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Note: Julia, you have no say, lol I will write a poem about the both of us.

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]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/28446385/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/28446385/ Thu, 19 Nov 2009 07:46:27 PST [Violent J:]
"And they wanted to know if I would trade 10 juggalos for a 100 main stream fans And I said I wouldn't trade 10 juggalos for a 100,000 mainstream fans 10 juggalos is priceless"

[Blaze Ya Dead Homie:]
I gots love for my homies, members of the Lotus
United we stand, squashing all deadly forces
Been to hell, could of spent eternity there
All the bad shit I've done, I should still be there
Juggalos can ya feel me, feel me, worldwide, worldwide
Running with the hatchet straight out the Lotus Pod
Always got your back till end screaming juggalos
Dark lotus, psychopathic that's the way you go

[Monoxide Child:]
So many people in the matrix die alone, hey
Not me, my soul belongs to juggalos, they
Keep me going when I'm down and out
I pick up the phone drop them a line and here them shout
Saying Twiztid is the shit, and I'm down with the clown
Dark Lotus for life until I'm dead in the ground!
I give a shout to all my homies and killers who keep me started
All my juggalos always representing for the departed

[Chorus:]
Mass murder makes me happy!
Dead bodies make me happy!
until eternity!
I'll always have juggalo family!
Mass murder makes me happy!
Dead bodies make me happy!
until eternity!
I'll always have juggalo family!

[Shaggy 2 Dope:]
6 individuals pedals fall from 1 stem
Who try to run away and not follow any trends, with no friends
Cause we ascend from the same dirt, filth, grit, and grime
Make your mind, juggalo minds to crush mainstream shines
Whats yours is mine it was mines is yours
Let the wagons of the Dark Carnival show you different worlds
Any hoes front a juggalos or the hatchet
Tell them to come suck on your dick, we psychopathic!

[Jamie Madrox:]
All my life I've been living it all alone
I'm like a king with no people and no crown or a throne
And what I'm speaking on is what I'm feeling like
Do you know what it's like to feel the warmth of the sunlight
I'd really like to know cause I've been chilling in the dark
For so many years that I question love in my heart
And I hate everyone, and I hate everything
Except for all the juggalos and the love that they bring!

[Chorus]

[Mars:]
Let me get your ear
I'm gonna make myself clear
Its the L family
Juggalos right here
You can take away my mike
You can take away this life
But the love that we got
It ain't never gonna stop
Were eternal
Past the servant bullshit
Dogs on another level
Can you feel this
It's twisted Blaze and ICP
And if your fucking with my dogs
Boy you D I E.

[Violent J:]
If it wasn't for Shaggy my shirt would still be baggy
I wouldn't be fat, I'd still be hungry and crabby
We used to buy our own records at the stores
So they would think it's a hot seller, and order more
But we built a team of same killers with the same dream
But we couldn't reach the top, we'd stay B level like Charlie Sheen
We finally realized we will always have the juggalos
I'll never give another second, to the mother hoes!

[Chorus x3]
Lotus!!!
Lotus!!! Lotus!!! Lotus!!! Lotus!!!

"And they wanted to know if I would trade 10 juggalos for a 100 main stream fans And i said I wouldn't trade 10 juggalos for a 100,000 mainstream fans 10 juggalos is priceless"

[Chorus x2 repeats and fades out until song ends]

What Is a Juggalo?:
Violent J)
What is a juggalo?
Let me think for a second
Well, Oh, he gets butt-naked
And then he walks through the streets
Winking at freaks
With a two-liter stuck in his butt-cheeks

(Shaggy 2 Dope)
What is a juggalo?
He just don't care
He might try to put a weave
In his nut hair
Cuz he could give a fuck less
What a bitch thinks
He tell her that her butt stinks
And all that

(Violent J)
What is a juggalo?
He drinks like a fish
And then he starts huggin people
Like a drunk bitch
Next thing, he's pickin fights
With his best friends
Then he starts with the huggin again
Fuck!

(Shaggy 2 Dope)
What is a juggalo?
A fucking lunatic
Somebody with a rope tied
To his dick
Then he jumps out a ten-story window
Oh!

(Chorus 2x)
What is a juggalo?
A juggalo
That's what it is
Well, fuck, if I know
What is a juggalo?
I don't know
But I'm down with the clown
And I'm down for life, yo

Southwest? (We juggalos)
Downriver? (We juggalos)
Jefferson? (We juggalos)
Fuckin everybody (We juggalos)

I'm the juggaluggalocoroni
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I am different!!
I'm not normal!!
And I won't back down!!
I will fight!!

I wake up,
Look in the mirror,
And hate myself,
For what I'm not!

I go out,
I'm ready,
To face the world,
To face you!

[Chorus]

Fuck this shit!!
I won't back down!
Fuck this shit!!
I will stand my ground!
Fuck your shit!!
I will not cry!
Fuck your shit!!
Get ready to die!!!

You walk up to me,
You push me down!
You laugh at me,
You fuck with me!

Why do you do this?!
You laugh at me!
Use me,
And watch me bleed!

