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]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/18256117/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/18256117/ Sat, 10 May 2008 11:13:18 PDT
Some of you know and some you don't know that my parents are divorced (thank god). As this is britain and a supposedly civilised nation, he had to start paying us child support. That was... eleven years ago and for a time things were working out fine.

Then, two years or so ago, my father took early retirement, getting 50 THOUSAND pounds as support funds and immediately making sure to inform the CSA (child support agency) so as to get our policy adjusted so that he wouldn't have to pay us anything. (We'd had some problems at the beginning with him switching jobs as often as possible so the CSA could never force him to pay anything, so we were waiting for him to figure something out).

Only, the CSA, in their government ways, took two years to get around to making a proper survey and adjusting the pay. Only, during that time they'd still been taking the money out of his acount and putting it in my mums.

So they figured out that nearly six grand had been paid to us that shouldn't have been... And sent us a poorly spelt and frankly rude letter saying that we would have to pay it back.

I'd like to point out, we wouldn't be getting child support if we weren't already at the lower end of the financial ladder. Not only that, but my mum has leukaemia, which has one rather major trigger for coming out of remission. Stress. Don't worry, we were fortunate. But rather understandably furious.

So, as you can imagine, we refused to pay. In fact, we started taking action. Mum wrote to the local MP and then started collecting information on other cases that had been handled so poorly. She started talking to lawyers and considered going to the media, especially since a lady had just recently been on the news furious about her own (rather appalling) case.

Then we got a timid call. "Um, we've decided to review your case and, um, to write off your debt. We'll ah, even give you some compensation!" (It was only £70 but we were too happy about the loss of debt either way).

Well you can imagine our joy at that moment!

Now we've gotten even more good news. Father-dearest had re-employed his method of skipping about from job to job and spending some periods of time completely unemployed so we'd had even more difficulty getting the rest of the child support deal sorted out. Then Sophie discovered he'd started working abroad by a slip of the tongue from his long-term girlfriend. Mum phoned the CSA and asked them to do another review to see if we should be getting any money now.

They got back to us within a few weeks this time *happy grin* to inform us that yes, in fact we should be getting some money and that daddy-dearest would have to pay us in arrears for the time he spent skipping about too, considering the fact that he's actually got quite a bit more money than us now and is earnning a decent amount too!

So finally, some good news (brilliant news!) that has provided us with some much-needed reassurance!

I'm not going to count my chickens too fast though! Who knows what method he'll employ to get out of paying us next? *rolls eyes*

But yay for good news! And with the lovely weather we've been having lately I'm feeling... Languidly happy!

Love to you all!

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/18253191/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/18253191/ Sat, 10 May 2008 07:19:18 PDT

How much of your teenage life have you messed up?

[ x ] gotten detention - (ple~enty of times!)
[ ] gotten a phone taken away in class
[ ] gotten suspended
[ x ] gotten caught chewing gum (Got caught once and managed to spend the entire rest of the time not getting caught! Well they were always on about dental hygiene in primary *shrugs*)
[ ] gotten caught cheating on a test

Total so far: 2

[ x ] arrived late to class more than 5 times (5 times? Just about EVERY class I've been on!)
[ x ] didnt do homework over 5 times (I agree, what was the point? I kicked every single failure opinion into the ground, so it worked for me!)
[ x ] turned at least 3 projects in late (Procrastination is my worst flaw!)
[ x ]missed school just because you felt like it (hehe, it got even easier in sixth form too... *sheepish grin* I was such a bad kid!)
[ x ] laughed so loud you got kicked out of class (... *cough*)

Total So Far: 7

[ x ] got your mom, dad, etc. to get you out of school (I hated school when I was younger, I stayed out as often as poss.)
[ x ] text people during class (all the da~amn time!)
[ x ] passed notes (lol, we had whole conversations just in passing notes... only ever got caught once *so proud*)
[ x ] threw stuff across the room (paper plane! *wheeeee*)
[ x ] laughed at the teacher (hasn't everyone?)

Total So Far : 12

[ x ] been in a fight at school, fist, verbal (Pretty much every type imaginable. I was an angry kid *muses*)
[ x ] taken pictures during school hours (there was a contest in one my classes to see who could get the best photo during a lesson, I didn't win but it was fun trying!)
[ x ] called someone during school hours (both on purpose, and by accident... *sheepish grin*)
[ x ] listened to ipod, cd, etc during school hours (I got bored easily. Used to read in class too!)

Total So Far : 16

[ x ] threw something at the teacher (I honestly didn't mean to! It was a magazine and she'd told me to give it to her, I put it down on her desk with a bit much force and it slipped on some papers and landed in her lap... Got yelled at for ages! I'd rather get told off for something I meant to do!)
[ x ] went outside the classroom without permission (agreed, when you gotta go you gotta go!)
[ x ] broke the dress code (had a nose stud! Got hunted down for the rest of my school career, but I went over the deputy-heads... head, and argued it out with the headmaster who let me off! NYAHA!)
[ ] failed a class
[ x ] ate food during class (sweets mostly)

Total So Far : 20

[ x ] gotten a call from school (pa~ainful... *wince*)
[ ] couldn' t go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[ x ] didn't take your stuff to school (lol, felt like a plonker!)
[ x ] stuck up finger when the teacher was not looking (Fortunately never been caught, but I know some people who have!)
[ x ] cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear you (Urgh *covers eyes in embarrassment*)

Total So Far : 24

[ x ] faked your parents signature (*cough*)
[ x ] slept in class (And snored! *groans* REALLY embarrassing!)
[ ] cursed at teacher
[ x ] copied homework (heh, usually after I've decided it's not worth doing and had sudden change of heart!)
[ x ] got in trouble with the principal (... skipping school...)

Total So Far : 28


*Multiply by 3*
Repost as "I messed up ...% of my teenage life"

84%... lol oh dear! *grins*

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/18199775/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/18199775/ Tue, 06 May 2008 16:36:08 PDT
Wow. You know, that's kind of a deterrent to even bother looking at your deviation. Why?

What if I don't want to litter your inbox with "Awww cute!" or "Looks good!" messages? What if, I love your picture, but I can't decide what it is that I like the most? Or that I'm shy? Or that I just can't think what to say? What if I'm dyslexic and prefer faving images due to grammar/spelling-nazis? Perhaps I'm working at a computer with a broken keyboard and still want to show my appreciation for your image in some way.

I like faving. I prefer it to commenting. Yes, my reasons are up there; though some of them I've heard from others. Faving means I don't want to just leave a meaningless sentence on your piece, or that I can't find anything to criticise and, instead, love your picture so much that I want to save it in a place I'll get to look at it again and again. Perhaps later on when I've enjoyed viewing it a few times I might decide I want to tell you just how much I like it, although I certainly won't even consider that if I then get a message from you saying "Uh, comment, idiot. It's just plain rude.".

Actually, that's far more likely to get me to tell you where you can shove your comment. And yes, that's a real message I got. I won't say from who, I like to think I'm a LITTLE less vindictive... *cough*

By all means, message me and ask me what I liked about it. I'll more than likely answer politely and tell you. I see no reason why not. Leave a note in your description that you would like comments. Not something telling me that I'm a lazy lay-about if I only fave. It's rude. And offensive. And I know a good deal of people who get quite annoyed and upset about it. We show our appreciation. In some ways, we show it even more by faving. It tells you that we want to see it again, we want to remember it, we want to have it somewhere nearby.

I can understand that it gets frustrating getting so many faves and little in way of comments. Hell I've had that happen to me too. But alienating those people who've chosen to show appreciation for your work in whatever small way they could is certainly not the best way to get comments. Just pick a name, send a polite message asking calmly if they would be so kind as to tell you why they chose to fave your work. If they say no, move on, ask someone else. There is always someone who's probably just been a bit harried and unsure of how to phrase their thoughts at the time and will likely be more than happy to just give you a brief (or extensive) answer. And yeah, I'm one of them (and it'll probably be extensive in my case!).

I'm sorry to all those wonderful people who are always grateful for their faves, especially to those who comment "thanks" on a deviant's front page. I'm just, annoyed. Aggravated. And I know this probably won't even matter to most people, but I want to get your thoughts. Argue your case! Do you prefer faves or comments? And why one or the other? Do you get upset by the messages or do you completely agree with them?

I'm curious and I'm not going to slate you for your views! I'm just annoyed with the rudeness that some people employ. I completely support polite requests!

Let me know what you think?

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/17628912/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/17628912/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 10:43:03 PDT
E~evil DA!

... I wanna Flareon... *cries*



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And YAY for NO MORE LENT!!! *gorges self on chocolate*

Hope everyone had a good easter!

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/17290753/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/17290753/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 17:39:09 PDT
I got an A in psychology, B in biology and a C in English Lang/Lit for my first A2s! Yay! And two cs and a b for general studies, but if ANYONE knows the point of that course I'll be freaking amazed.

Other than that, life's been a bit more than difficult lately. I've got a few decisions I really don't want to make and we got a letter from the CSA that's knocked us right off of our feet just after we'd finally managed to get our selves above water. Our financial situation has gone to frigging pot and I've learned things about people that have turned my life upside down. My mum's stress levels are through the roof and that could be lethal in her condition and one of my friends is trying to "convert" me because she thinks I'm a sin against nature.

Still, at least I've got my health.

*cough hack wheeze*

Oh you bastard.

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No one got it right by the way, and no I'm never going to tell you! A clue, you were looking in the wrong direction!

