x] Sometimes people act as if you aren't even there.
[] You want revenge.
[] Death surrounds you.
[x] You feel lost.
[] You always have a chill.
[x] You like fog.
[x] You have strange dreams about dying. (Oh yes. o.o )
Total: 6

Ok, so apparently, I'm supposed to be a ghost. O.o

<.< Oh yeah, and if a certain one of you takes this and gets werewolf, I'm going to laugh *so* hard.

Double points if you make an XF typo on the quiz somehow. >.>;

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15151099/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15151099/ Sun, 21 Oct 2007 00:33:06 PDT
Wanting a bit of a break from it, even if it's just a semi-break.

Also not going to search anything for a VERY long while, except maybe abstract wallpaper.

It's just NOT safe out there anymore, and non-pervs, please, after some stuff I accidentally found last night with a couple of game characters...just trust me on that. X.X

Anyway, I guess I won't rush into leaving, but I do need a break, or at least a semi-break.

I'll go with this for now, and see how that works out, I guess, and if it doesn't, I'll take a full break for a few days.

Sorry for before, but I just got too overwhelmed kind tired of everything, especially after a couple of random AIMers hassled me about certain stuff that's outside my control as if it was my fault, and there was extra stuff in real life at the time, too--that part wasn't earth-shattering and (unlike some kinds of people) I'm not going to pretend it was, but it *did* make things look slightly worse at the time, anyway.

Still not at all pleased with how people act online lately, though, and still thinking I'd like to see less of that, if nothing else--how I feel about people being rude, immature, and perverted isn't really going to change--after all, I can't *make* myself like that kind of stuff.

Anyway, it's already 2:30 AM here and I haven't even had a shower, so I'm going to go for now--if someone needs to IM me or something, though, I'll still be up for a while.

It's just that I won't be on here so much as I'll be in both AIM and MSN, and being back and forth/on and off away from the computer doing different things like brushing my teeth, etc.

So...yeah. See you people later, and thanks for being at least somewhat reasonable and patient with everything these last few days.

...and don't worry. I'm **not** the typo of person where this is going to be a regular, every-day occurrence--whether you know it or not, on that one thing, you can definitely trust me.

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15128737/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15128737/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 12:36:21 PDT
I'm not trying to make trouble or anything--I'm not even saying what, if anything, I meant by that--I just want to know if people would.

...because the thought's been bothering me that a few people I know--most, really--would suddenly hate me if anything bad *did* happen and I told them.

..and the more I think about it, the more I guess I just hope it's not true, and that even if I told people everything that *ever* happened, most of you wouldn't go berserk on me or suddenly name-call me or something.

I'm also going to say again--NO, this is NOT to get posts, or "attention" or anything else--no matter how many rude people accuse me of that, I'm not one of those kids, and I only say stuff--usually not even as much as I sometimes want to--when I'm being totally serious about things.

It's just been bugging me for a little while. That's all.

Feel free to say something if you want, but you don't have to--but again, no flames, stereotyping, name-calling, threats, "omg go kill urself!1" comments, or anything else.

If you do, *one* strike and you're out--just ONE cruddy, uncalled-for comment, and you're blocked, probably for good.

I don't like having to sound harsh because I don't like to BE harsh, but I had trouble with people once somewhere else (I made the mistake of saying after four years of silence that I wanted people to quit trying to force cartoon/game porn and sex stories on me), and it was a disaster, especially since I didn't really know how to block people (I didn't even know you could for a long time).

So please, be at least half-civil, or don't comment.

It's like what I told that other set of group-bullies before, of course, which they ignored and continued on long after:

"No one made you come here. If you don't like what I have to say on my page, you can always read someone else's. I don't WANT a fight, but I can tell you I'm not changing my mind on how I feel about this--I can't."

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*Dances--feels SO much better than I have in days*

Here's pics, for those who are curious.

The side of it--it GLOWS. @_@:

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My computer area--overhead view:

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My computer area--horizontal view:

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So yays, it's finally here! ^.^

...and you know, the way my computer area is now, I swear I keep pretending to be one of those game/cartoon villains...

...you know, the kind that are sort of the main evil dude, who hangs out in an eeeeerie dark room in their base watching everyone and everything on their all-seeing, all-powerful security screens. >.>;

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15045620/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15045620/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 14:55:44 PDT EDIT: I *never* said I was leaving--I think someone's already mistaken that, and I've already had to correct that at least once, so no guys, I'm *not* leaving, in case you actually got that idea on accident.

I've said that before, and people wouldn't listen, so please, guys, I'm going to say it again:

I'm not trying to cause trouble or get posts, or any other of that silly stuff. After all, anyone who knows me will know I don't usually post anything serious anywhere all that much.