[Chorus]

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/28242636/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/28242636/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 14:02:13 PST A good place to watch people and feed of their emotions and auras

What are you listening to?
Everywhere I go by Hollywood Undead

White or Black?
Black

What are you most afraid of?
losing the ones i love

Do you type slowly or quickly?
quickly

If a tree falls in a forest, and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?
well yes and no. It would cause the vibrations in the air needed to be perceived as a sound. On the other hand said vibrations would have to stimulate the hairs in a living beings ear to be fully considered a sound.

Have you ever thought of picking up the bass and learning how to rock out?
yes

Have you ever kissed someone just because you feel like it?
yes

Piercings?
Ears

Number?
9

Teacup?
no

Do you talk to strangers?
yes

Gay/straight/bi/alien?
straight-ish

Yes or no?
well...yes and no

Trains are...?
Awesome.

Have you ever wandered just to wander?
Yes.

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I will be waiting right here
Only to roam
When the bells chime like there is no tomorrow (and you're gonna take me home)
Never gonna ever gonna belong to another, no
Never gonna ever gonna belong to another, no

Leave me alone I am not an angel yet

My candle shines at night time through the dawn
But my darling you have fallen and don't belong (and I can't carry on)
My candle shines without a doubt
But the wind in your wings blows them out
And for my arms it is too late
And your wings are gonna have to wait

Leave me alone I am not an angel yet
Leave me alone I am not an angel yet
Not an angel yet

Never gonna ever gonna belong to another, no

My candle shines without a doubt
But the wind in your wings blows them out
And for my arms it is too late
And your wings are gonna have to wait

Leave me alone I am not an angel yet (not an angel yet)
Leave me alone I am not an angel yet
Leave me alone I am not an angel yet (not an angel yet)
Leave me alone I am not an angel yet
Not an angel yet

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/28102817/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/28102817/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 09:14:53 PST Stupid mistakes? I've made plenty.
Caught up so much in my smoke,
So strong it makes me choke.

I used to drink,
So much I couldn't think.
I made others cry,
While I was so caught up in a lie.

So now I'm older,
Starting to grow colder.
But I'm not wiser,
I act like an intellectual miser.

I'm so narcissistic,
That it makes me sick.
Won't let anyone get close to me,
Won't let others see.

How weak I am,
I'm hiding behind a sham.
Can you see,
How pathetic I can be?

My life is not hard,
Yet I still cut myself with this shard,
Of glass,
Hoping it will pass.

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On top of the roof
The air is so cold and so calm
I say your name in silence
You don't wanna hear it right now
The eyes of the city
Are counting the tears falling down
Each one a promise
Of everything you never found

I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump

You open your eyes
But you can't remember what for
The snow falls quietly
You just can't feel it no more
Somewhere out there
You lost yourself in your pain
You dream of the end
To start all over again

I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump

I don't know how long
I can hold you so strong
I don't know how long

Just take my hand
Give it a chance
Don't jump

I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump
And if all that can't hold you back
I'll jump for you


"Forgotten Children"

Just a normal day
Streets turn into graves
Traces have been removed
The search was disapproved
So cold the night
The weak ones lose the fight
Too many of them out there
Noone seems to care

Lost and so alone
Born but never known
Left all on their own
Forgotten children
We'll never hear a name
They carry all the blame
Too young to break the chains
Forgotten children

They see, they feel, believe
Just like we do
They're laughing, and crying
Wanna live here
Like me and you

Eyes without light
Too tired of good-byes
Never felt embraced
And frightened of every face
A life in disguise
Hope forever died

Lost and so alone
Born but never known
Left all on their own
Forgotten children
We'll never hear a name
They carry all the blame
Too young to break the chains
Forgotten children

They see, they feel, believe
Just like we do
The're laughing and crying
Wanna live here
Like me and you

It shouldn't really be that way
It shouldn't really be that way

We see, we feel, believe
Just like you
We're laughing and crying
Wanna live here
We see, we feel, believe
Just like you
We're laughing and crying
Wanna live here
Just like you

"Rescue Me"

This used to be our secret
Now I'm hiding here alone
Can't help but read our names on the wall
And wash them off the stone

I trusted you in every way
But not enough to make you stay
Turn around
I've lost my ground

Come and rescue me
I'm burning, can't you see
Come and rescue me
Only you can set me free
Come and rescue me
Rescue me
Rescue me

We lied when we were dreaming
Our crying was just fake
I wish you could deny it
Here and today

My SOS on radio
The only chance to let you know
What I fear
Can you hear?

Come and rescue me
I'm burning, can't you see
Come and rescue me
Only you can set me free
Come and rescue me
Rescue me
You and me
You and me
You and me

The walls are coming closer
My senses fade away
I'm haunted by your shadow
I reach to feel your face
You're not here
Are you here?

Come and rescue me
Rescue me

Come and rescue me
I'm burning, can't you see
Come and rescue me
Only you can set me free
Come and rescue me
Rescue me
You and me
You and me
Rescue me
You and me
Set me free
Rescue me

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]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/26587973/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/26587973/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 11:12:43 PDT *note that i have no hard feelings towards this friend...i called him the "psychologist" just for the heck of it

me (narcissist): "What's normal but a standard thrust upon us by the unthinking masses?"

friend ("psychologist"):"They only become the masses when you stop seeing their faces.

