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http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/14922952/ Fri, 05 Oct 2007 06:41:46 PDT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Turns out I'm commenting more, and being more social around here than before.

Not submitting anything, because... Well, there's nothing really to submit. Lazy lazy.

I guess I'm back completely. I can't really show I'm back to much considering I have less than half the watchers I do on SA, and almost as much pageviews. (And I've been here for like, 2 or 3 years more than I've been on SA)

And I'm lazy and often unmotivated, so I don't have much to submit recently either.

But yeah, I guess I'm back now.

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I'll come back when I'm able to buy a sub.

Maybe. lol, unless I find something else I'd rather spend money on.

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I obviously have stopped submitting here. I've pretty much quit DA, I only submit something if I'm UBER proud of it, and yeah. Plus, on here it's so much harder to enjoy myself.

Thanks for the support though, everyone. I'll keep RARELY submitting to here, but if you're interested at all in anything else I've done, or in anymore recent journals;;

You will only see it here:
tehd.sheezyart.com

Byebye, everyone!

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Copied and Pasted from another journal elsewhere.

I thought I was gonna have to go to summer school, but apparently the grades they had read off were wrong so I didn't have to go. Woo~

I kind of hurt myself three days ago. Long story, sort of. My mom had ordered Pizza, and told me to put our dog in his room so he wouldn't rape (or glomp, for those who like it literal.) the delivery girl. As I was walking up he ran right between me and the wall, literally squeezed himself between us and pushed me to the opposite side of the step (he could've easily went the other way, but whatever).

No worries, he didn't kill the lady... He just.. ran free all over the neighborhood. Remember, this is Pennsylvania. Tree town. So it's not a big deal, dogs and other wild life are all over the place anyway.

Anyway, mom got mad at me and gave me the pizza to take towards the table. Unfortunetly the living room is supposedly the toy room too. (Although mom and dad kept telling the kids to pick up their god damned toys.) So, since I'm home. I'm bare feet, haha. You know how when you have a big box of a large half peperonni half plain pizza in your hands, stacked with the boxes of breadsticks and cinnamon sticks.. You just can't see where you're going.
And, you pretty much expect it to be a clear walk way because it's .. supposed to be? It's the passage to the kitchen from the living room. The kids left a big barbie horse carriage RIGHT. SMACK. IN THE GOD DAMN ENTRANCE TO THE FUCKING KITCHEN. So fucking convenient. I didn't fall though, lol. I actually stepped right on it, sort of tripped and dropped one of the cinnamon stick boxes.

Funny thing was, I was a lot more worried about the condition of the food rather than thinking of the condition of my leg and toe. As I saw the box fall down my mind race with the one sentence "Please don't open, please don't fucking open and spill everywhere."

I yelled at my sisters for leaving their toys on the floor, let alone right infront of the kitchen's entrance. Then they got yelled at by my mom, which made me feel a little better. So, I went to sit down on the couch to *finally* check my wounds.

Little scratches on my legs.

HOLY SHIT. My foot has a lot of blood dripping on it. .. And I freaked out, started crying and asking for bandaids. LMAO. Mom yelled at me to shutup, and a lot of emotionally and physically painful drama.

I finally found ONE bandaid at the end of the day. I instantly covered it. (not healthy, I know, but there was no way I was going to clean it. I was already seizuring enough.) I didn't realized the cut was so big until the next day, when the bandaid had slipped off.

Now that I look at it, it's not all that big, but yeah. Got a big .. It's hard to explain, but the bottom of my toe looks like a bloody, deep red triangle. Haha.

It's feeling better now, but we're out of bandaids, and walking funny all this time is hurting the side of my foot. I talked to a friend about it, and they say it should heal in a week or two, because they think I ripped a tissue or something like that.

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<sub>Man, school this year was FUN. The kids were awesome. <3 I love my friends, lol. I'm gonna be so bored this summer without the some of them. Even the teachers were pretty fun.

I get out next wednesday or thursday. I'm sooo happy I have no more homework coming up, and all my projects done. Just two more finals to go~ Next week is all fun and games, the days are all half days. Yay~

The year didn't go so fast, but it's finishing that way. Now it's starting to feel like every second in that school counts. But I'll see them next year-- most of them anyway.

Although I don't really wanna let it go. I can't wait for the summer. Haha.</sub>

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<sub>I'm submitting more to my SheezyArt now. (You'll find the link above... and below.)

I suggest you check there for my pieces instead. I'll still submit to here, but not as much. There are already a few that are there and not here.

SO YEAH. LIKE. GO TO MY SHEEZY ART OKAY. I MEAN, IF ANY OF YOU CARE. LOL. You should like, join there too. People are nicer there.</sub>

http://tehd.sheezyart.com/

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<sub>It feels like I haven't drawn how I've wanted to in ages. I feel so busy lately. D: So many projects, and other things I want to do. Meh, I really want to draw something though. I have so much to dooo, meh. At least schools almost over, just 31 days left. Then I doubt I'll be seeing much of the one guy I kind of like, but that's for the better. Lol!

I'll be coming around to arting again soon. Somewhere around the next month, maybe. I can't believe it's almost over, this year was pretty long compared to the last, haha. <3 I'm looking forward to halloween for some reason, I love halloween. :3</sub>

]]> ~ChaoticMiko http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/12616137/ http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/12616137/ Mon, 16 Apr 2007 08:22:53 PDT --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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<sub>See this man, ~SquidFlaffl . He's gone, and I miss him still. It's kind of hard to just.. you know, forget? Whenever I think, he comes to mind often. I don't want him to, because he probably won't return, and if he will it won't be any time soon.

Erm, anyway. I'm probably not going to be drawing much, and if I am, I'm probably not going to scan it. I might play on Photoshop a bit, and maybe write some more even if they're crappy. Haha.

I'm waiting for someone to meet me on MapleStory at Zombies, which is the only reason I'm really writing this because I need to pass time while I wait, eh.

Schools actually going better, can't say the same for the weather though. Come on, is it January or April? If you went outside now you wouldn't be able to tell. All yesterday the sky was crying hysterically, and over the night it screamed, and it's tears turned to ice. If you don't get me, it was hailing and thundering, really awesome. Woke up in the middle of the night to hear some of it. Well, now it's snowing, I hate snow, I'm tired of snow. We've had way to much of it considering where we live. It's spring, damnit, the weather controller needs to stop playing with us-- just weeks ago it was warm, and nice to go outside in a T, now I'd have to bundle up again just as if it were January, damnit! I guess I shouldn't complain so much, school was cancelled, and I'm really glad for that. I'm really in no condition to move around very much.. menstrual cramps and all. Killer. Good thing it's almost over, a day or two left.

Haha, I hate when I open a page to get something, then get distracted and once I turn my attention back to it I close it totally forgetting it's purpose, but remembering just after I close it.

I love my family to bits, just rambling on here now, but they're awesome. My moms the funniest, best mother and friend I could ever have. I love her more than anyone in the whole world, along with my sisters. Even though they're both younger, Aimee and Rose, they're fun to hang out with and talk to. They're really there for me when I need someone around, and I love to hang out with them. My dad is, erm, Dad, is all I'll say. He's good now, we argue less but he's around less, so yeah-- it's all good. Him and mom still argue like there's no tomorrow, but that's "normal" here now! I'm glad I'm finally starting to develop some .. social-ness.. Whatever you call it. Friends are good to have, especially off the net, and I'm glad I'm starting to gain them. They may be a pain in the ass, but ah.. what isn't these days?

See you all later. Possibly on MSN, MS, next journal, or at SheezyART.

