http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:CandlelitxTragedy&section=today deviantART RSS for by:CandlelitxTragedy en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 15:16:29 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/28880376/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/28880376/ Fri, 11 Dec 2009 10:22:07 PST This site seems like a waste of time to me.
Because no one ever critiques my stuff.
They just add it to their favorites without a word.
What's the point of getting a site so that your work can be looked at by other artists,
If none of them are going to give you any tips or anything?

I'm at the point in my life where I really need all the help I can get
when it comes to my photography.
And I'm not getting it from this site.
So...
I'm most likely going to delete it.

theend.
xo

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/27055426/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/27055426/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 13:49:08 PDT =/

And even though I was the one to initiate the end,
I wish he would've stopped me.
Would've said, wait baby, I love you...I'm sorry I've been drifting away.
But instead I get, "I've been thinking the same thing. At least we're on the same page."
Mutual or not...it sucks either way.

Jeez.

xo

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/26589131/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/26589131/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 12:16:42 PDT Lame.
I've had too much summer. I'm ready to go back to school.
Not high school, mind you. Ha, I don't miss it.
I want to start college.
Which hopefully I will in the spring. =]
For Commercial Photography no less.

Anyway, yesterday on Xanga[...and I know many of you have heard of it,
And maybe even used it long ago. But Xanga is one of those many sites losing its flair...] I read a blog called What Men Really Feel or something to that effect.
Well, any time I read something like that written by a man,
My inner feminist comes to life with aggression.
So I wrote a blog on my Xanga replying to it.
If you'd like to read it...
[link]
Anyway, I got three comments on it so far...
Thank God one is from a guy.
I was afraid that only girls would comment it and just agree with me and cheer me on.
I do love a debate occasionally. So I'm glad a guy decided to comment it.

Well;
I'm off to waste even more of my time.
And hopefully talk to my boyfriend, since school is out now.

Later loves.
xo

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/25220497/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/25220497/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 16:11:13 PDT A turquoise-y blue 1995 Ford Contour.
I lovee it. =]

I can't believe I finally got a car!
Transportation has been such a barrier for the past few years,
and the fact that I can overcome that barrier is like,
amazing. hahaha.

And now I can come and go,
[[Still asking my parents for persmission though.]]
without having to worry about how!

I'm happy. =]

xo

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/25076828/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/25076828/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 19:05:52 PDT And May 29th, I graduated high school! O_O


I feel no different.
I mean, it kinda hit me today that when August rolls around I won't be in school.
Which made me slightly nauseous.
But besides that...I don't think it's REALLY hit me yet.

Oh well.

xo

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/24346386/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/24346386/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 16:01:59 PDT Totally NOT as amazing && fantastic as I think a senior prom should be.
=/

but it was okay.
maybe i just have high expectations. haha.

<3

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/24242120/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/24242120/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 16:16:57 PDT prom is this saturday!! =O
i can't believe my senior year is almost over!

i'm "teeheeing" because my boyfriend just sent me a picture of him in his tux.
he looks absolutely amazingly cute.

anyway.
who knows?
maybe prom will serve up some amazing photographic opportunities!

muchlove.
<3

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/23491242/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/23491242/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 14:36:09 PST Happy new year and all that jazz.

It's not that I haven't been taking pictures or writing,
I just haven't had the desire to post.
I'm overly-critical of myself, and that has grown in the last months.

Anyway,
I'm still alive, for anyone who noticed my absence.haha..

I'll try to post more.
=]
Sincerely;
AshleyNicole.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/21302969/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/21302969/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 15:38:20 PST I'm taking this month of November to write a 50,000 word novel.
I have 3,014 words...but I have much more to write for today's quota.

If you happen to know what challenge I'm talking about,
the nanowrimo thing,
then you should definitely talk to me about it!
lol.