Freud theorized (much more articulate than myself) that the Pyscho-sexual balance creates the "superego" an aspect of your personality responsible for the proper moral reaction to the typical situation (no special circumstances present). The Oedipus complex is your problem. It's created a borderline narcissistic personality. You need To feel like the down trodden in order to satisfy yourself. Your sexual frustration is just adding to the problem.

All normal means is that you care enough to try.... Read More

I wouldn't worry about it, with age comes understanding. One day u'll fall in love and you will know exactly why people see through you, not because they are unthinking but because their heads and hearts have reached a spot where you cant touch them.

And honestly it's not unfair to ask them to come down to your level for a little but it's totally NOT ok to resent them for it."

narcissist: "yeah...i don't resent people because they are not "down at my level" as you so put it it doesn't matter to me what level ur at (all this speaking of levels makes me think that life is the equivalent of a game, which it's not. There are no levels in life, just those created by ppl who want to feel better about themselves), also i put this up because it was a random thought in my head, not because it's my philosophy or anything. seeing as my life philosophy is "what's the rush?""

"psychologist": "There are no random thoughts. A thought is an overly complex electrical response to stimulus. Life is a game. People just dont how to play for FUN. Putting things on your facebook obviously reflects your thoughts and feelings because FB is an electronic representation of yourself."

narcissist:"...yeah, thanks Dr. how much do i owe you? lol"

"psychologist": "Nothing, I do it for the simple fact I'm still a child at heart and the easiest way of avoiding the gaping holes of my own personality is by attempting to recognize those of others, Brutal honesty has always served me well."

narcissist: "ahh well then you're pointing out my problems to avoid urs...hmmm that's an interesting coping method. i find mine (acting like a wannabe wounded misunderstood outcast) to work just as well."

*your, not you're...oops i messed up. lol
*oh and excuse the phrase wannabe from that statement. I am a wannabe...i don't try to act like a wannabe. lol

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/25917453/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/25917453/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 10:26:22 PDT [x] you own at least 5 black shirts
[ ] you like skinny jeans
[x] you’re listening to music right now
[x] you have painted your fingernails black before
[x] You have more than 300 songs on your ipod/mp3/itunes
[x] Like the color black
[x] hate most girly girls
[x] have dyed ur hair dark
[x] sometimes like to be alone
[ ] hate popular music
[ ] keep hair in front of your face
[x] have given people evil stares
[x] Hate your parents
[ ] Life sucks for you
[x] have been called emo
[ ] Dislike the colors pink, teal and baby blue
[ ] Complain a lot
[x] own a studded belt
Total: 12

PART TWO:

SLUT/MAN WHORE:
[ ] own more than 10 minishorts
[x] have kissed more than 2 people in one night
[ ] have been called a slut
[x] like to drink
[ ] ever wear low cut shirts
[x] have been called a tease
[ ] Flirt with every girl or guy!
[x] love the opposite sex
[ ] Go to parties/sleepovers at least once a week
[ ] own 5 tube tops
[ ] Sit on the opposites lap
[x] you kiss because you think its fun
Total: 5

PART THREE:

JOCK:
[ ] Own at least 5 jerseys
[ ] Have 10 or more trophies
[ ] Wear hair in ponytail like everyday
[ ] Love sports
[ ] Own 5 or more sweatpants
[ ] Dont wear makeup
[ ] Have / had played lacrosse
[ ] Play more than 2 sports
[ ] Can play a sport if you’ve never played it before
[ ] You play/ played Basketball on a team
[ ] You play/ played baseball-softball on a team
[x] You play/ played soccer on a team
[ ] You run/ran track
[ ] You play/ played football on a team
[ ] Been called a jock
[ ] Have set a record
[ ] Are friends with your coach
[ ] Love watching sports
[ ] can do 15 pushups without getting tired
Total: 1

PART FOUR:

NERD:
[ ] wear your pants at your waist
[ ] have/had braces
[x] in advanced classes
[ ] On Math team
[ ] Have all A’s
[ ] Like spending time with your parents
[x] have been called a nerd
[x] are *annoyed* or bullied
[x] LOVE to learn
[ ] Like your teachers
[ ] Watch history channel
[x] never go anywhere on the weekends
[x] Have been called weird
[ ] scared to talk to the opposite sex
[ ] Dont have pics of yourself on myspace
[x] read a book a month
[x] You read on your last spring break
[ ] Have your own website
[ ] wear pocket protectors
Total: 8

If you haven’t noticed The parts represent the 4 high school stereotypes

Multiply each number by 3 then repost as “_% emo, _ %slut/man whore, _% jock, _%nerd”

Check out more great MySpace Surveys at MySpaceSurveyFun.com

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ONE - Spell your name without vowels: Jsph

TWO - Are you single?: yes.

THREE - Whats your favorite number?: 6

FOUR - What color do you wear most?: black

FIVE - Least favorite color?: anything extremely light

SIX - Favorite candy?: chocolate!

SEVEN - What do you smoke?: king sized, full flavour Peter Jacksons

EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now?: not really

NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity?: No.