Oh nice, one of the two cats just pissed on the closet door. Good thing it's not MY clothes that are in there.</sub>

]]> ~ChaoticMiko http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/12502234/ http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/12502234/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 21:13:29 PDT --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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Omg. ):

" * 200 Deviations
* 107 Scraps [browse]
* 423 Deviation Comments
* 166 Deviant Comments
* 6,667 Pageviews "

First of all. 200 pieces. MY BUNNIES MUSTA BEEN THE 200TH. hurraay. No wonder they're having a party.
2nd No one comments anymore ._. At least SA's more comment friendly. >:U
Third.. Minus 1 from the 6,667 page views. OH EM EFF GEE? MUAHAHAHA.

7k pageviews = art for it. MAYBE. O: ?! Probably not, I'm to lazy.

A less pointless journal tomorrow, perhaps!!? Probably not as well bec -- LOL, I JUST REMEMBERED WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO SPELL PROBABLY. THAT WAS LIKE-- The HARDEST word for me to spell, and I always kept getting it wrong somehow.

Also, my first baby word was "Cookie." Short story behind that in which I'm to lazy to get into!

Before I finish this entry, I was wondering. How come the word Palindrome means that if a word, or phrase is written either backwards of forwards it says and means the same thing-- BUT the word Palindrome spelt backwards is Emordnilap, and that definetly doesn't mean the same thing, as far as I know? LIKE, WHY CAN'T PALINDROME BE IT'S SELF. >:0</sub>

]]> ~ChaoticMiko http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/12435052/ http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/12435052/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 18:17:31 PDT --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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<sub>I don't know, really.

But it feels like everything I come up with is WRONG, it doesn't feel like ME, it feels TO unoriginal. [link] I'm not going to let go of the only thing I'm good at, but maybe I should try looking into other sections of art. I think I might need a break from drawing, maybe. I noticed I'm not to good at writing, but I love to do it. I lost alot of interest in abstract computer arts. (You know, the photoshop stuff.)

Well, aside from that, there are other reasons why I haven't been submitting things lately.

I'll list them to make things simpler.
1. School work isn't to much of a problem, no, But I do have a good handful of projects due within the next few months. That's alot of time, but me worrying about getting them done gets in the way of my arting too.
2. Boy troubles-- actually, not so much TROUBLES. But I have a crush, two infact. Thinking about them takes so much time, I don't even know how it does. I try hard not to daydream, but it always ends up happening, and this is even starting to effect my school work, and I DO NOT want that to happen.
3. I've been working ALOT on my physical appearence (Meaning, going outside, working out, jogging, etcetera.) , because that means alot to me-- how I look, as dumb as it sounds. I know I'm an awesome person inside, but no one will learn that if I don't make myself near to awesome on the outside, you catch my drift? No one's going to pick up the book with the textbook look on the outside, even if it could have the most amazing stories on the in!
4. As amazing as it sounds, my old friends have .. well, now they're not "OLD" anymore. We've been hanging out more, since the weather has been getting better, so I've been spending most of my time outside. Which isn't all that bad, it helps me get some excersise and all.
5. I'm a lazy-ass bitch.

I guess, to put it all much more simpler, I'm starting to develop some sort of "life", as alot of you would put it. I'm not going to leave you all, though.

In other news! To some of your horror I'm starting to like all of the songs by Akon. *Shot* I also believe I'm getting hit with bad allergies, even though spring is my favorite season of them all. Aside from all the bugs, I hate bugs.

Oh yes, I'd like to take some time to welcome my Stephan back. I love you, sweetie.

Hooray for in-activeness! You'll be seeing less of me around now for a little bit!!</sub>

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<sub>I'm sick. Pissed. And tired of everyone, and everything.

I'm seriously about to murder myself, if not someone else. I'm so pissed off.

Friends suck, people suck in general. Everything sucks.

My nose keeps fucking running, my head hurts, my throat hurts. I can barely talk right. Fuck. -__-

Maybe I'll go draw to calm down...</sub>

]]> ~ChaoticMiko http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/12148220/ http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/12148220/ Sun, 11 Mar 2007 19:07:29 PDT --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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<sub>I'm tired, and I just wanted to let you all know that..

300 is a really good movie. Lol.

Kay bye, I'll be busy lately.</sub>

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<sub>I don't know why, but I'm in a good mood. :3 Actually, I could be better. I still miss Stephan soo bad. x_________x BLAH. And I should be doing a project. Bluurgh.

I'm hyper though, must be the song. lol

I'll probably be drawing more on the computer since the Scanner isn't really cooperating with me. :\

Ooh, today's weather was so weird. First it was all warm and sunny, then it started raining, then it got sunny, then it started snowing HEAVILY, and it just kept switching back and forth from sunny to snowy .__.

Well, I just got lazy. Byes. xD</sub>

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<sub>OMG, Yes. I finished my fucking science project! So fuckin glad I got that done with, and now I have to do my reading one which is worst because I have to draw like, 10 pages that have to do with my story. WHICH I DO NOT FEEL LIKE DOING. errg.

Wow, it's like everyone's making me cry recently, maybe I'm just being really emotional. Last night on MS I deleted more than half of my buddylist, I blocked alot of people on MSN, and I don't know. It feels like I'm losing trust in everyone. (But Adam, of course.) Even Scott, and myself I can't trust. I mean, I actually never trusted myself all that much to begin with, but now it feels like I got farther away from being able to do so.

Why are the majority of men such assholes/idiots? D:
Maybe that's what the problem is here, I have to many GUY friends, and probably only 2 girl ones. But when I do have girl friends, I normally end up fighting with them. That sort of thing happened last night.

Blah, there's alot of birthdays coming up IRL and online. I'll probably only get a gift for one person because the others, or most of the others don't deserve anything.

Well, yeah. I'm pretty busy, and I'm losing great interest on the computer very quickly. So I won't be on for quite a bit of time. Or maybe, I don't know anymore.

It just got really dark outside-- it was sunny just a second ago. Lol.

Well, see you all later.</sub>

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<sub>I'm what.. two days or so early. Well actually, in 5 minutes I'll be a day early. But just in case.

Plus, there's a 90% chance you won't show up.

But if you do, I guess I'll unblock you on MSN. >__> Bleh...

I love you, unfortunetly.

Happy 15th, sweetii. |: I'll be here if you make it, even if you don't. Unlike what you did for my birthday. >.>

<3</sub>

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<sub>Augh. I have a stupid fever. My head hurts so bad, and it feels like my neck is weak.

My so called friends are dicks, there's probably 3 who aren't, at the most.. I miss Stephan so bad. TT____TT He's like, the only awesome guy I really enjoy talking to, and he makes me feel soo happy. That and he's the main thing that really keeps me going, I can't wait to see him again, and I hope he's okay so that I can. Everytime I feel like killing myself I always remember him and it stops the thoughts from turning into actions. IMissHimSoBad.

I hate living in this place, with no place to go. I hate school, it's annoying. I hate me, I hate everything I feel towards people and situations, I hate that I dislike myself, and I hate how I think so much of suicide. Errg.

I'm so stressed over dumb things, I think I need to sleep. x__x Augh, fucking school tomorrow. Why can't I ever have one day without going all depressed at the end of it.

Good Night.</sub>

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<sub>Good Morning to me. ^^ This is the latest I've slept in and I feel great. I haven't slept so much in a while.

God damn, I want spring to come. Dad just comes and tells me theres another blizzard of some sort coming. Errg -___- I mean, the snow days are great and all, but I'd rather have spring be here than have to see all this white and coldness outside. Plus, I'd rather be at school than at home during a school day for everyone else because no ones ever online.

I'm eating pizza hut. xD Aha, I really miss Scott, and all my friends are just waiting for me to dump him, but I don't want to, and I don't think I'm gonna. z___z'' Bllargh.

OH YEAH. Dad got a new car, a Saturn SUV. Omg it's so sexy. ^^ It's all black and stuff. *drool*

Well, now I wonder how much money we've spent the past two months.. Augh, I don't even want to know. x_x At least everythings okay though, and everyones in one piece.</sub>



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<sub>This journals a long ass bitch. [link]

And so my page isn't stretched out, and hard to get to the comments...