Though the cheese theory was interesting... *laughs*

Still smiling. That will do for now.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/17182784/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/17182784/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 16:11:30 PST Then it will just end. A light thump and the abrupt absence of all. A short ache before everything abandons me.
It's a seductive thought, this encapsulation of nothing. A sultry breeze upon an over-heated mind. I can't deny it; air has the uncanny habit of invading everything. My straining fingers loosen to its touch, the nails splintering as the bare face frays away beneath my palm.
This is not how I would have chosen to go. My fingers still grapple for their hold even as the muscles yield to the cajoling breath. There's still a part of me, a piece of the core, that hungers for the touch of the negligent sunlight at the top of the cliff.
But the warring of the factions within serves only to weaken my hold further; to distract me from my already wavering focus. I can feel the relaxing of tendons, the unfurling of joints.
There's no time for me. I used it. In the end I realised I hadn't been holding myself up at all. I'd hidden from it. Escaped it by crawling away inside the facade I'd so carefully constructed. The fault was only my own.
It's too late to finally understand; to finally comprehend. Falling is all I have left; the only decision left to make.
Forgive me for making it.

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Stop! Don't panic! This is not what it appears. Things are never that simple. At least, not with me.

I wonder if anyone will ever read this the way I do. You need to let go of your misconceptions; let go of everything you ever thought you knew. If you look at it without the already-shaded glasses then perhaps you can actually see.

It will be interesting to see if anyone bothers to try, and interesting to see the opinions of those who do.

Good luck! *smiles*

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On a far more important note; all my love and support to Emily. I'm always here. Always. Love you hon *hug*

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/17030811/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/17030811/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 19:02:51 PST
I've had three cups out of a cafetiere already.

... Which would indeed be why it's now three in the morning and I'm still dancing around.

But I so~oooo don't care!

Orgasm in a freaking mug. *shivers*

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16816748/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16816748/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 12:33:36 PST Well, inoffensive until my little sister found her place in it at least. She had developed the unfortunate teenage affliction (usually restricted to the male of the species, but displaying its incredible infective power) of forgetting simply to remove a plate, pick up a piece of clothing, or tackle the frightening mechanical beast termed "The Hoover".
It was one of the worst cases I had ever seen, nigh indescribeable. The victim had proven incredibly vulnerable to the disease and showcased some of the worst symptoms ever to plague a human specimen.
We falteringly made our way inside, breathing shallowly and grimacing to try and escape the sickening scent. With our hands shielding our sensitive noses, we stepped inside, beginning the perilous adventure. Bin bags in hand and survival bags full of Domestos and bleach seated loosely on our backs, we nervously surveyed our task.
And what a task it would be! We settled straight into it, hauling our way over mountains of creased and stained clothing, before carefully tip-toeing in and out of a seemingly insurmountable obstacle course of unwashed crockery and other things we were too repulsed to identify. There were several hairy moments, times when my other sister nearly succumbed to the penetrating reek of age-old food; or when Spencer was nearly crushed under a landslide of various books and dirty knickers.
But we prevailed. Strong in our belief that what we were doing was right, we surged on, hauling shirts and underwear into the strategically placed wicker washing basket; cringingly removing dish after dish and shying away from the moss that crept over the sides of mugs; gasping one final breath of clean air before diving into the foul labyrinth that lurked under her resting place.
It seemed to take days. In truth, with all of us helping (except, of course, the absent little sister herself) a task that should have taken lifetimes took us merely hours. Finally we stood, proudly surveying the wonders we had wrought; the shy sparkle from a pristine surface; the tender waft of a fresh breeze through the unearthed window. Delighted in the beauty we had returned to this place, we waited triumphantly for the return of the slovenly child who had wrought the terror in the first place.
With her first step through the doorway we rushed to tell her of what we had done, pleased with ourselves and sure she would be grateful. She gasped in shock, then ran up the stairs to gain her first look at the amazing feat we had done.
We stood grinning at each other, sure of our thanks, until a scream rang through the house. Racing up the stairs we begged to know what was wrong, not understanding what cold have escaped us in our gruesome task.
And from the mouth of the beast herself came only these words; "What have you done!?! You've screwed it all up! I hate you! How could you!" Then, with rage in her eyes, she slammed the door in our gob-smacked faces.
"Well," said Spencer, startlement written across his features. "Glad she likes it."
And we stumbled confusedly away.
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True event! Though perhaps embellished a little bit! Amusing as hell after we'd gotten over our indignation *laughs*.

http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16458137/ Fri, 18 Jan 2008 11:03:48 PST
*so bored*

My last exam for two weeks, so all I wanna do now is go out and have some FUN! I wanna go and dance in the middle of the street, or create a chain of people dancing to Time Warp in the middle of the pub (true story! so much fun!).

ARGH!!! Why am I the ONLY one not working tonight!?! *selfish pouty mood*

... Uh... Not alcoholic btw!

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16357140/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16357140/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 12:31:08 PST

RULES
1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

Random Facts:
1. I can stick my tongue through my teeth with my jaw shut! Seriously!!!!
2. I deserve to be FOUR TIMES the size I am... nyom nyom chocolate!
3. When I get hurt (cut, bruise, that sort of hurt) I giggle. How mad do I seem now??? *grin*
4. I have to draw people naked before I can draw clothes, otherwise they just look silly!
5. I have a whip! (Alex got me it for my bday the big perv!)
6. I'm going to change my RL name! (when I can afford it! I'm gonna LEGALLY be Rollo!)
7. I find knuckle-cracking not only a HYU~UGE turn-off but it also makes me SO GOD DAMN ANNOYED!
8. I have never broken a bone!

*laughs* what a nice normal one to finish on! oh well!

Not tagging anyone this time since I've already done it, but anyone can nick it if they want!

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16340306/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16340306/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 07:31:33 PST
]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16324420/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16324420/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 02:41:26 PST

Look what Emi dear got me for christmas! It's HYUUUGE!!! *cuddlesnuggle* Love it!!!

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16320737/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/16320737/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 18:56:34 PST
I'm procrastinating... SHHH!!!

(at 3 in the morning btw)

... *faceplant*

Next journal will be a collection of all the groups I'm currently a part of, so that I have them all in one place. (for once!)

Toodles!

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/15915252/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/15915252/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 09:49:18 PST 1. Put Your itunes, windows media plyer etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
ATTACK!!!! - 30 seconds to mars <3

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
It's My Life - Jon Bon Jovi (HELL YES IT IS!)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The story - 30STM (again) (ooooo, now actually I like this one!)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Since U Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson (WTF???)

WHATS YOUR LIFES PURPOSE?
Song to Say Goodbye - placebo (Great, WMP thinks I'm suicidal. Thanks.)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Getting Away With Murder - Papa Roach (BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! LOVE!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Was It a Dream? - 30STM (yet again) (does this mean they think I'm schizophrenic???)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Time to Dance - Panic at the Disco (oka~ay...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Together - Avril Lavigne (again... oka~ay...)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Simple and Clean (remix) - Utada Hikaru (Nyahaha, Maths is evil but let's run with it!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
Imagine - A Perfect Circle (My best friend is IMAGINARY!?! This lends proof to the "Was it a Dream?" answer!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Simple and Clean (original) - Utada Hikaru (hmmm... Don't know about that!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
The Bitter End - Placebo (Oh come on!)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
It's Good to be in Love - Frou Frou (awwwww!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Breaking the Habit - Linkin Park (... um... huh?)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Spitfire - The Prodigy (BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Not gonna argue!)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5 (That would be hellishly difficult to dance to)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Maneater - Nelly Furtado (OH THANKS ALOT!)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off - Panic! (IT IS NOT!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Tyranny Normality - Papa Roach (go me!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Pure Morning - Placebo (um what?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Can't Stop, Gotta Date With Hate - Lost Prophets (awww no! I love you all really!)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS:
Hall om Mig Nu - Nanne Grovalle (well... that will be interesting!)

No tagging! Steal if you want!

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/15914933/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/15914933/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 09:18:00 PST

lol

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/15823910/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/15823910/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 16:27:02 PST
L was amused. And despite what certain people (Light) thought it took a lot to amuse L. Simple knock knock jokes and pranks were wasted on him; he'd already figured them out by the time the punchline arrived. So it was rather surprising actually that L was amused, and the subject matter wasn't exactly the norm either.
Light was taking a shower. An unimportant, innoce- well, maybe not innocent, considering L's position - long shower. Boring to many (except those who longed to know what lay beneath those fitted sweaters, L mused) yet L was very thoroughly amused.
Why? Well, that was astonishingl simple actually.
Light had dropped the soap.
Let it slip right out of his hands in fact. L was admittedly well acquainted with that particular brand's wiley slippery powers; he only continued to buy it because of his addiction to the jelly-baby smell. But his knowledge of it's evil ability didn't stop him from being amused at this. Oh no. What made it particularly funny, were Light's foiled attempts to get it back without bending over.
Why Light didn't simply squat down and get it L didn't know. Well... he did... It was that damnable pride the Yagami boy held. But that was not the point. What was, were the frustrated growls Light made whenever the soap slipped from between his foot and the side of the bathtub for the umpteenth time.
L was glad he had the camera recording this right now. He was sure it would provide hours of entertainment during the boring night hours ahead.
"L," He looked up to see Light's vaguely twitching face glaring back at him. "Are you laughing at me?" The chestnut haired boy growled out at him.
"Why Light," L merely grinned back, teeth bared in return. "I do believe this paranoia is another symptom consistent with your being Kira, after all why else would you believe that I am laughing at you?"
Light snarled angrily back at him, then returned to his comical attempts to retrieve the cackling soap overlord.
With a stroke of genius (of which L had many) L knew exactly what he had to do now. With a brief tug to the chain linking them (a taunt that Light would recognise) he leant forwards over the side of the tub and picked the sudsy bar up between his fingers.
Then he handed it straight up to Light.
The glare he recieved would have reduced a lesser man to tears. L merely blinked lazily up, then cocked his head to the side.
"Light does not like recieving help? Perhaps this is another indication of Light's guilt?"
L was surprised (and relieved) that Light managed to reign in his desire to throttle the detective right there and then.
"Thank you," Light growled through gritted teeth, reaching out to take the soap from him.
L felt like winning though. That was the thought that raced through his mind as he grabbed Light's outstretched hand and pulled him forwards. That was the thought that graced him as he stared into Light's wide, startled eyes.
That was the thought that melted away when Light's lips fell against his own.
L took immediate control of the kiss, pressing demandingly against Light's mouth, slipping a darting tongue through the gasping open lips and tasting Light briefly, before pulling suddenly away.
He held Light's arm as the younger boy teetered uncertainly, knnocked off-balance by his shock.
"Do forgive me Light," L whispered into the boy's ear, feeling him shudder, his naked body all the more blatant to L now. "But I spotted some dirt and thought I'd take care of it."
Light jerked, wrenching out of his grasp, the red flush he couldn't deny creeping over the bones of his cheeks. He turned away, presenting L with a very lovely view of firm buttocks, to hide the reaction he hadn't quite been able to restrain.
"Damnit L!" Light snarled. L suddenly froze, worried he had gone just a step too far. "There was no damn dirt and you know it!"
At which L smiled.
After all, Light hadn't told him not to do it again, had he?