TEN - What is your favorite class in school?: not in school right know

ELEVEN - Do you shop at hollister/DC/Bluenotes?: nope but i do have some bluenotes jeans

TWELVE - How do you make money?: i dont

THIRTEEN - Who is your best friend?: dn

FOURTEEN - Where do you go to school?: nowhere

FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing?: not really

SIXTEEN - One word to describe you?: weird

SEVENTEEN - Favorite pair of shoes?: my Airwalks

EIGHTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses?: no

NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now?: dn

TWENTY - What should you be doing right now?: dn

TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now?: nope

HONEST SECTION:
Honestly, what's on your mind right now?: too many things

Honestly, what are you doing right now?: chillin on the computer

Honestly, have you done something bad today?: nope

Honestly, do you watch disney channel?: lol. NO!!

Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?: my Pastor Alan

Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?: No

Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?: ignorance, mine or other ppls

Honestly, do you bite your nails?: Yes

Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?: No

Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?: No

Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like?: maybe...
---------------------------------------------

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?: Yes.

Can you dance?: does moshing count?

Can you do a cart wheel?: nope

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: no

Can you whistle?: Yes.

Can you wiggle your ears?: Yes

Can you wiggle your nose?: no

Can you roll your tongue?: no

Can you make a clover with your tongue?: no
----------------------------------------------

ANGER SECTION:
What do you do when you’re mad?: I listen to music

What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?: attacked someone

Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: yes
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CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: yes

Ever cried yourself to sleep?: yes

Ever cried on your friends shoulder?: not recently

Ever cried over the opposite sex?: yes

Ever cried over the same sex?: no

Do you cry when you get an injury?: No

Do certain songs make you cry?: yes

Do certain movies make you cry?: yes
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HAPPY SECTION:
Are you usually a happy person?: nope

What makes you the happiest?: random things

Does being with your friends make you happy?: sometimes

Do you believe in yourself?: depends

Do you wish you were happier?: yes

Is being happy overrated?: no emotion is overrated they are all part of being human

Can music make you happy?: yes
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LOVE SECTION:
How many times have you had your heart broken?: 3

Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them?: yes

Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said ‘I love you’?: Yes
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HATE SECTION:
Do you actually hate anyone?: kind of

Have you ever been on a hit list?: not that I know of

Are you a mean bully?: No

Do you hate George Bush?: I don't hate him, I hate the mess he made
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SELF ESTEEM SECTION:
Is your self-esteem extremely low?: pretty low

Do you think you're good looking?: no i think the opposite (no matter what anyone else says)

Do you wish you could be someone else?: No.
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LOOK AT ME:
What is your current hair color?: dark brown

Current piercings?: ear

Have any tattoos?: no

Straight hair or curly?: messy
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CHICKEN!!!!


I like chicken, I like pizza, I like chicken pizza!!!!



I'm PsYcHoSoCiAl!!!!

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]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/24375261/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/24375261/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 10:46:32 PDT
NAME? Joseph Dean de Beus
AGE? 19
BIRTHDAY? November 9, 1989
ASTROLOGICAL SIGN? Scorpio
EYE COLOR? hazel green
NATURAL HAIR COLOR? dark brown
HAIR LENGTH? short
WHERE DO YOU LIVE? Cambridge Ontario
WHEN DO YOU GET UP? 11:40
WHAT IS YOUR FIRST THOUGHT? why am i wake?
WHAT DO YOU DO FIRST? brush my teeth
DO YOU EAT BREAKFAST? no
WORK OR SCHOOL? neither
HOW MANY HOURS DO YOU WORK OR GO TO SCHOOL EACH WEEK? n/a
WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU GET HOME? write poems or play video games
WHAT TIME DO YOU GO TO BED? whenever i want
SLEEP ALONE? yes
ANY PETS? well the friends I live w/ have 2 dogs
HERITAGE? Scottish, German-Jew, and Native Canadian
SIBLINGS? 1 brother
YOUNGEST OR ELDEST? i'm the youngest
SHOE SIZE? 12
LEFTY OR RIGHTY? lefty
NICK NAME(S)? Inu or trench coat
WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Norwich Connecticut
LASTS:
PERSON YOU TOLD YOU LOVED THEM? my gf
TIME YOU CRIED? yesterday
WERE IN A CAR? last week
ATE AT A RESTAURANT? last week
SLEPT SOMEWHERE OTHER THAN YOUR OWN BED? lol a long time ago
WENT CAMPING? 2-3 years ago
SLEPT IN A HOTEL/MOTEL? a long time ago
SMOKED A CIGARETTE? last night
SAW YOUR PARENTS? dn and don't care
WERE IN A CLASSROOM / SCHOOL? last November
DOWNLOADED SOMETING? too long ago to remember
MOVIE YOU WATCHED? dn
WENT TO THE LIBRARY? today
WERE SICK? right now
ATE A FRESH PICKED FRUIT OR VEGETABLE? too long ago to remember
PERSON TO CALL YOU? see last answer
PERSON TO TEXT YOU? see last answer
BOOK YOU READ? dn
SONG YOU HEARD? All These Things I hate (revolve around me)
THE FUTURE:
GOING TO COLLEGE? I hope so
PLANNING A TRIP? not really
PLANNING A MOVE? yes
MARRIAGE? I hope
TYPE OF WEDDING? dn
IN A CHURCH? hopefully
BEST MAN / MAID-OF-HONOR? dfn
WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE? dfn
WHAT WILL YOUR JOB BE? dfn
KIDS? hopefully
HOW MANY? 2
THEIR NAMES? wtf? how tf am I supposed t.f.n.?
WHERE WILL YOU RETIRE? d.f.n
DO YOU CONTRIBUTE TO A 401(K)? ??? wtf is that?
YOUR IDEAL PARTNER:
FIRST THING YOU NOTICE? personality
DRINKER? maybe
SMOKER? maybe
HAIR COLOR? doesn't matter
HAIR LENGTH? see last answer
EYES? ditto
WEIGHT? average
HEIGHT? average
STYLE? anything but compete girly girl
IS MONEY IMPORTANT? no
TATTOOS? dn
WANTS KIDS? dn
HAS KIDS? dn
WHAT QUALITIES DO YOU LOOK FOR? dedication, fun personality
FAVORITES:
FAVORITE COLOR? Black
FAVORITE ANIMAL? Wolf
FAVORITE PET? dog
FAVORITE AUTOMOBILE? 1967 Chevrolet Stingray Convertible
FAVORITE FLOWER? lol none
FAVORITE MOVIE(S)? any Harry Potter (series), Star Wars (series), Sweeney Todd, and the Dark Knight
FAVORITE BOOK(S)? almost any
FAVORITE AUTHOR(S)? too many to list one
FAVORITE SMELLS OR SCENTS? Chocolate
FAVORITE MALE NAME(S)? Joe, Cain
FAVORITE FEMALE NAME(S)? dn
FAVORITE NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK? Coke
FAVORITE FOODS? Pizza, Cheeseburgers, (who am I kidding? I love almost anything as long as it's edible and won't make me sick/ kill me)
FAVORITE PICTURE OR ARTIST? dn
FAVORITE SEASON/TIME OF YEAR? Fall/Winter
FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK? WHY? dn
FAVORITE VACATION SPOT? dn
FAVORITE CANDY? Chocolate
FAVORITE TV CHANNEL? comedy
FAVORITE TV SHOW/SHOWS? to many to list
FAVORITE ACTOR? Johnny Depp and Heath Ledger
FAVORITE ACTRESS? dn
FAVORITE DESSERT? black forest cake or death by chocolate cake
FAVORITE ICE CREAM? triple chocolate
FAVORITE HOBBY? writing poetry (duh!)
FAVORITE HOLIDAY? all of them!!
FAVORITE QUOTE? Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.
Friedrich Nietzsche