Yeah, I had a dream that I was an angel, and I had the wings and everything. Then I died, somehow.

I don't remember to much, lol...

School sucks. I have to work on those projects, and stuff. x__x Auuughhh.

Okay, byee.</sub>

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<sub>Bored, and you know how I am. I like doing everything but what I have to do. So...

~:~ Random Stuff ~:~
So who are you? I wish I knew for sure.
What is love to you? Something I won't get a straight definition of until I'm older.
What did you want to be when you were a little kid? A teacher.
Do you believe in magic? Yes.
What happens if you find a four-leaf clover under a ladder? The ladder part takes effect once you lose the four-leaf clover.
Has anyone ever saved your life? Yes.
If you could go back in time, would you change anything? To many things to sort out.
Are you happy with who you are? Nope.
How old are you? 15.
How old do you feel? 17.
Can you slam a revolving door? Yes.
Have you ever tried? Lol, No.
Can you read a picture book? No.
There is a flashlight, but what about a flashdark? Interesting. lol
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? Near one of my best friends. lol
describe your perfect vacation The one in which I spend the most time with him.
Are you missing anyone in your life? I'm missing everyone.
Have you ever danced in the rain? When I had friends, lol
Been in a play? 3rd grade.
Made a mud pie? Yesss xD
Laughed for no reason? I don't think there's such thing as laughing for "no reason". But laughing out of no where because of something that happened a few days back, yes!
Sang for an audience? When I was younger.
If you could travel back to any time period, where would you travel? I don't want to.
why? Because what happened is done and shouldn't be gone back to.
scientists really need to invent... things we really need.
What is your favorite smell? Aw man, we had this Febreeze thing a few days back, I think the scent was Baking Cookies and Vanilla or something. It smelled SOO good.
Are you scared of anything? So many things. D:
If you have a pet with two heads, do you have to name both heads? No, unless there are two hearts.
Why do we think about love so much? Everything in life leads to a form of love somehow?
Can you have your head in the clouds and be down-to-earth at the same time? Yes.
What do you do when your sad? Sleep, and anything else you'd rather not know.
Angry? I think angry and sad are the same thing for me, thus I cry and fall asleep eventually.
Stressed? I'd rather not share.
Nervous? Bite my nails.
Excited? Get worried after a while.
Have you ever had a life-changing experience? Many.
What was it? One was moving to New York, and to make this short; Every friend I've met that I've stayed friends with for more than a few months.
What is the craziest thing you've ever done? I can't recall.
The stupidest? Forgive.
Do you believe in God? Most of me doesn't.
In reincarnation? Most of me does, the half doesn't but would like if it were real.
If pluto is a dog, then what is goofy? Unreal.
Why is it good to be a daddy's girl, but bad to be a momma's boy? Because little kids find girly boys strange, but boyish girls are cool for the most part.
How do you judge people? Uhhhhhh.
Do you believe in stereotyping? No.
Is a (wo)man full of wonder a... ]]></sub> ~ChaoticMiko http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/11911744/ http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/11911744/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 17:19:47 PST --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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<sub>IT'S A PIECE OF CAKE TO BAKE A PRETTY CAKE. IF THEY WAY IS HAZY~ YOU GOTTA DO THE COOKING BY THE BOOK, YOU KNOW YOU CAN'T BE LAZY! NEVER USE A MESSY RECIPE, THE CAKE WILL END UP CRAZY~ IF YOU DO THE COOKING BY THE BOOK THEN YOU'LL HAVE A CAKE!!! WE GOTTA HAVE IT MADE, YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE CAKE. FINALLY ITS TIME TO MAKE A CAKE!!@!!

I have no clue, but I'm hyper. So while I'm in a good mood. OMG I WROTE A "POEM" THAT IS SO AMAZING. When was the last time I did that, like-- ages.

OMFG, WE ORDERED PIZZA, RIGHT. It was HORRIBLE. Well, actually the breadsticks were really good, but the pizza is disgustinggg, and it made me feel a little sick.

ANYWAY, I'm so stresseddd. I have like, 4 projects due around the same date, bluuh. x____________________x At least two of those are easy and have to do with drawing, so I can get those done the last few days they are due. So I'm sort of busy.

Evidently, I'm off hiatus. Or something like that. Kbye.

Ps: Don't forget to avoid messy recipes. We don't want any crazy cakes.</sub>

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<sub>So quickly.

It all started when dad did that thing to mom when he was drunk. Which led to a few hospital visits, and is still going on.

And then he got into a car accident. We lost our best, safest car.

And then Mom's injuries get worst again, Dad doesn't take her to the hospital or doctor, So..

Now the car breaks down in New York and he has to pay a shitload to get it back here.

Not only that but if I am late one day of school even then we get fined $500 or something like that.

And now that we're completely without a car, that's almost impossible to do.

Pennsylvania sucks.

Oh and I'm on my period. Hooray for cramps, and moodyness. Fuck.</sub>

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<sub>Alotta Cussing Here.
My scanners acting up. -.- It's prolly broken, I don't know.

Anyway, It's fucking hailing, I have no friends on, Schools cancelled. I want a fucking HUG. I miss Scott, I miss Stephan. ERRG. ;_; I have NO friends who would listen to me (I mean, ones I talk to now.), and the closest to the one who does ends up completely ignoring me and walking away as I'm talking. DAMN YOU, KYLE.

I HATE VALENTINES DAY. It sucks, I NEVER have anyone to spend it with. AND IT'S DUMB.

What's even the point of Valentines Day? "Love", and the dating someone shouldn't JUST POP UP just because you start seeing little pink hearts all over advertisements. Errg. Valentines Day sucks. If you have someone you LIKE then spend time with them no matter the day, no matter what's being sold in stores.

But I have to admit, the candy is pretty good. That's the only good thing about Valentines Day.

Anyway. It's HAILING, last night it was snowing all nice, and all of the sudden it started hailing really bad. I went out there to take a picture. (Which I'll submit after playing with it in Photoshop.) and I got "raped" by the ice falling from the sky.

We (As in "School".) got out early yesterday though, missed having to present my project in English, and school was cancelled today! It'd be nice if it was cancelled tomorrow, hopefully it keeps hailing, I guess. Dad can't come home from NY, though.

I'm really really pissed about this shit the scanners pulling, not only that but I'm HUNGRY. And I think I'm going to be PMSing soon, but that's somewhat besides the point.

I was planning on maybe not going on Hiatus, but then I realised that I am going to be pretty busy, just not today. Projects;; errg. At least they're easy ones, making a drawing book sort of thing from a book I read. I can do that in less than an hour, and STILL get a good grade.

To my surprise, I'm passing about every class except for English, because she makes everything so hard to do. Who the fucks going to do all those damn steps when they get older. She makes like, 50 things to do before a final copy, I understand a few, but like, some are REALLY not needed. Damn it. I can't believe I managed to finish her project though, faked rough draft, faked the editting and proof reading, ran through the other steps. Even got to drawing a quick comic on it in less than 2 hours. IT'S CRAP-- BUT AT LEAST ITS DONE!

My head hurts, I'm really cold when I shouldn't be since the heat is on. I'm extreamly lonely, and depressed lately. And GUESS WHAT. No ones around to talk to, my friend that I love so much is never on. Scott wasn't on! But we all know that's nothing to new. Stephan's still gone. ;_; I really miss Steph, I sleep with the stuffed animal (that his parents sent me) every night, thinking of him and wishing I could hear him again. I really miss him even though I don't say it that much. ;_;

Anyway, ENOUGH WHINING. I'M GOING TO GO BEAT SOMETHING UP. I am so pissed. Wow, I hear the hail hitting my window. Maybe we should turn on the fireplace. Hmm.