<3

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/21027348/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/21027348/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 06:18:51 PDT today i got my first report card of senior year.
ohmydang.
two Cs. one B. the rest are As.
yay that! i suppose.

i've been busting my butt to bring up those Cs.
both are 79s now.
they both started out as like, 60-somethings.
so go me, i guess.

i've still been taking pictures and writing,
even though i haven't posted anything much.
and now,
my friend told me about this site.
from november 1st-30th, you write a novel.
it has to be 50,000 words.
i think that should be an interesting experience,
don't you?

well.
theend.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/19754116/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/19754116/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 14:33:26 PDT and to think it could of been avoided.
Three boys in one car, one in the other,
they were racing on my county's "main highway" while it was pouring rain.
The car with the three in it hydroplained,
and ran off the side of a bridge...
The one who we lost was driving.
The other two, as far as I've learned today, will be okay.
The one in the other car freaked out and drove off when it first happened,
But later the police found him.

For anyone who reads this,
Safety while you're driving can not be taught enough!
I'm seventeen, so don't think that you're being preached to by some old person or someone who doesn't know anything.
This is the SECOND loss that my school has suffered because of a car accident in a two year span i believe.

There is just no sense in driving recklessly,
there really isn't.
Just think about it.
Next time YOU could lose your best friend and have to live with the fact that you were involved.
The statistics are against us...Keep that in mind next time you're on the road.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/19702492/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/19702492/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 15:12:14 PDT My how this summer has flown by!
I've had basically all week off from work this week,
which was weird,
but I work tomorrow && saturday.
*joy*

School starts next friday...
I still have mixed feelings.
O_O

Being a senior is going to be weird, that's for sure!

Well, I obviously have nothing interesting to say,
So goodbye!

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/19389068/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/19389068/ Mon, 14 Jul 2008 11:17:42 PDT At five o'clock today, I will be starting my job at a resturant.
Yay that!

I do hope it goes well..
Nervous? Not too much.
But of course it's only 2:14..

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18952459/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18952459/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 15:26:23 PDT Third time's a charm!

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18475344/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18475344/ Sat, 24 May 2008 07:47:09 PDT today's my birthday. =]

yay for this.
i'd go get my license [finally];
but, go figure.
the place is taking extended leave for holiday.
so i can't get them till tuesday;
which overrides my plans.

GRR!

but oh well.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18325214/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18325214/ Wed, 14 May 2008 17:47:56 PDT

Hopefully I'll be able to get them out soon!

=]

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18244464/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18244464/ Fri, 09 May 2008 15:48:55 PDT You're going out with her; yet you're everything I could want right now.

You held my hand the entire time we were swampin'[lol].
You brushed my hair out of my face && put it behind my ears.
You looked at me until I became flustered.
You told me I'm beautiful; When all I was wearing was a regular tshirt && jeans.
You hugged me tight.
You picked me up when I slipped.
You wouldn't let me fall.
You pulled me close even though you were laying down && I was sitting beside you.

And the best thing...but maybe the worst:

You gave me butterflies
I haven't had butterflies in a very long time;
And it seems as though you're the only one who can make me have them.

Iloveyou.
Always && Forever.
Just like I've always said.

I'm standing here untill you make me move.
Just promise me you'll always look back.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18167954/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18167954/ Sun, 04 May 2008 16:09:38 PDT
Check out my bestie..lol.
[link]

This past weekend she stayed,
So we've been taking loads of pictures.
YAY THAT!!



Anyway,
Check out her stuff.
And of course, always check out mine!

Love<33

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18136723/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18136723/ Fri, 02 May 2008 16:59:39 PDT
'Tis a milestone indeed!

=]]


to all the ones who looked at my page!



[i only wish i had that many comments! hahaha]


lovee!
Ashley.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18009926/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/18009926/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 16:00:12 PDT This always happens to me...
And I'm freakin tired of it.

Once again,
A guy lead me to believe he liked me,
Or so I felt, && everyone else.
And now, he has a girlfriend.

Whatever.
This is idiotic!
I give up.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17816424/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17816424/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 15:27:52 PDT So, I'm trying to start gathering a portfolio of sorts
that I can show to the college I'm going to apply to when I get in my senior year...
I'll be going there to basically major in Photography.

So it'd be nice if you'd help out a bit. Lol.
If you see anything of mine that totally jumps out at you,
Or that you think a college might like,
Or anything like that,
Please tell me.