FAVORITE BIBLE VERSE? “Let him who is without sin cast the first stone.”
FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPINGS? meat lover
FAVORITE SOAP? Axe body wash
FAVORITE STORE? Randy River or West 49
FAVORITE COLOGNE OR PURFUME? Adidas
FAVORITE GEM? emerald
TALENTS:
ANY SECRET TALENTS? not that i know of
PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS? a little guitar and drums
ROLLERSKATE? no
SKATEBOARD? used to
MOONWALK? lol no
EAT WITH CHOPSTICKS? nope
COOK? a little
SING? yes but not very well
MULTI-TASK? depends
DO BACKBENDS? ?
A SPLIT? ow, no!
DANCE? mosh lol ( and a little slow dancing)
HAVE A GPA HIGHER THAN 3.9? no
KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO THE NATIONAL ANTHEM? American or Canadian? (yes to both)
ARE YOU DOUBLE-JOINTED? no
CAN YOU SPEAK MORE THAN ONE LANGUAGE? not fluently but i speak a litt... ]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/24357506/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/24357506/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 09:33:06 PDT 5'10''

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
no

3. Do you own a gun?
no but I own knives and swords

5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents”?
lol no if they don't like me well too bad

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
Barbequed

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
Silent Night as played by the Trans-Siberian Orchestra

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Monster

9. Can you do push ups?
a few

10. Is your bathroom clean?
for now

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
all of them!!

12. Do you like painkillers?
yes
14. Do you have A.D.D.?
I like chicken!!! Wait..what was the question again?

16. Middle Name?
Dean

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
a) I'm confused about my love life (or lack of it)
b) I'm a failure
c) I want to punch something

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought:
a) cigarettes
b) see last answer
c) ditto

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
a) sugar water
b) Coffee
c) Energy Drinks

20. Dream car?
1967 Chevrolet Stingray convertible

21. Favorite Concert?
Def Leppard

22. Current worry?
What I did to make the person closest to me want to avoid me

23. Current hate?
hypocrites

24. Favorite place to be?
at home listening to Disturbed at full blast

25. Least favorite place to be?
my own head

26. Where would you like to go?
Anywhere but here right now

27. Do you own slippers?
yes

28. What shirt are you wearing?
Punisher muscle shirt on top of a black short sleeve

29. Do you burn or tan?
BURN

30. Favorite colour(s)?
Scarlet Red, Emerald Green, Gun Metal Grey, and Pitch Black

31. Would you be a pirate?
no a Ninja!!

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
We Are So Last Year by Hawthorne Heights

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Werewolves

35. What's in your pockets right now?
too many things to list

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
something a friend said

37. Best bed sheets as a child?
wtf?

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
head cracked open 7 times

39. Childhood memory?
playing video games

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
one

41. Who is your loudest friend?
dn

42. Who is your most silent friend?
dn

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
ha don't make me laugh!!

44. Do you wish on shooting stars?
Once in a while

45. What is your favorite book?
Too many to list

46. What is your favorite candy?
chocolate!!!

47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
dn

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
Helena by MCR and When I'm Gone by Eminem

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Spinning a fire staff

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
WTF!!! Why did I even wake up?!!!