My sisters won't stop fucking yelling behind me. GOD. I AM GOING TO STRANGLE A DOLL OR SOMETHING.

._. Sigh.</sub>

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<sub>I'm going through alot right now; Family, school, friends, so-called friends, my own illnesses, etc.

If I update, it's probably gonna be once a few weeks, or so.

Probably will write journals, otherwise for art. That's most likely not gonna happen for a while.

Thanks for everythings guys, I'll be fully back in a bit hopefully.</sub>



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<sub>I think I deleted that journal.

But if any of you remember. Remember when Dad you know.. Did that shit to Mom? And she had to go to the hospital for alot of things, alot of money. She went through ALOT of pain in just a span of not even a week.

Well, anyway she has a big scar on her face, and now it's getting bad again. She's getting the same pains as before the hospital visit, and she might have to go again.

The other day I heard Dad crying about how he hated his life, and whatever. Then I felt bad, and was worrying all day about him, but now I feel like I hate him for what he did, and that he STILL thinks "sorry" is going to fix everything.

Sigh, It feels like everythings my fault again. x_x;; I don't know what to do. It's amazing how Mom can still be her Mom-Self, all happy on the computer, with a tiny bits of complains when I look at her face and see that scar, and that she's clearly unhappy.



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_{1-23 -- Ghetto.
24-34 -- Average.
35-45 -- Spoiled.
45+ -- Rich.
What do you have?
[x] Mother
[x] Father. (Fine. I'll call him that. -.-)
[] Step-mother.
[] Step-father.
[x] Sister. ( TWO (: )
[x] Step-sister or half-sister.
[] Brother.
[] Step-brother or half-brother.
[] Nephew.
[] Niece.
[] Cell phone.
[x] Own bathroom.
[x] Own room.
[x] Swimming pool.
[] Hot tub.
[x] Guest room.
[] Computer, Laptop or Desktop in your room.
[x] TV in your room.
TOTAL: 9
[x] Full size or bigger bed.
[x]More than 8 pairs of shoes.
[x] Sunglasses.
[] Watch.
[x] MP3 Player/iPod.
[x] Playstation.
[] Xbox (360). (We were gonna get one, but then mom saw the newest Final Fantasy and got that instead. xD)
[x] Dreamcast Sega. (SOMEWHERE IN THE ATTIC.)
[] Gamecube.
TOTAL: 6
[x] Basketball hoop.
[] Air hockey table.
[] Pool table.
[] Ping pong table.
[] Fooseball table.
[x] Trampoline.
TOTAL: 2
[x] Nightstand.
[x] Stereo in bedroom.
[x] DVD player in bedroom.
[] Have something from abercrombie and fitch or hollister. (Ew.Ew.Ew.)
[] Ever Shopped at AE.
[] Own a Gucci, Dooney & Burke, LV, OR Guess, etc.
[] Wears Lacoste.
[] Parents give you credit card.
[x] Parents give you money everywhere that you go.
TOTAL: 4
[] Job.
[]Goes shopping at least once a week.
[]expensive cologne/perfume.
[x] AIM
[x] Camera-phone.
TOTAL: 2
[] Electric or gas scooter/motorcycle/car.
[x] Guitar/Drums/Bass guitar/ukulele.
[x] Piano/Keyboard.
[x] Any other instrument.
[] Hammock.
[] Been on a cruise.
[] Traveled out of the state.
[] Had a personal trainer.
[x] Expensive jewelry.
[] Met a celebrity.
TOTAL: 4
[] Straightener/curling iron.
[] Have been to a batting cage.
[] Have $100 on you right now.
[] Credit card or atm card,debit card.
[] Been to Europe.
[] Been to Hawaii.
[x] Been to NY. (HOME@!!)
[x] Been to Florida.
[x] Been to Disney World/Land. ( I was a baby. And I was scared of Bugs Bunny. x: )
[] Been to Las Vegas.
[] Been to the Bahamas Jamaica.}
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<sub>1. Height? 5 feet something.
2. Have you ever done coke? Not yet, lol
3. Do you own a fish? A few. ONES NAME IS KUPO, AND THE OTHERS IS MOOGLE, AND ANOTHER IS CHOCOBO. But I can't tell the differences between them, so we just call them "the fishes"
4. If you took a drug test would you be clean? Probably not for all I know lol
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Yes. D:
6. What do you think of hotdogs? Reminds me of what my social studies teacher said about something about rat poop in food, or something. BUT I EAT THEM ANYWAY.
7. What's your favorite Christmas song? UHHMM.. JINGLE BELLS.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Whatevers on the table or the first thing I see when I open the fridge, most of the time it's water.
9. Can you do push ups? No way. ;_;
10. Is your bathroom clean? Sure.
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? I like rings for some reason.
12. Do you like painkillers? Yes.
13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? I HAVE BIG BOOBS.
14. Do you have A.D.D.? Yes. D:
15. Middle Name? Anna.
16. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? Scott, my sisters screaming behind me, and why's mom so pissed lately.
17. Name the last 3 things you have bought? Manga, Manga, maybe an anime shirt-- or more Manga.
18. Name 3 things you regularly drink? Water, Dr. Pepper, Apple Juice
19. Current worry? Things I have to do, like call Stephan's parents to say thanks for the birthday gift.
20. Current hate? Me. The usual!
21. How did you bring in the New Year? Lose a really good friend.
22. Where would you like to go? Wherever Scott is.
23. Do you own slippers? Yes, they are kitty-like.
24. What shirt are you wearing? Full Metal Alchemist lol
25. Do you burn or tan? Uhm, I'm not sure actually. Prolly burn loll.
26. Favorite color(s)? BLACK. Or red, blue's nice too. Green's pretty, I really like purple.
27. Would you be a pirate? Arrrr.
28. What songs do you sing in the shower? The first song I start to hum.
29. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Rapist; Murderer, that's still my fear. lol
30. What's in your pockets right now? Don't have pockets, but if I did, it'd be candy. (:
31. Last thing that made you laugh? Scott ^-^
32. Best bed sheets as a child? I remember they had sailor moon on it.
33. Worst injury you've ever had? Getting thrown down cement stairs as a toddler. OR SPRAINING MY ANKLE. Haven't broken anything yet. lol
34. How many TVs do you have in your house? 5, I think we have an extra one too.
35. Does someone have a crush on you? Ew.
36. Do u wish on shooting stars? Yes!
37. What is your favorite book? THAT BOOK. the hungry little caterpiller, or whatever. I loved that book as a little kid. :3 Otherwise, fuck reading. >.>
38. What is your favorite candy? OMG. REESES. SMARTIES. THOSE MNM REESES THINGS. PIXIE STICKS. Or those giant lollipops. I can't pick. ):
39. What song do you... ]]></sub> ~ChaoticMiko http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/11669029/ http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/11669029/ Sat, 03 Feb 2007 08:58:52 PST --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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<sub>Have you ever had a really good friend, really really good friend. You loved them so much, maybe a little crush, but you loved them as the good friend they were.

And they helped you out so much, though you hadn't known them for that long. They know how much they mean to you, or they should by now. You'd talk to them everyday, and they meant basically the world to you-- in a sense.

And then one day, you tell your friend something that you shouldn't have-- you promised the best best friend you love you wouldn't. You make sure that other friend promises that nothing of the subject would be mentioned aside of just now, but they don't listen to you anyway. So, what shouldnt have happened did, and it wasn't even a big thing-- not a huge secret.

So, obviously, you know they'd be mad, and they said really mean things to you that emotionally tore you apart. The things they said keep replaying in your mind, and it tears you even more. No matter how much you try not to remember. They've forgiven you, but won't even talk to you anymore, and if they do they're cold. You listen to them talk to other people, and you get jealous and hate yourself for being so, because it was all your fault.