It'd be SOOO appreciated!
please && thanks!

<3

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17734575/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17734575/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 15:59:51 PDT It's spring break.
A week with [most likely] nothing to do.
And no one to see.
Away from my friends.

Yay.

Maybe this secluded week can either
One: Bring on some new writing/photos.
or Two: Cleanse my mind a little.

Both would be nicer.
But I've come to not expect much.
=]

<3

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17544116/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17544116/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 15:50:20 PDT
i should've known.

usually;
whatever causes me to become numb to all feeling,
leads to causing me to be completely miserable.

GO FIGURE.

so yeah.
yay that.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17511274/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17511274/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 15:00:49 PDT I used to hate being this way,
numb to all feeling,
not caring about anything..

but now I've come to love it.
Maybe even lust after it in a way.
It's so much better than being brought down by the irritations and disappointments of every-day life.
So much better.

So for now I will lavish in my numbness.
And continue to be this way until I feel it's safe to come out of this shell.

Hopefully this won't have too large of an effect on my writing...
But so far, I do believe it has altered my creative intuition a bit.
Ha.

<3

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17349348/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17349348/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 15:19:46 PDT and the stupid frickin tornados.

the military ball got cancelled.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17320962/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/17320962/ Thu, 13 Mar 2008 18:22:15 PDT I'm super excited.
My military ball is this saturday...
and I'm so happy that my date seems to be just as happy as I am about it.
=]

It's not often that I stumble across an honest GOOD guy.
Haha.

Well,
Tomorrow I get to go the elementary school [where we're having it.. in the cafeteria b/c it's huge.] at 2:00pm to set up.
I'm the head of the decoration comittee, so that's pretty grand.
Which means everyone has to do as I say.
=]

Then on Saturday, I'll leave at 5:30 to do my friend's hair [woo!]
and at 6 the thing will be officially started and people will be getting there,
including Daniel. [my date of course.]
I'm so excited!
GAHH!

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/16931651/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/16931651/ Sun, 17 Feb 2008 15:10:32 PST -I always feel like I'm being attacked.
-I'm way too self-conscience.
-A lot of things irritate me.
-I'm a perfectionish when it comes to certain things.
-I don't hate often, so if I hate you, you must've really screwed up.
-I've never been in love.
-Sometimes I want to cry but can't.
-Sometimes I feel like being heartless.
-I do compare myself to other girls often.
-I'll never be happy with myself.
-I'm not aneorexic.
-I love to read & write.
-I'm not who you're looking for.
-I hate falling for people.
-I always fall for the wrong people.
-I halfway hate [D].
-Sometimes I strive for attention.
-I'm conceited because it makes me feel good about myself, if only for a moment.
-I have felt like running away before.
-I'm not bulletproof.
-I'm a fake.
-I crave success, but deep inside know I'll never have it.
-I will always be a failure in my eyes.
-As much as I say I don't care, I do want a boyfriend.
-I have written a story about a life I wish I had. Even though mine is really not that bad.
-I wish things had went differently with [D].
-Sometimes I write bad things about people when I'm mad at them.
-I've never been kissed.
-I wish I weighed 115 lbs. Right now I'm at 111 lbs.
-I wish people would call me.
-I actually really want a date to the military ball. But I know this is impossible.
-Sometimes I think about really horrible things so that I can cry.
-I feel angry half the time & sad/content/empty the other half.
-I like feeling numb, sometimes I even make myself feel that way.
-I have wished I was an alcoholic, because sometimes it seems so much easier to drink yourself into a stupor.
-But don't worry, I am straight edge.
-Everything I say I'm going to start doing, I most likely won't.
-I like classical music.
-Sometimes I can't breathe.
-My favorite picture I own is the one of my and Sam in 9th grade, because we were closest then.
-I have almost every Backstreet Boys cd, and two or three posters.
-The BooBahs show makes me feel high.
-I have a teddy bear named Remus Severus Black.
-I want a snake.
-If I could go to any college in the U.S. besides S.C.A.D, I'd go to Emerson College in Boston.
-I have a soft spot for depressing books.
-I've read a book on Heroin & found it interesting.
-I'd love to be a Substance Abuse Counselor.
-I want someone to buy me roses.
-Guilty Pleasure: The song "the way I are", even though the grammar sucks.
-When I get mad my southern accent comes out.
-My toenails are never unpainted.
-I love dancing.
-I love being this pale. And kinda wish it was more flawless.
-I'm deathly afraid of two things: opossums & spiders.
The End.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/16541661/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/16541661/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 18:22:54 PST And today, the guy that I asked to go with me,
Said yes.
=]]