This is the fault of my damned computer, which won't let me open word... SO much killing power right now! Disclaimer: Characters L and Light belong to Ohba and Obata, I make no money from this and claim no ownership (damnit!). ]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/15709184/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/15709184/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 15:12:01 PST !!! Damn you!!!! Lol, actually I was like "oooo yay! Tagged Kewlz!" *laughs*

RULES
1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

RANDOM FACTS!

1 - I have a scar in the shape of a K (for Kirsty!) underneath my lip!
2 - I'm addicted to tea! Seriously!
3 - I can't STAND talking on the phone!
4 - I believe in a deity, but I'm NOT christian. Or any other religion for that matter!
5 - I have now been vegetarian for five years!
6 - I love running my fingers through long hair, guy or girl! I've actually talked to people specifically to ask to touch their hair!
7 - I have nearly died!
8 - I have been swimming with dolphins AND sharks!

Nyahaha! Tagging

Mwah! You're all the people I thought the most interesting! (Apart from you Grace, you're obligatory! *raspberry* Lol, love ya really lil sis!)

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/15146205/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/15146205/ Sat, 20 Oct 2007 16:00:07 PDT
...

Honest!

I love having a scanner again, but it has a bad tendency to eat the little details, so I'm figuring it out... and then buying a tablet instead! Vista is pure evil tho...

Thank you so much to those who've welcomed me back from the woodwork, love you!!!

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/14393762/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/14393762/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 10:39:58 PDT
And double bonus as we've managed to get the scanner up and working today! Yay! So I'll finally be able to post up a load of the drawings I've done recently... when I can locate my missing sketchpad *sheepish grin*.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/10770272/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/10770272/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 19:29:03 PST
-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/10713961/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/10713961/ Mon, 13 Nov 2006 16:08:22 PST
Though I couldn't resist those rainbow gloves and scarf!

I'm making friends here. It's a slow and... painful business. I'm sad and lonely. I'm realising how much I've left behind. And I'm starting to realise I may have left someone behind who I now wish I hadn't. Damnit, why do people make you fall in love when you're gone! *sigh* I just... I think I'm letting it get on top of me. Way too much. My job is killing me. I'm surviving on a couple of hours sleep a night. In the morning I don't want to wake up. I go into school everyday and there's people I don't know staring back at me. I can't read them; do they like me? Do they hate me? Have I fucked it up forever with them?

Gods I sound like a whiny child. Sorry folks, you'll get your regular happy dose coming up real soon!

Quote for today - "One word// A voice unheard// You can change the world// If everyone would stop and listen" - POD - Change the World

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/10613881/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/10613881/ Sat, 04 Nov 2006 12:38:43 PST
Youtube rocks. Muchly.

I have just discovered that my mum has TAKEN OUT the colour cartridge in the scanner/printer, which of course means that it won't work. *tantrums* Ah well, I've got plenty of writing to throw at ya!

And HOLY FUCK SEPHIROTH RULES!!! Just started trying to beat him on KH2. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE!!! Well... not... but heck it seems like it at first!

... I'm such a game freak...

Quote for today - "English Summer Rain// Seems to last for ages - Placebo - English Summer Rain

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/10561436/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/10561436/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 16:06:45 PST
Real Life's been... interesting... to put it in nice terms. I've made a few mistakes, had a few joys, and I like to believe I've grown just a little bit...

An insy-winsy bit maybe?

No?

*laughs* I've started sixth form now; making my dreams of becoming a psychiatrist come true! And got myself a job *proud nod*. It's only at Wilkinson's, but it pays damn well! (Just blew nearly three hundred quid the other weekend O.O T'was my first pay check! I'll moderate from now on! I swear!)

Life threw me a wallop a little while ago, but I clawed my way out of the rubble. Bloody knuckled and tear-stained, but alright. And I'm so proud that I'm able to say that.

I've missed you guys. All of you who supported me, lent me a hand when I was struggling. I hope some of you remember me as someone kind and helpful too. I dunno, we all see things differently *shrugs*.

This... has gotten a bit more serious than I meant it to be. I'm back, and I'm gonna stay back. I'll live my life thank you very much!

Quote for today - "You must be the change you wish to see in the world" - Mahatma Gandhi (I've used it before, but something like that deserves to be said more than once!)

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/9124188/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/9124188/ Tue, 20 Jun 2006 08:50:19 PDT and comment! She's gonna HATE me for embarrassing her like this! *snicker* She's only thirteen and she's already drawing so well! So go and annoy her for me!

So, school is over, my GCSE's are done, and I've basically got 2 months and a half of jack all to do.

Life is BLISS!!!

I've got Final Fantasy XI now, but not the money to pay for it, so I'm saving up for a while before i set it all up and everything. And in a major life change, I'm getting myself one of those prepaid credit cards. basically they're all the benefits of a credit card while not having to pay a penny for them! It's great! i can use them everywhere, but i can only spend the amount that's actually already been paid into the account, instead of going into debt. Means my life will be MUCH easier. And it's got the visa and mastercard signs, so it's essentially useful everywhere.

See, Kirsty CAN do good things with her money!

Oooooo, and just so that the title of this makes sense, I LOVE honey and apples together. Absolutely adore them! So now you all know what to get me for my bday! *giggle*

Quote of the day - "Accept no limits" - Mr Hart

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8914275/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8914275/ Mon, 29 May 2006 18:14:24 PDT
And I'm heartily sick of being away from my family now. I love my friends, and I'm so grateful for them sticking by me and helping me out. But I miss my family so much, and I'm longing for the time when i can rest safe in the knowledge that I'll see them everyday... Not really sure how I'm gonna survive Uni, considering the one I want to go to is half way across the country from them, but I'll be older then. Hopefully it won't be so bad *rolls eyes*.

A lot of things have happened lately, and there's been a heck of a lot of trigger material for some reason I'm not yet sure of *sighs*. I'm fighting my way out of it, and I think it's just stress getting to me, but heck I'm gonna be relieved when everything settles down again. Everything just seems to be a huge mess lately, but I'm determined to bull forwards and get it over with.

I've found a new way to help myself. I've always believed in angels, but I've never really believed you know? Okay, I've gotta sound completely crazy to everyone else, but I've started to really deeply trust in their help and presence. I understand they love me no matter what, and sometimes that's what's keeping me smiling at the end of the day. I s'pose it's sort of like religious believers. Although I am theist, I definitely believe there is a Deity out there, I do not believe any religion defines that Deity, so I remain religion-less in my Theism. But I believe in angels. And I'm not prepared to budge on that belief. So there *blows raspberry*!

Quote of the day - "You must be the change you wish to see in the world." - Mahatma Gandhi

-CG out

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8613318/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8613318/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 15:58:19 PDT
And on a more serious real life note... There's been a bird flu scare right outside of Dereham, where I'm living at the moment. The press have been crawling all over it. Means my mum's working all weekend, even though she can't actually visit the farm (too many health risks; what with her weakened immune system, she's more susceptible to it than pretty much everyone without HIV... so she's gotta be REAL careful). She's a press officer, so she handles the press and is sorta like a controlled leak while writing up her own articles.

I'm all better now though, in case anyone was wondering *need... affection!!!*

Quote for today - "Curiosity may have killed the cat, but ignorance kills us all." - Unknown

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8590207/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8590207/ Wed, 26 Apr 2006 10:34:39 PDT
I figured I might as well put the lyrics up...

//So glad to see you have overcome them.
Completely silent now
With heaven's help
You cast your demons out
And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you off your cloud
But I'm more than just a little curious
How you're planning to go about
Making your amends to the dead
To the dead

Recall the deeds as if
They're all someone else's
Atrocious stories
Now you stand reborn before us all
So glad to see you well

And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you to the ground
But I'm more than just a little curious
How you're planning to go about
Making your amends to the dead
To the dead

With your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping
Your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping down
Your halo slipping down [repeated]

Your halo slipping down to choke you now//

Yep, there was no real point to this entry at all...