But I can't help but be upset all week and more over this. I'm so sorry. ._.</sub>

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<sub>.. When people know how to spell, but they just don't do it. I mean, I can understand when they don't do it when playing an online game, or joking around or if it's just a few typos. Because there's better things to do then be sure you're spelling right.

Come on, when you write a comment on here at least keep in mind that It annoys some people when "U" is used as if it were a word, and not the letter it is.

Your comments on here aren't little notes written quickly to your friends, they're supposed to be comments, and when you type using raped grammar it looks like you care very little about who or what you're commenting on. If you have no time to write a comment to someone or something just wait til you can later so it can look like you care a little more rather than just rushing quickly to get your point across.

Or something like that. Lol.

Anyway, I'm in a good mood, don't know why since my stomach has been acting up. Stephan's parents sent me a little stuffed animal for my birthday and it's SOO soft. I just love to cuddle it! <3

I'm having bad back pains, I don't know if it's the way I sleep, or sit. It just really hurts. Most likely my bed, my bed is as if I'm sleeping on poorly rugged floor.

I'll get to scanning my actual drawings later, I'm getting lazy again. I like playing around with my camera anyway. And woo, 4 day weekend. <3</sub>

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<sub>Just thought I'd let you all know. D:

I'm 15 now. ):

2 hour delay at school. Dunno why since it isn't raining/snowing/hailing outside. BUT YAY ANYWAY.

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I got a camera, and.. uhm.. Shit didn't even get notebooks. I wanted those too.
We were thinking of getting DDR, but we decided against it. I'm having fun with my camera anyway.

I miss Scott. He promised he'd come on my Bday, and I was really looking forward to is. *Cries* ;_; I mean, I KNEW deep down he wouldn't. But meh.

Anyway;; Thanks everyone on wishing me a happy birthday, and the gifts. <3 I had fun at school, someone gave me a manga, and someone managed to give me an old notebook with some empty pages I could use. Woo. I got a card from someone I barely talk to too! And punches! Well, only 6 of them, I started pulling the kids hair because it started to hurt. Stupid blonde.

Best thing-- the camera. I can't even charge my NX Cash on MapleStory for fear of the keylog thing many keep going on about.

Forgot to get headphones too. Crap.

I miss Stephan like hell, I won't stop whining to mom. Blah. If only I could give him a big hug or something. I'd kill a dog to be able to hear his voice even.

.. Then again, I hate dogs. I'd choke a cat, but not to death. Just a little.

Man, I miss himmm. I needa stop whining.

Well, at least tomorrows Saturday. Can sleep in. Yoohoo.

But weekends are only good if I spend them with Scott.. ._.</sub>

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<sub>My dad hit a truck. With the SUV.

The SUV's front got torn off. The car almost blew up with him in it.

An off duty state trooper managed to pull dad out of the back of the car, since the front doors were jammed. And he was safe. Got taken to the hospital somewhere in Jersey. Got home sooner than expected. Thankfully.

We have no car, besides the little one which is barely working right.

And if any of you know PA, we need a car.

Happy fucking birthday to me. I didn't want anything much for my birthday... But, still.

But things got worst. Stephan had promised he'd call me the day of my birthday. That was the ONLY thing I wanted, if I were to get only one thing. It would be to hear his voice again even if it was for a short moment. Well, he's not allowed to now.. I don't what to do.

I bet Scott won't even show up for my birthday, knowing him.

At this point, I don't even know why I bother living.

I'm glad Dad's alive, and he's in better condition then I had expected. I'm really, really happy he's okay. But now, the money, and everything.. Sigh.

Whoevers up there controlling my life, and the other's around me is one fucked up freak.</sub>

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<sub>I stole this from ~OoBlackyoO X]

+9 FIRSTS +
First Best Friend: Melanie ( I moved though. D: )
First imaginary friend: Nina
First Pet's Name: Rex
First Piercing: Ears. I was a baby.
First Crush: I forget his name, I think it started with an S.
First CD: Probably something by Evanescence, I just download my music now anyway.
First Car: Haven't gotten that far.
First School: PS229, NY Queens.
First Kiss: Not yet, and if I got one from my parents, I don't remember.


+ 9 LASTS +

Last Time You Smoked: Haven't started smoking yet, hopefully won't do that yet.
Last Food You Ate: I'm currently eating Pizza Hut. lol
Last Car Ride: Yesterday, to school.
Last Movie You Watched: Monsters INC. At school.
Last Phone Call: Two days ago.
Last CD You listened to: Don't listen to CDs, but I've listened to alot of Michelle Branch songs in her cd "The Spirit Room".
Last Bubble Bath You took: UHMM. I think that was less than a month ago. xD;
Last Song You listened to: The hamster dance. ^^''
Last Fight: Don't get into that much trouble.

+ 8 HAVE YOU EVER +

Have You Ever Dated a Best Friend: Haven't been on a date. xD;
Have You Ever Been Arrested: Nope. :]
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: Nope. xD I rarely go outside to begin with.
Have You Ever Been on TV: I think I have, for some stupid school shit. I think it had to do with 9/11.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Regretted It: Never kissed, been kissed. Never even been hugged. xD
Have You Ever Cheated on Your bf/gf: I haven't had a RL bf/gf. >.>'' Most likely wouldn't cheat seeing how shy I am.
Have You Ever Been on a Blind Date: Never dated. Look above.
Have You Ever Been out of the Country: Uhmm, I think I might've, when I was really young though.

+ 5 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING +
A really long shirt, which is almost like a dress.
Underwear
Bracelate

uhh.. that's kinda it. My PJs.. lol

+ 6 THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY +
Eat Chinese food.
Drink a milkshake.
Play on MapleStory
Talked on MSN
Took a shower
Eating Pizza Hut

+ 5 FAVORITE THINGS +
My computer
Candy
My mom
My true friends
Art

+ 4 PEOPLE YOU MOST TRUST +
My mom
Adam
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+ 3 CHOICES +

Tea or coffee? Tea
Freak or normal? Freak
ALL OR NOTHING? Well, that depends on the subject. I'd say nothing if we're talking about EVERYTHING in the world though. (The negative things overkill the positives)

+ 2 THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE +
Understand myself.
Get a hug.

+ 1 PERSON YOU WANT TO SEE +
One?!!? D: I can't really choose. lol</sub>

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<sub>Lol, I go to bed at 9PM early yesterday (2 hours earlier than usual) because I was sick, and exausted. Wake up at 5:30 ON MY OWN. (Parents normally wake me). I'm all happy getting ready, I even am ready 30 minutes earlier than I usually am.

Then I'm here, expecting dad will take me in 30, and mom tells me that she thinks hes drunk again because he was acting like an ass to her. So I'm like.. err, I should consider going on my own then. - -''

So he comes down, yells at me for being late, or some stupid shit. And I tell him he's actually 20 minutes to early to take me. Pisses me off, because he starts screaming and we're in the same room the kids are in. Fucking retard.

So yay, leave it to my dad to ruin my morning and whole mood.</sub>

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<sub>I sat here thinking for a while.

And I thought.

How the hell am I able to get out of bed every morning, knowing every day is basically SHIT.

How the hell am I able to do anything anymore.

Sigh, I also realised how much of the people I know are actually asses. Even some on DA here.

And to be honest, there's probably 3 out of 100 people that I know that are actually FRIENDS. Even if we talked twice over a years past.

The kind of friends that.. you know.. Won't ever think of hurting you on purpose? And won't backstab you, or make you feel like crap.

Oh wait, it's rare overall to find anyone like that anymore.

On here, I believe there's only 3 or so people that read my journals, or even bother to look over it at least.

Thanks, guys. Yunie, Artic are the ones I can think of off the top of my head that are on here. I appreciate it you too.

I mean, it's not that I want you guys to comment, I'm just saying.. yknow.. sorry.