Silly and a bit of hopeless teen "romance", I know.
But if you had any idea of my bad luck,
and how much he means to me,
even though we're not together,
you'd understand...maybe.
Haha.

Who knows?
Some new poems may come out of this!
I'm working on a story write now..
I've typed eighteen pages so far.
I think it's quite lovely right now,
I think it'll be the first "novel" I ever choose to publish.
When I'm done, I'll post it.
But only then.
You'll just have to wait longer.
Hehe.

MuchLove.<3
Ashley

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/16434026/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/16434026/ Wed, 16 Jan 2008 15:22:48 PST Snow.

Iloveit.
It makes me happy.

I went outside and danced around in it.

Snow.
In MY town.
My town hardly ever gets nice snow.
And it is now.
Please, let it last.

Snow.
<3

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/15997943/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/15997943/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 09:10:36 PST
I'm ecstatic!
Finally I am passing geometry and ungrounded!!!!

=]]]

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/15817133/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/15817133/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 06:06:48 PST On, once again.
Still grounded though.
I'm just at school and refuse to work on this project.

For now anyway.

So I posted ONE new thing.
And right now I'm working on a story.
For Christmas, I'm getting a new totally awesome camera=new pictures.
So yay!!!

The End.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/15573253/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/15573253/ Mon, 19 Nov 2007 07:44:35 PST So I haven't been on in AGES.
Because I'm once again, grounded.
So far, my groundage has kept me offline for about a month and a half.
Reason?
I'm failing Geometry.
Basically one of the most pointless subjects you can possible learn in high school.
Stupidness. And it's like,
I'm trying super hard to bring it up,
but each time a new grade gets put in, it only brings it up ONE STUPID POINT!
Ugh. So now I have a 67.

Anyways.
I logged on maybe...last week when I could,
To see I had a whole crap load of notes.
All of them,
like these stupid little messages like,
"OMG I LOVE YOUR WORK!"
"Okay, so I'm in LOVE with you!"
Etc...etc...all with a link to a poetry contest.
Which I didn't click on.
Like half those people even READ my stuff. I mean,
come on..honestly?
They each had a whole list of people in the "send to" section or whatever.
I've never heard of any of them.
And personally, I took it as a bunch of bullcrap anyways.
So don't send me that.
Unless you've honestly READ my stuff.
And only if you can tell me which poem was your favorite, why it was your favorite, and anything that I could work on.
Thanks.

Well,
I better go.
I have duties to attend to.
I've written some stuff, but I can't post it right now.
TheEnd.
For who knows how long.


]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/15017028/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/15017028/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 15:24:09 PDT I totally broke my camera.
I was taking pictures outside,
and a spider got on the camera.
[me=MAJORR arachniphobic or however you spell it.]

And it deleted all the pictures I had taken,
And now it's like...fried or something.
So me=no camera.
Makes me sad, yes.

well. anyways. that's it.
muchlove.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/14242931/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/14242931/ Sun, 19 Aug 2007 15:47:57 PDT Woot!

How happy this makes me!
It gives me something to live for..
lol.

Anyways...
So I imagine any posts I make will be a little..
eh...
low quality for awhile.
But like I predicted,
School starting back has given me the inspiration I needed!

<3

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13973427/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13973427/ Wed, 01 Aug 2007 15:22:41 PDT Or really any good, quality pictures.