Anyway, that being said, here's what I wanted to say, calmly as possible. I figured this time, I'd say what I wanted before I lost my temper or something.

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**Blank space before what I want to say.

I've had trouble with people before, and I don't want it again, so if you don't want to see what I have to say on *my* own page, please, just turn back now.

I'd really rather you just be nice, or leave.

Unlike a *few* people, when I say something like this, it's not fake, or for attention--I promise.**








































































































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What I wanted to say is:

I've been thinking, and I'm not sure how much I really want to be around here right now, if at all.

Not anything against anyone on here that I know so much as it is just the general way people and things are right now.

Honestly, I'm tired of the way things are and how people act.

I personally *miss* not being hassled for liking whatever games, characters, etc. I wanted without other people's getting hostile about it for no reason, as well as the idea that I could live without being bombarded with really disturbing smut all the time, filthy stuff that usually goes WAY beyond "normal" or "healthy" in any way, shape, or form.

I'm also tired of the idea that I can't ever be unhappy--being unhappy all the time is a bad thing, yes, but everyone is at *times*, for gods' sake--it doesn't make you one of those awful kids (You know the ones.) to feel bad SOMETIMES.

And also, just--the assumption that because someone is unhappy sometimes, as is really normal (no matter how many people claim it's not), they get accused of being unhappy ALL the time, meaning therefore it MUST be on purpose, meaning they MUST be one of *those* people, and therefore they deserve to be bullied and told to go hurt or kill themselves.

That whole scenario seems totally, completely wrong somewhere.

Basically, I'm really getting tired of the sick online culture--or what it *seems* to be at the moment, based on what I've been seeing, and I don't really know what to do.

I don't want to leave and dump all my friends, and I don't plan to, but I'm really getting overwhelmed by seeing so much hostility, pseudo-maturity, hate, bullying, and everything else around everywhere, ALL the time, over even the smallest things.

It's not a good, healthy thing to start with, and honestly, I've discovered that I have some kind of a weird physical allergy to some of this stuff (I'd explain, but people might laugh or something, I don't know.), so I don't know if I can keep being around it or not.

I don't plan to quit talking to my few best friends in AIM and such, but as for most other stuff, I'm not so sure anymore.

I guess I'm just a little weary of every day being an in-depth study into how horribly bad people can act towards each other and just in general when they have no rules or supervision--which, I've found, is just really scary in ways I couldn't have known even a year or two ago.

After all, if I'd known people on here didn't ACT like normal people everywhere else, I'd have never turned on a computer in my whole life to begin with.

At least I wouldn't be second-guessing my having feelings so much as I do, or doubting that I should like what I like so often.

Anyway, that's basically all I wanted to say: I'm really getting concerned about how bad things seem to be getting (much more bad and, well, frightening in some ways than they used to be), and I don't know how to handle it n... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15027568/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/15027568/ Fri, 12 Oct 2007 10:39:46 PDT
Just in time for most of my fall break!

YAYS! ^.^

<.< Ok now, time for me to go--spending day at best friend's house, to get hyper and scare the family, the dog, and the neighbors.

*Might not be THIS excited, but finally, I'm on BREAK for the week*

BREAK! BREAKBREAKBREAKBREAKBREAK! ^.^

WHEREVER YOU ARE, I'M COMING, BREAKIE! ^_^

*Runs out of the room in pursuit of said break...*

(...and seriously--I *really* needed one this time...@.@ )

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...although, it's got to be shipped from California, so it'll probably take a few days before it actually comes.

After that, though, FINALLY, unless something goes wrong, I should have a computer that actually *won't* freeze or nearly-freeze when I try to play games and such.

...and we know what that means, right, peoples? >.>

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/14878104/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/14878104/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 21:44:38 PDT
Maybe I should just take a break or something--I don't know.

I feel like I'm not getting much out of anything I'm putting up or working on now, like it's more for other people than for me, anyway.

Everyone else is so much better than me, anyway, that I can't live up to their perfect stuff ever, so I don't know if I feel like trying to for a little while--especially since I have no talent for any of the stuff I actually WANT to do, and have no ability to learn--that's already been tested extensively.

...so what I'm saying, I guess, is that I'm thinking about not doing anything on here for a while, and I'm not sure whether to or not.

...and please, if people can't say anything decent to me, just don't comment--I've had more than enough of rude comments on other places I've been before, and I don't particularly want any more.

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/14864637/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/14864637/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 01:16:14 PDT
This time, instead of Mewaru, I've decided to do another character, likely a much less-known and *much* more weird one that was also caused by a random music quiz.