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"When I'm Gone"

[Introduction]
Yeah...
It's my life...
My own words I guess...

[Verse 1]
Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armor
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain?
"Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane
"Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy
Daddy's writing a song, this song ain't gonna write itself
I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around in that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby...

[Chorus]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

[Verse 2]
I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing
"You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?"
Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more, "Daddy you're lying
"You always say that, you always say this is the last time
"But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
"Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...

[Chorus]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

[Verse 3]
Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,"
But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'
"You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad
"And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad'
"That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin
"I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are going"
But baby wait, "it's too late Dad, you made the choice
"Now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..

[Chorus/Outro]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you h... ]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/24091844/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/24091844/ Mon, 06 Apr 2009 11:08:23 PDT Also I have an inspiration for my poem based on Somewhere I Belong!

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1. Smoked
2. Drank alcohol
3. Cried when someone died
4. Been drunk
5. Had sex
6. Been to a concert
7. gotten/given a handjob
8. gotten/given a blowjob
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

@ 91%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom
16. Cried at school
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18. Went streaking
19. Given or receieved a lap dance
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room

@84%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sexs house
23. Kissed a stranger
24. Hugged a stranger
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done serious drugs.

@ 76%

31. Played strip poker/darts.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
40. Been in love.

@ 69%

41. Frenched kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.

@ 59%

51. Watched a person die
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.

@ 50%

61. Avoided somebody
62. Been stalked
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

@ 45%

71. Got caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

@ 39%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over or 3 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore

@ 31%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped

@ 23%

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1. poetry is my way of expressing myself

2. Im not to manly to cry in public

3. i like the movie the Bucket List

4. sleep is my best friend (lol just kidding but i love it none-the-less)

5. the only thing im afraid of is losing those who are close to me

6. I listen to emo rock

7. reading books is my favourite pass-time

8. I have few close friends and many acquaintances

9. Im almost always confused

10. I have problems telling ppl some things about me

11. I regret almost everything that ive done in the past

12. I love dogs

13. I love to eat

14. I wear eyeliner and paint my nails

15. i call myself a goth but really im a emo punker

16. I think that people are way to complex

17. Meeting new people is hard for me

18. my self-esteem is virtually non-existent

19. I doubt if i will ever find a girl that will go out w/ me

20. I like the dark and find it comforting

21. I'm random

22. I love chocolate

23. I'm very loyal

24. I'm trying to find where i belong in the world

25. I'm smarter than I say i am

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(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That Im not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that Ive got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain Ive held so long
(Erase all the pain till its gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like Im close to something real
I wanna find something Ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And Ive got nothing to say
I cant believe I didnt fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That its not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
Cause I cant justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like Im somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like Im somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/22523643/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/22523643/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 11:31:06 PST biological: Joseph Dean Pierce
age
19
gender
Male
shoe size
12
height
5'11"
eye colour
hazel green
hair colour
dark brown
ok these ones are all your favourite things, starting with colour
black and red
food
pizza
hair style
fohawk
jelly bean flavour
n/a
website
facebook
number
6
item of clothing (descriptions are better than just 'my T-shirt'
my Joker t-shirt
moving on again now, pepsi or coke
coke
chocolate or vanilla
chocolate
tv or books
both
staying in or going out
mostly staying in
friends or family
friends
myspace or facebook
facebook
nail polish or natural (guys just say if you like girls to wear it or not)
nail polish (on me)
art or sports
art
past or future
present
left or right
left
odd socks or matching ones
either
tea, coffee or neither
coffee!!! and energy drinks
hot or cold
both
fly or fall
fly, then fall
run or ride
run
sing or scream
yes
watch or join in
watch
dance or laugh
laugh
just pick one now, continent
Europe
type of sweet
Chocolate bar
girls name
Angel
boys name
Cain
fizzy drink
dn
what makes you? happy
random things
sad
a wide variety of things
giggley
funny jokes
obnoxious
what, me obnoxious? lol dn
sleepy
not enough sleep
hungry
no food
empty
???
cold
cold weather
bouncy
a wide variety of things
mature
me? mature? never!! lol
immature
everything!!! lol
loud
loud music
shy
meeting new people
next, describe your dream person starting with gender
female
eye colour
doesn't matter
height
see last answer
hair colour
see last answer
smart or sassy
yes
droop dead gorgeous or stomach crampingly funny
average looks and stomach crampingly funny
give three other qualities they would need
a good personality, a good head on their shoulders, and higher than average weirdness factor
are you single
yes
do you drink
yes
what do you think about smokers, or say if you do
i do
ever punched someone
yes
if yes did they deserve it, if no say rar
yes
what word or phrase do you use wayy too much
fuck
got a mobile?
yes
if yes what make if no say meh
Blackberry
tell me something no one knows about you (dont worry i probably dont know you)
no it's a secret
what job do you have
right now none
what job do you want
Psychiatrist or Social Worker
where are you
Cambridge Library
wearing any jewellery (say what)
two earrings in my right ear
did you right 'what' in that last box because you arnt wearing any
no
be honest, did you change what you put in that box when you saw the next question
no
which part of your body hurt last
my wrists
do you know why
no
would you kill someone to save someone you truly love
yes
are you spontaneous?
somewhat
if you had a choice how would you want to die
in my sleep
what would you want on your gave
i want to be cremated
what would your last words be
n/a i'd die in my sleep
if you could hug anyone right now who would it be
no one
are you alergic to anything
yes
where would you take someone, on a first date
movie
to break up
their house or mine
to propose
somewhere private
to apologise
anywhere
to say 'i love you'
see last answer
if you had three wishes what would you wish for? (in the next three boxes)
unlimited money
wish 2
invincibility
wish 3
to posses the ability of pyrokenesis
if you could do one thing for the world what woukd it be (ANYTHIING)
eliminate poverty
when have you been the happiest do far in your life
dn
when do you think you will be that happy again
dn
when will you be happier
dn
anything you want me to know
no
why did you take this quiz
cause im bored
how long did this take you
13 minutes
would you do it again if you knew how long it was
yep
do i sound like a nice person
dn
can i have a hug
no!!
say something to make me think
if E=mc2 whats you're potential energy level?