Just to note, I'm sick at the moment, so typos/spelling mistakes will occur (I noticed about nine in the last sentence that I fixed) and grumpiness is to be expected!

I'm a really ba~ad sick person...

-CG out. ]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8532538/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8532538/ Thu, 20 Apr 2006 14:38:41 PDT
Of course there are warped versions of the truth in them - it doesn't seem to be possible for a film to stick to the truth - and there are twists that the director thought would gain them more viewers. But there is something truely touching in the very depths of these films that has caused them to make me stop, and, corny as it sounds, think.

There are many things in life which will make us pause and think "That makes sense," or "That's truely stunning". But the fact is, we tend to forget the thoughts that came to us in these moments and live life exactly as we did before, not realising that sometimes only moments ago we were given an epiphany. I know this is true for me. There are lines, phrases, movements and sometimes just words that have stuck with me in the very depths of my mind, or made me pause for a few moments. But can I truely say they have changed my life? No.

But sometimes, I may remember them, and it makes me halt in my activity, and alter the direction things were going. Although there are many quotes that may stay with us, many lines that make us laugh or simply think, it is the ones that are buried deeply within our hearts that we only remember when they can make the most difference that are truely the most inspirational and enlightening. So I may not be able to come up with an awe-inspiring quote right now, but the knowledge that your own hearts hold the most precious words of all brings a soft smile to my lips, because it gives me hope that we shall all turn out right.

I apologise to anyone who has just read this and is completely confused (or wondering about my sanity), but sometimes my mind goes a-wandering, and I need to write down where it leads.

Quote for today - "A man may search all his life for the perfect blossom and never find it; it is not a wasted life." - Katsumoto "The Last Samurai"

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8506911/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8506911/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 04:14:41 PDT
If I haven't commented on you in a while, PLEASE send me a note telling me. I know I've been terribly remisce in commenting, so I'm gonna try and make up for it during the next week or so. So please, if I haven't made a comment somewhere on your gallery for a while, note me and I'll get right on it. I apologise for not being here as much as I'd like to be for you guys, but while I've got the chance I'm gonna try and make up for it a bit. Thanks for listening guys!

-CG out. ]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8506458/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/8506458/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 02:37:46 PDT
I've joined LemonFingers!!! It's better since it's completely writing-orientated, while not being flooded with work like fictionpress.com. Anyone else searching for a way to get your writing read, I'd advise checking out that place. And tell me if you join up!

I'm currently down south, visiting my loving family *pries sophie's fingers out of grace's hair* so I thought I'd just pop by and say hello in the fleeting way I always do! Oh, I forgot to tell you all, we have a house! A real one! All our own! (well... apart from mortgage and everything...) and I'm falling in love with it! My bedroom's right at the top and has an ensuite! *drool* I can have a shower whenever I want (and have; I had one at 2 in the morning the other day! ... Long story).

Yeah, I don't really have all that much to talk about, at least not where some people who I know will see it. *sighs* I like prattling on about my problems only when it's completely strangers who will see it *sheepish grin*. Pretty wierd huh?

Quote for today - Our lives improve only when we take chances - and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.

Walter Anderson

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/7984295/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/7984295/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 19:14:28 PST
Insanity breeds within me, I swear it! *random cackling noises*
T'is half-term now, so I have come to lurk and pounce briefly to give you my wonderful words of wisdom on your work! (This means, expect many comments of "wow", "cool", and "I WUV this!")

Thanks to anybody who commented while I was gone (you know who you are *wink wink nudge nudge*!!!) and watch your fingers to anybody who didn't, because from here on out I will be searching, and they shall be MINE!!!

Yeshe...

Quote for today - "When life gives you lemons, make apple juice, and watch them wonder how you did it" - can't remember

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/7732947/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/7732947/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 14:55:36 PST
*earth shifting*

*Kirsty's head (with, might I say, very gorgeous hair ;D) rises from the soil*

"Bra~~~..."

*rattling sounds*

"Bra~ains..."

*random character runs up and bats Kirsty round the head*

"Hear~..."

*kicks her in the shin*

"Ow! Shit! Bastard!"

*random character gives thumbs up and runs off*

I'll have him later for that... *grumbles* Yes, I am officially the undead... See *wiggles fingers*.
Seriously? School, life, and my own blatant laziness have kept me away fro a lil while. Even now I've only got the chance to comment on a few pics before dashing off again, and putting up art's out of the question til about Feb 7th... but I love you guys! I'm not ignoring you out of choice! I'll have much more free time after my GCSEs, so I'll see you all more often then! Thanks to anyone who didn't give up on me!

Quote for today - "Non Nobis Solvm Nati - We are not born for ourselves alone" - School Motto

-CG out. ]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/7238950/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/7238950/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 14:30:05 PST
Kill me. Please.

Gyah! And I have like, seven pieces still to do by this or next week. Biology was high pritority since it's due in tomorrow. And that sound like I've been putting them off, but I actually haven't! All the teachers decided to dump it all on top of us at once, meaning that poor little us are starting to drown...

I haven't slept well in days, getting on to weeks. I keep on waking up at random times to nightmares or simply spending a whole night restless as fuck. It's driving me insane.

And goddamnit I don't even have time to draw or write anything except when I sit down and tell the world it can go fuck itself. NYARGH!!! *starts ripping out hair*

*calms self* but yes, enough whining now (and I spotted that spelt "winging" earlier. It REALLY pissed me off for some random reason... and I'll shut up now...), because guess what's only 19 days away...!?!

CHRISTMAS!!! And I'm so excited! I love Christmas! Chaos is such a scrooge about it though *raspberry* she doesn't enjoy it anymore. That kinda saddens me in a weird way. Coz I can't even properly describe why I enjoy it. I just... love being able to sit down and know that people care about you enough to buy you presents. That for one moment, life is good, and your family sits around you and smiles with you. I know that doesn't happen for everyone. Maybe that's why christmas is so special to me. Bcoz we usually find a way to make it beautiful, even if we're going through hell at the time. So yeah, I love Christmas, and easter... and birthdays *coughs*. Hell, I just like holiday things!!!

I'm finally gonna get a PS2 all my own! *huggles wealth of Squaresoft games* and Soul Caliber 3!!! Yoshe!!!

*cough* Yeah, must be the presents *snicker*.

Do me a favour everyone. Even for just a few seconds, sit down and be happy on Christmas day. You all deserve it so much

Quote for today - "Even if it was just a dream, that ends upon waking and seeing reality, the dreamer can still remember, treasure it, and hope." - Nemesis Strife

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/7123372/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/7123372/ Wed, 23 Nov 2005 12:59:48 PST
Quote for today - "A ship is safe when its in harbour, but that's not what it was built for." - Anon

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/7104272/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/7104272/ Mon, 21 Nov 2005 10:52:47 PST
*faints*

I realised something the other night. I'm actually cripplingly terrified of the dark. I sleep in darkness, so you'd think I'd be okay with it. But I'm not. I have to squeeze my eyes shut and bury my head under the covers so that I can't see the vast gulf of shdows in my room. If I can get away with it, I'll leave lights on wherever I can, to the point of sitting in the lounge with all the lights on in the house. I close doors to rooms that I can't switch the light on in. This morning I did whatever I could to stall before having to go out and do my 'round and I desperately listened to my music and tried to keep my focus on other things than the fact that it was dark. I feel like... almost as if the darkness itself is a malevolent being. As if there's something hiding away in the shadows that I really, really don't want to see. I'll run into my bedroom and get the door closed as quickly as possible. Hell, I inscribed protective runes onto my old bedroom door. It all sounds so childish, and like I'm about four, but it freaking petrifies me. And it's been getting worse now. I'm actually having dreams about this terrifying figure struggling up the stairs after me when all the lights are off. *shudders* It's seriously, fucking creepy.

But how was your day!?!

Heh, yeah, that was just a random journal cause I fecking needed to get that off my chest. Sorry for rambling on at you all.

Quote for the day - "If there's no light at the end of the tunnel, then make one." - Anon.

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6914326/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6914326/ Mon, 31 Oct 2005 09:04:35 PST
For now, I'm posting up a few things (Stacy, I'm posting up your ref. pic, and getting to work on my side of the trade!), they're mostly quick doodles in my school notepad though, so don't expect anything special!

Quote for today - "Because I am dead, I can take off my head! And recite Shakespearean quotations!" - Jack from Nightmare before Christmas

-CG out.

:Immortal-Valentine: ]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6746506/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6746506/ Wed, 12 Oct 2005 08:26:00 PDT
What is your style? More accurately, how would you define your style? How long has it taken you to develop it? When did you start drawing? How did you get into it? Why do you use the medium(s) you use? Are you self-taught or do use you use books/classes/go to art school? What is your favorite type of art, and why?