My brain is a little..
lacking of inspiration I suppose.
But schools starts next monday,
i'm sure the drama of every-day highschool will spark something!

haha.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13623558/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13623558/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 16:26:23 PDT [[so that means I don't want to hear about how they "suck balls" as some of you say and such. I like them. I don't care if you do or not. ^_^]]

Anyways..
So we were in the car, with the cd in the player,
my mom dissed on them, and all of my music choices, as usual.
And I don't even know what she said,
But all I remember is she told me, "I can't wait till you're out of the house at 18."
Dad replies, "You really think she will be at 18?"
Me and mom say, "Oh yes. I/She will be."
So basically, she's saying they will kick me out at 18 if I don't get out by myself.
This would probably upset a lot of people if their parental unit told them this.
But you know what?

It makes me smile.
I'm overjoyed that you would actually kick me out of this stupid house,
Run by you, the parental control freak nazis.
If I didn't get out of it myself.

Today has been a good day. But not good for me and mom.
She gets mad, and then takes it out on me.
I haven't cried ALL summer..[[omg, so hard to believe]]
But you have no idea how much she's pushed me..
It's really hard to keep composure when she's having one of her bitch fits.

So yes, I will be out when I turn 18,
If not sooner.
I don't think you'll have to worry about my "Attitude" for much longer.
You won't be able to put down my music...or my friends...
or my clothes...or my taste in guys...or my LIFE anymore.
You wonder why I want to get out of the house so bad..

But I can't tell you, because I actually don't want to make YOU cry.

TheEnd.
<3

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13528487/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13528487/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 17:07:22 PDT
Why is it happening again???
Once again, I am 2nd best, maybe even 3rd this time,
And once again, I'm being overlooked, but my friend in full view!!

But this time it's my BEST friend.
And I don't know what I'll do if she stabs me in the back..
I can't have it happen again.
The emotions I could go through..
Would destroy a lot of things.

Crapp.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13331386/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13331386/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 15:27:10 PDT [[maybe I'll actually FINISH this one.]]
And the whole thing is going to be in poem format.
It's something new I've decided to try,
after reading the novel, "Out of the Dust"
which is also in poem format.

Anyways..
in 2weeks. I will be going to hang out with a bestie.
and it will be amazing.
cuz i get to meet a guy.
who is her friend.
one of the close friends.
and it will be exciting.
^_^

theend.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13267730/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13267730/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 16:19:04 PDT Always criticizing me.
Telling me that I should dye my hair,
And what color I should dye it.

It pisses me off.
It really does.
And I'm sick of it.
People wonder why some kids are always angry,
Always depressed.
Well it's their fault.
People make us this way.
If you're criticizing me,
Then you've got a lot more wrong with you.
Cuz obviously you're having some problem of your own,
And if you ever come to me with said problems,
Then I'll tell you what I think of you and your life with one finger.

Just screw off.
Cuz I'm tired of people's crap.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13191170/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13191170/ Sat, 02 Jun 2007 15:31:12 PDT Went to the mall today,
Went into Hot Topic for the very first time...
[btw LOVED it. Hot guys there too.]
And bought 2 shirts.
Those 2 shirts,
Were the only things I bought.
One is a Gir Tank Top.
And the other is a black shirt with a heart, a broken heart, lightning bolts, and dots.

Woot.
Yesyes.

Me, the horrible shopper. Who has over $100 and only buys 2 shirts.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13078437/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13078437/ Thu, 24 May 2007 16:16:03 PDT and it's been amazing.

ilovethisday.


still missing the friends.
and "him". But whatever.

i'm good today.
because today is MY day.
And it won't be ruined.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13034478/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/13034478/ Mon, 21 May 2007 06:15:56 PDT Today and Tomorrow.
I'm soooo excited
But then again, I'm uber sad and depressed.

I already have that "end of year depression" thing going on, that I usually get.

There's a possibility that one of my best friends isn't gonna come back next year..and that makes me want to die.

My birthday is Thursday though...and on Friday I get to meet this guy I've been talking to on the net that's one of my bestie's friends..so yeah.
Excited.

Eh.Bleh.
Random ramblings that serve no purpose
are often what I give to the world.