I tag--Cheesepuff do it now!

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001. Name → Joe
002. Nickname(s) → Inu and Trench Coat
003. Status → Single
004. Zodiac sign → Scorpio
005. Male or female → male
006. Elementary → Lots of running around
007. Middle School → being a pain for my teachers
008. High School → boring
009. Smart → intelligently stupid
010. Hair color → dark brown
011. Long or short → Medium
012. Loud or Quiet → Both
013. Sweats or Jeans → cargo pants
014. Phone or Camera → phone
015. Health freak → no
016. Drink or Smoke? → yes
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → no
018. Eating or Drinking → yes
019. Piercings → two both on my right ear
020. Tattoos → None, yet

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → right ear when I was 18
024. First best friend → Ibrahiim Abdul-Rahman
025. First award → honour award
026. First crush → Brittany McCarthy when I was in grade 6
027. First pet → don't remember
028. First big vacation → St.Martin/St.Maarten
030. First big birthday → I can't remember...

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nothing.
050. Drinking → Nothing.
052. I'm about to → read
053. Listening to → Papa Roach
054. Plans for today → sleep

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → most likely
059. Want to get married? → life partner
060. Careers in mind → Psychologist or Social Worker

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes → yes
070. Shorter or taller? → Either
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantically spontaneous. (Stolen from CheesePuff)
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → both
074. Sensitive or loud → Not too sensitive, not too loud.
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship.
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → Troublemaker.


HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → yes
081. Ran away from home → Yes
084. Broken someone's heart → I don't know
085. Been arrested → yes
087. Cried when someone died → Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE:
089. Yourself → some times
090. Miracles → Yes.
091. Love at first sight → don't know
092. Heaven → don't know
093. Santa Claus -> no
094. Sex on the first date → maybe
095. Kiss on the first date → yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. ???
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → 60% of the time
099. Do you believe in God → God and Godess
100. Post as 100 truths and tag → I tag... chicken pizza!!!

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Sehnsucht - in meinem innersten ein Tor
vergangene tage flüstern Worte in mein Ohr
es ist der Wahnsinn der in diesen tagen zu mir
spricht - wahnsinnig vor Trauer
dass das herz zerbricht - das eis das uns alle umgibt vermag niemals zu
schmelzen
ganz egal wie stark man liebt - und sei es auch für Jahre - für die
Ewigkeit des Lebens
alle Hoffnung - alle Worte - all das jammern ist vergebens - wenn die Kälte
dich umgibt
und frisst dich langsam auf - dann nimmt das sterben - endgültig seinen
lauf - seht mich an...
das bersten eines Spiegels - das letzte Kapitel eines stummen Buchs mit
Siegel.

wenn die letzte Nacht beginnt
wenn der Mond das Firmament erklimmt
wenn das Blut alter Wunden nun gerinnt
dann ist alles längst gesagt!

Leichen über Leichen schaufeln sich ihr grab - die Nacht des Todes - und
ich habe versagt
ich versuchte dich zu halten - versuchte dich zu lieben – du hast mich
vergessen - was ist mir geblieben - von all den tagen von den stunden - in denen
wir vereint - nichts ist mehr übrig - nichts außer meinem Leid - ich hab
dir viel gegeben - noch mehr hast du genommen - ich hab viel verloren
doch du hast nichts gewonnen - außer der klage - und ich prangere dich an -
kannst du leben mit der Schande - die du uns angetan?
deine lügen - deine Habgier - deine macht
über mich...sie ist vergangen...
DOCH SIEHST DU MICH?

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]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/18448611/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/18448611/ Thu, 22 May 2008 14:22:51 PDT throwing my life away
why cant i be free?
I do this every day

I think im losing my friends
although i dont know why
Its amazing how far the truth bends
you wont know until you try

Im putting on a mask
trying to hide
Im drinking from this flask
Trying to slide
Into this pit
of hurtful lies
From behind this shit
Under blood red skies

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/14090320/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/14090320/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 12:44:20 PDT Why do i hafta die?
Why must i say good-bye?
Why must i always cry?

Why do i feel this way?
Why do i have to pay?
Why must it be today?

Why do i sit here wallowing in self-pity?
I know that there are people in the world that have it worse than me.
There are those whom i've hurt myself,
Those i've seen suffering, but never helped.