However, she's STILL *my* character, and if anyone steals her, I'm going to be very much *not* happy.

Thou hast been warned. >.>

So this time, I'm using my very strange, and as-yet-unnamed ray-girl.

1. What is your character's name?

Considering she was raised by wild animals, she originally didn't have one--although, the people that found her probably would eventually give her one, although, I never made up my mind what they decided to call her.

2. What is your character's name in another language?

I really wouldn't know.

3. How old is he/she?

Probably somewhere in the 15-17 age range, but is nothing like her age, even probably looking a lot younger and more innocent than she otherwise might...I mean, she's very much NOT normal in any way.

4. What is your character's race/species?

A freak cross between a human and a quite magical and quite bioluminescent sting ray that was created when some unknown magic contaminated what otherwise *would* have been just another giant ray when it hatched out.

Basically, she's a really young-looking (not toddler type of young or something like that, though) girl with dark hair and pale skin. She had a dark sting ray tail/sting, and on her back, she has those huge, dark ray type of fins that spread out to the sides in such a way that they look like wings almost.

Because of what she is, too, she can fly around in the air like a bird (or in SoA:L, a fish O.o ), as well as communicate with other rays, both her giant ray ancestors (which she's actually nothing like O.o ), and any type of smaller ray that she might run across.

Also, she's bioluminescent, so she has colorful lights on parts of her body that she can light up in the dark, and she seems to somehow be able to stand up under ridiculous pressure changes that would kill anything else right away--somehow it's not a surprise, in a way, though, given that she's the result of some kind of magical accident, so no telling what abilities something like that could have given her.

In a fight, she can be really dangerous, too, because she can shoot powerful magic lightning, as well as dart around stinging the hell out of people with that sharp tail. o.o

5. Do they have a crush?

No--honestly, I doubt she'd even know what a crush is.

6. Do they have many friends?

She had her brothers and sisters (which were all rays O.o ) until they were killed, and then after that, she ended up with a couple of new human friends, but not many--after all, most people would be terrified of something dangerous like her.

7. What planet is your character from?

Arcadia, of Skies of Arcadia: Legends...that awesome game that very few people seem to know about except maybe a very few nasty people and only one or two ok ones...>.>;

8. Does your character like to eat?

Yes, preferably raw fish and other small sea animals. o.o;

9. What's his/her favorite food?

Like I said, raw fish, small sea animals, etc. at first, later on...that's still probably one of her favorite things, although she probably would have learned to like some other slightly more normal stuff.

10. What's his/her favorite drink?

Plain water, and maybe some kind of fruit juice later on.

*Imagines the horrors if she was even *allowed* to drink anything else, like anything that could get her hyper, drunk, etc.*

11. Is your character annoying?

If you mean the type of annoying that Mewaru is, not at all.

However, if you mean in general, possibly--she can be sometimes unintentionally, either out of her total ignorance of the fact that something she does irritates other people, or out of some of her not-totally-human behavior that other people just find weird.

After all, I tend to doubt people like it when everyone else turns off the lights to go to sleep, and she takes that as her cue to turn on her glowly little bioluminscent lights and fly around the room/house/ship/etc. hunting for a midnight snack. >.>;

13. Is your character loved?

By other characters she knows? I guess, by the one or two normal people she knows eventually--although, she's still a bit of a frustration here and there.

By other people in real life...? No, just because no one much knows about her, as I never... ]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/14831802/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/14831802/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 19:05:16 PDT What first comes to mind when you first hear the following words?

Axe: Gimli >.>;
Chainsaw: Massacre
Dog: Dixie
Cat: Scooter
Crow: Black
Television: Filthy
Plastic: Plastic wrap
Metal: Sword
Fire: Magic
Water: Mermaid
Pigeon: Crap >.>;
Pie: Chocolate
Blood: Unwelcome
Death: Terrifying
Bunnies: White
Flowers: Girly
Sun: Light
Frilly pink dress: Galcian*

(*No, I do NOT support messing up characters with turning them gay and girly and perverted and stuff when they shouldn't be--this is because in an rp with a friend where a certain character was messing around with a certain type of magic/powers she was encountering for the first time and didn't understand at ALL basically, and...yeah. His outfit got turned into a frilly pink dress, and that was only the *first* magical incident before she learned what she was doing. >.>; )

What first comes to mind when you first hear the following adjective?