TheEnd.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12974098/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12974098/ Wed, 16 May 2007 06:21:51 PDT Doing this project in computer app…we have to make a newsletter of “anything we want to” in other words, a newsletter about our school/county whatever.

Whoo.Hoo.
I’m anticipating getting OUT of here…
I don’t want to make some stupid newsletter on the place!!!
But it will be good practice for my sought after journalism career.
And me and a friend are thinking about starting a school paper maybe..
That would be pretty awesome.

Woot, 8 days till my birthday!!
I’m so happy.
And I have about 5 days of school left..
Because I’m amazing and I don’t have to take any tests.
Well…gotta get to work I guess.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12879229/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12879229/ Mon, 07 May 2007 17:33:10 PDT 2 1/2 weeks of school left.

LIKE WOW.
It blows my mind.

Seriously..I mean...it's crazy.
But, I'm looking forward to next year.

[[Cross Country and ROTC hells yeah.]]

Finally my school got ROTC. I've been waiting so long!
I'm so uber happyness filled!!

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12744593/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12744593/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 15:55:22 PDT I lost another friend today.
But it's all good.
I don't need her.

So yeah.
I'm good now.
That's one problem out of the way!

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12692560/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12692560/ Sun, 22 Apr 2007 13:52:22 PDT It doesn't look like I will any time soon.
This is why I try to stray from stories...
Because I can never finish them,
And that ticks me off slightly.
I have like, 4 or 5 stories started that I can't finish.
Grr.

Anyways,
Life is still as it has been,
boring, dramtic, blah.
I've been taking pictures like crazy..
I may post some on here.
Since it's spring, maybe I'll take some pretty ones.

TheEnd.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12390824/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12390824/ Fri, 30 Mar 2007 15:33:24 PDT things feel dreamlike lately.
it's crazy...like, i'm not really here or something,
looking through the eyes of someone else.
these feelings, of aloneness and fear and paranoia, can they really be mine?
surely not.
after all, it's not supposed to be this way for me now.
i've gotten over all those things,
i should be happy now.
God. so frickin emo...right?

don't agree with that last line.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12231760/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12231760/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 11:40:22 PDT the driver, as far as i know, is still in critical condition.
one passenger is just fine..
but another died at the site.

it's just so horrible and sudden.
you don't think that when you see someone alive and well at school, that it could be the last time..

it's just unreal. i dont understand it.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12119876/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12119876/ Fri, 09 Mar 2007 15:06:06 PST Idk where it will go.

Anyways. . .

Life is better than it's been.
I find myself a little content.
Oh how great it feels when you let someone go that's hurt you for soo long..

*Breathes in deeply*

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12015637/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/12015637/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 15:34:00 PST Or what they could've already done.

all over eachother. leaving after lunch. ugh.

it kills me.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/11684729/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/11684729/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 13:31:09 PST I dont know why.
Obviously something has finally snapped in my nerves...
Yay drama.

end.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/11577914/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/11577914/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 15:46:52 PST I haven't used the word "happy" in forever it seems like!

I'm glad I can use it again! And I hope it lasts longer than it usually does!
He makes me feel worth something.

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/11200030/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/11200030/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 11:47:35 PST
]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/11074547/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/11074547/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 15:34:32 PST That wasn't the best day to tell him I was worried about him...since that was the day he broke up with his gf.
(secret YAY! woot!!)
So I told him that we would just forget it ever happened.
The End

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/11052600/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/11052600/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 15:28:54 PST What am I going to do? I'm so scared...doing this could kill him! Yet he cares nothing for himself....
Even though I care about him with everything I am.
I'm so scared.....