I know, I know, a LOT of questions. But it's kinda something I've been wondering about you all. I know what I like about your art/style, but what do you like about your own style? It' something I end up wondering sometimes. *shrugs*

Okay, now my answers to my own questions. I would define my style as something between anime and realism, and slowly edging towards to more realistic side as I push at it. It's taken me years to develop my own style separate from the norms. I stopped drawing when I was twelvish for an entire year, and that tore apart any skills I may have had. I've had to start afresh from there. I started drawing when I was a kid. I loved it. Even as a toddler my fav activity was with a few crayons in my hands. I remember I used to draw quick little pictures to illustrate the stories I made up in my head. We used to get stacks of big packets of A4 paper, and I used to race through them, drawing little things that didn't make sense to anyone else, but when you put them together with the stories in my head, they made them whole. My mom used to draw too. She used to win awards and love picking up a pencil. She instilled her love for art into me, even as she lost her own. I use pencil, and it used to be the only thing I used apart from pen. Now, I'm slowly branching off into other things. Sometimes pictures insist on being drawn with a certain type of medium, which is why charcoal and painted pictures are turning up more often in my sketchpad. Pencil remains my fav though; I guess because it is what I've always used, and it doesn't often let me down. I'm self-taught. I have art class in school, and I have read a few books, but I do not enroll in special art classes and will not be going to an art school. I've heard way too many people say they choke your style to fit their own. I'm not willing to allow that. My fav type of art... hmm... I love Alphonse Muchas' art noveau style. Adore it. I'm not exactly unfond of anime/manga either. One style I can't stand to look at is cubism and abstractism. I simply hate it. I actually don't mind doing cubism, but I can't stand looking at the stuff, even my own pics.

Whew! Now it's your turn! Go into as much detail as you want, I'm looking forward to finding out more about you guys!

Quote for today - "Start by doing what's necessary, then what's possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible." - Saint Francis of Assisi

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6731574/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6731574/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 15:27:42 PDT Name: Kirsty
Nickname: Kaye/Kurzt
Single or Taken: Single
Sex: Female
Birthday: 21/09/89
Sign: Virgo
Siblings: Two sisters, One step sister, one step brother, one half brother, one half sister
Hair color: Dark brown on top with light blonde underneath
Eye color: Hazel
Shoe size: 7/8
Height: um... average *sheepish grin*
Innie or Outie: Innie
What are you wearing right now: Hoodie and crop jeans
Where do you live: little seaside town called Hornsea
Righty or lefty: Righty
Can you make a dollar change right now: *looks at left-over american money* Yup!
Who are your closest friends? Chaos and Rache
Who are your closest online friends? Hmm... I don't really talk to anyone online, except in comments...
Do you have a bf or gf?: No
Where is your fav place to shop? Waterstones (I could stay in there forever!)
Do you have any tattoos or piercings? Both ears on the lobes, and a nose-ring (yezzz!!! I'm getting my cartilage done soon too)

________________________________________ _____________________


Faves

Color: Blue/silver
Number: 15 and 7
Food: Cheese and Onion stuffed potato skins
Boys names: Adrian, Aidan, James and Harry
Girls names: Athene, Laika, Laura, Karu
Subject in school: Art/English
Animal: Wolf
Drink: Tea
Celebrity: Alan Rickman
Sport: Hockey, Ice Skating
Veggie: Potato
Fruit: Melon
Fast food place: McDonalds (does Pizza hut count?)
Place to visit: Niagra Falls
Month: August
Singer: Dido
Show: RockSchool
Juice: Apple
Finger: Index
Ice Cream: Mint Choc Chip
Breakfast: Cheerios
Perfume: Paradise
Cartoon character: Timmy Turner
Season: Autumn

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Have You Ever

Given anyone a bath: No
Smoked: Yes
Bungee jumped: No (Want to)
Broken the law: Yup...
Made yourself throw-up: No
Gone skinny dipping: Yeah
Been in the opposite sex's washroom: Yes... men are disgusting *pinches nose*
Eaten a dog biscuit: No
Put your tongue on a frozen pole: No
Loved someone that made you cry?: Yes
Broken a bone: No
Played truth or dare: Yes
Been in a physical fight: Yes
Been in a police car: No
Been on a plane: Yes
Been in a sauna: No
Been in a hot tub: Yes
Swam in the ocean: Yes, Hornsea sea is brown... But I went at Fuerte Ventura, and the sea was gorgeous! You could see all these lil fishies!!!
Fallen asleep in school: Yes
Kissed your cousin: Yes, but in a sisterly way!
Pictured your crush naked: Yes
Broken someone's heart: Yes
Cried when someone died: Yes. But I don't anymore. I'm the one to comfort the others and to lean on. End of.
Lied: Ha, all the goddamn time
Laughed so hard you fell off your chair: I collapsed from laughter once... does that count?
Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call: No
Saved MSN conversations: My com does it anyway, but I've never intentionally gone out and saved one.
Saved e-mails: Yep
Wished you were someone else: Yes
Wished you were a member of the opposite sex: Yes
Made out with JUST a friend?: No
Been rejected? : No, I'm too much of a chicken to ask in the first place!
Been in love?: Yes
Used someone: Yes
Been cheated on? Yes
Done something you regret?: Hell yes. But it's in the past, you gotta live in the moment!
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Your good luck charm: My dragon
Stupidest thing you have ever done: Sat in a freezing cold pool for half an hour... I got the flu...
What’s your room like: Red, with black woodwork... and a big mess!
Your most prized possessions: My sketchpads (all a million or so of them!) and the ring my mum gave me for my sixteenth
Last thing you said: "G'night then Charlotte!"
What is beside you: A watercolour set
Fave song: Change the World - POD
What kind of shampoo do you use: Pantene ProV or Herbal Essences
Best thing that has happened to you this year: Got an A on my French GCSE!
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Have You Ever Had

Chicken pox: Yes
Sore Throat: Yes
Cold: Yes
Stitches: No, but only coz my wanker of a father decided they weren't nesercary (when the doc told us they were) *scowl*
Bloody nose: Yes, several times

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... ]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6632269/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6632269/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 08:11:53 PDT
*snicker* A~anyways... I know, I know, I've been a bit remiss in my commenting... as in... I comment once every blue moon... *sheepish grin*. I won't point the finger at anything (scho~ool... *hisses and crosses fingers*), but I have tried to get around and comment every so often. I'm sorry if I've missed a large no. of pics from anyone though! If I have, please tell me, and I'll make time to comment on you!

A week of being 16...

...

...

...I don't feel any different...

*sigh* My ID hasn't come yet, so I can't really do much, unless I carry my passport around with me everywhere, which is tres agrocant, and not happening.

But one thing I've decided to do... in honour of my new-found freedom...

I'm getting my nose pierced (NYARGH... SP???)! Yay-some!!! (mum doesn't know yet... t'is a time of teenage rebellion ((as in, she'll find out in a minute or two... *sweatdrop*))). At some point during the year I'm hoping to get my lip pierced at the side too, but that'll be later on, after the evil annoyance of new piercings has worn off and I'm happy with it. I'm also intending to get my ear done at the top, in the cartilage, which I know is gonna be hell, and could collapse on me... but masochism is a sin I commit everyday *happy grin*, so I'll deal with it.

QUESTION!!! Tell me, have you got any piercings? If so, where, and how long have you had them? T'is just something that I was wondering while writing this!

Quote for today - "The person who never makes a mistake is the person who never does anything."

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6561882/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6561882/ Wed, 21 Sep 2005 08:45:17 PDT
BUT!!! It gets better (halleluiah!!! ((heh, sp?)))!!! I had time to calm down over my round and so did they. Ands when I got back they'd got the whole thing sorted for me and decorated the dining room and laid my presents out on table. ENSUE HAPPINESS!!!

I gots me a new chinese calligraphy set (and ink! I never had ink before! *pets it*), a MASSIVE collection of quality artists pencils/colours, a HUGE canvas bag (and it IS huge!), a chocolate teddy-bear from Thortons (miraculously vegetarian suitable, which Thortons seems to specailise in NOT doing the fecktards...) all personalised and everything (SQUEE!), new canvas (I'm actually beginning to fall in love with canvas... I never liked it before but it is INCREDIBLE to work upon, I love using it now!), celebrations and a wonka bar, an awesome pic from jatep *attaches self to his leg* (it's hilarious, and it looks great to boot! Go check it out at [link] !!!), and lots'a dosh! (Hell, Stephen actually gave me £20, t'was at this point I realised I really MUST be 16... that's the most money he's EVER given me!)

And a huge for everyone who's said happy birthday to me so far (even the random person on Poppy's account who I have no clue who they are. Sankyuu!)!!! I love you!!!

Quote for today - To spare oneself from grief at all costs can be achieved only at the price of total detachment, which excludes the ability to experience happiness. - Erich Fromm

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6538671/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6538671/ Sun, 18 Sep 2005 15:51:01 PDT
But what if we fall out...!?! *groans and hits head on keyboard*

Ah well, it'll work out for the best... hopefully...

Urgh, pessemism's a bitch.

And my bitches of friends aren't gonna be here for my bday! *bites them all* They're all buggering off to Holland for the week on a school exchange (heh, Chaos is gonna spend her bday there. She's 16 hours older than me and never lets me forget it...), so I won't have my mum OR my friends with me on bday... ah well, it's not like I've ever been particularly excited about bdays anyway Just another day to survive through. Looking forward to being 16 though (I'll be LEGAL!!! *cackles*)... I'm not a smoker so that's not gonna help... I'm not a gambler so don't much care about that... and the driving age limits gone up to 17 so still another year... hell, is there ANYTHING much important about sweet 16 anymore???

Anyway... after my random rant at the world, I leave you with the daily quote...

Quote for today - Don't walk before me,
I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me,
I may not lead.
Just walk beside me
And be my friend.
- I'll edit this with the writer later, I can't remember their name right now.

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6520611/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6520611/ Fri, 16 Sep 2005 14:20:15 PDT
*dies*

*ahem* Yes, well... 'T'has been a lo~ong time hasn't it??? *sigh* I'm so sorry I haven't commented on anything in forever... kinda makes me wanna shoot myself, if I could get off my lazy ass long enough to do it. Honestly? Various things came up. Stress, school, holidays, a shit-load of coursework... basically, Kirsty's been very very busy for a month. On top of that, I had a massive art-phunk... so barely anything got done.