Yeah, I'm an ass, and I appologize. You guys won't have to deal with it anymore soon enough.. I think.

Because.. you know.. sometimes things just snap, and people just can't make it.. can't take it anymore.

Hopefully I find a better day that shines, if I can get there.</sub>

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<sub>My friend asked me to make a list of the dumbest things that scared me, or led to me being scared in the end. Losing someone isn't dumb, along with other serious things. So those won't be included in the list. I told him I was lazy, and that I'd post a list on DA later in my journal so he can see it later. That is.. whenever I got bored enough. .. & I'll try putting them in order, knowing I'll fail to horribly. Anyone else can make their own lists, which I'd like you all to, since I love reading these sort of things.. Anywho..

10. Being first in a line. School or not.
Bothers me, because I don't know what they're doing behind me.. or what is behind me to begin with. Then I start to get all.. worried, and scared.
9. The dark.
Because.. it's just scary.
8. Being caught singing (and singing from the heart, not as if I was high.)
Extreamly shy. And in my oppinion, singing isn't exactly my strong points. Thought I don't find this one "dumb" D:
7. Being caught talking to myself.
Because.. you know.. It's not natural to talk to yourself as much as I do?
6. Saying certain things to the wrong person (online mainly).
Because sometimes we pull up the wrong chats, type.. just the wrong thing.. and think it's someone else.. when you know.. it's not. The best part is getting hit with their reaction.
5. My, now 6 year old, sister.
Not kidding. She's a big ball of violent evil... And she hits.. with barbies. ._.
4.Dogs, and bugs.
No matter how they look, they could be as small as an ant, and I'll still be scared. Even though I know the most they can do to me is give me a deadly disease, through biting. Yeah.
3. Other's injuries.
It scares me, makes me feel the pain on wherever it is on them, and makes me feel sick. As if I were to vomit sort of sick.
2. Closing my eyes in the shower.
You know when you wash your hair, and you have to close your eyes so it doesn't get in them? I hate doing that.. so scared of what I'll see when I open them.
1. My most current, and noticed fear is Reflections/ Windows
The reflections when the TVs off, or maybe just from a window. Or even looking out my window, night or not. This is my biggest phobia. Yesterday my TV wouldn't turn on, and I couldn't sleep because of it's reflection on it of my room. I had to put a cover over it. I also have thick shades over my windows, and the mirror in my room is useless because I always keep it faced down on the floor. I'm a weirdo. x]

Yep.

Anyway, I've been drawing alot lately. I finally found a name for my character in Biggest Star. I'm not sure if I'll stick with the name, but it's Tori, if anyone's interested. Had to ask some kids at school for suggestions during lunch.

As well as came up with a name for the lil angel, I drew more pictures of her.. Which I'll most likely get to scanning either tomorrow, or during the weekend.

Gah, after I was done with my call with my Scotti, I fell asleep, and .. y'know.. I slid off my bed in my sleep, and in all that commotion I tried to land on my feet. Bad idea. Hurted my ankle, it's a BITCH to even attempt walking now. One pain after another, I swear. ):

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<sub>Wow. The weathers so nice.. e___e

And I'm submitting arts like woah!

Ah.. I just didn't like that other journal there on my page. I'll update this one more whenever I feel boredbored again. xD

ILUALL<3</sub>

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<sub>Waiting for dad to take me there.

Fucking, couldn't sleep. And when I finally got to sleep Mommi wakes me up, and wouldn't listen to me when I said 5 more minutes.

My dad sucks, I don't even think he remembers my name anymore.

So tired.. To lazy to submit arts.

But whatever. Sorry, guys.

(Lol, on MS I'm ranked 11 for most Bera fame, and 64 for overall. Wee. xD)</sub>

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Hope it's less fucked up than the last, or whatever!

Hope you've had yourself a good one.

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I just need to let this all out.

Basically all this is gonna be about is that I miss Scott like hell.

So what do you do when you know he or she (That you love so much) won't come back, and if they do, they'll just dissapear again?

I mean, it's not like I'm completely alone or anything.. I kind of dumped him for Stephan.. but omfg.. I miss him so much.

I can't do anything without being reminded of him, followed by the wish to just be able to talk to him and hear his voice again. I can't even sleep, which is why I'm up at 4:30AM typing this.

Everytime he comes back, it just reminds me about how much I really love him. He's really THE most perfect person I've ever met. And when he leaves, what do I do?

I don't know if I want him to come back.. Sigh.. wait.. I do.. I miss him so much.

To be honest, No one can make me happier than he did, he always knew how to make me laugh. My mom always yells at me for being so hung up on him, but I really miss him. I really do feel something strong for him.

Sigh.. I don't know if I'll ever get over him, and I hope he comes back. I go to bed every night hoping he comes at least online for a minute or so the next day. (I even have dreams about him from time to time).

If only I had more of a life, and friends. Maybe that could help get over it.

I'm sorry guys, have a happy new year in case I don't get to make a journal by then.

And say happy birthday to my sister Aimee, She's now 6 (12/29).


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And I'm being lazy.

Lazy, boring, almost shitty Christmas.

I swear, if it weren't for Stephan I would've been completely shitty. <3MuchLove to you, hun.

Any how, I'll submit my christmas arts eventually, I drew like, 4 of them.

I can't find the plugs to my scanner, Actually I haven't looked to much.

But still.

Yes, LazyLazy.

Merry Christmas, everybuddy! Hope you had/have yourself a good one. (:

Oh and a happy new year, if I come late again. Probably going to be busy on MapleStory as usually.

But anywho. HAPPY HOLIDAYS, MY SEXY FRIENDS!

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<sub>Sigh. Time of the month. Cramps hurt so much... Meh...

I'd plug in my scanner, but standing up hurts alot. Otherwise I'd post that 5,000 pageviews pic I drew that I mentioned.

But eh, that'll wait. Thankyou all for all the favs, views, watches, and all. I really apreciate it.</sub>



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<sub>I fucking hate my father so much. I've been so close to hurting him, I swear. I can't even talk to him without wanting to punch him in the face for what he did to Mom and the kids.

And the good that came out of it, now the kids dislike him too. Hooray.

It's so weird, I don't think I could ever hate someone other than myself so much. I really am trying to keep myself from wishing him pain.

But eh, he deserves whatever pain he gets. If he has any guilt of what he did, it wouldn't even be enough.

Fucking ass, being all nice to her after almost killing her. And then the cops do nothing. Wtf.


I'm sorry, I'll delete this eventually, maybe. But I'm so fucking pissed at him, I hope I stop hating him soon. It kind of hurts to, him being father and all, as much an idiot as he is.

I really, really need a hug. I'm crying so hard, because Mom means the world to me, and seeing her in pain like this. I don't like him... I don't like father at all.</sub>

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<sub>Wow! I'm nearly at 5k Page Views. o_O I have absolutely no clue when I hit 4k to begin with, and don't even remember whether I said thanks for it or not.

Eh, Since I'll probably not be posting as much nowadays. I just thought I'd say a thanks early. And If I ever feel up to it, I'll post a cute art having to do with Chibis in relation to the 5000. But ANYWAY.

I have a fever. My sisters birthday is on December 29th. As mine is coming up in a little over a month. (January26th, along with my Mommy and father's bday.) Christmas break is next week. Woo. No snow though. ):

That is all. Thankyou for your time.</sub>

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<sub>-Edit-
I typed out the whole story, but I erased it. No one needs to know.

I'll just say this. Mom will have to go to the hospital. The whole family has a cold. And I hate my father with a passion.

G'day.</sub>

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<sub>Hey guys.

Remember that baby mouse I mentioned here?

The cats never caught the lil' fella. But...

The toilet did. And uh, It drowned. ): It was only a baby too, poor thing.

Anyway, my headphones are pissing me off. They're.. erm, Broken. Well, one ear is. So it spazzes every once in a while. Luckily I have my iPOD ones.