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/10270611/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/10270611/ Tue, 03 Oct 2006 12:01:26 PDT my life totally sucks major crack right now.
yeah.
so you can be sure to have A LOT of emotion filled poems to read!
ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/9097952/ http://CandlelitxTragedy.deviantart.com/journal/9097952/ Sat, 17 Jun 2006 16:30:56 PDT
(001) Your gender: female
(002) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight
(003) Single?: yeah....for now
(004) Birthdate: 5/24/91
(005) Birthplace: hellview
(006) Age you wish you were?:im fine with it now
(007) Hometown: hellview
(008) Hair color: red
(009) The color of your eyes: blue
(010) Piercings:just my ears
(011) Fingernails:right now, nothing. usually black or purple
(012) Tattoos:none

DO YOU:

(013) Smoke:no
(014) Drink: no
(015) Read the newspaper: sometimes i read the classifieds
(016) Bite your fingernails:sometimes..under certain circumstances
(017) Talk to strangers who IM you:i dont really im
018) Take walks in the rain: when it's raining
(019) Drive:when i can
(020) Like to drive fast?hhhhhhhhh yess!!
(021) Hurt yourself:every once awhile on accident

HAVE YOU EVER:

(022) Been out of the country:no
(023) Been in love: i am for the first tim enow
(024) Done drugs:no
(025) Gone skinny dipping:no...i know some ppls who did, and i really didnt wanna know!
(026) Had a surgery: no
(027) Ran away from home:not yet
(028) Played strip poker: no
(029) Gotten beat up: nope
(030) Forced yourself to vomit: no
(031) Gotten on stage:during those stupid plays at school
(032) Slept outdoors: yeah
(033) Slept-walk:my parents say i have
(034) Pulled an all-nighter: couple times
(036) Talked on the phone all night: nope
(038) Slept all day: never past 12 pm
(039) Killed someone:no...wanted to? yes.
(040) Made out with a stranger: no
(041) Had sex with a stranger: no.
(042) Kissed the same sex: no
(043) Done anything sexual with he same sex: no
(045) Broken the law: no
(046) Displayed your naked body: nope
(047) Been on radio/tv: no
(048) Been in a mosh-pit: no..sadly
(049) Had a nervous breakdown: every few months or so
(050) Been criticized about your sexual performance:uh, no.
(051) Had a dream that kept coming back: a few

MATERIAL:

(052) Shoe brand: vans or converse
(053) Music Type: rock...punk...emo/scream/goth.anything like that
(054) Wear hats:yes, i love them!
(055) Judged other people by their clothing:i used to
(056) Wear jewelry: yeah
(057) Favorite place to shop: anywhere
(058) Favorite article of clothing: jeans basically...and a shirt.
(059) Are you trendy: define trendy...but no, prob. not

YOU BELIEVE IN:

(060) Life on other planets: no
(061) Miracles:um.........idk
(062) Astrology: stupid
(063) Magic: no..even tho i love reading bout it
(064) God: yes
(065) Santa: no
(066) Toothfairy: no
(067) Ghosts:no....but sometimes idk.
(068) Birth: is that a trick question?
(069) Love at first sight: depends on how long i stare at them
(070) Ying and Yang: not really??
(071) Witches: no
(072) Easter bunny:no

MISCELLANEOUS

(073) Do you have a fear?:yes, fear itself mostly. and love. and water.
(074) Your current favorite song:Smashed Into Pieces by Silverstein
(075) What is your middle name?:what's that supposed to mean?!?! are you calling me fat?!
(076) Parents together or divorced: together
(077) Do you remember your first love: Yeah, considering my first love is now
(078) Still love him/her: yeah...
(079) Do you consider love a mistake:right now...yes
(080) What do you find romantic:hehehe.........
(081) Turn-on:why do u need to know?
(082) Turn-offreps
(083) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: nope
(084) Who is the person who turned you on most by just their physical appearance:wow.......what a question
(085) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: have i? idk!
(086) Your best-looking friend:hmmmmm....
(087) What is best about the opposite sex: they're not the same sex as me! AHAHA!
(088) What's the last present someone got you?:money
(089) Do you like someone?: yes...a lot.

LAST PERSON

(090) That you laughed at:me friend i IMd
(091) That laughed at you: dunno
(092) That turned you on:well.......yeah
(093) You went shopping somewhere witharents..ugh
(094) Disappointed you:a lot of ppl
(096) Make you cry: sam
(097) To brighten up your day: sam
(098) To s... ]]> ~CandlelitxTragedy