I'VE NEGLECTED YOU ALL!!! *cries*

Forgive me??? *puppy-eyes*

And we've pretty much affirmed that the chest pains were my body telling me to sit down and relax, or it'd kill me. Yup. Ni~ice...

What else...? OH! I got an A on my French GCSE!!! 'M so pleased!!! *jumps up and down with joy* And because my mom was so proud (though she still won't admit it... *glares*) she brought me Magic's Promise and Magic's Price by Mercedes Lackey *rubs cheek on books and purrs*... Yay-some!

*snicker* I got sunburnt for the very first time in my life...!!! Was on a... kata... catamu... katamurang... BOAT-THING, and because of all the reflections off the water...

OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WWWWW...

ow...

*snicker*

ANYWAY! I promise I'll get round to you all and comment on everybody. I SWEAR IT ON MY FOOT. And I like my foot. *raspberry* Just remember, I've been away for a while... I watch a LOT of people... and all the comments/deviations/journals from before the mass deletion have been returned to me...

so it's gonna take me a LIL while... But I promise I WILL get round to you all!

And may I officially say...

ROBIN HOBB IS THE GREATEST AUTHOR (-ess *giggle*) OF ALL TIME!!!

Quote for today - "Truth is a whisper and only a choice; no one can hear above this noise." - Unknown

EEEEEEDDDDDIIIIIITTT!!! T'is my birthday on the 21st of Sep... I expect lots o' happy birthdays... If I don't get them... *wheels out IronMaiden*


-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6257937/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6257937/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 02:02:27 PDT
Now I have to work on the comments...

*throws self off cliff*

My dog has a cone on his head.

*crickets chirp*

No, seriously! He's had a lump on his back leg for a while, and we finally got a slot for him to have the op. to remove it. They don't THINK it's cancerous, but they've sent it off to check. Really hope it isn't. He's continually trying to itch at the bandage on his leg and we have to pull him off of it. Gawd, he's a terrible nuisance (sp?) sometimes! But I wouldn't change him for the world!

And I have decided. Men are evil.

No offence to any men reading this, I love you all really! You're just evil! *snicker*

I had to go to the orthodontists (again) to have a talk on exactly what they want to do to my jaw and teeth (again) and sort out all the little details (again... is anyone sensing a pattern here?). I'm sat in the middle of the room with four male dentists talking OVER my head, as if I'm not there. I don't know ANY of their names. Not ONE of them said hi. NONE of them explained a single one of the incredibly HUGE words they kept SPEWING out. And one of them looked down my top.

THEN... (ha, I have MORE!!!) Stephen (wanktard) had decided NOT to believe me when I say I'm in pain, and is now moaning because I haven't been to see him, when it's his own damn fault coz the only time he invites us over is once every blue moon.

THEN... (you didn't REALLY think I'd reach that conclusion on two events did you???) every man I have known (real-life-wise) has turned out either to be an abusive bastard, an in-secure fecktard, a cheating prick, or to turn on me the instant we break up.

So... in conclusion...

men are evil. Thank you.

*snicker*

Please don't be offended by this! I only wrote it to get rid of my frustration with the male-species right now. I'm sure you're all lovely really! *hugs jatep, d-angelic, blue-phoenix, nero-underdog and all other male watchers she has* and tomorrow, just in honor of any nice guys out there, I'll moan about the female species instead! *snicker* Coz we ARE terrible!

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6226131/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6226131/ Sun, 14 Aug 2005 15:14:24 PDT
deviantART...

has just deleted...

ALL my messages...

*cries*

So I'm gonna have to look through all the pics I've commented on and find them again *groans* T'is a mighty task!

And the title is from Independence Day. Da~amn I love that movie!

Heh, I know I implied in my last journal that I'd be back by friday... and I did actually mean to be... but that was before I found out that I was actually spending the weekend down in Dereham (a town near Norwich) to view some houses... so you have my apologies!

And we find the PERFECT house. It's one of a whole estate of brand new houses that haven't quite been finished yet, and the walls are plain WHITE!

It's the canvas of my dreams!

I'd get my own reasonably large bedroom at the top of the house (t'is a three story) with an ensuite bathroom (YOSHE!!!) and the ability to completely and utterly mold the room to my liking.

I'm so happy! And it's perfectly positioned too. The town centre's near, but far enough away that there won't be the bustle of crowds trying to get to the shops; the schools are reasonably close, particularly the language college one that I want to get in to because of it's very high scores and it's capacity for several different language opportunities; there's a park just down the road; and it's in a damn good area. Ni~ice!

*sigh* The only problem now is leaving my friends behind. I'm forcing myself to come to terms with the fact that I can only talk to them over the internet, phone or snailmail. I'll miss them, but I'm looking forward to the opportunities and new experiences this will offer me.

And the best news of all... I HAVE PENCILS!!! *strokes them* They're worth their weight in GOLD to me! *worships the pencils*

Quote for today - "The most wasted of all days is one without laughter." - e.e. cummings

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6179313/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6179313/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 14:13:32 PDT Listening to: Alive - P.O.D
Reading: Naruto fanfics
Watching: Harry Potter 3

Okay, so this is an entry to say that I probably won't be commenting for a couple of days. I need a break for a while, so I'm spending some time to gather myself back together again. I will certainly try to get back to everyone, and comment on journals/pictures as soon as possible, but don't be surprised if it's the end of the week and I've only commented a couple of times!

One of the suggestions for the pains is stress (which is terribly ironic, and made me laugh when I heard it) so I'm taking some time off for myself. I'm not babysitting or anything tomorrow since the bratz have gone off to Stephens', so I'm grasping onto that chance with everything I've got!

However, I've just had my chest x-ray taken today, and it will be about ten days before I can find out the results, so hopefully I'll know for sure that it's nothing serious then!



And on a side-note... Hull scored first place...

In the WORST places to live in the UK!!!



I live about half an hour away, and it's my closest city. The thing is, it REALLY didn't surprise me. You ever decide to go on holiday to England, DON'T GO TO HULL!!! You will not BELIEVE the crime rate!

*snicker* Now I've got something to shove in Chaos' face whenever she says Hull isn't all that bad a place!

Thank you everyone! For all your support! I hope (well, not really hope... but I can't think of a better word right now) that I can someday return the favour! Love you all!

-CG out.



]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6164723/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6164723/ Mon, 08 Aug 2005 02:21:46 PDT Listening to: Sound the Bugal - Brian Adams
Reading: Naruto fanfics
Watching: Naruto

So I've been to see the doctor...

And apparently there's no obvious reason as to why I'm in pain. So I'm going in for a chest x-ray at some point this week to see if we can find out what it is.

I'm ALWAYS awkward... instead of spraining my ankle, I sprain my bloody tendon. Instead of buggering up just the bottom of my jaw, I bugger up the top too. I'm like a doctor's worst nightmare...

*snicker* But I have fun doing it!

I'm a li'l calmer today coz I haven't got the energy to be upset. I was up until 3 coz of it, so everything's a little bit hazy... and I'm so drugged up I'm not entirely sure which way is up anymore...

*pokes you all*

Thanks to all you wonderful people who showed me support yesterday! for you all!

-CG out.



]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6157125/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6157125/ Sun, 07 Aug 2005 08:33:09 PDT Mood: Scared
Listening to: On your own - U2
Reading: Naruto fanfics
Watching: Independence Day

I'm getting really scared now. That's the second time today I've been down for ten minutes because of chest pains, and there's now a constant dull ache in my chest. It won't go away, I've taken ibuprofen, my inhaler and anything else I can to get rid of it.

But it's not going away. And it's scaring me. Whenever they stop it feels like a wet pop in my lungs, and shooting pains otherwise.

And to top it all off, I've had migraine since last night. So I've had no sleep, I'm in pain, and I'm worried even sicker.

Just who the hell did I piss off? Why is this happening?

I don't know what the hell to do.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6151155/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6151155/ Sat, 06 Aug 2005 15:26:18 PDT Mood: Dull
Listening to: Forest - System of a Down
Reading: Assassin's Quest - Robin Hobb
Watching: Coyote Ugly

I slept all day.

Seriously.

Until about 6:30...

Yay...

*sigh* I'm just in a really dull and apathetic mood today. Nothing seems to be catching me for very long, or impressing me or anything. T'is kinda strange.

Here's a quiz... since I'm bored shitless.