Hot: Crap. (As in, "Oh crap, not THIS kind of talk again. >.<" )
Cold: Night
Wet: Miserable
Fried: Unhealthy
Funny: Moon
Sad: Bullying
Forlorn: Forbidden
Happy: Imagination
Hyper: Lunar
Depressed: Bullying
Bouncy: Candy
Stiff: Muscles
Stretchy: Tights
Wobbly: Table
Dark: Avoid
Bright: Follow

What first comes to mind when you hear the following verbs?

Jump: Ledge
Walk: Park
Run: Excitement
Drink: Alcoholic
Fight: Unwanted
Rant: Forbidden
Complement: Fake
Sit: Chair
Stand: Alone
Spin: Rolling chair. >.>;
Call: Phone
Whistle: Loud
Ask: Why
Beg: Forgiveness
Give: Everything
Take: Unsure
Slash: Ruin

]]> ~Caffeine-Master http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/14819800/ http://Caffeine-Master.deviantart.com/journal/14819800/ Thu, 27 Sep 2007 20:45:25 PDT
...and right now, I'm sort of bored, so I might do a couple tonight, so don't be shocked if I have 2-3 new journals tomorrow.

Anyway, here's the quiz:

10 YEARS AGO I...

1. Was still amazed that video games could even BE in 3D--it was so relatively NEW and amazing and magic back then.
2. Didn't even know what Harry Potter WAS, or that it existed.
3. Was probably just starting to hear rumors about a "3D Zelda game", which turned out to be LoZ: OoT, one of the best games ever.

5 YEARS AGO I...
1. Had never even BEEN online.
2. Was still in a fanatic private school that controlled my whole life.
3. Had no idea what Skies of Arcadia: Legends was, or that it existed.

3 YEARS AGO I...
1. Had never owned a cd from a "real" band or singer of any kind.
2. Still was blissfully and **completely** unaware of the fact that people had started making porn/sex pairings/sex stories/etc. out of video games and cartoons, especially ones I liked.
3. Lost my best and only in-person friend to her own issues with peer pressure and a lousy crowd of kids at her new school

1 YEAR AGO I...
1. Finally got into Skies of Arcadia: Legends after being stuck on a single boss for a *very* long time (You just have no idea. x.x), and took it on as a new cartoon/game obsession, pretty much my main one
2. Hadn't even known what the "e-word" was for very long, or that people called people that if they were EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER unhappy about anything, even legitimately for ONE day (and sorry, but I refuse to use it, as I find it about twenty times more offensive than "fuck" now, just because people SO WAY overextend the definition and use it to childishly bully total strangers who aren't the least bit like that, and I don't want to help further that kind of nonsense in any way. x.x )
3. Was in the midst of a very crazy (and very not good, but no, not telling the general public the details, someone'll make something like what I just said in #2 of it if I did, anyway) series of bad luck for the whole family that turned EVERYTHING nearly upside down and backwards, both for good and for bad, all in different areas.

SO FAR THIS YEAR I...
1. Got said best friend back after she had three years to grow up just a teensy tiny bit--or I *hope* so, anyway.
2. Have learned firsthand just how low people can go in the way they treat strangers, and how fanatic some perverts are about forcing perversion on other people--not to mention how most "tolerant" people aren't tolerant so much as they're just biased in a different direction...and seen how much room for improvement there is, I guess--and am hoping that some gets made somewhere or other.
3. Am actually happy with my pictures more, and taking them half-seriously--also started considering actually going to study photography after I finish my school I'm in now.

YESTERDAY I...
1. Might have not done so well on a test in this one class I have to take all by myself (long story) because the teacher made it hard, since he doesn't want to teach me--so it's not my fault. x.x
2. Went to dinner with said best friend, and cheered her up from having to deal with a really immature, rude girl in her class.
3. Think I just accidentally started a new inside joke involving a bunch of random little evil spirit dudes sabotaging a fridge that was hovering around in another dimension where it shouldn't have been.

TODAY I...
1. Got lucky enough to have my least favorite class cancelled. ^.^
2. Was relieved to find out that I did really good on this one homework thing I wasn't sure I had done a very good job on.
3. Actually got my homework done in time to have a free evening.

TOMORROW I WILL
1. Go to the fair with my best friend and get hyper on junk food. >.>
2. Also not have a lot of homework, as I already know what's happening in my *only* class tomorrow.
3. Be getting ready for my birthday, which is this weekend...and I think I might get a certain very great present I wanted ^.^

NEXT YEAR I WILL
1. Finally finish this cruddy school I'm in now, and walk away with the knowledge that even though I didn't enjoy it, I *did* manage to survive it, anyway
2. Go off to another school, maybe to learn more about photography
3. Try to get out of this not-so-great city, even if it IS only temporarily at first, to go away to school.

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