As for art! Like I've said before. Ideas, but no.. time? Actually, I have time. If I don't want to sleep that is... Schools exausting, and no matter how early I've gone to sleep the previous day I'm tired once I get home. And normally I take a nap in the middle of the day! This nap thing is done so much, that I even do it on weekends. ): I don't sleep all day though, but only a few hours enough to wipe most of what I'd use for arts out, and the time of the day I have left after my nap I'd most of the time have to use for homework. But HW never takes to long.

Not only that, but I have alot of dumb projects I have to do for school. Reading is the one I'm most worried about. I don't even know how to start, besides reading the book. But I'm on that, the project itself has me a bit confused.

Also! If you ever need me, it's best to leave me a comment on my current journal on here rather than try to get me on MSN. D: Because sometimes my computer shuts down due to power, or it dying off on me. Not only that, but MSN likes to crap me sometimes. Also, most of the time I'm not actually THERE. (Hence the constant "busy", or "away" status.) If my MSN ever says I'm online... It's most likely lying.

OH right, on the topic of my lacking of submissions, journals, comments. Etc. Best excuse I can come up with: I'm lazy.

It's the best excuse, because it's most true. I draw, doodle all over my school notebooks, even draw REALLY nice stuff on my hands that I'd actually put up-- If I weren't so lazy. (Shutup about the poisonous crap, I've heard it IRL over thirty times, I don't need to read it as well.) I'm to lazy to scan things, get them on the computer, take pictures of things.. Err, actually. I would take pictures of things.. If I had a camera? Lol.

Next journal is most likely to be a ranting! If it isn't, I pushed myself to write it. Like I did with this one.

Thanks for your time.</sub>

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<sub>A baby mouse snuck into the house, unfortunate for it, we have two cats. Which most of you who know me, know this already. Kouga, and Tiger. Anyway, the mouse is a baby, and it's UBER TINY. Probably alot smaller than my hand, but I'm not touching it--
Dunno where it's been.

At first I was scared, I don't know why, it's some tiny ass mouse, and plus it's SO cute, especially seeing my cats chase it around and hunt for it crazily. Normally I don't really see my cats do much rather than beat/play with eachother. But anyway...

Other than that, before I start complaining over things; I'll mention on what I have coming for arts.. which is...
Nothing. I'm seriously.. I don't know, dead. Lazy kind of dead, Dunno. Lol. I have ideas, and I'm going alot of sketches, and I've been trying to get things done such as wallpapers. My friend motivated me ALOT today, just hearing him say that the wallpaper I made ("Watching") was nice, and that there was chance that he'd use it. With motivation like that, I'll probably make a wallpaper after I write this, or later on. Normally I'm to stubborn to take a compliment, with him it's real different.

However, if I get any wallpapers done, I'd post things like I did with Watching, or I'll end up not putting any notice on DA at all, and just having them on SA.

I needa make somethin' blue to match my Theme anyway.

Now, about my usual whining. x]
I've been.. really, strangely... bored (That the right word? Bored seems kind of childish. lol) lately. And when I get this bored, even drawing, playing MS, talking on the phone doesn't make me any happy. I end up getting really depressed, and start to cry alot. Scaring myself. Oh well.</sub>

Almost forgot, Happy Thanksgiving, everybuddy. ^^ Hope ya'll have yourself a good one. (:
_{(To bad my dad won't be home for it due to work, or is that a good thing? Meh, he deserves to be home today.. or I'm convincing myself to think that at least.)}

C'ya. <3

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I haven't written a good journal, and I'm in a good mood, and pretty bored. So might as well. ^^

As can be seen, I'm drawing a little more now, Still a bit lazy on the scanning part. So it may be a while until there'll be any pencil works submitted. Til then, abstract, things done on tablet, writings. Yep.

I'm doing decent in school now, better than the last three years at least. I'm trying.. Blah, who am I kidding. I think no matter how hard I try, I keep failing everything! I'm passing every test, doing all my homeworks, and sometimes I still see F's!.. Oh, nevermind.. I actually haven't looked at my report card yet.. Or they.. Haven't really gotten in my own hands yet. That's it...

Anyway, If it matters to anyone. I miss Scott, and Stephan. Both are basically gone, and I only have an idea when Stephan will come back. ): I didn't think It would hurt this much to have him not around, I thought I could get along perfectly the month he wouldn't be around. But .. hell, I'm going slightly mad.

Anyway, If I don't get around to doing a journal by thanksgiving. Happy Thanksgiving, just in case. (:

I'm in a cuddly mood, so if you read this, leave a hug comment, Kk? (:

Thanks, see you later. ^^

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I'm sorry I haven't submitted anything. But I've been drawing alot, during school. I just.. don't really have the will to do anything anymore. Seriously.

I'm so tired of half of the world pushing me around, stepping on me. Where the hell is maturity anymore? I'm so.. fucking.. tired of everything.

Everyday, I'm losing all my friends. Today I lost two that I've known for over a year. They ended up calling me things and I just.. I just said "you know what.. Fuck it." and just.. deleted all contact I had from them. This wasn't the first time they pulled this sort of thing. I think my last straws were ripped from me.

Doing so, I have half of their friends harassing me about shit that isn't even their damn business. I hate it when people try to pry themselves into MY love life. I mean, what the hell? I don't even do that to them, or anyone.

I swear, I've really have had it with how people act, how the whole fucking world is. I really want to just.. get locked in a dark room, away from all the bastards, but I don't...

Always, I told myself that when I lose something, I always gain something else. And when wrong things have happened, I always sit and think of the good I've gained from it, and I always come up with something. But with all the friends I'm losing... I can't find any gain from this happenings. At least not yet. A fragment of what's pissing me off... But there's so much more in my mind that I don't want to say.

Sigh. I'll get around to submitting things, I'm just.. hitting a huge lazy rock. I'm not even playing video games as much now, or even working at school. I'm just lying around, doing nothing. I'm sorry, everyone.

(Oh yeah.. Happy late, late Halloween everyone.)

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I submitted stuff. Yay. And scanned stuff...

I'm tired, I feel weird, and somewhat unhappy.

Just thought I'd make a random useless journal, Scott hasn't really been around. I miss him alot. And I also like Stephan alot, because I suck like that. Thanks.

Lol, I don't know what's wrong with me, so really don't mind it. I'm kind of feeling hatred towards someone, but they can read my journal, so I can't say who.

My hands are cold, I'm going to sleep now. Bye. (:

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Sorry. I haven't submitted any arts, but the past four days I've barely been on, and otherwise my only excuse is school and laziness. All I've really been doing is drawing lately, and I do have some stuff that I'd like to submit. I'm just.. so lazy. I swear, I would've done it this weekend since it was basically a 5 day one, but I ended up getting hit with a mixture of a flu and stomach virus, which has now calmed down with the exception of my throat.

Now about my throat, if I don't recover by tomorrow morning, dad says he'd take me to the hospital. He thinks I need to get my tonsils removed (Which I wouldn't be surprised if.) x_x It sucks because yesterday I started to feel the sore-ness in my throat fade, and then I wake up today and I can barely drink anything, breathe or talk because it hurts.

Because of the way my throat is, it's hurting my ears, and back of my head. Which makes my neck feel weak, or my head feel heavy. Well, my throats mainly only hurting my left ear, my nose is stuffy, but that's actually normal.

I think I caught this from my sister, Rose. Because a few days before this hit me, she was just as sick, but only hers lasted a normal weekend. While mine lasted since wednesday, and is still sort of going on.

Okay, enough of that. I have no clue when I'll be submitting arts at all. I want to, but well... I'm really lazy, and other things turn up. ]:

And all I've been doing is complaining, Sorry about that too, but I'm not going to stop complaining. xD

Well, I'm done here, for now. Byes.