Stolen from

The Basics
---------------------------
1. First Name: Kirsty
2. Middle Name: Louise
3. Last Name: Rollo (and I have another one... but you ain't getting that one!)
4. Nicknames: Kaye, Kurzt, Curly (parents must die)
5. Birthday: 21st September 1989
6. How old would that make you? 15 years old
7. Star Sign: Virgo
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More Intimate
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8. Righty or Lefty? Righty unless I'm eating... then I'm a lefty
9. Hair Color: Dark brown on top, blonde on bottom
10. Preferred Hair Color: Black or sandy-blonde
11. Eye Color: Hazel
12. Preferred Eye Color: Green
13. What would you be wearing right now? Jeans and Hoody... unless you want details *wink wink*
14.What jewelry are you wearing, if any? Watch, scoobie choker thing my sis made me
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This or That
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15. Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
16. Cake or Pie: Pie...
17. Popcorn or Chips: CRISPS!!! (see my english middle finger!)
18. Theatre or Home: Theatre
19. Pants or Shorts: Thongs... but I'm assuming that's not what you meant! Trousers
20. Phone or AIM/AOL: Urgh... none... all forms of contact must die...
21. Sneakers or Boots: Sneakers
22. Pudding or Jell-O: Jelly
23. Winter or Summer: The cold makes me i~ill... summer!
24. Ski or Board: Board
25. Chocolate Milk or White Milk: Chocolate milk
26. Silver or Gold: White-gold muchly!
27. Cows or Pigs: Cows
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Favorites
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28. Colors: Blue
29. Number: 9
30. Time of the day: 3:25... Home-time!
31. Day of the week: Sunday
32. Month of the year: July
33. Scent: Clary Sage
34. Taste: Pears
35. Flavor of pudding: Welly-fudge!
36. Flavor of Jell-O: What is up with jell-O? Just call it jellY!!! *ahem* i don't like it
37. Flavor of Ice Cream: Mint choc-chip
38. Kind of Cake: Cho~ocholate!
39. Kind of Pie: Cheese and Onion
40. Beverage: Cranberry and Raspberry juice... drool-some
41. T-Shirt: Those ones with the funky slogans!
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Relationships
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42. Do you have friends? Yes
43. I would sure hope so. How many? Close, or not so close? only about 2 or 3 close ones
44. Who's the one you secretly hate? Mi~ichelle *cracks knuckles*
45. Who's the one you would die without? I wouldn't. I'm a loner.
46. Who's gonne be pissed you sent them this? I didn't send it, and chaos won't read it anyway
47. Who won't give a rats bum? lots and lots
48. Have a crush? Who? Yup... But it's more sort of left-over love
49. Have you ever had a bf/gf before? Yes. Several. Only one I actually enjoyed going out with.
50. Were they good bf/gf material? He would have been if I'd been ready.
51. How many gf/bf's have you had? several
52. Who was the best one? Tom
53. Do you have a bf/gf now? Nope
54. Tell me their name: How about you stick your head up your arse! Let me help you! - That made me laugh!
55. What is your current view on the relationship? There isn't one
56. What needs work? My tendency to swear every five secs... but that wasn't what you meant either!
57. What's perfect? Nobody is perfect. I am a nobody. Therefore, I am perfect! But otherwise... m... ]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6139322/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6139322/ Fri, 05 Aug 2005 06:34:48 PDT Mood: ME!?! Yay-some!
Listening to: Vanilla - Gackt
Reading: The High Lord - Trudi Canavan
Watching: Constantine

THIS IS COOL!!! I got me a weeks free subscription for some odd reason or another. Apparently they've just been randomly handing them out to diff. ID's. But I gotta say, even if it's just for a week... Da~amn I'm glad I got one!

All the little bits and pieces I can fuss around with *is currently doing so with glee*... It's so much FUN!!! *jumps up and down*

But only for a week hmmm? *cackle* then I shall use it wisely!

I've just read my second series that contains homosexuality as just a part of life... and you know what? It's fucking great! Trudi Canavan's Black Magician Series is a wonderful read, and any hints of homosexuality don't come in until the second book, but she addresses them so well. One of the secondary (not main, but his story is picked up throughout the books) characters is a repressed "lad" as they term it who hasn't even acknowledged his own tendencies yet. She shows the way taboos and punishments could turn a man against his friend in seconds if evidence was discovered. She shows how being able to finally accept who you are can be one of the most freeing things in the world. And she shows how love can conquer all! But if that's not for your tastes, I've already said how any hints of gay tendencies don't come in untill the second book, and the character is a secondary character, though important to the story-line. I didn't know there were any gay characters until the second book, but I read the series simply because of how truely amasing it is. After reading only a small portion of Sonea's life as a "dwell" within the slums of the city, and then how she is discovered by the magicians, I was sucked in to the story, and ended up over-spending just I could read the whole trilogy! Seriously, if you want an enjoyable summers' read, and enjoy fantasy settings and are open-minded enough to accept homosexuality within the story, then I advise you track these three books down and check them out. They're fantastic!

*sigh* Kind of annoying that that means I can bring my list of open-minded main-stream authors up to two. Wow. What a huge number. If anyone wants to recommend anymore to me, you're more than welcome! I'm looking for a new series to get sucked into!

Hmm... still speculating about Robin Hobb. The Fool makes me wonder *looks thoughtful*...

*blinks* Anyone else but me noticed they're all women?

-CG out.

P.S. Whoops, forgot to give this a title!



]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6111857/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6111857/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 11:35:54 PDT
Jesus, this started off as something to believe in, now it's just an excuse to slander the administrators. Spyed's deviant comments are full of utter abuse, with only a few people supporting him, and they, in turn, are being torn apart.

Yes, the idea of bringing the community to life was something to stand up for, something to be a part of. But now... It makes me ashamed to be a part of this community , if the instant something bad happens we de-generate into hooligans resorting to verbal abuse. The August 7th, COMMUNITY agreement was a good idea. It'd be nice to have days when all we did was comment on others, welcome others to the community and spread the good-will. But, unfortunately, this somehow turned into a rail-against-the-administrators foray, and a support-the-jark day. Yes, I would like to know why one of the founders was "fired". Yes, I enjoy the idea of turning DA back into what it was meant to be. What I don't enjoy is full-out abuse and "bitching" the moment we get an excuse to. What kind of community is that?

*sigh* I'm sorry, but I'm getting fed up now. For all those people who are carrying on with peaceful protests, I support you and the good you're trying to do. For all those people who have turned this a simple slander session... stop infecting this community, and start growing up. It's not the administrators who are in the wrong anymore, it's you who decided to turn this into a place where we are now afraid of what we do or say, for fear of being turned upon.

Please, let's get this sorted out. In a good way?

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6075143/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6075143/ Sat, 30 Jul 2005 07:12:35 PDT community campaign. Go here [link] to find out more!

Okay, time for bad news now. Some of you might remember a journal entry a little while back about how I was having chest pains, and the doctor thought they were something simple, and upped my inhaler dosage.

I've been taking it religiously, but they're back. And now I'm a little worried. So, I'm gonna see the doctor again and see if we can get it sorted out, properly this time. Wish me luck!

Gonna have fun tonight though! I'm having a movie night with a couple of friends, which I've been looking forward to. I'm probs gonna get out Star Ocean: Till the End of Time again too, so don't expect me on for about a week!

EDIT!!! - I realised I STILL haven't put up the meanings of the symbols on Fate's Door. So from left to right-

War between two opposing sides (specifically)

Love

Friendship

(around the circle clockwise, the four arrows) Family, Hatred, Joy, Pain (the circle is to indicate that you cannot have one without the other)

Chaos (left sign) + Order (right sign)

Darkness

Life (bird shape) + Death (the two lines)

There you go!

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6030333/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6030333/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 12:39:54 PDT
Looks like I'm moving to Norwich.

Ma's been offered the job. She's not sure whether or not she's gonna take it yet, but, you know what?

I kinda hope she does.

Yes, I'll miss my friends something awful, coz I love them *hugs all friends she knows in RL*, but, I kinda want the chance at a new start, you know? I sort of want to see what life could be like if I started over, and really tried hard this time. We're not even sure if I'll be going with them yet. Because of the extra courses and such that my school is offering me for free, ma's thinking of trying to leave me here somehow. Either way, there's gonna be a bit of pain, but I'm looking forward to it now.

AND MY DRAGON!!! *bursts into tears* I'll have to paint over my dragon!!! I don't know if anyone can understand, but that'd really hurt. It'd tear a piece of me out. Knowing that I've gotten rid of him forever, destroyed him, killed him. I can keep contact with my friends, but I can never retrieve that piece of my soul.

Now that I've had time to think it over though, I think I'm okay with moving. I've got my friends here yes. But life ain't worth living if you're not gonna take risks. And I'm a thrill-seeker; I take risks all the time.

To be honest, if it didn't go so well over there, and I didn't make friends, I'd still have all you guys on here, including some of my friends from lil old Hornsea. So I don't know. I can see the risks, but I can also see the advantages.

D-Angelic - Your lineart is officially DONE!!! You can do what you wish with the lineart. (If you chop his legs off, I'll be happy to lend you a pair of scissors). I'm planning on printing out a few versions, trensferring them onto watercolour paper, and having a go at painting it. Because I've got the image of what I want it to look like in my head, and they're the only things that'd work. Wish me luck!

Thanks to d-angelic and Nero-underdog for cheering me up this afternoon! I WUV you guys!!! (*snicker* And a SPECIAL for NERO!!! *cackles evilly*)

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6028505/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/6028505/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 08:51:09 PDT dare you."

So yeah. Bad day.

I did a stupid thing.

Sorry.

you all for the wonderful comments on True Vs Pure! Now you know what Kirsty thinks about in her spare time. Since you seemed to like it, if I come up with anymore, I'll stick them up for you!

Progress on Art Trade and Giftpic!!!

BlackMagdalene - Ref. pic almost done. I've screwed it up and chucked it away so many times I can't count them all. But it IS getting done.

Slowly. Real Life hates me at the moment. My pic for you is getting finished as well. So yeah, expect both up reasonably soon now.

D-Angelic - Lineart for character is pretty much done. I'm gonna scan it in and print some copies off to colour in. The lineart itself will also be posted up and you can do whatever you wish with it. Colour it, burn it. The legs have pissed me off REAL bad. But it looks okay otherwise!

Went down to Norwich at weekend. Which is why barely anyone has any comments on pics. Will get round to it! I swear! *bangs head on keyboard*

I've got about fifty million pics on the go at the moment. So expect some pics to come up. Slowly. RL seems to want to destroy me at the moment. So it's gonna take me some time to collect the pieces of my soul up again and tape them back together. I refuse to give up though. Like I said in True VS Pure, I believe that there ARE things to live for, and I intend to live for them. So you haven't seen the last of me!