I never realized how blessed i truly am,
I was never really there for those who were there for me.
I listened when they told me their fears, but i never heard what they had to say.

In my life i've made many people cry,
But every time someone did the same to me i asked "Why?"
I tried to be as hard as stone,
In the end i felt alone.

I used to think that no one could understand me.
Now, i realize that i never gave anyone a chance.
All it took to make me see my folly was one stupid action.
Words of anger and hate that were unfounded.

Instead of asking the one who was closest to me what was going on,
I listened to those who don't care, and that was oh so wrong.
Due to my stupidity i caused that person pain.

Now i still ask "why?"
Why did i have to be stupid?
Why was i content to be blind to those around me?
Why did i have to pretend?

I don't know

What i do know is that nothing will change unless i actually try.
Just sitting here asking questions accomplishes nothing.
I just wish it didn't have to take this long for me to see:
The only one who can change me:
Is me

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]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/13378613/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/13378613/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 08:37:20 PDT To move forward?
Why do i keep falling backward,
Onto this bed of nails?

Why do i always make life hard for myself?
Why can't i just try to do something right for once?
I keep making excuses for myself, telling lies.
So that i can just sit here, watching my life pass me by.

You can't alter the past.
Can't change the future.
All we have is here and now.
So why can't i accept that?

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12975072/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12975072/ Wed, 16 May 2007 11:12:19 PDT No one believes me,
When I talk about how I feel.
This world is as cold as steel.
Its hardness makes my mind reel.
I have wounds that I can't heal.

No one can see me.
No one can free me,
From my cell.
No one can free me,
From this hell.

I'm all alone,
here in this box of stone.
Somone please help me.
I don't want to be,
This way.
It's as if life is making me pay,
For the things I've done.

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12949999/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12949999/ Mon, 14 May 2007 07:22:42 PDT Help me see,
What's going on.
I hide from the coming dawn,
Cringing as the first ray of light touches my face.
Running away from life at a break-neck pace.

What went wrong?
What happened to this thing that we've had for soo long?
I'm so lost,
I can't find my way through this maze of frost.
This faceless throng scares me, and I cannot hide
My fear tears me up inside.

What have I done to you?
Why did I beat you black and blue.
Why did I just stand there while you were in pain?
Why did I smirk while your tears fell like rain?
Can you tell me who I am?
Am I real or just a cruel sham?

I really want to change, it's true.
I really want to get better,
Can't you tell by the contents of this letter?
I really do care about you even though it seems like I don't.
People tell me to forget abut you but I won't.
I can't.
So if you can find it in you to forgive me
Please let me know.

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12877560/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12877560/ Mon, 07 May 2007 15:18:14 PDT It's becoming a trend,
For me.
I've gone and hurt you.
I never really planned to.

I never saw what I was doing to those around me.
I just kept on going, only worrying about me.
Why couldn't I see the hell you were going through?
I just sat in my shell while I beat you black and blue.
Now my actions have come and bit me in the ass,
I'm totally suprised by what has come to pass.
Unfotunately there is mo excuse for me.
Or should I say fortunately?

Now that I have nowhere to hide,
All I have left to do is swollow my pride,
And actually try to change.
This feeling of resolve feels kinda strange.

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12602942/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12602942/ Sun, 15 Apr 2007 09:00:14 PDT Or am I just really lazy?
I am falling apart at the seams,
And it's driving me crazy.

I want to help those around me.
Yet they don't want me to.
The world continues to astound me.
I just need someone to help me through,
This life.

Life is great,
Life sucks.
Noone seems to give a f****,
About how I feel.
I am I real?
Or am I just a character in some twisted story?

The only way to escape from life is through death.
Death of the mind or death of the body it does not matter which.
But is life really that bad?
Do I really want to make a choice that will make those I leave behind sad?
The answer to such a question is no.
Even though it seems like I have nothing to show
For my life.
No matter how hard life gets I will move on.
I will continue to be strong.
I will continue to live.
Will you?

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12275641/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12275641/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 18:35:36 PDT I try to feel but it's too much strain.
I want to know what you're thinking,
While I lie here sinking
further into myself.
I try to trust,
My heart is covered in rust.
My brain is ice cold,
my dreams have been sold
to the highest bidder, leaving me bitter.
I want my heart back.
I want to be myself.

]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12231483/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12231483/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 11:15:06 PDT Do you really want to know?
I am as hard as ice, and as cold as snow.
You ask me to describe myself.
I won't even try.
I hide behind contless masks,
Deep within a lie.
I can't tell you who I am,
I don't even know.
How can this be?
The person I lie to the most, is me.

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]]> ~Canis666 http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12093262/ http://Canis666.deviantart.com/journal/12093262/ Wed, 07 Mar 2007 13:16:46 PST
We can embrace love; it's not too late./ Why do we sleep, instead, with hate?/ Belief requires no suspension to see that Hell is our invention./ We make Hell real; we stoke its fires./ And in its flames our hope expires./ Heaven, too is merely our creation./ We can grant ourselves our own salvation./ All that's required is imagination.
-The Book of Counted Sorrows

This is absolutely correct. People rely on religion to tell them wether or not they are going to heaven when all they have to do is what they feel is right, and feel good about doing it. THAT is salvation.

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