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I'm like.. really really sick. And the nurse at school said i might have to get my tonsils removed, and I've been sick for like, 4 days. And it hasn't really calmed down, just got worse. My stomachs hurting, and dad says I have a stomach virus, not only that but the medicine I took didn't help.

Ive been really fucking sick and stressed out, and I've been sleeping constantly, and when I am awake I'm laying down, or trying to type something.

I miss Scott, and I'm so pissed that I do. I haven't really had anyone around to tell me to feel better and be nice to me except Stephan, and Inu. But I want Scott. NOW. >< Wtf, It's not fair that I abrely get to see him at all, maybe once a week for 10 minutes, or something. It's so annoying.

I'm so pissed, I'm not gonna be doing any related arts. Also me being sick like this is going to ruin tomorrow NYC trip. Just what I wanted.. Sarcasm..

I'm sorry.

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I just.. wanted to say. That, I probably won't be around alot anymore. It's more like I choose not to be. I'm kind of more into school now, ironically, and I've made friends offline, and also I've been playing Maple.

I just wanted to say, before I may dissapear for a while, and only come back to comment sometimes. That missing Scott is tearing me apart right now. If it weren't for Stephan, Kyle, Steve and Ron I'd be insane. Kyle especially, for some reason he gives me some sort of different happiness, as the others, except for Steve sometimes give me guilt.

I'm just so stressed now, Schools been going great, but the person I really need is never around. Now my days are empty, and there's nothing to look forward to once the work is over. I feel like I'm dying inside, or something.

Well, I may journal once in a while, but as far as submitting goes... Don't know. I doubt I'll scan my comic, but I may. Whatever..

Well, bye.

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Hii. I'm kind of stressed out today, but I'm pushing myself to start drawing comics again. I have an idea for one, that I'm working on. If I feel good enough about it, I'd submit them eventually. I'm kind of busy on Maple, level 68 and going insane because I'm just two more levels away.

Sigh, love triangles... ;[

Well, Anyway, I think I have some sort of allergies or something, it's really messing up with my school, and such. Not only that but my Sewing teacher is a bitch, and I am definetly glad that being with her for this year is almost over. Speaking of almost over, my "time of the month" is. So I'm starting to feel less stressed, and moody -- hahha,,.

My headphones are messing up, One of the ears are dying. Surprisingly they've been going fine since. Which reminds me -- iPod headphones are pieces of shit.

Lately I've been extreamly inspired to write, which is what I've been doing mainly on what small free time I actually have. There's a huge doubt in which I'll submit those someday, but eh.

Well, I think that's all I have to ramble on about. I'm still on that "submitting hiatus" If anything visit my SheezyART, I may submit some crap to there. But again, I'm very busy with MS lately.

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Alot of cussing and whining ahead.


Chest pains. My chest hurts so fucking much. Augh. But my parents aren't going to believe me when I tell them. So there's no use bothering telling them. And it seems that they don't really care about me OBVIOUSLY constantly coughing and whining. So yeah...

But fuck, Everytime I fucking cough it hurts like hell. I took medicine, and am almost down to my second bag of cough drops. It hurts, god. ><

Seriously, the god I don't believe in fucking hates me. 'Cause I'm sick all weekend, and NOW It's my time of the month. Tomorrow I have gym and then I have to deal with the god damn cramps. If only this started on fucking friday or something so it would end by at least tuesday. But fucking... Not only that but I have something important for school tomorrow, which has to deal with having to deal with nosy annoying teachers, and talking to them.

Not only that, but I miss Scott ALOT, damnit. My mom has told me to stay away from my only other good friend, Stephan. So fuck...

Augh. I'm sorry, I'm just so fucking pissed off. I swear if It was legal or something I'd go rip off some dog's head with my bear hands. Grr...


I won't be making any arts for a while. I'm going on a long "submitting hiatus". Which means I'll still be drawing, just not submitting. I might to sheezyart, but DA has to wait. When I come back I might upload all the shit I've drawn whlie I was gone. But eh...

Ok, Bye. -_-

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Just thought I'd let you all know that my scanner is probably damaged, and if it is, there's no way I'll get another one. I'm just glad it wasn't my computer that got damaged.

If my scanner does work, I'll scan shit some other day. So fuckin' tired everyday, even weekends. Which is why I'm mainly sticking my ass into my chair, barely moving and either writing and doing pixel craps. Yeahh.

Lazy, oh well. ]]> ~ChaoticMiko http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/10082518/ http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/10082518/ Fri, 15 Sep 2006 16:29:22 PDT Current
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Friday.. And I'm sick, and have been since yesterday. I've had a fever all day, a runny nose, coughing. And crap. Half of my face hurts. My sisters won't stop yelling, and I've been trying to take a nap, but it just won't happen.

Hopefully I get well quick, Anyway... I'll.. eventually.. scan some shit. Mom rearanged the place, so I don't know if my scanner is plugged, or where my notebooks are. I'll look whenever I feel less lazy, yeahhhh...

Well, I'm lazy, I'm barely drawing thanks to school and MS... and well, yeah. That's all. Doubt I'd get anything uploaded aside for some pixel dolls, and / or writing.

I miss Scott... Okay, nothing more to say. I feel unhappy, MY SISTERS WON'T STFU. DAMNIT.

Okay, bye.

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Yeah, I know I'm a day early. But I just thought I'd make a journal now because I doubt I'd have the energy to do so after school.

Just wanted to say all the people who's lives were taken on 9/11, are in a better place now. However, Moment of silence for them tomorrow, Eh? They're watching over you and hoping for your safety and health, don't fail on them. (:

Thankyou for your time,
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I don't feel to well, Doubt I'll be uploading anything soon. To lazy.. I don't feel to well. And I'm kind of .. Unhappy, yes. And a bit confused, Schools worrying me, amongst other things.

Well, see you all another time. ]]> ~ChaoticMiko http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/9977176/ http://ChaoticMiko.deviantart.com/journal/9977176/ Tue, 05 Sep 2006 13:23:26 PDT Current
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Hello, everyone. Today was a really nice, calming day at School. I'm just, sore all over. It has been very dark all day, I'm talking 7PM dark, when it's currently,, exactly 4PM.

I've been drawing alot, I just haven't gathered to energy to scan them and possibly color them in Photoshop, Or even edit them slightly. Drawing mainly at school, Even doodled a few comics. However, I did scan some really, really old comics. I was looking for my very first comic that I had ever made, which was created when I was in 3RD grade but I haven't found that yet. It's probably in my Garage. However! I did find two comics that really made it far one is called Aous 99, Which is basically like Kikaider (Was that what it was called?) just with gender changes, and a slightly twist in stories. (This is the only work I have submitted anywhere that has anything to do with Aous 99. [link] Which was submitted on Nov 20, 2004.) And Angel Hunters, which I was planning to submit a bit ways back, But due to me not being proud of my artwork back then it never came on here. Instead I was planning on writing it. (See here, [link] , as of Jul 6, 2005) But I never got around to ever continue writing it, For some reason I can't see AH in text.

Hopefully in the near future I'd gather the energy to redraw both A99 and AH because I really found re-reading those the best. The stories were NO WHERE NEAR Original, Though Angel Hunters might. I just really like the character designs, and stuff.

Hmm, I plan to do more crap, I just am not sure that I'll ever get them done ever. So I won't bother telling you all.

Okay, away from that subject. I've been having major chest and back pains. I have a feeling it's the way I've been sleeping, as well as my sleeping hours. Even if I go to sleep at 9PM or something, I end up feeling extreamly tired around 5PM the following day after School. But at School I feel wide away. I really need to fix my sleeping pattern, Speaking of that. I noticed that if Scott isn't around all day that I end up falling asleep all of the day. But if he is... It gives me something to do instead of mope around about how much I miss him. Eh, Lol.

Yeah, I'm done rambling, C'yall later.

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