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/5986972/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/5986972/ Wed, 20 Jul 2005 13:33:42 PDT It's been a year; so many tears has he cried; still Merendis does not live again.
"Dreich-Nyaf ghois throix?"
He gasps, and throws his head back to stare at the origin of the voice. A figure lounges on the statue, gazing at him almost as if bored with his presence; silvern eyebrow arched harshly.
"Whu- What... I... I don't... understand..." His stubby fingers wipe siftly at his swollen eyes, attempting to remove the evidence of tears.
"Whu- What?" the silver-haired creature infront of him mocked, smoothly switching from his reclining pose to a slouching sit, staring intently at the youngster; a cruel smirk situated itself upon his lips.
He flinched back; hurt flooded through him at the others' tone. "I..." He blinked, then gasped, "Get off! That's... That's my brother under there!"
The figure cocked an eyebrow, then stared down. "Oh he is, is he?"
"Ye... yeah! And tha... that's rude!"
The other eyebrow rose. "I'm sure he doesn't care."
"I...I!" He groaned, feeling tears come to his eyes; his shoulders shook.
Perhaps the figure realised he had gone too far, for his eyebrows dropped, and he simply gazed at the child. "Tell me," he whispered over the small ones' tears, "Tell me, what is your name."
Such a change of track threw the boy off, and he stared. "Y... Ynessryf."
The other rolled his eyes. "Not that one. Your ribbon name."
A daze passed over Ynessryf, and he murmured softly, "Loveless... by the ribbons."
A startled flash passed through the others eyes, before they softened in a caring look. "Loveless... So strange that we would ever meet. For I am the opposite. I am Love."
"Wha... What's your other na-name?"
Lips quirked in a grin. "Kaou. Kaou Glaiser-Raech. I wonder, what terrible sin your soul commited to be denied me."
The child stared quizzingly.
Kaou sighed. "I am love in it's truest form. I am True Love as it is meant to be; rare though it actually occurs."
A puzzled frown creased Ynessryf's face. "Tru-rue love? Don't you mean... pure love?"
"No," the answer was harsh and cutting, causing Ynessryf to flinch back. "I shall never understand why you mortals believe pure love to be the best form of love. Especially since there is no such thing. Pure love" Kaou spat the words out, "would be a most awful form of love. When you say pure, you imply perfect. And there is no such thing."
Tears filled Ynessryfs eyes again; his small frame crumpled in on itself. " My moma told me... she told me, that," he swallowed, "pure love is the... the only reason to li-live. So... so if, there is... no such thing..." a sob escaped him, "then... then what is the point in living?" He burst into tears.
A hand curled round his cheek, thumb gently wiping the tears away. "True love. True love is the very rarest form of love. It is not pure. It is painful, full of darkness. It is not tainted though. Hatred walks hand-in-hand with it; pain is interwoven so tightly with it..."
"NO MORE!" Ynessryf thrashed, knocking the softly stroking hand off of his cheek. "No more! How..." He sobbed harshly. "How can yo-you say that... THAT. Is... Something to-to live for!? Hatred... Pu-pai..."
A finger pressed swiftly to his lips. "Shhh..."
Kaou lifted his finger from the childs' lips, sighed, standing up and turning away. "Because..." He sighed again, ever so gently. "Because... it's the moments... the times... when you just feel... so... connected to them. You meet their eyes, and their very soul is bared to you, and you can see it... see their love... Their smile. That special one... the one that they... they smile so gently... and you know... you know... that THAT smile... is yours ... and yours alone."
Silence. Even Ynessryfs' pained sobs had halted.
Kaou turned back, and Ynessryf started upon seeing the tracings of a tear upon his cheek. "That is why... why true love IS worth it. It's not the big, expensive gestures. The gifts and the declerations of love. It's the moments... the little things."
"How..." Ynessryf asked quietly. "How can you tell ... when... when you have it?"
A gentle smile graced Kaou's lips. "You don't have to tell ..." He raised a hand to stop Ynessryfs' cry of anger. He winked calmly. "You don't need to tell... because you know. The knowledge doesn't come from your mind. Or even your heart." Another tear traced his cheek slowly. "You know it with your very soul.
"That... that is worth living for. Always."
... ]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/5959884/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/5959884/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 14:47:11 PDT
If you haven't read Harry Potter yet... go do it now. Then you'll realise why I'm in shock. I thought Sirius' death would be the last time I'd end up crying at HP, but J.K. has reduced me to tears again.

She is a genius. We must all now praise her.

And oh, the theories I have now! Gosh, I've always started theorising what's coming up in HP, but jesus christ. One of the theories that something in the book led me to made me stand there and go, "Oh no way... She can't be that cruel."

Then again, she did kill them off... *thinks*.

And, Chaos, *looks at her* this would totally and utterly screw over our idea that because she's said it, it would never happen. Unless they found a way around it...

Seriously, if you haven't read the book and are intending to (for you breakingmark, coz I know you don't like them!) read it now. Then I'll have someone to lament and discuss with.

J.K. is one hell of an author. What I wouldn't give to have her talent *goes dreamy-eyed*...

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/5956857/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/5956857/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 07:16:35 PDT ! People who share my love for wolves! you all!

-CG out.

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Thank you to all the wonderful people who gave me their support the other day, I love you all!

Art Trade - ARGH!! I'm getting the reference picture done, but RL sucks and has kept me from drawing for a lil while, so I haven't quite had the time I thought I would. Sorry! My side is partially done too. Am planning on colouring it now!

Giftart for d-angelic - The basic sketch work is down. I just need to clean it up and fiddle with it a lil bit. Again, RL kept me from finishing this before I thought I would. Sorry! But, since it's taken so long, after I've posted up the pencil version, I plan on printing off a few copies of the simply lineart and colouring them in various ways. If there's one I like, I'll post that up too!

Carnival weekend! So I'm gonna be having fun on loadsa really fast rides all weekend (I'm a SERIOUS thrill-seeker, seriously!). So comments/journals/art work/coursework *wince* will be done in any spare moments I get, or put off until after the weekend.

Besides that, Harry Potter 6 is coming out, and I absolutely refuse to do anything else until after I've read it. Which, thanks to my UB3R SK1LLS OF F4ST R34D1NG!!!! (copyright!) won't take me long. Unless it's really boring. Which I doubt.

Ciao!

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/5911935/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/5911935/ Tue, 12 Jul 2005 08:27:20 PDT
Further, I find out I might be moving. To Norwich, about two hours away from London. In the middle of my GCSE year. Far away from my friends and the wanktard, though I don't mind that one so much. I'm not the easiest person in the world to get along with, and I don't make friends all that easily. So I'm gonna spend my last GCSE year in the same way I did year 7 and 8. Alone, bullied, and suicidal. Gre~eat... I'll just have to remember I've got other ways to take it out than ripping my arms apart this time.

Oh yeah, feeling truthful today too. *blank look*

And the chances I'm gonna lose out on? I'm not gonna be able to do Business French and Italian, and I won't be doing Triple Award Science anymore. Which are all very pretty benefits of getting a job and trying to live on my own up here, coz I'd be old enough by then to do so. Of course, I wouldn't be able to earn enough money doing part-time work to live at a state much higher than anorexia. Fun...

Sarcasm is a virtue.

Oh, and my sister hates me and wishes I would die. Yey.

Excuse me while I go fullfil her wish.

And now I'm hallucinating too. Could have sworn I saw a green car driving down the road while on my round this morning. But a sign was in the way and when it should have come out on the other side, it suddenly wasn't there. I looked around the sign and all over the place for ages, but couldn't see it. I mean, I've always seen little flashes, or think I've seen something and look back to see it gone. But this is down-right freaky. Lack of sleep makes hallucinations worse. Will have to remember that.

-CG out.

]]> ~Centrau-Guardian http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/5902789/ http://Centrau-Guardian.deviantart.com/journal/5902789/ Mon, 11 Jul 2005 09:33:41 PDT
So... I either do my maths coursework by tomorrow, or I get isolation... This is the coursework which is, incidentally, VERY VERY LONG. And I have done a tiny bit of it. It is also the coursework I know barely anything about, because I wasn't at school. Furthermore, it is the coursework that was due in several months ago...

Ouch.

*sigh* I just can't seem to gather up the ability to care either... which means, of course, that I probably won't get it done, and will therefore get iso with Mr Sinclair...

Yey *waves lil flag*.

But be happy for me! I've sent off for my ID card, which will therefore (has anyone else noticed I'm using that word ALOT today...?) mean I can buy cigarettes. 'Cept I don't smoke. Or buy a lottery ticket! 'Cept I don't gamble. Well, at least I can get a better job...

'Cept I don't want to... *pout*

Seriously, everyone's been complaining about their grown-up jobs to me lately. Mum wants to go Free-lance coz her boss is a wanker, which would therefore (ARGH!! That word again!!) mean that we'd be poor... Yey! Stephen "apparently" doesn't get enough money, coz he's a liar, and gets more money than we do. *Gives Stephen the finger*. Alan chopped the end of his finger off... etc. etc...

I want to go get really re~eally drunk. Coz I'm in one of introspective moods... which has ruined anything good about today. So now I'm thinking all this deep stuff and remembering shit I REALLY don't want to remember.

So I'm gonna go drink alot of coffee and tea with a lot of sugar. Coz if mum ever found me drinking without permission I'd end up nailed to a wall.

Which was why I got drunk at Download...

Oh the ironies of life!

-CG out.

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